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Little Darling
Epilogue
It's 1997, and Elvis is still alive and well. He quit music in 1972 after a successful world tour, and now he runs Presley Studios - teaching people karate across America. His daughter and grandchildren are regular visitors at Graceland, and when heâs in Memphis he likes to do a little teaching. His life is quieter now, though. Most of the Mafia have gone - going to live their own lives - and after his divorce from his second wife, Elvis is sworn off women for good. Will a Welsh girl with a wicked sense of humour be the one to make him break his promise to himself not to fall in love again?
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Pairing: Old Man!Elvis x OC - Tegan, a Welsh girl he meets at karate.
Word count: 1.3K
TWs: Just a little dirty talk really.
A/N: Well, this is the end! Thanks to everyone who has interacted with this fic - it was a labour of love and I have cherished every single comment, reblog and message đ
When Tegan wakes the next morning she feels the events of the night before in her body before she remembers them. As they start to come back to her, slowly at first and then more and more rapidly she feels a smile spreading across her face. Sheâd enjoyed last night. A lot. She rolls over to find Elvis already sat up in bed, reading. Groaning and stretching, she tries to wake herself up properly. Itâd been really late when Jerry had finally left their bed for his own; theyâd spent hours talking together about all sorts of things.Â
âMorninâ sunshine.â
Elvis closes the book and puts it down on the bedside table, looking at his girlfriend as she peers back through half-open eyes.Â
âMmmm. âRaur.â
âHow ya feelinâ?â
She closes one eye and squints at him through the other. âThoroughly fucked.â
That earns her a belly laugh, one of her absolute favourite Elvis reactions. âWell thatâs coz ya were, baby.â
She closes both eyes and puts her face in her hands, giggling. âI loved it,â she admits, still hiding.Â
âHmmm. Well it was a damn good Christmas gift, considerinâ ya didnât even know Jerry was cominâ until the night before.â
She looks up, cautiously. âYou think Iâm a slut, for doing that? I only just met the guyâŠâ
Elvis shakes his head, leaning down to kiss the top of hers. âBaby, I used ta fuck a different girl every night on some tours. Met âem, liked âem, made âem cum. Plus I know ya only jusâ met âim, but Jerryâs been my best friend fer years.â
Tegan thinks about this as she slowly sits up. âYou ever do this with Stella?â
He blinks in surprise. âUh⊠no.â
âOh.â
âI uh⊠she wanted the picket fence life.â
She shifts to lean against him. âWhat kind of life do you want?â
âOne with you in it, honey.â
She smiles against his pyjama top. âMe too.â
âBut, uh, not one with Jerry⊠yâknowâŠâ
âIâm not sure I do know.â
Elvis sighs. âYer makinâ me say it, again.â
âI mean, last night you told me you and Jerry used to take it in turns to fuck women you met on tour. And now youâre going all shy again?â
âI was a little drunk last night, darlinâ.â
Tegan looks up at his face from her position with her head against his shoulder. âWhatâre you trying to say, âraur? Spit it out.â
Another deep sigh. âLast night was fun. But I donât want Jerry as a permanent fixture in our bedroom.â
Tegan raises an eyebrow.Â
âI donât want him fuckinâ ya all the time!â Elvis snaps, exasperated. âYer mine. I donât mind if he borrows ya, under supervision⊠on special occasions yâknow. But notâŠâ he sighs again and waves a finger around in a circle. âThis⊠ainât a thing.â
Tegan smiles at his possessiveness. She feels like she ought to be offended by him talking about her like sheâs a rare library book, but instead it makes her feel all warm inside.Â
âI enjoyed last night a lot,â she begins, wrapping her arm around him. âIâm glad we did it. And if you and Jerry want to do it again before he leaves, then Iâd be down. But I donât want anything more than that. One boyfriend is enough.â
Itâs Elvisâ turn to raise an eyebrow. âYa wanna do it again?â
She giggles into his shoulder. âMmm. Yeah.â
âWell, weâll see about that, little girlâŠâ
***
Elvis, Tegan and Jerry have fun together again more than once, but after Elvisâ massive New Yearâs Eve party Jerry goes back to LA, and although they both miss him theyâre glad to be back to just the two of them for a while. They get professional photos taken of the two of them with Coffi, and the best one - where they have forgotten the camera and are just staring into one anotherâs eyes, giggling over some shared joke or other - hangs with the other family shots on the wall in the living room of Graceland. They share their time between the mansion and the apartment, and despite Elvisâ best attempts to persuade her to give it up, Tegan continues working at the recording studio, though she drops down to three days a week as a compromise. She finally takes her grading seriously, and by the end of the year sheâs a purple belt. Elvis is proud of her, but he still thinks she could practise more at home.Â
He travels less for work now, feeling content staying in Memphis for months at a time. There are still times when he has to pay one of the studios on the other side of the country a visit, and Tegan canât always take time off work to go with him. He misses her like crazy, but sheâs secretly a little relieved to have time to herself, though of course she doesnât tell him that.Â
One day after a trip to Kansas, he presents her with a big box with a pink bow on the outside.Â
âJusâ somethinâ for ya for next time Iâm away.â
Teganâs mind boggles at the possibilities, but nothing she thinks of is what she eventually finds in the box.Â
âItâsâŠa bear?â
âSqueeze âim.â
Tegan puts both hands around the middle of the teddy and squeezes.
