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Miku Expo 2024 Chicago review: loved the crowed. Loved cheering for the big Miku plushie before the show. Merch line was insane, didnât even try lol. Shout out to the guy who told us we actually had vip tickets. Beautiful cosplays everywhere
the screen broke immersion a bit, it felt they were dancing in the void instead of on stage. The band members were super buff and attractive and they looked like they were having the time of their life, ya love to see it
they gave my man Kaito two whole songs!! Hell yeah!! Hell yeah!! On that note I didnât recognize as many songs this time but thatâs because Iâm old and behind the times
I had a magic moment when the confetti cannons went off. Bucket list moment for me right there, Iâll carry that with me forever đđđ
All in all Iâd do that again and again but I wish theyâd bring the holograms back
#I feel one million miles away#Had a great time. Loved seeing Miku and everyone again#Childish war was amazing live#I gotta eat and showerrr
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DUDE- where are the good reference photos for this guy? I had to screenshot all of these off of YouTube (shout out to Gamer's Little Playground and Vileleviathan).
#there were like 2 other decent photos of this guy i searched up#underrated#shadow of mordor#shadow of war#olog hai#az harto#where's the love for my boy?#reference#reference photo#my screenshots#other people's videos#character study#why must he be shrouded in darkness or a million miles away?#i feel like paparazzi#'Az-harto can I please get a photo? Just one???'
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tee bee haych the way people online talk about asexuality & how society is So Focused on sex and they can never avoid it misses out on half the problem in a way that like, personally, as an ace person, just exacerbates it? sex in society is both everywhere and also soo censored and the thing that's helped me most isn't people going 'its okay to not want sex' but being in an environment where people talk openly about sex in all its forms & normalize it. like it and i dont so i feel alienated all the time because everyone's in this club that i'm not. whereas now im just like. sex is a thing that's important to culture and everyone has *a* relationship with it, and my relationship is that i dont want to do that. some people don't like going to parties. or sports. but it's like, all normal
#Definitely not articulating myself right but i feel like the ace & sometimes aro community#is so Separated from interaction with sex & sexuality that i always feel weirdly infantilized#like no actually me or any character in media being asexual doesnt mean you have to keep any sex or sexualization#one million miles away from them. we have complex and varied relationships to sex just like every other human being#or whatever
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My health really decided to fuck with me at the worst possible time. I donât have time for this nonsense. I have family to deal with, a birthday not to cry on, work, and more family bullshit. I need things to not be disaster and my body to get back in line.
#helena rants#this is incoherent#the cold was a false alarm (thank god)#but my yeast infection is not getting better#so I might have to call the emergency line to a doctor to get it checked out#I just feel unwell and stressed#itâs my birthday on Wednesday and iâm going to try not to cry for once#because Iâm lonely and have no friends except the ones of my phone who are a million miles away#ignore me Iâm sad
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Well just got a call this morning letting me know that my application was approved, so you're girl is officially moving (again đ) into her new apartment in three weeks!
Now to do all the other moving shit. Like hiring movers and buying boxes so I can pack all my shit up. Again.
God I hate moving so much đ
#Gotta hire actual movers for a multitude of reasons#The most important ofwhich being 1) the fact that i cannot drive a vehicle and i need to get my shit there somehow#And 2) i have no friends that do not live in my computer and thus millions of miles away#And i kinda sorta need at least one more person so i can do basic things like lifting couches lol#And the two people i would ask for help kinda sorta moved to calgary so yeah i got nobody lol#That being said i sorta am excited to have a place all to myself#I can finally take all my nerdy shit out of my bedroom where i keep it hidden so i dont bother people into the rest of the place#Meaning that im gonna havr dragon shit absolutely everywhere muhahshaha#Plus with my roomies having moved out officially almost a week ago this place feels too big now and its kinda lonely#I know my cat is lonely at least#He has *never* been this affectionate#Hes pretty much forcing himself into my lap purring for cuddles every time i sit down#Starting to think i might have to get anothet cat once i move put so he has some company for the like 10+ hours im not home almost everyday
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Can I just fucking say that during EDC my bf went to the bathroom at the Venetian when we got breakfast at Cafe Lux and this lady tried to traffic me while he was gone...... He bought a mimosa brekkie drink and while he was gone I drank the last of it while waiting for our waiter to bring me our takeout bags, and this lady came up to me and said "hey, let me pay for your food bc I have some credit to spend here right now or else it'll run out, let me pay for your food and let's hit the slots together before it expires" (I think she thought I was eating by myself and drunk) and I said "oooh no thank you tho, I'm waiting for my boyfriend to come back from the bathroom!" And she kept pressing so I pretended to be drunk and said "I've had a few drinks, can you wait until he gets back maybe? I don't want to make a decision after drinkin so much tee hee" and she left but stayed right in my peripheral vision watching me....
When he came back I told him and we walked out and she was kinda slinking thru the slots watching me and even HE admitted it too....
Can we just say that's strange? Not normal right??
#maya screams into the void#i am a SWer so i smelt that coming from a million miles away also i was never deluded that it was âfriendlyâ or innocent or anything#like... pressure? paying/making me owe her? a TIME LIMIT??#miss crackhead was trying to isolate me (thinking i was inebriated) and make me feel comfy w her and indebted#and probably wouldve got me somewhere quiet or into a car#can we just talk about hiw its weird??#i feel like no one is feeling the weight of it i was idk
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Was left with my thoughts for too long and reopened an old wound (of the brain variety) and I'm now so furious about the way I've been treated by others in my life that I can't sleep out of pure benign rage.
#bitching#I NEED TO SMASH A CHAIR OVER SOMEONE'S HEAD TO FEEL SOMETHING.#I DESERVE BETTER.#Why the hell have I always had to be the one who makes himself small for other people's sakes#what the HELL is wrong with me#I hate that because of fucking HPD I literally have the symptom of âeasy to manipulate#what kinda bullshit is THISSSS#I think the worst part is I know all the fucking tactics I can see a million miles away when someone is trying to twist my mind into what#ever fucking shape they want but I just can't stop it from happening.#anyways guys. I'm really cute and easy to manipulate and I somehow find love in being treated like an object; so who wants to lovebomb me<33#God I am so fucking sick of you why do you always let people do this to you
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WHEN BSF!CHRIS CAN'T KEEP HIS HANDS AND THOUGHTS OFF INEXPERIENCED!READER âËâč á°
Ëđđ warnings... grinding, smut, p in v, unprotected sex (don't do this!!), kissing Ëàż notes: i'd like to say beforehand this is a little further into their relationship! I'll add more background stuff later<33
chris was restless. he continued to toss and turn in your bed, finally settling on his side, one arm slung around you waist while gently tugging you closer to him, pressing your back flush against his chest while you were sleeping peacefully.
he tried to doze off, he really did. but sleep seemed like the furthest thing away when he laid there, listening to your soft breathing, as the only currently audible noise, feeling the way your chest rose and fell under his touch.
his mind was running a million miles an hour, and he couldnât get it to stop. it was dirty, wrong thoughtsâabout you. his best friend since.. well, for as long as he could remember. it had become something more usual, but this time he couldnât control it.
youâd always been attached to the hip, but never once had he thought about you like this. never had he wondered what youâd look like naked, vulnerable under him.. okay, maybe a few times, but never to this extent. you'd only gone as far as him showing you how to finger yourself properly, where he took over the job because he couldn't resist.
how would you react to his touch? would you reach for his hair? his arms? would you grab the sheets instead? what did your moan sound like?
the real question was why on earth he was having these dirty thoughts about you. you were the sweetest girl heâd ever laid his eyes on, so sweet it gave him a toothache whenever youâd innocently bat your eyes at him, begging him to go get ice cream with you.
gosh, make it stop, he thought to himself, groaning when he snaked his other hand down to try and ease his rock-hard cock, which only seemed to make it worse, hardening even more under his own touch.
he didnât know what to do, and only to worsen his panicked state, you started turning, his arm momentarily slipping from your waist when you faced him.
your eyes were thankfully still shut, lips in a soft pout from the pillow pushing them together. the sight didnât help either. nothing helped him ease his raging hard boner. you laid there, so pure, unknowing of his sinful thoughts while your peaceful, gentle look only made the tight restrain in his boxers worse.
sleep was out of reach by now, his hand desperately trying to relieve his aching cock with a groan by carefully rubbing his palm over the bulgeâbut then your eyes fluttered open. he stared down at you with widen eyes, almost in disbelief that heâd been caught somewhat rubbing himself through his pants, but you didnât seem to notice right away.
âare you okay?â your soft voice was heard. âyou seem restless..â yeah, his constant tossing and groaning woke you up, but not enough to fully comprehend the situation chris was in.
âi- i canât sleep. thatâs all,â he whispered back, blinking rapidly while your eyes scanned his face, roaming every feature you were so familiar with.
speculating about his somewhat unsure answer, your eyes made their way down his chest when he let another whine slip, noticing the way his palm pressed against his groin, and you immediately felt ten times more awake than you were before. heat rushed to your face, before your eyes met chris's desperate gaze.
âoh..â you quipped, suddenly hyper aware of every movement of his, every desperate groan youâd heard behind you just moments prior now making much more sense.
âp-please, just- just let me.. let me put it in,â chris pleaded miserably, letting his free hands knuckles brush over your reddening cheek, his touch gentle as ever.
âchris- no, we canât..â your answer only made his dick harden, though it seemed fucked up. you were so damn innocent, a prude even. youâd always avoided the topic of sex, not daring to go down that path ever. but he knew that when it came to him, you could bend the rules. âplease- iâll make it quick, iâll just put the tip in. it hurts so fucking bad,â
but something about the situation caused you to turn curious. chris begging for your touch, begging to let him do something about his hard erection, to touch you.
âokay..â attentively, you turned around to lay in your previous position on your side, chris's hand slipping from the front of his shorts, letting out a deep sigh of relief.
âthank you, thanks-Â thank you,â he babbled, his clammy hands making their way to the elastic waistband of your sleep shorts, slowly pushing them down your thighs, until they pooled around your ankles, that you continued to gently kick off.
âi promise iâll be careful, just the tip..â his breath fanned across your neck, making a soft gasp slip from your lips.
your eyes were wide open and lips parted when he hooked his hand under your thigh, gently lifting it to spread them apart, carefully placing your leg back down as if you were made of fragile porcelain.
âo-okay..â you spoke quietly, your breath hitching when his finger made contact with your panties, gently tugging them to the side. âalready so wet fâme..â his voice was husky against your ear, lips grazing the sensitive skin as his thumb slowly ran between your slick folds, a weak moan falling from your parted lips.
you were driving him insane, already dripping for him, and it only took a couple right touches and words. oh, how bad he wanted to keep showing you how to feel good, let alone be the first one to. he'd already gotten his fair share on that part.
youâve never been more nervous, but yet you felt safe with chris pressed so close up against you. it was chris after all, heâd never do anything to hurt you, plus, he was always so gentle with you whenever it came to stuff like this. your hands tugged the stuffed animal you usually slept with to your chest, nuzzling your nose into the neck of the teddy, the soft material under your fingertips easing your mind a little.
âiâll be gentle, angel.. no need to worry,â he whispered, one of his hands maneuvering his shorts down mid-thigh, along with his boxers, the other one gently running down the side of your face, tugging a few strands of hair behind your ear.
he wrapped his palm around his cock, fisting his cock with a lewd moan, before bringing the head of his cock to your entrance.
âiâll put it in now.. itâs just the tip, donât panic..â he mumbled, pressing a reassuring series of kisses to the side of your neck, feeling you nod. âgo- go ahead..â
those words was all he needed, gently smearing his sticky tip down your soaked folds, before pressing it forward, watching it disappear inside of you.
âholy- holy fuck..â he groaned between gritted teeth, his fingers gripping at your hip, a weak gasp elicited from your mouth. âoh, chris..â
your moan was silenced from the soft teddy in your arms, eyes fluttering shut at the slow intrusion, letting whines fall from your lips.
chris nearly lost his mind when he felt your walls squeeze around his tipâit took every fiber in his body not to stuff you full of his cock, not to completely ignore your previous, innocent words and start fucking into you.
âgosh- chris..â you whined, nails digging into the soft fur under your hands.
you could practically feel the desperation seep out of him from behind you, his throbbing dick just aching to be inside you.
âmâsorry angel, sorry.. i canât hold back, please say something-â chris's voice was strained with despair, his fingertips digging into your bare hip, smoothing his palm over your thigh.
âitâs- its okay..â you whispered, words somewhat muffled, but coherent. he was thankful almost, mumbling continuous praise and âthank youâ into your ear, smoothing his palms down your sides, under your top.
it sure was okay, he could tell. you were drooling around his tip, only making it easier to slide right inâwhich he did. holding tightly onto you, leaving kisses down your neck and back, he pushed his cock further inside of you, slowly.
âh-halfway, baby.. youâre doing so good,â he husked, his heart pounding in chest as he stilled his movements for a minute, allowing you to adjust.
you couldnât keep quiet, eyes rolling to the back of your head while they fell shut, biting down onto the plush toy to restrain the moans. yet, pornographic whimpers slipped from your gritted teeth from the painful yet delicious stretch, making chris's head turn to mush.
âfuck.. youâre so perfect,â he hissed, sinking his length in until he was fully sheathed inside your heat with a sigh of relief.
blubbered moans fell shamelessly from the both of your lips as he slowly rutted against you, a hint of pain striking through you as you adjusted to his size.
you knew it was wrong. so, so wrong. friends didnât do this, they really didnât. what was gonna happen after this? would you just go to bed and wake up just usually tomorrow, just treating it as a favor?
but even though, you never wanted it to stop. his soft touch, lips continuing their work on your lower neck, stuffing you full of his cock when he rolled his hips.
âdoes it hurt?â he purred, his hot breath mingling on your neck, making a slight shiver run down your spine.
ânoâŠÂ chris, it feels- feels good,â you breathlessly whimpered, gripping the plush animal between your arms as if your life depended on it, listening to the dirty squelching of your pussy, basically drooling onto the soft material between your lips.
he only nodded, feeling your walls flutter around his cock, clenching and squeezing the life out of him. your back arched just slightly when he hit a specific spot within you, moaning loudly into the stuffed toy.
ây-youâre doing so well.. so beautiful,â he cooed, the praise going straight to the pit in your tummy, feeling the tension tighten as your teeth nibbled on the soft plushie.
âoh-Â oh my god..â without any warning, the waves came crashing over you, your chest heaving while your grip loosened on the soft plushie in your arms.
âjesus christ,â he panted, his slow but rhythmic thrusts continuing, until he reached his climax as well.
âshit- iâm gonna come,â he barely got to say, before the ropes of white spilled inside of you, letting out a shaky breath at the release of tension. you felt limp in his hold, your face growing hot, and heart racing with lidded eyes.
âthank you, thank you angel,â his breath hitched as he slowly pulled out. his pink lips left repeated kisses to the side of your face, listening intently to your breath regulating gradually, the pants turning back to the soft breaths heâd been listening to just moments prior.
you let a small smile break, nuzzling your nose back into the teddy bear to hide your blushing face, as if your back wasnât turned to him. âitâs fineâŠâ
his fingers danced across your waist, making their way to your hip, giving it a gentle pat as a dazed smile settled onto his lips.
âcome on, pretty.. we gotta go pee,â
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only angel - ÊÉŽâŽ
the one where lando's best friend finally admits she's not the most experienced in the bedroom - and that's all it takes to flip their innocent dynamic.
part two | part three | part four | part five | part six | part seven | part eight | part nine | part ten
contains; fluff, soft dom!lando, nsfw, smut; clitoral stimulation, implied masturbation, implied squirting, praise kink, mentions of fingering; inexperienced!femoc, talks of loss of virginity, swearing.
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angelic rays of sunlight beamed in through the open windows of a monaco apartment, illuminating the body splayed out on the tangled white sheets of a large bed. it was summer, the air smelt of salt and ice cream, the clouds were nowhere to be seen, and the gentle breeze floated through the crisp air like a melody.
the softest of groans escaped her lips as she rolled away from the very thing that had woken her, and in her slightly hungover state, she had failed to notice how close she was to the edge of her moderately high bed.
thud!
"fuck," lily groaned, laying on the floor in a puddle of last night's carelessly discarded clothes.
footsteps echoed around the apartment, sounding like they were getting closer but she couldn't tell if it was just her throbbing head making things up. lily took a moment to glance downward, feeling a little cold at the loss of her duvet. she was wearing a bra - ew, why had she slept in a bra? - and her underwear was still on, albeit a little lower than what would be considered modest.
she gently pulled them up and managed to drag herself to her feet, and of course, this is when her door swung open. there he was - the reason for her hungover state - in all his glory, looking too good for this time in the morning.
"i heard a bang, are you okay?" lando asked, tilting his head at the girl, who looked a little dishevelled and very tired.
"fell out of bed." she murmured. "i hate you."
"how is it my fault that you fell out of bed?" he retorted, scrunching his face up in the same way he always did.
"because you got me drunk, and now i'm hungover, you twat." she huffed, picking up the clothes on the floor and tossing them into her laundry basket, not bothered by her lack of clothing in front of him.
"oh, get over yourself." lando rolled his eyes with a playful grin.
her response was a grumpy middle finger and she shooed him out of her bedroom, mumbling something about a beauty sleep and how men are so annoying - so lando just left her to it.
in all honesty, his mind had been running at a million miles an hour all morning - reeling from something lily had so casually mentioned last night.
"hey, i'm not a slut!" she slurred, in the cutest way possible.
a joking comment had been made by one of her closest friends, alexandra, about how her dress was a little slutty, and in all honesty it was. alex knew she could say these things to lily because well, they had been best friends before lily even knew who lando was... so a long time.
