#I cannot 3D brain easily

[magpies-gold]

Holy jeebus today was a brutal day on writing. Still won, though. Still aiming for 100% hard mode completion by still writing at least 1667 words a day until the very end because I like to torture myself, and even if I could only pull it off by writing 250 words here and 150 words there all across a bunch of different scenes before my brain noped out on each one of them, I still got there. Two more days of torment and then I can write on my own schedule again. @_@

[pennedinblood]

hhhGG im gonna sound SO unhinged rn but ive had this concept rotting in my brain for so long and i need to either write or scream about it someplace- anyways au where the vees find vaggie before charlie does.

her vulnerable state of mind + shaken morals lend themselves to being easily influenced by them and she becomes the (secret) 4th vee operating from the shadows. vaggie is the shield, the bodyguard, the assassin of the night that disposes of anyone the vees deem an enemy to their empire.

when the hotel + alastor become a threat, SHE is the one sent in as an undercover agent, only to accidentally fall for the princess running the whole thing. the entire plot then devolves into an enemies-to-lovers scenario between vaggie + charlie, as well as vox + alastor because they're over here BEGGING their respective teammates to pull their shit together and NOT fall for the enemy only to slowly yet surely do the same thing over time.

except while charlie + vaggie develops over a period of understanding and accepting each other's flaws and learning what it really means to be a good person, vox + alastor are the chaotic overlords using chaggie as their pawns to best one another in the borderline-insane game of 3d chess they're playing long-distance over the airwaves. anyways. this is so double-rom com with a splash of unhinged and i cannot stop thinking about it jsadhsjahda

[undergoing-mitosis]

OKAY EVERYONE WHO TOLD ME TO JUST WAIT FOR THE START OF SEASON 2 YOU ARE SO FUCKING RIGHT OH MY GOD

THE DARK ERA ARC OF BSD GOES SO FUCKING HARD I AM GOING FERAL I FINALLY SEE WHY EVERYONE LOVES THIS SHOW SO MUCH

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

THIS IS THE ANGST I LIVE FOR

ARRRRRRRGHHFFVBCKXGKCKBKHDHDK I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT

you guys have managed to make me think about something other than death note for once are you proud guys are you proud

my thoughts so far below the cut 👇

so i have just finished episode 3 and AAAAAAAA

i have heard vague spoilers so i know of Oda's unfortunate fate but I AM NOT READY

WTF THEY FUCKIN BLEW UP THE KIDS IM SORRY???? LIKE I KNEW HE WAS GONNA BE DRIVEN TO BREAK HIS PACT BUT NOT LIKE THIS!!!! also the sound design of that entire section was *chef's kiss* like i was nearly crying i was not okay

and the metaphor of oda giving up on writing his book ughhhhh i love how they addressed the idea of becoming a murderer being irreversible and changing your entire life, in a world so filled with bloodshed that can easily fall through the cracks. my heart was absolutely breaking when he gave up on that dream. THEY FUCKIN DROVE MY BOY TO THIS POINT I CAN'T I WILL KILL THEM I WILL MURDER EVERY LAST ONE OF THEM FOR HURTING HIM okay im fine i promise

dazai's speech about how everything good gets wrenched away from him was fuckin heartbreaking. especially given that i know that things obv don't work out between him and chuuya. god someone needs to give my boy a hug he is too tragic

OH ALL OF THESE CHARACTERS ARE SO TRAUMATISED AND SO COMPLEX AND SO 3D AND I LITERALLY WANT TO SQUEEZE ALL OF THEM AND HUG THEM AND

oh yeah also i have not given up on my vision of mello in the bsd universe currently i am thinking of having all three of the successors as a power trio who decide to take on the world (i.e. yeah the port mafia) together cause they can. but im kinda stuck on what their abilities should be. anyways that was a sidetrack

BUT YES I LITERALLY CANNOT WAIT TO WATCH EPISODE 4 but alas sleep beckons. i will probably be back here screaming once i watch it haha

ARFJFVBGVCXHY HERE COMES THE BSD BRAINROT YIPPEE 🏃🏃🏃

if you got this far, thank you for reading my absolute brain splurge! have a cookie 🍪

[nonbinarydeity]

It's not your job to manifest

Have you been trying to get your desires forever, but have been unable to succeed? Have you been saturating your mind, getting into the state of having, etc with no results? I'm here to bring some comfort, and also some tough truths for you to swallow 💕

Please note that these are my beliefs, but they can be beneficial for anyone struggling to keep up with manifesting, especially if it's hurting your mental health.

You don't have to do anything

It really is as simple as "desire and it shall be" when it comes to manifestation. In fact, manifestation as a term is pretty misleading, as it implies that you're doing something, when in reality the only thing that you "do" to manifest is want something. You can write it down/ affirm/ etc, but that's for you, it's not going to get you what you want any faster.

Let me explain how reality works for a second. You exist on a 3D plane of reality, where you experience things like love, fear, doubt, joy, etc.

Side note: Fear, doubts, anxiety, etc belong to this plane of reality; they are not natural feelings (remember how carefree you were as a child? That's your natural state), they come from traumatic experiences and the society we live in. It's okay and natural to feel these things from the circumstances we live in, so don't worry about them 💕

Your subconscious mind is on a higher plane of reality called the 4D. It is the true reality (think of it as a computer, and the 3D as the computer screen), and it is where the 3D is created.