âDaddy misses ya, Tegan bach.â The teddy bear says, in Elvisâ unmistakable drawl.Â
Tegan squeals, then giggles, then squeezes it again to see if it does the same thing, which it does.Â
âHeâs from build-a-bear,â Elvis explains. âGot âim from the second store in the country. Ya make âim yerself, put a little heart in himâŠâ he smiles, bashfully. â...anâ ya can record a little thing for âim ta say. Got them ta open the store in the middle of the night fer me so I didnât get papped doinâ it.â
âAww âraur!â Tegan throws an arm around Elvisâ neck, cuddling him close and holding the bear out to the side slightly to avoid squashing him. âHeâs adorable. Youâre adorable.â
âGlad ya like âim, honey.â
They pull apart and she looks down at the bear again. âHe needs a name.â
Elvisâ arm slips around her waist and he presses his lips to her ear. âWhy donâtcha call âim Elvis?â
Tegan pushes on his chest, laughing. âDonât be filthy now! This is a nice, cute bear!â
âMe? Filthy? I donât know whatcha mean, Queenie.â
Heâs desperately trying to keep a straight face, but Tegan can see his eyes shining with amusement.Â
âYouâre giving me a bear to keep me company when youâre away, and you want me to name him Elvis?â Her eyebrow is raised and her hand is on her hip, but sheâs struggling to keep from laughing, too.Â
âUh huh. Ya can cuddle up ta him in bed when Iâm not there.â
âRight, right, yeah of course. Thatâs all you meant.â
âSure.â His lip is quivering at this point, as he tries desperately not to grin. âI mean I wouldnât want ta get between a girl anâ her bear, and whatever else she might wanna do with him when sheâs missinâ meâŠâ
âElvis Presley.â Tegan uses her best school teacherish tone, but eventually the pressure of trying not to laugh gets to be too much and they both burst into peals of laughter.Â
âWhat?!â
She hits him with the bear, inadvertently making the voice go off and their hysterics even worse.Â
âHey, youâll hurt âim!â
âIâll hurt you in a minute!â
They keep giggling as Elvis pulls her in close, pressing his forehead against hers.Â
âYer always makinâ me laugh, little darlinâ,â he breathes. ââM glad I came ta teach that karate class.â
âIâm glad too, âraur.â
âDon't know what I'd do without ya, Queenie.â
She smirks. âWell I can get you your own bear if you really wantâŠâ
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and the nights were as dark as my baby, half as beautiful too. tags : hurt/comfort, fluff, fem!reader wc : 1k synopsis : Togame's not a great texter, but for you, he will always make an exception.
Togame's major trigger in a relationship is when you refuse. to. openly. communicate.
He doesn't blame you, though. He would never! He's aware that sharing your feelings freely can be simply a lot, and maybe even scary sometimes.
But the moment he sees you sitting on your shared couch, the TV playing your favourite show yet your gaze so far away as you stare into nothingness-
Images of his childhood friend suffering in silence cross his mind. Memories of past mistakes and his incompetence at helping the person closest to him, and letting both of them drown in loneliness and bitterness.
No. He won't let that happen again. He won't let you get consumed by your own thoughts and doubts, won't you brush every worry of his away with a forced smile and false reassuring words because you fear that he might run away from you at the slightest inconvenience.
It just has been a rougher week than usual, too many things gone wrong, too little right. You still tried to move on because no matter how awful a situation may be, they never last forever. Or so you have though. Because somehow you feel them still ingrained so deeply in your head, and they make you rethink and relive every single mistake that you've done the past few days in a way that makes you wonder whether there is something that you can actually do right for once.
You don't notice Togame disappear from the doorway and slip into the bedroom, too busy with slipping further into a downward spiral.
That is until the sudden and short vibrating sound of your phone pulls you back into reality. With a strained huff, you lean forward to grab it from the coffee table, and as soon as the sender's name on the display appears, you freeze in place.
