#I don't know what the ship tag for them is somebody please tell me

[jeanne-de-valois]

doctor huh??????????

(on my current rewatch of new who I'm still stuck in 10 zone, and thus have to admit to something terrible. Apparently I am a Doctor multishipper to the degree that I've clowned myself into shipping Doctor/Donna romantically. I won't apologize for it, they protested too much and made me think about it. )

[alastors-antlers]

Being someone who sees a lot of talk about shipping Alastor (sexually, romantically) in fanworks, I just want to take some time to talk about both sides of the issue. It's long, I know - please, please bear with me until the end, and I hope you'll understand what I mean in a bit.

I hope this helps someone, but as an aroace person who understands the frustration and hurt, this is often how it feels to me:

Alastor, being one of the limited cases of aspec rep that I've seen and one of even fewer which I actually enjoyed, means a lot to me.

That being said, his canon rep establishes that he's aroace but not much about how this factors into his life or relationships at all -- and when there's a gap in canon, I turn to fanfiction, which tends to spotlight characters' queerness even when the source material doesn't or can't. Don't we all want to see ourselves in the media we engage with?

When I pull up AO3, there are already a good number of fics about him. Great! Some of them are definitely incredible; but as I read on, it starts to seem like a lot of fics I see acknowledge that he's asexual or aromantic in some way but don't really factor that into the story. It reads like you could have written the story without keeping his queer identity in mind, and it would've come out the same.

Even when representation that does resonate with me exists, it starts to be exhausting to pick through the slash tags to see which ones are written in an aspec-coded way, so I wonder if it would be easier to not read anything with slash at all. On the other hand, when you filter ships out completely, only a tiny fraction of the fanworks are left.

People often respond that aspec people can have relationships, and I think we tend to know that. They can have sex, some can experience sexual attraction in select situations, they can romance others beyond romantic attraction -- any combination of things. But some aroace people don't want either, and sometimes we're struggling to see ourselves in how Alastor is typically portrayed.

Out of all of the fics, sex-repulsed, totally aromantic Alastor isn't seen much. And when Alastor's limited canon seems to be pretty supportive of a reading where he is those things...

Sometimes, you start to feel lost. If fics were evenly distributed along the aroace spectrum of experiences, wouldn't you expect more fics of him being the "totally uninterested" brand of aroace? But there aren't. People seem to have a preference toward seeing him in relationships. Even if they mean well, it can make you think: what does that say about how we view asexuality/aromanticism as a whole?

Is there something less interesting about Alastor, when romance is taken out of the picture? Do others find him less appealing as a character if they can't see him dating, or in love, or having sex or wanting it? Why do we need romance, when romance is already everywhere else, when it doesn't even feel like he was originally really interested? It brings to mind a struggle to be societally accepted, even today.

Even when it's not technically wrong to write Alastor as you see him, being told that we should all be able to ship him however we want can feel like this:

It brings to mind people who try to swing in with misinformed good intentions, telling us "oh, you're aromantic? but you can still have romantic relationships, right? so you can still be normal." when all we want is to be okay outside of the normal.

Or trying to find a partner who can be with us, out of everyone who tells us "I know you don't enjoy sex, and that's okay, but I can't have a romantic relationship with you without it." and being so tired of hoping for someone who gets it.

Or talking with peers, and hearing them all commiserate and fawn over their experiences with love, then telling them about someone you like non-romantically and getting "aww, it sounds like somebody's got a crush!" but not being believed when you tell them it's not like that at all.

Alastor is not a big deal, not really, not in the grand scheme of things. But in an allonormative world, it can feel like a sudden splash of cold water when we were expecting a warm fire to sit around. Even within this ecosystem, we squint to see ourselves reflected.

