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So I missed April Fools boops on tumblr I’m pretty sure. I remember hearing about it on here but I think I was too distracted by Shane and Courtney announcing their marriage and trying to think if it was a prank or not.
#boop#I guess boop me if you want#i don’t know#I’m almost 30#what the fuck am I doing#I ask myself this daily at this point
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Day #95 - SHINY??
Celebrimbor and Narvi discover that magic moon ink thingy
#this is for that wonderful person who requested tyelpe and narvi#pls forgive me i wildly underestimated the time it would take to finish that drawing with my current schedule TvT#you have not been forgotten! i just drew something with two-point perspective in it and scared myself with lines!#anyways here's extra little guys for you i hope you like them :DD#(your ask will be answered eventually dw lol)#celebrimbor#tyelpe#narvi#eregion#gwaith-i-miridan is a strictly no-sleeves club#annatar almost got booted because he insisted on long flammable robes#cute#chibi#the silmarillion#digital art#silm art#doodle#tolkien#tolkien legendarium#daily smol silm
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Conversations about literature
#doodles#non-fandom stuff#daily life#work comic#asked aussie coworker to reorder some of the penguin classics edition books#and she is reeling from realizing some titles just. are not available to us in the states#case in point the copy of white worm she tried to order is apparently not available in the us#but they don't always list that in an obvious place in the catalogs#anyways myself included i don't think any of us on staff knew about it offhand?? hmmm...#ah but i did get to witness such an amazing interaction...#he said “dingoes” so flatly and yet with so much conviction....
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I truly believe no one knows Rock DJ by Robbie Williams the way i know Rock DJ by Robbie Williams, my mastermind subject would be Rock DJ by Robbie Williams, Rock DJ by Robbie Williams could wake me from a coma
#I will go see that monkey biopic just to hear this song#i am so serious#i used to ask for the song to be looped in the car when i was 3#i’d learnt all the lyrics by the time i was 5#I loved the music video#do you know how psychotic it is to have loved that video as a child???#i didn’t care the song was in my bloodstream at that point#rock dj#robbie williams#take that#robbie williams rock dj#also#absolutely not an appropriate song for a child#fwiw#i still love the song to this day#rock dj i think truly is my mr brightside#i will drop everything when this song comes on#the social anxiety leaves my body when this song comes on in public#i find myself pondering on the question ‘when’s it gonna stop dj’ daily#these tags are dramatic#and yet true#i don’t wanna rock dj#whilst we’re here#seems as good a time as any to confess#i had the biggest crush on Howard Donald when i was like 10#lmao#that’s all#🫡
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Headcanon Week
Day 3 - Heels
Alright, a silly one for today since it was a long day- Per'kele would be atrocious in high heels. I picture that if he tried to wear more than flats with literally 2 or 5 millimeters of heel he'd fall flat on his face at the first step taken.
The funnier part is that I believe he'd be able to even stand en-pointe barefeet but the moment shoes and heels are involved he is done for lol.
#not a daily#headcanon week#per'kele#fear and hunger#fear & hunger#fear and hunger termina#f&h termina#the heels one is a question I always ask myself about the characters I draw- it's a must at this point lmao#He got the perfect legs for 'em but he is cursed by the need to feel the ground when walking- how sad
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#ask to tag#favorites#I've been really super disproportionately tired lately#even beyond the usual debilitating fatigue from my severe chronic illness#so I'm putting myself back on my prednisone in the morning.#it is not a long term solution but it's what I've got.#I've got enough stocked up to take a fairly safe dose until I'm able to actually access a doctor back home in june#cuz I've been struggling physically since way back in july but it's getting to the point where I can't just tough it out anymore#yesterday I was having a lot of difficulty speaking#today I was having a lot of trouble moving at all#and it's not a typical acute flare that clears up after a day.#so like. not in a position to be completely immobilized just yet.#(once I get home our other partner can take care of me and it matters much less if I can't move)#(but my wife can't do that while she's still working this job and our other partner isn't here)#(so. need the temporary power up.)
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crazyyy how this one person i follow is always, literally always, asking for money from her tumblr followers. to the point that's the ONLY THING SHE POSTS.
