#I do kind of get the wanting to incorporate a variety of perspectives in the MV but there must be a way to blend it all together
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swallowedthestars · 5 months ago
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praying modhaus releases a more watchable version of virtual angel cuz wttttffff was that
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friend-crow · 1 year ago
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hello!
i dont know if this is the right place to ask but i was somewhat getting into witchcrafty things, and was wondering if you knew a good place to start?
both from a not wanting to upset people perspective but also from a "wow lots of things what do i try and take in first" kind of perspective
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Oh maaaan that's a big question, and I'm honestly not great at answering these kinds of questions. The way I went about it was a very long and disorganized process (and there were far fewer resources when I got interested in witchcraft -- Wicca and new agey shit was basically all I could find on the internet of the late 90's, but I was also a kid with limited research skills) which I would very much not recommend reproducing.
I'd suggest taking your time and reading widely, and don't just adopt things into your belief system because some blog says it's how witchcraft works. It's important to find out where that belief is coming from. Is it folk magic? If so, from where? Is it Wicca (Wicca is very ubiquitous and often conflated with witchcraft in general -- lots of people who aren't Wiccan celebrate the wheel of the year, for instance, but it was constructed as part of the Wiccan religion and I think it's important to know how it came to be and what the actual holidays it grabbed from various cultures originally were before you get into it)? Is it Law of Attraction/Assumption [avoid]? Is it based on Theosophy [avoid]? Is it based on a blogger's UPG?
If you're not familiar with the aforementioned concepts, it would be a good idea to look into them so you have a better chance of spotting them when they turn up, which they will.
I'd also suggest putting some real thought into how you believe magic works. There are a lot of paradigms, many of which can be combined. Deities and/or spirits (in various senses of the word -- some folks believe in spirits as in ghosts, while animists believe that all things have spirit or a spirit to varying degrees... animism isn't any one thing, so there's quite a bit of variation there) may be involved, or you might prefer a more secular approach. Some people believe in a purely psychological framework. Folk magic often combines elements of superstition, sympathetic magic, and religion. There's an incredible and fascinating variety of ways that Christianity has been incorporated into the indigenous folk magic of various colonized cultures, for instance, but that's an area where you really want to do your research and be mindful of appropriation.
Sorry, this has turned into another long and disorganized ramble... but yeah, basically research a lot, track down sources, and try talking to a variety of practitioners. Keep in mind that you can always shift gears and change how you work/what you believe, and that you may do this frequently as you try to nail down what's right for you. I definitely did.
Mutuals, feel free to chime in.
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apoptoses · 2 years ago
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I mean, I get that I can only really speak for myself here, but I think if you have some ideas for fic that you really want to pursue and explore then you should go for it. Even if it's not what people tend to currently think and talk about with regards to certain characters/dynamics, that doesn't mean a lot of us won't still enjoy seeing a fresh perspective, and hell people might like the newer takes so much they incorporate it into discussions and ideas in future. But even if not it's still healthy and refreshing for their to be some variety and exploration in fan made works imo
As far as kink goes, hey if it's not for some people it's not for them, and if it's niche there is always a chance you make some people *very* happy because they just assumed they would never see it in any works
I guess what I'm saying in a very rambly way is that I'll personally look forward to writing whatever you most feel like writing and that I think you shouldn't be afraid to take risks or explore new ideas that others haven't covered before because I have no doubt you'll make them interesting and do them justice 🩵
Oh, thank you!! I think the problem is 50% hormonal, and 50% being stuck in editing hell. This wip is coming out closer to 50k and it's taking me forever to get through and remix some stuff and then weave in other stuff, and being critical of your work every day, for 2+ hours a day? A recipe for self hate tbh. I now understand why pros pay for editors.
And actually the wip involves some stuff I'm slightly self-conscious about anyways (i never see daniel get to be in charge and i think that's a crime man) and so the cycle continues.
But I think you're totally right, you have to write what you want and trust the reader, and know that somewhere out there someone will be excited for it. And usually I'm so good at that but there's just something in the water right now I guess.
Anyways yes. Thank you, you're so kind!! 🥹 I'm going to sit down tomorrow and work on something totally different and hope I feel excited about it by the end.
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liminalpsych-in-teyvat · 1 year ago
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Notes for A Matter of Duty - Chapter 4: A leaf drifting in the sea
An actual plot-heavy chapter! And is there a thing such as un-porn? Porn that turns you off? (I guess that’s the definition of a squick.)
This chapter took the longest to write so far... in part because it required me to actually figure out more of Inazuma's political situation, and plan out the political intrigue that I've so far been vaguely handwaving. (I'm going to have the Inazuma section of the Genshin Impact wiki memorized at this rate. And Ayato's entire story quest.) Hat tip to my nesting partner who is good at political intrigue plot and workshopped it with me, otherwise I would probably still be stuck.
Also took a while to write because I had to make up an original character, because I couldn't find an Inazuma NPC that fit the role. I planned for Toru to be creepy (his placeholder in my notes until I figured out a name was "Creepy Old Man"), and then learned more about him as I wrote/outlined further, and thought maybe he wouldn't be creepy after all. (Maybe he's just a lonely old man and it was a big misunderstanding?) Aaand then I wrote the actual chapter and never mind, he's rather creepy and writing that scene felt gross and squicky. Might have to just gloss over/summarize future scenes with him because I don't particularly want to sit in that feeling again, but we'll see how things develop. (I'm outlining way more than I normally do with this story, but I'm still ultimately a seat-of-the-pants kind of writer, and it always feels somewhat like I'm following the story/characters where it happens to unfold rather than making deliberate choices. If I try to force it into a different shape than the one it wants to take, it never works as well.)
I know you can't buy miso soup from Shimura's, but it's where you get the recipe, so I assume it's on the restaurant's menu somewhere.
I didn't intend to write the origin story of Thoma's aversion to alcohol in his "Least Favorite Food" voice-line, but it happened anyway. ("As far as food is concerned, I'm fine with anything. If we're counting beverages, though... I'm not very good with alcohol. Don't laugh, and before you say it — yes, I've wondered what this says about my identity as a Mondstadter. But, y'know... too much alcohol is bad for you, anyway. So not drinking is a good thing.")
Also, a note: Gonna be depicting all sorts of varieties of sex work and sex worker in this story. We’re pro sex worker rights and decriminalization around here, SWERFS can GTFO, you probably won’t enjoy this story if you’re here for a “sex work bad / all sex workers are victims / save the poor sex workers” kind of story. A not insignificant number of my friends are sex workers in one capacity or another, from legal licensed full-service girlfriend experience to side hustle passion hobby to cam work and stage work, all across the gender / sexuality / romantic orientation spectrum. I’ve heard a lot of stories and perspectives from them over the years, and my writing’s informed by that. I know it might at first look like we’re going down the “sex worker as victim” plot line, but bear with me and it’ll develop into more nuance over time.
And again, a sampling of my Google search successes when studying up for this chapter:
Japanese etiquette according to a fascinating 1897 article in the Sacramento Daily Union. Particularly focused on hospitality.
Japanese gift etiquette, around giving and receiving gifts.
Visiting etiquette in Japan, according to another 1897 article, this time in the Hanford Journal.
Japanese slipper culture, because yes, there is a technique and etiquette all around the various times to wear and remove different kinds of house-slippers. I'd lay money that Inazuma incorporates this aspect of the culture, because you can find shoes sitting right outside the door of a few different Inazuma houses, even if they don't bother animating it because that would probably be too much trouble.
Etiquette of feudal Japan, covering bowing, speech, audiences, and especially sword or weapon etiquette.
Drinking etiquette in Japan. Why yes, most of my research this time was around politeness rules, how could you tell?
Japanese economic history prior to the Meiji restoration, aka during the Tokugawa Shogunate / Edo period which is the closest analogue to Inazuma. There were... a bunch of other articles on historical Japanese economics, but I won't bore you with them. Let's just say that as brilliant, detailed, well-researched, and cohesive as Genshin Impact's worldbuilding is, they really drop the ball on economy design and government design.
Summary of the fic itself with content warnings, tags, etc below the cut so you can decide if you want to read it or not before you click on the link.
A Matter of Duty
"Back then, I had no choice but to accept the position I was in. While I desperately looked around for powerful supporters, I endured smear campaigns and attempts to exploit me. I had no other choice... I didn't mind what became of me, but my family... No one can ever be allowed to trample over my precious family."
How Ayato secured powerful supporters, endured exploitation, and weathered the storm of the years following the death of his parents... and how Thoma helped him contend with a bunch of self-serving, degenerate public officials.
And how, after much stilted fumbling and well-intended sacrifice, they learned the truth of one another's hearts.
Note: Mind the tags. More specific content warnings will be given at the beginning of each chapter, and the story tags will be updated as needed. All characters involved in any sex scenes are adults.
Rating: Explicit. It's porn with plot. Porn as a vehicle for plot, or plot as a vehicle for porn, you can interpret it either way. (I prefer: porn and plot as a vehicle for ~feels~)
Tags that I'm not actually turning into tags here, but it gives you an idea of what you're in for: Kamisato Ayato/Thoma (Genshin Impact), dubious consent but not between Ayato and Thoma, slow burn, sex ed, first time, self-sacrifice, humiliation, exhibitionism, oral sex, anal sex, bdsm, bad bdsm etiquette, rough sex, breath play, impact play, bondage, service kink, abuse, sadism, codependency, shame, guilt, jealousy, possessiveness, trauma, ptsd, dissociation, political sex work, or sex work for political maneuvering, or political survival sex work if that’s a thing, exploitation, blackmail, political machinations, political intrigue, no aftercare, maybe someday some aftercare, hurt/comfort, mostly hurt for a long time but eventually comfort, oblivious disaster gays, for such socially savvy people they are terrible at personal relationships, dominant Ayato, submissive Thoma, top Ayato, bottom Thoma, Ayato is incredibly parentified, Thoma has no sense of self-preservation, self-sacrifice isn't a contest but don't tell Ayato and Thoma that, it's like the snipe-the-check game at restaurants but with sex and politics, Kushiel's Impact, no really this was in my drafts for the longest time as Kusheline Thomato Fic, everyone's an adult in this timeline except Ayaka, she gets protected at all costs, original characters out of necessity, finding appropriate existing Inazuma npcs for some of these roles was impossible, no beta we die like ayato's parents
Full fic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/47604337?view_full_work=true
Chapter 4: A leaf drifting in the sea: Thoma completes Ayato's deal with the elderly accounts manager of the Kanjou Commission. He mostly keeps his promise to not push himself in the process. ...Mostly.
