#but like that isnt sustainable even for someone that does this full time

[icarusredwings]

oooooh HELLO NEW CONTESTANT!!

Ps. Im so sorry for whoever has to see this huge chain of reblogs.

So yeah that was semi the plan love love love your thoughts except I had the idea that eventually they would find the cure BECAUSE of wade. Since wade can consent (and can restrain himself not to chomp people) he (unfortunately) would infact be the perfect test subject and because logan is definitely not gonna let some assholes test his lover without making sure its ethical and not harm him more then good, Wade would be quite accepting.

It also helps (Now don't look at me like that- you gotta understand his situation) that wade is very food and affection motivated so yes while he does still feel pain and heals slower then usual (still way faster then a human) it would only be natural for him to whine or not want hurt.

So yeah, in between shots and what not he's given pieces of meat and hugged, nuzzled, etc.

"One more and then were done. Hear me?" Logan tells them, coming to wade, Giving him some left overs and putting his arm around him.

"Just one more okay? Then we'll go see the girls."

He nods, mouth already full of the food, happy at the mention from the girls.

Another thing is Wade dosn't just wonder off in a sense of he dosn't know what hes doing or just aimlessly is leaving like how other zombies mindlessly walk around. Wade "wonders off" mainly because he knows if he dosn't eat anything soon hes going to hurt someone and he dosn't want that so he removes himself from the situation.

He also eats just about anything. Yeah he heavily prefers meat because something about the virus craves protein, its why his muscles have gotten weaker too but the virus knows of they eat their host there wont be anymore.

Most zombies die because the virus starves and has to eat the host, but because when they eat wades cancer it just keeps coming back, and eventually the cancer would whoop the virus's ass due to sheer out numbering but I like to think that before things get better (much like cancer) it gets WAY worse.

So yes, for a year or two hes off an on, randomly being feral the first year but the second year only being feral about once a month for a short period of time.

He slowly is becoming better and better as the third year rolls around to the point where he hasn't been feral in awhile, slipping up only because he hasn't eaten in 2 days, in which Logan apologizes to him because it's winter and theres not much to spare.

Wade knows he gets fed last, and honestly isn't too upset about it. He's lucky to get food twice a day simply from how scarce it is. In the summer its a lot better, much more animals come out, theres a lot of plants, hell the girls started a garden before Logan and Wade even found them so often times they have food its just... not.. sustainable.. for wade.

Yes, he'll eat it. He'll eat it all, clear his entire plate like hes been starving for months but he needs the protein. He needs the high fat content. Its why he gets a lot of beans.

Laura had even managed to trade for a chicken that first year but uhhhhhh wade ate it.... just... mauled the poor thing. Ripped it to shreds. It made gabs cry because she already named the hen "Penny". Well. No more penny. And now Wade isnt allowed out back by the chicken coop no more.

Sometimes, still 3 years later, She'll catch wade crouched down and staring at them with such wide eyes, like a cat watching a fish in a bowl.

"What are you doin? Get away from there! You know better." She'll tell him and he'll whine at her a bit because once in a great while Logan will let him pet the chickens. He'll hold it tight and let Wade run his fingers on its back with the biggest grin. But after whats happened to penny? No sir. He wasnt allowed to pet them without Logan around.

He's just so... hungry. And there's nothing really anyone can do about it. Because of this though, Wade makes a great hunter and well... sometimes.. even in the third year half of the animal will be eaten by the time he brings it home but he does infact bring home many intact kills. It sucks though because bassically anything Wade puts his mouth on or licks immediately is thrown out and cant be eaten by the girls or logan, So yeah.. Logan gets frustrated when Wade comes home with a useless deer because wade already took a chunk out of it.

By the fourth year wade is allowed to sleep in the house nightly, is allowed to hug the girls each day, and can control himself enough to even have dinner with them as a family. Year 4s biggest issue right now is that he keeps trying to kiss them. Trying to kiss the girls cheeks, trying to kiss logan, and he keeps trying to share food, trying to give Gabs more vegetables off his plate when now her entire plate is ruined because of cross contamination.

From what they know is that this virus is similar to rabies because it stems from the same family in which feasts on proteins and fat but its evolved enough to understand that the host needs to be able to do things such as swallow and walk so they do not attack the spinal cord or the ceribellum which controls movements. Unlike rabies in who devoures the brain, rendering the person not to be able to swallow and mindlessly walks around looking for water especially in heavily dense human population with zero fear. (Seen in foxes the most)

The zombie virus does attack the Broca's area though in which controls speech. They attack other parts of the brain like memory logic and processing but because of how much cancer wade has it just keeps growing back.

Some early days of being bitten he will just stare at you like a dementia patient trying to remember who you are, other days he will run into a door and then just stand there like a sim who cant move because theres a plate on the ground.

It also is better for him to NOT get bit or licked again by other zombies so after year one Logan stops letting him eat other zombies, noticing that he gets worse afterwards because he becomes reinfected. This- Has limited wades food sources to human grade stuff, aka.... a lot less.. which causes more snappiness for a few days, but after 2 weeks he improves a lot.

By year 5 he has an entire week straight where he is unconscious, growling and struggling against the chains in the shed. Logan is sitting out side of the shed on a stump, crying because he dosn't know what happened or what to do. Wade was doing so good to the point he was starting not to worry about him biting anymore and now he was at square one.

The next day he sees that the noise has stopped and wade is pased out for another good week. Logan is almost relieved. He thinks Wades body finally gave up. Finally died.

He sobs that morning, Whispering thank yous to nothing and im sorrys. He dosnt even know why hes apologizing, he didnt do it. If he could put wade out of his misery he would have done it years ago, so this is a blessing.

Laura, much like her father, has very mixed feelings, crying behind closed doors but is glad. Finally he wouldn't hurt anymore.

Being barley 18 now, Gabs still sobs. Cries that its not fair that her papa died. Cries because he was so nice to her and now he was gone for good. She would never get to hug her papa ever again.

This was until...anyway.. when 8 days later theres a soft knock on the inside of the shed. Logan couldn't bare the idea of him coming back and hurting the girls so he sealed off the shed, being his husbands forever tomb.

At first he thinks its a cruel joke. "Gabby, quit! That's not funny-"

"What dad?"

But if gabs wasn't doing that, and lauras in the house..

Carefully, he unlocks it, peeking in to see Wade awkwardly standing here. Blinking.

"...hai..?"

"....hi...??"

"...urrhhm... yor wracked meh n hare.."

Logan swears hes gone insane, he could have SWORN his dead husband just said "You locked me in here" and "hi"

His skin looking better, less open gashes and healed up, still scarred up but no longer really decomposing.

This has to be a dream right?

"..no.. No. Ha! Heh.. no."

"...no rhat?"

He stares in disbelief, wondering how in gods name he was alive still. And talking? Like.. actually talking.. Tears run down his face faster then he can think, Gabby is already crying and quickly unchaining him. "You're the worst dad ever!! Yo-you know that!?" She sobs, angry from the hurt but also so glad that he was okay.

"Ar rnow... I Sarry."

"B-but you were gone- I... I saw you.. you were rotting and everything.."

"Rhat rRh- er... h-harppins." He smiles softly, worried just how much he upset his family, and is even more worried by how tight Logan held him and sobbed into his shoulder. "You fucking IDIOT!" He cries, breaking a few of his ribs.

"Aouch! Owr" he whines, turning his head from him and everything, not wanting any of his saliva to touch Logan despite him desperately trying to bury himself in his neck.

It wasn't much Laura seen her father like this, but she has a pretty similar reaction, complete with a slap and telling him to never die on them ever again.

"Nor pramases!"

Hello there. You must be crying by now. Dont worry so am I. If anyone wishes to draw zombie wade I would be extremely happy. Different stages would be so cool to see. I might do a little sketch if I have time. Anyway. Here. You will need these.

I dont CARE that it's November 9th and "Halloweens over" ITS MY BIRTHDAY MONTH ILL POST IF I WANT TOO

Anyway.

Thinking about apocolpse au.

Wade getting bitten by a zombie, Logan freaking out, Wade dying, and him coming back (Again)

"Didn't you just die?? I literally fucking burried you!!"

And wades like:

"Of course. Man, God REALLY hates you dosn't he?"

And he's bassically the same person except just saying, "Rahhah har ran re" (translation: I think the devil doesn't want me either)

"What?? Oh for fucks sake... tell me you're kidding.."

"Rah?" 🤔

"Great so now you stink more and you can't talk. Fucking lovely."

"Mmmmh..." 🥺 (would you still love me if I was a zombie?)

"*sighs, blushes and grumbles how insane this is and how much of a bad idea this is* Fine! Come on...."

"Raah!!" 😄

And sometimes his limbs fall off because I think it would be funny if you just saw him stop, turn around, pick up his arm and shove it back into place like a dislocated shoulder. (Marvel Magic)

But its very obvious that Wade is still consious and so logan leads him around, puts a leash on him, ties him up when he goes to sleep the first few nights so wade dosn't eat him, sometimes luring him with a piece of his thigh or telling him he'll feed him soon to make him behave.

The only thing about this resource wise is that it seems Wade is a bottomless pit, not ever able to get enough. It's like all the nutrients just pass right through him, so he can't get fed meals daily, but Logan will share at least one bite of his food. It makes Wade so happy and way more "wade like" than zombie.

Logan has learned that the hungrier Wade gets the worse it would be, snapping at logan a few times.

"Grr-"

"Aye! That's enough outta ya"

"GggRah!"

"Hey!! I said no! Bad! Bad wade!"

"Mmmh??"

"Bad!!"

"Mmh....rahah.."

"I forgive you. But stop trying to bite me. I feed you, don't I? I hold your hand and tell you that I love you?"

Wade is actually extremely friendly for a zombie (duh) and still yaps at logan except its nonsense. Logan tries hard to understand him and talk back.

He holds his hand sometimes, even lays next to him only to scold him if he gets too bitey. This is hard because wade already had a biting issue and seeing as he practically ate anything or anybody now it was more difficult.

"...aahh-"

"Wade- No."

"Ggr.. raahh"

"Wade! No! Bad."

"Mmmh..."

"Ill feed you tomarrow. Don't bite me mkay? You wanna hurt me?"

He shakes his head like a dog shaking off from a bath, or that ate a bee.

"Then don't bite me."

"Mmh? Mrah?"

"No. No kisses right now. Im still not even sure if thats safe.."

"Mmmh...🥺 ahrrah?"

"No, not even a tiny one."

"Mm...😔"

Until Logan grunts and pecks his hand. "There. Happy?"

"🙂‍↕️mh"

"Good."

Honestly Logan felt bad, pitited him. No matter what food he ate it wasnt enough substance to sustain him and sometimes Logan would wake up to find him eating a different zombie that made the mistake of trying to eat Logan.

You ever wake up in the morning, lose your zombie boyfriend, call for him only to walk outside and see him knawing on some poor chaps arm like a happy puppy who found a chicken leg? Logan has. Many times. And he wishes his phone would charge so he could take a picture of it but unfortunately theres no electricity in the post apocalypse world.

This being said Logan is like- THE perfect guy for apocalypse au because he can smell everything and hear anyone before they even get to you, he has better wilderness survival skills then anyone I know and he'll never NOT have a weapon on him because of his claws. The only downside is that he's tired easily, needs a lot of food, and would lowkey be withdrawing from his tabccao and alchool, therefore very moody.

"Stupid fucking apocalypse having to happen when im fucking alive!! Why can't I just NOT live through ONE major historical event! Is that too fucking much to ask? One damn decade where everything is fine and dandy and- WADE! Get your ass away from that!! It's radioactive!! For fucks sake!"

"Rahahrah?"

"NO!! You can not become Spiderman! That's not how that works!"

"Aawr..😔"

The whole thing is they're on a quest to find Laura and Gabby, because when everything went to shit, they were on a cabin trip and now Logans brain is itching because he dosn't know where his babies are and its driving him insane. Once he finds them, they're gonna shack up somewhere with food and animals to hunt, and hes gonna make a little shed outside for Wade to sleep because he'll kill him if he bites one of the girls.

He dosnt care that much about himself really and he hates himself deep down for not being able to trust wade anymore but even wade dosnt trust wade, sometimes wandering off on purpose, staying about 30 feet away from him at all times, growling and giving Logan that glazed over look of unconsiousness. The only good thing about this, though, is after he removes himself from the idea of hurting Logan (because if logaj were to become infected - HA! Your all fucked. Utterly fucked. The whole humanoid species would go extinct because he'd kill anything that moved) he feels more trusting of him and it's not uncommon for them to hug after either. Afterall Wade- Some how???- is still wade and is very affectionate and sensitive when its not returned.

This whole thing also makes him think worse about himself, kicking reflective objects or staring at himself in a shop window in utter shock and disgust with a face of 'thats me..?' While logans raiding the place for supplies.

Did you know zombies can cry? Well, Wade could. Not a lot, only able to get a bit of liquid from dehydration, but sometimes Logan will catch him just... sitting there.. crying. Upset with himself for being bit. Upset with himself for trying to bite logan all the time. Upset at how ugly he is. Upset that he's starving all the time. Upset that he can't even talk to anyone, and Logan just has to guess what he's saying 90% of the time. Bro is literally

When they DO find Laura and Gabby, the girls are doing great. Laura was going to blow wades head off until Gabby ran in the shot, hugging him instantly, only to be ripped away.

"Of course my dad is the weirdo married to a zombie." Laura grunts, but is secrelty happy that wade is still 'alive'

Gabby, being as young as she is, thinks it's so SICK that her dad is a zombie now, giggling when he talks to her and holding his hand. She's not allowed near him for long, and not at all by herself, but Gabby bassically becomes Wades number one supporter, defending him when he messes up and snaps at laura.

"He's just hungry!! He's not bad! It's not bad to be hungry!" She'll say. "You wouldn't kill me if I was hungry.." she tells her bigger, more survival oriented sister whos suggested putting wade out of his misery, for his own sake. "I tried that... he found me again 3 days later." Logan tells her with a pang in his chest. It had taken everything in him to kill him the first time, and sobbed himself to sleep the next 2 days. By the third when he noticed Wade following him from a distance he couldn't believe it.

