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hi strange iâve been enjoying yr videos for about four years thank u for giving me giggles for so long. however i am writing as i am not totally sure who else to askâŚ
my boyfriend had a traumatic pneumothorax last week and about 80% of his right lung collapsed. i donât really know anything about pneumothorax (although i have learned so much recently lol) aside from hearing you mention it and as such i donât know how to help him :(
i know itâs a shot in the dark but i was wondering if there are any comforts or ways to alleviate pain you could share? thank you so much strange you are super tough btw to have gone through this several times this Sucks big time
many good wishes to you and your sweet hairless babies in the new year!
If it happened one week ago heâs already gotten through the worst part! Iâm assuming heâs still hospitalized with a chest tube in right now??
When I was in that situation it helped a lot having frequent visits from my partner and family. Especially when they brought snacks!!!!!! Hospital meals can be borderline inedible and thereâs no way of escaping to the food court when you have a chest tube in (unless you plan to deceive multiple nurses and risk life threatening infection through the OPEN HOLE IN YOUR CHEST. Donât do that).
Good food can be a relief in an otherwise horrible time, so finding out what he really wants to eat and brining it will definitely help. If he has no appetite then things like smoothies or drinkable soup can be very helpful. I often live off booster juice and Tim Hortona chicken noodle soup when hospitalized.
Finding the right media to keep sane is also very important!!! Your sleep schedule disintegrates entirely when laying on your back full of tube for multiple days. 2AM listening to alarms go off and 6AM getting woken up for x-rays and 1pm having the lunch slop delivered and 3pm being woken up for x-rays and 9pm visit from your surgeon all become basically indistinguishable, especially if you have no windows. Podcasts were ideal for me because it can be very hard to find a comfortable position with a chest tube / pneumothorax and looking at a screen was often too much of a hassle. Queer as fact and fall of civilizations are both excellent if you want non fiction btw. Old gods of Appalachia or welcome to nightvale if you want fiction.
Thereâs not a lot that you as a loved one can do about his physical pain, but I will share some of my pneumothorax expertise with you and anyone else who might go through this.
Thereâs no nerve endings in the lungs so all the pain/ discomfort related to a pneumothorax has to do with pressure in the chest cavity.
The pain is the absolute worst when your lung is actively collapsing so when that feeling starts SHOVE SOME EXTRA STRENGTH ADVIL OR TYLENOL DOWN YOUR THROAT, then lay down and wait for it to finish collapsing. It may seem tempting to rush to the hospital as fast as possible (or rush your loved one whoâs lung is collapsing to the hospital) but trust me the last thing you want to do with a lung that is actively deflating like a sad balloon is exert yourself (this is how I collapsed my lung the full 100% and could not move my upper body for an hour. Quirky). Give it at least 30 minutes of floor time before you try to move. You will have a way better time getting to the hospital.
Wait sorry I lied lung re-inflation hurts sometimes more than the initial collapse. The sometimes are the times when ER nurses do not know how to do it properly. Immediately after they put the chest tube in, they attach it to a suction machine to suck out the excess air in your chest cavity. I do not know if these machines are the same internationally (Iâm Canadian) but if youâre dealing with one where the settings are percentages, the one you want is 20% suction. NOT 100%!!! that just causes unnecessary excruciating pain without being more effective. I have had to fight numerous nurses while in the worst pain of my life to TURN THE PAIN MACHINE DOWN. fuck the pain machine. Anyway. After the pain machine they leave the tube in for a few more days to make sure the lung stays inflated. Nearing the end of that process, most of the discomfort is caused by the tube itself, so as horrible disgusting the worst getting that thing ripped out is, just know you will feel so much better after.
Throughout the healing process (and in the case of small pneumothoraxes not requiring chest tubes â Iâve had over 10 of those ones) Iâve noticed that heightened discomfort lasting a few minutes results from going from laying down to standing up or vice verse, or from bending over. This is why I have pioneered the sophisticated technique know as the pneumothorax squat. It is just as cool and hot as youâre imagining.
This post was supposed to be about how to support a loved one with a pneumothorax what the heck am I even talking about now.
Most of what heâs going to need will seem boring or insignificant. Companionship. Food. Medication. Toiletries. COMPANIONSHIP. podcast recommendations. But it absolutely is not insignificant. Abruptly losing mobility, independence, and bodily autonomy as a young person is really fucked up and I cannot fathom doing it without my family and my partner, even if most days that consisted of talking to me and bringing me smoothies and underwear.
Wishing a quick recovery to your boyfriend! Good luck with everything!!
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can i request pervy roommate seonghwa who loves taking upskirt pictures of you and steals your panties. he got caught snooping in your room and you decide to punish him.
a subby seonghwa would be great. reader doesnt have to be dom but hwa loves it when shes mean to him.
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ŕ¨ŕ§Â summary   although you were no more than roommates, seonghwa was obsessed with you â completely infatuated by your mere existence. along with the pure admiration he had towards you, it also came with the immoral perverted thoughts that filled his mind every time he caught your scentâŚ
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Although you were no more than roommates, Seonghwa was obsessed with you â completely infatuated by your mere exsistence. He couldnât go a day without thinking about you, haunted by the lingering scents of your sweet perfume after you had left for your classes. Everything you owned and collected through your life was placed decoratively around the house, along with his own collections.
There was no escaping you.
He tried his hardest to control himself, but perverted tendencies drove him in other directions, all of this starting one day by just doing the laundry. While you were at one of your exams, one you had been stressing about all week, Seonghwa decided he wanted to help remove some sort of chores in your life and washed your dirty laundry.Â
Little did he know: this would be the worst thing to do.
Sorting through the blacks and whites, he would occasionally come across your underwear, which he had no problem with of course. That was until one pair of your panties, a navy blue pair with small white flowers and a white lace trim, ended up in his grip. This happened to be the pair you had worn last night, laced with your pre-arousal from your very teasing casual hookup, the smell was pungent. The aroma filled the small room and travelled its way into Seonghwaâs nose. He stared at the pair with wide eyes, his thumb tracing over the darkened, now dried, patch of the previous night's intimate moments.
It was as if his mind had lost control of his body, his hands slowly pulling the panties to his face and breathing them in deeply. The fragrance was intoxicating, his mind instantly becoming fogged and heat swiftly rushing through his body, targeting the area between his legs. He had never become harder quicker, his dick twitching desperately in his sweats and leaked with pre-cum â all from one whiff. In desperation, he ran to his bedroom and stripped himself of his pants. Your panties in one hand and his throbbing erection in the other, creating the beginning cycle of perversion.
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Seonghwa tried his hardest to respect your privacy, attempting to block out the sounds of your sexual actions in the next room with his headphones, hands originally distracted by his animal crossing game. But how could he not be distracted, with the beautiful melody of your moans that cracked through the walls. Even knowing they were fake, they were still music to his ears.
You were currently in a friends-with-benefits situation with a guy at your college. He was cute, a good kisser and good at turning you on, but he could never finish the job. Seonghwa didnât understand why you would still invite him over time and time again, especially with the knowledge that the moment he would leave, your vibrator would be in between your legs to pull you through the unfinished orgasms. Thatâs how he knew the difference in your moans, fake vs real, he heard both without even touching you.
âFuuck, right there.â You moaned loudly, the familiar knot building in your stomach as the man pumped sloppily into you. Unbeknownst to you, Seonghwa sat in his room listening to your whimpers, secretly praying he was the one driving you with pleasure. His erection tented in his pajama pants, desperately twitching for friction. Fingers grazed over the bulge, fluttering at the light touch before they turned into a palming movement. Lifting the waistband of his pants, he watched as pre-cum dribbled out of the reddened tip. He dragged his thumb over it, wincing at the feeling before he started slowly pumping himself. The sounds of your moans echoed through the hall and into Seonghwaâs room, mixing with a lewd symphony of his own silent whines and desperation to cum. His hand pumped with the rhythm of your sounds, growing faster every time you did. A tension grew in his stomach, a combination of pleasure and guilt. He knew this was a disgusting thing to do, but he physically couldnât stop, no matter how hard he tried.
Just as he was about to fall over the edge, the sounds of sex stopped and footsteps fell through the apartment, the front door opening and closing quickly. Seonghwa curiously got up out of bed, taking a peak through the crack in his bedroom door. He watched as you locked the front door and wandered back to your bedroom, wearing nothing but a cropped band tee and black lace panties â corruption bled into his brain as he stared at the panties clenching around your ass, knowing they would be his next victim of fetishising. The sound of vibrations pricked at his ears, whimpers quietly following.Â
Tip-toeing through the hallway, he glanced through the open crevice into your bedroom, eyes widening at the sight before him. The bunny vibrator pressing into your clit deliciously as you grind your dripping cunt on a pillow that usually sat on the chair in the corner of the room. Seonghwa watched as you humped the pillow desperately chasing your unfinished business, his hardened erection reminding him of his own. His hands moved down his abdomen and under his waistband, his slender fingers wrapping around the base of his cock and pumping hopelessly â his eyes remained on the view between the cracked open door. Your moans heightened in pitch as you rutted against the pillow, vibrator still tightly held to your puffy clit, you pressed the button to the fastest setting causing your legs to begin to shake uncontrollably. The sight was hypnotic to Seonghwa, his hand pumping to the rhythm of your hip movements. With parted lips, a small whimper escaped them causing him to slap his free hand to his mouth in an attempt to not blow his cover. Thankfully for him, you were too invested in making yourself finish to notice that just two metres from you was your roommate pursuing the same feeling.Â
Your belly tightened as your orgasm crashed over you, body shaking hopelessly as you fell backwards, the vibrator rubbing your arousal around your entire core. Your breathing was heavy as you slowed down from your high. Behind your bedroom door, Seonghwa had the same feeling wash over him like a tidal wave. His hand pumped around his bulge with desperation as hot ropes of cum filled his pajama pants, a sticky wet patch now coating the inside of them. He leant back against the wall accidentally causing a creak to rustle through the house. Without hesitation, he sharply ran back to his room and closed the door quickly but quietly, praying that his perverted self wasnât caught.
The noise of creaking and silent footsteps entertained your eyes, thinking that your roommate had just heard you masturbating, but in your post-orgasm bliss â you didnât seem to care and ended changing into pajamas and drifting off to sleep.
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Seonghwa searched destructively through your laundry basket, looking for that hypnotic black lacy pair of panties that were clad to your ass last night. Currently alone in the house, with you at your morning classes, he knew youâd be gone long enough for him to relieve himself of his depravity â or so he thoughtâŚ
Finally, the lace of the panties tickled his finger tips, quickly snatching them up and bolting to his room. The second he entered, his pants and boxers were discarded somewhere on the floor, the loose shirt being his only coverage. He sat up against the headboard staring at the object in hand, observing the previous patch of wet arousal on them. He felt like he could cum right then and there just by the sight, both lips and tip drooling in anticipation. His hand wrapped around his twitching cock, finger grazing over the sensitive red tip and down the underside vein of his length, dragging his pre-cum over it and beginning to stroke.
His grip tightened on the panties as he moved his hand rhythmically, the other slowly bringing the fabric to his face and dipping his nose into it â he inhaled the scent letting it reroute his brain. He whined desperately into the fabric as his hand pumped around his raging erection faster. He couldnât hold himself back any longer, hips bucking hopelessly into his hand and moaning incoherent mumbles of your name â he had never been this turned on by someone, a person who wasnât even there. Seonghwa was so caught up in euphoria that he didnât hear the clicks of the front door, or the footsteps that grew closer to his room.
Classes finished early today, which meant you got to go home and relax after having such a stressful school week. The front door unlocked swiftly and you entered with a huff, throwing your shoes off into the corner and placing your coat over the arm of the couch. Muffled groans filled the apartment, all coming from Seonghwaâs room. You cocked an eyebrow at the thought of him having someone over â you couldnât judge of course but you had never known him to be one for hookups. Curiosity got the best of you and you tip-toed towards his room, the door left slightly open but not enough to see. You lightly pushed it open, eyes widening in shock at the sight of the man on the bed. His hand wrapped securely around his very hard, very large, dick, moving in a fast rhythmic pattern and glistening with pre-cum. You watched as his eyebrows furrowed and eyes rolled backwards, his other hand covering the majority of his face. As his face contorted with pleasure, you felt a warmth move to your core, something you never thought youâd feel for your roommate of all people.
