#I dont even fucking know ok I just drew and this is what happened

[fuzzydreamin]

You guys wanna see the dumbest warm-up doodle ever?

"hehe, rawr"

[holy-reference-in-a-username]

Hi, random comment but Holy shit your half-transformed Monster Tom with the mouth in his chest is so fucking cool! Also, monsterfucker Tord is so real! Can only imagine Tord's reaction when he saw Tom like half-transformed for the first time.

THANK YOU! im like. super happy with how i draw tom, monster form ABSOLUTELY included. i put like. way too much thought into it lmao but ive always been a fan of unique creature designs so what else is new.

RRRAAH RAMBLINGS UNDER THE CUT

so ive been obsessed with the concept since i figured out what exactly happened during PowerEdd, ~2015. tom was kind of already my favorite but i only got more obsessed now that i could draw him with claws and fangs now.

(lmao old art^ lets all point and laugh)

when i finally got back into eddsworld this most recent time and started thinking about how i'd draw the guys i already knew i wanted tom to be trans, so when i started sketching i drew him with top surgery scars... which kind of looked like teeth... and the canon monster design already has a mouth on its chest/head... it just worked!!

...

ok tangent time- i dont like the canon design very much (the combined head/torso is Very limiting for poses. F!!!) but i also have never really liked the popular fanon of just making monster tom a wolf with horns and a single eye. it always feels so reductive!! do you KNOW how many monsters there are out there who are just "big dog/cat plus one fantastical feature"???? MANY!! so i was pretty determined to find a design i liked (one that was both flexible and fairly unique) before putting it in anything.

...and the partial transformation cliche of just putting accessories on a character is SUPER boring to me. so i wanted something that would be an actual halfway point to a fucked up freaky creature that is only barely humanoid.

ok back on track it took me like fuckin forever to finally get the final ~50% design together. i tried mimicking the merged torsohead of the canon monster and it just left me disappointed. :/

the single blank eye instead of the rest of the face was a god damn GENIUS move i am so proud of it im pretty sure the first time i drew the design was the actual draft sketch for the comic. because fuck making reference sheets!! the design's in your mind, right???

oh! as for the second half of your ask, the first time Tord saw Tom half transformed was right here^^!!

then a couple weeks after that i managed to find a 100% design i liked that still looked like a reasonable end point. at which point i actually made a little ref sheet! BEFORE i used the design in a comic!! it hasnt gotten much use but i still like it :)

i took a much more wyrm-like horizontal approach as opposed to the vertical design of the original, but the arms (connected to top of spine, directly behind head) and legs (close to the bottom, optional) allow it to still match the original's body plan, especially from the front view. then extra legs, big spiky scales, even larger mouth... because who wants just a dog with horns am i right!!

ahaha so basically im incredibly proud of how the design turned out so thank u for liking it :))

[spimmed]

⚠️WARNING!! DRAWN GORE!!⚠️

aaron ; the knife of never letting go .. plus other chaos walking doodles

[if u know what happens to aaron in the book u understand ^^”]

aaron oh aaron.. i adore him… hate his guts but adore him. he’s so fucking weird. love his character. i wasnt sure how to go about drawing his appearance but i like how it turned out.

and yes! Hello guys! As promised, i said i’d make more chaos walking content.. here we are! Better late than never.

I have a few doodles to throw in as i have no other home for these and i feel weird posting unfinished artwork on its own so excuse my rambling about these random things 😔🙏

first, wip drawing of all 3 babies getting SHOT🔥💯 strange how it happened to all of them .

But i was way too lazy to finish the rest and todds arms look like lego arms 💀. But u get the vision i hope

Next are these random plans for an animatic ive had in mind for LITERALLY a year now but am just too lazy to carry out. Two concepts in and im done Bye!

I do not like how i drew mayor prentiss here he looks too young! Well i think i need to redesign my design for him regardless. But its messy anyway so i dont mind much. Todd looks PEEVED😒

I dont believe I’ve posted this one anywhere? Its pretty old but worth throwing in

Ermm this next thing is probably cringe / too self indulgent but its tumblr who gives a fuck

I made an oc..😔 reg oliver (stole a name todd listed at the beginning of tkonlg i think im clever for it) and made him into a goofy character, never drew any more than these bc his design didnt look how i wanted thoufh its still a silly concept i think. Chaos walking is such a random thing to have ocs for i feel lmao

Ok i *THINK* thats every scrap i have to feed to you guys. I hope anyone who sees this enjoys even with my ramblings and unfinished work ILY GUYS!

Stupid davy and todd tbh creature

[wiihtigo]

i sent an ask sayinh "NELL DIED????" but then tumblr gavev me a scary error message so maybe it ate it... sorry if it didnt but NELL DIED?

SOB...YES.....I DIDNT WANT IT TO HAPPEN..!!! i encourage you to go knock down the door of @megamind2010 for more in depth answers about nell lore if youre a ladybughead.

but the basic deal is that this happens...later...sometime later. in their lives. ladybug following the proud blue beetle line of being exploded in action (i drew smthn inspired by the despair i feel when i think about this ^_^)

this affects casey really badly. ARE YOU SURPRISED..? DID YOU THINK SHE WAS HEARTLESS? so did I. mm basically she goes like catatonic immediately after (even through the funeral which michelle has to guide her to like she could float away at any second)

michelle is a supportive presence for her during this because shes like jeez idk she might kill herself im worried. and shes ALSO fucked up about nell dying bcuz she was involved in the same event ladybug was killed in (goldstars very first crisis event we;re so proud of her) and you know. shes never experienced the classic superhero experience of one of your hero peers dying horribly tragically. so her looking after casey is probably also her way of coping, like a way of keeping her hands busy because shes realizing hero work is actually kind of scary

shes only broken out of her 0__0 state by ..um. BOOSTER GOLD COMING OVER BECAUSE HE WAS LIKE MAN..SHOULD I SAY SOMETHING? (hes genuinely a little worried) (BUT NO DONT)

ive posted these before without context but this was the context LOL

seeing booster breaks the dam in her heart and all her feelings coming flooding out in form of crazy migraine inducing rage (im getting deja vu) and she throws shit at him screaming at him to GTFO and hes like crawling away with a broken nose OK good talk and ted and michelle are like WHY TF DID YOU DO THAT?and after that casey goes into the worst state of depression shes ever experienced in her life...ive mentioned in an ask before i think that she doesnt really get sad? when bad things happen to her she just gets angry. she never cries genuine tears. so the state she gets into here is really scarily jarring because its so fucking WEEEIRDLY OUT OF CHARACTER. she spends all day crying and whenever michelle comes over now she feels sick looking at her and she cries and cries and cries and whines that she doesnt want to see her she wants nell and she stays holed up in their apartment until shes kicked out because no ones paying rent and shes moves cities without saying a word to anyone. she only realized after she died that she actually did love (EW. sorry) nell and now she doesnt even have any way of knowing if they couldve done anythng with that. she hates booster more than ever she hates ted she cant talk to michelle anymore she hates gotham she hates her life she hates everything, eventually she does get a job in the film industry as like a screenwriter/editor but she hates that its not exactly what she wanted that shes just barely almost there and she should be excited to be so close to her goals but shes not so shes just this grouchy miserable (but good at her job!) woman that no one wants to talk to and then she dies. the end.