Society isn't built for us. It can be exhausting to be reminded of that.

~~~

I hope to support people writing Alastor as any variation of aspec, or not even aspec at all. At the end of the day, I think that fanon is really whatever you want it to be, and everyone has their own reasons for writing what they find enjoyable. They should be allowed to do so, and I want to believe that people do what they do with good intentions.

They want to imagine scenarios with the templates of characters they love, and that's okay; even beyond sexuality/queer identities/etc., fan interpretations of characters can be incredibly, wildly different from who they really are in the story anyway, and that's what I try to remind myself. But still, I also can't help feeling disappointed about the aroace representation we could have seen.

(Is Alastor canonically sex-repulsed? Uhh, maybe. If I had to guess, that'd be my top guess, but this might be a hot take: I wouldn't really say there's enough to go off of considering that this view is supported by Angel propositioning him both times, and it's not like Alastor is a particularly big fan of Angel at those points anyway lol)

To my fellow aroaces struggling with Alastor's fandom rep: if you need a break from it all; if you need to block the tags that you hate; if you need to talk to someone about how you're feeling; that's okay. It makes sense that you'd want more representation in a way that helps you feel seen and validated and less alone. I can't speak for everyone, but I think I get it.

I don't have any solutions for how you're feeling, because sometimes I'm feeling the same way. I understand that you want others to get your position and you have the right to express your feelings, but even if you're correct, often being angry or frustrated won't help change others' minds, so let's try to save our energy and take care of ourselves.

Something that helps me to think about is that even now, asexuality is gaining more visibility. We're gaining support. Real change is happening in the world that's helping incredible amounts of aspec people feel freer to be themselves. And maybe one day, we won't be reaching to protect our scraps of representation.

Let's fight until that day together <3

[aventurine-official]

((any tips for starting an rp blog?))

(Mod Minie's rp tips and tricks!

I have quite a few tips, but of course, they don't work the same for everyone. Feel free to use only what you think is necessary!

~ First of all, most definitely do make guidelines. Make the rules clear for people who will be doing rp with you, and respect their boundaries in return. It's most definitely okay to tell others you will not be discussing nsfw topics even if you are not a minor. I've just found that having rules is a nice way to set your boundaries and to avoid incidents easily. I have a rulelist in my intro post, and if you'd like to borrow it or interpret it into your own words or adapt it to fit your needs, then by all means!

~ If your rp blog is a sideblog, send your asks on anon, naturally. But no matter what kind of asks you send, it can be useful to tag your url as a signoff so that when the other person answers your ask, you get a notif from the tag.

~ One of the most "obvious" tips is to have different symbols or font styles for different parts of your rp. Every system is different, and none are expected to be alike. For example, many people use brackets ( ) for when they are speaking out of character, and quotation marks " " for when characters speak. I like to use italics and asterisks * * for my muses' actions, but there are many other ways to do so. Don't be afraid to be creative, as long as the difference is clear to identify.

~ Another tip is to slowly make yourself comfortable in the rp community you're in. Don't be afraid to talk to other moderators because most of them are really great people! This is also a skill that will come in handy later if you need to discuss the conditions for a rp thread or about doing rp for a certain ship together.

~ This is not necessary at all, but I highly recommend making tags. Whether it's to separate your asks from your reblogs, to sort interactions with certain other characters, or to identify your anons, tags are super useful for being able to organize your threads. As some people might not want to see the rp threads that get very long on their dash and instead want to see asks, that way other people can benefit from your tag system too by either following tags or blacklisting as they need. Also-- as a person who like showing some of my rp to other people, the tags are handy for me, too.

~ If possible, find a mod with a masterlist for your rp community. In my case, @/dr-ratio-official holds the HSR masterlist :) It can make it easier for people in your community to find you and to interact!

Mod Minie's rp advice!

These next ones are not tips, necessarily, but I find them incredibly important to know, especially if you're a beginner.

~ There is no rush. Rp doesn't have a time limit, and most other mods will be thankful they get a response from you at all and do not mind waiting from a few days to a month. Please do not let anybody pressure you into answering an ask or into replying to a thread when you do not have the energy. Rushed rp might not always be in character.

~ Don't worry about picking a character somebody else has roleplayed for! Picking a new character can be a handy choice to integrate into a community and to make yourself known, but you should only rp as muses you like! Don't worry if you share the same muse as other mods, just have fun!

~ Don't be afraid to have headcanons for your muse! You don't need to run around trying to prove it's true or get it approved officially. If your headcanons apply to your interpretation of your muse, so be it! If it bothers other people, that will be their choice to avoid interactions or not. In fact, I've often seen other mods agree with headcanons lsagdkagskf

~ Do not feel forced into discussing topics you do not want to discuss, whether in character or out. If you get an ask you'd feel uncomfortable answering, just delete it. It's easier and much less stressful.

~ Do not feel guilty about having favourites or about being someone's favourite, if your muse (or someone else's) has several mods who rp as them. Of course, certain people will have bias towards certain interpretations of characters. Some mods like doing more multi-paragraph rp, and will tend to interact more with certain mods who rp a muse versus other mods who rp the same muses. It's the same thing for more silly, less serious rp! It all depends what style you like, and I'm sure you'll find wonderful people who you enjoy doing rp with :)

~ Make sure your rp community (whomever you choose to interact with) is a safe and fun space for you and others! Do not be afraid to speak up if something makes you uncomfortable, and do not feel badly for cutting off interactions with a specific mod or anon if they do not respect your rules or begin to harass either you specifically or somebody else.

~ Lastly, just have a blast. That's what rp is for, bringing joy to yourself and others, as well as growing closer to your muse(s)!

I'm so glad you asked me for advice ahaha it makes me feel more experienced than I am! I hope this helps :) ~ Mod Minie)

[countrymusiclover]

8 - Cuba Beach pt 2

Part 9

Battle of Heart and Mind

Tag list - ask to be added (in my ask box please) @aintinacage @hiraethrhapsody @mostlymarvelgirl @importantgalaxyrunaway

I climbed out the hole that we had made on the side of the submarine. Raven, Morira, Charles and the others on our team came over once they saw it was me. Even members who fought with my father weren’t too far. Charles stepped closest to me looking to see if I was injured. “Did he hurt you?”

“No he didn’t hurt me. Charles, I watched Erik kill him. He…killed him.” I sniffed feeling some tears slipping down my face.

The wind picked up and I jumped seeing my fathers dead body drop down into the sand beside us. Erik came out of the sun hovering off the ground with the helmet still on his head. “Today, our fighting stops! Take off your blinders, brothers and sisters. The real enemy is out there. I can feel their gun moving in the water, their metal targeting us. Americans, Soviets, humans. United in their fear of the unknown. The neanderthal is running scared, my fellow mutants! Go ahead, Charles. Tell me I'm wrong.”

Charles raised his finger to the side of his head but lowered them, sending me a nod that he was in fact right. Whipping my head in the direction of the man who killed my father I begged him knowing this wasn’t right. “Erik, you got your vengeance. That should be enough. Leave the humans out of this.”

“It doesn’t matter, Addison. I was right all along about them. Now it’s their turn to pay.” He declared to me. Turning my head in the direction of the wide no island in sight ocean before us. The ships from the US and the Russians slowly aimed their guns directly in our way exactly like he said they would. The ships fired them off where I screamed covering my ears thinking that we were going to die like this. Thinking that I would never get to really live my life once the rockets blew us into tiny pieces…yet it doesn't happen for some reason.

Charles's voice made me peek one eye open still covering my ears and I remained lowered down on my knees in the sand. “Erik, you said it yourself, we're the better men. This is the time to prove it. There are thousands of men on those ships. Good, honest, innocent men! They're just following orders.”

Erik didn't care, just intensely glaring up at the rockets he had paused in the sky. “I've been at the mercy of men just following orders….Never again.”

“Erik, release them!” Charles raised his voice seeing Erik instead use his power to launch the rockets back at the ships that fired them. Yet he didn't expect his friend to tackle him into the sand. “No!”

The boy's began fighting on the sandy ground of Cuba Beach. Erik held Charles down for a moment. “I don't want to hurt you. Don't make me!” Charles threw some punches and the pair were getting tired until Erik whipped his head around hearing bullets fire in his direction. He used his power dodging them until we heard somebody else cry out.

“Charles!” I cried out where Raven covered her mouth in horror. His body slowly collapsed into the sand and he was holding his lower back in pain from where the bullet had hit.

Erik rushed over using his ability to remove the bullet from his spine. He then glared at the cia woman choking her by the metal dog tag she was wearing around her neck. “You. You did this.”

She choked with tears. “Erik. Please.”

Charles was laying his head in his friend's lap. “She didn't do this, Erik. You did.”

“Us turning on each other, it's what they want. I tried to warn you, Charles. I want you by my side. We're brothers, you and I. All of us together, protecting each other. We want the same thing.” Erik shifted his attention down to his friend.

Charles shakes his head in disagreement. “My friend. I'm sorry, but we do not.”

The cia woman rushed over with Hank and the others to check on their friend. “Charles! I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.”

“It's all right. It's all right.” He accepted her apology shifting his gaze over to me like he had something more to say.

“This society won't accept us. We form our own. The humans have played their hand. Now we get ready to play ours. Who's with me? No more hiding.” Erik had risen to his feet standing in front of me and the ones who had followed my father's pathway. Erik raised his right hand out to me focusing his gaze on mine. “Addison, you were right that we have always been there for each other. I won't abandon you, it's your choice.”

“You should go with him. It's what you want.” Charles croaked through tears.

Raven blinked through tears. “You promised me you would never read my mind.”

He nodded his head and she kissed his forehead looking in my direction. “I know. I promised you a great many things, I'm afraid. I'm sorry….Addi, there's something I need to tell you.”

“What is it, Charles?” I asked, sitting down on my knees and my hands in my lap.

He raised his right hand to the side of my face showing me a vision through my mind. “When I went into Erik’s mind I looked for her in cerebro. I found her, Addi.”

It was a busy street filled with people and I saw Charles' mind centered on someone specific in the crowd. Charles and I began walking inside of his mind. “So what did you need to show me and why now?”

“Because right now I can see inside your mind. Right now you are debating on whether or not you should follow Erik or go on your own.” He moves his blue eyes onto mine.

Looking at the telepath I replied back. “I don’t know what the right thing to do is, Charles. I don’t want to hurt the human population that isn't like us. But my mother…he said he would help me find her all these years.”

“You’re mother isn’t what your father said she was. I’ve seen inside her head.” He spoke to me pointing his index finger at a blonde woman who was sitting on a park bench by herself.

