#I fcking love vampires

[moth-bells]

I cant get vampire brian out of my head Like imagining him being a vampire before he ends up how he does, and he doesnt want to hurt anyone, so he used to steal from hospitals and blood banks to get what he needed Until Tim finds out about him and tentatively offers to help And when shit hits the fan, Tim hasnt seen Brian at anypoint that he remembers, but hes seen that hooded motherfucker. He thinks Brian is gone for good.. Until theres a knock on his door. Tim answers it, not sure what hes gonna find, but he sure as shit didnt expect the guy with the hood and ski mask to collapse into his house. And hes freaked out, but this bastard isnt in any condition to hurt anyone. So he drags him in and hears the guy mumbling something. Tim cant hear a single god damn word the guy is saying, so he finally nuts up and pulls the mask up. At first, he doesnt recognize the man, but up and up that mask goes until he's horrified to see a too pale face. Its Brian. He looks like shit, like the time Tim found him and he hadnt managed to get any blood bags to drink from. Tim knows exactly what this is and like that he doesnt give a shit what Brian's done, hes unbuttoning his shirt to expose more of his throat. Brian's bordering on delirious, but Tim can hear him now. "No..I can't...I'll kill you.." Tim doesnt reply to that at first as he's sitting down on the floor and dragging his friend to sit up more. He's pressing Brian's face into his neck, letting him feel the heat of blood and the thumping of his heart. Buh-dum Buh-dum Buh-dum

"I dont care."

[yumedoca]

Just realized that Pete was wearing a literal Batman T-shirt in this chapter...

[adolins-heart]

Very confused abt the occasional posts I see arguing over whether Louis and Armand or Louis and Lestat are healthier/better/whatever. Gang they're not healthy. These are some toxic vampires that's the fcking APPEAL. the emotion, the connection, the obsession, the skewed worldviews and moralities. That's what it's ABOUT

[nerdie-faerie]

Imagine you get turned into a vampire but then you're little sibling - who is still a teenager! - get turned as well so now you're stuck in an eternal, endless cycle of siblings rivalry amplified by all the supernatural bullshit in your life. And when you're trying to figure out the latest said bullshit instead of your ex coming back into town and breaking your heart all over again, you're annoying little brother basically laughs in your face when he suggests the answer is 'ninja turtles'

[300iqprower]

My phone: *goes into sleep mode for 1 milisecond*

Vampire Survivors:

[tonycries]

okay so,, hot take time actually BUT!

my favorite fics you've written are actually the ones with LESS smut (not zero,,, but less) and more plot/fluff. they're the ones that are the most memorable to me personally,,, the ones i go back to re-read,,

gojo fixing seven minutes in heaven to get a chance with student council president... gojo fixing a raffle (or faking it) to get you a maldives honeymoon... vampire gojo pretending not to be who he actually is... poor fcking choso just trying to get laid in That Family... gojo breaking bro code (that he made up himself) to fuck geto's sister...

like wow in retrospect he rlly is a desperate whore with no honor XD he will lie cheat and steal for your pussy. i respect that so hard. maybe my gojo bias is showing but you do also write a lot of gojo oneshots sdkjfhglsdfg

but yeah anyways. that's one of the reasons i'm really interested in seeing more of the madam gojo stuff. like i absolutely write your smut but when you write other stuff you really pop off imo!! keep winning!

AWW lovely you just made me have so many flashbacks with those ahhh 🥺💕

And YES LMFAO even when I don't even try to make him that way, the Gojo in my head is just inherently..........like that.

Also RAHHH thank youuu sm, honestly longfics that rely on plot are deffo my favorites to write. Don't get me wrong I loooove writing straight up smut n' my Tonussy approves, but something about making Gojo suffer is so 😵‍💫

Eheh also surprise surprise I was JUST working on the new Madam Gojo chapter 👀

[ineedjesusverymuch]

Diabolik lovers headcanons pt. 4

Hi! After that huge response my other post got, I decided to write more/be more active on here. I really enjoy writing my thoughts on just about anything regarding dl out and it makes me happy that so many people liked my post!

Although that big of a response was quite a shock. Seemed that I did not, in fact, yell into the void that time :).

Though I am not sure if that post did anything different, I'll continue posting on here no matter how big the response is. If I can make even one person happy with those posts, (including me) I'll keep on writing those silly headcanons of vampires that do not exist. :)

I am going to focus more on the mukamis and Yui in this post since the last one was almost only the Sakamakis.

⚠anything triggering will be marked like this: ❗trigger❗

⚠I am going to briefly discuss childhood trauma and depression.

As always, I'll try to stay at least a little bit true to the source material.

Asks are always appreciated!

This time, I rambled quite a bit about Azusa ':)

headcanons under the cut⬇

Firstly, Yui. Our dear heroine who deserves just about everything!

Really good at dancing those old, classical ballroom dances. She had a few lessons by Ayato (who spent the entire time giving his best not stomping on Yui's feet) and Reiji (whose lesson was the most horrifying experience she had ever had)

After those lessons, she refined her skills. Ayato is quite a good dancer, so she had someone to practice with.

Her best dances are waltz and rumba

Ayato is literally not physically able to stop watching her when dancing together. Never has he seen someone that beautiful (I stand by Ayato being totally besottet by Yui)

Her style is so coquetteish, old fairy tale princess, etherial soul, cottage core - genuinely dresses like a pinterest board

Really fcking pretty??? I don't get why the boys humble her all the time

Immune to pretty boys/play boys. She has seen it all.

really adores bunnies. Lionheads? She'd like a dozen of them.

