#christ i gave myself a lot to read BUT IM EXCITED and im excited to share whatever i find fun from those with yall :]

[xxplastic-cubexx]

thank you so much for spreading comics love and (how to read them advice) advice!! helps to cope with how hard and/or expensive they are to get where i live while also motivating me enough to look for solutions or seize the opportunity if i do see one at some point <3

of course !!! what's a community if we ain't doin community things yk :]] ik comics can be kinda confusing or just. Overwhelming so if i can help in any way with pickin em up an readin em im glad to do so !!!!

ive only just started picking up comics again after maaaaybe just shy of a decade so it'll be a fun journey for all of us ^^

[good-beanswrites]

Hello hello! It's me again! (That one Anon who requested Lies with Kazui & Yuno, but I've set up my account now so no need to ask anonymously again lol) Thank you for satisfying my previous request, it was such a delight to read. I keep rereading it every now and then and I'm still always left in awe with it like jesus christ you didn't have to go all in on that im sobbing with the 0207 friendship dynamic.

I've also seen your latest post and drabble asks. I'd like to request from the Drabble List#1 - #5 “Idiots. They are all idiots.” with Es themselves!

Let the prisoners have fun and Es just stares at them nonchalantly, silently judging their idiocy from afar, hell, maybe even let Yuno/Mikoto convince them to join. You can do anything as long as you think it'll fit, they're all just a little silly (minus the fact they're in prison lol).

With all that said, take your time and no rush! I can always wait. Thanks a lot! ...now back to rereading my previous request for the nth time,, i love it so much,, thankyouagain

Ah thank you so much, that means so much!! I'm so glad you liked it, that one was really nice to write :'D And yesss thank you for the request -- this was such a blast to do as well! (though I also made myself emotional over Es' lost childhood, that was less fun ;___;) I debated on several activities within the prison but thought this was plausible and fun for some mid-T1 shenanigans

Es had a job to do. They had many eyes watching them. They had several lives in their hands. They had heavy responsibilities. They didn’t have time for something as silly as ‘video game night’, regardless of the laughter that bubbled up from the common room as they passed by. They were not way tempted to join, regardless of how much fun the group seemed to be having when they peered their head in.

Fuuta had whined that Es had replaced all his requests with completely outdated consoles and games, confirming they had been successful in choosing things without any access to the internet or outside world. Plus, they thought, this gave the older prisoners a fighting chance with some of the games.

Not that they cared whether or not the prisoners had a good time. That wasn’t any concern of theirs. Even in these long periods of rest between their more eventful duties, they must remain focused.

The laughter crescendoed into delighted screaming.

Es figured one more look inside wouldn’t hurt. They were supposed to be keeping an eye on everyone, after all. 

The prisoners had gathered various chairs and bedding material, creating makeshift couches. Some piled onto the new seating, some splayed out on the ground, others stood in excitement. The television was so small, the two players needed to lean all the way forward to see. 

Mahiru bounced in her seat as Yuno whipped around her remote. Fuuta was demanding Kazui play better, gesturing wildly at the screen. Shidou chucked to himself as the others grew more intense. Haruka kept asking questions about the game, receiving an answer only about half the time. 

As the match got closer, Yuno leapt to her feet. She tried to shimmy in front of Kazui and block his view. He stood to prod her out of the way. Muu called foul play, though she said it with a thrill rather than accusation. Fuuta repeated it -- with quite a lot of accusation -- and tried to push Yuno out of the way. Mikoto tried to hold him back, voicing his support of Yuno’s methods. 

The others got caught up in the yelling. Amane’s eyes were wide in anticipation. Kotoko pumped her fist as the battle got even closer. The room erupted in movement and shoving and tripping and remote pulling -- until they yanked the tiny television forward. 

The thick cord came free, and the screen went black just before a winner was announced. Ten voices chorused their outrage.

Es shook their head. “Idiots. They are all idiots.”

They turned away as the prisoners hurried to set everything up again. They were just about to turn the corner into the panopticon when Yuno’s voice called from behind.