Chapter contains: sex work (for political favors), oral sex, significant age difference, alcohol, pressure to drink alcohol, drunkenness, more plot than porn. Also general... creepiness/squickiness, I guess? Aka writing this made me uncomfortable and I'm not sure exactly how to content warn for it.
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a-god-in-ruins-rises · 2 years ago
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What's your ideal solution for increasing birth rates?
yeah there are a variety of ways to attack it
offer increased tax breaks for children. alternatively, punish childlessness with additional taxes. "childfree" types always be talking about all the money they save so they can travel and do fun things. well, i want to see them cry when a portion of that money is taxed to subsidize /families/ travelling and doing fun things. a new type of family planning -- an organization where parents (or prospective parents) can go to find a variety of resources to help them in their creation of a family. also i think artificial incubator technology would be a major help so that's something that should be invested in.
build more houses and walkable, safer, close-knit communities; we need people out and about, moving around, being active, mingling with other humans, making connections, stay healthy, etc. reduce the workweek so parents can spend more time with their families. and encourage more flexible work-from-home options. universal basic income (with extra for each dependent). more affordable childcare. generous maternity leave. give parents bonus bay. also, not sure how it would be done, but i feel like there should be some more accessible housekeeping options; either some public housekeeping corps, or a community volunteer initiative, or the government offering some voucher for housekeeping, etc. just something to help parents with household maintenance.
we also need to get people fucking and getting married. young people are living with parents later into life than previous generations. so they need places to fuck. we should build love hotels. we need to incentivize marriage. tax breaks for married couples, government loans for weddings, some kind of family recreation department that organizes and subsidizes couples' honeymoons, offer interest-free loans for first time home buyers. offer a family loan/voucher for newlyweds worth some portion of their annual income and have a quarter of the loan forgiven for each child they have.
but underneath all of this, the core of the issue is cultural and social and spiritual. we need to completely shift away from this current hedonistic, atomistic liberal paradigm toward one that is more wholesome and family/community oriented. one where instant personal gratification isn't the goal. where we acknowledge that parenting can be hard sometimes but it's rewarding on a deeper level and we shouldn't avoid things just because they're difficult. we need to starting thinking about something bigger than just ourselves. we need to make antinatalists and childfree types look miserable and lame (this isn't hard to do). it needs to be seen as uncool (and degenerate) to be an adult child who lives only for themselves. and being a parent needs to be seen as something noble and good and fulfilling.
this would be incorporated in the education system, explicitly. as part of the sex ed and family life classes, for example. we should be giving mothers who have multiple children medals and parades and financial awards. we need to make a holiday in the summer that celebrates the family. make it a three day weekend thing. you know how the pentagon funds war movies? we need to do the same with families. have the government fund movies that are centered around strong families and having children and getting married and that sort of stuff. have government agents spread breeding kink propaganda online (i'm only /half/-joking).
overall we just need to shift to a more optimistic perspective. i think people have more kids when they are optimistic about the future. but i find a lot of antinatalist types are deeply pessimistic about the future and just humanity in general. "why would i ever want to bring more life into this horrible shitty world??" is a common sentiment i see. so i think there needs to be a massive optimistic propaganda campaign. and we just need to get people healthier in mind, body, and spirit. we need to make therapy/counselling more accessible, we need state-mandated gym time (half-joke), and spiritual renewal.
which reminds me: the ultimate solution is to join my cult.
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sarvendara-smg-livebrief · 2 years ago
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Supermassive Games Live Brief
The Concept
Supermassive Games provided us with a variety of horror content genres and kinds to choose from for the live brief. and also we were told to visualize the "Third Act" of the Story, which we create.
So as soon as the brief went live I started to do my research by watching many horror stories getting their nack of cinematograph and how they used their jump scare in order to get us scared, I took many references from movies and tv shows, in order to formulate a horror story.
The horror film that had the biggest impact was named "Hereditary." This film, which was released in 2018, tells the tale of a household. The daughter and the rest of the family are devastated after the death of the mother. The horrifying reality about the daughter's ancestry soon starts to surface as strange things start happening.
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The transition between the images and the lighting design was both outstanding. I've seen a lot of horror films, but this one really stuck with me because of how the ghost or demon is portrayed without using any unsettling jump scares, just subtle adjustments to the lighting and perspective.
Like we are able to sense the presence in the room but can't see them, so by giving us an eerie feeling of someone watching us from the shadow
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After getting inspired by the movies and shows, I wanted to incorporate this idea into my story, so I searched for a hot horror topic and found out that people like good places like Mistry with serial killing like from the movie "Seven." So my initial idea was to do a serial killer's lair, where I wanted to showcase his or her room from an outside perspective, where the antagonist was a killer and they had a day job in order to soured them in this society, so I wanted to capture that idea, but the research for the idea was too much, and I also thought that it could be generic, so I scrapped that idea in the initial stage itself.
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And then came the idea of using an existing fear and adding that element to my story in order to give it some depth, and the fear I chose is the "fear of water," especially in deep ocean places like "The Mariana Trench," which is considered to be the deepest part of the ocean that has been discovered.
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hsaenvs3000w23 · 2 years ago
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Beliefs and Responsibilities Unit 10
A personal ethic representing your underlying values and views is crucial for nature interpreters. Your ethics should reflect your dedication to liberty, responsibility, and justice and should influence how you interact with the environment and other people.
Honesty is among the most significant values I bring to my work as a nature interpreter. My responsibility is to be truthful with my audience regarding the information I present to them. This requires me to be open about my sources and willing to acknowledge my ignorance of a subject.
Environmental justice is another fundamental principle that guides my own ethics. Regardless of race, nationality, or socioeconomic class, everyone should have access to nature and its advantages, such as clean air and water. I understand that historically, marginalized people have suffered disproportionately from environmental degradation and that my duty as a nature interpreter is to strive toward establishing a more just and equitable society.
My ethics as a nature interpreter are based on my conviction that nature has intrinsic worth. Regardless of their perceived importance or utility to humans, all living creatures have inherent value and ought to be valued. This idea is based on the understanding that there are other creatures on the globe besides humans and that these creatures and humans are inextricably linked to one another. As a nature interpreter, I work to show others how everything is interconnected, how vital biodiversity is, and how important conservation is.
Being sympathetic and kind is the strategy that works best for me personally. It's crucial that I put myself in my audience's position and comprehend their viewpoints and experiences. As a result, I must be open to hearing their queries and worries and changing my strategy to suit their requirements.
As a nature interpreter, I must protect environmental integrity and encourage sustainable lifestyle choices. This calls for me to have a thorough understanding of the ecosystems I'm interpreting and a willingness to convey the value of conservation to my audience.
I must inform people about the natural environment and motivate them to take action to preserve it in my capacity as a nature interpreter. This entails keeping up with environmental issues and disseminating this knowledge approachable and excitingly. It also entails setting an example for others to follow by minimizing trash, using sustainable products, and conserving energy. In addition to teaching and motivating people, I support laws and procedures that safeguard the environment. To guarantee that environmental problems are taken seriously, this may involve lending assistance to conservation organizations, participating in public comment periods for environmental legislation, and interacting with local and federal lawmakers.
Nature interpretation can be emotionally taxing since it requires a thorough comprehension of our planet's problems. Take breaks, get help when you need it, and practise self-care as an interpreter if you want to be able to do this job for years to come. I must also take care of myself and make sure I'm not causing burnout or compassion fatigue by engaging in self-care.
The most effective method for interpreting nature from a personal perspective is collaborative and community-focused. This is actively listening to others, incorporating a variety of viewpoints and voices into my work, and providing platforms for other people to share their experiences. Creating spaces where people from diverse backgrounds and experiences may share their knowledge and opinions is crucial, rather than coming off as the authority with all the answers.
Lifelong learning commitment is another novel perspective for me as a person. To keep my work current and accurate, I must participate in workshops and conferences, read widely, and interact with other professionals in the field. Be abreast of the most recent scientific findings and environmental concerns as a nature interpreter, and always be on the lookout for new data and viewpoints.
As a nature interpreter, I hope that via my work, I make others aware of the worth and beauty of nature and motivate them to take action to preserve it. By describing my own philosophy and method of nature interpretation, I aim to inspire people to think about their values and obligations as interpreters and develop solutions for a more fair and sustainable future.
In the end, a nature interpreter still has work to perform. It is up to every one of us to remain aware, involved, and dedicated to having a positive impact as our understanding of the natural world changes and environmental concerns multiply. We can continue to make strides toward a more sustainable and equitable future for everybody with a solid personal ethic and a collaborative, innovative approach.
Finally, nature interpretation must be imaginative and entertaining to engage people of all ages and backgrounds. Finding creative methods to engage people with the natural world, whether through art, music, or storytelling, can be an effective way to foster empathy and understanding.
In conclusion, my commitment to honesty, authenticity, empathy, and sustainability is the foundation of my personal ethic as a nature interpreter. These principles are crucial for establishing trust with my audience and encouraging a better understanding of nature.
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elevatewellness-stpete · 2 years ago
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Writing smut without cringing the whole time? How do you do it.