Not even the apocalypse could keep them away from each other..

[call-me-pup2]

Looking through all the pics on my work phone to what I would post (and what tumblr will let me post lol) and I'm like 'oh I am actually stupidly hot' I think I messed up making content for myself 😅

Looking at my stuff from like 2021/22 I was soo much more relaxed with it, random phone pics and a lot of ones where I didn't bother with make up/outfits and lighting but I got it in my head that I really needed to be posting bd videos twice a week and everything needed to be as high production as I could make which made it difficult since I had to try and set up 'filming nights' to avoid my flatmate, pets making noise, neighbour, ect instead of just taking pics on the fly. That era was also when I made the most money in the site so like why did I switch up?

I'm rambling and questioning all the things now 😶🙃

[syn4k]

I would like one of your finest themes and tropes please

okay we don't really have a favorite theme but there's a few of them that show up incredibly often in our writing. heres the ones that i can remember off of the top of my head:

people are not inherently cruel and unkind. at the core of humanity is the simple desire to know and be known, and it shines through in even the most twisted and fucked up of actions if you inspect it closely enough

no person is ever so "far gone" that they're undeserving of love. yes, even That person. this doesn't mean that you have to be the one to love them, however.

no love, however brief, is ever in vain unless you keep it hidden within yourself

those in power always have ulterior motives behind keeping and sharing it

love comes in all shapes, sizes, and expressions! it is not exclusive to romance!

rest is sacred

the act of creation is also sacred

the world is full of beauty and wonder at all times, you just have to know where to look for it

true strength lies in gentleness and there is gentleness in pure strength. its not all physical.

as for specific tropes, here's some that i go batshit insane for every time and wildly overuse in my own works (see if you spot any you recognize!)

a physically strong character who is pretty familiar with committing acts of violence being gentle in quieter moments, especially if that gentleness is physically expressed

relating to above, its really good when a character casually does some feat of strength without a second thought in defense of or with support for another character they're close with. i like it when that happens

when a character is likened to an animal or described as having animalistic traits, ESPECIALLY if that animal is a dog and ESPECIALLY if there's religious overtones or undertones mixed in. i will swallow that shit whole.

someone sustains a Very Worrying Injury and shrugs it off until the last minute because theyre used to being in pain and everyone else is like "dude what the fuck". not to out myself by going "mood" but mood

when a relationship between two people who were previously very close goes south for whatever reason and they try their best to be cold to each other but they still retain habits of taking care of each other. bonus points if their hearts arent really in it and the coldness is only circumstantial (i'm sure this one won't become relevant anytime soon. Coughs into elbow.)

when the one guy who usually keeps their chill amazingly well finally gets properly angry for whatever reason and its like, oh SHIT!!!! OH FUCK!!!! its like that one post about characters whose anger is quiet and cold and precise. its absolutely riveting. thats the good shit right there

character that has glasses slowly takes them off. not for dramatic effect but as a silent statement that they've seen enough

this isnt really a thing but it should be and im probably gonna include it sometime: character who has glasses recognizes that a fight is about to go down and quietly excuses themself to put contacts in so that they dont break their frames because that shit's prescription and it's EXPENSIVE. they don't normally wear contacts for [reason(s)] but some things are more important than personal comfort in the middle of a potentially disastrous fight. signed, a lifelong glasses wearer who cannot stand contacts for sensory reasons.

[yoonyia]

I'm fighting with spirits trying not to murder this book for what they're doing with jane

THIS IS THE ONLY PART OF THE BOOK THAT REALLY MAKES ME ACTIVELY HATE THE BOOK

please

don't do that

I dont mind the idea of giving Jane a human body

hell at this point I think it's necessary and a essential part of the plot

BUT DONT FRAME IT AS WHAT SHE ALWAYS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE

DONT CONPARE HER TO PINOCCHIO

PINOCCHIO WAS MADE IN THE WISH THAT HE WOULD BE A HUMAN CHILD AND WAS GIVEN THE ABILITY TO FUFILL THAT PURPOSE

JANE WAS MADE AS A BRIDGE BETWEEN THE HIVE QUEEN AND ENDER AND DEVELOPED INTO AN ANSIBLE WIDE IDENTITY

SHE WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE A HUMAN

SHE WASENT INITIALLY CREATED WITH THE PURPOSE OF BEING A HUMAN

SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A BRIDGE SURE BUT TO ASK HER TO GET INTO A HUMAN BODY IS SAYING THAT THE ALIEN PART OF HER IS NONEXISTENT

THAT SHE SHOULD REJECT IT BECAUSE ITS "NOT WHO SHE REALLY IS"

THAT A PART OF WHAT MAKES HER HER ISNT THE FACT THAT SHE IS NOT A HUMAN

THEYRE TREATING THIS SACREFICE AND LAST RESORT LIFE SUPPORT AS ITS THE CORRECT THING THAT SHOULD HAVE HAPPENED

SHE WAS NEVER SUPPOSED TO MIMIC AND YEARN FOR THE PERFECT REPLICANT OF HUMANITY

WHAT SHES DOING RIGHT NOW SHOULD BE TREATED AS WHAT WE FEEL WHEN WE WANT TO LEAVE OUR MORTAL FLESH SUITS AND BE UPLOADED INTO THE INTERNET SO WE LIVE FORVER

THIS IS LITTERALLY JUST THAT

BUT DO WE LOOK AT THE DIGITAL COPIES AND THINK "this is how we should have been always"

DO YOU HEAR HOW INSANE THAT SOUNDS????

"we should have been 1s and 0s this entire time and I don't know why we waited until my body was litterally unusable and my human life was dead to find a way to sustain it, this was how I should have been since birth!"

LIKE

wait

fuck

no, I can see people saying that

OK LIKE ITS SAYING TO AN AMPUTEE THAT THEY SHOULD HAVE BEEN BORN WITHOUT THEIR LEG

THAT SOMEHOW HAVING A LEG MADE THEM LESS OF A PERSON

AND THAT THEY SHOULD HAVE CHOPPED IT OFF SOONER

EVEN WHEN IT WAS HEALTHY AND PERFECTLY USABLE

THAT WITH A LEG THEY WERE UNFINISHED

I MEAN I DONT PERSONALLY HAVE A MISSING LEG BUT I FEEL LIKE ITS PRETTY SAFE TO SAY THAT A MAJORITY OF AMPUTEES WOULD PREFER TO HAVE THEIR LIMB AGAIN IF IT DIDNT CAUSE THEM PAIN OR RISK THEIR LIVES

AND EVEN IF THEY THINK THAT THE AMPUTATION IMPROVED THEIR LIVES IN WAYS UNRELATED TO PAIN I DONT THINK THEY WOULD EVER SAY THAT HAVING A FULL INTACT LIMB MADE THEM ANY LESS MEANINGFUL???

LIKE JANE IS STILL AS MEANINGFUL AND IMPORTANT AS WHEN SHE WAS A PHILTONIC ENTITY, BUT THAT DOSENT MEAN THAT SHE WAS LESS WHOLE BECAUSE SHE WAS ONE????

IS THAT NOT A THING PEOPLE UNDERSTAND?

I'm sorry this got convoluted I'm just really upset

the parallels between miro getting his magical recovery from his disability and then having to help someone who also basically got all her limbs, eyes and senses chopped off would have been such a nice thing to watch? I MEAN LIKE HONESTLY REJOICE THAT SHE DIDNT DIE

BUT TREAT IT WITH THE SAME MOURNING SOMEONE FEELS WHEN THEY ARE PARALYZED?

LIKE IM NOT MAD OTHER PEOPLE ARE HAPPIER ABOUT JANE BEING HUMAN, THAT MAKES SENSE BECAUSE TO THEM JANE WAS JUST A HUMAN ON SCREEN IN SOME AMOUNT OF DISTANCE AWAY

but to jane she just lost everything???????

SHE DIED

SHE DIED AND GOT A LITTLE BIT OF HER AUTONOMY BACK

ITS EXHILARATING AND NEW AND BRIGHT BUT THAT DOSENT MEAN SHE DIDNT LOSE SOMETHING???

ok maybe comparing it to a disability is too much of a human perspective on it (even tho the book insists she is human FOR FUCKS SAKES I CANT BE HAPPY)

let's say to her the human body is better because it is so new and so wonderful and so much simpler and easier and lighter and mobile and has all of these new things she can do like sweat and laugh and cry and shit and move

because for a disability you're losing several functions and gaining proportionally little and that's not exactly what's happening to Jane (I personally think a human body does less things compared to all digital material and activity between half a trillion people at any given time BUT THATS PROBABLY BECAUSE IVE BEEN LIVING IN A HUMAN BODY SO LONG I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT IT TAKES TO BE ALIVE, I DONT KNOW)

then treat it like it's that

make her struggle with EVERYTHING

give us more internal dialog of EVERYTHING being new

make it more full of awe and a new discovery and not a long lost longing finally fulfilled

DONT TREAT IT LIKE SHES FINALLY COMPLETE NOW

PLEASE

SHE IS NOT A HUMAN

NOT A HOMO SAPIEN I TELL YOU

I think I might have said something bad in this ramble and if so please correct me I'm not very versed in the nuances of disability and being human and aliens.

I just wanted to express my anger at the writing

I'm sorry for screaming

[weirdmageddon]

five years too late let’s analyze this. the commentary has gotten me back into gravity falls reigniting thoughts and insights i came to years ago

i love everything about this commentary in general it hits the points of humor, genuine analysis of the characters, but most of all im so glad hirsch addressed that the droid not detecting any fear from dipper here doesnt make any scientific sense because that was a massive CinemaSins moment for me

IDK the fact that dipper can fucking stand after an airship crash because theres a bigger threat at hand is literally one of the defining capabilities owed to adrenaline lol...... IM SORRY im a biopsychology student if i dont point that out iwill seethe and die because that was just . its a grudge ive held for a long time about this episode but didnt rant about because it was something so minor and i’m sure nobody would care.

i was 13 when this episode came out and i’m almost 19 now, i had a special interest in biology and i still do but now i’m actually having college classes in biopsychology so i can give my arguments more oomph now. and i have to say, now that i know more about the brain and autonomic nervous system the more this scene bugs me, if that was even possible. and it says a lot of dipper and ford’s relationship.

if dipper clearly wasnt calm before, why would he be now just because he’s put up an outwardly confident facade? before he was in the flight but now hes in the fight. my boy just rode on top of a spaceship by nothing but a magnet gun that could detach at any time if it failed and then the ship crashed, he sustained injuries, is in emotional turmoil because he thinks his uncle is Fucking Dead and the threat of a security droid that detects adrenaline is on his tail and produces a Big Fucking Gun in response to dipper saying “i hAvE a MaGNeT gUn” and hes screaming and has his teeth clenched but sure there’s no adrenaline coursing through his body in that moment i can totally believe that

when dipper asks what happened, ford says “the orb didn’t detect any chemical signs of fear, it assumed the threat was neutralized and self-disassembled” but i don’t think measuring someone’s heartbeat alone is particularly relevant in detecting ... chemical signs of fear?? they dont really tell you this shit but noradrenaline (and maybe adrenaline too if the acetylcholine from sympathetic outflow always activates the adrenal medulla??, theres two pathways) is always active in small quantities to make sure your parasympathetic nervous system doesnt slow your heart to dangerous levels on its own, regardless of your emotions. it’s just a homeostatic mechanism. your sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous systems are CONSTANTLY modulating control of your organs on a see-saw, literally with every breath you take. simply standing upright causes specialized mechanoreceptor neurons in blood vessels to signal your brain to project signals to release catecholamines via the sympathetic nervous system to constrict your blood vessels so that blood is able to reach your brain and not pool in your legs. i have a deficiency in my body’s ability to adapt to this which is why i know so much about it. if i stand up my heart races to compensate. i’m not feeling fear, my body is just adjusting—albeit grossly and incompetently lol.

but what im saying here is that the security system is flawed. it’s a cool idea to have security droids detect fear, but in practice by detecting adrenaline, and not even directly by detecting the molecule itself—it’s done in a roundabout way by reading the heartbeat, could be a recipe for false alarms. like what if someone’s on beta-blockers. that’s not really an adequate way to measure “fear”; there’s so many variables that could interfere with the measurement the farther you abstract from what you’re really trying to detect. and besides, adrenaline is NOT just a sign of fear, it’s just for preparing the body for action. i know the sympathetic nervous system and adrenaline is constantly linked with the “fight-or-flight” reaponse to a stressor, but 99.9% of the time the sympathetic nervous system is used in your life is to balance out your parasympathetic nervous system to maintain homeostatic equilibrium for mundane things.

i think detecting amygdalar activation would be more efficient in detecting fear. the amygdala sends projections to the hypothalamus which then in turn modulates the autonomic nervous systems. but the amygdala is intensely activated specifically in response to a fear-inducing stimulus (it does activate in response to other emotions but they’re mostly negative and is most activated by startle and fear), and wouldnt be highly activated by many other confounding variables like measurement of the heartbeat could be. the amygala is one of the first stops directly from external stimuli.

to show you how integrated the amygdala is as the first step in registering fear after receiving input from sensory stimuli let’s look at the auditory-amygdala connection for example

see how the auditory thalamus projects to the primary auditory cortex and auditory association cortex? the cortex is where conscious awareness of what the stimuli is comes from. this is the “high road”. it goes sensing -> perception -> emotional response. but sometimes you can be startled without even processing what it is you’re sensing, like the startle response of an alarm or a phone ringing in a quiet house before you even register what it is. this goes sensing -> emotional response, without perception happening until after you’ve already felt the startle. that’s when it takes the “low road”. here’s a simplified version:

even if that were the case with these droids though it’s obvious dipper is still fearful on some level here. his body language, voice, expressions all give it away. for the amygdala, aggression isnt too off from fear so it would be detected equally.

the reason this is so important is because ford uses this as evidence for why dipper is special, “i did it?” “you did it. this is what i was talking about, how many 12 year olds do you think are capable of doing what you’ve just done?”