Had at one point a guinea pig. It died and her father buried it and told her that a fairy had taken it to be her loyal companion. Yui believed it until she was like 16 years.

Her hair has those light curls and feels like the softest thing ever

The clasp in her hair is not the only flowery hair adornment she has, Yui loves to wear different clasps on special occasions

Definitely got gifted a hair pin with rose details from Subaru at one point

Best friends with Subaru. They like to spend quality time caring for his flowers and Yui is allowed to brush his hair on tare occasions.

Shu tried to teach her the violin once and she was horrible at it (but flute was her thing)

Has those shirts with horribly kitsch prints on them but no one says anything to her because she loves them so much

She has thought a lot about her faith since being with the Sakamakis. Read a lot about her god and the different religions.

Has though about studying theology and psychology in University

collects squishmallows

wears those light perfumes that smell like vanilla and flowers occasionally

Everyone turns their head when they first see Yui

Etherial beauty

Smells like vanilla. It's because she uses those body lotions and a lightly scented hair mist

Ayato goes mad at the smell

Ayato genuinely loves Yui. Just her, living her life. He adores her.

Also; Ayato is a himbo.

Dumb and dumber duo

Subaru teaches her material art as defense for anything coming at her

Natural at fighting

Decked Ayato in the face once as he materialized out of thin air behind her

Knocked him unconscious

Laito laughed for literal hours at the though of Ayato getting knocked out by Yui

Her dream is living in peace with eveyone she loves

Had an actual talk with Ayato at some point. They are a healthy couple now (No, I do not care about the canon. They're in love your highness)

Goes to therapy. She decided to after nightmares regarding her early days with the boys

Also, scared that Cordelia will come back at one point and take her body over completely

Yui is the nicest person ever

Will talk with you about everything you'd like

Gentle soul.

Gives great hugs?? Knows how to comfort someone who's feeling bad

She's not only good at baking but also at making those highly decorated cakes and cupcakes. Kanato begs her for themed cupcakes as soon as autumn starts and Halloween decorations appear

next, Ruki.

Eats way too much dark chocolate

We're talking about two entire bars minimum a day

Coffee junkie

Has a disproportionately large consume of anything caffeinated

Wears the same crusty, dry eyeliner since 1990

Refuses to buy a new one since "the old one still works" (it does not)

flirts with Reiji. Its so obvious that even Yuma has realized it

(Reiji is oblivious to it)

Academically speaking, really good at the natural sciences.

Fcking sucks at english though

Studies quite a lot, Ruki despises being on the same level as Reiji

Bad loser

Will be sulky after losing a game of Uno

Definitely cheats at card games

Really good at annoying Reiji. It's such a high level of annoying, he could give courses on the matter

Really good older brother

Checks on the other Mukami brothers when Ruki sees them struggeling with their pasts

Will check in every night if Azusa or Kou are plagued by nightmares

Has nightmares about the orphanage

❗sometimes wakes up scared that his brothers are actually dead and can only calm down after checking that each one is still alive

❗Definitely scared of anything happening to his brothers, he has panic attacks just thinking about that night

reads self help books

Has at least one "how to raise unruly children" book on his shelves

Culinary mastermind

But also makes the weirdest combinations of foods? Why would anyone like to taste jam with cucumbers and pepper????

now, Kou

Likes those really creepy stuffed toys

really good at drawing winged eyeliner

Has worn pink mascara and it looked so fcking good???

Hugest crush on Subaru

Flirts with him but the dear boy does not recognize romantic affection even when it slaps him in the face

Almost fainted riding the first time on Subaru's motorcycle

The scariest thing since really long

Wears really dangly, long earrings

With the weirdest motifs

Has one pair that has clams that can open. The pearls inside them glow in the dark.

his stomach is a bottomless pit. The first time he came over to spend a night at the Sakamaki's, Reiji was genuinely afraid that they had nit enough food to last to breakfast

Laito and he binged the Kardashians

Loves gossip. Knows everything about everyone

Makes rad nail art

Loves styling Azusa. Its their quality time, combined with trying those really spicy crisps

huge energy drink consumer

Helps him trough those sleepless nights were Kou stays up and chats with Laito the whole night through the phone

quite good at learning historical facts

Due to Kou's eye, he can see truths and lies in humans. But he is also really good at deciphering the human psyche.

Doesn't always use his eye. Sometimes, just Kou's knowledge of psychology is enough to recognize lies

There are some headcanons that Kou is italian. I agree with that. I can really image him enjoying the culture and the food. Also, I read a headcanon once that Kou's real name was Emilio. (If someone knows the name of the OP, please tell me)

Now, our vegetable freak: Yuma!

loves scrunchies and hair claw clips

Got one from Kanato once and uses them since

Also, I propose: Yuma with those hair claw clips in butterfly shape. Gifted by Kou as a joke

but now, he always wears them

Kanato braids his hair in really elaborate hair styles. Bridal style vibes. Kou thinks its the funniest thing ever

Shu loves toying with his hair when bored. It's just so soft and smells really good (Yuma uses Kou's shampoo on the regular. It causes quite a lot of fights)

took 1 (one) "Am I Gay" quiz. It came out a hundred percent positive. The next day, he confessed to Shu. They've been together ever since

Feeds the birds on the porch of their house every morning, together with Azusa

Actually really educated about current politics (at least the ones in Romania. But knows quite a lot about the USA and Japan, too)

