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Late-night redstone sessions… 🌙
(Click for better quality im begging you)
#wild life smp#the spanners#is that what they were called?#grian#mumbo jumbo#skizzleman#I miss themmm#trafficblr#mcyt#mcyt fanart#life smp series#trafficblr fanart#mumbo fanart#grian fanart#skizzleman fanart#wild life fanart#life series smp#my art#life series
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idk what we’re all calling the concept of fiddlestan working together but i’m calling my version the portal partners AU 🙏🏼
#gave it a name bc i was kinda tired of calling it the Fidds and Stan Work Together on the Portal AU#it’s called portal partners bc they’re partners in fixing the portal partners in running the shack AND partners in life#ik i’m not the only one to think of an au where they start working together after ford goes missing#but i don’t see a lot of people really showing the older version of them ? i don’t think ?#like i’ve seen canon older fiddlestan but not older fiddlestan after working together for 30 years ? idk#also figured fidds would look different in a world where he doesn’t lose his mind in his 30s#🤷🏻♂️#gay old men#yay#stan looks and acts the same btw he just happens to also have a very longterm bf to be gay with#gravity falls took place before gay marriage was legal (jesus christ that’s crazy to think about) so that’s why i say very longterm bf#(this means ford would be back in time to attend their wedding tho so. best man ford real. fidd & ford may be sort-of-exes but it’s fine)#gravity falls#gravity falls au#fiddlestan#also… petition to start calling fiddlestan fiddley#bc fiddle(ford) + (stan)ley …. fiddley… u see the vision????#fiddley#🙂↕️🙏🏼#stanley pines#fiddleford mcgucket#gravity falls fanart#idk man i’m gonna tag the au too ig#portal partners au#gravity falls portal partners au#???#my art#(i guess? used a fidds base then redrew it with my changes so idk)#rystiart#sorry if someone’s done smthn similar bc i feel like this idea of them working together is pretty popular maybe 😭
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Oh, actually, this is really exciting. There are some interesting parallels between Yuji and the white dog (Shiro) _ They both died on the same day _ They are friendly _ Both are trustworthy _ Megumi was very attached to Shiro
In most mythologies, the white wolf symbolizes protection, intelligence, sociability and compassion, being the antagonistic part of the black wolf. Yuji is also associated with the white tiger of Byakko, the protector of the western cardinal point (I talked about it in this post), which ended up becoming his nickname at his old school.
The curious point is that one of Megumi's Shikigami is also a tiger that has not yet been shown, which makes him doubly linked to Yuji. It's interesting for me to see how Megumi and Yuji complement each other, whether it's Megumi being the duo's strategist and Yuji the muscles, Yuji being a melee fighter while Megumi is better at long distances. Black and white, like yin yan.
I wonder if the wolf thing was intentional or just an aesthetic choice, although I doubt Gege would approve of something like that if it wasn't to create parallels. This man likes to pair manga with anime. Overall, I'm just rambling on about these. After the last chapter, I'm getting impatient with the manga and Gege Akutami.
#megumi fushiguro#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk spoilers#fushiguro megumi#itadori yuji#yuji itadori#fushiita#itafushi#<<< it's not a shipp post#but I like tagging itafushi#I need more Kid Megumi in my life#this chapter is heartbreaking#I miss him#Yuji was so amazing in today's episode#divine dog shiro#shiro and kuro#beautiful creative Megumi#call your black and white dogs “black” and “white” in Japanese
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Right then. Something happened.
#my notifs have imploded from. a lot of things on my main blog.#if i missed smth i'm sorry#my nerves are shot /hj#if someone's got a good briefing and/or explanation#or can get the posts that called it (i KNOW they're there)#let me know#i'm dying i think#not a bad idea#admin#trafficblr#life series#real life smp#? yeah? no? yeah??
