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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 months ago

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Look what we've become.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #Initially I wanted to do a 'Mutiny' quote to follow the 'Luck runs out' quote.#But the musical earworms demanded a different blood to be drawn. And I think it works just as well.#Alright. It's time to confess something. I really struggled with this comic. I didn't want to draw it. Then I didn't want to upload it.#Because I knew I would be here in the tags writing and backspacing for hours trying to articulate my thoughts.#I'm going to talk about death and grief in the tags today so this is your WARNING to look away if you aren't in a headspace for it.#Sometimes in media there are scenes and characters which land on topics so specific to your wounds that it reopens them all over again.#Because here's the truth. When you've known someone like this for nearly your whole life...it doesn't matter how bad the fight is.#You always think 'We'll always have time. One day this dust will settle and we'll rebuild the bridge.'#And then the fucker dies!!! He dies and suddenly there will never ever be time to repair the rift.#Someone you loved died thinking you hated them. And part of you did just a bit. But love and hate aren't mutually exclusive.#He's fucking dead and you are left with so many broken and unfinished pieces between the two of you.#Jiang Cheng loses Wei Wuxian thinking that WWX thought they hated each other.#He's a younger brother who will one day be older than the person he lost.#Who has no one else in the world who understands those feelings of love and hate and grief.#I can't be normal about this character. I don't think he even heals me. Zero catharsis to be gained here.#I just look at his sour grape ass and think 'shit that's a little too close to home.' JC is my discomfort character.#I'm probably going to regret being this vulnerable in the tags in like. An hour. So. sorry if you see this once and never again.#EDIT: Yeah sorry this took 4 hours to muster the courage to post. Surprise update!#EDIT 2: You guys were being too nice to me on my sad comic to point out the spelling error. I have fixed it now B'*)

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apostaterevolutionary · 2 months ago

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Okay can I be a bitter Anders fan for like. Just 2 minutes here lmao

Cause bioware released some game stats for veilguard and apparently 72% of players redeemed Solas which is like. Okay yeah the game kinda pushes you towards that. But when I think of all the shit I used to have to put up with just for enjoying Anders like at all and…

(This is not me being anti-Solas, I do not care if you love or hate him, but I am gonna say what he’s done is like. Objectively worse than literally every other companion so lmao. And that’s fine! You can still enjoy him! I’m not saying you can’t and it’s important to me that people understand that! I’m just saying he did in fact do objectively morally worse things in game than Anders did and I don’t think that’s really debatable. And I can’t really make my point here without saying that but I do want to make it clear this is not some moral condemnation of Solas enjoyers cause it’s not)

Getting anon hate on the regular, being told “oh you’re allowed to like Anders as long as you regularly talk about how much he sucks”, people gleefully describing how much fun they have killing him ON your posts about the fact that you like him, the devs making jokes about shitty fates for him when fans asked innocent questions about him, the absolute audacity of his writer to say half the shit she did in interviews (about bisexuality and mental illness, most critically), and then being beaten over the head again in inquisition about how Anders is the worst character to ever exist and there’s no redemption for terrorists who lie to you one time in the entire game and he deserves death or worse and that’s it

And now… 72% of people are down to redeem the guy who lies to you for 2 games straight and who did a lot of questionable things that includes creating the fucking blight and. Like. I guess I’m glad that Solas fans can live in a world where they aren’t constantly harassed and can give their ship like. A pretty damn good ending all things considered. And that the devs love Solas and actually give the option for that happy ending and have characters go to bat for Solas throughout the game and the most annoying thing they have to see are people making scrambled egg memes. I would not wish anyone to have to deal with the shit Anders fans had to put up with back then cause it sucked. It really sucked. And I’m glad it’s not being repeated with a different character, if nothing else

But like. Man there really is a difference when the writers actually like the character who does the thing, huh

#shut up nerd #anders #I’m sorry it’s just. really hard to not be bitter tbh #like the shit we as fans went through #just for liking a damn character #tbf I do actually think if the game came out today perceptions would be different #I think people would be more comfortable with revolutionary action now than they were then #but even still #it’s not even about that you know #it’s about people (both fans and at times the actual devs) being mean when they really didn’t need to be #and the DA trenches are probably why literally no harassment phases me anymore lmao but #that’s not a good thing slskd it’s just a useful consequence I guess #so yeah idk #am I jealous that Solas fans get to have a better experience?#yeah I can’t deny I feel a bit of that #but I’m also just. idk tired and sad for what that time was. and also glad that it seems to be over #but also a little bitter that I had to go through it when it didn’t need to happen at all #idk just feeling a lot here in this chili’s tonight lmao #(why do I say that I don’t think my country even has chili’s)#ANYWAY #dragon age #veilguard spoilers