Writing Smut 101: Overcoming Smut Shame
CONTENT WARNING: NSFW RELATED CONTENT BELOW.
The short answer, nonnie, is: you don’t. 
That is to say, writing smut is always kind of cringe—especially if you’re new to it, or simply “not in the mood” to write. 
But rest assured, feeling embarrassed is completely natural. The trick is learning how to overcome the cringe when it does happen, instead of letting it deter you.
I’m going to break this up into a few sections: 1) Why you might be feeling this way, 2) How I, personally, combat the issue, and 3) Some more tips that might help you get the ball rolling.
1. Why You “Cringe”
It’s important to find the root cause of any form of writer’s block so you can pull the weed out instead of just trimming it back. Smut writer’s block is its own special brand, and generally, the main issue writers have when it comes to smut is stigma.
Speaking openly and honestly about sex, in Western society, is still very much a taboo.
No matter how “progressive” we like to think we are, the inherent shame surrounding pleasure-seeking experiences, and the detailing/consumption of them, has been ground into us since we learned how to understand the concept of gratification.
And I’m not just talking about sexual gratification. This applies to everyday things, as well. Eating, shopping, relaxing (or doing virtually anything in capitalist society that does not directly contribute to capitalism).
So it makes sense that you would feel any amount of embarrassment, awkwardness, or “cringe” when writing smut. It’s something our society teaches us is wrong to want. Unfortunately, that shame translates to writer’s block when we sit down in front of the computer.
A lot of this blockage might stem from not giving ourselves permission to write the thing.
We’re staring at the blank document, knowing we want to write smut, and suddenly the thoughts start streaming in: This feels wrong, is this wrong? What if someone comes in and looks over my shoulder while I’m writing? Am I describing this right? Is this too unrealistic? I have NO idea what I’m doing, and everyone is going to know it.
These are all perfectly normal thoughts, and definitely ones I still have from time to time. But they’re also probably the direct cause of why you feel so blocked. Luckily, I have some bits of advice to give you on how to unblock yourself.
2. How I Combat Smut Block
✦ First, when the intrusive thoughts occur, instead of ruminating on them, think of each one as an impermanent object. You can use any metaphor, but I like to use the imagery of leaves:
Each negative thought is a leaf floating down the river of your mind. If you focus only on the leaf, you’ll exert a lot of energy running to try and keep up with it, consequently miss everything else around you. But if you acknowledge that leaf as a temporary part of the scenery, and let is pass, you can process and appreciate the beauty of your surroundings a whole lot better.
Remember: you are separate from your thoughts. You are not defined by them. The things you think sound stupid might be incredibly exciting to someone else. 
If you can string a sentence together, you can write smut. This is all part of giving yourself permission to write the thing that makes you feel uncomfortable.
✦ Second, I’d suggest giving good thought to how you personally experience embarrassment, how you experience excitement (of the sexual variety), and how those two might sometimes commingle or feel similar.
For me, they are very comparable, like different shades of the same emotion—but there are differences which are important to note. 
If I’m making myself blush from excitement, this is a very good thing for writing smut. It means that what I’m writing feels real enough to evoke something in the reader, even if the reader, like me, knows what’s going to happen.
If I’m making myself cringe, however, it may be time to take a step back and readjust my perspective.
✦ Third, ease yourself into it! Don’t jump straight in the deep end and expect to know how to keep your head above water if you’ve never swum before.
The way I eased myself into smut was first by writing “Steam”—a category of fic I made up because the current vocabulary lacked an efficient term for fics that straddled emotional romance and explicit content. 
Essentially, steam is smut-adjacent but not explicit, and here’s a step-by-step example of how I transitioned myself smoothly from one genre to the next:
I first wrote my fics Wicked Game and You Are (both of which feature either a heavy make out session or teasing + lots of sexual tension) with this “steam” concept in mind.
I wrote the first chapter of Fine Line, which has brief but explicit descriptions of fantasies, framed by a very sexually charged scene.
I released my fic Crashing, which is probably more of a bridge between Steam and Smut, and features soft-focus fingering. Nothing in it is explicit—it focuses more on the emotions than explicit detail—but it’s very clear what is happening.
After I wrote those, I felt just confident enough to make that final stride over the threshold into smut. I wrote my fics Holy, King, and the second chapter of Fine Line all within weeks of each other.
And trust me when I say, once you get the momentum going and receive that validation from people who’ve read your work, it becomes SO much easier to sit down and start writing. 
You just have to finish that first piece.
✦ Finally (and I know I’m going to sound cliche when I say this), just like any other skill, the more you practice the more confident you will feel and the better you will get. 
So practice, practice, practice! 
If you’re nervous about posting smut for the first time, have a trusted friend/mutual Beta read it for you. It’s the online equivalent to someone holding your hand before jumping off the cliff, and works wonders for the nerves.
3. Keep The Smut Rolling
Now that you have some tools to help get you past the blockage of writing smut, here’s how to keep the inspiration flowing.
✦ Start by incorporating smutty fanfiction/erotic fiction into your regular reading rotation- 
Of course AO3 is a fantastic resource for smutty fanfiction. 
If you’re a fan of TFOTA or ACOTAR and want some of my personal fic recs, visit my fic rec masterlist.
In terms of erotic fiction, my personal favourites are anything Anais Nin (specifically Henry & June and Delta of Venus), The Thornchapel series by Sierra Simone, The Godwicks series by Tiffany Reisz, and The Original Sinners series by Tiffany Reisz.
There are also sites like Literotica and sexstories.com, which play host to explicit short fiction (not fandom based).
✦ Next, I’d recommend having a designated digital space for smutspiration- 
This can be a list of “smutty” words/phrases kept on a separate document on your computer, for those days when you just can’t think of the right way to describe something. 
Or you can create a private side-blog or Pinterest board for your favourite smutty fanart or other kinds of visual smutspiration.
✦ For that matter, try following some smutty/18+ blogs (ONLY IF YOU’RE 18+) here on Tumblr-
Many of them have a plethora of what I like to call “lemony snippets”, a.k.a. short text posts that describe (usually in conversational language) explicit scenarios. 
This is useful because it will normalise the concept of sexual fantasies in your brain, making it less weird for you when you try to come up with ones of your own to write into smut. 
Not to mention, your dash will be rife with inspiration.
✦ I would also suggest checking out 18+ ASMR on YouTube (AGAIN, ONLY IF YOU’RE 18+). 
My favourite account is Professor Cal Official, but Auralescent also has some good content. 
Headphones are highly advisable for this, as their stuff is very dangerous for work.
So, nonnie, I hope this has provided you with at least one helpful tip. Whether you took anything away from this or not, just know that the feelings of embarrassment when it comes to writing smut are entirely normal. And the best way to keep those feelings at bay is to confront them head on. 
-Em 🖤🗡
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ravasheencc · 4 years ago
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My Response To EA’s Letter
This is not what I typically post about or get involved with... but the recent letter from the EA really infuriated me. Initially, I was a big defender the gurus because I know what it is like to work in a big corporation with deadlines/budgets and approval processes. However, my perspective changed after watching the livestream when the gurus were going over the Knifty Knitting pack it became clear to me that they do have quite a bit of flexibility in what they design.
Then came the letter from the gurus this past week and, well, I needed to get this off my chest so I can let go of the anger.
My response in red.
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Hi Simmers -
We want you to know we’ve been seeing all your feedback and we hear you. 
In one ear and right out the other.
As we always have been, we’re committed to growing The Sims as a game and as a community, so instead of trying to respond to a variety of tweets we wanted to consolidate some thoughts and updates in one place:
We are working on adding significantly more skin tones before the end of the year, and will share news on our progress soon. Beyond that, we’re committed to continuing to expand representation in The Sims 4. This is not one step, but a journey.
About time.
On upcoming content - when we consider something for addition to the game we consider what it will take to update it meaningfully.
What is there to consider? At this point you could literally add bunkbeds or improve babies in ANY way and simmers would be happy. Why does is take years to consider this?
This is just as true for babies as it would be for cars, bunk beds or any other number of feature requests. 
Yet you found time to consider and implement spaceships and murphy beds?
Sometimes there is foundational technology we need to work through and sometimes we need to dig into designs more deeply to make sure we understand your expectations. 
I have two responses to this. Your excuse that you need to work through some foundational technology is just invalid and completely false. Modders and CC creators have been able to implement many of the features you refuse to add with the existing technology and code.
What don’t you understand about our expectations? Well, apparently there is a lot you don’t understand but your team has had YEARS to better understand the simming community requests - they aren’t new. Again, you could literally implement any of the main requests in just about any form and you would make simmers happy. Luckily, you have set the bar so low any improvement would be considered drastic.
This work takes time, and we don’t update you on these projects until they become more real. Game development in general can feel like a long process and, like most of the world, we are adjusting to a continued state of working from home.
Many modders and CC creators have fulfilled the simming community’s needs and requests on our free time, with no budget, no team, and in much faster timeframes.
In just a matter of weeks we’ll be sharing more about our next Expansion Pack, which we’ve been working on since last year. I want to set expectations now, though, that cars, babies, farms and bunk beds are not part of this EP. We understand how important these features are to you but we want to be honest that they are not part of this upcoming pack.
Do you mention you have been working on it for the past year to give us the impression there was no way you could have incorporated the requests into this game pack? The major, main requests aren’t new and certainly came before you started this upcoming EP within the last year. This is just deflection and not taking responsibility.
And it is apparent that you DON’T understand how important these features are to the community. Or maybe you understand and just don’t really care.
As a team, we are going to make more of an effort to communicate what’s coming with more regularity and transparency so that you continue to feel in the loop about new features, experiences, packs, and general information.
This is a step in the right direction. I will believe it when I see it.
That’s it for now, and you’ll be hearing more from us soon. In the meantime, all we ask of you is to be kind, engage in constructive conversations with each other, and continue to celebrate what makes the Sims special to YOU.