Shifting my gaze I silently stared at her. I had memorized her signal picture that I had so many times. “That’s her….do you know where she is?” Her blonde hair was straightened and I could see a yellow police badge on her chest.

“When I entered her mind her location appeared to be Washington D. C. She was hoping to work her way to being a secret service member to the president of the United States.” The telepath declared to me.

I questioned him still in disbelief. “And you think I should go find her even if it means joining Erik’s brotherhood. Why suggest it if you don’t like the thought?”

“Because regardless of my feelings for you. I know that you can change him for the better. You bring out the better side of him that he wants to keep buried inside after all the loss he’s felt.” Charles cradles the side of my face with his right hand.

I parted my mouth open, processing that he just admitted he felt something for me. I knew that he knew it was better if I go off with his now former friend. Gripping his forearms I sniffed through tears. “Thank you, Charles. I won’t forget you.”

“And I won’t forget you, Addi. If you ever need anything I’m only a thought away.” He tapped the side of his forehead with his freehand before everything around us went dark.

I gasped opening my eyes, wiping away tears with the sleeve of my suit. Charles had his bright blue eyes on mine as he gave me a simple head nod in the direction of Erik. “Only a thought away…” I whispered under my breath to him getting to my feet going over to the man I knew my whole life.

“I was beginning to think you were abandoning me, Addison.” Erik responded by watching me place my hand in his. He held Raven’s hand in his other hand with the rest of my father’s team standing around us.

Squeezing his hand in mine I showed the necklace that I had inside my pocket. Opening my palm he could see the bloody coin laying there. “We had a deal, Lehnsherr. I helped you, now you help me.”

“To finding your mother, Addi.” He whispered nodding to the red skin guy that could teleport us anywhere. The red skinned mutant snapped his fingers and we were off on our own.

Comments really appreciated ❤️

[thursdayinspace]

twenty questions for fanfic writers

I was tagged by the amazing @oohnotvery, thank you!! <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

10, but I orphaned my old account several years ago when I left fandom for a bit. I don't know how many I had back then, over 100 for sure.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

37.724

3. What fandoms do you write for?

The X-Files. There's most likely going to be some Star Trek in there eventually, and I ventured into other realms in the past, but right now, exclusively The X-Files.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

under construction (Torchwood)

wild side (The X-Files)

in conclusion (The X-Files)

the ghost circle (Torchwood)

the physics of being alive (Torchwood)

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes. If I ever forget, I'm sorry! I love every comment and it's important to me to say thank you.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

held safely in the dark (Torchwood). It's not even all that angsty by that fandom's standards, I suppose.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Good question. I rarely ever write unhappy endings. Fanfic is my happy place. But I think the one I most enjoyed writing because there was NO angst at all was in conclusion (The X-Files).

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Ohhhh my god one time in a different fandom on my old AO3, somebody left a scathing, vitriolic comment on one of my fics, but obviously meant to do it anonymously -- only they forgot to log out first. By the time I read it they had deleted their entire account. That made the whole thing actually funny in context.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes, I do. What kind? Hmm. Mostly pretty plain and boring. It's all about the feeeeeelings.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I used to. Back in the good old livejournal days I loved a good crossover. I wrote a Stargate Atlantis/Firefly crossover once, that might have been the craziest.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I'm...not sure? I think so? But that would have been like 15 years ago, I'm not sure anymore whether that actually happened or not.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes!! And it's so much fun. I've had a few co-writers over the years. Once life is less crazy, I might be tempted to give it another shot.

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Mulder and Scully. There's a reason my tag for them is "the ship of all time."

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

None, currently. ...I'm. Hold on. That can't be true. But I truly can't think of a single one. I can't remember the last time that happened. This doesn't happen. But no, not one.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue. Because it's fun, and through years and years of practice. One of my first betas drilled "show, don't tell" into my head to the point where I feel it's permanently tattooed onto the backs of my eyelids and I see it every time I blink when I'm writing. And in my very specific case, that meant learning to make people use their words. BUT it has helped me getting rid of unnecessary exposition, which at the same time made me get a lot of practice with dialogue instead. (Let's ignore the fact that I literally just posted a fic that has almost no dialogue at all...)

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Action. I can't do it, I'm sorry. Whose hand goes where when? Does this guy need three arms to do what I just told him to? Wait, you were just over there, how did you get here suddenly? Anyone who can write action scenes has powerful magic and I envy you and please teach me.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I'm bilingual, so I could do that, I suppose? The need for it has never come up. Sounds fun though.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Stargate Atlantis!! I still miss that fandom. Ahh the livejournal nostalgia is strong tonight...

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

It's usually always the last one I posted, but I'm gonna say in conclusion. I'm very fond of that one.

Tagging...I don't know who has done this and who hasn't! @mr-iskender if you want to?

[echojulietfoxtrot]

Dear Artists - Notes & Tips from a Would-Be Commissioner.

It feels like there has been a mini revival of Art Tumblr after Twitter burned itself down, which is amazing, but I've been skulking around looking for folks to commission lately, and I see some of the same gripes recurring a lot. I've posted this before as a reply to something before, but I think it might be worth its own post.

Here are some tips to help you as an artist help your clients to meet you half way!



So you want to take Commissions on Tumblr!

- Awesome! ... does your profile actually indicate that though? Does it clearly tell me at first glance that a) you're an artist and b) you're open to commissions right now? That might seem like a goofy question, but you would be absolutely amazed how many artists on here do not have any trace of that. (Several artists I've seen just today don't!)

- Is your askbox open for quick "Would you do..." enquiries? Have you checked it lately? Is there some way I can make a quick enquiry with you - and this is important- without leaving Tumblr? That extra layer of clicks makes a big difference.

- If your slate's full for now, do you have a wait list? Can I tell? How does somebody get on it? Can I find that info easily?

- Is there a standard package of info requirements and material you want from a client to consider/work with them? Even a template? Your client may be in a different timezone or work schedule to you, so teasing this stuff out one message at a time can take foreeevvverr - try to make it clear in advance what you need to know so everything is said/asked in as few chess moves as possible.

- This will be a theme.

- Please, please don't take it for granted that people will just 💫DM you for info💫 about anything you already know they'll have to ask - that info should be just about impossible for them to miss. By the time they're DM'ing you, they should pretty much just be clarifying something they've read or pitching the particulars of this specific transaction. Everything they have to ask is one more little obstacle to contacting you at all.

- Do you have lots of diverse and easily found examples of your work? Have you tagged your work consistently and properly? Have you told me what what that tag is? Have you distinguished between Commissions and Personal/commercial stuff? Your style is probably great, but I need to know if it's my vibe! Again, several artists I've seen today have not done this. I have no idea what kind of work you've done, and I can't find it even if I look!

- Have you made it clear what you're capable or interested in working in, subject wise? For example, I tend to look for artists I know can pull off f/f tv/movie fandom ship stuff, and female bodies and musculature, in relatively realistic proportions. Maybe you can do that! But if I can't see any indications of it, and all the stuff I find is m/m or OCs or D&D, I won't assume it, and I probably won't cold call to find out.

- If you do LGBTQ+, furry, fetish, mecha etc art - anything at all that anyone else might not do, for any reason - make sure to say so. Again, folks won't take it for granted, so try not to make it so they have to ask. Mostly, they won't.

- Also, make it clear if you work in zestier flavors or not, and indeed what specific kinds of zesty you will and won't do. (And on a personal level, if you do, try not to draw those boobs so high, Tumblr)

- Speaking of, if somebody approaches you with stuff you can't or won't do just out of preference, is there someone else you can steer them to? The favor might just come right back around.

- Let's talk money, baby. Where can I find your ballpark prices? Is it obvious? I don't need to know to the penny, but I do need to know if my budget and your pricing are at least in the same orbit. At least tell me how many digits to expect. Just saying "It depends!" is a psychological brick wall for a would-be client; I promise you that "contact me to discuss pricing" without any indications of floor or ceiling will cost you work.

- Also I strongly suggest a two-chunk payment structure, with some upfront and some on completion. I personally prefer to pay the whole lot upfront where possible, but at least for your first commission with someone, getting part upfront is safest for you, and "the rest on completion" is reassuring for them.

- Consider different tiers if you haven't already. A 60 buck quickie sketch is 60 bucks you didn't have yesterday, and they're not a huge commitment. You can potentially do a bunch of them in the time you're waiting for The Big One to come along, and if you agree to post it publicly, it's essentially an ad for you. And maybe I'll like it so much I'll ask you to go further with it, and stump up for a more developed version? (Though if that's an option, it should be clear to me too.)

- I strongly recommend having a look around at the all-in-one commission info sheets some folks put together, with pricing, payment, wills and won'ts, and FAQs and making one of your own, and then - and this is important - pinning it, or linking to it in your profile. It should smack folks in the face, they won't seek it out, and it should be like a used car ad - every fact or figure you can anticipate them wanting to know should be plain to see.

- And keep it, and your Tumblr, active and up to date. If your commission info sheet and your Tumblr hasn't been touched since 2012, I'll assume you're in space or dead. I will not check your Twitter or Patreon for signs of life.

- Reblog other artists, and actively engage and tag in fandoms/tags you have worked in and want to work in. Branch out into new subjects/fandoms/tags now and then just to experiment and broaden your footprint. Tumblr is a bunch of circles glued together, that's how you get out there. (Speaking for myself, I tend to find new artists through previous artists more often than via tags or Recommended feeds.)

- There is absolutely nothing wrong with reaching out to a high profile blog in a given fandom or genre sphere and asking for a shout out. They'll likely be more than happy to do it.

- Reblog yourself plenty, for the day and night crowd, weekends and weekdays etc. Gas yourself up a little, nobody minds. Add a few new comments about your process or something now and then, it's interesting. Try not to talk shit about your art, even just in jest - it's not good for you, and it's kind of a bummer to onlookers. If something wasn't perfect, think and talk about what you learned from it.