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autisticaradiamegido · 2 months ago

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day 356

yall remember arasolfef?

i remember arasolfef

#day 356 #year 5 #sollux captor #aradia megido #feferi peixes #homestuck #arasolfef #the og poly trio for 15yo me #the first time i looked at people treating three characters like a love triangle and went #'hold on now i think there is another solution here'#momentous for my personal development honestly #and for the fandom youths Yes back in the day there was a not insignificant amt of fancontent #that pitted aradia and feferi against each other for this shit #or at the very least a lot of like...#'ohh poor ghost aradia must feel so very sad and dejected bc sollux has CHOSEN FEFERI OVER HER....'#and i for one am glad we as a fandom have moved past this #to be entirely fair to everyone back then tho. it was 2011. i think we were all just a little bit worse in 2011 #yknow due to it being. 2011.

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dimension-20-every-introduction · 9 months ago

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Everyone Introduced in Dimension 20's Fantasy High: Junior Year episode 17

#dimension 20 spoilers #dimension 20 #d20 introductions #fhjy #fantasy high junior year #d20 fhjy #MAN what a ride #almost missed that ruben had a new intro card variant too. god bless the transcript search #that large ankarna was art scrolling on screen that i couldn't get in one go‚ so i put a few screencaps together to make that one #of which you can definitely see the lines of because it was actively glowing and moving which was VERY cool but hard to catch smoothly #i think if cait may posts the full Clean shot of ankarna themself i'll reblog that one too for posterity #(this one is also very off center because i had a corner of blank left over because i had to shift one of them to the side #because she was moved just a little bit to the side too #also MANNNNN that scene with bucky and kristen that was so sweet...... i'm really glad she's finally got the time to talk with him #he really needed it #GORGEOUS art this episode..... and oh god this next one is going to have me SO stressed #A BLUE DRAGON ATTACKING THE SHIP?? ALL THE VOTES NEEDING TO BE AT THE SCHOOL BY MIDNIGHT?????#lord HELP me #things are not going to go well i can feel it.#also sad that oisin might turn out to be a Very Not Good guy after all 😭#listen a dragonborn enjoyer can dream #also INSANE. INSANE THAT THE BAD GUY THIS WHOLE TIME WAS #i shan't say. but good GOD i can't believe it #shout out to notoriousmasc who got it right away like WEEKS ago

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quartxio · 10 months ago

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velzie's fondness for repetition is truly nauseating

#corru.observer #corru.observer bozko #bozko my beloved... im a little sad there's not as many fanarts of him so i had to make a little something for my favorite guy #tried to emulate the feel of the disco elysium portraits here but it was a bit tough since i'm unsure how to exactly visualize-#-how light would cast itself over bozko's face #anyway go play corru.observer lol #corru.observer fanart #my art

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teddybeartoji · 3 months ago

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thank you everybody who crossed their fingers and toes bc aventurine AND acheron are now both safely at home:3333333333

#the amount of tickets i went through?#let's not talk abt that #i also got six sampo's #and like eight (??) pela's #(i was about to fucking kill somebody i don'T EVEN USE HERRRR LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEE LITTLE LADY)#and then tingyun and hanya and yukong (2x)#and gepard #who is cute but at the moment i was not that happy bc he was standing between me and my wife😠😠😠😠#i feel like i'm forgetting someone lmao #anyway #acheron was playing hard to get i do feel just a bit sad bc i am so low on tickets now and i kinda wanted her lc too #and idk whether i should still try to get it or not............................#my brother pulled her for me btw😭😭😭#i was losing hope but then he came into my room to talk abt his day and i was like okok . i need you to just push this button for me #AND IT ONLY TOOK TWOOOOO PULLS #😭😭😭😭😭😭#everybody say thank you mickey's little brother we love you mickey's little brother #i can't even use her rn though bc i can't get a good relic set for her lmao #I CAN USE AVENTURINE THOUUUGHHH AND HE'S SOO SOO GOOD EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I LOVE ITTTT #mmmm i should probably level up tingyun too right i've heard that she's good #i'm facing another very difficult decision now though bc................. i love jy...........................#but how many lightning charas do i need...................... if firefly is really getting a rerun at the same time........................#i might....................................... prioritize her.....................................#I HATE ITTTTT:(((((((((((((((#BUT I WANT JY TOOOO:(((((((((((((((((((#genuinely feels like i'm betraying him wahhhhhhhhh #anyway i'm in (what i hope) are my period feelings so hhhhhhhhhh #dying over and over again but dw i'll be back on my regular bs soon:333333 #mayor of loserville