(but look-- here they are reunited in hell..!)

wehwwww SORRY FOR JUST COVERING CASEYS SIDE OF THINGS AND NOT NELLS....i figure youd get more juicy details if you ask marty :)

[send-up-my-heart-to-you]

olivia rodrigo lyrics that exposed me a bit too much

(yes this is my form of traumadumping its easier than talking abt what happened)

(not all of them are traumadumping tho)

in order of track listing

sour:

“i feel like no one wants me / and i hate the way i’m perceived” (brutal)

“god, i wish that you had thought this through / before i went and fell in love with you” (traitor)

“but i’ve never felt this way for no one” (drivers license) (this is for my girlies at the hscki idk if youll see this but yall are my everything)

“i think i think too much / ‘bout kids who dont know me” (jealousy, jealousy)

“does she know how proud i am she was created? / with the courage to unlearn all of their hatred” (hope ur ok)

guts:

“i pay attention to things most people ignore” (all-american bitch)

“i used to think / i was smart / but you made me look so naive” (vampire)

”feels like my skin doesn't fit right over my bones” (ballad of a homeschooled girl)

“another thing i ruined / i used to do for fun” (making the bed)

“well sometimes i feel like i don't wanna be / where i am” (making the bed)

“i’m so tired of being the girl that i am / every good thing has turned into something i dread / and i’m playing the victim so well in my head” (making the bed)

“i got the things i wanted / it's just not what i imagined” (making the bed)

“and i’d put myself through hell for you” (logical)

“the way it all unraveled / and all the things you did to me / you lied, you lied, you lied” (logical)

“i wanna get him back / i wanna make him really jealous / wanna make him feel bad” (get him back!)

“god, love’s fucking embarrassing / just watch as i crucify myself / for some / weird / second string loser / who's not worth mentioning” (love is embarrassing)

“i’m plannin' out my wedding with some guy i’m never marryin’” (love is embarrassing)

“trust that you betrayed / confusion that still lingers / took everything i loved / and crushed it in between your fingers” (the grudge)

”and i hear your voice every time that i think i’m not enough” (the grudge)

“and i try to be tough / but i wanna scream / how could anybody do the things you did so easily? and i say i dont care / i say that i’m fine / but you know i cant let it go / i’ve tried, i’ve tried, i’ve tried for so long / it takes strength to forgive but i don’t feel strong” (the grudge)

“and we both drew blood / but, man, those cuts were never equal” (the grudge)

“there’s always somethin' in the mirror that i think looks wrong” (pretty isnt pretty)

“you fix the things you hated / and you'd still feel so insecure” (pretty isnt pretty)

“you say i’m cruel beyond my years” (girl i’ve always been)

“well, i have captors i call friends / i got panic rooms inside my head” (girl i’ve always been)

“i’d rather be tied to someone, even if they're wrong” (scared of my guitar)

“i make excuses, my friends know the truth is / i’m not as alright as i claim / i say that i’m fine, i tell them all the time” (scared of my guitar)

“and everybody told me it would happen in time / the fire would burn out and all the storm clouds would subside / and i always believed that it was some comforting lie / but it feels nice, so nice” (stranger)

“i cried a million rivers for you, but that's over now” (stranger)

[auroracalisto]

i know its nearly the end of the celebration so you dont have to do this if you dont want to 😭 but i thought steve harrington with the prompt "i've forgotten what it feels like to actually be wanted." would be juicyy

also offering:

ya know what it's ok but it's two days after my event actually ended and i'm still trying to get to all the asks i have (also thank u for the offering, i've shared it with my friends). also, i've changed it from a dialogue prompt to a thought prompt, so... sorryyy :P

The placidness that encased his car was far too suffocating for his liking. It had first attacked his eyes, making them water—then, his mouth, forcing it still and shut; his jaw clenched, a dull throb running through his teeth. His throat closed up as a sob inched its way up the muscle, while the butterflies in his stomach dropped dead.

He couldn't go in. You were waiting to hang out, the prospect of good food and perhaps a coffee something you had been wanting for days. Something simple. As friends.

But he couldn't move.

Why was this happening now? Is this something he had felt before?

Utter despair?

No. No, not like this. Whatever this was, it wasn't just the typical sadness you felt when you lost someone. Like when he lost his friend and when he lost his girl (although in hindsight, it might not have been the best relationship).

He sat there in his car, music shut off, the aircon long forgotten about, wondering what the fuck he did to get here.

The knock on his window drew his attention. He quickly blinked his tears away, clearing his throat as he looked over, seeing you standing there with a smile on your face. However, it quickly fell when you saw Steve's flushed face.

He sent you a faint smile, which you took at face value. He didn't open his door, but he pointed to the passenger side. You tilted your head curiously before walking around to the other side.

"You doin' okay?" you asked as you opened the door. "You, uh, you've been sitting out here for a hot minute, now."

"What? Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine, I just—"

"Steve..."

Shit.

Tears sprung to his eyes once more as he looked over at you. Your expressions softened, and you reached out to place a hand on his shoulder.

"What's wrong?"

"I don't... I don't even know," he said, choking back a sob.

"That's... okay. You don't always have to know," you said.

Steve looked away from you, closing his eyes. He knew exactly what was wrong.

He had forgotten what it felt like to actually be wanted.

That's what he felt. That's what he couldn't figure out.

Steve roughly wiped his tears away, face raw where his cotton sleeve touched.

"Hey, why don't we trade places? I'll drive you home. We can watch a movie, and drink hot chocolate. Something to make you feel better."

Steve gave a small nod, glancing over at you.

"Yeah... yeah, that sounds good."

You smiled and grabbed his hand, gently squeezing as you did so, hoping that whatever comfort you could provide him would help with the feelings deep within. And maybe, at some point throughout the long night, he would tell you what was wrong.

A cheesy movie and warm food would do you both some good.

Maybe then, after he had calmed down, you could tell him what you had initially planned for that night: you could admit to him how you felt. And maybe then, Steve would know just how wanted he truly was.

[veilkeeper]

I HADN'T SEEN YOU REBLOGIGNG THAT ASK GAME!

ok so. one moment while i throw all of these at you, there will be two of these.

firstly for Roz (my beloved): 3 + 10 + 13 + 20 + 23 + 26 + 32 (im curious about the burn scars) and 48 <3

(consider the amount of questions payback, lov u <3)

oh... the quencies.... (im delighted) okay this one might take awhile

(questions from here)

3. What is your character’s moral alignment?

true neutral leaning to neutral good. they make most of their decisions from the "what benefits me/the people i care about the most" viewpoint with a little bit of the caveat "without needlessly fucking over random people"

10. If your Tav didn’t become an adventurer, what else would they be doing?

the last time they were in faerun they were making a living as a bounty hunter/contract killer in baldur's gate. they were good at it. so probably that!

