#I don’t connect to them as much 🤷‍♀️

[tjelestial]

Pick A Lana:

Your Person's Fantasies of You 18+

PAC: Your Person's Fantasies of You 18+

☆ How to choose your pile: Take a deep breath, hold it for a sec - exhale slowly through your mouth. Close your eyes and focus on the question. Once you're ready, take a look at the number and choose the pile you feel drawn to.

If you feel called by more than one pile, there might be more messages for you.

Remember: This is a general reading, therefore I'd be picking up messages for collective audience. Take only what resonates and leave what doesn’t. May you find your message!

My Masterlist

PILE 1

Hi Pile 1, welcome to your reading! Okay, right of the bat Pile 1, your person is giving ✨possessive✨ I just heard “You’re mine.” Damn. It’s the ultimate "I own you, and you own me" energy. There’s no in-between, just a raw, unshakable pull between you two. It’s almost obsessive, the way their body craves yours, the way their mind keeps coming back to thoughts of you, even when they try to focus on work and other things.

They fantasize about taking their time with you, making you beg before they finally give you what you want. I heard “arguing is foreplay”. It’s the kind of connection where even your arguments hold heat—one second you’re challenging them, the next, they’ve got you against the wall, their mouth on yours, hands gripping tight because they can’t keep their hands off you. Your body is like a prize they’ve won, and they’re going to worship every inch of it. For some of you, your person don’t shy from PDA and they like to show you off.

You’re someone who set high standards for yourself and actually put in the work to meet them. Whether it’s in your career, social circle, or relationships, you exude the energy of someone who knows their worth. For some of you, I’m getting IxTP/xxFJ vibes.

Your person is a provider. I almost thought it’s giving sugar daddy vibes, with how much they spoil you materialistically. But there’s this insecurity within them. Maybe they think you’re too good to be true? Maybe it’s fear of losing you? Maybe you shine so bright? But they don’t want to let you go. And in the heat of it all? They can’t resist you. They want to fuck the insecurity out of their system, to make you scream their name until they know you’re theirs in every way possible.

They love taking you from behind too, it’s one of their fantasies, gripping your waist, pulling your hair against them because they need to feel all of you. They’re possessive with their hands, their touches—palm against your throat, choking (consensually), fingers tangled in your hair, nails digging into your hips. They don’t just want to make love to you; they want to mark you with hickies, claim you, make sure you remember exactly who’s fucking you so good.

They love the way you let them take control, but they also love it when you push back—when you straddle them, pin them down, show them that you know exactly what you’re doing, it drives them crazy. They want to own you, but at the same time, you own them just as much. And they’ll make damn sure you never forget that.

For some of you, there’s also cuddle/spooning fantasy going on. They want to hold you tight after, in that sweet afterglow. But even while they’re holding you, their hands are gonna wander, teasing, exploring. Honestly they just can’t help it 🤷‍♀️

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PILE 2

Oh, now this is the seductress irresistible pile. Your person don’t just want you—they ache for you, in a way that borders on desperation. What did you do to them Pile 2 🥵 Your person hates how much control you have over them, yet at the same time they wouldn’t have it any other way.

They can’t stand it when you play with them, when you act all innocent, when you act like you don’t know exactly what you do to them. But you do know. You’re giving that "Who, me? I would never officer..." energy while knowing damn well you’re driving them insane. It’s not outright teasing, it’s subtle. You don’t have to try to be alluring; it’s just who you are. You don’t deny anything outright, but you never fully give in right away either. It’s that delicate push-and-pull that drives your person up the wall.

And you love it. You love making them work for it, love seeing them lose their composure, love the way their hands shake slightly when they finally get to touch you after being deprived.

It’s no brainer that they fantasize about you driving them insane—about you dragging things out, taking your time, leaving them with pent up frustration. But once they snap? Once they’ve had enough? That’s when they lose control, that’s when they take you the way they’ve been dreaming about. Bending you against the nearest surface, with their hands gripping your waist. Spanking you, punishing you. They love to see you squirm, love to see you struggling to keep up with them, love the way your body arches against theirs, silently pleading for more.

Before I continue, if you feel drawn to Pile 1, that’s because there might be a message for you there.

For some of you, your person is obsessed with your mouth—there’s something unique about it. Could be your lips is pouty, or it’s unusually red, could be it has hyperpigmentation on the outer lips so it looks like you have lip liner on, could be the shape is plump and full, or it’s just that you have a smart mouth. Whatever it is, they just can’t get enough. The way your lips part, the way they run their fingers around it—it’s intoxicating. They’ll kiss you like they’re starved.

They like to see you. Mirror sex might be present. So they can take in every shift of your expression, every little gasp and whimper that escapes your lips. They want you to see exactly what they do to you, want you to watch the way your body moves against theirs, want you to witness the complete mess they turn you into.

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PILE 3

Ah, Pile 3, your person is craving that deep emotional and physical connection—this isn’t just about lust, your person wants to make love to you. This pile got me listening to Make Love to You by Boys II Men and All My Life by Kci and Jojo. Your person is very passionate, loving and tender.

You are the indulgence they can never resist. You feel like a luxury, like a hidden treasure or something rare. They fantasize about giving you everything, pampering you with the finest things, worshipping you with their hands and touches. They want to be the only one who gets to see you like this—laid out for them, body relaxed, eyes hazy with pleasure as they take their time with you. The way you respond to them, the way your body shivers under their touch, the way you take all that they give you—it’s maddening for them.

They also fantasize about being taken care of and indulging in pure sensuality—slow, lingering touches, bodies tangled in sheets. There’s whispered praises, there’s physical craving—running hands over warm skin, feeling soft lips, savoring the connection fully. They also dream of devotion, they want you to crave them, to cherish them, to treat them like something precious and irreplaceable. Your person might have Leo/Aries in their big 3.

They fantasize about being wanted and wanting you so badly that restraint is impossible for both of you. The moment when all that confidence, all that dominance, turns into need. Because as much as they want to own you, as much as they want to be the one in charge, you have a way of turning the tables. They think they’re the one running the show, but then you touch them just right, whisper something sinful in their ear, look at them with those eyes, and suddenly, they’re the one falling apart.

They don’t even realize how much power you have over them until it’s too late. Until they’re groaning your name, gripping you tight like you’re the only thing keeping them grounded. Until they’re letting you do whatever you want to them because, fuck, they need it. They need you. It’s rare for them to lose control like this, but with you? You pull it out of them effortlessly. They fantasize about you taking from them—taking your pleasure, pushing them to the edge over and over until they’re left breathless and completely wrecked.

It’s not just the sex, though. It’s the connection. They want all of you, body and soul. That’s why they never stop at just one round. Even after the fire dies down, they’ll hold you close, fingers trailing lazily over your skin, pressing soft kisses to your temple. Because for them, this isn’t just lust. This is everything. And Pile 3 they’ll never get enough of you.

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PILE 4

Welcome to your reading Pile 4! Your person fantasy carries a heavy emotional undercurrent, it’s not just about physical desire but something deeper, unspoken, and possibly even unresolved. There’s a sense of longing, nostalgia, and emotional intensity, as if their thoughts about you are tangled between wanting, missing, and aching for something far away or unattainable. This is more than just fantasy; there’s something real and deep about the way they think you. For some of you, this person could be an ex.

Your person’s fantasies might be tinged with frustration or a sense of emotional distance. They want you, but something always feels just out of reach. They imagine scenarios where they try to get your attention, but you’re so detached—which only makes them crave you more. There could also be a desire for an unexpected, intense moment that breaks through the emotional barriers.

Now if this is an ex, for them, you’re the one that got away. The one they can’t forget, the one they can’t let go of, no matter how much time passes. Their fantasy isn’t just about having you—it’s about getting you back. About fixing what was broken, about proving to you that no one else will ever know your body the way they do. Because no matter how much they try to move on, no one feels like you. No one haunts them the way you do.

For the action, they fantasized about a night where the past no longer matters, where it’s just you and them, tangled together in sheets that smells like longing. No more distance, no more hesitation. Just raw, unfiltered need. Their feelings go beyond just sex —they want to reclaim you. To remind you, through every slow drag of their fingers, every deep, desperate thrust, exactly who they are to you. They want to see it in your eyes—the way your walls crumble, the way you give in to what’s always been there between you.

You could undo them with just a single touch. And they know it. That’s why, when they have you under them, all soft gasps and breathy moans, they take their time. This isn’t just about pleasure—it’s about proving a point. That no one else will ever make you feel like this. That no one else will ever know you the way they do.

They love how your body trembles when they push—push you to the edge, push you to need them just as much as they need you. You’re so familiar, yet somehow, every touch feels brand new. And it has them consumed, you have them mad.

There’s a strong nostalgic, bittersweet and sentimental quality to their thoughts. They might fantasize about reuniting, rekindling an old spark, or returning to a time when things felt easier. There’s also a sweet yet intense craving for deep emotional intimacy, wanting to feel truly connected, known, and seen by you.

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[planetsstarsandmoons]

Synastry observations (partly) based on personal experience, part 6:

(18+!!)

(Back after a year! Lol🌜🌛)

Moon conjunct mars: can be one sided asfuhck. I’ve seen it play out. Fully accepting that deeply personal intimacy of having someone’s sex aspecting your deepest emotions and/or the other way around is a sort of intimacy that some people just.. don’t…. want with that other person. This comes as a shocker because to most people, having a synastry aspect automatically means you have to like that with the other person, but Some people are just not into the other person like that! Or have trouble with intimacy. And even though the very primal emotional bridge between (possible) intensity of emotions and (possible) intensity of sexuality really ‘clicks’ and hits like no other, it doesn’t mean that the emotions or sexuality of both of the people will be intense within themselves… or that they will be seen in the same way. Many times I’ve seen this aspect play out in two people who worked really well together, were natural kissers and such, had almost iconically amazing fullfilling sex together, but one person wanted to marry and move into the other person and the other person simply did not want that, got the ick maybe, or simply closed themselves off from that meaning to the connection that one party attached to it but they themselves could not get in touch with, and either abused that power dynamic as much as they could or they ran away. Meanwhile thatother person, and I’ve seen both the moon and the mars person in that situation, is left completely addicted and insecure and an unstable mess because of this, because this aspects didn’t cause them so much to be in love, it caused them to have an addiction to this perfectly fullfilling passion and intimacy that they fundamentally lack in their life. They wanted to marry this person because of that. A friend (the mars person) of mine once puked when they saw their recent mars-conjunct-moon-synastey ex (it was a 1,5 month relationship) walk into a room. He later discovered that for some reason, that extremely intense feeling heartbreak didn’t really have anything to do with her, but more about the affection he lacked from an absent parent in his childhood, and the (obvious to everyone else) fact that he was bordering on a complete burn-out. He desperately needed that dopamine and those endorphins. Meanwhile the moon person was nowhere near in the headspace to have that kind of emotional intimacy so fast in her 1st relationship, so she started finding him less and less attractive, and then it was over. I once had an international student (moon) I think fall in love with me (and later stalk me) after 2 dates. He was a lonely international student in this Nordic country and his mother was sick in Egypt. We could not hold an interesting conversation on our own if we tried, but we were -very good kissers-and the almost-sex was extremely good. I didn’t want to cross that line, because for lack of better words I felt like it would go on to mean too much, be too emotional and too intimate and the thought crossing that border with him gave me the ick/ a fight or flight response, like I would just let this man be wayy too intimate with me if it happened, so I cut it off 🤷‍♀️ All the hormones of interpreting yourself to be totally ‘in love’ are there in the synastry, but it’s not *really* that, and most people in the sorry position even secretely know that, even though it’s confusing because they forever remain adamant that there here was something bomb in their connection.. because there was. But imagine: the moon feels emotionally hit in their core by mars’s… sexuality/attractiveness. Mars sees the deepest inner emotions of the moon and feels… turned on. You see where I’m going with this? The intensity and intimacy is great, but for a real love connection you need synastry on things that lead to mental, spiritual and emotional connectivity too. Can you even have a good conversation with this person for longer than 25 minutes? Do you even.. care about them? and vice versa? Would you love them if they were a worm? I have even more stories but they’re for another time 💆‍♀️

Moon trine mars: so. This one is kind of different. What do I mean? Well I believe that in synastry aspects, planetary influence comes to exist in the context of the aspect. Mars conjunct a planet will get all of mars. Mars square a planet will get the worst/most challenging side of mars (brought out by both). Mars opposite will get the antihero kind of mars -the conjunct mars on a possible (and needed) character delevopment journey if you will- and mars trine and sextile will get the harmonious benific, kind of ‘angelic’ sides of mars. He becomes the Aiden from Sex And The City, the soft woodchipper. This mars is in relation to the moon person a 10th house oriented, responsibility taking man who makes you laugh in the form of making you smile. The moon person becomes enamored with the mars person’s standing for something, his way of solving problems, overcoming obstacles, his professionality and his energetic form of taking action. The mars here becomes the kind of mars that is serious about protecting and heartily keeping what he feels is hitting his mars, instead of fighting with it or having sex with it necessarily. The moon’s emotional being becomes like his healthy objective, that he will protect and will fight/work himself up for in a way that he can control. A trine is harmonious which is kind of how you’ll see the mars person get into that civilised and gentlemanly role (to the emotions of the!!👌) moon partner. Where mars squaring the moon is like a mean alcoholic to the moon, the mars trining the moon will be a driven, shaved man in a suit or a spencer, kissing his wife goodbye before going to work. The moon in this aspect is different too: like water, the moons energy decides to flow depending on the factors and tides of the environment: If the moon has no reason to feel stabbed all the time, the moon won’t act overly sensitive or insecure or reactive to every little thing. Being shown the harmonious and safe/secure part of such a powerful planet like mars, the moon person will let their guard down big time. Typically, in this aspect, the moon person opens up, becomes very emotionally comfortable and shows their real and raw private selves to the mars person in a way that even surprises the mars person. There will be lots of oohs and aahs from the mars person who is *absolutely thrilled* to discover that the moon person is actually way softer than they come across in their personality, or more insecure than they wear on their sleeve, or are actually way weirder than anyone would expect. This is like an emotional theme in the relationship for mars. Granted to mars, it actually is a kind of odd way of special, because Real selves are often only shown to others in despair, crisis, moments of survival, very few deep talks, or during sex, but here the moon person is comfortable being their quirky and complete and utter selves with the mars person just during ‘daylight’ so to speak, as if they were alone in their room doing a talk show monologue in the mirror. It’s because mars made themselves this safe haven but is also a good reason to get excited and happy. So this aspect isn’t so much about physical/primary (so sexual attraction) passionate intimacy as you see, it becomes a personality thing of more mental and earthy(?) substance imo. In couples this aspect creates a forever-kind of ‘fondness’ of each other. In this relationship it’s the sex that becomes the highest feat of romantic bonding, not commitment to each other or affirming affection like with the conjunct or the square, which needs those components to make or strengthen the connection as a romantic one.

Mars conjunct mercury: best friends aspect! Being able to talk for hours, do any activity together, spend an entire day doing stuff together or going to a daylong event with just the two of you without it ever being awkward. Being able to do groceries together for a pregame with each other before going to do an activity that you’ll also be doing together. Energy, jokes, and things to talk about never run out. Mars’s energy lets mercury’s thoughts and mind race through multiple subjects and important comments at once, and mercury’s thoughts excite slash fire up mars’s energy. Their response becomes fuel for mercury again and so fort. I know two best friends who have this in double whammy almost exact and they are *always* together. Like in the same day, they would hang out, go to do something else/hang out with someone else, then go hang out with each other again, then in the evening one would visit the other at work. I have this aspect with one good friend that I can talk for hours with. Catching up is never awkward and we constantly learn from each other, plus we’re interested in the same things, because his mind/daily thoughts/the things he pays attention to and tells me (his mercury), fires me up and consistently happens to catch my fixation (mars). And what I *do* in my life, the things that were motivation by nature of taking action, triggers his insight! Isn’t that the perfect combination? This aspect makes you very good and close friends, but this alone doesn’t grant an emotional bond. Those two best friends I talked about lacked in moon connections, so they kept surprisingly much of their feelings and what went on in their life/emotional world private from one another, including crushes they had on mutual friends 💀 like how was that possible?

