#I MEAN I'VE ALWAYS LOVED WHIT BUT LIKE

[abr-giggy]

DRDT SPOILERS!

i've been actually losing my mind over the whit sprite like WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE THAT HOT???? hhfuufhiuiufasiufsaibudsibusgdbiugdsiub dgsbuisgd

I am going to snatch up this sprite as soon as it's released I SWEAR brotha is over here altering my brain chemistry 😭

me asf

[moonmeg]

I'm sorry, but I'm too much into the Ian lore right now (probably like everyone else). How long did Ian exactly carry this pain alone before his siblings found out? How did they find out anyway? Was Ian in a bad relationship (once again) that was so suspicious to them that they just approached him? Or did he start to open up? If yes, who did he first open up to?

He refrained from addressing his issues to his siblings for 10 years (counting from his late teens, not his first time). He was scared they'd shut him out in disgust and shame. Moreover, his siblings had other worries than his love life. Blair and Neil had wives and children, Edan had his kid, Keith and Maisie their dating life - he couldn't burden them with his personal shit in good conscience. He was an adult and he should work his issues out on his own. When the suffering was too much to bear, he decided to change things but knew he couldn't do it on his own. He knew he needed help and if that help was just finally venting to someone about it and crying his heart out on someone's shoulder. So he gathered all his remaining courage and told them about his plight, gradually breaking into tears the more he talked.

"Sorry for bothering ye guys wi' this, I-I just... I dinna exactly have anyone else to talk to about this, and I'd simply ask the favor of ye to listen. Ye dinna have to reply to anything, ye dinna have to comment, I only want ye to listen. I think when I say my love life is a burning pile of shite it's to no one's surprise, but reality is... it's much worse. I laugh and joke about it, but if I'm honest, I am broken because of it. I am a shattered heart and soul and I don't, for the life of me, ken whit to do to piece it together again. I keep getting attached to people. That's probably just how I am... always the naive dumbass of the family. I meet them, I notice they're interested in me and then the first flirty sentences happen and just when I think there's nothing more to it and this person may genuinely like me... suddenly, their hands are in places they shouldna be, touching me, squeezing me, they are breathing down my neck and telling me things I've heard a hundred times before. And instead of fighting it, I give in. I keep giving in. I keep bringing those people to my house, I keep allowing them into my bed, I keep thinking maybe this time it'll be different and I keep waking up alone after every damn time it happens. I keep telling myself it's fine, I'll be alright but I am not! I am not fine! I am always just used. I am never anyone worth more than some one-mibay-two-night's pleasure. Mibay I dinna deserve love the way ye guys found it and in frustration I drown my pain in another person's bed. I'll spare the details but I am so tired of it. I want out of this cycle... I just dinna ken how. Ye guys can hate me or be repulsed or disgusted or whatever, I canna blame ye. I hate, am repulsed and disgusted by myself too and really, no matter whit ye think or say will hurt me much. I'm used to painful words."

He was met with silence and looks ranging from concern to pity and shock.

"Or ye can say nothing at all. Fine too."

Blair carefully uttered his name.

"How long for?"

Ian hesitated.

"Too long."

Neil leaned forward.

"Why didye never tell us?"

"Ye have other worries. Wives and bairns and other stuff."

"Ye're our brother! Ye're just as important!"

He didn't know what to say. He stared at the ground. He shouldn't have told them.

"Sorry." he whispered.

"No, we're sorry." Blair took her brother's hand. "We shoulda been more attentive and less teasing and taunting."

"It isna yer fault." he forced a smile.

"Ian." Edan glared. "Mibay not knowing just whit exactly was going on in yer life and protecting ye from it isna our fault but we made ye feel lonely and uncomfortable enough for ye to not approach us earlier. We're sorry."

Before he could say anything Keith chimed in.

"Ye say ye may not be deserving of love the way all of us do - I mean- majority of us do. Sorry, Ed."

"All good."

"But that's not true! Ye're just as much deserving of finding someone who loves ye for ye and puts in the effort to get to know the Ian behind the cocky, flirty act. Someone who just holds ye wi'out further intentions and not an ounce of selfishness to it. Ye're one of the kindest, caring people I ken and I am so happy to have ye as my brother. Even if just half-brother."

"Me too!" Maisie agreed, smiling. "Ye're deserving of a partner who loves ye wi' all their heart."

Blair wiped his tear.

"We're sorry we made ye feel unloved and that we let ye down. Keith and Maisie are right. Aye, sibling love is not the same but if ye look around the room, there's five people here who love ye and appreciate ye being part of their life. And outside there's... two, three, three, one... nine more people who do so!" she said.

"Eleven. Yer in-laws adore ye too." Neil corrected.

"Eleven!"

"Sixteen in total." Edan smiled.

"And more to come, probably." Maisie commented.

"We'll do better. We'll help ye, Ian. Promised."

He looked around his siblings smiling at him and nodding at Edan's promise. He sobbed as his feelings overwhelmed him.

****

"Hugs aren't a thing in the Boiling Isles!"

My honest reaction:

Bower siblings 1.0 group hug 🧡💛💙❤️🩵🩷 (important for my mental health)

[rekino2114]

Is Valentine's Day prompt: 10 🩷 Chocolate lipstick for teruko tawaki from Danganronpa despair time on the board?

Teruko testing chocolate lipstick on you

Pairing:teruko tawaki x gn reader

Prompts list

"I.....uh.....don't wear lipstick"

"Whaaaat? No way,why?, I think you'd look way prettier with it"

Teruko glared at whit but decided to ignore his remark

"I never wipe it right, and it always gets on my teeth. One time, I got sick because some of it somehow ended up in my stomach"

".........how?"

"I'd like to know that too"

"Anyway you won't have to worry about that, cause this is edible........probably"

"What do you mean probably?"

"It's chocolate lipstick so it's gotta be......I think"

"It's lipstick......made of chocolate?"

"No it's probably just chocolate flavored lipstick"

"Why would anyone want flavored lipstick? much less chocolate flavored lipstick"

"Cause it makes kisses have flavor, who wouldn't want that? Also, because of valentine's day"

"Whatever, I don't want it anyway"

"I mean, you were the one to ask me for romantic stuff to do for y/n"

"Yeah, cause I have no idea what to do, I've checked everywhere, and literally all of the chocolates and flowers are sold out, and with my terrible handwriting, there's no way I can write a cute love letter that's readable"

"Then you should have made plans earlier"

"I DID but somehow everything got sold just when I went there to buy everything"

"Oh yeah......forgot about your luck problem"

"If you're not gonna be helpful then leave"

"I am being helpful. The chocolate lipstick is a good idea. You like kissing y/n, right?"