#i just follow her at this point to laugh. i debated unfollowing when she first started doing this but#it's so predictable#and it's so unbelievable.#im not laughing at poverty but it's been more than a year of near daily posts like this#it's just scamming#to the point now that shes even like 'i know i make these posts allll the time but can anyone front me $400 for these recurring payments#i should absolutely be able to pay for myself/'#like girl how tf do you even have an apartment when clearly you arent employed at all?#how do you pay for any of these 'lockers and cars and rides' and other shit OUTSIDE of your tumblr mooching?#crazy to me that people feel comfortable asking for that much money but especially that often#update your resume ffs and get a job it's been literally two years
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Looking through all the pics on my work phone to what I would post (and what tumblr will let me post lol) and I'm like 'oh I am actually stupidly hot' I think I messed up making content for myself 😅
Looking at my stuff from like 2021/22 I was soo much more relaxed with it, random phone pics and a lot of ones where I didn't bother with make up/outfits and lighting but I got it in my head that I really needed to be posting bd videos twice a week and everything needed to be as high production as I could make which made it difficult since I had to try and set up 'filming nights' to avoid my flatmate, pets making noise, neighbour, ect instead of just taking pics on the fly. That era was also when I made the most money in the site so like why did I switch up?
I'm rambling and questioning all the things now 😶🙃
#told you i was going to post random shite like this#definitely compared myself to other creators that do this full time which i never have so i shouldnt have done that#clearly the more casual thing was what worked for me and people wanted#aaaaaaaa#did i make a mistake saying im done or should i just have taken an official break to sort myself out#to be fair whenever i asked for feedback people rarely gave any or it wasnt really helpful#10 pup points for reading all thi#if you have been collecting pup points have you been keeping count?#think i thought people wouldnt want to pay if i wasnt posting daily posting multiple pics and a bunch of video#but like that isnt sustainable even for someone that does this full time#forever holding my standard for myself waayyy to fecking high#another 5 pup points for getting to this point
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it’s really weird being trans and going to the doctor when you don’t plan on transitioning medically
#marzi speaks#i have no interest in t or top surgery atm so for convenience my doctors know me as a woman#which like. that isn’t. incorrect. but it’s not all of me#idk. i’m someone who typically just despises being closeted#i’m privileged to be able to not be closeted in my daily life but like. i just hate hiding myself yanno#but if i mark myself down as ‘other’ on those forms then everything just gets so much more complicated#plus even if i say i’m comfortable with all pronouns i’ll likely still just be she/her-ed. maybe she/they-ed if i’m lucky#so like. there’s no point in complicating things for myself like that#but it’s weird. i’m not staying closeted because i’m afraid of my doctors not caring for me#(although i do worry about systematic biases)#but instead because it’s just. easier. and doesn’t that kind of suck#being fully myself in a medical setting is inconvenient. it gets in the way#because the medical system isn’t built to accomodate me. so i fold away those parts of me to make it easier#idk. it’s kinda fucked but it mostly just makes me feel weird. i feel like i’m lying when i tell them i’m female but it’s my easiest option#plus i’d hate to be asked if i’ve transitioned medically at all and have ‘biologically female’ written on my chart when i say no#i’d rather just see an F on the gender marker than be told my body is that of a woman’s
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a fellow english major, really happy to see someone who's proud of their degree <3
you know that "no love, no matter how brief, is wasted" line? i think the same applies for knowledge too - no matter how useless it may seem, knowledge acquired is never in vain.