Paying unnecessary close attention to his facial expressions, you noticed he held something compressed against his nose; quick enough to realise what it was. Slipping on your feet slightly, the door opened wider and revealed your presence, Seonghwa too intoxicated to notice until the sound of your voice penetrated his ears.
âW-what the fuck?â You stuttered, frozen in shock at the sight. âSeonghwa, what are you doing?â
âOh, oh my god! Iâm so sorry!â He jumped, spitting apologies whilst trying to cover himself. You walked up to his bed and snatched your panties out of his hands, putting the pieces together as to why they kept going missing for a few days but showing up suddenly after mentioning it.
��Why do you have these?â You shouted, the stickiness of pre-cum latching onto your fingers, caused by his speediness to cover himself up with his hands. You watched his body tense up, his face was flushed down to his neck, big boba eyes looking at you with fear and guilt.
âY/N, Iâm so sorry, I thought you were going to be out all morning-â
âI donât care! Why are you taking my underwear, you perv!â Ignoring the more perverted fact that you were so turned on by the thought of his getting off to you. A silence followed as you both collected your thoughts.
âIâm truly so sorry,â His voice hushed, eyes glossing with guilty tears. âY/N, please forgive me. Iâll do anything, just please forgive me.â
You brows furrowed in thought, staring at the desperation in his expression; coated with so many guilty and lustful emotions. Although you were no more than roommates and never had been, you could see that Seonghwa was obsessed with you â completely infatuated by your mere existence.
âAnythingâ, he said it himself.Â
You had complete control right now.
Quietly sitting down next to him, he shifted in his spot as you grew closer, hand grazing his bare thigh. The soft touch sent chills up his spine, his hands still cupping his erection in coverage.
âI just want to know,â Your gaze moved to his face. âWhy?â
âW-why?â
âWhy do you get off to my panties,â Your fingertips trailed up and down his thigh, growing closer to his hard-on with every line. âWhen you could just have me?â
His eyes widened as the question lingered in the air, your hand now centimetres away from where he wanted it most. Lips parted and unable to get words out, he watched as your face moved closer to him, your breath grazing against his lips before connecting them with yours. Instantly falling into the kiss, he memorised how soft and delicate your lips were, his hand removing his cover and cupping your face to keep you close. The kiss quickly fell into a passionate mixture of moans and groans, tongues dancing in tangent and twirling around each other.Â
Both of his hands now cupping your face, you took this as the opportunity to wrap your fingers around his length. He whined into the kiss as you slowly stroked him, collecting sticky pre-cum from his tip and dragging it up and down his throbbing erection. The kiss was unbreakable, hopeless moans falling in from Seonghwa, his brain unable to process what was truly happening. The tension already began to build in his stomach due to his previous orgasm being ruined. You broke the kiss to look at him, watching as he tried to follow you for more. His eyes were hooded and eyebrows scrunching in different shapes as his orgasm grew closer.
âYou know â fuuck â Iâve always dreamt of being with you.â He swore, legs starting to tremble beneath him.
âAre you close, Hwa?â You asked with a sultry voice, melting into his ears.
âY-yes.â He mumbled, scrambling for words but ultimately losing to the continuous symphony of whimpers that flowed like a river. His hips began to buck into your hand for more friction, understanding and swiftly speeding your movements. You watched as his orgasm sat on the edge; stomach tensed, eyes rolled back, hands clutching at the sheets â a complete moaning mess.
âY/N, âm gonna cum-â Mere seconds before his release, you removed your hand from his leaking tip and listened to him whine in agony.
âYou didnât really think that I would let you cum that easy, did you?â You laughed, his pain serving as a comedy show for you. âYouâve been such a naughty boy, stealing my panties and using them to get off. Donât you think you deserve some punishment?â
A pout grew on his face, puppy eyes staring at you in despair.
âUnless you donât want me to touch you at all-â
âNo!â He snapped, a usual tone of anger turned into a beg. âPleaseâŚâ
You smirked at the perverted man, watching as he poured his heart into begging for your touch, smiling once you gave in.
After multiple denied orgasms, Seonghwaâs body was shaking all over, arousal leaking into his bloodstream. His lips were swollen from your kisses, face coloured in a crimson red and sweat beading down his skin. His hands were now tied tightly to the bed posts, a penalty caused by his inability to keep his hands away from his cock every time you repudiated his orgasm â which happened to be four or five of them by now. The tip of his length was a matching shade of red to his face, swollen and oozing out clear liquid that probably couldnât even be called pre-cum from the amount of times it had happened. Every touch from you caused his skin to burn, a good and bad sensation.
âPleease Y/N,â He cried, tears welling up in his eyes and piercing the corners as they rolled down his cheeks. âItâs too much now, please let me cum.â
âBut I thought this was what you wanted?â You looked up at him with innocent eyes and purred, running your tongue along his slit and wrapping your lips softly around the tip, slowly pushing your head down until his length hit the back of your throat. A guttural groan trembled between Seonghwaâs lips, tears now streaming like niagara falls down his flushed and puffy cheeks as you sucked him in. âWerenât you the one who said you dreamt of being with me?â
âThis isnât â aahhh â exactly what I had in mind⌠shitâŚâ His voice vibrated through the room, it was unstable as his sloppy upwards thrusts into your hands.
âWell, I did say you needed to be punished, butâŚâ You removed your hand once more and brought it to cup his warm cheek, his glossy boba eyes staring into yours. He looked so vulnerable right now, you almost felt bad. âI think youâve had enough, baby. What do you want me to do?â
âSit on my face.â
The response was instant, almost as if a switch snapped him back on. The words were audible compared to his previous mumbled groans and curses, leaving you surprised. You had been so focused on giving him tortuous pleasure that you were completely ignoring the wet patch that soaked your panties the moment you entered the room, his statement made your body realise that you had silently been torturing yourself as well.
Swiftly discarding your clothes, you straddled his chest, thighs sitting comfortably next to his face and letting your dripping core hover above his mouth. He looked up at you from underneath checking for any uncertainty, both sending each other silent confirmations. He licked his plush lips before sticking his tongue out, waiting as you lowered your weight onto him.
He slid his tongue through your folds in a slow motion, earning a moan from you â music to his ears. As worn out and tired as he was, his energy regained instantly at the small taste of you. He quickly began lapping at your soaking folds, lewdly drinking up your wetness and following the pleasured sounds falling from your lips. Breathing in your scent was intoxicating to him, and finally it was from the source and not a patch of lacy fabric.
One hand grasped tightly at the headboard whilst the other ruffled itself into Seonghwaâs long locks, body jolting at the tip of his tongue suddenly hitting your clit. It swirled and flicked over it at a speed nobody has ever done, already feeling the knot grow in your lower abdomen.
âFuuck Hwa, feels so good.â You cried, knuckles beginning to turn white from the pressure on your grip. He hummed in response as he continued to drink you up like a starved animal.
Hands still tied to the bedposts, he had no option of burying his slender fingers deep inside of you so instead he began pulsating his tongue in and out of your tight hole, feeling you clench around it which was driving him insane. You instinctively began grinding against his face, his nose tapping your clit with every roll of your hips.
The blend of lewd slurping and desperate moans filled the atmosphere, loud enough for neighbours to hear but neither of you cared. As you bucked your hips against his face, dragging your essence over his nose and chin, his moans shuddered beneath you sending new shockwaves of pleasure through your body. You felt your high building and your thighs began tightening, squeezing around Seonghwaâs face, almost cutting off the circulation. But he didnât care. Infact, it turned him on even more to know the effect he was having on you. From listening to you hook up with your classmates and hearing you masturbate afterwards, he knew that these moans were real and you were truly enjoying yourself.
âHwa, mâ gonna cuâ ahhh!â In desperation to be washed over by your arousal, he began rubbing his face against your pussy, long tongue still roughly pumping in and out of you and nose thrashing your bud with every move. Both hands held securely onto the headboard as you rode his face hopelessly before your orgasm crashed over you, body shaking harsher than ever before as you layered Seonghwaâs face in your squirted essence.
He whined at the sensations of your juices guzzling down his throat, making sure to drink up every drop. The feeling of your body trembling above him caused his own orgasm to rush through his body. Warm ropes of cum spurted out of his throbbing cock and onto his abs, painting the scene with white cream continuously as his body rid him of all the build up pressure. He moaned into your soaked core and sent a melody of sensations through your body, causing a small aftershock of overstimulation.
Both breathing heavily, you climbed off of him and quickly untied his wrists from restraint, his arms instantly dropping to his sides. His chest fell and rose harshly, still trying to regain his composure back. You hopped off the bed and grabbed a towel from his washing basket, presumably an already dirty one, wiping his tummy clean and throwing the towel away. You stood up once more before a soft grip to your wrist stopped you.
âWhere are you going?â Seonghwa sobbed, tear stains very prominent on his cheeks making you realise how far you pushed him.
âIâll be back in just a second, I promise.â You whisper before wandering to the kitchen and returning with two glasses of water. âDrink this, baby.â
Seonghwa took the glass and gulped it down, watching as you moved around his room collecting items of clothes for him before stealing a shirt of his to wear yourself. Helping him sit up, you gently pulled a shirt over his head and gave him a pair of boxers to put on before he lay back down. You sat on the edge of the bed, guilt fading into you at the sight of him.
âDonât feel bad,â As if he read your mind, he smiled softly at your concern. âThis was everything I wanted and more.â
You returned him with a small smile of your own before leaning in and placing a delicate kiss on his swollen lips. The kiss, so soft and gentle compared to the previous scene, was sending an emotion through you that you hadnât felt before after sex. A mutual understanding of the need to be around each other, especially following such a tormented situation. You pulled away and watched his facial expressions, not an ounce of regret or disheartment was in his eyes, only love and adoration.
âDo you have any more classes today?â
âI donât, why?â
âCan you stay with me?â
A question that no guy had ever asked you or expected of you after sleeping with them. You finally understood why Seonghwa was always so caring towards you, despite his perverted tendencies, he was still so gentle with your emotions â he was deeply in love with you.
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A Crow Underwater
Rook x Lucanis || 5.5k words
on ao3
summary: Crow Rook and Lucanis' first meeting during the Sea of Blood quest, from Lucanis' perspective.
notes: I have half a mind to keep writing this Rook (my og mage Crow Rook) and Lucanis into a longer form fic (maybe a series?) I do have a whole backstory planned for her that I think could be fun to explore but ahhh idk
also humongous shoutout to @ datvtranscripts on tumblr for their incredible work cataloging datv dialogue, massively helpful for this fanfic writer <3
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Lucanis snaps the neck of the last Venatori cultist, letting their body thump to the stone at his feet. Spiteâs wings dissipate at his back.Â
Someone speaks behind him, voice lilting in an almost playful manner. âIâm guessing youâre the reason weâre here.âÂ
He turns to the two individuals who are entirely out of place in this underwater prison cell. Their unexpected arrival provided him with just the distraction he needed to burst from the crystal the Venatori had come to him in and dispatch them. He studies the new arrivals through narrowed eyes. One, a dwarf and the other, a Dalish elf, judging by the tattoos feathering around their eyes.Â
âWho are you? Who sent you?â His voice is gruff with disuse. A year locked away with nothing but a demon for a conversation companion would do that.Â
It's the elf who speaks again. âMy nameâs Rook. House de Riva. Iâm here to bring you home. Sheâs Harding,â the elf jerks their head towards the dwarf whose hands tighten on her crossbow.Â
A fellow Crow? House de Riva. That makes them one of Viagoâs. Has his grandmother sent them to retrieve him? The day's surprises continue for Lucanis. âHouse de Riva. You're a Crow.âÂ
âLast time I checked.â The elf peers over their shoulder at an ominous groan from the prisonâs walls. It appears the sounds of clashing Venatori and demons that Lucanis heard echoing through the Ossuary have resulted in a bit of structural damage. âWe need to escape. Then we can talk.â The Crow, Rook, says, bringing their attention back to him. âIâm here to help. Iâm breaking you out of here.âÂ
âOnly one of youâs a Crow?â Lucanis is baffled by this situation. Â
âAnd youâre possessed by a demon.â They sound curious, not judgemental, as their eyes trace the empty space around him where Spite's wings had been moments ago.Â
âIt's complicated.â Lucanis supposes he should get used to people looking at him like he's an abomination. Only, this RookâŚdoesn't. Their gaze stays open and curious. Their partner's discomfort goes unhidden. But if Rook is alarmed by the presence of a demon-possessed assassin, they don't show it.