"if anything, i'm the opposite of a slut." lily giggled softly, leaning back into lando, his arm was draped over her shoulders. "harry and i never had sex anyway and-"
before she could elaborate, their friends returned with the next round of drinks, and the topic of conversation switched rapidly.
surely not.
harry and lily had dated for five years, from when she was sixteen, until she was twenty-one. their relationship was great, until new years' eve of twenty-nineteen came around. lily was well aware that harry was growing impatient with her. harry wanted sex, lily didn't feel she was ready yet. it's not that she felt pressured, but that she wanted to please him, so here she was. to cut a long and slightly traumatic story short, lily had gotten scared as harry was unzipping his jeans - and literally ran away.
somehow, the couple didn't break up for another two years - but the real reason behind that was that once harry realised he wasn't going to be - in his words - 'hitting it' any time soon, he found release in the grasp of some girl he went to college with in maranello. he cheated on lily for two years, and she didn't suspect a thing until he came to visit her after the covid lockdown.
they'd gone out for lunch, and harry had let it slip that he'd had to buy plan b pills recently - and well, that was the end of that.
now, it was news to lando that she and harry hadn't ever gotten intimate with each other - and well, he knew she hadn't brought anyone back to their apartment in time they'd been living together, but surely she'd been getting laid elsewhere.
it would make sense in some ways though. he always noticed how she'd flush a pretty pink colour when ever his hand lingered on her waist, how she'd look undoubtedly flustered whenever his gaze was trained on her, and how she'd become increasingly uncomfortable when a sex scene played in a movie they were watching.
surely not though, right?
lando's dangerous train of thought was interrupted by the soft thudding of footsteps travelling to his ears. his head snapped up to the girl rubbing her eyes, stood groggily behind the couch he was sat on.
"i thought you were having your beauty sleep?" lando teased, raising his eyebrows at the brunette girl, now dressed in the quadrant rugby shirt he had exclusively gifted her in january.
"couldn't sleep, my head hurts too bad." she mumbled, rolling her eyes at his teasing comment. "why do i let you get me drunk?"
"because you love me, duh." he responded, somewhat sassily, making a quiet laugh tumble from her lips.
"whatever, norris." she breathed out, walking over to the kitchen and grabbing some aspirin out of the cupboard below the sink.
she downed two pills along with a cold glass of water, wincing as she felt the cold liquid travel down to her stomach. lando's gaze was lingering, like it usually did - the way her throat bobbed as she swallowed, the way she squeezed her eyes shut and clenched her jaw as the pills were taken down in her pretty mouth - she was just so... enticing.
"come here." lando beckoned softly, gesturing for her to come lay with him. "you can nap here if you want."
"please." she groaned softly, plopping down on the couch next to me and immediately resting her head on his lap.
he noticed the goosebumps rippling across her skin, wondering whether he was causing them, or it was because she was cold. he went with the latter, and pulled the wool blanket on the armrest over her body.
"thankyou." lily murmured, reaching up for his hand to hold, innocently craving some physical touch.
he gently entwined their fingers, caressing her hand with his large thumb. within about three or four minutes, lily had drifted off into a sweet slumber, snuggling into lando's warmth.
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it had been driving lando quite literally insane all day.
he didn't have the courage to straight up ask her if she was a virgin or not, so here he was, dancing around the question like a fucking tap dancer.
"so you and harry?" lando said quietly, almost praying that she wouldn't hear him.
her head snapped up from her phone, eyebrows knitted together in a confused frown. "yes?"
"well, i mean you never really told about why he's made you not want to date anyone." lando shrugged, his tone seeming a little apprehensive, not wanting to strike a nerve. "like i know he cheated on you, but was that the only thing?"
"um..." she pursed her lips, a little gobsmacked that he was even bringing up the subject of harry, a typically sore topic for her - but she answered nonetheless. "he always pushed me for sex, and... i wasn't ready back then."
"he didn't... did he?" the pause in lando's words made it clear what he meant.
"oh god, no, nothing like that, don't worry." lily shook her head quickly. "but we were like so close to doing it once, and i got scared - then he kind of just... never tried again."
"oh." oh? ask her the question, dumbass. "so... you didn't lose your virginity to him then?"
"no," the brunette shook her head softly.
"when did you lose it then?" lando said quickly, the words falling from his mouth before he even registered the question.
lily went what only can be described as crimson. it's not that she was embarrassed - well, actually she was. lily thought it was a bad thing - she was a literal model, and at the grand age of twenty-three, she still hadn't lost her v-card.
she hesitated, before murmuring, "i- uh... i haven't."
"oh." do you really not have anything better to say, dipshit?
"yeah." she pursed her lips once more, averting her gaze to an inanimate object somewhere in the room.
"do you want to?" lando himself now had no idea where this was going, he was kind of just rolling with whatever fell out of his mouth now.
"of course i do." she huffed. "it's just... i don't want to lose it to some random guy i meet on raya or some shit. and i feel like it's going to put people off, like they're going to think something is wrong with me."
a soft frown made its way onto lando's face, and he shook his head.
"nothing is wrong with you, lily." the brit reassured her. "don't ever think that there's something wrong with you because you weren't ready for sex when someone pushed you for it."
she fell quiet, taking in his words gratefully, looking down at her hands in her lap.
"anyway, i'd rather have some experience before i launch myself into dating again." she admitted, glancing up at lando to gage his reaction - she wasn't really sure what she was suggesting, but she wanted to see what lando thought of it. "but i just... don't know where to get said experience."
lando contemplated, trying to decide whether he should just offer himself up on a platter or not. in all honesty, the thought of her dating anyone else made him feel physically nauseous, let alone the new knowledge that she'd be letting someone else be her first - that made him want to die in a puddle of his own tears.
"well..." he began, his words trailing off. "i could always um... help you out."
she slowly lifted her head up, looking at him with a dazed expression, not sure if she'd heard him right. "what?"
"i wouldn't mind uh.. helping you gain some experience." lando repeated, a little more confident from seeing the dazed look in her eyes. "teach you what us guys like, teach you what you like."
lily blinked at her best friend, furrowing her eyebrows. "really?"
"if you'd be up for it, yeah." he nodded, leaning back against the couch a little more. "and we'd go slow, promise. we can take it at whatever pace you'd like, sweetheart."
the way he called her 'sweetheart' made her inner thighs tingle and heat pool in her lower tummy. she simply nodded, too in shock from this agreement they'd just made - was she really going to fuck her best friend in the somewhat near future?
"words, come on." he said slowly, gesturing for her to come to him on the other side of the couch.
"yeah, yeah." she breathed out, getting up and walking to him. "i want that."
"sit." he patted his lap, and she just stared, doe-eyed.
he chuckled softly, leaning up and grabbing her hips, pulling her down on his lap so she was straddling him, her face now at a level height with him.
"is this okay?" he murmured softly, pushing her hair behind her shoulder, mapping out all the places he wanted to kiss her.
"yeah," she breathed out. "i'll tell you if it's not."
"atta' girl." he praised softly, and could have whined at his words.
okay, so lando hadn't even touched her and he'd already discovered she had a praise kink - a good start.
instead of whining, her breath hitched and her cheeks flushed once again, earning a soft smirk from lando as he traced his index finger over her jawline.
"can i kiss you, pretty girl?" lando asked softly, now cupping her jaw with one hand, and drawing circles on her tummy with the other.
it's like her whole world stopped, that sentence was like music to her ears.
"yeah." she breathed out, eyes flicking over the drop-dead gorgeous features on his tanned face.
usually, lando was a sucker for rough sex, fast and hard. but, while he knew he had to be gentle with her - something else about her just made him want to treat her like glass. he wanted her to fall apart in his arms, but in the most loving and delicate way possible.
so, he leant in, his head a little tilted, briefly brushing their noses together before softly connecting their lips. her breath hitched and he could feel her body melting into his, the delicious weight of her feather-light body deepening into his lap. and that wasn't the only thing changing in his lap.
his cock was hard, painfully hard already. he was pathetic, he had literally only just kissed the girl and he was about ready to cum in his boxers.
the kisses were soft and delicate, tongue involved but it wasn't like he was about to devour her whole. he gently pried her legs apart a little further with his free hand, the one previously tracing circles onto her abdomen.
the most angelic of moans left her lips, and she seemed a little shocked, the movement of her lips faltering briefly. he opened his eyes, tilting her head back with the hand on her jaw, beginning his toe-curling attack on her neck. he nipped at the sensitive skin gently, soothing the area with his lips shortly after - repeating those actions had her a wet mess in his lap within minutes.
she was whining, whimpering, pleading with him to just do something, anything, everything.
lily's pretty pink lips were parted as soft, airy moans tumbled from her lips, her head still tilted back as he peppered kisses across all the right spots. his fingers were toying at the edge of her underwear in between her legs, relishing in the dampness coating his fingertips - she was soaked, the warm liquid coating the crease of her inner thighs.
he pulled his head away from her neck briefly, gazing at her for permission, earning a needy yes from the angel on top of him.
"wanna hear you, okay?" he told her gently, knowing that as this was her first time, she'd be more likely to hold back her pretty noises.
she nodded, biting her lower lip as her breathing turned a little more rapid and a little more shallow.
"good girl." he praised once more, and the heat rolled up her body once more.
lando slid his fingers underneath her panties, bunching them and pushing them to the side. her hips jolted a little as his knuckles brushed over her dripping folds, and he could have groaned at how sensitive the girl was.
"relax." he murmured softly, flicking his stare back up at her face.
he slid his index finger in between her folds, coating his thick fingers with her sweet juices. his jaw fell a little agape as he gaged just how wet she was.
"fucking hell," he murmured, but it fell on deaf ears, lily too focused on relaxing - her lower lip pulled between her teeth and her eyes fluttered closed.
he slid his ring finger beside his index, parting her folds and dragging his middle finger up and down her sensitive cunt.
the urge to just slip his fingers inside of her and make her cum until she couldn't speak was almost irresistible, almost.
he let her get used to the feeling, before switching his singular middle finger for the pad of his thumb, which he pressed directly against her clit.
"fuuuuck-" she moaned out, eyebrows arching as she tossed her head back. "so good- shit-"
lando just admired her as he slowly traced circles and figures of eights on her sensitive bundle of nerves - the most needy moans now falling from her lips frequently, the volume increasing in tandem with the speed of his thumb.
he increased the pressure and she doubled over into his body, pressing her head into his shoulder and biting down on his skin gently - earning a soft noise from him.
"lando- god-" she whined, moaning out his name like a fucking prayer.
he rubbed her back soothingly with his free hand, while increasing the speed of his thumb once more. her entire body was buzzing, bubbling with anticipation of the rapidly incoming orgasm. her lower abdomen was coiled tight, ready to snap at any moment now.
one particularly rough flick of her clit sent her spiralling, her thighs beginning to shake softly around him as she came, hard. sweet liquid gushed all over his hand as she moaned and whimpered his name loudly, coating his fingers as he slowed his movements to coax her through her intense orgasm. it was pure fucking bliss.
lily panted slowly into his neck, her head reeling from the best thing she'd ever felt in her entire life.
"you okay, baby?" lando asked quietly, pressing a soft kiss to her neck.
"fucking hell." she breathed out. "yeah, i'm good, so good."
he chuckled softly, looking at the seemingly-spent girl in his arms. he didn't want to push her any further today, she looked like she was going to fall asleep right there and then.
"come on, let's get you to bed." lando cooed softly, lifting her up from the couch and walking lily to her bedroom.
fuck, he was going to need a cold shower after that.
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THE CONTRACTED HEART â Rafe Cameron (01)
MASTERLIST | Basketball Player & Model!Female Reader
Summary: Rafe Cameron, a basketball star, needs a marriage to fix his image, while Model!Reader needs one for citizenship. They may be the perfect solution for each other.
Warnings: smut, descriptions of violence, jealousy, usage of drugs, talks about body image/ed, angst, and lots of bickering. Reader is confident, a people-pleaser, has a traumatic past, and is a sunshine with an attitude. Rafe is a whore, possessive, cocky, and secretive about his past.
Word Count: 4.2k
Aliyah's Notes: this is my first series on here so go easy on me (#adele) pls + some things are not going to be obx canon ... at least some of yall are warned. anyw im so excited for this cause lord knows the amount of time ive wanted to make a fake dating fic!!!!!!! anyw i hope you all will enjoy this i had so much writing the first chapter
The clatter of high heels against the marble floor echoed in perfect sync with the ticking of your watch. Every step was deliberate, poisedâjust like your life had to be. Perfection, it seemed, was not a choice but a requirement for survival.
You adjusted your sunglasses, your gaze skimming over the glamorous expanse of the fashion agency's lobby. People buzzed around you like bees in a hive, their worlds spinning, fueled by the weight of names, status, and flawless images. You smiled politely at the receptionist, offering a nod, though your mind was miles away.
To the outside world, your life was golden. The covers of magazines, the invitations to high-society events, the million-dollar deals with luxury brandsâit was a fantasy that others could only dream of. It was your dream some time ago, too.Â
But today, your reality felt like walking on the edge of a tightrope, the safety net fraying below you.
Your phone vibrated in your purse, interrupting your thoughts. You fished it out, your pulse quickening when you saw the text from your lawyer. Three words that sent a chill through your carefully constructed façade.
"We need to talk."
Your heart sank. The issue of your visa had been hanging over your head like a storm cloud for months now, growing darker by the day. Youâd known this was coming, but knowing and confronting it were two different beasts.
Fame didnât shield you from the cold bureaucracy of citizenship laws, and your time was running out. One misstep, one delay, and your golden empire could crumble. In a matter of months, you could be deported, left behind by the very country that had built you up.
With a deep breath, you silenced your phone and slid it back into your purse. This wasnât something you could dwell on right now, not in public. Your expression remained serene, even though your mind was anything but. You had a shoot in an hour, a charity gala that evening, and at some point, you had to meet with the lawyer to discuss "options"âa word that had started to feel more like a trap than a solution.
As you exited the building, the cool breeze caught your hair, the city unfolding before you like a glittering stage. New York City. You looked out at the streets, the people, the life you fought so hard to build. The car pulled up to the curb, and you climbed inside. On your way to your lawyer.
You stepped into the law office, the familiar scent of polished wood and stale coffee wrapping around you like a tight band.
"Ms. Y/L/N, good afternoon," Nicolas Ramirez, your lawyer, greeted you, standing behind his desk. His expression was composed, but you knew him well enough by now to spot the unease in his eyes.
"Hi," you softly smiled at him. Your heels clicked softly on the floor as you sat down, crossing your legs tightly, as if holding yourself together. "Letâs just get straight to it, okay? How bad is it?"
Nico sighed, adjusting his glasses. "Your visa expires in less than three months."
You felt your stomach twist, your worst fear inching closer to reality. You swallowed hard, trying to keep your voice steady. "And what about the appeals? The extensions?"
"Weâve exhausted every possible optionâwork visas, artist visas, even humanitarian grounds. Immigration laws are tightening, and without a permanent solution like citizenship or residency, youâll be forced to leave the country."
"Leave?" Your voice was barely a whisper, but it carried the full weight of the nightmare youâd been living with.Â
Leave? Go back there?
The country you had fought so hard to escape. The country where your childhood had been marked by suffocating poverty, where your parents had already planned your marriage before you even turned 15. Where your dreams had been a distant, impossible hope until that one person changed your life forever.
You felt your throat tighten. You couldnât go back.
Nicoâs gaze softened slightly, his voice gentle but firm. "I know what this means for you. I know how difficultâ"
"You donât know," you cut him off, your voice sharper than you intended. "You⊠You donât knowâI canât go back there, Nico. I just⊠I canât."
He nodded, giving you a moment of silence to compose yourself, but the pressure in your chest only grew. You took a deep breath, trying to keep the panic at bay.
"So what now?" you asked, fighting to keep your voice steady. "Is this it? Am I out of options?"
"Well⊠Thereâs one option we havenât explored yet." his tone was cautious, like he knew what he was about to say would open a new can of worms.
You furrowed your brow. "What?"
"Marriage."
The word hung in the air, thick and heavy. You blinked, unable to comprehend at first. "Marriage?" you repeated, as if saying it aloud would make the absurdity of it clear.
"Itâs one of the few legal paths left," he explained, leaning forward slightly. "Marriage to a U.S. citizen could secure your green card and, eventually, permanent residency. Itâs a legitimate routeâmany people in similar situations have done it."
You sat back in your chair, the tension in your body coiling tighter. The thought of marriage, of attaching yourself to someone you barely knew for the sake of staying in the country, made your skin crawl. You had already sacrificed so much for your freedom, for your career. And now this?
"Youâre telling me the only way to stay here is to marry someone I donât even love? Just to avoid being sent back to a country I donât belong in anymore?"
"Not necessarily," Nicolas said, his tone measured. "It wouldnât have to be a traditional marriage. Think of it as a business arrangement. Itâs a legal partnershipânothing more. And it could save your career, your life here."
You crossed your arms tightly, your mind racing. Marriage. It was a word that had haunted you ever since your parents had tried to force you into it as a teenager. Back then, it was their way of controlling you, of keeping you bound to a life you didnât want. Now, it felt like the universe was throwing the same chains back at you, just in a different form.
"Iâve compiled a list of potential candidates," Arjun continued, sliding a piece of paper across the desk toward you. "People who might be open to an arrangement like this. Athletes, businesspeopleâindividuals who might benefit from a similar deal."
You glanced at the paper but didnât pick it up. The names blurred in front of your eyes. This wasnât how your life was supposed to go. Youâd already lost your family, fought tooth and nail to get out of your country and build something for yourself in the U.S. And now you were at risk of losing everythingâagain.
"I donât know if I can do this, Nico," you said quietly, shaking your head. "Iâve already sacrificed so much. My family⊠I gave up everything to be here. And now youâre telling me I have to give up even more?"
"Iâm not telling you that you have to do anything," he replied, his voice calm but firm. "Iâm saying this is an option. One that could keep you here, legally. But the decision is yours. Iâm just laying out the possibilities."
You swallowed the familiar knot of anxiety tightening in your chest.Â
"I canât go back there," you whispered, more to yourself than to him. "Iâve worked too hard to get here. I canât lose everything."
