#I don't care if it makes some people uncomfortable

[mosquitobible]

One of the biggest things that stuck out to me about Johnny and V's relationship, that has made it probably one of the most impactful and meaningful connections portrayed in any media to me specifically is the idea of two people being forced to share every single part of themselves with another person in a way that nobody could ever ever even begin to conceive. As someone who has spent their whole lives so deeply uncomfortable with themselves and their past and the mistakes they've made and has built layer over layer over layer over who they really are to the point they don't even know if they could actually recognize who they really are themselves anymore, the idea that someone could see all of it; the good, the bad, the ugly, the absolute shameful and fucked up parts of you and still choose to care for you so deeply with intention is like..... unfathomable.

Cause I wholeheartedly believe that V makes the active conscious choice to care for Johnny over and over again. It's not just some passive feeling they can't help, they are choosing to, despite it all, despite every shitty fucked up part of him because they truly believe that he is worth that and capable of being someone deserving of that kind of love like FUCKIKKSNSJSJ could you even imagine someone seeing you that way? Thinking so fucking highly of you despite every fucked up mistake you've made that they trust you with a devotion so profound because they believe you truly deserve it, having seen every part of you, parts of you that you don't even remember anymore, but they know it all and they still find you worthy of it? Worthy enough to even give up their lives for you truly believing that you are capable of doing it right this time? Like you think V would be willing to give up their life to let Johnny live if they weren't confident that he was capable of that sacrifice actually being worth something?? ughhhshdhshsh literally makes me sick.

Like what a fucking trip it would be for Johnny when he begins to really understand the level of love V has for him and realize how fucking rare something like that is. And that's not to say that nobody else has ever truly cared for Johnny in such a way but I don't doubt that there was always a part of him that adamantly believed he did not deserve that and would do what he does best by sabotaging it, but he couldn't do that with V, couldn't hide behind his ego, even when he actively tried to. He just had to sit with it until he realized maybe he could deserve that and I think that's a part of what it took to make him actually fucking change, realizing that he fucking wanted to deserved that — hungered for it for probably a long fucking time, and to get it from V of all people, someone he probably believes should be the last person in the world to see him that way??? Like yea that would have me getting my shit together real fucking quick.

[tinywand]

winning a fancall as their partner ᵔᴗᵔ

pairing - ot7 x gn!reader

genre - fluff

warnings - minor language (very minor) !

Jungwon

doesn't realize at first

does his rehearsed greeting, then is like, "??????"

"Y/n??"

lets out a sigh of relief and has a big smile

"You won't believe the fan call I just had... Some people.."

Jungwon vents his frustrations with people making him aegyo and meow

"Hey Wonnie?"

"Yes, Y/n?"

"Can you meow for me?"

Jungwon sits in silence for the rest of the call, arms crossed, and giving you a blank look.

When he sees you after, he continues to give the silent treatment until you offer to scratch his back

"Y/n, please don't ever do that again.."

Heeseung

ALSO doesn't realize right away

you both just kinda sit there like "😐"

then Heeseung goes "😮"

"Y/n! I didn't know you won a fan call! Why didn't you tell me?"

pretends to sulk, but is refreshed seeing you between all the other calls

"Don't be mad, I just wanted to surprise you!" You watch Heeseung start to laugh a little

"Well it worked! I love seeing all of ENGENE, but this is refreshing.. And this chair is really uncomfortable.."

"Well it's not like I'm a random ENGENE, stretch your legs while you can, Hee."

Immediately gets up and starts to stretch.

"See, this is why I love you so much Y/n."

You laugh as you see only his legs in view

He sits back down with a grin

"I'll see you later Y/n, thanks for letting me take a little break."

Jay

realizes its you and plans to tease you

"Oh my god." Jay says with a slight smile

"Surprise!" You let out little jazz hands

Pretends to not care, but secretly has butterflies

"Yeah yeah, whatever... How do I skip you?" Jay pretends to signal staff over

"Hey! Don't you dare! I won this fair and square!"

Jay laughs and blows into the mic

"Hey I thi- pshhhhhhhh this call is- psshhhhhhhh breaking up"

"You're so annoying, Jay. Im an ENGENE too you know, where's my dedicated three minutes?"

Jay laughs and settles in his chair, "Fine, I guess you're right, what do you want to talk about?"

"Actually I'm glad you asked, do you remember where I put my-"

"Hate to cut you off sweetheart, but times up." Jay laughs and sends an air kiss.

"That.. Brat!" You scowl, but end up only being able to laugh about it.

