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ilaliya · 1 month

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perhaps i am awake at 2 am, crying over pictures of adorable bunnies. what about it?

#i am very sensitive right now #bunnies are so important #t.

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alluralater · 3 months

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as a lesbian there is something beautiful about the simple act of draping my body over another. as if i am the curtain, and you the stage. protection and safety. my breasts to your back. this is soft space, soft place. warmth on cold nights. you are humming your satisfaction against your forearms laid overtop each other. the tip of my nose grazing the back of your neck, silently taking in the smell of your hair. you can feel and hear mine brushing across your shoulders, murmur of sound. “can i kiss you here?” it is a hollow question to some but to me it is sincere whisper. i know that i could, i know you are patiently awaiting the press of my petaled mouth to the spot just beside the corner of your jaw and below your ear— but i want to hear you say yes. i want to watch your tongue appear to wet your lips as you allow me to worship this place where your love lies, and gives itself to me. trust that i will care for you, keep you safe. all you must do is tell me that i can. i begin the slowly building rise. kissing the back of your shoulder gently, affording you the pleasure of feeling the fullness there. every inch of you should know me, intimately. relaxed sigh of yearning in your throat. it is one thing to nurture, to care. to attach ourselves in all ways, and always. is this love? you taste of every sweet indulgence i have left out of my mouth for the past twenty years, for i have feared the ways in which it could rot me from the inside outward. is this love? to look down at you, feel your skin against mine, your heat and your affection and your vulnerability freely given to me, this must be— “yes. kiss me there. everywhere.” love.

#i call this idea and how she makes me feel— erogenous kiss #happy pride <3 what love lies in a kiss lies deeper in the connection made which can surmount all physical things <3 #anyways this is inspired by the woman i love. she makes me feel so very happy to be soft inside.#romance is a fickle notion but with her it is… mmm. it is bedrock in depth and solidity #she’s sleeping right now and i’m procrastinating #both sleep AND organizing my room #i am a sensitive sweetheart on the inside and though i will display my goofiness i am careful to not show any interest in romantic affection #well i suppose i was that way. now i am exactly who i am on the outside as i am in and it is reflected in all things #there is no need to be cold or withhold parts of myself with her. she has made it that way. to live this freely— to know a gift such as this #how could i not worship her for all that she is?#sspasta

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thekittyokat · 5 months

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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

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sheryl-lee · 2 years

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idk if this makes sense. but i kind of love that the last of us makes me cry and viscerally FEEL true emotions on a weekly basis. like i cant remember the last tv show i watched that had me consistently bawling my eyes out and so immersed in a show because of the characters, the story, the incredibly strong writing, etc. and it doesn't feel manipulative. it just feels profound and beautiful and poetic but also tragic and... human.

#it's a whole spectrum of emotion!!! it's beautifully tragically human!!!! is that not what it is to exist!!!!#and it's therapeutic honestly. to spend like an hour in a world that isnt real but that you can relate aspects of your life to.#and you can just connect to these characters and their experiences and release the emotions that have been building up inside.#i'm sure that if you've played the game you feel this all the more strongly #but as someone who hasn't and went into tlou without prior knowledge #i'm just very pleased with it and idk i love watching a show that can elicit such a strong reaction from me #granted i AM what people would call 'sensitive' and 'emotional' or whatever #but even for me i dont think i've felt quite this intensely about a show - especially not right away during a first season #these are just my half baked thoughts and i definitely could say so much more but i'll leave it here for now #sameera.txt #the last of us

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ganondoodle · 6 months

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serious question, are there ANY (wired) headsets made today anymore that have seperated plugs for audio and microphone??

usb ones always cause trouble and the only other ones i can find are those with combined audio+mic into one plug, which i dont have the ports on my PC for.............

i tried looking through adapters but the only ones i can find are those that combine seperate ones, id need the reverse (if thats even possible)

(visualization bc i feel like i am losing my sanity trying to explain what i mean, am i stupid? did i halluzinate the two jack/plug thing???? do only cheap garbage ones have this??? is that one of the gaming chair things??? like oh you want a GAMING headset- that means either combined or usb haHA???)