- And don't go doxxing yourself or anything, but maybe give some idea of when and how you work on your art - it's probably not a great idea to commit to an ironclad timescale, but if your posts give a sense of how and when you fit the work into your life, people can have some sense of what to expect and be a little more understanding than they might be otherwise.

- Blaze it. If you're sure you can tune out the whiney clowns, Blaze it. Yes, you'll absolutely get whinging edgelord nitwits in the comments, but you will also get seen by potentially interested folks who would never have stumbled over you otherwise, and they'll stick around when the other dummies are gone.



So you've been Commissioned!

- Keep in touch! Generally speaking, just staying in touch to say "Hey, this is still in the pipeline" now and then is plenty. Don't weird yourself out about it, don't psyche yourself out of getting in contact if it's been a while. Just message. It's cool! I don't mind waiting for the art itself, at all, but long periods of ghostly radio silence are disheartening. If you're art-blocked up the wazoo, it's nbd to say so. If you're taking a break to work on some personal stuff or casual no-pressure sketches, say so! Literally any contact at all is better than no contact. If nothing else, all you have to say is "Hey, just checking in. I have been making progress on your piece/I plan to get some work done on your piece today/this week/this month. Hope all is well!". Bam, done.

- Some would-be commissioner types like to have their shiny completed art piece revealed all in one go and kept all to themselves. Some (me) love to see WIP updates that they can reblog from you, so they have an extra chance to roll around in their fandoms and tags a little. On the other hand, some artists don't like showing their WIP stuff publically though. All of that's fine - but regardless, make sure you're both on the same page about it, and what format and what channel they'll get their piece in, from Day 1.

- Let the client know if you'd be up for working with them again afterwards, or if you'd like x and y conditions if they want to work with you again, or if you're all done and you never want to see these damn characters or this bloody setting again. As a client, you can feel a bit weird about hitting the same talented creative up five times in a row for the same two blorbos in a situation, so it's a good idea to intercept that if it's not an issue for you.



Remember - commissioning something has the potential to feel a little like a weird awkward Tinder convo for money. As an artist... well, you're already an artist, but it’s in your interest as somebody who eats and uses electricity to make it obvious that working with you will be easy and hassle free for all involved. What can you do to ensure that, and signal it? Make yourself approachable and easy to deal with, and do yourself justice.

All the love to Art Tumblr. I'll come knocking on some of your doors again next time I have spare cash and a hankering for some more angsty Dani and Grace McTerminatorDarkFate stuff.

[blessedshortcake]

Introduction

Hey I finally made one of these.

You can call me Cupcake!

I am 20 and go by all pronouns including it/its and neos! I write, you can check out my works under the #my writing tag!

Art progress blog: @cupcake-draws

Learn more about me under the cut!

I am 20. People under 13... should not even be on this site but alas if you are then please leave my blog alone thanks.

You can use any and all pronouns for me including it/its and neos! Pronouns collection coming soon cuz they are fun to make!

English is my second language! I live in Hungary which means my English can be a little whack so feel free to correct my mistakes. I speak Hungarian (duh) and English but I've been learning Spanish and Romanian for a while now.

I am neurodivergent and I have a handful of symptoms I am still making sense of in therapy. I have OSDD and I don't mind talking about it here but there will be things I may not answer if asked. I accept some questions about my general mental health too but I might not answer them all.

I do use tone tags every so often and even tho I likely won't ask you to use them, it would be appreciated if you did.

I am a writer. I mainly post fanfiction but I have original stories I haven't really showed anyone yet. Maybe someday.

You can find me on AO3, but I am the most active here if you want to interact. (RIP my twitter you wont be missed)

My main tags are

#my writing - for the stuff I write

#caupcakes - things about my CRK AUs

#cake save tag - for stuff I find interesting or useful for later. Writing advice, life advice or just good work from people

#cake updates - fanfic updates, life updates, any kinda updates I have about stuff comes here

#cake rambles - me talking a lot about stuff

#cake rants - stuff that made me upset (you can filter this if you're just here for my writing)

#cake after midnight - stupid stuff. makes no sense. we are balling. time is a concept made up by the governent

My fandoms

Call of Duty

Arcane

Five Nights at Freddies

Sonic

Madness Combat

Undertale & Deltarune

Batman (more so Batfam but shrug)

Cookie Run

& many others but those are my main fandoms right now.

Boundaries

Spam interactions are welcome and very much appreciated.

Reblogs > Comments > Likes

My DMs are open but I might take a bit to answer! I do love chatting and interacting with people tho so feel free to drop by.

My Asks and Submissions are also open! You can ask me about my fandoms, headcanons, wips or even slightly personal stuff if you'd like to get to know me.

DNI

Racists/Homophobes/Abelists/Bigots in general. Just the criteria of Don't Be An Asshole.

Pedos/MAPS/NOMAPS/PEAR or whatever you call yourself. Get out of my blog and my life. This includes Frans Undertale fans. If you ship Frans please leave! Thanks!

Proship/Anti anti or again whatever you call yourself. You are not welcome here.

Incest supporters fictional or not. This includes Fontcest Undertale fans.

Pro ed/pro ana/thinspo/fatspo just leave. Get help go to therapy.

People who harass others about their religion, fandoms or ships. I don't care what you believe in, what fandom/media you enjoy or who you ship (as long as its. legal.) just be chill about it. Don't harrass others for what they like/dislike

NFT bros/NFT supporters, AI "artists". I'd prefer if people who use stuff like CharacterAI and ChatGPD would leave too since that's the same thing. Idc why you use it.

I am not an all seeing entity so if you notice that I am engaging with somebody who has been an asshole (anything from my DNI) then please tell me. I don't do a deep cleaning research on everyone's blogs who I come across but I'd like to know if it happens!

[triforce-of-mischief]

Im new to the BotW fandom, how do I get more involved? This is the first time I’ve wanted to get involved with a fandom community so I don’t really know how to start :/

Hello! You've already done a great first step, which is asking for help! Fandom and platform policies can change depending on what you're into and where you are.

When I first entered the fandom, I spent a lot of time observing the active community. Notice the patterns and what people seem to expect from each other.

Take a journey through the #botw and #breath of the wild tags here on Tumblr. Find some artists, writers, analysis thinkers, and overall cool people and follow them! AO3 also has a good tagging system so you can search for the Breath of the Wild fandom if you want to read fics. Please kudos and comment if you enjoyed the author's work!

Make sure to reblog content if you like it because that's how you show your support on Tumblr. Likes don't really do anything for creative folks, they don't increase visibility and you're actually likely to be blocked if you don't reblog things. If you want to know more about reblogs vs likes, please check out my #tumblr 101 tag on my blog. I'll have it at the bottom of this post so all you have to do is click on it.

When you reblog, don't hesitate to share your thoughts! In the tags, tell the creator how much you love their work. Positive feedback keeps the community thriving!

If you want to talk to somebody or make a new friend, send them an ask! Nearly everybody on Tumblr craves interaction and would love new friends. I've made many amazing friends just by following them and/or exchanging asks.

Follow the spoken (and unspoken) rules of Tumblr fandoms. If your post is only related to Breath of the Wild, only tag #botw or #breath of the wild. Do not overload your posts with unrelated fandoms such as Linked Universe, Tears of the Kingdom (yes, they are completely different games), or characters who are not mentioned in your post. Tumblr has a very efficient tagging system, which means that people will find your post if they're looking for it. If you use too many unrelated tags, people can even report you for spam.

Most importantly, be polite! It looks like you've got that covered already but you can never be too sure. Don't send hate anons, harass people over their shipping preferences, harass people over anything, or make rude comments about how you don't like somebody's creation. Don't like = don't read = keep it to yourself.

If something or somebody is bothering you, block them. You can block people, tags, and post content to keep your fandom experience safe and happy.

I hope I covered everything! Please let me know if I missed anything, and have fun in your fandom!

[mihidecet]

I am experiencing many thoughts head full. I will try to put them in words - consider them observations, theories and like ... plot points? All of this is based on what I have understood and interpreted, so if anything I say is wrong or sounds wrong, please do feel free to correct me.

So, Purgatory day one.

An important prelude is that I was watching Philza, so my POV was of Red team.

I did not get to see it till the end, but I did catch some clips - including the one where he gets killed by Fit while surrounded by others and not even fighting back.

And the cognitive dissonance of seeing Charlie screaming while everyone else was silent was so strong?? I had almost forgotten they all went into separate discord channels.

And like - they never do, at least not that I remember? Even when they were split in teams in past events, they used proximity chat still, right? So they could still hear others.

And the whole thing about collaboration and communication being thrown out the window?

I assume that this is part of the Federation's plan and it is working TOO WELL. Telling them their kids lives are on the line was perfect.

[Potential spoiler if you haven't seen Quackity's stream]

Q was even told he'd be sowing discord between them and such, but like ???? he doesn't even have to do anything.

HOWEVER as I mentioned yesterday (in tags, I was in a hurry) I feel like there is a pretty clear way to approach this situation - and that is collaboration.

Why would they go through all the effort of killing each other and compete when they could simply help eachother? it's not like they're strangers to each other. it's not like they can't communicate.

I'd wager it would potentially be much more easy to complete the tasks if they helped eachother. And from what I remember, the recording did not say anything about not helping eachother.

Furthermore, it would be extremely useful to not have a losing team. And that, to me, is quite obvious since the losing team risks losing their eggs.

And except for BBH and Fit, every parenting group is split between the teams, right?

So why wouldn't, say, all the brazilians want to make sure none of them lost? if any of them did, they'd be risking Richa's life!

With all of this (kinda little and silly) reasoning, what I'm thinking of right now is: if this were to happen (aka if somebody were to try and spark collaboration between teams), who would it be?

The first trio that I thought would do this were Jaiden, Bad and Foolish, since they used to be pretty close in canon - but Jaiden and Foolish are on the same team, and BBH killed Charlie which was in my opinion one of the first pushes to the downfall of team red into chaos and despair (I wish I was exaggerating).

Tina and Foolish, or Phil and Etoiles, are also some people that come to mind as people that bonded really strongly and are not currently on the same team.

Then there's the canon/fanon ships.

I have to admit that I don't know if Cellbit and Roier fought yesterday - and if they did, I don't know how it went.

But after Pac put up posters to keep away Cell and Fit promised to keep him safe ... I cannot imagine Pac would be too thrilled to see Fit looming over him ready to kill.

And like so many others but my brain is not collaborating atm.

The only thing that I think won't happen is any attempt at collaboration coming from red team - they're the underdogs and they got burnt real bad yesterday, so I feel like they'd be extra suspicious of anyone not part of their team. Which is a shame, since they're also some of the most rp heavy players.