âCaterina promised us a mage-killer if we broke you out of here.â Rook says mildly.Â
âI can still work.âÂ
âGood. Because Iâm pretty sure more Venatori are on their way. We have to get moving.âÂ
âRookâŚâ The dwarf looks to the Crow, her mouth pulled taught with wariness. âHe's possessed.â
âIt's fine, Harding.â
âRook-â Harding tries again.
âI said I can work.â Lucanis bites out.Â
Harding glares at him. âAnd Iâll listen to whatever she says,â she gestures with her crossbow at Rook. âBut I donât trust him.â The last bit she addresses towards the elf.Â
âUnderstood.â Rook nods. âAnd we can discuss that later. Right now, Iâd really prefer not drowning at the bottom of the sea.â Â
âI canât leave yet. The Venatori have a vial of my blood. I cannot leave it in their hands.â He notes the staff at Rookâs back, marking her as a mage. She will understand better than any the gravity of a mage who owns your blood.Â
âOkay.âÂ
âAnd I had a contract when I was captured. One of my targets is here. Calivan.â Lucanis locks eyes with Rook. âYou know what that means. Crows donât break contracts.â
âAll right. We'll help,â she agrees easily. âBut in return, I want help killing some things.âÂ
âIâll owe you.â Lucanis vows, noting the vagueness in her request. But a contract is a contract. Whatever things need killing, Lucanis would oblige. And if Caterina had sent her for a deal, Lucanis would never refuse.Â
âIâm sure weâll owe each other before this is all over.â She pulls blades from her own belt, tossing them to Lucanis. âLetâs go. So, first order of business?â
âBlood first, then my target. Calivan. The prison warden.â Rook immediately takes the lead as they exit his prison cell. Lucanis follows and this provides him with a chance to study his mysterious Crow rescuer.
She's a wisp of a woman. Lucanis does not mean this derisively- he himself is of small stature and it serves him well as an assassin. But he has entire inches on her. She must make deadly use of that in their line of work. As they slink through the corridors of the Ossuary, Lucanis observes the fluid lightness of her steps and knows heâs right. A target would never hear her coming. Her long, silvery blonde hair falls over her shoulders in two, tightly woven braids.
âWhere do we find them? Calivan?âÂ
âIn the tower. Thereâs a bridge.âÂ
âNot anymore,â Rook replies and Lucanis wonders just how bad of a state the Ossuary has fallen into. âWeâll have to find another way across.âÂ
A flurry of motion ahead of them as Venatori mages descend upon them in the chamber outside of his former cell. Lucanis refuses to even harbor thoughts that they will not escape this watery hell. He will not go back to that cell now that he is free, even if he must die instead. Â
âGood. Mages. My specialty.â Lucanis is so eager to have a blade back in his hand, to cause pain to the Venatori that Rook and Harding are barely needed in this fight. Spite lends his wings and Lucanis stretches his muscles for the first time in a year. He gets the distinct impression that Rook is deliberately hanging backâ whether to study his abilities or to offer him a bit of vengeance, he is unsure.Â
Rummaging through the pockets of the slain Venatori, Rook raises a key, her triumphant smile spreading wide. âAll right! One of them has a key. Must be my lucky day.âÂ
Lucanis raises an eyebrow. âYou have an odd idea of luck.â He glances pointedly at their surroundings.Â
Rook shrugs. âWell, Iâm not dead yet. Neither are you. And actually, given the circumstances, that probably makes your luck better than mine.â She winks at him. Lucanis is suddenly very aware that these are the first true conversations heâs had with anyone in months. Heâs not quite sure heâs doing it right. Is it possible to forget how to talk to people?Â
They move forward through the Ossuary. Lucanis wonders how his grandmother finally found his location and why it was this particular Crow she sent to retrieve him. Not a Crow from House Dellamorte. Not a Crow he had even met before, as far as he could remember. And despite the brevity of their acquaintance, Rook imparted a feeling that she was not easily forgotten. Â
âSo, the Crows sent a mage to free their mage-killer?âÂ
âNo. They sent their best.â
âDid they?â Lucanis is genuinely curious how things may have changed within the Crows during his absence. Who has risen in the ranks, who has fallen. Had his cousin, Illario, moved closer to First Talon?
Rook raises one eyebrow at him, the other scrunching with what must be amusement as her lips curl up at the edges. âNo. They sent who needed you and who came looking at exactly the right time. Although I am good.â She winks at him yet again. Lucanis searches his memory trying to recall what it means when people wink at you.  Â
âWhy were you looking for me?â
âTwo blighted elven gods have broken free of their Fade prison and want to blight the whole bloody world. You're the Demon of Vyrantium. You're the mage-killer. Hopefully god-killer is in there somewhere too.â
âBlighted gods?â Lucanis must have heard her wrong.
âYeah. I know, it's a lot. Just what the elven people need.â Thereâs a hard edge pressing against her words. âSo about your target?â
âCalivan. The warden of the Ossuary. He oversees everything here.âÂ
âWhere do we find him?â The dwarfâ Hardingâ asks.Â
âHeâll be in the most fortified part of the Ossuary, but first, we have to find where theyâre keeping my blood. I cannot touch Calivan until itâs dealt with.âÂ
Their conversation is interrupted when they enter a new chamber and a swarm of Venatori pop into existence around them. Even as they fight, Harding keeps one eye trained on him, her distrust evident. Still, she is deadly with her bowâ her arrows do not miss.Â
And Rookâ Rook is an artist, raising her staff like a brush against canvas. She paints death over the Venatori and effortlessly falls into step beside him, no longer holding back. Perhaps Lucanis has grown poetic during his isolation. Or maybe, he is simply moved by the welcome familiarity of fighting alongside another Crow. It has been too long since he had a taste of home. Regardless, it is apparent that Rook wasn't being overly braggadocious about being good. She wields her magic with all of the finesse and grace expected of a Crow.
They proceed. Striking down Venatori as they go. Rook pauses when they move through a chamber that served as a workshop for Zaraâs tormented creations. She examines the evidence strewn across tables, a strained expression on her face. âWait⌠Were they torturing demons? How? Why?â
âThey didnât all start out as demons. Zara made sure they ended up that way.â Lucanis states bluntly. The blood stains would explain his point well enough. Â
âZara?â Rook hasnât looked away from the workbenches.Â
âZara Renata. There might be a higher-ranking Venatori somewhere, but I donât know of one. This place is all her.â
Rook stares solemnly at the tables a moment longer. The stillest Lucanis has seen her yet, like the suddenly smooth surface of a lake that normally ripples with currents. Abruptly, she turns her attention to the Venatori crystals blocking their path. She smashes them, her mouth set in a harsh line, her eyes gleaming with a stony anger. A dam broken, an undulating eddy of motion as she cuts through the Ossuary.Â
âCorpses possessed by demons. Watch out.â Harding warns, nodding to the undead shambling up the path ahead.Â
âZara Renataâs work. This place exists just for her to make new, worse kinds of demons.âÂ
âI think Iâd very much like to meet this Zara. Show her some of my work.â Rook watches the undead as they take a diverging path around. Attention snapping away as she states, âVenatori ahead.âÂ
âMine.â Lucanis steps up, determined to take his pay in blood today. Rook makes space for him. More blood mages crawl out of their rat holes behind them. âMierda. These guys. Let me hit him first, then you can take him down.â  Â
âWith pleasure,â Rook hums beside him. They fall into sync again, Lucanisâ pulse racing with the adrenaline of long overdue kills.Â
Rook steps over the corpses of the dead Venatori and Harding quickens her pace to walk alongside Rook. âRook. You sure about this? AbominationsâŚâ Harding's tone conveys her feelings on abominations.Â
âWe made a deal with the Crows to bring him back. And don't forget that it's gods we're up against.âÂ
âRight. Well, abominations never end well. Just remember I warned you.âÂ
Rook doesn't respond. Lucanis grits his teeth at the way they discuss him as if he's not here. One thing he can say he knows about Rook now though, is that she will complete her contractsâ regardless of what she finds on the other end of it.Â
The ground shakes beneath them and a macing creak echoes through the Ossuary, stopping them in their tracks.Â
âI donât like this!â Harding exclaims.Â
Rook has her arms held out at her sides, steadying her feet. âCanât say Iâm a fan either.âÂ
Lucanis watches a stream of water trickle down a wall. âWe may not have much time.âÂ
They reach a chasm where a bridge must have once been. Rook stares frustratedly at the open air they need to cross. âDamn it, thereâs no path through here.â Â
I. Can make. A path. From the Fade. The demon speaks in Lucanisâ head.Â
âWhat?â Lucanis forgets that speaking out loud will draw attention.Â
Let. Me. Pull from the Fade.Â
âWhat are you-â NOW, Spite yells. âFine.âÂ
âWhat is it?â Rook asks, considering him with a softness in her eyes.
âHe says he can get us across.âÂ
âWho is âheâ?â Rook leans slightly to the side to peer around Lucanis, eyes flicking back to him in question.Â
âThe demon. He says thereâs something here. Something he can grab hold of in the Fade. Itâs close.âÂ
âBy all means.â Rook waves her hand and stands aside, looking distinctly unmoved by the fact that Lucanis has just confirmed speaking to a demon inside his head.Â
Lucanis allows Spite just enough rein to reach out. Heâs shocked when the demonâs magic manifests an entire chunk of stone as a makeshift bridge for them.Â
âWow.â The awe in Rookâs voice mirrors his own. âThe demon pulled all of that from the Fade?â
âIâm as surprised as you.â Lucanis tries not to think too much about all the demon could do if left unchecked.
They enter another workshop area where Venatori mages and demons brawl.Â
âTheyâre fighting? But the Venatori made all these monsters, didnât they?â Harding asks.Â
âBlood mages. They never learn. Zara can summon all the demons she wants, but they donât have to obey her.âÂ
âAnd it doesn't look like they plan to,â Rook quips before plunging into the fray.Â
The ghost of a smile flutters across Lucanis' lips before he charges after her.Â
Rook rolls her head side to side, stretching out her neck after the last blood mageâ the Fabricator, Lucanis recalls their monikerâ drops to the ground, lifeless. âWhat did Zara want all these undead for?â
âNothing. Those are the failures.â So many failures. Lucanis' stomach turns at the innocent life lost within these damp halls. He may not be innocent, but he lost life here too.Â
âIf those are the failures, what does success look like?â Rook questions.Â
âShe took the âbestâ results out a few days ago. But some of the demons she created are still here.âÂ
âCalivan. You said heâs the one in charge?â Rook pauses her exit from the room to look back at him.Â
Lucanis shakes his head. âNo. Heâs a lackey. He runs this place for a powerful magister. He was my target a year ago. Now we both want him dead.â Again, Lucanis feels compelled not to hide what he is now. It almost feels like he's challenging her. This Rook says she needs him to fight elven gods, says she's here to bring him home. But what home could a demon-possessed assassin hope to have? The fighting he could do, but he would have her clear about what exactly it is she's bringing back to Treviso.
ââWeââ meaningâŚ?â Rook trails off expectantly.Â
âDemons donât forgive.âÂ
Rookâs eyes roam over him. âNeither do Crows.â She pivots, resuming her quick, sure pace.Â
They draw nearer the chamber with Lucanisâ blood vial. âWe're getting close.âÂ
âHow are we supposed to find this thing?â Harding asks him.Â
âI know itâs here. We can smell it.â The thing lurking within him has heightened his senses.Â
Entering into an expansive room, Lucanis identifies that the vial of his blood is locked behind a Venatori crystal ward. He informs Rook.Â
âIf I never see another Venatori crystalâŚâ Rook says darkly. She immediately begins to wind through the room, smashing crystals with a swipe of her staff. Lucanis gets the impression that she is not a very patient person. He imagines that it has probably earned her reprimand in House de Riva. No Talon would allow actions borne of recklessness, but especially Viago.   Â
In the center of the room are more tables strewn with corpses.Â
âLook at what's left of these people⌠they were tortured. What a terrible way to die.â Harding shakes her head.Â
âVery few people survive Calivanâs ârehabilitation.ââÂ
âYou did.â Rook says simply.Â
Lucanis peeks at her, but she continues her prowl around the room, hunting for crystals.