Moon square moon: a link is a link, an attachment is an attachment, so moon square moon is that too. You will ‘see’ each other for who that person emotionally is from the inside. You will acknowledge it, you can even understand it, but trying to emotionally ‘relate’ or connect to the other’s emotional world causes a short-circuit. This sounds like a finished deal, and marriage it often is. This aspect imo means kind of sacrifing a part of crucial understanding of the other partner. But there is another important part: some people do not have moon to moon aspects in their partnerships. Some people can connect with a moon through their sun mercury venus and mars for example, but not be able to deeply feel the other person next to them with their own moon, like what’s possible in a moon to moon aspect. With moon square moon, the two people deeply *see* each other. It’s hard not to because the friction of the square makes them very neon noticable to each other. One moon person might not be able to touch or soothe the other moon person from and with their own emotional angle, because through the square it will inherently cause a (n immediate often) frictive disconnect, but their presence will be enough. They will learn from each other and with enough respect for the other, (seriously) they will be able to teach themselves how to manually get their moons to relate, by in their empathy intuitively touching and patting to learn what the other person feels, and sleutelingen on their own emotional patterns. With the man I had this with. I completely saw and understood how he was. We, to each other’s emotional automatic ways of thinking, understood each other, but could never relate, so in our most intimate conversations we saw each other raw, but were also like.. damn,, you live like this? you do you! 😂

Male Venus conjunct woman’s moon, but the man has venus square moon natal: so this is really too specific, I know, it’s from my personal life, but the observation is such an almost lawful rule that it needs to be said. So the natal venus square moon man has a problem with women in a romantic or otherwise emotionally intimate sense. He either sees them as charmless but safe, emotional, and boring ‘kin’, who fullfills his emotional needs, clicks with his inner emotional world, but in a way that cannot fullfill his romantic wants because they fundamentally clash, or he sees them as these charming, pretty, sexy sensual creative people or muses that fullfill his wants and desires, but cannot fullfill his emotional needs because they fundamentally do not mesh/are not able to ‘melt’ with each other. So men with this aspect are doomed to have a lonely romantic life where they deeply hurt a lot of women but in the long run also themselves. This is ofc unless the man is capable of self reflection and is willing to do the work and *respect* the challenges that squares require you to work on, but since misogyny is a thing, that challenge and perceived radically different worldview of the woman he meets practically never gets respected, found interesting or compelling enough for the man to study, or get romanticised like the way in which women will handle a natal moon square mars for example. BUT! If a woman’s moon conjuncts that squared venus, they kind of crack the code in a weird sense!? And become sort of “the only woman that can tame this man blabla that he actually respects”. Because the woman becomes like a domineering mother to him. In his moon square/battle/tension her moon, so where his emotional ‘needs’ are challenged by another person’s needs, his moon yields to the woman’s moon because his venus is enamored by the woman’s moon emotional world. You will get two people who are weirdly intimate friends, because both square moons emotionally ‘acknowlegde’ each other’s emotional life and wavelength, in a kind of bizarre to witness way that will have the woman wear the pants and the often so misogynistic and macho guy follow her and her needs around like a (doggo)💀, acting like each other’s bf/gf, but sitting too close to each other?? Kissing? The thought of having s**?? Will make them revolt. From an astrological standpoint, this may be the most significant planetary relationship with a woman that this man will ever have in his life.

A woman’s venus conjunct that sort of man’s moon I have never seen, only conjunct other planets, but I imagine it would be the same but the other way around at the same time. I think she would be only possible romantically intimate partner for the man, the only girlfriend to exist, only girl that he can wholeheartedly register as ‘girlfriend’, who will hold that *romantic* muse place forever, the only one to forever fullfill his emotional needs like a romantic partner does and can, but he doesn’t like her as a person, he couldn’t be friends with her, can’t talk with her, was never even his type, wants to cheat on her, can’t admire her really. This female venus is the sensual and sexual but disrespected girlfriend to the female moon’s sexless but elevated wife. If that man ruled the world and had all the money and the woman who marries him would win the universe, these were both equally bad but extremley solid places you would want to be in, because you’d be one of the only two women that he will ever seriously consider in his life.

Venus square jupiter: I have this with almost every man I get involved with, because their venus is in that way also conjuncting my scorpio sun and mercury. I’ve found with these people that they are confused if they should be charmed by the grand/optimistic/philosophical side of me, or cringe. Either way they are overwhelmed. Venus in crush-mode will be especially interested in jupiters views and opinions and outlook on situations and jupiter is enthusiastic about the romantic muse that they see in venus and become a kind of a philosophical rant-y person near them, in a good way, because they see venus as an equally inspiring and interesting and beautiful (big ideas and emotions) creative peer of their outlook on life. Venus listens and is in awe. Jupiter is like a positive-energy bomber to venus and venus can be confused, overwhelmed, but very butterfly-prone and wants to be swept in. This is an aspect where the other knows or can relate to what the other is feeling the least, because jupiter is making venus live in their own world and venus is only thinking out loud in their own head. Astrologers say this easily dies out because of it, like an inflated balloon, but I don’t agree. Don’t let your relationship completely ride on this aspect alone and you’ll be fine and it won’t end with a big bang, but stay flickering like smoldering fire like any other venus or jupiter aspect.

Saturn conjunct moon: saturn wants to snatch moon off the market and moon is like “yeesssss”

Mars overlaying 8th house: it’s true what they say… i won’t elaborate 😶‍🌫️ just kidding I will of course. Having been the 8th house person, it’s actually very straightforward: whenever we talked about serious matters like trauma, (lost) finances, our heritage, and our secrets, fears, that’s when I became most attracted to his masculine/sexual side. Those were the moments I would find myself like ‘daym’, just like a 7th house having mars overlay there would have that during moments of romance and partnership.

Moon opposite mars: I talk about this aspect a lot because it just fascinates me. Moon opposite mars in the context of all the other mars aspects is almost funny because in the beginning, when the insane kind of unsettling attraction is noticed between two people, mars doesn’t really want to be in this situation and moon doesn’t like the fact that it exists at all. I feel like it’s a karmic aspect for mars and somewhat for the moon. Moon will feel every single jab from this aspect but because that jab fundamentally hits them in their *feelings* they will just think: “what was that, what even is that? Who is this mars person making me feel single intense emotion at once?” Even typing this synastry aspect out is making me laugh. It’s moon doing what? Opposing. Oh god. And the lucky planet it’s being opposed is… mars 😂🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️! Imagine the moon one day going like: “f*ck you! And you, and you, and you,” then pointing to mars “and ESPECIALLY you!” Mars turning around and saying: “what are you saying f*ck me for?” looks at moon, boom, falls in love. Kind of disrespectful, but it isn’t meant that way? Which can in short make the connection even more uncomfortable for the moon, or completely the opposite. The intrigue in this aspect lies in how fundamentally foreign (because they’re opposites!!) these people are to each other. This aspect is an up and down and up and down one, because to have the closeness that they both desire and even need, they have to do the work and understanding to become closer and win each other’s trust and affirmation. Mars is challenged to channel powerful frictive energy from the fixation that the opposition creates into creating an environment that caters to the moon’s emotional needs. It challenges itself to encompass all of mars’s qualities, both the ying (harmonious) and the yang (not necessarily that) in a hyperaware manner, and that’s one of the reasons he comes to have like ‘multiple personalities’ in this aspect. It doesn’t help that mars always manages to come across the wrong way to the moon person, can hurt the moon unintentionally, but can also in a burst of martian energy try to fight with the moon when aggravated (caused by their opposing natures), can come across too sexual and disrespectful by the moon person when they intensely show their attraction and preferred treatment to the moon. When Mars tries to be nice, it doesn’t come natural for them to do that imagining what the completely opposite person would want. When mars succeeds, a very real and mental bond is created that is extremely raw. In the healthy romantic version of this, the moon isn’t really easy sex for mars like I’ve seen male astrologers describe it. I’ve seen men describe it as ‘deer’, which can create reaally different outlooks depending on your respect and goodwill to the more vurnurable person. Goodwill especially can make or break this aspect. I feel like this can either be one of the most pain-in-your-stomach disrespectful cortisol aspects, or the sweetest and most genuine and wholsesome emotionally intimate aspects.

A little story I wanted to share: an astrologer on 27th november 2023 gifted me a moon badge on tumblr and I only opened it on 21th november 2024, because I thought it the little pop-up present on my home page was a tumblr advert 🥲 I almost cried because it was such a lovely present around my birthday and as it goes I didn’t say thank you or acknowledged it for a year even though it was an awfully sweet gesture and I really appreciate her 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[harrysgal]

I DIG YOUR CINEMA (2)

harry styles x yn aspiring filmmaker — social media AU

I know I’m just starting and don’t actually have much experience with this, but I’m actually having a lot of fun doing it and already can’t wait to post more.

About the smau: yn starts posting videos on youtube and is trying to build a career as a filmmaker. Things are going pretty well for her and she starts getting more attention when she creates content about shows she goes to. She’s also a fan of Harry’s music and some of his fans start getting suspicious when his team starts interacting with her.

About yn: although the character does not have a faceclaim, pictures suggest reader is white.

Disclaimer: The story it’s set in 2021 and it will follow their relationship through the LOT leg in the US. Since this is nothing but fiction, I will be following some of the real timeline but also adding my own stuff. On top of that, I won’t be basing myself on Harry’s actual posts.

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PART 1 — MEET YN / MASTERLIST

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I DIG YOUR CINEMA (PART 2) — LAS VEGAS

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yourinstagram HELLOOOOOOO FABULOUS LAS VEGAS NEVADA 

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user1 soooo… a new full time job that took you to las vegas? 👀 yourbrother Please behave  bestfriend don’t get (too) drunk without me pls harryfan STOP FIRST LOT SHOW IT’S IN VEGAS 

↳ harryfan2 She’s going to the show right???? I mean it can’t be just a coincidence anymore IT JUST CAN’T ↳ harryfan NO I KNOW THIS IS IT I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES

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yourinstagram you’d think a lady in vegas would be out there getting wild but this one actually has been locked in her hotel room for the last 27 hours overthinking her ideas and freaking out about this new job lol if any of you could send me a pizza or something id appreciate it. thanks. 

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user1 nooooo you’re so talented whatever it is i know you can do it!! bestfriend yn ✋🏻  cuteguy Should I give you a call? 😊 harryfan17 I would too be freaking out if I had to work for THE harry styles lol

↳ harryfan16 we still don’t know if she is tho  ↳ harryfan17 C’mon she’s in vegas and molly and jeff are following her ↳ harryfan16 still 🤷🏻‍♀️ tour doesn’t start for another few days so this could be just about something else  ↳ harryfan16 also maybe she’s there because she wants to be and not bc she’s “working” for him. she’s done videos about several artists and she isn’t working for any of them is she?  ↳ harryfan17 Well yes but she literally just said she was starting a new job so 🤷‍♀️ ↳ harryfan16 so everyone just assumed HARRY, out of all people, hired her? c’mon guys lol she could be working for just anyone and STILL go to a show. one doesn’t have to be related to the other.

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yourinstagram fun fact: if you post something on the internet people around you might see it 🫠

guess im lucky this lovely group who still don’t know me at all cared enough to drag me out of my room and show me around the city. sometimes i get so caught up inside my mind that i forget how important human connection is — which is funny if you think most of my videos are exactly about that lol. so plssssss make sure to surround yourself with (nice) people. also get some sleep, drink water and feed yourself. it’ll do wonderful things for you!!!

anyway my mom was worried about my “not leaving the room post” so this is just me saying everythings good!! (i also already called her of course <3)

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bestfriend LOVE YOU harryfan the new followers the new likes 😭 it’s happening i knew it  user1 so true bestie!! this reminded me of your 2nd video i think

↳ yourinstagram omg yesssss!!  ↳ user1 ahh i missed your interactions <3  ↳ yourinstagram i knowww! promise i’ll try my best to keep interacting even if it’s not as much as before 💗

lookitsnyoh my belly still hurts from all the laughing 

↳ yourinstagram and my mind is still rushing from all the talking ↳ anthonypham go to sleep you two 

harryfan9 I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S HAPPENING BUT OMFG I’M SO HERE FOR IT

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yourinstagram sightseeing left me speechless. but here’s a picture from tonight. 

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user1 omg you’re feeding us this week! i’m so happy you’re being active again <3 harryfan78 POST A PICTURE OF YOURSELF I WANT TO MEET YOU AT THE SHOW BUT I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE 

↳ user4 calm down pls? we like to behave as respectful human beings on this profile

bestfriend ❤️❤️❤️ bestfriend i’m losing my mind but i’m also so excited and proud! user7 I miss your videos :( lookitsnyoh when was this? where was I? bummed that I missed it!

↳ yourinstagram sorryyy just a last minute decision after dinner :( ↳ lookitsnyoh ohhhh makes sense now! Glad it left you speechless ↳ yourinstagram i mean the city is beautiful  ↳ lookitsnyoh sure thing it is 👽

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fanwhometharry GUYS I JUST MET HARRY I’M SHAKKNG I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE NOW 

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harryfan64 omg where did you meet him??

↳ fanwhometharry AT THE BELLAGIO  ↳ harryfan64 is he staying there???  ↳ fanwhometharry NO!! I MEAN IDK?? I DONT RHINK SO I JUST MET HIM OUTSIDE AT THE FOUNTAINS  ↳ harryfan74 hmm not tryin to be rude or something but that sounds like a weird place for him to be tbh ↳ fanwhometharry I FUCKKNG KNOW THAT?? I MEAN MY PARENTS WANTED TO SEE THE WATER SHOW SO I TAGGED ALONG BUT NEVER EVER THOUGHT ID BUMP INTO HIM THERE

harryfan62 you’re so lucky!! was he alone???

↳ imetharry I DONT KNOW?? I DONT REMEMBER I WAS SO NERVOUS  ↳ imetharry I KNOW THERE WAS A GIRL NEARBY BC SHE HANDED HIM A PEN WHEN I COULDNT FIND MINE BUT I DONT KNOW IF SHE WAS WITH HJIM OR NOT ↳ harryfan62 who was this girl? Anyone from the LOT crew? ↳ imetharry IDK I JUST SAID I DONT EVEN KNOW IF SHE WAS WITH HIM OR NOT 😭

harryfan15 Hi hun! Don’t listen to people, they're just jealous. It was really sweet of him to sign that for you! Hope you have a great time at the show 💕

↳ imetharry THANK YOU 😭😭 HE WAS THERE JUST WATCHING LIKE A NORMAL PERSON SO I DIDN’T WANT TO TAKE A PIC IF PEOPLE DON’T BELIEVE ME THEN I DON’T CARE I KNOW IT’S REAL 😭😭

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yourinstagram having to keep this secret from the world was the most cruelest thing that anyone has ever done to me. but whatever… it’s fine… i’m okay… i’m just gonna pretend this wasn’t a big deal and i didn’t just watch one of my favorite artists perform my favorite songs… and then i’ll just casually say: pls stay tuned for next wednesday when my new video will be up 😇

(i’ll be back and share more details once my serotonin levels have normalized again)

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bestfriend i love you so much thank you for representing us so well  harryfan I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT OMFG I CANT WAIT I KNEW IT harryfan2 YN KASDHUHHD PLS OMFG YOU CAN’T JUST SAY THIS AND LEAVE user1 😲 i can’t wait for this one! harrystyles soz 

↳ harryfan OMFG HARRY ↳ harryfan5 ?????????????????????????? ↳ harryfan3 AUIDHIAUSHDBAJH WTF ↳ harryfan9 ARE YOU F KIDDING ME WHATS HE DOING HERE

cuteguy Nice! Glad you’re having a good time darling. 

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PART 3: DENVER

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If you happen to read and enjoy this, pls let me know? 🙏 thanks!! it would be nice to know if this is working, or what else would people would like to see.

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Does it somewhat annoy you that Silver’s biological father is literally just a recolor of him? Honestly with Leah’s appearance reveal in Chapter 7’s finale, I would’ve liked if Silver inherited his physical traits from both of his parents (Example: Dawn Knight’s hair and Leah’s sapphire blue eyes)

I did sort of touch on this topic in another post!

The Dawn Knight’s design literally being just a recolor of Silver is really unfortunate and disappointing 💦 It doesn’t help him (or Leah) stand out in such an extensive cast, especially when both of them are already characterized as blandly nice. Like, there’s a way to make a child or siblings resemble their parent(s) while still also being their own characters and not exact clones/copies, as we see this with the other family members.

