#art like a bosskie

[bosskie]

First Molluck Artbook Finished

100 pages of Molluck! Frankly, I filled that sketchbook sooner than I thought, in 10 months, since I haven't filled them this fast like ever, and these are mainly rendered works... And I haven't even drawn all my traditional Molluck sketches from this year to this book. So yeah, I have been drawing a lot more this year than I have drawn during the past years... Thanks to this, I feel like I have improved significantly this year.

But yeah, I felt like doing some flip through the artbook, especially when I have never done a video like this before. Couldn't get a better quality, and yeah, I did improve the quality by editing, but you can find these all on my blog anyway. I cut the video like this because I didn't wanna have my hand visible here... (I feel like I cannot stand seeing myself in any image, even if it was just my hand... I can tolerate drawing(s of) myself more.) But you can see the main stuff.

As you might notice, the artbook kinda lost its "original vision" quite soon... This was supposed to be like a book about Molluck, but then, I just drew whatever I felt like, just like I'm used to do... But this is still a Molluck artbook, and it's the main thing! Since this whole thing was finished successfully, I wanted the last page depict why or how this whole this was made:

It's not the first time you see me hugging Molluck, but this one is certainly an improved version. Man, this sketchbook wouldn't have been finished if I didn't love this Gluk so much... This just felt like the most meaningful way to end this book since it was made with my love for Molluck. I just feel like I cannot even describe how much I love him... He just means so much to me... I have still felt quite awful recently, but Molluck has been able to snap me out of thinking those harmful things.

And yeah, I also felt like showing you all my main tools I used to draw those Molluck things. I just tend to use a 0.7 HB mechanical pencil, that eraser stick thing, and an eraser pencil; this is also the reason why I call these sketches. Oh, and yeah, there's also my brown leather pencil case I ordered with my Oddworld merch from Gametee. (Y)

Here's some "artist's picks" from the book:

Frankly, if I had to choose only one drawing from the book, I would choose that "Glukkons' plan" drawing. It would be "cool" to make a proper artwork out of it, like a digital painting or something. It would require tons of work though, but I bet that it would be worth it. Gotta get that drawing tablet first though since I'm not gonna draw that with a mouse...

I'm still not done with photos here, since I also felt like taking a photo like this:

Yeah, just some of my Molluck 'n' Molluck-like stuff. (Y) I bough that hard work sign some months ago and just because it reminded me of Molluck... There's literally "hard work never killed anyone" text in RuptureFarms, though the tone is different than in this one. But even this sign is questioning it, it's only wondering why to work hard, and the answer could still be "moolah" or something. Oh, and I also got two old cigar tin boxes because of Molluck... They decorate my kitchen with that RuptureFarms sign. (Y) And yeah, I also got one bolo tie, and it was before my Molluck thing.

I have already bought like a half year ago few new sketchbooks, so all I need to do is to start yet another one. (Y) Though, I have bough that many also because I felt like dedicating them for certain stuff, like one being for general Molluck stuff and another one would be about my self-insert Molluck stuff. I have really wanted to have one sketchbook just for my self-insert stuff, but I wanted to finish this one first. Naturally, I'm not really going to share my self-insert things, also because well, for not being suitable for Tumblr sometimes... But just some quite "neutral" ones, like that hug. Though, I'm still not sure... If I'm going to post more self-insert stuff, I would like to have another blog for that. I don't even know if you would be interested seeing my drawings related my self-insert story with Molluck, but you can let me know.

Man, it's so odd to think that I have been loving this Gluk for like 3½ years, and I only feel like I love him more and more day by day... It's kinda sad too since he is fictional, but luckily, there's tech and I'm an evil (computer) scientist. (Y) (I tend to make this joke regularly...) But my point was that there do are ways to cope with this craving. Frankly, I have also been wondering if my feelings toward Molluck are this strong because it's my brain's way to keep me alive... Since I can feel like he loves me and he kinda lives inside my head, tells me positive things whenever I feel like I'm just doomed... I don't hear his voice but get thoughts "thru him". Whatever it is, I'm grateful for my Molluck experiences since he just feels so right for me and I feel so much love... This is like the first time I ever feel like someone loves me, instead of only knowing that I'm loved. I have felt like I'm broken because I cannot feel my feel my family's love, only know that they love me, but it's not my fault that I have problems with that.

I don't know what else to say but I'm glad to see that people appreciate my dedication to Molluck! So, as a lil bonus, I feel like sharing one song that, for some reason, has like Molluck vibe the most from all the songs I know: HELIUM VOLA- omnis mundi creatura. I feel like I'm not even able to explain this, but music like this just fits Molluck so well... I wanna draw/paint something one day that encapsulates this vibe. I'm not really referring to the lyrics of the song but the general vibe or whatever you would call that.

But yeah, only one Molluck sketchbook completed, gotta keep drawing!

