#I am back kiddos

[hoobins]

O O F

Ok so I finally have some time to actually make the post I’ve been trying to make I had to make the impulse choice of coming back in the middle of the exams because I have no self control what so ever 

Strap in, it’s going to be a long-sh ride post

So yeah I am back here :D not even because of the twitter mess (but can’t lie that I am there as well), hi hi and hello kiddos So, where have I been?

As some of you may know I had a major burnout, meltdown and depressive episode, I literally shutted down for years because I couldn’t do anything, my drawings were terrible, my mind was worse, I was falling into downwards spirals, thankfully I didn’t do anything bad, but I was scared and worst of all I tought that the best way to deal with it was to isolate myself. 

And it helped, sorta, but not really, I wasn’t even talking to irl friends, barrely spoke to familiar faces, friendly people becuase I had this (and still am sorting this idea out) that I had to deal with all my problems alone, that I couldn’t rely on even talking to people about the stuff I was dealing with, because, well, bad habit I had most of my life. I was always pretty dumb when it came to that... Am trying to do better

In that time I didn’t drew, didn’t create anything at all, was scared to even take a pen and try and make a silly little doodle, too afraid I was going to go back and ... be happy? The brain is wierd when it comes to this.

This changed around a year ago, when I maneged to get out of the house, am now living in a new place away from my family, that, while aren’t bad people, they are pretty toxic to me, we are just too different in principle, I still talk to them and go visit on vacations, but even they know that my mental health is better when I am away, and that’s coming from parents that would NEVER admit that out loud (mother in special) I am still mostly closed off to them, but the space helped me, and I slowly was trying to take a step at the time, still afraid to hold a pencil and do what really makes me the happiest, still, I was at least trying to see stuff, trying to watch things I like, trying to dare a little more, but I was too closed off to those around me, never knowing what to do, say, interact, awkward but hey, I was never around people like me in real life, literally didn’t knew anyone.

Slowly but surely I was going to thing, having my fun again, working on AUs of fandoms, making ocs for said fandom, still too scared to drawing, but that was the first drop, still too scared to come back, too scared of making it official.

It was a small ride on that, maybe half a year, when things really happened was because of one small morbid thing that made me realise that I wanted to draw, and I took the step to that, scared but at that point, I had nothing to loose anymore, I was taking more risks with it, at the time I was talkig to a friend that also gave me the advice to be a little more reckless.

And so I did, and was a rush for me, to come back to everything, to remember the joy, I was overhelmed and then I kept going and well

I am here now, making stuff, and will post stuff right after too, because I missed this, I missed here and I missed being a part of me, even if it hurts again, is what I know I love to do, and to know that people still remember me and open their arms to welcome me back I just ... It’s unbelievable to me on a certain way, I can’t even begin to describe the joy that is to see you all and to be here again.

I hope things go well, I hope things go better, and I hope that I don’t leave this time, even if I am sad, angry, overwhelmed, underwhelmed, and every other emotion that comes with it.

Thank you all for everything and I can only hope I will do the same to you guys

[its-your-mind]

JUST FOR THE RECORD.

the way Madam E talks is in fact Incredibly Extra (alex said somewhere that yeah duh that was the point) but also.

as a person who sits in a pretty diverse classroom of 12-14 year olds all day.

some of the Kids These Days do in fact talk like that. All the time. To everyone. No matter what. Front-facing camera not required.

The other day one of the individual-units-of-chaos-for-whom-I-am-responsible-for-8-hours-each-weekday asked if I had done anything fun over the weekend and I said "oh I just went for a short hike in the national park" and he straight up did this:

like. LIKE. madam E's tone. her inflection. her little trill on the end of words... some of the slang was a tad dated (though that does sort of make sense, if Madam E is ~5-10 years older than my gremlins-disguised-as-preteens) but I literally got whiplash every three minutes because all I could visualize for Madam E was a rotating cast of the like. Seven of my kiddos who talk EXACTLY like that.

which I WILL SAY. did make the horror hit home Just A Bit More Than Usual.

[c-kiddo]

obsessed wiht how cad was quoted in cr3 not even named or anything and half the cast immediately went

[runefactorynonsense]

Melotober - Day 6 - Garden

It's good to mix in a few flowers, as well. They're useful down in the clinic...

