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auggiedrawsturts · 7 months ago

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Gauys I'm not dead can you imagine that

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rapidhighway · 4 months ago

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gonna vent for a sec but im so tired of this "don't wanna be an inconvenience", people pleasing shit ngl.....do people who do this know that they just come off as really rude and like... it just feels insulting each time

#idk it's so upsetting and discouraging im really tired of it #like bro.... everyone can see what you're doing and #you doing it just communicates that you think im a fucking awful person #if im going to be fine with like someone... putting themselves down for the sake of others #or denying help because thay dont want to be an inconvenience #it just feels rude #if you don't think that i genuinely want to help you #if you think that I'm just fucking pretending or whatever then why are you even here I don't want #a friend who thinks these thoughts about me xd #like #how many times do i have to assure someone #i just feel like shit #it really just feels so shittyyyyyyy #comeonnnnn #people can SEE you people pleasing and doing all that shit #and everybody fucking hates it #it just makes me super uncomfortable and i know it also makes other ppl i know very uncomfortable also #on one hand I don't wanna mention anything to this person because trauma is trauma what the fuck am i #supposed to do about that its just a trauma response but god i have feelings too #i want that person to also consider me because it feels so awful it just taints every single interaction #because it makes me feel like they think im some awful person who's going to be fine #with them carrying all their stuff even though i offered like 5 times and them just pushing themselves aside so i have space #even though im offering to share #AURGHH #it feels so bad #i feel like this every time i spend time with this person or any other person who does this that i know enough to like #recognize the behavior #idk im just tired I can't be putting all my effort #into reassuring every single step it's just sucking all fun out of everything we do together it just feels like shit whatever

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year ago

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I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!'#(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

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simcardiac-arrested · 2 years ago

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once again sorry to everyone for bringing this to your dashboards. but some of you are like, genuinely delirious. not even in a funny way. & i hope you die. i hope we both die. hand in unlovable hand etc etc

#Just so fucking bizarre to me how people can be Like This. there has to be something so wrong with your brain on a fundamental level #i can’t even laugh about this or anything because i genuinely feel pity for these people. it��s so sad to me how you’re gonna be like 20 #and then go in a niche tumblr community and create drama over Nothing. over Thin Fucking Air #like do you not have a life? do you not have college? or a job? doesn’t it get tiring? don’t you ever feel ashamed about all this #and the fact that they go and complain about the shipping and the ‘fandombrained’ people as well…. oh my god #how are you going to be TWENTY. and DO THAT. are you seriously sick. ? do you need help #just say you are homophobic and that you hate kids and go. it’ll save everyone a bunch of time for sure #anyways. as someone who has been a rain world fan since 2018. i love you embracing canon. i love you changing canon. i love you disregarding #canon entirely. i love you ships that make sense in canon & that make absolutely zero sense at all. i love you fancharacters that don’t #follow canon rules. i love you ‘cringe’ fancharacters and self inserts. i love you self shipping. i love you oc x canon shipping.#and i love you taking inspiration from designs. i love you community & i love you artists & i love you art #i love you borrowing elements and being inspired and referencing something because you liked it.#are fandoms perfect? GOOD GOD no. is every Fan perfect? no. am i also sometimes annoyed or irrationally pissed off over a ship that #i think is stupid and is illogical. Yes! i’m only human! but i can still love and appreciate the whole CREATIVITY of it all. and the whole #Fun that people are having. i love you having fun. if i don’t like it or if anyone else doesn’t like it they can just Cope #instead of hateposting about it on main and indirectly bullying people who are most likely children. or lgbt. or both #anyways. please continue doing whatever you want. The world is your oyster and you only live on earth once #everyone else can fuck off

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theaceofarrows · 1 year ago

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Sneakpeek of a few lines from a one shot I'm working on⬇

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"Awesome~" Nimona said "what can you turn into? A bunny? No, wait! A dog! Do you shift into a dog? You give me dog vibes" Nimona questioned rapidly.

"Heh, no. I can't turn into a dog; sadly" Lloyd answered the pink shapeshifter with a laugh.