He nodded slowly. "Then maybe itâs time to consider unconventional options."
You finally picked up the paper, scanning the names but not really seeing them. Your heart was racing, your mind spinning with a thousand thoughts. Marriage. It felt like a trap, just like it had back then. But maybeâjust maybeâit was the only way to keep your future intact.
"Iâll think about it," you said, standing up and smoothing the front of your dress. "But Iâm not making any promises."
"Of course," he said, standing as well. "Just let me know. Weâre running out of time, but Iâll support whatever decision you make."
You nodded curtly, turning toward the door. As you stepped out into the cool city air, your chest tightened with the weight of everything you stood to lose. The lights of New York City flickered ahead of you, just out of reach, as though the life youâd built here could vanish at any moment.
And for the first time in a long time, you felt truly afraid.
Your phone buzzed, dragging you out of your spiraling thoughts. You fished it out of your purse, heart skipping a beat when you saw the name: Nina. Your agent.
With a shaky exhale, you answered. âNina, hi.â
âHey, babe!â Ninaâs voice was all cheer, a stark contrast to the storm inside you. âSo, I have amazing news! Guess who just got major campaign offers coming in? You! Chanel, Loewe, and oh my God, donât even get me started on Louis Vuitton. The year starts beautifully for you!â
You shouldâve felt ecstatic, but instead, the words passed over you like an echo. All you could think of was the countdown Nico had set in motion: three months. Three months before everything youâd built here would be taken away from you.Â
âThatâs⊠amazing, Nina,â you managed, trying to muster some enthusiasm. âReally amazing. Thank you so much.â
âAre you okay? You donât sound like your sunshine-self.â Ninaâs voice softened, concern creeping in. âWhatâs going on?â
There was a pause. Nina had been there through all your ups and downs, from your rookie days as a model to your rise in the industry. But the immigration issues, the fear of being sent back to a life you couldnât return toâthat was something neither of you could control.Â
âThree months?â she repeated, her voice going higher. âOh my Godâwhat the fuck? I thought⊠I thought you had more time.â
âSo did I.â You swallowed the lump in your throat. âNina, I donât know what to do. Iâve called Nico and he tried everythingâextensions, appealsâbut the laws are tightening, and he said thereâs only one real option left.â
There was a brief silence before she asked, âWhat option?â
You bit your lip. âMarriage. Nico says I could marry someone for a green card.â
âMarriage?â Ninaâs voice came out in a shocked squeak. âLike a fake marriage? Babe, are you serious?â
âI donât know!â you burst out, frustration and fear colliding. âI donât know what to do! I canât go back there. I canât. My parents⊠My parents already wrote me off as dead, and if I go back, Iâm stuck in a place I spent my entire life trying to escape.â
Her voice softened. âI know, honey, I know⊠Iâm sorry. I didnât mean to soundâGod, I canât imagine how scary this is for you.â
You took a shaky breath, grateful for her understanding. Nina wasnât just your managerâshe was one of the few people who you actually close to. She was a 34 years old American-Filipina woman. You trusted her with your life.Â
âOkay,â Nina said, her voice more focused now. âOkay, now listen. Weâll figure this out. I know Nicolas wouldnât suggest something like this unless it was a real option. Do you trust him?â
You sighed. âYeah. I do. But the idea of marrying someone just to stay⊠it feels like another version of what my parents wanted for me. Like Iâm back in that same time of my life.â
âI get it. But this isnât like that. Youâre in control this time,â Nina said. âIf this is what you need to stay here, itâs not about love or being owned by someone.â
You nodded to yourself, trying to absorb her words. âWell, um, Nico gave me a list of potential candidatesâpeople who might be willing to make an arrangement. Youâll never guess whoâs on it, though.â
âWho? Shawn Mendes? Harry Styles? Tom Hollandââ
âRafe Cameron,â you said, cutting her off. âThe basketball playââ
âYeah, I know who that man is, Y/N. His reputation is a total mess right now. Itâs not surprising for him to be on that list.â
âExactly,â you muttered. âItâs a perfect business arrangement for him, too. He needs a way to look respectable again, and I need to stay in the country.â
âSo, youâre actually considering this?â
You leaned against a streetlamp, staring at the city around you. âI donât know. Maybe? It just feels wrong. Like Iâm giving up a part of myself.â
âAs nicely as this can be said, you are being dramatic here, babe.â Nina sighed softly. âLook, Iâm not going to push you either way, okay? But I do think you need to look at it from a different angle. Youâre not giving up on yourself. Youâre doing what you need to do to stay here, to keep fighting for your career and your future. And Rafeâor whoever youâll end up marryingâis not your parents. Heâs not going to control you or heâll get slapped.â
You closed your eyes, trying to let her words sink in. She was rightâyou were in control now. This wasnât the same as being forced into a marriage you didnât want. This was about survival. About keeping your life in the U.S. intact.
"Yeah⊠I guess youâre right," you said softly, feeling some of the tension release from your shoulders. "I just need time to think."
TWO WEEKS LATER.
The soft glow of the late afternoon sun filtered through the curtains, casting warm light across your living room. After two relentless weeks of back-to-back fashion shoots, campaign meetings, and gala appearances, you had finally found a moment of peace. You curled up on the plush sofa, sinking into its embrace as the hum of the city outside became a distant murmur. The oversized, loose pajamas you wore were a far cry from the designer gowns and couture youâd been draped in recently, but they were yoursâsoft, comforting, and familiar. Your hair was twisted into a lazy bun under a satin bonnet.
You exhaled a sigh of relief, finally feeling the weight of exhaustion slip from your shoulders as you closed your eyes.
Buzz. Buzz.
The sound of your phone vibrating on the coffee table pulled you from the calm. You groaned softly, reaching for it with one hand, expecting to see another notification about a meeting or event. Instead, it was a message from Nicolas.
âAny thoughts on who you're going to marry? We need to move quickly if we want to ensure everything goes through in time.â
The familiar weight of the situation youâd been trying to avoid crept back into your chest. Two weeks had passed since your lawyer had first laid out the reality of your visa situation. In those weeks, you'd thrown yourself into work, hoping the constant flurry of activity would drown out the anxiety. But now, in the quiet of your home, the decision loomed large again.
You typed back, hesitating for a moment before hitting send.
"I havenât decided yet."
A few seconds later, the reply came through.
"We need to discuss this in person. Can you come to my office today?"
You frowned, your eyes darting around the cozy room, not quite ready to leave your home.
"How about you come here instead?" you typed. "Itâs been a long week, and Iâd rather talk in private."
There was a pause before the three dots appeared, and then the message followed.
"Sure. Iâll be there in about an hour."
You put your phone down and leaned back against the cushions, staring at the ceiling. This wasnât a conversation you wanted to have, but it was necessary. Time was running out, and you knew you had to face itâwhether you wanted to or not.
An hour passed in a blur, and soon enough, you heard the knock at your door. You padded across the room in your socks, your oversized pajama pants swishing softly as you walked. Opening the door, you found Nicolas standing there, looking as composed as ever in his tailored suit.
âCome in,â you said with a smile, stepping aside to let him in.
Nicolas entered, his eyes scanning the room before they landed on you. "You look... relaxed."
You gave a soft chuckle, gesturing to your pajamas. âDonât mock the pjâs until youâve tried them.â
He smiled slightly, but there was a hint of emergency in his expression as he took a seat in the armchair across from you. âI know youâve had a lot on your plate lately, but we really need to make a decision.â
You nodded, sitting back down on the couch, hugging a pillow to your chest. âI know⊠Iâve just been avoiding it.â
âAnd I noticed,â he said, pulling out a folder from his briefcase. âBut with the visa expiration approaching, we donât have much time. We need to find someoneâsomeone who understands the situation and wonât make things harder.â
You bit your lip, holding a smile, glancing at the folder in his hands. âYou bought the list?â
He nodded, and handed it over, and you flipped through the names, recognizing some immediately. Athletes, businessmen, even a couple of actors/singers. And then there was Rafe Cameron, his name standing out like a bold headline.
âIâve looked at these,â you said quietly. âI just⊠I donât know who to choose. None of âem feel right.â
Nico leaned forward. âIt's not about right or wrong. Itâs about who can offer the least amount of personal complications and help you secure your residency. Rafe Cameron, for instanceâheâs someone who could benefit from this arrangement as much as you. His reputation needs mending, and this could be a mutually beneficial situation.â
You stared at Rafeâs name, the memories of seeing his name in the news about how much of a womanizer he was⊠Could you really tie yourself to someone like him in a fake marriage?
âAlright, but I need you to help me decide,â you admitted, looking up at him.
He nodded, his expression understanding. âOf course, thatâs why Iâm here. Letâs break it down together and figure out who makes the most sense, not just legally but for your peace of mind.â
Nicolas opened his briefcase again, pulling out more detailed files on the potential candidates. He laid them out neatly on the coffee table, each name with a stack of informationâfinancial records, personal histories, public perceptions. It was all very businesslike.
You leaned forward, looking at the pages in front of you. Each one represented a major decision, a shift in your life you werenât entirely ready to accept, but you knew you didnât have much of a choice.
âLetâs start with the most practical options,â he said, sliding the file on Rafe Cameron toward you. âI know his name has come up before. Heâs wealthy, influential, and⊠well, letâs be honest, he could use a boost to his public image right now. Itâs a good match on paper.â
You stared at Rafeâs name again, tapping the edge of the file with your finger. âYeah, but heâs also a bit of a mess, isnât he? I mean, the media paints him as this⊠whore, and his personal life is always talked about. What if that blows back on me?â
Nicolas raised a brow. âThatâs something to consider, but you also have to think of the benefits. His public image might not be very clean, but heâs powerful. Marrying him would put you in a stable position, and if itâs a business arrangement, his private affairs donât have to concern you.â
You exhaled slowly, still feeling uneasy. Rafe Cameron was trouble, and you knew it. But at the same time, trouble might be exactly what could make this workâfor both of you.
âWhat about the others?â you asked, flipping through the files. âThere has to be someone whoâs⊠less complicated.â
âWell,â he said, tapping another file. âthereâs Owen Turner. Heâs a succesful tech entrepeneur, keeps a low profile. No scandals, no messy reputation. Heâs reliable, but youâll have to approach this differently. Heâs more private, less likely to want his personal life on display.â
âAnd boringâplus, he seems like the type of white guy to want a traditional wife. Like he would expect me to cook for him every night⊠and he has an ugly name.â
âOwen wonât be expecting home-cooked meals, Y/N. Heâs a tech guy; he probably lives on energy drinks and instant ramen,â Nico pointed out, trying to steer you back to the serious topic. âBut if we position it as a legal arrangement, he could see the value in it.â
You sighed, leaning back on the chair. âOkay, maybe Owen is the safer options. But can you imagine our wedding announcement? âSuccesful Tech Entrepeneur Married Famous Model: They Share a Love for Cats and Instant Noodle.ââ
Nico shook his head, trying not to smile. âFocus, please. This is a serious matter.â
âRight, right, sorryâŠâ you said, wavering your hand dismissively. âBut, what do you think about Rafe?â
âRafe Cameron is the most straightforward option,â he said, his tone now more measured. âHeâs already in the public eye, which means there wonât be as much of a shock if youâre suddenly married. Plus, his need for good press aligns with your need for stability.â
âAnd personally?â
He smiled softly, a rare gesture from him. âPersonally, I think you should go with the person you think you can manage.â
You nodded, appreciating his honesty. Staring at the stack of papers in front of you, Rafe Cameronâs name glaring up at you from the top of the list. Every name on the list had its pros and cons, but something about Rafeâs file felt different. Maybe it was the intensity of his media coverage, the scandals, or the way he dominated the headlines for all the wrong reasons. But as much as you hesitated, his name kept pulling you back.
âI know his reputation isn't spotless,â Nico said, sensing your hesitation, âbut in this situation, a clean reputation isnât the priority. You need someone powerful, someone with enough influence to make this arrangement stick without getting tangled up in emotional complications.â
You nodded, again.âBut I donât know if I can handle all the baggage that comes with Rafe Cameron. His public image is a trainwreck. Wouldnât that only complicate things more?â
Nico leaned back in his chair, looking thoughtful. âPossibly. But think of it this way: his personal life is already so chaotic that a stable, respectable marriage might be exactly what he needs to repair his image. And thatâs where you come in. Youâd be helping each other.â
Your eyes dropped back down to his file. "Do you think he'd even agree to something like this?"
Nico chuckled softly. âIf thereâs one thing I know about men like Rafe Cameron, itâs that they understand deals. His reputation is hanging by a thread, and a marriage to someone like youâsomeone with a pristine public imageâcould be the ticket to restoring his credibility. Itâs a win-win, really.â
You considered Nicoâs words. He was right. Rafe had everything to gain from a marriage of convenience, just like you. And while his scandals were messy, they didnât define him entirely. He was still an elite athlete, one of the best in the game, and with the right PR strategy, you could both come out looking better.
But the thought of marrying someone like himâa notorious playboy with a history of messy breakupsâmade your stomach churn.Â
âYou know,â Nico continued, âif this were just about your visa, weâd be having a different conversation. But this is about your entire future. Your career, your freedom to stay here, everything youâve built. Iâm not saying itâs an easy choice, but itâs one worth considering.â
You sighed, the weight of the decision pressing down on you. "What happens if it falls apart? What if things with Rafe go wrong?"
"Thatâs why weâll draft a contract," Nico reassured you. "This wonât be a traditional marriage, Y/N. Youâll both have clear boundaries, and legally, weâll protect your interests. If things go south, youâll be covered."
You stared at the file a little longer, then closed your eyes.Rafe Cameron. He was cocky, possessive, and recklessâeverything you usually avoided. But maybe that was the key. You wouldnât have to worry about him trying to control you or make this anything more than a business transaction.
It would be messy. It would be complicated. But it would also keep you here, in the country youâd fought so hard to call home. And maybe, just maybe, it would be the solution you both needed.
âOkay,â you said softly, your decision finally settling. âIâll do it.â
Nicoâs eyebrows shot up, a little surprised at how quickly youâd made up your mind. âYouâre sure?â
âNo,â you admitted with a weak smile. âBut I think this is the best option. Iâll marry Rafe Cameron.â
Nico nodded, closing the folder with a satisfied smile. âGood. Iâll set up a meeting with him. Weâll get the ball rolling.â
Oh God, you were going to marry Rafe CameronâŠ
chapter two
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I believe Nanami has always been a gentleman.
Due to the climate that exists, it can be hard to assume the best of people, knowing this, its not impossible to understand that in your time being a classmate of the man, you had previously been led you to figure the opposite of Nanami Kento.
Of course, you simply could not avoid the blatant roll of eyes when Nanami would bend down to retrieve a fallen pencil for his female classmate. Or when he would place an intentional hand on firm objects to protect from the possibility of future harm. And it would be remiss to not add that you had seen the men in your shared classes sigh anytime Nanami would defend a predominantly feminist sentiment in classroom discussions.
By no fault of your own, you had started to believe the masses that would perpetuate the rumor of his âwhite knight" status.
This assumption that Nanami was simply trying to get into a girls pants. By being kind and gentle with them, and by being a patient, learned, listener.
This idea all came to a front one day while you were on the train ride home.
Overfilled and uncomfortable, you had never felt so unsafe on your commute home than you had in that moment.
Call it hyper vigilance, but you had the intuition to locate a problem before it occurred. And even before the man, now plastered to your side, had weaseled his way into your proximity, you could smell the poor intentions from a mile away.
Fear sprung through you as you felt his body press against your own, you had a million thoughts flood your brain.
Should you shout at him? Make a scene? Would he accuse you of overreacting? Or perhaps you should simply try to move⊠but where to? You felt so terribly trapped that you couldnât withhold the gasp that left you at the sudden ripping loss of his unwanted touch.
A commanding voice, unafraid of accusation, rang through the train car.
âWhat the hell do you think youâre doing?!â
You recognized the tall blond man immediately. He was in your ethics and rhetoric classes, and was notorious for being a real gentleman.
The typical assumption was, that this was for his own personal gain.
And, of course, being nice and being kind are not the same. He, to your knowledge, was being nice, instead of the latter.
Back to the moment at hand though, Nanamiâs grasp never faltered on the perpetrators wrist, in fact, your classmate seemed to tighten his fist.
âI said. What the hell. Do you think. Youâre doing.â
Real anger resounded from his tone. And every negative emotion from the situation seemed to echo in your brain.
Time passed slowly, all too slowly, and yet, before you could really understand the situation, you had ushered yourself onto your platform after your transport had come to a stop. And somehow, your classmate was staring down at you, asking if you were alright.
âIâm fine.â You force out.
You shouldnât have to feel grateful nothing worse happened, you shouldnât feel glad you werenât physically harmed.
âIâm sorry. This must have been awfulâŠâ Nanami runs a hand through his hair and in that moment, all of your vitriol forces itself onto him as he finishes, âMay I walk you home?â
Fury at his character, at this act, at everything that had happened today boiled the words out of your mouth, âOh, for heaven sake, Iâm not going to fuck you.â
âW-what?â
To his credit, he looks properly appalled. Stepping a wide margin away from you.
âIâm-Iâm sorry, no.â He stutters, clears his throat, âthatâs not what I- of course not-â
And he looks genuine in his fear at the thought.
âRight.â You sigh, âWell, thanks for all that, but I need to get home.â
He seems to wage a war within himself, to offer to bring you home, or to leave this be.
After a moment of consideration, he decides on the latter of the options. Solely because he knows now that you must not think of him as a trustworthy or safe individual. And rather than angry at this thought, he is sad. Worried about your past, and determined to be a safe option for you.
âPlease get home safe.â And later you will wonder how he remembered you when recalling how he spoke out your name before saying, âI really am sorry, about all of this.â
You had walked home that night jumpy and cold.
â
It wouldnât take but a week for you to begin questioning his intentions again after you watch your classmate deliver bagged lunches for the homeless outside of campus when he thought nobody was around.