Rook smashes the last crystal warding the room. She sweeps out a hand in a grand gesture to Lucanis, bowing slightly at her waist. There is a mischief about her that again has Lucanis' lips twitching on the hint of a smile, such a strange feeling after a year of only horrors.
Lucanisâ eyes lock onto the blood vial at the far end of the chamber. âThere. Thatâs the one. It has to be.â
Rookâs graceful steps lead her to the container. Lucanis joins her. She looks at him, shrugs, then shatters the vial with her magic. âAll right then, thatâs done. Now for our contract.â Lucanis doesnât miss the way she says âourâ contract. Since she appeared before him, she has been fully committed to assisting him. She hasnât questioned his motives or monitored him out of the corner of her eye like Harding does. Is she reckless? Or has he simply earned her trust so easily because he is a fellow Crow? And not just any Crow. Lucanis is well aware of the weighty pull associated with the House of the First Talon, House Dellamorte.Â
Lucanis guides them through the Ossuaryâs halls to its heartâ where he believes the warden to keep office. His fingers itch to put a blade through Calivanâs heart. They reach a lift, filing inside.Â
Harding again voices her concerns in a low, warning tone. âRookâŚâ The two must know each other well for Harding need not say more to express her thoughts to Rook.
âItâs us against gods Harding-â
Lucanis doesnât particularly want to hear what Rook will say next so he interrupts. âI am right here, you know.âÂ
âItâs fine. We can talk about something else.â Rook shoots a pointed glance at Harding. âWhatâs Caterina like?â   Â
Lucanis is surprised by the question, even more surprised that he doesnât know how to answer it. âAfter so long in this pit⌠I barely remember.âÂ
âYouâve been down here for a year?â Rook cranes her neck to speak to him behind her. Her braids slide against her leathers.Â
âMmm,â Lucanis grunts in response. What else is there to say?
âIs there anything we need to know about Calivan?â Harding asks.Â
âYou want to hear about his torture methods or something else? We didnât chat.âÂ
âHe might be turning those torture methods on us very soon, so,â Rookâs shoulders shrug noncommittally. She doesnât rise to Lucanisâ spiteful bait tossed at Harding, though Harding glowers at him. Â
The lift stutters to a halt and they are emptied into a cavernous room.Â
A voice echoes across the space as they step fully inside.Â
âUgh, this was entirely unnecessary. Zara and her little jests. âHeâs already the Demon of Vyrantium! Won't this be ironic?ââ The man scoffs. âHilarious. And now look at the mess youâve made of my facility. She always leaves me to clean up.âÂ
âSo this is Calivan.â Rook sounds unimpressed.Â
âHe is.â Lucanis confirms. âThe target I was sent for a year ago. A Crow never abandons a contract.â His fingers tighten around his blade, well, Rookâs blade. He looks forward to reuniting with some of his own. Â
Rook calls out. âCalivan! Weâll help you with the clean up. I think weâll start by taking out the trash.â A vicious smile twists her lips and then she strikes.
Lucanis falls into the rhythm of the fight. A dawning awareness crests over him that if he is to continue working with Rook, he may have to get used to racing into battle after her. He might be more disgruntled about it if she didnât wield herself so masterfully.Â
Lucanis ignores the savage jabs Calivan attempts to distract him with. What words could hurt him more than the horror of having a demon possession forced upon him?Â
Rook, on the other hand, grows increasingly annoyed with Calivanâs incessant insultsâ despite none of them being directed at her. Upon realizing the need to destroy the barrier protecting Calivan and beginning their coordinated efforts to do so, the prison warden screams at Lucanis, âYou will return to your chains!âÂ
Rook snarls as she toils to bring down the barrier. âMa halam! You will return to dust!âÂ
Calivanâs barrier falls and his enraged shouts summon a flood of demons to the chamber. Rook meets Calivanâs rage blow for blow. And despite Hardingâs obvious misgivings about him, she too fights fiercely. When a Pride demon stands before them, they do not falter.Â
Calivanâs desperation grows as he weakens and their group gains ground. âNo! I will not be defeated!âÂ
âSorry! We took a vote-â Rook snaps between swings of her staff. â-decided you die today! Iâm sure you understand. Being an arrogant prick and all!â Spite guffaws against his skull and a grim satisfaction grips Lucanis. Heâs never been particularly crafty with his words and finds that he relishes Rookâs lashing tongue.Â
With a final blast of Rookâs magic and Lucanisâ blade through his chest, Calivan is no more.Â
Lucanis releases a long held breath as he stands over his contract. âThe Crows send their regards.âÂ
Rook breathes deeply beside him, tucking her staff at her back. âSo, we got your target.âÂ
âYes. The jobâs done.â Lucanis has waited so long to say that.Â
Beside him, Spite inhales. Smells like blood. Ashes. Not done. Not yet.Â
Lucanis grinds his teeth, staring hard at the demonic manifestation. He must not hear Rook attempting to get his attention. Â
âLucanis⌠Are you all right? Lucanis? What are you looking at?â
When Lucanis finally registers Rookâs question, he turns to her. She is watching him, head tilted inquisitively at an angle.Â
Careful. They know. Weâre not right.
Lucanis looks back to Spite, then at Rook. âYou cannot see him. I wondered.â So, the disturbing likeness of Lucanis that the demon manifested as was only visible to him it seemed. Mierda. Was that a gift or a curse?Â
Rookâs head is still tilted at him. Her eyes shift from Lucanis to the vacant air beside him where Spite stands hidden from her sight. But she doesnât look afraid nor concerned. âWe clearly have things to discuss. Somewhere else.â
Harding nods vigorously.Â
âAgreed. I thinkâŚitâs time I got some air.â Lucanis feels a nervous thrill run through him at the thought.Â
Rook offers him a small smile. âAgreed. A Crow underwater⌠â A shiver runs through her. âNo thank you. Iâm ready to get out of this place.âÂ
Lucanis returns her smile, the muscles in his cheeks twitching. He cannot recall the last time he used them. âImagine how I feel.âÂ
***
The boat glides through the canals of Treviso. Lucanis' heart is in his throat as his city unfolds around him. He had been so close this whole time⌠He looks back to the rest of the boat's occupants and discovers Rook already watching him.
She smiles, gentle and friendly. âWelcome home.âÂ
The first warmth Lucanis has felt since being locked in the Ossuary floods through him. Home.Â
They climb the steps to the Canatori diamond and he knows from the tense set of Rook's shoulders that he's not alone in sensing something is wrong. Rook glances at him, eyes tight with worry. He gives her a sharp nod.Â
Teiaâs voice reaches his ears first. âMakerâŚâÂ
Lucanis steps into a mess of a room. Broken furniture, strewn papers. Viago notices them first.
âLucanis?â The Fifth Talonâs eyes flick over him and then to Rook at his side. Viago's clenched fists relax.Â
âWhat happened here?â Lucanis has never seen the Diamond so disheveled.Â
Illario slams his fist on a table. âA message. From Zara Renata.â His anger softens as he adds, âI can't believe it. You're home.âÂ
Lucanis can't reconcile Illario's former words. âZara⌠Her people got this close?âÂ
âThe woman who runs the prison?â Rook looks up at him for confirmation.Â
âThe Venatori witch who captured me.âÂ
âRevenge for the breakout, maybe?â The skepticism in Rook's tone matches Lucanis' own. How could Zara have moved so quickly?Â
âWhere's Caterina?â Lucanis searches the faces in the room, but finds his grandmother's missing. His stomach roils with apprehension. Â
âShe'sâŚâ Teia bows her head, her voice thick with emotion.
Viago steps up behind her, placing his hands on her shoulder. âThe Venatori got her in the confusion.âÂ
âI get one of you back, only to lose the other.â Illario sighs.
His grandmother⌠the mighty, unshakeable First Talon⌠no, it could not be.Â
Rook's tender voice at his elbow grounds him. âLucanis⌠I'm so sorry.âÂ
Lucanis is grateful for her simple words, spoken with earnestness. Her presence also reminds him of Caterina's last request of him. âI need to work.âÂ
âAre you sure?â Concern squeezes Teiaâs eyes. âYou should take some time.âÂ
âI don't need timeâ I need a target,â Lucanis says harshly.Â
His cousin addresses him. âYou just got here, and already you want to leave again?âÂ
Lucanis meets Illario's eyes, willing his brethren to understand. âCaterina gave me a contract. I'm not breaking the last deal she ever made. And I owe Rook. Once that's done⌠I'll come home.â If his home would still have him, when they learned what he has become.
âI'll return him in one piece.â Rook tells Illario. She sounds as though she wholeheartedly believes it, that she will act as a protector to the, now literal, Demon of Vyrantium. This Crow is a peculiar one.Â
âThank you.â Illario inclines his head towards Rook. Then says to Lucanis, âCousin, when you find Zara, I wantâ I needâ to be there.âÂ
Viago interjects. âWeâre under attack. Antaam on one side and now Venatori on the other? Forget revenge, we need you-âÂ
Teia stops him with firm words. âNo, Viago. Zara came for us here. She took Caterina from my house. You find her and cut her heart out, Lucanis. VI and I will hold down the fort.âÂ
âI'll give her your regards, Teia.âÂ
Teia lifts her chin. âFor Caterina.â A chorus of âfor Caterinaâ sounds around the room. Teia's eyes drop to Rook. âAnd you be careful. Or this one-â A nod towards Viago. â-will lose his head over revenge, whether he admits it or not.âÂ
Viago huffs but doesn't deny Teia's words. âDo not make a mess of this contract,â he throws at Rook.Â
Rook rolls her eyes at the Fifth Talon. Lucanisâ eyes widen at the sight and he waits for Viagoâs reprimand but it never comes. âYes, Viago.â Rookâs tone borders on disrespectful, but still Viago does not react. Lucanis stares between the Fifth Talon and Rook in confusion.Â
Viago scowls at Rook momentarily, then directs his frown at Lucanis. His mouth opens like heâs going to say something to him. Instead he glares at Rook one more time, his mouth clamping shut in a hard line before shaking his head and walking away. Teia smiles at Rook before following Viago.
Lucanis very much wants to ask Rook what vital piece of information heâs missing that allowed her to walk away from that interaction unscathed, but Rookâs already moving away. âLetâs go. Itâs time for you to meet everyone else.â  Â
***Â
Lucanis isnât sure what to make of the Lighthouse. The eluvians were a fascinating bit of magic and the Crossroads were downright bizarre. Thereâs a confounding peace about the Lighthouse, but Lucanis does not trust a place borne of the Fade. Spite is far less wary, seemingly comforted by the closeness of the Fadeâ if a demon could even be comforted.
Lucanisâ introductions to the rest of Rookâs team had been made and he had, predictably, been met with skeptical looks and guarded expressions. Bellaraâ the Veil Jumper and ancient elven artifact expertâ seems the least distrusting of him. Her and Neveâ a Shadow Dragon detective from Minrathousâ sit at the large dining table behind him discussing his possession. Lucanis leans against the fireplace mantel, staring into the crackling flames.Â
âTheyâre the same thing. Mostly. Kind of.â Bellara is explaining.Â
âExcept one will manipulate you. Or kill you. Or both.â Neve replies.Â
âBut how do you get rid of them?â Lucanis attempts to not sound as frustrated as he feels. Â
âUmâŚâ Bellaraâs hands flutter against the table. Lucanis suspects he already knows the only answer the Veil Jumper will be knowledgeable of. Heâd come to the same conclusion himself while locked in the depths of the Ossuary. Â
âWhatâs everyone talking about?â Rook draws his attentionâ and the demonâs, he notes with interestâ as she enters the dining hall.Â
âSpite.â Lucanis answers through clenched teeth.Â
âThe demon in Lucanis.â Neve clarifies. âWhen a person gets possessed, the demon usually takes control.âÂ
âAnd they turn into a monster. The spirit justâŚmolds them. However they want.â Bellara adds.Â
âIâve heard of abominations being cured by killing the demon in the Fade. Thatâs not a sure bet, though.â Spite bristles at Neveâs words.Â
âWell, thereâs one way. But itâs..wellâŚweâd have to, umâŚâ Bellara stammers nervously.Â
âYouâd have to kill me.â Lucanis finishes.Â
âThereâs got to be another way. That canât be the only solution.â Rookâs hands come to rest on her hips and an unyielding glint sparks in her eye. She looks as if she dares the world to disagree with her declaration. âCanât we reason with Spite, maybe? Persuade it to leave?â Spite perks up at Rookâs question.