We have been engaging in constructive conversations with ourselves. The community has been constructive not only in conversation but also taking action - ever heard of MCCC, Slice of Life, and the countless other mods and CC that fill in the voids you refuse to fix? The problem is YOU don’t engage in constructive conversations with US.
And I can assure you that we will continue to listen, continue to invest in The Sims 4 and continue to engage with you. 
Continue to listen? You haven’t listened. You need to start listening.
You don’t engage with us. You only engage with large youtubers that help you advertise the game. You don’t really even engage with the Game Changer community unless they are a huge influencer.
We could not do what we do without our players.
You wouldn’t have a job. So maybe show us some respect and start sincerely caring and acting on our requests.
SimGuru Lyndsay & the Sims Team
Sincerely, RAVASHEEN.
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I know you've probably been asked this question a million times and have answered it just as many but I'm curious about your thoughts on Loki?
I know there seems to be a split in the Heathen community about Loki. But based on your research and studies, what do you think of Loki? Do you feel him to be as worthy of worship as the other gods like Odin, Thor, or even Freya? Or do you feel he's more of a problematic figure that has his role but not necessarily someone to be worshipped? And what do you think of the proposed ideas that Loki was a later invention and addition into the Norse mythos?
Regardless of the answer, I do look forward to your response - I do enjoy reading your answers to questions, and even if I don't necessarily agree with, I do learn something from them.
Well, as I’ve said before I think the greater danger than any deity is letting people tell each other who they should and shouldn’t worship. It might be an impulse endowed in me by Loki himself but nothing makes me want to venerate him more than someone telling me I shouldn’t. I hail Óðinn til sigurs, Freyr and Njörður til árs og friðar, and Loki til bölvunar. This got real long. I also wrote it in more of a stream-of-consciousness style than I usually do so I go back and forth between, like, mythology and personal stuff, sort of randomly. I would normally rearrange it at this point but I don’t really see the best way to do it.
I know we as heathens keep going back to the semantic discussions about words like "worship" and "venerate" and it can get tiresome. I haven't talked about that much on here, and I kind of just use those terms without putting a lot of thought into it. But it bears repeating and refinement and maybe hopefully incorporating better vocabulary. I do "venerate" and "worship" Loki in a way that isn't quite how I do the other gods, nor is it quite how I do jötnar like Jörð or Þorri, nor landvættir or ancestors. But then, within those categories there is also a difference in how I approach them. So I don't think that Loki stands out here, exactly. Like, I don't approach Njörður the way I do Óðinn either. So this isn't a yes/no for me, the only question I can think of that can get us anywhere is "how do you approach [god/being]?" When we read saga accounts of religious practice, at least the ones that inform modern heathenry the most, it's usually big public gatherings, often with official, legal implications. As I've mentioned before, I'm also influenced by non-Scandinavian cultures (without identifying with them -- i.e. what I learn from Buryat Mongols doesn't make me more Tengriist, it makes me a Scandinavian pagan with a broader perspective and a more international web of relations). If we look to the Baltic pagans for example, who draw more heavily on unbroken or at least more recently-attested folk practices, we see a variety of forms and contexts for worship of different gods, and not only a binary differentiation between what we might call "positive" or "light" gods like Dievas, Perkūnas, Saulė, etc. on one hand and gods pertaining to darkness and death like Velnias ("the devil" in later Christianized view), Ragana ("In the Baltic pantheon, no Goddess inspires fear quite like Ragana" (Vilija Vytė in Of Gods and Holidays 1999)), etc; but also within those categories to the point of demonstrating that binary categorization to have rather limited explanatory power anyway. Baltic pagans often worship gods in completely different settings, so that the entire form of worship of Perkūnas might be completely inappropriate for worshiping Laima, for example.
For most of us modern heathens everything is interchangeable, you just switch out some associations and say a different name after shouting "hail!" or have stuff from a different column on the correspondence chart on one's home altar. But I believe that for our ancestors this was not really a question of yes/no.
As I've mentioned before, the author/translator of the life of Pope Clement into Klements saga around 1220 seems to believe that Loki had been considered a god, as he includes him in the litany of gods who Clement denounces (Þórr, Óðinn, Freyja, Freyr, Heimdallr, Loki, Hǿnir, Baldr, Týr, Njǫrðr, Ullr, Frigg, Gefjun).
I've tended to pray to him mostly when I've gotten myself into a situation I have no business getting out of, or when I'm doing something high-risk in general, and for what it's worth I've escaped those situations unscathed every time so far. My kindred is favorable toward Loki and I hail him with them. The odds of me making an offering to him on my own have decreased over time, not because I feel differently about him, but because there's just... a lot of gods.
My thoughts and feelings about Loki are probably also colored by my having what is most likely a different conception of Óðinn than most heathens seem to. When people say “Loki isn’t the Norse devil,” to me that’s only half of the statement, the rest being “because Óðinn is.” Not to say that Óðinn is bad or evil either (being unchristian I have no particular objection to the devil... and to be clear here, I’m talking about the folkloric devil who taught Robert Johnson to play guitar, who went down to Georgia, who comes in early morning and who goes by many names), but the point is that most of the reasons people cite for why Loki shouldn’t be recognized as a god apply to Óðinn as well, but the idea that Óðinn should be excluded from recognition as a god is unthinkable to us. Much of this also applies to my conception of Gefjun, who is prominent in my practice. Most people consider her [generic agricultural earth deity #89745] but I not only think that that's wrong and a product of lazy (and misogynist) scholarship, but I actually see her as dangerous and crafty in much the same ways that Loki and Óðinn are (maybe even moreso, as she managed to convince even most of modern Norse academia of her innocence and incapability from a thousand years in the past), and I think that's good. I wrote about Gefjun here.
I have even speculated about whether it's possible that, as Óðinn rose in prominence over time as we suspect he did, starting as a darker, outsider type figure associated with death and perhaps disease, maybe something like the Lithuanian Velnias to the head of the pantheon, perhaps some of his traits that were not suitable for an Allfather god came to be associated with Loki instead (compare also the historical development of Shiva in India). I don't think that it's likely that Loki is a late invention, though I would not rule out that there could have been changes or developments leading up to his appearance in the myths. It's easy for me to believe that the myth about Loki being kept at hvera lundr ('grove of hot springs') and causing earthquakes would have developed in Iceland, though we seem to have bits of myth and even artistic depiction on the Gosforth Cross of him being bound which should be located outside of Iceland.
To explain by way of analogy, I'm going to return to the Baltic area again. It's often said that Lithuanian is an "old" language. That's ridiculous. It's no older than any other living language that isn't a creole or pidgin; it has prehistoric roots but is a fully-functional modern language that is refreshed every day. What it is is a living language that has preserved many archaic features, and yeah, that's really amazing, but we don't need to characterize it as "old" to recognize the value of that. The same is true of a religion's associated body of mythology. The only way a story can become old is when people stop telling it. When we heathens pick and choose what is sufficiently "old" for acceptance, we are actually creating a new mythology, a sort of purist mythological conlang, that responds to our modern circumstances and aesthetic choices. But, being the critic of modernity that I am, I'm not satisfied with the neo-proto-mythology of the modern heathen, I want it all. I am also interested in the historical development of Loki's myths, not because I'm looking for a reason to accept or reject, but because I want to have all of it, of all time, all at once.
It also depends on what we mean by "late." Unambiguously heathen skálds like Þjóðólfr úr hvíni, Úlfr Uggason (presumably converted in his lifetime, but the poem was composed long before then), and Eilífr Goðrúnarson not only refer to him, but refer to him in terms of his familial relations (i.e. he's already the father of Miðgarðsormr, already son of Fárbauti, etc). I don't think that a god and his entire set of familial relations can be invented whole cloth and spread enough to be repeated in disparate sources in a short amount of time. Some heathens, when they say "late," seem to basically mean anything after the Migration Age, and I don't care about that. Yeah, when you have the opportunity to take the long view like that it can be an extra dimension to observe the god over time but the heathens of the 10th century shouldn't be dismissed just because they're more generations away from the Indo-Europeans or something like that. And like I've mentioned before, this standard gets applied in seemingly random ways -- nobody mounts arguments that we shouldn't worship Iðunn because we have no early evidence of her being worshiped. We also do have evidence of cults to gods who, as far as I know, are not worshiped today (Lýtir (*Hlýtir?) and Fillinn; since they are not represented in the mythology, modern people have hardly anything to work with here, so that isn't surprising). And as always, no late innovation will compare in volume to the massive amount that was surely lost when the customs and oral lore were discontinued without being written down.
Recently I've seen some arguments that Loki is meant to be a house spirit (a la later Scandinavian folklore) and should not be considered to have a place in Ásgarðr. This is confusing to me, because Ásgarðr is also a home, so I would expect it to also have Loki. Whether this implies lots of different Lokar is not something I've seen discussed, yet we do know of at least two (Loki and Útgarða-loki, and in fact, two very different images of Útgarða-loki). We run into this problem of scaling also with Heimdallr -- heim- as in 'home' or heim- as in 'world'? Both?
I don't like making poorly-informed guesses in the space left by our lack of information about the past, so don’t take the following to be what I believe is true historically, I'm just doing some straight-up speculation, offering an alternative that I think is just as justified by the evidence as a statement that Loki is a "late invention" or a purely literary figure or whatever, to (as I seem to be saying a lot lately) open up new possibilities.