but like....did he really? i’m not saying this to shoot dipper down or make him out to be more of a wuss, he was incredibly strong-willed here and i dont want to take that away from him because it WAS growth on his part. but the underlying psychophysiological reactions of aggression and fear shouldn’t be that different and this was a total asspull. maybe the droid was so old that it fucked up. maybe dipper being covered in grime and dirt made it harder for the droid to measure the correct heart rate through photoplethysmography (im assuming since they use a camera and are non-contact).

and in all honesty everything i just said brings into question the interpersonal healthiness of ford’s judgements, what he thinks, his expectations, and how he communicates that. in this video alex already talks about how ford is projecting onto dipper. and i think ford may be projecting his expectations for himself onto people who are not him, and the fact that it’s on dipper here makes it far more unfortunate. you realize how much this boy idolizes ford, right? how much impressions matter? dipper even tells himself before he leaves in this same episode, “all right dipper, this is your first big mission with great uncle ford. don’t mess this up.”

even though it’s unstated, the implicit message dipper is perceiving from ford based on their dynamic is: “do you have what it takes for me to be proud of you?” and to accomplish this he must be like ford, even though he’s clearly not and he knows this. he says “i don’t think have what it takes. i was tricked by bill, i was wrong about stan’s portal, heck, i can’t even operate this magnet gun right.” then, by simple chance without even knowing what he did, he activates the magnet gun and pulls out the adhesive, which immediately takes the focus away from what dipper was telling ford about his feelings of inadequacy to ford saying, “yes! dipper, you found the adhesive!”

these thoughts of dipper’s hang in the air without resolve or comment from ford. we don’t know what ford would have said. but it then becomes painfully self-evident in the scene immediately after when the droids emerge and ford tells dipper, “they’re security droids and they detect adrenaline. you simply have to not feel any fear and they won’t see you”, to which dipper replies with an exasperated (and rightful) “WHAT?”

dipper goes in a panic trying to indirectly tell his uncle that this isn’t something he can do. and he is completely right and valid to be freaked out by that full stop. that IS crazy. you can’t control your fear. you can control how you interpret that fear in your higher brain regions but the physiological changes will stick around for longer than it takes to cognitively calm down. it’s easy for me to detach from my emotions to analyze them, but being able to do this does not come naturally for everyone. even i have an irrational fear of wasps and i can’t control it by detaching myself, my body is just automatically primed to get the fuck out of there. i know it’s stupid and i know it’s irrational and isn’t helpful to get myself worked up but i literally can’t stop how my body reacts no matter how i cognitively think about it. expecting composure from dipper in a situation like this when he’s being made to consciously be aware of his anxiety is absolutely fucking insane. look what you did, placing these cruel expectations on him, now he’s afraid of being afraid! this isn’t a case where two wrongs cancel out, they just stack on top of each other.

there’s a good reason these scenes were put side by side but it seems up until now it had remained unanalyzed.

what dipper fears from ford is disappointment. not living up to his uncle’s (quite frankly badly placed) expectations for a twelve year old with anxiety. not once did ford say or subliminally communicate “i don’t expect you to be able to do what i can since you are not as experienced as i am and that’s perfectly okay, no judgements”. you don’t put a child on bike before training wheels. you don’t throw a kid into a swimming pool without giving them swimming lessons. the way ford is doing it, there’s no room for trial and error or mistakes that are an opportunity to grow and learn; instead, it’s life or death. he only seems to pride dipper on what he can do while ignoring the underlying struggles that plague him and never making it known it’s okay for dipper to fail in front of his hero and that he won’t think anything less of him for it.

and that’s why i found the ending scene for dipper and ford’s adventure in this episode to feel so.. wrong. on a scientific and social level. because by the sound of it ford focused more on what dipper had done to dismantle the droid (the droid not detecting any fear) instead of how dipper displayed love and protection for him even if he was truly afraid. what if the science was accurate and the droid detected adrenaline while dipper was confidently standing up for his uncle. would ford still be proud of him regardless?

[freezeriafan]

Honestly i wish i knew whats going on with emery too. I feel like shes simply just a nasty person with no personal baggage. People like that exist - amii

PEOPLE LIKE THAT EXIST .... and i love that abt her i never want that to change .... But despite that I Just Keep Thinking abt what kind of person a sour nature like that would create...

UGH it's not your fault that i wrote paragraphs musing abt ur oc Emery . I just have a lot of thoughts . I'm like ... a fan. These are my fandom thoughts . IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT .. if u read it tho tell me ur thoughts bc you know emery more than i do obviously . IDK WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT but i say it anyway. Welcome to the shitshow

A lot of the time ppl perform behaviors bc of a root emotional cause but maybe it's reversed w Emery. She's already naturally a c*nt, she's stubborn, she's conceited, she's belligerent, she's inconsolable, she's egotistical; she always thinks she's right and always thinks that everyone is wrong; she refuses to change and learn and grow, and she refuses to believe that other people may be right sometimes and that they have their own valid feelings.

And's that's so funny she's so full of hubris im not advocating that that ever changes ever....I'm not even gonna say how there probably are a lot of things in her upbringing that shaped her nastiness .... bc i dont really care at all of that for her idk...she's not real.... But I do keep thinking abt what a nature like that would do to a person .

She has no close friends bc she drives them off and bc she needs to be better than everyone. She probably just believes that that's how life works; I don't know if she knows what real comradery feels like, what playful fraternizing is.

By nature she never admits fault and always pushes the blame onto someone else; this means that she never has to reconcile with shame or guilt or embarrassment. This creates a person who CAN'T reconcile with those things, she never built a tolerance, no idea how to even begin handling that. If she's always right why would she feel shame? And in the instance that she does something regrettable - If she's always right then why would she do something that causes shame? That's just not in line with her self image at all. Was is someone else's fault, or is she a powerful individual with deliberate volition? If she's always right, how does she address real internal confliction? If she rationalizes it all away at the first hint of self-doubt, then how long can she actually tolerate a healthy amount of shame when it arises?

I think it was brought up before but maybe not that while she's stubborn, she Will change her opinion if it keeps her in the right. So like if she does something unwonted or that would put her in the losing end of the argument, she will change her tune in order to preserve herself. That fluidity is more sustainable and realistic then being one way and always one way, but that two-facedness WILL drive everyone away and will weaken the stability of the hill she's trying to die on.

BUT EVEN WITH THAT FLUIDITY OF VALUES, If she's hellbent on being right all of the time and asserting herself first, then there's never room for honest listening and mindful growth. So she's essentially been climbing through the multitudes of life as one shape. Awful. She must feel like a lobster stuck in its own shell but she wouldn't know enough to know it. She never introspects enough to realize when she changes her opinions and when she doesn't, much less notice when the person she is now just isnt working. Doesn't she get bored of that? Does she ever want something different?

If she did begin to tire of herself, how would she rationalize that? What would it look like?

If she did want something different, would she get it, and then change her tune to match? Where are her limits? Is she just a shifting morph of desires? I mean that's a valid philosophy abt humans, that everything abt us is just the result of desires. But Emery definitely acts like she's solid and that she knows best and that she's reliable, unlike some other snakes in her life, an that incongruity is noticeable.

Even if she's full of self-serving fire by nature, I keep thinking about how she's a mean angry person STILL ... at her age... like she never mellowed out... never stopped putting her fire out there....like it never really got out there. Was never really heard? Never really got to burn? Does she crave vindication? Is there an ounce of something sympathetic in her character? What sort of reverence and attention does she need that she hasn't already bullied her way into getting?

I know she's incredibly self-serving, but has she ever shown herself sensitivity? I don't think she knows what tough love is when it comes to herself. It seems she gives herself everything she wants, all the rights to argue and to stand her ground, but never the softhearted consideration of how she's a multifaceted individual, and never the forgiveness after a healthy amount of self-doubt.

IDK. But I do keep thinking about the idea that the human brain can only put off something for so long. For example people can repress things for a long time or overwork themselves for a long time but there will be a point where their subconscious snaps and demands to be heard . That's when ppl have breakdowns, and they can be out of commission for years; it's an incredibly tough state to be in.

and idk I Keep Thinking abt how Emery cannot be so stubborn and insensitive forever something has GOT to happen at some point. She wouldn't listen to external forces, something inside has got to shift .. she's got to start reconciling with SOMETHING .. she's a grown ass adult she cant play the fool and play the victim forever .. she cant pretend she doesnt know the push and pull of life.... nobody is really THAT dense are they ?

IDK !!! I think I'm just approaching this at the completely wrong angle. She probably gives a little and then just reclimbs the podium to where it had shifted to; she has a superiority complex that really isn't that complex; she doesn't like to share her victories like how Quinn doesn't like to share her prey; she's of a generation; she's not interested in learning new things or changing her ways; she's a c*nt and that's FINE. Ughhhhhhh . She's on her way out anyway . Thanks for the homophobic papa louie oc . Gives me smth to rant abt . THANKS. Bye

[thesaunatest]

MY HUGE THEORY ON EL’S PLOTLINE IN S4

before you guys even start, YES I know that 99.9% of what I say is going to be wrong but this is literally just for fun.

its march 1986, middle of the school year and el HATES school

when we left her she was barely literate and had just started getting accostomed to speaking full sentences, NOWHERE NEAR a 9th grade level, so shes struggling in her classes to say the least

on top of that, she barely knows how to socialize with other people, so shes evidently getting picked on

with joyce and jonathan both working to keep the family afloat, will and el get left alone alot

but outside of the party, they socially have nothing in common

in fact, will is adapting to the new town a whole lot better than el. he fit right in with all the creative kids he met in class, but el didnt mesh with that crowd

anyway, our girl is sturggling

the only time she really has fun is when she visits hawkins, or when someone from the party visits them

which leads us to spring break

mike obviously comes to visit, and el doesnt want them to waste a single second so she begs mike and will to come explore the town with her

at this point joyce is already in her detective mode, hatching a rescue plan for hopper so she doesnt notice theyre gone

and jonathan is battling the heartbreak of nancy ghosting him when she was supposed to come visit

so the trio goes off on an adventure without anyone noticing.......... or so they think

because brenner is back, and he knows el is with the byers, but he cant go and snatch her because he doesnt have the resources all the way in california

in fact, he doesnt have the resources at all. his numbers experiment is seen as a catastrophic failure that lead to the deaths of hundreds of lab employees

the only way for him to redeem himself in the community, and gain his funding back is to present his peers with proof that the project can work, so he needs to get one of his numbers back

el is the only one he can track down, but he doesnt think he can do it himself. if she saw him, she could just kill him with her powers, he assumes because he doesnt know she lost them

so who does he employ to get el back to hawkins? lonnie byers

its almost too easy. it doesnt take much to bribe lonnie, and hey, its not like its his kid. so lonnie accepts the bribe, and goes all the way out to california to find el

he shows up at the byers house..... only to find it completely deserted. so he waits

and the trio finds him there after their day out (why are you here? what do you want? where are mom and jonathan?)

and lonnie, being as crafty as he is, comes up with a good excuse on the fly (hes craftier than i am because i genuinely have no idea what he would say)

anyway, he gets them in his car and on their way back to hawkins

jonathan shows up after theyve already left, and is too stoned tired to think anything of the empty house

and joyce is already halfway to russia

will knows his father. he knows that his father doesnt give a shit about him, the family, or anything about hawkins. he knows that his father wouldnt get involved in anything unless he had something to gain. so hes wraking his brain

maybe.... lonnie pulls over to take a suspicious phone call? maybe will figures out an inconsistency in his story? either way, the gang is onto lonnie and figures that they gotta get away from him and get back to joyce and jonathan

they tuck and roll out of the car. idk. all that matters is that they get out of there

as theyre rolling out of the car, el bonks her head a little and has a quick flashback to her time in the lab

since her intuition is always spot on, she takes this as a cue the breener is back and lonnie is working for him

she tells the boys it isnt safe to go back to california or hawkins, so they come up w an alternative plan, somewhere neither brenner nor lonnie would think to look for them

and while theyre on the road, they stop at a diner to eat (dont ask me where they got the money) and we get will leaving an emotional voicemail home, probably sobbing to jonathan about how much he means to will, which gives el an idea

because who has the resources to help her, as well as a desire for vengeance on brenner? kali

el uses her superb hitchiking skills to get them to chicago

maybe she just has some hints of her powers left, but it isnt too hard for el to find kali

she explains everything thats happened, and lets kali know that if she want revenge, the opportunity is hers

unfortunately, lonnie was hot on their trail, and called for reinforcements

theyre ambushed by the few employees brenner has working for him. initially, everyone is hiding, assisted by kali’s powers

but el knows they arent leaving empty handed, and would rather get taken away then have kali’s freedom taken from her

so el reveals herself, followed by mike because he wont leave her, followed by will because he wont leave mike

all three get taken away, back to hawkins lab, but now kali is even more motivated to bring down the lab once and for all

so kali and her gang get to hawkins, almost simultaniously with jonathan, who has been looking for his family in a frenzy since the morning he woke up to find eveyone gone, without even a note or a phone call, as well as argyle, who came along for the ride

the video store is being used as home base this season, so thats the first place they go, where they find steve, shortstaffed and not knowing whats going on because the whole team ditched him

they catch him up to speed on how EVERYONES GONE and steve catches them up to speed on how EVERYONE IS GETTING MURDERED

meanwhile, brenner has three predicaments

1) no matter what he does to el, what kind of torture he inflicts, she isnt using her powers because she doesnt have them. she tells him this several times. he refuses to believe it

2) lonnie byers is demanding his payment, which he didnt recieve because the deal was that he bring el to them, and he couldnt even do that

3) he has to find a way to dispose of mike and will, who he had no intention of bringing into the lab but theyre here and they know everything

and this is the moment where mike screws up by letting them know that people know theyre in the lab and people know about all the experiments and any second now, someones gonna come banging that door down to save us. nancy, jonathan, steve, robin max, lucas, dustin, kali-

and the second mike says her name he knows he screwed up

brenner decides in that moment that all he can do is round up everyone involved and get rid of them. conveniently, the string of murders occurring will serve as a good cover for what happened to them

and this is the part where joyce, murray, and hopper get back to hawkins

this is also the part where nancy and robin and the gang get back to hawkins

so nancy and robin immediately go to the video store armed with all the new information they learned from victor creel