You jokingly complain about it when Jay sees you later that night

"Y/n, how about I go get you some snacks? Will that make you feel better?"

You nod, because how can that not help?

Jake

Immediately perks up. "Y/n?!"

You play dumb.. "Uh.. No that's not my name."

Jake looks confused for a second before doubling down. "Y/n, I know it's you. I literally see your posters in the back."

"Crap.." You mutter under your breath, letting out a nervous smile.

"Y/n, I didn't know you won a fan call? Were you trying to prank me? Next time I'll pretend to fall for it!"

Your heart swells, Jakes just too cute.

"Aaaghh, you make it really hard to stay in character you know. I had a whole plan set up."

Jake laughs, "Here, let's pretend like I did fall for it. Go on, do your prank."

You nod and show Jake a crude, not very well drawn photo of him. "I made this for you, cause you're my bias, Jake oppa!" You did a cringey aegyo after

"Never mind, please never do that again Y/n."

you head over to Jakes dorm, having a better prank in mind

You wait on his bed and run into his closet when you hear the boys get home.

"What the hell is this? Y/n?"

You pop out of the closet, seeing Jake staring at the fake body you made with pillows, only for the face to be your drawing

"PRANKED!!"

Sunghoon

pretends like he doesn't realize

"Hel- Oh wow. Usually I'm not supposed to say this, but you're the most attractive person I've ever seen.."

You do a mental facepalm

"Sunghoon, it's me, Y/n."

"Y/n? That's a beautiful name.. Here, let me write down my number and text me after this."

Sunghoon scribbles down his number and puts it up to the camera

"Stop playing dumb, hoonie! I was supposed to surprise you!"

"Ahh, playing hard to get? That's okay Y/n, I'm more than happy to fight for it."

"Hoon, why don't you ever flirt with me like this when we're together?"

"If I knew you, I definitely would Y/n."

Wait for him to finish his fancalls, then call him

"Oh hey babe, I saw the most beautiful ENGENE during the fan calls today..."

"Sunghoon, I swear to god I'm gonna kill you."

Sunoo

Immediately decomposes himself and lays on the table

"Y/n... its brutal out here..."

You let out a little chuckle, "What happened this time, Sun?"

Sunoo peeks up. "I have to pee, it's too hot in this room, my hair isn't cooperating, and we still have a bunch of fan calls left to do... I don't know if I can make it."

"Do it for ENGENE Sun, lots of them are looking forward to this.

Sunoo sits back up and nods.

"You're right Y/n, and they're all so nice! One of them showed me this picture they drew.. It looked exactly like me, just more handsome!"

You smile, letting Sunoo talk about all the ENGENE he met today.

"You feel better, Sun?"

"Yes, just what I needed."

A hour later Sunoo sends you a text.

"Thanks for the pick me up Y/n! I picked up some ice cream and I'm on my way over : )"

Ni-Ki

Notices its you before you even realize the call connected

Ni-Ki lets out a fake sigh. "Oh great.. It's you."

You cross your arms, used to Ni-Ki's teasing by now. "And what is that supposed to mean, Riki?"

He grins and sits back. "All I'm saying is you already take up my free time, you should share some with ENGENE."

You scoff and act hurt. "I'll have you know I won this spot buying albums. Actually- buying ENGENE versions trying to get YOURS Riki."

Ni-Ki shoots his hands up in defense. "I offered to give you one, don't pin this on me!"

You roll your eyes playfully. "If you gave me one it wouldn't count towards Billboard! I was being a supportive partner!"

Ni-Ki laughs, admitting defeat. "Alright you got me, but only because we don't have much time."

"Sounds like an excuse, but I'll take my win."

"Good decision Y/n, you don't win often!" Ni-Ki laughs

"Oh you're so dead when you get home."

You wait in Riki's dorm room, hearing his steps grow closer

You jump on him as he walks in

"Ack- What the- Y/n?"

"I told you earlier! Your dead meat Riki!"

[blue-willow-tree]

pretty thorough with your pinned post. i'm sorry to read that you want nothing to do with "cis het" as you put it.

I found a post of yours that made me want to click 'follow' multiple times and as fast I could since it conveyed (emphasis on conveyed) a sense of inclusion of feeling and heart and a perspective of a Dominant persona that I believe is sorely lacking.

But the fact that you are "not allowing" me to enjoy your blog along with all your sapphic followers negates any elation i felt towards your post. and yes i post this anonymously because your insinuation that as a straight male I can't empathize with your sapphic desires or we don't deserve to interact is a turn off. i'm sure you'll find things in this that shows why that it is, but oh well. i am an individual, not the mass of sheep of men you seem to want to exclude from here. anyways have a good one Miss.

