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aaaa am trying these ych x3
#furry art#ych#ych commission#furry#furry anthro#anthro art#furry commissions#I've gone trough suffering to draw this background jbrfhbrhb#I dunno why I struggled so much#but here it is !
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I’d imagine Cassandra wouldn’t make a big deal out of Leo’s newfound abilities tbh
And yes, she is in fact wearing her full fight ensemble under her clothes tyvm
Bonus:
#prison!leo au#rottmnt#rottmnt leo#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise leo#rise cassandra#rottmnt casey jones#this took SO LONG for me to come up with#I was like ‘I wanna draw Casey (Senior)’#but I struggled hard with a scenario and also very much with her future design#I ended up using aspects of 2003 and 2012 Casey Jones to figure something out while still putting a Rise Casey flair to it#I did the same with Casey Jr for when we get to him lol#I did the same with April too but it’s a bit harder to tell#piercing /#dunno if that’s a necessary cw but just in case!!!#‘if it’s six years later why does Casey have a modern phone’ because she strikes me as the type to hold onto one as long as it works at All#if her phone is fighting for it’s life then Casey Respects That 😤
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On the Twelfth Day of Christmas
12 Geronimos and a tiny little Benji :D
I didn’t think I’d be able to finish it in two days, but here we are :D a little project where I interpreted the artstyle designs of twelve Geronimos in my artstyle :D
We have in order
2000-2005 G
TV show G
my G :3
@skrunklymice’s G
@toastypencils’s G
@2deadkat’s G
@ratonahat’s G
@thisispoggers’s G and Benjamin
@glitchygorge’s G
@agcnt3’s G
@soda-gremlin’s G
and @alloutblue’s G :D
Behold, closeups :D Merry Christmas, Geronimo Stilton fandom
#geronimo stilton#drawing#art#I somehow finished the draft yesterday walking around in a mall and outside on a family outing#all while I didn’t get enough sleep#I dunno what I was on#anyway deadkat’s g is looking at a picture of toasty g’s kornelius#he gets the appeal#agcnt why did you make G so pathetic ratman /affectionate#pog’s benji dropped his koupen-chan plushie so glitchygorge’s g is handing it back haha#my g is prolly telling the og gs that his creator struggled with drawing him specifically for hours for some odd reason#i dunno why drawing him there after having drawn the ogs was a nightmare but it was#i took a break from drawing the piece for over a week because i was struggling so much :’D#thank god i got back to it tho#if i could add more gs i would but my canvas size is already at a3 when it started out as a4#and this is an a3 cut along the long side because i have plans to do the same thing but with theas#will my suffering end#probably not :D#anyway crimmus#christmas#fanart fanart
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i think the reason i cling to male characters so much despite being sapphic is that im like literally obsessed with the idea of a man loving me and being nice to me. something that has never occurred
#this is about to get reeeaaaaaaaalllllllllll venty so just a heads up i just need this off my chest bad#tw vent#im so jealous of the people who have had wonderful male figures in their lives because in no capacity have i ever had that#i've had a positive relationship with. one man in my life#my friend#we're not even like besties or anything. just friends#ive had 3 dads (one biological 2 step) and all of them have fucking sucked and traumatized me#every male ex ive ever had traumatized me#like i just so badly want to believe that there are good men out there#and i know that there are plenty of people out there who love men and have had great relationships#AND IM SO JEALOUSSDLKFJ#im just literally the epitome of daddy issues which is so funny#my stepbrother even calls me “daddy issues”#i dunno im just spewing nonsense but like. its just been heavy on my heart recently#and why ive been struggling with my sexuality so much#blegh#eeeuuuuuuuuughghgggg
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*Sweating throwing up nauseous dizzy*
What if vox is Asian American
#Hazbin hotel#vox#hcs#musings#idk I just think it would be cool#i feel like there aren’t a lot of East Asian villains that are allowed to be sloppy boisterous and vulgar outside of media made by Asian#people#I know a lot of people draw his human form white as a sheet but i dunno#I also think that would explain why he initially clicks with Alastor so much#both of them are part of marginalized groups in their respective time periods#swamped by the expectation to be subservient to their white peers#but they both rise above it with their passion for the innovation of entertainment#to describe that dynamic it’s basically that Alastor is the burr to vox’s hamilton . except in this version burr wins on most levels#this also gives context to vox’s raging inferiority complex bc. if his parents were immigrants at the time compounded with the economic#and war time struggles then that probably made him feel pressured to succeed quick and hard#vox would definitely be disconnected from his culture and obsessed with pursuing the American dream#whereas Alastor i think would be v in tune with creole based language and culture as evidenced by his close relationship with his mother#near the end of Alastor and vox’s friendship Alastor would likely mock him for abandoning his roots in search of prominence#it would actually be quite sad
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Congrats on 2k!!! Yay for 2000 people w/ impeccable taste!