Lucanis gapes at the Crow mage who wants to have a chat with a demon. âTalk doesnât work on Spite.â As the words leave his lips, Lucanis beholds with horror Spite manifesting beside Rook. He has never had to deal with the reality of Spite around other people and fear freezes him in place.Â
Spite leers at Rook, a scathing smile on his face. She wonât hurt you. How sweet. The demonâs derision drips through his sentence like honey, sticking unpleasantly to Lucanisâ skin.Â
No. Not sweet, dangerous. Lucanis stares into the determination solidified in Rookâs eyes. Very dangerous. If this partnership is to work, he needs Rook to be willing to stop him. Spite moves to Lucanisâ side and he tears his gaze away from Rook in relief.Â
I want to talk to them. Spite demands. Lucanis ignores the demon.Â
Bellara goes on. âBefore we do, well, that. Letâs think this through some more. There has to be a solution.âÂ
âI have people in Minrathous I can ask, but I wouldnât get my hopes up.âÂ
Rook nods at Neve. âAll right. So whatâs next?â Rook asks the room at large.Â
Spite growls in frustration. Let me talk to them! I want. To. Talk. To Rook! Spite lashes out in Lucanisâ mind and his head cracks to the side. He feels blood wet his nose and he grunts in pain.Â
âLucanis!â Bellara exclaims as she and Neve spring out of their seats.Â
Lucanis holds up a hand to them. âNo, itâs fine. Iâm fine.âÂ
Rookâs fists are curled at her sides. âDonât pretend this is all right. It wouldnât be fine if another person did it.âÂ
Sheâs angry for him, Lucanis registers. He softens at this. âNo, but thereâs nothing I can do about it. If it were another person, I could solve this with a knife.âÂ
âWhy did he do that?â She asks.Â
Lucanis will absolutely not tell her that the demon wishes to speak with her. His skin crawls at the familiar way Spite said Rookâs name. The demon has never said anyone's name before, not even Lucanisâ. âThrowing a tantrum when he doesnât get his way.â
âPerhaps he needs to learn what happens to Crows who throw tantrums,â she threatens.Â
Lucanis smiles. âI would prefer not to relive those lessons.â Rookâs closed fists loosen. âJust⌠give me a minute. Heâll get bored once everyone leaves.âÂ
Rookâs eyes jump back and forth between his own. âI donât like leaving you alone with a demon. IâŚâÂ
âYou donât have to worry about me,â Lucanis reassures her, though heâs not sure itâs entirely true.Â
âLucanis..âÂ
âPlease.â He needs to get herâ and everyone elseâ away from Spite until the demon calms down.Â
Rook nods and gathers the others to leave.
As the door to the dining hall falls shut behind them, Lucanis addresses Spite. âYouâre not speaking to any of them so forget about it.âÂ
Rook. Wanted to. Talk. To me!
Thereâs her name again. It grates on Lucanisâ nerves. âYes. To ask you to leave.â Lucanis spits.Â
Spite hisses, but falls silent. Lucanis closes his eyes, the fire in the hearth warming his eyelids. Itâs true. Rook had thought to reason with a demon on his behalf. Lucanis sighs, peeling his weary eyes open. He heads towards a door at the back of the dining hall, opening it to find a long, narrow pantry. Oddly, a cot is already tucked into the far corner. Lucanis sinks onto it, letting his head rest against the stone wall at his back.
Rook will have questions for him eventually. But for now, he soaks in the fact that she respected his request, that she trusted him enough to leave him alone. He mulls over his own questions of what that could mean for a man who has truly become a demon. Â
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Winters Protection
Pairing - Bodyguard!Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader Summary - When Alexander Piece's daughter begins to rebel, he assigns The Winter Solider as her personal bodyguard. Warnings - Mentions of violence and death
A/n - I haven't uploaded to tumblr for a long while, but I hope you still enjoy this, I'm likely to make a part two as well! Also happy new year all!
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It had become a game. One of which you were known to win far too often. Slipping away from the security detail when they were too busy smoking a cigarette outside, running across the bustling streets of nighttime Brooklyn as you and your friends headed to some niche bar they wouldn't find you. Maybe you had been stupid to think you could continue to get away with it without your father finding out.
It almost should have been expected that night. The early morning sun cast across your rustic, downtown apartment as your intoxicated self stumbled with the key. When you pushed the door open, dark figures stared back at you. Only personalised when you switched at the light and found your father sitting with a class of neat whisky at the breakfast bar. Stood behind him was a broad-shouldered man. One of which you had to assume was another bodyguard. Until your gaze flickered down to the metallic shine of his left arm: The Winter Solider.
Your focus turned to your father first. "Dad?" His name left your tongue with uncertainty as you drew closer into your own home. "What is this?"
He was slow, unusually calm considering the situation. You had been through this enough to know that meant he was truly mad. A part of you wondered if he was about to let his pet loose on you, teach you a lesson you wouldn't forget. "You we're out, all night, no bodyguards, doing god knows what with who knows. I come to learn this is-" He takes a sharp inhale as to calm his furious tone. "This is happening every single weekend. How stupid are you, little girl?"
You kept quiet as he stepped from his seat, downing the rest of the whisky from the expensive glass. "You can't be trusted, do you understand?"
"Look, Dad, I just wanted-"
A harsh throw. Then a clash. Glass flying left, right and center. Your breath caught in your throat before you could even feel the blood dripping from your cheek. But you weren't worried about your torn skin, but rather the thousand-pound glass he had let shatter without a second thought.Â
"You are in no position to speak back, right now." You kept your lips sealed and your eyes dry despite the tears which fought to escape. "It's become evident to me you have no desire for your own safety. You are naive enough to flaunt around this city in your short little skirts with no concern for our enemies. If you weren't family, you would be dead." Such a phrase echoed across your mind, sure to keep you awake.
"So, now, you have him." He wandered around to where the Winter Solider had yet to move from, his eyes dark and brooding. "24/7, ensure you don't do anything stupid again."
You rushed up, panic in your eyes. 24/7. No more nights that swept into the morning. No more privacy. Nothing. "Please, I'll stop, I'll be more careful. I'll stop ditching the security detail. But I don't need your science project to look after me."
He stared down. For a moment you thought he might throw something else at the wall. Luckily, he wasn't holding onto anything anymore. "It's too late for that." His gaze turned to the man. "Clean it up."
In an instant, the soldier was moving. Gathering the glass in his bare hands from the floor. A hand fell on your bleeding cheek, forcing you to face your father. "I do this because I love you." Though, you found such hard to believe.
A breath of relief fell from your lips which his touch left your skin. Your eyes not moving to the floor as you listened to the door open and then shut, leaving you under the protection of the Winter Solider. It was in that moment, your body gave in. Tears flooded from your eyes, your knees shook and you forced your body onto the sofa. The distant sound of glass in the background not stopping your hands from meeting your face.
You hadn't been sure how long had passed. Only that when you uncovered your face from your hands, the soldier was facing you with a first aid kit. You watched him carefully as he took out a wipe and some stitches. The wipe hit your wound with a sting that lingered. Enough to cause your hand to grip his wrist, forcing him to a stop. "I've got it." You grumbled, taking the supplies for yourself.
He was still silent. A nod of recognition before he continued to clean the floor. You were left to your tears, cleaning the wound and forcing your body through the pain. You had no care for the man, barely such, that you left in your kitchen that night. From the stories you had heard, you should have been more concerned about the monster cleaning up broken glass. Yet, he now served to protect you - as much as it pissed you off.
You somehow found yourself soundly sleeping off the argument, the intoxication and the pain. No worries for the man, no hospitality. You hadn't even wandered where he slept. However, you had questioned whether he did need sleep. The Winter Solider seemed almost robotic. He obeyed orders from the highest command. Even if that meant being stuck in Alexander Pierce's eldest daughter's apartment, ensuring she wasn't going to sneak out.
It confused your senses when you awoke to the smell of food. The distant sound of the cooker crackling. It pulled you out of bed, in nothing but an oversized t-shirt to find the soldier cooking breakfast rather than pulling men in half. "What- erm" You wiped your tired eyes. "What are you doing?"
He didn't even look away when he answered, "Orders."
 "And they are?"
He severed up the simple plate of scrambled eggs on toast before turning to you, plate in hand. "Care for you, ensure your safety, whatever means necessary."
With a furrowed brow, you took the plate. You couldn't deny the smell was inviting. "And that includes cooking me breakfast?"
"A night of intoxication. Carbs help." He informed.
Despite your confusion, you sat at the breakfast bar and began eating, trying to ignore the murderer who stood across from you. Only a moment passed before he spoke up, "Where is the bathroom?"
You pointed up, "First door on the left." And you watched, even more confused as the man's back turned to you, disappearing up the stairs. It only took a minute before the sound of the shower could be heard; guess your father wasn't lying about the 24/7 bodyguard.
It had yet to hit you how much your life truly was about to change until later on. As was usual, you were ready to head into town. Not for a bar-hopping trip, or a late-night date, just coffee with a friend. Something simple, something that your father once deemed safe. Yet as you headed for your front door, walking right passed the soldier, he stood. His voice forcing you to look from your phone screen, "Where are you going?"
You had been so close to slipping away. "Out." Your words were followed with a shrug. "I'll not be long."
In between the time of responding to the message and looking back again, the winter solider had acquired a leather jacket and a pair of gloves. "You don't have to come with me. I'm just meeting a friend." You almost laughed at the thought of needing a bodyguard for coffee.
"It's orders." He repeated.
You should have expected this from my dad. "Really? I'll be safe, alright?"
"If you want to request me to not join, you're going to have to call pierc- your father."
You dreaded nothing more in that moment. You knew what his answer would be. Some long, metaphoric lecture, and you'd still be faced with the answer of no. "Fine, just erm-" You looked him over. "Be subtle, please."
He nodded before trailing behind you as you headed out onto the streets of Brooklyn. A few eyes followed you and the brooding man who didn't leave your side, didn't speak, yet seemed like he was awaiting something. Ready to pounce at any sign of danger. He wasn't like any of your past bodyguards. He wasn't scrolling through hinge in the meantime, nor was he yearning for a cigarette. He was here for a job and it seemed as if nothing was going to stop him.Â
By the time you reached the quaint coffee shop, you spotted your friend already sipping a brewing drink in the window. A smile grazed your lips as you looked back at the soldier. "You're not coming in are you?"
The expression you faced suggested you had no choice, "It's-"
"Order. Yeah, I get it." You finished for the man before a sigh fell from your lips as you pulled at the door. "Just, maybe sit a few tables away from us, please?" You begged and such was responded with nothing but a silent nod.
"Finally!" Called your friend as she stood from the wooden table, her eyes still lingering over the muscular man at your side. "And who is this?" She was seconds away from laying her hands around his biceps.
"New security detail." You answered with nothing but a stern expression.
Her brow raised, "To watch over you while we get coffee and talk shit?" Even she seemed to find it laughable. She was used to joining their nights out with unknown men looking out for you. But this was different, it was a whole lot more intense. And, quite frankly, getting on your nerves.Â
"Let's just say my dad got tired of me ditching my bodyguards, he's trying to teach me a lesson, it won't last long." Or so you liked to tell yourself. Your head snapped back round to the soldier as you continued, "But he's not going to sit with us." It was as if he needed a reminder.
The soldier stared only at yourself. A stern nod before he wandered towards a distant table, still with a good view of yourself. However, it was good enough for you as you followed your friend towards the spot she had been keeping warm. "He seems...quiet." Your friend put politely.
You looked over your shoulder, already meeting his gaze as if it was glued to your figure. It faulted your smile as you gazed back to your friend, "He's one of my dad's projects." And projects was putting it nicely. You didn't know everything, but you knew enough. The man who was sworn to protect you, was a killer, blood red hands, and a list of victims to follow.
"Not one you can ditch then?" There was a hit of mischief in her eyes. It seemed to have become a tradition that any club nights had to have the thrill of running away. Now, it seemed less as a thrill and more of a danger.
"No, not really." You answered with a sigh to her disappointment.