His question causes teruko to blush and look away

"Y-yeah"

"Now you can kiss them and make it chocolate flavored, isn’t that neat?"

"That's dumb...........but-"

Teruko took the lipstick out of whit's hand and looked it over before sighing

"I have literally no other option and don't wanna seem like a bad girlfriend so.....thanks I guess"

"No problem, if you ever need relationship help just remember your favorite matchmaker is always available"

"You're.....the only matchmaker I know"

"So? I'm still your favorite"

Teruko sighed and went to the bathroom to try the lipstick on. She found that it didn't make her lips stand out that much on her already tan skin but maybe that was for the better.

She went outside and found you standing on a bench using your phone, she got closer and sat next to you

"Oh hi teru, what's up?"

"Nothing much, u-uh h-happy valentine's day by the way"

"Oh hehe, thank you, don't think I forgot about that, I already have the gifts ready, I just wanted to give them to you after class"

"Y-yeah thanks, i-i have something for you too"

"Really? What is it?"

"Uh......t-this"

Teruko blushed even harder and got closer to you kissing your cheek and leaving a brown kiss mark on it

"Oh, you're wearing lipstick. That's unusual, but you look really pretty and your kisses are amazing either way"

"Thanks but it's not just......normal lipstick"

"What is it?"

"Let me know if you can taste it"

The ultimate lucky student kissed you again, on the lips this time, you kissed her back for a moment before realizing something and pulling back

"Oh it tastes like......chocolate?"

"Yeah, it's chocolate flavored lipstick, whit gave it to me, I know it's dumb but I really wanted to do something for you today and all my plans got ruined so-"

"I don't think it's dumb teru, I love chocolate and your kisses so this is perfect"

"R-really?"

"Yeah, by the way, you could have gotten nothing and I still wouldn't have said anything, I love you and anything you do for me is great in my opinion"

"No, getting you nothing would have just made me feel shitty, but I'm still glad you like it.......i-i love you too"

"That's great"

You got up and kisses her cheek, making her blush again

"Now how about we continue this chocolate flavored kissing session in my dorm later, I can give you the gifts and we can make out"

"That sounds great, I'll give you something special there, it's the least I could do"

"Hehe, I really can't wait teru"

[1moreff-creator]

So it's no question that Despair Time can be really dark when it wants to be. Of course, this could be said for any mainline game or fangan, but I think Despair Time is a special case, especially seeing how everyone has a troubled past of some sort and how nearly all of them have had breakdowns and/or outbursts of rage. I've had a stressful end of semester while balancing watching videos and playing games to stay positive and cheerful...which is what led to this idea popping into my mind. What would it take to make each of them laugh? What's their sense of humor like? By "laugh," I mean a genuine, heartfelt, happy laugh. Not crazy/evil/maniacal laughter. Given all the doom and gloom that goes around throughout this wonderfully chaotic story, I thought this would be a nice one to ponder on.

This is a really nice question! Sorry to hear about your end of semester, hope things get better! Anyways, let's try to make this very depressing series a little bit lighter, and make these guys laugh! Though, fair warning, I struggled with a lot of these for one reason or another, hope none of this feels too out of character. I tried :p

Teruko: She enjoys teasing her friends, and always gets a chuckle from it. Think of the "cactus lover" comment to Charles from the prologue, or talking about imagining Min sneakily reading Wikipedia articles in CH1. Nothing mean spirited, just fun jabbing between friends. As long as it isn't anything serious, other people's misfortune makes her feel less alone in her struggles, so she enjoys laughing with her friends at said misfortune.

Xander: Surprisingly dark sense of humor, like when he shows off his eye injury to Teruko and Eden. It makes him feel better to laugh about certain tragedies. On the other hand, he also enjoys very wholesome fun with friends, because other people's smiles easily bring a smile out of him. Basically, he enjoys humor on either extreme of the wholesomeness spectrum.

Charles: Like Teruko, he enjoys teasing others (see: his interactions with Whit), even though he gets easily embarrassed if he is teased himself; and sarcasm. Secretly loves advanced chemistry puns, but he'd rather die than letting Whit find out.

Ace: For Ace to genuinely laugh, he needs to feel safe and calm, which doesn't happen often. That means he only really laughs around very specific people that can give him that sense of security, like Taylor or Levi before Trial 1. But when he is around this people, he can get quite giggly, and even pretty dumb jokes can get a chuckle out of him.

Arei: Beyond laughing at people making fools of themselves (in a bit of a mean spirited way), she's sorta like Ace in that she needs to feel very comfortable with someone to show enough genuine emotion to laugh like you described. So, laughs around Eden post CH2 apology, for example. Once that happens, her sense of humor consists of silly and wholesome fun, like throwing toilet paper at Whit.

Rose: Likes deadpan, "straight man" type of humor, so she gets a lot of chuckles out of pairs like Whit and Charles. However, she's usually too eepy to really laugh out loud. That said, she really loves anything that brings up happy memories of her friends' laughter, so inside jokes are her jam.

Hu: The most wholesome sense of humor imaginable. She enjoys it when she can giggle at a comment just because of how nice it is, and likes making those sort of comments herself.

Eden: Surprisingly silly and absurdist sense of humor; always tries to make others laugh with her capital S Silliness because she laughs when other people laugh.

Levi: Very odd and oftentimes awkward sense of humor on his own, but it's easy to get him to chuckle in big groups where he can feel included by laughing along. If someone matches his tempo, though, they can have very wholesome laughs together.

Arturo: He finds any joke told by "beautiful people" funny, but in general terms, sarcasm is his usual go to for humor. He's also a big fan of slapstick, but he'd never admit it.

Min: The biggest nerd ever in terms of humor. She laughs easily when she feels smart for understanding a joke, though she can also be reduced to mad giggling by really absurd and ironic humor.

David: Xander What who said that. Jokes aside, it's hard to make David laugh if you're not close to him, but he'll laugh at practically anything people he likes do. Xander is actually a good example; after becoming friends, any joke Xander makes lands easily with David.

Veronika: High energy humor, where there's a funny every other sentence. Also loves dark humor common to the horror genre, and highly appreciates horror references in general.

J: Loves sarcasm and irony, as well as referential humor. In my heart, she's a massive nerd when it comes to theater plays, so any clever joke that plays off of those is funnier to her than she'd like to admit.

Whit: Well, you probably know his style. Lots of bad jokes and puns, teasing people, getting others to laugh because it makes him laugh when others are enjoying themselves, etc.