Do you see how the 3D exists within the 4D? The 4D creates the 3D, the 3D has no power on its own.

From this, there is one huge conclusion we can come to: we (3D beings) do not influence the 4D (aside from telling it our desires); therefore, nothing we do on this physical plane (which includes in our brains/minds) will speed up the process of getting our desires.

You read correctly. All of this manifestation stuff? It's pointless. But this should be freeing, and let me tell you why:

The 4D and you

Within the 4D plane exists your subconscious mind. This is a part of you that you cannot directly access, but it is what creates your reality. Your subconscious mind loves you, and it wants to give you everything in the world! It's like your best friend, all you have to do is ask it for things, and it will give them to you!! It goes like this:

You have a desire in the 3D > the 4D takes your desire and implements it instantly > the 4D gives the command to the 3D to give you your desire > the 3D changes and you get what you want!

This process is why you sometimes get exactly what you wanted WITHOUT affirming or getting into a state of having it. You don't need those things, you just need the desire.

Why do bad things happen? Why does it take a while to get my desire??

This is a big question, and let me first start off with explaining something. We exist in an infinite multiverse of possible realities, and each reality has something called a "reality concept." A reality concept is the set of rules that a certain reality follows!

Some examples of a reality concept for this reality would be: gravity exists, money exists, humans are the main species on planet earth, spoken language is used to communicate, etc. This reality concept also has rules like: evil can exist, bad things can happen, manifestation can take time, etc.

The reason that bad things happen is not because of your subconscious mind, it's just one of the rules of this particular reality concept! You can easily change this by desiring for it to change, but it may take a little time since that's one of this reality's rules.

Okay, so if I can't do anything to manifest besides desire, what can I do?

Excellent question! We as human beings on this 3D plane are meant to exist and enjoy our lives. We are not meant to create this reality: our minds could not handle such a big task! Some things that you could focus on are: improving your mental health, doing things you enjoy, scripting new desires, learning to trust your subconscious, trying new things, etc.

I know how this sounds. "So what you're saying is, nothing is going to change and I can't change that?" NO! The moment you desire something, your subconscious mind implements it into the 4D. If you want something, you are meant to have it, and it is 100% guaranteed to happen (as long as you don't change your mind)!! The only thing I'm saying is: be patient. It is coming to you, you are going to get it, you might just have to wait a little while. I know that we as humans are extremely bad about being patient, and we get restless very easily, but please just try to remember that what you want is guaranteed to come to you, just give it time 💕

Outro

You as a human being are not meant to do anything to manifest your desires, it is already taken care of by your subconscious mind in the 4D. Anything you do to manifest will merely be for your mind's benefit, it won't get you what you want faster.

What you desire is guaranteed to you, you are meant to have what you want, just be patient and it will come to you. The 3D is just being a little slow, don't take back your desire just because it's taking some time 💕

[bosskie]

Molluck Pixel Thing 2

Man, drawing this was yet another ride... I just felt like that I really gotta learn to draw in a more realistic way (= photorealism) in order to make my art look better. So, I wanted to try out drawing a realistic pixel portrait about Molluck. I had to adjust and edit this so many times that it almost triggered a mental breakdown... Just started to feel like I should quit art, hating myself for loving Molluck, just felt like hating my own creations, that I shouldn't even be a part of this community... That feeling made me cry, just felt so awful... Once, my mind made me unable to think about Molluck for a day, made him leave my mind... I just don't wish my mind to take him away from me, it would make me feel so empty...

I feel unsure about this but this has less flaws than the previous pixel Molluck thing, so I guess that it's time to change avatar too, even I feel like this doesn't look good as an avatar... I just keep feeling like there is always something wrong in my art but I'm not skilled enough to fix those flaws... Man, why must Molluck be so hard to draw... Been drawing for almost 3 years only this Gluk and still feel like I don't know how to draw him... Frankly, it depresses me but I'm trying not to give up even it comes to my mind almost every day. It felt like the only thing that made me stop me hating myself for loving Molluck was how much I do love him and how it would make him feel bad... Sometimes, I just think that why he would even love me or more like how he would start loving me since love needs no reasons... I haven't said this clearly but yes, I self-ship myself with Molluck and I wanna keep that stuff to myself, just like my NSFW Molluck stuff. I do have my own story for my self-ship, though I'm not totally sure about it, mostly just because I'm not sure how Molluck would have started to love me... It's just so difficult to see myself as someone to love, just anything lovable in me... But despite of this, thru him I'm able to have some self-love, tell myself that all the awful things I think about myself ain't true, that I shouldn't end this all...

I know that I should say that I'm sorry for having severe mental health issues but I still feel sorry... I just don't wanna pretend and Molluck just relates so closely to my mental health... It feels like I don't really feel like doing anything with my life but creating all this Molluck stuff is a pleasant way to waste/spend my time. I don't want any pity, just hope that my existence here doesn't ruin things, that I'm open about this long ass hell I'm going thru inside my head every single day... I'm just so tired... Feel like caring about things less and less...