When you had witnessed his genuine argument with another âone of the brosâ after disagreeing with them in class.
And when you saw him offer to tutor any and all classmates that felt they might need a little help.
And while you were analyzing his motives, he started to develop his understanding of where you were coming from- eventually deciding that his goal would be to prove to you that he never had any ill will, and instead, cares for you as a human. Not for what you could offer him.
You donât know yet, but he always has been a gentleman.
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Overwhelmed With Love : ÌÌâ Lando Norris
summary: having family at the race is always fun, but bringing your baby girl to the paddock too excites lando like never before
âCover your eyes!â You shouted out to Lando, holding your daughter close to your side as she covered her mouth, muffling her laughter.
âHurry up,â Lando chuckled, bouncing on his toes as he waited for you two to appear. You opened the door to Landoâs driverâs room, checking his eyes were closed before walking in, shushing your daughter as her eyes lit up at the sight of her father.
You counted down from three before Lando moved his hands, opening up his eyes. A gasp escaped from him as his daughter smiled back, dressed in a perfectly sized papaya race suit.
âWe thought weâd get something, just in case people didnât know who we were cheering for,â you laughed as Lando stood up, opening his arms up and taking your daughter into them. He leaned across and pressed a kiss to the top of your head before studying his baby girl closely, admiring how beautiful she looked.
It was one of those rare occasions where Lando was speechless; you could tell from watching him his breath had been taken. He always loved seeing you in papaya, but seeing his little girl was something else.
âYou look beautiful,â he cooed pressing several kisses against the top of your daughterâs head. She squirmed in his hold as Lando showered her with affection. âI really am the luckiest man in the world.â
After a few moments Lando walked over to you too, snaking his arm around your waist. He nodded in your direction, taking note of the papaya shirt that you wore too.
âI donât even know what to say,â he admitted, his heart racing a million miles an hour as he looked between the two of you.
âWe thought weâd surprise you,â you mused, brushing a hand through his messy hair. âDo you remember all those years ago when you told me this was a dream of yours?â
âOf course, I just never imagined that it would actually come true,â Lando whispered, finding himself overcome with emotion, âmaybe I always hoped it would come true, but I never thought that it would feel as good as this.â
You gave Lando a moment as he tried his best to compose himself, having to remind himself that there was still a race to win this weekend, despite already feeling like heâd won the world having you and your daughter there to cheer him on all weekend.
âI love you,â Lando whispered, handing your daughter back across to you, âand I love you as well little lady,â he added, kissing your daughter once again.
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Throughout the day you found yourself swarmed by friends, family, photographers, and random people around the paddock who wanted to compliment your daughter. She always generated quite the crowd obsessing over her, but dressed in her papaya, she had certainly found a new audience.
And Lando was keen to fuss over the two of you as much as he possibly could too. He was desperate to take your daughter around the media pen with him, but you quickly intervened, reminding him how chaotic it could be sometimes.
But watching your daughter with his closest friends meant the most to Lando. Daniel especially seemed to have captured your daughterâs heart, she was constantly messing with the curls in his hair whilst he tickled her sides dressed in orange again and again.
When the race came around, Lando didnât want to leave. He found the two of you the perfect space to be able to watch the race, for his dad to keep an eye on you, and to give him easy access back to you as soon as the race was over. You insisted time and time again for Lando not to fuss, but he never listened to you.
The moment the race was done, Lando was before you. He was sweaty, tired, but it was all worth it to see the wide grin on your daughterâs face. He took hold of her straight away, kissing against your lips before being beckoned over. Landoâs advisors reminded him that the media pen waited, his eyes hopefully looking at you. You pondered for a moment before nodding, trusting that Lando would be able to take your daughter and keep her safe with him.
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âLando, as much as Iâd love to talk about your race, we canât ignore your biggest fan,â Natalie grinned, reaching across and poking your daughterâs tummy. âIt must feel incredible to be able to have your family here with you for todayâs race.â
âI love my job, and I love my family and being able to marry the two together is a dream for me right now,â Lando smiled in reply, bouncing your daughter gently. âI had no idea this little one was going to be dressed in papaya today, I always insisted that she would definitely rock the colour, but I had no clue that she would look as good as this. She was definitely my lucky charm, thatâs why Iâve ended up in P2 today.â
âI know from speaking to your lovely partner that they try to get out to as many races as possible to watch you and cheer you on, are you possibly trying to give us a future world champion? Youâve got to be giving her some tips whilst sheâs here, right?â Natalie then asked, watching Lando gush about his family once again.
âSheâs only two, Iâm not sure about future world champion yet, although I wouldnât say no one day,â Lando chuckled, continually glancing at your daughter to check on her. âJust having them here though and knowing that theyâre safe is most important as far as Iâm concerned. I love being able to get out of my car and immediately just see my family waiting to give me the biggest cuddle in the world.â
âIâm sure that youâve got plenty of fun things to be getting up to now that race weekend is over, so I wonât keep you any longer,â Natalie smiled as she brought the interview to a close. âHave a great evening,â she noted, tickling your daughter one final time before seeing Lando and your little girl off to the next interview.
âI donât know why your mummy was ever so worried to bring you here, this is the easy bit,â Lando whispered to her as they walked around. âI think I might be more worried that if you get spoilt anymore, youâre going to end up loving your Uncle Carlos and your Uncle Oscar much more than you love your daddy.â
Truthfully, you knew you never had anything to worry about, Lando would go to the end of the world for your little girl before he let anything happen to her. He loved being able to show her off, listen to people gush about her knowing that she was all his. Every time she was at the paddock it brought a tear to his eye, it was everything that he had ever wanted from the moment the two of you first found out that you were expecting.
Heâd spent years having his family cheer him on, encourage him when he was down and celebrate those highs with him too. And now that he had his own little one to do all of that with too, Lando couldnât wait for the future with your little girl, to help her chase her dreams and fill her with an overwhelming amount of love too.
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hellooo, your writing is amazing so far i love it đ«¶đŒ
Could you do one for Hobie x fem reader, where the reader is friends with SpiderPunk AND Hobie. But she doesnât know theyâre the same person. And one day lovergirl rants about her fat ah crush on Hobie to him??
First off, thank you for enjoining my writing, I try my best with what working brain cells I have left đ€Ł
Ooh I love this idea very much! But I might make it a two parter cuz I defiantly went off requestâŠoopsâŠ
Part 2
You were just minding your business, chilling on the roof top of an abandoned apartment complex, mind a million miles elsewhere on a certain somebody when a flash of red and blue caught your eye and before you knew it; you company of one had became a company of two.
âHeya Spidey, how are things?â You greeted.
He shrugs, âthe usual but what about you lil missis,â he playfully nudges you, âhead so far off into the clouds Iâm actually feeling a little neglected over here.â You laughed, shoving him away by his arm. âOh come off it, will you? I just been thinking about this guy Iâve liked for a while now.â You admitted and Hobieâs interest was immediately peaked.
For as long as he knew you, Hobie could barely remember the last time you had ever admitted to him in fancying someone, besides from a couple of incidences from way back that ended up backfiring; but other then that, you kinda made it a point not to talk about it, maybe in due to him thinking that whoever you did fancy at the time werenât worth the effort youâd give had you perused them. You had often called him overprotective whenever you tell him about your crush of the week but Hobie would defend himself by saying he was merely looking out for you and didnât want you getting hurt by some douchebag.
âYou donât have to defend me from everything Hobie,â you once told him as you were patching him up from beating the breaks off of your last crush because they were chatting shit about you behind your back, âwhilst as sweet as it is but you canât always be there to look out for me.â
âWatch me.â He replied, his view remaining completely unchanged. You sighed, knowing that once Hobieâs mind was made up, nothing you nor anyone else could do to change that. He was an akin to that of an immovable object when it came to his beliefs and views and it was amongst the many things you adored and admired about him most.
âOh yeah? And whoâs the lucky guy?â He asked casually leaning back on his arms, watching as you brought your knees close to your chest before resting your chin upon them as your eyes gaze out at nothing in particular; something Hobie noticed you often do when you were particularly in your feelings and needed something to hold onto and ground yourself before you became adrift in your own sea of emotions. It was cute to see you tucked in on yourself so tightly that he couldnât be more thankful for the fact that you couldnât see how dopey he mustâve looked beneath his mask.
âHobie. Hobie Brown.â
He blinked twice, nah, he mustâve heard that wrong, surely, his hearing must be going all scewiff.
âHobie Brown.â He said his own name as though it was the first time he was ever saying it. Upon seeing the way your shoulders drop and your body becoming at ease upon hearing his name, along with the way you smiled gently and how your eyes seemed to beam with newfound light which all had only helped In affirming to Hobie that he did indeed hear you the first time. âWhat is it about the guy thatâs got you all up in knots?â He asked, trying to act as though you didnât just indirectly admitted that youâve got a crush on him to him.
âWhere do I start.â You started, unable to fight against your own feelings that were swelling up within your chest when an image of Hobie appeared in the forefront of your mind, he was sat on your bed, eyes closed as he allowed himself to get lost within his guitar rifts, his calloused fingers expertly transitioned from chord to chord as it were muscle memory. âHeâs just so cool and awesome and so forthright and opinionated in his views and beliefs that heâs not afraid to back down from a fight should it come down to it.â You tell him with a sense of fondness in your voice.
Hobie was quick to notice how your hand fiddle with one of the many handmade pins heâs made you that you always paired up with any and every outfit you ever wore, even if they styles did clash but you didnât seem to care; Whatever the reason for you reaching for the pins were, whether itâd be out of a need to feel out the closest thing you had in regards to him or it was just something you did out of habit, made Hobie warm within his chest that soon spread throughout his body. âSounds like me and this Hobie guy are more alike then I originally thought.â
Your fingers stopped their fiddling and you suddenly looked at him as though you were just now realising something with the way your eyes bore into him, Hobie thought that you mightâve developed the ability to see through the mask that withheld his identity and into him, so much so that he couldnât help but make a comment on it, âstare at me any harder sweetheart and your stare might burn right through my mask.â You mustâve been deep into your thinking as you didnât seem to have noticed that he had spoken at all and Hobie was starting to think that he mightâve been too relaxed with you as Spider-Man that you might have started to have it pieced together in your mind; after all you were smart, more so then what you give yourself credit for.
âNow that youâve mentioned it you and Hobie do share some of the same attributes and habits, Iâm also pretty sure your similar height wise and even though your mask muffled your voice, it fills me with a sense of familiarity that itâs hard for me to put a finger on.â You said as you leaned closer to him until you were partially merely a breath away from each other. Hobie didnât know he was holding in a breath until you shrugged âbut I could just be grasping at a straws, so I wonât dwell on it as much.â and moved away from him back to your previous position.
As much as he wouldâve loved to have you figure out his identity on your own terms. Hobie would prefer it best if he were the one to reveal himself to you but the moments where he wanted to never felt right and he didnât want to you in danger by doing so, but he knew that thereâd come a time where he would be greeted with a choice in wether to tell you the truth as to who he was or continue living like he has currently and potentially loose your trust because of his lack of transparency; Hobie couldnât bear to think of loosing your trust but just as he has always done since becoming your friend, he was merely looking out for you and for your safety as they were always his top priorities.
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DESCRIBING THE MOON SIGNS
some of these are based on the people Iâve met, so you may not resonate with some of it. there are also probably other aspects in your birth chart that say otherwise, so please read this with a grain of salt.
âšïž aries moon - such people have a subtle yet sharp look, often with a prominent feature like a wide forehead or a generally strong build. their fiery emotions are written all over their face, and you can spot their short fuse from a mile away. theyâre not the type to bottle things up; itâs more like they need to let it out, erupting like a volcano. these folks are impulsive, prone to sudden outbursts, but surprisingly, they donât hold onto grudgesâthey move on as fast as they flare up. they tend to have mood swings, being all emotional one minute and totally chill the next. thereâs this childlike energy about themâthey get hyped up easily and are full of passion. but just like kids, they can be pretty immature when it comes to handling their feelings. when they were young, they might have fought a lot due to their impatient nature and tendency to react quickly and get frustrated, but they eventually grow out of it. i know some aries moon peeps who get physical when they canât calm down like throwing stuff, kicking around, or yelling and screaming to let out that frustration.
đ„ taurus moon - theyâre really laid-back to be around, always giving off a calming vibe. picture doe eyes and soft, prominent cheek, kind of like a bambi. these individuals are typically grounded and donât easily get irritated, but they know when to assert their boundaries. they prefer doing their own thing and steer clear of drama. however, they can be quite stubborn and once theyâre fixated on something, itâs hard to sway them. emotions tend to linger with them for a long time because they manage them steadily and slowly. one thing about them: they despise being rushed. like typical taureans, they take their time with things and enjoy a slower pace. when they feel emotionally unsettled, they seek comfort, even if itâs not always the healthiest option, it helps them escape. they thrive in cozy, gentle environments, feeling most at ease when theyâre at home. quite possessive people and can come across as controlling at times, especially with those they like; they tend to be fond of physical touch.
đŁïž gemini moon - they have really expressive eyes that light up when something catches their interest. always cracking jokes and endlessly curious, theyâre a blast to be around. a bit scattered sometimes, but theyâre great at keeping a conversation going. sharp as a tack, they might seem like a clown sometimes, but theyâre actually deep thinkers. they are prone to mood swings; their minds are constantly buzzing with a million thoughts, which also impacts their mood. however, they donât really express or dwell on these emotions much because their minds are wrapped up in their interests, which can make them come across as emotionally closed off. at other times, they tend to rationalize their emotions rather than genuinely feeling them. these people get extremely bored easily, constantly needing mental stimulation. hence, they have a need to always ask questions, to know everything and understand how things work, in order to keep their minds busy. they could be the type who has trouble sleeping because their minds wonât quiet down, and the same goes for their mouth.
đŠ cancer moon - very emotionally receptive, they can easily read and understand others just as much as they crave understanding for their own feelings. they feel things deeply and take it all to heart, often needing space to process. naturally nurturing, they care very deeply and want it to be acknowledged. they might be the one looking out for their siblings or the âmomâ figure in their friend circle. when upset, they can be passive-aggressive, but most of the time, they keep their pain to themselves. their heightened sensitivity makes them get hurt more easily than others, which is why they sometimes come off as defensive. these people have a hard time moving on from the past and like to reminisce a lot. they remember every single thing, the good and the bad stuff people did to them, and when theyâre not feeling right, they tend to hold onto grudges.
âïž leo moon - they are all about expressing themselves creatively, typically through singing and/or dancing. they are incredibly generous and always there for the people they cherish. however, iâve noticed they can struggle with self-esteem, leading them to seek validation and acceptance. they have fragile egos and are extremely sensitive to criticism, often feeling challenged in their accomplishments or goals, even when thatâs not the case. when they feel validated, they bring good vibes, filling up the room with warm, loving, and super enthusiastic energyâthatâs just how they give back. they are prone to dramatic displays of emotions, often without realizing it, due to their naturally expressive and fierce nature. iâve also noticed that they tend to talk a lot about themselves and may unintentionally interrupt or overlap in other peopleâs conversations. this can make them appear conceited, but they are just really eager to share a lot about themselves.
đ virgo moon - theyâre super helpful, sometimes a bit too much, and very responsible. itâs like they think no one else is gonna sort stuff out, so they always step up as the âfixerâ even when itâs not really their problem. theyâre just really big on analyzing everything to get to the bottom of things. they can often seem all critical and constantly nitpicking, but really, itâs their way of helping you improve and showing they care. they notice every tiny detail, and if somethingâs off, it bugs them big timeâtotal perfectionists. theyâre pretty hard on themselves, likely due to early expectations and responsibilities weighing on them. they worry a ton, even about the small stuff, sometimes to an unhealthy level of obsession. they need a lot of alone time to process these thoughts, as theyâre highly sensitive to their surroundings, which doesnât quite help with their anxious tendencies. they can be self-conscious and prefer to keep their emotions in check, often analyzing their surroundings to gauge if itâs safe enough to express how they feel.
đ§ libra moon - these people are easy to hang out withâchill, laid-back, and down-to-earth. they prefer to keep things peaceful, so they can be somewhat passive and struggle to say no because they dislike upsetting people, which heavily impacts how they feel about themselves. confrontations arenât their thing either, and setting boundaries isnât their strong suit. they value fairness, detest any kind of injustice, and adhere to their morals. theyâre open-minded, always looking at things from different angles, which makes people feel comfortable talking to them about anything. (they are also great listeners). they can be overly concerned about how they appear as they have a strong need to feel âprettyâ and liked. when decisions need to be made, theyâre very indecisive and tend to let their friends choose for them. they dislike aggression and are put off by unnecessary meanness, as they themselves keep their less pleasant emotions in control without necessarily suppressing them. most people iâve met with this have good facial harmony and are pleasing to look at.
đŠ scorpio moon - they might not seem like theyâre paying attention, but believe me, theyâre tuned in. youâll be amazed by the random stuff they pick up just from quietly observing things and people. sometimes they donât even have to actively watch; they just get it with one look, seeing through the facade because they operate similarly, like hiding behind that secretive and mysterious wall that they cling onto. they have zero tolerance for dishonesty, and the ones iâve met with this are extremely blunt. nothing gets past them; they can sniff out lies or insincerity from a mile away. like all water signs, theyâre super sensitive but get triggered easily. oh, and they can hold a grudge forever. theyâll remember what you did to them five years ago and still think you havenât changed. they might seem chill on the outside, but inside, thereâs a whirlwind of intense emotions that can erupt suddenly. they probably struggle with talking about their feelings and, with their secretive nature, youâll never really know whatâs going on with them.