Nico: Although their laughs are quiet, they like blunt and deadpan humor. Especially appreciates any humor related to animals, and will laugh readily when faced with a funny animal video.

MonoTV: Human suffering and really bad puns :D

Mai: Pretty much anything that makes her friends happy will make her happy as well, though she prefers her humor more wholesome than dark.

I hope that was good enough! And sorry this took a bit to answer, I swear I'm getting less busy :p Anyways, thanks for the ask, this was fun to think about!

[potionwine]

Asks that say a lot: 59 and 61 please? 💜

HELLO FRIEND <3

Thank you for asking/playing, apologies for taking so long to reply, I picked up a copy of Sunrise on the Reaping and spent the entire weekend reading it while drinking gallons of tea, and naturally fell into a deep post-book catatonia. I need 2 business weeks to recover in bed, I shouldn't have to go back to work in this state lol

59: if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

"Only eat, no cook." I haaaate cooking. I can do it, I just hate it. Australia's too expensive to be eating out all the time, so practically everyone cooks to some degree of skill—decent enough to feed ourselves. There are countries and cities where it is possible to survive by eating out all the time, but not Australian cities. (For example, it is possible to get an entire delicious, plump roll of gimbap in Seoul for like ₩4,500 Korean won=approx AUD$5-6, but a similar roll of gimbap in Melbourne/Sydney is about $15.) So. I can cook—not well; simple edible fare, but I just hate this activity. Cooking is just. Ugh. The sheer amount of time. The grocery shopping, the meal planning, the cutting and chopping, the smells (they linger and they infect everything), the effort, the heat, the unmatched tragedy of failed cooking/ruined and wasted food? Ugh. Ugh ugh ugh! Unfortunately, I love eating. Food is right up there on the list of life's pleasures. So this is a significant problem in my life. HAHAHA. I basically always tell my family and friends and colleagues that I only eat, no cook. It makes them groan every time (but it also means they often give me food or leftovers, and I always accept food without shame!) Nobody asked but I feel slightly defensive so please allow me to add that what I bring to the table (heh) is cleaning. Alongside "only eat no cook", I frequently joke about needing to find a partner who loves cooking because I can do all the cleaning. I enjoy cleaning. I like it, I'm good at it, I'm a stress cleaner so even when I'm unhappy, cleaning is happening in my house. Laundry is done like clockwork; I've never had clothes lying on the floor, ever, never had dirty piles of clothes anywhere except the laundry basket where it belongs. Never had freshly laundered clothes just dumped on the bed. I iron or steam my clothes and even bedsheets and towels and put them away promptly, and my bathroom/kitchen are pretty much immaculate. I've never left dishes in the sink overnight except maybe a lone cup or glass from a quick drink of water before bed. No sticky floors, no stained benchtops or tables. I basically dumped all my homemaking stats into cleaning and none into cooking, is what I'm saying.

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

From a play that I have been told (repeatedly) is extremely me—that is to say, tediously, absurdly, long-windedly existentialist: Let us do something, while we have the chance! It is not every day that we are needed. Not indeed that we personally are needed. Others would meet the case equally well, if not better. To all mankind they were addressed, those cries for help still ringing in our ears! But at this place, at this moment of time, all mankind is us, whether we like it or not. —Act II, Waiting for Godot, by Samuel Beckett It was paradigm-shifting. It shook me completely the first time I heard it and time has not lessened its impact one whit. Self-doubt is my most constant and most deadly enemy, and this is my personal litany against the sort of thinking that goes "but anyone else could do it" with my brain treacherously adding self-destroying things like "and probably do it better than me". Others may do it equally well, if not better. We tell ourselves that all the time, see? BUT. But. Right here, right now, I am present. If someone falls down in front of me, I am the one who is here to help them up. If someone displays kindness in front of me, I am the person who is here to appreciate them. If someone makes a gift for me, I am the one who is able to tell them how wonderful they are. If someone cries where I can see them, that means I have the opportunity to try and comfort them. Even really frivolous things, such as: I wish there's a fic about [this] or I wish there were more art for [that], etc. There is no point ruminating over whether someone else deserves this promotion more or whether someone could do more justice to this fic idea or whether someone else could tackle some task with more expertise. Sure, maybe they could, there is no doubt that someone somewhere could do better. There is no point forecasting one's impact on the great big world to such an extent that one is dissuaded to act at all—whether that involves little acts of political resistance or small scale community outreaches or any number of things that contribute just that tiny bit more light and hope. Someone else might do it better, but I am here. So all mankind is me, and I am needed, I am the one who is needed because I am present. I can contribute because I am here—that naturally flows on to the empowering thought that if I want to contribute, I should.

Ask me: weird asks that say a lot

[hazelpuff]

I just wanted to say that I'm in love (and a bit jealous haha) with your style. It's so pretty and unique! Your hoods are gorgeous and your sims even more! (may i ask you what technique do you use to make them? Pooklet's? Face templates? A lot of sliders?)

I jumped around a lot between maxis-match, semi realistic, etc. trying to find something i liked (and i still feel i didn't quite found something i like 100%) and I'm in awe of how you made something that doesn't look like ts4 nor ts2 but a so cool and pretty in between!!!

(also a disclaimer because I'm a tiny ball of anxiety: this is no shade to anyone who likes other styles, i find them pretty awesome in other people's games, they just look a bit boring on mine. The sims is about having fun and everyone deserves to play it as they like!)

Hi! Thank you for your sweet message!

(disclaimer at the beginning of the post, my keyboard is dying since half a year and i'm putting aside the moment to replace it, but after this post, I think I'm gonna make my mind soon lol. So sorry for any misspeling - you can get double nn, no n, no m, no c, double cc, no c and many other surprises - i tried to fix everything but I could miss something xd).

I've restarted my hood 5 times I think before I got it to my recent version. I'm terrified every time through most of the process, it doesn't come easily to me xD.

Also ofc, everyone can have whatever aesthetics they like - the sims is the perfect series to express that.

With my sims it really depends. I mostly make a sim that I really like and then use it as a base for other sims, but not always. Sometimes I make a sim that I think looks quite unique but it's still missing somethig when it comes to features and makeup face details. During those moments I just open up my body shop sometime later or the next day and try to tweak this sim, sometimes it's more than once. And other times I end up liking the idk 3rd attempt but i still keep going since i want to make more similair sims, and also it's tiring to start the process from the beginning every time xD.

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sry for the baldness xD - i deleted the wip hair conversion files they had and now i can't never change their hairstyles lol, idk how i did it for those two last sims seriously.