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cowboysmp3 · 9 months ago

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watching laios/kabru take over farcille is like watching a beautiful diverse ecosystem slowly wither away and die

#sorry im a little mean about this #HOWWW IS THIS HAPPENING #i already have some evil gripes with laios and kabru but like. not in a way where i actually care #i just dont find it an interesting pairing ngl and feel a bit petty over how its taken over #i have like 0 superiority bc i only read the manga like a month or two before the anime came out #but i have been around the dunmeshi fan spaces for far longer #idk the shift from being so focused on the women of dunmeshi to now the men is a little sad #its so unserious but also. what if it is serious #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #farcille

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redladydeath · 11 months ago

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this might be a bit ooc, but hc that vox has a history of getting caught up in the moment and accidentally sharing deeply personal information about himself with both alastor and valentino. it always comes back to bite him, since neither of them have any scruples whatsoever about using that information against him in petty (or not so petty) arguments. he can never stop himself though. love makes you stupid and impulsive.

#this isn't meant to be an uwu feel bad for vox headcanon #dude just talks too much and forgets to have a filter with the guys he likes #but i can't figure out a way to phrase it that doesn't sound at least a little bit sad #man who doesn't trust anyone can't stop himself from inadvertently trusting the worst people on the planet #val has like. a mental catalogue of all of vox's sore spots that he's impulsively revealed over the years #it makes it very easy for val to be absolutely cutting in an argument if he wants to be #hazbin hotel #vox #staticmoth #radiostatic #radiosilence #kind of #redlady speaks #i feel like i need to watch the show again #i guess that's one good thing about this season being so short; rewatching it isn't that much of a time investment #hazbin posting

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year ago

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sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye

#cats #love the second picture... skrungly sleepy well rested boye face...#since he's an elderly boy now sometimes when he wakes up from a nap he looks a bit scruffy and squinty eyed #Hard to beleive he's like 15 though.. he still looks like a kitten to me.. due to his giant round creature eyes and childlike demeanor #I think it's interesting that like... baby cats are babies. kittens are kittens. and you can tell a cat is like 'young adult' phase #looking from like a few months to maybe 1yr or 2yrs.. but after that they just always look the same to me #a 5 yr old cat is a 10 yr old cat is a 15 year old cat. unless the cat in question is particulalry aged or youthful #I still have so so little energy... it's been icy here this week. like not even FUN but just scary icy even thoguh i lOOOVE the cold #and its my favorite weather. I think it'd be okay actually if I had a woodburning stove/fireplace/hearth thing. literally thats my only #concern with the power going out. I genuinely don't mind stuff like having to go to the bathroom in buckets or cook over a fire or do other #less conveninet things. Its just that if eveyrhtng is electric then you have no way to cook and all of that. well.. and I literally need #background noise to go to sleep lest my ocd sprials become so loud I am slowly driven into maddness.. but a few battery packs or something #and a phone with one downloaded video I could play on repeat is fine for that. I dont need internet. ANYWAY.. so so sad that my fav #orite season ever (winter) is here. and the first cold of the winter is like... just an ice storm that you cant even walk in. I #love like 4 feet of snow where you can play in it and stuff. But just a thin flat sheet of a few inches of ice over every imaginable surfac #is not really playable. the wind speeds are so high and so many trees fall it's actually not that safe to go hang out outside anyway unless #you were in a totally clear open field. which is SAD also because i love ice and high winds. i love to stand out there and get whipped in t #he face with ice crystals and feel like I'm in some dramatic movie or something. but alas.. the threat of being attacked by a falling tree.#I did go out some but again it's like. literallyyou cant walk on it. so I just squatted and dragged myself along the ground lol #One of my stories has a whole section where the main characters are trapped in a deadly cold environment for a week and have to use magic #to survive and etc. etc. so I'm always like.. ouuu.. I should go in the ice.. it's Writing Research actually.. *foolishly gets frostbite*#THOUGH yesterday I went on a harrowing evil journey down a bunch of icy hilly roads to go check on some person's cat because the cat #had been left in the house for like 5 days at that point with nobody to check on them and nobody else seemed to want to do anything #about it (like call all of the neighbors or try to get someone out there) so I just went myself with a roommate who agreed to drive me.#It seemed acting totally normal and I gave it more food and water but.. I am still worried about it.. Apparently the person will be able #to get back to their house tomorrow but.. I dont trust them. But I couldnt take the cat with me because it's like.. a stranger's cat #basically and also no carrier + very skittish.. so I feared if I just tried to carry them bare handed they'd definitely leap from my grasp #and then it'd be like.. sliding on a sheet of ice chasing a cat and so on.. I still think they need to be watched for health issues tho >:|#ANYWAY.... many cat adventures lately... and strange weather... I wish for a normal week without always so many Things Happening.. augh