*sigh* Alright, I guess I'll answer this. Let's go section by section.

Before I get into this, I will state that I have some wonderful cis het friends. I love them with all my heart. But this is all with regards to this sapphic blog.

"i'm sorry to read that you want nothing to do with 'cit hets' as you put it."

Yes, in my DNI list it reads "Cis het men (including subby boys). Cis het women. This space is not for you." And this is true. This blog is for queer bdsm folk, and I've made it clear that my posts are sapphic posts, because I am lesbian. I put a DNI for cis het men, because I've been made uncomfortable time and time again by them, both in real life and on my blog. My posts have been stolen. My boundaries have been broken. My body has been violated. I don't feel safe with you. And, none of my posts are for you. I also don't allow cis het women to follow my blog, because I've grown annoyed of my sapphic posts being reblogged with straight tags and them changing the post to a straight post. And, none of my posts are for them. It is that simple.

I understand the argument of "What about people that aren't out yet?" And for that I'll figure out a way to implement that, I'll just need to work on my wording, but so far I haven't had anybody coming anonymously into my ask box with that issue, but if that happens I'll figure out a way to handle it and provide a safe, understanding, positive space.

Onto the next point.

"I found a post of yours that made me want to click 'follow' multiple times and as fast I could since it conveyed (emphasis on conveyed) a sense of inclusion of feeling and heart and a perspective of a Dominant persona that I believe is sorely lacking."

Yes, but this Dominant persona is a lesbian. Who makes lesbian posts.

Next.

"But the fact that you are "not allowing" me to enjoy your blog along with all your sapphic followers negates any elation i felt towards your post."

I do not care for your elation. The post wasn't for you.

Next.

"and yes i post this anonymously because your insinuation that as a straight male I can't empathize with your sapphic desires or we don't deserve to interact is a turn off."

You're saying this anonymously because you're well aware of the boundaries you're pushing. You're simply pushing them anyway because you have fomo. Anyway, I will never, in any way, make any attempts to turn you on. I do not care for your sexual gratification. This blog is not designed to turn you on. My posts are not for you. I am not for you.

"i'm sure you'll find things in this that shows why that it is, but oh well. i am an individual, not the mass of sheep of men you seem to want to exclude from here. anyways have a good one Miss."

I'm not sure if you're aware of this, but every human is an individual. Every man is an individual. Isn't that crazy? I'm sure that might amaze you. But in life, there are communities. And the community of cisgender heterosexual men will never be welcomed in my blog, and I do not have enough care for your judgements, assumptions, and feeling of exclusion to list all the reasons why. But if you really want to prove to me you're different than all the other "sheep" (since it seems you had a craving for my attention), if you really want me to view you any differently than I do all the rest, you will do one thing for this Miss.

You will find blogs that are made for you. Believe me, there are plenty. Do not come into my space and make it about you.

I don't care for you.

I apologize to my followers for this being brought into my space. I hope you understand why this needed to be responded to. I assure you, you won't see anything like this ever again here.

If you do not agree with the way I handle my safe space, you're more than welcome to find someone better suited for you. But this blog will continue to be run this way.

Thank you 🩷

[chrisbesitos]

chris protecting young reader from some pervs and getting a little soft seeing her scared and vulnerable

troublemaker!chris hates to see younger!reader in danger.

"hey, pretty thing." a man says to you, holding your waist and brushing his thumb on your cheek. all without your consent. you shift uncomfortable and push him by the chest, making a disgusted face.

"sorry, i'm not interested." you say, forcing a smile, even though it looks like a grimace. but he doesn't give up, grabs your chin to take a look better at your eyes and they look horrified.

"c'mon, pretty. let's find a quiet place, huh?" he raises his eyebrows, leaning his face to try to give you a kiss on the lips. you widen your eyes, feeling terrified, you quickly push his face. "don't be so stubborn!"

"no, get off!" your voice sounds like a murmur, pushing him with all your effort. you try to scream, but your voice keeps stuck in your throat, tears start to prick on your waterline, your heart pumping hard inside your chest. "stop..." you cry out.

he's way stronger and taller than you, you've never felt so scared and little before. until he comes.

"she said get off!" chris says, pushing the man away from you. you don't know where he came or why he's here, but this doesn't matter anymore. right now, he's right here, pushing a fucking perverted away from you, he's protecting you.