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#i call this one “it’s in my nature to blast every single thing i enjoy with the goth ray”#plus i just like victorian style portraits#ok i know this kind of sucks ass but i was too excited and rushed through#i have been getting back into twenty one pilots as is a regularly repeating occurrence in my life ever since the fifth grade#i just experienced my first show in the pit back in august and i am serious when i say#a day has not gone by since in which i don’t think about it#their shows are genuinely life changing ESPECIALLY if you have been a huge fan ever since you were 12#it fulfilled dreams i had given up hope on ever coming true (forever thankful to my best friend for getting tickets ily)#Anyway#also i gave josh a bit of eyeshadow and eyeliner i jusr miss the spooky jim eyeshadow#tyler joseph#josh dun#twenty one pilots#twenty one pilots fanart#clique art
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Top calling Mew cute 😽 and Mew calling Top cute 😻
#forcebook#topmew#only friends the series#book kasidet#force jiratchapong#bledit#boyslovesource#mjtag#usercassi#forathousandbyeol#userrelisa#esmetracks#usersquee#rum.gif#fbkiss#asiandramanet#fought for my LIFE to get this posted#sorry if i missed one ;;#translation notes:#most of the ''so''s were not included in the original subtitles but they say ''narak di''#''di'' meaning ''good'' but is used as ''so'' in this context#and idk why they didn't translate it but you can definitely hear top call mew cute when he calls him his broken-glasses nerd
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Just saw leaks for Ch 273. Fuck yeah, this is why Itoshi Rin is my favourite character. He's Unhinged. Absolutely nothing he does is self motivated. He could've scored, could've secured that 2-2 value, but it's not good enough for Sae, so it's not good enough for him.
You FUCKING IDIOT. Why do you make sense to me????
And it's not just that, it's the fact that in his pursuit to make it to the height of talent that Sae expects from him, he's wrecking every other expectation and implicit rule in the progress. Isagi, who's improved SO much over the course of NEL, can't even comprehend what Rin is doing. When it's been emphasised time and time again that Isagi's analysis and metavision capabilities have reached professional, maybe beyond levels of perfection.
Insane. Itoshi Rin, you are insane. Loki's right, in an official match that would be absolutely diabolical. Noa's right, you ARE the worst type of egoist. But only because even at this height of performance it's STILL NOT FOR YOURSELF.
And WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THE TITLE OF THE NEXT CHAPTER?!?!? "No Longer Rivals"???? OH MY FUCKING GOD. Is it implying Rin surpasses Isagi once again?? Isagi stops Rin?? How the fuck does the most polished, most fascinating rivalry (personal opinion) end here??
I mean it makes sense considering the next arc is the world cup wherein they're gonna be on the same team so it was inevitable that there would have to be some sort of resolution for the Rinsagi rivalry here but at the same time Rin is still so hyper focused on Sae he's not even thinking about Isagi rn how the hell are they going to do this. Kaneshiro and Nomura better be working their magic.
#.... I'm excited about Blue Lock again. this feels nice.#i missed this. to be actually invested once more.#blue lock#bllk#bllk ch273#bllk spoilers#blue lock spoilers#blue lock chapter 273#itoshi rin#rin itoshi#yoichi isagi#isagi yoichi#uuuuugh. look. im a rinsagi shipper. I'm living my best life right now.#but I'm just really hoping their rivalry is done justice!!!#lune thinks#also if you see me calling rin my favourite character here NO YOU DONT. WE IGNORE IT AND MOVE ON. IM STILL IN DENIAL.
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magma doods from the past few days bc its basically all i have been able to get done
uhm i dont think i ever posted these from a few months ago
a bonus bc im right:
#or as i like to call it: a blorbo catch up#bc i always end up just defaulting to blorbos i have missed drawing (jerma is not a blorbo. it was jerma hour i had to participate)#also i probs need a break from anything hand related bc i kinda maybe overdid it with gaming n drawing for too long n uhh my fingers owie a#jerma985#yu yu hakusho#the great ace attorney#heaven official's blessing#honkai star rail#awoogaarfarfarf boothill im comin for ur ass in 2.2 just you wait i will get u u RAHFHGHHH#the teeny tiny doodles dont get media tags sry#moomin#promare#the disastrous life of saiki k.#just roll with it#mob psycho 100#dead plate#witch hat atelier#my art#magma#i vloe drawng i hate drawnig i love drawin g
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Fluent Freshman - Part 44
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The flight up to New York is a pleasant one.
The time in the airport itself had been less pleasant. Matt, as it turns out, is a firm believer in arriving with just enough time to check a bag, get through security, and get to the gate. He had claimed up, down, left, and right that he had it down to a science.
