#I also like writing poetry more than acting so like idk man I really do be a Todd more
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Hmm my parents made me do theater for like 5+ years, multiple shows a year despite me hating it and vocalizing I wanted to quit because I was a very anxious child who hated having attention on me. They said I had to do it to get out of my shell more cause as a child I would literally not speak if someone I didnât really know (like anyone but immediate family, one grandparent, and like 2 family friends my age) was even just near me, like it was kinda alarming. But I love theater from every other perspective besides being on stage (watching/backstage/analyzing/designing/writing) and I still will gladly go see shows with my family and my friends
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it's so weird to me that everyone on this website is a human person outside of their weird internet niche so rb this with a random bit of your lore
#all my life my âfamily wanted me to be a Neil when really Iâm a Todd; I get so anxious performing in front of others#I also like writing poetry more than acting so like idk man I really do be a Todd more#if anything Iâm a reverse Neil cause my parents kept forcing me into the arts and now Iâm premed at my own choice lol like they wanted a#kid in the arts and instead they got a kid who is persuing medicine; also I too was in too many clubs in high school; somehow I managed to#join 9 different clubs almost purely by accident and I would also take a before school class so at the end of high school I graduated with#an award that was like âmost cumulative credits earnedâ but in my defense if I took gym before school I got an extra elective#but yeah Iâve gotten slightly better at the talking; more than I was as a child; but itâs still pretty bad; itâs just the circle of people#I feel comfortable enough to ramble to has expanded much more than it was as a child but no literally if you ask anyone but my siblings#what I was like as a child all you will get is that I was quiet and faded into the background; I was the âforgottenâ middle child to others#thanks for the tag!!#ask game#not dps
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Toxic Tumblr Communities
Tumblr is a very interesting place. I feel like women have always dominated this website. While it's a great place for women to express themselves, it's obviously created a lot of really toxic communities that in all honestly could probably only be created by women. You know exactly what the fuck I'm talking about. You've got communities that normalize harmful behavior (self-harm, anorexia, drug taking) and communities that normalize harmful relationship dynamics (the teacher crush and true crime communities, the ddlg community, the kink community in general, etc.), all kinds of different shit. I won't deny that these are all really harmful in their own ways. BUT I can't stand the way many people talk about them.
It's not uncommon for people to make YouTube videos talking about these communities, and totally eviscerating the posters without showing a single shred of empathy, despite most of the posters being depressed, isolated, and traumatized teen girls.
When it comes to the communities that revolve around toxic behavior, I kind of hate how the posters are treated as if it is their fault and their fault alone for other people picking up on the behaviors. If someone looks at thinspo or a SH picture and is like "YES I want that!" did the post directly create those feelings? Or maybe JUST MAYBE the person viewing the post was already mentally ill and now they just become encouraged to be a part of a community with people they relate to? Also I kinda hate how people accuse these posters of "romanticizing" the things that they do, I really don't think it's true most of the time. I think what happens is that women are conditioned into always wanting to appear beautiful, and so they want even their pain to be beautiful. Which is why they then write "sadgirl" poetry about cutting or whatever. I also think it's a coping mechanism. If you're going through something difficult, the least you can do is be poetic about it. I also think that a lot of the times it's a cry for help. It's common to make fun of the emo girl who cuts for attention but even if it's for attention she's still hurting herself.
There are also communities that "romanticize" bad relationship dynamics. When it comes to the teacher crush community, I honestly don't think it deserves the hatred it gets. 99% of the posters have no plans to actually get with their teachers. In YouTube videos about this community, they often respond to the rare posts where underage girls gush about how their high school teacher reciprocates their love. The YouTubers blame the girl for posting about the situation and "romanticizing" it, rather than blaming the fucking adult male for taking advantage of a high schooler. It's abhorrent and I can't stand it.
The true crime community is less defensible, but even then, most of the girls do not support violence, it's more so a fantasy of being able to fix a evil man. And I honestly think it's reflective of the way society tells women and girls that they are responsible for men's feelings and actions, even the very worst of them. And pretty much all the posters are either depressed and isolated teen girls or 30-something year old women who have a history of dating violent and abusive men. When people criticize this community, there's something about the way they do it that's almost victim-blamey, idk. I won't act like what they're doing isn't harmful to the victims, but people act as if drawing the Columbine dudes being yaoi boyfriends or whatever is just as bad as the fucking shooting itself.
And the ddlg community on here mainly seems to be fronted by "littles" who roleplay as underage children having sex with their parents. Again, this is a baddd thing to be encouraging, even if it's through role-play. But I HATE how people act like pretending to be the little is the same as pretending to be the adult. All these girls are fantasizing about roleplaying sexual abuse and idk about you but they really do seem like victims to me. This is not a pass for them to promote harmful behavior but again I just hate the double standards. These people are turned on by being victimized and people somehow don't feel any sympathy for them. They act as if it's the EXACT SAME as being turned on by victimizing others.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, I HATE how the standards for women are so much higher than they are for men. Women will post about the pain they are causing themselves, and society gets angry with them for daring to be upfront about it and/or trying to make it seem "beautiful". Women will post about how they want to be victimized, and society gets angry at them for promoting toxic relationships, while not offering them a shred of empathy and asking WHY they want that.
Idk I have a lot of thoughts on this. I'm not saying these girls are completely blameless and I really don't want it to be interpreted that way, but it's crazy to me the way people act like they are heinous and evil (and not like, victims of patriarchal conditioning) for romanticizing situations where they would be victimized.
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BOOKS: 16, 3, 5
16. What is the most overhyped book you read this year?
nobody get mad at me. but buddha of suburbia by hanif kureishi. donât get me wrong i LIKED this book!!! i love edgy literary fiction (coming out as a moshfegh enjoyer) and i love gross borderline TMI details and i love a messy protagonist and i love a clean writing style. this ticked all of those boxes and itâs a good coming of age story and i get why it was and still is popular. but did it blow me away? no. the edition i read had a foreword by zadie smith that basically acted as if it was godâs gift to literary fiction and idk maybe that skewed my expectations but it just wasnât! a solid 4 star train read but it did not change my life and i was kind of expecting it to (especially because kureishi wrote the screenplay for my beautiful laundrette which is one of my favourite films EVER).
3. What were your top 5 books of the year?
AGHH this is tricky.
maybe this is cheating because i had to read it for my dissertation but a single man by christopher isherwood had me crying in public. again, more literary fiction, and as with most of isherwoodâs work it hasnât exactly aged gracefully in places, but it is just soâŚraw. i can take or leave isherwoodâs attempts at humour but what he IS very very good at is portraying grief, especially in the stream of consciousness format. even when it isnât the explicit focus of a passage or a chapter itâs always in the room and it just absolutely gutted me. honestly this book had the effect on me that everyone said i was supposed to get from mrs dalloway. i donât think isherwood is a better writer than woolf overall but IN THIS ONE RESPECTâŚisherwood wins.
this one is top 5 not in terms of quality but in terms of âmade my inner 13 year old very happyâ: the sunshine court by nora sakavic. look okay when i was 13 i read the all for the game trilogy for the first time and it changed my brain chemistry forever. i may be an adult with an english degree now but when i found out there was gonna be a spin-off sequel you bet your ass i dropped everything i was doing to devour this book in one day. i would like everyone here to know that i was on the jeremy/jean ship train years before it was cool and i have the jerejean fanfic with thousands of kudos that was written and posted in 2017 to PROVE IT. i donât have anything coherent to say about this book other than âobjectively it was badly written but subjectively i had to lie down on the floor for several hours after reading itâ and thatâs my truth. i would not wish this book series on my worst enemy. but nevertheless.
i also really liked manhunt by gretchen felker-martin. iâm not usually a horror/zombie apocalypse person BUT this is a very different take on itâi think i will do a very bad job of describing it so please look it up, itâs an ownvoices novel written by a trans woman. i was not a super big fan of the ending but everything up until that was very, very goodâi normally hate gore but the body horror descriptions were super compelling and i think the plot works really really well as an allegory for transmisogyny.
rounding out the list: this year i finally got around to reading maus by art spiegelman and yeah. it just really is that good. by far the best graphic novel i have ever read and honestly the best non-fiction book iâve read in a while. and finally: american sonnets for my past and future assassin by terrance hayes!! i was set sonnet from hip logic for a supervision essay (all fourteen lines are âwe sliced the watermelon into smilesâ) and it got me a) very into sonnets and b) very into hayesâ work in general. highly highly recommend. i am not a âpoetry personâ for the most part (bold take for an english major, i know) but this collection slaps. really made me rethink everything i knew about poetry.
5. What genre did you read the most of?
yeah there is a clear winner here and for better or for worse it Is literary fiction. i did not used to be a lit fiction person at all and then the summer before i turned 19 i got really annoying and really into ottessa moshfegh and now look at me . specifically i read a lot of modernism this year because my dissertation supervisor specialises in it and i am, once again, writing an isherwood diss lmao. and i also read a hell of a lot of short stories if weâre counting those as a separate subgenre (which i donât, i class it as a form, but i know some people do). my teenage self would be so disappointed in me. i do have such a soft spot for genre fiction, specifically fantasy, and i DO still read a lot of it but i just lean more towards literary fiction now and thatâs okay!!!
#asks#this has made me wish i updated my goodreads like. Ever#because suddenly i forgot every book ive ever read#but tyyy
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8/16-17/24
friday - saturday
watched 2 movies today...
last night i asked my friend for a bunch of silent films to watch, one of the ones he suggested was the marriage circle, a lubitsch film, i decided to because it seemed kind of normal i suppose?? i dunno, but i ended up quite liking it, the more i think about it, the more i like it, it's just rather funny, it's not much more than rather funny as well, but i like the way it's funny, and i like how silent films thus far seem to handle guilty characters, the panic and the way others don't see it, the invisibility of the obvious guilt, the fact that you can't be so guilty something disappears, that it has to be about expressing it, coming to terms with it, making something pass, this feels different to what we see now. though that's hard to articulate because #sleepy so i'll try tomorrow. tomorrow i'll probably watch nosferatu.
the 2nd film i watched today was l'etoile de mer, by man ray, it's watchable on yt:
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i love the shot that's here as the thumbnail, definitely a very beautiful short. the poem used in it has me curious about desnos, so i dled a book of his poetry, to see what that's like, has me very curious about man ray's other films, so maybe tomorrow i'll also do another one of those? or i might try the short artaud wrote. i'm very excited to uncover other surrealist films, hopefully i can find more stuff from the 20s, it feels odd to me that there's not a ton listed places but there must be more than i see, i suppose it's also a good idea to widen the search to also include dadaist films.
again i'd like to say more about the movie... there's a lot there about how it handles its procession of images, the grammar of that up against the lubitsch, for instance, here the presence of nudity, relaxed bodies, a greater sense of informality, subtlety in the acting, in lubitsch, and with most narrative films probably of the time, the actors had to do that to get themselves across, and create excitement, and it is also a meaningful and interesting way to express emotion, the actors in surrealist film, at least in man ray, they're not less weird, really, they are obviously of this time in some way, but there's more slackness, less cartoonish maybe. but in the editing and movement of the camera too, there are many differences, and then the ways all of this is organized, images fall back on themselves in man ray's film, at one point the explosion of all these simultaneous images, simultaneity in lubitsch does occur in ways, mostly for gags, and never with editing, so much as long sustained shots and then the consequences of whatever mishap. it's fascinating.
but i gotta sleep, we went out today and weren't out late just for a while, since 2 pm, and we're just so sleepy from out dumb schedules getting fixed. it was great to see our friend, and we saw our other friend at the book store she works at, we went out to eat after, i saw a kid unwrap his burrito at a restaurant and hold the tortilla over the plate, everything falling off, seeing him learn how things work wwas kind of awesome, and i made a stupid joke that inspired some writing. in the bookstore i read some books that i cannot buy... i read some of horse crazy by gary indiana, and some of the passion according to g.h. by clarice lispector, both are books i would really like to have and read all of... but cannot atm. i will pick through desnos' poetry book that i dled, i think, at least, and tomorrow try and get thru more of dennis coopers new book, and work on music. that might seem like a lot... but i can do it.
reading felt good today, it centers me a bit i think, especially gary indiana, idk why, his way of writing connects to me somewhere inside, some kind of thing to do with all the distance i feel, the ways i ruminate and all that...
gotta... sleep... i took selfies too today, i'll post them tomorrow also... promisszszsse
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You see when I think about sabo I Think about his, Gentleman side and sadistic side. Like you can't tell me that he didn't had fun destroying the marines in dressrosa. But he is also such a softy too idk what I'm saying I hope you understand something in this text atleast How do you see sabo?

Hello !!! Yes, I had some post before analyzing Sabo's speech patterns or whatever. I tag these with the #sabology tag generally. I did so much more but I never somehow made a masterlist for em. I will link it here :D
What you say is right in my personal view of Sabo !!! How do I see Sabo..Oh dear...I could go on for days.
Dandy Sabo ~ I see Sabo as a gentleman too, he has dandy sides, dresses in such an eccentric way. I imagine that he is so much into ideas, doctrines, philosophy and has strong values ! He is a man of IDEAS. He can't live without his beliefs, he nees something to belive, a cause to serve to see his purpose. A dandy is characterized by the way in which he looks kept but in a nonchalent way, meaning that he looks cool without trying. I love that about Sabo
Cheeky Sabo~ BUT he also has a teasing, bratty, cheeky, side to him. He can be very childish with people he trusts, but he will always switch to his more serious and calculating sides when needed.
Well balanced King He has a great balance and control overall (unless it's something that makes him feel extremely angry, then he goes crazy, but it takes a lot to make him crazy, what makes him mad is when you step on his values, cf. the Kuma & celestial dragon accident.)
~HIS SOFTY SIDE~
Romantic Sabo I see him as someone that lovess XIX century poetry and literature, meaning that he has a bit of that "spleen" and melancholy that it characteristic to romanticism to him. Lmao. I imagine that he loves reading a lot (since he wants to write a book about his adventures!) so maybe he writes poetry in his free time, some political poetry, or prepares his speeches to perform them in a detached and controlled manner at the same time. His love language would probably be gifts and acts of services, isn't it so cute when he gets you flowers when he goes back from a mission? That he never fails to send you a letter on your birthdays, even if he is far away? You will always be his priority.
Work and privacy don't interfere I imagine that Sabo doesn't like to involve people he loves in his dangerous way of living. This makes him really protective of people he loves, without extremely babying them or making them feel that they are being tracked.
His cute side He has a cute side, he is really attached to family values, because he believes in "found family" more than in blood bound. Since he didn't get to have a lot of parental love, he might want to form a family, and he would do anything to protect them.
Here it is ! it's not everything of course, but some thoughts I had on the spot.
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7 Anti LO Asks
1. I watched the promo for the pre orders for the books. WEBTOON is really using the first trailer that they used to promote LO with the old art style and such. Like, why canât they make a new one?? Iâm guessing that they donât have any panels to show that even the WEBTOON promotes the description of it.
2. So I know in the original story more blame was put on Zeus than Hades for Persphonesâ kidnapping by Hades since Zeus gave permission and I think RS tried to âtranslateâ or shift that blame as Zeus is gonna punish Persphones too âharshlyâ. But honestly if thatâs what RS how to writes it Iâm pissed since Hades has nothing to do with the act of wrath (until Minthe gets turned) . Honestly I think it would have made more sense for Zeus to try an ruin Persphoneâs reputation by spreading a rumor about Hades and Persphone to hurt his brother (hoping it embarasses Persphone amd be grossed out) hurt Persphone (for the act of wrath and uncomfortable spot light) and why not Demeter for not hiding his fling, and then the whole rumor back firing. But that would change so much of the plot. Idk LO should have had a couple drafts
3. wait wait, her fancast had apollo as a black man while persephone was a white girl? yeah, i think rachel has some major internalized issues she needs to work through before trying her hand at mock casting again. good lord that looks awful.
4. As someone who liked LO when I started reading it, I feel like the writing (which has never been stellar in the first place) has become a hot mess and all I can try to get out of it is that it's now one big 'who suffered the most' contest that's been rigged in Persephone's favor.
5. rachel will literally put in every unrelated greek figure into LO including make them major players for .. some reason.. but literally can't be bothered to put any actual work or work into demeter, you know, the godess who the whole hymn is about and and praising. the main character of hymn is all but written out to where she's shown up less than hades' random dogs, meanwhile daphne gets a romance plotline and hera and chiron and hephaestus are all here for no real reason. it makes no sense.
-----FP Spoilers/Mention-----
6. wait, rachel is making the muses out to be swallow gossips who lie too? lets just shit on more of greek mythology's most revered figures because we can't have her self insert persephone be held accountable for anything. also they are art goddesses? they have no reason to be involved in any sort of law or even reporting issues. are they supposed to be the press or something? maybe hades can just pay them off or phsyically maim them like everyone else he feels slighted by đ
7. in regards to that one FP spoiler: rachel is once again showing her lack of writing skill and refusal to get help. suitor armor finished its season finale with a proper poem, while the wolfman of wulvershire had an entire episode done in ballad style poem to tell a story, proper rhyming and all. it's not impossible to write a poem, but rachel just thinks her random rambles are better for her mismatched "muse or poetry' to gossip in court than to actually put in the effort and work.
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Luca Headcanons Part 2
DoesLast one blew up and I was gonna wait to make another before making this one but then my Italian fish obsessed brain couldnât stop thinking and I literally couldnât stop myself so letâs go, part 2!
Luca:
Has nightmares of what would happen if things went differently: If he was sent to The Deep, if he and Alberto were outed as sea-monsters before the race, if Ercole, Cicco, and Guido didnât miss Alberto when throwing the harpoons at the beach, if Alberto didnât come with the umbrella during the race and he was outed in front of the town and hit with Ercoleâs harpoon, etc. He always wakes up terrified.Â
Apologizes to inanimate objects if he bumps into them or drops them.
Names everything he comes in contact with. Random animals such as birds, insects (even though heâs terrified), erasers he uses often, etc. Theyâre always random, silly names, but he loves them.Â
Is a slow reader because of how he fantasizes himself in the books and daydreams, then is snapped back to reality.
Keeps a dream journal!
Loves making stories about the stars and constellations. He loves the original stories, but he loves to make up his own.