Don't really know where I was going with all of this.

I think overall I just hope to see them all together again - yesterday stream was fun but also kinda stressful xD

[izupie]

😈💖👀✅🤭✨

Ahhhh so manyyyy !!! Thank you !! <3 <3 <3

this one got long so it's under a cut ahaha

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

Ohohoho yes. I remember writing the cliffhanger in Beep Beep Beep where I deliberately kept it vague over whether something terrible had happened to Ochako, and then just cut it off mid-sentence. That was delicious.

Actually, thinking about it, I've done the cliffhanger ending to a chapter in quite a few fics - not even just to hook readers in, but specifically because thinking of it made me cackle like a disney villain so I had to do it !!!

💖 What made you start writing?

I read a story on Neopets that somebody had written and it blew my tiny little Izupie mind because I realised that, hey hang on a minute, anyone can write stories??? And then as a kid you have no concept of Cringe and you just want to hang out with your favourite characters, and thus, my cringey fanfiction writer self was born. I wrote so much self-insert fanfiction as a kid because I realised I could read it back and it was like I got to hang out with my favourite characters and have adventures with them over and over! any time I wanted!

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

Talking about cringe *finger guns* (man that was a good bridging answer actually)

I'm still in my Supernatural Era, so I have a bunch of Supernatural wips that I'm trying to wrangle into coherent stories like herding cats. Exciting for me because ohh these are some truly self indulgent and delicious tropes <3

But! I also have the next part of my bnha/Izuocha collab fic with Encyclopika that is ongoing and that is! exciting! Seeing it evolve and our writing styles mesh has been sooo much fun!!

Did I really even answer this question??? lmao asdfghjk

✅ What's something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don't mean to?

am I self aware enough to answer this question? hmmm...

Banter-y dialogue? like, flirty back-and-forths?? I do that a lot. I suddenly realised the other day that my stories keep having these little flirty banter sections, no matter what fandom or ship it is. And I was like, well let's not examine this too closely

Also just, so much focusing on eyes. I'm surprised nobody has ever pulled me up on it honestly. I'm always writing what people's eyes are doing, but that's how I read expressions the most so it's how I represent them the most! does that make sense? !?

🤭 Do you have a favorite tag to use when posting your works?

Fluff

*ding* next question!

(I answered a question in one word, what is going onnnnn)

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

listen. guys. how dare. how dare you all gang up on me in this way

adsfdghjkl

ummm, okay, it was hard enough to think of the first one - how about.....

I love the way that some people have said that my writing has cheered them up, or given them a boost. That really warms my heart. It's so special to know that something that came out of my brainworms has actually affected somebody's mood. and made them feel better! I made them smile with my words and weird tropey stories that I thought only I would enjoy! That makes me proud of myself and this weird lil hobby

[cupcake-draws]

Introduction

Hi! My name is Cupcake!

I am 20 and go by all pronouns including it/its and neos. I use this blog to post my art and hopefully document the progress I make over time.

Get to know more under the cut!

I am a beginner so please don't be too judgemental. I will probably post more of my digital works rather than traditional but expect both. This place is art only but I am open to chat too if anyone is ever interested in stuff lol

I am Hungarian so English is not my first language, so please excuse any mistakes I make and feel free to correct me. I welcome constructive critisism about how I type more than about what I make /lhj

I am neurodivergent and have a handful of symptoms I am still making sense of so you may see me use tone tags. I won't force anyone to use them but I may ask for clarification at times since I am a little slow.

My current interests are Cookie Run, Arcane, Batfam, FNAF, TMNT and Undertale so I will probably post art about those the most. I usually make shitposts, memes or sketches/edits tho.

You may also see me make art about my friends and I, my headmates (I have OSDD but I won't go into explicit detail unless I know you, some questions are fine tho!) and probably what catches my eye from time to time.

I have OCs but I am not confident enough to draw them yet sooo yeah. Someday maybe.

My main account is @blessedshortcake ! You can find out more about me there, see how I am usually, my writing, more personal stuff I guess.

Boundaries

Spam interactions are welcome and very appreciated!

Reblogs > Comments > Likes

My DMs are open but I may take a little to reply. Sometimes I get overwhelmed by conversations or get anxious when I don't know what to say, but I love to chat so feel free to hit me up!

My asks and submissions are also open if you have anything to ask me or want to show me! :)

DNI

MAP/PEAR/Pedophiles or whatever you are called. No thanks

Proshippers/Conshippers/Anti Anti

Frans/Fontcest/Tcest shippers. Yikes

If you ship/excuse/support incest, fictional or irl

Pro Ana/Thinspo/ED supporters. Please get help

Racists/Homophobes/Abelists, bigots in general

All Lives Matter/Pro Life

Devsisters supporters

Dream Stans

NFT supporters

I am not an all seeing entity so if you notice that I am engaging with somebody who has been exposed as a shitty person (anything from my DNI) then please tell me. I don't do a deep cleaning research on everyone's blogs who I come across but I'd like to know if it happens!

[batarangsoundsdumb]

guess fucking what? my inbox is so fucking full right now i'm unloading all of this shit in one post.

For the 11th gotham memes: gothamites react to bruce being jacked in a tiktok he made with kids, like super yoked, ripped as hell

fucking hilarious thanks. i think i did it in one meme post, but i genuinely don't remember which one

i dunno which of the batfam would do this but one time i was sleeping over at a friends house and ended up on the floor bc the bed was so very small and i just stayed there because the rug was soft

that's a drunk jason move i don't know what to tell you

tim and jason are "i listen to pop punk" solidarity. whenever jason highjacks the batmobile theyll go on long ass car rides blaring mcr and paramore and then never talk about it again

as they should!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tim: no jason it's my turn using the aux cord i gotta put on my jams jason: don't you dare put on weird shit tim: don't worry, you're gonna love this *plays fearless (taylor's version)

hear me out hear me out, red hood stans 🤝 nightwing stans t h i g h s

holy shit yes.

SNL au: Bruce breaks character when pretending to superman and says something like "I'm not superman! You've seen his gps!! It's from 2001!!!" @sabeanybabe

superman flies past the snl building the next day just to say 'actually it's from 2005, i'm not a heathen'

does your back hurt from carrying the batfam fandom

it hurts more from the exotic rock collection i keep in my backpack, but thanks for the concern.

I love your posts by why would you always leave the best parts in the tags?

as a treat for the people that check the tags ;) (and also because i'm committed to the short post aesthetic)

somehow your playlist was everything i never knew i needed. i mean it. this is my new favorite playlist.

and don't you dare get a new favourite playlist!

babe ur stoner tim playlist is exactly too perfect, earth is literally blessed by ur existence

babe thanks so much! i love my stoner tim playlist because it's just my usual playlist but people think it's an artistic choice that i put taylor swift and britney spears in there, when it's just what i unironically like listening to

JANDKSKDK BILLY RAY CYRUS ON THE STONER TIM PLAYLIST I LOVE IT IT

again it's not even an ironic choice, i know every single word and i genuinely like the song

The last chapter of Fundamentals of Casework has me crying at work. Thanks I love it @dudelookitsalesbian

oh babe, i'm sorry, but also, not sorry i love chapter 4 so much it's my lovechild with the 'mental illness' tag

soooo....stumbled on your tumblr by some stroke of fate??? read your DC fanfic first. which is PHENOMENAL btw. then found all the batmemes; the funniest thing EVER bc everyone forgets about regular old gothamites. kept scrolling and your blog pops up as recommended. clicked on the ao3 for shits and giggles and waddaya know?!?!? it's YOU!!! you're LEGEND!!!! ever seen that meme? it's a video of a cat that got into a baseball field and the two announcers get really invested in his escape attempt and start giving a play by play of the cat instead of the game. memeable moment: "GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!"

i seriously think about this ask every single day and it's so fucking funny to me that i've never seen the meme you're referencing, but i still find myself going 'GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!' whenever i see something funny. but wow i'm glad you liked this steaming pile of garbage

Fav dc character overall? And fav batfamily character?

don't ask me to pick between the loves of my life, but i can tell you i've cried about every single batfamily member and also wally west (my beloved)

What's your opinion on fans having a problem with batfam being "too big"? And some even claim that batfam is just "Bruce Alfred Dick Damian" and the rest of them are just "friends and allies" (source: reddit) Personally, I like batfam because of this reason but idk

stupid. a family can never be too big. i'm not that big a fan of like huge batfam stuff with everybody from every single universe, because as much as it's funny for bruce to have like 30 kids, it just feels a little too OOC for me.

This is the best tag I've seen involving the batfam, thanks for thinking of it

This is canon now @nctxrejects

lmao yeah i think at that point alfred has had to sit through like at least a dozen coming out talks and just has a pride flag collection in the attic that he pulls out whenever a kid comes out

idk why batfam hits different as compared to any other superhero family

bc it's found family and usually the other superhero families are almost all genetically related in one way or another

I don't know if you watch the umbrella academy but I saw your last post about batcest and saw the similarities. But the thing is (although I think it's weird) in TUA, they addressed it by saying "they were raised as weapons, not siblings" or something along those lines, which is simply not the case with batfam.

yeah i watched tua but i also thought it was ridiculous and they still treated each other as siblings so i didn't like the luthor/allison thing, and am glad they stopped doing that shit bc it fucking sucked.

Hot take: Batcest shippers are the same people who believe adopted siblings are not actual siblings

smoking hot take: batcest shippers are the people who watch 'my sister got stuck in the washing machine' porn

Duke was adopted by Bruce?

not technically no, but do i, tumblr user batarangsoundsdumb, look like i care?

True story but I had to change my freaking name because it used to be "Damien" and most people would go "OH LIKE DAMIAN WAYNE" like please I'm just tryna live

true story, but i don't actually think of damian when i hear the name damian, literally the first thing that pops up is damian darkh like bruh what?

apparently dc comics company supported comic stores by giving out new titles and stuff during the beginning of the pandemic to help them run and I just think that's wholesome

ah yeah that's so fucking cool, still don't like dc, the company, because this world is a capitalist hellhole and we're all owned by warner brothers or disney with no in between.

ayo looking at tumblr head canons and finding out bruce is actually a terrible father is a punch in the gut

lmao yes, in like 50% of comics bruce is a terrible father and it gives me whiplash

oooh I just saw the jason todd vs winter soldier post and the real question is: batman vs iron man

while iron man has like hundreds of cases of armor, batman could throw out an emp and have the guy dropping out of the sky in 2 seconds.

dickfast = fastdick = quickdick = quickie

magnum hot take

hey bata(?) just thought I'd let you know I have copied the obnoxious emoji and Billy Ray post for use on simping men going forth

thank you 😘🌷 (@spacebarsidecar)

why would you do that to your followers???? i get why i did it, but why would you???

what is scarecrow made the nightwing funko pop himself, like those diy-ers that paint over other ones

oh god no, horrible take, horrible take, that's a disgusting thought oh no