đ sagittarius moon - adventurous folks who are always down for a good time, even if it gets them into trouble. they find optimism and humor in everything, so itâs pretty easy to lighten up their mood. theyâre strong-willed and passionate about their feelings, not holding back when they speak their mind. sometimes they crack jokes at the wrong time or in a way that might offendâitâs just their impulsive nature. despite that, theyâre incredibly cheerful and goofy, always ready to laugh and spread their enthusiastic energy. sometimes they can come off as âknow-it-allsâ without trying to be arrogant; theyâre just super into their optimistic wisdom. many of them may have travelled a lot growing up or just liked to wander outside instead of staying indoorsâthe type who were always out exploring the city. they dislike uptight, dependent people; they need someone who can loosen up and loves freedom as much as they do. being tied down in any way is their worst nightmare, so good luck trying to control them.
đŒ capricorn moon - these people can keep their cool even in tough situations. theyâre not into big emotional displays and often come off as closed off or shy. it takes them a while to open up because they donât think itâs necessary. although they are not unemotional; in fact, they care and love very deeply but are more private about it. they probably grew up in a household where showing emotions was restricted, or they had to grow up fast due to responsibilities. they might also have a hard time showing vulnerability and are super protective of themselves. theyâre incredibly self-reliant and independent and sometimes feel guilty about asking for help. they give the best advice, but donât count on it to cheer you up because theyâre all about logic and practicality. sometimes, they keep their problems to themselves because they donât like feeling like a burden to anyone, or they simply feel like no one cares.
đ aquarius moon - constantly feeling misunderstood, they feel like people talk more than they know. are humanitarian, but at the same time, they hate people. they are highly observant and can naturally grasp peopleâs minds and behaviors. they cherish their independence and personal space, which means they donât do well with clingy people. consequently, they keep most people, including friends, at armâs length. these people are pretty good at hiding their emotions. they arenât likely to be very grand in expressing how they feel, which is why they can sometimes come across as detached. at times, they just process their emotions differently. i see them as being more rational and logical in their approach. also, they may find it challenging or uneasy to cope with deep feelings of vulnerability. very super accepting of people because theyâve been there themselvesâbeing the odd one out. intelligent people can sometimes be very stubborn and think they are always right.
đ pisces moon - they are very empathetic and compassionate, making them great listeners. however, they often feel emotionally overwhelmed because they easily absorb other peopleâs pains and problems. sometimes, they struggle to understand and express their own emotions due to their impressionable nature. highly sensitive to their surroundings, they pick up on every subtle detail that others often miss, which can be overwhelming. they also find themselves easily drained in busy environments, constantly absorbing the emotions and energies around them. therefore, they require ample downtime in peaceful, quiet settings to recharge. they can feel like their needs get ignored and that they end up giving way more than they get back. one thing about them, though, is they tend to be very passive to the point where they can easily be taken advantage of, which is something they need to work on to build more assertion. the people iâve met with this moon were exceptionally talented, whether in art, writing, or any other form of expression.
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Biological Sleep Aide! (Laios x reader)
aka the sub virgin laios blowjob fic that i have spent an atrocious amount of time on...
MINORS DNI
WC: 5.9k
CONTENTS: NSFW, laios being a d1 yapper, blowjobs, sub laios, inexperienced + virgin laios, a few moments of insecure laios, CANON COMPLIANT SOFT TUMMY LAIOS!!!, party member readr with an unspecified class, gn reader with experience, reader's genitalia not described, soft dom reader, sex with so so many feelings, soft intimacy, pining, lots of setup/plot, gratuitous foreplay, nipple play, visceral imagery of giving head, explicit consent, laios is so down bad itâs embarrassing, semi-ambiguous ending
if this gets enough attention i'll publish a sequel <3
You werenât quite sure what woke you up; perhaps a sound from down the hall, or a change in the temperature of the air, or Senshiâs foghorn snoring. Either way, you fluttered your eyes awake, blinking at the crumbling gray stone of the dungeonâs ceiling.
You pulled yourself up from your bedroll, sighing but being careful to not make any noise. You let your eyes adjust to the low light and the faint glow of the magic fire Marcille had set up before you went to bed. Internally, you did a head count, and it seemed that everyone was deep in slumber. Senshi, Marcille, ChilchuckâŠ.
Your breath caught, eyes stopping at the sight of Laoisâ empty bedroll. It was mussed, so he had definitely settled in earlier, but the man himself was nowhere in sight.
You cocked your head, leaning against your hand in thought. Should you be worried? No, he was probably just gone to use the bathroom. Itâd be kind of weird if you walked in on him mid-piss. And if that did happen, you couldnât decide whether Laios would be mortified beyond comprehension or concerningly underwhelmed.
The corners of your mouth quirked up as you thought about the groupâs sweetâif not a bit oddâleader.
Okay. Iâll wait a few more minutes, and if he isnât back, Iâll take a walk around, you decided. The last thing youâd want is to have Laios in some sort of trouble with no one to help out.
So, you sat there and waited, growing more awake by the minute. Still no Laios.Â
After what seemed like a reasonable amount of time, you pulled yourself up from your bedroll and crept past your sleeping party members, careful to not disturb them. You peeked into a few of the empty rooms near where youâd set up campânothing. It wasnât until you got to the cavern with the underground pond that you found him.
Laiosâ back was to you, his form barely illuminated by the blue glow of the water. He was bereft of his heavy plated armor, clothed only in his threadbear linen sleepwear. You couldnât see his face, but he was eerily still as he sat cross-legged on the edge of the pool, and you just knew he was staring into it with his mind a million miles away. For such a large man, when he was all curled up like that, he looked remarkably small.
âCouldnât sleep, eh?â
He startled and whipped around at your words, but immediately relaxed upon seeing it was you. His eyes wandered back to the water, but he didnât turn away from you.Â
âYeah. I guess you could say that,â he murmured.
You took a step forward. âMind if I join you?â
â...Please.â
You eased yourself down to sit down right next to him as you now both faced the pond. Your eyes were on him, and his eyes were still on the water and far, far away. His irises were usually a pretty, soft honey yellow (which you definitely didnât think about every time you made eye contact), but his pupils were blown wide with the low light, and the only color you could see was tinted turquoise by the underground pondâs light.Â
You gently nudged his shoulder with your own, which seemed to pull him back to reality for a second.Â
âHow long have you been up?â You asked.
He tilted his head in thought. âProbably like⊠an hour? By now, at least.â
âAn hour?â Your eyes widened and you shook your head. âJeez, if Senshi finds out our fearless leader isnât getting his proper rest, youâll be the next meal.â
Laios snorted and cracked a smile, but it didnât meet his eyes.
You leaned in even further to him. âDonât worry, I wonât tell. Promise.â
âThanks.â
You sat there like that for a moment, in comfortable silence before you spoke up again: âWhatâs on your mind?â
He shrugged. âI dunno. A lot of stuff, I guess. Falin, mostly. But then thereâs, yâknow, everything else, what weâre gonna do moving forwardâŠ.â He shook his head and curled in on himself. âI want to lead us to success, but sometimes itâs justâŠâ
âA lot?â You finished his sentence where he trailed off, and he nodded.Â
âYeah. Pretty much.âÂ
âWell,â you leaned back, âI, for one, think youâre doing a wonderful job. We didnât exactly get dealt a winning hand. Youâre doing great with what you have.â
He seemed to genuinely smile at your words, and his eyes went soft. âThanks. ThatâŠ. Really does mean a lot. Coming from you, especially.â
âOh, please,â you scoffed. âAny fool could cast a few spells and throw a few knives. Iâm nothing special.â
âThatâs not true!â He blurted out. He seemed surprised by his own outburst, and reeled himself back in. âI mean, youâre, like, super cool. And powerful! You have all of these different skills combined into one, like⊠Like a basilisk! But, like, a nice one that doesnât try to kill us.â
You snorted. âWow, and here I thought I was at least manticore level.â
âThat too! Really, any chimera-type monster could applyâŠ,â he began rambling on about the different types of chimeras and how they mix their various abilities together, and you just sat and listened, smiling softly. After he had winded himself from his monster-talk, the two of you fell back into a comfortable silence.
âFeeling sleepy yet?â You asked.
Laios shrugged, laying his chin on his hands. âNo more than I was an hour ago.â
You chewed your bottom lip, furrowing your brows in thought. Should you say this? âWellâŠ,â you started. âYâknow what always helps me get to sleep after a stressful day?â
He perked up, looking at you with wide, innocent eyes. âWhat?â
âAn orgasm.â
Laios blinked at you. Once. Twice. Then his face went beet red and he whipped his head around to avoid eye contact with you, choking on air. You barked out a laugh.
âWhat? Iâm being serious,â you continued between giggles. âOrgasms are clinically proven to help you sleep better.â
You couldnât see his face from him being turned away, but the tips of his ears were bright red. âWell, yeah, I guess that makes sense, butâŠâ
âCâmon,â you crooned. âWeâre both adults here, Laios. Thereâs no shame. Be honest, when was the last time you masturbated?â
He thought for a moment, scratching his head. He still wouldnât look at you. âUm⊠Probably back I was on the surfaceâŠ?â
âA whole week ago?âÂ
âNo, before that,â he corrected. âThe trip from three- no, four weeks ago. Or was it before thatâŠ.â
Your eyes practically bulged out of your head. âOver a month?â
He shrugged sheepishly. At this point, he had at least turned back around to face you, but he still had trouble meeting your gaze. âWell, with everything going on Iâve been pretty busy. Any time I get a break, Iâm just so tired or hungry it doesnât even cross my mind. And itâs not like I can sneak away or anything.â
âYou havenât even tried?â You pressed. He shook his head. âWow. You must be pretty pent up, then.â
He simply shrugged again, fidgeting with a pebble heâd picked up somewhere and looking anywhere but you. âI-I mean, itâs not really a big dealâŠâ
âYâknow, masturbation is a form of self care,â you said. âItâs healthy. Helps maintain your hormones, bodily functions, and releases stress. For someone so big on keeping your body healthy, Iâm surprised youâve gone this long.â
âI guess,â he mumbled. He risked a glance at you before quickly dropping his eyes to his hands once more. âItâsâŠ. actually pretty cool how knowledgeable you are about all of this.â
âOh, trust me, I know my stuff.â You shot him a wink, and you couldâve sworn you heard him gulp. Before you could stop yourself, the words came out; âI could help you if youâd like.â
He froze, looking at you with wide, unblinking eyes. â...Huh?â
Welp, in for a penny, in for a pound. âYou know, like, give you a hand,â you explained. âOr mouth. Whichever youâd prefer, really.â
He took a moment to process your words, but when he did, he went back to blushing cherry red. âY-you mean, likeâŠ.â
âGive you an orgasm,â you said. âI mean, only if youâd want to. If you donât, just say the word, and we can forget I even asked.âÂ
You paused, waiting for him to follow up with a âno,â but he just sat in silence, eyes trained on the pond and ears practically steaming.
âOr,â you continued carefully, âyou could say yes, in which case Iâd be happy to help. More than, even.â
âReally?â He asked, and you nodded.Â
âOnce again, itâs all up to you,â you reassured. âJust thought Iâd offer.â
Finally, he looked you in the eye, almost like he was searching for something. âWhy?â
You opened your mouth to answer, then closed it again. Why were you offering?
âItâs like a favor from a friend,â you decided. âYou need to get to sleep, I want to take your pants off⊠A win-win, really.â
He buried his face in his hands, shrinking in on himself like a hermit crab into its shell. He mumbled something, but you couldnât understand it, so you asked him to repeat himself.
â....Y-yeah. I, um, want to,â he squeaked. âI-I mean, if you want to-â
âI literally just offered.â
He swallowed. âRight. Um. Yes.â He looked around the room, still determined to not make eye contact with you. It was silent for a moment. âUh...How should weâŠ?â
âGo into a different room, probably,â you said, standing up. âThis oneâs pretty echoey. A little too conspicuous.â
He stood up as well, and you couldâve sworn you saw a tremor in his legs. âOh. Yeah. Probably.â
You tilted your head towards the door. âHere, come with me.â
You took him to one of the side rooms youâd poked in earlier. No windows, one door that locksâŠ. Perfect. You took his hand, gently tugging him into the room and closing the door behind you. You muttered a quick incantation under your breath, and a few dimly glowing orbs of light appeared above you. Not enough to light up the room, but enough so that you could at least see your hand in front of your face.
Laios fidgeted where he stood. âWhere should IâŠ.?â
âYou could sit on that chest over there. Wait, actually Iâd prefer you on the ground,â you said. âBetter for my knees. Too bad we donât have pillows⊠But, you could probably lean against those burlap sacks in that corner there. â
He nodded excitedly, but didnât move. You tilted your head at him. He seemed to realize himself, and hurriedly trotted over to sit in the corner with the burlap sacks. You followed eagerly on his trail, chuckling under your breath.
âSorry,â he fumbled, clearly trembling as he sat himself down. âIâve, uh, never done this before.â
You snorted, sitting down in front of him. âWhat, never gotten a blowjob in a dungeon? I hear itâs all the rage these days.â
He offered a wobbly smile and a chuckle. âNo, like, um⊠I havenât doneâŠâ He gestured vaguely between the two of you, trailing off.
You furrowed your brows. âWhat do you mean?â
âLike, anything like this.â
You blinked at him, confused by his words, but then froze as it clicked in your head.
âYouâre a virgin?â You blurted out, much louder than you intended to and you smacked your hands over your mouth. Laios looked like a deer in headlights, unsure if he should be mortified or not. You quickly recovered. âSorry. I just wasnât expecting it. Um, how old are you, again?â
â26,â he said. He tilted his head at you like a puppy, eyes big and innocent. âWhy? Is that weird?â
âNo, no, of course not,â you reassured. âJust, um⊠Do you still want to do this? You can back out. I wonât be offended.â
âI-I want to.â He sat up straight and responded so quickly he almost tripped on his words. âI do. If youâre still okay with it.â
You took a deep breath before giving him a soft smile. âYes. I definitely am.â
âOh, thatâs good⊠I didnât want it to be weird if- oomf!â You pushed him against the burlap sacks, caging him in with your body as you moved to straddle his lap. Your face got very close to his face very fast and Laios was not expecting it. Then again, he certainly wasnât complaining. He looked up at you, eyes wide and cheeks red.Â
âYou ever kissed anyone before?â You asked, sultry voice just above a murmur, searching in his eyes.Â
âUh⊠Y-yeah,â he said. He kept making eye contact, then looking away. âOnly, like, twice, though.â
Oh, so we were really starting from scratch, you thought to yourself, saying nothing. You saw him grow a little anxious at your lack of immediate response and quickly followed up, âThatâs alright. I was just curious.â
âY-yeah, it was like-â your hands slithered up his neck to tenderly cup his jaw, â-two years ago, or something-â you leaned in, lips just inches away from his, â-and, umâŠ.â
He trailed off with a shaky exhale of air that you felt against your lips, and you took that as your cue to go in.
You kissed him, and he immediately froze up, not knowing what to do. When your lips started moving, he was clumsy, painfully out of sync. He really hadnât done this before. After a few seconds of testing the waters, you pulled away, but not too far. He leaned his head in a bit, as if trying to follow you.
He blinked slowly, eyes so blown out that his iris was little more than a thin ring around black pupils. âWhat are you doingâŠ?â
âKissing you,â you stated. âYâknow, like, foreplay.â He tilted his head and gave you a quizzical look, so you elaborated, âItâs kind of like a sex warm-upâŠ.? Yâknow, to get you going so you donât have to jump right in.â
âOh. Yeah. I-I guess that makes senseâŠ.â
You grinned at him before diving in to steal another kiss. You made this one sensual, gratuitous, trying to guide his lips into a comfortable rhythm with yours. You felt his large body go slack against yours, melting into the kiss. You had one hand on the back of his head and the other on his big, warm chest, and it was painfully obvious he had no clue what to do with his arms.
âHere,â you giggled against his lips, and guided his hands to a comfortable spot. One on your side, just below your chest, and the other on your ass. âYou can touch me.â
âO-okay,â he squeaked.Â
You kissed him for a third time, this time with a little more fervor. You slipped your tongue in here and there, experimenting and seeing what heâd do with it. He gave your butt a tentative squeeze, and you grinned against his lips. With every movement, Laios seemed to loosen up; becoming more comfortable, even eager.
He pressed his mouth hard into youâa bit too hard, teeth clanking togetherâand you had to tug him back with your hands gripping tight at the hair on the back of his neck and he gasped. You didnât let up, giving a few more soft kisses as an apology before pulling away once more.
âWow,â he whispered, eyes half open and lips still parted, grinning in a stunned sort of bliss. âYouâre really good at this.â
You shrugged. âCall it experience, I guess.â
âMmâŠ.,â he hummed, only half-hearing your words. Laiosâ eyes trailed down to your lips, beginning to lean in once more. You obliged and gave him a small peck on the lips before pulling away. He made a sound of confusion before you moved to the corner of his lips, then his cheek, then his jaw, then finally began kissing his neck.
âOh. Oh wow,â he breathed shakily, big hands floating up to grip into your sides and hips as if to keep himself grounded. You couldnât see him, but you could imagine his expression to be one of shocked, open-mouthed delight.Â
You mouthed your way up to the spot below his ear, sucking what you hoped would end up to be dark purple hickeys the next morning. He tasted like sweat and skin and you relished in every bite.
âHahâŠ.,â he moaned, more breath than actual voice, holding onto you for dear life. You nibbled at his earlobe and he tensed before a full-on shudder wracked his body. He instinctively pulled you in tight against him with his strong arms, like he wanted to be as close to you as physically possible. He was exceptionally sensitiveânot necessarily surprising, given his inexperience, but either way it sent a little thrill of anticipation up your spine.
Youâd been feeling his growing arousal under you, but at this point it was poking against your inner thigh from your position straddling him. You pressed into it slightly and he yelped, flinching into you.