And so as the conversation swiftly returned to the mundane gossip, you couldn't help but feel the need to look over your shoulder. You thought with the presence of a bodyguard that need would dissipate. Instead, you couldn't help but worry about what your new bodyguard was truly capable of. And how much you were going to see while he was assigned to your safety.Â
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I am constantly rotating your documentary au in my mind it's such a fun idea. Since Ratchet has been assumed to be a teen mom, are the humans also concluding Optimus is the teen dad? Or are they thinking its a "I'm not the step dad, I'm the dad that stepped up" sort of situation? I wonder what sort of further misunderstandings are going to happen with the one sided communication and the assumptions made about our delightful trio and Cybertronians as a whole.
The town is mostly thinking that Orion is around the same age by the way he acts sometimes, even if he's a bit scary, he has a young dad goofiness to him, especally compared to Ratchets grumpyness. Although since the two humans reporting on them are biased and are also young adults, there's probably different rumors about them to other crowds
There's people who thinks Bee was the child of only one of them and the other was like, a coworker or a family friend that got caught in the crash because of how unrelated he looks to the both of them, adoption was also a possibility but Angel and Truck King havent been seen together too much, and when they are only few see it, most people haven't seen them close to each other at all
Generally, everyone thinks that Bee is Ratchets kid and whether OP is biologicaly the dad is in the air, due to Bee and Ratchet seemingly being a lot closer (OP has just been taking up more dangerous construction jobs for a building so Bee hangs out with Ratchet more)
The ones most invested in the bots do think that they're a young family, with such a positive view on them they're also the most ballsy with talking to them, if someone was skeptical they try to avoid them
But after that last interaction with the guy flirting with Angel it definitely solidified that those two are involved at least, now that the 'Angel is a young mom' rumor has been floating around, the people who think that Truck King is not the bio father is wondering 'is there a deadbeat big yellow dad who wasn't treating her right and now good man Truck King has snatched her away? Or is Angel just unfaithful? It looked like Truck King was unaware of her fans and she even fought him so the guy could get away!' Of course nobody would ever bring this up to any of the bots... or their fans
Alot of information comes from Zekes mouth, the big rumors start here because while he doesn't say anything public with none of them there to respect the bots privacy, its also really hard to not tell your other friends about the robots who you get to hang out with as part as your job (park ranger) but now your friends have the perfect combo of vaugeness and details to go wild with rumors.
So while most of the town (at least the younger population) loves the drama, a part still wants some actual evidence that arent from some 19 year olds mouth, like the only seen evidence that the bots are a family before is that "It looks like a man, woman, and child robot"
Zeke also mostly reports on rumors that are notable (or at least he thinks are) so heres some crazy ones:
The robots are government spies that look like a cute family to get our guards down
The bots are actually a cursed family and we're normal people until they angered a wizard
The bots were sent by God as a test for something
The bots are escaped experiments from the Canadian government
Pete is a super villian creating these bots in his basement in preparation for world domination
The bots not only eat energy, but they also eat souls and are marinating us slowly
These damn bots are here stealing our jobs, we gotta deport them back to space before more come
#lmk if theres any contradictions!#i draw the panels out of order and now im like hmm did I ever make that canon#i try not to focus too much on the human characters but then i remember that ohh right theyre in the 90s#why tf does zeke and pete live together apartments were dirt cheap back then#ive only ever known rent thats above 800 bucks#those two werent even previous ocs of mine i made them up on the fly#one for the social speculation the other for the biological speculation#although pete has been doing both lately haha#asks#robot nature documentary au#maybe I'll do a bot only interlude next cause theres been too many humans
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sorry I havenât been posting guys!!! I have been busy in the deepest pits of hell
#iâm not even exaggerating#I had like the worst day of my life very recently#oh my lordddd you donât even know#I also escaped a situation I have wanted to escape for years now#so that feels good.
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Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it đŤĄ
So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.
At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.
Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.
I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.
So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.
If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.
#spotatalk#i'm just gonna drop this in the queue I guess?#but I'm writing this on the last day of june so....#whenever this rolls around will be a jumpscare abd a half I guess?#I think honestly I coukd do a full breakdown of the Crew and why they're all expressions of me but like#quick summary is#Reset: Wants approval from people but mostly clings to the past. is afraid of losing his brother and acts on it to bring him back. i#<- I lack that conviction to do whatever you have to to get your way. i worry my brother and I have a weird gap between us we wont repair#Orchid: Uhhh woman. lots of pressure that she had at one time that's now no being pressed but she still tries to live up to it also.#<- I don't like the pressure of being a woman. also gifted-kid who cannot move past the pressures imposed to be 'perfect' and it's screwed#Stereo: Pulled into a situation he doesn't want to be in initially. it's bad for him but he likes the people so he decides to stay#<- I see the good in people. even when they hurt others around me. I was a bystander often and should've left the situations. paralelling.#Monochrome: Afraid. No purpose or preperation in life. soneone offers to guide him and he takes that offer because it's better than home.#<- Kinda self-explanitory but I've got little direction and feel lost a lot of the time. If I'm given a path I usually walk it no hesitation#and... for fun let's do some others!#Haphazard: Cleaning up after others since childhood. he's never really gotten a break and sees any sort of mess as an enemy#-> He's fixing rifts in universes I gotta patch relationships. there's so much conflict and I'm always so overwhelmed by it#Lost: He's got amnesia. no clue where he is. where he's from. who you are. who he is. he'll know when he gets there. he's sure.#-> I've been hsving minor issues with my memory for years. i coukd be forgetful but sometimes it just escapes me and that's spooky#Teddy: Isolated in her universe for years. she self-mutilated until she liked herself. when she finally met people she compulsively lied#-> Much more extreme version of how isolated I sonetines feel. hobbies can't replace human interaction but it's hard#oh and Ichor: God who loves mortals but cannot seem to find ones who will prove hin right for his trust and care#<- I've got a big heart. i express it often but the sentinent is scoffed off a lot. I get beat down about it and just keep moving forward#Pretender: Knows who he is. however the world doesn't like it much so he acts how they expect him to or isolates away#<- I still present femme when I'm nb/agender. i bend and break to people's perception of me. if I can't solve something I run.#okay I feel more insane than when ai started but these stupid skeletons have helped me through so many mental health problems it's only a#little bit funny đ
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i got a ds as my christmas present a few years back with a copy of animal crossing (which is considered a bad version of the game btw) and something i keep coming back to is these little objectively somewhat pointless interactions like going for a coffee. you just go to the cafe, and buy a cup. you drink it, and you leave. i always say goodbye before i go. im trying to say thanks. i cant really see any practical reason for doing it, it is objectively just a money suck, but i love doing it. at first i thought the little bird who runs it might open up to me but he doesnt seem the type, but i still like him, so i go and visit him. it feels so real. like he remembers me but doesnt like talking about it. its such an incredibly special and intimate feeling. i wonder if other games at the time were able to cultivate this or if it was unique
#ive only really played modern games where everything has a reward. it was so nice to do something so close to reality#im sure there might be some in game reason to do it but i dont know. maybe you get energy or something#i dont really care. i felt like i was forming a connection emotionally. i wish we still valued that in games#its the only thing im really interested in.#if you have any game recommendations for the ds lmk actually. my sister got a 3ds this year#its funny. i wanted a gaming console so bad as a kid. specifically a ds or a wii#and we have them now! and i dont much care about them. and im kind of glad. im glad i was forced to do something else#i do not look down on gaming as a hobby at all but i am glad its a smaller one for me#i would also like to talk about a similar feeling i felt when i played subnautica (which they took off the gamepass before i could finish i#what the fuck man.)#they briefly put the sequel on so obvi i gave it a shot but i feel it was terrible in comparison#something uniquely insane about the first one is the feeling of isolation. the deep fear#you crash land on the planet and immediately all your communication off-planet is cut and it seems everyone perished in the crash#you spend a couple of hours getting situated and then the ships core explodes. a huge shock wave shakes the entire planet#standing on top of my pod and looking out at the mountain-sized wreck was an insane feeling of isolation. you have to experience it.#and then you start picking up signals on your little tablet. other escape pods. the signals from previous missions who came to do research#you travel out. find food. build things. the whole time working towards seeing if you can find the other pods#each one#empty#often containing a log of their last moments. usually eaten by something. you got lucky#you landed in the only area without a massive predator.#you find alien tech. learn about a disease that wiped out the planet. the entire time you are completely alone#its such a unique feeling. no npcs. no story you have to follow if you dont want to. but god is there not much else. you'll get around to i#discovering the alien species is horrifying and amazing#its an incredible game and i think its sense of loneliness is its greatest achievement. being truly alone on an uncaring planet#sitting there and watching the fish swim by#its unmatched. truly#i would actually love game recommendations if you have any. i love games with unique story lines or characters too#im much more into stories than gameplay#which totally goes against what i just said about subnautica in theory but not in practice
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This YouTube channel is sketchy as hell.
At a legit news outlet, they'd label this video as "analysis" or "opinion", because saying "Israel is racist" is a conclusion that the journalist/host came to*, not one from a quoted source. Big red flag! đŠđŠđŠ
A media outlet sharing your point of view and sometimes reporting events/figures factually doesn't prove that they don't publish propaganda.
I don't have time to fact-check everything in the vid, but let's assume, for the sake of argument, that all of the stats and quotes in it were factual. That lends credibility to the outlet, and readers/viewers are more likely to trust pieces that they'd otherwise be more skeptical ofâlike this one, where Breakthrough News promotes the viewpoints of people who deny that China has any imperialist intentions in Africa**.
Also, this video looks very high-budget (for journalism that is), but unfortunately, there's not much money in "[telling] the untold stories of resistance from poor and working-class communities" (as they state in their bio). So, where does their money come from, really?
Their bio says they rely on funding from donors and "foundations that support our mission". However, I don't see a list of those foundations on their website.
A Daily Beast reporter dug into their funding, and you can read their article here âŹď¸
I understand getting angry when you see the blatant bias towards Israeli nationalism in mainstream American news outlets. I get the urge to trust any outlet whose pieces don't align with American foreign policy goals (because their foreign policy goals suck ass).
But be careful about where you get your news & info. If you see a media outlet you've never heard of, at least look them up.
*I don't take issue with the conclusion itself (because Israel is an ethnostate after all), but instead with the fact that they don't label it as analysis or opinion. It's very dishonest and misleading, and journalism is supposed to be transparent.
**Africa is already chock full of neo-colonial economies, and if China can take control of those existing economic structures, that would be a massive payday for them.
Israel is one of the most racist countries in the world.
#I'm almost done my journalism degree can you tell#also I'm for the liberation of palestinians obviously#and also against antisemitism. obviously. for the record.#I'm just not a fan of nationalism especially ethnonationalism & religious nationalism#look i understand why oppressed people worldwide have seen the appeal of nationalism#but it leads to some fucked up situations#like indian nationalists wanted to expell the british which is reasonable. but look at modi's Islamophobic policies#european jews wanted to escape the pogroms and antisemitism and some had nowhere to go after the holocaust which is reasonable#but now look at what's happened. palestinians killed & kicked out of their homes for the last like 50ish years.#anyhoo. i need to do schoolwork
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need someone to take the ex RO trope away from me
#every single time iâm like Yes. Yes This Is Helping. Yes I Feel Stronger. Y- [passes out sobbing]#i mean itâs delicious angst but iâm a hurtcomfort demon and hurtcomfort is not the genre of my life so it just ends up making me feel crappy#but itâs sooooooooooo. like i love it. and the. like the lingering sense of But Maybe and the way itâs validated in games. and th-#like i need someone to come over and blacklist all lovers to strangers to lovers content it is NOT good for me âźď¸ [continues reading]#anyways everything feels bad again and i canât do anything about it and my escapism all reminds me of it and the news is horrible and home#is horrible and uni is horrible and social stuff is horrible#and being this hopeless and negative about everything makes me feel entirely un-myself but i havenât been myself in weeks#and i donât know what being myself looks like in tbe midst of all this#and iâm working really hard to be good about it but then i think like this and it crumbles HDJDHD#going to my highschool reunion tomorrow where not a single teacher or classmate will remember or recognize me. thatâs exciting#also been repeatedlyjaving the thought that id just be fine with it now to be some random mans nonsexualhousewife. family would ve happy.#and i wouldnt have 2 get a job and id just have to take care of a house. like as long as i can find sum1 who doesnt want sex it could work#and id never have to worry abt being alone again even if itd suck and id hate myself forever. but no job. n happy family#idk i promised myself i wouldnt like. give up like this. but i dontsee any other situation that doesnt end in me#like left entirely alone? i either give up family for the possibility of a fulfilling life as a lesbian but only certain ill be alone#or i try and make the best of things and make like. doing what they want. livable#anyways. back to the same dilemma as 14 year old me but this time knlwing im a lesbian and not bi. so theres not even a chance ill be happy#fun times#mano.mindtalk#neg
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Read it once in your life, and never regret it.đď¸â
Are you bored with posts asking for help from Gaza? You are right, but imagine our situation as we live this war day after day for 15 months!! do you think we're tired too
I have been injured for 12 months and my condition is as it is every day there is no treatment or medicine my condition is as it is every day it gets worse no food or drink in Gaza every day we die of hunger The most beautiful thing for a person is to have a family and a family, but unfortunately my wife gave birth to her daughter Mariam and she died as a result of the war on Gaza.