[jazzkolart]

Best girl

[flyguy]

Show Notes: HASBRO Unannounced AT-ST arrives https://twitter.com/FLYGUY/status/816127689496985600 Unproduced ewoks https://twitter.com/ChiveCast/status/816712919165632513 Unproduced Mighty muggs https://twitter.com/JediNewsUK/status/812325432645320704 “What a piece of junk!” https://twitter.com/yak_face/status/817469089987887104 This pack felt like it’s out a year too late https://twitter.com/yak_face/status/817352767446614017 Lemme take a selfie, duckface! https://twitter.com/ChrisPirillo/status/815370573974892544 HOT TOYS/SIDESHOW/GENTLE GIANT/MISC. Dengar http://ift.tt/2hxk0I4 R1 Hot wheels slowly arriving across the globe https://twitter.com/halolvr27/status/813846015744753664 More new Hot Wheels incl Bossky Bossk turning up. https://twitter.com/yak_face/status/817844405369446405 Unproduced Disney infinity R1 https://twitter.com/jasoninquires/status/817048441826242560 https://twitter.com/jasoninquires/status/816645612527648768 Disney Elite tie pilot https://twitter.com/yak_face/status/813973321859604480 Mefex shoretrooper http://ift.tt/2iaoBQO LEGO New R2 poly bag found https://twitter.com/FLYGUY/status/815351962376044545 New sets hitting most countries https://twitter.com/FLYGUY/status/809948372543172613 Recent LEGOn clearout WTF? https://twitter.com/yak_face/status/817846498960535557 FUNKO Shadow guard POP also at Walgreen web site if can’t find it and on popcultcha for O/S peeps https://twitter.com/TulsaScott/status/814487578762219520 Might we be getting those classic Vintage Style SW pop!? https://twitter.com/MayTheFunkoBWY/status/816419279063027712 Yes we are! https://twitter.com/missingwords/status/817895952962854913 Clearout! https://twitter.com/yak_face/status/814627179489333248 TV/MOVIE/BOOK/GAME NEWS White men can jump in to being Han’s mentor https://twitter.com/Variety/status/816405159869693952 New JTC Bespin threepio cover https://twitter.com/FLYGUY/status/817256212722946049 New Darth Maul JTC cover https://twitter.com/FLYGUY/status/816453467162247168 Darkside Early Bird https://twitter.com/CollectCantina/status/817533013299003394 Classic marvel art with an updated twist https://twitter.com/FLYGUY/status/815616117196619778 SW Rebels Saw gerrera https://twitter.com/FLYGUY/status/810291075038453760 (aka Che) Statton back agan as old ben https://twitter.com/LucasSiegel/status/816691577091461121

[studio183-blog]

JULIA BOSSKI x STUDIO183

With a fire for Berlin life and a creative flair, Julia has gained recognition for her culinary endeavours, singing prowess and all-round zest for life, all whist celebrating her Polish roots. Having moved to Berlin over six years ago the Warsaw native has set the city alight with her drive and creative intuition, being the mind and voice behind Polish Thursday Dinners.

We were thrilled to collaborate with her on our latest shoot in West Berlin and teamed up with the lovely hair & make-up artist Kaya Rose Birch. Julia chose her favourite designs from Studio183, showcasing her elegantly cool style against the backdrop of Berlin’s rich, cultural history.

[Cover Image] coat / LOU LOU BLANCHE, shirt / ANISSA AIDA, location / Gedächtniskirche

[Above] shirt / ANISSA AIDA coat / Lida Noba, Location / Bikini Berlin

Julia, you moved from Warsaw to Berlin five years ago. What makes Berlin your city of choice?

I actually moved to Berlin over six years ago, in January 2011. I dreamed of moving abroad since I was a teenager. Because my aunt studied art in Berlin, I came here for the first time in 2004. It made a huge impression on me; it felt so free and diverse, a bit trashy but at the same time beautiful and modern. Nothing like provincial Warsaw.

Since 2004 I came to Berlin every year, just for shopping and walking around with my mom. I remember that every time I stepped out of the train, I thought: man, I feel so good here!

So after I finished high school in 2010 I decided to move to Berlin and study here. The only problem was, I didn’t know any German so I had to start from scratch. I didn’t know anyone in Berlin and no one knew me. Berlin gave me the chance to discover myself, I found my way here, I realised what I want and who I am. It especially made me realise where I come from.

All these things make Berlin my hometown. Now, I feel more Berliner than Warsawian and because of that, I can see my country and my roots from a different perspective and get inspired by them and not suffocated. I can be creative. I can be myself. However, the most important thing that made me choose Berlin is the diversity of people and cultures. It’s like a small world in one place. I love it!

As a jazz singer and successful creative culinary event directrice of “Polish Thursday Dinners", how would you describe your personal and professional development?

If you asked me six years ago what my life will be like, I probably wouldn’t respond with, “promoting Polish culture, cooking and singing in Berlin.” When I came to Berlin, I wanted to be a journalist as I loved literature and writing. I didn’t speak any German so I had to learn it from zero to academic level. I completed it within one year whilst au pairing. A few times dealing with creepy situations, battling, escaping, moving from one apartment to another, but finally in October 2012 I started studying American studies at JFK Institute.

Meanwhile I met my ex who pulled me into the real Berliner life, events, parties and supper clubs. I organised all these things with him, I opened a little restaurant with him, I changed studies and at the end of 2013 I founded PTD and started singing. Singing was a kind of therapy for my very dramatic relationship. It made me work through it and then finally leave it.

2014 was the first time in my Berlin life where I stood up on my own two feet. I got a nice apartment in the heart of Kreuzberg, I started my own thing, I was singing in the studio with a band and co-running a café in Prenzlauer Berg. And of course, I regularly organised my dinners. I was doing a few things at a time, I was sometimes extremely exhausted but I was happy. Me and my former business partner Don, were holding it together, we had a strong group of friends (probably when I first thought to call us the ”polish mafia”).