I’m not sure why it was the Dawn Knight specifically that the devs decided should be Silver but with long blonde hair?? Maybe they wanted to be funny or to be very in-your-face with Silver and the Dawn Knight’s connection 🤷‍♀️ Or maybe (conspiracy theory time) the devs were really pressed on time and decided to go with this as a shortcut??

I actually don’t take issue with Silver looking so much like one parent over another; there are definitely cases irl where one kid ends up inheriting all of the same physical traits from one biological parent over the other. This sort of feels like that? And honestly, Leah doesn’t feel like prominent enough of a character to be worth reminding us about via Silver’s face every time we look at him. I still think the Dawn Knight should have gotten his own unique design though, it feels like such a cop-out to fall back on a Silver recolor.

[kathlare]

short n' sweet

Lando Norris x Amelie Dayman

Summary: Amelie’s new album Short n’ Sweet drops, and the buzz around it is palpable, from a lively listening party in New York to the playful teasing of Lando and his F1 teammates.

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Warnings: fluff, smau

full masterlist // request over here!

August 23rd - Manhattan, NY

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ameliedayman: Short n' Sweet is officially yours now!!! i feel extremely lucky that each time i write a new record i learn a little bit more about myself, and can create from that place. the making of short n' sweet was one of the most special, honest, up and down, stupid and fun experiences of my life. I thought if something was funny enough to make me laugh then maybe it belonged in a song. happy or sad!

thank you to my brilliant talented friends, writers, producers, mixers, engineers, and creative minds that helped me bring this world and these songs to life. not a serious thought was thunk yet somehow they were.. lol i love you all and am so grateful.

I will keep this short n sweet buuuut more soon. go listen now and i hope you love it

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landonorris: FIRST

landonorris: you absolutely killed it, babe. this album is EVERYTHING. 🔥💯🔥 → ameliedayman: @landonorris You better be ready to hear these songs 24/7 now 😉😏

landonorris: BED CHEM my fave, just sayin m'darlin.

tatemcrae: Okay, but HOW do you make “funny and sad” sound THIS good?! I’m obsessed. 😩✨ → ameliedayman: @tatemcrae It’s just a gift, babe. I do it for the fun and feels 🖤

f1gossiper69: Is this album supposed to be a “mood,” or is she just THAT talented? 😵💀 → f1fanatic25: @f1gossiper69 It’s a vibe AND a masterpiece. Don’t even try to hate. 🤷‍♀️

mclarenfan_88: Short n' Sweet? More like tune of the year. You’re really THAT girl. 💅🔥

landosgirl_69: Lando better be streaming this on repeat, it’s a whole vibe. 🥵🔥

pietrapilao: You really did THAT. Every song’s a whole vibe. 🔥💃🏽 → ameliedayman: @pietrapilao Haha, glad you’re vibing queen!

jennaortega: YOU DID IT!!! This album is insane. You’re next level, queen. 👑🔥 → ameliedayman: @jennaortega Omg, thank you so much!!

gracieabrams: You seriously killed it with this. It’s giving everything 🤩🔥 → ameliedayman: @gracieabrams Love you, girl!!

taylorswift: Love the rawness in this album. So proud of you! 💖 → ameliedayman: @taylorswift You’re the blueprint, always. Can’t wait to tell you all about it when I see you! 💫

f1fanatic55: Not gonna lie, "Taste" made me wanna punch Shawn. What a clown 😒

f1fanatic77: Bro, Lando’s gotta be blushing reading those lyrics...

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The energy in the small New York studio was electric. Amelie’s Short n Sweet album had officially dropped at midnight, and the buzz was palpable. A select group of fans had gathered for an intimate listening party, the kind of event where her connection with them felt unfiltered and raw. Amelie sat on a sofa, dressed in a chic black jumpsuit, her curls cascading over her shoulders. Her smile was bright but tinged with nerves as her fans hung on every word, every beat of her new songs.

—Alright, so, this next one’s Bed Chem,— she said with a sly grin, her cheeks flushing slightly. The crowd giggled knowingly. —Let’s just say... it’s about someone who knows how to keep things exciting.

The studio filled with laughter and excited whispers. Fans already knew she was talking about Lando; it wasn’t exactly a secret anymore. As the sultry beat of the song played, Amelie tapped her foot, watching her fans’ reactions. The cheeky lyrics and playful tone had them swaying and smiling, and she felt a wave of relief wash over her. They got it—they got her.

When the track ended, one fan raised their hand.

—Amelie, how did Lando react when he heard this song?

She laughed, tucking a curl behind her ear.

—Oh, he was so cocky about it. He texted me, like, “See? I knew I was your muse.” But... well, you’ve heard the song. It’s all true.

The room erupted in laughter and applause, and Amelie felt a swell of gratitude for the love and support in the room. These fans had been with her through every heartbreak, every triumph, and now, through this wild and unexpected love story.

Meanwhile, in Zandvoort, the paddock was abuzz with talk of Amelie’s new album. Lando sat in the McLaren hospitality area with a pair of headphones, scrolling through social media as clips from Short n Sweet flooded his feed. He couldn’t wipe the grin off his face, especially when he saw a video of Amelie talking about Bed Chem.

Max Verstappen strolled by and plopped down across from him, a sly smirk already forming.

—So, I hear you’ve got some songs written about you, lover boy,— Max teased, leaning back in his chair.

Lando rolled his eyes but couldn’t hide his grin.

—Yeah, yeah. It’s not like I begged her to write them or anything. She just couldn’t resist, obviously.

Charles Leclerc walked in next, holding his phone with Espresso blasting through the speakers.

—Mate, you’re so screwed,— Charles said, laughing. —I mean, Bed Chem? Juno? She’s practically exposing you to the world.

—Hey!— Lando shot back, cheeks burning. —It’s art, alright? Not my fault I’m inspiring.

The teasing didn’t let up, but amidst the jokes, there was genuine admiration in the drivers’ voices. George Russell chimed in as he passed by, clapping Lando on the shoulder.

—You’ve got yourself a talented one there. Better send her a congratulations text before she thinks you don’t care.

Lando smirked, pulling out his phone.

Lan🧡: Album’s fire, love. You really had to put Juno out there, huh? My mum’s gonna hear that!Ames💛: She’ll love it, trust me. It’s a compliment. 😉Lan🧡: Congrats, babe. Proud of you. Let’s celebrate properly after the race.Ames💛: Deal. Go win, Norris. 😘

As he hit send, Lando looked up to see his teammates giving him knowing smirks.

—What?— he asked, feigning innocence.

—Nothing,— Max said with a shrug. —Just... make sure you don’t mess this one up. She’s a keeper.

Lando smiled, the teasing sliding off him like water. Because deep down, he knew Max was right.

The rest of the day in Zandvoort felt lighter for Lando, even with the usual pre-race pressures. The other drivers’ teasing about Short n Sweet didn’t faze him anymore; if anything, it added to his pride. Amelie’s songs weren’t just about him—they were a reflection of her artistry, her wit, and the depth of their connection.

By the time the afternoon rolled around, the paddock buzz had settled. Lando took a break in the motorhome, scrolling through clips from Amelie’s listening party. The grin on her face as she interacted with her fans made his chest tighten with affection. Then, a video popped up of her introducing Juno.

The clip began with Amelie holding a mic, her signature mischievous smile lighting up the room.

—Okay, so, this one’s Juno. It’s... well, let’s just say it’s a little more personal. Very direct. If you’re squeamish about hearing me talk about... wanting babies, maybe skip this one,— she laughed, her cheeks going pink. —But, uh, yeah. It’s about Lando. Obviously.

The fans erupted in laughter and cheers, and Amelie covered her face briefly before saying, —Look, I’m just being honest. The man’s got... attributes. And, uh, baby fever is real, okay?

Lando groaned but couldn’t stop laughing, running a hand down his face. His phone buzzed with a new message.

Max Fewtrell: Mate, just heard Juno. She’s calling you daddy material. Good luck with that one. 😂 Lando Norris: Shut up. You’re just jealous you don’t have an album. 😏

Lando leaned back in his seat, trying to suppress the chuckle bubbling up as he reread Max’s message. He tapped out a quick response before tossing his phone aside.

—Okay, but seriously,— he muttered to himself, rubbing his face. —She’s so bloody direct. And so... damn hot.

The playful teasing from his fellow drivers continued to roll in. He had barely managed to get through the day without being hit with another jab about his girlfriend’s "talent" for turning their private moments into music. But, deep down, he didn’t mind. He wasn’t just proud of her because she was talented—though, God, she was—he was proud of her because she was unapologetically herself. And, despite all the playful teasing, he knew her music was a reflection of that confidence.

Later that night, after the long day of practice, Lando laid in his hotel bed, scrolling through more clips of Amelie’s album launch. As he listened to Espresso for the third time today, he smiled to himself. Amelie had always been full of surprises, but this album? This album was something else. The love, the passion, the raw honesty—it was all there, and it was all for him.

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[twobluejeans]

HEARTBREAK ON TOUR!

charles leclerc x famous!reader

summary: in which the lavender haze has been lifted. or in which america’s it couple splits.

part 4: emo ponytail girl part 3: DUPEE, part 2: wtf does ET know?, part 1: don’t start

faceclaim: madison beer

ally’s radio 📻: PART 3! thank u guys so much for the love on part 1 & 2. IM SORRY FOR LEAVING YOU ALL IN SUSPENSE BUT IM BACK AND buckle up for some more drama (YASS) and a lot of tswift references 🫶

INSTAGRAM, (july 3)

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c16daily Charles seen entering and leaving a restaurant with mysterious girl last night in monaco via @legrandprixclub

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gaslyleclerc WHO THE FUCK

judeslvr i’m so confused it hasn’t even been a full week??

sharlleclerc i can’t keep defending u man if you keep doing bs like this😭😭

ctrly/n oh wow

s1ut4formula1 copy of y/n

bejeweled.y/n @s1ut4formula1 don’t do y/n like that.

veerstappenmaxemilian someone give me her @ right NEOWW

bbynoriss @veerstappenmaxemilian ON IT

TWITTER,

INSTAGRAM, (stories)

yourinstagram 37m

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yourinstagram (story) 25m

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INSTAGRAM,

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y/nflorals MORE OF Y/N AND FATHER NANDO EATING DINNER AT A RESTAURANT LAST NIGHT IN LONDON.

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444mercedes Y/N’S FERNANDO ALONSO’S DAUGHTER???? WHAT SINCE WHEN??

jpgmacvesstap @444mercedes babe ur so late 😭

lance.strollll no wonder why y/n is so pretty 💀

eversincey/n @444mercedes their relationship is v private. y/n took in her mothers maiden name so that the media wouldn’t connect the two. it’s rare when we see them together bc of their busy lives but yeah i was shocked when i found out too

voguey/n IN FATHER NANDO WE TRUST 🛐

alonsof1 judging by his face ik she dropped some really good tea

missamericanay/n id honestly be shitting my pants if i was charles knowing my ex’s father is essentially my coworker 😭

INSTAGRAM, (stories)

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INSTAGRAM,

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f1paddlockupdates carlos, lando, and daniel have unfollowed charles on instagram.

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ferraribabe i just checked and lance stroll, george russell, and fernando unfollowed him as well 🧍🏽‍♀️

suffering_ferrarifan damn what did homeboy do 😭😭

y/nsredscarf @suffering_ferrarifan cheat obviously

suffering_ferrarifan @y/nsredscarf we literally don’t know that. not believing anything until it comes from y/n or charles themselves 🤷‍♀️

INSTAGRAM,

ally’s radio 📻: SO YEAH. this was a little filler but might be dropping part 4 later on today to make up for the time i’ve been gone! thanks so much for the love! so fascinating n cool to hear ur ideas and feedback, v much appreciated. what r our thoughts??

taglist🦢🪩: @incoherenciass @dakotali @405rry @topaz125 @sassyheroneckgiant @hevburn @itsmytimetoodream @ivegotparticulartaste @crowdedimagines @asterianax @haydee5010 @scenesofobx @christinabae @magical-spit @dessxoxsworld @myareadsbooks @honethatty12 @hopefulinlove @diasnohibng @gentlemonsterjennie1 @hummusxx @eugene-emt-roe @taestrwbrry @pejarma @cxcewg @chimchimjiminie16 @glow-ish

[lovesodakid]

shut up and listen

matt x fem!reader

summary: matt and y/n have had a certain rivalry for years. all the pent up sex frustration finally comes out one night at a party the triplets hosted.

warnings: smuttt…., drinking?, dom!matt (ish). don’t like, don’t read🤷‍♀️.

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influencers and random strangers fill the room as the sound of different songs thump and bounce off of the walls.

the triplets hit 6 million on youtube a couple of weeks ago, so naturally, they threw a party to celebrate. since they were in boston when they hit it, they waited until they returned to los angeles to throw it.

i’ve known the triplets since i moved to california around a year and a half ago. nick was the first one to notice me, he replied to one of my instagram stories one sunny friday afternoon, we immediately hit it off. once he heard i was moving to la, he practically begged me to come over sometime to meet his brothers, so after finally getting comfortable in my new apartment in the hectic city, i met them for brunch.

just as expected, nick and i instantly connected. we took up most of the conversations that happened that day. i hit it off pretty well with chris. we have a few of the same interests which allowed us to get along extremely well. matt on the other hand, didn’t speak to me at all. instead, he just glared at me the whole time. if looks could kill, you might as well have buried me feet under right then and there.

after that, the more i got comfortable enough with nick and chris the triplets, the more i began to hang out with them. in the beginning, matt would just vocalize how much he hated my outfit, my shoes, or how my hair was done that day. i wouldn’t give him the time of day, as i’d usually just ignore him.

over time, it became irritating how much he’d talk down on me, so needless to say, i began fighting back. which quickly led to us bickering back and forth all the time as we’d throw rude words and comebacks to each other, in hopes of hurting the other one enough to get them to leave the other alone.

which is what’s happening at this very moment.

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“god you are so annoying!” i yell as i push him away from me, making my way to the kitchen. i need a drink if im going to be dealing with mr. ‘negative all the time’.

“it’s not my fault you decided to show up in a small ass dress.” matt shouts back over the music, seemingly following closely behind me.

“why does it matter what i show up in? it’s my body. so im pretty sure i have a say-so in what i choose to wear.” i shoot back as i grab a bottle of cheap vodka, pouring it into a plastic throwaway cup.

matt’s face scrunches up in disgust.

“you aren’t getting wasted at my party.”

“no, im getting wasted at your brothers party.” i correct him before patting his shoulder, making my way into the living room.

as i walk further into the living room, i notice nick and a couple of other influencers standing in a hurdle talking to one another. i cautiously make my way towards them in hopes i don’t interrupt on any conversations that may be going on.

“y/n! hey!” nick exclaims excitedly, ushering me over.

“hey!” i gleam back as i stand right beside him.

“are you having fun?” he asks, looking down at me.

“as much fun as i can with mr. ‘big mouth’ always having something to say.” i roll my eyes, obviously talking about matt. who else?

“yeah im sorry about him.” nick says as he gives me an apologetic smile.

i just shrug my shoulders in response as i take a sip of the alcoholic beverage in my cup.

i never really understood why matt didn’t like me. im convinced he’s hated me the second he laid his eyes on me. for what reason? i have no clue. i think he finds happiness in life from making my life miserable every second im around him.

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as im freely dancing, enjoying the effects of the alcohol. i feel someone come up behind me.

“hey.”

i turn around to meet a cute guy, who looks kind of familiar, but i can’t really place it.

“hi.” i say back, giving him a soft, half lidded smile.

“i don’t think i’ve seen you before, what’s your name?” the blonde haired stranger asks.

“oh-im y/n,” i slur my words. “im friends with the triplets.”

“oh okay.” he nods, eyes scanning up and down my body. which almost immediately makes me regret wearing a dress that my ass hangs out of.

i push my lips into a thin line as i nod back, looking down at my hands as i fiddle with them.