What is the fault of our children to deprive their childhood of their most basic rights of education, food, drink and fun? They have lost all their childhood memories in our destroyed house.
My father is an older 75 years old, a hypertensive patient who also needs treatment and attention, lost his home, he does not have the ability to walk
Asking for help is not easy, it is very embarrassing, especially for a family that is used to living a decent life. We used to help others, not ask for help.
But the war has turned our lives
I have been Hani for the past 15 months and I have been infected and unable to meet the needs of my family, but my wife has been struggling to get healthy food for my children and medicine for my injury and my elderly father, whose weak body has been attacked by infection and anemia. Where prices have risen 10 times and are very, very expensive, everything is done. As you read my letter, my family and I try to survive through all kinds of suffering.
What was once a beautiful dream and reality is now a nightmare. Hunger is one thing, but hunger and conscription forced you to flee in the middle of the night when tanks suddenly arrive in your area, and you run away to save your life while I am injured and unable to move a difficult and indescribable feeling, I want to flee and my father and my fear for my children and my wife is something tiring and sad to describe all that while we are under fire, leaving behind all his daughters for years
Can you feel my broken heart now?? Can you imagine what I'm going through in these moments? We desperately need your help in the hope of escaping Gaza and reaching safety to save my life from my serious injury and save my family from danger and explosions.
You may feel helpless for this genocide, but you can certainly save my family.We appeal to your merciful hearts to help us escape this catastrophe, which the human mind cannot bear
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Hot take maybe but I think Bertie would be FAR more likely to survive the first two months of Dracula than Jeeves would be. Bertie has a healthy sense of self-preservation. Jeeves consistently underestimates how dangerous a situation might get (Steeple Bumpleigh, the club book) because heâs overconfident about his level of control over any given situation. He'd handle Dracula masterfully if they faced off in England, but on Dracula's home turf? Much more doubtful.
I realize this might be a tough sell, so I will explain further (or it's not a tough sell, and I'm going to explain further because I want to). (criteria taken from @canyourfavesurvivecastledracula) Without further ado.
Would Jeeves and Wooster survive Castle Dracula?
Jeeves
Jeeves' survival will depend on how long Dracula finds him more entertaining than irritating. On that basis, I don't think he's long for this world. On the one hand, he has a huge wealth of knowledge about English society and culture that he can recite perfectly from memory. That should buy him at least a little time with noted teaboo Dracula.
On the other hand, he would be absolutely no fun as a vampire plaything. Jeeves cannot be got. Sneaking up on him while he's shaving will yield zero reaction (though that's at least good for his short-term survival--given that, although he DID take the crucifix from the old woman out of politeness, he certainly isn't going to wear it. The rules of fashion don't go out the window just because you're in a spooky castle). Then, although managing the whims of rich jerks is not an insignificant part of a valet's job, Jeeves usually does this by bending his employers to his will. Dracula is not the sort of employer this will work on. It'll just add insult to injury when on top of being impossible to scare, NOW Jeeves is telling Dracula that his favorite cloak is several centuries out of fashion and he's not allowed to wear it anymore.
Jeeves will 100% go exploring in the areas he was told not to go-- though to be fair, he MIGHT actually get away with this, what with his superpower of appearing in rooms without being seen or heard. Said superpower might save him from the brides as well (though this is by no means guaranteed). Since I find it doubtful that Dracula would come to rescue his annoying ass, not being noticed is his best defense.
There are a couple other things working in Jeeves's favor; the question is just whether they'll be enough to save him.
He DOES know shorthand, and could try to send coded letters. He might even have the foresight to squirrel away some extra stationary where Dracula can't find it. But could he get them posted? Would it even do him any good?
He certainly has enough cultural literacy to figure out what his new boss is pretty quickly. If he didn't chuck the crucifix out the carriage window, he might start carrying it around in his pocket.
Psychology of the individual, sure, but the individual in question is a 400-year-old vampire who lives in an isolated castle in a foreign country and is regarded as a terrifying mythological figure in the surrounding villages. Jeeves has never come up against anything this alien before, he's cut off from his normal resources, and opportunities to play people against each other are limited.
He probably has enough upper body strength from all that shrimping and fishing to climb the wall, so he COULD escape if he wanted to, if he survived long enough. It's just, again, that overconfidence, and also Dracula has a vast library full of rare old books that are entirely at his disposal. He's keeping his eyes and ears alert for potential escape strategies, of course, but I don't see him being as desperate to get out as Jonathan was.
There are just a lot of "depends on"s here, and I'm not convinced that luck would shake out in Jeeves's favor, all things considered.
Bertie
Bertie is so perfect for the job of Castle Dracula Prisoner it's like it was made for him. Think about it. Being held against his will in big manor houses comes more naturally to him than breathing. He's afraid of things that are scary. A lifetime of dealing with Aunt Agatha has made him the world's preeminent expert in "curl[ing] up in a ball in the hope that a meek subservience [will] enable [him] to get off lightly." He will NEVER go exploring in places he's been warned away from if nobody is forcing him to (Rev. Aubrey Upjohn's office notwithstanding. There were biscuits in there). He's both fun to talk to and easy to toy with (and extremely English). A+ prisoner. Dracula adores him.
In my opinion, Bertie is at Castle Dracula either because Aunt Agatha got some wires seriously crossed and thinks heâs going to meet an eligible potential bride (I mean, there are certainly brides there), or because Dracula has something Aunt Dahlia wants him to steal (far less likely, given that one of Draculaâs THINGS is famously not owning anything silver). Either way, he's shown himself entirely willing and able to escape down drainpipes if a sitch gets too scaly.
He DOES take the crucifix, and DOES wear it (which is what will save him during the shaving scene, because you KNOW he's going to jump a foot and cut himself like the dickens). He's read enough supernatural goosefleshers to be genre savvy about terrified old women cryptically pushing crucifixes into one's hands. I also think his sunny disposish endeared him to the villagers, and they were particularly vehement about urging him not to go. He doesn't speak German or Romanian, but he's empathetic enough to recognize Pure Terror. So by the time he actually gets to the castle, his imagination is already running wild and he's plenty aware that he is in imminent danger.
I think the biggest risk to Bertie will be the brides; whether or not he's susceptible to trances, if he thinks they're trying to marry him, it's against the code of the Woosters to turn them down. But that only becomes an issue if he comes face to face with them, which, luckily, I think is unlikely on account of the aforementioned "won't go exploring" (and if he did, Dracula would definitely rescue him).
I'm inclined to say due to his drainpipe-escape habits that he WOULD be able to climb the wall and MAY attempt to sneak into Dracula's room to look for the keys if his desperation grows to outweigh his fear. Whether he does or not, though, he does NOT have the stomach to attempt shovel murder, and therefore won't get magic brain fever, and may very well simply walk out the front doors when the people come to take the boxes away. OR he climbs his way out like Jonathan did. Either way.
When Bertie tells this story at the Drones later, Tuppy will say that no doubt it's been greatly exaggerated and all that probably happened was that he spent a couple months in an oldish house entertaining a weird loner.
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CASUAL pt.2â lando norris (angst)
pairing; fem!reader x lando norris summary: it took lando too long to realise it wasn't just 'casual'. warnings: a LOT of angst, toxic relationship, sexual implication, not proofread a/n: casual part 2 was not really a part of the plan but the audience had demands đŚ§also i think this was too long lmao. AND IM SO SORRY FOR THE LONG DELAY OMG
part 1 - casual
miami grand prix: the biggest pr nightmare for every driverâespecially lando norris.
the media had been all over him that weekend, going to the lengths of literally calling him 'the hottest catch on the single market'. hollywood stars and instagram models were so desperate to marry him and have his kids that they didn't catch on the fact that he was a 23-year-old racing driver who couldn't give a fuck about them.
because he was stuck on you.
for weeks, he'd waitedâhoping youâd reach out, or at the very least, watch his instagram stories. he posted shirtless photos, sun-kissed photosâhell, he even threw out a thirst trap just for you. But you didnât take the bait. you didn't take the fucking bait.
you hadn't texted him or spoken to him since the moment you walked out of that hotel room weeks ago, so he didn't try to reach out either. "would've been a blow to my ego," he'd told sainz.
but now, he didn't give a shit about his ego. he was tired of waiting.
his eyes darted across the packed club, friends and guests scattered all around. he couldn't wait to get out of there.
he hadn't been drinking. didn't really feel like it. truth be told, he hadnât been feeling much of anything at all.
pool parties, clubs, yachts, champagne and girls.
he was tired of the glitz and glam of his life, and you were the only escape from it.
but you were gone.
his mind wandered to that morning, when you had kissed him and the two of you had ordered room service. when he had held you for the last time.
he hated how the only thing on his mind was you. how it was the only thing on his mind all through the celebrations, as hookers danced around him and people tried to pour drinks into his mouth.
for fuck's sake, he had won a grand prix for the first time in his life, and yet he was unhappy.
how did he get here?
he looked up, eyes falling on a group of men in the VIP section, the lights illuminating their faces.
everyone could tell something was off with lando. he didn't want to do any of this.
all he wanted was you. you, you, you.
the girl who had left without an explanation.
why had you left, anyway? no calls, no texts. your friends avoided him, and you avoided his friends. it was like the two of you were nothing.
lando norris was many things, but he was not a fool. he could recognise when something was wrong, or when a situation had escalated beyond his control.
he knew that there was a reason why you left, but the reason never clicked in that thick brain of his. what had he done wrong? where had he gone wrong?
"i'm not feeling too well, mate." he muttered, handing the beer bottle back to the guy standing next to him.
okay, maybe not admitting his feelings for you had fucked things up. but, what could you expect? he didn't have the time to give you what you deserved.
not right now, at least.
"what are you waiting for, then?" the other man asked, shoving his hands into his pockets.
"what?"
"just call her, bro. i know it's about a girl because there's no way any sane man would say no to expensive beers and a million hot hookers."
did lando even know this man? probably not.
"i can't call her. she doesn't want to talk to me. trust me, i've tried."
"have you?"
he didn't know how to deal with rejection. not like this, not with you. you weren't supposed to leave.
"judging by your sulkiness, i doubt you're going to find a girl like her again. and you'll never have her if you're here."
lando didn't have a heart of stone, as much as his social media persona might suggest. he didn't care for any of this. the women, the money, the fame.
he wanted to hold you again. kiss you, tell you he loves you. he wanted to hold your hand. he wanted to be near you, and only you.
so, when his feet hit the floor and he found himself walking towards the exit, he wasn't surprised.
yeah, it was foolish of him to leave a party full of women who were celebrating him (literally) for a girl who had ghosted him, but the need was stronger than his pride.
out of the yacht, he was dialling the only number he'd ever memorised. the phone rang, and then it rang again.
would she be wearing his clothes, or would she have gotten rid of everything related to him?
maybe she'd found another man, finally realising that lando was a bad investment.
as the phone rang, you were hidden in your apartment with blankets wrapped around you and a youtube video playing in the background.
it had been months since you'd heard the word 'casual' leave his mouth. months since you had fled london and monaco to move to miami.
at first, his words had echoed in your mind constantly, and you'd cried yourself to sleep a few times more than you'd like to admit.
but just like every heartbroken poet in history, the hurt faded and the pain slowly morphed into hatred. and anger.
you wanted to slam your head against a wall. scratch that, you wanted to slam his head against a wall.
it was so stupid, and you hated yourself for believing he'd been genuine.
it was just sex. that's all it ever was. it truly was just casual.
the phone was still ringing. your finger hesitated over the answer button. you weren't going to answer it.
it wasn't worth it. you didn't want to hear his voice. didn't want him to have the satisfaction of knowing that his words had hurt you. you didn't want to know if he was sleeping around, if his girlfriends were prettier than you.
so the line went dead.
lando stood by the harbour, watching as yachts and ships sailed past him. the air was humid and his t-shirt clung to his body, the heat almost unbearable. the sound of waves, the distant laughter and music, and the sound of his ragged breaths.
he ran his fingers through his hair, looking around. where was his car?
he had to find his way back to his hotel. he was a mess, and his clothes were sticking to his skin. he needed to fix his appearance, buy a bouquet a flowers.
he checked the time on his watch, and cursed as he saw the numbers. it was almost 3 am. he wouldn't find flowers anywhere at 3 am.