âThatâs-â he gave a sharp inhale followed by a shaking moan as you bit down into the thick cord of muscle that leads to his shoulder, simultaneously grinding harder against the tent in his pants. He jolted in surprise, but it was followed closely by a shiver of pleasure as he squeezed his legs together. â-that feelsânghâreally good.â
You pulled away. He was panting fully now, just as hot and worked up as he got after an intense bout of combat. But unlike the heat of battle, this scene was softer, more gentle, malleable, intimate. He looked utterly blissed out, huffing and puffing with red cheeks and unfocused eyes, and you hadnât taken off a single layer of clothing. You could see the twitching bulge in his pants, a small wet spot appearing at its peak. You fought back a grin. So excitable.
Your hands trailed along the collar of his linen shirt, fiddling with the strings. âCan we take this off?â
He blinked at you, taking a moment to process your words, but he snapped to attention once he realized what you meant.
âOh- Oh! Um, yeah, of course. Let me justâŠ.â He reached up to untie his laces, and you scooted back on his legs to allow him room to pull his shirt up and over his head, leaving his upper half completely bare.Â
Youâd already had a pretty good idea of his physique given that his thin shirt did little to hide it, but he was a glorious sight to behold now. His large frame littered with scars, his huge muscles bulging out but not necessarily chiseled as they lay under a healthy layer of fat, the slight squish of his tummy that spilled a little over his waistband, and golden chest hair trailing all the way down into his pants.
You mustâve been staring a bit too long, because Laios shifted and moved to cross his arms over his chest, self-conscious.
âUh, am I- Is this okayâŠ?â He gulped.Â
âOh god, sorry, yes,â you rushed to get the words out. âItâs just- youâre, like, gorgeous. Got distracted.â
If he hadnât been completely red in the face already, you were sure he would have blushed to infinity. He curled in on himself.
âI usually donât care how I look that much, butâŠâ he murmured. âItâs weird. I donât know why I feel soâŠ. shy.â
âHey, itâs alright,â you said, reaching up to tenderly sweep his hair back before sliding down to cup his face. âYou can put it back on, if you want. But I am certainly enjoying the view.â
He grinned sheepishly. âThanksâŠ. Youâre- you also look really, um, goodâŠâ
âHere, Iâll join you,â you said. You made quick work of pulling your shirt over your head and you heard Laios gasp.Â
âWow,â he whispered as his eyes raked up and down your body in wonder.
âCould I have this?â You tugged at the shirt he still held in his hand, and he willingly gave it to you, still starstruck by your half-naked form. âLean forward a bit here.â
Obedient as a dog, he followed your instructions and leaned into you, not thinking twice. His skin felt hot and a little damp against yours, his face pressed against your shoulder. You reached around him to fluff the shirt out flat a little bit before tucking it between his back and the burlap sacks as a makeshift blanket.
âShould be a little more comfortable,â you said, tucking in the edges so it wouldnât slip too much. âDonât wanna scratch up your back. Yet, at least.â
Completely oblivious to your innuendo, he was looking at you as if youâd hung all the stars in the sky. âYou really know what youâre doing, huh?â
You shrugged. âDonât think too much about it, âkay? I just want you to be comfortable.â
You pushed back on his shoulder slightly and, obedient as ever, he laid back down against the now-covered burlap sacks. His arms had slipped down to lay at his sides. He stared at you, eagerly awaiting your next instruction.
You ran your hands down his neck and across his chest, nails raking through the wiry hair and over his nipples, tenderly admiring his build. His muscles twitched with each brush of your fingers, hands creeping up to grip your thighs.Â
You leaned forward, diving in to leave open-mouthed kisses on his neck and down his chest. He shivered and gripped your thighs tighter. You paused once you reached his sternum and looked up at him.
âDo you like having your nipples played with?âÂ
He froze at your question. âUm, I-Iâm not really sure.â
Virgin. Right, you reminded yourself internally.
âWell,â you continued, âlet me know if this feels good, okay? Itâs not for everyone, but they have a lot of nerve endings, and can be big erogenous zones for some people.â
âOh, yeah, Iâve heard of tha- eep!â He tensed up like he was struck with a live wire as you closed your mouth around his nipple. He bit back a groan as you swirled your tongue around, sucking softly. His cock jumped, and you could feel the wetness from his tip seeping through his pants as it brushed against your bare stomach.
âIâahâdidnât even know you could do this,â he stuttered, hands having since moved their vice-grips to your upper back as you continued to lavish his chest in attention, moving to the other nipple. âI- I mean biologically it makes sâhahâsense since in mammals, the chest a-and specifically nipples are considered a secondary sâhnâsexual organâŠâ
âBut does it feel good?â you asked, slightly muffled as you switched between speaking and sucking on his chest.Â
âI- I think soâ!â His voice cut off with a sharp gasp as you suddenly sank in your teeth around his nipple before sucking hard and rolling the little bud in your mouth. âItâs- itâs kinda weird butâhahâkinda goodâŠ.?â
You pulled off of his chest with a wet pop and grinned up at him devilishly. âEnjoying yourself, Laios?â
âYeah,â he panted. His eyes were half-lidded, mouth parted as he caught his breath, flushed all the way to his ears. He somehow looked worked up to the point of combustion but soft and innocent at the same time. âThis isâŠ.. Wow. I donât even know what to say.â
âYou donât need to say anything.â You were sure you couldnât hide how pleased you were with yourself, looking like the cat who got the cream. His eyes were so full of wonder, and you couldnât help but pull yourself back up to kiss him silly, repositioning yourself so that one of your legs was slotted in between his.
You pressed your body hard into his, and his arms snaked around your waist, a single big hand going down to shyly squeeze your butt. You giggled and brought up your finger to trace tight little circles around his nipples, still slippery with saliva, and he shuddered and gasped against you.Â
You pulled your thigh forward to press hard against his cock, twitching and leaky as it begged to be released from its confines. The tortured sound Laios let out against your lips made you want to devour him whole.Â
âYouâre doing so well, Laios,â you whispered in between kisses. He whined and his cock jumped excitedly. Interesting. âSo, so good for me.â You pressed your thigh down harder-
âWaitângh!âwait stop-â he yelped. You immediately halted your actions, pulling away, but Laios pulled you right back into him, refusing to let you move away.
âAre you okay? Whatâs wrong?â You asked, gently stroking his arms, suddenly very concerned.Â
He was shivering violently, and pressed even harder into you. âNothing,â he gasped, struggling to form words. âI just- I thought I was gonna cumâŠ.â
You grinned devilishly, a new light in your eye. You pressed your thigh into his raging hard-on once again and he keened, burying his face into your neck.
âWait! Be careful, I-I can feel itâŠ.,â his words tapered off into a broken cry, open-mouthed against your shoulder. Mercifully, you let up, and Laios let out a shaky sigh of relief.Â
âLetâs move on to the main event, shall we?â You cooed, worming your way out of his hold so you could lower yourself onto the ground.
He looked confused for a moment, as if heâd forgotten youâd planned on sucking him off in the first place, but then his eyes widened and he choked on air. âOh- Yeah. Yes.â He gulped âPlease?â
âWell, since you asked so nicely,â you purred. You kissed your way down his torso, his curly chest hair tickling your nose as you went. You reached his pants, pressing a messy kiss on his tummy just above his waistband. He shuddered. He wasnât sure what to do with his handsâtrembling as they wereâawkwardly holding them above his lap.Â
You looked up at him, his shivering form and nervous expression, droplets of sweat beading at his forehead despite the chill of the dungeon. He was so close already, and honestly, with how pent up he was, you were surprised he managed to hold back from creaming his pants.Â
You unfortunately had to look away from his flushed face as you undid the laces of his trousers and pulled out his swollen cock. He was hard and hot and thick in your hands. In terms of penises youâd seen, he was uncut, untrimmed, and exceptionally average, yet you were salivating all the same. The flushed head was shiny smeared with its own precum, and it bobbed up under your gaze.Â
Laiosâ eyes squeezed shut and he tilted his head back with a choked groan, like just the sight of your face so close to his cock would make him cum.Â
You wrapped your hand firm around the middle and gave him an experimental pump. You were mesmerized as you watched the foreskin bunch up over the head, a single bead of white pearling and dribbling out, before pulling and stretching back down to reveal his cock in all of its weeping glory.
You couldnât help but dive right in.
You closed your warm mouth over the head of his cock, licking the creamy, salty pleasure from his tip and swallowing it hungrily. Laios yelped and his thighs squeezed around your head. You popped your mouth off of him to lick a long stripe from base to tip, flattening your tongue, before suckling on the tip once more.
âSoâŠ. warmâŠ.,â Laios mumbled.Â
You let a fat glob of spit drip down from your mouth, using the tight ring of your hands to deftly spread it down his shaft. You pumped him once, twice, and Laiosâ jaw dropped in a silent gasp.Â
âNice, isnât it?â you murmured before pressing a sloppy kiss to his tip. Laiosâ mouth tried to form words, but all that came out was a gasp followed by a throaty groan as he pitched forward. His hands found their way to your hairânot so much pushing you down as it was giving himself something to hold onto.Â
You let go of his dick so that, with both hands, you could ease him back down, untense his muscles and loosen his hands from your hair.
âItâs alright, baby, Iâve got you,â you cooed. âItâs okay. Just relax. Youâre doing so well.â
He whimpered but nodded, screwing his eyes shut. Once heâd relaxed again, your hand gently found its way back to his cock, soon followed by your mouth.
You were slow, careful not to overwhelm him, swallowing him halfway with a hand wrapped firm around his base before pulling back up, lapping at his tip.Â
âWow. Oh wow,â he whispered, letting out breathy little 'hah's. âThis isâŠ. Wow.â
Laios was whimpering, trying his best to stay still, but with every bob of your head his thighs twitched and his body tensed.Â
âNo wonder succubiânghâare so successful inâh-hahâin dungeons- ackâ!â His voice broke as you swallowed around him. âThis isâhnâreally⊠r-really good. Lonely male adventurers w-would make the perfect preyâ!â The last part of his sentence pitched up as you began swirling your tongue around the tip.
You took him deeper. You felt the hot, salty weight of him bump the back of your throat. He cried out, hips jumping up and hands scrambling to hold onto something. You didnât let up, taking him deeper, swallowing around his length as you blinked and let the tears spill from your eyes. Your throat may have a bruise the next morning, but the sounds that Laios made would be well worth it.Â
âOh god. Ohâoh Iâm close,â he moaned, desperate. ââM gonnaâhahâgonna cumâŠâ
You simply sped up, sucking him with a newfound fervor, and he moaned so loud you could hear the echo bounce around the room. One of his hands kept brushing over yours, so you obliged, lacing your fingers with his own. He took it greedily, thankful to be holding your hand and squeezing tight as you swallowed him.
âOh- oh! Itâsâ Iâm cumming, oh fuck, Iâm cummingânghâ-!â His moans tapered off into a high-pitched whine as he came in your mouth, hot saltiness flooding all of your senses as you swallowed what you could. He was cumming a lotâbursting into your mouth like a broken pipeâso much so that it quickly overflowed and came dribbling out from the corners. You pulled off of him, cum dripping down your chin and spilling onto your hand.Â
Meanwhile, Laios was still in the middle of a mind-blowing orgasm, jolts of pleasure shooting through him as he gasped and moaned. You stroked him, languid and slow, through the rest of it, squeezing his hand in assurance. By the time the cum had stopped seeping out of him, he was shaking like a leaf and had a white-knuckle grip on your hand. He began to whimper in pain at the overstimulation, so you let up, watching his softening cock lay itself down, twitching, into a splatter of cum on his thigh.
Laios was breathing hard. Eyes closed, he hadnât let go of your hand. You just rested your cheek on his clean (as in, the one with less cum on it) thigh, looking up at him as he eased his way out of orgasmic daze.Â
âSo,â he murmured after a moment of silence, voice trembling. âThatâs what Iâve been missing out on all this time.â
âPretty much,â you hummed, drawing mindless circles on his hips with your thumb, never taking your eyes off of him.
âWow.â He stared off into space for a second before blinking back into focus. âNo wonder lust makes people crazy. Itâs almostâŠ. Cathartic?â
âRelaxing, too,â you said, pressing a feather light kiss into the softness of his thigh. âFeel better?â
He nodded. âVery. Honestly, I could fall asleep right now. I donât even want to get up. Is that a normal post-coital reaction?â
You bit back a giggle. âYes. But this in particular was pretty intense.â You began the process of slowly separating yourself from Laios, peeling your body off of the ground. âYou came a lot. Is it usually this much? Itâs not bad or anything, thereâs just⊠so much.â
âNot usually, no,â he shrugged sheepishly, looking down at the mess on his legs. âProbably from being âpent-up,â like you said.âÂ
âGuess this means you should take better care of your biological urges, hm?â You tenderly cupped his face and he hummed, leaning into your hand to press a kiss to your palm. You subtly wiped your other hand on your discarded shirt so that you could bring it up to run your fingers through his close-cropped hair.
âThat was⊠amazing,â he whispered, eyes fluttering shut under your caress. âIt felt so nice.â He swallowed, then hesitantly looked up to you, eyes big and round and adoring. â...Thank you.â
You couldnât handle the way he was looking at you, so instead you kissed him. He was all but boneless against you, sweet and melting like ice cream on a hot summerâs day.Â
You pulled away. It was a second before either of you spoke, eyes closed, foreheads pressed together, breathing in the otherâs exhales.Â
âWe should probably get back,â you said after a moment, pressing one final, fleeting kiss to his lips before standing up.
âY-yeah. Probably.â He looked down at the mess all over his thighs and stomach. âUm⊠what should IâŠ.?â
You muttered an incantation under your breath and with a flick of your wrist, the mess disappeared from him completely. You did the same for yourself.Â
âThank the gods for prestidigitation,â you chuckled. You began to redress yourself, Laios not far behind.Â
Once you were both decent, you made your way to the door, unlocking it and expecting Laios to follow you. You glanced over your shoulder only to see that Laios was standing in the same spot, the laces of his shirt still untied.Â
âSo, are we lovers now?â
You froze, blood pumping as your heart leapt into your throat. Even for Laios, the question felt like it came out of left field. He had his head tilted at you like a curious dog, unashamed and eager and genuine.
âLike, in the books,â he explained. âThis kind of thing is what lovers do, right?â
âWell- IâŠ.â Youâd be lying if you said you hadnât dreamt of being his partnerâbeing giggly and enamored with each other. But cold fear gripped your heart when you thought about the possibility of something going wrong, of you messing it up and losing him completely. â...I guessâŠ.? Kind of? Do youâŠ. Want to be?â
He walked up to you and grabbed your hand, eyes never leaving yours. âI want to be lovers.â
âHow aboutâŠ.. friendsâŠâŠ that are also sometimes lovers?â you suggested, trying to not let your voice shake too badly. You cringed inwardly at your words, since you wanted nothing more than to scream âYes!âÂ
âDoes that mean we can keep doing stuff like this?â He asked.
âOf course,â you said. You squeezed his hand, and he squeezed back. âHow about we discuss this more tomorrow, yeah? You need to get some sleep.â
This answer seemed to satisfy him, as he grinned wide at you, tugging you out the door and towards camp where, hopefully, no one realized you were missing.
Meanwhile, back at camp....
Chilchuck was covering both of his ears with his pillow, silently seething. Bile rose in his throat with every other sound he could hear ever-so-faintly echo through the dungeon corridor. He did not expect to wake up to the sounds of stupid Laios in the thralls of pleasureâwith you, no less!âand he was very much not happy about it.
"Fucking kids...," he muttered, grinding his teeth together as he tried to muffle the sounds as best he can. "Fucking half-foot hearing.... I hate it here."
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If You Need Me, Call Me
Alexia Putellas x Explorer!R Pt.2 in the 'I Would Climb Every Mountain With You' Universe.
Hi Guys, Thank you for all the love on the first part in this series. This is part 2 that I didn't expect to write. I have an inability to not write angst. TW: Claustrophobia. Injury. Events are not based on any real life events. Part two of I Would Climb Every Mountain With You. I would recommend you read that first, for some context. But you can do what you want really ;-)
You and Alexia had been together, happily, for a year. And it was happily. Though. âTogetherâ is probably being quite liberal with the word. And. You suppose. âHappilyâ is also being quite liberal with the word. You loved Alexia.Â
And Alexia loved you.Â
That was clear to both of you. You admitted it early, before sheâd even left UK soil after sheâd come back with you from your first meeting. Sheâd rolled her eyes at you and the nerves on your face as you lay in bed together in your pokey Cumbrian flat, and kissed the words from your lips; âwell duh, of course you do. And I love you.â which made you laugh and fall into her lips again. But it wasnât even 12 hours later that youâd had to separate with her season starting again and her need to be in Spain. Her teammates had teased her relentlessly on her return. How sheâd U-Hauled with the Jefa de montaña and ran away to the rainey island she so famously disliked just to spend another day together. She'd rolled her eyes and slapped the back of a few heads but it was true. That is what she had done. Sheâd been overjoyed when she spotted you in the crowd on the first home game of the season. Youâd made the surprise trip to Barcelona at the last minute, employing Ingrid to get a ticket in the friends and family section for you. The smile on the Captain's face as she spotted you could be seen from space. You had winked at her and proudly gestured to your brand new Barcelona jersey, Alexias number proudly splayed across your back. As the game ended, with a convincing win for the home team, sheâd made a beeline for you in the stands. Jumping over the barrier and embracing you like you hadnât seen each other for months (oh how used to that feeling you would become), rather than a couple of weeks. âI thought that you preferred rugby?â she had teased you. âAh, I do, but no one told me how hot the captain in blue and red wasâ youâd replied, with a wink. Enjoying the blush youâd created on her face, before it was your turn to blush as Alexias eyes darted to your right and greeted, âMami! Hola!â and embraced a small women in a shirt matching yours who was definitely standing within hearing distance. Just over her shoulder a carbon-copy of Alexia was lurking, a childlike grin on her face and twinkle in her eyes. âAh, and this is mi hermana Alba!â she had introduced you. âWell, nothing like diving in headfirstâ you thought to yourself, as you were introduced to your apparently-new girlfriend's family, as that's what you had just been introduced as, with a squeeze of your hand and a kiss to the side of your head. The Putellas family embraced you with all the enthusiasm in the world. Alba kept you entertained and asked you a million and one questions as you waited for Alexia to be finished with her media and captain duties. Before you knew it you were at an impromptu meet-the-new-english-girlfriend party at the Putellas residence, sharing food with seemingly everyone who had ever been related to Alexia as well as their next door neighbours. Sharing wine, food, and lots of baby Alexia pictures. So yes. You had both moved fast. Maybe it was the speed which you were going that would soon become your downfall. You were moving a million miles an hour and the warning signs were a blur that you couldnât quite make out. Of those first 6 months, you were on an exhibition for 4. You had travelled to Patagonia to climb some of the last unclaimed peaks on the planet with the National Geographic Society. They were unreachable by road or even yak. You had to sail to the bottom of South America and then move your way up on foot. It was arduous, it was treacherous, but you found satisfaction and joy in the difficulty.