Honestly I just get the vibe that heâs scared of birds after the encounter with the seagull.
His favorite color is purple followed by green!
Giuliaâs mom buys him his own bike and he loses his mind, loving it so much
Heâs a bit awkward with making friends at school, sticking to Giuliaâs side most of the time
He doesnât really care for music
He can fall asleep anywhere, honestly. He once fell asleep leaning against the doorway and then crashed onto the floor
Alberto loves to doodle on his arms and hands and Luca doesnât really care to wash them off so they just kinda chill there.Â
Heâs very easy to prank and scare
Oh you should see him around the holidays! Heâs so excited! His eyes sparkle and shine, he absolutely loves the decorations!
Heâs not competitive, actually. He just wanted the prize money to get the Vespa, but he doesnât really care about winning. He just... Isnât competitive
He is very protective over his friends. Do what you want to him, but lay a hand on someone he loves and he will tear you a new one. We see him in the movie just frown when Ercole makes fun of him, but when Ercole shoved Alberto, all bets were off.
Charts the stars
He doesnât have one love language, he has all of them, but probably Physical Touch and Quality Time more than anything, or Acts of Service.
Drinks expresso more often than he probably should, but just to get through his schoolwork
Misses his goatfish more than he wants to admit, especially little Giuseppe
Allergies beat him up during the spring
Slowly gets used to cats with Machiavelliâs kittens, but heâs still scared of the chunky boy
A teacher at school made the mistake of introducing him to Shakespeare. He spent hours sobbing over a good chunk of the plays.
Because he liked Shakespeare, Giuliaâs mom got him some poetry books. He was not a fan of Edgar Allan Poe or Agatha Christie or Mary Shelley, all the horror/murder type stuff. He loved Emily Dickinson though!
Is as terrified of losing Alberto as Alberto is terrified of losing him
While he isnât as touchy with Giulia as he is with Alberto, he does get more touchy with her
Reads tons of books about cats, dogs, and turtles to give Machiavelli, Nerone, and Caligola the care they need
Hears about human farms and loses his mind, rapidly asking questions about how they work and if theyâre similar to his own
Giulia tries to convince him that fairytales are real. He has nightmares about them for a few nights until Massimo has to tell him that fairytales are made up and her mom changes them slightly to be more... Non-scary. She starts telling them to him to bed just because she misses doing so, and then he canât fall asleep without someone telling him a story.
Doesnât do the handshake with anyone that isnât Alberto or Giulia.
Giuliaâs mom calls him âfishyâ or âguppyâ and he wants to hate it but he canât
Hates it when people call him cute or baby him, but his family + Alberto + Marcovaldos still do it
Once heard some French Tourists and stared at Giulia and went âwhy is their Italian so weird soundingâ and she lost her shit laughing
Doesnât swear, refuses to swear
Tries to use Vespa stamps if theyâre available
Once he learns what âPiacere, gioralamo trombettaâ means, he sends a letter to Alberto which is just him freaking out and laughing while making fun of it. They donât stop saying it. In fact, they probably say it more.
He has a map in his room with pushpins of where heâs been. Beside it are a bunch of sticky notes of where he wants to go with Alberto with reasons on why he wants to go.
Has a little bit more courage, but not too much
Heâs often teased for calling others âsirâ or âmaâamâ and so he feels really shy about it but doesnât stop
Refuses to call Massimo and Giuliaâs mom by their names, it just feels too awkward for him
Makes friendship bracelets for the trio as well as separate ones for him and Alberto, then him and Giulia.
While he loves gelato, he doesnât like it as much as Alberto
I feel like heâd dot the iâs in Giuliaâs name with hearts but no one elseâs
People at school think he has a crush on her but he doesnât
He and Alberto still say they sleep under the anchovies. No matter how often he researches stars, heâll always call them anchovies around him.
Sticks out his tongue when focused
Doesnât like aquariums, he stares at those fish and he just feels trapped
Loves to dance in the rain
Does that little feet tappy dance thing when heâs excited or shakes his hands
Honestly half of his vocabulary is stern shouts of âAlberto!â âGiulia!â or âsilenzio Bruno, silenzio Bruno! Silenzio Bruno!â
Speaking of, he canât just say âSilenzio Brunoâ once, itâs always him saying it more than once, especially when heâs really scared
He doesnât have loud, aggressive sneezes, but he does have sneeze fits. Once he sneezed so many times that with every one his face got closer to his desk until it just went BAM and he has a massive bruise on his forehead for days.Â
Sometimes just goes into the water and swims to relax. If heâs feeling homesick, heâll do some daring trick and then instinctively turn to smile at Alberto only to realize he isnât there
His dad still keeps crabs but lets Luca name them. Luca chooses to name them all after space things. Mainly moons, but sometimes planets or galaxies
Secretly feels really guilty about Alberto selling their Vespa
After almost being sent to The Deep, he is terrified of the dark and canât sleep without a light on, no matter how dim it is
Alberto:
Matching pajamas with both Massimo and Giulia! (Refuses to match with her, Massimo yelled at them)
Tries to see what triggers his transformation. Does watermelon? Does juice? Is it any liquid? Heâll find out!
Calls Giulia âSpewliaâ just to piss her off
Those two are always arguing. Yes, he often starts it
Lots of tattoos and ear piercings!
Will into Giuliaâs room, stare her dead in the eyes, call her a bitch, and run out while leaving the door open. Sheâll scream at him and probably throw something.Â
Tends to shorten peopleâs names. He calls Luca âLu,â âLulu,â and even âLuke.â Luca does not like any of these names.
Still builds his Vespas! Theyâre not as fun without Luca, though
Takes Giulia with him sometimes too and purposely crashes into the sea or something just to see what she does.Â
Gains quite a bit of muscleÂ
Is the one who takes down all the sea monster things with Massimo. He and Lorenzo carry Smuca to the fountain
Idk I feel like he has loud sneezes
I also feel like he makes that weird cough face like that one cat idk I just know Iâm right
He doesnât just sing... He scream sings
Doesnât know how to dance but if there is music he will dance
Loves dancing in the rain too!
Sometimes heâll just walk into Giuliaâs room and gossip with her. Theyâll make a blanket fort and grab some snacks and cats and just... Spend the night talking and catching up
She teaches him how to braid hair and now he just loves doing her hair
Bites his lip quite a bit. Thatâs canon but like, still worth mentioning
Learns how to ride a bike so he doesnât get killed or something
Keeps a journal on things Luca and Giulia are interested in so he can learn about them. He writes down bullet points on what he remembers from conversations, but itâs honestly not much
He doesnât have big dreams other than traveling the world with Luca. He knows Giulia wants to be a marine biologist and Luca wants to travel the world + is still figuring things out. He has short term goals other than that and changes the topic about it.
A popular headcanon is that Alberto takes care of the goatfish when Lucaâs at school and I think that would happen!
Heâs shockingly good with kids! When not working, he loves playing soccer with them by the fountain
He almost named Machiavelliâs mate âFrogâ because he canât name things
Half the time when Giulia and/or Luca talk about school, he goes âI donât what that means, but Iâm choosing to define it as ____â and wonât let them prove him wrong
Technically canon but he will bite. Chomp chomp.
When he meets Giuliaâs mom, they love to paint together
He does make some friends in Portorosso, but none are as close to him as his sister and best friend!
This man is the most dramatic person good lord
Love language is definitely physical touch!
Still screams âTake me, gravity!â pretty often
Canât do work alone without music. He doesnât really like opera but he canât stand silence, he just canât
Sometimes he thinks of Lucaâs betrayal and is really angry, but knows heâd probably do the same if the roles were reversed. It was about self preservation and the risk of living. He still gets upset about it sometimes, but completely forgives him and understands
Is always torn between giving Giulia genuine facts about sea creatures and giving her such absurd but lowkey believable lies. He wants her to succeed so badly but also wants to screw her over
If you give him anything, he will play with it. String? A toy. A pen? A toy. A literal rock you found on the side of the road? A gorgeous toy, thank you!
Never just goes into the water, he will always be dramatic and dive in or jump
Sometimes when not on duty, he just blows his lifeguard whistle because he thinks itâs cool
He loves yoyos!
Will noogie Giulia.
Sometimes gets scared that Massimo will abandon him, but it seems like Massimo always knows
CittĂ Vuota is his favorite song!
Doodles all over everything, especially Giulia and Lucaâs arms and legs. They range from little stars to tic tac toe games to fish to anything that comes to mind
Giulia:
Is very much into photography! Luca always does hearts with his hands/fingers while Alberto does stupid poses or flips her off... or both.
Hums and sings a lot!Â
Also loves to dance and is the best of the trio! Loves to twirl and vibe even if thereâs no music! Itâs just her personality
She doesnât just hug, she jumps into their arms and holds them close
Sometimes just to annoy Alberto sheâll hug him and press kisses to his head and cheeks. Siblings gonna be annoying.
Always has so much energy but really struggles with sitting still for homework after such long hours in school that her grades arenât all that good except for Astronomy!
The most competitive of the trio
Bites her lip when sheâs nervous
Started wearing her hat to match her dad when she was little and now she doesnât like being without it
Has probably fallen asleep in class
Loves watermelon and gelato
While Ciccio and Guido apologize for their actions, she doesnât forgive them and doesnât want to. She has every right to
Gets really into singing when sheâs singing along to songs
Doesnât like makeup for herself but will hold the boys captive to do their makeup
Loves puns! Will make sea puns to piss off Alberto and Luca, but Luca loves them so it half-works
Loves copying Albertoâs lipbite
Machiavelli her beloved <3Â
Loves her fam so much! Sheâs got pictures of them everywhere and is constantly buying them gifts
Speaking of! Her love language is giving gifts!Â
Sheâs actually pretty good at making friends since she can read people so well. Itâs just that Portorosso doesnât have any.... Great kids to befriend and Genova just has too many that she sticks to a small group which eventually fades, as groups do
She isnât the most emotional but she also isnât the least emotional. She doesnât cry often but she does get sad and shows it
I donât know why I feel this way but I definitely think sheâs scared of the doctor
She used to be scared of thunderstorms until meeting her boys and the race happened. Now she associates rain and storms with that win
Summer is her favorite season
She knows everyone in Portorosso by name and knows most of their birthdays by heart
Speaking of, she always celebrates Albertoâs birthday like her like her life depends on it
Now loves racing on her bike even more cause of the race
Calls Alberto âBertoâ and is the only one allowed to do say
A very light sleeper
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More on the way probably theyâre all I think about
#luca movie#Luca#pixar luca#luca pixar#luca paguro#alberto scorfano#giulia marcovaldo#massimo marcovaldo#giulia's mom#death tw#maybe? just in case
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Manager!Seijoh OIKS ROUTE
a/n: this,,,, is probably the angstiest out of the routes and i seem to only write angst for oikawa and i think its a problem
this is for @what-a-creative-usernameâ bc oikawa is their favorite seijoh boy so this is for you đĽş
and actually buckle your seatbelts bc this is my longest work and its the biggest mess ever :â) also, this is kinda all over the place soooo
anon:
- May we have an x Oikawa ending to the Manager AU?
- okaayyyy so this is a request for the manager series. please pleASE PLEASEEEEE- make a oikawa ending! 𼺠cuz heâs my favorite and all those times with him in the story feel like more than just friends
OMG IM SORRY BUT MY INNER OIKAWA SIMP THAT I NEVER KNEW WAS EVEN THERE STARTED TO PEAK THROUGH
so basically yea
as seen in a lot of the parts,
oikawa is very,,,, loving towards you
like his entire demeanor was just so different and so,,, authentic,,,, than the ones he shows to other females
maybe it was because you didnt want him in the beginning?
the moment he saw you, he did his first antics and he expected you to turn red and fluster and cutely shy away from himÂ
yanno the works
yet you gave him a stony stare and denied him
ofc he was hurt and a little offended bc were you rejecting him?
hes never been rejected before and he prides himself for that but you just did and continued to do that
so he made it his mission to make you at least feel something for him
like the period part or his random proclamations of his love for you
he did it all
it didnt matter if it would bite him in the ass later because he was impulsive and he wanted you to show yourself being affected with his charms
because he was the FREAKING OIKAWA TOORU
ong this is like his validation that he is still a ladies man and has a charm that couldnt be resisted by anyone
he constantly told you that he loved you to see a reaction from you and he always was touching you whether it was just the shoulder or your hand
oikawa wanted to see you as his own personal cheerleader and you reacting to his affections would really bring him over the moon
this brings us here in the gym today
ây/n-chan, do you want to go-â
âoikawa-san, i dont trust you wanting to go on an innocent outing without any hidden intentionsâ
the team snickered and he pouted, eyes watering and curling at your side
ây/n-chan, please? oikawa-san really wants to spend time with you~â
he begged and you finally looked up from the notebook and stared at him
god hes been much more annoying lately but you knew it was his way of letting out his anxiousness and nervousness for the incoming interhigh
so you decided to indulge him just this once and made a deal with him
âthe moment you try anything, even remotely romantic or flirty, i will leaveâ
you bargained but he gasped
âwhat?! then whatâs the point of-â
âso you DO have hidden intentions, oikawa-san?â
you raised your eyebrow causing oikawa to quickly shake his head and detach from you
âfine. none of that stuff, just hanging out, okay?â
he was still fussy but he accepted it
oikawa had a plan to take you to a cafe that just opened up and take you shopping and basically spoil you because girls like that, right?
they fall for boys who give them everything, right?
nope
so i read a study that surprisingly most girls arent into shopping apparently and they prefer to buy something themselves because apparently they feel indebt and dependent on men if they let them spoil them like that
idk about you but i would let oikawa spoil me tho
his plans were completely crushed when you argued with him for nearly 15 minutes to take half of your tab with the food
ây/n-chan! i invited you out so i should pay! and boys have to pay!â
he complained, holding the other end of the tab envelope thingy but you pulled it back towards you
âoikawa-san. you should never listen to societal normalities and instead listen and respect my wishes of paying for my half rather than going by the rules of males paying for femalesâ
im sensing a bit of a bokuto and akaashi typa relationship between you two
oikawa shook his head and slightly stood up to lean over the table, his face approaching yours and you were slightly surprised by the sudden closeness causing you to lean back and be focused on getting away so your grip on the tab loosened
he grinned as he snatched it away from your grasp and quickly placed his card into the slot before running up to the cashier
your mouth was slacked and surprise was still written on your face even when he returned and oikawa held up a peace sign to try and lighten up
but your shock morphed into being upset
âoikawa-san, listen here. you had-â
but he waved you off with a smile
âno, you listen here, y/n-chan. oikawa-san loves you therefore he will give you everything in the world and all you have to do is sit there and point at whatever you want because my love will bring it to you~!â
you rolled your eyes
âplease stop being like that, oikawa-san. im not your girlfriend so dont act like my boyfriendâ
he lightly scoffed, disguising it with a cough
ây/n-chan, i dont think you understand. oikawa-san is telling you to be his good little girl and sit down. i dont understand why youre being so stubbornâ
he growled softly
wHAT iS hE sAYinG
you shook your head in disbelief and stood up collecting your things making the brunette to also stand up in curiosity
ây/n-chan? youre leaving already? i wanted to go see other places with you! i wanted to take you shopping!â
you halted and looked up at him through your long eyelashes
âoikawa-san, iâd rather you save your money and rest your injuries insteadâ
you reasoned but he raised his hands in front of him to signify his wish for you to stop
âbut i want to be with you, y/n-chanâ
he whispered and you blinked
âi dont want you to spend a single dime for me after this. just you and me, oikawa-san, no money, just usâ
he nodded eagerly
âwe can go anywhere you want! just,,, stay with meâ
then he found himself in a bookstore with you
it was a quaint hole in the wall bookstore that you both found as you walked down the street and you excitedly dragged him inside, hand still laced together
the rows of shelves that contained different worlds in the pages were your serotonin
he watched you excitedly run to the fiction section and browsed through the different spines for anything special to check out
ây/n-chan, iâll go use the bathroom really quicklyâ
you nodded and oikawa kissed your temple before he left towards the restroom
your eyes flitted across the different titles and you snatched a book of poetry
oikawa hurriedly walked over back to you but he didnt find you at the place you were before
so he continued sifting through the mini hallways of shelves and then he stopped
it was so,,, domesticÂ
seeing your bright eyes looking down at the book on your hands and the way your mouth slightly moved with the words
it was such a simple sight yet why did you look so beautiful?
the shimmering eyes that flittered when you came across a sentence you likedÂ
the soft lips that kinda jutted out making his desire to feel it increase that he would give anything to feel on his own
you were so focused that you didnt notice him moving behind you and wrapping his arms around your waist, only noticing his head resting on your shoulder
ââcome, my darling, it is never too late to begin our love againââ
he mumbled to your ear and you released one hand from the book to grasp his arms that were around your middle
âyou read poetry?â
you whispered and oikawa chuckled
âof course. a man as romantic as I am ought to be a poetâ
he reasoned and you laughed
âyet you fail to sway me, oikawa-sanâ
âno, there is a difference. you dont want my love but i know you want to be loved by me, i can assure you!â
you swiftly placed the book back on its former place and you turned around to swing your arms around his neck
âhmm,,,, love was never something for me. especially with you boys aroundâ
oikawa looked down to see your shorter height and he caressed your hip
âi love you, y/n, so let me love you the way you deserve to beâ
he whispered not understanding the weight of his words and you looked down to hide the growing blush on your face before burying your face into his sweater-clad chest
âso not fair oikawa-sanâ
you mumbled against the fabric but he heard it and he bursted into giggles
âehh~~ youre not being the fair one, y/n-chan! youre make it so hard to not fall for you when youre so beautiful~!â
he whines and you rested your chin on him so you could look up at him and your pout made him squeeze you tighter
âhah?! that doesnt make sense! im nothing but a mess of-!â
you started but was cut off when he kissed your nose and whispered:
âbut what a beautiful mess you areâ
okay so i know this is the saddest one out of the routes but ive just been serving fluff so the angst is coming soon!!!!!!