2014 was a year of new things, I constantly felt as if I was performing in a movie. I made all the coolest hipsters come to a Kindercafe at which I worked. One night hosting the boss of one of the most famous former clubs, Stattbad Wedding, and Ritter Butzke DJs. No one cared that they were seated surrounded by teddy bears and a plastic ball pool. I also sang on a tune for fashion week in 2014. I was having loads of fun even if working days and nights.

2015 was a break through year. I organised a dinner in Stattbad for about 40 people, where I met one of the coolest dinner pop-uppers “Wild & Wiese” and guys from Lost In Wedding. I kept on singing, I met my producer Darius Gall, recorded songs, did a few videos, worked at the Portuguese bakery Bekarei, and did more and more dinners.  Sometimes struggling with fears and doubts, but I never gave up. And thanks to that and my communication skills, in the beginning of 2016 I got my first big feature on Freunde von Freunden, thanks to my dear, Jonny Tiernan. Since that was published, my career just cared for itself.

I was doing three dinners a month, hosting guests from all around the world, working five days a week in a restaurant, having gigs, travelling and sometimes working weekends on additional events. I’ve been interviewed by all the biggest radio stations and magazines in Berlin and Poland, showed up on TV a few times. I worked with official Polish institutions, and was even contacted by Ikea for cooperation. I still sing, I model, I was asked to write a book with the whole story. Now I’m planning to open my own location! Uff ! More work and bigger goals! World, here I come!

shirt / ANISSA AIDA coat / Lida Noba, Location / Bikini Berlin

Please describe your style in a few words.

My style is simple: minimalistic chic. I have this natural, French flair. I probably picked it up while spending a lot of time in France.

How did you develop your sense of style? What influences you the most?

My mom was always a very stylish lady, I always observed her and admired her sense of aesthetic. She is an interior designer. She doesn’t only have amazing clothes but everything at home is beautiful. Additionally, my grandmother Marta was a model, so I guess the sense of style in this family is genetic. I also spent many holidays on the Cote d’Azur, where my family previously lived, and I keep on returning. The Monaco yacht style is familiar to me!

My interest in fashion began when I was 15. I remember I fell in love with high heels and tried to copy the models. I bought myself very high sandals and took them to Monte Carlo. It was a big challenge to walk the uneven streets in them, it was so funny actually, my mom was holding me so I wouldn’t fall.

You know, I’ve been grown up reading all the Vogues, Elles, etc., watching Sex and the City, imagining myself in these beautiful designer clothes. Well, dreams do come true!

coat / LOU LOU BLANCHE, shirt / ANISSA AIDA, location / Gedächtniskirche

Within the context of living in Berlin, how would you describe the development of your personal style?

I learnt to be myself in Berlin, also to express myself with my clothes. I chose the hipster Mitte chic over Polish diva-ness. I think white sport shoes, loose tops and “suit” pants, that’s my favourite outfit, with a leather jacket or a trench coat, red lips and my “legendary sunglasses”. This is how you can recognise me on the streets. And of course, because of my hair cut.

Why did you choose these specific designs for the shoot?

I chose them because it’s exactly how I am. An elegant, sophisticated business lady in a beige coat and sunglasses, a sweet French school girl and sometimes a rockstar. You can see that too, right?

What to you is Berlin style?

I don’t think that Berlin has a a specific style really. Maybe, ”I don’t care much” would be the right expression? Though, a few things are characteristic of Berlin style: vintage clothes, over-sized vintage furs and leather jackets, Berghain SM outfits, sweatpants, dirty uber partied shoes, but also Mitte chic, mostly taken from COS and Acne catalogues. I like that last one!

jumpsuit / WEAVE / fur jacket / MARIANNA HERRHOFER / boots / MARITA MORENO, location / Tiergarten

jumpsuit / WEAVE / fur jacket / MARIANNA HERRHOFER, location / Tiergarten

What do you think about the current style hype around Eastern European fashion?

I think it’s still too unknown. I’m in love with a few Polish designers and try to support them by buying and wearing their designs. I really think people should start being more supportive of emerging designers who make their own handcrafted clothes with so much love and care, and stop focusing on the well known, mass-produced brands.

coat / LOU LOU BLANCHE, shirt / ANISSA AIDA, location / City West

Who is your style icon / muse ?

My muse and icon is of course my mom. She has this artistic, eccentric sense of style. Some of her outfits even I wouldn’t be brave enough to wear. After her, I’d say: Diane Keaton and Lauren Hutton - for their masculine feminine elegance. To be honest I often get inspired by men. Elegance is one of the most important things I admire in men. So guys: No style, no Bosski.

photos / Mark Hunt, styling / Julia Bosski, Hair & Make-Up / Kaya Birch

[bosskie]

Just another quick-ish concept-art-like thing for practice. This is inspired by the storyboard of Abe's Oddysee that had this cut part where Abe tried to chant but Molluck prevented it via blowing some cigar smoke. I really loved that thing and I have said earlier about this, that I wanna draw something related to it, so here it is!

I just noticed my biggest mistakes with this after I had already drawn the main stuff, so didn't feel like fixing them... More like gotta redraw this one day. Well, it's so rare when I draw any scenes, mainly simple portraits, so this was a good practice thing still. This just doesn't look good in my opinion but it's fine I guess. I'm basically drawing digital stuff right now because I just feel so stressed out about my drawing/painting skills...