You become the first person and only woman to ever summit Orjos del Salado and, as you snapped a picture at the top, all you thought was how excited you were to share your achievement with Alexia. As youâd called her a week later from a dive-bar in a shanty town in central Argentina you could hear the pride and relief in her voice, even through the terrible connection. It was the first time you had been able to contact her in a month.
But youâd gone straight from there to leading some American businessmen through the Amazon on a 3 week river and hiking exploration. It paid handsomely, youâd explained to the disappointed blonde, you couldnât turn it down.
You returned to Barcelona in time to spend a week together before Alexia left for a two week international camp. Which was then followed by a week long trip for her to Norway, as part of their group stage champions league campaign.
Youâd joined her there, soaking as much time together as possible between her matches and training sessions. Maybe it was then that the cracks had begun to show. As you had woken early to pick her up from her hotel to go for an early morning walk and grab some coffee before her media duties. You had been walking hand in hand in the early morning sunshine. You had been half-way through a story from the day before, where you and Ingrid's mum had gone together to a lake outside of Oslo, when you felt her drop your hand suddenly and took a half step away from you. âHuh?â you looked at her and a look you hadnât seen before took over her features, âWhatâs going on Ale?â. âTrust meâ was all sheâd replied, and then it had become apparent her problem as a swarm of fans suddenly engulfed her, asking for selfies and autographs, which she gave out, graciously. She skillfully extracted herself from the situation before you both continued on your way, but now, you noticed, you were at least a foot further apart and a weird atmosphere had taken over you both. It had been when you were both safely in the cafe that youâd addressed it, âare you ashamed of me?â you asked, unable to mask the hurt in your voice. Hands safely wrapped around your Tea. âNo!â sheâd replied, aghast, as she pulled your hands from your mug into her own. âmĂrame cariñoâ you did, and saw the heartbreaking look in her eyes. âI would never be ashamed of you. Do not think that for one moment.â she said it with such conviction that you couldnât help but nod. âI am sorry, but it is easier. For you. The media. They will pry into your life. Itâs happened before with⊠partners and⊠I donât want that for you. For your family. I love you.â âI wonât hide Ale.â you replied. Firmly. You were a free spirit. It was not in your nature to hide yourself, any part of yourself, for anything or anyone. The thought of it made you claustrophobic. âI know you wonât.â she huffed out a laugh, âI do not want us to hide. I promise. But, maybe, if we do not make their job easy for them? Can we do that?â. The look of desperation on her face broke your heart. âBueno Ale. Para ti. Yo tambiĂ©n te amo.â Youâd gone your separate ways from there, you had explorations to complete, she was busy with the team. Sheâd managed to visit England for a few days when her UCWL matches lined up, and you started to return to Barcelona, rather than Cumbria, as a home base between trips. And that's how it had gone for some time. Your birthday had passed, youâd spent it together in Barcelona, Ale having stolen your trusty-old boots and had them professionally repaired and re-waxed. As she presented them to you, on her balcony with a cute bow on top, your heart expanded in joy. She got you. She knew you didnât want new-top of the range boots that she definitely could afford. This actually was harder, sheâd had to research the dying-art of cobblers in the area. She had to sneak them out of your duffell bag, she must have distracted you every time you went for them as your go-to walking shoes in the week. With all her money and fame. She understood that wasnât you. You loved what you had. And she got that. As you had turned the boots in your hands, taking in all of the familiarity in all their glory and feeling the waxy leather beneath your fingers she couldnât read your face. âI hope you donât mindâ sheâd taken them gently from your hands and she pulled back the tongue, which showed a piece of jersey sewn into the backing-fabric. Blue and red, with a white AP11 embroidered into it. âIt's from my first champions league shirt. I cut a swatch off, and had them sew it inâŠâ she whispered. The moment had been heavy. âI know we donât get to spend time together like most couples, but this way, Iâll always be with you.â Your throat had burned with the effort to keep your tears at bay, you were unsuccessful when you felt her warm hand cup your face and wipe a tear away,
âIâm sorry, Itâs probably way too intrusive and I shouldnât have taken your stuff, I can taâŠâ Youâd silenced her with a kiss. Intense and hungry. âThis is the most thoughtful gift I have ever had. I love you Ale. I love you so much.â âGood.â... you both take a moment to look into each other's eyes, then you feel a movement as she reaches into her pocket and presents proudly what sheâs pulled out, eyes shining with mirth âThen maybe you will consider these laces too, no?â and you burst out laughing whilst you take in the Blaugrana coloured hiking laces. Youâve not got it in you to not agree. But love sometimes isnât enough. Time passed. You continued your work and she continued hers. Valentines days spent on opposite sides of the globe. You werenât there when she won the Champions League, instead spending it watching it in a bar in Jordan. She wasnât there as you returned from reaching an undiscovered island as part of a research crew in the South Pacific, instead being in Munich to film a new Nike ad. When you were together you couldnât walk the streets of Barcelona hand in hand. Youâd kept your promise and she kept hers. You werenât hidden, but you werenât showcasing your relationship. When she came to England you had more freedom, the people of Cumbia didnât know who the Spanish superstar was, they just knew her as your girlfriend. Your fit girlfriend according to the teenage boy who lived next door to your mum. You made it work though, between you. You would send her snaps every time you saw children playing football. Pictures from south pacific islands to the mountain villages of the Himalayas, and every time you would receive the same response; âSee, el deporte del mundo, I told you <3â It was a perfect storm. What happened. Youâd spent a month in Barcelona, more time that you had been able to spend together in the year youâd been a couple. Youâd fallen into a domesticity that you hadnât experienced before.Â
Alexia would train, you would have dinner ready for her. She would wake you up with a cup of Tea from her new kettle she's bought especially for you. You would plan routes and give advice to your online contacts about expeditions they had planned. You would sleep wrapped in each other's arms, Alexia would even let you be the big spoon, very occasionally.Â
It felt perfect. Until one, simple comment.
âAy, look at you, wifey!â Mapi had exclaimed from her place at the table as you brought in the dinner you had prepared for the group, you had invited her and Ingrid for a couples night, âwho would have thought, âLa jefa de la montaña. Tamed!â âShut up Maria.â Ingrid nudged her girlfriend, with a kind smile she turned to you, âThis looks delicious! Thank youâ As the group tucked in though, you were distracted. Suddenly, the weight of Alexia's hand on your thigh felt heavy. The walls, too constricting. For you, the heat of Barcelona started to become oppressive. Too predictable. You missed England, you missed not knowing what the weather would be hour by hour. The contact blue skies felt like a false--happiness was being forced on you. The ground at your feet, sun dried, felt harsh compared to the muddy grass you had grown up stomping on. Soft, flexible. The routine started to bore you. You missed the weight of your backpack and the freedom of slinging up your hammock. Alexia hadnât missed the way you had clammed up, the tenseness in your posture, the way your laugh did not reach your eyes for the rest of that evening. For the weeks following she felt like keeping you was like trying to catch smoke. Like trying to hold sand in her bare hands. She could feel you escape through her fingers for the next few weeks.
Which is why she wasnât surprised when she returned from an away trip to Mallorca to see you on the couch. Hands nervously twisting and unable to meet her eye.
âYouâre going again, aren't you?â she asked, as she dropped her bag at the door and settled next to you, taking your hands in hers. You nodded.
âIâm sorry Ale. It's just. It's not me.â youâd explained then, how you had been feeling. And she listened. Even though she knew. Of course she already knew.
âItâs okay, carino.â youâd assured you. Youâd look up then, âit is?â
âSi, Mi Vida. I would never ask you to change. And only you would be bored of the life of a professional footballer, and you must be the only English person to ever complain about the weather in Barcelonaâ sheâd lightened the mood with her joke, and rolled her eyes good naturedly.
âWhere are you going this time?â sheâd continued, and she should have known from your pause that this wasnât the usual goodbye.
âEverest.â
âEverest.â Sheâd reperated. Joy in her voice, she knew it was your lifeâs ambition to climb the world's highest summit. â...and Denali, and Elbrus...â you had continued to name the 7 highest summits on each continent that you would spend the next 18 months climbing, without oxygen, as part of an international exploration. Silence filled the apartment. âIâŠ.â âNo.â âNo?â you asked, shock in your voice. âNo, what?â âNo, you canât do that. It's too dangerous.â âBut AleâŠâ âNo. No âbut Aleâ. I get it. I have been your partner now for long enough. I understand. But this is too much. No oxygen, so many climbs⊠there is too much danger. No.â her tone firm. Final. Her Captain's voice. And that had made the walls feel like they were closing in for you. And you responded like a wild animal, backed into a corner, defensive. âI wasnât asking.â She let out a frustrated groan, hands covering her face. âCarino, please no. Listen to me. Being with youâŠâ a huff again⊠âit is hard.â âOh well, I am sorry Alexia, if being with me is such a choreâŠâ you started. âNo, stop, you are not letting me speakâŠâ but you had started at that point. âYou are not the one who is hidden away, you arenât one who has had to move countries, to miss her family, your life hasnât changed! Youâve given up nothing for this relationship.â you hiss out at her, hardly recognising your own voice. You're speaking just to hurt her. To make this easier for both of you. And that final sentence, seems to be what breaks the usually cool and calm exterior of your girlfriend and she stands and points her finger at you. âNothing! ÂĄnada! ÂżCĂłmo te atreves?â she spits out at you, the anger in her tone surprises you, you have never heard her speak like this, âI have sat here and waited. For months I have waited. For anything from you. Being with you is not like a long-distance relationship. You go, for months at a time, you go. And you expect me to sit here and wait. And I do. You do not text, you do not call. I understand that you cannot but do not say I have made no sacrifice for this relationship. When you got lost in the Gobi desert for weeks, what do you think I was doing? Sitting here! Jumping out of my skin every time the phone rang in case it was your Mami telling me you had been found dead. I did not play in The Copa De La Reinga final because I was so sick with worry. He hecho sacrificio. mi equipo, mi familia ha hecho sacrificio and I will not let you disrespect me or them and let you say otherwise.âÂ
Alexia doesnât lose any of her anger in her tirade. And the silence that settles over the apartment is heavy. She seems to have surprised herself, as her eyes go wide and she opens her mouth again⊠but you interrupt her. âNo Ale. Do not apologise.â you hold your hand up. âI didnât think. I'm sorry. You are right. I am not good for you.â This is why you didnât do relationships. You were a bad partner. You needed to be free, outside, exploring. You lived for adventure. It wasnât fair.
âNo! No Carino, that is not what I said!â tears are in her eyes now, and you knew this would be hard, but you didnât know it would be this hard. âI love you...â âI love you too,â she quickly replies. Neither of you had even been shy with your affirmations to each other. âI love you so much Ale. But I have to go and do this. I have too. It is who I am. It is my dream. It.. It is my world cup.â She huffs out a laugh as she gently nudges herself into your arms, your attempt at speaking in a way she would understand humouring her. âI know.â she replies, sadly, âbut I cannot go through that for 18 months mi amor. I cannot.â âAnd I wonât ask you to, love.â You move a strand of hair from her face as you kiss her lips, gently, there's a finality in it, you open your mouth again but she cuts in. âI canât say anything that will stop you, can i?â she asks, as you shake your head, sadly. âWhen do you leave?â You cringe as you confirm her worst thoughts, âtomorrow.â She takes a deep breath and presses her face into your neck. âCan we do one thing before you go?â she asks you.Â
Anything. You would give this woman in your arms anything she asked for at that moment. Apart from stay. And that's how you found yourself swinging on your old lightweight hammock.Â
Strung up securely in the Putellas back yard. As you lay on your (ex?) girlfriend's chest, as you both looked up at the stars. You chatted into the night, you laughed and you cried. You fumbled under the blankets like horny teenagers. She asked you to promise to contact when you could. And you asked her to not worry, to concentrate on the Olympics and move on from you. You kept it to yourself that there was no way you were moving on from her. You didn't know she was keeping the same thing to herself as she promised you she would try.
It was the weirdest break up anyone had ever had.
And, 17 months later, as you lay, trapped, entombed in your own coffin of ice, you were sure that you could still feel the sway of that hammock, feel the heat of that Barcelona evening and hear the cicadas chirping. As the ice pressed all around you, all you could dream of was being back in that back yard in Barcelona, in the arms of Alexia.
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Denali. Done. Vinson. Done.
Aconcagua, Kilimanjaro, Elbrus, Puncak Jaya . Done, Done, Done and Done. Youâd faced the heat of Africa, the remoteness of Antarctica, the desolation of Russia. And here you were, finally, on your final summit. Everest. It was somewhat of a dichotomy between the mountaineering community. Everest had become a commercial hub. Have-a-go mountaineers paying big bucks to get a free ride to the highest mountain in the world. But to you, it had always been sacred. You had imagined it, as you climbed hills in the English lakes as a teenager, of one day scaling the iconic mountain. So, why? As you stood on the highest point of earth. After 3 months of acclimatisation. Were you thinking of your ex-girlfriend? Who were you kidding? You knew why.Â
Alexia hadnât been far from your thoughts on any of your summits. Her face popping into your mind at each peak. As you pocketed some rock as had become your tradition you would imagine her face as your hand touched the earth. The same earth she was on, thousands of miles away, probably in lush, manicured grass, kicking a ball around and entertaining thousands. Your group had become your family, and you had grown as close as one. Arguing when tensions got high but snuggling together to share warmth when in survival mode. Joking in bars across the globe and playing so many games of gin rummy that you sure a record had been broken. They teased you relentlessly for the old boots with silly laces you wore on the lower reaches of each summit, before you reached heights that you all had to wear mountaineering boots. Alexia, unknowingly, with you every step of the way. They had even made a game in each country you entered, to help you pick the rudest or funniest postcard to send to Barcelona, snippets of your time you sent to Alexia, keeping the promise you made over a year ago. You could have rang, you know you could. But you didnât know if you heard her voice you wouldnât high-tail it to Barcelona. So you sent postcards. It felt old-fashioned. It felt romantic. And you think that really, you liked that she couldnât reply. It felt anonymous. You took off your snow goggles as you stood at the peak. You had 3 minutes on the highest point on earth without your goggles before you would become snow blind. The sun being about 60% stronger at this elevation. You could see the curvature of the earth. It reminded you of the curvature of Alexia's shoulders as you held her from behind.
You took in a deep breath of thin air.
Your lung capacity feels like it has doubled since you left Europe.
You have done it. Without oxygen. 7 summits. Your life goal. Complete.
And now. You wanted to go home.Â
âCongratulations English Sherpa! You have done it!â Arjan, clamps a heavily gloved hand on your shoulder, his wide smile visible even beneath his snood. Ice hanging from his moustache. He had to shout for you to hear him over the wind. He was a sherpa, he had travelled all around the world with you being one of the experts in the group, heâd affectionately nicknamed you the English Sherpa after he had seen your climbing prowess on your first summit. âWe have done nothing yet, my friend. You know youâve only climbed Everest once you get back down safelyâ you reply, glee in your voice, fixing your goggles back to your face. âSpoken like a true Sherpa.â he replied, and you both embraced at the top of the world. You didnât hang around for long. Your entire expedition made it to the top of your final summit and you quickly pictured the moment before making your way down. The biggest risk on Everest is getting stuck in a crowd. It is not as technically difficult as other summits you have done. But without oxygen, a minute can feel like an hour on the highest point on earth. You heard once, it is easier to be saved from the surface of the moon than it is to be saved from the surface of Everest. Luck, however, seemed to be on your side. You had made good progress up, and were making even better progress down. With each step you became more and more gleeful, past 8,000 metres you started to finally feel safer. 7,000 metres, you let the excitement of your achievement settle into your bones. 6,000 metres you let your mind wander to finally going home but why was home seeming more like a sundrenched balcony in Barcelona rather than a green field of England? 5,000 metres, you promised yourself that you would use the satellite phone in your pocket to ring Alexia once you got back to base camp. Tell her youâd done it. Maybe even beg her forgiveness. You were alone on the mountain, ahead of most of your group and low enough now to be unattached to any guidelines, it was a usual affair. Until it wasnât.
You felt the ground rumble beneath you. It was barely noticeable. It felt more like the feeling you get when youâre lying in bed and a large truck drives past your house.
But it was enough to instil fear in you as you looked up and saw a wall of moving snow hurtling towards you. It was a slab avalanche, probably caused by the movement of the climbers above, and paired with the lateness of the day, the snow that had fallen and compacted overnight had melted enough to loosen into a wall of ice that was directed your way.
You had about 30 seconds.
You knew to go sideways, do not outrun an avalanche. It's like trying to outrun a cheetah. But this wall of ice looked wide, you ran to your side, moving slowly in the deep snow. As you ran you pulled your goggles back onto your face.
You could feel the earth beneath you falling away as the snow you trod on was unearthed by the vibrations of the snow above.
You ran. You ran for your life, but you knew this wasnât good. Your training kicked in.
