#I LOVE MY OARTNER

[spookbooo]

I’ve been wearing a cloak hoodie that my partner bought me everyday since Monday and it’s so fucking comfy I don’t think I’ll be able to ever take it off (joking, I need to wash it) it’s so WARMMM

Also it has the Jersey Devil,,,,gravity falls,,,,

[keepingmyoptionsfluid]

The idea that Tommy, a closeted gay man who was desperately trying to fit in in a hyper macho and discriminatory environment, isn't allowed to have any growth from when he was over compensating and was a dick to Chim really pisses me off. He literally had canonical growth to the point he was going for drinks with Chim and Hen in Bobby Begins Again and they got him a fancy leaving cake.

Why isn't he allowed to grow and be better? Because he's white? Because he "gets in the way of buddie"? Because no one is allowed to say and change at all over a decade?

Like this is a queer fandom and I'd bet a lot of money that a ton of people in this fandom said and did things they weren't proud of when they were younger, especially before they came out so they could try and hide it.

I know this is quite a young fandom too but like, it was literally only a decade ago when "gay" was an insult at school and doing anything that could be get you accused of being gay was fucking social suicide. You guys have no idea how lucky you are that people at least get called out for that shit now cause they didn't when I was a kid. I would have done almost anything to just be ignored, let alone accepted, rather than being openly bisexual.

So yeah, I think Tommy is allowed to fucking change as a person because Bobby, Chim and Hen came into his life and allowed him to stop repressing. Stop being such fucking assholes. You aren't any better than him, and frankly the way some of you behave makes the way Tommy acted when he was first in the show look like a fucking saint. Touch some grass.

[archived-and-moving]

YOU HAD A HUSBAND?

I STILL DO

[mrghostrat]

i like the idea of writer!crowley writing a character having like a sexuality crisis realising they're bi because their enemy is the same gender as them while their oartner at home is the opposite one; meanwhile crowley is like: haha..... wait. shit? I didnt sign up for this RIGHT NOW OH GOD

mmmmm i LOVE sexuality realisations in gomens fics. but i'm gonna go ham with this in my dreamland au, so my writer!crowley is comfortably aware of his own bisexuality, and is just a slow idiot about realising his feelings for aziraphale 🥰

[my-castles-crumbling]

okay so hi..

um ive seen people do this so ig im going to as well.

basically i and my gf (she/her) have been in a relationship for nearly 6 months (6 in two weeks). we're both 19.

we met through my bsf and her bsf dating and now we are (i had the biggest crush on her but genuinely didnt think she'd give me a chance).

ive had pretty bad luck in relationships before and they never lasted more than 3 or 4 months mainly due to the fact that im asexual and btoh previous oartners just assumed they could change me (???) but she genuinely understood and went out of her way to make me comfortable and make it known that nothing will be demanded of me more than that which i can give.

from the beginning of the relationship, ive made some rules very clear which are like my no nonsense ones, like i wont tolerate them usually at all.

one of them being not making me purposefully uncomfortable and the main big one is not yelling/shouting, especially at me. (i have past trauma from my parents and it has in the oast made me shut down completely for days at a time, only getting up to feed my cat)

on one of our beginning dates i mentioned this really nice and sorta expensive restaurant that ive always wanted to try but reservations are really hard to get.

she joked saying that oh id love to go with hou ehicb i laughed at but was mildly excited about.

so i got the reservation for yesterday, i made the reservation for two.

last month i told my girlfriend that i have finally got the reservation and would like to go with her, told her the dates and time and everything and she seemed genuinely excited to go with me.

now last week i confirmed her availability again, and asked her what colored dress she was wearing so i could match it with my clothes and we decided on a color etc and also to get ready at my place because her bsf has their family over so shes will be staying with me for 2 weeks.

now, yesterday, after i was done with my work i went to the living room just to well see her and hug her cz i missed her a bit since i hadnt really seen her in about 5 hours (i was working). when i knocked at her door, she opened it and was ready with a dress (not the color we agreed on), her purse laying in the background as she greeted me with a big smile and kiss (on the cheek).

i asked her isnt she ready a bit early and she just looked at me confusedly and said no i hve to meet R (her friend) at 4:30 so im just on time.

i asked why and where she's going just to know if she'd be back and she said that theyre going to the mall and then to the movies because R is leaving in 3 days to go on vacation so they want to spend some time togetehr.