"c'mon, man. i'm not doing anything, jus' trying to have a good time." he smirks. "mind to share your girl with me?"

this was the end for chris. he throws a punch on the man's nose, nonchalant is everyone is watching, and then punches him again. the perv doesn't even have the chance to try to defend himself, chris pushes him on the floor and kicks his back. everyone around is shocked, the music had stopped and people were screaming with chris to stop hitting the guy.

chris didn't want it to stop, because he thinks he deserved more than some punches and a simple kick. some of his friends are holding his face on the floor, all blood and hurt, but chris didn't care. he only stopped, because he looks behind and sees you. your eyes look so scared, he can see you're holding your tears, your hands are shaking, even though you're trying to hide this. chris looks at the guy again.

"if she tells me you touch her again, i promise i'll kill you." chris growls, kicking his leg one last time.

chris turns himself to you, he embraces your shoulders with his arm and guides out of the party. you walk by his side, still scared and terrified, but not of him. it was kinda scary watching chris punching the guy the way he did, but you're not scared of him, you're relived he did that.

he stops on the highway and pushes your shoulders down, helping you to sit. he kneels down in front of you, he instantly hesitates, but then moves his hands to your face. chris moves your face to the right and the left, looking for some bruise, but there's nothing than fat tears rolling down.

"are you hurt anywhere?" chris asks, frowning his eyebrows. you shake your head, sniffing. "it's okay now, stop crying, you're safe."

"i'm sorry." you apologize, cleaning your tears. chris shakes his head, he hesitantly rests his hand on your knee, giving you a quick squeeze. "thank you for helping me."

"you don't have to thank me." chris says, you nod your head, still sniffing. "what are you doing here alone?" he asks, trying to not sound worried, even he feels a bit.

"i came with a friend..." you murmur.

"and she left you all alone, am i right?" chris says, you low down your head. "are you collecting shitty friends or sum'?" he snorts. you don't answer anything, but maybe he was right. maybe you have shitty friends. chris raises his body and extends a hand to you. "i'll drive you home, c'mon. no more parties for you."

you open a small smile, grabbing his hand. chris pulls you from the floor and quickly leaves your hand, you don't mind, chris looks to be the type of guy that doesn't like too much touch. chris sides eye you, feeling glad you're acting all weird and saying shits he doesn't care again, better than scared like a little mouse.

"oh, thanks for the other night. matt told me what you did for me."

"i don't know what you are talking about, doll."

he acts nonchalant again and you smile.

© chrisbesitos.

[rochenn]

🏳️‍🌈 and 💕

for the ask game :3

YOU PICKED THE SCARIEST ONES I'M SHAKING

🏳️‍🌈 Which character who is commonly headcanoned as queer doesn't seem queer to you?

Here we have a conundrum in which literally every character is some sort of Schrödinger's queer in my mind. Especially the Jedi. But!!

Padmé is the cissest straightest woman I have ever seen. Godbless the handmaiden shipping tho. I think those girlies are all some flavor of gay but not Padmé (in my opinion) (personally). She had a good look around all that and ended up with Anakin Skywalker. There is, of course, a profound romance-related sadness about her, but it doesn't strike me as a symptom of queerness. Idk. She's soooo straight to me. Same goes for Anakin. Maybe he's not heterosexual as much as he is simply and unshakably padmésexual, but she is a woman so 💥 straight boy it is, no other options

💕 What is an unpopular ship that you like?

Unpopular as in "widely known and widely hated" or as in "zero fanfics and on thin fucking ice"? Because I don't have an example for the former. For the latter, though...

Okay. That picture. That illustration specifically (not the fish) (disciplinary measure). You might take a look at that and think "ah, a drawing undoubtedly made by someone who cannot fathom a male-female relationship beyond the sexual", and you'd maybe feel disgust, because that's what I thought and felt at first, too. But then you look closer. And you see that Dooku seems to not be having a grand time here. And you think a little bit more - maybe there's nuance here. Intrigue. Imagine an isolated scenario that is not the typical "creepy old man ruins female subordinate" plot, but rather, it's the other way around. Creepy woman. Ever thought about that? I think they deserve it. There should be more people in Dooku's life who make him intimately uncomfortable. Maybe it's just psychosexual and never physical. Who cares. You can do interesting stuff here. I have a niche vision that deviates from my usual (platonic) perception of these two that rears its fucked up head EXCLUSIVELY when I see that illustration. I think Asajj should traumatize him back AND ☝️ they should both be terrible about it. Hate and misery xoxo

[rekino2114]

40Angst to fluff~ :you flinch during an argument ❤️‍🩹

Let's go with the girls. I think this would fit and be most affected by the flinch. Soo~ Arei nageishi, Maki harukawa, and Tenko chabashira with a Male S/O.