#ganondoodles talks #personal #issue being that the new headset i bought is usb only and- of course- has a background noise that probably only ppl like me hear #im super sensitive to sound #like i hear bats and dog whistles you arent meant to hear #old headset (not the broken one) has a slight static and trouble with very silent sound which it cuts out #hence i got the newer ones (the now broken one) which didnt have that problem but well .. it broke after little use #new one has a weird beeping chirping in the bg #im so tired #(new one is the razer kraken v3- its usb only and any other plugs they have for other models are the damned combined one)#my computer isnt even that old but i literally cant find a single headset with those plugs seperated when i dont have that port #will i ever find a headset that fucking works with no drawbacks????#(wireless isnt an option bc i hate wireless anything that isnt a controller you can also use wired)#i know it may sound like its not working right but i am 100% certain its one only people like me can even hear #also i got no nerves to try and send anything back to amazon ... for once i bought it there....#or am i just stupid or did i miss some shit that made it standard to just call it differently or sth #like my pc has an audio port at the front and a mic port- two ports #the plugs (jacks???????) i see are the ones that have it in ONE #and i dont have it

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teeth--king · 1 year

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I am fighting back on my nostalgia to buy one of the modern webkinz >:[ just learned that they're still being made but oof, they went the way of beanie boos. The lion is tempting me but he just doesn't have the charm of the og lion, where's the color? Where's the love?

You versus the guy she tells you not to worry about

#due to recent things I am not going on ebay to look for one of the og lions because I don't want to choke on someone else's stink or must #very sensitive right now

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boxwinebaddie · 1 month

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Hi Uncle Neen! HYH! It sucks to see you struggling cuz you are a big inspiration of mine :( but you said you did your makeup the other day. Can we seeeeeeeeee maybe?

d'awwww ksahdlkdss, you are so sweet, nonnie! thank you so so soooo much, baby! xx i really needed this. i hope i heal ( i will...i have to, i am too much of an asshole to let god win, fuck him ) and i hope you heal from whatever harms you as well! you can do it! mWAH!~

-- also brb crying ;-; <3333 whenever y'all tell me i inspire you, it seriously makes me want to cry; you mean SO much to me, so to mean so much to you; it's Everything to me, my love. thank you for believing in me, know i believe infinitely in YOU and will keep fighting the good fight, living authentically and modelling pos behavior on this blog bc i take being a role model very seriously. :')

BUT ANYWAYS! sakhdlasd oh my god aaAaaAAAaa please!!! YOU ARE SO CUTE, THIS IS SO CUTE OF YOU, hELP AAAAA!!!!!! but yes, of course, of course. considering i am super bacteria nina right now and had to resign from my ( admittedly ) trash job and am no longer, at this moment, an education girlie ( besides on here, ofc, educating you on my two gay sons in love ), i can freely exist and post pictures of myself again! thank you for for giving me a safe place to do that. <3

i'll elaborate on what 'safe' means to me down below, but just for context i took this...sigh...last week, when i was told i would 'all better', just trying to feel like myself again after a month of being unmadeup and unfitted and ugly and troll-like and on death fucking row and fucking miserable as hell, i had my new hair appointment lined up, was about ready to take life by the balls again...and that shit BLUE BALLED ME SO HARD AND SAID *ravenstan vc* JK, BABY!

okay, sorry i have some really bad scarring and wounding up there by my neck so i had to cover her up but...there she is! the she beast!

as for posting pictures of myself just...please...PLEASE BE KIND. and i wish i meant that as a joke, i mean it very, VERY seriously. i am at a point right now, where i look my very fucking worst, i am weaker than i have ever been in my life, there are abrasions all over my body, which per the results of my culture ( i was right...several fucking times and no one would listen to me ) my body is trying to kill me and right now...it is Winning. ( i'm not gonna lose tho, dw, i am a nasty bitch from hell and i refuse to die this ugly, i fucking won't; choke )

tldr; I AM VERY VERY VERY SENSITIVE ABOUT HOW I LOOK. I DO NOT FEEL PRETTY, I AM LIKE ONE BAD COMMENT AWAY FROM TEARING THE SKIN OFF MY FACE AND I AM TELLING YOU GUYS I CANNOT DO THAT, I CANT CREATE ANY TEARING ON MY BODY OR THE BACTERIA WILL TUNNEL AND ITS HARD ENOUGH AS A BITCH WITH DERMATILOMANIA.

