#I didn't mean to interrupt

[themuppetarchives]

[brinaarcadia]

Am I interrupting you?

[cannibalgh0st]

I got verbally bullied by an 80 year old patient today because I was being too NICE to her. And she got in my face telling me, "They train you to be condensecing, you're being fake nice."

And that made me so taken back????? I was utterly confused and replied, "What do you mean condescending?" And this woman basically mocked my voice and said," Dont you know what that means? Condescending is when you're pretending to be nice when you're not, " and got in my FACE about it- Note this, she is sane of mind and was completely able to move around and and speak for herself-just because she's a senior doesn't mean she's innocent. **I DEAL A LOT WITH THE SENIOR POPULATION OKAY AND TRY MY BEST TO BE KIND TO THEM**

I've been so extra sensitive lately, so I kindly removed myself, and I got my supervisor to take over. I did spent half my shift crying, but I was off early today....

Also found out the patient was just awful to everyone...🫥

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

“because he never accepts that it's never been about righteousness--it's about repentance.” except javert killing himself IS repentance.

well, it’s like 12 different things, because bro had gone days without sleeping and very little food and water and he already had low self-worth and kept asking the amis to kill him and just assumed he was going to die AND THEN valjean upended his understanding of the world and morality. he was really going through it & there are a lot of overlapping reasons for why he jumps into the seine.

but javert is like Number One Most Responsible guy in the whole story. taking responsibility is his Thing (forever bitter the musical doesn’t include the punish me monsieur le maire scene). how else, in his derailment, could he atone for his conceived misdeeds other than by handing in his resignation to god? in the brick he had already left a note urging his superiors to treat convicts at toulon better, which is another step in his repentance (and another crime the musical commits by not including it). jumping into the seine was another step.

honestly a lot of ppl who like the book think the musical was dead wrong to exclude him from the big heaven group sing, because it COMPLETELY undermines the themes of forgiveness and compassion threaded throughout les mis. like the musical was simply wrong lol.

This is helpful context! I am still finishing the brick, although I have fully read the abridged version, and that detail about the letter wasn't included, so I didn't know that occurred! (And thank you for the message--this is a long response but I'd love to hear more of your thoughts!)

I agree that Javert is certainly deeply distraught and remorseful; like you mentioned, his worldview is literally falling apart, and his actions reflect his mental state. But his death isn't really repentance--in the sense that it's not what God would have wanted. To me it reads like a Judas situation: a desperate realization of a huge mistake, and doing the only thing you think can make it right, namely, ending it all. That's the just punishment for someone so wrong, isn't it?

But true repentance, meaning the repentance that the Lord desires, is about changing your ways, not "paying a price." Had Javert really understood the beauty of Valjean's mercy (an image of Christ's, just as the bishop's undeserved mercy was to Valjean himself), rather than killing himself, he would have lived to also become "an honest man"--in heart. One who could forgive and understand forgiveness, for himself as well as others. One who could recognize that he is not The Law, that he can fall, but that he can also be "brought to the light." One who could accept that men like Valjean, and men like himself, CAN change, and be changed.

It's tragic to me because so much of "Stars," and his character in the book as well as the musical, is about wanting to be righteous, to rise above his birth and the sinfulness he associates it with. It's about wanting to please the Lord by his actions. But in his end, he shows he never understood what God really wanted from him, and that's where my original phrase comes in: not righteousness, but repentance. To live, and face the man you were, knowing it's no longer the man you are. That it's never been about what you've done or can do, but about what's been done for you. That's the Gospel that he could never fully accept.

To use another example you mentioned, that misunderstanding drives why he asks the Mayor (Valjean) to punish him--in his worldview, mercy is unjust, or at the very least, unfair. Evil must be punished; "those who fall like Lucifer fell" receive "the sword." But "as it is written," God "desires mercy, not sacrifice" (Matthew 9:13). God would have wanted Javert to live, and Javert couldn't see that, and that's why it's devastating to me. In his misunderstanding of the heart of God, he misses what would have set him free from the chains of sin he's always been trying to escape.

That's why he's contrasted with Valjean, who (though he carries guilt about his past till the end of his life) is eventually able to face it and confess what he had done to those he loves. He knew there was mercy to be found, if only it was asked for. Javert was too blinded by pride and shame to realize it, and so, while broken, he never was able to truly repent.

For that, you must go on.

