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[immaqulate]

don't let go | c.s

— sub! chris sturniolo x fem! reader

— warnings: (slight) angst with a very sweet resolution, heavy emotional comfort, clinginess, nightmare themes, soft!Chris, pet names, cuddling, chest kisses, hand-holding, Chris crying

Chris wakes from a nightmare and clings to you for comfort. He’s teary, shaken, and needs constant reassurance that you love him and won’t leave. You hold him through it, whispering soft promises until he finally falls asleep in your arms.

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You don’t know how long he’s been awake when you open your eyes—just that when you do, he’s already holding onto you for dear life. His body is draped over yours like a second skin, face tucked into the curve of your neck, breathing uneven.

It’s the trembling that gives him away.

“Chris?” you whisper, instantly alert. Your fingers curl into his curls, brushing them back as gently as you can. “Talk to me, baby. Are you okay?”

He doesn’t answer right away. Just tightens his arms around your waist and exhales a shaky, ragged breath. You can feel his heartbeat thudding against your ribs, too fast. Too scared.

“I had a dream,” he finally murmurs. His voice is hoarse and wet, like he’s been crying quietly for a while.

Your heart twists. “What kind of dream?”

He lifts his face just enough for you to see the devastation in his eyes. “You left me.”

“Chris—”

“You said you were tired of how I always needed you. How I talk too much. Feel too much. You said you didn’t love me anymore.” His voice cracks. “And then you packed your stuff and walked out and… and I couldn’t stop you. No matter how loud I begged.”

“Oh, sweetheart.” You immediately shift so he’s lying half on top of you, one hand in his hair, the other wrapped tightly around his back. “You know that’s not real. Right? You know I’d never do that.”

“But it felt real,” he chokes, hiding his face against your chest again. “I woke up and you weren’t holding me and I—I panicked. I couldn’t breathe.”

“You poor baby,” you whisper, kissing his forehead. “I’m so sorry you had to feel that. But I’m here. I’m right here.”

His hand finds yours under the blanket, lacing your fingers together tightly, as if afraid you’ll slip away in the dark. “Please don’t leave me,” he whispers. “I don’t think I could survive it.”

You press your lips to his temple, slow and steady. “Chris. Look at me.”

He hesitates, then lifts his head again. You frame his face with both hands, brushing the tears from his cheeks. His eyes are glassy and red. He looks like he’s five seconds away from falling apart again.

“You are everything to me,” you say firmly. “You are not too much. You are not needy. You are the sweetest, most loving person I’ve ever known, and I feel lucky every single day that I get to love you.”

He sniffles, leaning into your touch. “Even when I’m like this?”

“Especially when you’re like this.” You smile and trace your thumb along his jaw. “It just means you care. That your heart is big. And I love that about you. I love you.”

A small sound escapes him—somewhere between a gasp and a sob. And then he’s kissing you. Soft, desperate, all lips and breath and emotion. It’s not lust, it’s not hunger—it’s need. He kisses you like you’re air.

When he finally pulls away, he tucks his head back under your chin and exhales shakily. “Can I just stay here like this for a while? Holding you?”

“You can stay like this forever, baby.”

His arms wrap around your middle tighter. He sighs into your neck.

You lie like that for what feels like hours—your fingers running slowly through his hair, your other hand tracing gentle patterns across his back. He never fully relaxes. Not really. But the longer he holds you, the quieter his breathing becomes.

“I love you,” he whispers one last time, voice small and sleepy. “So much. Don’t let go.”

You kiss his shoulder. “I won’t.”

And you don’t, not that night. Not ever.

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[ddorizrem]

“the letter i wish i sent.”

mark lee x ex!fem reader

genre: angst, tw: might be sensitive for some readers (ed)

to: m9rklee99@gmail.com

[no subject]

hi.. honestly you don't even have to read this or reply to this but i just had to let it out somewhere. writing this is honestly really pathetic of me and i don't even know if i'll send it but i'm just gonna keep spiraling. i know you probably have me blocked on everything already, wouldn't be surprised if this was next. i wish i could've said more while you were here so i'll just say it now. my heart hurts so fucking bad, i'm not trying to throw a pity party for myself or anything but i genuinely feel like you ripped my heart out and threw it away. the whole day before you broke up with me, i couldn't eat, i was so nauseous and in my gut i felt like i knew it was coming. i know our relationship was never perfect, i know i was never a perfect girlfriend but i always hoped i was enough for you. when you came over and you were deadset on ending the relationship, there was honestly nothing i could say or get out of my system, after sitting on it for a while, i really wish you tried to fight for us. i wish i was enough to make you stay. i wish you loved the ugly parts of me and didn't give up when things got too tough. there are so many things i would wish for. there's probably never going to be a chance for us again, i know you didn't want to give me any hope last night but it's okay. i'll learn to accept it one day, but until then i'll continue to mourn the life we promised we would have together, the kids we said we would have, the pets we said we would take care of and so much more. i hope i stay as the girl who wrote you letters when you first started talking and made love real for you, i hope the memories of me in your life stay light hearted and something that makes you smile when you think about your youth, because i'll be thinking of you in that way too. you are someone i will always hold dearly in my heart, you were the one that helped me bring myself back to whole, even if you were also the one who broke me again. it only feels right to end us off with another letter from me. this is probably the last time we'll ever contact each other, or at least i'll contact you. i'll keep looking for you at places we used to go, you'll always be the first person i look for in a room and the laugh i'll always recognize from miles away. i hope you get everything you ever dreamed of and more, even if i'm not the one in them. thank you for the most amazing 1 year and almost 8 months of my life, i'll treasure it in my heart forever. i'll see you when i see you, take care <3