once you both were finished in the bookstore, you suggested going to this hill that allowed you to see the stars clearer
âhmm, oikawa-san, thereâs this place that natsu used to take me to whenever he wanted to see the stars so i think youâd like itâ
you mentioned while walking on the sidewalk
oikawaâs hand was clutching yours and you were swinging it back and forth while lightly skipping and kicking the rocks
he watched you, amused, at how child-like you were acting right now but he was also touched, knowing your knowledge of his love for space
âsure!â
the night sky allowed the stars to light up and you both shared giggles and laughs as the two of you stumbled over your feet with no light except from above
however once you made it to the top of the hill, oikawa pulled you close to him as you huddled on a seated position
âhowâd you know i would like this, y/n-chan?â
he asked and you gave him an obvious look
âhah? its so obvious! you keep drawing the cancer constellation on your skin and you had an astrology book in your bag that you were also reading in the busâ
your answer brought warmth inside him and he never thought you were so perceptive of him
you noticed every little thing he does and hes,,,, never had someone do that before
except for iwa and his family and team, no one knows of his little ticks and the way he becomes obsessive of a topic once he gets interested in it
you noticed it all
âthat right there, its the big dipper!â
you pointed and he followed the direction of your finger before nodding
âyep! waaahhh its much prettier seeing it higher up than my roof!â
he exclaimed and your gaze left the constellation towards the boy beside you
âreally,, prettyâ
you absentmindedly muttered yet he was sharp and heard you
âbut its different to look at something much more beautifulâ
this caused you to quickly go back to looking at the stars so you missed his love-filled eyes
âi want to name my children by constellations. so that they can keep the oikawa legacy going forever like constellations being at the sky for all eternity. or naming it after the sky! then i can make sure theyre never going awayâ
he said and you nodded
you kept pointing out different shapes and laughing at his funky claims of what some stars connected to and created
âoikawa-san, lets go to the star festival laterâ
you offered and he in turn looked away from you, turning red at the way the small lights illuminated your face and somehow making it more,,,, angelic
so he covered it up with his own teasingÂ
âoh? the meeting of the two lovers?â
you dont know why but your cheeks burned at the mention of the âLâ word and oikawa noticed, quickly poking fun of your cheeks
âoh, y/n-chan, dont be so shy!â
you pouted and turned away
ânever mindâ
oikawaâs laugh rang throughout the space and he pulled you closer, practically sitting on his lap, while pointing out the stars and him pressing kisses to your cheeks
the intertwining of your fingers combined with the kisses made you feel as if you were floating with how free you felt
and you loved every moment of it
after that outing with your captain, you were conflicted
it wasnt the first time heâs openly said he loved you and his shower of affections have been there since the very beginning
yet how come you were just now feeling,,,,, different??
you were sure you felt an odd feeling inside you when he said your name with no usual suffix and it wasnt just the food that didnt agree with you
whenever his lips came in contact with your skin, it left blazing trails of red that spread out as far as it could
the heartbeat that quickened once he kissed your forehead at your doorstep and the grin you last saw when you closed the door
or the unknown smile that you didnt know you had on until natsu, who was visiting, pointed it out
âdarling, why are you just standing there? and why are you smiling like that? its weird, stop itâ
you didnt even have the attitude to scold him and you giggled before twirling and holding his hand
âoh, natsu~ i want to dance! and sing!â
you shouted, taking him with you and dancing around the living room
tbh natsu was very worried but he remembered you mentioning that you were meeting some guy today and it might be the reason as to why you were acting like this
he was happy
you deserved to be loved as you are and you were finally getting that love
but,,,,,,,,,
it didnt last long
albeit having a lot of fun, oikawa seemed,,,, off to you
it was,,, awkward
maybe it was because you were now aware of some type of growing attraction inside of you or every little thing he does to you could send you into shapeshifting and channeling your inner tomato
forget potato, youre now a tomato
but even his touches and affections were now limited
restricted
like the the next time you both saw each other, you shyly but happily bounded up to him and greeted him good morning
but his eyes widened, taking a step back before laughing awkwardly
âah ha ha, hey y/n-chanâ
oikawa greeted then side-stepped to enter the gym
god you felt like you were slapped in the face
you remained frozen, staring at the spot he previously occupied and your mind was running quickly
was it because your senses were now heightened that everything made you extra sensitive?
usually, oikawa would squeal at the fact you were even greeting him this morning but he literally just walked away from you
no, you were just,,,,
overreacting
right?
yea, just,,,
overreacting
iwa noticed your downcast expression and he had a feeling it had something to do with oikawaâs off expression
you hurriedly placed your bag down and took out your notebook to start taking notes for their practice
big boy ace went up to you and placed a hand on your arm which caused you to flinch
he immediately backed off, letting go and stepping back
âwh-hey? y/n? you okay? did something happen?â
he worriedly asked but you shook your head, not even bothering to meet his eyes
âuh-yea. mhm, perfectly fineâ
you lied and he wanted to press further but mattsun and makki called you over to check out their blocks so you ran to them
but he had a feeling you were just taking every opportunity to not answer his questions
while you were pre-occupied with the meme team, iwa marched up to oiks and tugged him around to fully talk to him
oikawa watched your interaction and he knew iwa would immediately start questioning him too
âoi, what the hell did you doâ
there was an underlying tone in his best friendâs voice that he didnt particularly like
oikawa did what he does best and plastered a smile on his face
âhm? what do you mean, iwa-chan?â
âwhat the hell do you mean what do i mean? you speak japanese dont you? so tell me what the hell happened during your date because it seems like shit happened and now youre both acting weirdâ
oikawa flinched at the blunt words but it was the truth
he was acting weird and this caused you to probably act weird too
god hes so dumb
but he,,, was going through stuff right now
it was a situation that he didnt want to involve you inÂ
and,,, seeing you dancing with natsu with the biggest smile on your face through the window of your house
okay guys dont think this is weird or stalker-ish bc i actually saw this in a kdrama ages ago and i thought it was just so sweet and cute and dont take it the weird and stalker creepy way :(
it certainly brought him pain
this was what he wanted though, right?
he wanted to see a reaction from you with his antics and he wanted to see you flustered and giggling like one of his lovestruck girls
but dear god that was when he became aware of your growing feelings
oikawa even saw it before you did with the way you gave him those longing stares and small smiles and the small squeezes of his hand when he would laugh
initially, he wouldve teased you for it but then he kept quiet
this entire time he knew you, he felt,,, love,,, for you
and by god, he was so scared
he wanted to run away
because he was well aware of his personality and him as a personÂ
he could make you smile the biggest and the happiest but he was also the type to make you feel the most pain and cause the deepest wounds on your already fragile heart
he didnt want that responsibility and burden
it was too risky
oikawa knew he was a ticking time bomb and he was afraid if you got even just a centimeter closer
you would be the one hit with the blast the most
maybe it was that sight that made him want to distance himself
it was a sight that made him realize that you deserved someone much better and that someone couldnât be him
the happiness that danced in your eyes and the smile that decorate your beautiful face
can you imagine the irony?
the moment you notice of your growing feelings, the moment he decides to withdraw and pull away
.......
practice was,,, suffocating?Â
the team knew of the tension these past few days and you both def were not the same
oikawa has not said he loved you or even pestered you once and as much as the guys hated seeing it, they were getting worried
did you both fight?
what happened?
when oikawa was talking with the coach and you were grabbing something from the storage room, they immediately took this chance to pounce on iwaizumi since he was the closest to the both of you
âoi, iwaizumi, the hell happened?â
makki asked and the others nodded, wondering the same thing
but they were surprised when he shrugged
âdont know. stupidkawa refuses to talk and i dont want to bother y/n bc she seems,,, weird about itâ
if iwaizumi didnt know, then something serious did happen
you and oikawa continued this weird eggshell walking and you even gave up after trying to ask so many times on what was wrong and only to be answered with,
ânothing~! y/n-chan should never have to worry her pretty little head about old me~!â
that answer didnt bother you
it was his smile
the genuine smile that you were so happy to receive as it was only for you
now seems gone and replaced with his fake one as if you now became one of his fangirls
what took the cake was his appearance to practice with a girl in his arm
they were both laughing and seemed trapped in their own little bubble to even notice the teamâs wide eyes and concerned looks to you
you didnt even notice your teary eyes until mattsun quite literally picked you up and shouted he wanted to help you fill up the water bottles
he placed you outside, sitting on a bench by the gym
you were biting your lip and staring at the ground while he was leaning back and looking at the sky
âthe sky is very pretty todayâ
he complimented but it wasnt heard by you
you only came back to reality when he nudged you gently and you shot him a crooked smile but he sighed at the look of hurt written all over your face
âoh, y/n, i am getting increasingly worried for our generation. theres so many sad eyes on happy facesâ
he tutted and returned to gazing back up to the clouds
you scrunched your nose and scoffed
âi dont understand you, mattsun-sanâ
you mumbled and fiddled with your fingers
mattsukawa issei shook his head and pointed above
ây/n-chan, our eyes enables us to identify beauty and we have the urge to immediately capture it to remember that we did find something beautiful. yet, we feel hopeless as we cant to put the beauty on paper because we are only given one crayon to draw the sunsetâ
it felt all muddled
there was no sense in his words and you were sniffed, trying to understand
âmattsun-san, did you eat any more of those candy makki-san bought from that one guy?â
he bursted into laughter and you couldnt help but quirk your lip at the sound of his joy
âwho knows? taka is my boy and i trust him so if he gave it to me, then,,,, it cant be that bad, right?â
you blanched
âmattsun-san! im not about to go pick you up from the er again just because makki-san dared you to do something!â
mattsun finally wandered his eyes over to you and he tucked a stray piece of hair behind your ear
âthats the thing with you, y/n-chan. youre quick to love others but you lose pieces of yourself in the process. i have no right to tell you who deserves it but please ask yourself, is that sacrifice worth it?â
you knew he wasnt talking about your love for the team
but for the love for a certain setter that didnt go unnoticed by the middle blocker
leave it to mattsun to make you laugh and you were letting out your last giggles as you stepped into the gym
oikawa stopped talking and focused on the two of you,Â
more specifically,
you
he watched as you laughed and swatted mattsunâs elbow as he jokingly made fun of your height by resting his arm on top of your head
yes this was what it was supposed to be
you deserved someone who could make you smile and only smile
he doesnt even hesitate but even imagine the tears that would fill those beautiful eyes and he knows it would all be his fault
no
he will stop that from happening way before it would occur
he will do anything to make sure you will never cry because of him so he will distance himself and now, he gives up
it could just be his stress and insecurities talking but he knows right now,
he wants you away from him
oikawa tooru, the boy who could get anyone he wants, couldnât get the girl he wishes for the most
dear god was it laughable
after practice was finished,
you quietly and quickly packed up the nets and picked up the balls to get yourself out of there
these past few days made you feel so much confusion that it hurts
if there was anything worse than him not talking to you,
it was not knowing whyÂ
that curiosity and desperate need for answers creates wild and self-destructive theoriesÂ
did you chew too loudly when you ate?
were you boring and not as fun as the others?
was he angry and humiliated of his pride as a man when you scolded him for paying for you?
has he gotten tired of you now that he knows who you really are?
that last question suddenly created a new set of tears to appear
throughout the day, you were so composed and distracted yourself with the lectures of your teachers and not anything of why this certain brunette was avoiding you
but a single insecure question made that wall crumble and you hurriedly shoved the trolley of balls into the storage room and grabbed your bag before rushing out of there
you sniffled and hurriedly walked home so you could go and cry on your bed in peace
but ofcÂ
hiroshi natsu exists so ofc he distracted you when you entered the house with a red puffy face
quietly, he led you to the couch and he wordlessly grabbed a tissue box from the coffee table to dab away the tears
you sniffled and clenched your fists to will yourself to stop these dumb salty water drops
âi cant tell you its going to be okay because i dont want you to cling on to false hope. but i know it hurts. its worse that of all people, oikawa tooru had to be your first ever crushâ
he chuckled
you took a shaky breath and wiped your face
âthis was why i shouldnt have liked him. god! all we did was eat dinner and look at the stupid fcking sky! thats it! so why-! why do i suddenly like him?! AM I THAT DESPERATE?!â
you wailed and blew your nose while natsu patted your back
âi mean,,, to others it sounds like youre easy to swayâ
you looked up from the tissue to glare at him but he continued
âbut to me,,,, it sounds like it was just the last push you needed to finally see oikawa tooru in that wayâ
you nodded, laughing weakly
âi dont know why im acting like a lunatic like this. hes just a crush anyway so itâll probably fade in a day or two so bear with me until then, kay?â
but his grim shake of his head gave you no hope
ârather than fade, it will grow. and i might have to bear with this for the rest of our lives. now you be a bad bitch and sit there and look fine as hell while i go order 10 boxes of pizza and load up teen momsâ
the impromptu movie night distracted you a little bit from it all but you still couldnât help but think about it
GOD WHY WAS NATSU SO DRAMATIC?!
BECAUSE OF THAT IDIOT YOU ARE NOW SITTING IN CLASS, BAGS UNDER YOUR EYES, AND BREAKING YOUR PENCILS IN HALF
all you have to do is make sure you think of oikawa doing something disgusting to make that attraction fade away
oikawa licking his toes
oikawa licking his toes
oikawa licking his toes
oikawa licking his-
ây/n?â
you snapped out of your daydream when kunimi reached out to you
kindaichi, who came over for lunch, and him were staring at you in concern and they shared a look
ây/n, something mustâve happened that day with captainâ
kunimi started but kindaichi snapped
âsee?! this is why we shouldve never let you go! the first time you go with him and now youre a mess! tell us! did he force himself on you?! did he-?!â
you stopped the onion top boy with a forced smile and a squeeze on the arm
âo-oikawa-san would never do that, kindaichi. hes better than thatâ
âbut clearly not because look at you!â
he shouted and you flinchedÂ
kunimi hurriedly knocked him to the floor
âget ahold of yourself, kindaichiâ
he mumbled and you stood up and walked to the bathroom at the west wing that nobody uses so you could freely cry without any suspicion
was it obvious?
was it clear that you have been a mess after a week of being ignored by oikawa?
nah, youre just being a dramatic little shit
youre sticking to your word of quickly forgetting about the whole ordeal
but you definitely cant if your nightmare was happening before your eyes
as you approached the bathroom from the end of the hallway,Â
you saw an unknown girl but an all too familiar boy giggling and rushing to get inside the bathroom
and for good measure, oikawa looked around to make sure no one was there but then he saw you
despite the distance between you, he could see your glistening eyes from the sunlight that seeped in from the big windows
he saw the way your hand trembled and your eyes twitched when haruna poked her head out to see why he was still outside
âoikawa-senpai~~â
she drawled out and reached a manicured nail to his wristÂ
your eyes followed her touch and then you and the boy shared eye contact
through the watery eyes, he could clearly make out your silent plead
please dont go to her
please
stay with me
dont go
but he went in anyways
------
that was the moment you forced yourself to not think about him anymore
as if you werent even working your hardest lately, you will work your hardest now
everything between you and him was now strictly professional as practice that day signified the very first day of your moving on stage
you couldnt believe these past 2 weeks has been a real nightmare yet you were slowly waking up from it
there was nothing you could do about it bc oikawa obviously didnt mean anything he said to you and maybe thats what ticked you off the most
you were easily led on
he blindly tugged you along the moment you saw his smile
he definitely thought of you as just as a game and when he finally got tired and bored, he dropped you and went to another
kunimi and kindaichi noticed the coldness of your eyes and the stoic expression on your face and they were genuinely terrified of you so they didnt want to ask any questions
even with packing up, you aggeressively shoved everything in your bag and the blep boy finally gained the courage and nervously tapped his finger on your desk to gain your attention
you swiftly dropped in your pencil case and looked at him
âwhatâ
he flinched at the cold tone and his eyes showed concern
âuh-i-are you okay?â
he slowly asked and you visibly clenched your jaw but you nodded anyways
ânever betterâ
you didnt bother waiting for him to finish packing up and even passed kindaichi by the door as you were walking towards the girlâs locker room to change into your manager outfit
your entrance to the gym made the noise die down and you noticed the third years with glares on and aggressively practicing
âwhats wrong with all of youâ
you asked and iwa scoffed before shaking his head and opening his arm
âcmere. i missed youâ
he said and ngl you were a little confused bc this wasnt something iwa usually did but you still stuck to his side
âwhy-â
âhe told me what happenedâ
iwa whispered and you stiffened in his arms
âw-what?â
iwaizumi flung the boy to his own bedroom wall
he huffed, panting at both the weight of oikawa tooru and the intense anger that burned through his veins
âyou-you are a piece of shit!â
he shouted and he moved to grab oikawaâs collar and lifted him so the brunette could see the fire and disgust present in his olive eyes
âyou think i didnt see what the hell you did? fcking leaving y/n sobbing as you-you-! AGH!â
iwaizumi couldnt even finish his sentence as he was so angry that he harshly sent oikawa flying back down to his floor
oikawa was crying
not from the beating
but from his regrets
god he knew he messed up
he shouldnt have done it
but he did
iwa ran his hands through his hair and angrily sat on his best friendâs bed, eyes shooting daggers at oikawa
âright now. tell me the truth right fcking now or so help me godâ
he hissedÂ
oikawa tooru shuffled closer to the wall and brought his knees up to his chest
âim so scaredâ
he sobbed
âim so scared, iwa-chanâ
his tears were pouring down and he brought a hand to muffle his cries
âi-i just w-wanted to-to see something out of her. li-like a reaction! because she wasnt like th-the others! but instead i fell in love! me! and she did too!â
he pointed and quickly stood up, pacing and gripping his hair
âit was all just for fun! she-she knows im like that! yet she still fell in love with me!â
âhow could you tell she-â
âBECAUSE OF HER EYES!â
even iwa flinched
âHER EYES SHOWED ME LOVE! HAPPINESS! AN-AND YOU KNOW WHAT SHE DID?! WHEN SHE GOT HOME?! THROUGH HER WINDOW, I SAW HER DANCING! SO HAPPY SHE WAS DRAGGING THAT BASTARD COUSIN OF HERS AROUND! I DID THAT! I CAUSED THAT!â
there was so much confusion in this poor spiky haired boy bc he knew oikawa was in love with their manager so why is he avoiding her now even though she reciprocates those feelings?