Lately I've been thinking a lot about a cowboy au for Kakashi and Tenzo, so if Kakayama cowboys strikes your fancy, then yeehaw! If you aren't feeling the cowboy thing, really any Kakayama AU would be so so lovely. Anything you like would be perfect!
Congrats again! And thanks for making such beautiful art!! So happy to be one of the 2000 💖
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#kakashi#cowboy#request art#y'all#i struggled with this so much#it was a fun challenge but omfg#apparently i have never seen a horse in LIFE#i needed so many refs#the initial sketch for this HAUNTS me jfc#love how kks turned out tho#i dunno why he's shirtless with pants and boots#its the wild wild west#now that i'm looking i gave this horse a DUMPTRUCK#for no apparent reason#y tho#this horse dummy thiccc#tripple c thic#w h y#as;ldkfjas;lkdfjs;
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I started volunteering in my friend’s kindergarten last month and like… I love these kids so much it’s unreal. They’re so sweet and weird! One of the kids drew me this killer Mario art and I’m gonna frame it and hang it on my wall.
#bonewhiteglory.jpeg#helper teacher#as my friend christina dubbed me#i’m really really happy i can sit down one-on-one with the kids who are struggling with a new concept#i mean this very genuinely: it is my dream to spend several minutes helping them understand that 5 is not greater than 5#there’s a lot to learn!! it’s kind of overwhelming#i am notoriously patient and kind. people frequently tell me i have big kindergarten teacher vibes#i’ve been there long enough that i’m getting a good sense of all the kids’ personalities#i have mixed feelings abt posting anecdotes on the internet bc idk privacy etc etc but seriously look at how great this art is!!!#thank fuck i can turn off reblogs.#i’m gonna frame this and hang it over my desk :3#i had no idea 5 year olds were SO BOSSY. it’s great! they’re explaining the rules to me and they’re very patient with me#i’m getting to know kids from the other classes too. i do yard/lunch duty as well. not much $ but it’s sufficient for my needs#anyway… that’s my story#at great length. dunno why i put all this in the tags and not the actual post but lbr i’m mad tired#oh yah i’m happy to share stories in DMs once i get over my social anxiety shit.