PLEASE BE NICE TO ME.

i know we shoot the shit on here and are funny and clown eachother, you guys are my family; it's what families do, but my boundary is that you can say i am pretty and be objectively kind or Please do not send me anything At ALL about how i look; i CANNOT take it rn. i know were just joking, but please, please, PLEASE Do NOT compare me to any ugly creatures, make me feel weird about any part of my face, tell me i look blurry, say anything is too big or too small…

please don’t meme on me abt my appearance...Ever.

it’s a very sensitive spot for me and makes me v anxious.

all this to say, i love you; thank you for being my home.

HYH.

-uncle nina, single ravesey mother and human petri dish

#idk what the face tag is ill make one later #but there she is #this is so sweet thank you guys for caring i swear i want to post more i am just so weak rn that its hard to keep my head up #ill talk about it more later but the test results were kinda hard for me bc they were scary and it is pretty serious #and very fucked up bc they could have caught it at er number one but they didnt catch it until my fifth drs appointment #and i had to beg...and lo and behold i am very fucking sick now and everything sucks but i am gonna beat it don't worry #anyways sorry for momming you guys i miss my kindergarteners i didnt get to say goodbye i am devastated #but i am actually very sensitive about how i look and do think i am ugly most days especially rn so please be kind to me #i only say this because i had a couple of anons who had good intentions send me anons joking with me about how i look #and it put me in such a bad depression that i like couldnt look at my face for days and it devastated me i am very sensitive #so please only kind words like objectively positively kind please don't make jokes about how i look or try to be funny #not in a good place for it but sigh...my hair...it is falling out rn so that sucks i'm out of comission for a week and a half #up to a month...assuming i get better...I WILL DW SORRY I WILL and i have stuff i'm working on right now #ask memes and i am trying to write so hang in there i love u #HYH <3

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jitteryjive · 2 months

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i need to remake my cup bros ref… both cup and human designs… it’s been almost a year(?) and i’ve developed the headcanons and i would like to share with the class!!! (i wrote thirty tags. Please help me)

#my little hc i kinda showed in the refs but didn’t point out: cuphead’s handle appears broken/in human form his ear is halved #cause he has microtia (that also affects the eustachiantube/middle ear). basically i am a HoH cuphead truther #also to add onto that i think he has poor auditory processing issues cause i also see him as AuDHD #double also. while he would use ASL on a bad hearing day i think regularly he also uses home signs to express words/concepts #autism-related btw. it’s actually a bit visible in insert cuphead media (to me at least LOL) that cuphead expresses a lot of body language #so not liking conversation oral or signed as well as replacing oral words w home signs is in character. at least to my headcanon whatever #floats your boat!#OH! plus his split upper lip that i draw him with isn’t related to the microtia. he just roughhouses and chipped/tore his lip open when he #was younger #cuphead is also a trans boy. it feels right to me LOL #even back in 2017 when i barely knew the game or also much about trans people i saw cuphead and was like hm. hm!#tbh he just pawned his clothes onto mugman. who i’ve also changed my hc for i see him more as bigender than a cis boy now #LOL. i cast bi on mugman. sorry buddy #OH HIM TOO. im so sorry mugsy i have like two headcanons for you 😭😭😭#she uses he/she 2 me. i like casting personal parts of myself onto mugman even if i gravitate more towards cuphead/chalice #i see him as a bi ace as well. and a hopeless romantic. i don’t ship uhh i don’t remember what it’s called #i don’t ship cala maria X mugman (respect though) cause i see the cups as kids and i’m also a hilda X maria shipper LOL #but in the show. i will be real that she is a hopeless romantic. Look at that dork #FORGOT TO MENTION. i am a cuphead aroace truther to my grave. KEEP THAT MUSHY ROMANCE OUT OF MY HIGH SEAS ADVENTURE!!!!#like i said w cuphead before mugman is AuDHD (they share. many genes LMFAO)#however the difference is that they express it in different ways; while cuphead’s is more linked to his hearing/social behavior #mugman’s is more related to her emotions. i see it through my headcanon colored glasses that especially in the show mugman has more #meltdowns between the two cups #he has high emotional sensitivity both in positive and negative ways; former as in being strongly attached to cuphead and latter as in #more prone to meltdowns as well as being very literal #which isn’t a bad thing of course. mugman we are shaking hands so hard we are the same #OK that’s all the ones i want to share right now. i also haven’t shared her human or cup design i did but i’m workshopping chalice!!!!!!#i am leaving her out intentionally she deserves her own post because i luv her so much #ok post over. twenty minutes dedicated to autism about the twins out of the trio #cuphead