13. How does your Tav fight in a combat situation?

in game mechanically a lot of their time is spent using ensnaring strike on an enemy and then shooting them until that guy is dead, rinse and repeat until the encounter ends. occasionally they'll also pop divine favour for some extra radiant damage, or cast shield of faith. in my mind palace where roz is allowed to be a powerful scion even before the tadpole, they do that but with a hefty dose of "also i can light you on fire with my mind <3"

(putting the rest under the cut)

20. If you’re romancing anyone, why did your Tav fall for them? And why did that character fall for your Tav?

ive talked about this a little bit before, but initially roz was not falling for astarion. it was like, "okay yeah we'll sleep together because you want to and i dont really care." but eventually, as roz got to start seeing a more genuine side of astarion and he started to really... mean the things he was saying to them, it became a lot more about "i think i can care about you, and maybe... just maybe... you could care about me?" and that's the sort of thing that shakes roz to their core. and coincidentally, astarion kind of goes through the same thing.

23. What is your Tav’s favorite moment they’ve had with their lover?

not you sending me questions that are making me go (*/ω＼*) in real life... okay with halsin i hc back in the shadow cursed lands that he would turn into his bear form and let roz sit up cozy against him because they are always cold (they are a toothpick) and i think that was just... really nice for them. with astarion.... i think the first time they end up in roz's tent together without any blood-drinking or sex. without even the suggestion of it. that's when it first hits for roz that this might actually be about more than a transaction, so that's their favourite moment.

26. What is the most prominent color in your Tav’s color scheme?

answered here!

32. How did your Tav get their scars, if they have any?

i promised id wait for this information to be ASKED for so here we go. basically i hc that roz was from a really small creche and when they were young-ish (10-12) a training raid drew a little too much attention and the creche was attacked. and well... you know how ive said before that they arent a very good githyanki? when their creche started to burn, instead of taking up arms, they hid. everyone in that creche had either told them they should be culled or had tried to cull them, so they didn't really care if the place fell apart. however, while they were hiding, a pile of burning debris fell on them, fucking up a lot of their right side. they managed to escape the creche and do-gooder types who had no idea what was happening saw a dying kid and dragged them to the nearest temple of lathander, and the rest is history.

48.  Where does your Tav feel most at home?

not to be so so so so so sappy, but whenever they get to cuddle astarion. dont tell him this, but he's kind of. everything to them.

[turtleraccoonsoup]

tw vent

my mom is the only person who can make literally everything about how hard it is for her and how her husband is evil.

my dad has this character he made up. shes like this steampunk fairy thing and ive wanted to draw her since i first heard about her.

today my dad was like "hey u should draw my character" so i thought it would be cool because i was bored and he described some more of her actual design to me and i drew it

i went to show my mom and she was just like "ok. cool." and i just broke the fuck down

when i was 6 fucking years old i started drawing things because she liked art and i wanted to impress her. she had a huge big loving warm reaction to it and i felt amazing. i started drawing all the time and she even put me in an art class. this was like one of my core moments that literally changed my entire me. ever since then i drew every day on any slip of paper i could get my little paws on.

at the start of covid everything was terrible. everything sucked and i started learning things about myself. depression, gender dysphoria, anxiety, full nine yards. i was stuck in my home with my family for months and i just wanted to interact with people. i was all of the depression. i couldn't get up in the morning, i couldn't sleep at night, i couldn't eat, i couldn't run around, everything sucked all the ass.

i lost motivation. all of it.

any motivation to wright or draw or do anything. i lost motivation to live. drawing was my escape mechanism. it made me feel like my mom cared. it made me feel good. and i just couldn't do it anymore. it hurt. it hurt so so much.

eventually i figured i was a lesbian and told my sister who told my dad and he reacted poorly and said i was to young to know. after that, everything went numb. i couldn't feel happy, or angry, or sad. i actually lost my ability to cry for a year. just all of the tears were gone after being a very emotional feeling kid.

i started public school after my mom finally decided i was worthy of not being homeschooled (the art class was my only interaction with other people). i met people i cared about. who cared about me even if i couldn't draw. i met people who were some of the worst people ever. i met people. it was amazing. i went to school every day and talked to people i liked and liked me even though i wasn't special or important.

i started getting motivated again. i started doodiling on any scrap of paper i could find. i started wanting to wright again. i started to get past the numbness. i did get passed the numbness. everything was better. i started finding a personality i liked instead of one just to make my parents happy.

my moms opinion has always mattered. it still does.

going back to what actually brought us to now.

after my mom disregarded my art that i wanted her opinion on i went to my room to go have a breakdown. i started crying and my dad came in and asked me what was wrong. i told him that i showed mom the art and she didn't even look at it. then mom came in and asked what was happening and dad told her. she said shit like

"i was busy."

"i like your art /lie"

"dont do art for other people without them paying you"

"dont get involved with your dads bullshit"

and i told her that this has nothing to do with that, and that i just wanted her to look at my art.

she said all the same shit again

she just would not admit that she fucked up

she kept passing it onto my dad

she kept making up excuses as to why she wasn't in the wrong

eventually dad stepped in and backed me up

and she just said all the same shit again

eventually i told her to fuck off and went to my bed, still crying rivers.

shes literally just in her room watching reruns of her childhood crush right now. like none of this matters to her. like she didn't just rip my heart out of my body, throw it to the ground, and step on it infront of me. like she didn't just fuck up the thing ive hidden in my entire life.

i dont think i can keep drawing

i dont think i can keep thinking about my characters i want to wright.

i dont think i can keep doing this.

fuck this shit man she always says shit about how i shouldnt let others dictate how i feel and not give me an environment i can develop like any sort of healthy relationship with anyone ever

im gonna go doomscroll mlm fanart till i feel better. if you read this, please help me.

[mhayes225]

Major spoilers for the most recent Harley Quinn episode and season 4 thus far:

LIKE MAJOR! DONT READ PAST THIS POINT IF YOU DONT WANT TO BE SPOILED!!!

(I just need to get my thoughts out! There’s been so much happening, and I have no one to talk to about it even though I really want too… so here we are!)

OK NOW IF YOU’RE READING PAST THIS POINT, YOU’VE BEEN WARNED 👁️👄👁️

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Okay it might just be me… but there’s no way that if Nightwing is really dead that they would have his going out funeral be like that right? I mean I know it’s supposed to be a funny show, but… would they really do that? Maybe I’m in denial… I need to know if other people think he’s actually dead and I’ll roll with it. I don’t think he’s dead for real.

Also I NEVER expected the jokers family reacting that way to his (re?)coming out of villany… I’m shocked.

Plus I have to get this out b/c I’ve seen no one mention it: The way they animated and drew the joker after he killed that guy in episode 4 had me gaping and slow blinking afterwards. I HAD CHILLS…. His eyes, his teeth, THE FINGERS! (Here I have screenshots, forgive the poor quality ⬇️)

Like ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS THAT! (Don’t get me wrong I’m here for it but that’s scary!) Whoever drew him for this scene went hard and I commend them for it. They captured the jokers true self so well… I don’t think the he has ever looked that terrifying at any point in the series so far.