I can't help it but I love Molluck when he is like this too; I wish I had similar self-confidence... I don't hate/dislike Abe but I just haven't really felt anything toward him; I'm bad at stuff like this and rarely any character gives me any feelings anyway. And by feelings here I mean like building your opinion about / relationship with the character and such stuff, like that the character means something for you. Molluck is literally the only character I care about, outside the Oddworld too. He is just something so special for me... I cannot help it, my brain is just like this, 'odd'. I understand why so many like/love Abe but he just ain't for me. Even before I knew about Soulstorm, Glukkons were my favourite species... (I got into Oddworld some months before it was released.) OWI has tried to make them ugly and such but they cannot tell me what to think about Gluks! (I do understand why they do that too; it's for narrative reasons.)

Molluck is just my beloved Gluk and I wish him to be happy!

[bosskie]

Molluck's Dream Blimp

I felt like trying to sketch/design Molluck's dream luxury blimp after seeing some blimp concept art. I know like nothing about designing vehicles or even drawing them but I guess that this could fly. (Y)

Yeah, this is kinda a mixture of Molluck's blimp in Soulstorm and some other blimp designs I saw, some being just like a huge Glukkon face, which inspired this design. I wasn't sure about the Magog Cartel logo but I couldn't figure out anything better either. Oh, and this design of the logo looks somehow like a naked Glukkon to me... Which makes me wonder if it could be understood this way too, at least some versions of it since some other version look more clearly like an Octigi.

But yeah, those huge-Gluk-face-blimps made me joke that probably Molluck's dream blimp looks basically like a huge face of his, so yeah, this design do is a flying huge face of Molluck's... It would be fun to design the whole thing and maybe even create a 3D model of it. And yeah, give that way Molluck a happy ending. I just love to see him being happy, okay...

I just recently noticed some new Molluck stuff when I took a closer look at that cancelled Oddworld movie today, and it made me see better the brutal side of Molluck's personality. But I still kinda love it... I also just still see that he does have a kind side but he is very picky. I basically rework my story with Molluck every day and maybe, he would have considered eating me at some point, also because I have suggested it (mental health issues, you know), but there's just something very special between us and he wouldn't like to lose me; who else (than him) would love him deeply if I didn't (even he is his mother's favourite, his mother probably loves him just for his success and such, while I do love him just as he is, no matter if he failed). Well, he still gets to taste me, so, um, win-win I guess...

I have never written down my self-insert story with Molluck and I have been wondering if I should, even just for myself. It would be quite a long story though since yeah, I basically continue it inside my head every day... I cannot help it, I really just love this Gluk, even if he ate me (it would be an 'useful' way to die too, Molluck would get a dinner!). Something something, love is blind, something something... I don't really care if I'm 'crazy' or 'odd' for this, I didn't choose to love him; he just feels so right, no one else has ever felt so right... I have known for so long that I'm odd, so this only seems 'logical', or how to say... Yeah, Oddworld would be the right place for me to live in. (Y) Also yeah, why this Gluk is just the most beautiful (and the hottest) thing/creature/whatever for me... Yeah, what I could even do about it, but why I even should. I just wanna be myself with this stuff; I have already tortured myself enough with trying to be 'normal' with this.

I'm not sure why I'm still even writing this post but well, just saying that love is odd, brains are odd, life is odd... 'In odd we trust'! 💖

[bosskie]

Some vent art because I have just felt so done this week... Frankly, Molluck feels like my alter ego and it can be seen in some of my drawings...

I don't even really feel like writing any vent because I feel like no one cares... I'm sorry but I just struggle with trusting that people actually care about me being here and the stuff I post... It's just because of my previous experiences that basically killed my trust in people in general and it's difficult to get it back... I don't think that people have lied to me here but my mind just keeps telling me that those words cannot be true... My ill mind just keeps telling me that people just lie to me and don't want good things to me, even I know that it's just my ill mind's lie... I'm just so tired of this... So tired that I keep considering stopping posting online... I'm also so tired of only seeing flaws in my creations... I have just never really liked my art... It's just so tiring and discouraging...

I probably shouldn't say this stuff out loud but I still do, just because I'm just so tired and keep thinking awful stuff on a daily basis... Sometimes, I feel like crying in bed because of my art, because I think that it looks so bad... I feel like the only thought that keeps me actually still drawing Molluck stuff is that I feel like Molluck (would) love(s) my Molluck art... I don't know if it's just my brain's way to keep me creating but it still means a lot to me... It's so difficult for me to feel actually loved, I have probably been able to feel loved just a few times during my whole life even my family loves me so much... My other environment just affected me more... I don't feel like I'm really lovable, worth any love... But at the same time I feel like Molluck is lovable and I do see myself in him and it's the reason why I started to love him... I guess that it's because he isn't me still. Even thought of him loving me touches me, it's still difficult to accept it because I feel like I'm not meant to be loved, for no actual reason, just being my fate...

I'm sorry... But I try to keep having hope and keep myself alive... It still touches me that some people care about my stuff here, but just when my ill mind doesn't control me too much with its lies... My ill mind only controls what I feel and it's not what I actually think. My ill mind just wants my end and can make me even feel hate toward love I get... It's so awful... I wish it to end... Oh, and don't get me wrong, I'm not asking for anything here, not for sympathy, pity, attention, or whatever. I only wish that people understand why I behave this way, why I don't interact (includes liking any posts) but only if people come to talk to me. The reason why I don't 'allow' reblogs is because I just cannot stand seeing my stuff on someone else's blog... But well, I don't even feel like it's worth reblogging anyway... I constantly just feel like I must improve and improve my art to be good enough... I just don't feel like my art is good enough... Sometimes, I just draw out of anxiety, just because I feel like I must practice or see if I can draw a certain thing... But well, I'm still glad if someone can still like my stuff.