As you can see, all those sims have this maxis chain necklace, which means that I started the process using the same base sim and it just evolved into many differet results lol.

Other times I'm editing some maxis face templates to make them more my style (it's really fun!)

I also made one of my sims face into face template to make the rest of the family. I didn't want their faces to be - mouth: mom; eyes: dad; nose: mom - just a mix of both and adding something extra to make them a little more unique. Kinda pookleted their faces with two face templates.

I just really like this face. It can look either goofy or good xD.

I sometimes get inspired by images of some real life ppl (models, actors). When I'm really out of ideas I'm also dowloading sims made by others and use them as a base - just tweaking their features to be my style, mostly it's about face proportions and replacing the cc they used to the one I have. There is muuuch more examples that I could give but a lot of times it's just a result of tweaking some sims a couple of times xD.

Also due to the fact that i make my sims in body shop, idk how their faces will look whit face expressions. I was always using my sims to create previews for my cc conversions so I'm also testing them that way and if something looks too off - I'm just going back to body shop to fix that.

I think I've developed my style around the clay hair conversions that I've made - I wanted the sims in my previews to go well together with clay hair. I remember that I've picked the hair first, THEN sculpted my sims faces. There just werent that many to choose from at 1st.

I don't really use face templates - I have some, but I don't use them much - i think the proportions on faces of my sims are the closest to the maxis sims 🤔. I like their sharp features so when I'm stuck with making a sim, I'm using the pooklet method with those maxis templates but only a tiiiny bit - like 10-20% and only on those parts of the faces that I want to tweak a little more. After that I'm going back to editing the face myself.

(also a lil bonus of my sim from 2017, the only older picture that i have, i found it recently by accident and i think this is the only time when it's kinda in-context to post it 🤣).

[ask-the-no-killing-game-au]

To everyone, do you have any favorite things to do in your free time?

Ace: "I don't care about free time." (He likes to be in his room.)

Arturo: "Why should I tell you that?" (Gets bored rather easily. He spends time in the infirmary, but often just does nothing.)

Arei: "I like spending time with Eden, I think.. I don't need to tell you anymore, actually!!" (She's not totally different to her canon self.)

???: "Since the computers are totally open, I've managed to install games on there.. I've learned valuable information. Except Whit's annoying." (Whit keeps leaving information in extra tabs about how to help trans people. He doesn't want them to feel bad about their identity.. they do anyway.)

David: "I like spending time with Xander.. I saw the answers to the question about the favourite people, by the way." (He's a bit too distracted by the fact he's not anyone's favourite..?)

Eden: "I love spending time with Arei!! There's so much stuff to do together.. but usually we're just in the living room. The playground is fun!!"

Hu: "I just like to help whoever needs it, whether that's physical help or talking about their problems."

J: "The computer lab and movie screening room are cool, I guess." (Also not very happy nobody said they were their favourite)

Levi: "I'm learning to make my own clothes.. It's fun, so far." (Not much to add to that one)

Min: "The relaxation room is nice. I want to spend time in there, but Nico is usually in there, and I want to give them space." (Hu and the uh ultimate chemist person are usually in there too.)

Nico: "....I don't know. I'm not sure.. Someone's teaching me how to paint..." (They find names difficult.)

Rose: "I've been teaching Nico how to paint, they're doing well. I'm proud of them." (Just likes to spend time with Nico, really.)

Teruko: "I don't know, but I have to do everything with Xander, for "safety" apparently." (That's not true, she just likes to spend time with him.)

Veronika: "The movie screening room, obviously!!! I always watch movies, so fun!!" (She'll spend multiple hours a day in there.)

Whit: "Whatever my friends want to do.. especially my partner. I want to support them!" (That last part means two things.)

Xander: "Whatever's free at any given time. Anything can be fun if you try." (That's a lie, he gets bored very easily.)

[loosesodamarble]

Well what I see about you and your fanfic…Hm

First the roasting part and kink shaming? Part

- You have fantasies of twins give it to you same to my😏

-You may be poly?

-You love strong masculine woman

-you like pain

-you like femboy‘s or some wo are bi or gay how the men you like looking like raise the challenge and the thrill for you😏

Ok now the cute and nice part‘s about you

-you are all for Family

-you wanted many children

-you love crafting and making stuff

-you love talk about emotions and and how people really felling

-you would mürder for you friend‘s

-you like the natural look of a woman I love it too😊

-you are a animal lover

-you love meaning‘s of Name and all other stuff

-you like looking stuff up especially for stories

-you like too talk whit other like my a random dude and I love Talking to you too as a good friend😆

-you give you all in most of you doing even it’s make you felling bad plz say sometime no or don’t do It if you know it’s make you felling bad …..as long it’s not a real good reason take care of yourself plz…….

-you love your sister but you thinking sometimes how it would be a as a only child

-you would like to travel a lot and get to know history

This are the first things what came my in mind as I did write this in 10 min it’s all fun here but yes this is what I get out of your story‘s my dear Loo and Donne scared I love twins too😆👍

I see I have something in my inbox. 👀

I see it's from Marune! 😄

I start to read it...

I can't believe you came into my inbox to roast me??? WAAAAH! 😭

Of these more roasty assumptions, only the last two are really true.

Nacht and Morgen are a special case of twins for me. Otherwise, I don't really think of twins in a particular way. And I'm not poly whatsoever. I can't get myself one romantic partner, much less multiple ones. 😆 When it comes to strong, masculine women... I suppose I do admire them for being confident in their bodies and if they're muscular, their dedication to training is admirable too. But I wouldn't say I'm attracted to them in any capacity.

I cannot deny that I am drawn to rather heart-wrenching stories and have a love for characters who make me cry and rip my heart straight from my chest cavity. As for the feminine/androgynous looking guys... I dunno, some part of me wants a partner who is prettier than me, I guess? Like, I wanna be able to say I'm loved by someone "out of my league"?

Then I get to the latter part of the ask...

Yay~!

It's true that I love the concept of a family unit. And while I don't want a lot of kids, I have always considered being a mother in the future. And skipping ahead in the assumptions, I actually haven't ever considered what it'd be like to be an only child. Even when my sisters and I disagree, they've always been my family and nothing will change that so why consider otherwise (in my opinion)?

Arts and crafts have always fascinated me yet have always eluded me when it comes to actually practicing them. I remember taking a home economics class and for a sewing project, I accidentally forgot to close a seam and the teacher would've been able to fit her whole thumb through it. The most "making" I can do is making a meal; I can definitely cook competently at least! 😤

Talking about emotions... Even if I can't give advice or words of comfort, being a listening ear is something I try my best to be. And in writing, I do tend to dig my claws into a character's heart and emotionally analyze them.