I feel so bad for Harley right now. She doesn’t have the bat family anymore. Ivy is pushing her aside to focus on the legion of doom. (Even though harley sort of did the same thing to Ivy when she left to be with the bat fam) And now some clone hussy is impersonating her!!! I bet 10 bucks that nobody is going to believe harley if she tries to tell anyone about it! With how Ivy’s been acting I don’t know if she’ll be able to tell the difference between the two…

I know people have their criticisms about the season so far (which is great!) but it has me on the edge of my seat, I like it! I’ve accepted that everything I think is going to happen is either not going to happen at all or come about in a way that I never see coming. I can’t wait to see what’s in store for the rest of the season. I’m ready for harlivy to get back into their groove and I’m scared for Barbras legs. I feel like this season has more cliff hangers than in previous seasons and it’s not even done...

Anyways thanks for letting me vent tumblr and thanks to the strangers that may read this far! I hope I didn’t step on any toes. If you’re a harlivy fan I’d love to hear about your theories or what you think so far! You can also hate on this post if you’d like too… either way live your life, I don’t mind 🤷‍♀️

[freakattack]

Im not done yet but move it thoughts so far (SPOILERS)

I hate this but i'm getting this out of the way right now because i am NOT pointing out every time this happens, but i cannot believe how much unintentional deviantart type shit is in this?? Obviously it's all goofy cartoon gags so it's innocuous in intent but with so many in quick succession it feels like we're checking off boxes here. Kids, there's nothing more cool than drawing characters you like, but if an anonymous stranger ever randomly approaches you asking you to draw "what if ashley was giant haha", THAT'S NO GOOD

One other thing before i get into the individual stages that i thought was weird even back when they released the trailers for this, and i'm being a little fun police about this, is fhat i dont like the implication that this ancient civilization was colonized and converted into a tourist trap. I don't know how i would have fixed this but seeing it all laid out like that is like oh, this feels sucky.

WARIO: I like the callback to smooves in his stage and also that he gets both in and out of trouble by being a massive dick. The new voice......it's gonnna have to grow on me

MONA: Was a little disappointed that she was looking for mermaids instead of like barnacles or something but it's fine, mermaids can be for everyone. Joe is a fucking maniac but i respect him.

THE CRYGORS: really fucking cute. I love the pose mike does when you win. Also, the retroactive cave drawings of each of them are super funny

ORBULON:

W

H

A

4.T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK first of all, i know i said that i wasnt gonna bring this up again but i really really hate the orbulon weight gain thing. Do you know how many of that exact image i have been accosted by before this game was even announced just by googling his name?? TOO MANY. And now all of them are REAL. I feel betrayed.

now that that's out of the way. WHAT!!!!!

I don't know how to feel about the oinker being alive. I'm at a loss. On one hand, it upends everything we know about the oinker. On the other hand, i too have a soul bond with my car

I enjoyed being able to look inside orbulon's brain. I think that is all i ever wanted to do in a wario game.

One thing i think is highly consistent with his old characterization is that he WOULD instantly welcome people worshipping him like a god

THE ORBULON DAD REVEAL. It's like. See I thought we were going to meet him in person and it would be like a big lore thing but this is literally a joke. I'm ok with a joke. I'm ok with a gaff.

I really appreciated all of the slapstick. If orbulon doesn't eat shit on the concrete is it even worth it

This is in a later cutscene but i'm addressing it here, i simultaneously love and hate the fact that orbulon is depicted sleeping on a lounge chair slurping a drink because i literally drew him doing exactly that in the next camping episode. I'm very happy that we are all in agreement that that is a thing he can do. But mark my words i did it first so you gotta act surprised okay

OK one last thing but i really liked rhe chicken rap

ASHLEY: Just your standard garden variety ashley cutscene. Even on vacation red needs a vacation

THE REMIX BUS: this is my favorite cutscene in the game. Super funny, love the chaos as well as seeing each character fooling around and just hanging out, and mike's singing is melodious. This is the peace all true warriors strive for

CRICKET & MANTIS: I think i said "WHAT" out loud like five times during both of these cutscenes. WHAT!!!!!!!!!

KAT & ANA: Similarly, CRACTUS??!!!?! FROM WARIO LAND??!! I enjoy how many random throwbacks this game has. Also, nice to see the return of leo even though i didnt care about him that much. He's alright

JIMMY T: Beautiful as always. 10/10 no notes

Dribblenspitz: I think there is more raw emotion in dribble's "AW, NUTS" than the entire rest of the game. Love their cutscene

Also love that REPORTER KEN is BACK and i guess he wears contacts now good for him. Love the traditional dribblenspitz sci fi shooter boss

[fruttymoment]

is Aggie like a mobile app or do you just doodle on the website on your phone

aren't you like afraid to lose your data because of tabbing out of your browser for a second

Aggie is a website, where i doodle more polished stuff compared to PENUP ! I used to use PENUP but it doesnt even have a stabilizer lol, and Ibis Paint never worked for me soo,

Your drawings doesnt get lose that easily, actually! For example, tabbing to another thing or straight up closing my Internet app never really lost my data! However, i do heavily suggest you open an account for it first. From what i understand, Aggie seems to save your work automatically the moment you stop drawing.

But, did i encountered some data loss at all? AH YES. YEP.

Aggie likes to glitch sometimes. Rarely, when i go back to my drawings the save system seems to not work on my recent doodles. So i sometimes saw that my work i completed is a bit back to being unfinished, only missing small stuff tho.

Aggie experience HEAVILY depends on your INTERNET. If your internet is great, strong signal, no pings, then your experience would be great! (There were some cases where aggie somehow disconnects EVEN if i had great internet, no idea why. But your overall experience should be fine with a good internet!)

If you have bad internet, low signal and sone pings, pray.

One thing i dont like about aggie is it usually DOESNT TELL YOU IF YOU ARE DISCONNECTED. When something goes wrong with the connection, our bro aggie doesnt even tell you usually and because of that you think there isnt no issue and continue drawing. Thankfully, aggie doesnt stay too long disconnected. Only for like 3-5 seconds i suppose. After several seconds, aggie suddenly stops and that horrific "Connecting..." message pops up in the top right.

I see that message in my nightmares.

When you encounter that "Connecting..." message, first of all, ANYTHING you draw in lets say 10 seconds recently probably has been completely fucked. If you are lucky, aggie immeditely tells you the message and disconnects you so you dont lose big stuff. But mostly, when it comes to ping or lagging, aggie struggles to tell you. Bro is shy and waits several seconds to tell me "um you are actually disxonnected something is wromg with th internet im so sorry im gonna reconnect you ok??? Oh and everything you drew in last 5 to 10 seconds are gone probably. Am so sorry"

You lose your data because you draw when aggie isnt even connected. And the problem is, like i said, aggie has some trouble to tell it.

The last type of error i witnessed is just straight up corrupted data.

Oh god.

I dont know why and how, but RARELY, your drawings suddenly gets fucked up. Like it looks like you accidently tapped on the screen and i dunno?? Here is an example;

Everything is What the fuck

finee :3 just happened

This can happen either in your very own eyes, or when you are away and open aggie again. Now this glitch thing is pretty rare i experienced it only few, but its so annoying because you cant even get rid of it simply by pressing the "undo" button. It does not delete it that way and you have to delete whats wrong manually.

On some cases, some pieces of your work even may get erasee in this glitch aswell. Its like your cat smashed your drawing tablet or something, just completely random stuff happens and you cant even undo your way out of that one bruh.