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I don't think I'll ever be a proper Content Creator because of the way my brain works, but my biggest goal is to somehow make a story that makes someone so mentally ill about a thing that they can't think straight. As I do. Every couple weeks or so. Someday it will happen and I will do skitter around dancing and cheering wildly on the subway platform in my brain
#some day my aus will escape my brain cavity and I hope desperately when they do that they make someone out there as horridly ill as i am#Ramble#Thinking about... Maybe trying to start a new fic at some point. It feels intimidating to say when I'm struggling with steady tracks#but oh my god. i need these ideas to exist in a form that isnt only in my brain. i *cannot* have a four hour conversation with every person#that exists in the submas au fandom. that's literally not possible to do or achieve. but damn it would make things so much easier for me#As always I am bouncing between One Move and Coupled (Uncoupled)#Which are HUGE long-term titans in my brain fic-wise. I think Coulpled (Uncoupled) is the closest to being real just because it was made#specifically TO EXIST in fic form. One move Also was- but it also primarily exists as an animatic in my head. the plot structure is vague#Spirit keeper would be GREAT; but that one exists in my head as a comic + series of animations so it's harder to translate into another for#Same with Mecha AU. That one almost exclusively exists as animations in my head and don't know if I could write it correctly. It's supposed#to be a pokemon movie. i dunno what to tell you. I need that shit to be a feature length film to do it justice#I have so many more aus that are dear to my heart. fuck man why does my brain have to have so much love and storytelling in it.#tag ramble#AUs#Submas
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Respect to the song writers for putting out the "ABCDEF– GO!" Real. Lovely lyrics (genuine)
#I'm looking at this line. yknow how faust in strive now speaks like short sentences. few words. and it croaks outta his throat.#maybe he's having troubles on what words to use. what words mean. thats why he comes up with little to say because.#He put his energy to say. really. he's struggling hard.#so this line. is like. him even reciting the alphabet is hard.#He can manage some thoughts but it comes out awkward and messy.#grips onto him. no wonder the f.uture di.ary wiki said that beloved yomotsu might've been inspired by Faust.#Silly depressed man putting up a mask to still bring smiles. and he goes back to being 💥💥 Grahh. Of course though.#he's still trying his best. *the idles*... his wilting flower... the way he moves his fingers like he's trying to entertain a kid....#ohhh what a guy!!!#I need to shake him.. need to comfort him..#FUCKING GUY !!!! 💙💙💙💙#ohh i hope he can get better... i hope his will persists on despite the high mountains he is climbing....#i. need to see his story mode. soon.#anyway. erm. fuck zato. 😊 i don't have much grudge. kinda personal but I'm not actually angry but he is. an ass.#i dunno look if faust wants him dead I salute and i will fuckin. kill.#whatever tagging. why not.#guilty gear#faust gg#faust guilty gear#ah rambling
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how are you supposed to react to the realisation that your parent is like actually abusive
#kostik speaks#this is not the first time. or the second. or the. i just keep realising this and then forgetting to protect myself#abuse#domestic abuse#for cw#im processing today that its not normal for your parent to not care about your feelings or pain at all#like them hurting you for hours because theyre angry and not caring because the only thing that matters is that theyre mad at you#im realising that might not be normal#my household is shit in a lot of other ways but my mum situation is really difficult for me to process#at least with house being bad its kinda nebulous and a feeling#processing that my mum mistreats me and all her kids is kind of realer and uh. therefore harder#i dont get it#why cant she be normal#why cant she be nice?? i dunno. i genuinely cannot fathom a mum being nice or fair or even#its just relentless rage or offense the moment you make a mistake or make her look bad#as long as youre helpful and make her look good shes fine#but god forbid youre a child and make a mistake because youre a child. god forbid you be autistic and struggle#i dont understand its so inconsistent. sometimes she sounds like she cares. she advocates for all sorts of stuff#but if shes mad at you youre not a person anymore. you dont deserve rights or dignity or sympathy. i dont get it#and christ it doesnt take much for her to be mad at you. she never lets go grudges anyway so you never know when itll come#sorry for abuse posting i recently came back from home and had therapy about it and then a chat with my flatmate about abusive parenting#my brain is working
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Here's Luz as The Magician!
This one doesn't have as much symbolism going on, but it felt rather fitting since, unlike other witches, Luz is a very hands-on magic user because of her glyphs
This is another entry for A Fool's Journey, an art challenge I'm hosting throughout April, more info down below!
#dunno why but i decided that i wanted to keep the sketch underneath the lines#thought it looked rather neat in an “intentional messy” kinda way#dude i struggle so much with trying to draw in a cartoony style. i feel like the proportions are kinda weird but maybe not. dunno#the owl house#toh fanart#toh#tarot art#my art#afoolsjourney#luz noceda
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is it just me or are Mad Anchors the worst enemy known to mankind?