Will start fights with Ruki about politics during dinner

If you ever want to hear angry romanian yelling, just go to the Mukami house during elections

Cares for every houseplant in their house

Brings at least two new plants per week at home. Ruki is on the brink of forbidding Yuma from accessing his monthly allowance

wears really shitty clothes. I'm talking thousand times stitched together trousers. They look like potatoes sacks but he refuses to get new ones

Has a toolbelt that looks atrocious

He wears it almost every day

The dirtiest shoes known to mankind

So dirty with soil and just about anything you can find in nature

Ruki gets daily aggressions about the spots on their carpet, since Yuma thinks changing shoes just for going inside is stupid

Wears the most amazing eyeliner but it is actually just old as fuck eyeshadow and mascara

He makes it look good

Has the longest lashes known to humankind

Brown skin due to being outside so much

Disneyprincess in secret

loves those huge dogs

now, Azusa!!

jesus that boy can be seductive

No, I wont elaborate

That was a lie, I will elaborate on anything with Azusa. He has the art of subtle flirting refined to mastery

Tried to flirt with Kanato. But Kanato thought he was being made fun of

Great at subtle makeup

Also; great dancer. Especially latin dances such as cha-cha-cha or salsa

He has those hips (breedable, as some folks would say)

Canonically doesn't like peppers

That doesn't apply to stuffed peppers with spices though

Great at remembering faces, not so great at remembering names

Can draw and paint and do art so good????

God of art

Not god of natural sciences though

Is doing alright at school but doesn't like the education system

Speaks not only romani and japanese but also a bit of English (and has the thickest british accent. No one knows where it is from and Azusa refuses to tell them that it is from watching Harry potter so often)

Colours his hair in a blue-black colour to give it more depth sometimes

Wears very pretty, light blue-ish glitter on the inner eye corner sometimes

So beautiful eyes??

Long, dark lashes

Likes to wear a bit of mascara

Naturally a defined jawline and straight nose

But a bit chubby cheeks

Is very pale but tans quite a but when longer outside in the summer. But dues to his sensitivity to heat, he'd rather stay inside

His eyes have a bit of an almond form, which gives them a sharp look, but still quite big

Azusa likes to wear too big clothes, especially hoodies and sweaters from Ruki and Yuma.

Also, cargo pants. The wide ones

Combat boots are a staple in his closet

Loves plateau boots and sneakers

Converse all stars are his to go shoes if no plateau boot is available

The shoes size him up quite a bit so the first time he met the Sakamakis, they all thought he was quite big. They all were surprised as they arrived at the Mukami home and Azusa just shrinked a few inches

Paints his fingernails in hope that he doesn't chew on them that much if they're pretty and colorful

Cuts his hair himself because he feels that his slow manner of speech annoys the staff in hair salons

But he likes the choppy style so its not as big of a problem for him

❗has a problem coping with what happened in his childhood. He canonically sh, but has frequent anxienty attacks too.

Due to that, he has a few weightened blankets and lots of pillows on his bed to simulate the feeling of getting hugged

Big hugger

His love language is physical touch

bug lover

Has a really cool sweater with the life cycle of a frog

That was it, actually. I rambled quite a bit about Azusa but I still hope you'll like it.

I hope I was able to make your day a bit better.

If you have any requests, just ask!

Thank you for reading all of that. I really appreciate you! I hope you'll have an amazing day/night!

[kings-highway]

same anon as the “fountain of youth” ヾ(๑╹◡╹)ﾉ" what kind of monsters/mythical creatures would the haikyuu characters be? (i love paranormality! (●´ω｀●))

i'll admit this one all but stumped me. there's simply too many mythological creatures and you could make a strong argument for any of them, or all of them. And no matter what I do Im going to forget some long lost lore that fits the character even better. So I've only picked ones that I feel relatively certain on, rather than trying to force for every character

1. Easiest to do is Tendou - that bitch is a satori. I don't care that Haikyuu-bu *really* wants him to be a kappa, that bitch is a satori. Leave it at that.

2. Fukunaga - lucky cat. I didn't make this up for paranormality!! Read up on it, he's based of a maneki-neko which is why he always has his hands like that. His fcking online username is "Lucky Shohei" in haikyuu-bu. his birthday is also Japan's official "maneki-neko" day. I did not pull this shit out of my ass I promise.

2. I feel really strongly about Ushijima being the Minotaur. IDK something about being imprisoned in a labyrinth you cannot escape by your fucked up family despite not having been asked to be born as you were. also I feel like he'd like mazes.

3. Tsukishima could be a sphynx. I think he'd really dig being able to laze about and then give confusingly frustrating riddles to people. Also, seems like a cat person. Also, the ancient-city vibes of a sphynx really fit the fact that he works in a museum post timeskip.

4. Hinata fits the motif fo a phoenix pretty well. Rise from the ashes, have to kill yourself to start anew, I feel like that just generally vibes with his character arcs + he fits the colour palette ha ha.

5. Oikawa would be a vampire. The problem is I'm way too familiar with global and historical vampire lore to even make this claim, there's simply *too many interpretations,* but without thinking too hard about it, my reasoning is just that he is established to be charismatic, and intellectual and I think he works with the mind compulsion aspects of vampirism, + perpetually youthful (timeskip concern?) Plus I can totally imagine Kageyama figuring this out and trying to tell people in middle school with nobody believing him.