..what was i talking about?

OH YEA

Aggie is a website :>

Data loss only happens if your internet bad, and sometimes, rarely, with strange glitches

Also important to note that the point of aggie.io is to draw with friends, aggie itself is not an professional drawing service i think. Its still neat tho!

[nebuvoid]

Hey it's the devilman anon again back from the trenches... I finally finished devilman lady and I'm sure you've talked/heard about it a thousand times but I can't help but want to complain about it sorry it's just SO MUCH

99% of the story feels completely pointless? Why even have Jun and Asuka as protagonists at all? Everything would be so much easier (AND SHORTER) if it was just Akira in hell and stuff. Go Nagai would have to come up with some other way for the earth to get destroyed and for Hell to open up sure but that couldn't possibly be more difficult than what he actually did.

Also the way Akira came back was so unnecessary what the fuck. I had already skimmed that post you linked that explained what happened in the manga so I was aware of what was coming but it still didn't stop me from getting slapped in the face with Akira stating that the woman he had sex with was now his mom. That sex scene between them was so bad too, Jun was having PTSD the whole time... Not that I would expect any sort of healthy sex scene from Go Nagai at this point. Can't believe this old man really made me read volumes upon volumes about his sexual assault kink.

Of course the amount of rape and nudity is awful and unnecessary but that goes without saying I think. The lore stuff was ok I guess but not enough to make this worth it. The art was certainly much better than the original which is nice, but I still kind of miss the wonky artwork. The fights felt sort of lacking tbh, they were over way too quickly.

I also thought it was so funny how like midway through Go Nagai just does whatever and starts retelling Dante's Inferno. Fuck it. (Guy who has only read The Divine Comedy writing his manga:)

This got so long uh. Yeah bad manga would definitely not recommend but I'm somewhat glad to have read it just so I can trash it with confidence.

Oh just one more thing. So funny how he made Akira fall in love with a woman (in 5 seconds) only for her to turn out to be Ryo the whole time. Straightbaiting at its finest

you are one of satans bravest for having sat through that whole thing 🥲🫡

yep. it really is that bad and pointless. and i completely agree that the art style is a total downgrade. he didnt even improve, the boobs are spheres now. i drew like that when i was 11.

well i say pointless but lore telling us that god is actually the true bad guy who keeps destroying earth because humans keep evolving into devilmen one way or another, who he cant manipulate the way he can with humans, and to punish satan for loving the devilmen and daring to defy him the first time, again making him not easily manipulable like the other angels, is pretty significant.

also yeah hes always had an obsession with dantes inferno, he made one, or two? i dont recall right now. Mao Dante. lol. other manga before devilman that focus on DI he just keeps reusing his own ideas to the max.

the straightbaiting IS based though yeah lmao. its because thats satan actually. since hes clean cut into two then and jun is his softer kinder side while asuka is the more surface abrasive ryo we know. ....or you know, feminine and masculine, quite literally, because somehow go nagai made a BL epic that inspired dozens of other classics and yet doesnt think gay people exist as such. personally i think his mind, too, is dantes inferno of layers of bullshit.

[justagrin]

smth i shoved into a discord group specifically for people to talk about SA (tw for implied csa/rape/incest)

oooof one of my friends disclosed to me that (tw sa & incest) their dad SA'd them (at least once? idk if its a reoccuring thing i didnt ask any questions n they understandably clammed up n changed the subject n i said "hey if you ever need to talk about anything i have similar experiences" but oh boy is it lowkey triggering that stuff for me rn. idefk if my stuff counts as sa tho. like i know my dad sexualised me a lot like verbally as a kid and i remember being disgusted all the time and i remember being fucking terrified of him all the time even when he didn't seem to be doing anything. and i remember him often saying or doing stuff and i'd just think to meself "ok we're repressing that!" (unsurprisingly i don't remember what actually prompted that). i dont have any memories of him touching me but i have some of someone touching me and the way i react to certain sexual situations is sus as fuck, but honestly those could be two entirely different things but idk! idk. i just remember telling my mum that all the stuff he said made me uncomfy and predictably got told i was "overreacting" and that it was "normal" which turned into "he just doesn't know when something's inappropriate" and honestly thats the closest to closure i'm ever gonna get but whatever. anyway the dots aren't connected enough to me to outright say i relate and im sure as fuck not ready to actually talk about it to anyone irl but yeah. idk where i was going with this tbh. i have a notebook of stuff from my childhood related to that^ (from when i've remembered them, but most of the stuff in the book i can't remember unless i read it over again) and my friends who've seen it have reacted with pretty strong disgust but idk. my entire childhood was that & gaslighting myself into thinking i was overreacting (which btw!! lead to me getting SA'd and harassed so many fucking times as an adult!!!) so it was normal to me pfft and counsellors i've shown it to all refuse to give me a solid answer bc they don't wanna "risk giving me false memories") but agghhh. one thing i definitely remember is whenever i had discharge or my period in my teens i'd just. want to cry and shake and curl up and errrrrrrmmmmmmm thats not normal lol. something was definitely wrong there but idk if i'll ever fucking be able to figure out what that is.

ok yeah i dug the notebook out again and (same tw's as above, just kind of graphic and intense) yeah theres a bit in there about him crawling into my bes and i was freaked the fuck out so i just ran out of the room and when i told my mum i was told it was "normal". and theres a bit where i was 14 and drew art based on the song pantsu nugeru mon (lit: i can take off my panties) bc i was 14!! i wasn't THINKING anything secxual!! it was a song about growing up to me! so my dumb ass showed my dad bc i was proud of the art itself and he got really weird and intense and close and was like "what are you going to do when you take off your panties?" which. ew. gross. fuck off. oh and that one time i fell asleep on the sofa and i guess i had a sex dream or smth which i didnt think anything of until my dad randomly got intense and weird again and asked if i "had any interesting dreams" that night (which he never usually does ffs). oh and he fully called ma tease relatively recently actually, and said i should call my (now ex) boyfriend "daddy", has referred to himself as my "daddy" in THAT godawful tone and makes frequent BDSM jokes towards his sister which is just an example of the verbal shit i had to put up with and idk how anyone in the room when it happens can excuse it but to them i guess its one weird thing he said they can brush off bc they don't realise i had to hear it CONSTANTLY and deal with what he DID to and they didn't see the scary moments. i also remember reading a magazine article about incest/csa when i was like 11ish?? and idk WHAT it triggered but my absolute fear of my dad/older men in general kind of started after that and my mum always said it was reading the magazine that did it but bro i dont think one thing like that can elicit a decade or so of consistent fight or flight mode I think my body remembered stuff that I can't.

Jesus fucking christ thats the most concise way i've ever actually described that. idk if anyone can relate or anything. also honestly now that he's been relatively "good" for a few years now in terms of how he speaks to me i don't really get the fear response anymore. and i'm dependent on him for finances and medical stuff so its. whatever. i guess. i'm fucking terrified that if i ever have a daughter he'll pull the same shit (hence basically nuking my body with birth control lmao) and luckily my brother's kids are both boys so i don't believe he's a threat to them if he didnt treat my brothers the same way he did me ygm? but idk what i can actually do about it

[lusalemaart]

This world will eat your heart out

[calpalsworld]

do you have any dareth hc you'd be willing to share?