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#{ 🍒 out of character post }#{ 🎮 mun plays ever crisis }#[Like bruh... could u pls pick anything other than magic attacks to be resistent to?!]#[like jesus christ]#[:(]#[I give up]#[I dunno what to do]#[Bro my team all have over 10000 health and are all max lvl]#[My power is at like 313956 so why... why am i struggling so much :(]
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well! that project's out of my brain now :) now what
#just me hi#“now what” i have tide in there now and i am not going to post much about them lmao#or maybe i will i dunno! but some things stay the most fun when they're secrets ehe :3#//a lot of weather has been happening recently huh#lot more than i'm used to anyway lol - and why's it gotta be so humid out here like C'mon hghf#the air. is Thick. and Wet. like a toad#//Oh but i've been having so much fun drawing recently lol :D#it started getting flat and really boring for some reason to where it felt like i was doing it like a chore - just a motion to keep the#gears running ykno? but yeah i've been enjoying it a lot more these past so many days :D !#i didn't even really notice it until i realized i had zoned in on a comic i was drawing and hadn't considered working on anything else hfsh#//also i've been playing with that music box app/website again - i should prolly use a real music program but none of them are like this#thing ykno? cuz i just tip tap and Boom the sound i need is Right There !! :>#i tried soundtrap i really did but man it's a lot hhhghf#i don't like how it's set up unfortunately. oh well!#i need like minimal clutter or i Die. Gruesomely hbfsh - just what i need and nothing less nothing more. it's a balance#/despite that i am Really Bad at passively organizing things lol - and when i try i just misplace things like crazy. scavenger hunts are a#guarantee lol :)#//i'm still struggling spell guarantee btw but oo am i getting close !! hfshbh#it's the second A it always trips me up#that does not sound like an A. i believe that's identity fraud my friend [<- aggressive squinting]#//anyway sun's out i'm inside and i'm going to listen to music forever#/do you think there are electric guitars in the heavenly choir? hm!#//anyway back to my wanderings!! toodles toodles :D
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gonna be honest, the sheer amount of drafts i have makes me want to perish and thus even entering my drafts inspires the urge to run away immediately ASDFGFD
#NGL THIS IS WHY I'VE BEEN CONCENTRATING ON MEMES#the idea of scrolling through all of my drafts rn makes me want to actually close my laptop oh man#i wish there was a mass delete button so i could just reset the whole thing and simply ask which threads y'all wanted to keep#bc if i try to go through and delete stuff myself i think i'll struggle a lot with keeping and tossing#i'm very bad about 'well i don't have muse now but i wanna see how it turns out so badly!!'#memes piling up doesn't stress me out as much bc most are quick blurbs with unprompted asks sprinkled in#and those are much quicker to scroll through and just?? i dunno easier to find muse for sometimes#but i wanna write consistent threads very badly y'all i wanna go 'AAAAHHH' bc of what our muses are getting up to!!#my brain is being so mean rn she needs to get it together#get ready to ramble | ooc
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sorry for going mad i just get really passionate about the nuanced depiction of parental characters in animated media
#i think theres things abt rise splinter that arent so great (mainly design stuff and his treatment as a man of colour) BUT.#the way his parenting and mental illness are written and depicted are NOT SOME OF THEM. theyre brilliant actually.#he's extremely well-written. and yes this is why i like camila toh so much as well (ive already made a whole post about her though)#i just. i dunno. i think its important to remember that love and trauma are extremely nuanced things with family.#there seems to be this fallacy about parenthood where youre either a ''good'' parent or abusive and well.#it can make it a lot harder for people to recognise their trauma if theyre caught up in the fact their parents love them or are ''good''#and it's a great disservice to struggling parents that might just need some support to call them ''bad''#people can love you and still hurt you and parents arent infallible. so i really appreciate nuanced takes on it#especially when directed at younger audiences
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"Plants" Process (Initial Sketch | Layers)
Sure, might as well talk about this one, because I actually have a bit to say about it.
So the title I uploaded this with, "Say you will about NSR..." was originally a (*mis)quote he says in the game when you fully unlock the Natura district. The line isn't especially significant, but I've always thought of it as surprisingly "quaint." It's very small, but it serves to humanize him just a little bit when up to and after this point he's dipped into cartoon-style villainy. These brief moments of honesty within his duplicitous nature is a part of why I find him to be an endearing character.