Yet again, I feel sorry but I thank you for your time and possible understanding. I just had to open up because I feel like I'm barely holding myself together... I'm just so tired...

[bosskie]

Enjoying the Yaymans

I'm trying to improve my art, so I did this quick-ish thing to practice perspective and lighting.

I gotta say that I often admire the official (concept) art of OWI and I wish that I could draw/paint similar stuff. (If you ask me what's the most mind-blowing piece, it's that RuptureFarms painting for Abe's Oddysee, the one you see in the intro; man, just, I cannot find words to explain how amazing it is to me...) I mean that concept art in general since there are multiple amazing artists who have done that stuff. So, I took some inspiration to the style here from the certain art style there.

I probably messed something here since this was a challenging thing to do but I tried my best; I barely draw stuff like this. I wish to do more stuff like this since I'm trying to learn a decent quick-ish concept art style, especially when my way to draw ain't quick... I'm really not the one to say if my stuff looks 'good enough' or when it looks professional, so I'm just trying to improve my stuff in general. I just don't personally feel like my stuff is anything amazing/great/impressive...

But yeah, just Molluck enjoying the beach, naked once more... I'm still trying to learn to draw his body too since it's just so difficult... I love to create stuff but it's difficult for multiple reasons... I want too much more Molluck content, so I take that pain. Also yeah, that is a broken Abe beach ball; just for fun. Oh, and you might remember that I just like to draw Molluck in pink; it just somehow suits him!

I'm not sure about what kind of Molluck scenes to draw in this style, so I'm open for suggestions but I make no promises, for the quality or that I'll draw it; I still appreciate it.

[bosskie]

Deal

Man, how to start explaining this oddness... Welp, this was that one drawing idea I have kept to myself to this day, the one I mentioned revealing if I don't redraw it this year since the original is an unfinished drawing I haven't really shown but just Molluck. So, yeah, here it is, after about 3 years!

This is a reference to another video game's ad where the enemies much work together against a common enemy. If you could figure out the game already, I give ya ten points! And if you didn't, well, it's alright. The game is 'Crash Twinsanity'; just one game I love and especially its soundtrack (it's a capella)! So yeah, there was just speculations of how the story would continue after SoulStorm and one of them was that Molluck and Abe would work together againts the Magog Cartel. So, that's where this idea came from. I kinda wish that this was the case since it might be the only way how Molluck would achieve a good ending.

I was originally going to make this as a Mother's Day thing, as a bad joke, but welp, I did let it be... Molluck just kinda has to destroy his mother in order to save himself, so he could use Abe's help to do it and a part of that deal, he could help Abe to, well, at least see his mother. But well, cannot really make any promises from Molluck's part since he is known to be a back-stabber... (It's how he achieved his position.) So, he could just use Abe but maybe something would evoke inside him that would him genuinely let Abe be, so he wouldn't revenge the disaster Abe did to him... Or he thinks that 'revenge is a dish best served cold', like that one saying goes... So yeah, cannot know about Molluck. But I hope that he is able to work with Abe, even after getting himself saved.

Oh, and yeah, in that ad, that deal is pictured as a marriage, so that's why they got such outfits. I must say that Molluck looks very handsome in that suit! Abe's suit is just a white loincloth and a necklace-robe-something thing with OWI's logo. And yes, he is holding a bouquet. I originally did Lady Margaret to look like the original Mudokon Pop but I changed it to, well, make this less violent. I wonder if it should be called Queen Pop or Pop Queen... I'm not sure of how to draw Abe's mother, Sam, since her head is kinda varied, just like Lady Margaret's, since there ain't 'official version' out there, just these concepts... But I tried my best. I also feel like Abe might be a bit too big here but well, this is what you get when you draw on a paper; it's difficult to edit stuff, if not impossible, and you might realize things when it's too late...

I'm not sure if I should show the original WIP since it's quite unfinished and looks kinda bad but well, some improvement I guess:

I still like the way Molluck looks here, though I did fix the flaws I saw to this new sketch I did. Abe instead has much more flaws, like too human-like anatomy, so yeah, more stuff to fix... But you can probably see better the outfit design I did for Abe here. And yeah, Sam looks different here, mainly because I feel like I understood better how her head 'works'... Lady Margaret looking fine on a stick there but yeah, felt like doing the later version of the Pops to the new sketch...

Man, I'm not really sure about how to explain the things I have been thinking about Molluck recently... I just feel like it only fascinates me, all the possible dark stuff he has done. It just makes me feel interested, somehow amused too since my humour can be quite dark and twisted... It's really like one of the main reasons why I love Oddworld, all that dark stuff! Like, I have probably said this earlier, but for example, that one Lady Margaret's lung transplant concept art just makes me laugh like every time, the one where Munch is basically merged into her body. I also recently learned more about the possible dark arts Glukkons still practice, like forecasting stocks using Mudokon organs... I already got some 'bad ideas' to make it further since 'a liver' is in Finnish 'maksa' and it can also be a conjugated from a verb 'maksaa'. So, 'maksa' can mean 'Pay!' or 'maksaa' is like something costs something or someone pays something. So yeah, such a great organ for this stuff! I feel like my humour is probably one big reason why I'm kinda siding with the Gluks... It's not the same that I supported this stuff, I just enjoy stuff like this.