I generally advocate belief that pre-Christian Norse people had a concept of time that was circular, which broke down toward the end of the heathen period and became more linear. For that earlier time, we might imagine a yearly mythic cycle that was eventually re-encoded as a linear history of the creation, destruction, and rebirth of the world as told in Völuspá. Perhaps during part of the year Loki was bound, but, being a god, he was still able to effect things in the world, causing things like earthquakes or maybe even effecting things in the home like sparks in the hearth fire. Being bound he has an affinity with or some sort of presence in threads (að sleikja rassinn á honum Loka 'to lick Loki's ass' = to moisten a thread with your mouth to make it easier to thread) and knots (literally called loki) and so people who are accustomed to sewing and embroidering (i.e. mostly women) are more exposed him than people who don't do those, though through that knot connection he also is associated with fishing nets in some way. And there's something paradoxical about him, in that he's also related to the dangerous things outside the periphery of civilization. He might be given small sacrifices at home, rather than in big public gatherings, but especially in places where the public religious gatherings occur are also private residences, his presence isn't diminished. Then, at some point in the year, he escapes -- maybe in the spring when you start to see illusions of water on the ground, caused by the warm air near the ground refracting light and causing you to see the sky on the ground like a reflection on water -- this phenomenon is associated with Loki (Lokke) in Danish folklore (this happens in the winter too of course, but in our times that's often thanks to asphalt being a heat-sink). Or maybe with the appearance of Lokasjóður ('Loki's purse,' yellow rattle, which siphons nutrients from other plants like it's stealing cable). Or maybe when Lokabrenna appears in the sky (in which case, maybe there is also a daily cycle involved). At this time, maybe he's remembered as one of the three creators, or at least as a creator of monsters, but maybe he also joins up with Óðinn and Hǿnir, or with Þórr, Þjálfi, and Röskva. And then, at the close of this period, we could imagine some kind of a ritual drama where he's chased down captured in a fishnet, and symbolically brought back into his bound state (which could mean back to the homestead). Some of this is influenced by Algirdas Greimas' (Of Gods and Men, pp. 190-1) description of Lithuanian rituals involving Gavėnas, described as a dirty little man who lives near the furnace and is associated with light phenomena (as Loki is in late Scandinavian folklore), in which a scarecrow (representing Gavėnas) is driven around town in a cart and then dumped into a ditch or snowdrift, then picked back up, put back on the cart, and is driven back into town. Apparently, the turning him "head over heels" (dumping him into the ditch) changes him from a "winter monster" to a "prophet of springtime." Clearly this is not the same, and I'm not identifying the two figures with each other, but I'm basically riffing with the attested examples of duality expressing itself seasonally and the public and private spheres not being always clearly distinct or impassible. Again, I'm not arguing that this ever actually existed (which makes it like my deliberately divergent rune interpretations). I'm offering this as an alternative to the historical narratives that heathens have come up with so far that I think is extremely unlikely, but does technically fall within the boundaries of possibility, only to demonstrate that the evidence we have doesn’t necessitate coming down on either side of a black-and-white position on Loki being a god worthy of worship or not. It accounts for a fair bit of what we know about him, and could be expanded or modified to include other things; and treats him as a god, but not the same way as other gods. It also leaves room for historical development that would have come before, leading up to this situation (such as Anatoly Liberman's belief that Loki was a chthonic deity more like Saxo's Utgarthalocus than any of the other depictions of (a) Loki, for which see "Snorri and Saxo on Útgarðaloki, with Notes on Loki Laufeyjarson's Character, Career, and Name" in Word Heath. Wortheide. Orðheiði, 1994). I find it to be a fairly suitable neo-mythology in comparison to the picking-and-choosing of most heathens (not to mention a fun thought experiment).
Anyway, I have more thoughts but I’m running out of steam, and I haven’t even figured out how to work Baldr into this without more philology than I feel like doing right now (i.e. seeing which parts of Snorri’s narrative can be backed up by poems, theories about the age of those poems, etc). But hopefully this conveys to some degree the way I think about stuff like this.
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animatedminds · 3 years ago
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Star Wars: Visions - Episode 8: Lop and Ochō
Early reveal for the rest of the review: this is by far my favorite of the films so far (who knows, maybe Episode 9 will extremely wow me, but until then...), for what is actually a variety of reasons that I will probably go into at length. And because there’s nothing I like better than to nerd out at length, there is better time than now to delve into... Episode 8: Lop and Ochō Developed By: Geno Studio Directed By: Yuki Igarashi Another one that uses a brief narration to approximate the opening crawl of the films, again to great thematic effect.
This is also another one with an explicit timeframe. During the rise of the Galactic Empire, we focus on a formerly isolated planet that has reached out to the Galactic Empire in hopes that the Empire’s influence can modernize their society (some very clear Japanese historical subtext here), leading to many aliens immigrating to the planet. This includes Lop, a homeless bunny-girl alien (mildly jarring, since Gamorreans aside animal-people aliens is something you’re more likely to find in Wing Commander) who escaped from captivity and one day bumped into the patriarch of the ruling clan of the planet and his young daughter. The daughter - Ochō - insists on adopting Lop, leading to her father bringing her into the family: and so Lop and Ochō become like sisters.
Years later, strife strikes as the patriarch - Lop and Ocho’s father - realizes that the Empire only intends to exploit their planet and mobilizes a guerilla force to strike back. But Ochō takes the opposite opinion: without the Empire’s influence, their backwards planet is doomed to fall behind no matter how noble their culture is, so they must submit to ensure their own future. This rift explodes as Ochō formally joins the Empire and their father steps up his efforts to fight back, while Lop stops at nothing to stop the fighting and bring her adopted family back together again.
The very first thing I’m going to focus on here is the choice in how the story opts to approach the setting. Here, instead of getting a Jedi who visits this planet, seeing these people as an outsider does in the way most of the other shorts set up narratives of this type, the focus is on this particualr culture and how its individuals see the Empire’s presence. You are immersed into these people and their ideologies, their history and how Lop and Ocho fit into it all as heirs in the next generation. This is a fantastic way of doing this - you may recall that back during my review of The Village Bride, I commended that short for giving the people of that short a distinct means of looking at the Force, but even in that one the people were secondary: objects of the Jedi’s perspective. Here, Lop is technically an outsider, but that only outlines the prominence of the setting and storytelling as she is then raised alongside this new family and world.
The presentation here is very similar to something like Lost Stars, a book in the current canon that I’ve always seen as one of the best Star Wars novels made in the last few decades. Like Lost Stars, this short uses the characters culture to set up their upbringings and situations, and then applies that to the issue of the Empire: Lop chooses to oppose the Empire - or, more accurately, to try and bring Ochō back home - because of how much her adopted people’s attachment to family has shaped her. Ochō chooses to join the Empire because she sees nothing but the big picture, her good intentions leading her down a draconian path, and as the story goes on her conceit as an entitled heir eventually starts to show itself. The conflict does strike similar beats as the one between Thane Kyrell and Ciena Ree for similar reasons: the story makes sure we know why these characters are going to split before the split happens.
The characterization is good, is what I’m saying. A great example of doing great, distinctive character work in a short amount of time.
I should also get the visuals. This short combines bright, modern character designs with a very classical, painted aesthetic for the world around the characters. This gives it a very classic animation feel, like watching a Miyazaki movie or Sleeping Beauty: the location art of this episode is among the series’ best, and the action animation manages to combine a fluidity of motion with a simplicity of choreography, in a way not unlike The Ninth Jedi - another of the shorts whose action animation stood out.
Back to the plot with another interesting track: the story makes it unclear how strongly force sensitivity plays a role, which also gives it a good contrast to the others which generally don’t just star Jedi, but are almost exclusively about Jedi intrigue and entanglements: Lop is clearly strong with the force, but she has no context for that and her objectives have nothing to do with being a Jedi - she is centered around her people and her family. The lightsaber we see in the short - fantastically - has a backstory similar to the Darksaber we see throughout The Clone Wars, Rebels and The Mandalorian: centuries ago, a Jedi was trained from this warrior culture, and instead of passing their saber down to a padawan or giving it back into the Order, this Jedi instead passed the saber down through their family, again cycling back to the way this short uses the characters’ unique perspective and history to approach the setting rather than the other way around. The people in the short only have legends of the Jedi, and the only thing that’s significant here is that the sword featured is the prized possession of their clan.
This gives the story a lot of room for questioning, especially as the ending is open rather than definitive: is Lop going to learn more about the force, and if so will she do through the lens of her people? Who was this old Jedi, and does the sword have a history like the Darksaber does? And most importantly: the war against the Empire does not end with the end of the short: where will it go from here? Will Lop and Ochō ever be reunited? There is a degree to which this short comes off almost like a pilot for a longer story, which would serve me just fine - for the reason I’m about to get into now: As always, a purpose of these reviews is to look at how much potential these shorts - which are currently non-canon - have to some day become canon, or even at least be followed up on by the studios involved. The potential there comes down a few key factors: the major one being the amount of support these shorts get from the fanbase. But another is in how easily or organically these shorts can be incorporated into the framework of the Star Wars universe.
And are the chances for this short’s incorporation good? ABSOLUTELY. I generally judged the other shorts’ potential on how little they contradicted the world and setting around them. With this one, however, its simpler to think of it from the opposite direction: this is exactly the kind of stories that gets told in the Star Wars universe today. There are several stories I can think of just like this in concept that were made within the last few years alone, or even being made right now: the current canon loves its stories about X culture in one corner of the galaxy and how its reacting to the rise of the Empire, which heroes come from there and why. Where those heroes go in the end. The comics, especially, always seem to be on the lookout for more focus characters to play with, but I also mentioned Lost Stars earlier, and that’s a very good point of comparison: for the same reason Lost Stars makes for one of the best prose installments of the current canon, Lop and Ochō has a lot of open real estate it can waltz into to define its own part of the universe.
Besides a couple superficial stylistic things (the symbols on the lightsaber blade, as I mentioned before, Star Wars doesn’t typically do strictly “animal people” as species - that’s more a Wing Commander thing - but that doesn’t mean they couldn’t if they really wanted to), there’s nothing really stopping this thing from getting canonized. I really hope people make some noise for it, because I’m being serious when I say this of all the films has The Best Chances of being followed up - minus The Duel which, of course, was already getting a followup before the series even released.