Though Nimona and Hunter both looked a little disappointed by that, Hunter still asked "So not a dog. What is it then?".

"An oni... a golden one- but still an oni. Four arms, horns and all" Lloyd said somewhat reluctantly.

"I'm not sure what that is" Hunter shook his head.

"Me either. But four arms? Super helpful AND looks sick" Nimona offered "You're SO going to have to show us later. I bet I could be a pink onion" Nimona said confidently.

"Oni" Lloyd said distractedly "and uh, yeah, maybe later".

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[Still a work in progress]

#my fic #my fic writing #nimoma #hunter deamonne #hunter noceda #toh hunter #lloyd garmadon #ninjago lloyd #nimona 2023 #the owl house #ninjago #my au #sorry for the awful grammar #someone PLEASE help me name this au #this took me forever to make #i am so tired #i did not proofread this #update: i have ao3 now

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69liesleft · 1 year ago

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IA

The second one is ia in the dogman art style but it’s horribly drawn

Idk i came up with an au like that that’s supposed to parody dav pilkey books or whatever he made idk

Thats what i imagine

Which i wanna do but probably will most likely never happen but all im doing is just typing a shitty story with text first💔 comics take so fuckibf long GRRR

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eros-ghoulette · 5 months ago

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I need cuddles. I fucking need them

#and not because I'm touch starved #<well also bc of that #but because i feel like the world is crackling beneath my feet and i can do nothing about it #and i don't wanna talk about it #i need it because i feel like I'm too much too handle for everyone #because i am annoying and people tell me that #because i have interest people tell me are strange #because I'm not worth the try #because no matter what. I'll always love more than the person i love #because I'll never be loved on the way i need it #and because i need someone to trust. to trust with all i have #someone besides the one person i have. bc she lives to far away #i need someone to tell me I'm just being silly. that all those people love me #but there is no one to tell me that in the face #and it hurts. it hurts so fucking much.#it hurts in the way i tear up every time i think about it #it hurts in the way i start to doubt it's only social anxiety #and I'm so scared #and tired #and please. just PLEASE #someone cuddle me #and help me #because i can't do it myself #and no one takes me serious #and i don't fucking care for the typos in this

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fragglerockopinions · 5 months ago

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#This shouldn't be a surprise but seriously no one actually cares about my survival yes I've asked for help why would I get help #I'm functionally nocturnal and I keep staying up for like 48 hours and then sleeping for a day and I never know where I am #Or what day it is or if it's morning or night #Normal humans eat three meals a day and snacks right I think I maybe eat a snack every other day #I just don't feel hunger and my body hurts and cooking is so much effort I don't have #Weed used to help me be able to eat easily but now everything is just so hard and no food in house n cant go to store bc of ptsd too scary #I keep telling people when they ask that I am doing badly and need help but they as always just tell me to go to the store and buy food #Because it should be easy for a normal person!!! That would be such helpful and kind advice if I were normal #But I am not I am severely sick and traumatized and driving hurts so bad and stores give me panic attacks #Seriously if literally nobody cares about my struggling why not just be euthanized at this point?#This problem is so inconvenient to everyone and I have done all I can to convince people that I'm worth the inconvenience but :(#If I were worth talking to or visiting or helping people would have done that and I would be fine but I am not and that's okay #I genuinely don't mind being a husk at all #I'm just weirdly sad about it right now maybe because I think I feel hungry but genuinely I can't tell thanks autism #I also haven't been able to do my t shot in like three or four weeks I keep trying but I literally can't get the needle in :((#I imagine less testosterone in my system also makes me tired and lose my appetite #I'm so fucked up and nobody cares that I start my day at 8pm and am active and reply to emails and shit at 4am #Why would anyone notice that first of all but still. I would notice.#When even strangers are struggling I notice and I will do anything for anyone but it's selfish upon selfish to expect it back I understand #I keep looking for arfid and ed affirmations to help me but I can't find anything good #Genuinely . what the fuck #Just fucking need to be someone's dog feed me walk me put me in a cage teach me how to be better and treat me like I don't know shit #Because I don't I'm so stupid I can't even feed myself I'm dying please help me

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stardustxreverie · 6 months ago

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What the hell happened here?