#honestly like. idk what your age is but when i was attending uni i kept getting told that i shouldve gone for IT. because the future#- and the money - is there.#now look at the IT companies. the whole thing is crumbling#not to mention the arrogance. that IT degree didnt make you immune to the same old scam tactics did it. how are your nfts doing btw#honestly i never really expected it myself that a humanities degree would prove useful in a daily life type of way#like. sure i knew it wasnt useless but still. its entirely different to experience it in real time yknow#and the whole new wave ''it isnt that deep'' trend is honestly pretty dangerous bc there usually IS something deeper.#a narrative an agenda a propaganda etc.... or simply just capitalist greed#so its needed to read between the lines and see what the point/intention really is#- and thats what literary and other art analysis is making you do! it makes you stop and think#this is all not even mentioning all the political historical and cultural stuff we learned about all the anglo-saxon countries#which all prove to be pretty useful in light of recent events......#so yeah. anyway. dont listen to all those who say its useless (and theres a lot of those even among the ones who chose this major too)#its clearly not. but even if it were it wouldnt matter ehat they think#(i do wish tho that i couldve attended it already on the right meds bc i feel like i forgot A Lot bc of my mental state at the time#but oh well. what can you do)#thank you for the ask it was really nice of you 💞💞💞#ask#anon
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anyway. two days ago i was on a bus with 30+ minutes left to my destination when a guy in front of me very abruptly got up and plunked his ass to the empty seat next to mine, introduced himself and asked for my number. i was so frazzled i just kinda went ... uhh... okay? and let him hand me his phone. and i feel... dumb for doing that and not having any sort of mental script ready and not even giving him a fake number, but he also ... called my cell on the spot to make sure it was the right number? so. lmao. what would have even been the right option. he stayed for another couple minutes trying to make conversation. we were on such a long stretch of road, and i had a window seat so when he sat down i physically had zero exit anyway. he got back into his original seat afterwards but i still feel like i was being an idiot days later. eh
verdict: :(
#sigh. initially he turned around to ask me for directions and i was nice (because i am nice) and then it became... that........#regardless. i had my earbuds in! i was hugging my bag to myself! i think that's a clear enough ''do not disturb'' no?#but since he called my phone he's BLOCKED ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥#and i checked his linkedin and he works decently far from me ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥🔥#intellectually i know i didn't fuck up—told him i was meeting up with friends/mentioned a guy was in this group/stayed noncommittal/#only provided first name etc but ouuhhh i feel dumb. not bad or threatened just really stupid#and maybe kind of sad? i dunno. last time i tried to enjoy myself the same way i was on a road trip with some people#and one guy i wasn't as close with chatted with me the whole time which i didn't mind but he started asking me if i wanted to do stuff#just the two of us#not on like. a date in the city even. he was dead serious about me going somewhere remote with him multiple times#asked if i wanted to hang out almost daily after that#at one point i mentioned my apartment was having a technician over to install something and he immediately invited himself over#to... do it for me...#like... can i just enjoy my breaks. please#beepost
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did you say…memes 👀👀👀 okie how about 3 for quinn from the black knight??
Quinn & The Black Knight.
#3 THINGS YOU SAID WHEN YOU WERE PROUD. FROM THINGS YOU SAID ⬩ Still accepting.
"You look at me, treat me, talk to me like and keep me here like I'm a criminal. But deeeeeep down," Her crooked smile widens, in her signature whiskers, sly as a feline, proud as a cocky and cunty fox. "Deep down, you wish you were a little more like me Black Knight, don't you?" Her teeth are showing, a grin, deranged and hungry for more of This. Even though she was indeed kept captive, by the Black Knight and his crew, it wasn't so much prison for her if not the extension of her playground. An agenda. Quinn always had an agenda. "Congratulations on capturing me by the way, three against one waaw that's Impressive, that is Honorable even- No no, really I mean that and I cannot wait to get to know all of you." Her smile drops as the light of in her eyes darkens, only to light up again, a constant manic on-and-off switch while her eyes re-direct towards the surveillance camera at the up corner of the interrogation room. "Hey you hear that? I am thriiilled, oh so happy to be here. Pawn, Rook. Tell me who else is watching this? The almighty resting bitch faced Kang