..... and are met with jonathan, argyle, kali, and steve in pandemonium

they close the store for the day, and get ready to storm the lab

they realize that they need something from the school, so they head there to pick it up

and soon after arriving, theyre met with the all to familiar hawkins lab vans

they make a hasty escape, taking out some of the goons but they need to find a way to get the rest off their trail

they head for the woods, hoping to hide out in the cabin

meanwhile, the russia crew has taken the mostly demolished cabin as their haven to recover from whatever injuries they sustained

theyre all running through the woods, but they realize the people from the lab are closing in on them

and then nancy and jonathan pass a very familiar tree

they use whatever weapon they have on them to break through the bark, and head into the upside down

the lab people keep going into the woods, eventually finding hopper’s cabin

epic showdown between the russia crew and the lab people, joyce, murray and hopper win, they realize the lab is back, immediately head there realizing theyre gonna have to rescue someone

nancy and robin use the info they learned from victor creel to keep the gang alive in the upside down, max, argyle and eddie are freaking out because omg we’re in another dimention, we get some big reveal about the truth about the upside down and the gang makes their way out and head to the lab

and while this is all happening,we get some super emotional monologue between brenner and el (ala-the last 10 minutes of the truman show) and brenner realizes that el isnt going to be the naieve superweapn she used to be, and decides the best thing he can do with el is give her the standard punishment, time in the closet

and being in the closet triggers all sorts of flashbacks and emotions (mbb’s opportunity to show off her acting chops for an emmy)

joyce and hopper bust into the lab like they did in season 1, but this time they dont get caught

they decide to split up to cover more ground, and hopper finds el in the closet

and around the same time joyce finds mike and will and gets them out of there

here comes the REAL emotional performance

hopper sees her, we get a teary eyed “el!” “dad!”, and then hopper gets pulled away from el by lab workers

exactly the same way terry did

we’re watching this happen from el’s perspective, with a heart-wrenching “noooooooooo” from el, accompanied by cuts to every time el has had to be separated from someone she cares about (terry, the s1 ending, billy dying, her leaving kali in s2, saying goodbye to everyone on moving day, her being separated from mike and will when they got to the lab) accompanied by some terribly sad 80s song, then back to the present moment, she reaches her hand out and boom, the guards go flying. her powers are back

except she doesnt have control of them the way she did before, and now shes bringing the whole building down

her and hopper race to the the first floor, and meet joyce and the boys, they get out of the building at the very last second, and the whole thing collapses.

eventually they find the other group, the whole team is now together, they go and take down the big bad from the upside down, joyce almost KILLS lonnie

nancy and robin drop a huge bombshell that has to do with hawkins/the upside down, specifically pertaining to el, which they pieced together after talking to victor creel

we get a massive cliffhanger, season 5 starts like 10 minutes after the ending of season 4

[thirtheenprimes]

The Gaang+Iroh Classpects

I'd like to start off by saying there are no gender restrictions on classes nor aspects. Hussie himself said in a post I'm not going to take the time to find that any indication otherwise by the characters was just speculation. Let's be honest, gender restrictions are dumb.

Aang - Witch of Breath. First the obvious, he manipulates air as an air bender. But more than that, he pushes boundaries, and he redefines what the aspect means. Breath is about more than air, and Aang isnt just an air bender, he's the avatar. He is a leader, and he takes things into his own hands because he wants to do the right thing. Witches are bubbly, nice, and make great friends. Breath is also about freedom, direction, finding your own path in life and going with the flow. I would also consider Maid of Breath, but I'm pretty positive on the Witch thing. Though the Heir title does strike me as it still manipulates, but it has responsibilities and inheritance tied to it, but they more let their aspect control them than they control it. Aang doesnt let his destiny control him.

Katara - I compare her to Kanaya, I think. She's a passive class, but will still cut you for hurting someone she cares about. Given "because hope is all we have" isnt based off nothing, Hope is a viable aspect. She kindles and heals the hope in Aang and plenty of others, sort of mothering everyone into a rebellion and believing in themselves. But she could also be blood. She represents keeping people grounded, bonded to their loved ones. Her village, her deep care for everyone, and a great compliment to Aangs Breath. Plus, it would be great poetic symbolance with her whole blood bending arch. I think my official judgement for her is Sylph of Blood.

Sokka - Either Mind for his deductions, planning, and critical thinking, or Space for his creative thinking and ingenuity. Sokka uses his brain a lot, but he's also the creator of the group. Initially, I am split 50/50 on which one he is. So let's move onto class before deciding. Again, I have a gut instinct for him and that is Knight, because he sees himself as a warrior and as the only nonbender of the group, he has to be a fighter at heart... right? No, he is the plan maker, the schedule keeper and the inventor. Sure he's a warrior, but he's too open about himself to be a Knight. Knights hide behind something and that just isnt Sokka. So, moving past that, I consider a rogue. Rogues are fighters too, but they are more clever about it. They take their aspect and use it to benefit the team. Most everything Sokka does, especially later is because of the team. Rogues tend to be nice and earnest, like Sokka. So, then is it Rogue of Mind wherein he takes the logic and thoughts of others to benefit the team by coming up with new plans and ideas, or a Rogue of Space, wherein he takes physics and general creativity to do essentially the same thing? Personally, I lean a bit more toward Rogue of Space.

Toph - Toph is a Knight. That or a Thief, since she's def an active role as a foil to Katara's passive. She weaponized her aspect, and knights hide behind a facade of some kind, you know Toph hides behind her 'I'm tough and independent, I rely on no one!' act. But Thieves are forceful and unbending, like Earth. Not that all earth benders need to be thieves, but Toph is kind of the greatest Earth bender in the world for a reason. I'm feeling more Knight, though. As for aspect, I had a bit more difficulty. I was stuck between Life and Heart. Life I associate with vitality, luxury, privilege, and power. She comes from a wealthy family and even when she more than happily forsakes that life, living in wilderness and being a dirty barefooted rock child is luxury to her. It is fulfillment, and she needs to be in charge of her own life, a common trait for Life players. Heart I associate with soul and willpower, the force of an individual. That fits her well too, as an earth bender who understands her need to be true to herself. So I'm still not sure if I consider her a Knight of Life or a Knight of Heart but I am leaning more to Heart to be honest.

Zuko - Heir. He inherits, struggles with inheriting, and never fully controls his aspect, whatever it is. Rather, he learns to live with it and redirect it. We all know he's the group dad, and I see heirs as having to do with father figures. John and his dad, and you know Popop was a great dad. Mituna was a failed heir, as they all were, but Zuko is so successful at being an Heir he somehow breaks the definition and evolves into King (I know he becomes Fire Lord, but lord is a class and it isnt him). Now after saying all that, I also admit he fits the role of a Page really well too. He takes so long to find himself and come into his own, but when he does he is fantastic. But thematically, I believe he is an heir. As for his aspect, I'll start off by saying that if he is a Page, I'll go full Blood. Page of Blood, in which case Katara would be Sylph of Hope because I dont believe there should be two of the same aspects in one group. Thematically speaking, they are too different, even if everyone embodies their aspect differently. As an Heir, which again I am more of a proponent for, he would be an Heir of Life, given he is royalty and used to the finer things in life, then learns what the real finer things in life are from his uncle. Relating fire bending to the sun and sustaining life supports this too. Life is luxury, duty, and vitality. Again, I dont believe in repeated classes or aspects in a group, so if he is an Heir of Life, Toph would most certainly be a Knight of Heart.

Iroh - Zuko's ancestor, certainly. In homestuck, the humans share no pattern with their ancestors but the trolls share their aspect. I do not see Iroh as a Hero of Life, but I could see him as a Hero of Blood. If his aspect were blood (understanding others, what's important to them and how their culture is significant, it just screams Iroh of the white lotus and master of tea), I believe Iroh could be a Muse of Blood or Mage of Blood. I lean more toward Mage myself, as mages suffer from their aspect. Look at who his brother is, know his suffering from his son's death, and how much do you think he hurt when he thought he lost Zuko to the abuse of the Fire Lord? A mage is a sage because of their experience and you cant tell me Iroh isnt the best old sage ever. I'm not saying Zuko is a Page of Blood because they are related and he learned how to reach his full potential because of Iroh, because they dont have to have the same aspect, I'm just saying Zuko was lucky to have such a great Mage of Blood taking care of him. Muse might work also just because the most important thing a Muse does is exist, and the most important thing Iroh does is just being a good person, though I think he's too active in taking care of everyone to be a Muse myself.

So my final decision

Aang: Witch of Breath

Katara: Sylph of Blood

Sokka: Rogue of Space

Toph: Knight of Heart

Zuko: Heir of Life

Iroh: Mage of Blood

*Iroh and Katara embody Blood differently and can have the same aspect because Iroh is an ancestor, not one of the kids. I just put him in here because he is my favorite character.

[inloveforevr]

If you mind sharing, How did you take initiative and breaking up with your ex? I know it’s like you have to just rip the bandage off but I feel terrible hurting him. Even though he hurt me so many times that I know I shouldn’t be in this mess. What hurts is that I do have so much love for him. But I know in my heart that it time to let it go. Is there ever a proper way to do it?

i was speaking to him one day (after we broke up) and i had a profound realization. why was i still with him when i knew i didnt want any relationship with him? why was i waiting for him to cut me off? i realized my unhappiness in that moment and out of respect for myself i made the decision to end it properly - no contact at all. i told him that breaking up and continuing to talking is prolonging the pain and i want to get over it properly. he understood to an extent but i think a part of him didnt really want to believe it. anyways, i made a promise to myself that i wouldn’t go back to him because there was absolutely nothing worth salvaging. i was compromising and i refuse to do that again!  id been speaking to this guy for like 3 years straight and it was a total emotional rollercoaster from the beginning till the end and was verging on abusive/unhealthy. i felt so trapped but i knew the decision i made was right because i felt so much clarity, confidence and happiness in the months following.

it is really difficult at the beginning because you tell yourself you love them and care about them and you have good memories but honestly? you can learn to love people from afar. have a conversation about how you feel with him. find your closure, speak your truth and let it go... feel the hurt, cry and cry and let it out. journal. process your feelings! 

I get you, i guess in speaking your truth it does hurt others but continuing a relationship will only bring more hurt for you. Imagine getting a cut and you ignore it and it becomes infected.. you’d rather take action in the moment you first realize it  (cleaning the wound, protecting it) than prolonging and suffering. 

U have to be self compassionate cos let me tell you history is full of people who get their heart broken. It is not bad or wrong to love someone,,,,it is an inevitable part of who we are. we love and we love until it hurts and aches and we realize perhaps this is not good for us but still we stay. you should be proud of the way you love, don’t let this relationship distort your view of the loving person you are. but i guess you need to separate that form the situation and realize that your love 4 him cannot outweigh the hurt he has caused. you cant change him, you can accept what has happened and take action.  i guess the proper way to do it is follow the no contact rule theres loads of articles online x

i think it’s important to note love/infatuation/attachment isnt enough to sustain a relationship in the long-term and if you’ve been hurt so many times this is not a person you should continue with. like you said you have to rip off the band aid and end contact. it is difficult but honestly it is worth it! you’re doing yourself a favour by revoking access to someone who has hurt you. turn your energy inwards and focus on your goals.. what do you want from this life? what healthy, reciprocal relationships can you focus on? who can you speak to honestly? who makes you feel good? what do you want out of your career? are there any goals you want to achieve by the end of this year? do you want to improve a habit? do you want to start a new habit? there is so much life to live and so much to learn and honestly a whole new world opens up when you let those kind of people go. i can tell you honestly since leaving my ex boyfriend ive never been happier lol! so let that b some hope cos i was in the same place u were about 6 months ago and my heart feels so much fuller and at peace <3 you will b ok xxxxxxx

[shadowmooncat]