Would I truly murder for my friends? 🤔 The opportunity to prove myself have yet to show itself. So we'll see how true that is with time./j

While I'm not against make-up, I guess I would say my preference is for a subtler make-up style. (Although, when eye make up is a more prominent, I think that's a cool look too.)

Yes! Even if I've never kept an animal before, I'm a definite animal lover!

Maybe it's because I'm a writer but I just love knowing the meaning behind words and names specifically!

And though my research isn't terribly thorough, I do enjoy the process of looking things up to flesh out the details of my writing. Like... okay call me stupid but I did have to look up the difference between a server and a busser for the sake of the Butler AU...

Ah, the talking with random people... It actually takes me some time to get comfortable enough to get more chatty with people. I think in recent times, I've gotten more wary about talking with new people (but I would still like to be able to reach out and make new friends here on tumblr).

Giving my all even if it makes me feel bad... Yeah. Yeah that's definitely true. Certain people can attest to how me doing my best at a job has made me suffer. And while I don't really bottle up my trouble, I guess I underplay it? But... You got that assumption right on the money.

Finally, for your last assumption, yes I would like to travel a bit more. And I guess learning some things about history can be fun, and sometimes it's just good to be informed on the past.

[majorbaby]

in my frustration re: the backlash against feminism i've seen online and irl, i've toed the line making comparisons to white privilege in a last-ditch attempt to appeal to left-leaning sensibilities and... idk, convince people that male privilege is real and it is based on perception of others and perception of the self.

and it appears to work in that when confronted with a brown, gay man (i find i usually have to mention this) talking about how racism works - that it is not some inherent, biological trait that makes white people "white" and capable of benefitting from their whitness and that *all* people who are perceived as white, no matter how wonderful and non-racist they are benefit from white privilege - liberal or leftist white people tend to shut down and tensely concede their point.

except that the left is rife with racism, and i don't mean white people vs everyone else. i mean a lack of understanding of class dynamics, an underestimation of how pervasive antiblackness is, a complete ignorance to antisemitism and the limits of the white vs non-white binary.

like sure, people might shut up if i come in and point out that there is there no word for the intersection of racism and misandry. And how despite this, when we talk about police brutality and state violence, we almost always focus on how these things affect men of colour.

the whole thing speaks to a lack of understanding of critical race theory, and my sense is that people only listen to me because they want to performatively appear as though they're listenining. if you really understood what white feminism is, you would know that you cannot replace "white" with "cis". the term "white feminism" already accounts for an ignorance of gender-diverse experience because racialized women are subject to a different standard than white women, and some cultures with differing systems of gender had the gender binary imposed on them by white colonizers.

it makes me just, absolutely insane to see men, especially white men, quoting bell hooks essays on masculinity where she writes the oppression of black men in a white supremacist state and misconstrue those points as being somehow about misandry when they are first and foremost about racism. even her wikipedia article contains this quote: "Allegiance to sexist thinking about the nature of leadership creates a blind spot that effectively prevents masses of black people from making use of theories and practices of liberation when they are offered by women" so like, it's not even that people are unfamiliar with her work, it feels intentional that they're mining it for any statement that can position men as victims who just need to be loved on more *by women* and surely that will end patriarchy which btw "patriarchy affects men too it affects men too!!!" and who is doing patriarchy to men???? the answer is right there in the word...

[lilyevanstan1325]

✨ Astral Lovers ✨

Chapter 1

I know I have to get up.

I know I have to open my eyes.

But I just can't.

Today is one of those day when, if it weren't for my job, I wouldn't even get out of bed.

The light that comes in softly from the window foretells what I already knew.

The sunrise is near and my damned alarm is about to rings.

It's 5:45 am, and like every morning, I turn off the alarm on my smartphone before it rings.

Not that I can disturb anyone since I live alone with my father.

My father.

Painful point of my life.

Or maybe it's better to define him as a pain in my ass.

It's just me and him since mom died.

I was 15 and I don't remember much but I remember the pain.

Pain is what never goes away.

I felt like a cold hand had pierced my chest and than tearing my heart, leaving me alone, defendeless and bleeding.

A little girl abandoned to a father who basically never loved her.

He didn't even love my mother.

He alway lived only for his job.

Him and mom were always arguing about his job.

My mother wanted him to change job and run away from this place, to devote more time to her and to me.

But he felt no reason.

He often yelled at her how he could have fallen in love with her.

And I was asking myself the same question.

My mom was sweet and good.

When she entered in a room it was as if the sun entered too and she was able to make everything that revolved around her shine.

She was my strength.

She gave me the charge so that I would shine with my own light.

I loved her, and I still love her, so much.

My father, on the other hand, is a man of science.

A scientist quite famous and respected.

He is the classic man in suit and tie, a man capable of looking down on you with eyes full of contempt.

The same contempt that he had never spared to give toward me.

I've always been his biggest disappointment.

I refused to follow his footstep.

I always had my dreams, childish and foolish to him.

And that's why he always compared me to my mother.

As if it were a horrible thing.

As if I wasn't proud of it.

My biggest dream has always been acting.

After graduating from the Bachelor of Fine Art in Theatre Arts in Brookville, the city I've been living since birth, I tried to do a few auditions but there were never any big opportunities here.

I wanted to move to some big city but obviously my dad had never agreed.

Among the thousand fights, he always blamed me for paying for a school that had nothing to offer and wouldn't pay an extra dollar for this silly bullshit.

So I found myself forced to live with him again and do a job that I hated more every day.

Whit these thoughts as heavy as boulders I get out of bed, shivering at the contact of my feet with the cold marble of the floor, I head towards the kitchen to prepare my usual tea with honey and lemon and try to get a move on otherwise I would have arrived late for work.

After recovering myself a little from my dark thoughts I hurry upstairs to head to the bathroom and get ready.

I look at myself in the mirror for a few seconds, noticing to my great disappointment that my hair was a mess this morning too.

Curly and black waves come down on the shoulders, the olive skin that in the artificial light of the neon seems to acquire that yellowish hue and the large and dark eyes like onyxes.

I have never liked me, too short and curvy, I have never reflected the aesthetic canons of society and consequently I have always felt uncomfortable around other people.

Especially next to my peers.

After wearing a simple pair of jeans and a blue sweatshirt, I put on my inevitable Converse and head out of the house.