I also did read the newspapers from the worst ending of SoulStorm again and noticed more stuff. It's not always easy to say what is actually true there but mainly it is. There was just said that Molluck blamed declining resources in wildlife supply on his ongoing diminishing returns but the newspaper said that it wasn't true. I believe that it's true what Molluck said, that those hunted animal populations were getting thin and that's why he did that Mudokon Pops solution; just gotta get that meat from somewhere! It's interesting though how in games, we have only seen how the animals at RuptureFarms are brought from the wilds but in that movie concept, there do are (also) farm animals, like those cow-like creatures. I must say that if Molluck only uses hunted animals, his business model has indeed been quite unsustainable and I don't wonder why he got that downfall and it would actually have been inevitable, so Abe only made it quicker. Though, Molluck was rewarded with that golden medal he wears, that tie thing, so it makes me think that he must have had some other practices too or are Glukkons just into unsustainable things... If so, man, they are slowly killing themselves too. I just believe that Glukkons could practice sustainable capitalism, it would be much more wiser, and if I was with Molluck, I would do my best to get him into this kind of business model, also to save his ass... Well, he did still try to create other products too but welp, they failed... I would still try to help him to save his business.

I have also wondered more about Molluck's actual behaviour, like how bad anger issues he has in reality... It still makes me laugh when I read that 'murderous Molluck' stuff and how awful he was from those newspapers, being said to be 'a psycho'. I just don't personally see him being this awful and I bet that this stuff in exaggerated but has some truth in it. Like, I bet that when Molluck is truly angry, well, he kills. We can see that in SoulStorm, no matter which ending it is, Molluck kills, by himself or via the Sligs. So yeah, do not get on the bad side of him... I'm not really justifying his actions but the world Molluck lives in is brutal and if he fails, he is wiped out, so he must do everything to really survive and retire one day. I just feel like he has needed to harden his heart for this reason. It's just that I feel like I understand Molluck, like why he even ended up killing his Chauffeur. I also just truly love him, so it feels like no matter what is revealed related to him, I'll still love him. I just believe that there somewhere, quite deep inside of him, he still has a heart and is able to love (not just himself, luxuries, his mother, and so on...).

Yeah, dunno what else to say... Just sharing my ideas, thoughts and love for Molluck once more. Frankly, while drawing that new sketch, I still just felt like I cannot really draw well and felt depressed... But I try to just focus on what I draw, not how I drew something since I just feel like I got so much to learn to even make my stuff look good... I just feel like my stuff hasn't good quality... Well, all I can do for that is just keep drawing or just quit. I mainly just post sketches anyway, so they ain't even fully rendered and polished. It's been long since I actually finished a proper drawing... Sketching is just better since I got too many ideas to fart out...

[bosskie]

Fresh 'n' Clean

Man, I just saw fluffy slippers at store on Sunday and thought immediately that it would be adorable to see Molluck wearing such on his 'actual' feet... I just altered that they have holes for his single toe nails. And yeah, he is wearing a bathrobe too (I imagine it being lavender blush in colour). He is sitting and just came from a bath/shower, just saying.

To explain this piece more, I can say that I have often imagined washing Molluck because I would just love to take care of him... I have tried to draw stuff related to this but I haven't liked any of them enough to create anything proper, so this is like the first actual thing I got done related to this 'desire'...

Man, I just love this majestic looking creature... I started to use that adjective recently actually since my Molluck 3D model just made me think of it... Yeah, my Molluck love just gets 'worse' day by day. But, I got his bust retopology done, but then I noticed how terrible my retopology actually was... So, I gotta redo the whole thing but I don't mind since I love working on Molluck stuff! That terrible retopology piece has still brought me much joy, so zero regrets. (Y) Oh, and I also noticed that I still need to fix his head a bit too, of the sculpt I mean, so it's only good that I redo the retopology... Some little things just weren't right. But I'm also learning from my mistakes, especially when I'm doing my first proper 3D model... (I'm calling that retopology terrible since it broke three retopology rules that should never be broken... I had no idea until I checked the loops... Yeah, now I know how to retopology in a right way.)

Gotta say that I have mainly still felt terrible, and I feel like I like my 3D stuff a lot more than 2D stuff, drawings I mean, even I haven't finished any 3D model yet... It feels discouraging, especially when I already don't really feel like I draw well. Therefore, I also have no interested in doing that Oddworldtober thing, but I don't have time or energy for it either. But I would make everything to be related to Molluck anyway...

I don't really care if my relationship with Molluck is healthy or not since it's what keeps me alive the most. I'm just so tired and don't see much light... Getting out from bed isn't an easy task. But Molluck is the side of my mind that brings light and serenity to my life. It's just that I'm unable to love myself but thru Molluck I can give love to myself. Oh, and I do want to keep Molluck as much as possible like he 'actually' is, but I just want to believe that he has a loving and kind side but he is like that to no one else. Like I have said earlier, he just feels friendly... It's what kind of vibe he gives to me in Soulstorm, as odd as it can sound... I guess that it's just that his personality reminds me of mine, so I cannot see that 'menacing/sinister' vibe of his... He is just the most relatable character to me... Yeah, he just feels so right to me and no one else has made me feel like he does.

I bet that it's no surprise that the biggest motivation for me to get the model done are my own Molluck fantasies... So, um, yeah, I have already done plenty of stuff with the current Molluck 3D stuff I have... For the reasons you might guess, I'm not sharing them, but I feel like I would show this one edited screenshot:

I haven't measured the proportions to be exact here since that's that 'terrible retopology Molluck', not the sculpt, but Molluck do is like this big... Kissing with him (on lips) is challenging but it makes it more like 'exciting'... His head is so big that it's 'huggable' like that. Oh, and yeah, I don't mind his strong cigar breath, just enjoy his big 'cigary' kisses! Cigars are a part of him, and I love him as he is, so I do also love his cigar breath. And that human model ain't mine but I'll model myself too after I'm pretty much done with the Molluck model...

