#I don't regret lying

[eldritchflapper]

I live in a place where there's a lot of swifties & have lied about loving her so I don't get mobbed. Everyday I worry that today will be the day I let a dismissive remark come out & I die

[lastofthe20thcenturygirls]

two people too closed off to everyone met through their love for a game she was the first face he saw they fell in love both of them not being people of too many words never could tell each other to be with him she ruined her reputation they got separated due to circumstances had a child born out of love couldn't meet again due to people this time neither of them could raise their child not together nor alone a child who would grow up to feel next to nothing for them one spent her life succumbing to madness and illness the other living in guilt and loneliness... a tragedy if there ever was one

[pennedinblood]

as of ten minutes ago we are officially Jobless™️. my sign to retire early and devote the remainder of my existence to writing toxic old man yaoi

[melancholic-pigeon]

Okay this is the *actual* last comment, for real, but I just found out Spider is now smearing me as a convert and accusing me of being involved with drama I was not involved with because he mistakenly attributed my apologies for his public temper tantrum as being about something unrelated.

THIS IS A FALSE ACCUSATION and I do not appreciate having yet another bit of fake malicious intent falsely ascribed to my actions and* attributing a completely unrelated attack to me.

Also, it's very sad and disappointing whenever a Jew gets mad at a convert because something else is going on in the Jew's life and the convert happens to be in the splash zone and the Jew falls over backwards to smear the convert and invalidate her faith.

Just....the childish aggression is making me so, so sad and disappointed, from someone I used to think very highly of, who is now lying about me and publicly smearing me with false accusations based on a conflict he started because he misinterpreted something I said and I went out of my way to give him the benefit of the doubt when trying to clear up the mistake HE MADE that led him to decide bullying and attacking me for three fucking days was appropriate and okay and that I'm the bad guy for saying it's wildly unprofessional to behave like this in public to a former customer face.

Sorry, but facts, reality, linear time and the truth of what I actually said and did are on my side here, and I will not stand for being smeared and attacked and shat all over because I had the gall to try to kindly resolve his uncalled for, unjustified temper tantrum.

I am also not sorry that I left a side note in the tags that it was also unacceptable for HIM to drag his daughter into a stupid internet slapfight based on his own reading comprehension failure. Because it was and is unacceptable, and she needs to hear that message from someone.

End of story. Keep digging that hole as long as you like, Spider. It's not helping your case and is continuing to make you look progressively worse and more unreasonable, and the only person you have to blame is yourself.

*revised for clarity

[quiet-admirer]

Who needs a stories feature on Tumblr when you can just post pics of yourself and then go back 2 hours later and make them private 😌

[kevyeen]

I am, for better or worse, a ride or die friend. Also an enabler before a friend; meaning that not only would I encourage you to do that stupid thing (safe and consensual) but I will also have your back when that stupid thing's consequences inevitably bite you in the ass.

[cirilya]

Why do i always relate to anyhow repressed male characters. I'm just a teenage bisexual girl but clive durham i get you on a spiritual level pls never forget that.

[foegold]

computer, reach into my brain and dictate to me the exact causes for this anxiety flare on wednesday late afternoon. surely this will then eradicate the nebulous negative feeling i'm experiencing

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

dietitian warned me the other day i may need to go inpatient if this keeps getting worse and it hasn't left my mind ever since. partly because i don't see the reason. i am literally gaining weight. and also because a non-zero part of me wants to go back inpatient and i don't know why

[buttercup-art]

So I was looking through some 'Ugly Betty' clips last night, and couldn't help but imagine these as Hugo and Noa:

also a bonus (this one is from the show 'Desperate Housewives', but it really reminded me of Noa! I can totally see her saying and doing stuff like this lol):

[ikolit]

that strange new worlds had the episode premise of having Spock temporarily turned fully human and then managed to miss in every aspect of his characterization and how that would affect his relationship with the rest of the crew is truly amazing

[crayonurchin]

Is it OCD or is it a real thought?

"Maybe it's not OCD" "Maybe I do need to think/do/avoid this and I'm just using real intuition" "What if I'm wrong and calling it OCD is making the problem worse" You're right.

The thought might not be OCD. It might be real. It might be something you need to deal with.