The bar where I work is just a few minutes from my house, so despite the fresh air of this quiet September morning I head to work walking.

And here I am, at the age of 25, stuck in a job I hate.

Surrounded by people I hate.

People I have know since birth.

Brookville is a small town in Indiana, with just over 2,500 people.

That means everyone know everything about everyone.

And I hate this.

Often, while I serve some slimy fifty-year-old doing the usual squalid jokes about my cleavage, I imagine myself wandering the lights on the streets of New York.

And lose myself in the enchantment of the Big Apple.

After a grueling shift I go home only to find it empty.

As I pass in the living room I notice the light on the phone flashing, I press the button to start the message and my father's scratchy voice warns me that he would not be back for dinner.

Like every day after all.

Better for me anyway, I would have taken the opportunity to take a nice warm bath.

Then grab a snack and throw my self on the bed and reread Harry Potter for the thousandth time.

God how I love this saga!

After reading only twenty pages, perhaps thanks to the hot bath, I feel my eyelids get heavy.

Unlike other nights I feel my heart begin to beat madly and despite my eyes are closed I can perceive a blue glow.

And finally sleep took over my mind.

What I still didn't know was that this night would change my life forever.

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[ramonag-if]

Hi!! How are you?✨I've finished the new chapter and I really loved it😍😍 But damn was it a punch in the gut, a slap in the face and a kick on the shin all at once😭 (venting ahead 👇😅😳)

When we rescued the prisoners and I read that that woman was actually our mum I literally started crying, I was so happy that after all this time we finally knew if she was alive or not... And then she tells us she has a new family?? That really hurt A LOT! My MC tries to always be optimistic, to look at the positive things in what is happening, but this time I really couldn't make one of these choices... There was the possibility to be happy to have a sibling, but really how can you be happy when you realize that after you thought she was keeping distance because it was dangerous for us, she was actually being all happy, with a new life and a new child like nothing happened?

I don't think she forgot about us, but she really just left whit Ahlf and then disappeared! We thought she was dead!! I don't know if MC will be able to forgive her, it is a difficult decision... On one end, my betrayed MC thinks that he lived all this time without her, so he will be able to continue to do so again; on the other, he has another possibility at knowing his mother... Now he only has to understand if it will be worth all the suffering he went through.

Sorry for all this venting, but on a happier note... 😂 Rana is a sweetheart, so precious 🥹 She even blushed in front of Irus and my MC was "Yes little one, I completely understand"😳😂 If there will be the chance to be a good big brother for her without interacting with mum too much, that's what MC will do❤️❤️ And actually fun fact: every time she came up in the narration I wanted to facepalm so bad, because I'm Italian and Rana actually means "frog"... So yeah, poor girl 😂😂😂❤️

Anyway, I'll stop here because otherwise I'll write too much😂 Thank you for your hard work and all the feelings and emotions you made us feel❤️❤️ Have a good day/night!!

I am doing well, thank you for asking 😊

Ah yes, the whole prison break led to an almost happy reunion 👀 Originally, Salyra was going to have been imprisoned for years with no new family, but that didn't fit in as much with the plot so I changed it a bit.

It's going to be up to players on how to respond to Salyra, the type of relationship you'll want with her going forward. Personally, I'm more invested in the distancing/angsty routes than with the reunion route because sappy forgiveness is a little boring to write 😅

Rana is quite adorable 😆 She'll be a little hesitant at first, but she'll come around to enjoy being around the MC if they're willing to become closer. Frog seems fitting for her character too since she's quite small for her age 😅

Thank you so much for playing and for being so supportive 💖

[33max]

Hello Lu! I've being very busy lately so I couldn't leave a comment about anything, but I have so much to say. First of all, the last update of TD was absolutely what I wanted to read. Actually, you know what? I'll read it again and then I'll come back here with that.

Moving on, I really love how much you invest in the prompts. I just read that you would like to do an outsider point of view with Michael and I'M THRIVING. If you decide to do it I'll be very happy.

Also, that little part with Dan bringing Max to his farm, removing dirt and just being happy and free there..melts my heart. In one of your fics you mentioned that Daniel brought like a...I forgot what is called in english, that thing whit sand where little kids play. Will Daniel eventually buy some kind of playground to the farm so little Max can play? Maybe something designed for adults, you know, tough. Or maybe a balls pit!

Anyway, I'll go read again and come back for more. I hope you're enjoying your end of the week! ♥️

Hi lovely, thank you so much for this message, it means the world to me! Sorry it took me a while to respond!

Yes I have mentioned before that Dan buys him a sand pit and they get sand all over the apartment in Monaco. They also have a ball pit there! But yes, I think he would absolutely start thinking of things he could build on the farm in Australia for Max!

Daniel and Michael build a jungle gym, it's just something simple, but it's in the shape of a pirate ship and Max absolutely loves it. Of course Daniel lets his niece and nephew play on it when they’re around too, so most people assume he's built it for them, only Michael and Max know the truth.

Also, I think when they're in Australia and they have all that outdoor space they do things like treasure hunts and digging for dinosaur bones. Sometimes Daniel buries fake fossils in the ground for Max to find and it's always very exciting when he does.

You know what else I think Max would love? Bubbles. Daniel absolutely has bubble guns that they can play with and when they get them out Max’s smile is blinding and his giggle is contagious! ♥️

[lachrimae-verae]

So I was scrolling through tiktok and I saw a video by the tiktoker Dylan Mulvaney, who, if you don't know who she is, she's a white trans woman who has made quite the successful brand around documenting her transition. She's well known for her daily "Day X of Being a Girl" videos. I think she's a genius for this honestly. She's doing a lot of work making transness approachable for cishets and has been very responsive to answering questions and I'm glad she's using her whiteness for that. I'm glad she's using the privilege and platform she has, truly.

But today I saw a video of her (bc she's an actor) singing Reflection from Mulan, and it was an immediate turn off for me. I closed the app and was feeling quite the mix of rage and frustration. On one hand, to me the song is very much about not feeling female or feminine as a person raised as a woman, but after thinking I can see where a trans woman would also feel kinship with the lyrics.

But the bigger part of my frustration was that Dylan is white. She is a white woman with a large platform singing a song that is from such an iconic asian character. Especially now, when asian americans are still facing so much violence and dehumanization from white americans, now is not the time to divorce Mulan from the fact that she is Chinese. Yes, I know the movie is very far removed for the actual story, yes I know that disney sucks in so many ways and I know I've been vocal about that in the past.