I don't know how to end this post... This Gluk is just so important to me... It's interesting that our brains don't seem to care about if the one we love is 'real' or fictional. It's just not easy to find words for my thoughts but it just feels like my life would lost the last sense it makes to me if my mind took Molluck away from me... Also, sometimes, I just feel like everyone could draw Molluck better than me, just every single person in this world... I know, my ill mind can make me feel like irrational things are the truth, even I know that it's not the truth, but those lies still feel so real... But this feeling is just one of those reasons why I feel like quiting doing art, feeling like I could be easily replaced, nothing I draw is special, there is just no reasons to continue doing bad 'art' since I cannot draw in reality... I don't even really feel like calling myself an artist but a creator... But despite of these feelings, I still continue creating stuff since I just wanna create stuff, no matter how bad my stuff looks. I also just need more Molluck content... Frankly, I can admit that I'm kinda addicted to some of my Molluck content... Um, I guess that I can admit that all animations I have done about Molluck, both in 2D and in 3D (minus my Molluck game sprites), are NSFW content... I have been thinking about doing animations that I can also show but well, at least I have learned to get better in 3D animations, like I just found out camera stuff in Blender! I recently also felt like hating myself for spending so much effort on those animations... I just cannot help myself that all I want is that Gluk, my ill mind must just accept it.

I know that this can be odd but I cannot help this... This is my situation, this is what I love.

[dirtyoldmanhole]

i'm replaying conquest casually for the second time, first time on any route on the 3DS proper b/c:

a) it's getting cold, temperature wise, and one of my favorite memories back in my middle school years was playing FE7 on the DS under the sheets in bed. :P fifteen years later, still continuing that tradition...

b) i cannot wait to get to the my room bits with gunter >8) (since the emulator doesn't let you do any of that). and i kinda just want at least one save file on the real system just to fool around with the birthdays god is this what terminal brain rot is like

c) the emulator captured most of the game but there's little new bits that i keep getting thrown by in a magical way. like it is SO COOL seeing the 3D effect actually work on me??! (it didn't really work on me when i played FE13 back in the day because [long boring story about chronic eye issues]. likewise you can move the top screen around a little in-battle?! what the heck that's so cool. such a magical world to explore. i'm still not over this worldbuilding. conquest especially felt like the route where the level/set design shone the strongest.

also the sprites are so pretty. i do prefer emulator playing b/c i can see details easily and the gamecube controller is my favorite, but you can clearly tell the sprites were made for this pixel-perfect size.

not intending this to be a full on loveblog but there'll likely be random bits i notice~

[writefightandflightclub]

I’ve been waking up between 4am and 6am pretty consistently every night for two hours, and my brain has been throwing a whole mess of what it is calling “theories” at me. At the time they make sense… but in the light of day? 😬

Lately, my Night Brain has been obsessed with the idea that the Moon Boys can be interpreted as the id (instincts), ego (reality), and superego (reality), with these components represented by Jake, Marc, and Steven, respectively. In this interpretation, Steven is everything Marc wants to be (remember he is even willing to let him “have the body” at one point and he will “disappear”), and Jake is what Marc doesn’t want to be and/or believes he is deep down? He does the things Marc cannot accept and this is why he remains hidden. (Even though there’s far more to Jake than that, and that many of his instincts are “good”, theoretically.) Also that just got me thinking about how lonely Jake might be tbh 😭

Ok, the second thing my Night Brain was CONVINCED OF was that Ex Machina is a Greek tragedy and satisfies all of the elements of Aristotle’s 6 key tragic elements outlined in Poetics. (It probably doesn’t.) BUT THEN my brain was giving me a whole association of Nathan as Dionysus (wtf) bc the Ancient Greeks wore masks in theatre to better commune with Dionysus (or something) and I am increasingly viewing Nathan as DRAMATIC, especially in the way he plays with Caleb and Ava. Also, I was like, well yeah, he could easily be the God of overindulgence etc., plus he’s done every last thing, probably, and his death comes in winter, and his key subject Ava wore a “mask” and killed “God”. (This makes little sense with the actual story of Dionysus.)

And lastly, but perhaps most importantly, my brain was presenting me with a very vivid image of Nathan as Dionysus. Bare chested, sitting on a throne, one thigh hitched up over one throne arm, wearing a luxe fur coat which has slipped off one shoulder, and a crown of vines. And let me tell you he looked GOOD and I wish I could 3D print this image from my brain for you?

And I swear Santi was in there too but he’s far less troublesome. 🤣

[oreana-galena]

New lawsuit has dropped to hold all AI art programs accountable for allegedly stealing art from artists. Now AI bros are coming back with: 'WELL, GUESS I WON'T BE INSPIRED EVER AGAIN!' as well as bringing up the complaint artists reference all the time and should also be held accountable.

Let me be the first to tell you: there's a difference between using royalty free images and 3D and png assets people have consented to being used for either free or a price to just ripping up someone's art piece and trying to destroy their watermark in the process without their consent.

These AI folks don't want to be held accountable, and don't want their toy to cost a lot of money or go away for good.

Artists don't want AI art to be completely shoved in the corner and destroyed. For someone like me, I can easily see it as being helpful to assist me in painting a picture in my brain I cannot otherwise envision.

But people are forgetting the: we want it to be fair and to compensate the artists it may take from.