But if you have a thought, and it plagues you with such dread and fear and pain that doing compulsions to make it go away is the only way to feel relief?

Then it doesn't matter what the thought is. You are having an OCD response.

"What if I'm gay or trans and the discomfort around thinking it is just my identity trying to find itself?" Treat the OCD first. You have a life to find your identity. But OCD is not the reason you're going to start. This journey should be done for your own growth, not out of fear.

"What if my parter IS secretly cheating on me and I need to check right now?" Treat the OCD first. If they are cheating on you then there is nothing you can do about it. But you're not confronting a situation because you want OCD relief.

"What if I put bleach in my baby's bottle?" Treat the OCD first. Trust that the bottle is clean and your baby is fine. You are a good parent, and you will not be controlled by this fear. You are okay.

There is always a WHAT IF in life, and with OCD there are so many what ifs. But life is not meant to be lived by what if.

You must treat the OCD first. You must reach a point where those thoughts are not making you sick with terror.

Then, if they are true? You will be able to handle them.

You are stronger than OCD.

[vegancas]

all this con posting does make me really sad thinking about how jensen was here!! in my city!!! for the first time in years!!!! less than two weeks ago!!!! and i didn't go see him!!!! 😭😭

[yesyourstalker]

Neta: alright small meeting....so I talked with Candie and we're going to have a sale. Anyone who buys 15 dollars worth of jewelry can get a piercing for free. Doesn't matter the location. Tongue, navel, ears, anything so remind customers about that promotion?............. Also I know this is going to be very annoying but I'm going to be absent.. again....You'll see me but just not as much. It's not for personal reasons it's for........ work reasons. I not sure-

Warabi: I'm also not going to be here. It's a family business kinda thing.

Neta:................ Shit......*sigh* okay so the store is going to be run by mhai. I trust you to keep things in order.

Mahi: That's your first mistake

Neta: watch it..... I know you will and my fiance will be here to help while I'm out! You guys already know ikkan so no need for introductions. Please be nice to him. He's everything to me [kisskisskisskiss]

Ikkan:hehehehe..... Neta stop.....hehe...hi everyone

Neta:mahi and Candi you guys will show him around the store get him adjusted to everything while we're out....he knows the basics and my job as well... So it won't be hard........*clap* great...... Warabi... Step into my office for a second

Warabi: ok

Neta: what's the family business thing??

Warabi: why don't you tell me about your little work thing?

Neta: I asked first

Warabi: fine. I think you already know........... My grandpa's wants me do some stupid mission to get some zap fishes....... He thinks these power outages are a great opportunity for me "to continue family legacy ." Whatever that means.

Neta: well I have to do the same thing........well it's kind of confidential but my old superior called me up, told me that your gramps needed a new power source specifically for the underground. They want something smaller than a great zapfish. Maybe like an eel or something....... *Sigh*.......... I have to go with a Splatoon to get one.

Warabi: Oh so suddenly Octarian society can get their own power source? What was stopping us before? Why did we have to steal it?

Neta: It's complicated.... It's mostly money related and people and power related.......but now we have the inkling military to help us..... I think we're just called the military at this point.

Warabi: Wait... So if you're going to get this stupid eel why do I need to go on a mission to get little zapfish!? That seems like a waste of time!

Neta: we need a temporary power source and I guess those little ones is the best we got. You don't know how hard it is to get a fish that big? they live in freshwater, you know cephalopods and freshwater do not mix....*sigh*........ it's probably gonna be a fucking month just for training and planning.... Cod..... Just be lucky you get to have an easy job..... Mr. Octavio's grandson

Warabi: shut up!! Think you can go with me on the mission?

Neta: to get tiny zapfishs? Just go to the canyons and just get them. They're everywhere! scattered, Left from the turf war.

Warabi: please! You have more experience than me!

Neta:....*sigh*..... Ok.......... Tomorrow morning meet me at my apartment. Pack your weapon and your uniform nothing else.... I'll take you to headquarters and we'll do the mission.

Warabi: yay!!

Neta: you tell no one! Not even mahi!

Warabi: yes! My first mission.......... this actually might be fun!

Neta: yep..........so fun..................... Let's get back to work.

Mahi: so considering you're marrying Neta does that mean you're also our boss?