i smiled and wished her luck, i thiught that maybe i got the day wrong but i hadnt and i was actually really sad because all my life, everyone in my family would repeatedly just forget about my plans and my shit for others' and she knew abt that.

but anyways, so i decided to still go and i took this really lovely lady, who's homeless but i buy her a meal everyday and take her out to lunch once a week. (shes like in her 30s btw)

we had a lovely time and the food was divine, i even helped the lady get ready in a changing room.

but anyways on my way home i realised i had 3 missed calls from my girlfriend and a text that just said.

we need to talk as soon as you get home.

the moment j entered my apartment, she just started to yell at me about how much of a piece of shit i am, how people forget and its not a big deal, how im an arse, how not everything is supposed to be about me, and could i possibly imagine how she felt coming back to an empty apartment, she thought something had happened to me.

that is not the order she sais everything in but someway through my breathing started to get extraordinarily fast and i coukd feel my vision getting blurry.

i said sorry to her, or i think(?) i cant really remember stuff when i get panic attacks like this. i took my cat and went to my room.

it took quite a while for my cat to calm me down bur she was able to in the end.

this morning, i made breakfast for her and since i have today off from uni i decided to go to my job (i work part-time remote but can come and go to the iffice if i wish)

its my break rn and im thinking about it, maybe it wasnt a big deal? maybe i should have reminded her again but like idk it was a pretty big thing for me.

i feel bad, i feel like i made a mountain out if a molehill and shouldve just apologised properly and explained to her that its okay and that it wasnt that big of a deal.

i dont knwo?

i wanted some advice because i truly feel very strongly for her and shes the only relationship ive had in which i feel valued and had zero self doubt (up until yesterday)

im sorry it was so long, and thank you for your help.

Hi!!

Okay so...this is hard because, I don't know if either of you are to blame, here. Your girlfriend wasn't great for forgetting, but then I was wondering why you didn't say anything? But then she was shit for yelling later....

I'm wondering if this is the first time this has happened? It sounds like a lack of communication, you know? I think you guys really need to sit down and discuss how you were both feeling. But if this becomes a pattern, especially your girlfriend yelling, I would think more about the relationship.

Keep me updated! I'm naming you orange anon.

[lillianforest22]

My favorite gillion fics after having a meltdown and feeling like shit all day

Gillion Dries Up (And Hates It) by gillba

Autistic gillion get overstimulated after being on land to long and has a meltdown Jay and Chip comfort him and end in fluffy platonic cuddles

I love you so much but not that way by StabOsins4

An ace fic written from gillion pov. Poly albatrio. Gillion coming to terms with the fact that he hates sex and that he still loves and find his oartner beautiful but it’s not for him. It Segrstive and mention having sex aswell as a few make our scene but and gillion has a panic attack but it is an amazing asexual fic

they’ll tell you this is normal (they’ll tell you this is love) by neutrallyrics or @sunsquire on tumblr

Is an aro4aro fishnchips. Loved the qpr rep. And the aro chip. Super wholesome and as someone who’s been in a similar situation of how to I explained how I feel when it’s not romantic but just as strong it felt so similar. Also they them gillion.

About that first kiss… by PeriPerson

Aroace gillion but gillion open to qrp. Short sweet wholesome. Chip is drunk gillion super chill

(My best friend sent me this one after I sent them the early aroace one)

What Do Best Friends Do by HubbleSpaceMission

Aroace gillion and autistic Caspian talk about there relationship and how not everyone wants romance. They cuddle and kiss a few times. Caspian a striggkes with eye Contanct and they both have a few sensory issues

(Another in sent by my friend)

Important to me. By ray_loves

Autistic gillion has a bad day and get over stimulated Caspian helps gillion regulate ends with platonic cuddles

(Last one sent by my friend and last fic for the night)

[knifepeace]

love my oartners so much. lights of my life best people on earth they make everything worth it ..i hope they know i would give anything for them inhope they know i love them

[hunny-lemmonn]

Day 28: Alt Fashion (Morei Kei)

Finally a piece on time. Here’s Fluttershy. Shes so pretty <333 heavy inspo from my oartner so she’s also celtic pagan teehee i love flutters.