âim missing something here, oikawa. youre telling me, she loves you, but youre here regretting that?â
his tone of disbelief made oikawa shut his eyes in frustration
âDONT YOU UNDERSTAND?! YOU CALL ME A PIECE OF SHIT EVERYDAY AND I KNOW THAT! I FCKING KNOW THAT IM A PIECE OF SHIT AND A FCKING BASTARD!â
he shrieked
thankfully, his family wasnt home currently to see him breakdown
âSO WHY THE HELL DO I DESERVE A LITERAL ANGEL?! A GODDESS?! A BEAUTIFUL PERSON FOR ME?! A FCKED UP NARCISSIST EGOTISTICAL IDIOT?! AN IDIOT WHOâS TOO PRIDEFUL TO GET THE HELP HE NEEDS?! I COULD HURT HER! I COULD DESTROY HER IN A SINGLE SNAP! THE SCARIEST FACT IS I COULD DO IT WITHOUT THINKING! I COULD SAY THE WORST THINGS TO HER AND IM SO SCARED THAT I WILL HURT HER! I DONT DESERVE HER, IWA! SHE DESERVES SOME-SOMEONE LIKE YOU! AND IT HURTS TO THINK THAT BUT I DONT CARE! A-AND WHAT IF WE GET TOGETHER?! HM?! HOW LONG DO YOU THINK IT WOULD TAKE HER TILL SHE FINDS SOMEONE BETTER?! HOW MUCH CAN SHE TAKE OF GOING THROUGH EPISODES OF SOME DEPRESSED, INSECURE, PRIDEFUL ASHOLE LIKE ME?! HOW LONG DO YOU THINK SHE WOULD REALIZE HER SELF-WORTH AND KNOW HOW MUCH OF A SHITTY PERSON I AM?! I CANT-!â
iwaizumi pushed himself up from the bed and rushed to grab his best friend before forcing the brown haired boy to his chest
oikawa tooru was having a panic attack
he heaved and wheezed and loudly let out his cries and iwa made them sit on the floor where he could comfortably cry
âyoure such an idiot, tooru. but she knows that, doesnât she? she knows who you are, what you are, how you are, your flaws, everything- she knows all that. yet she still fell for you, doesnt that tell you something? for once in your life, consider other peopleâs feelings before yours. y/n is one hell of a girl and i wont allow you to let her slip past you just like that. i know- we all know- how much of a broken person you are, oikawa, and it hurts us all to know that no matter what we do, we can never fix you. but y/n-gosh, y/n is the only person to even have a chance to do that. and you admitted that youre depressed and you have a problem? well,, get some help for that, oikawa. the first step to be better is by accepting the only person who can accept you for youâ
iwaizumi didnt reveal to the other third years of what happened but just said that oikawa did a really terrible thing to you and hes currently repenting for it
however mattsun and makki pretended they didnt hear oikawa regretting it and focused on the fact that the captain even had the NERVE to hurt you
iwa squeezed you tightly and you returned the hug
but he whispered something in your ear
âeveryone makes mistakes, y/n. the only thing we can do is to repent for themâ
you pulled away, about to ask him what hes talking about but one look from his eyes made you realize what he was talking about
he mustve known what happened but hes defending him
you clenched your jaw and looked away
âi destroyed myself for a stupid reason and its one of my regrets. im not going to make the same mistake twiceâ
you quietly hissed and moved to your station by the bench to begin taking your notes
you noticed that oikawa was late for practice today and although you kinda hate him, you are still a manager first and he was one of your responsibilities
you were about to go to the coach and tell him youâd look for the setter when the gym door slid and in came the devil himself
but there was a large bruise on his cheek and a cut on his lip
your feet moved quicker than the rest of you that you were in front of him in a second
âwhat happened to youâ
you worriedly asked and oikawa just stared at you
his eyes shook and watered at the sight of you
this was the first time you talked to him without any coldness in your tone and he missed it
he missed hearing you
his silence made you roll your eyes and you roughly grabbed his arm before throwing him on the bench you were sitting on
the team watched, on edge of whats happening, but was put back to practice when you gave them a side-eye
your fingers opened the ointment and your kit to treat the bleeding lip and the swollen side of his face
âyoure the captain. its not wise to fight before practice and be late. youre hindering everyone elseâ
you coldly scolded and oikawa shrank back
âit was iwa-chanâ
he mumbled and you stopped and quirked an eyebrow
âwhat? why did he-â
then you froze
iwa knew
and he beat oikawa up for it
he fought his best friend for it
and iwa didnt look fazed at all
despite being a muscle freak, iwa was very soft and his iron defiency made him prone to bruising
yet why was he so clean
it was like iwa hit oikawa but in turn, the other didnt fight back
no
you must stop
youre overthinking again and youre over analyzing it and youll end up at the place you were before
however
oikawa noticed the dawn of realization on your face and he shakily reached out to touch your hand
âi,,, didnt. because i deserved it. i-â
he sniffed and you knew he would start crying right now
the last thing he wanted would be to cry in front of the others so you immediately stood up and went to the coach
âcoach, oikawa-san needs treatment that i dont currently have with me. i would need to take him to the infirmaryâ
he nodded and waved you off so you had the clear
oikawa flinched when you harshly grabbed his arm and pulled him up so he could follow you out the door
it was such an awkward silence between you both but you bit your lip, focusing on the fact that you were just doing this bc he was your obligation
it was like you threw him to one of the cots then you rummaged through the medicine cabinet for an extra cotton ball and a better ointment
âi fcked up, y/nâ
your movements halted and your eyes drifted down, looking at the tiled floor
âi messed up so badâ
he hoarsely said and you could tell how much pain he was going through by the way he let out a shaky breath
âoika-â
you made a move to turn around but he stopped you
âno! dont look at me! just-just dont,,, i cant-i wont be able to say it if i look at youâ
he cried and you nodded
oikawa leaned his forehead on his intertwined hands with his eyes on the floor before starting
âi want to say im sorry. because everything, all of this, it all started as a game to meâ
you closed your eyes tightly, tears welling up in your eyes
âyou,,, you didnt bat a single eyelash at me. you didnt try to please me, you didnt chase after me, no, you didnt see me like that. it made me,,, i dont know,,, confused,,, that girls like you even existed. it,,, not gonna lie, ticked me off and i was offended that you brushed me away so easily like i was some,, some bug on your shoulder. so,,, i wanted to see,,, and try,,, if i could make you,,, like me. and i know! i know its messed up but god y/n i swear i didnt want to hurt you. i just,,, i wanted to see if i could ever make you look at me like the way they did but it backfired. i wanted you to chase me but in the end, i ended up chasing after you. i chased and i ran without knowing that you were slowing down for me so i could catch you. that,,, that date made me realize of how,,, how perfect and beautiful you are a-and how unworthy i am to even receive anything from you. i saw how happy you were after that, dancing, twirling that poor idiot around. at first,, it made me so so proud. and so happy that i made you do that. i put those stars from the sky into your eyes and somehow you made them shine much brighter. then,,,, i got scared. i started thinking about,,, about me. and how i am. ive been trying so hard to please other people that ive lost sight of the real me and how terrible i am. and y-you! i just- y/n its so hard for me to explain all this right now- my current mental state, the pain on my face- i cant,,, but at that moment i realized that you,,, you were better off without me. youre so kind, so beautiful, so smart, you could go do so many good things in life. and im just going to hold you back. i didnt want to hurt you so i,,, chose to just cut the string now and,, we wont get hurt later. but,,, i regret it. i regret it so much, y/n. all my life,,, everyone cooed and awed at this child just because of how he looked like and,,, he got used to it. everyone wanted me because i am oikawa tooru but they didnt want the entire oikawa tooru. iwa,,, iwa hit it into my head that,,, you,, were the only one who bothered to even see that side of meâ
when he finished, he looked up but gasped at the sight of you standing in front of him
fat tears were rolling down your face and you wore the angriest expression
âi-,,,i hate you so much, oikawa tooruâ
you seethed
your eyebrows were scrunched up together and your nostrils flared as you cried harder and you let out a cry
âi hate you, i hate you, i hate youâ
you chanted and oikawa saw his vision cracking
his world was now falling apart
he did the last thing he would ever do and you were now at your most pained moment
âyoure so selfish, impulsive, and terribleâ
you whined and punched his shoulder at each word
âbut i love you so much. i hate you because you made me cry and made me feel so hurt but i still love you. why-why cant you stop playing your games, tooru? stop playing with me now! stop it! stop-!â
you didnt get to say anything else because he grabbed your waist and held you in his arms
it was like you didnt even weigh a thing by the way he lifted you to sit on his lap and he gently led your face to his neck
âim so sorryâ
he repeated constantly while brushing your hair and rubbing your waist
you and oikawa tooru spent an hour sitting on that bed just cryingÂ
after a while, you stopped and resulted to just hiccuping
âyoure selfish, tooru. you listened to yourself and did whatever you wanted rather than talking to me. i hate you but i,,, i love you, oikawa-san. i shouldnt say that but if i dont, im afraid youâll go ahead and do something stupid againâ
he chuckled but he squeezed you tighter
âi dont,,, want to let you go, y/n-chan. let me be selfish a little longer and love you all to myselfâ
and by god did he become selfish
it took you a while to get over your defensive and guarded actions from him but you were slowly finding yourself forgiving him
YO IM SORRY BUT I WOULDVE DROPPED HIM LIKE PLEASE WHAT THE HECK Y/N REALLY REALLY LOVES THIS GUY
natsu absolutely despises him still and whenever oikawa even comes over, hes always glaring at him and oikawa would shift uncomfortably but accept it bc he deserved it
âi didnt realize how badly i hurt you, y/n. i could never imagine you accepting me still. ill spend the rest of my life making it up to youâ
he promised and you laughed
you were both lounging on your bedroom floor, mean girls playing in the background, while just staring at the ceiling
you brought your clasped hands up so you could look at it
then a goofy smile settled on your face and you turned to look at him
âjust continue loving me, oikawa-san. thats all i ask forâ
then graduation came
of course the boys were all teary but oikawa seemed even more sad and he refused to look at you the whole day
you figured it could just be him being mopey over not seeing you everyday like he was able to before
then you both were walking home and he still hasnt looked at you
the silence was killing you but you just kept a tight grip on his hand and he would smile at you and kiss your hands
it still didnt wash away the odd feeling in your stomach but you would talk to him later after you gave him present
for the weekend, you were able to convince your parents to go on a beach trip at okinawa while you made natsu go over to tokyo and stay with katsuki
oikawa didnt know your family was out so he stood by your door, waiting for you to enter
you both stood there, staring at the floor, not knowing what to say
until you softly grabbed his hand
âcome in. i want,,, to talkâ
you mumbled and oikawaâs eyes widened, silently panicking that you possibly found out
it was a secret not even iwaizumi knew so you couldnt have known
right?
you led him up to your room and pushed him down to sit on your bed
FLKDSJFLKDJ WHY AM I DOING THIS WHAT IS HAPPENING SOSOSOSOSOSOSOS
ALSO Y/N IS NOW 17 ON THIS YOU GUYS LIKE BLS SHES ONE OF THE OLDEST IN HER CLASS BC HER BIRTHDAY SITUATION SO SHES BEYOND THE AGE OF CONSENT IN JAPAN, RIGHT?
oikawa was confused and he watched you bite your lip and look off to the side
ây/n-chan? why are you nervous? you said you wanted to talk?â
he asked
but you unzipped your skirt and let it drop on the floor
âfor graduating,,, and working hard for these years,,, im giving you thisâ
you finally met his eyes
then he knew
oikawa blanched and he quickly stood up and placed his hands on your shoulder
ây-y/n! uh-i-are you sure? a-arent you-â
âaccept it, tooru. youre,,, my first love,,, so,,,, ill give you my other firstâ
KSDLFJSDKFJSDLK OKAY YALL LETS STOP THERE FOR NOW AND GO TO THE TIMESKIP OKAY?
OKAY
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oikawa was running in the airport
despite the shouts of civilians he accidentally pushed, he made no sign of stopping and if anything, ran faster till he reached outside
the rush of his sudden trip home was clear as he was only carrying a duffel bag full of clothing he hurriedly stuffed insideÂ
when he met the orange ninja boy in brazil, he quickly caught up with his underclassman and got drinks to talk about japan the last 2 years of his career
they both got simple beers and some appetizer to share as they reminisced the past
hinata was excitedly talking about the reconciliation of kindaichi and kageyama and how they were still enemies on court but were now friends
âeh~? tobio-chan making up with kin-chan? whatâs next? flying sushi?â
he joked and hinata laughed
âit was partly of your manager, oikawa-san! she helped them make up!â
the previous smile on oikawaâs face slipped at the mention of youÂ
âhmm,,,, she always made the impossible happenâ
he mumbled and hinata nodded
âl/n-chan became close to kageyama through kindaichi and kunimi and she would bring us food and stuff too! but only on times she wasnât busyâ
the ninja said and dipped his chip into the salsa while oikawa stared at the liquid
âyou guys must be special for her to go all the way to karasunoâ
then hinata said something that caused the brunetteâs ears to fall deaf to the loudness of the bar
âit wasnât a problem since coach ukai took care of her sonâ
oikawa didnt even give hinata another word when he rushed out of that bar after overcoming his shock and straight into his apartment
there were tears that blurred his vision as he shoved in shirts and pants and other necessities for a trip to japan
he argued with the front desk lady to give him a ticket to the earliest flight to japan despite her saying that it was hard to give him a seat when the plane was full
but luck seemed to pity this baby daddy as someone pulled their ticket out and he was able to take it for himself
it was the longest journey of his life and his hour long layover gave him an opportunity to call the only person he thought would even know where you were
iwaizumi
oikawa paced at the waiting lobby with his phone pressed to his ear as he listened to the ringing of his call
he bit his lip in anticipation and ran his fingers through his hair for the upteenth time until finally it was picked up
âdamn you, shittykawa, do you understand what time-â
âiwaizumi, is y/n still in japan?â
of course his best friend was startled with the question as the setter hasnt asked him any question related to you in a few years
âwha-how the hell am i supposed to know that? im in california, oikawaâ
âdont lie to me. she still talks to you since youre probably the godfather of my sonâ
he hissed and iwaizumi was now fully awake and his heartbeat was beating quite quicklyÂ
how did he figure out
âoi, oikawa, listen to me she-â
âplease! dont!â
he shouted and didnt care if he startled anyone else around him
âdont lie to me! of all people! you dont lie to me!â
âwhy should i tell you when you were the one who up and ran? huh?â
oikawa fell silent and iwaizumi could hear his sobs through the phone
iwa sat up on his bed, leaning against the wall as he contemplated revealing this secret you begged him to keep since his best friend sounded like he was on the verge of breaking apart
poor oikawa tooru already suffered so much
âi swear youre going to make me regret this. but y/n is in,,,, tokyo and,,,,, she,,,,,, didnt want you to know about,,,, about everything. well-she did want to tell you but she had her own reasons not to and,,, and its perfectly valid for her to choose whatever she wanted. and yes, i knew and yes, i am his godfather but please, oikawa, whatever you do, dont go to japan, you understand? shes still hurt by it, idiot, and shes angry and you sound angry and-â
but of course,
oikawa didnt listen and he hung up but continued his pacing but this time, tears blurring his vision
the taxi driver noticed his frazzled expression and quickly stopped in front of him
oikawa gratefully hopped in and quickly told the driver the address he forced out of iwaizumi (with great reluctance)
âthis is the last time, understand me, tooru? youve already hurt her so many times and i cant bear to see it all over again so you need to fix it. but you mess this up again, not only will you lose her, youâll lose me tooâ
the old man felt sorry for the young lad and stepped on the pedal to get him to his destination in the quickest timeÂ
the apartment building was several stories tall yet the elevator ride felt like a snap when he finally arrived at the floor your apartment was supposedly on
what the real kicker was when he stood outside your door and he hesitated
would you let him in?
would you even want to see him?
would you punch him?
would you cry?
he was so worried but didnt realize that he already pushed the doorbell and a faint shout from inside made his heart jump
âUNCLE KYOOoooo,,,,,â
the door opened and the boyâs voice went quiet, knowing this wasnt the man he was expecting and he quickly and harshly slammed the door shut to his face
oikawa was stunned
was this the right apartment?
did iwaizumi trick him?
but those thoughts were wiped away when the door opened again and a girl was softly chiding the boy before turning around with a smile to greet the person but then it fell
similar to her son, she slammed the door shut and oikawa panicked
ây-y/n? h-hey!â
he exclaimed and with a clenched fist, he stood there
you were hyperventilating inside
how did he find you?
why is he here?
does he know?
âmama? whoâs that oji?â
the bright eyes of yozora looked up at you and you blinked, briefly seeing the man behind the door at the face of your son
you sucked in a deep breath before smiling lightly
âyoyo-kun, can you go play with dino-kun while mama and oji talk?â
yozora blinked back up at you before shrugging and nodding and running off to your shared room
once he was gone, you quickly composed yourself and opened the door again, shocked to see oikawa already half-way down the hallway to the elevator
âwould you like some tea before you go?â
you called out and he stopped, almost giving himself whiplash at how fast he turned his head
it was like his instincts took over when your voice started speaking to him
as if he was 18 again, oikawa found himself trailing after your voice and you nervously led him inside
his eyes were moving really fast as if he wanted to quickly soak it all in before it would disappear
this was where you lived
with your son
who was his son too
there was a picture by the door of you and the little boy from earlier
it was at the planetarium nearby and tooruâs heart bloomed at the sparkle in that childâs eyes
jesus, he was beautiful
âyozora. thats his nameâ
you said, noticing him staring at the picture
KDFLJSDKFSD PRINCE NOCTIS LUCIS CAELUM BABIESSS!!!