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tj-crochets · 3 months

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No crafting update today, because I did a bunch of cleaning, ran some errands (had to mail some stuff and get a replacement headset for work because mine spontaneously separated into two pieces yesterday) and now I'm making chicken and dumplings for dinner So like, got a lot done, but absolutely none of it craft related and I'm really pushing my limits physical spoons-wise (in that my POTS is flaring up not in that I used all the actual spoons cooking lol) I have a really really cool art trade thing to show y'all but it has to wait until I can take photos, so that'll be later today or maybe tomorrow

#the person behind the yarn #crafting update #food mention #chicken and dumplings is perhaps an odd choice considering how hot it currently is outside #and the fact that the AC is not working correctly in my house #but my dad asked for it for fathers day #so...chicken and dumplings it is!#I just looked at the thermostat and it's 80 in my house right now I no longer feel even slightly bad #about hitting the metaphorical wall so hard pots-wise #because this morning I was feeling GREAT and I was like I can DO THINGS I will CLEAN THE WHOLE HOUSE #and then I got back from shopping and was like I will...sit down #sitting down is what I will do until cooking time #and I didn't know why but it's 80 inside!!#and like yeah 80 isn't thaaaat hot but I am very very sensitive to heat. anything over 76 I start wilting #well okay with my new meds I can actually tolerate up to like 78 most days #but 80 is Too Hot #for anyone new confused as to why I don't tolerate heat when it's not really that hot: I have salt wasting syndrome and POTS #heat is a dilates blood vessels (bad for POTS) and makes you sweat (losing even more salt)#I visibly wilt like a dramatic houseplant lol

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g0thsoojin · 2 months

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#im like very much having a crisis right now... i mean to most ppl it isnt that serious lmaoooo #but tbh i am a loser and tumblr is 80% of my life and most of my social life #all social interactions i get are on tumblr ._.#so i dont want to keep alienating myself on it because then im just ruining it for myself and removing the only place #and source of social interaction and attention :/#i personally can not for my life comprehend this because i really dont take other peoplës venting personally #but ever since i started using twitter and tumblr i have ruined so many connections .. by venting on my own account.....#and now.. when i lost and fucked it up with the love of my life... just bc i vented and he interpreted it from his pov..#and got hurt when i wrote things abt being lonely and unwanted WHILE talking to him everyday and having him call me beautiful and care abt m #... i understand why he got hurt and i understand his pov bc it looked like i pulled away and distanced myself and only complained and that #he didnt matter to me when in fact he was EVERYTHING to me and i lived off his attention #i hate that i ruined the best thing i could ever have just bc i have this pathological need to share my every thought #like shut the fuck up... i wish i wouldve shut the fuck up and instead gushed abt how much i liked him which was what i wanted to do #my avpd just made me feel stupid bc when i did he didnt interact with those posts and then i felt embarrassed #which like i know how fucking stupid avpd and bpd makes me and i hate it but i cant stop it #god i regret it so much like my dumb ass blog isnt worth losing him over... it just isnt #only an online connection.. makes it so hard to see bc he only saw my diary where i complain he didnt see everything else :(((#so he thought that he wasnt important to me and then slowly started to detach himself from me (understandably) god i wanna die #so yeah ive started to HATE my main account. bc it has ruined so much for me. plus lately ppl have started being mean #and i get it its the internet ppl suck but i AM so fkn sensitive. and i get sad and hurt really easily #and i feel anxious abt venting bc im scared of getting a mean ask after #like... i feel so fucking alone and idk what to do. all i want to do now is vent vent vent but ive started to feel like venting is bad #and harmful and only ruins my friendships and connections and makes ppl be mean to me #i honestly wish i wouldve stopped venting every thought looooong ago #and that i had a more normal blog and had a secret vent blog and that he didnt read all my miserable posts #bc then maybe.... he wouldve actually understood how much i fkn love him and hadnt looked in other places and now i lost him #bc i really dont blame him bc i know what he is struggling with and seeing me who he cares for so much say those things...#i get it 100% and thats why im so pissed with myself for just not stopping!!!! why cant i stop????? whats wrong with me #i just feel so lonely and like no ones listening but he was listening to me i just had to be brave and go to him #plus all my venting made him think that im like in severe emotional distress every second and that i was too fragile to talk to