5.5 plus if Oikawa is a vampire you can make Iwaizumi a dhampir (balkan lore regarding half-vampires, who have some vampire powers but tend to use those powers to hunt down full vampires) and I just think that vibes really well with their dynamic

6. Kita fits a kitsune really well, obviously you already know this from me, the heavy traditionalism and constant affiliation with the gods, the "ancient" sort of incomprehensible wisdom, the fact that he's a rice farmer. But honestly that's pretty easy to do. None of the other inarizaki boys fit Kitsune, though, they're all just regular fox assholes.

7. Kageyama would be a changeling. that's the autism.

8. last one. Kiyoko honestly could be a mermaid, she's got water meaning in her name plus clearly stunningly beautiful. I think it would work.

[lunian]

I dont get this Galestarion and Wyllstarion shipping war purely because it's really just about "who deserves Astarion's attention and love more", based on what I see most of the time.

Which is hella funny!

It has to be about "who is capable to handle Astarion more"

...Which is both of them, actually.

Both Wyll and Gale are so fcking blind dumb about this menace of a vampire I SWEAR TO G— *gets drugged from the stage* DONT YOU GET IT

[julietsbb]

These days I've wanted to send an ask about the latest updates because I've had a lot of rambles in my mind, so here I go as I reread some parts.

First of all, I need to mention my stupidity to you -- I'm rereading the part where they invent the 1-10 scale of numbing. When I read the last update of Pond asking for an 8, I forgot that the scale went "1 for the least sensation, 10 for the most sensation" and my line of thinking went "ah, an 8 means he wants Phuwin to breathe 8 times over his skin so it's properly numbed" so I believed that my man Pond wanted the least sensation experience after having fingers in his mouth. Still, NO, it was THE OPPOSITE, he wants PAIN and I also want PAIN for him. djafhd now I'm thinking 'wtf was in your mind, what was your logic'.

Yeah. MOVING ON.

I've had this question in my mind for a while, so I will ask you finally. I tend to overthink/over analyse, and so I'm really intrigued about what's vamp!Phuwin's mentality when it comes to Pond, and his crush on him. His thought process about Pond being his. The latest updates (will never forget the finger-in-mouth scene okay, never) increased this curiosity.

I wonder if them being actors helps with his feelings, or it actually impedes the process. I wonder if having Pond as 'his', as in, his partner, his love in two series kind of holds off the realization that he'd want Pond as 'his' in real life as well, because he is good at compartmentalizing that sort of thing. Of separating the intimacy he has with Pond onscreen, and for their fans.

Or if it's actually quite the opposite, and it's such a recurring thing - Pond being his in so many ways, that he doesn't even need any sort of realization. And more like - it's already happening. He has experience with it, so it doesn't hit him like a slap.

I wonder this because seeing how their intimacy develops is so interesting. I also wonder it because of Phuwin's last talk to his mom, and how he felt robbed 'of Pond', so to speak, and it was just so interesting to read that. Because I felt like... he was having these feelings, and they were as difficult as they were inevitable. Does that make sense? HE's trying to make sense of them, but he's also not denying them: "...he knows it's more than just feeding".

So is it because he's used to it from the other manners in which he has Pond? Or is it something else? They had so many moments that can be catalogued as glaringly obvious, romantic in nature, and yet there are times where they hit Phuwin hard, and other times where he smooths into them like he's been doing it for years. It's just interesting, you know? What can you give me about this?

The vampire forum were such an interesting detail, dear! Would love to know more about that. I'm a sucker for invented helping sites/forums, especially in fantasies.

"The urge to touch him is new, Phuwin knows, because he didn’t used to feel this way when looking at Pond, but it feels familiar." - See what I mean? Stop me if I'm actually very fcking delulu because I'm used to doing this from university (looking for undercurrent meanings in texts) but he mentions/acknowledges these feelings as new, yet he also mentions they are familiar.

"Pond slumps into him, clutching his back, curving around him as a willow would in the wind." - what lovely softness in his affections.

Pond closes his mouth again, sweet puppy eyes dripping, reluctance sticking to the tips of his eyelashes. - you write pond with a softness and a need so visceral, and it's so goddamn charming and lovely. i love your depiction of him. so, so much. "A possessive hiss slithers up from the depths." - possessive phu is everything i need in this life. “Yes,” Pond replies, not a strain of doubt to be found in his voice. “I was actually kind of hoping you would… do,” a pause, “something.” - it's so interesting how they don't talk about it, but both Phu and Pond expect it. Both are so eager for it, in different ways. It's so addictive as a narrative. Clearly, communication is amazing, is key, but to see them slide into BDSM-ish scenes, softcore ones, with so much ease and so much eagerness is so fascinating.

"So, you like it when I play with you?" - We ALL like it bro I will never tire of the finger-in-mouth scene. It's my second favorite (the bathroom bite scene was and is my most favorite), but God it's so good. "Open" and POND DOES THAT AND PHUWIN IS SO FJSHFSHGF

He's so hot. What a man. What a vamp. Damn.

(Also julie don't ever think I forgot that you alluded to Phu jerking off while he stuffs his fingers in Pond's mouth- i can't get that scene out of my head. IT WAS SUCH A WHIPLASH)

Their conversation about it being awkward felt so real. They may feel like it isn't like before, but like Phu said, not talking proved to be deadly for them, so it is better to go through this phase of 'things feel stilted' and then grow into it then having misunderstandings again.