ânight skyâ
oikawa whispered
the teapot was still hot and you were able to pour him a cup so you both sat on the dining table where he sat across from you
ân-nice placeâ
he stuttered out
you nodded, tracing the rim of your own cup
âits natsuâs and katsukiâs actually. my parents kicked me out so they offered to let me stay with themâ
you reasoned, not meaning to sound cold but it came out as if you were being passive agressive
âo-oh? ho-how is he-â
âoikawa-san, what are you doing here?â
he visibly flinched
calling him by his last name stung since you called him âtooruâ the whole relationship so returning to his surname is your way of cutting off the whole thing
âi,,, i found out. a few days ago. from shoyo. he told me their coach looked after yozora and,,, i knew he is,,, mineâ
you let out a humorless chuckle
a scoff
then you looked up to meet his gaze, oikawa gulping at the hardness in your eyes
âwhat makes you think so? what makes you think that i wasnt angry and spiteful enough to give myself to someone else so they could have what the great oikawa tooru had? what makes you think that i would remain loyal to you despite you just running off to the other side of the fcking world without a word? hm? oikawa-san? what.makes.you.think.so?â
out of guilt, he broke the stare to his own steaming cup of green tea
ânothingâ
you whispered
he shakingly sighed and you could tell he was about to cry
but you rolled your eyes and crossed your arms
âgo ahead and cry, oikawa-san. im used to temper tantrums. i have a son for godâs sakeâ
âyou would never do that to me, y/n. you promised that you would always love me and only me and i know you take promises to your graveâ
he reasoned but it sounded like it was him convincing himself
the dry laugh you let out made him fidget
âand you promised that you would always talk to me and communicate. yours is a much lighter and easier promise than mine yet you get to break it and i canât? no, oikawa-san. to me, its like that year never even happenedâ
you were now just trying to rile him up due to your anger towards him
you shouldve let him walk to the elevator and leave and never come back
but you still invited him in anyways
oikawa snapped his head up
âyou cant say that or mean it, y/n. that boy over there, hes a reminder of me. he looks exactly like me so you cant ever forget what we haveâ
âwhat he had. it was simply the past, years ago, and everything has changed since then. dont you dare try to dig up buried secrets, oikawaâ
âbut why did you keep him from me?â
he pleaded, desperate for any answer as to why
âi had every right. the moment you boarded that plane, he no longer was yours. you left, i stayed, and you cant just come back here and-â
âmama?â
a small voice from the corner halted your loud voice and you and tooru looked at him
oikawa yozora was exactly like his father
from his loud and obnoxious personality to even the brown hair and brown eyes
KFDSLJFKDS REMEMBER THAT KID FROM OLD UKAIâS VOLLEYBALL CLUB?! THATS WHAT HE LOOKS LIKE!!
he looked absolutely nothing like you and people even get confused when you say hes your son
um maam i think hes my son since he came out of me
so oikawa was right
yozora was your daily reminder of the mistakes of your youth but he was anything but that as he is the greatest thing to ever happen to you
yozora became your light when you fell into depression after oikawa ran away
sure, your parents absolutely loathed poor child as he is a child of a child
but you kept him because he means the world to you
and the world he holds are in his eyes
âi,, i heard yelling,,, and,,, thought mama and oji were sad,,, so,,, i bring my,,, star book because,,, it makes me happy,,, and i think,,, mama and oji will,,, be happy tooâ
he mumbled out and you smiled at him before moving to go to him but oikawa stopped you
his eyes begged you and you glared at him, deciding to withdraw
if he decides to do anything, you could always knee him between the legs
he slowly approached yozo and kneeled down to reach eye-level
âhello, my name is oikawa tooruâ
he softly introduced himself and yozora just stared at him
âyou oikawa too? but i oikawa! mama is he me?!â
yozora shouted and you giggled, running to take him into your arms
âoh, darling, how curious you are. oji isnt you, baby. he just,,, has the same last name as you. like mama has hers but you have,,, ojiâsâ
your eyes drifted to oikawa but he remained on the floor, staring at the spot where yozo stood on
you kept his last name
you listened to him from that night at the hill by naming his son after the night sky
my god, you are so,,,Â
â--the book. oji? do you?â
he was brought back to reality when your son was now back on the floor and poking his shoulder
tooru blinked and looked at him
âhuh?â
âi ask if you want to read my book with me, oji. mama say she happy but you still sad so my book make you happyâ
not even an hour of meeting him, oikawa tooru already loves him
the volleyball player nodded and yozora offered a tiny hand to which he accepted
âthis way. mama say to read so she make food. i like food, do you like food, oji? i like food. i like milk bread. mama say papa like it so i like what papa like. i want papa to come home. sit thereâ
tooruâs heart beat faster every word his child uttered and it even went faster when he saw yozo struggle to get up on the couch
the pair of big hands that brought him on the cushion made him happily sigh then uttered a small âthank youâ
âmy mama say that my papa give me my book and say to take care of it until he come back. and she say he come back when im a master of space! so i study and read my book every day and know all so papa can hurry home!â
tooru didnt even notice tears falling down his face until yozo blinked up at him with his small hands grasping his cheeks to wipe it off
âwhy you cry, oji? no sad! no sad! here! i read my book so you not cryâ
he babbled and quickly pried the book open and read out the words on the page, not realizing he was saying most of it wrong
that book was oikawaâs
the book that he read all the time in the bus and now, it was passed on to his son
you leaned against the wall and gasped at the sight of yozo just babbling and oikawa crying
âyoyo-kun? what did you do to tooru?â
you fussed and sat down next to oikawa
yozo worriedly looked at him and now his own eyes were watering and soon enough, you have 2 boys crying in your living room
GURL IM SORRY BUT I WOULDA KICKED OUT OIKAWA LIKE NOT EVEN OFFER HIM TEA OR ANYTHING IM SORRY IM TIRED AND IDK WHATS GOING ON
âa-ah, y-yozo! yozo-kun! oji is,,, just,,, uh,, sad because,, because pluto isnt a planet anymore!â
yozo sniffled and he went closer to oikawa
âme too, oji. yoyo sad too because pluto is just small. other planet are onii-chan and onee-chan but pluto is baby so they not like himâ
he rambled and oikawa pulled him closer
âmama, can we keep oji? nana-san and katsu-san will like him! promise!â
you couldnt even believe what was going on right now
not only did your baby daddy ex-boyfriend suddenly pop up, your son was now wanting to keep him
you made a move to of course deny his request but oikawa opened his mouth first
âyozora-kun, of course you could keep me. im your papa, after allâ
OKAY THAT WAS IT
YOU DID NOT WANT HIM TO SAY THAT TO YOZORA
out of shock, you slapped him across the face
causing yanno what happened
oikawa screamed
a/n: yoooooo SO LIKE THIS IS RIDICULOUS LIKE THIS IS BOOTY IM SORRY BUT THIS IS ALSO IN MY GOING TO EDIT LIST AND I CHOSE THIS OUT OF MY 10 OTHER VERSIONS OF THIS ROUTE AND I MAY OR MAY NOT RELEASE ANOTHER ONE JUST TO MAKE UP FOR IT. but try not to let this flop đĽşÂ đđ
ALSO CHI THAT K+Y AND THE T+Y IS ON THE WORKS RN AND IM LIKE HALF WAY DONE SO I MIGHT RELEASE THEM BOTH AT THE SAME TIME
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Can I respond to you little fandom rant?
In all honesty I used to be one of *those* assholes. I used to look down on short fics, see them and be all like, "blah did they even put effort into this?? It's so shot that's barely a thing why bother." But you know what happened, I fell off my fucking high horse because I actually started reading shorter fics! And like how he hell do people cram so much passion, emotion, story, hotness, into so few words! That in and of its self is a talent! Its like fucking poetry man!
Fandom can be great but it's also sadly a hellhole at times and that is just fucking sad because we are a God damn community and should act like it! Why is the mentality of respect peoples works, write what you like, don't read what you don't like so freaking hard to wrap your head around?
Just be happy and grateful for the content you enjoy and ignor the stuff you don't enjoy. Simple as that. So any way as a reformed asshole that used to look down on drabble/ficlet writers, I would like to apologize for all the idiotic tomfuckery.
Ps. Your works are great, and please never fell guilty for not reading something. Fics shouldn't cause stress and anxiety they are for fun and relaxation. Assuming your friends are good people I'm sure they would agree!
Yeah I find it easy to tell other people I never expect them to read my fic, but a whole lot harder not to feel guilty for not reading All of the Things myself đđ
Anyway I'm too tired to get my thoughts in very good order today (I probably should know better than to reblog while angry, but I can't say I really regret it either đ
)... but that's the thing, innit. I don't care if people don't want to read short fics, or long fics, they're allowed to have preferences! And like everything else, nobody needs to justify those preferences to anyone.
It's when I start seeing those personal preferences touted as Better Than or Worse Than that I get upset. I don't think I've met a single fic writer who doesn't get anxious about whether their fic is good enough on every possible front, and fic length is no exception. I've seen people who write longer works go "ugh I just wish I could write something short for once, how do they do it??", and I've seen people who write shorter things go "Idk if I should even post this, it's not long enough and I'll just clog the tag".
In about a single week's span of time, I saw one writer friend get an anon ask from someone who was apparently annoyed at how much time they "wasted" reading part of their incredibly epic beast of a longfic; and then I see another writer friend get an anon telling them they shouldn't write so much short fic cause longer stuff is better. Short and long works are different things. Neither one is inherently better or reflects more talent than the other, they use different skills. And the great thing about fandom is that there is a place for all of it, and there is stuff out there for all different preferences.
But fic writers already tend to be, on the whole, little bundles of constant anxiety about our writing. Seeing flippantly dismissive or downright mean comments about the type of writing we do is enough to bring anyone down, particular on an already-bad day / week / month / year.
So anyway... idk if any of that made sense, but thank you for the response đ And I'm glad you found that you do like short fics as well!
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Something Strange In The Air (Part 2)
Word Count: 2544
Summary: In the aftermath of your...incident with Michael, youâre still tumbling to figure out what youâre doing.Â
Warnings: Itâs probably bad idk, oral (male receiving), face fucking, degradation, Mean!Michael & Being Mean To Michael, blue balls, waxing poetic, lots of cursing (as always), idk i canât think of any othersÂ
A/N: Sorry this is really short and sorry it took so long Iâm in college so Iâve been busy and I was writing a oneshot for a different fandom which took some time, the next chapter will have more plot to it and stuff I promise, my apologies for shitty writing and being a super slow writer, Iâm doing my best I promise. As always, comments (even just in the tags) are always ultra appreciated!!!!!
Mini Tags: @wroteclassicaly @1-666-coven @michaellangdonstanaccount uhhh there are others but i canât remember if i forgot to tag you iâm sorry pls remind meÂ
ALSO I PUT IN THE KEEP READING THING BUT IT REFUSES TO WORK SO SORRY ABOUT THAT
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There was poetry flashing through your mind.
Some say the world will end in fire
Bits and pieces.Â
Death, be not proud
You couldnât get him off your mind.Â
Doing a manâs work, though a child at heartÂ
Couldnât get your dream off your mind.Â
For the moon never beams, without bringing me dreamsÂ
The way he had looked at you, in it, how he had held your hand.
He kindly stopped for me-
Michael often called you little witch,
Leave my loneliness unbrokenÂ
But he had never called you his little witch, as he had in the dream.Â
There will be time to murder and create
He was beautiful, almost angelic in appearance, you had to admit.
From what Iâve tasted of desire
And he pulled you in, in spite of how hard you tried to ignore it
I can no longer remain away from you
It was almost disgusting, how much you thought about him.Â
Curse, bless, me now with your tears, I pray
There was something about him that frightened you.
One short sleep past, we wake eternally
A lot about him that frightened you, actually.Â
A waking on a morn
âY/N,â Cordelia spoke, and you could tell from her tone that this wasnât the first time sheâd said your name, âAre you with me?âÂ
Shit, youâd gotten distracted.Â
Youâd been called to a meeting in Cordeliaâs office, made it to one of the chairs, and immediately spaced out.Â
You hadnât really seen Michael in almost a week, nothing more than passing glimpses in the halls and quick pulses of his energy in the air. Youâd been avoiding him. Or maybe heâd been avoiding you. Honestly, you couldnât remember. You hadnât spent a single night in your bedroom, instead floating around to parties and going to the swamps to practice your magic rather than spend time in the study room.Â
Fuck, things were getting complicated.
âIâm with you,â You smiled cautiously at her, âIâm sorry.âÂ
She smiled back, something you couldnât quite determine just behind her eyes. Concern, of course, her whole aura was clearly very concerned, but something else, and then she was speaking, her voice as calm as ever, âDonât be sorry. Are you feeling okay?âÂ
Of course not.
âOf course I am!âÂ
âTry again,â Her hands were folded neatly on her desk, and you dropped your gaze to look at them, Cordeliaâs words making you feel a strange sense of shame, âIâm a little worried about you, Y/N.âÂ
Your ears were burning, your heart jumping wildly in your chest, âIâm sorry.âÂ
She sighed, shaking her head, âDonât be sorry. Just... whatâs going on with you? Whatâs going on between you and Michael Langdon?â
Shit.
âWhat do you mean?â
âYou havenât been sleeping in your room, or studying in the house,â Cordelia looked at you strangely, and you held your breath, âHave you still been fighting?â
She didnât know.
Thank fuck.Â
âYes,â You responded, perhaps a little too quickly, âYes, we have. We just canât seem to agree on anything.â
Not entirely untrue.
She nodded sympathetically, and you were relieved to feel that she believed that was it, âIâm sorry. I feared something like this might happen. But Y/N, you need to return to your room.You canât be out every night, and you canât do all of your studying in the swamps. Youâre still a student here. You have to be present, at least sometimes.â
âOkay,â Nodding, you worked on getting your breathing fully back to normal, âIâll be back in my room tonight.âÂ
âGood,â Cordelia reached out and squeezed your hand gently, âIâm proud of you, Y/N. You are a powerful witch, and a good woman. I believe in you.âÂ
Not able to make yourself respond, you simply flashed her a smile and bolted for the door, blinking back tears.
Fuck, sheâd bee so disappointed if she knew the truth.Â
You were barely out of the office when the door to a closet opened and someone tugged you inside, slamming it shut.Â
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âWhat the fuck, Michael?â You snapped, blinking into the darkness.Â
Michaelâs hand clamped over your mouth as he let out a growl, âBe quiet, little witch.âÂ
You worked your mouth until you managed to clamp your teeth onto the skin of his palm, biting as hard as you could.Â
âFuck,â He hissed, jerking away from you, âThat hurt!â
âGood,â Glaring, you reached for the cord on the light and tugged on it, the weak bulb flickering overhead, âWhat the fuck?â
Glowering at you in the dim light, Michael crossed his arms, âWhat did Cordelia want?â
âNone of your business.â
âIâm pretty sure it is,â Shaking his head, he scoffed at you, âIt was about me, wasnât it? Does she know?âÂ
It was childish to play dumb, and you knew that, but you were doing it anyway, âDoes she know what? Why would we want to talk about you?âÂ
It took only a single step for Michael to back you against the wall, pinning you there with his hips, "Donât even bother with that shit. Answer the fucking question.âÂ
You shoved at his chest, although even you had to admit that it was a halfhearted push. His proximity, especially after so long away from him, was overwhelming, and you felt your mind slipping to a place you didnât want it to be, âGet the fuck away from me, asshole.âÂ
Another shove, and he wrapped his hands around your wrists, holding them over your head, âYou werenât asking me to do that last time we saw each other, were you, little witch? Now. Does Cordelia know?âÂ
âNo,â Growling, you tried in vain to pull your hands back, âWe talked about you, but she doesnât know about that. Now let me go.âÂ
Tilting his head to the side, Michael laughed at you, âHow many times do I have to tell you? Youâre not the one in charge here.â
âFuck you,â You spat, beginning to shake with something between fury and a feeling that you didnât quite want to acknowledge.
âThis is a pretty color,â Michael shifted both of your wrists to one hand and brought the other down to trail across your lips, tapping at the soft flesh, smudging a bit of the golden sheen, âDid you put this on for me?âÂ
Ever since that day in the study room, not that day but the one before, you had taken to wearing more and more lipstick, coating your lips in a new color everyday.Â
Today was gold, one that shimmered when the light hit it, and if you were honest, yes, you did put it on for Michael. Every time you reapplied a coat of lipstick, today and every other, he flashed through your mind, the sneer on his features, the echo of his words in your ear when his fingers were down your throat.Â
âYou look good like this...Gagging...You wear revealing clothes and you act like youâre doing it for yourself...But really youâre just a dumb, depraved, desperate little whore who wants nothing more than to be dicked down by your rival.âÂ
Fuck, just thinking about it sent a wave of wetness gushing through you, and you tensed your legs in an effort to ignore it, and the smirk on Michaelâs face told you that he had noticed.Â
Yes, you were wearing it for him.Â
âNo,â You had to crane your head to glare at him with how close he was, âI donât know if this is the first time youâre hearing this, but not everything is about you, Boy Wonder.âÂ
He hummed, drawing his fingers along your cheekbone, and you cursed yourself for the way you leaned into the contact ever so subtly. After a moment he pressed his lips against yours, and although you fought to keep yourself in control, to keep from kissing him back, cursing yourself once again when you couldnât hold yourself back, your noses smashing against one another, your mouth slipping open with a groan, quickly intruded upon by Michaelâs tongue, which battled fiercely with yours.Â
And then suddenly he pulled away from you and stepped back, and you fell to your knees as he chuckled, his hands unbuckling his belt, âAll the same, little bitch, I think that color would look wonderful smeared all over my cock, donât you?âÂ
âI fucking hate you,â You glared up at him through your eyelashes as one of his hands gripped your hair, the other pulling his dick out of the confines of his slacks.Â
âThat just makes this all the more pathetic, doesnât it?â He slapped your cheek with his dick gently, and it wasnât lost on you how perfect it was, the size and the ridging and and the pulsing veins and the furious pink of the tip all making your mouth water, âGet up and walk away if you want, little witch bitch. But I donât think you will. I think you want this. I think that being a little whore is the calling youâre pulled to most.âÂ
Get up and walk away.