Togame did not tell you that he'd gone somewhere, neither have you heard him leave the house, so why is he- Oh.
'Wanna tell me what's happening inside that pretty little head of yours?'
You stare at his text for a few seconds, rereading each word as if you were trying to learn his sentence by heart. The phone in your grip shakes the slightest as you feel your fingers twitch nervously, unsure about whether to answer or ignore him, meanwhile Togame sees the little dots beside your name appear and disappear over and over again.
Why would he let you burden him with your silly problems? Some of them minor, others nothing but a mere creation of your imagination and overthinking tendencies. He cares. He cares. He cares, is what you keep repeating to yourself once you decide to type out two simple words.
- 'A lot.'
Togame's glad that you can't see him right now. The way he jolts instantly, quickly sitting up once his phone pings with an incoming message from you. It feels as if he had travelled a few months back into the past. A time when every single text of yours, every touch, every smile that you shot his way, made his heart beat erratically and plaster a stupid lopsided grin on his face.
The excitement and giddiness of your love has slowly become something quiet and soft. A constant that makes him feel comforted and safe. The kind of love that he knows you need, especially in times like these.
'I see.. Wanna talk about it? It's okay if you don't'
Warmth spreads through your chest as you take slow deliberate breaths, each one shakier than the other. Never one to pressure or rush you, always a gentle voice, and a calm aura. That is your Jo.
And so you let your thoughts run freely as your fingers tap over your screen. With enough time to contemplate over your words, express your feelings properly while clumsily trying to explain some of them that you yourself truly don't quite understand, you feel your eyes sting.
He knew that this is what you needed.
Togame anxiously stares at the last text he has just sent three minutes ago, left on read. His own chest feels so much lighter knowing that your own hopefully feels just the same. Yet as he stares at his unanswered message, he wonders if he might have crossed a line. He starts feeling like a cowardly idiot for making you sit out there in the living room, all alone with all these overwhelming emotions while he's lazily lying in your shared bed.
Soon, the sudden noise of quick steps padding against the floor appears until the door bursts open. His body is quicker than his mind to register what is happening when you throw yourself on him, making him let out a breathless oomph. The bed and mattress creak and jump, but Togame immediately has a steady hold on you as his arms instinctively wrap around your waist.
"Hey-" His forehead creases in worry when he feels you shake, soft sniffles and sobs muffled by his chest.
But when you lift your head and smile at him, such a sweet, beautiful and real smile, he knows that you'll be fine despite the tears that keep flowing over your puffy cheeks. He gently wipes them away, not minding that they're immediately replaced by new ones.
The lightest shiver makes you jolt against him when his hand slips under your shirt and slowly caresses the skin along your back, his thumb softly moving back and forth. His chest rumbles with a deep chuckle when you groan annoyedly before almost aggressively wiping with your sleeves at your face to get rid of the overflowing emotions that somehow never cease to escalate when Togame's in your proximity.
At the same time, the world always becomes a quiet place when you're like this. In his arms, in safety and comfort, with nothing left but both your beating hearts and the feelings that you harbour inside them for each other.
"Thank you, Jo. I love you." You whisper as if it was a secret, and watch how Togame's eyes soften as if you'd said it for the first time again.
With a hand on the back of your head, fingers tangling into the soft strands of hair, he pulls you so close that you can feel his lips move against yours as he speaks.
"Love you more, doll."
#togame jo#wind breaker togame#togame x reader#wbk togame#togame#togame x you#togame jou#togame jo x reader#wind breaker x reader#togame fluff#togame drabble
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i like him
#somebody needs to keep me 8 metres away at all times or else ill start chewing on him#i just want everyone to know if i end up making a character who happens to resemble harvey in any shape or form#it probably wasnt a coincidence đand it will happen again#if i remember maybe ill try getting stardew when it goes on sale.. my friend showed me her farm and she named her chicken after doja cat#or maybe it was nikki minaj i cant remember. and she also said smth about monsters and passing out if you stay out after a certain hour#idk how accurate tht is all i know is the funny fucked up grandpas bed#i read somewhere that harveys supposed to be in his early to mid thirties and i dont have a problem with it but i think itd be very funny#if hes actually younger than he looks hes just a med school postgrad lmao. idk how well that headcanon would hold up since ive#never played the game and idk how often ppl talk about his age or if itsjust an implied thing. i just think its really really funny#im trying to get into the habit of drawing poses so im using reference images to try and build up muscle memory#i found some cute pictures of two ppl playing by the sea shore and it reminded me of xin and sailor so im gonna draw em like that#i havent drawn em in so long..... maybe i should update xins reference since i changed their lore quite a bit#myart#my art#doodles#stardew valley#stardew#sdv#sdv harvey#kinda wanna see him whimper a little bit. as a treat
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I'm not getting into The Giving Tree discourse...