I was gonna choose either junko or Mukuro, but Tenko is more interesting since with a Male S/O, it's a genuine worry given how she gets with other guys. Also, I'm hoping that with the prompt, the M. S/O has a history of either being mistreated by an S/O or their family.

Arei, maki and tenko reacting to you flinching during an argument

Arei nageishi

Arguments with arei are unfortunate, pretty frequent, obviously she doesn't hate you, and wouldn't do things that purposefully make you angry but her personality is just the type that gets angry easily and can make even small disagreements escalate into arguments

However, despite how much she yells and gets angry at you during these arguments, one thing she will never do is raise her hands on you. Not only does she not actually mean most of the stuff she says when she's arguing but she also thinks that's just despicable, she may not be a good person but she's not a monster

So when she saw you flinch, she could not let that go. She refused to leave you alone until you told her everything that was going on, she was a bit aggressive but it was because she was genuinely concerned about you

Whenever you told her everything, she was a mix of emotions, mainly anger, both at your family but also a little bit at you because you didn't tell her earlier. Her own sisters did some very similar to her, so she felt she could relate to you, and you could help each other cope with the trauma, but now that she knows she's going to be there for you

"Are you an idiot? Do you seriously think I'd ever hurt you? I love you and I'm not like those assholes like our families, I actually care about you.....a lot. So don't ever think I'd do something like that OK?"

Maki harukawa

Ever since Maki revealed her true ultimate to you, you felt kinda intimidated by her, you knew she loved you and would never hurt you, it still felt kinda uncomfortable and scary living with someone who has killed people before and could kill you

So maki tried her best to make you feel safe around her, constantly saying she how much she cared about you and that she'd never do anything to harm you and most importantly never raise her voice in arguments, she didn't want to give you the impression she was more upset than she actually was

However, one time during a particularly nasty argument, she started to yell and to make matters worse, tried to touch you which caused you to flinch. When she saw you flinch her eyes widened and she forgot whatever reason why she was angry, she needed to hear the reason why you flinched

When you explained what happened to you, she was mortified. She immediately apologized for raising her voice and causing you to flinch, but even after you told her it wasn't her fault, the guilt still didn't disappear, she reassured you again that she was never going to hurt you and that she will help you heal from what happened, you were her precious boyfriend after all

"Listen y/n I know I may appear.....distant at times but just know that I love you and will never ever in my life do anything to hurt you, I would much rather die than harm you....so please just know that I will stay with you and help you with whatever happened, I'm here for you"

Tenko chabashira

You have seen how aggressive tenko can be with men, and you have also seen beat the absolute crap out them for some basic misunderstanding or because they "gave her a bad vibe" so it's no surprise that even if she tried to convince you she'd never do that to you and that you were different from other guys you still felt a bit scared of her

During arguments, tenko tends to be very loud. She's just very passionate about what she believes is right, and so she doesn't really like losing fights but will admit when she's wrong even if embarrassed. But when she saw you flinch her attitude completely.

She will never hit you, hitting the man she loves is not only the least honorable thing she could ever do, the thought itself makes her sick, you're one of the very few great guys in this world why would she ever consider hurting you?

She genuinely thought about beating up whatever men in your family hurt you. She loves you and absolutely hates the fact that someone else hurt someone as perfect as you, but now she's here for you and is never let anyone hurt you again

"I get it now, you though I was like your family, but you're wrong.....u-uh I mean I'd never hurt you like them, I bet most of them were degenerate males, they're nothing like you, you're sweet and kind and perfect and I will protect you from everyone and everything, if someone hurts you again just call me and I'll kick their ass"

[haveyouseenthisskeleton]

Scenario with rough skeles, they are invited to an event and it has some strict code that woman only wear dresses and man only wear suits, but s/o decides to wear a suit anyways

Undertale Sans - Yeah, you tell them! He doesn't care about the dress code either and goes wearing his shorts and slippers. What are they going to do anyway, throw you out? Well, good, because that means he can take you somewhere else, far from people with a broom up their...

Undertale Papyrus - Papyrus is supportive! If it makes you happy, then he is happy! Besides, that suit looks good on you, and if anyone says something, you can still ask them to stop presuming your gender to embarrass them good.