“you wanna go somewhere more quiet? y’know to talk. i can barley hear anything in here.” he suggests, leaning down to hear my response.

it’s as if my body reacts before my brain can even process what the dude is saying before im already nodding and taking his hand for him to lead me to a “quieter place”.

he leads me towards the hallway. the hallway where matt’s bedroom, bathroom, and the laundry room is.

we stand outside the bathroom, my back pressed against the door as he stands in front of me.

“so where are you from?” he asks, putting one of his hands beside my head, leaning on it as he lowers his head.

“um…florida..” i answer, hesitantly.

“mhm..” he hums, moving his head closer to mine until his lips barely ghost over mine.

i clear my throat in hopes of sending him a message that im clearly not interested in making out in front of the bedroom of the person i despise the most. or just the fact im not interested in making out at all.

when i feel him backing up, i let out a sigh of relief until i notice he didn’t back up on his own, except with a little bit of help.

“hey there.” matt happily says. clear sarcasm coming from his mouth, as well as written all over the fake smile on his face.

“what’s up!” the blonde dude chirps back, clearly not noticing matt’s fake ass nice tone.

“not much man..you know,” matt glances at me before leaning over to whisper something in the dudes ear.

whatever matt told him, must’ve changed his mind about what he planned on doing for the rest of his life or some shit because the dude just mutters a quick “okay yeah” before practically sprinting back into the living room.

i furrow my eyebrows as i look at matt, who now stands directly in front of me.

“what the hell was that?” he shouts at me, pure anger written all over his face.

“what?” i ask in disbelief as i cross my arms.

“you were just going to fuck some dude while you’re drunk? at my house?” he spits, leaning down to my level. “not to mention right in front of my bedroom?”

needless to say, im shocked. completely and utterly shocked. because, why would mr. ‘i can’t stand you’ now suddenly care what i do?

“what the fuck do you mean?” i voice back. “i wasn’t going to fuck him! let alone fuck him here, and i’m not even that drunk matt.”

i notice a small wave of relief flashing across his face before it turns right back to anger.

“you’re drunk enough,” he begins. “who knows what would’ve happened if i wouldn’t have stepped in. oh wait, i do. you would’ve fucked him! then i would have to listen to you crying in the morning about how you screwed some dude you don’t even know.” he states in a matter-of-factly voice.

once again, i stare at him in disbelief.

“matt-no the fuck i wouldn’t-“ i try to say, before im completely cut off.

“oh my god y/n,” he starts. “won’t you just fucking shut up and listen (lol) for once!” he shouts angrily, his hand coming up to wrap around my throat.

if i wasn’t already fully pressed against the bathroom door, i am now.

“matt?” i squeak out, trying to ignore the pooling in my underwear.

“what?” he breathlessly chuckles, leaning closer to my face.

i don’t say anything, not that i even can. i just stare at him, complete confusion written on my face.

“got nothing to say now huh?” he speaks condescendingly, leaning his head down dangerously close to my throat.

for some reason, i don’t make any efforts to get him away from me. i don’t want to push him away for once in my life.

“hm?” he hums, his lips slightly grazing over the sweet spot right under my ear.

i clear my throat, in hopes of mustering up some way to speak before i feel his mouth harshly biting down on the spot.

“oh-fuck!” i slightly yell, more in surprise than anything as he continues sucking on my neck that’s going to more than likely leave a spot in the morning.

“mhmm.” he hums once again, sending vibrations through my throat.

he removes the hand around my neck to place it on my hip as he puts his other hand on the side of my face, moving his mouth to the base of my throat, planting kisses along the path.

“matt..” i whine breathlessly as he moves his kisses upwards.

they move up my throat. then up to my chin, then once they reach my mouth he stops. just hovering over them before he speaks.

“give me permission y/n.” he whispers.

i nod, almost to quick for my liking.

“words, i need words.” he whispers again, this time sounding a little more desperate as he stares into my eyes, moving his hand from the side of my face to under my chin, lifting it up.

those damn eyes.

“y-yes matt.” i barely get out before his lips are already on mine.

his lips are soft. insanely soft. his pace? not as much.

i can barley keep up with him as his lips move against mine in a rapid movement. both of his hands slide down my sides, wrapping around my back before moving down to gently to grab my ass, causing me to let out a quick gasp, in which he takes advantage of to quickly slip his tongue into my mouth.

he pulls me away from the bathroom door, walking me backwards towards his room. he opens the door and walks me in, kicking the door behind him, our lips not breaking contact once.

he continues backing me up until i feel the back of my legs hit his bed, in which he puts a hand on my chest, slightly pushing me back which causes me to collapse onto his bed. him wasting no time in crawling right on top of me.

“matt..” i whine, grabbing the back of his neck to pull him closer to me.

“what baby?” he coos. rubbing his hand on my face, pushing my hair off my forehead.

“i need you.” i speak softly, unable to ignore the continuous pulsing between my thighs.

which causes him to let a cocky grin spread across his face.

“i know.” he says, reconnecting our lips.

his hands run down my sides, before going lower, reaching the hem of my dress.

“god this dress..”, he huffs, looking down at it. “you look gorgeous baby, but i need it off.”

i quickly nod before he begins pushing it up further. once it’s scrunched up on my waist, my black laced thongs are on complete display for him.

he grins, running his hand down my lower abdomen, stopping right above panty line. which subconsciously makes me buck my hips upwards.

“hey hey..patient baby, okay?” he softly says, pushing me back down.

he continues pushing up my dress as i raise up slightly so he can push it over my head completely.

once its discarded somewhere on the floor of his bedroom, he leans up as he looks down at me. taking notice of my now matching black lace bra and thong.

“matt..” i whimper, needing something. anything.

“shh, let me look at you.” he runs his hands all over my body as he stares at me. like an animal does at its prey before completely demolishing it, eating it alive.

and with that he leans back down, placing his lips on my neck. he moves his lips down my throat, onto my collarbone. making a few pit stops to suck here and there, before moving down to one of my breasts, kissing the top of the exposed skin as the rest is covered by my bra. causing me to let out a breathless moan, arching my back into him.

it’s not covered for long though as he’s reaching behind me to unclasp my bra. once it’s off, he throws it somewhere behind him. focusing his attention back onto my breasts, admiring them.

“you’re perfect.” he whispers before leaning back down, taking my right nipple into his mouth.

“oh my- god matt!” i loudly moan at the sudden motion, reaching my hand up to entangle it into his hair.

he groans as he swirls his tongue around the bud. once he’s decided that’s enough for one side, he quickly moves to my left breast, showing it the same amount of affection.

he stays there for a second before lifting his mouth away from me to hover over me. locking eyes with me, he lowers back down, peppering kisses down the valley of my breast.

he makes his way down my stomach, painfully slowly. leaving soft kisses in his path. the further he gets down, he places his knees on the floor. as he reaches the top of my panties. he keeps his eyes on mine as he sticks his tongue out, licking across the top of my panty line, causing me to shudder and slightly buck my hips up once again. before he pushes them back down again.

“what’d i say about being patient baby?” he tuts before he leans back, getting a full view of my clothed pussy. he grins noticing a darker spot right in the middle of them. “so wet for me hm?”

he drags one finger over my covered folds. which causes me to let out small line of cuss words. he lets the most shit eating grin spread across his face before he’s hooking his fingers around the waistband of my panties. he slowly pulls them down my legs. once they’re fully off, he takes them in his fist throwing them, this time forward so they land on his nightstand.

“such a pretty pussy.” he muttered before swiftly putting his face in between my thighs.

he left a quick, sweet kiss on my clit, causing my body jump and a soft moan roll off my tongue. before his is swiping through my soaking folds.

he skillfully flicks his tongue against my clit in an up and down motion as his eyes are piercing into mine the whole time. in response, i throw my head back onto his comforter, allowing my back to arch as his name comes out of my mouth plenty enough times to make him groan into my pussy. sending vibrations, enhancing the pleasurable feelings.

i feel my climax building, fast, as my thighs squeeze around his head. my grip tightening on his hair.

“matt…im gonna-“ i try to warn him, before i feel him come completely off of me, backing away.

“not yet you’re not.” he says demandingly as he stands up.

i whimper from the loss of him. before he quickly begins to undress. taking off his shirt, then his pants, then finally, his boxers. his dick happily springs out. the tip completely reddened as it throbs impatiently. pre-cum slightly leaking from the hole.

i almost drool at the sight.

he climbs up me again, spreading my legs with his knee. i guess i had pushed them back together while he was getting himself undressed.

he leans back down, connecting his lips with mine.

our lips dance across one another’s before he slowly begins grinding down on me. his bare dick rubbing between my folds to collect my slick to use as lube.

“matt!” i moan again. his cock rubbing against my clit perfectly.

before he stops again, making me whine once again from the loss.

he reaches his arm out towards his nightstand, opening his drawer as he begins rummaging around for something.

both his hand and head drops in annoyance as he groans into the crook of my neck.

“i don’t have a condom.”

“it’s okay,” i smile. “im on the pill.” i inform him.

he springs up, the widest grin i’ve ever seen taking over his features.

“you have no clue how long ive wanted to do this baby.” he sweetly kisses my cheek.

he leans back, sitting straight up as he looks down at me.

“you ready baby?” he asks, rubbing my stomach in reassurance.

“yes matt.” i let him know.

he looks at me, analyzing my face for any signs that scream ‘i don’t want this’. once he doesn’t find any, he begins pushing his tip inside of me.

his jaw slacks, low moans falling out as he makes his way into me. my jaw mirroring his as my back lifts off the brown bedding.

once he bottoms out, he waits for my sign that he can begin moving. once i nod my head a few times, he’s pulling out, not fully as his tip stays in. he snaps his hips back into mine at a slow pace.

“mm-fuck! matt!” i moan loudly.

“fuck baby-so tight.” he grunts, his head falling back.

he keeps the slow steadily pace for a while. slick sounds and moans filling up the room. thank god there’s a party going on outside, or we’d definitely be caught.

“matt..go faster.” i whine, needing more.

almost in a second, his hips are snapping into mine at a harsh pace. his tip kissing that soft spongey spot causing my walls to pulse around him as lewd moans escape my mouth.

“you sound so fucking good baby.” he lets out in small breathes as he puts all of his weight on top of me, his mouth ghosting my ear.

“all for me, huh?” he asks, condescendingly as he manages to pick up his pace.

which only cause me to let out a loud shriek. he takes that as my response as he leans back up, eyes focused on watching himself slip in and out of me.

“matt! im gonna cum!” i squeal, warning him.

“come on, cum for me.” he groans, picking up his already rapid pace. lowering his hand between our bodies to rub circles on my clit.

almost on command, my walls begin contracting as i let go around his dick. pure euphoria coating my body as i hit my high.

he rides me through my orgasm as he inches towards his own.

“fuck-y/n-“ he begins as his hips sputter before he reaches his high, painting my insides white as i feel his warm liquid shoot inside me.

he collapses onto my chest. we lay there for a few seconds as we catch our breath, until he pulls out. both of us wince from the slight overstimulation.

“let’s get you cleaned up, yeah?” he whispers, leaving a sweet peck on my cheek.

as he gets up, he picks my hand up, leaving a small kiss on the back of it.

i just slept with the person i despise most.

or do i?

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a/n: first time writing smut so i apologize if it sucks ass 😃. this took way longer than i’d like to admit but i hope u like it. i heavily advise you to listen to the song ‘shut up and listen’ with this. it’s so fucking good.

for the ones that wanted to be tagged: @imwetforyourmom @tillies33ssss

[missarchive]

Hi fellow Virgo!! I saw your post about wanting asks on my feed and icl I didn’t check when it was from so I could be old but 🤷‍♀️

This is my first Spencer request ever- I was wondering if you could do a Spencer Reid x bau!reader who is working on a case at the police station but she’s all emotional and soft because she’s tired? Established relationships if possible?

Thank you!!! - 💋

i wrote this one last night but passed out before i could upload it 😭

cw; hurt/comfort, reader has a breakdown, spencer is the sweetest, most perfect boy ever (what's new?)

The police station teemed with activity, phones ringing, voices echoing across the bullpen, and the faint click of keyboards creating an unrelenting rhythm. You sat at your desk, hunched over a case file, your mind fraying at the edges. Every line you read seemed to slip through your grasp, blending into a tangled mess of details that refused to make sense.

It had been a long week—a gruelling mix of late nights and early mornings. The current case was particularly brutal: a string of disappearances with few solid leads and rising pressure from the local authorities to produce results. But what truly gnawed at you was the witness interview earlier that day, a young woman barely out of her teens who’d been found, scared and shaken, after narrowly escaping the unsub.

You’d tried to get her to talk, sitting with her in the interrogation room for hours, coaxing her gently. But the girl had clammed up, her hands trembling as tears streamed down her face.

“You should’ve let Hotch or JJ handle that,” you muttered to yourself now, guilt twisting your stomach. The thought of having failed her, of maybe missing something crucial, weighed heavily on your mind.

"Y/N?"

Spencer’s voice cut through the noise, soft and steady. You blinked, lifting your head to see him standing by your desk, his eyes scanning your face with concern.

“Hey,” you said weakly, trying to muster a smile.

He didn’t return it, his brow furrowing instead. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing. I’m fine,” you replied quickly, turning back to the file.

“Y/N,” Spencer said again, his voice a gentle but insistent nudge. He crouched down beside you, bringing himself into your line of sight. “Talk to me. Please.”

Your chest tightened. The last thing you wanted was to break down in the middle of the station, but his gaze was so kind, so full of understanding, that you felt the dam begin to crack. “I’m just… tired,” you whispered, but the quiver in your voice gave you away.

Spencer’s hand rested lightly on your knee, grounding you. “It’s more than that. What happened?”

You took a shaky breath, staring at the file in front of you. “I blew it earlier. That girl, the one we found… she wouldn’t talk to me. I tried everything, Spence. I thought I could connect with her, but all I did was make it worse.”

His expression softened, and he gave your knee a gentle squeeze. “You didn’t blow it,” he said firmly. “Sometimes people shut down no matter what we do. It’s not your fault.”

Tears welled up in your eyes, and you quickly looked away, swiping at them with the back of your hand. “It feels like my fault. She was so scared, and I couldn’t…”

Your voice broke, and Spencer didn’t hesitate. He stood and gently tugged you up from your chair, pulling you into his arms. The moment you felt his warmth, the tears came, silent but steady as you buried your face in his chest. His hand moved in slow, soothing circles on your back, and his chin rested lightly on the top of your head.

“You’ve been carrying too much,” he murmured. “You always do. But you don’t have to do it alone.”

You clung to him, his words a balm to your frayed nerves. The sound of his heartbeat, steady and strong, filled your ears, grounding you in the moment.

“I hate feeling like this,” you admitted after a while, your voice muffled against his shirt. “Like I’m not good enough.”

Spencer pulled back just enough to cup your face in his hands, his thumbs brushing away the tears on your cheeks. “You’re more than good enough,” he said, his tone unwavering. “You’re brilliant, compassionate, and one of the strongest people I know. And if you’re feeling overwhelmed, it’s okay to lean on me. That’s what I’m here for.”

After a moment, you sniffled and pulled back just enough to look at him. “I didn’t mean to fall apart like that,” you said, wiping at your cheeks.

Spencer reached out, brushing away a stray tear with his thumb. “You’re allowed to fall apart,” he said softly. “Especially with me. We’re a team, remember?”

His words hit you square in the heart, and you nodded. “Thank you,” you whispered, leaning into his touch.

He smiled, a small, reassuring curve of his lips. “How about this? You take a break—actually eat something and get some rest. I’ll cover for you here.”

You started to protest, but he held up a hand. “No arguments. We can’t solve this case if you’re running on empty. Let me take care of you, okay?”

The tenderness in his voice made your chest ache in the best way. You nodded again, feeling a small smile tug at your lips. “Okay.”

He kept an arm around your shoulders as he guided you toward the break room, insisting that you take a moment to breathe, to rest. And for the first time in days, you let yourself believe that you didn’t have to carry the weight of the world alone.

[luffyvace]

Hey there brook! I hope u having a nice day! Can I ask for a luffy x heroic fem reader headcanon? by heroic I mean that she completely dedicated her life to help and save ppl and that her purpose in life, she's strong and seems cold but when u get to know her she has empathy more than anyone else, I feel like this is the perfect character that luffy would fall in love with, pure kindness hiding behind a tough facade, she doesn't even like being called a hero, yet she is willing to do anything for those in need, slaves, poor villages, she goes against anything unjust without any fear, cause thats her purpose in life (sorry if that was too long 💀)

Hi anon <33 (it makes me so happy that someone finally addressed me as that💗)

today was a very chill day 😊 thank you! How’s yours?