[etchina-danjon]

(Uzumaki Breeding Program) "Alright Miss Kushina all you need to do is sign this waver and we can begin with the program. After you sign it you are to head to the designated warehouse where you prepare yourself as we discussed and wait for your partner to arrive." States one of the ninja assigned to give this sort of "special" mission to Kushina, of course it was more of a project they asked her to volunteer for, but still it was supposed to be for the purposes of rebuilding the clan she belonged to. Though there was a surprise that was in store for her when her oartner would arrive. Still they just wanted the paperwork to be finalized to show she accepted the terms and conditions. Though the form also had a secondary purpose that they neglected to inform her about. She would find out eventually though should certain conditions are met.

Even though Kushina was volunteering to do this, she was still a tad nervous. She's only had one lover, which was her husband that passed away. They had a single son together that she raised and loved. But she knew her clan was dying out and there were a limited amount of women that could donate their body to this. So she felt like it was her duty to go through with it. She was still young, healthy, and plenty fertile to have more children and honestly, she's been having a bit of baby fever lately.

Shaking off her nerves, she grasped the pen and signed the papers. Only slightly glancing at what they said. Kushina really should have read those papers, "Right, everything has been signed. I will head to my room now." She looked at the paper she was given that had the number of the warehouse on it and headed in that direction. The whole time she was wondering what doing this was going to be like. Who she was going to be paired with. Kushina felt a mix of excitement and nervousness as she approached the building.

Once she got there she opened it up. It had many different supplies. She was told to take the fertility pills on the table first, which she did. They left water for her. The pills would cause her to ovulate, and grow hot. Aid her in getting wet for the process. Then she walked over to the chains dangling in the center of the room. She didn't understand why this was required but she followed the rules.

Kushina got on her knees and reached up, clipping and locking both cuffs around her wrists. They forced her in an upright position where all her holes were easy access. Once the cuffs were locked in place, they couldn't be removed until someone with a key came to free her. While she nervously waited for her partner the drugs took effect. Her face flushed, her slit grew wet. Her womb burned with emptiness. Kushina felt so hot she was starting to get impatient.

[koskela-knights]

hiiiii i got some ilmo headcanons !!! just sfw tho maybe ill share nsfw ones later when i stop feeling embarrassed 😔🤚

when he sees his oartner he calls out "sweetheart" and smiles so wide his eyes almost disappear (it sounds more like swithahrt but its so cute to think about kshdksjsks)

defo the type to make u his armrest if ur shorter than him

he snores thunderously and wakes himself up when napping (often in unconventional places)

he keeps a notebook and pen at his person AT ALL TIMES (never know if he'll have a great idea)

probably uses a brick phone 😭

isnt a big fan of PDA but will giv u a quick smooch wherever he can reach first on ur face

LOVES crowds and public speaking but it makes it feel all the more special when he drops his customer service voice and has eyes only for you. It's on the verge of overbearingly intense especially after the cult nights.

waaaaaa that's all for now im afraid this is so long already haha hope you have a great day!!

Hiii! Thank you for sharing your Ilmo HCs 🥰🥰🥰 Sljfdksjfdls These r great <33 (mentally adds them to my list)

I can imagine most of these vividly <33

Ilmo calling his partner sweetheart is <33 Yes. RIP if they're smaller than him xD (though I would definitely let him use me as an armrest lol)

Pff, the snoring HC is kinda adorable haha. With all the work he does, I HC he will often pass out from exhaustion 😅 so Yup, unconventional places.

Oh, yeah I also feel he uses a brick phone, similar to Jaakko (or at least it seems he is using one of those work phones that could probably be thrown in the water and still work after :D)

Looking at in-game Ilmo stuff, it wouldn't surprise me if he carries a notebook and pen with him all the time. I can also imagine him sticking the pen behind his ear, just becos it's an Image 👀 (everyone, consider Ilmo with glasses)

Aaaa, I'm living for Ilmo giving you quick smooches >w< jdlksjfs He probably gets a bit flustered from it to (have u seen how red his ears are in-game????)

👀👀Ilmo dropping his customer service voice hahah, yeah I get what u mean 👀🙏🏽 The cult nights must be emotionally intense, it might feel as a live or death situation each time so the emotions certainly run high T_T

You have a great day too! 💜💜💜

Additionally: you (and others!) can always send in NSFW HCs or rambles! Anon or not, doesn't matter ;) This blog is thirstposting like only 24/7 so 😅

[taintedtort]

oooohhh~ myyyy~ i dont even one to ask it, but characters reaction on older sibling is just so damn good. absolutely sweetest parts are Xiao's ofc and Kazuha's.boy can u imagine this reliefed sigh adeptus would let out when readers sib finally starts coming around?but another thing, how fun it would be since someone for a change felt brave enough to bully damn yaksha???id imagin3 Xiao's face at their first interaction would be priceless.("if i thought that y/n was strange human, her sibling is even more so" kind of tjoughts id imagine). Poor man would probably be so so surprised someone dared to act so harsh around an immortal being..oh well, at least they are not afraid of him, thats probably for the better.and damn u showed Xiao so cute like this, being happy his partners sib finally stops being such a meanie and now he can breath freely..

