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rarilight · 6 months ago

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one day I’m actually going to grab everything I went through last year and pour it into a raritwi breakup fic where they don’t get back together and I don’t do my usual thing where I hint there’s hope for them

And I think that will probably be a very emotional and good fic but also it’ll probably be incredibly crushing more than anything Ive ever done so honestly maybe we should all be grateful I haven’t written it yet

#I’ve been listening to JP Saxe’s ‘A Little Bit Yours’#and i can feel it clawing at me #‘all i do is get over you and I’m so bad at it’#‘maybe if I’d said the right things it never would have gone this way’#‘but maybe that’s the problem cause I still kinda think it was up to me’#‘when I never could have made you stay’#rarity moves away from ponyville because everything is twilight #and she sees twilight just lock it out block it out put it away in a box and move on #and rarity can’t #and she tries #and tries #and a thousand miles away #in the dark of the night #the silence staring her down #she has to live with the idea that twilight got over her like that #that twilight probably already let go long long ago #and yet rarity is there knowing still she’d kill if twilight asked her to #and there’s no victory in that #no poetry or muse #no beauty #it’s just sad and pathetic and a masochism and so self centered #to cling to the hope that twilight still loves her or needs her when she knows it’s not true and it never will be #and the element of generosity wonders when her core got twisted #when generosity and caring and giving became erasing yourself for some pony else #and maybe one day it’ll stop #maybe one day she’ll be fine #but for now #she quietly makes peace with a simple fact #that even if twilight sparkle isn’t hers anymore and never will be again #at least for now rarity is still a little bit twilight’s

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