All in all, I mean it when I say this was my favorite of all of the shorts. It, pound for pound, has everything that I found enjoyable about this set of films all in one package, ever interesting means of approaching the Star Wars universe that I was looking for, all of the interesting ways of looking at situations we already know that I was hoping for, with a set of endearing characters on top of it.
If we can get more stuff like Lop and Ochō in the future, I would be more than happy. If we can get more Lop and Ochō specifically, all the better for it. I also mean it when I say I hope people make some noise for this one. It’s worth it.
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shutterbug-12 · 4 years ago
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To “said” or not to “said”? It’s a complicated question.
I have seen many posts floating around that suggest that writers should avoid using the word “said” in their dialogue tags whenever possible. (E.g. “I like apples,” she said.) While this is not by itself a bad suggestion, it’s also not a good one. And I’d like to talk about why that is, just in case there are any writers out there who are interested in the “why” behind writing techniques and tools. 
With any writing technique, whether it’s the point of view, structure, imagery, etc., so much depends upon...well, everything else. All of a writer’s choices about what tools to employ must be examined by the writer from a macro as well as a micro perspective in order to ensure tools are being used in the most effective way. That is, a writer shouldn’t choose their techniques piecemeal, but should be chosen to work with the other tools being used and used in such a way that allows the writer to achieve their goals. A written work is a beautiful machine--and it should be made up of all the right parts that function in concert so that the machine can go. I mean, try putting the wrong part in a car and watch that car break down, right? The same is true for all the parts of your writing. And since it is a technique and a choice the writer must make, this includes the use of “said” for dialogue tags. 
It seems to me that it’s been very in vogue to avoid using the word “said,” although nobody has been able to articulate a satisfactory reason for this trend. Let me get something out there right here and now, in case any writers need to hear it: if “said” is the only word you use for dialogue tags, it does not automatically mean your writing is boring, or that you are a boring writer. And! If you always avoid “said” and use other words instead, it does not automatically mean your writing is better or more engaging, or that you’re a better, more engaging writer. What makes you a good writer is the ability to consider this choice carefully, understand the benefits and drawbacks of your choice, and make the best choice for what you want to achieve with the story, or even a particular section of dialogue. 
“Well,” you might say. “That sounds like a lot of work.” And it is, but with practice it becomes easier. So, let’s get to it. 
Let’s talk about using words other than “said” in your dialogue tags. 
• Tone/Volume. Other words, like shouted, hissed, grumbled, and whispered, can incorporate volume or tone into the dialogue. Words like this can give us a sense of how the character is speaking in addition to what they are speaking. There are plenty of times this can be useful. There are, however, plenty of times when it is not needed or is redundant. Sometimes the tone or volume is clear from context--the mood already established, the rest of the dialogue, etc. As writers, we should be considerate of the heads of our readers and, you know, not beat them with unnecessary words. So, when you want to use more descriptive tags like this, you may want to ask yourself, “Does this need to be included and, if so, why? Is the tone and volume of the character already clear?” Or even, “Does this accurately capture the manner of speaking I want to describe? Does it contradict or support the character’s body language?” 
• Added description. As mentioned, words other than “said” can be more descriptive than “said” alone. Sometimes you want to add this kind of detail in this way, but not always. Piling on descriptive words to writing that is already rich with descriptions may fatigue your reader. However, in a section of dialogue that is already sparse, using descriptive words in the dialogue tags themselves may punch up emotions in a scene. So ask yourself, “Would this description bog down the reader with yet another description? Would it enhance the reader’s understanding of the dialogue or trip them up?” 
• Pace. Another thing to consider is the pace of your dialogue, whether it is very bang-bang-bang or slower, or even interspersed with narrative sections, like memories or imagery in the character’s head. The flow of dialogue can do a lot of emotional heavy lifting, but, if executed poorly, can seriously disrupt a reader. If, for example, you have a section of dialogue that moves very quickly, you may consider not including many dialogue tags at all, just to keep the pace moving. (Note: If you do this, it is very important that it is always clear which character is speaking.) But if you chose to use tags, keep in mind that words like “said” are easily brushed over and are a great choice for dialogue that is moving relatively quickly. More descriptive words will slow down the reader. And there are certainly times you want to slow down your reader in a section of dialogue, and using words other than “said” would be a good choice in that case, as would including entire breaks in the dialogue for a character to recall memories or focus on an external object or person. So ask yourself, “What is the right pace for this dialogue? Are the words in my dialogue tags ones that support the pace I want to achieve? Do I want dialogue tags at all for every piece of dialogue?” 
• Immersion vs. distance. I find that more often than not, writers want their readers to be immersed in their story. There are times, however, that a writer constructs a story--or section of a story--in a way that purposefully distances a reader from a character or the action. Dialogue tags can contribute to (or detract from) the level of immersion you want your reader to experience. This is connected to the point about disrupting or fatiguing the reader (above). If you want your reader to be immersed in the story, it’s important to choose words that won’t trip up your reader or disrupt them. And one word really can do this. One word can make a difference. Sometimes using “said” is a good choice here, if the action or spoken words of your characters are really the most important thing for the reader to focus on. Using a basic tag like “said” or “asked” can truly let your character’s words shine. The questions to consider about this issue are similar to the ones above. “Would this word choice or dialogue tag disrupt or distract the reader from what’s really going on in the scene? Where do I want my reader’s attention and are my words and tags focusing the reader how I want?” 
These are only a few considerations when constructing your dialogue tags and choosing whether to use a word like “said” or another word instead. There have been so many great works by great authors that stuck to the basics: said, asked, replied, etc. So writers, please don’t believe you need to regurgitate a thesaurus throughout your dialogue tags to make your writing great. But! Words other than “said” certainly can clarify tone or volume, add description, slow the pace, and do other good work. 
Just remember that it is a stylistic choice. And no stylistic choice in writing is governed by a hard-and-fast, bright-line rule. But, with any writing choice you make, you should understand the consequences of those choices and the reasons behind your choice. 
In short: use a variety of words in your dialogue tags if those words truly serve the scene, but don’t use them just because. Sometimes “said” really is the best choice. 
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thesaltyoceanwaves · 4 years ago
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Adrien’s Room and Memorabilia: A Sequel Post
Well, I hinted at a similar arc for Adrien in this post, so let’s brainstorm.
CW: mentions of harassment
The major difference between Adrien and Marinette in this instance is that Mari’s room is about her working through her social anxieties and developing meaningful relationships. Adrien’s focus is on his lonely nature, as well as discovering and cultivating hobbies that he really enjoys, and aren’t just forced upon him by his father.
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His room starts off with very few photos of his loved ones, namely his parents, Chloe and Felix. These photos are professional in nature, clean, crisp and very much lacking in color. Even Chloe and Felix are behaving for the sake of the photos. Notably, their photos show them when they are much younger, to indicate that Adrien hasn’t spent time with them lately.
There’s a large emphasis placed on the amount of stuff that Adrien has in his room. The video games, the TV, the climbing wall, etc. Everything is completely clean and dust free, because he spends a lot of time in his room, but he doesn’t have anything he’s particularly drawn toward, so whenever he’s done with something, he puts it away and grabs something else. His room is also likely clean due to his strict father demanding he keep up appearances.
The only exception to this are video games, but they are very specific ones: simulators. Particularly, ones that focus on dating and romance. Life simulators, farming simulators, RPGs that offer a romance subplot, etc. Even if the sim only offers the option to make friends, Adrien is fine with that. Stuff like Animal Crossing, Stardew Valley, Harvest Moon/Story of Seasons (the ones made by Marvelous), The Sims, Undertale and so forth are right up his valley. And again, lots of dating sims.
Following his mother’s “passing,” and at the start of the show, Adrien keeps a corner of his room dedicated to her. As more time goes by and Adrien gets closer to his new friends, this will shrink down to a photo of the two of them, and most of her memorabilia will be stored away. This will show that he’s open to the possibility of his father dating someone else, as was shown in “Felix”. 
He will often turn to photos of his mother when he wants deeper, more worrying thoughts that he wants to voice and get off his chest, or if he needs advice about something and he doesn’t know who to turn to. S1 would focus more on friendship advice, because in this version, he would need to put in more time and care to make friends (Nino and him would still stay buds, Mari is still crushing on him but is hesitant to approach, and Alya is kind but cautious, with the rest of the class being wary because of his friendship with Chloe). Later on, he’s more likely to ask about plot-relevant stuff, his feelings for Ladybug and Kagami (and romance in general), his growing resentment towards his father, his meet-ups with his friends, and his discomfort with Chloe and Lila’s touchiness. Coupled with Felix’s harassment in “Felix,” this causes Adrien to realize his boundaries are being violated, and to also wonder if he has adopted similar behaviors. He goes to speak with either Sabine, Tomoe or Nino’s mom about the matter (maybe all three to get a variety of perspectives), and then with Ladybug. I would set this conversation sometime after “Frozer,” with him mentioning how he acted there, and apologizing for leaving her in the middle of battle (if the episode isn’t rewritten to include that there).
Overtime, he would start to depend less on talking to Emilie’s photo, and instead talk to whoever he asked for advice. Instead, he would talk to her prior to a larger battle or facing a bigger threat and had something he wanted to get off his chest.  
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At the beginning of their superhero career, Adrien is into collecting Ladybug merch - he’s likely to even have one of those “Do it for her” boards set up. He has some Chat Noir stuff as well, but it’s not as prominent. When other heroes arrive on the scene, he’ll have stuff of them too. He would even go so far as to recreate the heroes in his games (mostly in what Sims knock-off this universe would have), and roleplay scenarios with Ladybug. He doesn’t fully get rid of his merch over time, but he does likely downsize as he spends more time getting to know Ladybug and the team.