Kazuha is so sweet trying to win this person over with his natural calm friendly nature and poetic charms.how sweet of him to try and keep being nice even tho readers sib obviously acted unreasonably rude.true sweatheart.and Wanderer,im always happy when authors do not bend characters just for the sake of the sorry, i always feel like saying thank you honestly.because yes, there is no way Wanderer would just play a role (at least not after it doesnt work first time) and be sweet to obviously just as annoyed sibling of readers.he would treat them the same way they treat him, but still he loves his oartner and tries to uphold facade along with the sib as long as it needed.and ofc i love that u showed that Wanderer still not just illogicaly rude, he just blant and perfectly capable to hold a normal conversation.as long as other dont gets on his nerves so much..

Childe probably would be the fastest to actually bond with readers sibling, i agree with your vision on him.i mean, two grown ups gushing about their orecious sibs.tho i still think Ajax would act cautious not to anger the sib, since how dare he touch u too much when they re around?the audacity..noone wants sweet relationship they were building so hard to blow up again.

aand~ im happy u enjoy my feedback!u certainly deserve it, i adore reading your works even when i dont make a request.but honestly i get so exited when i see you post my requests.i hope ill find more ideas to send them to you again.

(btw if you dont mind im curious, how did you call your Wanderer in the game?do u prefer Kabukimono, Scara or Wanderer?aaand do you feel like ever writing for Kabukimono, Wanderers old innocent self, in platonic way ofc?)

- 🦊 anon.

OMG 🦊 ANON THIS IS SO LONG HAHA (not negative, i don’t mind it i think it’s funny)

you’re the sweetest istg 😭🫶🫶 i’ll be honest i wrote the older sibling thing when i was half delirious so i don’t even remember what it was about, BUT IM GLAD IT WAS ENJOYABLE EVEN THO I WAS SO HAZY WHILE WRITING (i didn’t even remember writing childe until you mentioned him)

to answer your questions, i did not get wanderer in game bcus the devil overtook me and i pulled for childe, didn’t have enough wishes for my babygirl.

overall i prefer wanderer i think, especially for writing purposes. i reallyyyy like character development as well, so wanderer is top for me. however, i still call him scara regardless because that’s just his name in my head yk??

i also know little to nothing about kabukimono because i don’t pay attention to lore, i’m so sorry i have terrible memory (i also never do quests if i’m being honest) so i wouldn’t know HOW to write about him, so probably not just bcus it wouldn’t be accurate 🤷‍♀️ (im not up to date on scara stuff AT ALL. literally everything i write about wanderer is purely knowledge from other fics i’ve read)

[pointplumz]

heheheheh!!!! mynot partner is now my oartner!!!!!! i love him sm

[c4tmilk]

i love my oartner so so so much they make me so happy

[think-it-through]

i dont like to talk of others than myself on the internet so ill keep the side of my oartner as inaccurate as i can while still expressing myself on this matter.

but. i have anxiety right? and ive dated someone for a long time. and yet there are little to no complaints little to no instructions. in some ways, yes its great. and beautiful and why cant i just accept that? do i belive i cannot have a happy relationship? no i do, i can and deserve one. i just don't believe its real, not like this. so im constantly trying to do my best and prevent ever hurting them or neglecting their needs by mistake and at the same time constantly trying to brace myself for the moment it does happen. the moment they break and tell me they think i am bad for them and toxic and incompatible and this is not working. and this part obviously comes from some part of me, not them. probably some sort of result from the conditionality of the love i experienced before this, its just so hard to believe someone would love me without conditions, conditions that, as an imperfect human i will ofc, predictably so, never meet or fail to meet at one point or something alone those lines.