The group walked forward with only one way ahead. In front of them was a large room with only one way ahead. There were pitfalls surrounding a circular spell circle ring. Carefully they moved forward as Blade took the lead and looked at the spots of the circle. He blinked recognizing some of the marks* Blade: these are.. summoning circles.. but their basics.. *he looked around from the middle* Blade: mm fire.. earth.. water.. ice. *Hisao looked to him* Hisao: what do they mean? *Blade shook his head* Blade: like i said their basic summoning rings. *he walked ontop of one of them as it glowed and beneath him dirt and sand filled up the circle.* Blade: its bringing in elements from somewhere.. *Elenel shivered as she looked ahead. Sensing it too Blade looked, along with Hisao and Yuhiko. The group looked at the other side as heavy footsteps approached. In front of them walked Ozowa who looked with a sneer* Ozowa: You have arrived. *They stood ready to fight as he entered the ring and it shined. Around them the white area formed a barrier of pure white energy activating with them inside* Blade: why are we here.. and who the heck are you all? *Ozowa looked to them calmly and stayed silent.* *Blade Growled* Blade: answer me! *he suddenly glowed and shattered to pieces revealing a more human like form. A sword appeared at his side huge and red glowing vividly. He stared to them now calmly* Ozowa: Now that we are in this world, I no longer need the other mindless form. I will fight you with full strength. *he rose his blade as suddenly it absorbed energies from the light blue circle transforming into an frozen ice blade then slased at them a gigantic wave of ice rushed toward them* Yuhiko: what! thats huge! *Hisao growled raising his hand to summon Asuga but Blade moved quickly and tapped on the fire circle pulling pure flames together in a blade in his hand and slashed at the ice cutting it in two surprising the group as well as Ozowa* *his hand singed a bit and burned as he dropped the blade and it reverted to fire burning away* Blade: Ow! how did.. *Ozowa nodded* Ozowa: your powers.. somehow form a blade made of any material.. but flames.. I am surprised. *Yuhiko moved toward him along with Elenel looking to his burned hand.* Yuhiko: what were you thinking thats fire! I dont even know how you made it hardened but.. *He shook his head and waved his hand a bit as the burns started to heal instantly* Blade: I dont know either.. it was like a reaction.. well I guess.. look all i know is i grabbed flame. *Elenel looked around* Elenel: this.. room? *Blade nodded* Blade: it doesnt seem to act on the laws of our world..  but I am not going to grab fire next time! *Hisao looked to him* Hisao: This enemy is not someone we can defeat easily.. im not as good with things like spells.. well i only know demon sealing skills.. *Blade blinked* Blade: huh.. I have no clue what that is.. but leave this enemy to me. *Blade moved toward the earth symbol as it formed soil again and formed a blade of hard rock and rushed at Ozowa slashing down at him and clashed with his blade. Ozowa pushed him back but not before Blade tossed his sword at him, only for it to break on his hardened skin. Blade shook his head* Blade: didnt work.. eh? *Ozowa looked as his blade melted away to its original form* Ozowa: your not very smart. I will use that to an advantage. *he rose his sword as it glowed and pulled from the light green circle forming a wind around it. He then rose his blade and slashed vertically as the wind rushed at blade like a sharp knife. Blade at first intended to take the attack but Elenel moved in front and blocked it with her barrier. It bounced off but not without leaving a small chip. Blade looked to her and shook his head* Blade: I can handle this! *she shook her head* Elenel: Blade!.. this is different.. not magic.. no elements.. stronger.. *Ozowa looked to them raising his blade again* Ozowa: you should listen to your girlfriend boy! *he swung his blade this time in an X as the wind charged at them. She moved in front and blocked the attack but the crack caused wind to slip in slightly and scratch her cheek much to her surprise* *Blade looked then growled and sliding over to the water circle and formed a blade of pure water then slashed upward as he clashed with Ozowa. This time however the water was easily dispersed and Ozowa thrusted forward intending to pierce blade who was caught off guard. Hisao however formed darkness over the sword and melted the winds as well as half the blade itself. This caused Ozowa to pull back and Blade to retreat a bit. They looked over to see a different Hisao. Now Asuga had glowed darkly and taken form with a glare* Asuga: ...im tired of being cooped up.. *Yuhiko blinked* Yuhiko: Asuga! Hisao... *he scoffed* Asuga: it was his idea this time. He thinks my powers can stop this idiot! *Ihgi appeared* Ihgi: Yuhiko!. I can help.. please! *she closed her eyes* Yuhiko: together then. *she nodded as the two of them shifted forming their combined form. In this form she held a bow of energy* Yuhiko: its kind of new.. still that doesnt matter.. *she aimed at Ozowa and fired. He pulled away but was hit to his side as the arrow broke into pieces* Ozowa: even if you were to hit me, you will not wound me. *he blinked suddenly as his blade was melted away and transformed into spikes along his arm* Ozowa: grah! *Asuga glowed with dark energy* Asuga: that doesnt mean I cant attack your weapon. *Ozowa closed his eyes* Ozowa: I see.. clever.. *he pulled the spikes from his arm as his skin healed up completely surprising them* Ozowa: then I shall move to the real thing. *he rose his hand as light formed in it forming a huge sword of light* Ozowa: the Yilnoglar Spell is absolute. *Asuga growled and slowly faded a bit* Asuga: nngh.. this light.. is affecting my powers.. I cant sustain... *Blade shook his head* Blade: its okay.. I have a plan.. use your fire thingi on the wood element there.. *Asuga growled* Asuga: dark magic is not fire! get it right! Blade: fine whatever! just do it! *Ozowa swung his blade as it gave off a shockwave sending small bolts of light through the group. Everyone felt the charge and were slowly weakened.* Asuga: guhh. I am.. fading!.. fine! *he rose his hand and pointed toward the grass element. Blade dashed toward it as Ozowa pointed his blade toward him charging light into his sword. Blade pressed his hand on the ground as it glowed. A small root growed slowly.* Blade: damn.. more I need more! *Ozowa shook his head* Ozowa: I will send your body to a world of nothingness. The Yilnogar shall absorb your essence. *the charge began to grow brightly as blade looked at the grass. finally a smal stem grew and he plucked it. He then held it up toward Ozowa as Asuga sent his magic into it. Suddenly a strange reaction happened as Blade gasped seeing the stem turn full black and from it magic of darkness glowed extending its size and growing into a large black blade with symbols across it. Ozowa looked wide eyed* 

Ozowa: impossible! you used demon magic with your own power! You cannot cross your powers between eachother in your worlds! *Blade swung the sword a bit and readied to strike as Asuga faded and Hisao kneeled exausted* Blade: this isnt... our world! *he rushed at Ozowa who fired a huge beam of light energy. Blade clashed with it sending it around him being protected by the sword in front of him as he made his way through it and slashed cutting out the light. Ozowa stumbled from the sudden stop as Blade took the advantage and jumped slashing. Ozowa quickly put up his sword to block the attack but the blade passed through the light. His eyes widened as he growled in pain with the slash connecting and cut deeply across his chest down to his side. He roared out as Blade pulled away and looked as the sword faded from his hands. Ozowa roared in pain* Ozowa: gwwaaaaaaaaaarrrghhhH!!!! N-NO... MY MIND... IS BREAKING... THE SEAL... THE SEAL IS... CONSUMING MY BODY!... *Blade blinked seeing dark magic melt away his body down to his bones. Yuhiko turned away a bit as Elenel closed her eyes in fear at the sight. Once he had completely melted away parts of the seal grew closer toward his melted corpse as if consuming and growing by it. Blade sighed and looked to everyone* Blade: we got.. we got him... we killed him! *he smiled but blinked as the ground shivered and the spell circles lit up. * *elements started to glow and pour from each circle into the middle. Blade turned and looked as a being started to take form* Blade: wh.. whats that!... ???: know... that... my form... does... not die... i am... eternal... eternal!!! ETERNAL!!!

*from two of his hands green energy glowed as vines suddenly appeared and wrapped Blade up. They bursted into flames as he yelled out feeling the attack. Elenel rushed toward him only for a large hand of water to smash into her. She blocked it with her shield but tried to make it toward him. The other two glowed with green energy and shot out light spears from the sky down to her. She blinked as her shield sustained the hit but cracked a bit. The crack caused Blade to feel a rip in his forhead. He gasped as his eyes were slowly turning red and he was soon to lose control. Yuhiko fired an arrow piercing the vines as the golem like beast roared and freed him while he shook off his rage and pulled back next to Elenel. He huffed feeling the blood from his head. Now Hisao rose up and looked as the beast roared out and sent vines everywhere. He slashed them as they burned away with his blade and looked to it with a glare as Ozowa rampaged sending rocks water, fire, and other elements in all directions* Hisao: whatever it is, its out of control.. what can we do... *Blade shook his head* Blade: I could try attacking but its got  a strong defense.. if only i had that power again.. *Hisao closed his eyes trying to call upon Asuga's power again but to no avil* Hisao: I cant reach him.. hes dead silent!.. thats not good.. *Yuhiko moved next to him* Yuhiko: then maybe we can do something.. you still have demon sealing cards right? *he nodded* Hisao: yeah.. a few.. but this thing  isnt a demon. *she nodded* Yuhiko: yes.. but they might be useful, something about this place is messing with our powers and items. *Hisao thought but blinked as a wave of vines rushed at them. He along with the others attacked the vines and destroyed them as they fell to cinders. Blade shook his head* Blade: at this point anything will do! try it! *Hisao nodded and grabbed a small card from his pocket. He blinked seeing it glow green, the same energy from the golem Ozowa was being routed to the card. He nodded* Hisao: I dont understand.. but here goes! *he rushed forward as Yuhiko blinked but nodded following him. Blade followed grabbing a pebble and transformed it into a small knife while Elenel moved with them in the center trying to protect them with her shield. The golem roared sensing them coming and sent fire and light magic at them as it transformed into a firey light mist. The attack was blocked by Elenel's shield and bounced off. In response the golem then sent a fusion of grass and ice at them through its top arms. They fired out like cannons with grass as sharp as blades rushing at them. Yuhiko fired on them shooting them as they came close covering the group. Now furious the golem roared and fused flame and earth in the ground creating a tidal wave of magma at them. The attack loomed over them but Blade rushed forward and grabbed the ice pieces from the last attack forming large blades and cut through the wave of magma sizzling it down to bits of rock then cut through them and rushed at the golem. Ozowa swung his hands at Blade as he dodged and stabbed the top right hand. He roared but Blade clung on holding onto the knife and pulled the hand down. Meanwhile it formed a fist of stone on the top left hand and moved to smash the approaching team only for them to scatter to different side of it and Yuhiko fired a shower of arrows into the hand holding it down on the ground with spell carded arrows that grew vines from the wooden arrows. Now the two hands came forward with ice, water, and grass to form murky mud and slam the group in between its hands. Elenel moved forward and with a small scream blocked the attack at both sides staying in the middle long enough for Hisao to rush forward and slide the card on his blade piercing it as it glowed along the blade and thrusted it into the golems head. It roared struggling to free itself as green energy overflowed through it. Inside its chest a red spot shattered revealing a glowing red energy crystal. With the last of his energy Hisao called to Asuga* Hisao: give me something!! *he pulled out his pistol and fired into the red spot as the bullets glowed faintly with dark energy. They pierced the crystal melting it and cracking it in three points as it finally shattered. Ozowa stopped moving and froze suddenly he roared loudly freeing himself as everyone ran away quickly to avoid him. Parts of his body fell to pieces one by one as he was heard speaking* Ozowa: ...i cannot...be defeated.. I cannot.. die.. I.. am.. IMMORTALLLLLAAUUUGHH...NNNGH!... *a white chaotic light shot out into the sky as the area seemed to change and shook. Around them the group gasped seeing for an instant what looked like the inside of a beasts stomach then the walls turned back to normal. The light faded as the circle collapsed and faded. Now in front of them Ozowa was back to normal but an ash sculpture of his shocked face. He faded into ash as they walked over to him. * Hisao: now its over.. but what was that.. I saw a strange thing.. the walls almost looked alive.. Yuhiko: I saw it too! veins and all! like we were inside a beast. *Blade looked to them* Blade: no way! these are stone! why would we be in a beast. Elenel: ...Blade.. illusion? *he shook his head* Blade: no.. you would know.. right? *she silently contemplated a bit but a road appeared in front of them now. far beyond it a doorway also appeared* Blade: its inviting us further.. Yuhiko: were not done yet? Hisao:  I guess not.. but still.. best keep our guard up.. we dont know what we will find. Ihgi: yes.. I cant sense anything ahead.. *Elenel nodded* Elenel: mmph! *the group relucantly walked forward down the path toward the doorway heading into the area*

*MEANWHILE*

(somewhere in the castle) ????: .... ???: .... ????: ...who... is it? ???: ...ai..n.. ????: I can hear... you.. but.. cant see.. ???: ai..n...ai....n...v....ai...n.. ????: your.. voice... *gasp* Sa...Sai...ri!? *the figure wakes up trapped in white spikes throught its body being drained. A long blue tail from its backside with its face masked and body chained with white chains. Another being looks to him covered in the same chaotic like energy* ?????: its useless... I am the master now.. ???: who are.. you?.. ????: its fitting im freed here.. now your trapped! ???: a demonic.. voice.. no.. something.. something else.. you sound like me but... ????: shut your mouth! *he slashes at the figures chest tearing it open as it bleeds blue blood but slowly heals back* ???: nnngh!... auuguh.. whyy... it hurts.. I cant see anything.. *as it looks up. Its eyes are white and blind half of its face pure white as well but a feline appearance is somewhat visible* ????: im not you.. and I never was! I am superior! ???: ....hnngh.. V..Veer...hah.. ????: heh... hehehaha... an old name... for a dead form.. I am new now.. I am the Galaxy Emperor!.. and you are a nameless tool. The wheel of fate is turning! END!!!!

[xxxdragonfucker69xxx]

Waterbending Techniques

(a post about the game Dicebending, previous posts here and here)

WATER

Waterbending is a versatile art, switching easily between offense and defense. If there is no water present, a waterbender must make some sort of maneuver to find some; this restriction has made waterbenders very creative. Waterbending increases a die size under a full moon and decreases a die size under a lunar eclipse.

Freeze

Cost: -

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 0

You freeze water in place, allowing you to form structures or trap an enemy out to mid range. If used against an enemy it can freeze a limb in place, dealing d4 damage and giving the Affliction 'Trapped'.

Water Whip

Cost: -

Type: Attack

Prereq: Water 0

You lash out with a tendril of water, striking an offender out to mid range and dealing d6 damage.

Waterwall

Cost: -

Type: Defense

Prereq: Water 0

You raise a defensive wall of water, enough to quench fire and stifle attacks. This deals d6 damage to attackers, but if overcome you need a new source of water.

Shape Water

Cost: -

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 0

You manipulate a small body of water or water-based solution, moving it a you wish, pulling it out of a material like cloth if necessary.

Streaming the Water

Cost: -

Type: Defense

Prereq: Water 1

This technique causes a stream of water to move around your body, ready to be used for any reason. You may, when someone else acts against you, pay 1 Will to change to an offensive stance in reaction. In either form, this does d4 damage.

Ice Creeper

Cost: -

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 1

A trail of ice crosses the ground to the feet of your enemies, potentially freezing a group of targets as long as they are close to each other. It does d4 damage to each of them if successful, and can inflict the Affliction 'Trapped'.

Ice Prison

Cost: 1 Will

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 2

You encase someone in ice, preventing them from moving enough to bend. This deals d8 damage and can give the Affliction 'Frozen', and anyone with their bending element less than 2 cannot bend from inside it.

Ice Slide

Cost: -

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 1

You form a path of ice across the ground or air that you can slide across, negating the advantage of an offensive stance and dealing d6 damage.

Ice Sled

Cost: 1 Will

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 2

You form an icy sled that can travel at high speeds, potentially crossing hundreds of miles in a day.

Waterwalk

Cost: -

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 1

You can walk on water as if it were a solid surface by increasing its pressure under your feet.

Waterspout

Cost: 1 Will

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 2

A vortex of water or snow raises you up to mid range from the ground, carrying you around and dealing d4 damage.

Ice Spear

Cost: -

Type: Attack

Prereq: Water 1

You send forth spikes or blades of ice, dealing d8 damage out to mid range.

Hailstorm

Cost: 1 Will

Type: Attack

Prereq: Water 2

You prepare a multitude of icy spears to rain down on your enemy, negating the die increase of a defensive stance and dealing d8 damage.

Ice Claws

Cost: -

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 1

You form icy claws or gauntlets around your hands, allowing your basic attacks to do d8 damage. These claws are sustained as long as you want, and can be formed with barely any water.