If you don't understand that part, you're just trying to hide the fact you've always wanted to steal from artists without punishment. That you wanted 'quick and easy money' without having to pay an artist. You wanted an easy road to success. That you don't value art.

[sieluritari]

HELLO YOUR MEASUREMENT BLINDNESS POST CROSSED MY DASH AND I HAVE NEVER SEEN SOMEONE ARTICULATE MY EXACT EXPERIENCES SO FUCKING WELL

i have time blindness (it came free with my adhd) and blindness of EVERY OTHER MEASUREMENT TOO!! I can't judge distance to save my fucking life which is a REAL PROBLEM when trying to estimate if furniture on the ikea website (or any site tbh) will fit in the one specific nook in my room, and also when parking my car! it's gotten better with parking over time cos I've had 5 years practice now but still i cannot estimate how soon i need to turn into a parking space because i don't know how long the nose of my car is and how much space it requires cos i can't judge distance like that! and if i drive a car that isn't mine then i go right back to it cos i don't know this car's dimensions AT ALL

similarly, i work in a deli and part of that is taking measurements of product and weighing them to get the price. the scales do the price calculation for us, that's fine, but its the getting the right measurement that's hard - i have no idea whats 100 grams vs 500 grams and i often take a handful and have to take some out or add some into what i grabbed for the measurement to be Accurate and even then I'm still usually 10-40 grams off the mark and its only cos most customers don't mind paying for a little extra ham or bacon that its not a big problem, but I'm DEFINITELY the only person in the deli who has this problem CONSISTENTLY. its not annoying and no one seems to mind, least of all my managers, but like everyone notices, including me!!

and i do have dyscalculia but the measurement blindness is something different!! i can't accurately judge how much my cats weigh by holding them, i can't guess who much is 200 grams of shaved ham by looking at it, i can't guess how far away 300 metres is when the GPS tells me, these are just things i have no concept of!

but im good at spacial awareness and knowing where i am in relation to something, and how much a space is filled by something's presence, so its not spacial blindness, it's something else!!!

the only thing that seems to counter these is consistent exposure to The Thing and even then its still way off and not doing it for an extended period of time (like one week) takes me right back to the beginning! it's weird! i can't learn this no matter what i do!!

this doesn't have much of a point other than THANK YOU FOR ARTICULATING MY EXPERIENCE IM SO GLAD YOU GET IT and also perchance wondering if you have issues with face blindness and direction blindness cos i have those too and I'm wondering if they're linked possibly

I'm glad you found comfort in the post!

As for your questions, no I'm not face blind, pretty much the opposite actually (though I don't learn names as easily as when I was a kid) and I'm pretty good with directions (and shapes/3d-imaging etc) so while those might be like,, in the same category of Brain Shit, they seem to be distinct enough to not be directly connected to measurement/unit blindness.

[apogee-gd4]

Final Thoughts & Summary

Main Definitions:

the most successful, popular, or powerful point — the best, the greatest

Scientific use – the point in the orbit of an object (such as a satellite) orbiting the earth that is at the greatest distance from the center of the earth

What do both of these definitions have in common? The idea of being at the highest point - distance wise, class wise. But what if we could take this to an emotional, mental, spiritual place?

I decided to focus on the idea that Apogee is a state of being that is both difficult to access, and maintain. It is a state of being that is found in addiction. It’s using addiction to any kind of substance, activity or object, as a means to achieve the ultimately achievable high, or permanence of euphoria. 

2D:

Takes inspiration from a brain scan of dopamine in the brain - the chemical that is released (most powerfully) when engaging in substance use or abuse and floods the brain with euphoria. 

Portrayal of a window, looking into someone's mind

The idea that even after this fleeting rush of dopamine, comes the pursuit of holding onto it, which is impossible and leads us to drown in the search for “apogee” or euphoria. 

There is also the other side to this, where the viewer cannot pull the person out of the state, not easily at least

4D:

Apogee is a mental process. It is something that exists within the chemicals of our brains. Much like an inner consciousness.

It is in many ways, it’s own being, an uncontrollable inner monologue

This is an 8D audio meant to mimic the mental process that comes with trying to access apogee. 

It is soothing, exciting, frantic, and silent

It feels private, and uncomfortable

3D:

Addiction can “chain” or make you feel bound trying to catch this feeling of euphoria, or in other words - light, to feel light or be light. 

The climb to this ultimate euphoria through addiction is simultaneously smothering & weighing down that light

I used layers of robe and wire to create layers and webs of bindings. Some layers look easier to peel back, while others are more intricate. 

There is an interesting parallel between the rope feeling like a sense of protection, but also shielding/choking the light at the same time. This is representative of the false hope/comfort that addiction can bring

Experimental:

This deliverable is more objective, it looks at the stages of addiction, and where apogee fits into that.

I experimented with simple chemical reactions to symbolize:

Initial Personhood

Initial Use (Apogee)

Regular use & Substance abuse

Dependency & Tolerance

Addiction

Recovery

These experiments were guided by the idea that the more that we abuse a certain activity, substance or object, the more diluted our own person hood is. 

Baking soda acts as personhood, vinegar acts as an addiction. Addiction creates varying degrees of personhood.