#personal#delete later#idk i just saw a post of the âalternate endingâ comic on my dash and everyone praising it as an improvement and âfixingâ the original#which i kinda resent#while tulli and i was taking my nephew to a book store we walked around the kids section and found the giving tree and we read through it#and i was so stricken by how profoundly sad it is. it's not a happy story#in the end both versions tell the exact same lesson. but one flat out tells you and the other makes you sit with a pit in your stomach#and work to find the answer#i dunno it's kids literature but kids literature is important. i don't wanna discredit anyone's bad memories with the book but also i think#sometimes it's ok to make kids a bit sad and upset with fiction.#tweet that goes âwhat if romeo and juliet didn't kill themselves and explained to the audience that family feuds are badâ#idk you can't seriously read the original book as an adult and say it's glorifying self-martyrdom#when the final drawing of the book is of an old tired man sitting on arotting stump with his hat fallen to the ground#again i don't wanna invalidate people's feelings if they enjoy the alt version i think it's really nice too. but the original has its#purpose too. imagine if at the end of the lorax they show that the boy did it and replanted the world happy ending#wait they did that in the movie shit#i dunno i just love somber children's literature. tulli and i are talking about moomin right now and how the series ends with the moomin#family just leaving. and nobody gets to say goodbye to them. their friends have to find ways to live with the emptiness they've left behin
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Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, I recently went into the x-men and I found my own dead with Charles and Erik AND I NEED READ MORE OF THEM BUT I SO LOST AFTER POWERS AND HOUSE OF X SO I DON'T KNOW WHERE CONTINUE, can u help me?
(alsoIlikeyoursdrawingsiwishbeingsoconstantwithmycontentlikeu)
i'll be very candid with you my friend: i'm totally lost too !!!!!!! your comic-reading journey is about as green as mine and so i cant personally give you a super great guide- but beautiful people on the internet exist who've done most of the dirty work for us when sorting through the stories you 'should' read so i'm borrowing them to help us both
you can read this article to read about one person's advice with exploring krakoa and- in their opinion- its most 'significant' stories, though to summarize the issues they recommend looking into:
House of X/Powers of X (which you should have already done)
X of Swords event
Hellfire Gala
Inferno
X Lives and X Deaths of Wolverine
Second Hellfire Gala
Third Hellfire Gala
Fall of the House of X/Rise of the Powers of X (also should have already done, however...) +Single issue: X-Men (2021 series) #35 aka Uncanny X-Men #700 is featured at the end of the FoX omnibus, though the omnibus excludes an extra bit at the end involving a cliffhanger for Charles's fate after he's arrested
if you want to dig a little deeper though, you can check out this article from another individual which includes another wave of 'relevant' (word used loosely as some can be considered more poignant than others) krakoa stories and stories related to it or set during the period.
it's a lot longer and more in depth than the last article, so again i only really rec peaking at this one depending on how deep you wanna go, or if you decide you want to explore more after reading the more 'key' stories. def wouldn't hurt to give it a glance just in case you read some summaries that pique your interest!
all in all, don't take these as concrete rules or guides to follow: comics are meant to be fun, these are just good starting points if you're feeling lost or overwhelmed. at the end of the day, you decide ultimately what you want to read and which stories interest you the most
happy reading !
