#I failed the challenge already

[doopn00p]

Wow…

[fairie-bread]

SINNERPAUSE - Week 7/12

posting an old study from the vault this week bc i've hurt my hand and probably won't be able to draw properly for a little while </3 still... the sinnergenda lives on!!

[shorthaltsjester]

Imogen Temult, Exaltant Hope of the Red Storm

Heroes and Monsters by Penny & Sparrow // Critical Role Campaign 3

[governmentmandatedryujinstan420]

releasing this from the hj discord dungeon because the public populace was in agreement also i'm chronically offline on tumblr and need to fix that for my chronically online ahh

[lonelyzarquon]

7 COMFORT MOVIES (in no particular order)

tagged by @classichorrorblog (thank you, loved making this list <3)

tagging: @genes-tierney @talesfromthecrypts @mulderscully @andtwelfth (genuinely curious + absolutely no pressure 💖)

ik i’m extremely late for this, i had fun nonetheless :]

[todosmeiape1an]

The Romance in Horror

(15/100)

[where-is-isnail]

On the mount everest

-🐌🌲

iSnail is flying around Mount Everest!

Thank you to this anon for finding iSnail today! :)

iHope everyone has a safe and lovely day! <3

[salty-autistic-writer]

I hope someone warned Anirudh.

[ronsenburg]

speaking of sylvain, it’s WIP Wednesday. have two very separate moments (neither of which are kissing) from my self-prompted valentines day kissing fic.

[aventvrina]

i'm writing a solo that's making me realize a lot of why i like writing Aven. i do have a tendency to pick up the "against all odds" characters, this isn't my first dabble at revenants trying to survive in spite of it all and all the moral compromises and traumas they have to appease within themselves. with that said tho, all those characters have something that drives them, often very selfish simple reasons like a wish to prove themselves, a wish to never be caught, a wish to avenge. these all tend to fall into more angsty, moody, rage fueled type of personalities that are more reactively explosive than passively calculating.

Aven's the opposite on this, while he does have a selfish desire of "becoming a player at the table" it's more rooted in a selfless promise than on vengeance or on a desire to live. there is some obvious vengeful sentiment there, he is after Oswaldo and actively destroying the IPC, however, the real thing that is keeping him going (and was reminded to him in 2.1) was the promise he made to his sister to protect the blessing. this modifies his approach enough to make him seem passive in his reactions despite the constant edge of putting his life on the line for everything.

i've talked about this before with @paramythas, but there's no rage in Aventurine, or at least not in the classical sense. his rage is expressed entirely differently than most. he can't get angry for himself, and only really gets angry for others if they are what he deems as a good nature/innocent. his anger is shown through the way he plays his acts and it's results. what i mean with this is, if he's truly cross with someone, they feel it not through his temperament or words but through his gambles, for they'll inflict far worse damage than words or attacks could. the only instance we know so far that he actually acted upon his rage was with the slave master, which is why i'm writing up the solo as it's driven motive is born out of being denied a chance.

i believe Aven's anger is far more childish than anticipated. i've also talked about this with @zorkaya (again thank you ren for that ask), he doesn't seem to be easy to anger, despite the whole act he's putting, his anger only surged up a couple of times during 2.1. and it was, again, very subtle. he got angry with Sunday for sentencing him, not because of the sentence itself, he had planned to die there, but because he was denied of planning the death as he wished. Sunday messed with his plans by trapping him in the dream, preventing him from "dying" and waking up in the real world by forcing his conscious to merge with the Harmony. and honestly, it does feel logical with how i'm writing him that his anger comes from being denied.

he's someone who carefully crafts all his actions, words and attire, the persona is him as much as it's a mask. to have it fail or have someone shutting down his plans, is what would truly irk him. with this said tho, the mask i'm speaking here is not exactly different from his true self but more so a compliment. "Aventurine" is the persona he wears as Kakavasha is "dead". the Aventurine persona does do not deny his roots, nor the actions he did as Kakavasha to get to where he is (honestly it's not like he has a choice to those who know of his origins in the IPC), it simply presents him in such a way that he can manipulate the initial perception of people and in a way read their thoughts. the flamboyant daredevil type is perfect to get a good read on people and depending on their reactions to him, he works around it and gauges the type of personality and morality they have. which is why he emphasizes on the "use me" aspect of the initial relationship, for it's with how people use him as the chip that he can know the type of player they are.

[chirpsythismorning]

Season 5 Opener: Out of Context

Bonus:

[psychopomp-namine]

mitsuki's role in weekend lesson is so interesting, because... there's no challenge for him? why doesn't the mean casting director in neji want to challenge him?