It is also this idea that apogee (euphoria) is not linear. When someone is searching for euphoria, no two experiences or sequence of their addiction is linear. It cannot really be labeled by a set timeline. 

Reflective:

This piece ensures that I am reflecting on my own experience with this body of work, but also utilizes other voices of people who have truly experienced addiction. 

I created a prescription bottle holding pill capsules as the container. A symbol synonymous with addiction – though not the only form

Each capsule is color coded according to the project, and holds a letter written by someone with an addiction, someone who knows someone with an addiction, or to the addiction itself 

Specific words that connect to the correlated project are highlights to represent real lived experiences

There are then 6 mini capsules in each large capsule that represent my own personal feelings pertaining to both the mental and physical feelings that I felt while working on this assignment 

[agentpaint]

So I was doing some research for something I’m planning, and I realized how much I miss the DS.

Like looking back on it, that thing was my rock. I took that thing everywhere. The GBA holds a special place in my heart for being my first gaming device, but the DS was on another level.

I don’t want to post pictures rn (maybe I’ll do that when I get my blog running on my neocites) but back when I was a kid I carried around a HUGE case that held all of my DS games.

Looking back on it, I was a fucking lunatic for that, someone could have easily stolen all of my DS games or I could’ve lost them all!

In fact, that did happen! But not to this case in specific. My original GBA and games was stolen and I lost a smaller bag of DS and games, miraculously the 2nd one was returned to me safely.

Anyways, I never went anywhere without my DS. I was basically an iPad kid with this thing, but the games were all physical.

I still have all if my games actually, but no convenient way to play them. My original DS won’t turn on anymore, and my attempts to buy them on ebay have went poorly with broken hinges.

I have a 3DS, but honestly I really, REALLY don’t like the Circle Pad. It’s worse than the D-Pad and the D-Pad is in awkward position to use for long periods of time.

But back on topic, while doing my research, I decided to look up DS games and I was hit with more nostalgia than I realized I had.

Pokemon, Mario, Cooking Mama, Nintendogs, Brain Age, Kirby, Starfy, Warioware DIY, Megaman Zero, Diddy Kong Racing, Bomberman, Clubhouse Games

A lot of these were games that I haven’t thought about in years but when I saw the box arts all of the memories came flooding back.

But what I also noticed when looking through this list was how many iconic games there were I didn’t play

Ace Attorney, Ghost Trick, Zelda, Animal Crossing, TWEWY, Rhythm Heaven, Sonic, Trauma Center, Style Savvy, Professor Layton, Scribblenauts,

Obviously I was a Nintendo kid with a strong Pokemon/Mario/Kirby bias, but it’s surprising at how many fantastic games went right under my nose.

I kinda have an itch to go back and play all of these games and maybe some licensed/shovelware games? Maybe even on stream?

But then the problem becomes that I’d have to emulate them to capture the game, unless I wanna break the bank on a 3DS capture card.

And here’s where my problem comes in: I don’t like DS emulation. It’s one of if not the most impossible experience to emulate. The dual screens, the touch screen, the clam shell design, all of it cannot be realistically emulated on a PC or a phone.

Playing a DS game this way is too much of a compromised experience for me, and I can’t see myself enjoying it, even when streaming.

And it really upsets me because what are you supposed to do about it? The 3DS is out of production, and unless the Switch’s successor is planned to have a dual screen then the legacy of the DS is impossible to preserve.

We’ve already seen this with ports of DS games coming to Switch and other consoles. They have to make do with a pop up picture in the corner or completely redesign the game for an arguably worse control scheme.

It really sucks because again, unless this form factor comes back DS ports will always have to be compromised in a way that harms their preservation.

And unfortunately the emulation device market haven’t tried out a dual screen device yet either, I guess it’s too niche or maybe the DS isn’t retro enough to consider it being worth it.

Maybe someday this niche demand will be recognized, I’m sure as we move further away from the 3DS era more will recognize this. Hopefully either Nintendo or an emulator device maker will see the demand and make something along the lines of a DS Mini like the NES/SNES Mini, but not mini because it’s already a handheld.

They did already try something similar with the Zelda Game and Watch, so I hope they try a Gameboy/Gameboy Advance someday, although that would still mean we’d have to wait longer for a DS. Maybe they could skip? I doubt it.

This is why I’m putting my hopes into the emulation device market. There’s a lot of issues with those devices, but it’s far more realistic to see one of them attempt a DS device than Nintendo right now.

Wow I talked for a while. Sorry for the long post!