“Hey!” She ran up, taking advantage of their brief pause. “I saw you passing by. Why don’t you come join us?”

Not for the first time, Es wished they had enough height to look down on all the prisoners. “I’m your warden. I’m not some child here to play games with you all.”

She pursed her lips. “I’m not a kid either. But I’m still down for a night to unwind.”

“You’re lucky to have the luxury to relax. I, on the other hand, am busy right now.”  

Yuno made a show of looking left, then right, across the empty hallway. “And what exactly are you doing right now?”

“I’m working.”

She frowned. “Uh-huh…”

“I am!” They fumbled for more, coming up blank. They should have known the moment she came skipping over to them that it would be impossible to fool her. There was no need for this routine check of the prison; everyone was gathered in the common room except them. Yuno had known this before uttering a single word.

Her hands fluttered in a dismissive gesture. “Too much work is never good for you. It doesn’t matter how mature you are -- if you get too caught up in your job it’ll drive you to some crazy things.” She smirked. “Just look at Shidou. Or Mikoto!”

“I could look at you…”

Though surprise flickered across her face, she kept grinning. “Exactly! So let’s get you in here.” She tugged on their arm. Prisoners couldn’t physically move Es against their will. 

They huffed as they found themselves inching closer and closer to the entryway.

“I suppose I can come and watch,” they muttered, “and still keep an eye on you all.”

“No! No more working!” She managed to get them into the room. “Here, you can take my spot in the next round.”

Kazui looked over. “Who said you were getting the next spot?”

“Oh come on, I was clearly going to win that one.”

“Clearly? I'm pretty sure was seconds away from beating you.”

“Well then, I guess Es can take your spot.”

“Es is playing?” Haruka looked up excitedly. 

“I haven’t agreed to anything yet.”

It was as if they hadn’t said anything at all. The others launched into a discussion of who would give their remote to Es? Who would they’d face off against? Were they resetting the bracket they’d begun? Which game would they return to? The ten argued in circles for a while. For a group of murderers, they were insistent on a fair tournament. After breaking up some bickering that could have become physical, Es once again wondered how they ended up watching over a mess like this. 

At length the game was chosen, and a rematch was slated for Yuno and Kazui later in the night. To save themself time and sanity, Es went ahead and picked their opponent.

“I’ll play Fuuta.” 

He had been the obvious choice: he could supply enough chatter for the both of them, so Es could remain silent. Also, he was guaranteed to win and free them from an obligation to play more than one round. They flashed a look at some of the more observant prisoners, hoping they didn’t tip them off.

However, no one was really watching them too keenly. Mahiru clapped in joy. Yuno beamed. Mikoto shoved a remote into their hands. Haruka started rapidly explaining the rules to them. Shidou directed Es to their seat in the center. Kotoko gave them an encouraging nod. As expected, Fuuta was already deep into trash talk as he sat next to them.

They really were simple-minded people, more focused on this silly game than the fact their warden had just sat amongst them. It was dangerous to let one’s guard down in a place like this, Es reminded themself. 

With a little jingle, the match began. 

Their fingers flew across the controls. Though they had a rocky start, some sort of muscle memory kicked in. Surely this game had come out before they were born, and there was no way they’d played it regularly. None of that mattered much. Their little avatar was obviously gaining the lead.

Their eyes stayed fixed on the screen as they received slaps on the back and nudges. Their guard's cap was knocked off in the shuffling, but they couldn't risk picking it up. Voices called all around them.

“Aw, don’t just let the kid win!” Mikoto said.

“I’m not!” Fuuta was desperate. “They fucking tricked me! They’re a pro!”

Es felt energy run through their entire body. Their original plan already slipping away, they wondered if they could actually beat Fuuta. It would be fun to see… They leaned forward, holding their breath. The audience continued cheering the pair on. Once again, the room was swept up in shouts.

The match ended. A little banner flashed across the screen to name Es victorious. They jumped up, a small whoop escaping them. 