Man, I just cannot help that how much I love this Gluk... For me, he is just the most beautiful thing I have ever seen... I'm not denying the things he has done, I just love him just as he is. Man, sometimes I wonder how long this lasts but it's only getting stronger and stronger, especially when my Molluck 3D model gets more and more progressed... I have just never felt actual interest in relationships like this with real people, so this is just my way to be. I have heard multiple times that I'm (very) handsome, so, um, it's not about this, at all, and I prefer to be ugly but in a good way, just like Molluck is. I mean, I see how Molluck also looks ugly but it's what makes him so beautiful in my opinion, I do not like perfect looking people/creatures, though yeah, Molluck looks perfect in my opinion too, but you get my point, I hope...

Man, my whole point here has been just that this Gluk means a lot to me, and I love him so much... Oh, and I gotta also give a shout-out to this one Oddworld baby piece which probably inspired me with this there somewhere inside my head... You see, those shoes on the lil Gluk's feet! Man, how cute that lil Gluk is! Yeah, I still wish I could adopt a Glukkon baby/child... Though, I still prefer to be with Molluck without children, but man, they are so adorable... But Molluck is the most adorable thing still!

Yeah, I could just keep on talking about this majestic creature, but it's better that I stop here... Molluck... 💓✨ (Sometimes, it amuses me how OWI tries to present Molluck as an awful, ruthless, ugly monster but I'm just loving it and find Molluck beautiful and adorable, want to give him so much love... Oh, I'm not saying that he wasn't also that kind of monster, but I see that he isn't only that, and I want to treat him with kindness.)

[bosskie]

Yeah, I don't know if you recognize that logo, but this was drawn on Nintendo Wii! I haven't told you, but my only drawing tablet is uDraw GameTablet, and with it came that uDraw Studio drawing software. Man, I haven't touched it for almost a decade... I just have kept telling myself that I should try it again for, I don't know, about a year at least. So, today, I felt like giving it a try since I felt so anxious and depressed this morning that I needed some distraction... I had no intention to draw today but my mental health needed it...

This took just about an hour, which feels surprising... It's less than the sketch I did yesterday. That tablet and program feel like some toy-like gadgets but are decent enough. The program is quite simple, has no layers or blending; feels pretty much like doing traditional art, except that it has undo and redo. Oh, and it also records automatically your drawing progress, so you get a speedpaint video too! But there seems no way to export it, unless you record your screen... Therefore, I haven't even used them much, but I just wanted to try some drawing tablet after so long. Seeing that even with that crappy tablet I can draw like this makes me consider more bying a proper thing... I just don't know which one to buy... I have had one 'actual' drawing tablet over a decade ago, but I didn't like drawing with it... It was just one cheap Trust tablet. So yeah, my view has changed since drawing with the mouse has gotten just too restricting...

But I bet that a drawing tablet would be better than a screen, at least to start with... My only experience with a drawing on screen is my old iPad with the worst possible touch pen for drawing... I do have tried it this year too, but... It was just awful, especially when it's just way too outdated for any proper drawing app, and drawing on it was also laggy... So yeah, at least a crappy drawing tablet wins a crappy drawing screen setup.

I'm not even sure why I'm ranting about this... Maybe because I'm just so frustrated with my art situation... Oh, and yeah, I kinda just added that heart for fun and didn't mean to leave it there but well, it made this look cuter! Sometimes, I just would like to fill my Molluck stuff with hearts... I also succeeded to hold myself this time and I didn't edit this sketch in Photoshop. (Y) I just gotta add filters to my art to make it look more tolerable for myself...

[bosskie]

Just felt like doing a speedpaint thing after a long time. I gave myself only one hour to paint this, but well, I noticed too many flaws that I gave myself a half hour more time to fix this... This doesn't still look like I wished but it's okay. Just practicing.

Man, this felt harder than I thought since I still have no idea how to actually paint digitally... It's always such a hassle, trial and error stuff. I bet that one reason is just simply that I draw with a mouse...

I just feel like I don't understand how people can do digital stuff smoothly... I don't know what kind of equipment or programs I should really use... So yeah, I feel like I'm stuck with digital art... I barely like anything about it but the editibility... I wish that I enjoyed it more but it feels harder than traditional art with my current stuff... Man, I just don't know what I should get in order to enjoy digital art... I haven't even really liked drawing tablets or drawing on the screen, but well, I have only done it with kinda crappy equipment...

Molluck is such a mood. (Y) Art is hard but rewarding.

[bosskie]

Just one quick-ish Molluck sketch study I did to practice drawing his head, again... I just recently realized some more mistakes I have kept doing while drawing Molluck, and now even my most recent Molluck works bother me... Welp, I learned from those mistakes here and I can already see the improvement. (Y) I'm basically just improving my way to think and see things, which improves my drawings too. Thinking is a big part of art. I actually also try to avoid drawing from direct references for this reason, like with this one. I tend to start drawing without a reference and then look after suitable references to improve my drawing.

But yeah, poor Molluck... He is quite furious here. I just wanted to draw this expression because I love the way he looks when he is angry, but I also love his teeth and "big 'n' loose" mouth... Though, yeah, I would compliment like all his body parts... But I just love his "loose" face! It looks so cute, okay...