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rainingincale · 7 months ago

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Why is being a living exisiting human being so very confusing 🙃

#my brain is genuinely the worst place on planet earth ahaha!!#anyways the story that is bringing this on is actually nice i suppose but im exhausted so. let me just get into it and perhaps the dilemna #will make itself more aparant.#basically i hate interacting with people. its exhausting. like genuinely just takes so much brain power and social battery from me. even for #simple things. anyways so im telling someone this in my usual jokey way “im being tortured and kept outside of my home where i could be #chilling with a book“ so the other person is like oh you cant stay inside forever and ever. but then goes on to say from interacting with me #theyd never have guessed that i have such a hard time with talking and hanging out with people. that i never make someone feel like im tired #them or dont wanna talk to them etc. and internally im screaming because like. that is something i stress out so much about because i strugg #le so much with my responses and tone etc etc. thats why its so exhausting for me because im just constantly focussed on what im Supposed to #be like. the other part of me was kind of pleased in a way because i feel so painfully awkward that it stresses me out that people can see #right through me and think that i hate them when its not that i just. hate human interaction because its so tiring. so hearing that was like #oh so no one can even tell and i am stressing. for nothing. dw though this info will not help my brain learn to stop stressing out though #lmao. anyways final point i suppose is that the person also says that even if i am 'awkward' i sort of use it to my advantage and it doesnt #come across in an unsavoury way. anyways idk what to do with all this info. because the way i feel on the inside is so. and i worry a lot #about people seeing that on the outside. but part of me sort of wants it too because i just feel like absolutely no one fucking knows me?#and while i guess that was maybe my goal i also hate it? i shall rb a quote after this. anyways. idk what im saying. i dont fucking know. im #just so tired. so fucking tired.#le text post

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binch-i-might-be · 7 months ago

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home

#but also just before the last village before mine ended there was someone at the bus stop giving a light signal with their phone #i am super tired so i did not process this. also going way over speed limit so stopping would have been hard anyway #but it's one am? and they were signalling an oncoming car? what if they seriously needed help?#but then i'm like well. they obviously have a phone so if they really need help they can call for it #i'll assume they like wanted a lift? i'm sorry but please just call a cab i am falling asleep behind the wheel #idk it was really odd and idk what to make of that #just another thing to haunt me today ig!#rayrambles

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gothiccat69 · 8 months ago

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Just tried some of this 'adult yogurt' stuff.

Idk man, it needs more real fruit. I see why ppl always be nutting in these things before yoga or coffee or whatevea

The yogurt by itself is just not tolerable with such a thick coat texture and strong unsweetened cream flavor. My autism will not take it and I will not let propaganda get me to actively like it.

I'm not anti yogurt, I'm anti basic ass overrated bitch substance in the grocery store.

#im so tired of pretending this isnt how i feel #let me rant #lmao #okay but seriously #i've been kicked out of my room by a fucking CENTIPEDE and since I have a PHBOIA about that i am struggling today.#leave me alooooone #wahhhh #please someone help #why must basements have vents that connect to the upstairs #this is unfair

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yelloworangesoda · 9 months ago

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gotta get off the internet and only interact irl with people who were 30 before they got their shit together i cant keep doing it like this