[haniipie]

suho | glue song

contains: fluff <3,kissing, reader has chubby cheeks..(it’s so specific bc I wrote this for myself originally^^),implied black reader but anyone can read,exchange student shenanigans , okay writing at most, happy ending ! & a late happy birthday to my babygirl suho <3

summary: suho having a crush!

suho pays absolutely no mind to new students, always in the back of the class, sleeping with that stupid little plushie, Every single day.

but when he hears that the new student was a exchange student, a girl specifically, his ears perk up, and he pays attention for the first time in forever as the teacher finally opens up the door to low and behold the Byuksan’s new student.

glossy lips, french curl braids falling down your back, and big fat cheeks he swears that’ll fit in the palm of his hand.

suho believed that you were the cutest girl he’s ever seen, everything about you had him in awe at first sight. The way your hands fumbled over your skirt as you awkwardly introduced yourself.

maybe he was being too observant, but he couldn’t help it, really.

as the teacher went on and on about how new students should be treated with respect and how everyone should be welcoming, you stood there, waiting for the teacher to assign you to a seat, and before the words could even leave the teacher’s mouth— suho is already jumping out his seat, hand raised, offering the seat next to him, so obnoxious.

Your mouth forms into a small “o” expression, the teacher giving you the green light to go ahead, you awkwardly made your way to the back, muttering a small “thank you,” to the cute boy who just offered you a seat.

“ahn suho.” he says, a small but awkward smile tugging at his face when he see’s you looking at him. “ah.. thank you suho”You smile. Suho short circuits for a minute— he never got shy when speaking to girls, but the way his name rolled off your tongue so softly made him hinder, gosh you were so.. cute.

later that day , he made sure to accompany you during lunch, walking beside you as he made side talk. Safe to say that you definitely made a friend now, but with his intentions, that wasn’t going to last forever.

as time went on, you and suho were regularly together now, he took you home, took you out to eat at his grandma’s restaurant, shrugging his arm around you every time he got the chance.

The first time he took you home was a week after you two met, he insisted. not wanting you to walk home alone when he couldn’t walk home with you. The walk to his motorcycle was just down the street, he usually drove it to school the days he had work after school, and today was one of those days.

“suho i don’t like motorcycles-” you protest, but suho only looks at you, eyebrows raised as he grabbed the helmet off the bike header— holding it out to you.

“ah? It’s okay, as long as I’m here nothing bad will happen, just hold onto me,” he dismisses your concerns, sliding the helmet on your head. “But suho-“ you attempt to protest once again— but suho, pinches the side of your cheek, head tilted looking rather softly at you. “It’s safe, just trust me, okay?”

You stare up at him, eyes wavering and your lips in a small pout, “okay..,” you mutter, before he shoots you a small smile, pulling at the fat of your face before letting go “don’t get an attitude with me,” he teases before hopping onto the bike, “I have to be at work in a minute so cmon,” you follow right behind him, arms wrapping around his torso as he drove.

-

The two of you met at a random cafe a few weeks after, suho didn’t know why— but he found himself bending down on one knee to tie your shoe, or hovering close behind you for a good minute. Whenever someone questioned him about you and him dating, he didn’t exactly know what to say, he didn’t deny it, just shrugged and went back to being overly close with you.

“do you like this little guy?” Is what he asked you every time he saw a ridiculously big plushie, holding it up to your face, “looks like you,” he giggles as you swat at his hand, one hand grabbing at your face, per usual.

The two of you went to a cafe after, ordering sweet treats— it was suho’s idea of course. You had gotten mango sticky rice, yours came before his, so he just sat there and looked at you as if you did something wrong while you ate yours. “ so you hate me and want me to die?”