I see your HC that Bruce and Oliver fucked and raise you this: Dick and Roy ALSO fucked

yes they did and it was a horrible moment for jason to find out dick has fucked both of his best friends

"at this rate bruce adds like 1 child to his family every decade or so" Duke is introduced in 2013, Damian as Damian, not as an unnamed child, in 2006. And he is already 14 years old, Robins rarely remain Robins after 16 😬 It looks like a new Robin and Batkid will appear in a couple of years

i mean i can't wait? but somebody will probably die first tho, we're due for another major character death. my money's on either cass or duke this time.

BRO you're so right all of your Bruce's ex headcanons are amazing but they aren't ships, that's kinda wild. Like I don't want any peeks into how their relationship was I just want to see everyone make fun of them

lmao YES it's just i love bruce being a slut, like good for him.

I am in love with your posts your honour thank you

omg thanks are we like,, gonna kiss now?

The justice league needs to have a meeting to discuss how many of their members/partners have slept with bruce. Because through a combination of cannon & fannon (if DC wasn’t homophobic) we have AT LEAST: 1) clark 2) lois 3) oliver 4) dinah 5) john

Thats not counting villains or random civilians @dudelookitsalesbian

yes yes yes, they'll have a yearly meeting about how many of their collective exes could be out for revenge and batman's list just keeps getting longer.

tim was like "i'm drake now" and everyone was like ahh so your fursona is a dragon and tim was like pffffft no. ducks.

and what about it?

when steph's fighting livewire and she zaps her with lighting and nothing happens and then they both just. stand there awkwardly for a second and talk. yeah i couldn't stop laughing at that batgirl steph is the BEST

oh yeah that was fucking hilarious and i think it would be so cool and sexy of dc to give steph a little comic series,,, as a treat

Hi I absolutely adore all of yours "Bruce and Oliver very badly pretending they didn't fuck each other" memes

lmao i do too

I need you to know that “Bruce Wayne had frosted tips” is one of my favorite Bruce takes of all time it’s so galaxy brained. you’re right and you should say it

he also painted his hair blonde once when he was travelling and in conclusion, this is why he's being blackmailed by the gotham gazette.

you know my thing about gordon being branded as the only good cop in gotham is its a load of shit like arguably he's a good person and not working to screw people over or anything but the fact that he also works w. batman makes him a shit cop. like yea batman is better than the mob but its still illegal its still an abuse of power he just not making bank

babe, all cops are bad cops. (but yeah youre absolutely right, working with vigilantes makes you a shit cop, but also working against vigilantes just makes you an asshole cop yanno?)

ruh roh i think i’m about to add “so not yeehaw” every time i don’t like something

that's a very good vocabulary upgrade

somehow i feel like steph already knew. like babs obviously knew but i feel like bruce got high/drunk in front of steph and started telling his boarding school stories and steph was just like “oh you fucked up i’m never gonna forget this”

steph and bruce have weird uncle/rebellious niece dynamic and they just hang out sometimes and bruce will be like 'i once broke my arm when i tripped over a hedge when i was drunk so oliver drove me to the hospital on an electric scooter' and steph will just have to sit there with that knowledge in her head.

Hello I just wanted to tell you you are So right in all your steph opinions bc she is, in fact amazing and I think that's very sexy of you. Ps. Your Bruce/Oliver fic is hilarious

babe, thank you so much and yes steph is amazing and i love her and she deserves the world and she's the best member of the batfam hands down. also thanks

In Supersons we see a couple of kids that are implied to be Damian and Jon's children and the boy has laser eyes and can fly, so I asume he's not adopted. The girl, who calls Bruce grandpa, can also fly, btw. So it's canon (probably by accident) that Jon can have kids and he must have married one of Bruce's kids. (I'm hoping for Damian, mostly because any other of his children would be waaaaaaaaaaaaay too old.) @artemisa97

lmao that was probably an accident seeing as jon is a 17 year old superhero in the year 3000 (by the jonas brothers)

You know, I'm a die hard fan of your memes, but I gotta say one thing: if Gothamites actually took gas mask everywhere with them, then the Scarecrow would just be a weird dude in a weird costume, and not a villain oh so scary. DC really should just takes notes from you.

bold of you to assume there's no gothamite anti-maskers

How does it feel being the funniest person on this app?

horrible, next question.

I can't listen to Green Day or Billy Joel without thinking of your post about how Bruce got arrested at a Billy Joel concert @nightwings-kid

yeah that's your mistake, i on the other hand can't enjoy billy joel without thinking about the glee rendition of 'uptown girl'

I've FINALLY been watching the Batman animated series and I gotta say, after watching "the gray ghost" I am CONVINCED that Batman is a closeted super hero geek who was 100% freaking out the first time he met Superman and is just REALLY good at hiding it.

superman: so what do you do in your free time? batman, thinking about the superman fanfiction he's writing on the batcomputer: i have no free time

bruce and oliver be like boyfriends to co-workers 401k (do the justice leagues get 401ks??? not that bruce and ollie would need them, but-)

lmao yes just 400 thousand words of bruce realising 'oh dip oliver is such a fucking dumbass' (also i don't know what a 401 k is but i assume they don't?)

Gothamites would totally boo superman as he saves Gotham while batman is out. @meenje

he's like 'okay think about that next time you want to be saved from an alien octopus'

I just took long break from dc comics and I come back to see ric grayson ??

i think it's very cool and sexy of dc to see dick and just think 'you know what? let's just give him a traumatic brain injury' and then didn't develop his character in any real way

SPEAKING OF RIC GRAYSON, gothamites making confused memes out of ric grayson is much needed

'dick grayson is my taxi driver? can anyone explain what the fuck happened he looks like an italian plumber?'

i hate to say it but batfam are def "marvel characters" in that sense they are characters who are human but become superheroes unlike most dc characters who are gods trying to be human maybe this is why I like batfam

fair enough

[lovelybucky1]

where do i start? i’m artemis, or lovelybucky as most people know me. i started this blog a little over a month ago in the hopes of getting out of my writing slump and to allow myself more freedom with the content i create, and look where i am now! i never expected to get this far, and i’m beyond grateful for all of you. whether you follow for my marvel content or my criminal minds (or something else), thank you from the bottom of my heart for supporting me.

in honor of this milestone, i will be hosting a writing challenge that lasts the entire month of august. under the cut is 31 songs to choose from, as well as a line or two from them. i will be writing one each day, but you could write as little or as many as you’d like!

rules

you must be 18+ to participate. whether your fic has smut or not, my blog does not allow minors

your fic can be any rating, any length and contain any tropes you want! smut and dark fics are permitted, i just request that you give proper warnings at the beginning of the fic

your fic does not need to contain the lyric given below, or any other lyric, but it does need to be inspired by the song in some way

after the challenge is complete, i will be putting all of the fics onto a masterlist. use #lovelybucky1’s 500 and tag me so i can find your fic and add it

there is no limit on how many people can do each prompt. you can do all of them if you choose, or only one, it will still be featured on the masterlist

please view the pinned post on my blog for more through guidelines on why type on content (specifically smut) is permitted. if your fic contains any of the things on the list, it will not be included on the masterlist.

characters

you can write about any character from marvel or criminal minds, as well as ships between characters. the characters below are non-marvel or criminal minds that are accepted.

jefferson (once upon a time)

ransom drysdale (knives out)

lance tucker (the bronze)

andy barber (defending jacob)

ari levinson (red sea diving resort)

tj hammond (political animals)

chip taylor (68 kill)

charles blackwood (we have always lived in the castle)

laszlo kreizler (the alienist)

if you have another character that you’d like to write about, send me an ask or a dm!

lastly, if you are going to participate in this challenge, i’d appreciate if you reblogged this post to spread the word and get others involved!

prompts under the cut

Youth- Troye Sivan “My youth is yours, Runaway now and forevermore”

Mad Hatter- Melanie Martinez “You think I'm crazy, you think I'm gone, So what if I'm crazy? All the best people are”

Woman- Harry Styles “I'm selfish, I know, But I don't ever want to see you with him”

Cherry- Harry Styles “Don't you call him what you used to call me”

Black Sheep- Metric “Our common goal was waiting for the world to end”

Dirty Little Secret- All American Rejects “I'll keep you my dirty little secret, Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret”

Take Me to Church- Hozier “I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies, I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife”

Cold Hard Bitch- Jet “Cold hard bitch, Just a kiss on the lips, And I was on my knees, I'm waiting, give me”

Self Esteem- the offspring “Now I know I should say no, But it's kind of hard when she's ready to go”

Motion Sickness- Phoebe Bridgers “I hate you for what you did, And I miss you like a little kid”

Somebody Told Me- The Killers “Well somebody told me you had a boyfriend, Who looked like a girlfriend, That I had in February of last year”

Carolina- Harry Styles “She's a good girl, She feels so good”

New Perspective- Panic! at the Disco “You come along because I love your face, And I'll admire your expensive taste”

Dress- Taylor Swift “Carve your name into my bedpost, 'Cause I don't want you like a best friend”

Bad Idea- Girl in Red “It was a bad idea, To think I could stop, Was such a bad idea, I can't get enough”

Kiwi- Harry Styles “And now she's all over me, it's like I paid for it, It's like I paid for it, I'm gonna pay for this”

This Love- Taylor Swift “This love is good, This love is bad, This love is alive back from the dead”

Teardrops On My Guitar- Taylor Swift “I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about/And she's got everything that I have to live without”

Red- Taylor Swift “Touching him was like/Realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you”

Illicit Affairs- Taylor Swift “Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me/You showed me colors you know/I can't see with anyone else”

Wonderland- Taylor Swift “And in the end, in Wonderland, we both went mad”

Wet- Dazey and the Scouts “It's so depressing how the tear ducts in my eyes/Are so much wetter than the space between my thighs”

Nicotine- Panic! at the Disco “I taste you on my lips and I can't get rid of you/So I say damn your kiss and the awful things you do”

This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things- Taylor Swift “It was so nice being friends again/There I was giving you a second chance/But you stabbed me in the back while shaking my hand”

False God- Taylor Swift “The altar is my hips/Even if it's a false god”

Scotty Doesn’t Know- Lustra “Fiona's got him on the phone/And she's trying not to moan/It's a three-way call and he knows nothing”

I Hate Everything About You- Three Days Grace “I hate everything about you/Why do I love you?”

Rebel Girl- Bikini Kill “Rebel girl, rebel girl/I think I wanna take you home/I wanna try on your clothes”

I Love You Like an Alcoholic- The Taxpayers “One last kiss, I need you like I need a broken leg.”

Hey Stephen- Taylor Swift “Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling/So I've got some things to say to you”

Two Ghosts- Harry Styles “Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat”

[trans-xianxian]