#snap chats#my tried-and-true method of comic reading though is 1.) talk to my brother long enough til he tells me an interesting run#2.) poke around my comic shop and see which stories catch my eye#not a PERFECT method if youre trying to be methodical but i think the most important thing with comics#is not to make it stressful or not make it like. a homework assignment#just read what you think will interest you the most or what friends rec and just have fun :]#again ive just started picking up comics again after like. A Decade so im not exactly The Guy to ask at this point in time#but we're all friends we're a community so we'll do it together#as for right now tho. i am very sleepy my eyes are heavy. so goodnight my friends !!!!#i think i'll start legion of x tomorrow.. i really wanna read the first class issues i got#but i think those will be a good cleanser after LoX .... LoX gon make me sad i know it will#anyways! good night! and if anyone has any stories they rec or wanna share with me or anyone else readin my blog please do :]]#OH and thank you for liking my art LOL. on that note please dont stress about the 'content' you put out and how much you make#if you also refer to art then please remember youre an artist not a content machine: you make art and you make it when you make it#it aint a race or a competition so just like comics just have fun and do what you do !!! thats always how you get the best results#ok im sleeping fr now my eyes hurt and ive been chewing this gum for like seven hours GOODNIIIIGHT
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i think i've drawn lankmann a few times. just a couple
#silverware's art#lankmann#pastra#pastraspec#he's just waay too fun to draw for some reason#i didn't wanna do the weird glitching he has when he talks#idk why. but i organized them from least creepy (to me) - most creepy (yet again. to me)#the one where i wrote âi'm back aroundâ is actually a song lyric-#can't hold me down by genichris. specifically. a song actually made about lankmann that is very catchy. by the way.#many wouldn't be too impressed to know that pretty much everything in my computer has some relevance to Lankmann-#some of my friends would defiantly use that against me but hey. they might not read the tags#eh it's alright. he's an interesting character#also. IT'S SO WEIRD KNOWING HE'S ONLY 5'5"-#I'M TALLER THAN HIM#by less than 2 inches. but i'm still taller#this has been sitting in my drafts for over a day so i might aswell post it ig
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This. This. This entire conversation with Morrigan actually makes me want to sob. She and my Tabris always becomes close friends over the course of DAO; that, paired with the fact that my Tabris always romances Alistair, makes everything about this hurt so much more when you take DAO's ending into account.
Her confusion over why my Tabris didn't send her away. Why she didn't abandon her after they learned of Flemeth's plans. Why Tabris went out of her way to slay Flemeth and bring her the true grimoire. She asks Tabris why, and is baffled when the answer is, "I did it because I'm your friend," as if it's that simple.
The way Morrigan looks at the warden, the way her voice cracks when she says, "I want you to know that while I may not always prove... worthy... of your friendship, I will always value it."
She knows how this will end; Flemeth sent her with the wardens with the end goal of stopping the blight and obtaining the old god soul through the dark ritual. Morrigan knows that Alistair and Tabris are the only Grey Wardens here, and assuming they don't find more, one of them will have to die defeating the archdemon unless they agree to do the dark ritual.
With that context, her asking Alistair, "And what if a Grey Warden has forced to choose between the Warden he loved and ending the Blight? What should his choice be?" suddenly has so much subtext weaved through the words that I'm gonna start foaming at the mouth. She's practically telling Alistair that a warden has to die. She's scrutinizing his reaction to find any hint that suggests he would agree to the dark ritual in order to save himself and the woman he loves. And when he doesn't choose, she has her answer.
Morrigan made comments to Tabris about him, almost hopeful that their relationship was just a physical thing between them and not actually riddled with feelings... and then gives disapproval when Tabris says she loves him.
She doesn't want the warden to die; hell, she doesn't want Alistair to die, either; whether because she does actually care about him or because she knows it'll break her friend's heart if she loses him, or both!
Things would be so much easier if the only two Grey Wardens left to defeat the blight didn't fall in love, wouldn't they, Morrigan?
She knows that in the end, no matter the outcome, she will lose the woman she called sister and it's devastating.
Morrigan, who has never known true friendship. Who grew up isolated in the woods with an abusive mother and terrible implications for her future. Who discovered said mother planned to take over her body just as she did with her other daughters. Who doesn't understand kindness as it was rarely given to her without a catch. Who isolates herself from the others in camp. Who finally has a companion she cares about... and in the end, if her plan works and the dark ritual is completed, she'll end up pregnant and alone and wearing Tabris' resentment like a tender wound on her heart.
Or Tabris will reject the ritual, and will die to the archdemon.
Or her lover will.
I just- the dynamic between the warden, romanced Alistair, and Morrigan is so good and painful and rich that I'm gnawing on furniture as we speak.