Reader sounds so genuine with such a good background for a op character!!

(Don’t worry it’s not too long—I love to read:3)

Ngl luffy subconsciously sees a little bit of himself in you!!

like your hearts are so similar—gold!

of course he doesn’t directly think that way- but he feels the connection!

which is through helping!

you two never turn your backs on those who have never wronged you

its not even about if they’re on your side or not, as long as they haven’t wrong you? and they need help?

the both of you are on it 🤜🤛👍

you wanting to save others becomes admirable to more than just him, to all of the straw hats—chopper and usopp especially!

I’m gonna go ahead and say it here and now you remind both Jinbe and luffy of whitebeard and fishman island type thing

LIKE THAT’S HOW IT IS!!

Y/n is just her tbh 🤷‍♀️

and if the ops don’t like that? 🤨

🤜💥

how you like that? >:)

your strength may or may not be hereditary but either way if you don’t continue training or working out your gonna loose that strength eventually

which shows just how hard you train everyday!!

bro works harder than zoro 🗿

and we all know he don’t sleep on workin out

so y/n is a gorilla the og

its no wonder you be cookin the ops like breakfast👩‍🍳👍

this is literally turning into a rant about me being (name)’s biggest fan ok let’s move on

luffy saw you cold exterior and was like

😍😍😘🥰😘💍💋💋💋

LOLOLOL no but fr he looked straight past that

he always does- he ignored law’s and zoro’s why wouldn’t he with you-

and once he sees your true kindness???

Locked in like a booty hole 🔗

(ANYWAY I HAD TO🧍‍♀️)

yeah he pretty much busts right through that

he pretty much instantly demands you already are is nakama after that

Your empathy is what really swoops him off his feet tho

like luffy has a good sense of empathy so much so he can hear the voice of all things

and you probably can too! It’s highly likely!

(y/n could have her own anime at this point 🤷‍♀️😚)

But seriously the way he can just feel the way you long for others when they’re in pain just gets him right at the heartstrings you know?! 🥺❤️‍🩹

you comfort them so assuredly and keep your promise to win every time !!

luffy would admire himself more than he would know if he realized how alike the two of you are

tbh you probably admire luffy!!

like it’s a mutual thing, where you pretty much don’t see your own coolness you only see the other’s

so you admire each other unaware that your the same 😂💗

he absolutely adores and admires that empathetic part of you thoo!

he loves how your kind and tough

he wholeheartedly believes the strong should protect the weak, cuz that’s what a man does.

especially with nakama.

so he definitely understands your need to protect those who can’t do it for themselves

there are many times he can recall where he had to rely on others

so he loves that your the one who does that for people

and you don’t do it for the money or fame!

you don’t even view yourself as the hero and savior that bystanders see you as!

that’s so cool to him!

you background/past might’ve caused it! Like maybe you had no superhero! So you decided to become one!

he kinda looks up to you in a way 🤩

as someone who has also helped slaves and the poor he completely understands where you come from in your kindness

and it’s even cooler that you charge head on into battle for others without a second thought

that’s just how tough you are ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ

not an ounce of fear in your eyes as you walk up to someone 20x the size of you to simply get back the bread they stole from a poor little child

LIKE HOW COOL IS THAT?! 💥💥

your a super hero!! Dundun duh-duuuuuun!!

🦸‍♀️‼️🤩

you have a goal just like him!! He wants to be the king of pirates and you wanna help others!

With the type of pirate he is?, those things go hand in hand 🤝

”STRAW HAT LUFFY AND PIRATE HERO (NAME) IS HERE!! RUN AWAY!!”

says the pirates who know they’ve done wrong doing!! 😎

also excuse (name)’s lame pirate alias i couldn’t think of one 😊💖

(Name) is so cool 😎 I admire her 💓

hope you enjoyed your hcs anon!! *super heroes away🦸‍♀️🚀*

[witchygagirlwrites]

Just Scared

Greg "Mouse" Gerwitz x Reader x Jay Halstead/ Gerstead x Reader

Part of the Consider me Gone verse

When insecurities keep distance between the boys and you, it comes to a head

Warnings: Sex, like this is 8k words just because I wanted to write out Jay, Mouse and Fireball figuring out logistics 🤷‍♀️

“You know your lease is coming up” Jay broke the silence in the room that had just been filled by the sounds of the movie the three of you were watching. You cut your eyes up at him from your position laying in his lap “Well gee Jaybird, you don’t say? I never would’ve known considering they told me the end date when I signed and my landlord reminded me again when I paid my rent last month”

Mouse shifted from laying on his side with his head in your lap to holding his weight on his shoulder to look up at the two of you “I still don’t get why you haven’t just moved in here?” This discussion had already come up multiple times in the last couple months. Did you like being on the other side of town from them? No, not really but there was another part of your relationship you’d yet to face and a part of you was honestly scared to. 

You loved Mouse, you loved Jay. That much was certain. You were insanely attracted to both of them but as long as you didn’t live under the same roof you could hit the brakes at a certain point with the reasoning being that you had to go home. If you moved in with them sex was going to come into the equation. How were you supposed to do that? It had been a while since you’d slept with one man let alone two. 

Not to mention the last time you’d had sex was a drunken, stress release type of thing. This was your boys, the men you loved, the ones you wanted for good. What if they decided they didn’t want you? You knew Jay was well experienced and despite his shy demeanor Mouse knew his way around a woman’s body. You weren’t a virgin by far but could you actually please two men well enough to keep them? 

You shrugged “And where is any of my stuff gonna go? You two have this place at top capacity” Jay raised an eyebrow “I’ll call the bank in the morning about getting a loan so we can start trying to find a bigger place” you sat up, narrowly avoiding kicking Mouse in the process “Don’t you dare!” 

He held your eyes in a silent challenge before  waving a hand around “If this place being too small is the only thing stopping you from moving in with us, I’ll call the bank. Besides if you drop your lease along with my salary and his? We could afford a pretty decent place” 

You knew this was Jay’s way of testing the waters, his way of asking if you were holding back from them without actually saying the words. “Fine but no decisions are final yet, ok?” he nodded “Ok, now apologize to Mouse. You nearly took his head off”

Your eyes widened and you looked at Mouse who was sitting on his heels, nearly on the arm of the couch “Oh honey” he grinned when he realized he had your attention “Kiss it better?” you shook your head and pulled him towards you. He grabbed one of your thighs and snatched you down the couch towards him causing a gasp to leave your throat when your back hit the cushions “Yeah I think getting kicked was worth it” he laughed before climbing over you. 

Once he was on top of you, one of his arms supporting his weight you smiled up at him “Gonna get your kiss or just stare at me?” he laughed “Just enjoying seeing our fireball spread out under me like this” you felt flames flicker to life in your lower stomach, his sky blue eyes darkening slightly as he dipped his head to finally connect his lips with yours. Mouse always kissed you like it was the first time, his lips trying to memorize the shape and taste of yours. You whimpered lightly when he gently nipped at your lower lip and you felt him freeze along with Jay who was now at your shoulders “Holy shit, did she make that noise?” Jay asked and Mouse chuckled lightly “She did”

Mouse pulled away from your lips and your head was being tilted back, Jay’s calloused fingers trailing along your jaw as Mouse took advantage of the move to brush his lips along the now exposed skin. “Greg this fucking angle sucks. I can’t even kiss her” Jay grumbled and Mouse laughed against your skin “Sweetheart, you wanna move around so the grump can get a kiss or two?” you nodded and he licked over your pulse point before leaning back to help you sit up.

You turned on the couch to face Jay, Mouse moving to kiss along your neck as you did so. Jay smiled and pushed the hair back from your face “You’re so damn beautiful” then his lips were on yours. Jay’s lips were demanding, hungry and devouring every damn time you kissed him. You nearly whimpered again when he rolled his tongue into your mouth then when his hands came out to grip your thighs and snatch you up and over into his lap a sound that was a mixture of a gasp and moan fell from you. 

Mouse sucked the soft skin of your neck into his mouth, teeth working at it as Jay kissed you. You whimpered into Jay’s mouth, your hips rolling down against his. When he shifted his hips up and you felt just how hard he was through his jeans that snapped you out of the daze these two men always seemed to put you in. 

You broke away from Jay’s lips and that was Mouse’s clue to move away from your neck. All three of you were breathing heavier than usual “What’s wrong princess?” Jay asked and christ you felt like an asshole for the concern in those seafoam blue eyes.  You swallowed twice before saying “I um..I gotta go..before it gets too late..you know you two are gonna worry about me”

“Stay here tonight, isn’t the first time” Jay offered and you smiled “Baby, I’ve gotta be into work at six” he shrugged “We’ll be up and even if we weren’t to actually have you here all night?” “We’d get up at three” Mouse answered.

You smiled “I love you,both. I’ll see you tomorrow after work, ok?” Jay nodded and pressed another kiss to your lips “I love you princess” you crawled off of Jay and when you stood up Mouse pulled you into a kiss “I love you sweetheart”

You quickly pulled your boots back on and tied them up before finding your jacket, phone and purse. “I’ll call you after I talk to someone at the bank” Jay offered and you nodded “Ok”

You heard Will call your name and glanced over from where you were finishing up a chart on a patient “Yeah Halstead? What’s up?” he nodded towards trauma one “Can you give me a hand?” you passed April the chart you’d just finished and shrugged “Sure, what ya need?”

One good thing about working with one of your boyfriends’ brother, you and he were friends and had a good working relationship. Hell you had a good relationship with everyone at Med.  Ethan was a former combat medic so you and him hit it off on a whole other level, April was the sweetest person you’d ever met, Maggie was the big sister of the group, Nat was always a sweetheart and willing to listen to your opinions and Goodwin was a good boss. You loved Dr Charles for how much he’d helped Mouse.

You stopped at the door to grab gloves then followed Will in “I’m doctor Halstead, this is nurse Y/N but believe me when I say she’s more than capable of helping me on any case that rolls in here” 

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You finally sat down to get something for lunch and realized there were texts from both guys in the group thread J:Talked to the bank. If we’re serious we can find a damn good place  M:We need to decide what to look for, what you want in the place sweetheart  J:If you’re serious that is  M:Of course, we’re not pushing you into anything

You sighed and sat your phone down. April cut her eyes up from where she sat across from you “Everything ok?” you nodded “Greg and Jay are wanting me to move in so now they’re wanting to look at listings for a bigger place but want my list of wants so they can be considered top”

She smiled “Oh that’s sweet. I think it's adorable how those two always look at you to make sure you’re happy” you very well couldn’t admit your hesitation about moving in so you nodded “What should be in my wants? My place now was just in my price range when I moved back?” She laughed “I can understand that! Maybe a different floor plan? Guest room?” she raised an eyebrow before grinning “Shower big enough for three?”

You felt your face warm, everyone of course assumed since you claimed them as your boyfriends and they claimed you as their girlfriend that the relationship was full. The idea of being in the shower with both of them? That was the best type of daydream you ever had. You laughed “That is definitely going on the list” 

You pulled up the group thread and texted You’re not pushing me. Maybe a guest room so if Katie ever visited or if a friend needed it? Decent size kitchen, laundry room in it! Good size shower you felt your stomach knot before the bubbles popped up that someone was typing M:Decent size kitchen? This you telling me to cook for you more?   J:Ignore him baby, I’ll add this to the list and call the bank back so they can start narrowing down listings

“I told you that you were overthinking it Jay”  Mouse told him, nudging him with his arm. Jay nodded “She says this but let's see how she acts when we actually have listings. Think about it, has she stayed the night any in the past three months?” Mouse’s smile fell slightly “No but she’s been working a lot of morning shifts”

“And she has a car, I have a truck and if need be Will could pick her up” Jay replied and Mouse shook his head “What are you saying Jay?” Jay shrugged “You haven’t noticed every time anything gets heated she has to leave?” Mouse shrugged “Are you trying to rush her into something Jay?” He hadn’t meant for his voice to take a defensive tone but knew it had when Jay spun to face him, anger shining in his eyes “Don’t fucking go there Greg. You know I’d wait forever for her too”

Mouse raised his hands defensively “Sorry but you gotta admit how that sounded” Jay nodded “Which is why I haven’t asked her. I could care less if she never fucked me, I mean I’d love to fuck her don’t get me wrong but the point is I love her, you know that, she knows that. If something is holding her back from both of us, if one of us is holding her back from the other..”

“Then we need to know” Mouse finished and Jay nodded. “I want her to be happy. If that means she just wants you in that way then ok”  Mouse nodded “Same” they both sat there for a second, the reality sitting in “We have to talk to her don’t we?” Mouse asked and Jay nodded “We really do” 

“How the hell do we ask her why she doesn’t want to have sex with us without sounding like the world’s biggest assholes?” Mouse asked and Jay shrugged “My best guess? Push her temper, she comes out swinging, then we find out what’s wrong because she is brutally honest when she’s screaming at you”  “How do we do that?” Mouse asked and Jay grinned “I get Erin to invite her out to Mollys. We let her have fun, get relaxed then go back to our place and talk to her then?”  “This’ll be a fun friday night” Mouse sighed but nodded that he was agreeing to the plan then a thought occurred to him “What if she just doesn’t want us like that? We’ve both done some shit man..”

Jay let out a harsh breath “I don’t know because I honestly don’t know if I can see her with another man besides one of us…she’s always felt like ours and now since we’ve all been back? It feels like this is how its supposed to have been” “Like if we would’ve just figured this out sooner none of us would’ve went through as much hell?” Mouse asked and he nodded “Exactly”

Babe!! Mollys tonight? The text from Erin had come about forty five minutes before you were getting off. You texted back Only if you’re my date. You just gotta break the news to Mouse and Jay and laughed when she texted back I’ll tell em you finally found better

You started to put your phone in your pocket but the group thread went stupid about that time J: I swear I will get a new partner   M:Sweetheart, teasing isn’t nice  J:Want us to pick you up at your place or you want to meet at mine and drive to mollys together?  M:Will already told us you have the next 2 days off

You groaned under your breath and made a mental note to slap the elder Halstead behind the head when given a shot at it before texting back Just pick me up then slipped your phone into your pocket. You still had to finish your shift.

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Mouse called you when he and Jay were a couple minutes away so you finished getting ready. When there was a knock on your door you opened it with a smile. Mouse stood on the other side and a grin slipped onto his face “You look gorgeous as always love” he greeted and you shook your head “It’s jeans and a fitted tee Greg” he shrugged “I love you in your scrubs and loved you in your ACUs, so I’m not one to judge” 

You laughed and grabbed your jacket and purse “Come on honey. Jay is gonna get impatient” you grabbed his hand and headed outside. Once you made it to Jay’s truck you opened the passenger seat and climbed in, smiling when Jay slid the console up so you could sit right in the middle. “Hey baby” he greeted as you kissed him. “Where the hell is my kiss” Mouse asked and you leaned over to press a kiss to his lips “I love you Greg” he smiled “I love you”

“I love you Jay?” Jay laughed and you shook your head “Jesus, I love you Jay. You two are in a mood” you laughed and got buckled in then got comfortable between them as Jay pulled out onto the road. “Why did Erin suddenly want to meet at Mollys anyways?” you asked and they both shrugged “Hard work week?” Mouse suggested and you nodded “That’ll do it”

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When Jay parked the truck at Mollys you climbed out behind Mouse, feeling his hand go to your lower back as Jay’s hand found yours, fingers intertwined with yours. They always held you in public like they feared you may disappear. You teased them relentlessly about it but actually fucking loved it.

Once the three of you made it in the door Herrman spotted you first “Y/N! Come here I got a drink you need to try” you raised an eyebrow at Jay before the three of you headed to the bar.  “Hey Herrrman, what ya got?” you asked and he plopped something purple down in front of you “I mixed three different recipes. Two have a sharper taste, ones a little sweeter” 

You sniffed the concoction and it smelled good so you shrugged and tipped it back. It had a grapeish flavor but not overwhelming mixed with like a spicy aftertaste. “It’s good”  you told him and he grinned “It’s good?” you nodded “Yeah” he laughed and pointed to Stella “See? Fireball tried it and said its good” Stella held her hands out “She survived two tours! There’s not a lot that woman couldn’t survive” and winked at you.