They would’ve melted in shame right then and there, if the sound weren’t already drowned out by the surrounding chaos. The others laughed and shook Es in amazement. Fuuta let out a string of colorful language.

“That was incredible!”

“Holy shit!”

“How’d you do that?”

Es placed the cap back on their head, pulling it over their eyes. “I don’t know. And it doesn’t matter. I’m done for the night.” They tried to pass off the remote, but Mikoto pushed it back into their hands. 

“Nuh-uh. I want to see this for myself.” He grabbed the other one from a dejected Fuuta. “Same game. Same characters. Lemme see what you’ve got.”

Es wasn’t meant to play one round, much less get caught up in their ridiculous tournament.

Don’t be an idiot, they told themself.

“Bring it on,” they told Mikoto.

[robinofinashiro]

“look, i know we don’t know each other that well, but i’m still worried about you. no one deserves to be alone.” 

characters: hoshiumi kourai x fem! reader / slight miya atsumu

request status: OPEN / please send any reqs you guys have! my inbox is currently empty and im lacking in any kind of writing inspiration...like seriously lacking lmao. there could be a part two if any of you are interested in one. 

you looked at your now ex boyfriend, trying to keep your tears at bay. the two of you were standing outside the bar, not knowing what you were planning on saying the man you loved as you saw him with a girl on his lap, laughing and giggling at whatever he was saying. 

“you could’ve just broken up with me, it would have saved me time and effort,” you told him with a stone cold face. you could tell Atsumu was in a straight panic, not knowing what to say or do, “honestly, I would have handled the break up a lot better than you would have assumed I would have.” 

Atsumu reached out to grab your hand but you quickly snatched it back, putting it behind your back, “no, you don’t get the right to hold any part of me anymore. whatever you were doing, do it with the girl you were just with,” you exclaimed, a laugh of bitterness leaving you, “but I don’t want that girl, I want you!” he yelled. 

you rolled your eyes, not believing a word he was saying, “no, you wanted a girl to fuck with on the side while I waited for you at home. you’re just angry you got caught, Miya, that’s all,” you stated. Atsumu felt stray tears falling down his face as you noticed a familiar face with snow white hair popping out of the front of the door. 

“as wrong as this is to say, I was always preparing myself for this. my grandmother always said to have a envelope of cash and money as runaway money in case I ever needed to get away...” you played with you finger nails before looking up to him for one final time, “I’ll be moved out in a few days. the apartment is under your name and I don’t mind getting a new place,” you added on. 

Atsumu saw you walking away, not believing that you were actually leaving him. he grabbed your ankle, practically putting on a scene for everyone who was hanging out in the front of the building, “Atsumu, this is embarrassing for you. quit it while you still have some dignity left, jesus christ,” you said not realizing the mantrum that he was throwing, “you really should’ve thought this all out before you decided to cheat. I always had one rule and you knew it. I could quickly replace you as fast as we got together and this was your one chance.”

you kicked yourself out of his grip, walking into the bar to have yourself a drink. you saw the girl who was on Atsumu’s lap not wanting to look you in the eye as she sat on her chair in shame, “enjoy him girlie because as you can tell, he’ll quickly replace you when he gets bored,” you tipped your glass of dark liquor to her in a ‘good luck’ type of way before finding an empty seat. 

that familiar snow white hair you saw earlier happened to be Hoshiumi who was walking towards you. you being the former Inarizaki manager made you know the names to the most popular players from each team they played so Hoshiumi was no stranger. 

“hey,” you heard his voice say over the music. you gave him a smile with a small wave, not wanting to say, “you okay? I accidentally overheard your situation with Atsumu earlier,” he asked, pulling the seat out from the other side of the table.

you shrugged knowing that all the raw emotions from the argument and what you just had saw hadn’t settled in yet, “I don’t know,” you said truthfully, “my boyfriend of three years was cheating on me and if I’m okay right now, I know I won’t be tomorrow,” you explained. 