😳 Dareth oooooooOHHHHHH!!!!! GODDDDDDDD WARNING FOR AN EXTREMELY LONG POST

Dareth smokes weed (dont let his students know)

Dareth has done many drugs and recommends not to do any of them except for shrooms.

Doing drugs all the time was when he lived on his friends couch for like 3 years. That is probably also when he did a lot of music. He looks back on that time really fondly. He had fun!

OK ENOUGH OF THE DRUG HEADCANONS--- 

Dareth grew up in Ninjago City but his grandparents are probably from the Ninjago equivalent of Greece or something. This is purely because I want to headcanon his last name as Dionysus because I think its hilarious (I KNOW ITS NOT A GREEK LAST NAME BUT--)

Random sketch of young Dareth (HE DOESNT LOOK ANY DIFFERENT LMAO) patrick star looking ass.

Dareth was really popular in high school despite also being bullied all the time. He never let the haters get to him.

Dareth sucks athletically but was accepted into high school sports teams as a wild card

Dareth was a mix of prep / nerd. He had a fursona (brown wolf) and was ABSOLUTELY OBSESSED with ninja! 

Managed to be preppy from pure insistence on being the popular kids friend.

(Haha, the same thing kinda happened to him and the Ninja..... became a ninja team member by insisting on being their friend)

He first learned make up from popular girls during high school (probably Gayle Gossip)

Dareth was president of his high school GSA

Dareth wrote all of his history papers on the history of ninja even if it was completely fucking offtopic

Dareth has worked lots of different jobs. Literally every job you can think of and was bad at all of them. 

I DREW ART OF WHAT I THINK DARETHS PARENTS WERE LIKE ONCE. I WILL SHOW THEM. THEY DONT HAVE NAMES THO

By “RELIGIOUS” I mean “GYRISM” which is my headcanon for the fictional main religion of the realm of ninjago, where the FSM is seen as like, God I guess. Lol.

Due to Dareth’s religious parents and LOVING ninja history, Dareth probably knows WAY more than the Ninja. He probably starts spilling facts that the Ninja arent supposed to know, and Wu bonks him on the head with his staff to shut him up.

Dareth probably accidentally burned fast food joints down while working there but his coworkers were happy about it

Being a mall ninja was the longest job he ever kept. Like 5 years.

Dareth taught Critical Spin Theory at the ninja's school during S3. He was also the guidance counselor.

Idk why Dareth can talk to animals. hes just fucked up i guess! Love him so much.

I think when the Ninja split up between seasons 3-4, Dareth became more essential to the remaining Ninja team because there were no other options. Which was bad. He crashed the destiny's bounty probably on accident.

Dareth is a big advocate for the Ninja as protectors of Ninjago and will overshare private information about how they are really good people in order to try to convince the public.

DARETH IS NOT SEXIST. he is THE MOST BASED CHARACTER and extremely feminist. and that 1 sexist moment in season 6 DID NOT HAPPEN LIKE THAT. He is like the most supportive adult Nya knows.

The ninja are good friends with Dareth for the most part. They hate when he interferes but theyve kinda accepted that they can't stop him from interacting with them. He is closest with Nya and Lloyd because he is like a fun uncle to them.

Hes good with kids.

He sees Lloyd as a child when nobody else does (I think I already talked about this before)

Sometimes I think about how Dareth is actually very similar to Kai in personality but less aggressive and more energetic.

Dareth used the stone army for a bit until the helmet was confiscated by Wu. But before that, Dareth became friends with like 3 of the stone army. Now he doesnt control them they just vibe. They are employed at his bar.

I think Dareth was probably a taxi driver for a hot minute around like... S7. 

Dareth actually DID figure out how to use spinjitzu but hes just doing it really slowly

He can also use airjitzu really slowly but he falls back down so its just walking

He actually doesn't know how to walk and just uses airjitzu to move

Heres a random sketch I found of Dareth doing a john lennon type walk

Dareth is VERY durable

Dareth could take the FSM in a fight ANY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dareth is messy in the show but I headcanon him as mostly organized and very hygenic. Things just get messy when hes too busy focusing on his crazy antics.

Crazy antics involve: searching for extinct species of animals in the woods or trying to beat a world record. Random shit. He just gets very focused on random things. Hes been like this his whole life.

The Spirit of the FSM looks down on Ninjago and sees Dareth there and is like.... what the fuck......?

He is NOT part of the FSM’s plan. #bendingfate

Whenever the Ninja need Dareth he is gone and whenever the Ninja DO NOT WANT DARETH TO INTERFERE he is there

Dareth thinks Wu is a nice guy :) Cool Jesus friend.

If the Ninja + Ninja allies formed a group discord server dareth would always be sending really really really weird blurry selfies.

Dareth makes himself seem better than he actually is, because it is very motivational.

Gayle Gossip was his best friend from high school who he is afraid to talk to after all these years!!!

He and Gayle Gossip were in GSA together. Also in History club together (Dareth would just talk about ninja).

Gayle also ran the school newspaper and would publish cool ninja art / facts in it for Dareth

Dareth and (SENSEI) Garmadon have had like 1 or 2 hookups. O_O

Dareth HAS A PET CAT named LITTLE LADY. She is brown and fuzzy and ugly. He found her when dumpster diving. He was dumpster diving for “ancient artifacts.”

Dareth identifies as a bear (bisexual)

Dareth is in his early 40s when he first shows up

I would make Dareth start greying after the S7-S8 timeskip. 😳😳😳 (SORRY I MIGHT BE GAY FOR DARETH)

Dareth can play saxophone good but forgot the difference between clarinet and saxophone. He started playing clarinet recently and just thinks "huh saxophones are different than I remember." Hes especially bad at clarinet because he keeps using saxophone reeds for it. He snaps them to make them fit. "Oh they must give you a little extra reed just in case"

OMG I JUST GOT MORE DARETH ASKS I AM GOING TO SHIT MYSELF THIS IS THE BEST DAY EVER

About Dareth being trans: Dareth is actually one of the few ninjago characters I actually hc as Cis just because I can absolutely envision him as the type of ally who asks EVERYONE what their pronouns are :D BUT DARETH BEING TRANS IS SO COOL and activates my gender envy for him even more....sigh.... maybe I can be dareth one day.....

About Dareth and Ronin: YOU LITERALLY JUST ASKED ABOUT THE NUMBER 1 THING I CARE ABOUT ON THIS PLANET!!! I AM ONE OF THE OG SCRUFFSHIPPERS. I WAS HERE WHEN THERE WAS ONLY LIKE 3 SCRUFFSHIPPING FAN ARTS :D

Heres some older random sketches I found. Dareth and Ronin embracing I guess? Second one is Dareth in a suit I think it was supposed to be him looking at Ronin at their wedding and being in love???

DARETH AND RONIN ROMANCE HEADCANONS (I have a very inactive Scruffshipping headcanons sideblog btw, so if you’ve heard any of this before thats why):

I would make Dareth and Ronin first meet and start to develop feelings for each other in Shadow of Ronin. I have made this completely rewritten version of shadow of Ronin in my head and the B plot is EXTREMELY SILLY GAY SHIT. ITS TOO COMPLICATED TO EXPLAIN IN THIS 1 POST.