*The actual quote is, "Say what you want about NSR..." but I mistyped it when posting it. The meaning of the line is basically the same, though.
Due to this line, I've had the idea of drawing him surrounded by plants for a while. My first iterations of this idea usually involved him on an apartment balcony adorned with plants and overlooking the city. Sadly, my visions for the scene exceeded my artistic ability, so it's an idea that's been on the back burner for a while.
[A sketch I did last year based on the idea.]
It wasn't until I just randomly thought to come back to this idea that I sketched this piece.
But tbh, I don't think my vision was very clear. There's no sense that he exists in a real place (why in the world would a hanging planter be hung so low, XP). All I knew was that I wanted to draw him surrounded by plants, and that originally I wanted the color palette to be very limited.
Very recently, the SiIvagunner channel had uploaded a parody video of the Yona Yona Dance MV, which led me to listening/watching the original video (which I somehow managed to never see up to that point).
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I found the limited color pallet of the video to be very striking, and I wanted to make something inspired by it combined with the experiment I did with my recent Kliff x Tati piece, which also only used about 4 colors.
However, I am abysmal at color picking, so I grabbed a color palette from @/color-palletes (link) to help the process along. In the end, I couldn't keep myself from trying to use all possible colors. Strictly speaking, there's a shade of every color in the rainbow in the final piece, which is about as far from a "limited palette" as it could be. Nonetheless, I think the darker tones of the colors do help to tie everything together, so it feels more limited than it actually is.
To return to discussing the sketch itself, there were a few ideas that changed and evolved throughout the process.
Besides moving some of the plants around, an idea I had that didn't get fully realized was that the three smaller plants in front of him were supposed to represent the game's rockstars: Mayday, Zuke and Tatiana. I had difficulty making that happen with the limited palette: since May, Kliff, and Tati share a lot of colors (notably red), and one of Zuke's main colors is green, the same color for the plants, it was difficult to main the references while still having them all not blend into each other. Perhaps with more time to think through the idea I could have reached a compromise, but as things are, that reference was more or less lost.
To get it out of the way: there isn't any real symbolism behind the plants chosen. They were picked strictly on their aesthetic value/ease of drawing them. If you wanna stretch, the Zuke vase is holding red flowers (poppies), so it's kinda referencing that time his hair was set on fire, but that's totally incidental~ However, I will say that originally that vase was supposed to hold orchids since it's apparently a flower common in Malaysia, but I had difficulty drawing them and settled on poppies. Hibiscus plants were also considered for similar reasons, but as someone who's actually grown up around hibiscus flowers, I knew I didn't really have another place to put them since those plants actually get really friggin' big.
Something else that was lost was the poster behind the snake plant. Originally I had thought to put a poster of Kul Fyra on the wall, but I honestly got pretty lazy about adding the details. That and Kul Fyra's colors would have blended into Kliff hair since she's a combination of reds and yellows. But that space felt so empty without *something* there, so I messed around with random shapes and eventually just landed on putting up some records. It's a generic detail, but I do feel like they add a "pop art" quality to the piece.
To conclude, this was very fun to work on and the turnaround on it was fairly fast. Usually for pieces like this, the process takes me a few days, but I sketched and finished this all in the same day. Had I given myself more time to sleep on this, I might have worked a little harder to incorporate some of my other ideas and clean it up a little more. That said, this is still one of my favorite pieces as of late, and I hope that I'm able to make more things like it.
#gbunny draws#nsr#kliff#gif#should i main tag this again?#i don't think so#y'all are the only ones that really benefit from hearing me ramble#if you can even call it a benefit#something i didn't mention is that i actually struggled with the face a bit#i didn't like the initial expression that much#it was a little soft for my tastes#the triangular eyes are just something i borrowed from the 'anniversary' piece i did a while back#i dunno why i did that in either case since his eyes are typically downturned#but they helped him to look sharper#so i'm okay with it
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