There’s also the obligatory Ladrien scene that I hinted at in Marinette’s post. To recap, Chat Noir, during an emotional moment with Marinette, mentions that he has Ladybug memorabilia in his room, and that he ought to downsize. Sometime later, Ladybug comes to check up on Adrien for plot-related reasons, and discovers that he “too” collects Ladybug merch. Adrien is notably embarrassed by this, but Ladybug replies by saying that she’s a fan of his as well. This will allow two sides of the ship to feel closer to each other and open up about certain things.
Similar to Marinette, Adrien will start picking up little things as mementos from previous episodes to decorate his room with (a class photo from “Reflekta,” a copy of the movie from “Horrificator,” his autographed Jagged Stone CD from “Guitar Villain,” etc).  I also imagine him holding onto clothing items such as Nino’s hat or Kagami’s jacket, that get left behind after hanging out. Over time, he is eventually gifted a mannequin to display these items.
I remember seeing a post that called into question whether Adrien’s activities were something he genuinely enjoyed or if they were just foisted upon him by his father. I like the idea of a laid out arc that explores what Adrien might like to do in the future, by having him go through various hobbies (sort of like Daphne in “Be Cool, Scooby Doo”). 
One hobby I’d give him from the start is tricking. (For those not familiar, tricking combines moves from martial arts and gymnastics, usually flips and kicks, and can be used to create super cool combos, yes I am biased about this). We often see him showing off stunts in battle and would fit Chat’s tendencies to be flashy. I could also see this becoming a hobby he shares with Nino and Kagami later on, maybe with the three of them sneaking out to meet other trickers at gatherings.
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However, I also want to give Adrien a more traditionally feminine hobby. There’s a couple of ideas I had for this, including, again ones that he cycles through as he explores himself a bit more. After meeting Luka and noticing that he paints his nails, Adrien might tiptoe in nail art. I could also see Adrien getting really into writing romance, starting off as a fanfic writer and eventually writing his own novel or comic. Alternatively, he becomes a poet. Maybe he spends an episode learning to sew with Marinette so he can make his own cosplays. Or he starts a cottagecore aesthetic blog, and additionally starts taking care of some plants to give his room some needed greenery.
I think for the sake of irony, it would be interesting to see Adrien eventually take up baking as a hobby. I know there’s a couple of AUs involving this concept already (I forget who it was, though I’m tempted to say @lenoreofraven​ ​ but correct me if I’m wrong), but I like this idea because it would give him something extra he and Marinette could bond over in the future, especially since he doesn’t want to do modelling long-term. It would also give him a good excuse to visit the Dupain-Cheng bakery, and grow closer to Sabine and Tom. Perhaps they take him up as an apprentice, or give him a delivery boy job alongside Luka (giving that relationship a chance to grow as well, as well as a Delivery Boy shenanigans episode).
When he’s either in between hobbies, in a tumultuous state, or growing distant from his father, his room will appear far messier. In the latter case, it may be an attempt to rebel against Gabriel, saying “it’s my room, I can do what I want!” If he’s not comfortable immediately speaking out against his father, he may rebel in more passive aggressive ways. I could also see him roleplaying scenarios in which he tells his father off or planning escape routes for hero patrol or tricking gatherings. I think he would also have padded mats stored somewhere in he case he can’t leave, and wants to practice, or have his own tricking gathering in the house.
As he collects more mementos, they start filling up the empty spaces in his room, so when his father prevents him from leaving the house, he doesn’t feel as lonely. He starts finding ways where, from the comfort of his room, he can hang out with friends (like in “Anansi” where he uses the facecam to see what everyone is up to). More friendly, casual photos give the room some life. These mementos may also cause him to start downsizing on the Ladybug and Friends merch.
He will only attempt to remove them altogether if his identity is revealed to Marinette, and she doesn’t seem to process it well (at least at first). Anything pertaining to her, as Ladybug or Marinette, he may attempt to remove, until he realizes just how present she is in his life. He would then consult his mother’s photo about what to do. 
And similarly to Marinette at the end, when they start dating, he would start to incorporate couple’s photos. I think both of them would have those photo booth strips, but I could also see Adrien commissioning posters of his OTP, LadyNoir, and bringing back some of his merch (in a teasing, well-meaning way). 
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anchoviesinthenightsky · 3 years ago
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What’re your thoughts on the impact Luca has had for the queer community and for MLMs alike?
Starting off with some heavy hitting questions today huh? /joking
I really appreciate that I'm a person's whose opinion/ thoughts you'd value enough to ask this kind of question.
I have a couple different thoughts, but let me lay out a framework first so you can see where I’m coming from.
Firstly, I’m not a MLM nor am I in the MLM community, so I don't want to speak to their experience or their thoughts, because I’m not intimately familiar with them.
Secondly, I’m coming at this from an American perspective, meaning that I currently (and for better part of the last 5-8 years) have had a lot of access to television and movies that contain queer characters and/or center queerness itself. I think this conversation about Luca (which is Disney meaning that it’s going to be widely available/ made for an international audience to some degree) and its impact might look very different in a place where there is less queer representation in media. But, I can’t speak to that, so I’ll leave that part of the conversation for someone else.
Okay, the framework is set. Let’s get into this.
When talking about the impact that a story has on a community, often times we’re often talking about a few different things, like: what does this representation do for the queer community? Is there an issue that’s given more attention?
I find that queer stories that leave a larger cultural impact often do one of the following things (and ideally more than one):
represent of queer voices/ queer stories in the story
cast queer people to play a character and incorporate that queerness into the characters
educate about queer issues or identities to the audience
advocate / spread awareness about queer issues
normalize queer topics/ lessen the taboo of them
In an earlier draft of this post, I went on to talk about the show The Golden Girls, and how it did a lot of these things during the 1980s-early 1990s, when most other shows were not doing it. That discussion got kind of long, so I'm cutting it out (but if you want to example let me know).
But the point I'm trying to make is that-- stories that have a positive, long lasting, and significant impact for the queer community in the broader culture, require queerness to be written explicitly into the story. It’s hard to advocate, educate, or humanize a community that you refuse to name.
Luca doesn’t have explicitly queer characters. (We read them as queer, but they aren’t explicitly queer. A good comparison might be The Mitchells vs. The Machines, where being queer isn’t a huge part of Katie’s story, but she’s wearing a pride pin the entire time and is shown to have a crush on a girl.)
I will give Luca some credit, because the movie does feature a voice actor who is bi and who uses they/he pronouns, which is wonderful! And I also wouldn't be surprised to learn if there were queer people in the writer's room and/or queer artists who worked on the film. But the story itself is not explicitly queer, so its impact on/for the queer community will always be limited by that.
But but I think a lot of us queer people often find ourselves looking for queerness in stories that don’t explicitly have it. We want to see ourselves represented in a variety of stories.
I think that’s part of why fandom spaces often end up being queer spaces. I forget the post, but there’s a lovely post by a fandom elder who talks about the way that we steal characters away and make them queer. We read the subtext and the nods, and we create the rest ourselves.
I think that it’s fair to say that fandom spaces are important to queer folks and to queer culture itself, because it’s a community where we can write the stories we want to see without having to worry about appeasing straight audiences (or straight higher ups, or straight networks, or homophobic countries who’s markets we want to sell movies in). There’s just us, and the work we create.
And that legacy goes back incredibly far. It goes back to queer zines of Kirk/Spock Star Trek fanfic in the 1960s and 1970s, and likely far beyond that too. As long as there have been queer people, we've found ways to tell queer stories and to reimagine stories as queer.
I think Luca firmly sits in that tradition. And I think that the queerness we add to Luca in our fan-creations, has the same impact that fan work has always had on the queer community— that it allows us to see ourselves as nuanced, valuable, and loved
And in that way, I think Luca is important.
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a-lil-perspective · 4 years ago
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The Bad Batch and Axe/Knife Throwing
A/N: Uhhh I’ve had this in my drafts for weeks. I don’t actually know what this is. Just funky bro stuff that spiraled into like 2.5k words because I just don’t know when to stop, do I. The working title for this was “Bullshit and Bullseyes”, if that puts anything into perspective (I nearly made that the actual title haha). Anyway. Enjoy?
Technically, no; they didn’t need to spend credits on booking the space. By all accounts, there’s nothing wrong with chucking weapons against the Havoc Marauder’s hull. You wouldn’t believe the damage it’s withstood over the years.
Nevertheless, its walls had been taking quite the beating lately (honestly how many times has it actually been said “no weapons in the house”?) and quite frankly, Hunter was getting sick of grousing about the fact.
But when you’ve been cooped up in the vacuum of space for days as the Bad Batch has, you become acutely aware of the perpetual sensation of losing your mind—and of the stagnant air beginning to fester.
Let’s put it this way: Intelligence work is not kind to four Super Commandos, who’d just as soon wrangle a herd of Gundarks than allow anymore strategic analysis to keep them huddled around a comm system for days on end with no intermission in sight. It can’t be stressed enough the way this work was far, far beneath them. They’d just as soon tell High Command to get on with the invasion already (where their skill sets actually applied) and that if they want Clone Force 99’s help, they had best find a better way to hold their attention, because “tapping into enemy comm channels” ain’t worth a damn.
But, until then: there were other things that would do the trick.
Back within the planet’s gravitational pull once again, the Bad Batch prioritized their short timeframe of respite by not actually participating in the act of respite at all, instead seeking out the nearest weapons range. It felt something like freedom upon discovery.
The axe throwing establishment was practically empty when they arrived, which was the driving force in their eagerness, having booked the last session of the night. More room to work.
And, no one to tell you you can’t bring your own arsenal.
Hunter removed the strap of his weighty knife bag from his shoulder and set it down as the boys settled in their designated lane. While Wrecker and Crosshair dove for the bag like deprived womp rats, Tech had more gracefully found a spot on the nearest bench and planted himself to it, tapping away at the little box atop his vambrace. Predictable.