#like this being. feeling like i have no future and nobody likes me #‘youre only 19’ only goes so far when i dont know any other fail 19 year olds #im not gonna be a damn dentist for sure but like. and ive said this a thousand times. what am i gonna do. i cant live a worthless nothing #life where i work a shitty job i hate. i have to like something #i hate my art. i hate my lack of creativity. my art is so bland i just dont think its in me anymore #i finished. and i hate it #i have other hobbies. i like to cross stitch. i like to sew. i like to paint. i like to make dolls. do you see the common theme here #i have a few more than that i technically could do but i cant create anymore and it kills me. i want to. i constantly want to but i cant #it doesnt help that even if i havw ideas i dont even want to do them #i was gonna draw some characters from a game i played when i was little but i just #didnt want to. at no point did it not feel like a chore #ill try to go to new mediums! its fun to mess around and then itll feel boring again and going back doesnt feel any better #idk. googling it is useless. ive tried all the things. for years. ive been TRYING to draw consistently and like. doodles are fine theyre fu #but theyre not what i want to do i want to make something im proud of. i drew almost every single day for like 2 years #and its not burnout bc its been like. 2 more years! and ive barely wanted to at all!!!#i want to be creative and i also want people to recognize it. different complaint but it sucks so bad #i feel like nobody likes me. still. nobody cares about what i do. nobody would care if i stopped #like except me but i can only support myself so far!!!! im so tired of it!!!! someone PLEASE be here for me and just say ‘hey i love this #drawing :)’ like you have no idea what that would do for me #not always. but yknow especially if its been a while. if you like it. if you dont like it :( idk. you should tell me that too i guess #yknow so i can have some confirmation so i dont feel like im crazy. idk. dont actually id never go online again. i would probably. well.#i dont like to say the words #simons spouting #vent :(

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starsteemer · 1 year ago

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okay fr though where are people watching Miraculous Ladybug season 5 (the finale episodes) because its for dang sure not on youtube

#please. im so tired #i just wanna see gabriel agreste fucking die thats all im asking #ive looked on like watchcartoonsonline and kimcartoon but like thats all i really got in terms of pirating websites #and soap2day died rip in peace #miraculous ladybug #miraculous ladybug season 5 #ml s5 #miraculous ladybug spoilers #for tyhe love of gosd pls help me im so tired. im so tired.#i am contemplating murdering the friend who got me into the show in the first place. for ruining my fucking life #where are the secret episode files. i know you guys have them #someone always has the episode files

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harrowharkwife · 2 years ago

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swear to god if i open a fanfic ONE MORE TIME only to be greeted with an author's note saying "i asked chatgpt to tell me a story about-" i am going to go fucking NUCLEAR

#it's NEVER tagged!!!#i am so sick and FUCKING tired of hearing about chat bot shit. it's irresponsible tech that is only gonna help spread misinformation #/be used as a tool by corporate America to crank out shitty computer generated content #bc anything is better than having to hire people and pay them what they're worth am i right guys!#my job won't shut up about chatgpt i don't wanna have to see this shit on AO3 dot gov! please! is anything sacred!#I've already started running into endless variations of the same regurgitated paraphrased clearly AI-written garbage misinformation article #half of the time whenever i try to google something! i just keep getting AI generated garbage instead of any actual helpful information #side note: is Google like... super fucking broken for anyone else in terms of 'i can't find any useful information about anything anymore'?#or is it just me?#but AUGH. tech bros will be our downfall i swear to god #keep the AI shit out of art and creative endeavors it's a slippery slope and it's not leading anywhere good #this is fucking nfts all over again #or at LEAST if you're gonna be posting chat gpt prompts to ao3 fucking TAG THEM AS SUCH #I'm at the point where i hear someone say AI or chatgpt in an excited tone of voice #and i just consider it an immediate red flag #I'll delete this later it's unnecessarily cunty and i realize that but my GOD im sick of it #is it not enough that all of these writing bots are training on ao3 fics without the authors consent or permission?#now we have to encourage it by putting AI shit on there to begin with?

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mizugucci · 2 years ago

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i cant wait until boys planet is over because twitter has decided for me that my entire timeline will always be ONLY boys planet stuff -- specifically voting shit -- even when im following like, 2 people that care abt the show

#i am so tired of twt having 5 recommended tweets in a row #then 1 from someone i actually follow #then an ad and then 5 more recommended tweets #i cant click this isnt relevant or dont show me this fast enough #and they just keep coming!!!!!!#no offense i liked boys planet for the first 2 eps but like #this is too much yall #esp now that i dont rly care.........lol #twt please get help #mtxt #i am so close to blocking the ops of these tweets bc #clearly the dont show me this button/algorithm is not working #this is nothing against the ppl i DO follow btw #like theres a reason im following u #as for these people...................

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