Here's the thing. As a child of the 90s Mulan was it for me in terms of pop culture. Strangers would call me one of two things back then, Mulan or Madama Butterfly. I don't need to tell you why thats fucked up, but I will say that having been a victim of sexual assault as a child and turning around and being compared to a woman who has become the epitome of American idolization and objectivation of asian bodies really didn't help.

Mulan was it for me. I like many felt a connection to her I couldn't explain in words. As an adult realizing that I'm trans, it was inextricably linked with how my family would see it, see me.

So when I say that I'm angry that Dylan covered the song, I mean that there was so little for people like me. The millenials and early gen z trans asian kids. We had Mulan, and its so frustrating seeing white creators cover her without a thought and be celebrated for their "vision". I'm tired of whit people seeing asian as approximate to white, because we have always been treated as "badically white" when convenient and "no better than uneducated dirty dog eaters" or worse the rest of the time.

I'd love to actually comment on Dylan's video because I think she'd probably be willing to have the conversation, but I think her fans would absolutely dogpile me first, and I don't want to go through that bullshit

[1moreff-creator]

#WHY IS THERE ANOTHER NONSENSICAL CHARACTER ORDER.#I ALREADY PULLED CHARACTER CREATION ORDER OUT OF THIN AIR I GOT NOTHING HERE (<- prev tags)

Alright before you freak out I don't think this order is as nonsensical as the cast list lol. I think it's just to build a narrative when you read the quotes in order, so I hope you don't mind if I ramble about it a bit because I love being a nerd about writing and DRDT!

So you start with Teruko because:

Teruko: Some years ago, she was searching for someone named ‘Teruko Tawaki.’

It's the one line that talks about Mai's past, and also you want to inflict as much psychological damage as early as possible!

This line haunts me.

But also protag privilege. Of course she's first.

After that, you have a bunch of quotes that establish who Mai is as a person, an introduction basically.

Charles: A girl who loves her family. Rose: She remembers everything that is important to others. Arturo: A girl who sees the beauty in everyone. Levi: A girl with a floral tattoo on her arm.

The exact order is probably unimportant, but it's nice the recap duos of Charles & Teruko and Levi & Arturo stick together, as well as the Memory Duo of Charles and Rose.

From there you have a few lines explaining her relationship with the rest of the cast.

Whit: A girl with many friends.

Here's the man of the hour, establishing first and foremost that Mai had friends, which works as a set up for the following lines:

Eden: She kept calling the number, even though no one picked it up. J: She kept it a secret, and told no one. Hu: A girl who wanted to keep everyone safe. Nico: Everyone confided in her.

Eden's line is still as confusing as ever-

what the fuck does that mean eden please i am begging you on my hands and knees what the fuck are you talking about

-but it can be read as "she's very patient with her friends." J and Nico bring up her tendency to keep secrets, and Hu establishes she wanted to keep everyone safe. You might notice they're starting to get a bit more ominous as they go on, starting to talk in the past tense. Building up to:

Ace: A girl who had a bright future.

Apart from the recap duo of Nico & Ace staying together, we reach the point where we start seeing something went deeply wrong. We started with one line about her past, then moved on to talking about how she was during Hope's Peak time, and now in theory we talk about what happens in the last stage of her life (not confirmed dead but come on).

Arei: She doesn’t like it when her friends fight. Min: An average girl with nothing special at all about her. Xander: She couldn’t stand to do nothing. Veronika: A girl who didn’t foresee the consequences.

I say we talk about her last moments in theory because Arei's and Min's placements have always confused me a bit. Xander is very clearly talking about whatever he and Mai were doing together, and Veronika can thus be inferred to be talking about the consequences of said thing. So are Arei's and Min's lines also related?

I've always had the mini-theory that Min pushed against the HPA Operation Xander and Mai had going on, and that's why she seems so insistent Mai didn't have anything special at all about her. She angy at her girlfriend. If that's the case, then Arei is referencing Min and Mai/Xander's disagreement on this. Also Min & Xander recap duo.

But again, that's a pretty out there theory based on very little except this, and my hope that we'll get a flashback at the end which will heavily feature Min. Please?

In any case, this all leads to the climax:

David: She forgives everyone. MonoTV: It’s all your fault.

Naturally Protag Foilman David gets to be the last of the participants, opposite of Teruko and giving out a horrendously ominous line given the placement. The idea that Mai forgives everyone also serves as nice contrast to MonoTV blaming Teruko someone for Mai's death something.

Hope that made some sense! I've wanted to ramble about that for a while now, you just gave me an excuse lol.

Okay I noticed this recently and it's been bugging me. It's nothing important, but it's slightly inconveniencing me.

So you know the list of favorite and least favorite colors the dev gave us in the latest Q&A?

(Order: Teruko - Charles - Whit - Rose - Arturo - Levi - Eden - J - Hu - Nico - Ace - Arei - Min - Xander - Veronika - David)

Well, turns out the characters are actually listed in the order their quotes appear in the source code of Mai's page (and allow me to momentarily ignore the implication that this order has not been forgotten and is therefore important to an extent):

(The order I'm referring to is Teruko - Charles - Rose - Arturo - Levi - Whit - Eden - J - Hu - Nico - Ace - Arei - Min - Xander - Veronika - David - MonoTV)

Except, for some ungodly reason, Whit. Who has moved from in between Levi and Eden, all the way to right after Charles.

Why? Why would dev do this? To annoy me, personally?

Am I supposed to assume Whit has the power to change text from beyond the fourth wall, and he uses this universe-shattering power just so his name can be closer to Charles? Cause he likes him? Is this the power of the Ultimate Matchmaker at play? Is he a Monika DDLC kinnie? What is this?

This also happens for the ice cream flavors btw, except here Ace is also somewhere else. But at least he has the excuse that he didn't say an ice cream, so it's at the bottom for comedic effect.

This implies the Mai Akasaki order can be broken for at least two reasons:

To further the Charwhit agenda.

To dunk on Ace Markey.

Why though.