You felt Jay and Mouse’s arms slip around your waist as they ordered drinks. “Where’s my girl?” you heard Erin’s voice and untangled yourself from the boys to turn around “Erin” she pulled you into her arms and grinned at Jay “Mine now” then pulled you away from the bar, towards a corner where Kim, April, Gabby and a few other women were “You needed away from the testosterone of your fellas for a few minutes”

April grinned when you sat down “Any news on a place yet?” which set off Kim and Gabby “A place?” you nodded “My lease is coming up and those two are dead set on me being under the same roof” April laughed “They wanted her list of wants so they could narrow down listings to make sure they only showed her ones like that” the girls started laughing and you felt your face warm as they gushed over your boys’ devotion. “Save each other’s lives multiple times and it seems to build something fast” you laughed and Gabby nodded “She has a point?”

“Do we have to piss her off?” Mouse asked Jay. The two of them had joined Kevin, Adam, Ethan and Matt at a booth. The other guys were watching the game but Jay and Mouse had barely taken their eyes off of you. “Do you want to know what’s going on inside that head of hers? There’s a reason you sent her to Vegas after me. Our tempers match, if something was bugging me..that would get it out” Jay replied and Mouse nodded “Fuck it then”

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“I’ll go tell Herrman we need some sodas” you laughed. All of you had hit the two drink limits you always tried to abide by so it was time for a round of sodas. Erin raised her eyes “Need a hand?” you shook your head “Stella will make him and Kelly carry them, I’m just ordering them” she laughed and shook her head.

You made your way to the bar and Herrman spotted you “Cherry cokes all around?” you nodded “Yes sir” he turned around to start grabbing glasses and you felt someone touch your waist but knew instantly it wasn’t one of your boys, the touch was wrong.

You cut your eyes up to see some corporate type standing next to you “Your hand is on me” you spoke matter of factly and he smiled “I know. You just looked so damn lonely here by yourself” you grabbed his wrist and pulled his hand off of you “Even if I was here alone, that gives you what right to touch me?”

You placed his hand on the bar and he smiled “Playing hard to get? Come on baby, I drive an Ashton Martin”  you nodded “and I drive a dodge charger and if you don’t walk away in two seconds I’m going to take your head and smash it into this bar” 

You felt his hand move towards your hair and caught it before he could touch you. You could see the surprise in his eyes because he was probably Jay’s height, just as broad “Don’t fucking touch me” “Just trying to give you a compliment” his hand was snatched out of yours and you turned to see your very pissed off boyfriends, Jay was the one gripping the asshole’s wrist tight enough his hand was turning purple.

“She told you to back off” Mouse said, jaw clenched tight. “Didn’t she?” he asked and the asshole didn’t respond so Jay twisted his wrist “He asked you a question” “Yeah yeah she told me to back off” “Then why didn’t you” Jay asked, his face close to the mans. It was then the asshole finally realized his mistake from the look in Jay and Mouse’s eyes. “You’re both with her?” you nodded and dear god the dumbass had the nerve to say “Well I don’t want the whore that lets two men run her through anyways”

“KELLY!” you screamed because you had no other idea what to do. Jay turned the man and Mouse landed a punch hard enough the asshole’s head whipped to the side, blood coming out of his nose. Jay then spun him around and punched him in the gut hard enough he crumpled into himself, holding his wrist as he hit the floor. 

Kelly looked from you to the boys to the man “What the hell happened?” Herrman leaned on the bar “The one on the floor insulted her, those two took care of it. Throw that asshole out of my bar will ya?”

Both Jay and Mouse’s eyes landed on you and christ. You swallowed hard from the feelings those stares caused in you. Both of their eyes were shades darker, chests rising and falling hard with anger but in their eyes was such a softness towards you as Mouse stepped closer first “You good?” you nodded “I didn’t want to cause a scene by kicking his ass” Jay shrugged “Yeah well he touched you then insulted you. I don’t really care”

You shook your head “Let’s get going, I’ll tell Erin I’m leaving because didn’t you two want to talk to me about listings or something” Jay nodded so you grabbed both of their hands in each of yours “Come on”

The ride back to Jay’s neither of them really said anything but Jay’s right hand rested on your thigh while Mouse’s arm was around your shoulders. The physical contact was nothing new,they always liked having a hand on you and knew you liked it too. You were a little nervous to look at the listings because even just on Mouse’s laptop that made it real and you didn’t know how you were supposed to talk to them about what was holding you back from them without sounding like a complete idiot.

When Jay parked he squeezed your thigh gently “You good? You didn’t even sing along to the radio” you smiled “Yeah baby, I’m good” he nodded then slid out first and held a hand out to you so you got out behind him and heard Mouse get out of the passenger side. Jay tucked you into his side as all of you headed into the apartment building, Mouse reached for your hand, tucking his fingers in with yours.

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You followed Jay in and kicked your boots off right inside the door then took your jacket off. Mouse grinned at you “Getting comfortable?” you shrugged “My home too even if I don’t live here” he nodded “Damn right it is” 

Your hair was already loose so that wasn’t an issue. The guys joined you in shedding jackets and shoes. You headed for the couch, cutting your eyes up when Jay told Mouse to go grab his laptop “How many listings did the bank send over?” “A couple, didn’t really know what you meant by decent sized shower though” you sat down on the far end of the couch and turned so your back was against the arm rest and your legs were curled under you “Just a big shower, ya know?”

He stared at you for a second before nodding “Ok” about that time Mouse made it back in the room and sat down between the two of you. “Show her the places and if she doesn’t like any of them we can specify the list and get back to the guy on Monday” Jay told him before standing up and heading into the kitchen. 

You watched Jay for a minute then cut your eyes at Mouse “Is he ok?”  he nodded “Yeah sweetheart, he’s fine” you nodded then scooted closer to him so you could see the screen “Ok Greg, show me what we got” 

There were a few places that were nice but none really caught your eye or felt like a place you’d want to call long term besides the laundry rooms were tiny, no guest bathrooms and the showers were those weird step in tub things. You wanted the ones with the one with the big glass door that you could just walk into, if you were being that specific.

Jay was sitting on Mouse’s other side and you could feel his eyes on you as you went through the listings “Jaybird, you good love?” you finally asked and he nodded before reaching to take the laptop out of your lap and handed it to Mouse “Want to just go put this up? She isn’t gonna like any of them” 

“I liked a few! They just didn’t strike me as a forever place for the three of us” you defended as Mouse quickly put his laptop over on the dining room table then came back over. Jay nodded “Was it that or do you just not want to live with us?” 

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You cut your eyes at Mouse to see whose side he was about to take and when he didn’t meet your gaze you knew that was his way of siding with Jay. “Wow! Ok” you stood up,shaking your head “If that’s the issue why don’t I just renew my damn lease then?”

Jay stood up too but didn’t take a step closer because he knew you hated that, he was taller than you and you didn’t like looking up at him when you argued “Well it's been what? Three months or better since you even slept under the same roof as us?”

“I’ve been busy, you two have been busy!” you argued and he nodded “And we would see each other a lot more often if we slept in the same bed every night. I fucking miss you, he misses you” you looked from Jay to Mouse “What?”

Mouse nodded “You’ve been keeping us at arm’s length. No matter what we do, you keep walls up and won’t meet us halfway”  “How the hell do I keep either of you at arm’s length? I am literally here! I tell you both I love you! I kiss you every time I see you” you nearly yelled.

Mouse cut his eyes at Jay who said “Every time we get close to something you back off and leave” oh, that’s what this was. “Oh” you nearly whispered. “Oh?” Jay repeated and shook his head. Mouse took a step towards you but stopped when you took a step back, you hadn’t meant to but you kind of felt like you were in a corner and the whole fight or flight thing hadn’t been your strong suit even before the rangers.

“Can we just talk?” Jay asked and you nodded. A smile slipped onto his face that looked so damn sad “Is it one of us?” “What?” you asked, looking from him to Mouse,suddenly realizing how ridiculous you looked standing in the middle of the room.

Mouse shrugged “You let things go so far then you hit the brakes.If you only want one of us like that ok, we get it” “Hell I definitely get it, you’ve had to take me for testing” Jay added and your heart crumpled looking between them “It’s not either of you” “Do you want someone else?” Jay asked, confusion plain in his eyes and you laughed lightly “No you idiot. I love you two, why the hell would I want anyone else?”

“Then why baby? I mean we’re not pressuring you or asking for it, we’ll wait forever for you, we want to move in with you because we love you but I feel like the hesitation in that has something to do with the hesitation in living with us” Jay explained and you swallowed hard, dropping your gaze down to the floor “I’m scared”

“Of us?” Mouse asked, his voice low. Your eyes flew up to see they were standing next to each other now and wearing matching expressions, that mixture of hurt and disgust with themselves. “No! No, of course not!” you covered your face with your hands then walked over to the couch, sitting down on it with your face still covered.

You heard them move right before you felt Jay’s hands on yours gently moving them away from your face “Ok, first off? This whole shy side of our loudmouth fireball? It is fucking adorable” you felt your face warm at his words then Mouse asked “But baby what do you mean you’re scared? Do you think we’d hurt you?” 

You shook your head “No Greg, I know you two would never hurt me” “Then what baby?” Jay asked and you tried to drop your gaze again but his hand caught your chin, gripping it gently but firmly enough you had to meet their eyes “I’m afraid that if we try to have sex and I’m not good enough or can’t do something you want you may realize you two fucked up by wanting me because you two are fucking gorgeous and I’m me”

Both of their eyes widened “You think anything you do would be anything less than fucking perfect to us?” Jay asked, a grin pulling at his lips. Mouse laughed “Sweetheart, we’ve both been dreaming about you for years” “That doesn’t help Greg!” you said and he smiled “Why do you think that?” you swallowed hard and knew Jay felt it considering he was still holding your chin “Jay is um..” “A reformed whore?” Mouse finished and got smacked in the arm with Jay’s free hand.

“I was going to say well experienced” you defended and Jay nodded, dropping your chin in favor of putting his hand on your thigh. “And Greg, you’re no stranger to a woman’s body”  Mouse nodded “You’re not a virgin baby, I don’t mean that in a bad way. You know what you like and don’t”

“Yeah but I’ve never..” you trailed off and Jay nodded in understanding “You’ve never been with two guys and even with it being us you don’t know what to expect” you nodded “I haven’t even had sex with one guy since a few months after we all got home”

They both raised an eyebrow “Who?” you shook your head and Mouse cut his eyes at Jay “That means we know the son of a bitch” Jay studied your face for a moment then his jaw clenched “Fucking Marco, wasn’t it?” you laughed lightly and he growled “I’ll kill that son of a bitch” “Jay, that was before Nevada” you reminded and he took a deep breath “Fine but if he ever looks at you again I’ll kill him”

“The point is I don’t know what you two would expect, I don’t know what I can give and I don’t want to lose you” you explained and both of their expressions softened “Sweetheart” Mouse cooed, pulling you towards the end of the couch and into a kiss. You moaned lightly when his tongue rolled against yours. When he pulled back he smiled “Do you trust us?” you nodded “With my life”

Jay grinned “Then let us take care of you” and this time he pulled you into a kiss, mouth claiming yours roughly and you gasped against his lips.Your hands went to his shoulders and he broke away from the kiss to cut his eyes at Mouse before looking at you “Princess, if you want to do this,we will take care of you and I promise there isn’t a damn thing you can do that will make us not want you”

“I want to” you spoke and he grinned “Ok” before standing up, pulling you with him. He walked towards the bedroom, pulling you behind him with Mouse walking behind you, a hand on your lower back much the same way they always walked in public.

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You walked into the bedroom and Jay turned effectively, trapping your body between his and Mouse’s. You felt Mouse’s hands on your hips even as Jay was gripping your chin to kiss you. Just the heat of their bodies was damn near dizzying. Jay pulled back from the kiss and smiled at you as you felt Mouse’s lips teasing at your neck “We’ll take it slow, if you don’t like anything just say stop and everything stops”

You nodded and he shook his head “And we need verbal answers love. Consent baby, it’s top importance” yeah he keep talking like that they’d have to do very little to get you ready because you were soaked and they’d just kissed on you some.  “Ok” you replied and he smiled “Good girl” you whimpered lightly and Mouse’s movements froze “What was that sweet girl?” you shook your head and he tilted your head back to catch your lips in a lingering kiss “I bet you're gonna be so good, take us both so well” you whimpered again and he grinned “Oh I love you”

Jay was teasing the hem of your shirt and when Mouse released your lips he caught your eye “Can I?” “Yeah” you whispered and he grinned “She remembered her words” he slipped your shirt up and over your head at the same time you felt Mouse’s hands slip around your waist, his long fingers at the buckle of your jeans “Sweetheart?” “Please” he nibbled at your earlobe “You’re doing so good” Jay fingers found your breast through your bra, teasing at your nipples as he pressed another kiss to your lips.

Mouse’s fingers dipped below the waistband of your jeans,just above your panty line and your knees nearly buckled from that small of a touch. Jay laughed “We need to get her on the bed” Mouse nodded “Yeah” Mouse’s hands moved from your waist as he worked to get your jeans and panties off your hips. You stepped out of them, holding onto Jay’s arms to keep your balance then Jay slipped your bra off. 

You instinctively moved to cover yourself. You all were close but they’d never seen you like this or seen the full scars you carried from that convoy. Your eyes dropped and you heard them both exhale “Fucking hell you are so damn beautiful” Mouse spoke first and Jay was silent, when you raised your eyes, the look in his told you enough even before he said “We’re gonna take care of you baby”

You looked between them “You’re both still fully dressed” they grinned then slipped their shirts and jeans off, leaving them both in boxers.”Get on the bed” Jay spoke and normally you would’ve argued but with the look in his eyes you would do anything he told you to. You crawled up onto the pillows and looked back at the two of them, watching you with hungry expressions. 

“Are you gonna just stare at me?” you asked, feeling your face warm. Jay grinned “Look Greg, she’s trying to be that medic we love but there’s a blushing little mess under there too” they both climbed up onto the bed and you watched them, your thighs pressing together and you crossed your arms over your chest without thinking about it.

“Still in this?” Jay asked and you nodded then said “Yeah,just nervous. There’s two gorgeous men that look like they want to devour me” he grinned “We do, don’t worry” Mouse laughed lightly “We’ll take it slow this time” 

Mouse gently pushed your hair back then caught your lips in a slow, gentle kiss. You felt yourself relax under his touch. Jay’s fingers gently ran up your side, causing a shiver to run through you  “How we doing this Greg?” He asked and Mouse pulled back to cut his eyes at him “I want the left side” “I’ll take the right. Then she can decide from there” 

You didn’t have time to ask because Jay was kissing you then and Mouse was moving to kiss down your neck,working at the sensitive skin there. You gasped lightly and Jay broke away from your lips to kiss across your jaw and down your neck on the opposite side of Mouse.  They moved in tandem, kissing and nipping at the flesh. It was like they knew just what spots to hit to make you squirm under them. When they got to your breast, Jay tugged the right nipple into his mouth with his teeth while Mouse gently rolled the left nipple in with his tongue. The sharp contrast had your back arching off the bed.

You felt Mouse’s fingers slip down your stomach and stop just shy of where you wanted them. He slowly slipped one finger into you while he and Jay continued their attention to your breasts. You could feel your thighs shake slightly and when Jay’s hand came to join Mouse’s one of his fingers teasing your clit when Mouse added a second digit into you, a shaking moan escaped you.

Mouse pulled off your breast with a wet pop “Taking us so damn good, always taking care of us” you felt yourself clench and he chuckled “Our girl likes hearing she’s doing good Jay” Jay chuckled “Noted” Mouse turned his wrist slightly and he brushed across that spongy spot deep inside of you causing your back to arch off the bed when Jay turned his full attention to your clit at the same time. 

“Please please please don’t stop” you begged, that orgasm building. They kept their pace perfect and you felt right before your orgasm crashed into you, pulling a scream from you as your legs shook under them. 

They worked you through it until you had to shove their hands away. “Too much” they both pulled their hands away, grinning up at you as they licked their fingers clean “Fuck she tastes good” Mouse said and Jay nodded “So damn sweet” when they both started to kiss down your body your eyes widened “You’re both going to?”