#dragon age origins#dao#alistair theirin#dao alistair#dao morrigan#dao tabris#warden tabris#i'm replaying dao right now in case my recent written posts haven't made that obvious#the relationship dynamics the warden has with each of the companions is so so soooo good like there isn't a companion i dislike#i play into the slow burn with alistair's romance but it's not even just the romance aspect it's also their friendship too#playing dao and not romancing alistair would feel wrong at this point for me it's so crucial to the entire story and its development#and i love morrigan's friendship with the warden and how gutted tabris is when she comes clean about everything and offers the ritual#and then bails once everything is over and tabris is torn between hating her and feeling hurt and not wanting morrigan to be alone again#i talked more in depth about morrigan and the ritual in a previous post but it's a lot... especially when it comes to the witch hunt dlc#oh and then there's the friendship between tabris and zevran like don't even get me started on that sksksks i won't be able to stop#even a character like oghren who is the last person you'd think tabris would ever become friends with since he's y'know *oghren*#but i'll go on the record and say there's more to oghren that gets overlooked and overshadowed by his glaring flaws#and i don't wanna talk about leliana... she makes me too sad like ever since my last playthrough where i accidentally triggered her romance#while i was deep in alistair's romance i have a really hard time not reading into the things she says to tabris#in my last playthrough i dunno what i did but she confessed to tabris even though she was fully aware that tabris and alistair were togethe#and it was a *mess* okay like it really felt like we killed marjolaine and leliana was in a vulnerable position yet was hardened enough#to be like 'i know she and alistair are together but i'll take my shot anyway and attempt to break them up' like.... noooooo leliana D:#and the rest of the game it felt like she was bitter and still in love with tabris and i felt *horrible*#i just said i don't wanna talk about it but hhhnnngggg i'm taking extra precautions to not have a repeat of that this time#excuse my tag ramblings i'm just very passionate about dao and the companions okay#also want to note that this is my interpretation of morrigan's motivations based on how i play the game and my warden#so others might view this reaction and the warden/romanced alistair/morrigan dynamic differently and in that case#i would be interested to hear that different interpretations because those are always fun to read
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#@ comment directed to me in a tag. i have not talked abt them anywhere publicly but if u were deep enough in the paint in 2020ish theyre#like not super surprising. i think i wanna get back around to the trolls in my reread (so itll b a while) before i say anthing solid#just so i can go in w intent to pay closer attention again but like#overall have a low opinion on most the troll boys insofar as i see that the narrative seems to also not care for them. they seem to exist#to serve narrative purposes & end up discarded when no longer relevant. ie they dont end up very interesting and thus i view#many fans with suspicion when they have 'boys disease' ie having an outsized focus on the boys of the story despite hs being by the end#an extremely female dominated text with a lot to say about masculinity as an opressive force#tavros and gamzee are the biggest bugbears here (only really beaten out in eyebrow raising by cronus and the male dancestors)#on account of fans of them often downplaying gamzee's misogyny that is core to his role as a charismatic cult leader (or worse#sending trans women death threats when they made the factual assesment that gamzee was written to be a weird misogynist calling it#character assassination etc. man 2020 was wild.) tavros mostly just ends up being an accessory to this crime tbh. though his genuinely#complicated relationship w vriska oft being flattened to villify vriska + an inability to actually read what tavros Says...#like. if you get rid of tavros' quirk. stammering and all. and read his lines. he's kind of fucking rude? and yeah its alternia they all ar#but i have my hesitancies wrt how people seem to infantilise him (a disabled character) to the point of ignoring his dialogue and flaws#when one of tavros' core conceits (u can argue if this is . like. something hussie should have stayed out of. like its not their lane) is#that shitty ppl online will be assholes but will be allowed to get away with it due to unrelated disability. which like. it was 2010 ig#but this is hit upon again with mituna being distinctly a 4 channer with real brain damage and speech issues & all his friends letting him#get away with shit he still clearly has the cognitive capacity to know is wrong. its very messily handled but. i dont rlly like tavros ig.#will b amazed if tumblr doesnt eat these tags i went on wayy too long. but im not putting this in plaintext for obvi reasons#lucabytereads
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hey, as the page number guy, i was wondering if you could find a quote for me. it's from unraveled
(joke in honor of you still not having unraveled if that's not clear)
oh you think you're soooo funny oh he he look at wuil quil doesn't have unraveled yet they can't read it they don't know what happened even though basically every single on tof their friends has read it probably like six timesby now they know the plot by heart but quil doesn't because quil wont look at spoilers and their books always take forever to arrive because they sacrifice their time oney and effort to go to thoae eevents that onobua else goes ot to gget us all new keeper info and so they cant read the new nook ery fast st that so soooo funny tee theee i agonna poke fun at uil and mock the fact they cant read unraveled and theyre so lonely and alone and all they have for cojmaptn is their finals and assignmens wheil atll the rest of their frinds are rading the new boka dn having fun and making memories meanwhile quil hasnt been in the kotlc tag for weeks because they dont trust everyoen to tag their spoilers so theyre soooo out of the loop isnt that soooo funny there coudlve been a new fandom wide joke and quil doesnt knwew and everybody elsedoes and thaey all laugh at quil ha ha ha for not knowing when quil is so nice and kpind and loving and helpful and soooo sweet and everyone should be so niceys to them and and they just wanna be included but they caaant becasue the shipping takes for eer but they do it for you they do it foe ryou and yet you mock them for it ohhhh they cdont know the pages they cant see the pages silly silly quil so left out and excluded and sad wet kitten pathetic man cant read they dsee all their mutuals scerams ing and they dont know they cant know gotta gotta poke fun at quil tee teee im soooooo funny >:[
#quil's queries#in case it's not clear this is also a joke#I JUST WANNA READ IT I WANNA TALK TO MY FRIENDS AGAIN :(
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might go on a ~kinda semi-hiatus for a few days! will mostly just run on queue (like i always do anyway) and might take a while to reply/interact!