Can't wait to see how this combination of "8 on numbing, multiple bites, take photos after" will go jfhsfhsf SO MANY TASTY THINGS GONNA HAPPEN IN THIS NEXT BITING SESSION

you truly left us panting like dogs for more, julie. i respect it. i love you and your story. please take care of yourself, lovely. sorry for the perhaps delulu rambles. i love being delulu for your story tho.

Cooooleeeeee, Cole omg this is everything!!! I'm not certain I will be able to answer and/or address everything to satisfaction, but i shall certainly try! Thank you thank you thank you for having so many lovely thoughts about my story, first of all!!!!

lolololol your stupidity is a LITTLE funny but i've misinterpreted things in fic multiple times myself, i brains just fail to brain sometimes - just ask alan lmao. i've no idea where your brain got the idea of eight breaths from tho - but like, the way i made the scale work IS a bit counter intuitive, because it's a numbing scale and so the higher on the scale the more numbing, would be the logical thing. But then I realised that Pond asking for "more" would mean giving Phuwin smaller numbers and then I was like "I want a 2(/10)" just doesn't sound as sexy as "I want an 8(/10)" - lmao that was my logic so i flipped it 😂 I'm so glad we all want pain for him 😌

I definitely plan on bringing back the forum thing for a Purpose™ so it shall return, but I'm kinda thinking of it having the shape of a mix between online queer spaces and online kink spaces, because like, a minority group finding and teaching each other and sharing online and hosting meet ups etc., but due to a certain level of sigmatism and/or people just wanting to keep it private, it's more closed, more anonymous and/or invite only or access through a vetting process. There's definitely vampirism as a minority group symbology/parallelism in this. Also re: Phuwin's thoughts on how it would affect his career is it was to become public, would he be typecast or labelled etc etc.

I love how you highlighted some of my descriptions, it's really appreciated, because if I do one of the (for me!) 'wilder' ones, I tend to question myself a little more. So thank you for appreciating my descriptions and especially the way i write Pond ❤ I worry about striking balance with his character because I want it to ring somewhat true and not just be soft sub pond all the time <.< but i do write a lot of that. but I don't want him to be ONLY that.

re: the whole 'sliding into soft-core dynamic' thing... it can happen it's not unrealistic i know it because i lived it 💀 at least we both knew wtf a dynamic WAS beforehand so it was much easier to talk about and realise lmao. When the dynamic is there it's just fun and can be quite easy to slide into. And here both characters are eager for it because they got interrupted last time - dynamic blue-balled, if you will. So they're both itching for it.

I'm sooooo pleased you like the fingers in mouth scene enough for it to be your second favourite! to me, there was an important point to make in showing how they can 'play' without any biting involved. It's a very explicit way of showing just how much beyond feeding it has gone - it can exist fully independent of it! Feeding was the means with which it grew between them, how they explored it and how they got to know it, but they don't need it. At least, not for that particular purpose.

(Haha! I'd low key forgotten about that allusion i did in a reply or a tag somewhere - but it's a very good image i'm still fond of it, let us see if it will ever be written ever lmao)

Yeah, they'd become too reliant on intuition so they have to relearn and practise how to do their thing with communication. Which will be awkward at first, especially since they don't really at this point quite have the vocabulary they need for it.

I'm excited for writing the upcoming part as well, but i'm going on a trip with friends this weekend so I MAY have time to update tomorrow aka thursday or MAYBE sunday but otherwise I'm off being social with friends slkghslkhg by god do i need it but it means less time for our boys and their shenanigans.

'panting like dogs. i respect it' made me cackle out loud ❤ incredible. and thank you 😚😚

NOW on to the main question of your ask, which I thought I would tackle last. Phuwin. His mentality. Etc. IT'S A GOOD QUESTION. and the answer is... I've mostly just written what felt natural? What my brain served me? 😭😭

But the thing is, it's kind of both at the same time. Because of their pre-existing closeness and the gradual growth of both intimacy and feelings, he kind of doesn't notice it is happening. And then, because he lacks the framework to think about it in (aka understanding it as kink and/or something sexual/sexual-adjacent (platonic kink can exist too tho!)) he cannot quite pinpoint what his feelings or urges are, just that they are not different than they were. Like, he often needs something 'outside' to give him perspective, like when he thinks about his mother's deal with her coworkers and suddenly gets the flash that he would consider his mom doing what he is doing with pond with anyone other than his father cheating. Or when he comes home and is faced with how everything they're doing has transitioned from something he started out chatting with his mom about (even if he was embarrassed or whatever) to something he very much does NOT feel comfortable discussing with a parent. Like most young people with sex related things.

But then as his self-awareness grows he starts noticing the new elements in the way he reacts to Pond. Like that line with 'new but familiar' - i think, a) it was served to me by my brain when I wrote it i did not have any deliberate thoughts about it lol but also b) like, it's new because he recognises that a pre-feeding-on-Pond!Phuwin wouldn't have felt like that or had that urge, but also, it's familiar because it's been with him for a while, it's just that he's only just now been conscious of it? So it isn't new, but his awareness of it is, so it feels new, but not.