Hey this isn't meant as hate (sorry if it does hurt you!! truly!) & it's long so feel free to delete but I think going after other tumblrs for what seems to be (unless I'm missing context) liking a book that you don't & haven't read properly, & having ships & fandom interests you don't like, ... I just don't think it's deserved? Like these are just Tumblrs & they're not TERFs/racists or anything actually bad? I know Lise likes "dark" ships & content but unlike most calls outs there's really nothing on their blog I would call understandably offensive? And I don't know all of them but what has alice or winepresswrath ever done? As for the gayjiangcheng incident, I find it a little surreal you're claiming he threw a fit over you mocking him when I came away from that under the impression that you were the one throwing a fit over fandom hcs bc you were having a very stressful day. Okay, to back away from something that was getting meaner than I intended, I truly think this isn't a healthy way of being in fandom. I see you complaining about "fujioshis" (using an inherently racist meaning that literal TERFs invented) yet tag "mdzs" despite not wanting to interact with book fans, & complaining about fandom tropes like trans hcs, & this is just not healthy! You do have some valid points I'm not discrediting that but they're often very ill-applied! This is the perspective of someone your age: please stop creating fights on the internet & find something meaningful for yourself that isn't inaccurately applying social inequality in places where it is irrelevant. These people aren't hurting anyone, but you are sending harassment their way which hurts them, & you are hurting yourself. I'm very sorry you have experienced transphobic attacks (I have read what posts I could find that seemed pertinent) but you aren't giving others the same empathy. I'm very sorry, I'm sure you are getting a lot of hate rn over this, & I very much hope that you have a really good day when this is all over.

well for starters I'm not "going after" anybody. I'm curating my space, and I clearly state that in my post. I'm not "sending them harassment" either. I don't even want my post to be reblogged because I don't want it to be spread around and cause problems. for anybody. I'm simply trying to make it very clear what environment I want on this blog. I'm not sending any hate, I'm not being rude or aggressive, I'm not encouraging others to do those things, I'm just setting boundaries. putting out of list of blogs that I don't want people who support to interact with me, isn't the horrible attack you seem to be interpreting it as. I don't need a lecture from you about how I should run my silly little blog on tumblr dot com or what you think I've done wrong in my life. I do not know you, and you do not know me. I find it very inappropriate that you're trying to come into my inbox and tell me what actions of mine are unhealthy or what things are making me unhappy. I appreciate that you're not yelling at me and calling me names, but you've still crossed a boundary, and I don't understand why you're spending your time trying to shame somebody who disagrees with you on a fundamental level

almost everybody on that list is there because they ship incest or pedophilia pairings, or have stated that they're okay with people who do. but since that probably isn't something you'd take issue with, I'm not going to waste my time explaining what all of them did and will just elaborate on one person on the list that maybe you'll care about: ky/uhudraws literally gives asian characters yellow skin in their art. they also like h*talia

have a good day

[imo-chan-imagines]

『 Haikyuu!! Week 2020 | Day 7 』

· Oct. 1st → Fly! ·

Characters: (teams) Karasuno, Nekoma, Fukurodani, Aoba Johsai, Shiratorizawa, (indiv.) Miya Atsumu, Miya Osamu, Aone Takanobu

Prompts: A. free choice!

Tags/warnings: Haikyuu!! (anime), Among Us (video game), PG, fluff, crack, video games, video game violence/death, headcanons, HaikyuuWeek2020

A/N: Among Us is a bit of a hot meme at the moment (great game. Go and play it/watch other people play it if you can. Get a feel for the game if you somehow haven't already.) So I thought, 'Hey, why not?' I mean, I do need to heal my heart after my Day 6 post, so...

What an amazing week it's been! Well done, everyone! All of my Haikyuu Week 2020 posts are SFW, but there's a little treasure trove of NSFW on my blog, too. Please peruse to your heart's content. Thanks for reading! Please enjoy! ♡

Haikyuu boys / playing Among Us

☆ Karasuno ☆

Literally the loudest games you'll ever witness

You know that grainy, electronic crackle that happens when everybody yells on Discord at the same time? Yeah. That

Kageyama can't lie for shit. It's so obvious when he's lying that it's a genuine miracle if he doesn't immediately get ejected

And he stands in all the wrong places when he's faking doing his tasks 😭😭

But he sounds super suspicious when he's telling the truth, too 😅

Noya and Tanaka buddy up no matter what, and go around trying to clear or murder people together

They also end up fuelling each other's incorrect assumptions

Asahi is way too timid to murder anyone right away, so if nobody dies in the first two rounds, you know it's him or someone trying to frame him...

Daichi is the host and tries to keep order in the lobby...tries someone help him

Hinata: Guys, please stop swearing! Natsu is watching me play!! waahhh 🙈 so cute 😇

Hinata always has to be orange. Don't touch his orange

Ennoshita is the king of self-reporting and getting away with it it just be like that

Kageyama goes around called 'Milk' 🥛

Tsukki tries to big-brain the shit out of it 🤣

He's also hella manipulative as an imposter and refuses to kill Yamaguchi 😭

Suga likes to take out the oxygen/recator and lie in wait for the people who come to fix it he will giggle adorably when it ends up working, which sounds kinda pshyco, ngl 😂

But totally screams at his screen when someone he suspected sneaks up on him and kills him

Yamaguchi low-key prefers the mini games to the actual game 😭😭

And Yachi loves being pink and wearing the little flower in her hair ngl, she nearly fainted the first time she got killed

She doesn't play with them often because it's so loud 😬

☆ Nekoma ☆

Kenma streams the gaming sessions on Twitch, and now they kind of have a cult following 🤷‍♀️

These fans be thirsting hard, too like us

Check out my smut headcanons, y'all 🙌

Kuroo is the closest to a genius player you're ever going to see

He does his tasks fairly efficiently, he's good at remembering layouts and people's movements, he calculates the timings of his kills with terrifying accuracy, defends himself pretty well, whether he's lying or not, can gaslight the entire lobby into sussing an innocent person, and pieces together other people's lies with surprising ease

Do not cross Kuroo. He's scary at this game. He's not the Scheming Captain for nothing, y'all

Lev is the kind of person to vent right in front of someone by accident, which is so awkward, but so funny 😂

The entire team must wear the bear ears hat. Yes, that is a rule

It's the closest to cat ears they have right now....

Kenma is pretty quiet when he's playing. He doesn't normally play online games, but his streams took off on Twitch, sooo~

Kenma also has radar ears and can somehow detect when people are lying, but waits until he has proof to accuse them he smart 🤓

☆ Fukurodani ☆

'Whoever Talks the Loudest is Right' mentality 😂

And Bokuto will defend himself at the volume of an air raid siren

Akaashi stays as quiet as possible so he doesn't give anything away

When Bokuto starts sussing people, it turns into something out of Ace Attorney like, chill tf out, man 😂

But his guesses are normally completely wrong

Akaashi sets good parameters for the games, because he's sensible

If Bokuto is given the chance to host the lobby....he will set one task each, put everyone at 4x speed, give the imposter zero cooldown time, and sit back and watch the chaos

Whenever somebody doesn't have an absolutely airtight alibi–

Bokuto: That's hella sus, bro

Lots of childish nicknames, because...well, they're all mentally six years old

Except Akaashi, who has a higher mental age than all of them combined

Let me just say that when Bokuto and Kuroo play together, shit gets so funny

When one of them is an imposter, they will literally vent in front of the other one and trust them not to out them 😂😂

☆ Aoba Johsai ☆

Iwa-chan can always tell when Oikawa is lying, and constantly calls him out on it

Iwa: That's his lying voice. Shitty-kawa is lying. He's the imposter. Vote him off

Oikawa: IWAAA-CHAAAN D:<

Because Iwa's right about Oikawa when he is the imposter, it makes it easy to frame him when it's actually Iwa who's the imposter

And no-one believes Tooru 😭😭

Kyoutani has no chill as an imposter

He just murders everyone on sight, right in front of people, too

Kindaichi tends to accuse people with very little evidence, but his instincts are weirdly accurate

Oikawa gets killed almost immediately every game, so if he isn't dead two emergency meetings in, he's 100% an imposter 😭😭

He then goes around as a salty ghost when he's killed off, mumbling to himself about injustice as he refuses to do his tasks and watches the people who voted him off get murdered one by one

Not that anyone's holding a grudge 🙄😂

Oikawa refuses to be purple and always kills whoever is purple first because it reminds him of Ushijima 😭😭

☆ Shiratorizawa ☆

Ushijima refuses to play if he can't be purple give it back. N O W

And it takes him a long time to get used to the game and the rules

'Why are the lights off? What are these tasks? Why is that one flashing at me? Where is med bay? Why can I use this vent? What's this big, red button for?' etc.

You get the idea. Toshi = big noob

He doesn't really understand the concept of lying, either...

He keeps forgetting to mute himself and ends up saying some very incriminating stuff over the mic which has everyone in literal tears from laughter

Tendou is a sneaky S.O.B, using those vents like a pro and gaslighting perfectly innocent people he's a little bloodthirsty, too 🤫

And his initial guesses about who's the imposter are almost always 100% correct Guess Monster, y'all

Goshiki goes around trying to clear people by watching them doing their tasks, especially Ushijima

But then he gets called suspicious for hanging around people too much

The first time an emergency meeting was ever called, Ushijima literally asked "Why is my name in red?" much to everyone's amusement

Everyone's scared of Ushijima when he follows them, but it normally turns out that he just doesn't know where he's going

Shirabu tends to lose his shit when people start accusing him and he's innocent, and will never EVER trust a word that comes out of Goshiki's mouth

Speaking of, Goshiki and Shirabu – boy, do they bicker like eight year-olds, wasting entire voting rounds just arguing with each other 🙄😭

So everyone else decides to vote off one, and then the other at the next meeting 😭😭

Misc.

☆ The Miya twins ☆

Atsumu puts 100% trust in Osamu not to kill him, even if he is the imposter

How could he? He's his brother. His twin. His other half. They share a unique bond–

And then he screams in betrayal when Osamu slaughters him mercilessly 😂😂

Osamu is unaffected by the sudden outburst from his brother's room

Put them together as an imposter duo, though, and you're in for some trouble

They often win by executing a perfect double kill

And they're both pretty good at lying, but Osamu will not hesitate to throw Atsumu under the bus and vote him off if he's being too suspicious or the lobby has turned against him 😂

Ah, the bond of brotherhood 😂

☆ Aone Takanobu ☆

Aone doesn't talk very much

But when he does, his voice is so low and even that nobody ever suspects he's the imposter

I'm thinking like Corpse Husband, if you've seen him playing with Pewds and the gang

It doesn't really occur to people that he could be lying. He seems so trustworthy and honest

Finds it very hard to blame anyone else, though

Is fairly decent as doing his tasks as a crewmate, but it takes him a long time to remember the layouts of the ships

Almost never gets voted off the ship

© imo-chan-imagines 2020

[spectraspecs-writes]

Alderaan - Chapter 110

Link to the masterpost. Chapter 109. Chapter 111.

A/N: I don't even want to hear "it's been three months", I know it's been three months. Have I been productive in those three months? Not really, not with this. I know. I know. But I've been anxiety.

@averruncusho @ceruleanrainblues @chubbsmomma @strangepostmiracle thank you for reading, you get a tag. @skelelexiunderlord thank you for support, you get a tag.

——–

The world is gone. It’s all white, just white. But I’m not scared. Cautious, sure, but not scared. I can’t see a floor but I know I’m not falling. I don't feel like I’m falling.

This doesn’t feel like a dream. And I know I’ve had them now. Mostly about Carth. But those felt real in the moment, and I know this isn't real. No real place in the universe is so devoid of anything like this. And by that same token, I know it’s not a memory. The visions of the Star Maps, those were Revan’s memories, I know that now. Like I said, nowhere in the universe looks like this. It’s not possible.

“Hello?” I call out. Makes sense, after all. Maybe somebody’s out there. I start walking. My voice doesn’t really echo. Like, it carries but there’s no echo, if that makes sense. Because there’s nothing. No walls, no floor, nothing here for the sound to bounce off of.