No matter how many times Smith had wondered about the scientific rigor of this 'science' he still kept it to himself. There was no need for Smith to voice his uncertainty with this plan because Kevin well and truly had it covered.
"You're giving us only an hour to check bags, get through security, and get to our gate?!" Kevin demands.
"Kevin, if you wanted to be there earlier then you could have asked Andrew to give yo a ride." Matt says. "We'll be fine."
"You know what Neil and Andrew get like when they have a long roadtrip ahead of them." Kevin argues.
"All lovey-dovey?" Nicky asks as Aaron makes a gagging sound.
"No, well yes, but no they always stop and buy all of the worst food too." Kevin reminds. "I'm just concerned about us missing our flight! We have barely enough time!" Kevin huffs crossing his arms.
"You're wrong anyways." Aaron says idly as he continues to text with Katelyn.
"How am I wrong?!" Kevin demands.
"We also have to park within that hour that Matt has left us with." Aaron says looking up from his phone.
"Matt!" Kevin squawks.
"It'll be fine." Matt reassures for the 2nd time.
"We all have checked bags!" Kevin exclaims, "What if we miss our flight?!" he wails.
"It'll be fine!" Matt repeats.
"No it won't!" Kevin exclaims.
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It was fine.
The only real delays they met were at security.
Smith prided himself on being efficient in the security line. He has his watch off, his phone and ID secured in a zipped jacket pocket, his backpack and electronics in separate trays, and his shoes ready to be slipped off.
So he was shamed to have been the cause of the first delay when the TSA agent wouldn't wave Smith through the metal detector since she didn't realize he was there. That had been a whole anxiety attack and a half as the line had formed up behind him all wondering what the hold-up was.
Finally she seemed to startle as she realized that Smith had been standing there waiting and waved him through.
The other delay was that Kevin got patted down after he had forgotten to empty his 'emergency' water bottle.
It was probably for the best that they didn't have to be in the airport for that long. Every announcement that it was very important to not leave your bag unattended made him worry that with every blink somehow someone had slipped a bomb into his backpack.
While it was on his back.
As he was running with the rest of his friends to their gate.
"It just had to be the gate on the other end of the terminal." Aaron huffs.
"It would have been 100% perfect if someone hadn't left their water bottle in their bag despite the, let me check, 3,820 signs that said remove all liquids from your carry-ons!" Matt says as they continues to run.
"I said I forgot!" Kevin yells back from his spot at the front of the pack. Smith was under the distinct impression that Kevin was keeping pace with them since he had seen the Striker move much faster on the court and during warm-ups.
"We could have forgiven that!" Nicky pants, "Why did you have to slam the whole thing to prove that it was 'just water'?" he asks.
"Because I wanted to prove I wasn't a national security threat!" Kevin says. "I'll be going to the Olympics in a couple years and I can't have that on my record." he continues as he rounds a corner.
"What record?!" Smith asks suddenly worried that there was a record.
"Smithy, there's no record Kevin's just an idiot. An idiot who got patted down, tested for explosives, and had his carry-on searched." Nicky huffs.
"You don't know that there's not a record! The record everything nowadays!" Kevin huffs and their gate is in sight.
"Kevin, just shut up!" Aaron exclaims as they reach the line for their flight.
"Wait why aren't any of you getting shitty with Smiths?!" Kevin asks.
"His delay was like a minute and more importantly NOT HIS FAULT!" Nicky defends.
"He should have just walked through!" Kevin argues.
"Oh it's fine if he gets a record but not you?!" Aaron asks.
"So there is a record?!" Smith asks again.
They reach the line and the largely empty area around their gate is more than enough evidence that this was the final boarding. Smith breathed a sigh of relief as he took his place in line behind Nicky.
"The lines pretty slow, I'm going to go get a water." Kevin says and before any of them can say anything he is off towards a busy looking Newsweek store.
"I cannot believe him." Aaron huffs.
"All that water he just drank and is about to drink? He has lost window seat privileges." Matt pants wiping sweat from his brow.
"Agreed." Nicky says.
Smith laughed between panting breaths. His stomach hurt a bit from the stress of running but it was fine.