Underswap Sans - Well, anyway, what are they going to do if you don't wear a dress? Call the police. Good, because he's right here and he says you're looking hot as hell in that suit! He looks sexy as hell too, by the way, in case you didn't notice. Go on, say he's hot!

Underswap Papyrus - He's a bit nervous about breaking the rules thingy at first, but he relaxes when he notices that no one cares, actually. That's ok, he forgets too, after a few glasses of wine. Actually, he forgets so much that he passes out on the floor because he forgot he can't stand alcohol.

Underfell Sans - I mean, if someone says something, he can still headbutt their pelvis painfully. He's good at that. Too bad that's the only thing he remembers once he's drunk and you have to spend your evening physically restraining him from headbutting random people in the pelvis.

Underfell Papyrus - That's ok. First of all, he reassures you by saying you're beautiful in that suit and that everyone should be jealous of how good you look instead of criticizing. Secondly, he has the best death stare of all skeletons, and no one wants to receive one from him. He's great at dissuading people from talking shit about you.

Horrortale Sans - If he has to be honest, he doesn't feel comfortable at all in this party, and he's going to do all he can to convince you all of these people are bad just so he can go home. Including pointing out they're all staring at your suit. Please... A cuddle session in front of the TV seems way better than whatever this party is about.

Horrortale Papyrus - Like his brother, he's very uncomfortable because there are too many humans around, but he tries to make some effort because you look good and he doesn't want to ruin your fun. He sits down in a corner most of the time, trying to make himself little and invisible, though lol. He's kinda happy you put a suit on so everyone talks about you and not... Well, him.

Swapfell Sans - Breaking the rules during one of the Queen's events? Now you're talking to him. First of all, no one will dare to say anything because he's here, secondly, you're going to piss off Toriel but she doesn't want to hurt his feeling so she's not going to say anything either. Nox is parading around the room looking so damn proud off himself, and clearly taking advantage of the fact he's untouchable. He loves being sassy once in a while.

Swapfell Papyrus - Well, if he really has to sacrifice himself... You die internally when, after disappearing mysteriously for twenty minutes, Rus comes back in an extremely revealing red dress, wearing a blond wig and very high heels, and you swear he hid pumpkins under his clothes to look like he has boobs. Rus is so proud of himself right now. You are speechless, honestly.

Fellswap Gold Sans - Well, you are right, fuck gendered clothes. He's going to wear a pretty dress, and he's going to slay so much in it that everyone is going to die from jealousy. He makes sure to make you look extra good with some makeup as well. Everyone is only looking at you two tonight, and that's good because it means he can piss off the Royal Family by stealing the spotlight. Who cares about old-fashioned overgrown goats?

Fellswap Gold Papyrus - Well, it's good you're the centre of attention because, uh, he ate one appetizer and now his white suit is full of tomato stains lol. He's pretty much hiding behind you in shame the entire time, not looking anyone in the eye.

[lucydixon]

how do you think euro, faust, and pelle differ (and relate)when it comes to cuddling and showing affection for their partner?

Oohh, I like it. I think that the boys would each have very different affection styles and mannerisms when it comes to displays of affection and cuddling.

I don't think that Pelle actually enjoys cuddling all that much. Being that physically close to another person is overwhelming for him, and makes him hyperaware of every little thing, like the feeling of your sleeve touching his bare arm, and how the fabric is a little scratchy, but he doesn't want to move because you look so comfy and the last thing he wants to do is upset you, so he'll sit there and fixate on it until you realise just how stiff and uncomfortable he is and give him a little bit of space.

He's more of a hand holder.

The closest thing to cuddling that he enjoys is when you're both lying on your sides, just close enough that your knees brush up against each other. Your hands would be intertwined, resting on the mattress between you while you stared at each other in the moonlight or early morning sunbeams streaming through the windows, just as the sun is creeping over the horizon. Eye contact and hand holding feel more intimate to him than cuddling ever could.

That being said, Pelle would absolutely enjoy hugging and nuzzling the side of your neck with his nose at random times, scrunching it up cutely when strands of your hair tickle his face. I also think that pressing your foreheads together and staring into each other's souls would be a favorite pastime of his. He could sit there for hours, trying to read your thoughts and just enjoy being close to you.

I also think that he would bring you little gifts all the time. If he saw anything that reminded him of you, he'd scoop it up, shove it in his pocket, and just set it down in front of you the next time he saw you, immediately looking away. You'd have a collection full of little bones and rocks that matched the colour of your eyes that you cherished greatly. He'd draw things for you, too. All the time. Pelle would hold your hand and kiss you no matter where you are or who's watching. It makes no difference to him whether or not there are other people around. All he cares about is feeling that connection with you and he couldn't give less of a shit if the boys made fun of him for it.