“huh? no suho stop being dramatic,” you let out a small giggle, before you continued to eat your dessert, but, as you continue, suho’s eyes waver to your lips,nothing out of the ordinary . he always noticed how glossy your lips were— and he loved to stare at them, but this time you had something on them, whipped cream. He reaches out and his hand grasps the side of your face, thumb wiping at the whipped cream before he licked his thumb. “All better,”

You barley even process what he did “yo- you didn’t have to do that-” but he doesn’t say anything, flashing you a small smirk before the waiter brung his rice cake out— and finishes it in a span of 5 minutes.

the two of you left later in the afternoon, it was getting a little colder than usual, you dig your hands into the thin of your jacket, “it’s cold..” you whisper to yourself , shivering as Suho walked next you, he stops. Shrugging off his jacket and putting it over you. “you need to speak up , if you were cold, you should’ve told me sooner,” he scolds you. Zipping up the jacket and adjusting the collar. “ I didn’t wanna be a bother..” “you’ll never be a bother to me. I promise.” he assures you, as he wraps his arm around you once again.

once you made it infront of your house, you stop to take off the jacket and hand it back to Suho. “keep it,” he says, resting his hands in his pants pocket. “You look better in it than I do.”and the way he says it rolls off his tongue so smoothly, you don’t even believe he’s trying to mess with you.

“You’ll be cold,” you bleated. A small pout forming on your face, “ ah, don’t pout I don’t like it when you pout,” suho stated mimicking your face mockingly , grabbing your face in his hands once again, squishing your face together.

“I’ll be fine okay? I don’t like when you worry about me you get all sad and start to look like a dog that got stung by a bee,” he jokes— making your face scrunch up more before he let go.

he stares down at you for a moment, looking at you as if you were the only thing that mattered to him, letting out a sigh. as if he was upset he had to leave you.

He places his hands on your shoulder ,"suho you’re seriously gonna get sick,” you protest. “When have you ever seen me fall victim to anyone? Let alone sickness,” he jokes. “I just. Want you to go in the house okay? Sooner you do that, I don’t have a risk of being out here any longer and getting sick.”

“You’re still walking home without a jacket, and it’s like— 70 degrees!” It’s like everything went one ear and out the other to him, because boy, he was not paying attention to a word you said, to busy staring at you to care.

“right..” suho nods, and when you continue to ramble, his hand finds a way on your face again, not grabbing, but just a soft gentle hand resting on your face, “suho?” Your voice softens. The way he was looking at you made you want to explode right now, his head slightly tilting in as he leaned forward, just testing the waters before asking “can I.. kiss you?”

You nod, leaning in foward as your head naturally tilts and your eyes close, while suho engraves in the feeling of your lips, warm, wet from your lip gloss and felt so soft to him, Suho has always been handsy, so it was no suprise when he grabbed your waist, tugging you closer to deepen it.

he pulls away after a couple of seconds, face and ears flushed red, staring at you in awe.“ so does this mean.. we’re like.. dating now?”

You couldn’t stop that stupid, big smile from taking over your face, suho was all you could ever want, and you weren’t going to take this for granted. “yes, you’re my boyfriend now dummy”

Suho couldn’t stop himself from cheesing either, scooping you up from your feet before spinning you around.

It was a little weird though. since when did you started looking at suho in this way? You couldn’t necessarily remember. Maybe those weird feelings have always been there, and you were just a little too oblivious to acknowledge them.

On suho’s end it was always quite obvious to everyone but you, he wanted you, and he finally got you.

a/n: sorry if this felt a little rushed :<

[meganekune]

oi，早安女神😋泥到底是怎么能写出这么美味的东西🥺我又过来骚扰骚扰（）

1，幼年ray遇到现在的mc或现在的ray

2，如果三年前的ray穿越到Binary stars后日谈（前两天还睡不着，吃不下的想mc，一转头和mc有了个家庭（）

3，英雄夫妇（感觉mc和ray一起当社畜会互相安慰对方，一起咒骂naha，然后naha狠狠的掐cp粉的米（）

（凌晨了我终于又有魔法翻墙了，好耶）

Morning! These are such good prompts how did u came up with these 😭💖💖 感谢老师这么会想题目让我写了个爽🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

1. If child Ray met present day MC or present day Ray

If child Ray met present day MC, at first he’d be guarded, quiet, and full of distrust. He was used to being hurt and experimented on in NAHA facilities, he'd assume MC is just another threat. But MC would be different - They wouldn’t demand anything from him. They’d sit with him, bring him warm food, talk softly, maybe sketch something just to keep him company. At first, he’d think it was a trap, but if MC stayed kind and patient without expecting anything, he’d slowly start following them around like a scared animal learning how to trust. He’d remember their face forever. But if MC left after building too much trust, it would shatter him—triggering abandonment issues that could twist into obsession or revenge later on.

