#I don't want to go out again tomorrow

[bronzewool]

I just had the most stressful hour of my life.

Work can only help me out so much with this move. They were nice enough to put me up in a hotel and get a hire a car for the first two weeks, but I need to find my footing quickly and get my own apartment and vehicle. Unfortunately there is only so much I can do when I have no credit score in this country and have only my savings to keep me afloat.

I went to a car dealer to look at a car I saw on the website that was fairly cheap. The guy goes to get the keys but can't find them, which means its either at a different lot or its already been sold. Since I'm already here I agree to walk around with him and see what else I might like. He asks for my budget and I give him an honest answer. I can spend exactly X amount on a car. But as I quickly found out cars are expensive over here and nothing is really in my budget.

We eventually go back inside and he introduces me to his manager. The manager recommends another vehicle and we go out for a test drive around the neighbourhood. I'm not thrilled with it, but I'm short on time and I need something quick so I figure this is the best I'm gonna get. We go back to the office and he starts throwing numbers at me, some stuff I expected with additional hidden fees, but it just keeps going and the final price is $5000 more than my limit. Feeling embarrassed, I explain to him why I can't buy the vehicle, and his jolly demeanour quickly drops and he asks me how I expected to drive away with a car that costs X amount. I don't. You suggested the car and dumped a whole bunch of fees on me. I told you what I could afford.

Keeping in mind I'm already out of pocket on the down payment for the apartment, buying a phone sim with a US number, the opening deposit for my American bank account that I can't access yet, the fuel for the hire car, and all the food I'm eating. I won't get paid til next month so my savings is all I have and its practically gone within the first week.

I don't have a credit score in this country so I can't just lease a vehicle which would be the cheapest option and save me a lot of anxiety.

He tries to haggle and I'm feeling even shittier because its just not gonna happen. I didn't go out expecting to spend my max limit in the first place. He still wants to make a sale though and tries to show me some other vehicles, but by this point its 8pm and I've been running around all day and I just don't have the mental energy for this anymore. They both eventually let me leave but only if I see another car on the way out and you know what, I actually liked it. But my mood has hit rock bottom I didn't want to be in that office for another hour finalising the paperwork.

I don't know what I did wrong or what I said, but I felt like I was speaking a different language and wasting everyone's time. I'm not hiding additional savings you can strongarm out of me. I went to you as a customer asking for help and you made me feel bad for not being able to afford more than what I had. If I could afford more I would have told you. I was trying to help you make a quick sale by eliminating what was out of my price range so we could focus on what was in stock. Not present you with a challenge to charm more money out my ass.

[areyoudoingthis]

i oscillate between feeling devastated that ofmd doesn't get to end like it was meant to and so very grateful that it happened at all, that we got two wonderful seasons and that i get to hang out with an amazing fandom full of lovely, talented, crative people

[albatris]

I was not built for work I was built for drinking 1.5L of iced tea and watching the x files

[ibrithir-was-here]

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[loopdile]

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The worst ship chart ever.

Ship name: Loopdile

[insert very tiny math] Ages: 43 and 31? Age difference: 8?

Portrait of Odile with an eyebrow raised saying "I'm not telling." Name: Odile. Gender: trans woman (maybe nb but idrc rn). Sexuality: Aro lesbian.

Portrait of Loop with a finger raised saying "I'm not telling~" Name: Loop. Gender: Nonbinary (??? what is identity). Sexuality: Ace bi

General sliders. "Relationship starts quickly vs the slowest burn you can possibly imagine" is marked fairly close to slowly and trails off towards slow burn. "They'll be together forever vs They'll break up after 2 months tops" has two marks, one at 2 months and one really close to forever. "Cute couple vs dear god they're ugly" is marked a quarter slider away from cute. "Reasonably healthy and normal relationship vs They're dying and getting killed and hurt man" has a wide mark all the way from the halfway point to a quarter away from healthy. "Extremely popular ship vs literally no one ships this but me" is marked fairly close to no one.

Specific sliders. "Giddy and happy to be in love vs they just killed themselves 40 times in their head at the idea of being in love" has loop at died and odile fairly close to died. "The madoka vs the homura" has loop at homura and odile a third of the slider away. "Telling anyone who will listen about their partner vs rarely brings up that they're in a relationship" has loop a quarter away from telling anyone and odile fairly close to rarely. "eats and/or encourages a healthy diet vs eats dry instant noodles only" has loop at noodles and odile a third away from healthy. "crazy ass vs truck freak" has loop at crazy ass and odile fairly close to truck freak.

Tell me why your ship is interesting... go!

What draws them together? Odile is the only motherfucker that can handle them; Loop is weird and intriguing.

What stands in the way? Poor communication skills; Loop is clingy but Odile often needs space; Loop lashes out and self-isolates.