I become aware of myself in space. I'm wearing my Jedi clothes, not my scout clothes. Somehow it actually feels more comfortable. I feel more like myself. Not sure how I feel about that.

But there’s another person here. Scrunched on the ground. They have on a Jedi robe as well, but not just the basic tunic and pants that I have. They have the full outer robe, with the hood and everything. But it’s torn and ripped in places. They’ve been through hell. “Are you okay?” I ask, coming closer, “Do you need help?”

“Who are you?” they ask back.

“I’m Rena.”

“No, you’re not.”

Uh, I’m pretty sure I know who I am. Who are you to say what my name is? We don’t know each other. “Yeah, I am,” I say.

Close enough to see them now. A woman. I couldn’t tell from her voice, she has a deep voice. Still looks like she’s been through hell. “Get out.”

Seriously? I can help you! “I don’t exactly know how,” I say.

She stands quickly and turns on her heel, staring me dead in the eye. No, no, this isn’t possible, how is she me? Her eyes are red, and her hair is shorter but she’s me! No. No, she’s Revan. She storms at me. Please, please stop. “GET OUT OF MY HEAD!”

---

I wake up in my bunk on the ship. It’s dark. It’s night. I can’t see Mission or Juhani, I don’t know where they are. But Carth is here. Why is Carth here? Asleep next to me. Maybe I can avoid waking him up if I move slowly enough -- no, too late. “You okay?” he says groggily.

No. No, don’t ask me that. Don’t act like you care, you’re just making this hard for the both of us. “I’m fine,” I lie. He raises an eyebrow at me. Yeah, yeah, I know, I’m a lousy liar. But he doesn’t push it. “How did I get out of the cantina?”

“I suppose you wouldn’t remember, you’d been there almost all day,” he says, “Mission and I came looking for you when you didn’t come back after sunset. We had to carry you out.”

Oh, no. Oh, God. “Please tell me I didn’t embarrass myself.”

“Wish I could, but that would be a lie.” Damn it. “Apparently, you think I’m great in bed.” Oh, God, no. “Also, how long have you been calling me ‘Bunny Man’?”

He smiles. No. Don’t. “Please, dont,” I say.

“Don’t what?”

“Don’t be cute, this is already hard enough.” I know you hate me, you don’t have to pretend to be my friend for my sake. I can handle this, but don’t get my hopes up, it’s cruel.

The smile fades. “Anyway,” he continues, “we brought you back here, and I remembered you had an implant for hangovers, so I found your case for those and Canderous was able to tell me which one it was.” That explains why my head doesn’t hurt, why I’m not fuzzy.

“So why are you standing vigil?”

“I figured you’d be pretty confused when you finally woke up,” he says, “So someone should be here to explain things.”

“Yeah, but why you?” I ask, “Why not Mission, or Juhani, or Jolee?”

He shrugs. “I don’t know,” he says, “Felt right.” Why? Why are you still being so sweet? “Besides,” he says, shifting in his seat, “the others had other things going on. Teethree’s flying the ship, and Jolee’s sort of taken charge. Juhani’s been more stoic than usual, and Canderous looks like he’ll kill anyone who talks to him. Mission’s asleep - she tried to stay up for you but couldn’t manage it. She fell out of the chair.”

Hang on, Jolee’s taken charge? Not Carth? “You’re not in charge?”

He shakes his head. “Not that I didn’t try,” he says gruffly, “Jolee doesn’t think I have the group’s best interests in mind.” And you’re not entirely sure he’s wrong. How can I read him? He’s not shutting me out. But I shouldn’t read him, I should just keep myself to myself. He doesn’t need to feel me in his head, and I don’t want to tease myself by getting into it. He shakes his head again. “I argued a bit when he determined where we’re going, but it wasn’t an argument I won.”

“So where are we headed?” I ask, “Manaan?”

“Alderaan,” he says, “I don’t think we’re ready for Manaan just yet.” No, neither do I. Manaan means finding the Star Map, means going to the Star Forge, means facing Malak, and I’m not ready for that. “Alderaan was not my vote,” Carth says firmly, “I thought Onderon would be a better idea. It’s a military stronghold. Alderaan’s just a world of diplomats. But like I said, it wasn’t an argument I won.”

Alderaan? Why Alderaan? Sure, it’s a Republic stronghold, and it’s far from Sith space, but so is Onderon, why would Jolee be so adamant about…? Wait. I remember. I wish I didn’t, it’s not my memory. It’s Revan’s. “There’s a Jedi Enclave on Alderaan, isn’t there?”

Carth nods. He’s as bothered about it as I am. “Apparently, the masters from Dantooine evacuated their enclave in time and fled to Alderaan.”

No. No. No, I don’t want anything to do with them. I’m angry. I’m furious with them. But that’s the Dark Side. But it’s deserved! They used me! They wiped my memory and gave me a completely new identity! They saved my life, but at what cost? I hate them! They taught me against hate, twice, and I don’t want to fall. I don’t want to hurt them. But I do. And I will. I can’t be around them. Because I hate them! How easily could Revan come back? How easily could I use my rage just as Revan did? And what if I accidentally use that rage on my friends? I shake my head. “That’s not a good idea.”

“I didn’t think so, either,” he says, “The Council needs to answer for this, but… I don’t think it’ll go well to do it now.” No, it won’t, because Revan will make them answer in blood! He looks at me, does a double-take. “Gods, you look terrible.”

“Of course I look terrible!” I say. I can’t stop my voice from choking. “I feel terrible! I’ve been lied to for two months, I have no idea who I am, and I’m being put into a situation where I might hurt someone because of that lie! How do you think I’d be okay?”

His eyes go from my face to my hands. What? Why are you looking at my hands? What’s wrong with my hands? So I look.

Oh, God. Oh God, no, oh, no, oh God, no. My hands are glowing. Sparking blue. Just like Force lightning. No. No. No no no. I quickly cover up my hands. “You should go,” I say to Carth.

“Are you sure? What’s going on?”

“Please,” I say, “I don’t want to hurt you.” Because what if I can’t control it? What if the lightning just shoots out? I can’t take that chance. I won’t take that chance.

And now I know he hates me. Because I can read his face. That is a face that says “she thinks she will hurt me.” Because I don’t know if I can hold this back. This isn’t a Force ability I know, I don’t even know how I’m doing it! I just know that one moment I was angry at the Council, and the next my fingers were electric. So what happens when the anger gets worse? What happens when we get to Alderaan? Because the Council is there, the people who did this to me. I’m already so angry! It’s better for everyone to just leave me alone until I can figure this out. That way no one gets hurt. Revan can’t hurt anyone.

Carth looks at me, then nods seriously. “If that’s what you want.” No, it’s not what I want. But that’s how it has to be. And he stands and leaves the room.

“Canderous,” I hear him say.

“She’s awake, isn’t she?” Canderous replies. He sounds so angry, angrier than usual.

“She doesn’t want anyone in there!” Carth says firmly. A different kind of angry.

“Get out of my way, Republic, or I’ll finish what we started in the war!” I hear Canderous shove Carth into the wall, but Carth pushes back. This isn’t a fight he can win - fighting hand to hand with a Mandalorian is hard and requires so much strength. I could do it, I’ve done it before. Well… it’s in Rena’s memory, but given her participation in the Mandalorian Wars, it’s probably in Revan’s memory, too. And Carth isn’t ready. Canderous pushes Carth as hard as he can and comes into the starboard quarters.

But then he just stands in the doorway. He looks about as shitty as I feel. He closes the door behind himself so Carth can’t just push him again. Then he glares at me and mumbles something. “What?”

“You left her there,” he says more clearly, louder so I can hear. “You left her on that ship, with Malak. You left her there.”

Bastila. He loves her. He wouldn’t say it outright, not to me, anyway. But I can tell. It wasn’t just a fling, it wasn’t just a one-mission romance, not for him. I’m used to one-mission romances and this is never how you feel when it ends. It’s not this kind of love. It’s never this deep. I know. Because that’s how I feel. “I didn’t really have a choice, Canderous,” I say. I’m glad he’s not talking to, or about, Revan. He’s talking to me. Me, who left her behind. “If she hadn’t stayed to fight Malak, we wouldn’t have gotten away. It was her choice.”

“You could have stayed,” he says. His anger rising. Mad at me. I’m mad at me, too. “You could have fought with her.”

“He put me in stasis!” I don’t want to raise my voice at him. We’re sort of hurting for the same reason. “I couldn’t move! There wasn’t a damn thing I could do about it.”

He wants to get mad at me. He wants to - as he put it - finish what he started in the Mandalorian War. He wants to kill me. But he can’t. He won’t. He loves her too much. He’s paralyzed. “Well, now she’s dead and there’s not a damn thing I can do about it,” he says, “Nothing but bury another friend.” He turns to leave.

“She’s not dead,” I say. And he stops. Turns back. “I’d know if she were dead, she’s not.”

At first, he’s upset with me for giving him hope. But he takes a second. “Is this anything to do with that bond she’s always talking about?” he asks. I nod. “You know what she’s thinking? What she’s feeling?”

I shrug. “I mean, it’s not so straightforward as you’d think,” I’d say. Glad to not think about Revan. Even though the bond only exists because she saved Revan’s life -- oh, look, I’m thinking about it. “I don’t have words. Just… feelings, memories, sometimes. I’d know if she were dead, I’d feel an absence. She’s not dead.”

“Where is she?” he asks frantically, sitting next to me.

“I don’t know,” I say, “I don’t have words.” My head hurts. “And besides that, she’s sort of blocked me out.”

“I thought you said you knew,” he says, with the unnerving determination of his kind, “If she’s blocking you…”

“It’s… less like a wall and more like a door,” I say, “Both of us can walk through the door unless it’s closed. And she put a lot of effort into closing it. I don’t want to go through it if she put it there for a reason.”

“Fuck her reasons!” Canderous shouts firmly, suddenly standing above me. I can feel my fingers crackle like they did before. No, no. Keep the lightning in. Don’t hurt anyone, don’t hurt anyone. “If you can tell me anything to help me save the woman I love, then I need you to do it!”

“Leave her alone!” Carth shouts, barreling through the door and punching Candrous in the nose, “She doesn’t have to do a damn thing for you!”

“Since when are you on her side?” Canderous shouts back, “Two days ago you were ready to leave her on whatever planet we found first!”

“Don’t put words in my mouth!” Carth says, pushing Canderous back hard enough to make him stumble, “You’re not the only one who lost something on that ship!”

“You haven’t lost a damn thing! She is right there!” he shouts, “But Bastila is as good as gone without her!”

Please stop. Please, stop. “Guys, please,” I say. Because Canderous is right. “I can do it. Just please, stop fighting.” Because I feel like I’ve ended enough love in my life, haven’t I? Revan’s done too much. I cross my legs, meditating. Focusing. And open the door.

Lightning.

Stop!

The mask!

Leave me alone!

Never!

Carth!

Stop!

The storm!

“Stop!” I shout. It doesn’t even feel like the word came out of my mouth. I can feel the door shut behind me. It closes hard. Slams, I can feel it. I take a moment to catch my breath. My head hurts! “I’m not opening that door again,” I tell Canderous.

“What? What was it?” he asks, coming closer to me, “Is she hurting? What happened?”

“I don’t know, it was like… it was pain… familiar pain.”

“Familiar to Rena or Revan?”

“I don’t know,” I say. I can’t sort out the memories. My head hurts! “I don’t know. But I don’t want to feel that again.”

“Bullshit,” he says, “We have to find her - go back in, something.”

No. No, I can’t. “No. I’m sorry, I can’t.”

“Rena, please!” Carth tries to pull him back, but Canderous reaches out and grabs my hand.

It happens in an instant. I didn’t mean to. The moment Canderous grabbed my hand, the lightning shot out of my fingertips, blasting Carth and Canderous across the room. They fall into one of the bunks, and it breaks. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” is all I can say.

“Rena --” Carth starts to say.

“Get out. You need to get out, both of you, please!” Again, the Force reaches out, but I can control this. Pushing them out of the room and closing the door. Sealing it. They have to stay out. I don’t want to hurt them. I’m so scared, I’m so confused. I have to leave. It’s not safe for them if I stay here, not safe for them around Revan. The second we get to Alderaan, I’m leaving. I can’t stay, I can’t risk hurting anyone else like I just did. Not again. Not again.