[unblinded-by-nostalgia-blog]

The Story The Story is about a couple of yoshi's trying to save there friends from bowser JR. If this doesn't remind you of something, it's the exact same story as Yoshi's Story for the Super Nintendo! In fact, the game itself feels like "baby's first platformer" and not in a good way. The Characters The gimmick is that everything is made out of wool, which would be fine, except that the in game characters don't look as well detailed as the front cover, which is actually a photograph that they made out of proper wool. The Gameplay The game controls well, when they are being responsive. There are times where the game doesn't respond to my buttons presses, leading to very cheap deaths. The controls are confusing as well, it feels like the controls change every time I use a move, and god help if your a little kid, you have NO hope in controlling this game, even in mellow mode which gives Yoshi wings doesn't make the game any less easier for younger players. The amiibo functionality is also bad. All it does is save a skin onto an amiibo, which you can easily click on in a few button presses. And adding the 2nd amiibo into the game is a pain in the ass! The game doesn't respond to the amiibo being placed on the game pad and it is really annoying because you cannot pause the game if you want to add your amiibo into the game. So good luck scanning your amiibo in when your playing an auto-scrolling level. Get ready for plenty of cheap deaths! The game is also very short. It is only 7 hours long, and that's doing EVERYTHING! For a casual player, it will take an even shorter amount of time to complete. Possibly about 4 hours. Also, the game overall is very easy! Many YouTubers who got early assess to it kept saying it's REALLY hard. It isn't. It's SUPER easy. Even little ones will be offended by this game's easiness. Final Thoughts Overall, I really wanted to like this game. Really I did. Especially since I grew up with knitted woolly toys knitted by my Grandmother. But this is Unblinded by Nostalgia, so I have to be brutally honest. This game isn't good. Other than the woolly theme, it's a forgettable experience. If this was a used SNES game, then I would be more forgiving, due to the SNES's limitations. But this is a Wii U game and there are no excuses. And since only two of you out there own a Wii U. I have to say I cannot recommend this title, even the 3DS port which only adds a deformed knitted dog. It isn't a terrible game, it's just a forgettable bad game. It's not bad enough to be memorable, but it isn't good enough to stand out, even on a console with barely any games. The only memorable thing about this game are the knitted yoshi amiibo. They are worth getting. But this game is all style, but no substance... unless you are looking for a relaxing game and you already own a Wii U. You can just turn off your brain and just run around. Just don't pay full price for it. That's all I can recommend it for... The Story 2/5 The Characters 2/5 The Gameplay 2/5 Overall 2/5

[forgottenyear]

Just because I did a thing before, it cannot be assumed that I actually know how to do the thing. People do not usually know this about me. I pick things up so quickly and easily that people do not usually notice that I am trying to look like I am doing productive things while I am actually trying to figure out what I am supposed to do.

I have known this since ... forever, for me. It has only been partially visible, were one to know for what they were to look, on a few occasions. (Called in to maintain my original programming and saying, “that is a great solution that I would never have thought to try.”) These rare occasions were easily dismissed as forgetfulness.

Come to think of it, “forgetful” is a comforting label. It brushes aside inconvenient questions.

In my personal projects, I already know I did the thing before. I try to hurry through the “catching up” -to myself. It is frustrating to stare, as I am doing today, at a jumble of electronic components and vaguely to know what I was trying to do from what I see, but to have no idea how to begin again. (It is a replacement controller board for a little 3D printer. There is a larger, possibly tft, display in the project box, but a tiny display is wired to the controller. I assume we wanted to make the upgrade less obvious or intrusive by wiring in the smaller display. I do not yet know how far we got, but since the wiring is messy, we did not get beyond the draft stage. Beyond the puzzle solving stage. I have no idea what is going on with the firmware.)

I am not accustomed to writing about this part of the experience. That when personal projects get set aside, they become for me nearly the same as for anyone else.

I have the advantage over others in that I know I knew and I still have a vague idea of the basics. But it is still overwhelming.

But I am not accustomed to admitting this. I would rather say I forgot.

I would rather not admit that maybe I never really knew before. I will try to jog my memory, but as soon as I can wake that part of my brain to this project, it will sort of come back.

The thing is, it never really comes back because it was never really here. I will be in just as much awe over what I do as everyone else. I can describe it and explain it, but more as the pr front than as the person actually doing this stuff.

I got back to rewiring the printer today because I need a distraction while we solve the last puzzle for the other project. We have been stuck on one puzzle for days now, so I need a big distraction. Upgrading a controller board is a dauntingly large distraction.

Of course, switching gears to go back to the first project will be a challenge, after the solution happens. That is the inherent danger. But this is the way we work. It is what works. Getting stuck becomes painful, so we need distraction. When I am sufficiently engrossed in the new (actually much older, but still) project, the solution to the first project’s puzzle will just appear.

I got back to the controller board project because I was planning future projects and discovered that one of those future projects was a past project that got set aside and mostly forgotten. We got stressed, or depression settled in, or we just burnt out, when we last worked on the controller board. Now we can start fresh. Maybe we got stuck on a puzzle and needed a distraction, but never got back to it until now. It would be a shame if a solution finally came, but was never applied.

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So the point of this post was that I do not usually think about how I get back into projects. I certainly do not usually write about it.

I am pretty sure that it endears me to no one to say that I am probably as intimidated by these projects as they are. I mostly just go along for the ride.

(But why are there three fans in the project box? I can understand two, but three?)

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I have joked that when I do talk to myself, I mostly say, “I hope you know what you are doing because I do not have a clue.” It is a funny joke.

[nonbinarydeity]

Think it, and it will be

Stop trying to make the 3D change, it's not gonna change by force, you literally cannot change your circumstances by trying to change them. That sounds counterintuitive, but it really isn't. You have to stop looking at the 3D as the end all be all. Just because this is what you're seeing right now doesn't mean it's the only thing that exists. There are countless realities that exist! But you can't reach them through the 3D, you have to turn inwards.