You saw a boulder in front of you and you threw yourself behind it, you created a ball with your body, making sure that you created a hole around your face you would be able to use to breathe. You pulled your ice pole from your back and stuck it into the ground next to you, that would help when you were covered by snow and you didn't know which way was up. Which way you would need to dig. You put one hand in your pocket and pulled the satellite phone in front of your face.
A thunderous rumble.Â
And then.Â
Silence. Darkness. â----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Alexia didnât have her phone on at half time. She never paid it any attention - playing or not she was too focussed on the game.
Today, though, she didnât know why. But she did.
She felt her phone vibrate in the bag at her feet.
And something compelled her to actually make the effort to dig into her bag and pull it out.
The number looked weird. Not a Spanish number, or an English one, she had gotten used to all the +44âs that had rang her over the year spent with you.
She stepped out of the unfamiliar changing room into the impressive corridors of Old Trafford. A post-season friendly. Barcelona Vs Manchester United. The game didnât mean anything but it was always exciting to check another famous stadium off the list. A sold out crowd and an evening game. Canât get much better.
She found a disused office room and managed to press accept on the call.
âHola?â
At first she thought sheâd missed it. Nothing on the line responded to her, as she pulled the phone away to check she saw the call had connected⊠âScammersâ she cursed in her mind, moving to hang up. But just before she didâŠ
âHola, Ale.â She couldnât believe it. Your voice. She dropped her weight onto the table behind her and held a hand to her chest that suddenly felt like it was torn in two. Heart beating faster than any 45 minutes of running could cause.
âÂżeres realmente tĂș?â
âYes, Itâs me Ale.â
Tears brimmed in her eyes and even after everything she felt just the same as she did when she stepped out of that minibus nearly 3 years ago and first set eyes on you.
âAre you okay carino? Did you do it?â she asked, breathlessly. âI did it, love.â was the response. In her pride at your accomplishment she missed how you hadnât addressed her first question.
âNunca tuve ninguna duda, I am so relieved to hear from you. The line is so quiet, are you still there?â
âSiâŠâ a pause which Alexia attributes to the poor connection, âIt must be the signal.â she notices you move on, quickly, âCan⊠can you just talk to me?â. Alexia smiles despite herself, you used to always ask her to talk you to sleep when your mind was whirring, completing your greatest accomplishment must be in that category and she can imagine you fidgeting in pent up adrenaline.
âI can amor, I have a few minutes. I am in Manchester. We are at half time at Old Trafford.â
âOld Trafford, hey?â she hears you laugh, âFinally, a football ground Iâve heard of.â She's missed your teasing lilt.
âSi, even you. It is raining. Why is it always raining here? I imagine you have better weather even at your camp.â Alexia jokes, innocently. The laugh you let out feels a little⊠forced? But she lets it go.
âI had lunch with your Mami today. We are only an hour or so away from yours, why did you never tell me we were so close?â Again, that laugh that she loves so much, but it felt more tired that sheâd heard it before, more muffled. Though. She supposed, you must be exhausted.
âBecause then, my love, you would have made us go and watch football matches and I much preferred to spend our time together in my bed.â
âAh, Si, I remember, you did.â she responds, blushing and not missing a beat.Â
âYour Mami is doing well. She is in the standsâŠ.â âTell her I love her, Ale.â you cut in. There's a desperate edge to your voice that sends shivers down Alexia's spine. She stands, âI will. Of course I will. Carino, are you okay?â she realises now, you never answered her first question. âI stood on the top of Everest today, Ale.â you reply. You havenât answered her question. She opens her mouth to ask it again but you continue, âI stood on the top of Everest and all I could think of was you.â Your words force her to sit again, her spare hand to her mouth, keeping in a muffled sob. âDonât you think that's insane? That today, Ale. You were in Manchester and someone. On top of the world. The highest point on this Earth. The highest person on this planet. Only about 4 spacemen floating around above me. Had only you in their mind? I think that means youâve been to the top of the world, Ale. En la cima del mundo conmigo. You were there with me, every step.â You sound drunk, she wouldnât blame you, thin air for months it wouldnât take more than half a pint to see you off, the thought of your ramblings makes her smile despite herself, she knows she shouldnât, but she leans into it. âEveryone here talks like youâŠ.â she pauses, âIn Manchester. Only me and Ona can understand them. With your flat vowels. It made me think of you more today. Miss you more than normal today. And now you call.â There's a knock on the office door, âAle, Vamos!â half time has ended. She has never wanted to play football less than right now. âBecause weâre soulmatesâ your voice definitely had a slur to it now, âand I miss you too. Iâll always miss you, my Ale.â you always got soppier when you drank. âYou wonât miss me for long, Carino. You will be home soon. I donât care if you decide that it's England or Spain. Whichever. I will be there. Si?... We will be together soon. We can sort all this out.â âHopefully, n..to..oo soon.â she struggles to hear you, the connection starting to fail. âPardon? Amor?â another knock at the door. She feels like she's being pulled in half as she presses the phone closer to her ear. âAmor. I have to go. Well done, Estoy tan orgullosa de ti. Call me when you can.â âI love you, AleâŠâ âI loâŠâ beep beep beep. The call drops before she has a chance to respond. â-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You feel pain all over your body. You had never felt pain like it. It was like every sinew in your body was screaming out in pain. You opened your eyes and immediately closed them again. Blinding white. You heard voices. Alarmed voices.Â
Shouting voices. âHERE, HERE!!!â You felt yourself being moved. It made the pain worse. You tried to tell them to stop.Â
Your throat couldn't make a sound. And then all you knew was black.Â
â-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- More darkness. You felt something covering your face. Your body being stripped. Water. Boiling water. It burned. You were submerged. âNo no no no no noâŠâ was all you could try to vocalise. A calming hand in your hair. âIt is lukewarm water, we are trying to bring your body temperature upâŠâÂ
No, no. They were lying. The voice was lying. You thrashed. A pain in your arm. A needle? Darkness took you again. â--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- âThere is no chance, Arjan.â âBuâŠ.â âNo. You are an experienced Sherpa. You are letting yourself get lost. There is no chance. She is too far gone. Air evac is the only way. No Nepalese pilot will fly at this altitude. We need to make her comfortableâŠâ â--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You felt yourself being moved.
Less painful this time.
You felt wind on your face.
This wasnât natural wind.
The sound of blades. Air moving unnaturally. Choppily.
Your face is covered again.Â
The wind gets louder. More mechanical. You feel yourself being lifted up. âYouâve some friends in high places, English Sherpa.â you hear whispered to you, a hand on your forehead. Arjan? Your friend is speaking to you. You feel less alone. You try to open your eyes but the effort feels herculean. And then nothingness. â------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This time, when you wake up. You stay awake. Youâre in an unfamiliar room. Itâs obvious it's a hospital room. But youâre alone. You look around and see yourself wired up to all sorts of machines. But that's it. You try to move to sit up but your shoulder screams in protest. You take stock of your body. You feel a bandage wrapped around your head. Your head is banging now you think about it. Your right arm is completely immobile. Your arm wrapped across your chest and hand completely covered by bandages. You try to wiggle your fingers but. Nothing. God. You hope theyâre still there. Before you had too long to spiral the door burst open and you were faced with a smiling, familiar face. âArjan!â you try to exclaim, voice rough from underuse. âSheâs awake. My friend!â his sun-soaked face suits his smile. His bushy eyebrows make his eyes almost invisible as he crinkles them in joy. Arjan settles next to you and fills you in on everything you were present for, but missed out on account of being buried alive or completely unconscious. Your choice to hide behind the boulder had been the first thing to save your life. It had protected you from being swept away by the avalanche and was easier to locate. Before you had called Alexia you had contacted base camp. But your GPS had been knocked off so all they knew was that you were alive. And where you told them you had last been. Youâd lost consciousness fairley quickly. Brain starved of oxygen in the small air pocket you had created. Hypothermia had set in slowly.
Your hand had been left exposed after using the phone, and you remember wiggling your fingers, seeing them slowly turn black as they succumbed to frostbite. It had taken 3 days to find you. Luckily, you had been the only person caught up in the snow. You remember, now, coming in and out of consciousness. You even recall a bad spell of seeing Alexias face in the boulder your head rested against and talking to it. Maybe youâd keep that you yourself. Bit embarrassing really. Your legs were pinned down by snow. You had used your last piece of strength to thrust your ice pole upwards. You'd chosen the direction based on the way your tears fell. That was the second thing that had saved your life. Arjan had spotted the pole in the ice field. Days after everyone else had given up on ever finding you. Youâd been dragged to base camp and they started to treat hypothermia. You were more than halfway to dead. You resembled a corpse. Arjan had told you he'd never seen anyone literally blue. âPulled it off tho, my friendâ heâd tried to joke. âOf course, alwaysâ youâd winked back in reply. You'd have no chance of survival whilst still on the mountain. The air was still too thin and your were suffering from hypoxia. Problem was, the air was too thin for an air evacuation and. Well. As you knew. It was easier to be saved from the surface of the moon than it was to be saved from the surface of Everest. The third thing that had saved you. Was Alexia. âYou have someone whoâs gone to the moon and back for you, my friend.â Once sheâd found out you had gone missing she had gone to the UK embassy in London to start a search and rescue campaign. When they hadnât moved quickly enough she had involved the Spanish government. Sheâd used her resources and status to launch a media campaign which had pressured both governments. Sheâd flown to Kathmandu herself and was trying to hire a plane to Lukla when youâd been found. Then her attention turned to locating a pilot crazy enough to fly at such an altitude. Turns out anyone was crazy enough for the right price. And many, many euros later, the highest ever search flight took off from the surface of Everest, with you on board. âSheâs a force to be reckoned with, your girl.â
He told you, as he reached to the ground below you, â...and youâll be happy to hear, I saved your precious bootsâ he dumped your familiar old tattered boots at the bottom of your bed.
âAnd some stuff from your tent. But I had to hike it out so I left some of the smellier clothes.â he joked, as you thanked him, he really was a good man. â... Wait⊠hike it out? How long have I been here?â âYouâve been unconscious for a week my friend. I always told you you were lazy.â You took a moment to take stock. A week. Well. That meant that even if Alexia had been in Kathmandu, she was a million miles away now. The door opens again and youâre too lost in your own thoughts to give any care to the nurse whos been coming in every now and again checking charts whilst you and Arjan chatted. âAh here she is. La Reina herself!â You turned your head quickly and took in the face that had been the last image in your mind every night, and the first every morning, since the day you had parted. âAleâŠâ you breathed. Here. She was here. In Kathmandu. In the same room as you.Â
She looked as beautiful as ever, hair flowing over her shoulders, blonder than the last time you had seen her. She had gained muscle and her features had sharpened. But everything else was the same. Her smell invaded your senses. That smell that mosquitoes loved so much. You got it. Her eyes were sharp, and directed firmly at you. They looked tired. She held a sense of exhaustion. You wanted her to fall into your arms, but she stood at the door, and you couldn't open them to welcome her in. The moment was heavy and Arjan broke the silence and stood⊠âIâll leave you both to it. See you around English Sherpa.â and with a squeeze of your foot he was gone. Leaving you both in a heavy silence. âThank You Ale.â you said, breaking the silence.
After all Arjan told you, you owed her your life. She didn't respond. But her eyes had moved from your face and were now directed at the boots still on your bed. As battered as ever, Blaugrana laces snapped and re-tied in several places, swatch still visible on the tongue. Maybe you thought that your meeting would be a bit more romantic, not asâŠtense? She stroked one of the boots gently with her finger, seemingly lost in a trance. âAleâŠ?â âYou have a habit of not telling me important things.â Whatever you expected it wasnt that. âQuĂ©?â âThat you speak Spanish, how you feel, I donât know⊠that your trapped in a fucking avalanche.â youâd seen her angry before, youâd seen that anger directed at you, but this felt worse. It was directed through you. She kept her distance when all you wanted to do was hold her close. âHow could you do that? How could you let us speak knowing that you were about to freeze to death and just chat to me, like it was a normal Sunday afternoon?â âIâŠI didnât want to worry youâŠâ you croaked out, you felt like a school child who was being told off by the head teacher. And you deserved it, you supposed. âI will always worry about you, por el amor de dios!!â She started to pace around the bottom of your bed, your eyes moving like they were taking in a tennis match watching her wear the ground down. â...and to think I finished that game. I slept that night at your flat. Happy, finally feeling like I almost had you back. Your mami took me home. And then, the next morning, I walked into the kitchen. And there she was, crying at the table. She could hardly tell me what had happened. And then it all fell into place. Youâd called me when you thought you were already in your grave, didnât you?â All you could do was nod, arms desperate to dry the tears tracking down her face. âIâm glad to see you.â you let out. Unsure of what else to say. âYou wonât be. I am so, so angry at you.â âI know you are buâŠâÂ
âNo, you did your speaking on that Mountain. Now you listenâ Her tears are dry now and the anger is back in her face. âI have sorted a medical flight. We leave tonight. Weâre going back to Barcelona. I donât care if you want to go back to that rainey island or not. Itâs not your choice, it's mine. You almost froze to death, you need the sun. The warm. You will come with me every day to the doctors at the club. They will monitor you. Your family will come to visit. You will go to a therapist. You will take your medication. You will not ignore your medication because you think its better to treat yourself with whatever crushed bug or mashed-up leaves you think is betterâŠ.â She stops for breath. âThat was one timeâŠâ you mumbled, referring back to the time you insisted that a crushed cucumber was better than antiseptic cream to treat a bee sting. âNope. You are still listening.â She stopped you, firmly again, but you felt her eyes softening as she took you in, â... and when we get home and you get better, we will talk. We will decide where we are building our life together, but that is one non-negotiable. It will be together. Okay?â She seems to be finished. And she's moved closer to you, close enough for you to reach out and grab her hand with your good one. You nod, and pull her hand to cup your face. âI just have one question.â you ask, seeking permission to speak. She nods as she strokes your face, tired and burnt from over-exposure. âAre these fingers still attached?â you ask, shaking your injured arm at her, âtheyâre kind of important for my plans, if you know what I meanâ you wiggle your eyebrows suggestively. Her laugh makes you think maybe you did die on that mountain, because surely, here, with her, youâre in heaven. âTe amo, idiotaâ â-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
You awoke surrounded by soft sheets and sleep-warm pillows. Your once-injured arm tweaked in pain slightly as you stretched out. You had physio later this afternoon, you thought to yourself, you had better mention it. You rolled out of bed and stumbled into the kitchen, still covered in blankets, bed hair resembling a yeti. You almost tripped up over your rucksack which was laying in the hall. Where it had been since your return to Barcelona, months ago. You hadnât been ready to unpack it quite yet. You could hear Alexia on the phone out on the balcony, and you gestured the international, âwant a drinkâ sign to her, which she shook her head at. You shrugged. God, sometimes she was so Spanish. A good Brit would never let a hot kettle go to waste. It had been months of reconnection, Alexia finally letting go of her anger as soon as you entered the flat. She broke down in your arms that first night, simultaneously telling you how angry she was at you and how much she loved you at the same time. How she had never been as scared in her life. You just dealt with it by pressing kisses into her hairline.
She'd made you sit in the sun of the balcony every chance she got. Morning, Noon and Night. Moving you around to chase the rays. Insisting that you needed the warmth and vitamins of the sun to recover. The image of you pale, cold and frozen in the hospital in Nepal seared into her mind. When Mapi and Ingrid visited Mapi teased you, and had taken to calling you Bagheera. She said you resembled her cat, chasing the sun to lounge in at every occasion. She quickly stopped when Alexia slapped the back of her head. You no longer had to hide your relationship. Alexia had blown the doors off that as she went to the media in order to get the resources to save you. The feeling of claustrophobia that had made you flee from Barcelona had gone. You knew what being trapped really felt like now. And how you ever thought the love of your life and a shared life in this sun-drenched city was suffocating. Well. That was a different person to who you were now. Yeah, you would always love the outdoors. But you had an anchor now. Something that made you maybe not scale that next peak, and instead be excited to share a recipe with. Maybe not stay on the trail for an extra week, and instead pick out a good film to settle down to. Your mum was over the moon. Sheâd been a regular visitor. You thought sheâd be upset, when you decided to stay in Spain instead of going back to England but she seemed offended by the idea. âThat girl saved your life you stupid woman, of course will stay here with her.â Alexia didnât accept it so easily. She was worried you would feel trapped again, that she wasnât compromising. She would rather move with you than lose you. âAle. Barna is your life.â you had replied, simply, â...and you are mine.â âIt is not!â she had refused, aghast at the suggestion until you said, âUnited will have me, so will City, my agent has checked, I would even go to the Championship and play for Newcastle, I look great in black!â âAle, you literally have a floor tile tattooed on your back. Weâre staying here.â you said, deadpan. And she couldnât say much to that. So, much to the despair of every football fan in England. She signed a new contract with Barcelona not two weeks ago. Maybe it was how settled you felt this morning, as the kettle boiled. The soreness in your muscles after the night you spent together in bed, which must be why your shoulder was straining now. Maybe you'd keep that away from the physio. Though, maybe heâd be happy to hear that your fingers were definitely fully recovered. Not as happy as Alexia was though, you'd bet. But something about this morning made you brave enough to finally open that rucksack in the hallway. As you zipped it open your fingers caught on a single piece of cardboard. A postcard. You flipped it over as arms encircled your waist and gentle lips kissed your shoulder. âCarino?â she asked, looking at the postcard in your hands. âI never got to give you this.â you whispered, as you held the postcard over your shoulder, she let you go as she turned it in her hands. She let out a barking laugh as she moved towards the fridge where 6 other postcards sat proudly, waiting for their 7th to complete the set. A woman in a bikini, sat on a yak wearing a cowboy hat, the imposing structure of Everest in the background. A speech bubble coming out of her mouth âIâve seen biggerâ. Alexia rolled her eyes at you as she stuck it to the fridge with a magnet showing the message you wrote all those months ago.
âAle, Iâm here.Â
One more summit and Iâll be on my way back to you. For good. How can I say it in your language? âItâs coming homeâ.Â
fin.Â
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