and yet. the other side of things is just. how little i feel like i know about their mind and boundaries? in this relationship, as a sensitive person, that is also conflict averse i do my bestest to explain my emotional needs and thought processes, preventively or in case something already did hurt me or affect me somehow. part of this is to avoid conflict but a big part of it is also to avoid being misunderstood, my behaviour slipping and reflecting my regative, hurt, petty emotions and then, worst case scenario in my head, hurt my partner. so im constantly explaining myself, constantly asking for what i need or saying how i feel in detail, when i am asked and ready to do so. to be clear, this is all intented as a means of being understood, bringing security into the relationship, i try my best to deal with my emotions and not make it seem like i am bestowing them onto my partner to be responsible of.

but, as someone like that, it is so hard for me to take, to believe, to accept, the lack of boundaries and communication about any hurt they ever felt in this relationship. there have been sometimes where they did talk of something, but its less than i can count on one hand and it was usually brief and momentarily, rarely resurfacing or anything in the likes of that.

ive discussed these worries with them and they always simply say im a good partner and they genuinely dont have anything more in their head that they are hiding or anything lile that.

but, in a different context they have also mentioned a fear of intimacy which would explain this. and also a tendency to deal w every struggle by themselves or at least the emotional type.

and at least twice they have admitted to going through more emotionally than they let on(during a situation i notice they act unusual and then a few days later after i worry about it, maybe they admit to it)

so im at a point of.. do i bring this up again for the 19th time and force this person to open up and let me into their emotional life? or, to put it much less harshly, do i insist that i want (and frankly, to deepen our connection i need) our relationship to be a space for visiting each others minds, being emotionally vulnerable, maximising emotional and physical comfort to each other around each other, authenticity, a space so comfortable neither of us think twice before simply saying whats on their minds, before simply being, simply existing in each others presence. i want it to have the nature of full authenticity and comfort in that sense but also discomfort as in healthy, growing, discomfort, such as emotional vulnerability and open honest disagreement and genuine interest in listening and understanding each other and our differences (something i have experienced with few close friends already. so i know it is possible. it sounds romanticised when put into words like this but all in all, i just wanna be completely honest and completely be ourselves around each other man. if we re not then are we really in love, are we really friends. are we really connecting.

orr, the other option that i have been trying to take and failing is. trusting that they are in fact, already doing everything they said above and there is no other hidden layer. and they are just much more simple in their thinking and much more secure and stable in their emotions, so ofc, to someone like me, who has to constantly manage the wave of my emotions, it seems unusual but in fact, it is just another way of being? but, also, knowing my partner, they are not a neurotypical, anxiety/emotion free person either. so. but then again, i am an anxious person. its hard for me to admit self diagnosis wise but i really believe i have some type of anxiety disorder. and the opposite of anxiety iss trust, something i am trying to practice more, so perhaps for my growth, i should try to continue with this route thst has not helped me so much, trust.

well, i did try both routes and neither was satisfactory. 1. sure i can ask but if my partner doesnt want to share or believe there even is smth there to share, i just get nothing.

2. i trust and it might be okay for a while, but i feel part of our connection is lacking, and also the fact is imminent, that a situation will happen, some sort of moment, and i will sense an emotion or boundary or even just thought or opinon unmentioned by them and i will go insane once again,over everything i just wrote down.

welll i might jst try to bring this up as philosophically as i wrote it here and discuss it for fun w them and see what happens.

but also, why am i so obsessed with knowing everything in this persons mind(cough cough love i guess??) they deserve their privacy but i also deserve a relationship connection that is emotionally satisfactory and mutual, not just on my end.

i dont know. i dont know anything. but ik one thing.

i love this person and, only and only in a way healthy and nurturing for us both and our growth, i want to make this work.

[azlovesem]

Now i have to make nice vomments to girls to get rid of these bastsrds. Me n my oartner wed have a line of qts going from after hours to our lil srt gslkery sfter after hours smd id have to stop a fee guys a lot. Yo uiu aint comin. Or Jay the Jew crook gamgster would jusr say girls only dont gollow in a cab. Id make sure no one gollowed if they fid Sabrina it eoukdnt be good gor them. They mnew it though. The msin trason was safety. Nooo because we love cute qylts is the msin reason. But girls generally wont rob you once uoure really wasted. They just aanna have free fun. Once bsck at the gallery no more ssles i just bresk it out. Here ya go here ya go. Thry never took too much but it was free. Mist of them einderful toronto qts. Never a problem. Jsy eould just fonway yoo much coke and wed sll lsugh st him.

SABRINA CARPENTER via Instagram stories (November 13, 2024)

[maraczeks]

newsroom rw thread pt 7