If young Ray met present day Ray, it’d be complicated. He might admire how powerful and untouchable he's become—but also notice how emotionally drained and unhappy he looks. He might ask, “Is this really who I have to become to survive?” And present-day Ray wouldn’t know what to say. He’d want to comfort his younger self but also knowing that it won't change anything. Still, he’d kneel down, look that kid in the eyes, and say: “It’s going to be hell. But you make it. You're still human. And someday, you will be loved as who you are.”(assuming Ray ending)

2. If Ray from 3 years ago time traveled to the Binary Star ending

For the Ray who just met MC—who’s barely slept since, replaying their voice and movements in his head in loop—waking up in the Binary Star epilogue, It would feel like everything he ever wanted.

He would open his eyes and find himself in his apartment, but this time more lively. He sees signs of a shared life: photos of them together, matching coffee mugs, worn-in sweaters, half-read books. And MC? They’re there - Real, close, moving around the apartment - He did it. He get to keep them.

This is the manifestation of every unspoken desire, every fantasy he’s locked away in the corner of his mind. He wouldn’t question how it happened—He just wants permanence, safety; He wants MC, alive, beside him, forever.

MC is quiet, present, but not really there. Their smile is small and polite, their voice low and practiced. When Ray asks, “Are you happy?” MC answers without hesitation: “You’re protecting the world. That’s what matters.” His delusional self would hear: “You chose me, and I chose you.” Not “I gave up my freedom.” Not “I had no choice.” - He wouldn’t let himself interpret it that way.

And when he returns to his original timeline, he’d feel electrified. He’d think If that’s the future, then he is doing everything right. So no more hesitation or restraint, he’d double down on his obsession, his surveillance, his need for control—because now he knows it works -- He gets MC in the end.

3. If MC and Ray were a “hero couple” working for NAHA

As NAHA’s official “hero couple,” Ray and MC would be the face of hope: Strong, photogenic, a love story that sells. They take down enemies, show up for charity events, give interviews (Ray still hates them). NAHA uses them for propaganda like crazy, I bet they’d have merch everywhere and basically become the symbol of the kind of love everyone is looking for.

But behind the scenes? They're exhausted. They would wake up every morning groaning about going to work, make fun of their mission briefs in bed, and secretly plan fake sick days to get out of attending galas. During missions, Ray will take a bullet for MC without blinking and later grumble, “You promised you’d stay behind me.” MC will patch him up with one hand and flip off the NAHA drone camera with the other (of course it’s going to be cut and the public would never see it… NAHA will make sure they stay squeaky clean).

They’re great at acting like everything’s fine for the cameras, and too good at comforting each other when it’s not. Some nights they lie awake wondering if this is what the rest of their lives will be. Other nights, they joke about faking their deaths and vanishing to some quiet town. Ray would say: “We’d have to kill [insert annoying hero name] first.” MC replies:“Deal.”

Meanwhile their fans be like: “Why haven’t they posted a couple selfie in two days 😭” But the real couple? They’re curled up in bed, eating instant noodles under a blanket of mutual burnout.

中文翻译：

1. 如果童年时期的Ray遇见现在的MC或现在的Ray

如果童年Ray遇见现在的MC，一开始他会非常警惕、安静，满是戒备。他习惯了在NAHA的研究设施里被伤害、被当成实验品，他会以为MC也只是另一个威胁。但MC会不一样——他们不会对他有任何要求。他们会陪他坐着，给他带来热食，轻声细语地说话，甚至只是静静地在旁边画画来陪伴他。

一开始，他会以为这是陷阱，但如果MC持续保持耐心和温柔，不图回报，他会像一只学着信任人的受惊小动物一样慢慢开始跟着他们走。他会永远记得他们的脸和善意。但如果MC在建立起太多信任后离开，那将彻底摧毁他——唤起他深层的遗弃创伤，甚至可能将信任转化为扭曲的执念。

如果年少的Ray遇见现在的自己，他可能会钦佩自己变得如此强大、不可触碰——再也没人能伤害他了。但他也会注意到这个成年后的自己，看起来情绪枯竭、毫无幸福感。他可能会问自己：“我必须变成这样，才能活下去吗？”

而现在的Ray也不知道该怎么回答。他会想要安慰那个孩子，但他也知道，这并不能改变什么。尽管如此，他还是会跪下来，看着那个孩子的眼睛说：”以后会很痛苦。但你撑过来了。你仍然是一个人。总有一天，你会找到爱着自己全部的那一个人。”

2. 如果三年前的Ray穿越到了Binary Star结局时

对那个刚认识MC不久的Ray来说——他几乎没怎么睡觉，一直在脑海里反复回放MC的声音和动作——如果他在一觉醒来后出现在Binary Star的结局里，那不会让他觉得怪异，反而像是梦寐以求的一切成真了。

他会睁开眼睛，发现自己仍在自己的公寓里——但这次变得有生气了。他看到生活的痕迹：他们一起的照片、成对的咖啡杯、穿旧的毛衣、翻了一半的书。而MC？他们就在那儿——真实、亲密，在房间里走动，仿佛属于这个空间。Ray会想：“我做到了。我终于能留下他们。”