You could do that.Â
He pulled his hand from your hair, letting your head drop back, and you knew that if you moved to stand he would release you, would let you go. His precum had leaked onto your face as he continued to hit your cheeks, waiting to see what you would do.Â
Just get up and walk away.Â
But you couldnât, couldnât bring yourself to walk away without having the chance to taste him, not when the very thought was sending arousal roaring through you, and while you wished you could directly blame this on Michael, could say that his magic was holding you in place, that simply wasnât it.Â
You opened your mouth as wide as you could and in an instant his cock was down your throat, Michael setting off to fuck your face at an intense pace.Â
Gagging, you brought your hands up to his thighs, and when your nails scratched against his legs through the fabric or his dress pants Michael let out a high, desperate groan.Â
Although you couldnât quite smile at that, with how full your mouth was, there was a little voice gloating in the back of your head, and you squeezed his thigh tightly, drinking down his moans as you moved until his own back had hit the wall, his hands desperately moving from your hair to your shoulders to simply slamming down on either side of his body.Â
âYour mouth is good for something, I guess,â Michael grunted, as though he wasnât as desperate for you as you had been for him a week ago, âYouâre much prettier when youâre not talking, did you know that?âÂ
You managed to flick back your middle finger enough to flip him off, although you didnât pull back to make a verbal response. There was something urgent about this, and the idea of dropping him from your mouth seemed too great a sacrifice to make, when the harmony of Michaelâs shockingly soft, animalistic moans mixed with the lewd, wet noises of his dick hitting the back of your throat was so disgustingly lovely.Â
Michaelâs hands twitched, as though he was going to grab at your hair again, and at that moment he seemed to finally notice your own magic in the air, holding his wrists in place.
âYou little bitch,â He snarled, straining against the magic, but all he could do was buck his hips into your mouth even harder, letting out a hiss as your teeth grazed him, as your tongue swirled around his head, âLet me go.âÂ
But whereâs the fun in that?Â
You didnât let him go, and you didnât stop. If anything, you grew more intense, your hands managing all over him, sneaking past the fabric of his clothes to leave angry scratches on his skin, so smooth underneath your touch. Eventually one of them trailed to his balls, tugging and toying with them roughly as he began to strain even harder, began to make a choked noise at the back of his throat that made your thighs clench, and you knew he was going to cum soon.Â
You pulled your mouth off of him.Â
He looked down at you with a raised eyebrow, panting, desperate, watching as you trailed your tongue over every inch of his dick, pulling his balls into your mouth and sucking them slowly, and finally you pressed a kiss to the skin just above his cock and leaned back with a grin.
âWhat the fuck,â Michael growled, although his face showed a kind of manic desperation that he clearly wasnât used to, âGet back to it!â
âNo, I donât think I will,â Your smile got even wider, although your mouth was sore and your voice scratchy, you decided it was worth it, âYou call me a little bitch all the time, but whoâs the bitch now, Boy Wonder?âÂ
âY/N, Iâm serious. I will ruin you,â Snarling in spite of the pained expression starting to grow on his face, he thrusted against you, and you let out a giggle at that.Â
âItâs so cute that you say that while youâre humping my leg like an unfixed puppy,â Shaking your head, you took a step back, out of the range of his hips, and looked down to admire his flushed, throbbing dick, âYou were right, yâknow. The gold does look good on there .Especially the contrast it has with the blue of your balls.â
He looked down to see that your words were true, the skin becoming overtaken with a pale, bruise like color, and when Michael looked back up at you there was something murderous in his eyes, âQuit fucking around. Let me go, and finish.âÂ
âWhy should I?â
Arms straining against their magical containment, face twisting with the growing pain in his balls, Michaelâs voice had grown croaky, âDo it. I will never touch you again, if you walk away from this, do you get that you desperate little whore? You want me. You need me. Do what I fucking tell you.âÂ
âI think thereâs been a serious misunderstanding here, Langdon. I donât need anything from you. You keep saying youâre the one in charge, but look at you. Youâre nothing but a little blonde bimbo. So fuck you,â You scoffed, trailing a single hand across his chest and giving his nipple a harsh pinch, letting out a laugh at his angered whine, âAnd by the way, Cordelia says I have to move back into our room. Iâll be back tonight. Iâll see you whenever you get around to being the powerful warlock everyone thinks you are and break through my magic.â
With that, you pressed a quick, chaste kiss to the corner of his lip and turned away, not bothering to fix your own appearance before you went out, turning the light off before you closed Michael in the closet.Â
You were proud of yourself, you had to admit.Â
Scared, perhaps, of what he might do, and curious as to whether or not heâd keep the promise that heâd never touch you again-not that you wanted him to, of course, you were just curious-but you were proud all the same.Â
Fucking Michael Langdon.Â
#michael langdon smut#michael langdon x reader smut#michael langdon x reader#hawthorne!michael#hawthorne!michael smut#hawthorne!michael langdon#hawthorne!michael langdon x reader#hawthorne!michael langdon x reader smut#part two#my writing#mine#my shitty writing but#we'll burn that bridge when we come to it#ahs fic#ahs oneshot#ahs smut#enjoy#if you can again i'm sorry it's short and bad#much love
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hello lovely! can i request a cake? đ°
iâm 5â3 with short brown hair that iâm going to dye purple soon! i have green eyes and a lot of beauty marks. iâm kinda chubby but itâs not a big deal lol. i usually wear whatever is comfy so mostly hoodies and sweatshirts. also i actually have a stick and poke that i did myself on my ankle :)
when it comes to personality, iâm definitely an introvert but when iâm around my friends iâm more bubbly and funny. i have anxiety so i tend to overthink and stuff like that sometimes. my hobbies are writing, baking, and playing video games! iâm just now getting into spiritual stuff like crystals and meditation. oh and i have two cats who i adore :3 if it matters, iâm an INFP gemini!
thank you so much! have an amazing day sweetheart <333
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Romantic Matchup
Kenma Kozume
How yall met
So you guys actually have been friends since middle school!
Very classic friends to lovers trope
You guys often played video games together
And your parents didn't care if you two had sleepovers
So yeah lots of fun times even before you guys started dating
(if you want i actually wrote a small fic on him confessing a while back)
What they love about you
He loves your style!
Like you just always look so comfy
He definitely lets you wear some of his hoodies
And since he's just a smidge taller than you they're always just a little bug
And he finds it so cute!
He obviously likes that you play video games
Like that's a given
We been knew
However what he doesn't expect is how good you are at some games
He always thought he was going to have to throw a game or two when he first met you
But then you kicked his ass when he was actually trying
He loves the little treats you give him when you bake
Idk why but i think he has an obsession with chocolate chip cookies
Again idk why i think that but i do
What you love about them
You love that he's kinda an introvert right along with you!
So you guys can be socially awkward together
But he was also your friend before you started dating so he knows how you act when your around people your comfortable with
So when you guys are alone it's always a fun time
You also love how he seems to know exactly how to handle your anxiety
Like my mans took the lead in a social situation cause he noticed you were about to have an anxiety attack
That's love right there
You love how he seems to appreciate everything you do
You bake him something
Appreciated
You help him practice his sets
Appreciated!
You text him good morning and goodnight every day
APPRECIATED
Favorite things to do together
He doesn't really care to bake with you
BUT he likes to be AROUND you when you bake
If your baking you can usually find him sitting on the counter watching you
He really likes to meditate with you
Shocking i know
But he says it allows him the clear his mind
So he usually asks you to meditate with him before a game
And of course he loves to play video games with you
Random Hc
He helped you dye your hair
Once he saw your stick and poke he asked if you could give him one
He loves your cats and your cats love him
He writes poetry sometimes but your the only one he lets see it
Astrology â¨
Gemini + Libra
Compatibility 78%
Gemini and Libra partners are not exactly always a perfect couple
Although their signs support each other. If a Libra partner has trouble being alone and doing things by themselves, this isnât something Gemini will easily understand.
Due to their lack of personal boundaries, Libra representatives will often let their Gemini partners lead the way until all of their energy is gone
They feel like they should only lie down and turn their brain off. If they want to work on their relationship and be happy, Libra needs to respect their Gemini partner enough to let them be their teacher, lover and a friend.
In return, Gemini will have to take care of their Libra partner, respecting their limits and their need for togetherness.
Friendship Matchup
Yachi Hitoka
How yall met
You two men at a training camp
It was your first time as a manager and yachis 2nd
Even though she was still new to the whole manager thing she tried her best to help you
Which started your guys friendship!
Why you became friends
You became friends with her because once again even though she still wasn't that confident in her managing abilities she still found it in herself to help you
She became friends with you because she saw herself within you
So she just wanted to be the person she wished she had, for you if that makes sense???
What yall love about each other
You both are shy
So that makes it easier to be around one another
Two shy peas in a pod
And you both come out of your shells once your comfortable with each other
You two are just so bubbly and fun!
And yall really just have this type of understanding of each other
She really loves how zen you are
Like she wishes she could meditate and feel calm like you can
Random Hc
You guys made a tradition to bake for all the teams on the last day of training camp
She's tried to meditate with you before but just can't seem to get the hang of it
When she saw your stick and poke she almost fainted
You let her use some of your hoodies but there all kinda big on her
She introduced you to kiyoko and now they are who you hang out with every training camp
Astrology
Gemini + Virgo
Compatibility 40%
Ok so not the best match astrology wise but you guys seem to make it work!
Gemini and Virgo are ruled by the same planet, master of communication, Mercury.
They may have their differences, but we wouldnât say their communication is bad.
Even if they have a fight, they will still be good at talking.
Their view on intellect could be a bit different though.
Geminiâs superficial nature could seem extremely stupid to their Virgo partner.
This will set Gemini off to be even more irritating on purpose, because they are everything but stupid.
In return, Gemini will see Virgoâs obsession with details and think of them as crazy. Virgo will probably not fight this, but sit in their room and cry, alone, in the dark.
They need to find a way to recognize each otherâs âflawsâ as good qualities and they will get there if each of them lets the other help.
When these minds come together, there is no problem to stay unsolved, for together, they are Mercury in all its glory.
These signs have a mission to unite and transform heavenly ideas into real life, and lift human knowledge step by step, towards divinity.
This is a relationship of the Air side of Mercury and its Earth side, grounded and well thought of.
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The Definitive Ranking of Richard Armitageâs Acting Roles, Rated Exclusively by How Hot I Find Him In Screengrabs
Richard Armitage. As a diehard Thorin Oakenshield fan I certainly have a complicated relationship with him, mainly because I can never decide if I find him inherently hot or not. On the one hand, Iâm a hardcore Thorinfucker. On the other hand my gay ass sees a headshot of Mr. Armitage and Iâm just like, âOh, no thank you.â So in order to set myself to rights, I have gone through Mr. Armitageâs IMDB and done a definitive ranking of all his 44 screen roles on there, based completely and arbitrarily on how hot I find him in screenshots. (Thank you to all the hardcore Armitage Fuckers who keep wordpress blogs with screengrabs of his various cameos and bit parts; my respect for you cannot be put into words.) I havenât seen like 90% of these properties, and I didnât bother to research them, so these are mainly just gut first impressions. I hope this helps anyone else out there who as confused by him as I am. Enjoy ?
44. Father Quart in The Seville Communion/The Man From Rome (2020)Â Â â ??/10
I donât think this movie is out yet? Idk I havenât been able to find any stills of him, let alone much information about the movie itself. Itâs listed on his IMDB though! And apparently heâs playing a priest...which could be extremely đď¸đď¸ if done correctly.
43. Unnamed Naboo Fighter Pilot in Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace (1999)Â â 1/10
OH SWEETIE NO!!!!! This physically pains me to say this, because I unironically love this terrible movie with my whole heart, but unlike a yung Kiera Knightleyâs role (pictured front and center) as PadmĂŠâs loyal body double SabĂŠ, this is probably a cameo that we would all like to forget about. The only thing Richard has to offer is this unfortunate turtle-faced realness. This helmet does him no favors.
42. Man in Pub in Boon (1992) â 2/10
As far as I know this is Richardâs first acting credit on IMDB, and he for sure is working the background extra energy. Go on girl give us nothing! He does have a decent backside though, and itâs better than looking at unfortunate turtle face, so I give this one a 2.
41. Paul Andrews in Between the Sheets (2003) Â â 2/10
I canât really articulate why, but I absolutely despise every screenshot I see of Richard Armitage in this role. He is completely unhot, and not even in a way I can laugh at. He takes no advantage of his assets, he has no charisma, no magnetism, no nothing. This is Richard Armitage at his most white bread rando, in a way that makes me actively dislike him. Pbbbbttth. Bad. Throw this whole thing away.
40. Craig Parker in Casualty (2001)Â â 2/10
I donât know, itâs like the perfect storm of the gelled 2001 hair, the terrible quarter? eighth? zip sweater, and overall, er, skeezy vibes that he gives off that makes him particularly unhot in this role. Perhaps not as reprehensible as Unhot Paul, but still. I think the sheer boringness of this has to count for something. Blech.
39. Dr. Tom Steele in Doctors (2001) â 2.5/10
He honestly looks like a villain in an early season of Alias, which... well. Quentin Tarantino was cast as a bit-part villain in Alias season one, so take that as you will. But at least heâs compelling here, which is why he gets half a point over Unhot Paul.
38. Steven in Frozen (2005)Â â 3/10
Get some rest, tall child! You canât keep burning the candle at both ends! Also short haircuts do nothing for you, Richard. Styled like this, they just serve to make you look sort of like a sleaze.
37. Peter Macduff in ShakespeaRe-Told (2005) â 3/10
He honestly looks like he could be a guest star in Friends in this one, where heâs a guy named Jason who Ross meets in Central Perk where they find they have a lot in common. Ross introduces Jason to Monica and they really hit it off, but it all comes crashing down because while Jason is sensitive and writes poetry, he also thinks that the Earth is flat. The rest of the episode is trying to get rid of Jason while he becomes increasingly obsessed with Monica, and Ross cannot quite let go trying to prove to Jason that the world is round. Anyway. Macduff Flat Earth Jason isnât quite as unhot as Unhot Paul, but heâs pretty much on the same level as Tired Steven.
36. Phillip Durrant in Marple (2007)Â â 3/10
Something about him in this image really makes me want to punch him in the face. Itâs huge Peter Parker in Spider-Man 3 energy.
35. Young Claude Monet in The Impressionists (2006) â 3.5/10
IâM LOSING MY FUCKING MIND THE FIRST THING THAT COMES TO MIND IS !!! CARNIVAL BARKER !!!!! STEP RIGHT UP TO SEE THE WORST GOATEE IN HISTORY !!! I was actually going to give Yung Claude a 2 but the more I look at this terrible beard the more impressed I am with the boldness of this look, so I had to bump it up to 3.5. Idk. Just look at this. Itâs incredible, especially knowing what kind of beard Armitage can grow himself !!!!!!!!
34. Heinz Kruger in Captain America: The First Avenger (2011) â 3.5/10
This is definitely the best looking heâs been so far in this list, but heâs a Nazi in this one, which makes him unsexy on principle. But do I feel a little something when he gets pinned to the ground by jacked Chris Evans with the above look on his face right before he swallows his cyanide pill? Can neither confirm nor deny. They are also truly playing into his inherently sinister bone structure, so I can respect that.
33. Percy Courtney in Miss Marie Lloyd (2007) â 4/10
Even including Yung Claude and Nazi Heinz, I think Nothing Percy is probably the weakest of Richardâs period looks, mostly because he looks like, well, nothing. He certainly doesnât pull off that top hat like he does in North and South, and the secret to that might be the lack of sideburns. In this one he just sort of reminds me of the asshole fiance in Titanic.
32. Philip Turner in The Inspector Lynley Mysteries (2005)Â â 4/10
Heâs really giving off bargain bin Hugh Jackman as Wolverine vibes here, if Loganâs energy was more âmurderer in a Hallmark channel mysteryâ than âsuperhero.â Though, given what sort of show this is, that may be the point! Idk, this isnât the worst. At least he has a decent haircut in this one. Still, I feel absolutely nothing when I look at him. Heâs simply royalty-free stock music given human form.
31. Dr. Alec Track in The Golden Hour (2005) â 4.5/10
I could see how this conceivably be sexy in this role, but to be honest, heâs still nothing to me, sorry. He gets some extra points because he obviously worked out for this role and the hard nips through a white undershirt is a commendable look. I whole-heartedly respect Doctor Alecâs thottitude.
30. Daryl in Staged (1999)Â â 4.5/10
Speaking of thottitude!!!!! This is one cream-faced business boy that I can certainly get into! He looks like the love interest in a pre-Hayes code homoerotic thriller from the early 1930s. Iâm sure thatâs just because of the lighting and general staging of this production, but hm... demure. Love it.
29. Capt. Ian Macalwain in Ultimate Force (2003)Â â 4.5/10
Well, he looks like a character from M*A*S*H but with no charisma, or like an extra in The Great Escape who snitches on Steve McQueen to the Nazis. Also in half the pictures I find of him from this heâs wearing this terrible beret, which I know he can pull off because of a role that ranks much higher on this list. Whoever styles this man really needs to pay attention to what sort of headgear they put on him. Â
28. Epiphanes in Cleopatra (1999) â 5/10
Speaking of headgear, you know what?? He doesnât look awful here. A solid 5, perfectly acceptable. I think the helmet does a lot to accentuate the sharpness of his face in this extremely bit part, though the eyeliner definitely also helps as well.
27. John Mulligan in Moving On (2009) â 5/10
Mr. Armitageâs characters can really have potential when a productionâs stylist allows him to wear scruff (IN A WAY THAT LOOKS NATURAL, LOOKING AT YOU YUNG CLAUDE). However, as it is with John Mulligan in Moving On here, he just sort of looks like a rando? Theyâre not playing into the inherent angularity of his face, which for me makes it sort of confusing regarding what sort of emotion Iâm supposed to feel while looking at him. As it is, Iâm just like, âYup, that sure is a regular human man, right there.â
26. Smug Man at Party in This Yearâs Love (1999)Â â 5/10
This is the face of a man who less smug and is more DRUNK OUT OF HIS MIND !!!! Idk. Heâs cute here, Iâll admit. Thatâs all I have to say about it.
25. John Standring in Sparkhouse (2002)Â â 5.5/10
I enjoy the bold choice of giving him wavy hair in this one, but Iâm not sure he quite pulls it off. It doesnât look bad, per se, just... he looks completely nonthreatening. Which I guess could be someoneâs thing, but not mine. He honestly looks like a knock-off Will Graham, sans dogs and trauma.