[izzyspussy]

my sister is telling my dad the story of last night and they are hard core both sidesing it. "well, you know, she doesn't take apologies well..." 1. that's her fucking problem not mine. 2. that doesn't have any fucking bearing on the two and a half hours straight of transphobic talk. 3. not taking an apology well is one thing, telling someone they're "lucky" you're not assaulting them when they say they're sorry for being a bit rude is actually a totally different thing LOL!

[c6jpg]

word on the street is the natlan music is good I'm holding you all to that 🔪

[beevean]

the hallmark of Peak Fiction is shoehorning a very serious conversation about a very serious past conflict in an unrelated scene, in the form of snarky banter played for laughs, so that the writer can pretend they listen to audience feedback, while not needing to fully think of addressing the issue and fully sweeping it under the rug because it would be inconvenient to paint the involved characters as dumbasses/vile. Bonus points if it literally goes nowhere and it can be removed from the scene without affecting the flow of the dialogue.

And if it makes me want to eat my own bones because I feel the urge to beat the involved characters to death with a nailed bat, that's just a plus :)

[jellogram]

A good example of what my adolescence was like is that one time I got in a huge fight with my mother (which was a daily occurrence) so I secluded myself away to listen to Sgt. Pepper's and cool off and she came in while I was flipping the vinyl and wanted to talk it out and I brushed her off because I was now so engrossed in Sgt. Pepper's that her attempt at reconciliation was simply an interruption in my Beatles-ing and I didn't want to hear it. I don't even remember what the fight was about. I just remember being between Mr. Kite and Within You Without You and being like "God mom will you please just fuck off, this is important"

[sskk-manifesto]

(｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡

[starzdeath]

ahaha guess who found out their notifications have been broken for the past few weeks

[heartshattering]

There are a lot of reasons why I'll never be able to work outside my home but ultimately the biggest reason is always going to be that my mom requires someone to be in the same room as her 24/7 and only cares about being the center of attention at all times.

[wewontbesleeping]

idc about any of the youtube shows or w/e, taylor swift needs to go on celebrity jeopardy. please.

[araneitela]

bladie is typing...

[text; kafka] my obone is broken i think [text; kafka] wait [text; kafka] two more nuns [text; kafka] my obone can't spell [text; kafka] ducking hell [text; kafka] just coke help me [text; kafka] aka infrastructure [text; kafka] ...........

bladie is offline

(for legal reasons this is crack-)

Oh my hoda, Lauri, I'm ducking fringe. Okay, so maybe Bladie also isn't the refined man that Kafka thought that he was, even with his one bun. No matter how fine said one bun is. I dunno if even two nuns can save him from this one.

(for non-legal reasons: no it's not, to hell with that)

[brokenhardies]

Marc struggled, pushing his body off the floor, but Amber's foot hit his neck, forcing him down. He grit his teeth, trying to force either Steven or Jake to the front, but as hard as they all tried, they couldn't fight against her strength.

"Yknow... Maybe Harrow was right."

Amber's voice wasn't raised above a whisper as she said that. Marc turned his head, trying to rotate as his neck was pushed onto the ground. He saw the woman he once called his friend, his sidekick, now completely changed by grief. Her costume was all black now, lacking any of the bright yellows and oranges that her costume once had. The gold boots and gold 8-pointed star emblem was all that remained.

Her hair was loose and fluttered in the wind, alongside the long, black cape that she was wearing. Her arms were bare, glowing a bright gold with electricity. Her eyes were glowing gold, with permanent gold tearstains marking her cheeks.

"Maybe if he unleashed Ammit's justice on the world, none of this wouldn't have happened," She continued, her voice taunting now. "Because you would be dead. My father would still be alive. Billy would still be alive."

She leant down, her eyes still glowing, as Marc tried to bite back tears. He recognised what she was saying, and Steven was trying to push himself to the front to protect Marc from Amber's repetition of his mother's abuse. But Marc didn't let him.

He deserved this, he thought.

"I can't believe it, she was right." Amber continued, raising her hand as a blast of ionic energy began to form, aiming it directly at the back of Marc's head. The heat was almost comforting, in a way.

"It was all your fault."

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[lupismaris]

In my fear and spite that a cishet white woman with residual racist habits would be in charge of our university's pride social messaging I have somehow found my way into internal meetings for university pride planning she is not party to

[onewomancitadel]

Here is a horror I overcame with fic writing: I actually lost a substantial amount of work (about 1/3rd of a chapter) despite seemingly saving and backing up in two separate areas and the next day rewrote everything essentially from memory (and also better). If at any point my morale were going to be completely compromised I think giving up there would've been sensible.