(disclaimer that I'm on suzu's route and have only done kisa's route before this)

like, okay, so neji finds out that amber isn't participating in univeil's summer performance. his strategy would be something like a mix of fall and winter: aim to win, but also use the opportunity to train your new actors. since there isn't a chui to beat in this scenario, he and fumi can relax and risk a bit of the performance to train the new guys. alright, makes sense, cool cool.

so neji writes the characters and assigns the roles, right. the third years have some inner conflicts to overcome, and the first years have some growing to do. we have fumi playing the talented genius who quit competitive dancing, and kai who plays as someone that limits himself or is otherwise unambitious for the sake of supporting others. okay, same conflicts, let's see if the character development transfers from role to actor.

we have suzu playing louis who has pages and pages of monologue specifically, because suzu is bad at memorizing lines unless it's built around a conversation with another person (opposite of sou, who can memorize lines on his own). and also he has to do it while dancing, which he also needs to improve on. sou plays a jeanne who is cheerful, sociable, literally acts as the glue that binds everyone together through instigating the competition -- a departure from sou's own personality (plus sou, at this point I think, still wanted to play jack roles, though idk if neji knew this, or if it mattered to him). kisa plays a jack role for the first time, while also dancing and singing, and had to deal with neji sending her off to spy/steal ideas from other classes for her own improvement (in the guise of letting other classes try to poach her from quartz). neji always pushes a little harder on kisa, because he's always amazed that kisa will just do any of his own unreasonable demands (he says something to this effect if you let kisa choose neji to help her during one of the rehearsals).

so, okay, we've got a training plan down for everyone... except mitsuki. mitsuki doesn't get a challenge. shiroma is a side character, a prize to be won, very flat compared to even mukai (who has more depth to his personality even without the last minute improv). neji even throws in the random jazz lounge singer just so mitsuki can sing, which ends up looking more like a favor to mitsuki (since he only likes singing) and a "might as well use your talents somewhere" scenario.

(lmao shut up mitsuki, you got an easy role. sou has to dance both the great galleon and the random social dance kanna does in the background in andou's studio, and the dance she does with louis. the only characters who don't dance as much are mukai and employees A and B).

neji seems to place mitsuki in the same category as otori and himself: reliable in the roles they're good at, with no need to push for improvement compared to the others. but that's so interesting to me because like... why wouldn't he push mitsuki more? why wait until late into the year during the winter performance? and even then, initially, he wanted mitsuki as al jeanne more so to train kisa and fumi, rather than mitsuki himself. like, this is the scriptwriter who has no problems using other people's own inner conflicts as inspiration for his writing. neji can be a mean casting director when he wants to be. there's no reason why mitsuki is an exception.

I guess shiroma being a prize to be won and nothing more does mimic how mitsuki is valued for being a tresor and nothing more. but there is no space in the play for shiroma or mitsuki to do anything about that, unlike fumi and kai whose characters (andou and hasekura) both change throughout the play. mitsuki himself realizes very late into rehearsals (like, around a week before the performance) how he can connect with shiroma

and I mean, sure, that sounds compelling, but I don't think that's what neji intended nor do I think mitsuki is just talking about shiroma at this point, but hey this is the "theater is a metaphor" game sooooooo

anyway. I just think it's so odd that neji doesn't push mitsuki that much... but then I think about otori. I'd bet if otori wasn't so hilariously antagonistic to suzukisasou, he would also get the mean director neji treatment. not because of otori himself but more like. neji writes around actor chemistry and otori's rapport with the other actors is just less inspiring for drama and more inspiring for comedy LMAO (sorry otori). chui himself had a missing takihime bc he didn't really vibe with anyone on the stage.

and maybe that's it? mitsuki is also a person who distances himself from other people, and doesn't really put in the effort until later in the game. and before he even makes the effort for quartz (that neji sees), he really only made an effort for kisa. (I still maintain that mitsuki cares a lot about quartz even from the beginning, but whatever, I guess early game mitsuki that wasn't compelling enough for neji)

and I think it makes more sense why neji couldn't write anything for mitsuki. early game mitsuki doesn't have interesting relationships that neji could see. neji could write fumi and kai together and let their own internal conflicts be reflected in their relationship onstage. hasekura lets andou shine. mary jane wanted an equal (some form of it, a "friend" in the play) and that's why she created jacob. neji sees suzu and sou fighting in the hallway and in the next play writes jire and fugio fighting over chicchi. neji sees otori... being otori, and either writes him as funny side character A or a small-time antagonist to kisa.

which makes it extra hilarious why neji didn't understand oh rama havenna. neji wanted to experiment with fumi as a jack and kisa as a lead role. and mitsuki finally, coincidentally slots in as someone who could fill in the gaps left by fumi not being the al jeanne, and as someone who has a good relationship with kisa. and yet. mitsuki excels above and beyond during oh rama havenna, precisely because he makes rukiora his own character (as opposed to how neji initially wrote rukiora based on a younger version of himself; hence rukiora's relationship with domina) and rukiora's chemistry with chicchi reflects mitsuki's own relationship with kisa.

idk, I think all of this is just neat. kinda wish neji pushed mitsuki a little bit earlier, but also I think it's cute that he kept giving mitsuki easy roles for a while. he can push and prod the other actors, but he's making sure the princess doesn't have too much to complain about.

[pisshandkerchief]

*chanting under my breath and rocking back and forth* I will not care about the actors in my favorite media. I will not care about the actors in my favorite media. I will not care about the actors in my favorite media. I will not care about the actors

[passthroughtime]

yagami, WHY do you have to be such a bitch around kuwana. i'm going to strangle you.

(P.S.: he didn't tell kuwana that tesso said not to feel bad about it. obviously.)

[scrub-slots]

haunted by new ask blog idea

[thereignwolf]

the warmup for today