Forcing yourself to affirm 24/7 isn't going to get you what you want. You're trying to force things to change, and that isn't how this works.

Manifesting is natural. Think about that for a second. What's the most natural thing in the world for humans? Something you've been doing since you were a child, something that you still do every day? That's right, you think. All the time, 24/7, your brain is always thinking, always imagining, always stuck on something. When you were a child, you got lost in your imagination. A stick became a magical staff and a playground became a fortress, and you could imagine that scenario for hours and not get bored. That is the essence of manifesting: you create your reality, not by force, but by thought.

So what do you think about? For most of us, we probably worry a lot. Did that person hate me? Did I mess up? Am I doing this right? On and on and on, things as simple as "what am I going to have for dinner?" easily become worries that we obsess over constantly. When did we stop having fun in our minds? When did that childhood joy go away?

We were told that we can't change things, and we accepted that as fact. We became detached from our imaginations, because "that could never happen in real life." But that's wrong, we in this community know that's wrong, but we still suppress ourselves, because we've been doing it for so long. "Can I manifest this? Will this be hard to manifest?" On and on and on.

What if, instead of being fixated on all of our problems, we became fixated on what we want to happen? What will I have for dinner? You could imagine "realistically," or you could imagine the most delicious meal that you've ever had, and relish in that. What's stopping you from imagining going to your favorite restaurant every night? Is it because it "just isn't realistic"? But that's the thing, to change the outer world, you have to let yourself imagine all of the wonderful things you desire.

You don't have to force yourself to think the same thought over and over and over. You don't have to affirm. It can be as simple as thinking, "I really want a muffin" and then imagining having that muffin. Whether it happens or not is irrelevant, you got to have the experience regardless.

When you think of your desire - let's use money as an example - what do you think of? Do you think, "oh, I have to affirm to get this, why is it taking so long 😭, I don't have this yet, etc."? Instead of all of that, think of having it. That's it. Just let yourself think of how wonderful it would be to have it. Imagine swimming in your money, imagine seeing your bank account full, imagine telling your friends that you can pay for them, etc. Don't suppress those thoughts, nourish them until they become reality! Just because it isn't in the 3D yet doesn't mean anything. You want to experience having money? Experience it in imagination! You can do anything in your imagination, so why not do things that make you happy?

Don't suppress your desires in your head, let them exist there, think about them and having them often, and eventually they will become real to you. The 3D will change as you change those thoughts. As you let yourself have what your desires in your head, your subconscious will realize that you actually want them, and it will give them to you! The reason you don't have them yet is because you've been suppressing those thoughts for so long, in favor of "that's not realistic, that would never happen, etc." Just let yourself think about what you want 🥰

[softgrungeprophet]

thinking out loud about art process/medium

pros of tablet (screenless):

-no art supply costs after initial cost (in my case it was like 80 bucks cause i use an old bamboo pen&touch)

-hand doesn't get in the way of seeing

-1 physical tool for everything (pen)

-can resize, undo, erase ink, and very importantly use bucket tool

-coloring is easier (see bucket tool)

-hotkeys (ctrl-z....)

-no need for scanner, digital only takes up less physical space

-pattern brushes! 3d models! assets!

- rulers, grids, snapping etc. shift for straight line, line tools

-change colors easily

-choose canvas size arbitrarily and at any resolution i want, plus cropping and cutting, copying, pasting etc.

-screen doesn't need a light on to see (at least not these days lol)

-text tool

-some tablets come with free software bundles (mine came with photoshop and corel, though not the new ones lol)

-if tablet is durable, may be cheaper in the long run (my first lasted about 5 years? i think? only busted because cable got damaged; current one is still fine)

-weird filters and effects, blur, etc.

-bitches love layers (i'm bitches)

-i can resize shit when i inevitably fuck up proportions

cons:

-upfront cost is expensive if it breaks (tho there are more cheap options on the market now)

-less intuitive for my brain-to-hand connection and coordination personally... harder for me to recreate lines digitally --always impressed by people who can follow their sketch precisely cause it's literally impossible for me 😂 i've gotten better at the intuitive stuff since i first started 10 yrs ago but it's still always a liiiittle awkward haha... but tbh this is still true for traditional to a lesser extent

-i get tangled in my cables a lot 😂

-digital storage on pc only, have to have printer for physical copies and colors can come out weird since i draw in rgb lol, risk of deletion or file loss or corruption

-using refs can get cluttered on only one monitor

-handwriting becomes even more illegible and calligraphy pens are kinda meh (at least defaults are)

-hand hurty because cramped space

-future...? longevity not any clearer than physical media tbh. might last forever or might be gone in an instant, even before considering future of technology... shrug! lol

-screen colors and brightness?! girl help my art looks different on every device i own 😂

-if you forget to save it's gone (luckily i save compulsively)

-csp text tool kind of mediocre tbh

-companies want you to buy new programs, stop supporting old ones, charge subscriptions, etc etc etc....

pros of traditional art:

-tactility and naturalness of hand on paper makes lineart and stuff a little easier--i'm still not very coordinated though so i still have issues with this regardless of medium...