Unlike Pelle, Øystein would want to be touching in some way 24/7.

When you're alone and nobody is watching, he can be so soft and cuddly. The second you crawl into bed, you're being pulled into his chest, and he'll hold you in those big, strong arms of his while pressing his lips to the crown of your head.

You're sitting on the couch? He's got you in his lap before you can blink. Trying to cook? He's wrapped around you, hugging you from behind and kissing the side of your neck sweetly, then not so sweetly when he starts to get himself worked up...

Good luck getting out of your bed in the morning, because that man will cling to you in his half-asleep state, groaning and burying his face in your hair, trying to convince you to just stay in bed for a little longer.

Øystein would never call it cuddling or admit to enjoying it if anyone, even you, asked. He'd get all pouty and embarrassed about it, grumbling 'What? I can't just hold my girlfriend? We're not cuddling. Don't say that.'

When there are other people around and he feels like he has to play the part of Euronymous, he'd be more grabby and possessive so that everyone knows that you're there with him.

He wouldn't hold your hand. He'd prefer to keep an arm draped over your shoulders or his hand in your back pocket while you walk. There would be a lot of grabbing you by the belt loops and pulling you down to sit in his lap at bars or in the basement at Helvete. He'll sloppily make out with you and keep a hand on your ass or thigh at all times.

I think that Faust would be somewhere in the middle of the other two.

He would be very gentle with you when it comes to affection. This man would hold your hand all day, every day, and wouldn't want to let go for anything, but gets a little shy about being overly affectionate and soft around his friends, especially the ones he looks up to, like Euronymous. Don't get me wrong, he'll still hold your hand. He'll just clam up a little if anyone points it out, and his cheeks will warm into a rosy blush.

This does not in any way stop him from lifting you up to sit on the counter at Helvete and making out with you all the time. When he's kissing you, it doesn't matter who's watching or if they're making comments. He can't hear them anyway. Can't focus on anything but the feeling of your lips against his.

When Faust hugs you, it's a full-on, arms wrapped all the way around you, clutching you to his chest while his chin rests on the top of your head so he can smell your shampoo, type of hug. I think he's got a thing for smelling your hair. He'd constantly have his face buried in it, not only when you're hugging, but when you're sleeping or cuddled up on the couch watching a movie, too. It's almost compulsive. He'd get all embarrassed about it if you asked him what he was doing or if he'd really just sniffed your hair? You'd never be angry or annoyed, always smirking and poking fun at him for his strange fixation.

Faust would love cuddling. His favorite place in the entire world is to be cuddled up in bed or on the couch with you, watching his obscure horror films while taking breaks every so often to rub up on you and lazily make out.

One thing that I think all our boys have in common is that they all get so incredibly clingy and cuddly after sex. Even Pelle will wrap himself around you and not want to get up for anything.

They'll follow you around if the two of you can't stay in bed until you fall asleep, and be hanging off of you the entire time, being grabby and overly affectionate.

In their own ways, they're all completely whipped and mushy.

Dividers made by @saradika-graphics

[lethroe]

Your definition is what is required to consider a hate group such under law. I personally don't see the need to classify it as such as we aren't dealing in legality. This is where I got my information from. This page also brings into consideration the existence of internet hate groups. Don't even start arguing with me on whether wiki is a reliable source. If you don't think its reliable then go to their citation page.

In terms of systematic power, we see this with the capitalistic control of diagnosis and the systematic process of scientific study tangled with oligarchal funding.

I disagree on your point regarding which systems can identify as disordered. Things can exist outside of scientific recognition as well as defined labels. I personally don't care to confine someone to a definition or identity.

As for your comment on religious systems, anti-endos can absolutely be biased and discriminatory towards more than just religious systems as some systems can be considered a practice and all systems can be considered a designated sector of society or even a social group. Therefore, endogenic systems can be oppressed and discriminated against. I never said any other group was inherently plural but even so, endogenics can be hated on for any regard. Before sexuality and gender were included in the minority list, they weren't considered something that could be discriminated against because they could "change their circumstances" and "just stop being gay". Just because endos aren't listed doesn't mean that they can't be discriminated against just as much as spirituality can be discriminated against despite not being on that list.

The reason I brought up religious plurality is because anti-endo includes religious plurality and is therefore discriminatory to religious plurality. This could consider anti-endo to be discriminatory towards religious practices.