“Don’t even give me that look, Hunter,” Tech didn’t even look up, already privy to the quizzical gaze while fixated on his slew of technology. “You knew good and well I would be taking notes and collecting data during this session for the purpose of enhancing our overall performance going forward.”
As if he hadn’t been taking an infinite amount of notes the past five days.
“How ‘bout you take some notes on how to have fun,” Crosshair mumbled through the toothpick he anchored to the corner of his lip (Hunter always felt nervous when he worked out or trained with that thing in, just waiting for the day he finally chokes). The sniper didn’t bother looking back at Tech as he rummaged through Hunter’s bag in search of knives he deemed fit. He grinned wickedly at a particular set of five, all of them airy and tapered and perfect for his nimble fingers to sidle around. They were similar in size, if only a few inches wider, to the darts he usually threw in his quarters. He considered them with a sleight of hand, quickly piecing together an accurate projection of air velocity and the weapons’ overall weight.
Crosshair would make his mark. He always did.
It further came as no surprise that the Sergeant excelled in his turns from the get-go. He wasted no time in nailing bullseye after bullseye with a variety of weapons big and small. It was comical, the way Tech would make sounds of marvel and adjust his recording lens accordingly when Hunter would nail a pair of axes with a backwards throw or something of dramatic flair.
And Wrecker, oh, Wrecker.
Let’s say his turn was cut rather short—as were the rest of his brothers—when his very first throw, bearing as much care a demolition expert could muster, drove straight through the target in its entirety and brought the entire structure down wall-to-board. Hunter shuddered, grimacing instinctively at the harsh clang of colliding metals and wood that ended in a timbering heap.
Wrecker merely flashed a sheepish smile.
Hunter bit back his frustrated sigh, but the one expelling behind him was unmistakable. He whirled around to find the sensation to be correct, and that the expression marring the Devaronian’s features was unsightly.
Great. The owner of the establishment.
“I’ll pay for that,” Hunter offered immediately, gesturing awkwardly to the ghastly pile of materials. It was an auto-pilot response, really; Hunter was used to cleaning up after his rowdy bunch by now.
“Got that right,” the Devaronian rumbled, cracking his brooding knuckles as a statement that seemed more mindless than anything; he must’ve realized it foolish to get into it with four Super Clones. He turned around and stalked off, but not before grumbling something about the Clones being “mindless rank weeds” and “no better than droids”.
Wrecker must not have heard thank the Maker, otherwise the entire building could’ve been brought down on their heads in nothing short of an emotional outburst. Crosshair simply threw a crude gesture to the Devaronian’s retreating backside. It was either that or the knife in his hand.
“Cross, put your finger down dammit, we’re trying not to cause trouble here,” Hunter hissed. “You really wanna piss off a Dev?”
“You really wanna piss off a Crosshair?” Wrecker interjected with a wicked chuckle, always at the ready to tango with Crosshair and trouble.
He had a point, though.
Crosshair made a deep scoffing noise in his chest and simply turned his attention back to the dilapidated target. The sniper with no fear. Or so he’d like everyone to believe.
“Sorry, Sarge,” Wrecker rubbed at the back of his thick neck, having gone back to anxiously surveying the damage.
“Let’s just switch lanes,” Hunter countered coolly, helping Tech gather up their weaponry and move over one. It’s not like the owner would let him (or his pocket) forget, so there was no use worrying about it.
With a fresh target and a fresh turn at the ready, Wrecker eagerly began to ask for a re-do with the axes he skewered with moments ago only to be let down—gently, of course. Hunter wasn’t a mean brother, for fierfek’s sake.
He felt a bit guilty over limiting Wrecker’s turns but honestly, what was he thinking, bringing them to a place like this? It’s too... normal for Commandos—whatever ‘normal’ is. They would’ve been better off back on the Marauder.
No they wouldn’t have.
Maybe that’s why Hunter willingly ventured out on a weekend evening in the Coruscanti Districts for that sense of normality for he and his brothers; as if it could actually be found in the bustle of city life and whatever resided within.
It’s not that he wanted them to fit in, per se—Hunter can speak for the four of them in that they’re secure in their abilities and standings. But it’s as if he wanted something... grounding. In the middle of a war. Certainly a foreign term to both soldiers and citizens alike.
Grounding. Something to give the boys a sense of fulfillment and a taste of youth, even if only for the night. No expectations, no methods. Just Serotonin and sibling rivalry. Fulfillment.
Wrecker was certainly feeling fulfilled over the knives he opted to throw instead, much lighter and more controlled than the axe—which was a shame, really; he was very good at them. You haven’t quite lived until you’ve seen Wrecker at full capacity in his brute strength. The axes were just an inkling of his potential. Despite the fact that the majority of knives completely disappeared in his wide expanse of palm, he could still stick them with deadly force. Tech especially made relevance of the fact, insisting he show Wrecker a recap of his feats later.
When he wasn’t recording and plugging in data for the other throwers, Tech went a few rounds with Hunter’s smallest knives: quick and sleek and agile, much like the goggled member himself. The preference of axe or knife was divvied between the group: axe’s were more Hunter and Wrecker’s thing while knives were more Tech and Crosshair’s.
It took a bit of encouragement for Tech to actually complete his turn, as he was more concerned with the preliminaries and technicalities instead of the actual throwing. He’d stand there for what felt like several minutes, considering and trying to incorporate the use of his tech until Crosshair—how dare he—cut through his concentration with a sharp demand to “Just. Throw.”
It was rather unfortunate that there was only one target available to four people wanting to use it simultaneously. It seemed the members of the elite Commando squad still hadn’t mastered the art of patiently waiting their turn.
Hunter couldn’t help but find the hilarity in that Tech managed to land several of the knives as ‘butt sticks’: handle side in. He chuckled to himself. Only Tech.
The engineer claimed the act was wholly intentional. Hunter thought his witty brother was just trying to excuse a simple over-rotation. Tech had the aptitude for speed under his belt, but sometimes he had trouble controlling his speed. But if you thought that hindered Tech’s ingenuity or prowess in the slightest, you were sorely mistaken.
It’s times like these Hunter felt that familiar swell of pride in his chest as he relish his brothers’ unique array of strengths, weaknesses, and opportunes. All of it played a monumental part. The Sergeant in him couldn’t ask for a more proficient squad. The brother in him couldn’t ask for more unique siblings.
In no time, all four men had each accumulated their own sheen of sweat, the byproduct of a solid hour’s workout—no, two hours (Hunter should know by the way he grudgingly dumped another handful of credits into the Devaronian’s on the hour), their allotment extended all because the bros refused to be done, reduced to acting like petulant children because of.
Speaking of petulant.
“Who’s in the lead now, Tech?” Crosshair asked through a lingering pant, breaking from his turn as he took a seat next to the human scoreboard. He accepted the cool rag Tech handed him with a curt nod and slung it over the back of his neck to soak up the sweat, rolling his toned shoulders and shaking away the thought of potentially having to break from the rifle tomorrow because of how much he overdid it with the knives. Sore shoulders made for shit shots.
Tech chewed his lip and shot a single, timid glance up to Cross, who suddenly realized that maybe the gifted rag rapidly warming behind his neck was actually just an act of grooming for the disappointing news to come.
Tech cleared his throat. “In the current overall standing, it appears that Wrecker takes the lead, with Hunter a very close second, me of course making the ranks, and you being last—”
“Aw hell no,” Crosshair yanked the rag off and threw it to his feet as he pulled the toothpick out from between his now grit teeth, jabbing it around the room in emphasis. “I’ve easily got the best aim around here, I ain’t the one who destroyed an entire target and I didn’t miss one damn time—”
“It is not about missing, Cross; there are many factors to consider in the overall performance,” Tech answered matter-of-factly, with maybe the slightest hint of sympathy (more like irritation) laced within.
“And that includes humility,” Hunter chimed in, crossing his arms.
Wrecker and his lack of knowledge on appropriate social cues left him cheering over his victory, and Hunter forced himself to swallow the smile tugging at his lips. Few things in life filled him as much as Wrecker’s youthful exuberance. It was infectious.
He gave a light shove to the solid mass of man. “That means you too, Wreck.”
“Bullshit...” Crosshair sulked, numbingly processing his loss. He found himself leaning into Tech’s supportive pat on the back, suddenly too tired to care about his dwindling dignity or even any of his prior winnings in the past. He’ll forever be consigned to his dangerous competitive streak and that’s that.
“You’re just a sore loser!” Wrecker was grinning wide again, all teeth and triumphant. Crosshair scowled further and yes, he was actually pouting up from his spot on the bench thank you very much. Blackmail him later.
“The only thing that’s gonna be sore is your ass when I shove my foot up it.”
“Hey.” Hunter’s cue to intervene. “Settle it down. We had a good run tonight, blew off some steam, got a nice workout and stretched the legs. Let’s head back home, yeah?”
Hunter received murmurs of agreement save for Crosshair, who responded with silence, which was his answer.
The Bad Batch gathered their things and headed out, with Hunter paying the owner for the property damage on the way (reaching up to smack Wrecker in the back of the head just for good measure), and the alien made no attempts at subtlety in his relief over the way the chaotic bunch were finally departing. Apparently, the Bad Batch showcased some of the more poorer examples of decent clientele.
Funny that one might assume ‘decent’ and ‘Coruscant’ actually go together.
As they emerged back into the flow of the planet-wide city, the near-midnight breeze quickly catching in all of the sweat spots, Wrecker stopped in his tracks, having been eyeing a dejected Crosshair on the way.
“Hunter?”
“Yeah, vod?”
A timid pause. “Can we get ice-cream? I think Cross here could use some. With sprinkles and a starcherry on top, just how he likes it.” Wrecker scooped up the lanky brother in question, who squawked in protest. “And a nice, squishy Wrecker hug.” He pet Crosshair’s head. “That always helps him feel much better about me winning.”
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