Jay grinned “Unless you don’t want us to?” you shook your head “No, I’m ok” he nodded and they continued their way down your body. When you looked down to see them both settled between your thighs on the bed you whimpered loudly. “You’re beautiful, sound so damn pretty and taste pretty” Mouse whispered before he lowered his head to your core, licking a long stripe. Your back arched off the bed but Jay’s hand came up to press over your stomach, effectively keeping you in place “Enjoy it” he demanded before kissing across your inner thighs.

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Somehow they figured out a rhythm of not letting you come down completely from one orgasm before the other one taking over which caused back to back ones. When you got to the point of being so damn sensitive you were shoving at their heads they both left a light kiss on the closest thigh before kissing their way back up your body.

Jay trailed his fingers along your side “How ya feeling?” you grinned “Fucking amazing” he chuckled and pressed a deep kiss to your lips before Mouse pulled you into a kiss, tasting yourself on both of them made you clench around nothing. When Mouse broke away from your lips you reached for Jay and he grinned against your lips when you pulled him on top of you “Fuck baby” he moaned, rolling his hips down against yours.

Mouse moved to kiss down your neck, hands exploring your body. Every nerve ending felt like it was on fire. “Condoms,fuck we don’t have condoms” you whispered. Jay leaned up and reached a hand into the night stand before tossing you the box of trojan condoms you’d bought him a year and a half before “They’re still good and no I haven’t had a need for them”

You laughed lightly then looked between them “Who goes first?” “Whoever you want” Jay answered and you rolled your lip between your teeth “Is it ok if Greg goes first?” he nodded “Of course” he pressed a deep kiss to your lips then changed places with Mouse.

Jay moved to sit back against the pillows, pulling you to rest against him. “Relax” he whispered as Mouse kissed up your body, catching your lips in a gentle kiss “I love you so damn much” he whispered “I love you too” he rolled his hips down against yours and you felt how hard he was through the thin material of the boxers that separated you. “Please just fuck me already” you begged and Jay laughed from behind you, fingers teasing the soft flesh of your sides “You heard the woman”

Mouse reached for the box of condoms and tore them open, grabbing one of the foil packs. He shoved his boxers off his hips and you licked your lips without meaning to. He noticed because he laughed “Well thank you sweetheart” you shook your head “Quit teasing or Jay can go first”

Jay laughed again “There’s fireball. We finally found her!” Mouse rolled the condom on then lined himself up with your opening. He leaned forward to be able to roll his lips against yours as he slid into you. A moan escaped you as you felt the stretch of him filling you. Once he was completely inside of you, your head fell back against Jay. “Fuck Greg” you moaned as he kissed across your chest. He gave a tentative thrust and your hands went to your shoulders, pulling him down closer to you. “Feel so damn good baby, fuck” 

Jay’s hands started to wander across your body also “Talk to her man, tell her how good she feels. How long you’ve wanted her” you moaned just from that, nails digging in Mouse’s back. He found a pace, hitting that spot deep inside of you with every thrust “You feel so fucking perfect love, better than I ever imagined..god I’ve wanted you since the day I laid eyes on you”

You could feel another orgasm building and knew Mouse was close too. He gripped your left leg, hooking it around his waist to give him a better angle. His thrusts were starting to get sharper and you knew he was close. “Please don’t stop” you begged and Jay laughed “Baby I will kill him if he stops, you look so fucking gorgeous right now” 

Mouse slipped a hand between you and when his fingers found your clit, rubbing tight circles your orgasm hit you again and your entire body shook with it, your walls clamping down forcing Mouse over that edge as well.You felt him bury himself into you with a final thrust before he moaned your name into the bend of your neck, kissing every inch of skin he could.

He lifted his head to smile lazily at you “Hey” “Hey baby” you replied and he caught your lips in a gentle kiss “I love you” “I love you” he went to pull out and apologized when you gasped from the feeling. 

Mouse went to clean up and grab some water. You looked back at Jay “Your turn?” he shook his head “Rest princess” you turned to slip a hand into his boxers, wrapping it around his cock that was achingly hard “I want you too Jay”  “I don’t want to push you too far” he whispered so you shrugged, moving slowly but turned to grab a condom.

“What are you doing?” he asked and you grinned “I’m weak as shit at the moment because Greg has me not feeling my legs but I will use my arms to hold myself up to be able to fuck you too” he grinned “Fine”

He helped you move up onto the pillows then took the condom and climbed up the bed, kissing your body along the way. “Are you sure?” he asked as Mouse walked back into the room “For god’s sake fuck the woman” You met Jay’s eyes and knew why he was hesitating, his coping method when he got back. He didn’t want you thinking this was that. You smiled softly then hooked your legs around his waist “I love you and I trust you”

That was all it took for the boxers to be off and condom to be on. When Jay pushed into you, you moaned out his name and you felt Mouse’s hands soothing your body, one hand keeping you in place for the moment. “Stay still love” he whispered in your ear.

Once Jay was buried inside of you he stilled, eyes glued to where he was connected to you “Fuck every inch of you is absolutely gorgeous” you shook your head and was about to make a smart comment when he snapped his hips forward causing your eyes to roll back.

Jay set a hard pace, every thrust damn near moving you up the bed if Mouse hadn’t been right there. You could feel another orgasm building and you were so damn tired already. Mouse slipped a hand between you and Jay, you felt his fingers find your clit.  Your legs tightened around Jay as your orgasm hit you. He held you close to him as he found his own release, burying himself inside of you and probably leaving a bite mark on your breast but you didn’t care. 

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Both yours and Jay’s breathing finally slowed down so he pulled out, kissing you in apology when you complained about it. After Jay cleaned up he came back with a warm towel for you “We’ll help you to the shower in a little while” he said before crawling in bed behind you. 

Your head was laying on Mouse’s chest so Jay slipped his arm around your waist, laying his head over on the scars that were on your shoulder, brushing a light kiss against them. “Are you still scared?” Mouse asked you then looked at Jay “Cause I don’t know about you but I have no damn complaints” Jay grinned “None at all”

You shook your head “No, I don’t think I am anymore:

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You had nearly dozed off when Mouse broke the silence “Jay you know that day you walked into our tent and she hauled ass back to the med tent?” “Yeah?” Jay asked so you replied “We were making out, you walked in around second base” 

Jay leaned up far enough to smack Mouse behind the head “Asshole” then he laid back down, kissing your shoulders again as he got comfortable. “Are you serious about wanting to move in with us?” he asked and you nodded “Yes Jay. I love you both, this is it for me. I was just nervous but now I’m not” 

He laughed lightly “Ok, we’ll dig deeper into listings tomorrow and call the bank monday” Mouse kissed the top of your head “But for tonight and the weekend you’re staying here, right?” you nodded slowly “Yeah, I don’t think I want to leave you two very far”

Jay laughed loudly “I think we’ve broken her. She went from being being afraid to fuck us to probably already thinking about the next time” you looked over your shoulder at him with a grin “Well I mean, why do you think I want a place with a big shower?” he raised an eyebrow “I’ll make sure to add walk in shower onto the list”

[that-blue-vault-dweller]

Companions react to Sole being related to them genetically? The Synths,Codsy, Strong, and Dogmeat obviously don’t count.

Thank you so much for the request! 💙💛 Hopefully y'all enjoy these! 🥰

Edit: In the original version, I posted this thing early and forgot to put Preston's react 🤦‍♀️ But I reckon sometimes idiot attacks happen, y'all 🤷‍♀️ But here it is fixed now.

Cait - Is thrown off terribly and doesn't know how to respond at first, but some deep part of her is awfully pleased to have an even deeper connection to F!Sole. She's Cait's hero and to have even a shred of F!Sole's DNA within her is the highest honor Cait can think of. However, she will proceed to make some manner of joke about it and try to blow it off just a little, but if they are in private, she will explain her genuine feelings on it.

Piper - Is honestly overjoyed, and immediately starts trying to track the family tree and find out exactly where in the line of ancestry that F!Sole falls. She just knows that F!Sole has to be related to her on her dad's side. Her Blue is too much like him in that she's always saving people and doing the right thing even at the risk of her own life. Piper is proud to be related to her and while she already calls Blue her family, she now says it even more.

MacCready - Is not sure what to say. He did not think he really had any family besides Duncan, but he is glad to have F!Sole. She is definitely one of the best people he could think of to have as far as family goes. If she has not yet met Duncan, MacCready introduces her as Duncan's aunt. After all, it's a bit more simple than explaining that this obviously younger woman is some manner of potential great, great, great, great, great, great aunt or something.

Deacon - Is sort of thinking that she is messing with him at first, but he ends up rolling with it without too many questions. He tells everyone at Railroad HQ that she's his long lost relation and now he goes around telling everyone that she's his grandma now despite her looking to be as young as him. He even has started calling her grandmother as a joke, and he sometimes puts on a silly, almost British voice as he says it.

Hancock - Is pretty surprised, and proceeds to make some joke about knowing that calling her "sister" always felt right to him. He doesn't know how exactly she is related, but he guesses that he must have somehow gotten his sense of patriotism and justice from her since she was one of those Pre-War law and order people or whatever. He is really pleased and now he puts out word that if anyone in Goodneighbor even glances at her wrong that they're going to die. Nobody messes with his family, no matter how far in the past that they had been from. Especially not her, though.

Preston - Is shocked to hear that he is related to the general, but he is nevertheless happy to hear it. He now knows that he came from greatness and to be related to the woman that is now the leader of Minutemen everywhere is a great honor and he is very proud of it. However, he tries not to tell people too much because he does not want them to accuse her or him of showing favoritism toward each other in their professional lives.

[boom-boom-back]

I psychoanalysed the MV for ESCAPE by Hyunjin and Bang Chan.

(Keep in mind, I’m going off of the video itself, not the lyrics, so if you have anything to add that you think could be related that I missed, please do share in the comments😋)

Okay so after a while of ranting to myself, I came to two different conclusions and I’m not sure which one makes more sense, if either at all.

But just to start things off, I noticed two things that I’m sure everyone else did as well, which were the Shackles on their wrists, and the Werewolves concept.

The first thing I wanna talk about is the chains. Throughout almost the entire MV, they were not bound to anything, they were just dangling on their wrists the whole time, except for that last scene where they connected to each others.

Now obviously, this has to refer to some kind of bond between the two that eventually formed throughout their time together, that eventually they realised when Hyunjin essentially “sacrificed himself” for Bang Chan. I’ll come back to this later.

The second thing I noticed, was the werewolf theme, which was obviously intentional. There are a few things that could connect this to the “bond” I talked about, like the forming of a pack/brotherhood. I wasn’t too sure if this had anything to do with the meaning, but I just wanted to get it out there.

Now throughout the MV, you can see traces of the bond being formed slowly, but surely. For example, you know that piece of broken glass bang chan gave to Hyunjin? I noticed that we see it again when Hyunjin is in that cell.

After a quick google search, I learned that broken glass can symbolise Fragility/Vulnerability. What that made me think of, is when BC broke that fish tank, it could essentially be interpreted as him “breaking himself down” and opening up to Hyunjin by giving him that piece of himself, AKA expressing vulnerability.

You can also interpret their position, where BC was leaning on Hyunjin, both literally and figuratively. BC is placing his trust in him, and from then on, you can see them getting along easier.

Now obviously, because that piece of glass was essentially a part of BC, Hyunjin seemed especially attached to it when they were separated after Hyunjin ran off.

But before then, you can see that Hyunjin almost tries to swing at whatever is chasing them with the glass, which could hint at their connection essentially making him stronger. Because we all know that weapons give advantages right?

So you know that saying “you never truly know what you had until it’s gone”? That could be why Hyunjin seemed so distressed after abandoning BC to save him, and why he was so protective over the shard.

Then, there’s obviously their reunion. Im not sure what kind of relationship the video was hinting at, but I don’t want to jump to any conclusions and make anyone uncomfortable, so I’m just going to assume it’s a brotherhood of some kind. But obviously it was at that point when their bond truly formed and they began to think of each other as one, hence the being chained together.

Realising they take on challenges easier when they’re together, they begin to fully rely on each other and face whatever/whoever was trying to keep them apart head on.

I wrote this at 3:00am so sorry for any typos/confusion my brain wasn’t working very well🥱

I have another seperate conclusion, so let me know if you want to hear about that one too, or if you want me to go into more detail about this one. I dunno why I got so fixated on this, I’m not even that much of a Die-hard fan of SKZ, but I found the MV particularly interesting and just felt like ranting🤷‍♀️

[momentov1vere]

Assigning PJO/ HoO characters to Knights Radiant orders (+ my reasoning)

I put too much thought into this not to share it somewhere so here’s a sort-of character analysis that is much longer than it needs to be (bc I was bored and stuck in a car for 10 hours) :)

Not sure how much of a crossover there is between the PJO and Stormlight Archive fandoms but this was mostly for fun (and I want to see what happens lol)

Here we go!

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🔱 Percy Jackson : Stoneward

The powers don’t rly fit (Cohesion- manipulating objects at a molecular level- & Tension- changing the stiffness of something) but none of the Radiants have water powers so 🤷‍♀️

Loyalty is pretty much the #1 belief of the Stonewards (“Though sometimes gregarious, they are never flighty. If a Stoneward is your friend, they will be there for you”) and Percy’s fatal flaw is literally loyalty so that’s that

Percy is said to be one of the best fighters seen like anywhere in a long time and Stonewards are the order that is viewed as the best soldiers of the Radiants

They like a challenge and will often take on more than they can handle (like Percy choosing to take on the Great Prophecy)

Stonewards are also good at being able to find a solution to a difficult situation with only few resources and Percy often comes up with things on the fly/ improvises

I struggled SO MUCH picking one for Percy oh my god he had similarities to like half of them (I almost made him a Bondsmith or a Windrunner but they didn’t seem right)

🦉 Annabeth Chase : Elsecaller

Powers : Transformation (changing an object into something else- aka ‘Soulcasting’) and Transportation (looking/moving between realms); Annabeth likes creating new things (architecture) so there’s a bit of a connection to the Transformation power even tho she doesn’t really have powers

Elsecallers are always trying to reach their full potential, like how Annabeth is always be seen trying to learn new things and become the best version of herself

They are regarded as the ‘wisest’ Radiant order (just like Annabeth/ the Athena cabin are viewed as the ‘wisest’ demigods)

Annabeth always has her goals in mind but also always trying to lead and encourage others (like Damasen) which is common amongst Elsecallers

🐐 Grover Underwood : Edgedancer

Powers: Abrasion (altering the friction between surfaces) & Progression (quickly growing organic objects faster than normal- including plants, skin, body tissue, etc.)