I already clarified that we are using two separate definitions, so I don't feel I need to address that. I also brought up that internet hate groups are beginning to be considered. Think of it like the idea of online bullying being debated as well as sexual abuse online being debated.

I also disagree that endos can't be discriminated against in society in a way that traumagenics aren't. We see this by the lack of acceptance of any or almost everyone outside of plurality whereas there are at least some that aren't plural that accept medically recognised systems. This is also obvious with disordered non-traumagenics not getting accommodations or formal diagnosis that would improve quality of life.

Your next paragraph is just sysmedicalist rhetoric. I'm referring to someone with endogenic plurality that greatly or moderately effects quality of life or ability to function. I'm not referring to the presence of other disorders.

I see that this situation with those people upsets you but I’m uncomfortable talking about that. I don’t know them and I don’t feel it’s my place to debate on it. I do have sympathy for you but I didn’t read much as I almost felt like I was intruding.

Anti-endos traumagenic systems to me are very similar in terms of placing and structure to transphobic trans people who separate themselves from the trans people they don't find valid by referring to themselves as transsexual as a way to gain favour of non-trans transphobes. The thing anti-endos have is the favour of some singlets as well as diagnosis and accommodation. That something that they absolutely have privilege over.

I'd also like to bring up that by engaging in this conversation, you are engaging in syscourse which makes you a syscourser.

I would like to restate my original point that anti-endos are inherently more harmful that pro-endos as one ideology is inclusion where the other is exclusion.

So, thank you for this conversation but I do believe our Carrd now includes the DNI of sysmeds. We can continue this conversation, but I don't think any more needs to be said on my part and that I probably will just be repeating myself. If you no longer want to continue this conversation but don't think you can keep your opinions to yourself, then I request that you no longer participate on my page as I am a safe place for those that don't fit sysmedical standards and will not concede or change my stance on such.

- Appa, Asmodeus, Hasan, Lucifer

The thing is that as a disordered traumagenic system I’ve never been belittled, treated like shit, had my trauma minimised and harassed by endos but I have been by anti endos and fakeclaimers.

So who is the more harmful group? Remind me?

[everyday-is-brighter-with-you]

Honestly you know what I'm going to keep the energy on here. I'm going to try for once in my life. For Palestine as well as other atrocities happening. Expect this blog to be as loud as possible when I can.

[purpurussy]

everything Dan said about labels in BIG was so extremely real and personal to me and people really gloss over a lot of it sometimes I need to talk about it more about it when I'm not exhausted

[foundfamilywhump]

day 100000 of me seeing a post about 'care/whumpers' and thinking 'that is literally just a whumper who is nice sometimes. you are literally just describing a whumper'

[epickiya722]

"Why do you like that character? They're so mean!"

"Why do you like that ship? Aren't they're enemies?"

The better question is why do you care?

[buttercupshands]

My emotionally immature ass still doesn't understand a thing of how people can pity characters

Not like I don't try to understand it! I just... Can't? Understand that??? At all???

Like why would you pity a character for their sad backstory or whatever, and poof suddenly a character is pitiful as hell, and suddenly they're understandable because a person can call them a wet kitten under their care

And that's something I can't do for some reason

And again, not like I didn't *try*, it's just a thing I can't understand at any capacity other than 'some people do that to show their affection of that character, that's their way of caring

Granted talking to more people makes you understand them better! Doesn't help much! But it's something!!

[bandzboy]

i've seen a lot of people say that the talk about companies being shitty makes them feel uncomfortable and i just want you to ask yourselves why that is. why do you feel that way? is it because you don't wanna face the reality of this industry? is it because you wanna enjoy the music while ignoring the fact that idols are suffering because of these companies?

i am not exactly saying it's the best feeling in the world to know this as a fan but there are people online that just wanna avoid this altogether and i feel that this is extremely disrespectful to the artists that you support. especially when so many of them have been open about the things they go through in this industry this year alone i just feel like trying to ignore this and saying it's "uncomfortable" is not gonna cut it and it just looks like you are dismissing the problem.

acknowledging and discussing these problems is how we can truly support these artists because they incredibly need it right now. as a kpop listener, you have to acknowledge how harsh this industry is. there's no other way around it. this is a pivotal time to talk about these things openly. if we want actual change to happen, we need to keep pushing it and make idols more comfortable to speak up about the mistreatment they go through

[ibijau]

I have my paraglider

goodbye Purah, see you never!

but also today is totk's last chance to please me and after that I restart botw instead bc I'm really struggling to enjoy this