Ikkan: I...I think-

Neta: ok! Everyone we have a busy day today and even a busier day tomorrow.........*sigh*...... Warabi and I are going to be late tomorrow

Mahi: ok...... What's going on?

Warabi: it's octo stuff. You wouldn't understand

Mahi: bet

Ikkan: you ok babe

Neta: when I went on missions it was life or death when he goes 'it might be fuuuun'... Cod they coddled the fuck out of him... He just pisses me off sometimes

Ikkan: remember what your therapist said....... Deep breaths and reflect. What are you actually mad at.

Neta:...*huff*......... I'm mad that I live through multiple traumatic events without a stable support system and other shit Yeah, yeah........... It's still not fair

Ikkan: I know...[kiss].......Please. Just be safe during your missions.... I don't know what I'll do if something happens.

Neta: I'll be fine babe it's not the first time I''ve done something like this.... it's only 2 months [kiss]

Mahi: No way you're going on a mission?! I thought you said you didn't want to be in the military!

Warabi: I'm not it's just something I'm doing for my grandpa.

Neta: WHAT DID I JUST SAY?!!

Warabi: oh you were serious. Oops

Neta: *huff*

Ikkan: deep breaths....

Neta: mmmmmm... Thanks for doing this.....I hope this isn't affecting your classes.

Ikkan: it's not....... These classes are going to be taken online and there's only three lectures I'll be fine... I might stay a while. [Kiss]

[The next day]

Neta: ok so your mission slip says that you need......... To get at least 20 zap fishes send them up to power the bunkers. All right, that doesn't sound so bad

Warabi:20!!! It's going to take allllll day!! I thought we were going to get like five or six. How do we even get them?

Neta: 20 is not that many. It's pretty easy to get. They're scattered everywhere in the canyons. Past soldiers used to make it an optical to get. Mostly traps......made it harder for the enemy to steal.

Warabi: so We have to go through an obstacle course that sounds dumb......

Neta: Yeah well it was a different time back then......... take your weapon.............. ..... See that glowy thing up there? On top of that, ledge. That's a zap first. We need to find a way up there.

Warabi: ok so what do we do.

Neta: hmmm..... Shoot your ink on that wall right there, climb up and Squid roll onto the side and then you'll be up

Warabi: ........... ...... ok ......... Let me just...... load my weapon and do- shit! One sec

Neta: .......*sigh*.... do you want me to do it?

Warabi: yes please.

(3 hours later)

Neta: Warabi This is ridiculous. I've done most of this mission. You haven't gotten a single zapfish! This mission is easy, 14-year-old could do this. I should know.

Warabi: I inked up one of the walls, two actually.

Neta:.....*sigh*..... We have 19 zapfish. You're getting this last 1

Warabi: fine! Since you're going to complain!.........hm?...uhh?

Neta: sink through the grates

Warabi: I know!! Shut up!...... Just give me a second....got it

Neta: great! now we can go home and I can take the stupid uniform off.......cod... I hope this ink comes out

Warabi: I like the uniform..... Hey we're matching

Neta: I can't even look at myself.....

Warabi: what! You look good though. I like the color and the uniform looks really flattering....... very form fitting......

Neta:........................

Warabi: oh come on Neta. Look I get it I didn't do much but it's because I don't have that much experience. I suck at being a soldier...... but I'll try if we do this again I'll prove that I am made for this

Neta: Warabi...............*sigh* ........ It's a privileged that you didn't have to do this........... This job wasn't kust catching zapfish. Small ones or great ones......... it violence, it's conflict........It's fighting just for your right to exist...... .... it's kill or be killed......... It's going out everyday knowing that you're going to die or someone that you've grown to love deeply dies and there's nothing you can do about it......*sniff* .....You have no time to process what happened. No time to mourn......

Warabi:...............

Neta:Or you kill someone.... You could never forget their face the look of fear and defeat it stays with you......*crying*.........it haunts you!.......... feel so helpless........*crying* no matter the outcome you're ruining someone's life,There's or your own! Over stupid land!......You're so lucky you had a choice to choose a different path in life. I'm happy for you....... But I envy you at the same time! I see you and your life, your family and I......I-I just get angry!...... angry at myself, at my life....... At my people....... you don't get how blessed you are.......*Crying*

Warabi:........................I guess I don't........... . Neta I'm sorry-

Neta: *inhale*.........* exhale*......... it doesn't matter......*sniff*.....What happened, happened. It's behind me now......... I'm healing from it.I'm growing from it. ...*sigh*.......... it's ok.Let's go home......... I told my superior that you got most of the zapfish..............