[ember-owlet]

25 days of agere moodboards

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ day 8 : your ideal playroom -> indoor natural theme ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

[apple-grass-and-smiles]

Very cool and not heartbreaking at all for the PJO show to emphasize that Percy is an outsider not only because he's new to the whole demigod thing, but also because he doesn't know the rules of being a traumatized kid with all the daddy/mommy issues possible

[raiiny-bay]

attempt no. 2 at making hair

[ssspringroll]

A himbo, as promised

This look is what happens when you try to be Y2K but youve only ever seen Earth in vintage tourism brochures

[hydrangeyes]

Here's me rambling about my personal fanon Gojo, explicit wording at some point probably:

I have such a distinct feel on how Gojo would be like in a romantic relationship. Like a real one.

I like to think he'll always be hesitant and soft when initiating anything, then after pulling away for a minute, dives back in like he's starved. Like generally, he's touchy. He's just like that even towards friends, but when it's in a way of him wanting a different kind of affection, hesitates first. Idk if i have the braincells rn (I'm eepy) to explain why, he just is.

Like i won't lie, i eat up cockdrunk/pussy whipped gojo fics. And he's all weepy and kind of out of it as all his focus is on you, and it's a pleasureable overstimulation?

Yum yum yumyumyum🤌 good shit

But like nonsexual? Absolutely meeeeeeelts when making out, simple kisses, cuddles, AGH

Running a hand through his hair while he rest his head on you? Lap or shoulder? Uuugggghhhhhhhh

I still into giving him the nickname sapphire or bunny (i give that nickname to most male fictional interests, tho so.. well mmh not all).

Idk I'm tured and feeling sappy potential Gojo fic coming soon maybe

[cult-of-the-placeholder]

Ok usually I go with the idea of the bishops being birthed by some ethereal force of the universe; they came into existence because the raw power of the world needed a master to yield to when the mortals of this world started to develop sentience

But, lately: I've been thinking about them each being just a normal mortal child that was pushed to the brink by some horrific trauma and that's what earned them their crown. Like Kallamar, for example. His family was set upon my a mystery sickness and, fearing the plague, their village cast them out. Now suffering sudden homelessness, they were ravaged by illness and swiftly died, one by one. Kallamar had been feverishly experimenting with varioid plants and herbs for a cure, and only set upon one when it was too late for everyone but him. After stewing in grief for awhile, he takes the diseased, rotting corpses of his family and throws them into the village well, poisoning the wicked people he viewed as responsible for their deaths

He watches from afar as the plague ravagss the entire village, and refuses to share with them the cure he's found. Tells them this is what they get for being so cruel, and that earns the Crown of Pestilence's respect.

The others go through similar trials: after her family starves and tiny bb Heket is forced to cannibalism to survive, she sets fire to the vast fields that blanket the countryside, burning an entire season's worth of crops and leaving vast swaths of people to starve over winter. Shamura's homeland falls to a warmongering fool, and they vow to put an end to the fighting with nothing but their mind. Studying and researching and honing their thoughts, eventually getting themselves taken in by the Lord himself, a famed lecher. Poisons the wine of him and his comrades, and ends the war without ever taking up a weapon of their own. Narinder's family is executed for heresy, and he does the same to the families of the ones who took his, hanging and beheading them. They come together shortly after, Crowns pushing them to meet and form the pantheon.

[jtownraindancer]

one of my kids was in the hall this morning has emphatically informed me that it is 2008. so happy 2008 guys

[c-kiddo]

(cr2 rewatch posting) they were crazy for this

"i imagine it's one of those things that take root, that you can't shake it once you've seen it."

"there's no coming back from this thing. it's in my head and there's no -- this is-- there's no coming back from this thing"

[buggyandthebartoclub]

I made this!!!

🥹👉🏼👈🏼 shorts are super hard and this is like my second video, please be easy on me

I hope y’all like it tho

[omgeto]

guys I'm partially alive. small life update. GOT AN ASSIGMENT DUE TOMORROW. I AM IN LOVE. I HAVE ORDERED TWO HOEISH OUTFITS FOR HALLOWEEEEN.

[trobeds]

hey if jeffannie is canon in the movie im gonna punch smth btw. its just so weird my god

[ranger-kellyn]

team star's boss battle music is actually so fucking good???? hello??????