They get on the plane without Kevin and head to their seats. Most of the overhead storage is taken up at this point but Smith slides his bag under the middle seat in front of him after Matt
In the end, Kevin barely made it onto the plane in time since he got caught up in deciding on water. "You're in my seat." Kevin says as the only man not yet seated.
"I am not about to spend this flight getting up every 2 minutes because you have to pee." Matt says, "Abby didn't used to need to take all those pitstops when we're on the bus." Matt adds.
"I hate the aisle, the cart could hit my legs." Kevin argues.
"Then you can sit in the middle if Smith's willing to move." Matt says.
"You can have the middle Kevin." Smith offers actually preferring the aisle seat since then he doesn't have to ask anyone to move for him.
"I hate the middle seat, there is no room." Kevin crosses his arms.
"Smith is like only 3 inches shorter than you and he's not complaining." Matt continues.
"It's an important 3 inches."
"I bet it is."
"Nicky, are you serious?"
"What?!"
"There is an uninvolved member of the public, right there."
"He's wearing headphones it's fine!"
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It's fine.
Eventually Kevin takes the middle seat if for no other reason than Matt stubbornly pretends to go to sleep but absolutely does not want the aisle seat either.
Smith gives it up and ends up with his own preferred seat while Kevin pointedly takes both of the arm rests, as is his right. The plane ride progresses smoothly from there. Smith has always liked flying. There is always a sense that the second that he gets onto the plane and the door closes he has absolutely zero control over what happens afterwards.
That is a nice comfort.
He pays attention to the safety briefing, finds his nearest exit, and that he should secure the bag over his own face before securing it on Kevin's.
He puts his headphones on and tries not to think about the anxiety of meeting the 'girls'.
He has heard much about the 'girls'.
Allison Reynolds. Allison was someone who's legacy existed even outside of the team. Smith didn't know much about fashion but a Reynolds bet remained a solid practice within Palmetto. She was, undeniably, absolutely gorgeous and if Kevin was to be believed 'kind of a bitch'. Nicky had swatted his arm but had said that it was not entirely inaccurate but like 'in the best way'.
Dan Wilds. He met Dan. Dan was nice. Also, if Matt was to be believed, the best human to ever walk the planet earth. The reason the sun rose in the east and set in the west. The gravitational pull that held the universe together. If Andrew is to be believed, she's fine.
Renee Walker. Renee was the one who taught Andrew how to use knives. His friend has talked warmly of her, in the way that Andrew talks warmly about anyone which is mentioning them at all. She was the one that Smith was the most anxious about meeting.
Kevin turns his nose up at the ginger ale that Smith gets but he's allowed these now per his actual doctors orders.
1 hour left until arriving at JFK.
He hopes this ginger ale is enough to calm his stomach since he's still not allowed Pepto.
MASTERPOST FOR ALL PARTS OF FLUENT FRESHMAN AU
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#Fluent Freshman AU#Oh boy it feels nice to write this again#If I were to name this chapter something else it would be 'Smiths on a Plane'#MAN IT'S BEEN A MONTH#Moved#got my place painted#got new appliances because my old ones were older than me#Developed a life long hatred for whoever designed the barstools I bought from WayFair#It was not just what I needed#Anyway we're back#Smith's on a plane#About to meet the GIRLS#Kevin almost had to call Andreil to have them come back#There may have been some autographs given to the staff to be able to re-open the door for him.#He wanted mineral water and wanted to be selective on the minerals#I don't mean to write him like this but every time I write him he is like this#Matt is based on my sister in this regard with 'exact science' meanwhile I show up 4 hours early to a flight#Like no checked bag I'm TSA pre-checked#I have never missed a flight and I fear what i'd do if I did#Matt may be a bit of a Gomez for Dan but who can blame him#Next up Smith actually meets the girls#Fluent Freshman - 44#AFTG#AFTG OC#AFTG AU#Palmetto State Foxes#AFTG Fic
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out of curiosity, would you consider yourself butch?
used to be a blonde underweight twink and now I'm a based jock still got the chanel bag and the sick albeit matured mind of a suckpig to prove it so I'm gonna let you decide whether you wanna call me that word just cuz I got a pussy and short hair. I promise you that there have been enough advancements made in the art of lesbian sexual dynamics in the past 50 years to broaden the vocabulary used to describe the plethora of types of masculine females.