Warabi................ Ok

Neta:....*sniff*........ I'm sorry.... that happens sometimes..... Don't worry about it..... forget this happened.......... I'm hungry... Let's go I'll buy us some ramen or something?

Warabi:.......... Neta......................................... yeah I could eat something

Neta: great!........it's fine..... I'm fine..... that didn't just happen-uh

Warabi:[hug]........................ I'll pay for the food.... maybe we can do something after...

Neta:........... Yeah... Ok..... Maybe we can skip work today.....[hug]

(Epilogue)

Mahi: hey you're back! how was it?

Warabi:.........Fine...... I got food

Mahi: nice!.......... So was it fun! Or is it a secret?

Warabi: ................ ......... Yeah

Mahi: ok

(Later at night)

Mahi: ....*sleep*....

Warabi:....... Hey Mahi

Mahi: hmhmh.. yeah

Warabi:....... Am I ungrateful.....

Mahi:.... No..... I don't think so?..... Did Neta yell at you because if so we know where he lives-

Warabi: no he didn't........ it's just

Mahi: what? What happened?

Warabi: octo stuff......hmm... can I sleep here tonight?

Mahi: ..*yawn*........*pat*...*Pat*.....

Warabi: thanks.............. does Neta talk about the military.....

Mahi: he tries to avoid it............ night.......*Sleep*

Warabi: ok.................... this pillow smells like mizole's cheap ink gel

Mahi:shut up

Mahi was crafted by @fish-at-fish-fish-resort

[crewofthegoldrush]

“all gals are my type”

rip to all the monty ships that could have been if montbrey didn’t have me in such a chokehold

ship talk under the cut

Gentry - Monty’s ex-wife in canon but in another life i think they would have been one of those couples, you know the kind who are just obnoxiously flirty and can’t keep their hands off each other even in pubic, gross. it is possible Gentry could have come into play before Aubrey came back into the campaign as i had her and Rascal in my head even before the campaign, but she was never fully conceptualized until much much later. Still its nice to occasionally think about monty settled down with her two best friends.

Margo - i loved margo the minute we saw her and she’s on my mind way more than an NPC with like 12 minutes of screen time should be. honestly if my DM had firmly said no Aubrey and Ang are not coming back, Margo would have been my new focus and as far as i’m considered they definitely hooked up during the time skip (im dead ass serious, margomery was almost canon)

Medra - an Alchemist professor at a university that we’ve visited a few times, Medra is pretty well liked at the table! Fun fact her first introduction was at a costumed event and her outfit was inspired by Celestia - and since all of us are bad with names, her name was just Celestia for like 5 months lol. I don’t have much to say about these two since their screen time has been very little but Monty flirts when she sees her and you gotta admit an Alchemist and an Artificer probably have a lot to nerd over

Harper - well due to changelings and all that, technically this is canon! but (well fg2 spoilers i guess lmao) at this point for them she’s now Aubrey mostly full time, making this i guess sort of a sunk ship as well. not that it was a ship that was going to set sail on it’s own - sorry if you read fool’s gold and liked Harper better but uh yea harpgomery wasn’t going to be canon. not that i want to give the impression that monty is not in love with her because that’s not true! monty adores harper so much and is genuinely head over heels for her - honestly at this point i think monty loves this changeling no matter what face she’s wearing.

speaking of changelings, bonus:

[kindlecorner]

that video just. scratches a specific itch.

and at first I thought part of it was like. being recognized for your work and wanting to put yourself on that table.

but then I realized that it wasnt that, but the question of does it matter what youre labeled as or remembered? if you just love creating unabashedly? does it matter?

if it touches one person, has an effect on one person, even if that person is you...?

that's all that matters.

I don't care if my work gets lost in the sands of time, if it doesn't get remembered. it's a scary thought, but. I loved creating it, I loved working on it, and I love that it gave people something when it did

it doesn't have to be something fantastical to be worthy of value. it has value inherently from being created.

just create. creating in itself is the gift.