I think I write my phuwin fairly decent at compartmentalising, because that's the vibe I get from him IRL. Also with the way he's talked about how it was new for him to inject a little of himself into Peem, how he usually prefers to keep it as separate as possible, that kind of thing. But they already were uniquely close beforehand, due to their "work-bond", so to speak. Honestly, someone should study BL official couple friendships and how they carry a different type of knowing and intimacy. It's very interesting to me. I think their 'work bond' has impeded phuwin's realisation process, in a way, because the nature of their relationship was hard-to-define/blurry-ish to begin with, and then there was just "added a new layer of blurry", making it harder to tell apart from the others, versus if they'd had a very "standard" friendship with no additional closeness or intimacy beforehand, then the contrast of a new blurry layer would be more noticable. But because it was already "blurry", it made it easier for them to slip into "additional blurry", so in that way I think it may have assisted the process.

I hope that sort of addresses your question(s) about this 🙏 Goodnight, Cole ❤

[podossun]

nct fics recs!

i found my recs masterlist from my old account, i might have more recs that i'll add eventually

🔥smut ☁️angst ⭐️fluff

johnny

���claim: alpha!johnny @smileysuh - wc: 18.4k

jaehyun

🔥heat: alpha!jaehyun @smileysuh - wc: 5.8k

mark

☁️driving license @babiesdreams

haechan

🔥i want it and i fcking got it @alreadyblondenow - wc: 5k

🔥scent: alpha!haechan @smileysuh - wc: 11k

🔥friendly favour @hencity - wc: 20.9k

🔥all my demons have your smile @hyuckmov - wc: 9.6k

🔥love bites @sundaysundaes - wc: 16k & craving (sequel) - wc: 13k - vampire au

jaemin

🔥two nights one you @nctsworld - wc: 10.9k

[mcrinmyhead]

INTRODUCTION

Hiya, my name's Dee or you can call me Dead! instead, cuz that's what my name is in Tumblr. I'm sixteen. I'm an Indian, racists better fck off. I like to draw, sing and write songs and poems. I mainly post my art here and I have two side blogs too, which are @mcrinmyheart (idk what I post there :D) and @shesacomplicatedpoet where... Er, you know it. And when I say "art" I usually draw My Chem, Fall Out Boy, Linkin Park, Bring Me The Horizon and a few other bands, but you can always leave a picture in the "Ask me?" box if you really want me to draw something that you like :). Just make sure it isn't something s!utty, cuz my parents like seeing my sketchbook sometimes, haha.

About me...

Name: Dead! / Dee

Age: 16

Pronouns: she/her

Likes: listening to music, art, singing, music bands, food, sleeping (I'm a very eepy person), travelling, reading, etc.

What kind of art do I do? Fanarts mainly.

Dislikes: peanuts (yea I don't like 'em, so if you know me irl and try to feed me peanuts, I'm gonna fcking stab you, you little shit), pedos, homophobic fcks, MSI apologists, basic DNIs, etc.

Am I single? Yes, and that's because I don't want to date anyone. Nvm, I'm taken :]

Music bands/artists I like:

+ twenty one pilots, p!atd, Bring Me The Horizon, Glass Animals, Bad Omens, Sleep Token, etc. I also liked The 1975, The Nbhd, Joji, Driver The Era, Arctic Monkeys and Chase Atlantic before, so I really don't mind if you wanna talk about them too. I'm basically a music addict who has listened to a whole lotta music genres throughout my life. But I'm currently into rock music rn. Yeah, I can't stop talking about music if I start.

My favourites:

Books: Agatha Christie's books, Heartstopper, Five Feet Apart, The Fault in our Stars, Crime/Horror/Mystery books (there are many but I can't remember them), etc.

Movies: anything horror, mystery, crime, sci-fi, Marvel, DC, Star Wars, from the 2000s and 90s, etc. (How do people actually choose a favourite movie??)

Shows: Loki, Heartstopper, Young Royals, Marvel shows, etc. (I literally like all the shows I watch)

Albums: My top 10 rn (June 2024) are like- Three cheers for sweet revenge (my chem), POST HUMAN: NexGen (BMTH), XO (LeATHERMØUTH), The Black Parade (my chem), I brought you my bullets, you brought me your love (my chem), Clancy (Tøp), A Thousand Suns (Linkin Park), Danger Days (my chem), Folie a Deux (FOB), and Pretty. Odd. (P!ATD).

Colours: (Bury me in) Black, Blood Red and Lavender.

Where else can you find me?

At home, in my room 95% of the time. Nah, just kidding.

Links:

Pinterest

Spotify

Discord: mcrinmyhead

Tags I use:

My art: #art

Asks: #asks #asks <3

Scroll down for more facts about me...

Or don't. I really don't care.

Fun facts about me ^^:

I'm a really joyful, chaotic, kind, funny and a sweet person! :D (according to my frens)

Until and unless you get me on my nerves. Trust me, That's when I go insane.

If you know me irl, hi... Uh, I know I don't talk much in person but I'm sorry. That's just who I am. But if you want to be my friend, you can start by texting me lol.

I'm a music addict who likes to annoy people by talking about music bands 24/7.

I have an unhealthy obsession over My Chem.

I'm a huge nerd (according to every person in my class) and I like Math and Science (but I don't really talk about it unless you are someone who is into math and science as much as me).

I'm also a sarcastic and sassy person. So if my words ever offend you, I'm so sorry bbg. Deal with it.

I'm a vampire (I have fangs and I will bite you to suck that blood your body holds, RAHHH).

Other than drawing and singing, my hobbies are fangirling, sleeping, reading books, travelling and sometimes even cooking.

I might be surrounded by many people who I call my "friends," but in the end it's just four people who are actually my friends.

I'm mostly an introvert, but I'm an extrovert when I'm with my friend.