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rarilight · 8 months ago

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one day I’m actually going to grab everything I went through last year and pour it into a raritwi breakup fic where they don’t get back together and I don’t do my usual thing where I hint there’s hope for them

And I think that will probably be a very emotional and good fic but also it’ll probably be incredibly crushing more than anything Ive ever done so honestly maybe we should all be grateful I haven’t written it yet

#I’ve been listening to JP Saxe’s ‘A Little Bit Yours’#and i can feel it clawing at me #‘all i do is get over you and I’m so bad at it’#‘maybe if I’d said the right things it never would have gone this way’#‘but maybe that’s the problem cause I still kinda think it was up to me’#‘when I never could have made you stay’#rarity moves away from ponyville because everything is twilight #and she sees twilight just lock it out block it out put it away in a box and move on #and rarity can’t #and she tries #and tries #and a thousand miles away #in the dark of the night #the silence staring her down #she has to live with the idea that twilight got over her like that #that twilight probably already let go long long ago #and yet rarity is there knowing still she’d kill if twilight asked her to #and there’s no victory in that #no poetry or muse #no beauty #it’s just sad and pathetic and a masochism and so self centered #to cling to the hope that twilight still loves her or needs her when she knows it’s not true and it never will be #and the element of generosity wonders when her core got twisted #when generosity and caring and giving became erasing yourself for some pony else #and maybe one day it’ll stop #maybe one day she’ll be fine #but for now #she quietly makes peace with a simple fact #that even if twilight sparkle isn’t hers anymore and never will be again #at least for now rarity is still a little bit twilight’s

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vee-lociraptor · 3 months ago

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#i think sometimes i forget im like. allowed to be upset when major things happen to me #i keep being like “haha why do i feel so bad all the time all of a sudden?”#moron one of your pets died earlier this week #and its normal when other people are sad and get grief but also when i do it it's cringe #i genuinely think isat's helped me out a little bit bc it gave me siffrin who is. very much like me in a lot of ways #so now whenever im doing this i have to go “hey this is siffrin isat inner monologue. would you be upset with siffrin for this?”#and it's never anything i would be upset with siffrin isat over. which admittedly does help a bit #sorry for the vent im just. dfghjkl #cw pet death #tw pet death #vent post #sorry

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spear-carrier-number-three · 28 days ago

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the rampant kant hate in this fandom isn't surprising but it is exasperating.

#Not only the hate #But the complete unwillingness to even try to understand him #Disappointing if I'm honest #Not surprising but disappointing #The heart killers #This character and performance is wasted on too much of this fandom and that's just sad #kant pattanawat #People say they want nuance and moral ambiguity but I'm beginning to think that only characters they like are allowed it #The rest get put into little boxes labeled bad and good and anything that conflicts with that opinion is ignored #And I think it's fine to hate characters for whatever reason but the constant hatred for only one in a group of jerks is baffling #I just feel like fandom tends to center its morality discourse on one character and it's exhausting #Character A is beloved and can do no wrong and when they do wrong there's a reason. They are allowed nuance and sympathy #However if character B upsets them they are evil and bad and any nuance is disregarded and sympathy is gone #Even when we're being hit over the head with their imo very sympathetic reasons for doing what they're doing #And I'm really new here but there does seem to be a bit of #A pattern #For who gets the sympathy and excuses for doing wrong and who does not #And that's not even touching on the hate first himself is getting because that is truly unhinged #People doing that should be ashamed of themselves - first is not kant and khaotung is not Bison and people should know that

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colinfeatherington · 8 months ago

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I have very mixed feelings!! I think it’s hard for me to say how I actually feel because the hype was so intense and my intial feelings are probably skewed but I’m kinda disappointed right now. would love to hear others thoughts and have my opinion swayed!