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sumquiasum · 6 days

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In honour of Tanz Hamburg closing, list of lines that enable my trans Sarah reading.

Sarah @ Alfred: "Du hast was ich gern hätt'"

Krolok @ Sarah: "Ich geb' dir, was dir fehlt"

Krolok @ Sarah: "Du wirst dich in mir erkennen"

#tanz der vampire #listen i don't have time to write my meta post right now but trust that there is context for this.#basically. when alfred first arrives at the tavern sarah thinks he is exactly who she wants to be #he has everything she wants: the freedom to travel and have adventures and also he's a guy (who gets a little sensitive with it)#the red boots symbolise her getting closer to that ideal (red like alfred's coat)#alfred is not permitted to die in the coat because sarah realises that he is actually NOT All That -#he is so much more like her than she thought.#his freedom is an illusion inhibited by a strict authority figure who barely sees him as a person.#but through her vampirism she can give him the power she thought he had from the very start #the freedom she craved #which is also why she pulls him away from the professor #narratively alfred is her post-transition self. she has to turn him (save him) she can save herself and also in a way become him #krolok also very much prusuing alfred fits into this btw.#anyway if this is incoherent I am sorry I should be working on my thesis.#my posts

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bambiraptorx · 1 year

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one of these days i'm gonna infodump massively about Draxum's teaching style and how it's going to interact with the learning styles of the individual turtles. one of these days

#rottmnt #rottmnt au #minor interference au #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #the concept that draxum actually does know how to teach is. very important to me #like realistically he wouldn't have offered to train the turtles if he didn't know how to teach right?#which obviously begs the question: how would draxum teach?#what aspects of training would he focus on? physical? mystic?#there's a theory that mystic powers are tied to emotions/emotional strength #how does that affect draxum with how emotionally closed off he is? how does that impact the effectiveness of his teaching?#especially given that he's very much training them with the intent of getting soldiers out of it #and emotional sensitivity is uh.#not a trait one looks for in soldiers #one of these days. when finals are over. i will go on a rant. but for now i am tired and i have like four essays to finish

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pandaspwnz · 1 month

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Took another covid test and it's STILL negative which is surprising because I feel like absolute shit

#i know other illnesses exist but the timing?? ODD #i have a terrible headache (and i have headaches daily so when i say terrible i mean it) my throat is scratchy and sore exactly like it was #last time i had corona my neck shoulders back upper legs and upper arms are stiff and sore #i feel dizzy and disoriented my eyes feel warm although I dont think i have a fever I'm nauseous and my stomach hurts but it always does #that so idk if that's related to anything and i'm so sound and sight sensitive right now #i mean?? coincidence!? apparently so #but yeah basically like half these symptoms i have every day anyway but not always this bad and the others on top are 👀 suspicious #but i guess I've just caught a bug or smth cause the tests say norona for me #still though i do feel very uncomfortable HOWEVER i am glad that I'm not congested or coughing. small mercies #my post #personal

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seraphonfire · 9 months

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