这是他埋藏在心底的所有未出口的渴望、幻想的具现。他不会质疑这一切是怎么发生的——他只想要一种“永远”，想要安全感，想要MC活着，在他身边，直到永远。

MC安静、在场，但好像又不完全在当下。他们的微笑很细微、很礼貌，声音低而熟练。当Ray问，“你幸福吗？”MC毫不犹豫地回答：“你在保护世界。这才是最重要的。”

而Ray那执迷的自己会听到的是：“你选择了我，而我也选择了你。”

而不是：“我放弃了自由。”也不是：“我没有选择。”——他不会允许自己那样去解读。

当他回到原本的时间线、从幻象中醒来时，他会感到一种触电般的激动。他会想：“如果那就是未来，那我现在做的一切都是对的。”

他不再犹豫、不再克制。他会加倍投入自己的执念、监控、控制欲——因为他现在知道这样做是有效的 - 他不管怎样最终还是得到了MC。

3. 如果MC和Ray是为NAHA工作的“英雄情侣”

作为NAHA的官方“英雄情侣”，Ray和MC会成为希望的象征——强大、上镜、值得销售的爱情故事。他们击败敌人，出席慈善活动，接受采访（Ray还是很讨厌采访）。NAHA疯狂利用他们做宣传——肯定会出周边、海报、情侣周历，甚至会变成全国上下对理想爱情的投射。

但在聚光灯背后？他们已经筋疲力尽。他们每天早上醒来都会抱怨上班，在床上嘲笑任务简报，还会偷偷编病请假来逃避酒会和宣传活动。在任务中，Ray会毫不犹豫地为MC挡子弹，然后一边被缝伤口一边抱怨：“你答应过会站我后面。”MC会一只手给他包扎，另一只手对着NAHA的无人机镜头竖中指（当然这段会被剪掉，公众永远不会看到…NAHA会确保他们形象干净完美）。

他们对外表现得无懈可击，对内也太擅长彼此安慰。有些夜晚，他们躺着发呆，怀疑这样的生活是否会一直持续。有些夜晚，他们开玩笑说要伪造死亡，消失在某个小镇上。Ray会说：“但我们得先干掉[某个讨厌的英雄名字]。”MC会回答：“成交。”

与此同时，他们的粉丝会在网上发帖：“他们怎么两天没发合照了😭”但现实中的他们正裹在一条共享的毛毯里，躺在床上吃泡面，在共同的精疲力尽中取暖。

[homehauntsyou]

someone mentions 04x04 from the CW's Supernatural (2005-2020) and suddenly I'm just there !

[napping-sapphic]

Living is crazy because sometimes you know someone and feel absolutely completely normal about them and then you look back and just KNOW that if you spoke to them now you’d fall like crazy in love in a split second

[fadefromthelight]

Wataru and Keisuke on a winter date!

As for the dog, Rachel and I decided that Wataru needs a dog and Miran was created. I love her so much, she's my sweet girl.

[uniquezombiedestiny]

come on

please tell me

[moregraceful]

many things i have been keeping under wraps at work, such as pronouns, but also, very critically, age. bc i got that ageless mixed race asian swag where i am very clearly not an undergrad but also??? they just don't know. and it WHIPS and it is so funny to ME because all the managers and shift supervisors are like damn this girl in her mid-twenties is so easy to talk to, it's like talking to a peer. surprise bitch i'm older than you. and maybe this means i'm performing psychological experiments on cis men, but i am ngl if i hand you a two page resume that you don't read, it is simply none of MY business if you think i am in my mid-20s. they are going to be so mad when they find out lmao

[icewindandboringhorror]

I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

[kimbapisnotsushi]

you seem to have a good read on HQ and your takes are great, so i have a question...and if you'd rather not go there, please ignore this! but i see oikawa get called "arrogant" quite often and i'm curious, would you say he is? what is it that makes people think that? imo he has a plenty of flaws, but i truly don't think arrogance is one of them. self-centered, sure, but not arrogant i think. i'm open to being wrong, i'm just legit so confused by that particular criticism, it makes me doubting my reading comprehension. i feel like that one post that's like "free my man, he didn't do that. he did a lot of other stuff tho" LOL. if you do answer this, then thanks for your time!

oh, dear anon. this is a very very big question and i'm honored you think i am capable of providing an answer that does it justice!! i don't consider myself an oikawa expert by far, but i'll do my best because he's still very beloved to me, and i hope whatever i say helps!