#being called butch just reminds me of how much males have the freedom to navigate between male archetypes and how people pay attention to#the distinguishing features of these varying masculinities#but when a female is seen as masculine it all gets lumped under the “butch” category#her masculinity is seen as unnatural and therefore incapable of being considered genuine or taken at face value as it is with males.#its always brought into question instead of taken in consideration with the rest of the woman's life and experiences and her particularities#Hence... Butch is still being treated as though its a huge lesbian cultural phenomena instead of a specific niche thing#also i dont mean to invite the “you dont pass!!” anons again bc that idiot is missing my point entirely (which is that im truly not trying)#but the fact is that for the past 3 years i have found myself increasingly navigating the male social world#and discovering what it means to me as a female to have access to the ability to take my “masculinity” for granted... relax#forget about it#etc#i think thats entirely antithetical to the Butch thing which seems to rest on the tension of other peoples expectations of her#people broadly are more surprised to find out that im interested in women just as much as they're surprised that im a gym queen iykwim...#ive worked hard for this and now that ive gotten the Woman Social Role thing pretty much entirely out of the way i am living the dream#i think a large part of that is learning as a dyke to appropriate the language of gay men theres a reason their terminology had#staying power even when their scene was *literally* dying meanwhile all that seemed to survive from dyke spaces was butch n femme ??#its because theirs didnt necessitate the building and maintenance of a scene in order for the subculture to hold its head above water#their labels *largely* weren't predicated on their relationships to gender roles and its telling that for dykes it was#their labels rested on the need to simply show up anonymous n be able to easily flag whether they were looking to fuck or be fucked#alongside the set of circumstances under which they would be fucking or getting fucked or what have you#it all comes back to the restrictions of female social blah blah blah and i think the sooner we collectively set down what we see as our#responsibility as lesbians and as feminists to Be A Woman the sooner we can step outside of that#n start thinking clearly about our individual circumstances and the necessity of putting on your own oxygen mask first before helping others
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honestly? no collar + no chip = no owner fr fr. i like sometimes cats get out when they arent supposed to and their collars get ripped off. understandablw. but like. if u have an "outdoor cat". and it does not have a collar, and it does not have a chip. how the hell is ANYONE supposed to tell ur lil guy apart from a stray??? literally how??
for real!! sorry, no owner! this cat has no evidence of being someone's pet! no collar, no chip, no missing flyers, nothin!!! and there's nothing to differentiate a missing cat from an outdoor cat from a friendly stray from a dumped/abandoned cat. They Are The Same.
#like there's no Stealing there. it can't be called stealing it's called rescuing#and people are so annoying about this too#many a cat/kitten I've found in my life who are just so easy to handle#like they take very little work to break the Fear Barrier before they switch into being sociable and snuggly and easy to handle#and people are like OMG IF IT'S FRIENDLY THAT'S SOMEONE'S CAT!! YOU MUST'VE TAKEN SOMEONE'S CAT#the HELL I DID there's never a chip or so much as a missing poster. don't you think I already checked!#if this is someone's cat then too bad beech!! but also people SO dramatically underestimate the friendliness of stray cats#just bc a cat doesn't have an owner doesn't mean it isn't socialized. a cat can be homeless and friendly at the same time#people pet and feed strays all the time. just bc it isn't fully feral doesn't mean that it has a place to call home#sergle.txt
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Tony Dalton as Lalo Salamanca BETTER CALL SAUL | 5.10
#better call saul#lalo salamanca#bcsedit#bettercallsauledit#tvedit#filmtvsource#mensource#usercy#usersjoy#usersnat#userjack#*#i promise ill chill with the lalo gifs after this im just having a moment and missing him sdjkfskdk#i think i lost years off my life coloring these and im still not happy with them 💀
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OC !