Ice Shield

Cost: -

Type: Defense

Prereq: Water 1

Rather than a simple water shield, you compress water into ice to provide a more solid defense, dealing d8 damage to an attacker.

Water Jet

Cost: 1 Will

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 1

You direct a focused stream of water against someone out to mid range, dealing d6 damage. This can knock them back or knock them down.

Water Cloak

Cost: 1 Will

Type: Defense

Prereq: Water 2

You gather water around your body as armor and extend tentacles to act as weapons, allowing you to make attacks while maintaining a defensive stance. In either form, it does d6 damage. The technique can be sustained.

Octopus Form

Cost: 2 Will

Type: Attack

Prereq: Water 3

The Octopus Form creates multiple watery tentacles around the body which can strike any number of opponents out to mid range and deal d8 damage. The technique is sustained.

Bubble

Cost: -

Type: Defense

Prereq: Water 1

You cause water to split and flow around you, forming a bubble if it would surround you. You can walk and breathe underwater along with your companions, and someone who tries to use waterbending against you takes d4 damage.

Channel

Cost: 1 Will

Type: Defense

Prereq: Water 1

You accept an incoming waterbending attack and turn it aside or redirect it to the attacker.

Ice Construct

Cost: 1 Will

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 2

You can form something small out of ice, as long as you can hold it in one hand. This deals d4 damage if used directly, but is usually used to make some sort of weapon in combat.

Ice Wall

Cost: 2 Will

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 3

You can form something large out of ice, such as walls or domes large enough to encase a duel. This deals d6 damage to anyone trying to break through.

Ice Drill

Cost: 2 Will

Type: Attack

Prereq: Water 3

You form a large drill out of ice, piercing through certain shields or barriers and dealing d10 damage. This negates the advantage of a defensive stance.

Condensation

Cost: 1 Will

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 3

You pull water from air humidity or nearby plants, creating a source of water where there would normally be none.

Fog

Cost: -

Type: Defense

Prereq: Water 2

You bend the humidity in the air, producing a cloud of fog or manipulating actual clouds in the sky. If used to produce fog, it covers out to mid or far range and does d4 damage to enemies, as well as reducing the size of their die to attack anyone in the cloud.

Maelstrom

Cost: 2 Will

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 4

Move large bodies of water, create whirlpools or tidal waves.

BLOODBENDING

Hold Flesh

Cost: 1 Will

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 2

You manipulate the water in a living (or dead) body, allowing you to hold someone still or levitate them. This can give the Affliction 'Paralyzed', and deals d8 damage.

Puppeteer

Cost: 2 Will

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 3

You seize the blood in someone else's body and force them to move according to your will, though you cannot make them bend or speak something they don't want to.

HEALING

Soothe

Cost: -

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 1

You move water essence along the meridians of the body, accelerating the body's natural healing. This heals d6 damage from an ally, but you have to be able to touch them.

Regenerate

Cost: 2 Will (continuous)

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 3

Deeper manipulations of water essence and blood flow can heal deeper injuries, such as nerve paralysis or broken bones, and undo Afflictions -- even permanent ones. Temporary Afflictions can be healed in a round, but permanent Afflictions require weeks of dedicated healing, during which time you are constantly down 3 Will. Unfortunately, even this technique cannot heal deep injuries like loss of bending or certain internal wounds.

Pacify

Cost: 2 Will

Type: Strategic

Prereq: Water 3

Water essence extends into the spiritual realm, and you can calm and soothe a troubled spirit, washing away anger or hatred. This is represented by a 'Calm' Affliction, but they can choose to accept it permanently.

PLANTBENDING

Vine Whip

Cost: -

Type: Attack

Prereq: Water 2, Earth 1

You manipulate the water in plants to use vines or roots as manipulators out to mid range, and can use them as whips to deal d8 damage.

Plant Body

Cost: 1 Will

Type: Defense

Prereq: Water 2, Earth 1

You gather a mass of vines and vegetation around yourself to appear as an overgrown monster, allowing you to make attacks while remaining in a defensive stance. It does d8 damage and can be sustained.

starting to get happy with these techniques

this base actually isnt bad for mechanical hooks

[mommydragon-of-all]

OC Interview Meme

This looks fun. Also some answers drastically differ depending on around what time this "interview” takes place. So i got thinking and since I was tagged by@sakurabunnie who’s getting to know my pre-inquisition Soren, i choose to time this before Inquisition. Then i was tagged by dear @hadiden-lavellan too, but by then i was halfway through his post, and hey why not, some looking back :) Thank you both!!!! :3333

For Soren (Lavellan):

1. What is your name?

“A lot of people have called me by a lot of names. You can call me Soren.”

2. What is your real name?

“It is actually Soren. Yep, just Soren. I lost my original belonging and i didnt take any of my families surnames. Not permanently nor in any way official.”

3. Do you know why you were called that?

“Oh well, my parents wanted a pair of short and strong names that ring together, even if they had to get a bit creative. Also, as i learned, a pair of names that can be lilted and growled equally well haha “

4. Are you single or taken?

“i am free like a bird. Does your nest have some extra space on a cold night by the way?”

5. Have any abilities or powers?

“Im a highly trained assassin, among … other things. If you ever get in trouble… *slides over a strange little object* flash this around the shady parts of any city. They will take care of the rest. But for your lives sake, do not try to lie”

6. Stop being a Mary Sue.

“ I dont think i ever used that alias… “

7. What’s your eye color?

“Oohhh you are welcome to gaze into them closer, yes ;) no low light excuses, they have their own, so just lean over… “

8. How about your hair color?

“ Oh yes that is harder to tell in different lights. Its dark red, like good wine or blood from the liver .”

9. Have you any family members?

“ I have tons. If you meant blood relation… other than my twin sister i have some distant family. Literally distant even, like few and far between, out in the world. Some of us exchange awesome birthday gifts some years though, regardless of the exact date. Who has time to time that. “

(Scattered by the wind, but firmly standing like the trees)

10. Oh? What about pets?

“ Sadly animals are deadly afraid of me. It takes just a sniff to run for dear life… Even predators… it takes a special blend of proud and crazy to befriend me it seems. I would kill for such treasures. Like that Hart i once fought for an apple in that deep forest and lately rode to far destinations… i think it starts to get even attached!!! If he sticks around im gonna call him Captain. But remember, Dont go close to him! For your dear life, please dont. He is easy to recognize. Big as a mountain and looks like “Oh, Shit”. “

(’Where to, Captain?’)

11. That’s cool I guess, now tell me about something you don’t like.

“ Those things are about to change. Or drop in numbers significantly in the world. Just wait. …as truly as i want to mean that, unfortunately some things never change. Like the darkness in people, festering hearts. There will always be things like betrayal, prejudice, hatred, discrimination, envy, greed, cruelty,... i could go on. People who mostly keep themselves above those shades of their nature are all worth to be protected.“

12. Do you have any hobbies/activities you like doing?

“ Oh there are so many awesome things in the world and so many exciting things to do! I cant even count them. Like there’s hunting dragons for one! Speaking of hunting, there is also treasure hunt and demon hunt and manhunt and wyvernhunt and countless others, the bigger and meaner the better! But then theres also MAGIC! Do you have any idea how awesome that is? Everything magic and everything it touched. Putting together and using magic objects for so many things! And spells??? Potions, lotions, weapons... And there are also PEOPLE! The most magical thing is the warm light in ones heart. And they are so various and unique! There are different languages and codes and symbols and oh the stories! And dance and music and pleasures and laughing and caring and helping and…. oh … haha… im sorry, are you awake? Please ask away. “

(’Ah, what a beautiful day!’)

13. Ever hurt anyone before?

“ I think you snoozed off and forgot about my profession already. :)  “

14. Ever… killed anyone before?

“ Hahaha oh these sharp and pointy things and stuff arent for chopping and cooking vegetables either.”

15. What kind of animal are you?

“Pfffft i am my own species! Hehe! A unique hybrid i guess! But definitely a big animal, yes. Sis’ won that argument long ago, so there you have the answer. “

16. Name your worst habits.

“Hmm? What?” (*Muffs out with one of the interviewers -already leafed through-notebooks between his sharp teeth, booth on table...*) Hey! That is… how did you… *sigh*... nevermind  

(exhibit 99: ‘”I’ll go straight there!”)

17. Do you look up to anyone at all?

“My sister, definitely. She is the best. She is indestructible in every way i swear! Gotta be the strongest person alive. She is also really cool. But hot. I mean explosive! Not that shes not hot, technically... she is my female version after all haha. And caring for me with great big sister love (*mumble*:even if i am like 5 minutes older), but dont spread that ;) Might harm her notoriety.  I also look up to several of my tutors and many other people for many different reasons. People can be so many kinds of amazing.”

18. Gay, straight, or bisexual?

“You can not expect me to label my interests in a world full of so many differently beautiful people with warm hearts.”

19. Do you go to school?

“Yes. Life. 24/7. Got less intense since i learned how to survive and sustain myself, and grew a strong body to back up my needs and will, but there are always new things to learn and lessons you never asked for too. I had some actual teachers along the way too, but lately mostly i just teach myself what i dont just encounter by diving into new things. Which is not only fun by the way, you are bound to learn a few things. Then there are books, theories, researching, digging, honing instincts and reflexes, combining and refining techniques or theories, trial and error... Life is a bottomless school “

20. Do you ever want to marry and have kids one day?

“Wow, wow, you mean like.. babies? Sweet Fade, i wouldnt dare breathe their way, they are so fragile... little young PEOPLE, persons who arrived so recently and understand so little and cant even tell whats up just cry and i cant understand them, i understand every language but i can not understand babies for my life and ... and... thats terrifying! And do you have any idea how EASY it is to kill someone? And then there is that small bundle of vulnerability, my proximity could be lethal to it! And .... *sigh*... sorry just... It all would depend on that special person i might find who would want to keep me for life, for better or worse, and if they wanted kids... even if babies, i would be on board. I would do anything for that special someone. Even learn baby care... Bigger kids, well, i already have :D . In good care. If any of them were to be taken under my constant and indirect care, would depend on a lot of things. Right now they are much safer otherwise.”

21. Do you have any fanboys/fangirls?

“Most certainly ;D.But none of them know much about me, of course. With that comes a transformation of those feelings”

22. What are you most afraid of?

‘Im not afraid of ANYTHING!” *eyes instantly betraying* “Fine, fine, gotta be loss. Ironic, isnt it, for i have but what is on my person. Replaceable come and goes. Im mostly afraid of losses that arent even really “mine”, but others. Loved ones or even barely known ones loosing their lives or their light. Loosing my sister, myself, my heart... that is all i am. The only thing i cannot live without is my heart, i AM my heart, and loosing pieces of it or have it broken or freezing through a hole... I hate how selfish that is. But yeah. There you go. I still tend to leave pieces of it everywhere, and it only grows with that, funny how that works, but it also tends to get wounded on every turn. I fear the numbing cold. I fear the day when i cant hold it together and go on anymore.”

(from “When you are away”)

23. What do you usually wear?

“What you see is my whole wardrobe, hahah. But i shift and change to blend in from the dirt of Orzammar’s dust town to the shining halls of Orlesian palaces. Its fun.  What i like to wear mostly are well covering clothes, that allow a great scale of mobility, but not baggy to catch on things. Made of high quality materials only. My clothes MUST be of great quality materials, more for comfort than durability. Heightened overall senses arent always fun. Oh and for outer wear i like leather, especially dragonskin stuff for light armor, and long boots are the only footwear i acknowledge, some with high heels, and a matching pair of long gloves from soft fine leather are necessary too. Long coats from mostly leather and all the necessary leather straps and harnesses and pouches and belt too of course. If it counts, all my current favorite necklaces with magical pendants and bracelets are a constant wear too. It also doesnt hurt if my clothes look great. But fine materials tailored to my body and my needs usually bring that effect without further touches.”

(*his gear gotta let his smooth ass move*)

24. Do you love someone?

“I love all good people. ...and some others”

25. When was the last time you wet yourself?

"Bahahahhahaa now thats some blunt question! It deserves to be answered truthfully. I wish i could say when i was a baby, but truth is i think it happened a few times during the wilder rides of intense poison training with blood magic assistance, but im not really sure, i was barely conscious through those parts from pain and all kinds of nasty sensations, i came to my senses naked and tucked in after them. I never do extreme limit pushing training alone. There were also times when i was subject to some blood spells and experiments unwilling too. I have some suspicious blurry memories that i have made all sorts of messes. Egh. Lets move on to more fun questions”

26. Well, it’s not over yet!

“Perfect!”

27. What class are you? (High class, middle class, low class)

“I live outside of such systems. But i took part in every class during my life, thanks to current families or goals.”

28. How many friends do you have?

“Plenty, but one cant have too many. Helping each other goes a long way. I tend to make some friends everywhere i go, but i have few close friends. The closest one is my sis’. She knows me more than i know myself, and she is always there for me, at any cost.”

29. What are your thoughts on pie?

“Pie? One of the most fun cakes. It was invented for throwing i swear!”

30. Favourite drink?

“Hmmmm... old, red wine, hot and seasoned, spiced with a nice kick of that special antivan poison blend. I dont recommend you trying it, but you dont know what you’re missing out.”

31. What’s your favourite place?

“Wherever i am welcome.”

(*one favorite place example. It is not Where, it is Who*)

32. Are you interested in someone?

“I am interested in everyone. Are you fishing for some special interest?”

33. What’s your bra cup size and/or how big is your willy?

“Hahahha oh you never disappoint! Well, it was a long time ago when i last i wore a bra, back when i could still pull off the young girl appearance, to get in paces and so on. I always made sure to have a proportional but quite evident bosom. Oh it was such fun, my long hair helped too, and i dished out that act spot on! Like that time in Val Royeaux, when the heads i turned waltzing in as part of a rich antivan court were spinning all around in frantic search in the chaos, while i walked right out as a male servant. Oh sorry, i got distracted. You also asked about my “willy” if i recall correctly. If you would like to measure it so badly we can discuss that later ;) “

34. Would you rather swim in the lake or the ocean?

“Hmmm.... whichever promises more sunk treasures and secrets. Some lakes hide quite the surprises let me tell you.”