(but also - maybe take what i say with a grain of salt LMAO)

anyways, to get the main point out of the way: i completely agree that oikawa isn't arrogant! i actually haven't seen any commentary about that myself (bless!!!), so i can't say for sure why some people might think that, but my guess is that they think his pridefulness = arrogance — they think that the confidence he has in himself and seijoh contributes nothing to their actual power and is utterly meaningless if they don't win, especially in the face of ushijima. which, like, come on. what kind of captain would he be if he wasn't confident in himself and his teammates? is he supposed to tell them that they're going to lose??? is he supposed to discourage their hard work and effort???

or maybe it's because oikawa acts like he's all that, but doesn't have anything to show for it. who does he think he is? what does he think his pride is worth? what right does he have to go around making grand declarations when he has nothing to his name?

(which isn't entirely true, either, but we'll get into that, promise.)

now, do i think that he can, occasionally, be flippant, shallow, and/or petty? yeah, sure. he's got one hell of a personality about it. even iwaizumi says as much. oikawa is great at being a little shit. it's one of my favorite things about him!

but is oikawa genuinely arrogant, or self-centered? well . . . i don't think so.

see, here's the thing about oikawa: he knows he's good, but he doesn't think he's good enough. i think it'd be easiest to really explain what that meant if we broke this down into two separate parts, so let's give it a go, shall we?

(buckle up, friends, because it's about to get LONG. also: TIMESKIP SPOILERS!! and there's a tldr at the start of the tags because. WOW.)

so, first things first: if people are calling oikawa arrogant, then i'm like 99% sure that they don't actually know what the word "arrogant" means.

"arrogant" is used to describe someone full of themselves. it's used to describe someone conceited and pompous. it's used to describe someone so assured of and invested in their self-importance that they don't care for other people, and if it seems like they do, then it's usually wildly off the mark and still serves to inflate their own egos.

oikawa has never once been like that. he's been pretty much the exact opposite, in fact.

and yeah, sure, by his third year of high school, he knows he's good at volleyball, and that's fine! it's perfectly all right to claim you're good at something if you have the skills/experience to back it up. confidence is healthy as long as it isn't in overabundance, and we actually see a lot of this throughout the series!

(not to mention that this was where ushijima fell short. he was overflowing with confidence. he did not believe, for even a single second, that hinata shouyou and his meager, scrappy little flock of crows could beat him.

but oikawa? he knew. he knew what it looked like to make something bloom.)

the key to oikawa's confidence that made him better was that he could pinpoint others' strengths and weaknesses just as well as he could with his own. and (bear with me, please, i might get kind of boring here bc it's nothing that hasn't been said in the manga before) i don't mean it in the way we see the coaches or more analytical players do, as observations to be taken advantage of by everyone else; i mean that in the sense of how vital it is to his position as a setter. that was always the biggest difference between oikawa and kageyama: no matter how much more raw talent kageyama had, no matter how much better oikawa believed him to be, kageyama, especially in the beginning, struggled to do what oikawa could with a team. kageyama struggled to bring out the best in each player. and it wasn't because he didn't know how -- oikawa freely admitted that kageyama had the skill for it, that kageyama, once he got his shit together, could win against him -- it was because kageyama didn't have that same confidence in himself.

(not until much later, anyways. but that's another story, for another time.)

so, oikawa's confident. he knows he's good. he can bring out the best in each player. he's got a killer serve (and a killer smile!), a mind for tactics that borders on machievallianism, and cherishes the trust he is given like it's something precious. his coaches let him lead without leaning on them. his team has the utmost respect and admiration for him. he has a reputation. from karasuno to shiratorizawa to the whole of miyagi -- there is not a single character who knows oikawa tooru and would believe that he is, in any way, bad at volleyball.

but it's not enough. despite all of that, oikawa still doesn't think he's good enough. and that, friends, brings us to the second point.

oikawa tooru is nothing if not passionate.

so were the others, of course. kageyama kept going after his grandfather's death. hinata kept going while being a nobody from nowhere with no one to back him up. atsumu kept going while osamu didn't. it's not even about just those who went pro -- kenma, kuroo, noya, and everyone else found things that they were passionate about and kept going with it. the entire story revolves around loving what you do and trying to keep that love alive, and, sometimes, that can be really, really difficult when it seems like it doesn't love you back.

oikawa was so insecure over kageyama to the point where he nearly decked the poor kid. oikawa got crushed by ushijima-- who kept telling him that his team was not good enough, that his choices were not good enough, that there was nothing good enough to be proud of -- for years in a row. oikawa was taught that there would always be someone better than him no matter how skilled he was, but if he let that stop him then he didn't fucking belong on the court in the first place.

oikawa tooru is intimately acquainted with not being good enough, but he keeps trying to be. he keeps going. he tries to keep the love alive even if he's not loved back. he pushes and practices and takes a plane far from home to become even better. even if he doesn't have the skill, even if he doesn't have the talent, even if he doesn't have the love -- he still has his pride. and what does that mean, in the end? how far does that take him?

in the end, oikawa tooru walks across a world stage and sees people who believed in him on the other side and calls it a family reunion. in the end, he gets to play the volleyball that reminds him of why he loves it and how it gives him so much love back. in the end, his pride is unyielding and unbreakable, a product of the forge. he molded it with his own two hands. he will not let it falter so easily.

arrogance would not have taken oikawa tooru this far. i hope this has proven that he is anything but.

remember: instinct is something you polish. talent is something you make bloom. and never, ever let anyone else tell you what your pride is worth.