I suck at socializing btw.

Yikes, this list is still going on!

But I like to annoy people at the same time.

Wait, does Tumblr have a word limit on a post?

SHALL I TRY REACHING THE WORD LIMIT???

Ah, yeah, I forgot to mention this but I'm a really curious person. I like trying out or experimenting on stuff. It's fun, okay?

I can be smart and an idiot at the same time B)

I write poems but I don't like showing them to others cuz I feel like they're stupid. Any tips on poetry from the poets of Tumblr?

I love cats. Cats or get tf out.

Am I annoying rn?

Idk.

This was fun.

Alright, that's enough fckery for today. Farewell my little kittens <333

So long and good night!

[colorful-white-ideas]

These Crow Reboot haters are rearing their racist head as well. First they blab on about the disrespect to Brandon Lee, now they're throwing in the "oh my god the disrespect to the goth scene which is a distinctly WHITE subculture" for casting a FKA twigs as Shelly... Hey do they know Brandon Lee is fucking mixed lol

I have not come across a comment so explicit in their racism but I'm not surprised if you did because I did read some other "subtle" words about this new Shelly. Ahhh the way they have idolized and white washed their own sub culture is almost unbelievable.

And by white washed I mean not only the racist part but also the classism... Now suddenly all goths look one way : no tattoos like " rappers" they have "cool long hair" , "cool wardrobe" and they have the clear appearance of nice quiet guys.

Delusional.

You just need one ONE night at a goth club and you'll see people with normal clothes, the one with a lot of face piercings , some dressed like vampires , other with full face black & white make up , girls in tight leather attires and guys that seem out of a trailer park with tattoos like Bill in the new pic.

The "goths" want to be seen as "cool" by outside people, that's all , they are desperate for compliments ... they think they will stand out from the " current trends" if they have another Brandon Lee cosplayer in this movie. Someone "clean and decent ... "

I even got to read the stupid rant of the actress who played sarah in the '94 movie , she says that "the modern Eric Draven looks like the bad guys he is supposed to fight "

I'm sorry ? Why does he look like a criminal for these people ? Because of a bunch of tattoos ? Are they trapped in the 1950's ? it's fucking 2024 !

Also the way they talk about the new Shelly, saying " this one had a relationship with a drug mob and dies because of a deal gone wrong that's not my Shelley, she will never do that she was sweet and wanted a better world" 🙄

People think that you can only be a victim if you check all the boxes to be one. And no. Women , and people in general, can be tangled in very shady situations and even like that be absolute victims of people who are way more dangerous.

That is how this new movie will play , this is not the 1994 story done again. It's partially based in the comics with a modern touch, cause it's been 30 fcking years.

This is the tragic love story of 2 lost souls ( moderns Eric and Shelly ) who tried to get better overcoming addiction, fall in love in the process but didn't get to enjoy that new opportunity in life because of death... So Eric will return looking for revenge.

Why are people hating this new storyline, it sounds pretty similar to the one they love soooo much ('94) , oh yeah because they don't consider flawed people humans deserving of redemption.

Again. They are sooo out of the norm so accurate goth , that they are now on the conservative - purist end.

Uhh and don't get me started with the stupid posts the director of the 94 movie made ... That guy is an asshole.

[elaryssue]

Dazai does have a Plan

There is no way he didn't know Fyodor would send Chuuya to finish him off. Because if not, Sigma wouldn't have been able to reach and shoot Fyodor without instantly getting killed by Vamp Chuuya.

He purposely dragged himself in front of the camera to instigate Fyodor. Dazai must have a plan to free Chuuya from mind control. As well as maybe even taking advantage of the blood lost to slower the poison.

But most importantly, they need Chuuya to get out of Mersault and back to Japan. It wouldn't make sense if Dazai dies while freeing Chuuya out of Vampirism, for him to team up with a random Sigma. What's more, someone must help carry the bangades guy beacuse there is no way he is walk out of Mersault with his legs broken and no healing ability able to help him.

Anyway, my skkr heart is happy due to sskk and skk's reunions, let's fcking gooooooo!!

And Chuuya will definitely be an important card in mayor fights in the future. I hope Asagiri will give him more screen time, my boy deserve love ❤️

[kowaindar0u]

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tried to draw some but it's nOT WORKINNNGGG tonight so some vamp-au things I'm thinking about

- Soooo cause Yuichi has to sleep during the day and work at night, and Saseki has classes, that usually leaves I think just the evenings, but... he wants to spend more time with him if he can so... maybe during the day, when he doesn't have class Saseki reads on the couch while Yuichi lays over his lap and sleeps lol. And honestly Yuichi can probably sleep heavily enough that he could just use him as a table, put a laptop or sketchbook on him and work away askdjsjd. And moving him to get up for a snack or the bathroom wouldn't bother him much either 💀

- Yuichi often re-realizes that like... he has TWO boyfriends and never stops being floored by that fact lol

- he still hates going grocery shopping but he will do it bc it's not as bad if he can go in the middle of the night lol. also I mean he can probably pick up a good amount of stuff at his work anyway !