girl? Monitoring a pretty girl like me in a cage all day, mmm, that's a little kinky if you think about it." She pinches her teeth in between her lips, raising an eyebrow. "Listen. You and I both know I'm going to escape, I've already figured a way to since the very moment I stepped foot in here. Chloroformed or not, I always can tell where I am stand. Even in the dark, I know every single corner of this dirty city. So yell your little degenerates over there to tie me up if they really ant to keep me longer, my claws are sharp and my brain? Sharper." Was she bluffing? "That and the very real fact that My king and Love of my life Already looking for me as we speak, followed by an entiiiire armed and ready-to-shoot-you-in-the-face Gang for treating their Queen the way you do. There is a chip in my phone, have your little butlers destroy it or else they're coming for all of your asses. And Oh, at Fang, we're whimsical like this, we do love a bloody mess." Her eyes now, her eyes are linking with his. "That's right. I want us to talk before I get the chance to leave. I know. None of you has trust in me but you're clever enough to go past that. This business is not about trust, it's not about Oh She's a Little Crazy let's be Careful - it's about getting results. And I get shit done. I get shit done fast. Yes, YES, SUUURE, this little stunt I put off with Hyuk was a liiiiittle all over the top but... hey, at least I got all of you's attention... right." She speaks, her tone trailing at the mention of the other man, knowing it was perhaps her biggest mistake, knowing it was going a little too far. Was it a regret of hers? Maybe. Her eyes go down slightly., for a mere second. She could never deny it, there was a bond with the Detective, one of mutual respect and hardworking archieving personalities. His team as well, it became place where she strangely felt accepted, perhaps even a birthing friendship with Suki around their morning coffees. If it wasn't for all the insane games and lies Quinn played with, it could have been something nice. Her pride however, refused to let her admit that in front of the Knight, ever. "I did it to protect my own, to protect my pack the way you are protecting yours by chaining me down like an animal. And you know what? I am proud." Her voice changes, as the taint in her pupils does too, a little more calm spreading under her skin. "I'm proud of being an Actor in this scene we're standing on Black Knight. I'm proud of making moves, I'm proud of showing clawns when it comes to protect my family, I'm proud of teaching the persecutors we're Not low lives they can mess with as they please, I'm proud of making it to the news after the Rich and the Powerful feel like their heads too have a price.
Don't you see it? That people like you and I are already dead? Can't you feel it? At every corner of every streets of this city a bullet in the head is right here, waiting for us. So tell me, what exactly is your plan here, what are you waiting for? Because we're not fighting for our little comforts as Doctors and Teachers getting a check for educating the youth through a system we don't even believe in. Don't you get it? That our time to do something is Now, that we have to give our bones and blood to truly make a difference? It's time to wake up Myungdae. It's time to step up and perhaps stepping up should start with uniting. The game has changed, look at your board. I was never the enemy but we have one in common. That's right, the more we sit down for tea parties like this one, the more they're slipping out of your hands and mine.
ANACHRON."
#EEEEEEEEEEEP.#LISTENNNNNN.#I JUST.#We do wonders with this verse is what I'm going to SAY FIRST.#I feel like a genius of visuals with these pictures matching the scene - Just throwing myself some flowers don't mind me!#I set this scene when she has already approached Hyuk/Suki to work with them and has earned a place there-#-when their relationship ( Myungdae and Quinn) become even more conflictual due to everything crazy she's pulling.#I went for something edgy like they have captured her - but she's actually more than happy about it she's a little deranged like that#I picture them (Myungdae and his team) at some point thinking she's too much of a loose cannon and might compromise even their work.#I imagine Harley Quinn in her cage scene heh - and Myungdae and Quinn talk on the daily face to face - and if their original plan was to -#- put a stop to her actions and confront her - she tries to flip the situation by asking for a collaboration.#Down the road when Annie is a little more involved with Black Fang too and wants revenge and reveals what happened to her and investigates-#Ofc Quinn wanna help however Quinn finds herself a little stuck with it Like Anachron is a llittle too Bigscaled for her -#So the collab would serve not only her QUEST to eat the bad and the rich - but mostly help avenge her baby Annie love - so heh she TRIES#둘 𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐉𝐔𝐍𝐆 / interactions.#둘 𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐉𝐔𝐍𝐆 / the vengeress.