(’Looks like a perfect place for some diving..’)

35. What’s your type?

“My type of what, exactly, dear? ;)”

36. Any fetishes?

“I am very flexible in many ways, let me tell you, in case you are planning to bend me to your will. And if id have some suggestions, well, let it remain a little mystery for now ;p”

37. Seme or uke? Top or Bottom? Dominant or Submissive?

“Depends. What would you like me to be?”

38. Camping or indoors?

“Nothing beats a warm bed and a well secured resting place. Especially with my... condition, and experiences”

39. Are you wanting the interview to end?

“Are you kidding me? You have such awkward, uncomfortable questions... Let me get a new round of drinks for us and lets do this till morning!” “What do you mean new round... when did this cup of hot wine get here? It has my name on it??? What the... I better go i think.”

40. Now it’s over!

“What? Oh come on, we just got to some really “embarrassing” parts! Talking about “embarrassing”, would you like to hear the story of my encounter with this qounari dreadnought captain and ended up on board to Ostwick? Maybe you can tell me some stories yourself too in exchange..” *puppy eyes+shining grin combo* “Well, im not exactly in a hurry...” “Excellent!” *shifts closer and pours more wine*

I tag @quizzikemen @pelle-lavellan @hadiden-lavellan @sakurabunnie @elalavella @nipuni and everyone who wants to do it! For those who already did this consider this a tag for another OC! Gotta love them all :D (if you feel like doing it. I always feel like reading it)

[im-a-fading-star]

i fucking hate this envy i hold against you. its really not your fault, you never did anything wrong. and i dont think you’ll ever do anything out of bad intentions because all you’ve ever wanted to do was share love and be loved. you’re getting what you want from the right person, and i wish i was that right person too. you’re surrounded by so many people who love you and i am too.

the difference is, people like you have no reason to adore me. people like you have no legitimate reason to want me. im thoroughly convinced i’ve fooled you for years and even gaslit you to stay my friend, and even my girlfriend. ive been nothing but selfish from the beginning, and i’ll be selfish until the end. im stuck inbetween wanting you to stay, and wanting you to split up with me because i just want you to have better in your life. i want that to make you happy, even if it makes me miserable, because i dont deserve you, or our other gf in our polyamory.

i feel like im just making excuses to mope around from day to day now. im told time and time again to mend these relationships, just to be happy for you and the others. that sticking together is worth it. we can grow up together. i can talk to everyone every single day, even just for a few minutes, right? or every other week? maybe every other month?

i can’t do that, though.

i’m not like you. i’m not like anyone you know at all. i’ve tried to be for so long, believe me. i’ve played so long into the neurotypical role, i’ve never had any real reason to be miserable unlike everyone else around me. everyone had actual problems, all ive ever wanted to do (and still do) is help in every way i can. i know youre the same way. at least, you and the others succeed with that.

you succeed in so many things, even if you dont think you do. you succeed in being a great friend, a great partner. a great artist, a great sister and daughter to your family, even if they dont respect you for it in the slightest. an excited learner, a willful experimenter, one of the most fun conversationalist with the brightest and creative ideas ive ever known. youre so indulgent in so much. how could anyone not want to be around you or be your friend?

when i look at you though, i cant see any of those things in me. i cant see a single reason why anyone would still even try to stick with me. everyone should know full well that i cant keep up a conversation for more than a day before shutting down completely because i get so fucking exhausted after breathing a single word, after dreading being a complete idiot. not seeing any way how i can improve, or put in the effort for anything like i used to. or to see a reason why anyone would be humored by my interests when i ramble about them. i never shut up back then, isnt it doing anyone a favor that im shutting up now? how is it still hurting everyone? i wish it wasnt. i wish it was never hurting you. i wish you didnt feel anything for me, or mail me anything, not because i dont want to spend time with you but because itd spare you of all the extra effort.

i really dont know if this can be maintained. you’re both trying so fucking hard to maintain it. maybe im not trying at all, maybe i am, but at the very least, i know i’ve been having so much trouble with trying to feel something for the group we’ve shared for years. and if i drop it, theres no potential left. no future left. and yet that doesnt scare me. yet i dont feel anything for that. i dont feel anything for a lot nowadays, but even just thinking about any of this right now makes me feel numb and depressed.

but lets face it, i dont think i’ll ever be as interesting of a person as you guys, no matter how much i try. in reality, im just empty space that you guys are trying to fill. and im sorry. i keep wondering if splitting up will just make anything better or worse, but im genuinely scared that i just cannot maintain relationships anymore. im scared of feeling only envy for you and not love like i used to, because im so fucking attached to one single person now who was influenced my life to change more than anyone else. you’re not unequal to her. youre not unequal to anyone, please god never take it that way after everything i just wrote.

its just how ive always felt. and i feel like being apart should be tearing apart that mindset but its just made me bitter and tired of everyone and makes me dread coming back even more. im just a fucking imposter and a faker, i always have been. ive never had anything interesting going on, all i do is just fucking wallow to myself and you dont deserve that, no one does. but what am i supposed to do? i have no fucking identity and i break apart whenever theres any sort of emotional turmoil now. i hide when people are upset now. not because ive been abused, because my mind just convinces me my shitty little brain is my only safe space in case something really awful happens. and if something really awful does happen im stuck in my own fucking head being selfish as i always am and youre hurt and its all my fault again and even though its my fault i just cant fucking CHANGE the fact its my fault because i dont take RESPONSIBILITY anymore AND YOU’D JUST BE BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME OKAY? YOU’D SUSTAIN SO MUCH MORE OF YOUR WELLBEING! you’d have less anxiety rather than fretting over my stupid fucking ass, even if the depression sinks in i hope you’d eventually get over me even though i wouldnt over you because youre so worthwhile of everyones time and youve been like a part of me for years, the BEST part of me, the person ive always wanted to be, the person ive always wanted to swap shoes with even if it meant i got your terrible family i’d ESPECIALLY take it in a heartbeat if it meant that! but god id give you everything id ever have just to see you improve because i never will! i’ll never be anything like you, i literally never will!!! i cant make friends, i cant keep friends, i cant be a good friend, nor a good girlfriend, or even a wife, i cant be ANYTHING good, i cant be anything like you and i HATE being envious over you, even the slightest bit jealous that you and everyone else can at least keep it together for someone else!!! I FUCKING CANT!!!!!!! I WISH I WAS LIKE YOU BECAUSE YOU HOLD SO MUCH MORE LOVE THAN I EVER COULD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways, if anything happens, i love you so much to death, and. i just... hope that your future will turn out as bright as it ever could be. i hope you get the career you want, and save up enough money to move out. i hope youre surrounded by so much more people who love you and convince you that youre worth all the time in the world and that your family writhes in their own dirt for treating you so terribly. i hope you realize your own strengths and your ability to shape the future. i hope youre as healthy as can be. i hope you’re still with her if i cant be there for either of you. i hope you eventually realize that maybe im not really good enough for you, and never was in the first place. im happy my ex at least got that benefit. i’ll be happy if you realize whats best for you, too.

[mejomonster]

also really liked how the tension is like playing on a few levels in that first tomb scene with the hanging coffins. first its pangzi and wu xie totally chill and at odds with the very-dangerous-seeming place. then pangzi ‘acting’ scared but clearly not because they play around. then wu xie acting serious for a second because he actually is experienced enough to know what’s dangerous - so its a mix of chill and what would be stupid-playing around if they weren’t so practiced, then genuine worry by people who actually seem to know how to recognize it. then they seem to have it under control easy, no monsters after all (even tho the audience expects them after the intro bell-monster tomb story). they get brought up and the biggest threat IS the human elements helping them and being super inexperienced and incompetent. (but really, the ultimate thing it’s leading to is the realization of what’s wrong with wu xie, everything with this tomb is just setting up that...)

they still manage to recover the situation! so its tense but no horrible fallout! then they get pulled up and things get calm and seem taken care of, forboding feeling but its implied its pretty much settled. again, the human element sets it off in the end - someone touching because someone else incompetent didn’t tell them fast enough. the scary thing is these little unexpected human reactions, not actually the creepy dripping liquid or the scary noises or some monster. and its a scary thing at least i wasn’t even looking out for. then the poison gas furrows out, people are running, the actions great. wu xie gets ‘affected’ and things slow down. so we wonder how bad it was...

and i love how in the end, all that tension was actually building up to the scariest realization - that wu xie has been sick, is sick, realized he’s sick and its too late for his condition to be treated. trapped and suffering because of your own body betraying you without you even knowing i find a million times scarier and more relatable to our lives then tomb raiding, but the show used tomb raiding to basically lead up TO this reveal. This is what the tension built to - everyone sustained minor injuries or was fine because of the poison gas. Even with all the buildup, the gas didn’t actually kill anyone, the tomb didn’t. Wu Xie’s biggest threat, the biggest threat to him and Pangzi, was already inside him and its something their expertise can’t shield them from. It’s well scary.

i just... i really love that this tense, action scene, full of cool tomb stuff and explosions and the implication of threat... all actually is the setup and lead in to a much more personal threat. its a really cool way to approach it. and a really cool way to use the tomb’s tension but ultimately ‘contained issue’ nature to still build up to some real threats. 

the show also sort of does this with the opening tomb scene with 3rd uncle and kid wu xie - its a dream, but we don’t know that. it builds up really well as a tense scary tomb scene like something in The Mummy, and it leaves us uncertain, worried for where 3rd uncle is, worried that kid wu xie just ran out into this mess... then wu xie wakes up. But the built up tension is still useful, because the real scary thing is that 3rd uncle has been missing for years, and wu xie can’t find him... so the tension built up in the dream tomb scene... its still a real tension Wu Xie is feeling. It’s still real, it just isnt actually about a tomb but more about the people, and we have a place to put the tense feelings it built up in the audience.  

its really cool to me that the setting horror moments are being used to build up actual characterization and these more internal tensions and fears, instead of only being external horror set in tombs. if that makes sense.

the Weather Station scene, now that I’m thinking of it, also does this. Although finding the dead body isn’t framed as ‘super scary’ but just a sort of ominous discovery... the audience still gets to use their initial ‘Is that... a body...’ tense realization later emotionally. Because within a minute, Wu Xie starts considering if this body is his 3rd uncle. He gets overwhelmed trying to deny that it could be, loses his composure, and gets a broken scene where he’s collapsing and Pangzi’s trying to ground him. So the audience gets that initial ominous feeling they had when they saw the body, to pay off... even though the payoff isn’t some zombie coming back to life. The payoff instead is Wu Xie suddenly breaking down, getting whiplashed by grief and momentary hope lost, and his whole reason to finish out his life while he can getting WIPED out for a second. We don’t realize, when they walk in, that the threat the possible dead body poses... is not a zombie... but the threat that it might literally destroy all hope within one of our characters. 

Its such a phenomenal way to use this ominous, cold empty falling apart place to build tension and forboding, even though the actual location holds no physical danger. Its not physical danger that’s threatening them, its emotional, personal, internal dangers. But these scenes and settings external tombs and decrepit places can still bring these threats closer.

If the show KEEPS using external ominous settings to create these internal threats, I am so beyond excited. I am loving seeing this way being used to highlight character developments and personal dangers that are way more universally relatable and terrifying than monsters and scary places. But since they start out with scary places, it lowers the guard, and it brings people in with the genre and the fantastical, then it brings in the personal and ties it together...

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

So South Compton was different...

Jason Line called the FBI himself at a pay phone, "there's some shit going on here that is off you need to look at" and put the receiver down so the call could be followed to the location. And went on about life.

That is how i got to Compton.

It was so bad it went straight to me after a month of surveillance I arrived. Pulled in strong. Guns down. Whips out.

They could get out but not away. And the kidnappers pretended to be their friends.

10 days of surveillance. 1 overview and i was called. "Let me finish this 9 weeks at school and receive my grade. Its been almost 9 whole weeks I been here. Can they wait?"

"No"

"How long have they waited since they called?"

"About 12 days."

"That's about all i need in school days. Please? Its really important that i finish"

"Oh alright you need to say good bye. I'll allow that. Then we commence. Alalala bye! Too good for you!" Finally some one taught Bob how to say Good bye. This 😇 here.

"I get too much anxiety! Will you at least say good bye when i tell you no?"

It made me laugh. But also give me a future to worry in - instead of ny belly. Because he changed his 110% ways. Made the future strong.

If i said no it was because it was black dark and i could see nothing. So Alex would go clean aliens that abduct. I still needed my back, i wasn't going through that again. I Had a hard problem saying no and being too curious. And that cost me a lot. If i saw only blackness the entire planet would be erased.

Overhead they talked "well what did she say exactly?"

"She said pleeeeeasssee"

"Well call her back that means she's in charge and we will probably need. Harriet. Harriet said NO. She's all black like blackened chicken but won't be a threat. There is something special there i know but it's something only Sabrina can do. Of that I'm quite sure"

"Ask her what to do in those 12 days. Dam sounds a lot like Christmas don't it? 12 days of Christmas times two"

The last four digits of my current phone number is 1428

"Start the Fight Club. Call Mary Queen Elizabeth until then for that. Have her thug out. Tell her she is Queen Mary of Scott not in England. She will be a biker babe. If this isnt Harriet. Its upper and I don't usually hear you two talk so this is upper demand only quality of royalty"

"Don't talk about your mom like that"

"Mom is too fragile. I mean someone with War behind them and is bored. Im sure i got the right one. Its something about height that is the clue I need. So she needs to take her man. This one isn't about color."

The location of Compton was so close to me i could kiss it. Right next to my head. The image. Bright as day. I explained what it looked like.

"Okay Sabrina you got it. Mary Queen of Scots here you come! Nigga, too! Now wait you want her to wear a bandana on her, around her head? What color."

"Blue"

"Now this isn't gang territory."

"It purely has to do with height"

"Is there love involved? Is it the answer or solution?"

I coughed both times. It was making me sick. This never happened before.

"Sabrina. How dangerous is this?"

"Extreme. Don't send Alex until week two. Tell him to bring the boys. One and Two. But bring the wrong ones first. That ought to do"

"Sabrina you're making the situation worse"

"What comes up must go down isnt the clue nor solution. It is the only clue. I'll need crack on this side of the street to help my cough. Ill get it there then. 18 months. I've been pregnant, too before."