(Maybe I Should just quit ninjago respun and only do my shadow of ronin rewrite lmao lmao lmao)

Dareth finds Ronin extremely beautiful at first sight. (Ronin is disgusting. No hygiene. Smells like gasoline. Aging poorly.)

Ronin also finds Dareth really attractive but is NOT the type of person to easily be overtaken by a crush. And probably vowed to never love again or some overdramatic bullshit.

Ronin is a bit of a history nerd but with samurai, the opposite of Dareth, who likes Ninja. Probably one of the only things they disagree on -- which is better.

But Ronin really likes to hear Dareth go off about things. And thinks all the overconfidence is awesome. They can counteract Dareth’s fucks up, so Dareth sucking shit is not a big deal. 

Dareth feels really validated by Ronin not trying to prove that hes a fraud. Dareth tells Ronin about how hes a valuable member of the ninja crew and Ronin doesn’t express their doubt.

Dareth asks Ronin what their pronouns are and that MAKES THE CRUSH GROW. (In my headcanon Ronin uses any pronouns but most people recently dont ask, and default to he/him. Which is fine to Ronin. But its just. So. Great. To hear someone ask. For once.)

Dareth asks lots of questions and it FUCKS RONIN UP (in a good and a bad way) since they are so private 

Ronin is always playing 4D chess with every person they encounter but with Dareth they only need to play like... tic tac toe. It shocks them and only makes them want to be with Dareth more.

Dareth just thinks all the crimes Ronin commits are Fun Antics. Dareth has been evil with Ronin and not even realize its bad. Too distracted by how fun it is.

Ronin would try to find problems with Dareth, reasons to hate him. But theres none.

Ronin tries to put distance between themself and Dareth during Season 5. But would probably still ask the ninja “so... hows that Dareth guy doing?”

Ronin and Dareth’s first date would be at a normal restaurant. They dine and dash. But then they see like.... the Ninjago City Mob attacking the restaurant they just left. So then they go back and fight the mobsters. And what started as a simple date probably ends up as a whole adventure trying to take out the mob. (mostly Ronin. Dareth fucks up a lot and it makes Ronin chuckle).

Ronin will get mad if anybody insults Dareth. UNCALLED FOR!!!

They both hype each other up so much.

Dareth is one of the only people who knows about Ronins past and tries his best to accommodate for Ronin’s trauma. O_O lol lego angst

Ronin and Dareth get engaged at the end of Season 8 when they think the Sons of Garmadon have been defeated.

But then the bad shit happens and Ronin ends up getting imprisoned. So in the whole season 9 Dareth is really worried about their fiancee!!!!!!

But they would get to be married after that :) I PROBABLY HAVE MORE HEADCANONS BUT I CAN’T BE HERE ALL DAY! SORRY IF THERES TYPOS! THANKS FOR ASKING BYE! 

[falcqns]

Mute

Pairing: Chris Evans x Mute!Reader

Summary: You meet Chris for the first time and he doesn’t know you’re mute. All hell breaks loose.

Warnings: angst, chris being an accidental asshole, fluff, sebastian stan being protective

A/N: I based this on a dream I had, as well as my experience with being a selective mute from 2017-2020, and how I communicated and who I spoke verbally to. Hope you enjoy!

Sebastian was shocked when he met you in pre-production for the first post-endgame Marvel movie, and you didn’t speak, instead nodding and using hand gestures that he later deciphered to be sign language. He knew that you were fairly new to the industry, and so approached Joe Russo.

“Hey, Joe. I just had a question about the new girl, Y/N?” He asked, while watching you walk of with your PA next to you. “Sure, what’s up?” Joe responded.

Sebastian cleared his throat before continuing. “I tried talking to her a little bit, but she didn’t speak, instead she used sign language, and I just was wondering if you knew why? Just so I can be better prepared and know how to help her,”

Joe smiled at Sebastian’s request. Being the insanely caring person that Seb was, his question didn’t surprise him. “She’s a selective mute. She does talk, but it is only when she is acting, and she’s an amazing actor. She mentioned to me that she doesn’t speak verbally unless she is very close to the person and trusts them wholeheartedly, such as her family and best friends. Her PA is her best friend, and can help you communicate with her. But, other than that, just get to know her. She’ll probably open up to you.” Joe finished, before patting Seb on the back, and walking off to talk to some production people.

Sebastian looked in the direction that you had gone, and decided to talk to you. You may not communicate verbally with him, but he wanted to get to know you.

Over the next few weeks of pre-production, both Sebastian and Anthony got to know you, and both were insanely shocked when you performed your first scene with them. You delivered your lines like you had been talking all your life, and with the gravity of an experienced actor. They both congratulated you, and you signed “thank you” in response. If any one had any doubts about your skills as an actor before, they had fully dissipated.

When it had been announced that production would be moving to the UK, Seb approached you and Mackie with the idea of renting a place together. You had agreed instantly, glad that you wouldn’t be living on your own in a foreign country all alone, especially since Y/B/F/N couldn’t come along. Living with both boys was chaotic to say the least, but you wouldn’t trade it for the world. They gave you the biggest bedroom in the house, and began learning sign language so you wouldn’t have to carry your ipad everywhere for your text-to-speech app.

A few weeks in, you began to speak verbally to both boys. They were shocked when you spoke to them for the first time, but were insanely happy. Seb was almost in tears, recalling that you only spoke to those who you trusted whole heartedly. He had become insanely protective of you, and treated you like a sister, which you absolutely loved.

Everything was going great. That was, until Chris Evans showed up.

He had just finished filming his latest project, and decided to come and visit his two closest friends that he hadn’t seen in a few months. Mackie had mentioned that he was coming, and would be staying in the spare bedroom, and you foolishly assumed that he would tell Chris about your mutism.

But Mackie being Mackie, he didn’t. And neither did Seb, who also thought Mackie had told him.

You hid in your room when Chris arrived, not ready to face him at that point. You ventured out just after dinner time, and grabbed a plate of food before retreating back into your safe haven with the cover of working on an assignment that you had told to Seb. They bought it, and you and Chris made eye contact and shared a wave before you disappeared from sight.

A few days later is when all hell broke loose.

Chris seemed to have a habit of searching you and Seb out. It started off with him walking into our bedroom while Seb was talking to you, and admiring how you’d decorated the place. Yo gave him a small shy smile, which he returned, although there was a hint of confusion written all over his face. Then, you were asking Sebastian for clarification on the Romanian lines that you were supposed to speak the next day, when Chris wandered in to the kitchen. He noticed how you instantly fell silent, and whispered a thank you to Sebastian before you scurried past him. How watched your back retreat, and sighed, but grabbed his the beer he came for before walking into the living room.

It was later that night that you had decided that you wanted to talk to Chris. You hadn’t known him very long, but you felt very safe around him, and everyone had told you how trustworthy he was. You had spent the last 30 minutes hyping yourself up in the mirror before walking out on a journey to find him. You heard his voice floating from the kitchen, and as you got closer, your heart instantly broke.