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The nice thing about having two really intelligent dogs is that they watch us interact with each other and learn things that way all the time. Rest/stay is not something I've really worked on with Eevee other than at doorways and baby gates because my dogs aren't allowed to rush entries and exits for safety reasons, but we use it with Hermes in lots of different contexts multiple times a day every day and his rest is very solid and generalized. Just a few minutes ago I told Hermes to rest so I could clean something up without him getting in the way or stepping in it but without specifying that I was talking only to him and Eevee also froze in place with him, stopped moving completely, and then eventually laid down (position switching is allowed during rest for my dogs just not directional movement, plus she's baby and I didn't actually mean to tell her to rest anyway so IDC regardless) still in her spot watching me clean and didn't break until I gave her a treat and released her along with him. I was cheering mentally for her the entire time but trying to contain my reaction until I gave them their release cue so she didn't get excited and break the rest before I was done cleaning because I've never used that command in that kind of situation with her before. She's so smart and good though, I love herrrrr
#i compare myself a lot to other non-disabled dog trainers and it makes me feel like my dogs are untrained messes a lot of the time#but then my dogs do something smart every now and then that reminds me that we do actually train small stuff daily like this#and I'm like oh yeah these are still the best trained dogs I've ever known IRL esp compared to the pet people I know#Hermes especially has a LOT of stuff I've taught him forever ago when i was in better health that he still remembers now#despite a lack of refresher training for a lot of it#and everytime he does something to remind me im like... oh shit i forgot youre actually smart as fuck and pretty well trained bro#like we havent worked on Hermes' emergency down/down at a distance in a long ass time#but a couple weeks ago Selene told Hermes to down from a distance and understandably at first he moved closer to her to down#so she started to indicate that was not what she wanted and before he was halfway to her or she even finished telling him#he turned himself around#went back to the EXACT spot he had been standing in#turned around again to face her in that spot#and then laid down and waited for her to come to him with the treat#literally haven't worked on that in years and wasnt expecting him to remember it#to the point where i was about to correct selene for even asking for it when we havent done it in so long without refresher training first#and then he DID IT#i love my dogs a lot and they're smart af thats it thats the TLDR
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I just want Olli and Aleksi to get together for real😭 I wonder if the thought of them together has ever crossed their minds
listen. in my shippy, extremely delusional mind they're pining for each other as we speak, both equally scared to make their move for many many many many MANY reasons 😭
#recently i've been entertaining myself with the idea of them drunkenly kissing at some point#might have been back in the eurovision days so it's too easy for them to just brush off#you know. just for the lols and the heat of the moment and what not. nothing serious. nothing to worry about#yet it lives in their head rent-free on a daily basis and they keep wondering what iffffff 😭#oof going insane over the 'meant to be together but it's the wrong place wrong time wrong universe' trope once again sorry 😔#bonus points if they have actually talked about it and recognize the crush is mutual#but neither is willing to break up from their current partner because of it#so they're just like 'yep i like you and you like me and we'd probably be great together but we can't in this life'#okay i'll stop now before it gets too sad 🤧#answered asks#anon asks#ollixallu
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i really spend so much time and effort improving just for it to mean nothing in the end....thats so funnyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
#i ask myself whats the point damn near daily 😭😭😭😭😭😭#and i do not know the answer#i think its really just for something to do atp...since i dont watch tv lol
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me: I just feel so hopeless. I've been making all of the recommended changes to my life - cutting out alcohol, eating healthily, exercising, in therapy - and nothing is helping me feel even slightly better. In fact, if anything I feel like I'm getting worse. I don't know what to do and I need help. therapist: well you can't expect to lose 100lbs overnight :\
#i'm not even kidding this is exactly how the conversation went#like are you fucking serious#you listened to all of that and your takeaway was#'I'm not losing weight fast enough'#i'm literally in that fucking david firth unfixable thought machine video#every time I tried to be open and honest about how severe my symptoms are#she just went off about how a CBT therapist can't do anything to help with that#like ma'am trust me I did NOT ask to be referred to you#in fact I specifically requested to NOT be referred to CBT because I knew this would happen#'well you were a good fit for CBT when you referred to us'#no I was not the NHS is just desperately trying to use CBT as a paper-thin plaster over the gaping wound#of the country's worsening mental health crisis#like I'm sorry okay?#I'm sorry I can't just 'get better' on a fast and convenient timeline#believe me if I could then I fucking would#I'm not deliberately keeping myself in constant daily agony as... what some kind of bizarre 'gotcha'?#I just want to scream and cry and give up because what is even the point#brain adventures#mental health#bpd#tw suicide
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