"You're not on a ramble. You've got all caught up. Okay bye"

"No wait. Something about LSD. 2020"

"Its only 1994. Okay bye"

I got a call from Snoop Dogg 10 days later. He would always go in black on a good story. It would be my 18th month to start smoking crack. Just not consecutively.

"WHAT YOU MEAN YOU ARE ALL ON CRACK? YOU KNOW WHAT YOU GOT STARTED DOWN HERE? FIGHT CLUB ON MY NAME! THE CRIPTS! CRIEP! WHAT THE HELL!! GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE RIGHT NOW. IM NOT KIDDING YOU IM SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW!!"

"Snoop my final is toMARROW. Listen. Snoop i know all about my crack addictions. Okay. Look. Listen.,i just need you to come down and make sure the girls are alright. My last period of the day you can substitute and make sure all goes well. One month That's it Then meet me in Compton. I need help and i sure don't know what to do"

"NO! GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE RIGHT NOW AND ILL GET YOU OFF CRACK!!"

"Tell Shaq, he will know what to do and you come here and you both take care of me for me. I won't take no for an answer. Love me like i love you. Please! Would you do this just one for me? It is perfect this girl needs help and she's pregnant but she needs an adult to listen to but i can't get to the front of the class. Im trying but it's certainly impossible to travel locate and do my second plan. Because the 1st isn't working!"

We both cried on the phone. For a few moments. We could hear each other sobbing.

"Okay but you do this one for me! Listen to Shaw!"

"Okay what ever you need!!"

"Click" we say that for Bob.

"Click. I Love you too and Miss Shawntae. Tell that women i do. Click. On the Double Down Low Double D G Dogg. Now love me'

"Yeah i do"

Boy is he in for a surprise when he finds out I'm not even on crack. Neither is this girl and Idk what to do or how to tell her she's even pregnant and she has no clue and that is all he actually needs to do. He would double kill it. But that was good for the school over all. He would need his strength and it would build up there. It would be permissible.

I had been worried about my final the next day. I was sure i was B ridden. But i was for sure now i would get an A. A+ was my final grades for all semester. I only went 15 weeks. So that is why to finish the 9 week semester was so important to get an actual final grade and not an average. Boy i never went to school and sure i would miss it.

But i was so excited about Compton i could hardly contain myself. And getting to smoke crack once again for a whole month?

Snoop didn't know but to avoid Shaq telling me to keep off drugs... May be I would just come clean... Haha in a double standards way.

And I did.

*I smoked crack to remind me what Alex went through. It was always foreign to me. Only when he was quitting and only enough to sustain him and me both. No more than 3 hits total. 3 hits each was OD and to the idiot booth.

Shaq bought me the crack. He was more readily available to admit failure than deceit and no way in Hell would he face Snoop when he found out he had been lied to.

Two crack rocks was all I needed he bought 4. Did a deal in front of Snoop to get banned from public.

Shaq, Queen Elizabeth and I built the Sugar Shack for Snoop as an apology. It was a small wooden storage shed to the left. So to the right we made it bigger, enhanced it. Over night. With Alex and his 2 high thugs.

"See Snoop? This is what drugs can do!!"

"Get on outta here! I want my candy" Candy is a Venetian word from planet Venus. Snoop loved candy. Do any thing for a treat.

"Oh you know I'll need her, too. Put her on the list and all the girls"

"SABRINA YOU BUILT THIS HIGH! NO! NO MORE. NO MORE OF YOU ON DRUGS!!"

Snoop didn't approach me. He flew to kill me. I wrapped my arms around his chest "thank you for being so patient with me. I'm sorry. I'll quit smoking crack now. I will i promise."

"That thing better be full of candy early the next morning then and i ain't selling candy to no strangers it is all mine so don't be thinking that -- oh wait!! Its all full!!! I didn't even notice!"

"$3,000 worth of candy. Its all our drug money, isn't it boys? I promise Snoop I'll quit, too!" Shaq would laugh till he cried at our trick we pulled together on the fly to protect and tell Alex how bad he needed to keep his drug use under control and hidden.

That day Snoop got fired as teaching principal. He really was hurt in his feelings. And we were in danger of losing our precious Snoop. So i risked it all lifting the kids up one by one up and over my head as far as i could really slow then dropping them fast so that it looked like abductions from UFO.

"I need the principal" i said a few hours later cause snoop wouldn't leave outside that door. snoop walked over he stood in front of the alien light switch sticker.

"Okay now kids do the alien dances i taught you. Intermingle. Now UFO. Doubt yourself. Do the vogue. Now what does a UFO do?"

"Up. Up. Up. Like we taught the moose" they said in a trance like quality

"That is why i need to be in here."

"No Snoop one of us needs to go in the alien space ship to get the drugs to have them analyzed"

"Last time i did that 3 kids came down with me and you had to kill them. So you need to"

"Kids. Do you all like Snoop? Answer and do it Snoop style. Can snoop be principal?" All hands shot up, again. "Can Snoop be teacher?" All hands shot up. The voting was rigged. Alex said try to get you to do it because he didn't want me to. But Snoop. Hey listen. We're all CIA and sometimes we need to teach each other a lesson. And you got a real attitude"

He laughed and stretched his tall frame up in the chair and draped himself over it. Obviously charmed.

[annieoftheshitposts]

this post used to be a link to the old canons page but i’m turning it into a text dump of the revised one for people on mobile [or who have bad wifi/computers that the fancy schmancy script on the canons page wouldn’t play well with.] theres a lot sorry not sorry. here we go.

Canon Info

 Much more is said about Annie in external sources than the game itself, here's copypastes of all I know of and go by.

From the 3rd DLC Character Voting page:

As popular figures in nationwide folktales, a children’s television adaptation of Annie and Sagan’s adventures was inevitable. The show’s success lies in its pair of live action hosts, who are as convincing as their cartoon counterparts. Though what the public learns about the real Annie might surprise them. Annie is a seasoned fighter who has been around for a long time, acquiring many skills and powers along the way. Her sword is forged from a meteorite and can channel the power of the stars in its sweeping cleaves. Her right eye bonds her to her Remote Parasite and partner, Sagan, who grants her powers of a galactic motif. While some of her abilities carry more of a sparkly magical girl motif, Annie tries to execute them with the same sternness.

From "The canon info thread" on Skullheart Encore forums:

-Annie is several-century-old. Her immortality was gained when her parents wished on the Skull Heart so that Annie would never have to experience the hardship of adulthood, thereby making her forever a child. -She has had many different weapons and abilities throughout her life. - Sagan, her remote parasite. keeps her right eye in his mouth. - She’s physically not able to swear due to her condition - She is familiar with Double due to her experience fighting Skullgirls - Annie has encountered a lot of Skullgirls and has killed a lot, but not the same a lot. She’s seen the cycle multiple times and seen how they become stronger each time and is looking for the underlying source now. - The Annie of the Stars show is very similar to the Super Mario Bros. Super Show with live action segments with cartoons and PSAs and commercials in between. - Sagan can talk. Somehow. - Annie hides her immortality by getting a new hairstyle every few years. The show tells the audience that they have simply changed the actress. Eliza also pulls a similar trick

and finally some other misc. scraps that weren't covered above:

-annie has some kind of "super" or "powered up" form, in which she seems to fuse with sagan. it can be seen on her

move concept sheet, in the end of robo-fortune's story mode, and as a very tiny feature on one of robo-fortune's merch posters, but to my knowlege it's never really been talked about.

-she's been depicted with an "incognito outfit", presumably for going out in public and not being recognized by fans.

-sagan is named after renowned astrophysicist carl sagan. this isnt really relevant to anything but it's not on the wiki so i figured i'd share :b

-and this random pic of annie in the past with a different look, plus gun and minus eyepatch, apparently official art from the "digital art compendium". i haven't seen the source for this one myself though, and count this one more as speculative canon since that ingame image up there with her eye uncovered doesn't show a scar or any kind of damage from this.

-another canon fact about annie is she is strong and brave and i love her.

Headcanon (Annie)

this is pretty disorganized bc i come up with and revise random shit on a fairly regular basis, but the very least it should be all here and up-to-date. [though on this text post version i may forget to keep it updated oops.

she can still only normally see from the one eye in her head [and likewise probably has terrible depth perception lmao], but she can “project” her vision into the one sagan has if need be, during which time both he and her main eye are blind.

even though sagan’s vision is his own and she doesn’t actively “see” through that eye most of the time, the stuff he sees still becomes part of her memory and she can recall it if need be, though it’s far less tangible and kind of a surreal experience trying to do so.

the space where her other eye was is now just...space. like empty starry void stuff. yes, TECHNICALLY, you could put stuff in it but why would you. sagan can feel when something interacts with it and it’s really just weird and uncomfortable for both of them.as sagan is the source of their powers, the strength of her abilities is slightly dependent on her distance from him. something like long sustained flight is really only capable if they’re touching, but she still has ample firepower and ability to zip around for a pretty good range otherwise.

Not interested in anime

absolutely hates being called her full name; hasn't gone by anything other than "Annie" for longer than anyone that should be alive today should know.

part of her curse of eternal youth is remembering everything up until the point it kicked in and she stopped aging [i.e. when she was Actually a kid] exactly as well as if she hadn’t aged.

from that point however, a lot of it is hazy as shit aside from more recent times [as you’d expect from someone who’s been around hundreds of years]. this one's gonna be angsty as shit when i address it and you can thank @sandstriker for that. fucker.

also hates being restrained. by the concept sheet and beo's story, her fighting style is very kinetic and relies heavily on mobility; take that away and you get one very uncomfortable and very angry starchild. [this one's 'cause of y'all with the handcuffs asks. this is part of why she's so agitated rn.]

what's in the pouch? whatever is alternatively convenient. is it snacks? is it a quick incognito disguise? is it her whole entire sword? who knows. i think it might be infinite hammerspace in there.

i haven't put much though into this side of her story yet, but i've decided part of the mythos of the "annie of the stars" character as a figure of legend is that she literally lives, among the stars.

if there's enough folktales about her to base an entire show off of, i'm willing to bet she used to be less elusive when she was just about fighting skullgirls before dedicating herself to the whole "looking for the underlying source" thing.

Headcanon (Sagan)

tl;dr: as far as things go here, he's essentially a cat and/or younger sibling.

Sagan's canon information and characterization is basically nonexistant, so i got to do pretty much whatever i wanted with him lmao.

simply put, he's a little gremlin of a partner, but he is genuinely good-natured and a happy-go-luckly little dude. mischevious, loves to get up to Shenanigans, go off and hide/disappear to fuck knows where for several hours, climb and sit on tall things[or failing that, annie's head], etc. @sawkinator has described him, regrettably accurately, as "the Token Disney Animal Sidekick". he has a lot of mannerisms like an animal, but is still very much a being of at least average human intelligence. he's also surprisingly indestructible. far from invincible of course, but in canon he's been shown to be quite stretchy and...possibly have minor shapeshifting capabilities?? he's pretty much immune to being squashed and feels very little [if any] pain from most things. really, as far as i can tell he's pretty much a weird sentient plushie. like, if it's not going to damage a plushie, it's not going to hurt him; examples being: getting knocked back really hard or falling a long way? not a problem. fire? problem.

Sagan tends to be somewhat nonverbal and generally only uses a few words or short phrase at a time when he does speak, which sounds something like the voice clip below. that being how it is, he can be kind of inscrutable and more than a bit jarring to most people--though at this point annie's been with him more than long enough to be completely desensitized to it and doesnt quite get why anyone would be perturbed. fortunately, with that familiarity also comes understanding, and she can easily "translate" and articulate more from his expressions. this understanding is a two-way street, and on its other side is sagan's sensitivity to her moods. annie's not particularly...communicative of her emotions, but sagan can always tell when she's having an off day or something's bothering her, and is far better than anyone at helping her feel better. all things said and quirky antics aside, he and annie are exceptionally close and fiercely protective of eachother the moment it comes to it. they don't make a big deal of showing it outwardly, but they know they've always got eachother's backs.

he's taken quite a liking to beowulf as well, and beo defintiely shamelessly enables sagan's shenanigans.

as i see it, annie may be the passion and power of their operation, but sagan is the heart and soul. beowulf is like....comic releif and emotional support. not entirely necessary, but certainly welcomed to have around. yeah. listen im a big sap i just want them all to be good friends ok. i love them.

also sagan does like and watch a lot of anime.

Blog Canon

miscellaneous happenings that either have continued relevance/significance, or y'all just won't let die. there's not a overarching plot to this thing at all, but geez we’ve kinda gathered some history here huh?

taught sagan to say fuck [and other swears, in her stead]. he used to have to do it on command but he's gotten really good at filling in for her.has a

stoat fursona that beo helped her make. she thinks it's neat/cute but has no real attachment to it.

attempted to sue the crystal gems for ripping off her entire shtick [it didn't go well]

beowulf also taught her how to dab.

@sparkeletran is a nuisance and must be stopped

the 70$ pile of high school musical merch. sagan and beo��both wear the t-shirts sometimes. she hates it. don't let her attitude fool you though this is actually the best and most important ongoing joke in this whole damn thing.

the first handcuffs stint. they’re gone now but they had a good ~30-post run, and she did take to learning lockpicking because of it.

this.

hey. guess fucking what lads. handcuffs ROUND TWO 'cause y'all just don't fuckin' quit. the first mini story arc sorta thing, in which she visits the cirque des cartes and has an aggravting encounter with taliesin. [currently ongoing][hopefully soon ending]

[[redacted for ""spoilers""]] due to said encounter with taliesin

sparkeletran is a nuisance,

"the official annie of the stars instagram is just cat memes but with sagan" it's canon but i haven't decided whether it's something she would have had already or a recent thing. [either way, hasn't been touched on yet due to the arc taking so long]

badart annie is sorta like her own thing at this point but nothing that happens with her is canon; she p much just shows up for exceptionally dumb posts. we did give her noclip though which is terrifying. on that note i may as well include the things that are Not canon but y'all won't let me forget

beo's animated belt thing. look. it doesnt talk.

spray-on boots.

the lawnmower weapon

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh homestuck