I have also been working on one huge Molluck post this week, and hopefully I can publish it this weekend... So, get ready for some analysis on Molluck! This is one of those rare moments when I feel somewhat proud of my doings, and it doesn't even relate to my art... I have barely ever been proud of my art. Gotta keep just getting better.

[bosskie]

Stolen Dream

This piece was inspired by @\ask-alf-oddworld's brilliant reblog comment about Molluck getting his luxury air yacht by putting the chauffeur to shoot the salesmen because he cannot afford one. I just had to draw it because it was like the funniest thing for a while and I really loved it! I'm still laughing at it, even I saw it like two days ago. So, I also wanna thank for this laughter, I really needed it! (I felt better after drawing this.)

I had no idea what like the air yach salesman would be but I felt like a Chronicler would be alright, and well, he isn't even really an important thing here; he was drawn to only die. I also didn't wanna worry too much about perspective, proportions, and the blimp here; I just wanted to draw this thing. Sadly, this photo ate yet again some of my fine details but you can see the main thing.

I don't know what it tells about me and my humour when it makes me laugh a lot when Molluck does stuff like this... I guess that it's one reason why I don't really mind Molluck's 'bastard behaviour' but more like love it... Though yeah, my mother has told me that I have malicious/gleeful laughter (not always though)... I dunno man, I just enjoy dark humour. I have actually wanted to record my 'evil laughter' to some Molluck thing, but I'm still figuring out what it would be... It's nothing new though, I have enjoyed doing 'evil scientist laugh' since I was a child. So yeah, it's kinda a part of me...

I don't know what else to say but thank you! I already wrote yesterday about the community here and my problems with interacting, even I find the community here lovely, so I don't wanna repeat myself now. But I still feel like repeating that I just love this Gluk! 💙 Molluck got that sisu. 🤍✨

[bosskie]

Trust Me

Just felt like drawing a simple supportive Molluck thing after that vent piece; nothing special. (Though yeah, this piece can be also seen in another way since well, he isn't really someone to trust but if you have a really close and good relationship with him, at least I see him like this.)

I felt a bit better for a little moment but then my mind just told me its awful stuff and my mood was ruined... I still wanted to get this done, no matter how my mind mocks me and tells me to 'stop'. But well, at least the good thing is that while drawing this I noticed yet more details on this Molluck model... Man, I just gotta say it again that the level of detail in Soulstorm is just amazing... I keep seeing Molluck differently the more I just look and draw at him... I cannot help myself but he is just so beautiful... I cannot get enough of him...

I do already know what I would like to draw next and the inspiration/idea is straight from here, Oddtumblr. It kinda makes me nervous because interaracting with people causes me stress... It just relates to that how I'm used to feel unwelcome, an outsider by default, so it's difficult for me to be a part of any community... (Town where I grew up was a close-minded place and I see how it has damaged me...) My mind just keeps telling me that it's still the case... But despite of this, I really feel like drawing it since it made me laugh a lot yesterday. So yes, I do follow what's happening here, and I love to see Molluck stuff (other than mine) here, even when I don't express it. I just hate that my mind kinda prevents me from enjoying Molluck stuff made by others since it likes to use it to mock me... It's just awful... That's one reason why I'm not interacting with it... But I wanna at least say it here that Tumblr has a lovely Oddworld community and that's the reason why I created this blog to here!

But yeah, I'm trying my best to keep creating stuff despite of my awful mind... Like, the meaning of this piece to me is related to my self-insert world where Molluck is such a sweet Gluk toward me and he knows that I'm not like I see myself. He is still the same bastard there but we just have a special relationship where he can show his soft side (Soulstorm really gave me this impression that he is like this...). Man, I just love this Gluk so much! 💓 Oh, and again, I wanna thank you for your support! 💛 It's what also gave me 'boost' to draw this positive thing. I really thought back then that no one would support me for loving Molluck.

[bosskie]

Frankly, I don't know yet again what's this but my brain just wanted me to draw Molluck like this... Maybe it was a challenge since yeah, this was a challenge... But I guess that this looks correct enough. Poor Molluck though...

I realized after drawing this that this looks pretty much like one drawing from 3 years ago:

Man, what the odd happened to my drawing skills during that year... I mean, I could already draw photorealistic stuff like a decade ago. But then I didn't draw much for many years... I started to draw more when I got into Oddworld, and I post like almost everything I draw to here since yeah, I barely draw anything else than Molluck stuff. But this year... Man, it's so odd to see me drawing this much since it's been so long it was like this... I feel like that some days ago, I achieved 'a new level' when it comes to drawing Molluck and now, my older Molluck drawings from this year look different and I see flaws I didn't see back then...

My Molluck art book is close to its end since it has like only 5 pages left, and then I just start another one! I haven't drawn all my traditional Molluck skeches to there, but it's pretty much full of those rendered Molluck pieces. I have been joking that if I sold it, the minimum price would be 1000 € because it has 100 pages, so it would be cheap actually, only 10 € per a drawing (the front cover drawing is free!). Honestly, I have no idea how much worth my art even is but if one hour would be 10 €, 1000 € is a steal (for whole the book). The only time I have 'got paid' for an artwork was that Soulstorm tattoo competition I won. I tend to see my art worth nothing, so I'm not the right person to say what's its worth...

But yeah, just some random Molluck stuff, yet again... I like never know what like my next Molluck drawing will be... But I'm at least glad to see that all these over 100 Mollucks I have already drawn this year have improved my drawing skills significantly. (Y)