"fuck it." he said, running over to his car. the drive was quiet, save for the low hum of music and his occasional swearing when someone drove a little bit slower than he'd like.
lando norris had the world on his fingertips. he could have any girl he wanted. anyone, really. but he only wanted you. he was a hopeless romantic, and you were his muse.
when he pulled up outside the apartment, his nerves were going haywire. he ran a hand through his hair and took a deep breath before getting out of the car.
he knocked twice on the door and when it opened, his eyes lit up.
you stared back at him, sleepiness in your eyes and confusion etched on your face.
and god, did you look gorgeous.
he loved you, he realised. he had to cross his hands behind his back to stop them from reaching out and holding you close.
"lando?" you breathed out.
he had grown a slight stubble since you last saw him. his hair were still the same, except a little bit longer. his blue eyes were wide as he looked at you.
"hey," his voice was shaky.
"what the fuck are you doing here?"
he wanted to say so many things. ask you why you left, where it went wrong, why you moved to miami. he wanted to declare his love for you, press his lips to yours, hold you by the waist. he wanted to hear you say that you loved him too.
he was so in love with you, and you had no idea.
"lando? why are you here?" you asked again.
he was at a loss of words. what could he say? he couldn't exactly just stand there and say nothing.
"because," his voice cracked, "i miss you."
your throat went dry. he could not just say that.
it had been weeks. weeks of him not contacting you, weeks of you not speaking to him. the phone calls had stopped, the text messages had stopped, the late night chats had stopped. everything was just gone.
and now, he missed you?
tears welled up in your eyes, a lump forming in your throat. you shook your head, pushing back the tears, "go away."
"what? no, wait. wait. don't do this." he pleaded, his voice fragile and desperate, like a child trying to avoid bedtime.
"lando-"
he interrupted you, voice louder than before. "can we please talk about this?"
"what is there to talk about?" you were raising your voice. you hated him. how could he act like this after all that happened?
"everything. justâplease, can i come in?" he sounded so pathetic. he felt so pathetic. his hands were slightly hovering over the door, ready to push it open and walk in.
the request took you by surprise. "i-no."
you missed him. there was no denying that.
you wanted him to tell you it was okay. wanted to go back to that night in his mclaren, the night he told you he liked you. wanted the weekends spent in london with his family. you wanted him, all of him.
his curly hair wrapped around your fingers, blue eyes staring at you, soft lips kissing you. his cold hands grabbing yours, and his voice saying your name. you wanted it to not be casual.
"i just want to talk to you."
he was drunk. there was no other way he would've showed up here, let alone begged to talk to you. the fact that he needed to be drunk to have this conversation made your blood boil.
"do you still have my jacket?"
of course, you still had his stupid jacket. the one that had his smell embedded into the fabric. it was an exclusive print mclaren had given him, and he had swung it around your shoulders after the night you had first made love to each other.
but he didn't care about the jacket, and neither did you. it was just a reminder.
you were silent for a while, taking in the sight of each other. it was his breath mingling with yours.
"i love you." he whispered.
your breath hitched in your throat, the tears finally falling out of your eyes as you sighed.
"i love you," he repeated to himself. "yes, i do. and i've known that since the day i met you."
you choked back sobs as you shook your head, "you're drunk, lando."
"i'm not," he chuckled, "maybe a little, but not enough."
then, he added, "i mean it. i love you." his voice was steady. he truly meant every word. but he didn't know what would happen now.
"what do you want me to say, lando?"
he sighed, "anything."
you laughed bitterly. anything, he said.
anything would've been better than what had happened.
"i don't think i can do this, lando."
"we can take it slow."
"you've never done slow."
he fell silent again because you were right. he'd never done slow. he didn't know how to take things slow. he was a fucking formula 1 driver, after all. slow wasn't something he did. he'd always lived life like it was the last day. and that's how he had lost you.
"i'm sorry," he began, his voice breaking. "i should've been a better person. i'm sorry for everything i did. i should've given you more, i-i should've loved you more, because you deserve so much more. i'm so, so, sorry."
"lando," you whispered, "it's notâ"
"don't make excuses for me, please. i love you, i really do. and if i have to spend the rest of my life proving that, i will." and he meant every word. "i just want you back."
your mind was racing, a million thoughts running through it. it was like a movie. his blue eyes, his voice, the desperation in his tone, the way he stood before you.
"okay," you muttered.
"wait, okay? does that meanâ"
"you're gonna have to work for this," you said.
"i know, and i will. i promise."
you sighed, rubbing your temple. this wasn't a good idea. "get in."
lando's face lit up, and before you could change your mind, he had walked into the apartment. he hadn't really been here before, considering you moved here after the two of you had stopped talking. but the apartment was lovely, homely. everything you.
you closed the door behind him, watching him look around the living room.
"how'd you know where i live?"
he chuckled, turning to face you. "i'm a famous driver. i have my sources."
"i'm sure." a tense silence followed, neither of you knowing what to say.
"i'm not letting this happen again," he blurted, "i'm not. i don't know how, but i won't."
"i don't believe you." you scoffed.
"fuck, baby, what do i have to do for you to believe me?" he stepped towards you, closing the distance.
"stop calling me that."
"you are my baby." he tried to joke.
"lando, i'm not joking."
"i'm serious too," his voice was sincere, "i love you, and i'll do whatever it takes for you to believe me."
you had been through a lot together. the highs, the lows. you had seen him at his best, and at his worst. the good and the bad.
he moved closer, reaching a hand out to hold yours. you didn't know why, but the moment his hand touched yours, it was like a switch had flipped inside of you.
you let his hand wander over yours like a ghost, his calloused fingertips tracing over your knuckles. he intertwined your fingers together, eyes casted down.
"i've never cared about anyone the way i care about you." he admitted in a soft voice.
and then he pressed his lips to yours. his other hand wrapped around your waist, pulling you closer to him.
and god, did he taste the same. lando had a way with his lips. it was a talent. he kissed you like he needed your lips to survive. he was desperate for your touch as if he had been starving without it.
you were so lost in the feeling that you hadn't realised how far you had pushed him until the back of his knees hit the couch, and he fell on top of it.
his eyes were wide, mouth hanging open. his shirt was halfway unbuttoned, exposing his chest and toned abs.
the two of you stared at each other, eyes searching the other's.
"i love you." he murmured for what seemed like the hundredth time that night.
maybe it was the way his blue eyes bore into yours, or the way his lips quivered, or maybe it was the fact that he had driven across the city to say this.
but for the first time that night, you believed him. and suddenly, the anger was gone. it was all gone.
"i love you, too." you whispered.
it was the only thing the two of you needed. the confirmation, the reassurance. the love.
you leaned down and connected your lips once more, hand reaching up to his curls and tugging lightly. he moaned into the kiss, pulling you on top of him.
your tongue entered his mouth, the taste of him making you lightheaded. his hands roamed over your body, the feeling of his skin against yours.
"baby," he whispered between kisses, "i want you so bad. i've waited so long."
his lips trailed along your jaw and down your neck, sucking marks into the sensitive skin.
"i want you," he murmured against the crook of your neck, "so fucking bad."
but he pulled away, flipping the two of you over so he was on top of you. he took off his shirt, and rested his head on your chest. he cleared his throat, "i should've asked this question earlier, but are you single?"
"yeah." you chuckled, running a hand through his curls.
"so, can i be your boyfriend?"
"lando norris," you hummed, "did you finally get the guts to ask me out?"
"yes," he smiled, lifting his head up to look at you, "yes, i did. will you be my girlfriend?"
"you're a dork."
"that's not an answer."
"yes," you laughed, "yes, i'll be your girlfriend."
lando grinned, and you grinned back.
yeah, it wasn't casual anymore.
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Help My Family Escape the War in Gaza: A Cry for Safety and Survival
Dear Friends and Supporters,
I write to you with a heart heavy with pain and urgency. My name is Mohammad Jamal Shamia, and I reside in Sweden. I am raising funds to help my family and loved ones, who are trapped in Gaza, escape the unimaginable horrors of war. Their lives have been turned upside down, and now they stand on the brink of despair, with no place to call home and no future in sight. We are fighting for their survival.
A Family Torn Apart by War
My family consists of eight members: my father, my mother, my four sisters, and my two brothers. Each one of them has a story of pain and loss, but I will start with my father, Jamal Shamia, who is still in Gaza. His home was destroyed in the very first days of the war. A single rocket shattered not just his home, but also our hopes and dreams. The life he had worked so hard to build was reduced to rubble in a heartbeat. He now stands without a roof over his head, in a place where there is no security, no peace, and no hope for the future.
My mother, who left Gaza for surgery in Egypt before the war started, is now stranded on the Egyptian side, unable to return and without any support. She worries every day about my father, her children, and grandchildren who remain in Gaza, not knowing if they will survive another day.
Sisters in Crisis: Homes Lost, Lives Disrupted
My sister Rasha Jamal Shamia and her husband, Khalil Abu Samaan, have two children, Mira and Omar. They have been forced to flee their home in Gaza City and are now living in a tent in Rafah, far from everything they once knew. Their home, their childrenâs education, and their futureâeverything is gone. Their days are filled with fear, and their nights bring no rest. The constant sound of bombs haunts them, and they have no way to provide their children with the life they deserve.
My sister Rana Jamal Shamia and her husband, Mohammed Salama, are in a similarly desperate situation. Their two children, Amir and Taim, witnessed the destruction of their home firsthand. The bomb that took away their shelter also left Rana and her family with deep physical and emotional scars. They are now displaced in Rafah, struggling every day to survive. The trauma they have endured is unimaginable.
My sister Maram Jamal Shamia and her husband, Mareed Al-Suwirki, were able to leave Gaza with their children, but they carry with them the scars of war. Their home in Gaza was destroyed, and they lost everything. Mareed, a dentist, lost his job, and they are now trying to rebuild their lives outside the war zone, but they need your help.
My youngest sister, Reem, has been living outside Gaza for some time, but she hasnât been able to reunite with the family. The pain of separation and worry for her loved ones has been unbearable.
A Brotherâs Dreams Shattered
My brother Ahmad Jamal Shamia is a bright, ambitious student who was in his third year of dental school at Al-Azhar University in Gaza. The war took everything from himâhis education, his home, his dreams. Ahmad was ranked first in his class, always striving to be the best and help others. Now, he is left with nothing. He moves from one temporary shelter to another, hoping for a chance to continue his studies in Egypt. But without financial support, this dream too will be lost.
The Desperate Situation
The situation in Gaza is beyond dire. Every day, my family faces unimaginable hardships. They live in constant fear, with bombings happening around them day and night. They are without basic necessitiesâno reliable access to food, water, or medical care. The trauma of living through this horror has left deep emotional wounds that will take years to heal, if ever.
We are desperate to get them out. We want to transport them to Egypt, where they can begin to rebuild their lives and find safety. But this escape comes at a high cost. It will take $5,000 per adult and $2,500 per child to cross the border and start anew in Egypt. My family is counting on this fundraising effort to save their lives.
How You Can Help
Your support can make a life-saving difference. Every contribution, no matter the size, brings us closer to rescuing my family from this nightmare. With your help, we can reunite them with safety and security on the other side of the border. Time is running out, and the risks increase with every passing day.
Please consider donating to our campaign. Your generosity will not only provide my family with the means to escape the immediate danger but also offer them hope for a future where they can begin to heal and rebuild their lives. I cannot thank you enough for your support.
Together, We Can Save Lives
My family is relying on the kindness of strangers and friends alike to help them escape the ongoing violence. Your donation is not just financial assistanceâit is a lifeline, a chance at survival. We need you now more than ever. Please, stand with us and help bring my family to safety.
Thank you for your kindness, your compassion, and your support. Together, we can make a difference. Together, we can save lives.
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