24. Gary in Into the Storm (2014)Â â 5.5/10
I think the thing that really gets me is that this characterâs name is Gary. Who on Godâs green Earth looks at Richard Armitage and goes, âAh yes, you do look like a Garyâ ??? I donât think I know of a single non-American Gary, especially since the name Gary only got popularized after Gary Cooper renamed himself after his hometown of Gary, Indiana!!!! It wasnât really a name for human men before that!!!! I want to live in the alternate universe where Frank Cooper was originally from Albuquerque and named himself Albuquerque Cooper and this character is named as such. Gary. Really.
23. King Oleron in Alice Through the Looking Glass (2016)Â â 5.5/10
I truly hate how much his facial expressions in these stills remind me of Thorin, considering how bad he looks otherwise. Like his face his fine, I guess, especially since this is the first instance of his full beard. Iâm charmed despite myself! Take me to wonderland, O King.
22. Adam Price in The Stranger (2020)Â â 5.5/10
For as compelling as people call this series, Richard here isnât very much so imo. But despite my utter lack of interest, he doesnât look bad per se. He just sort of has that stubbly white man blandness that colors a lot of his more recent roles. Like, at least his bad mid-2000â˛s styling had character. This is just the visual representation of a vague handwave.
21. Harry Kennedy in The Vicar of Dibley (2006) â 6/10
Gosh... floppy hair, cute sweaters... he also seems to be smiling a lot in this one, which is nice! The only thing I have to complain about is that he looks very much like if Bradley Cooper and Hugh Jackman circa Kate and Leopold had a baby, which may not necessarily be too much of a bad thing, but I canât unsee it.
20. Sgt. John Porter in Strike Back (2010)Â Â â 6/10
Ah, back to poorly suited haircuts. At least heâs a little bit gritter and grimier than weâve seen so far, and I will say Richard Armitage does look good covered in dirt, as we will see later on. Also heâs got biceps in this one, which, hell yeah.
19. Ricky Deeming in Inspector George Gently (2007) â 6/10
IâM HAVING THE HARDEST TIME RIGHT NOW RANKING THIS ONE BC OF THIS INCREDIBLE LITTLE WHITE SCARF-RIDING LEATHERS COMBO!!! WHICH ABSOLUTE GENIUS DECIDED THIS!!!! EVERY SCREENSHOT OF HIM IN HIS EPISODE HAS THIS!!! Part of me just wants to give Stylish Ricky a big fat 10 because Iâm gay and adore the sheer audacity of this look, but I still have to be fair and rank his overall aura accordingly. I think heâs a handsome extremely gay-coded motorcycle lad in this one, but he doesnât exactly rev my engine, so to speak.
18. Lucas North in Spooks (2008) â 6/10
The tattoos really spice this one up. Luke could have been plagued by the problems inherent in Regular Mulliganâs Moving On styling, but this guy has an edge to him. He has a good haircut and 5Ⲡoâclock shadow, which is something Iâve figured out is integral to Armitage Hotness. I feel like if I got to know this character I could possibly find him sexy.
17. Raymond de Merville in Pilgrimage (2017) â 6.5/10
Speaking of bad haircuts, this one is his undoing. This is almost the perfect balance between full beard and short haircut, which is the only way a short haircut works on this man, but they ruined it with this one! They gave him a bad bowl fade, which completely undoes any inherent sexiness that comes with being a knight. Not even the fact that heâs covered in dirt can turn me on at this point, ugh. Guy of Gisbourne he is not!!!
16. Tom Calahan in Brain on Fire (2016)Â â 6.5/10
Oh hell yes, WELCUM 2 DA DILF ZONE!!! Iâm not super duper thrilled with the looks Iâve seen from this movie, but he seems scruffy and comfy in a way that is slightly refreshing for olâ Richard. This is certainly the best of his normie looks so far. Iâm just sad it took them 24 years to figure out how to style him properly for sympathetic roles in a contemporary setting.
15. James in My Zoe (2019) â 6.5/10
Itâs another DILF look, slightly edgier than Comfy Tom but none of that sexy tired energy that weâll see from Oceanâs 8. I donât know !! Jimmy here doesnât exactly thrill me, I think I prefer Tomâs flannels to this sharp bomber jacket/white t shirt combo seen here. Oh well! I am extremely đ đ đ đ đ that he can just casually palm that soccer ball like that.
14. John Thornton in North & South (2004) â 7/10
Alright. Iâm sorry. I just donât find him that hot in this role. Like yeah, heâs got the scruff and the sideburns that work to his advantage, and the setting does make this character inherently sexy, but in some screenshots he screams too much of an aforementioned Kate and Leopold (the best Meg Ryan movie, imo) era Hugh Jackman to me. And if I was particularly into that, I would just watch Kate and Leopold again. I will admit, however, that this rating could be subject to change if I actually took the time to watch this show.
13. Chop in Urban and the Shed Crew (2015) â 7/10
...IâM??? INTO IT??? Heâs dirty and scruffy but also has kind eyes.... I feel like this is knock off Will Graham who has blossomed into his own. His run down, grime-covered own. Heâs back edging into Bradley Cooper territory, but somehow it works for him in this one. Like, Iâm 89% sure itâs the DILF vibes Iâve been getting from the other screengrabs Iâve seen of this role, and this particular flavor of DILF is way sexier than Jimmy or Comfy Tom.
12. Francis Dolarhyde in Hannibal (2015)Â â 7/10
His Caesar cut doesnât bother me quite so much in this, probably because he is pretty explicitly playing a villain in a series that doesnât have any basis in reality. A villain who is ripped, and who can effortlessly throw real Will Graham around. Armitage uses his inherent sinisterness to great effect as the Red Dragon, which is good actually! I think a lot of how hot he is in any particular role really depends on whether the styling allows him to play to his strengths...idk! Iâm not usually a huge fan of clean shaven Armitage, but it works for Frank here.
11. Daniel Miller in Berlin Station (2016)Â â 7/10
As much as I adore this particular look (beard + fade + green army jacket), I have to compromise and give Danny a 7/10 because it seems like the first season they styled him in usual stubbly white man blandness. Iâd say screengrabs from s1 are a solid 6, while this might be an 8, so the average is a 7. Thatâs all I have to say about this!
10. Claude Becker in Oceanâs 8Â (2018)Â â 7.5/10
!!!!! I love him in this role, I about had a conniption in the theater because I absolutely was not expecting him!! He looks perfectly ruffled and scruffy, edgier than either Comfy Tom or Jimmy, which Iâm very into. That plus his two borzois (objectively the best looking dogs on the planet) really put Old Claude over the top for me. Thank you, thank you Hollywood stylists for finally figuring out what to do with him for roles as a Normal Man.
9. Richard Hall in The Lodge (2019)Â â 7.5/10
I donât know anything about this movie, but it seems pretty spooky, which Iâm into. I think Richard is well suited for this sort of horror/thriller role, where his angular features can play into the overall vibe rather than some hapless stylist trying to work around them. He looks like another cozy DILF here but with a bite to him, like someone who would do anything to protect his brood. I mean, heâs teaching this child to shoot! But idk, he also has the potential for Jack Nicholson in The Shining energy, which I also could be....hm... into. Idk. Is this on Netflix??
8. Lee in Cold Feet (2003) â 7.5/10
FUN!!! FLIRTY!!!! OTTER VIBES!!!!! I LOVE THIS, he seems so goofy here, and Armitage doesnât usually pull off goofy that well! Iâve giggled at literally every screenshot I could find from the four episodes he was in this show, he seems like a real himbo. Iâm a huge fan, even if it comes at the cost of dehydration abs.
7. William Chatford in Malice Aforethought (2005) â 7.5/10
Hoo hoo HOO DO NOT JUDGE ME!!!!!!! Maybe itâs just because Iâve been watching the new season of The Alienist and the new dark and gritty HBO reboot of Perry Mason back to back, but sue me, I love the bold choice they made with giving him a pencil moustache here. He looks like a hot Howard Hughes; if cream-faced business boy Daryl from Staged is the young ingenue in the pre-Hayes Code thriller I cast him in, Bill here is the sexy antagonist. I desperately want to hear a perfect Transatlantic accent coming out out of that mouth. This look fucks and Iâm sticking to that no matter what.
6. Trevor Belmont in Castlevania (2017) â 8/10
Ah, yes, speaking of king himbos... do me a favor and look me right in the eye and tell me that you wouldnât fuck Trevor Belmont. You canât, can you?????? At least 80% of Richard Armitageâs inherent hotness stems from his voice, and you canât tell me there isnât anything sexier than thinking about letting that guy loose in a recording studio and letting him say fuck. Look, Trevor may be drawn that way, but itâs the absolute stupidity coming out of his mouth in that sweet baritone that makes me want to be raw-dogged by 100% pure Romanian beef.
5. Dr. Scott White in Sleepwalker (2017) â 8/10Â
Much like I had intimated when talking about Hot Danny in Berlin Station, this is Peak contemporary normie Richard Armitage styling. I honestly think The Hobbit either awakened something in him, or casting directors finally figured out he looks way good with a full beard. His crew cut even works with his whole look, which is a miracle!!!! I think he should be contractually obligated to have a full beard in all of his future roles, but thatâs just me.
4. Guy of Gisbourne in Robin Hood (2006) â 8.5/10
I honestly canât believe Iâm ranking Guy so far up here, but honestly, THIS RULES!!!!!! THIS FUCKS!!!!!!!!! Which is incredible due to Guyâs lack of beard, but Iâm weirdly okay with it? Like sure, he looks like heâd probably call me a slur in front of his shitty friends, but he also looks like he could tenderly pound me into the mattress in a way that would have me questioning my commitment to the âno emotionsâ clause of our clandestine no-strings-attached sex agreement. Anyway. Guy of Gisbourne if you see this im free thursday night. please message me back if youâre free thursday night when i am fr
3. Angus in Macbeth (1999) â 8.5/10
HHHNGHGNHNGHGN HEâS SO HOT.....!!! HEâS SO HOT!!!!! Leather jacket!!! Scruff!! Dirt!!!! Flattering beret!!!!! Heâs so hot, and the worst part about this is that this was filmed in NINETEEN NINETY NINE!!!!!!!!!!!! Which means we could have always had this, had stylists and makeup artists PLAYED TO HIS STRENGTHS!!!!! Heâs so hot Iâm getting legitimately angry. Without scruff and dirt this man is nothing. N o t h i n g.
2. John Proctor in The Crucible (2014) â 9/10
Look, I know I have a type. But... this guy is just so hot, Daniel Day Lewis please step aside!!!! Contemporary theater historians describe John Proctor as a âstrong beast of a man,â and... hhhHHOOOGH HELL YEAH!!! HELL !!!! YEAH !!!!! Like, his dick got almost his entire Puritan village, including himself, accused of witchcraft and like, looking at this guy, I kind of get it. I would probably go to war over the raw animal beauty of this horrible dirty, greasy man. Sue me, I confess. I saw Goody Osburn with the devil.
1. Thorin II Oakenshield in The Hobbit Trilogy  â 9.5/10
Come on. You knew it was going to be this guy. Look at my icon for christâs sake. I am completely biased, I cannot look at his pictures objectively. Anyway. Thank you so much for reading, this was a very stupid list.
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RotT reactions part 2!
costis, what are you doing here, shouldn't you be in roa? shouldn't you be with kamet? costis, where's kamet? what happened to him? tell me!
"who really owns anything?" eugenides, you utter meme.
if tattoos a custom in eddis, does. .....does helen have tattoos? oh my word, please tell me helen has tattoos, she would look so cool.
so, so, so, horrible invasion, giant army, logistics of war. it's very terrible and interesting, but where kamet? where my boy? is he okay? costis just LEFT him behind, bc he had to get word back to attolia, I don't blame him, I love him. but is kamet okay????????????????????
rip to all the cottage fic people probably wrote about the two having a chill time in roa. (idk, I haven't checked.) megan said we can't have nice things.
"find yourselves another king" uhhhhhhh, gen?
gen said no more king, now only Thief and Hot Consort To The Sexy Queen.
awww, sophos gave him a book of poetry for his birthday. I love sophos.
"attolia says she leaves with you" *spends several long minutes clutching at my chest repeatedly as I am Overwhelmed*
you know the quote in koa about a careful dance of shafow and unsubstance but under it all, a real marriage of two people? that's literally this. the queen is surely calculated her possible responses to gen, amd this is either a Pointed Message to gen or to the barons, and I'm still not sure what gen is up to actually, but also. she loves him, guys. they're in love. "she leaves with you". they're in love.
"I asked her to leave with me on our wedding night" of course he did.
"except me, I can do anything I want" :'D
they're too soft. I cannot.
go, costis! save your boy!
..........is this where I formally apologize for rolling my eyes back in 2016 when people shipped teleus/relius? I genuinely did not see this coming.
megan said okay, we've been on our best behavior, it's been 25 years, she will sprinkle in a little canon queerness. and then upended a flour sack of it on us.
"he had to bend to keep his lips on hers until she reached the ground" they're too cute, this is illegal.
oh, now THAT'S some soap opera level nonsense. how awkward was it for gen and helen knowing his father was a spurned lover of her mother
sometimes soldiers. I am eating this stuff up.
they get no apology. h*ck the pents. maybe they should have chosen an ambassador that didn't force himself upon women.
"where sounis's father positively beamed with approval at his son, eddis's minister of war glowered. the high king, slumped in his seat, catching his father's glare, slumped even further." it be like that.
ten to one. oof, oof, oof.
okay, the solution is, one of gen's sisters should beat up cleon and therespides.
gen. you were the one paying him. I don't know why I'm ever surprised by the tangled schemes you wrap yourself up in.
every scene that the four monarchs are together, just having a good time and loving each other and sounding so much like the young people they are, every time, it makes me happy.
the fandom tried to figure out at what age boys left the dorms in Eddis, didn't we? I think we settled on 12 or 13. gen killed someone before he was 13. hachi machi.
he called him "my brother sounis". awww.
"without cheating" is that what we're calling godly visits now
eugenides will give me a heart attack, I swear.
they call it return of the thief bc this is the most like himself gen has acted since the crenellations in KoA.
(fitting that this is the book with a neuroduvergent pov, bc I have never happy stimmed more in my life than during the chase scene.)
when he starts windmilling, now I am afraid. oh please, megan, don't let him be hurt.
thank the gods.
helen wearing an eddisian uniform. heck yeah! gnc helen rights continue!
"it was the last lighthearted moment for a long time" :(
they're leaving the city, and I'm suddenly remember the comment from back in book of pheris 1 about an attack by a tomb. am afraid.
it's loving the magus o' clock. he treats pheris so well.
irenides baby......2!!!!
"I don't understand" you and me both, sophos.
"I think they have to show their worst selves sometimes in order to be sure that even at their worst they are loved" I need a minute.
I love tactics and logistics, but I wish I could picture this my head. the map doesn't actually help me figure out where the forces are in perspective.
megan really wasn't exaggerating when she said eugenides's first reaction to seeing an elephant is "I want to steal one."
"he muscled up his other arm and said he would destroy the Medes single-handed" these books are giving me a stroke. megan, that pun was beautiful.
"I have found Kamet!" I'm going to be sick. he had better be okay. he was supposed to be free of nahuseresh.
nasty man had better be lying. my kamet had better be okay.
oh, costis. okay, okay, alright.
why is cleon's death so sombering. I think it's bc I just reread "Thief!", and met him as a teenager in that. I think it's bc it says he's one of three cousins that died that day, and gen already lost so many cousins during the war in QoA. I loved the country of eddis when I was first reading these books and forever after that, bc it's so full. there's a very communal child-rearing system and gen has these packs of cousins, even if most of them spent their childhood bullying him, I loved the idea of having so much family around you. he's running out of family.
oh. I went back to reading from writing that, and. stenides. oh.
I said I wanted gen's siblings, but not like this.
well, here's some cairns. presumably the tombs pheris's foreshadowed earlier. here we go, something bad is going to happen.
Something Bad Happened.
oh, no, Hilarion. D:
*tiffany haddish voice* NOMENUS??? HOW COULD YOU DO THIS. I PUT YOU ON MY BINGO.
the man at the cairn. the god on the battlefield that megan referenced? but eugenides called him a dead man. so not a god. so, did he recognize him as someone he knew to be dead?
"my cousins know not to trust my tears" once again, gen's hail mary is the fact he's a little snipe.
he says he needs a heavier rain, and the gods deliver.
f in chat for nomenus. he was a snake, but still.
"and by my oath to my god, now and for my life, Thief of Eddis." YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh, Philo. :(
rip to Legarus and his Awesome Beauty.
they want to kill gen in The Thief? eddis's council wanted to kill him? I'm reeling from all the backstory this book is revealing.
not quite how I had the apotheosis pictured, and yet. *sufjan steven's ascension plays in the background*
"I say it three times, Fordad. It will be so. It will be so. It will be so." holy heck.
someone get in here and analyze that for biblical symbolism.
HE CALLED DOWN LIGHTNING. HOLY
narration only calls him eugenides in that scene with the lightning. significant.
"feeling the tremor in it, he opened his arms to catch the king as he fell." he has fallen and been caught by his god and fallen and been caught by his dad.
I think we'll call the interregnum an interlude into the underworld, if not a journey into.
oh, gods, relius.
for a former spymaster, he sure trusted too easily.
he could have had his farm in the gede valley, but he stayed to help irene and gen. oh, relius, relius.
sejanus has a saving grace afterall.
dite and sejanus protecting each other, and pretending to hate each other so that sejanus at least can be on good terms with their father, that all clicks into place when you know about their older brother who they probably loved just as much.
crying crying crying over Sejanus and Pheris.
the minster of war. D:
at least nahuseresh is dead.
gen lay down to sleep by his father's corpse.
the patrimony divided in three. a triangle.
sophos/helen baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love that gen, knowing his cousin and also being a little sneak who notices everything, figured out helen was pregnant before sophos even did.
f for sejanus. he wasn't as bad as he seemed, and not nearly as bad as he almost was.
oh, xenophon died, too. he of the wooden cannons and receiver of the infamous "I love stupid plans" line.
why is everyone dead. :(
"they're at the pickets, both of them" oh, thank you, jesus. TWO PEOPLE WHO AREN'T DEAD. MY BOYS.
she dreams of Eddis empty. there's no words for the relief I feel.
twinssss!!
and yet they don't tell us the name!!!!! what was the MoW's name??? what is their son's name??? megan!!!!!!
gen holding his daughter for the first time and offering to pitch her off a roof. I don't even have words.
hector. hector. hector hector hector.
rooftop dance!!!!!!!!!!!