[padfoot-and-prongsie]

Heyyy!! Congratulations for this milestone 🥳 You deserve it and I'm really happy for you ❤️

If you don't mind, can I request a personal head cannon with Sirius Black? I'm petite (she) with waist long black hair, ENTJ on a good day and def INTJ most of the time 😂 I've been told on multiple occasions to stop scaring people (even without meaning to) with my ability to sneak up on them especially with silent footsteps. Also am a Slytherin ❤️ If it's not a bother. Thank you 😊 And again congratulations 💖

Thank you so much for participating! Enjoy ❤️

Your whit definitely had Sirius interested in you, but it wasn't tell you caught him working on a prank against your Slytherin house and out right told him he was "doing the spell all wrong, try this instead" that he fell head over heels

You do partially regret telling him this when your robes, along with the rest of your houses, transfigured into muggle Halloween costumes (yours was two sizes to small)

You tried to hide it, but you found his charm rather endearing, especially when he declared that he "owed you one for your help on the prank"

Sirius tried to pay you back with candy, flowers, and cute compliments

You finally told him that the only why for him to get out of dept was to take you on a date. Not even your fueding houses could keep him from saying no

He LOVES making short person jokes about you, especially when you turn around to scold him and he has no choice but to kiss you until you forgive him

Sirius finds it amusing that so many first years are dead terrified of you. He may or may not have made that worse by telling them you were secretly a banshee who feasted on little children and that you could only be warded off with offerings of licorice wands

You were extremely confused why, for the next week, first years kept hurriedly handing you licorice wands and running away

Sirius very much enjoyed said licorice wands

You definitely have snuck up on him more then once just to get a kick out of it

Sirius of course has tried to get you right back, but you only pretend to be scared -he walks like an elephant

Sirius loves to play with your hair

He even taught himself how to braid one summer

You always tell him how wonderful his braids turn out, though in reality they are absolutely pitiful

One time he even wanted to style your hair for a weekend into Hogsmead (you had to redo it before you left the school) and Sirius proudly showed his work off to his friends

He was so happy that you never had the heart to tell him that you had redone your hair

[00katrinka00]

Landcaster Legacy Gen 6 Update #14

While Mads was making breakfast, Jackie came into the kitchen and sat down. "Hey, I wanted to talk to you," Jackie said.

"About what?"

"I wanted to ask Mikayla to move in after the term was over," Jackie explained.

"What" Mads exclaimed just as the pan burst into flames.

Mads quickly pounded the fire out. "We've been together for a while now, and I want to take the next step and move in with her," Jackie explained.

"I'm happy you're happy, and I think that's great for the both of you..."

"I have a feeling there's going to be a but," Jackie said.

"I just don't want to be a third wheel around the apartment," Mads admitted. "I definitely think you should ask her to move in, but I think if that's the case then I should move out."

"Are you sure?" Jackie asked. "This is a two-bedroom apartment."

"I'm sure."

"Well maybe you could talk to Ethan during your date tonight, who knows maybe you could move in with him," Jackie suggested.

"We just started dating not too long ago," Mads reminded her.

"But you two have been friends for like three years now so it's not like he's a stranger."

Later that night Ethan greeted Mads with a hug. "I've been looking forward to this all day," Ethan told her.

"Me too," Mads smiled before pulling him in for a kiss.

Mads thought about her conversation with Jackie that morning, "There's some things I wanted to talk to you about," Mads told him.

"That doesn't sound good," Ethan let out a nervous laugh.

"Nothing bad, I swear," Mads assured him.

"So, Jackie is going to have Mikayla move in and I don't want to be a third wheel all the time, and I also want them to have their own privacy. I know we just recently started dating, so this might be too soon, basically I wanted to know if you'd want to move in together?"

"Really?" Ethan exclaimed

"So, you don't think it's too soon?" Mads asked "Maybe a little, but we have been friends for a few years now. Although if I'm being honest, I'd love to be able to see you more," Ethan told her. Mads felt relieved she really wanted to see Ethan more too.

Mads and Ethan continued to discuss Mads' moving plans and it was decided that Mads would move in as soon as term was up. After eating Ethan decided the clean-up while Mads chose a movie to watch in the living room.

After the movie had wrapped up Mads and Ethan continued to chat on the couch. The more Mads got used to the idea of moving in with Ethan the more excited she got, and then her brother's words from the previous night crept up through her mind. "Can I tell you something?" she asked

"Of course," Ethan said. He really had no idea what Mads was about to tell him.

"I really like you, and I want you to know everything about me, even the embarrassing stuff," Mads began.

"The embarrassing stuff?"

"You know how my mom died right before I started High School?"

"It was super hard for me" Mads began to explain "I didn't really know what to do without my mom. My Dad tried to help but it was hard for him because he was dealing with his own grief. I made some friends that were a bad influence, and I did a lot of things that I'm not proud of"

"I still don't see an issue; it was a hard time in your life," Ethan assured her.

"Well, I partied a lot my freshman year. Snuck out of the house almost every night. Ike would always have to come, pick me up and drag my drunken self-back home and hope our dad didn't notice."

"Then sophomore year I started messing around with different boys a lot..." Mads paused and closed her eyes before continuing. "Junior year was when I met Whit, and he forced me to change. Made me join cheerleading pretty much so I could be his personal cheerleader"

Mads pulled away and she was filled with anger looking back at the way Whit treated her "All Whit really wanted from me was to be this perfect girlfriend and I mean it worked. I stopped partying and began to focus on grades and school but he'd always lash out is I wasn't perfect"

Now it was Ethan's turn to get angry. "Basically, I was just always changing to be who everyone else wanted me to be. It wasn't until Whit, and I broke up that I started to figure out the kind of person I wanted to be," Mads finished explaining.

Ethan pulled Mads back in. "I hope you aren't mad," she said.

"I'm not mad," Ethan said calmly. "Well not at you, at Whit. I think it's great that you wanted to share this with me."

"But do you think less of me now?"

"Never," Ethan assured her.

"I think you were mourning your mother, and you let other people pressure you into things you wouldn't have normally done," Ethan told her. "It doesn't make me think less of you, the fact that you chose to tell me all of this just makes me love you even more"

"You love me?"

Ethan hadn't realized at first what he'd said at first but when it finally registered, he said, "I do, I've had a crush on you since the day we met at that party, and every new thing I learn about you just makes me love you more and more."

"I love you too," Mads said.

After a few more hours of talking, both Mads and Ethan had realized that it was now nearly 3 in the morning. Not wanting to disturb Jackie and Mikayla, Ethan let Mads borrow some pajamas and let her spend the night. After all they would be living together in a few short days.

The following morning Mads rushed out of bed and began to panic waking Ethan up.

"What's going on?" He asked sitting up and placing his hands over his head, still clearly tired.

"It's finals day and I haven't studied yet!" Mads exclaimed in horror.

Ethan stood up and tried to calm her down. "You still have a little time before finals start, and you're so freaking smart you don't even need to study, you'll ace your exams no problem," he told Mads. It did seem to calm her down.

"Thank you," Mads leaned up to kiss him

Despite Ethan's words of reassurance, after their kiss Mads still rushed to change and run out the door in order to make it to her final on time.