“I just don’t get what her problem is with me.” You heard Chris say. Another voice, Seb, responded.

“Chris, I don’t think she has a problem with you,”

Chris scoffed. “Yes she does. Why else would she not talk to me, and rush out of a room quicker than she entered when I walk in? She has a huge problem with me. I don’t know why she thinks that just because she got a part in a movie that she can walk around all high and mighty, but I’ve done nothing to her. She’s being a bitch,”

You heard Seb exclaim and start to defend you, but you didn’t stay to listen to what he said, instead running back to your room in tears, your confidence shattered. You grabbed your iPad and apple pencil, and began to draw, an activity that let you communicate your feelings. You wanted to show Chris that you didn’t hate him, and that you didn’t think more of yourself just because you got a part in a movie.

You finished it right before dinner, and kept it in your grip tightly when Mackie called you down for dinner. Your heart fluttered in your chest as you made your way down the stairs, but your face fell, and eyes welled up with tears when you saw Chris wasn’t there.

“Is Chris coming to dinner?” You asked Seb, and he shook his head no sadly.

“No. He’s not in the best mood, but dont worry, he’ll be fine.” He said, as he grabbed his plate.

“Oh, okay.” You said, your voice coming out shaky. You looked down at the ipad in your hands, before walking out the kitchen. Seb followed behind you. Just before you reached the stairs, he gripped your arm, causing you to turn around.

“What’s wrong?” He asked sincerely, and you couldn’t hold back the tears.

“I-I heard h-him talking about m-me earlier,” You whispered, and Seb cursed before pulling you into a hug.

“You heard him,” He said. You nodded before speaking again.

“I drew him a picture and I wanted to give it to him to show that what h-he said wasn’t t-true, and that I’m actually a huge fan of his,” You sobbed into his chest. Seb didn’t move, but waited for your tears to subside, before walking with you upstairs.

“He’ll come around. He had a rough night, although that doesn’t excuse his behaviour. I’ll talk to him, okay?”

You nodded, and curled up in bed. “Do you want me to bring you up some dinner?” Seb asked, and you nodded again, before telling him what you wanted.

He left the room, and came down the stairs. he plated the food that you wanted, and grabbed a water bottle out of the fridge.

“What happened?” Anthony asked from the dining room as Seb passed.

“She heard what Evans said, and she’s heartbroken. I’m bringing her dinner, and then I’m gonna talk some sense into that motherfucker.”

“Good, he needs it.” Anthony agreed, watching as Seb walked away.

Seb dropped the food off to you, before walking across the hall to Chris’s room. He answered after the first knock.

“What’s up?”

“First of all, you’re a grade A asshole, and second of all, you need to go apologize to Y/N.” Seb said, anger bubbling in his voice.

“Why? She hates me, I’ve done nothing to her to-“ Chris began before Seb interrupted him.

“SHE DOESN’T HATE YOU!” He exclaimed. “She’s selectively mute, that’s why she doesn’t speak to you! She’s a huge fan of you. She’s in her bedroom, right now, heartbroken, because she heard you talking about her.” Seb finished, his hand pointing at your bedroom door.

Chris felt his heart sink. “Why does she talk to you, but not me?”

Seb sighed. “She only talks to people she trusts a lot, and you met her yesterday. Of course she’s not gonna talk to you right away, and now I’m afraid she never will because you talked bad about her. She drew you a picture in hopes that you would understand that she didn’t hate you, but you broke her heart even more by not showing up at dinner. Now, go and fix it or will not hesitate to call your mother.” Seb finished, before walking away.

Chris sat back down on his bed in disbelief. He’d fucked up, and he didn’t know how to fix it. He thought back to Seb’s threat, before picking up his phone and calling his mom.

You had just finished another episode of Criminal Minds, when a knock came to your bedroom door. You dragged yourself out of bed, and opened the door to reveal Chris. You felt tears welling up in your eyes, and kept them locked on the floor, in fear that he was going to yell at you, and repeat his earlier statements to your face.

“I’m sorry,” Chris breathed out. “I didn’t mean to upset you.”

You slowly moved your eyes up to meet his, and he sucked in a breath when he saw your puffy eyes. “It’s ok.” You signed, and Chris shook his head no, before enveloping you into his arms.

He moved the two of your further into your bedroom, and shut the door behind him.

“It is NOT okay. In any way. I broke your fucking heart, Y/N. I have no excuse for what I said, and I want to make it up to you. Will you let me do that?” He asked, his face buried into the hair atop your head. You nodded and he pulled away from you. You grabbed your ipad, opened up your text to speech app, and typed in a sentence.

“Do you want to watch a movie with me?”

Chris nodded, and smiled, his thumb brushing over your cheek. “Of course. You pick.”

You led him over to the bed, and got in, and he climbed in the opposite side. You picked up the remote, and chose the movie “Swat: Under Siege”. Chris wrapped an arm around your shoulders, and pulled you close to him. You cuddled into his chest as the movies opening scene began to play.

About halfway through the movie, Chris tilted your chin up to look at him.

“I really am sorry. I hate that I said what I did. I just- Seb had told me all about you, and I had seen some of the leaked pictures from set, and all I wanted to do was impress you. When I thought you hated me, I couldn’t handle it, and I lashed out. I’m so so sorry about that.” He said, his thumb teaching over your cheekbone once more. “Also, Seb told me that you drew me a picture? Can I see it?” And you nodded.

You unlocked your ipad and opened the drawing app, clicking on the most recent one, before handing the device over to Chris.

His breath caught in his throat while he looked down at the picture you had drawn of him.

“T-that is amazing,” He said, tears coming to his eyes at the picture that you worked so hard to make of him. “You’re even more amazing than I thought.” He finished. “Thank you,” You signed, before thinking of a question.

You grabbed your iPad once more, and typed into your app.

“Why did you want to impress me?” Chris smiled at the sound of the robotic voice coming from the device.

“I was drawn to you. I dont know what is was, but I couldn’t get you off my mind. I had searched and searched to find another tv or movie you had been in, but nothing came up, and I was so shocked that you got such a big part right off the bat. But I was also insanely excited to see you perform. And when Seb and Mackie told me I could come and stay for a while, I was ecstatic to be able to get to know you, and that’s when I realized that I liked you.”

Your breath caught in your throat at his words. Did Chris Evans really just admit to having a crush on you?

“Now, I understand if you dont like me back, but I had to get that off my chest, especially since I just broke your heart.” Chris said, his eyes focused on the tv to not meet your gaze. You gave him a small smile, but grasped his chin into your hand, and drew his lips into a soft and tender kiss.

He let out a breathy moan, and pulled you closer. His lips travelled from your lips, and all over your face, amking you let out a giggle. He started laughing too, and pulled away. “I’m guessing this means that you like me too?” He asked, and you nodded immediately.

He smiled, and grasped your hand in his. “Well then, can I take you on a date?”

You took a deep breath, and opened your mouth. “Yes.”

Chris’s eyes immediately welled up with tears and he pulled you in for another kiss.

“You spoke to me,” He whispered when he pulled apart, a few tears rolling down his face.

You shrugged and gave him a smile.

“I trust you wholeheartedly.”