HE'S OKAY. RELIUS IS OKAY.
(you couldn't give us one costis and kamet dance? no, it's fine.)
peace. peace. peace.
crying.
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listened to adiaml. i honestly think this is one of her best albums. didnât really listen to l+f so i wonât talk about it, but its definitely better than electra heart, maybe same level as froot tbh. tfj is #1 for me i think (idk i go between tfj and froot as my top fav).
for me personally her greatest songs are her ballads/dreamy sounding/piano based songs (and iâm really not a ballad person) so highly emotional people, flowers and goodbye are really standing out to me. i think flowers samples happy which is honestly one of the best songs on froot. goodbye honestly sounds like a song off tfj but like, with a way more mature pov so at the same time it wouldnât fit on that album at all.
but venus fly trap and purge the poison are also bangers, like damn sheâs actually amazing at writing catchy hooks. the vft music video is one of her best mvs too, and the bass guitar on the track is SOOO GOOD it reminds me of froot. manâs world took a little while to grow on me but since it came out in like november i actually ended up liking it a lot, but now iâve listened to it so much iâm not as into it anymore lol. new america i could take or leave. adiaml (the song) is honestly really good but i donât think its a song i could listen to on repeat bc the production is too 80s for me, but i LOVEE the prechorus and chorus -- the part where she goes ha! is sooo catchy i love it. i love you but i love me more is a bop too. my absolutely fav is probably pandoraâs box though, like the chorus gives me chillsss (flowers is a close second i think).
my current rank (but idk positions 4, 5 and 6 are all kinda equal to me):
pandoraâs box
flowers
venus fly trap
purge the poison
goodbye
highly emotional people
manâs world
i love you but i love me more
ancient dreams in a modern land
new america (the only skip and tbh its not unlistenable)
tbh the 1 criticism i have: too short!!! i listened to this way too fast. i do like the themes of this album as well. i do see ppl saying its too on the nose but i really think theyâre being overly critical bc like, theyâre acting like the lyrics of ptp and manâs world are the worst thing to happen to feminism and its like.....hey.
my thoughts on some lyrics: adiaml lyrics are literal poetry, i love it, the metaphors, phrasing, rhyming etc all sound so good. the first verse of manâs world is soooo good. like i canât believe people hear this and think itâs not the most big brain shit theyâve ever heard:
i honestly donât think manâs world lyrics are cringe at all at any point, like sheâs being straightforward and thereâs nothing wrong with that. maybe the part where its like âif you have a mother, daughter or a friendâ bc i can see how some ppl could have an issue but its not that bad to me.
i can see how ptp lyrics are a bit too girlboss but if you actually think about it, venus fly trap is the girlboss anthem, ptp is more like girl power sisterhood stuff. i like vft lyrics better bc honestly who doesnât love a flex/self confidence anthem like that?? ptp lyrics are delivered soooo excellently tho, singing staccato is one thing marina knows how to do well. i like the lyric about britney though, she was really timely dropping that song when she did.
also this part hits. like damn how does she come up with this shit??????????????? its amazing. i wanna be this poetic.
pandoraâs box chorus is my fav tho. like i said it 49203 times but she is a genius. i just like when artists reference greek myths tbh. the humming is really reminding of another song of hers but i canât remember which one is it rn. maybe hermit the frog? but not really? anyway its just so good.
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this is a somewhat long tag game, and I have no self control about how much I talk about myself so I'm gonna put it under the cut :)
1. why did you choose your url?
Iâm a mathgeek! that's it! Starting in elementary school I went to the junior high school for math classes in the morning, and then at the end of junior high I went to the high school for my math classes again, and was always in math with the grade older than me. I took AP Calc as a junior and got a 5 on the AP test, so it kinda fits I guess. I actually made the moniker for my first email account when I was 13 so I could make a facebook account.
2. any side blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them.
LMAO I LITERALLY HAVE 4. Anyway first I have two writing blogs: @i-am-rmt for poetry, and @iamrmt for prose. They act as catalogues of my writing! The prose one is basically inactive, but seeing as itâs simply a catalogue Iâm not gonna delete it. Then there is @yiling-who my side blog for The Untamed - yeah that Chinese drama that took tumblr by storm. Big thanks to @hoebutnotreally for convincing me to watch it! Lastly is my side blog for DKB @dkbtho . DKB is a rookie kpop group that Iâm currently obsessed with! Theyâre so cute and they self produce and also do all their own choreography and are such skilled individuals and also are so funnyÂ
3. how long have you been on tumblr?
This year on November 23rd will be the 10 year birthday of mathgeek101!
4. do you have a queue tag?
âquteâ itâs on sooo many of my posts because I almost exclusively post from my queue..
5. why did you start your blog in the first place?
both my sisters had tumblrs, and I guess I just thought âneat, Iâll make one too.â I remember sitting on the couch during thanksgiving break while my family was watching Harry Potter (the seventh movie maybe?) and designing my blog
6. why did you choose your icon?
oh itâs me! My icon has always been me, because this blog is just a messy collection of my interests. My friend (@hoebutnotreally) did my makeup and hair and we took pictures (I posted some here too!)
7. why did you choose your header?
oh itâs me again! I took that picture on a whim with a silly snapchat filter and I thought it turned out neat, so I hid my icon on mobile and I think my blog looks pretty neat that way.
8. whatâs your post with the most notes?
9. how many mutuals do you have?
I think itâs my Mushu Zuko post still... I know thereâs a way to check, but Iâll just go with that post for now.
OKAY so Iâm back after checking and actually itâs my post about reading Call Me, Beep Me - THE klance voltron fic
idk man is there a way to check that, too? I donât really interact with my mutuals, and I donât really get the huge hype around them? like, yeah, I appreciate my mutuals, and I love seeing your posts (oh my friend made a post!). I wouldnât mind interacting with them more, Iâm just awkward and suck at talking to people - even people I know in real life and have to make plans with. But all in all, if a mutual unfollows me, Iâm not gonna have a meltdown or anything
10. how many followers do you have?
429! I love you guys! When I post about my followers I always tag it with âi love you guysâ
11. how many people do you follow?
Iâm following 147 blogs.
12. have you ever made a shitpost?
does the Mushu and Zuko post count? Does âhockey is one letter away from hickeyâ count? I also made a post about Poe Dameron vs Edgar Allan Poe and Po from Kung Fu Panda... you decide. I tag all my original posts with âmineâ
13. how often do you use tumblr each day?
too much! jk Iâm on it very frequently, but lately Iâve been watching youtube videos over scrolling on tumblr
14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?
nah. Once I did have someone reply to a post I made somewhat rudely, and I replied to them and they didnât say anything, so if that counts, then I WON.
15. how do you feel about âyou need to reblog thisâ posts?
eh, theyâre pretty dumb, and Iâm pretty neutral about them, but I also understand that itâs problematic.
16. do you like tag games?
yes! I really enjoy talking about myself I guess! Wow! Most people honestly do love talking about themselves, and itâs even easier when itâs online and I donât have to deal with peopleâs real time reactions :)
17. do you like ask games?
LOVE them. sometimes I wish I was a famous blogger so people would ask me stuff from ask games, but I also donât reblog them that often.
18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?
ohhhh uhhhhhhh,,,,,,,, idk man
19. do you have a crush on a mutual?
nah, I donât interact with them enough for that
20. tagging
uhhh if youâve made it this far and you want to do it consider yourself tagged :)
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DESTIEL AND COCKLES RANT
THIS IS A RANT ON ALL THINGS DESTIEL AND COCKLES
PS. I do not know how to make gifs and or use photos yet so feel free to add yours
I have said this before and I will say it again. I have been in this fandom for a month and I ship Destiel and Cockles anyone who has a problem with this then move along and/or if you are an anti and read this, keep your hateful comments to yourself.
That being said, I have read about almost all ships in the fandom but mostly Destiel, Cockles, Wincest, and J2. Through all the reading and discovery, I still have to say I ship Cockles and Destiel more than ever before. However, I have seen some things from the antis that did not sit well with me.
This is going to be a long post so brace yourself and it is mostly about the hate the antis (anti-cockles, anti-wives , and anti-Destiel Shippers spread). Also this is a rant so donât mind me,
ON DESTIEL
The hate on Destiel is massive. Mostly this is from Bronlies who hate Cas like he is the anti-Christ, and the Wincest shippers.
Now I am not trying to rain on anyoneâs parade but come on. Cas is Deanâs best friend. Whether you ship them romantically or not, it is canon that Cas Deanâs best friend. We have seen time and again how miserable Dean is every time Cas dies. Dea has also expressly stated that Cas is his best friend and even said they are better together; all three of them including Sam. He has called him his family. So why the hate? Chuck himself has said that he has rebuilt Cas more times than anyone.
Now, people who believe that it is better to ship Sam and Dean who are literally blood brother but it is not okay to ship Dean and Cas what is wrong with you? Is it okay for someone to fuck their brother and/or be in love with them? I mean come on.
Before I was even a shipper, I always looked forward to episodes that Cas was in. He brought a different dynamic to the show in a positive way. Yes, I love the brothers but Cas is just deifferent and all the sass he brings makes the show, at least to me 10 times better. Sue me.
People saying that JA would never be comfortable with Destine because he is a Christian. I mean, he can call Chuck a dick, call angels dicks, make deals with demons and all other unchristian things but kissing another man is where he draws the line? If he was such a Christian, why does he let another man straddle him on stage or want to kill God?
Someone once said that JA supports wincest. I saw the video and I get what he said is that whatever floats your boat or something like that. So why is it so hard for him when it comes to Destiel? I donât understand this man. He is a paradox.
 ON COCKLES
I have seen antis, mostly those who ship J2 throw shade at MC saying that JA doesnât like him, he just tolerates him and everything they do is for PR. I have not once seen anyone say that JP doesnât like MC. You know why? I believe they view MC as a threat to their J2 ship.
So I stumbledupon this antis blog who had a whole analysis (much like am doing here) on why JA cannot be a couple. Here are some that I remember from the top of my head:
1.    That JA said that he thinks Matt Bomer is attractive.
2.    That JA moved to Austin to be live next to JP.
3.    That JA and MC have nothing in common being that JA plays golf and sings etc and that MC does woodwork, writes poetry and bicycle touring.
4.    That JA is with JP hence no. 2.
5.    That JA does not curse on stage but MC does.
6.    That MC does not take acting seriously but JA does.
Now now now. This beats logic. All the above things I beg to differ with not because I am cockles shipper but it is just common sense.
Being with someone or rather being in love with someone does not mean any of the above things have to be true. Hear me out.
1.    On finding Matt Bomer attractive. I have many celebrity crushes, there are also ordinary people that I find attractive. But then again, I have a boyfriend, who I am in love with; I have been with for six years. But he looks nothing like my celebrity crushes or the ordinary people I find attractive. Does that mean I am not in love with him? No. It means I have eyes and I can appreciate beauty and have a few fantasies but I chose to be with him because I love him. He also has other people he finds attractive that look nothing like me, does that mean he does not love me? I mean come on.
 Oh the most hilarious thing is that the anti said you cannot compare Matt to MC since Matt is way attractive. I mean come on; they may not look alike but they both have dark hair, blue eyes. Seriously people! And MC is so handsome and adorable at the same time. Sometimes I feel like he looks better than JA and JP. Sue me.
 2.    On JA moving to Austin. Lol. This means that he went to live next to his best friend. I mean come on. I have moved to live next to my best friend (bff) who is married. Does that mean I am in love with her? Hell no! But I feel safer knowing that she is there for me.
Also people need to understand, MC and JA could be involved romantically or not (pick your poison) but you donât need to be next to your lover to love them or be in a relationship with them. Lond distance relationships anyone? They have families and kids and other priorities. Just because you are in a relationship with someone does not necessarily mean you live together or evn in the same area. Distance makes the heart grow fonder and also they are where they are now because of other priorities in their lives. So, living together or in the same town doesnât make you more or less in love.
3.    On the issue of common interests. This made me laugh so hard. I mean comeon, People who are together do not need to share any interests. The diversity of their interests is probably what attracted them to each other. Also how can you say a poet and a singer have nothing in common? They are artists. MC can write poems that JA can sing. Oh also remember that video MCâs friend DM posted on Twitter where they did the whole bicycle touring in Germany? Uh huh? JA seemed to be interested in that a lot. So..
4.    I could say a lot about JA being with Jp. This J2 being married and their wives being beards is the weirdest thing I have ever seen. Seriously, J2 tinhats have gone ahead to hate of Dâs posts and call her names. Telling her to stop pretending that she is JA. It is laughable and not in a nice way, really. Can they just stop? Before I became a cockles shipper I watched J2 videos where they interact be it cons, red carpet moments or even gag reels. It is just different. All I see are two bros; one that is really playful like a little puppy and the other one trying to be the big brother. As for JA and MC, it is different, there are things that JA is comfortable when Mc does that he is not comfortable when JP does them. Neck kisses for a start.
Also most of the J2 tinhats evidence about J2 being real is rarely backed up by visual evidence and if there is any, it is usually from years ago. I am not hating on antis, just stating facts.
5.    I mean, cursing on stage really? I curse all the time my bf doesnât. Does that mean he doesnât like me or love me? Hell to the Fucking No! Suck it!
6.    On Mc not taking acting seriously. Yeah I can guess why he doesnât. It is not his only priority unlike JA who has chosen it as a career path. From what I have seen, MCâs priorities include making the world a better place through charities, politics, and oh, he is also a writer. Oh so forgive him if he is not obsessed with acting. Besides JA says that he likes how he acts as Cas because it is not like anything he has seen from other guest stars that have come on the show. I mean not being serious about something does not mean that you are not good at it. Would he have lasted 11 seasons if he was not good at what he does?
There was also hate that JA is only around MC for PR and he actually hates him. There were some photos and gifs so the apparent hate. So, if he cannot stand him, why is there so much evidence of JA going to MC to give some love, Neck kisses, intimate IG posts, face caresses, ass smacks, calling him his baby dadfy, heart eyes, even when they donât know that they are being filmed?
Also why is it during the Vegascon 2020 all JA did was bring up MC unnecessarily even when no one, absolutely nobody asked him to. Come on! stop the bs and admit that Cockles is the realest ship in the history of ships!!
ON THE WIVES
I swear bitches be crazy. How can you just hat someone for literally nothing? This is mostly from J2 tinhats at other J2 stans who do not ship J2 together romantically. I meanâŚcomeon. You do not need to be a stan for the wives just because they are married to J2 but please stop with the madness.
I recently saw someone comment on various JA posts on IG asking why he is lying to the fans that he is with D when he is with JP. So many rude things have been said about the wives especially D that it breaks my heart.
Seiously? People have gone ahead even to say that she is with JAâs friend SC and that the twins are not JAâs they are SCâs since D and SC are âalwaysâ hanging out together. My question is, so D is not supposed to hang out with their friends? And for Chuckâs sake, everyone can see that the twins especially the boy (idk their names, sorry) looks like JAâs twin. I mean come on people.
I believe that they hate D because she says how much she loves MC and that Cas is her favorite character and that they are also bitter that JA chose her and not them. Just my opinion, but what do I know. On JP and G. I donât know much about them mostly because I do not follow either of them of IG or elsewhere but I have seen hate on G as well.
The antis have gone ahead to say that when JA said that he was hanging out with SC writing songs, that he was lying and that nothing was happening he was just trying to dampen the rumours. I wonder how they felt when the album by JA and Sc came out last year. Jokes on you haters. Bitches be crazy fr.
Oh, the antis also say that the same way JA looks at his wife is the same way he looks at MC. With contempt. I mean talk about hanging yourself with your own rope. What they are saying is, JA feels about his wife the same way he feels abouts MC. Aww! That is true love bitches.
If JA actually cannot stand MC, shouldnât he have gotten him fired from the show or at least make sure he gets less screen time and that they donât have any panels together being that JA is the star of the show and all. I mean Mark left and he was a major character to the plot so...
Also why would JA give and buy MC clothes if he hates him? Give him a ring, a bracelet? Huh? Explain it to me.
Oh, some anti also said that before every Cockles panel at JIBCON JA cries and has to be forced on stage by Daniella and JP has to give him a hug and thatâs why he drinks a lot of apple juice. LOL. WTF? What do you say to such people. I cannot even..My question is, are we talking about the same Cockles panels that I have seen? Then JA deserves all the Oscars and Tony Awards for his impeccable acting skills when he is around MC. Must really hate him. *wink*
MY TWO CENTS ON COCKLES
I know JA gives off mixed actions about MC. But I think it is to confuse people like us, shippers. Â He doesât want to too out there so he tries so hard to be mean with his words. But his actions tell a different story. I mean, who gets a boner when their friend straddles them on stage and then goes ahead to post that chest to chest selfie on IG. That is the gayest thing I have ever seen.
Sharing clothes? I mean friends do share clothes but if it is like a daily thing. More than 20 articles of clothing exchanged between each other on various occasions even when they are apart does not make sense to me. And to make matters worse, JA does not deny it. One even had a tag on it. Lol. We are not children, we can see what is going on.
The 2014 DallasCon â Robâs Birthday Party. WTF? Was all that between JA and MC? Why did he he swallow and react like that when he saw MCâs bare abdomen? Who does that? Also the looks when MC was leaving the stage. Come on.
Also what was up with theâ I love you from the bottom of my heartâ at the MTV top 10 in 2010.
The wife is my rock but I am glad to have some pebbles in my life.
Truth is, JA could post a video of him balls deep in MC and the antis could say that somehow MC manipulated JA to post it for PR.
People need to leave MC alone, he ie a human being who has made mistakes, JA and JP have too and I donât see the antis hating on them. The double Standard s FOH.
I could write about this forever but the truth is JA loves MC, and D and V know that they love each other. All their friends know including JP and other castmates. I believe they know it is more than just friends and the antis canât stand it because they also know it to be true.
JA LOVES MC. JP LOVES MC. J2M LOVE EACH OTHER. J2 LOVE THEIR WIVES. STOP THE HATE!!
I am not done but I am done for now. I could be here forever writing about this if I do not stop.
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