-can look at reference on screen separate instead of swapping between tabs or cramming on one screen or canvas (physical references like books or objects make this moot for either medium tbf)

-medium experimentation easier than digital in that it lets you feel the different textures and behaviors in a way that's less functional digitally (tho there are some great brush sets) and more tactile or even potential 3-dimensional (ie thick layers of oil paint or mixed media painting with sculptural techniques)

- handwriting is (marginally) more legible...

-physical object, already exists, cannot be deleted (but ...)

-color not completely dependent on screen (but can still be affected by lighting or fading, in fairness)

-i like doodling with ballpoint pens (i do all my thumbnails with bic pens and yellow legal pads or sketchbooks lol)

-if you don't save, nothing happens because it's just an object you made irl lol there's nothing to save; it exists (see physical object)

-no cables

-no download or program (or subscription) required (not that i use Photoshop except the free copy that came with my tablet but it's relevant as a digital artist)

cons:

-buy new art supplies constantly cause stuff runs out; markers are expensive (though ink refills in long run less expensive than buying new markers, still needs frequent replacement for certain colors such as skin tones, still adddds up)

-have to buy or otherwise acquire everything separately, can't experiment in different mediums without buying more stuff... different paper.... different pen types... ink types.... etc. and then if you don't like it or use it, it's like.... ok i'm out $20 (or more)

-hand is always in the way! ahh!

-no undo or any of that and no saving copies unless manually tracing or you scan it first

-if you are bad at letter placement you can't move or resize 😂 i def have trouble with this sometimes lol

-i don't like coloring in traditional mediums and filling large inks is time consuming and generally unpleasant... alcohol markers are better but i am just not a colorist at the end of the day... obviously other people like it more (i enjoy abstract watercolor though)

-can't change colors after the fact... (probably good to swatch huh)

-erase erase erase ugh i hate erasing...

-can't hide layers or group together cause it's all one layer (at least, in practice. i'm sure it's technically scientifically in layers of ink, paint etc.)

-white gel pens never work 😂 and i can't do large areas of white on top unless I'm using opaque paint (not always feasible) (maybe i should have become a painter, huh)

-shitty or cheap materials feel tangibly worse to use; also my inking pen of choice is microns and similar felt tip technical pens, and they can feel unpleasant on a lot of paper types, plus fast lines are harder to do without skipping and scratching, and larger nibs often aren't very good tbh (maybe my pens are just cheap?)

-have to manually measure out frames, panels, borders, use physical ruler for straight lines, often with pen bleed if you do it wrong....

-doesn't have any of those easy assets, models, pattern brushes etc. (well, partially; they do make stuff like screentone, manga background assets, and you can do collage in theory or trace stuff if you have a lightbox)

-messy or smelly depending on what you use (paint pens, alcohol markers etc), sometimes requires extra ventilation or working outside for safety (tho really at that point you probably wouldn't be using a technique that works digitally anyway so i guess it's an inevitability lol)

-some materials take longer to dry than others, need protective coating or are not archival/will fade

-physical object, requires scanning and editing (esp to make copies), takes up space, can be destroyed or lost (not so different from digital in that regard) also takes up more physical space to store lots of drawing or paintings, art supplies, etc.

-requires working space especially if you work larger or are using lots of colors etc.

-needs light (... usually. i did make a painting in the dark once but that's usually not practical lol)

-cannot type on drawing (well. you CAN but it's less straightforward than clicking a text tool)

-hand still hurty

-no resizing! have to live with fucked up proportions 💀 (i'm working on it)

no point to this just thinking about things i like and dislike about both ways of creating

when it comes to writing i will take typing over handwriting any day though

[tzeentchs-secretary-tea-time]

God I love pivot tables. Got a 32 by 99876 data grid to grind info out of? Pivot table.

That excel sheet is 25GB with all of it's data points? Pivot table.

Need to find some very specific numbers? Just stack all of one type of info into rows, the other stuff into columns, and set a rule that excludes anything outside of the range you need.

Need to find something fast? Colours and Excel's various lookup functions are your friend.

Pivot tables will calculate the standard deviation (pop and sample) and then you can put that in a graph to show how varied your range of results could be.

The only thing excel cannot do is 3D graphs but for that we have Octave and Matlab. R Studio lets you represent hierarchical structures in a visual manner that's very easy for the human brain to parse.

Roboute would easily make the link as to why reducing shellfish prices would increase job opportunities for plumbers.

Roboute would find houses that also do not need much repair if anything at all because he will make sure all of the insurances are up to snuff.

He doesn't have any major dietary requirements or issues. He (probably) goes to bed on time. He touches grass and doesn't hole himself up in his little man cave away from people and the aforementioned grass.

Okay, okay, Idea

Hear me out

From what I understand, one of the main ways the 30k Imperium was different from the 40k Imperium was that the Imperial Cult did not exist yet

Ergo, Big E and the Primarchs were not seen as gods

Ergo, they were more of a superpowered royal family

A group of famous, rich, attractive men.

Doesn't that sound...

Familiar?

STAY WITH ME

I have a strong feeling that middle school girls in the early Imperium were hiding shoeboxes full of handwritten "My Mother Has Sold Me To Lord Sanguinius" under their beds.

You look at that YA Romance novel looking-ass literal angel vampire and tell me he hasn't got Wattpad written all over him.