- I know Rai and I already talked about Yuichi getting hyperfocused counting pills but it's still so funny to me imagining him doing that cause I feel like it's one thing he really could not be shaken out of asksjdjdj like ... if they're gonna give him that task they gotta know he's not gonna do anything else in the meantime but he will do it so quickly and accurately lol

- nooooo i just imagined Yuichi misjudging the time it takes to get home vs the time the sun rises too much and coming home in a panic and with burns on his skin ;-; it heals fairly quickly cause vampire but saseki maybe still puts some aloe on it or something to help soothe it and comfort him a lil ? Especially cause the sun is one of the few thing he knows for sure can and will kill him lol

- at some point when yuichi finally figures out how to go bat form and saseki can just put him in his pocket or on his head and carry him around ... HOW FCKING CUTE I love bats especially the itty bitty ones I cry ...saseki living tje dream lol

- usually he sleeps in his closet if he's by himself for the day cause... darkest place and closest thing to a coffin he's got lol ... but maybe sometimes he'll pull in a pillow or two from their bed to hug or pull the curtains shut and curl up in the middle of that big ol bed

- sometimes he might just pick saseki up for no reason other than because he can hold him like that 🥺

- sometimes he still tries to eat lil bits of human food even tho he knows he'll pay for it not much later lol he just can't resist ;-;

Buy a stupid candy bar from a vending machine on his way home from work and eats it. Then goes and tosses his cookies in a bush 💀

"worth it..."

-

PS @zantedeschia-praesul I just realized I've been drawing Sase with a white shirt and black vest omg but in ur pics it's the other way around !! my apologies lol asksjdj idk why my brain totally flipped that

[synthetickitsune]

ur last gwi writing was so good n it’s what prompted this request (if u want to do it as a continuation or something you can cus i guess it could relate to the previous one but im just saying it’s what inspired my req) but gwi + fcking in secret? or trying not to get caught?

i love that everyone thirsts for gwi but tbh i get so emotional looking at him lmao

Gwi (Scholar Who Walks The Night) | Hiding smut | 0.8k | f!reader

Everything resonates here. Their approaching footsteps, their heavy breathing. You can hear it all - which means that Gwi can hear it with crystal clarity. By the sound of it, they were still pretty far off. Far enough to be oblivious to what's going on. Good. That works for you. You hear their hushed voices. You hear the fear in their words. You wonder how that makes him feel. Does he take pleasure in it like he revels in yours?

For some reason, you hope not.

You have no illusions about being special to him. Of course you're just another prey, a play thing at most, and yet you want to keep a part of him to yourself. Something that's more substantial than his lustful curiosity. Although you certainly don't mind that at all.

"Does it excite you?" his breath is heavy with the smell of blood. You've grown used to it quicker than you expected; the scent of blood surrounding him, the weight of his body against yours. Just as you got used to the shiver that runs down your spine whenever he gets close.

“Does it excite you to know they could find out?” his voice sounds amused and mocking. Like nothing brings him more pleasure than to taunt you and toy with you. You'd believe it. You want it to be true. Your eyelids flutter, you take a shaky breath as his hand squeeze your thighs.

“Yes, sir,” you whisper, biting down on your lip immediately after. He likes a challenge, you've come to learn, as much as he likes obedience. That's why you've been keeping your mouth shut. He may pretend this is what he wants, but the drawbacks outnumber the benefits. If the officials knew of his willingness to keep a human woman for a company, they would bring him daughter after daughter to consider. The thought makes jealousy spark inside your chest, but it’s hard to keep its flame alight. 

Because while you keep listening for any sign of the palace officials getting closer, your vampire lord uses your body for his pleasure. His hips snap into yours, abusing your hole with force beyond that of a human. He's cold but that matters little with how heated the air between you is. You wonder if the heat of your body wrapped around his length feels as otherworldly as the iciness of him feels inside you.

You feel his hips slow to a speed that can barely be called a movement. You bite your lips hard enough to bleed, and you swear it's not so he'd kiss you. Even if it must seem so, if his quiet growl and the pointed way his fangs brush over your bitten lips are any indication. His lips are cruel and demanding against yours, smirk stretching their corners when he feels the breath hiding your silent pleas. He likes to tease. Even if it makes his actions seem coquettish rather than like he’s playing with his food.

He's hard to figure out - more so when he's offering you the pleasure of your life with his cock snug inside you, rubbing against your spot while you need to keep silent. You hear the voices get closer and your walls clench around him. If the officials weren't so close, you know he'd degrade you with filthy remarks. Perhaps you should be grateful. You feel Gwi’s breathing get ragged, a hint of a growl hidden beneath each of them. 

He knew they'd come and interrupt. You wonder what his goal was. Clearly he does not wish to be found, nor does he want to separate from you. Something about it all makes you more desperate, more reckless. You push your body against his, taking him in all the way. He snarls at you, muted and more exciting than threatening. But you've long since accepted your unnatural desire, so there's no point in refusing it for what it is. It gets him to move again, and a tear slips down your cheek.

You can hear them so clearly now, their bated breaths, how miserably they're failing to hide their presence, snooping inside the vampire’s den. If they round the corner now, they'll find you and yet Gwi never slows down in his mad pursuit of pleasure and ruin. He turns your face towards him and his tongue slides into your mouth as easily as his cock slides in and out of you. It muffles your moans further, and maybe it really can't be heard over their breathing and the dripping of water resonating through the cave, the underground palace.

Suddenly he pulls you close and still to his body, your back flush with his front. He holds you motionless, swallows with sadistic grin your weak whimpers. You are full of him, feel him stretching out your walls, forcing your body to accommodate him.

“Hush now, little one,” he murmurs, and it'd be easy to mistake the manner in which he noses along the column of your neck for affectionate, “We'll continue when they leave. I'm bored of your silence.”