[luimagines]

Hello! Don't worry I'm not requestion just asking a question that's been stuck in my head since I read your Dragon AU and enjoyed both Time and Warrior. I really have to ask: if Warrior is a fire dragon and Time seems to be some nature or forest dragon.... What about the other lu boys? What are their elements?

OOhhhhh!!!! I'm so happy you asked! I love dragon au!

Warrior is a fire dragon, yes. I like to think he can't really control his magic because of his over use of the fire rod during his adventure. :)

Time used to be a forest dragon, but with all the magic items he's dealt with in the past, he's absorbed a bit of everything, but the most of it was the Fierce Deity mask. It "purified" him a way that bleached his scales and changed the manner of his magic making him more of a dietic dragon.

Twilight would also be a forest dragon, but he would have massive scars down his back when his wings were torn away from him.

Wind would be a more serpentine sort of dragon, like dragonair from Pokémon that can control the wind. That's how he's able to still fly. :)

Hyrule is a dragon that uses pure energy. He's closer to the fairies than most and would deal out more plasma blasts in comparison. He was glass stained wings and bright orange feelers on his legs and neck that look like fur.

Wild became more of a chimera over timer after absorbing the Champion's powers but as a base he was also more serpentine like Wind. But more greenish in tint. After he manages to get his memories, the damage is done, giving him antlers, deer legs for arms, a mane and spikes on his once smooth and silky tail.

Legend is a dragon of a different sort entirely. He's a tiny pink jackalope with bat wings. His main magic was earth but during his travels it was put on the back burner and almost entirely forgotten. He can deal all sorts of magic instead because he's absorbed so much from all his items, but they're unpredictable and weak. He's a Jack of all Trades but too soft.

Good thing he's hella rich. Making him one of the top three most desirable dragons out of the group.

Four is a steel dragon with pale yellow scales that when hit by the light can reflect a multitude of colors back, like red, green, blue, purple- very nice. He's also very thin and serpentine in appearance but until Wind and Wild, he still has his four legs.

Sky is a lightning dragon with a closer resemblance to Toothless. He's earned the nickname Storm Lord as his dragonate title.

[samthecookielord]

Days without thinking so hard about how little we know about who clive actually is: 0

[zooblesbutchpuppygirl]

Zooble's voice <3

[fiepige]

Venom!Hobie Cat-Symbiote AU!

Okay so I might have made an AU of my AU...

It's based on my Venom!Hobie au but with a slightly (?) lighter tone in the sense that Hobie actually gets along well with his symbiote. Though they initially mostly get along due to shared mutural trauma... (But more about that later)

This version of the symbiote is more animalistic and usually communicates with Hobie through emotions- sorta projecting its own emotions and feelings towards him to let him know how it feels about something, though it might also communicate via single words or short sentences but that's pretty rare.

So, I'll do like I did in my original Venom!Hobie post and focus on the Design first:

Since they get along the symbiote feels safe around Hobie and thus it'll often "extend" itself outside of him and take the shape of a (freaky looking) cat - Kinda like how VENOM is able to partially seperate itself from Eddie while still being tethered to him:

Like this but they actually get along and the symbiote looks kinda like this:

(Once again- I CANNOT draw but the brainrot is stronger so I need to share this)

(I didn't draw the symbiote goo that would extend from it to tether it to Hobie but it's there I swear!)

Since this is Spider-Punk's symbiote I wanted some of the spikes to carry over in this design

I haven't quite decided if it should have the "running-mascara" look (buttom drawing) for its eyes like Spider-Punk's mask has or not so lemme know what you guys think?

The spikes are used as a way for it to communicate to others as a way to make its body language more expressive (though it only shows itself around people it really trusts so it rarely uses them as it still just communicates its emotions directly to Hobie when it needs to)

And like with Venom!Hobie the spikes are reminiscent of symbiote teeth

When it's relaxed/happy the spikes will be pressed down towards its body - making it easy to pet- if somebody would dare approach it that is

Hobie pets it a lot as it usually sits on his shoulder when he walks around (when there's nobody around that is)

The symbiote is still made of the same goo as regular symbiotes so it does not feel like petting a cat at all- Hobie doesn't mind but most other people find it rather unpleasant to touch