What are their good traits? They're both hilarious and dedicated to the bit; they're both devoted to their loved ones.

What makes them hopeless at romance? Odile is aro-spec and uninterested in romance; Loop both hates/fears and craves romance; Luckily they can just be something stranger!

Describe them with one trope: found family, deadpan x emotional, secret third thing, I'll protect you from yourself.

[capn-twitchery]

i need to get over my NPC syndrome (idk what to call it. the 'doesn't feel like i can/too shy to share ideas out of the blue, need to be prompted or invited first' syndrome)

i have so many things in my brain,,,i have lots of idea snippets that i'd like to share!! but there is a wall in the way, and it doesn't help that i'm bad at verbalising things

very annoying!!!

[cranberrymoons]

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[nenelysian]

Just watched "I Saw The TV Glow" in cinemas and boy did I get chest kicked all the way back to my derealisation episodes when I was like 6 years old.

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

was watching my mum responding to text after text getting frustrated because she wanted to make lunch but people wouldn't stop texting her

and i was like just. ignore them? just ignore the texts? i will ignore texts for hours until i feel like responding sometimes it's fine?

anyway my dad called me shallow for that one lmaoooo

[lovesodeepandwideandwell]

All is well, I'm once again convinced that I'm right about everything

[kirby-the-gorb]

[mypeggableromance]

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[burningcomputerpersona]

ahhhhhhhh guess who made the mistake of getting a haircut

[crossbackpoke-check]

Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

[britneyshakespeare]

i am at the looking-at-dolls-as-self-soothing part of the night. i definitely wanna beef up my bratz collection since unboxing my alwayz bratz yasmin was just like... oh... oh man... and... and i didn't think it'd be like that for me man i didn't think i had as much nostalgia for bratz as i actually do not just buy owning some but by touching them and playing w their clothes and their hair.

and one of my issues of course is that i'm a redhead and as a redhead my Default Lookalike Doll is meygan (not that having a doll that looks like you is the most important part of bratz, but it is so much of the fun right? the fact that there's a character out there for just about everyone?). and i like meygan as a character well enough, that's not the issue. but of the meygan dolls that have been reproduced, there's none of them that are like, hardcore needs for me except for sweetheart meygan. and i did not buy sweetheart meygan in time. i was not really collecting at that point. that was like 2022. i had a few... na na na surprise dolls at that time. which is funny bc i have four of those that i got all either on clearance or w giftcards and i do really like them even though a lot of doll collectors thought they were kinda dumb, and they were. i just liked the gimmick of the fabric bodies and there were just enough dolls i thought were really cute that i kinda caved at one point. i also knew it was a brand i wouldn't go overboard with. anyway. we were talking about meygan...

sorry meygan back to you girl. i know original 2000s bratz that have not yet been reproduced at crazy expensive on the secondhand market and it's genuinely out of control. but sweet heart meygan, both the repro and the original, are selling for triple digits on mercari, ebay, what have you. that's just ridiculous. frankly. i'm not buying her at that. i don't even like her enough to hunt for her regularly, if that's how it's gonna be. there are plenty of more readily-available bratz dolls that are either regular retail price or clearancing online andin stores. did you guys know alwayz bratz jade is going for 15 bucks on amazon right now? that's crazy. the other always bratz dolls aren't going for that low if they're even marked down yet. that release wasn't even that long ago. anyway i'm thinking of getting jade from that line bc i know some ppl thought that alwayz jade was a let-down, but i thought she was cute. yasmin was my favorite from that line and that's why i got her but jade was my second fave there easily.

i also wanna get the kumi they reproduced sometime and maybe girls nite out cloe since i see she's still available. it's funny there aren't that many core girls i've wanted from the repros but if i go for any of the cloes, new or old, it's gotta be girls nite out. cloe isn't even usually my favorite character no offense blondes she's just kinda. she's just kinda cloe to me. idk i love her but i'm not gagged over her most of the time. these are still bratz standardz we're talking about here so obviously i love her.

there's nothing going on in the world right now other than my bratz dolls. and if someone we won't mention wins the election, i'm definitely going doll crazy. i'm gonna be buying dolls after this anyway, but i'm gonna justify spending an unusual, nearly-irresponsible amount of money. you know. bc i'm an adult and i can.

hey also and of all the lines they could've reproduced why is their most recent slumber party? why? why? when the poll posted by mga had tokyo a go go WINNING? bc tokyo a go go is the correct option? i mean the slumber party line is cute and i like the base dolls and the accessories especially the stuffed animals are cute. but. everyone knows the bratz audience these days is adult collectors. which adult collectors are losing their minds over dolls in pajamas and bathrobes? again they're CUTE. but why. also why did they reproduce bratz babyz when those things were nightmare fuel

[sherlock-is-ace]

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