#my characters#i missed her so much wowee#her name is katale and thats what she goes by EXCEPT her best friend (and ex boyfriend and boss) who gets to call her kitty#hes just like the all around best guy in her life and she loves him a whole lot#and even though they broke up they have a very loving friendship and shes like#oh i would absolutely kill for him and in fact i am VERY good at killing im honing my skills :3#and her family is actually just a bunch of criminals and the only reason the other guy gets involved#is bc he needs fast money to help his mom with hospital bills and so hes like hey my mom doesnt need to know how shes alive#and then he somehow becomes head honcho and is a rumored to be ruthless man#but hes just incredibly level headed and able to think his way up (and kills a few unpleasant family members for kitty)#and if shes running out and about you can even hear him say shit like#my wife left me i miss my wife#and everyone knows he means katale but no one knows how to react bc its clearly a joke (???) since they broke up#but no one is telling their boss to elaborate the wife situation#kitty however is the entire reason that she gets this lil puppy of an agent to not kill rudyard her dear boss#and somehow they adopt this grown man and also his really weird mentor who faked their death#but they love their puppy son boy agent man#and kitty is super happy to dote on the agent but even she has her lines like WHY DID YOU JUST HAND HIM A GUN#RUDYARD HE TRIED TO KILL YOU LIKE LAST MONTH WHAT ARE YOU DOING#and rudyard is just ??? can i NOT shove a gun into his hands now? what is that? a crime? really? gonna tell on me? a criminal? for crimes?#but genuinely it stresses her out bc she loves her adopted son but loves her best friend and eventually she realizes#ok puppy agent man is loyal to them but not a criminal thats ok#while rudyard is like ... passing him guns to try out as a bonding thing#but also he is fascinated with how good the agents aim is like hey kitty you should watch how far he can shoot perfectly#hey kitty remember all those dead underlings and how precise their kills were to make them not suffer this guy is really good#also for what its worth ruds mom is still alive! shes just in a nursing home now and he goes to visit her#kitty and rudyard have such a fun dynamic to me and both are murderers but its okay (its not)#also kitty likes anime and she has forced rud to watch anime with her and he just accepts his fate#bc it makes kitty happy to share so he will watch to make her happy even if he doesnt understand all the appeal
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Batman: The Audio Adventures is about two things: goofy-ass worldbuilding and villain monologues. That's it, that's the podcast. Funny Gotham public service announcement, followed by a rogue giving a gay little speech while they literally torture somebody to death, rinse and repeat. And it's awesome.
#i actually love their joker which is fun because i feel like he's so hard to get right#but when he like. calls in to a radio show. and tells some jokes with the host and they just kinda vibe for a bit#and then he starts talking about the guy's real name and home address and his pets#and you realize that he's currently calling from inside the man's apartment#so excellent#oh i forgot a very important part of the show's formula#which is the narrator making an overly alliterative metaphor and saying the words 'Gotham City' in his dramatic tone of voice#'another tale of life and death in gotham city' is seared into my brain and tbh I ain't mad#i wish the show was more popular 😭😭😭😭#i feel like so many people are missing out#batman the audio adventures#btaa#batman#batfam#dc#my rambles
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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry
( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)
(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)
#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him#I always knew he was a parental figure for me#but now I connected the dots#How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life#that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so#and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life#ofc ud become attached#i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him#he occupies most of my thoughts honestly#But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life#i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an#bloom and be free#and that's what ill try to do#but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness#its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired#somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea#how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi#g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if#lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways#sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay#yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le#go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk#how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate#my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t#me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol#so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest#y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t#ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti#ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd
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Welp, excuse me. I’m gonna go be obsessed with Descendants: Rise of Red for a little bit— pardon the brainworms, potential one shots, and related reposts. ❤️💙
The soundtrack is FIRE 🔥🔥🔥
(Plz don’t come for me Descendants fandom, I liked the songs... a lot actually. 😭😭😭)
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Yes I’ve seen all the descendants films lol, I just don’t talk about it a lot.
#The outfits OMG#GORGEOUS#MY AESTHETIC I NEED ALL THE OUTFITS PLZ#Yes I’ve been looping Love Ain’t It and Red#This movie was pretty cute even if it’s kinda cheesy#Liked it more than I thought I would#Uma is iconic 💅#descendants#descendants rise of red#descendants 4#Miss the OG cast but love Chloe and Red#Cliffhanger yippee#Music is a slay idc what anyone says to me it hits#Rita Ora?!?!?!#Might rewatch this a few times over#Fanfiction idea??#CC rambles#srry im yappin in the tags#I liked the life lessons#CALL US JALADDIN IM WEAK 💀#rise of red#disney descendants#descendants the rise of red
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