The "fuzzy" look is just the symbiote goo trying to imitate cat fur

The reason the symbiote takes this form is partially because it's more animalistic and likes physical affection (from people it trusts, it will bite your hand off if it doesn't like/trust you and you try to pet it) and partially because Hobie is a cat person and it used it as a method to make Hobie like it more when they first "met" + petting it helped Hobie calm down and still does

It's gotten pretty good at mimicking cat noises including purring

It'll usually stay on Hobie's shoulder or sit in his lap like this, it's still tethered to him so it can't go that far without him - not that it really wants to anyways

If it likes someone it'll rub itself against their legs and mimic purring noises

Okay now we move on to the

Origin:

This is my current headcanon for this AU but as always feel free to share your thoughts/ideas/inputs if you have any <3

Hobie and the symbiote "met" at one of Oscorp's labs

Hobie was living as a homeless teen (13-14 years old having escaped an abusive household a few months prior) and was captured by Oscorp to be used for their symbiote experimentations

Hobie was an easy target as he had just been bitten by the radioactive spider a few hours prior and thus he was starting to suffer from the fever the bite gave him

Hobie was to be fused with a new kind of symbiote

The symbiote had been made to make people more susceptible to orders- making them less inclined to think for themselves

But in order to make that possible the symbiote had been put through some rather painful and extreme experiments- making it more "dead" than alive at this point

When it's fused with Hobie, who's still very sick at this point, the spider bite is still working its magic on Hobie's body and thus it also partially heals the symbiote

Both Hobie and the symbiote are terrified of their situation as they're put in holding cells made specifically for symbiotes.- Their only comfort is each other.

The symbiote takes on the cat like appearance to soothe Hobie after being subjects to a particularly bad experiment

Since Hobie's gotten powers from both the spider bite and the symbiote they quickly become the subjects for many inhumane and painful experiments as the scientists futilely try to figure out how to replicate the symbiote (as they're unaware of the spider bite, thinking the symbiote alone is behind Hobie's new powers)

Due to the symbiote Hobie develops a taste for human flesh

And he gets his first taste of it as he manages to escape the lab during one of their many tests- killing as many guards and scientists on their way out as possible. (This is also the first time they fully transform into Venom!Hobie)

He would later return and burn the lab down completely.

As a result of their treatment at the lab + Hobie's past with his abusive family, both him and the symbiote have developed a deep distrust to other people.

Which is also why Hobie isn't trying to get rid of the symbiote, he considers it his only friend for a long time.

Hobie still loves playing music (which is also how he eventually makes new friends) but has had to make some adjustments due to the symbiote, thus he usually uses both earplugs and noise cancelling earmuffs when he's playing and even then he still gets migraines if he plays for too long or too loud

He still craves human flesh and will usually target cops or anyone associated with Oscorp to sate his hunger.

He doesn't feel bad about killing but will still try not to harm civilians (emphasis on try- sometimes the hunger gets the best of him)

He still operates as Spider-Punk but for a long time he's mostly fueled by his hatred for Oscorp and how they treated him and the symbiote

But as he slowly learns to open up to people he starts to shift his focus onto figting to help people and make the city safer (which means he'll still target cops and Oscorp employees but that's not his only focus anymore) (he also makes an effort to actually save civilians at this point)

Though due to the symbiote and their past this version of Spider-Punk is more prone to just straight up killing his villains (+ he still gotta eat right?)

But I'd like to imagine that this version of Hobie also finds his own community who help him out and accept both him and the symbiote

Giving them kind of a "happy" ending despite this version of Hobie being more messed up and unhinged...

Once again this turned out way longer than I intended lol (I just can't shut up about Venom!Hobie, the brainrot is real!)

Thank you so much for reading!!! <3 <3 <3

(And please let me know if you have any thoughts/inputs/questions about anything I wrote! The brainrot is real and I'll never get tired of talking about this guy)

Also click here if you wanna read more about my Venom!Hobie concept <3

[twilightakiishi]

you keep mentioning homicipher, what is it?

PFFFNGKFKF idk why this made me shy um um……hi….. anon…..

it’s an otome where you as a human get dropped into a spirit world and they speak a different language so a very big part of the game is deciphering it and using that language to move you through the game! the initial goal is to get back to the human world buuut there’s lots of different routes you can take. like romancing the monsters/spirits/whatever you wanna call them lol. their idea of romance is very different from a conventional dating sim … bc they’re not human. but it’s very much so my vibe; ig kind of a horror game as well! i think it’s so fun :’)

it’s really funny too bc their language is very rough and basic and if you have no idea what a word means you can fill in the blank with anything you want which can make for funny moments later on… but the game itself has humorous moments even if you get the words right too!!

pics below the cut ^_^

streamed it on my friends tv last night and played as a group but i love to stream it for my friends in discord as well…. the left pic is definitely us fucking around and the right pic is my own ss… i added cute to their dictionary because well. he cute.