wishing everyone a good week ahead though!! đ«¶đ»
#sorry đ„Č this is also to my friends chatting on discord !!#havent gotten to reply in a while just cos have been busy !! but also this week i really wanna focus on finishing col 4!!!#++ other life stuff happening so not as mucb time !#am also still on a gojo reading ban!! but i am saving all the fics i stumble upon to my tbr in my drafts !!!#i talked so much again
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Spoiler: I didn't go to sleep. But I will shortly after this post
#i'm sleepy. i'm dramatic. i'm silly. i'm affectionate; maybe#I know two people will see this. maybe? One of them is Moon. Dani is the other. again. maybe#i'm just gonna#AHEMS. words for both of these people; starting with Dani#first off. Damn I didn't think I'd ever read you calling me bestie. buut once I did I must admit the widest smile showed up in my face#I consider you a best friend as well; but from how cool you are? I never thought you'd look at me and go âyeah. thas my bestieâ#second off. just like Moon; I saw (and still do) you as one of my biggest inspirations. The Lav blog and your silly characters made me want#-to get to know the entire server as a whole. so yea you're part of the reason I even started my drawing blog!#and now. my Wife. Moon. Ducky. Moondydusky (/silly)#grabby hands đ„ I wanna tell you just how much I love you all over again everyday. Not sure if you'd ever get tired of It but I just wanna#you're such an important person to me. Everyday I miss talking to you and giggle if I do talk to you#really. makes me just want to have you besides me I wanna just hug you before going to sleep I wanna kiss that pretty face of yours đđ„đ„#grfggarfwgshg#wif#:AAA:#anyway I love you so much and I'm still amazed how I went from âthis person is SO coolâ to âi'm proud to announce this is my wife!â#aaaand the SECRET THIRD OPTION.... Points at the bee#ASH if you're here I want you to know you're an AMAZING friend and you're so supportive and so cool and I wanna be you when I grow up /sill#you're literally just a little sibling to me /silly /pos#anyWay going to sleep fr now HEHAJHD goodnight everybody!!#(to any other mutuals. if I follow you and you follow me đïžđïž YOU ARE SO SO AMAZING AND COOL AND I'M SO GLAD WE'RE MOOTS RAHHHH)#I think I ranted too much. erm. yeah goodnight before I edit this post again
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itâs just hitting me this year how truly alone i am - i only had like 2 close friends since i was 14-15 and it took me a while to realize that one of them is kind of a bad friend to me and the second one is slowing but surely drifting away from me/doesnât seem very interested or invested in my friendship anymore as she has many other friends and i donât and all that is actually killing me inside since i love and miss her so much and the prospect of making new actual friends (not just party friends) and letting people into my life is so so terrifying mostly because iâm so embarrassed of who i am and how little i have achieved/how many âissuesâ i have⊠i canât stand being in bad friendships anymore i had my fair share of bullies-as-friends during high school and i know iâm almost 23 but these things are hard to get over. if i ever make a new friend again and theyâre an asshole to me itâs gonna kill me actually. i feel 13 again crying because i donât have friends !! itâs so pathetic!! fuck!!!