He’s able to make plants grow faster using his magic reed pipe so that would translate into Progression

Abrasion would kind of fit for him too, bc of the goat legs (he’s able to navigate more difficult terrain than humans)

Edgedancers care about the ordinary/ overlooked people of the world and spend most of their time making sure those people are protected. Grover cares deeply about nature/ animals and always tries to protect them bc humans often deem nature unimportant (nature = ordinary people in this scenario)

☠️ Nico di Angelo : Dustbringer

Powers: Division (control over destruction/ decay) and Abrasion

I don’t know if Nico has anything that really fits the Abrasion power- except for maybe the fact that his shadow travel helps him get places quickly- but Division is definitely similar to his power over death/ earthy materials

Dustbringers typically don’t get along with others (including people in their own order) because of personality differences and stereotypes about their powers like how Nico is often ostracized at first bc he scares people

☀️ Will Solace : Edgedancer

Powers: Abrasion & Progression

Will is a healer so Progression would be a good power for him to have; while he doesn’t have any powers similar to Abrasion I think it would be useful for him to have to get to injured people faster

Will cares about everyone and will do his best to heal anyone because he doesn’t want anyone to suffer, and he doesn’t just focus on the powerful demigods- he makes sure to lend his power anywhere it’s needed

Fighting is not the the Edgedancers’ main concern, preferring to protect/help the injured (especially people who aren’t necessarily warriors) and Will also is more like a wartime medic than a fighter (though he- and the Edgedancers- can fight if necessary)

They want to see and understand both sides of something, even their enemies, rather than seeing everything in black and white. Will struggled with this in TSATS but eventually realized that places like the Underworld aren’t necessarily just about death/decay, but are also about life

🌩️ Jason Grace : Windrunner

Well first of all the man flies and that’s basically what the Windrunners do lol

Their powers: Adhesion (temporarily sticking two objects together) and Gravitation (changing the direction/ strength of something’s gravitational pull)

He cares a lot about protecting innocents/ the defenseless and keeping his friends safe which is a main idea of the Windrunners

Windrunners are very militaristic in general and Jason was raised by the wolves and the Romans to be that way as well

Tempest would be his windspren & prefer a horse form cus they can do that (I think)

⚡️ Thalia Grace : Windrunner

I know she hates flying but I don’t think it’s really a requirement of the Windrunners to ‘fly’; they mostly just change the direction/amount of gravity that’s pulling on them so she could find creative ways to use Gravitation (walking on walls/ceilings which then appear to be the floor to her, etc)

The Hunters of Artemis are pretty militaristic as well (they have a specific leader & ways of doing things, similar to the Romans)

Thalia cares about innocent people/creatures and is very protective over the people she cares about (Annabeth, the Hunters, etc)

Windrunners tend to attract “big-sibling types” and Thalia is definitely a big sibling type lol

🏹 Frank Zhang : Stoneward

Powers don’t rly fit him either but personality-wise I think it’s right

Frank is really loyal to his friends (sometimes to the point of attacking/fighting people more powerful than him to save them) and will always be there for them both in battle and for personal issues

He’s pretty good at improvising and his shapeshifting allows him to come up with creative solutions (turning into an iguana to get out of the Chinese handcuffs lol)

He’s also pretty quick to come up with creative solutions without many resources (using his firewood to free Thanatos when there was no other heat source, etc.)

💎 Hazel Levesque : Lightweaver

Powers : Illumination (illusions) and Transformation

Hazel learned how to manipulate the mist from Hecate, essentially giving her illusion powers, & she can change the shape of earthly materials (can’t change the material but it’s close enough to Transformation); this is one case where I almost made her a Stoneward but Lightweaver just fit better for everything else I think

Lightweavers are the ‘artistic’ order and attract people who love art/ creativity (Hazel is an artist)

They tend to not follow rules the way other orders do, instead choosing to reach their goals by their own means (ex. Hazel choosing to go her own way and make her own choices rather than taking one of the paths Hecate gave her in HoH)

🔥 Leo Valdez : Dustbringer

Same as Nico; both of them being Dustbringers would be an example of contrasting/ clashing personalities within the order

Fire is definitely a destructive ability similar to Division (they can burn things) and without a level of control (which Dustbringers need to learn before they can advance their powers) things could get bad (and have- rip Esperanza Valdez)

Leo hasn’t really been ostracized for his personality like Dustbringers could be but his powers originally made people scared (they didn’t know he had them at the time but his cabinmates did say a that having that power was dangerous and they hoped no one would ever have it again so he took that a little personally)

🗡️ Reyna Ramirez-Arellano : Bondsmith

She’d be bonded to the Stormfather (1 of 3 beings who can gift Bondsmith abilities), allowing her to generate Stormlight and infuse other Radiants with it; this is incredibly draining and similar to Reyna’s ability to share her strength

Bondsmiths’ main focus is unity/ bringing people together and Reyna definitely spends a lot of time attempting to unite the Roman and Greek camp (after all, she did spend an entire book helping Nico and Coach Hedge get the Athena Parthenos back to CHB as a peace offering)

Bondsmith powers aren’t typically used for fighting but rather for assisting other Radiants and keep them fighting; Reyna is skilled with weapons but doesn’t use her powers to fight, only to help others keep up their strength/ motivation

🕊️ Piper McLean : Lightweaver

Piper had some personal things that she had to work out (lying to her friends in TLH, etc) before she fully embraced her power, & Lightweavers have to come to terms with truths about themselves before they can progress as people & as Radiants

There aren’t really any Radiant orders that work with manipulation magic so it’s hard to bring the Charmspeak in but the illusion magic Lightweavers have does allow them to change their appearance, so I’d imagine her using it to make herself super beautiful for espionage purposes or smth (maybe using it to transform into someone’s loved one?)

Transformation would allowed her to turn something into something else (etc. mud to food) which kind of relates to her cornucopia & how it makes food out of nothing

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Hooray we made it to the end!! Sorry that this was so long, I had a looong time to think about this and wanted to get all my thoughts down

I mostly used coppermind.net and the descriptions of the Radiant orders on Sanderson’s website so some of this info may be a little inaccurate but this was just for fun lol

[fae-cookie-run-madness]

I have an idea about how the main lights could have separate the new lights, it's kinda taken a bit from some of my personal headcanon.

Basically the lights of Knowledge, Change, Volition, Happiness and Solidarity are made from very strong witch magic mixed with the natural life powder magic from Earthbread itself.

(My personal headcanon is that Sea Fairy,Sugar swan and Millennial Tree were all magic born from the natural life powder of Earthbread thus why their so powerful and why they guard it etc but we won't get to deep into that)

However natural life powder is extremely unpredictable and unstable which can be corrupted easily (Based on the Dessert Paradise in Cookie Run:OvenBreak).

So when the virtues corrupted although the original Soul Jam lights remain untouched as they were made from witch magic,the remaining power one that was from the natural life powder became tainted and created the Lights of Deceit, Destruction, Apathy, Sloth and Silence.

However although the natural life powder became corrupted like I said it is unpredictable,when the corruption happened the power split into itself two in order to prevent the corruption from spreading.

Thus creating the Lights of Truth, Abundance, Resolution, Passion and Freedom.

So basically there are at least two pairs of Soul Jams that were created from this split that contains both the lights of Beasts and lights of the Ancients.

As for the ogs they are only connected to their original holders as they are bound to them meaning the Beasts Soul Jams are the original ones and the corrupted ones.

While the Ancients Soul Jams are the pure powers that splited themselves away.

The lights of the Beast are powerful but they only can cause any effect or harm if they have control of the Soul Jams and when the Beasts reformed they lost that connection to the OG lights.

The lights powers only work IF they are connected to the Soul Jam itself,once they loose connection like it breaks or shatters their powers wouldn't be effective or not work at all (only applies when it is destroyed)

However even so they found a small link through their holders children.

Sooo I don’t think I understand but that may be more me then you (my brain isn’t working right).

I can sort of explain my ideas for the lights in Children of Beast and where they fall in the world.

I know the Lights are very much other worldly, as if personification of their own domains, it may be witches magic, it may rival it. The witch that made the beast and the lights was going against her sisters wishes when she did, so she seems like the type to do something like that.

Also the beast in this au are some of the first and oldest cookies; back when they were virtues their power easily surpassed the Legendary cookies we see.

Here’s the thing I run into. The corruption, and what the lights split up into don’t seem like a corruption. Like think about it, to have Change you have to have Abundance to push it forward but also Destruction to reset the cycle. Solidarity, you need the Freedom to help others, but also Silence, to know when to use your words.

So it’s more like ideas of address a god, your using an epithets like it Greek mythology. At least that sort of how I’m viewing it.

I’m messing with a lot of the lore to make the Virtues the strongest. I have notice that a lot of the Legendary elementals have gems or some sort marking put on them so that might be other witches trying to recreate the witch of lights work.

(Sorry for the word vomit 🤷‍♀️)

[elainsgirl]

Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled we're finally getting an announcement next year, but I'm exhausted!! I left the fandom because I couldn't stand the ship war and SJM's silence. I still love Azriel and Elain and I am invested in their story, but I stopped enjoying the Acotar world if that makes sense. I don't know if other people in the fandom feel the same way, but I'm close to the point where my reaction to book 5 will be "Oh yeah, I used to love those books", even if it's confirmed to be about Azriel and Elain.

In a completely different case, we never see Rebecca Yarros say "I won't tell you who Violet's endgame is. You'll have to wait and see!!"

I don't know if people will be so burned out when the book finally comes out that they won't care anymore. I don't know if SJM's strategy will backfire. Time will tell.

we’re all in the same camp, I totally feel you. Like

YES FINALLY WE WILL BE GETTING SOMETHING 🥳

but also,

Its been too long & I no longer care that much 🤷‍♀️

I think the fact Sjm has been so silent - its the most frustrating part. I don’t blame her but I think there was so much things going on and I feel like - this whole thing was planned. it wasn’t a matter of delays or whatever.

We needed to read HOFAS to understand the lore for ACOTAR 5. Obviously, hofas had to come after hosab - through this order, the years went by. Mass isn’t online therefore I don’t think she knows the full extent of the shipwars. To her, that bonus created some *doubt/drama* the way Emerie appearing in Cassians chapter during acofas did. Im very curious to hear her thoughts on all this once acotar 5 is out, anyways, I think at one point - maybe within the last 2 years - BB and Sarah realised it will be more impactful and a big deal to announce info about acotar 5 during the acotar 10 year anniversary.

obviously I cant speak for everyone else in the fandom but from my mutuals across all platforms and from my followers on Instagram- the general vibe is that we’re all so done with this fandom, sarah and the books. The ACOTAR world has lost its magic - people have taken the books so seriously and critically. Every character and ship is hated on, the fandom vibe is filled with disgusting toxicity and not just from the shipwars but the character wars as well. Its not the same vibe as it was when I first read the series in 2020. Hopefully, after elains book is calms down and we’re all reunited again.

I think by the time the book releases, the online fandom will be burnt out and not care as much but the casual fandom will be very excited for the release. And ig it doesn’t matter as Sjm will always be popular and her books will always sky rocket. Didn’t she recently win some goodreads awar despite hofas not being that good? So all in all, those of us that have been in the fandom a long time won’t be as excited as we would’ve been 2-3 years ago.

I haven’t read Fourth Wing but I’ve heard Rebecca is very active in the fandom which makes peope in her fandom love and respect the books more. Thinking of it - its the trend now for authors to engage consistently with their readers. Its a way to build a good relationship between audience and author but also to promote their books. Maybe Mass and BB feel like Sjm is big enough and doesn’t need to form that connection w us as they know we will eat up whatever she releases. And atp I think they’re right. I don’t think her “strategy” will backfire as her audience is no longer young teens - they’re adults that love her worlds as they connected with them young and will read whatever she puts out.

but you’re right, time will tell and hopefully that time comes soon.

[rookamell]

Pure Gale Fluff

Gale/Tav

Ignore the layout of the tower mentioned here I tried to be as vague as possible but it doesnt make any sense🤷‍♀️. Also wizard magic=science rules right? That makes sense?? Does to me so there you go. I headcanon that Arabella Shadowheart and Astarion stay in Waterdeep for at least a few weeks before moving on to wherever they go next

I’m literally on a roll with these lol

The tower was warm against the chill outside when Gale got back from his errands in the city. It smelled of snow outside, and he smiled, happy to be home, at least before the flakes started falling.

Darkness was falling behind the clouds, and Tav had started a fire while he was gone, though she hadn’t closed the curtains, and soft light still filtered in through the windows, illuminating Tara’s curled up form in front of the fireplace, where she was snoring gently.

Tav herself was asleep on the couch in front of that same fire. She had taken it upon herself to slightly rearrange his library room, to make it more “homey” she said. He’d grumbled about it good naturedly, but in that moment he realised he’d let her rearrange anything she wanted if it meant he could come home to her, asleep in front of a fire like she was just then.

It had been… an adjustment, coming back to his tower. What he had thought would be a refuge against the world had turned out to be filled with less than pleasant memories of the time before their adventure.

Then we’ll make new memories, she’d said. New memories like coming home to her sleeping form after a cold day outside.

Golden brown hair spilled over an armrest, and a heavy leather tome was propped against her knees, arms crossed over her chest.

He walked over to her after depositing his packages, and almost reverantly bent down next to the couch. His fingers tangled in that silky golden hair even as he kissed her cheek softly.

She was awake immediately, he knew, because she was the lightest sleeper in the realms, but she kept her eyes closed stubbornly.

He grinned, and this time he kissed those wonderfull lips of hers. She grinned into it, and when he pulled away, stretched awake, almost catlike in her movements.

“Sorry,” she said quietly. “I was reading this horrible dissertation. Can you believe this man thinks that Melf’s third law of evocation is as he put it “a loosely connected string of words with no real meaning behind them”?”

Gale grinned.

“You don’t agree?”

“The third law is the only one that makes any sense to me, if I’m being completely honest.”

She smiled, her wonderful eyes twinkling with delight. Her hand cupped his cheek, callouses scraping over his beard in the most wonderful way.

“A few weeks ago you didn’t know Melf had any laws,” he murmured, grinning as he kissed her again.

“Well, now I do,” she said matter of factly. “And I’ve formed an opinion, based on my sorcerous expertise.”

“Ah,” he said, “of course. Though many powerful mages would agree that your opinion is wrong.”

Her fingers tangled in the hair at the nape of his neck, and she pulled him forward for another kiss.

“I don’t think you know what the word ‘opinion’ means, Gale Dekarios.”

He laughed, and her eyes twinkled in response, and for a moment the breath was knocked out of him. So much so that he had to sit back, away from her.

She frowned, sitting up, all traces of sleep gone from her eyes and demeanor, replaced by a worried frown, a tension that meant she was ready for a fight.

“Gale?” She asked, “What is it?”

What is it?

How could he explain it? How could he explain the feeling of coming home to a tower where a fire was already roaring against the chill outside? How could he explain the sight of his tressym companion curled up asleep without a worry in front of that fire? How could he explain the sight of her, asleep in front of that same fire, the feeling in his chest when he was allowed to kiss her into wakefulness and she did not jump up, scared, because she knew, finally, that she was safe with him? How could he explain the way he had someone to discuss Melf with, after years of just Tara? Someone who would argue back as an equal? How could he ever explain how her laughter felt like a balm to his heart? How could he ever explain exactly what she meant to him? Him, who could normally find words for anything.

“I- uhm,” he grinned slightly, “I don’t know if I could ever verbalise how much it means to have you here. With me.”

Her eyes softened, and she lay her head down on the couch again.

“You’ll find a way, I’m sure,” she said softly, her starlit eyes twinkling.

There was a yawn from the direction of the fireplace, and Tara stretched herself into wakefulness not unlike Tav had done only a few minutes before.

“Ah!” The tressym said, “Mr. Dekarios, thank goodness you’re back! I trust you brought me back some of those wonderful fishes from the market for dinner? I would have gone out earlier to hunt pidgeons, but I’m afraid the fire was much too comfortable.”

He reluctantly broke free of Tav’s soft gaze to turn to his tressym companion.

“Why of course, Tara my dear,” he said, getting up with a groan. His knees really did not agree with the cold.

“Would you like your share now, or would you like to wait while I cook for all three of us?”

“Just the three of us?” Tav asked, rubbing sleep from her eyes.

“Yes, unfortunately,” he replied, walking down to the kitchen.

“Astarion and Arabella are still at the Yawning Portal, Arabella said she would keep him company until sundown. Shadowheart was ‘much too busy with Shieldmeet preparations to have dinner tonight’. So, just the three of us.”

He started charming spices and sauces from various shelves as Tara twisted herself between his legs in her age old ritual of welcome.

“I can’t decide,” Tav’s voice drifted down to him from the library. “Whether Astarion or Arabella is the worse influence.”

She appeared in the doorway, somehow managing to look put together with slightly mussed hair and dressed in one of his old sleep shirts.

“Now that is a question, isn’t it?”

She came up and wrapped her arms around his waist from behind, her cheek resting against his back, and again he had to take a moment and compose himself.

“Personally I think they both bring out the worst in each other, although at least the vampire treats me with dignity when he is here,” Tara spoke up, hopping up onto the counter in front of him.

“Arabella’s still learning, Tara,” Tav said.

“Hmpf. Well. She’ll learn quickly enough why no one else yanks a tressym’s tail if she ever does it again.”

“So, Tara,” Gale said quickly, aware his companion’s temper could flare sometimes. “Fish now, or fish later?”

“I shall wait, Mr. Dekarios. I have manners. Besides, if I eat now I shall most certainly fall asleep, and then how will the two of you entertain yourselves?”

He could picture Tav’s mischievous smile as she said, “Oh, I can think of a few ways.”

He blushed slightly as she kissed the back of his neck, but thankfully, Tara had turned away to inspect the quality of the fish he had bought.