#bridgerton #polin #LOVED the first two episodes #loved what they did with eloise and portia #going to be honest didn’t love the little speech at the end #or the final ball looks for polin #they looked good just not my faves of the season #I feel like the side plots were balanced both better and worse then part 1? idk they feel like such tonally different seasons #there’s a lot that I love it’s just hard to balance it in my mind #a bit miffed about some of the colin/polin stuff #I’m still sad about the wedding night and how long it took him to get over the jealousy thing #but the song choices and wedding dress were so beautiful #idk why does part 2 feels so different maybe it’s the different cast of characters interacting and new sets #it just is hard for me to connect it to the other part

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jils-things · 10 months ago

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to love someone is to heal someone

#~ art #💚 memoryshipping #ignore tags if youre just here for the art and not me going full diary mode #anyways ... this is a little personal to me #especially with how i treat her here. i think this is a direct projection of how i'm feeling right now #today has been a little harsh on me - maybe a little painful even #i'm okay now - because i resolved it. albeit harboring some bits of anger to it but its not worth fighting about anymore #its hard to say that i'm - very optimistic so to speak because it's only one pillar i just jumped over and there will be more later #and this is me coping with it and im lucky to have mustered some energy to at least express it through drawing #i havent been drawing much for myself and it makes me sad because its my source of happiness #my time for drawing is being repurposed for other stuff right now and it still is and i dont feel entirely happy doing it unfortunately #i still have many things i want to follow up on my drawing list especially in my recent interests peaking again #but i resorted for now to making something im already used to. stevaide lol fgsjsddsjjsdjkghsdjgdjkhskjghshsgsasjhjsjksdjfhsfasgs corny ass #rest assured im at a somewhat relaxed state right now. throwing boops here and there calmed me down because theres people around me #who ig thinks im cool eajdhajhd #ahh anyway

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magichats · 2 months ago

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On the one hand, Kind of bummed out that the OG soundtrack isn't coming to the Steam / Switch port of OFF

but on the other hand it doesn't seem like the freeware version is going anywhere and it's not as if you can't find the OG sountrack.

I will do my best to be open minded and the new soundtrack might also be great, but it really is that one thing spoken about with translation in those Legends of Localization Books RE: How people feel about translations they're more familiar with vs newer ones. Except rather than the translation it's the soundtrack and how much effect the soundtrack has on the game

#OFF #I was one of the people who played one of the 2.0 versions of OFF #Which is definitely *A* version of OFF with regards to interesting translation choices #I've been meaning to getting around to playing the 3.0 translation but that might sit on the back burner given the new port / translation #It's a little sad but also checks out if ACC and Mortis Ghost haven't been on speaking terms for quite some time that it wouldn't happen #I know the music will be good it's just gonna feel a little weird partially because It's some big shoes that ACC left in terms of OST #It's kind of wild that OFF is a bit like cavestory now with a freeware translation and an official translation #i suppose the one big difference is that Cavestory was all one guy so the soundtrack could carry over near 1-1 #while OFF wasn't a one-person deal (though a very very small team all things considered)

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theflyingfeeling · 9 months ago

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...😭

#i've never had a job in my own field that i've liked as much as i've liked my current one #the semester is ending soon and today i heard my contract will not be renewed bc the person i'm substituting will return to work after all #i've been feeling so tired and a bit poorly after the nokia arena show and i probably should have called in sick today #as i was absolutely useless today #and then after my only class today my students came to me with a gift?? 😭#a pink enamel moomin mug and some chocolate and a paper on which they had written nice things about me + a drawing of a dachshund 😭#and i burst to tears right there in front of them because i was so touched (and also because i'm just really really tired and emotional)#i'm so tired about having to apply for new jobs and having to start all over again #i'm so tired of having to do shitty short-notice substitutions again #i feel like i deserve better than that but on the other hand i fee like life's giving me exactly what i deserve and maybe this is it #i'm dreading the summer because idk if i'll have a job to go to in the autumn #and even if i did find something it won't be like the job i have now #also. it's may day eve and the weather's lovely #and i'm hiding in my apartment with the curtains closed so i won't see all the people going out and having fun with their friends #for me may day eve has never been like that. i've always felt so very excluded from those celebrations #on top of that i got yelled at by a bus driver and i'm the worst friend that ever existed #i'm trying to quit on whining about my sad little life but it gets so lonely #please know i'm not writing this for attention or pity. i know y'all have problems of your own and i'm just being a dramatic crybaby

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