#sad posting once again. sorry you donât have to read it#iâm just sad because my birthday is a month away and everytime i think abt i wanna cry bc i donât have friends to celebrate it with#and itâs so so awful when i miss my best friend so much and she just doesnât care about me anymore#is there anything worse#the fact that sheâs still in my life but just not interested enough to talk to me or see me ever#anyway sorry bye#i wanna go on pills again crying like this is so pathetic
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tired girl hours iâm just ranting bcos i donât have enough time to cry
#tw rant#studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not#its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels#so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday#i feel worse knowing thereâs this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me#n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone#yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my#friends study minimum 4 hours a day. weâre all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep#of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle#but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today#i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts#and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics#just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people#im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier#im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk#and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know#but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or weâll dislike eac#h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe#ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch#people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and#seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want#are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to#spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was#i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next#âis this all im ever going to be?â im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes#me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good#but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im#intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout#but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one?#the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone
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hey guys do yâall remrmber me ..... i am alive and doing well đđ
#very VERY sorry for suddenly leaving so long ago#idk i just. leave my social media accs randomly sometimes idk sometimes i need space ig#but i wanna try n be a lil more active on here again <3#a lot has happened since iâve truly been active on here but welp such is life#i have an active dnd campaign n more close friends now#and i almost booked tickets for the bronze vb olympia match !!#sadly they were all sold out :(#thereâs still some old ass asks in my inbox i wanna get to eventually !! taku n anon z i see ur asks! i will answer them !!#might take me a bit to get used to tumblr again. generally not sure just how active iâll be#weâll see ig#in case anyone actually reads this especially if i know you: hey!! hello !! i missed you all :((#especially taku n anon z ofc !! <3#bc i mostly only rlly talked to you guys haha#iâm on anti depressants now n actually doing much better in case. anyone was wondering haha#and iâm once again neck deep in a tokrev phase bc i just got a friend into it (we watched the whole of s1 together)#(it took us 5 days)(we were on a school trip n didnât have anything better to do)#so. uh. yeah#hopefully expect some tokrev stuff from me :3#glad to be back guys <3#really missed this tbh#ââ`elys rambles
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thank you so much for spreading comics love and (how to read them advice) advice!! helps to cope with how hard and/or expensive they are to get where i live while also motivating me enough to look for solutions or seize the opportunity if i do see one at some point <3
of course !!! what's a community if we ain't doin community things yk :]] ik comics can be kinda confusing or just. Overwhelming so if i can help in any way with pickin em up an readin em im glad to do so !!!!
ive only just started picking up comics again after maaaaybe just shy of a decade so it'll be a fun journey for all of us ^^
#snap chats#theres a lotta fun in the comics and a lotta fun to talk bout so i def wanna help people read them if i can !!!#you can def find a lot of runs online for free also ! i dont think theres one i /havent/ found honestly and its free easy to do#im lucky that my shop sells their stuff for a /lil/ cheaper than retail prices but it can get. pricey still đ#although i def prefer physical theres def nothing wrong with going digital either ! def useful for when i needa grab pages real quick too#i read the 60's comics online and i prob will for most of the copper age as well unless Again theres some stuff i want physical#i just get physicals of issues i really like or ones that pique my interest while im out in the wild#like today i picked up first class Band of Brothers and Wonder Years cause i was just flippin through and found them interestin#CANNOT wait to read through those at some point .... after legion of x .... /after/ new mutants .....#christ i gave myself a lot to read BUT IM EXCITED and im excited to share whatever i find fun from those with yall :]#but yayaya !!!! happy readings my friends- however you do so :] !!!!
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im trying to wrap my head around why i dont get enthusiastic about reddit style fiction (not a dig but a descriptor) like scp and shit like that, bc its not that i canât enjoy them but i think its like⊠when stuff is framed as if it were real, but its fiction, its like, well KNOWING its fiction eliminates a huge element of the intrigue, but also, crucially, i like character-driven stories, or at least stories WITH characters. but i also like it when things are interesting for said characters to experience, like, i want the ghosts and monsters and conspiracies but i want the characters to be character-ing, yknow? not that i dont enjoy slice of life and⊠what would u call the first thing, non-character specific horror? idk? but i prefer when its both. its like i love kirk and spock but also i do enjoy watching them Experience Situations when i watch star trek. i enjoy the idea of spooky national forest monsters that arent real but experiencing it alongside a character would be better, and i want more trans and gay characters whose lives are clearly trans and gay but i want a plotline to unfold too
#i dont think im saying anything different or interesting im just#listening to a wendigoon podcast thats one of his things just#explaining a classic reddit horror story#and ig i enjoy the concept of this one more#but it leaves me thinking like#ok so why do i not wanna hear about this that muchâŠ.?#and also why i dont rly give a fuck about scp at all when my friends tell me about it#or the mystery flesh pit thing#and its the same reason i didnt give a shit about 2017 IT but loved the 1990 mini series. connecting to the damn characters!!!#i guess i ought to give shit a try again i mean i did read creepypastas once when i was a teenager and enjoyed it#i had a similar thought thw other day when they announced another new star trek aos flashback movie#not that it explicitly said anything about this sort of stuff but like#i just remember hearing some ppl in a college course i was in talking about aos and like ohh the flashbacks to kirks childhood!!!#but in that âdiscussing superheroesâ way of like âoh this is good bc it checked the correct canon box!â#like idk dawg i do enjoy fact gathering about characters i love but thats not why i love them?#ok that rly was a tangent i just dont vibe w scp. but if you put a mulder and scully situation in there with it. boom. id be there. ok????#its almost like theres a reason this formula has proven to be so successful over and over and over again
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