Hoshiumi nodded understandingly, “do you mind if I sit with you for the rest of the night?” he asked quietly, in a sort of shy way, which was odd considering Hoshiumi was just as hyperactive as Hinata Shoyo from Karasuno way. “look, i know we don’t know each other that well, but i’m still worried about you. no one deserves to be alone.”  

you felt that pang in your heart as you saw the warmness on Hoshiumi’s smile. you tried to contain your tears as best as you could but Hoshiumi saw right through that. he tracked down the waitress and ordered the two of you another round of drinks, your choice of course as he tried to focus the conversation on anything that wasn’t Atsumu or your breakup. 

- 

from that night forward, Hoshiumi was by your side for the entirety of your breakup. he was of help when you needed an extra hand to move all your things out of your shared apartment with Atsumu. 

it didn’t sit right with Atsumu at the fact that Hoshiumi was seemingly close to you all of a sudden. he had saw him that night at the bar but he didn’t think he would take advantage of the situation and so quickly. never once in the entirety of your relationship with Atsumu did you ever mention befriending Hoshiumi and so closely but seeing the way he was helping you move out and making sure you were okay threw him way the hell off. 

once you were finished taking your things out of the apartment, you looked to Atsumu and wiggled the set of keys that were on your keychain out. you gave him one last look before handing them to him, “so I take it that you won’t accept the job with the Jackals?” he asked. 

“I think you know that answer, Miya.” 

you walked out of the apartment, leaving a teary eyed Atsumu at the door as Hoshiumi waited for you at the front of the building. your place a few minutes farther from Atsumu’s place. it wasn’t as nice of a place in comparison to how you used to live but it would do until you found a job.

“what are you plans now?” Hoshiumi asked as he helped you unpack things from the box. you shrugged again, “I really don’t know. Atsumu had gotten me a job with the Jackals and those were plans for quite a while but considering that relationship is long gone, I guess I really have to start looking for a job before I go broke.” 

Hoshiumi laughed, feeling his phone buzz multiple times. he looked down to see a few texts from Ushijima and Kageyama. to your luck, the Adlers had also gotten a job opening for a few positions with a team. Hoshiumi had mentioned to the team that he knew someone that could possibly take the position of the old manager and they had been grilling him about it since. 

the pre-season was about to start and they needed an experienced manager and quick. considering your qualifications with Inarizaki and the degree you got in college, he knew you would do well on the job and all you would need is a bit of polishing up in order to be great if not even better than their former manager. 

“listen, I don’t know how willing you will be to accept what I’m about to say but Schweiden has an opening for a positions and one of them is to be the team’s manager and assistant. I might’ve pushed your name because I know you’ve done the managerial position before and we need a manager as soon as possible.” 

your eyes doubled down in confusion as Hoshiumi showed you the hiring paper. you quickly skimmed it down seeing that you had the qualifications for the job. you saw that it was a text from Kageyama Tobio that read if you had accept the position yet before their coach killed them. 

“wait, how long would I be there?” you asked, gripping his phone. you looked at you, now slightly confused himself, “what do you mean? you’d be there as long as you want or until you quit. the position is permanent.” you read the application again and smiled, “I just got this place but tell them I’ll be available for an interview at any time.” 

Hoshiumi tackled you into a hug, his hyperactive attitude running rampant again, “THANK YOU! THANK YOU! the team is gonna be so happy, I know it!” he exclaimed, quickly dialing his coaches number as you sat there, taking in your all new reality. 

+ 

after a run through of a few interviews, the Adler’s ultimately gave you the position as their manager and assistant. they found you the most suitable as you had experience under your belt and got along with most of the team. well...as best as you could considering Kageyama and Ushijima weren’t really the talkative type to begin with. 

the move to Tokyo was a bit easier than expected. Hoshiumi quickly helping you into your new apartment as he showed you around the Adler’s gym and even the town when he wasn’t busy. you had your own office since you were assisting the team’s coach with a few office related things but most of your duties were strictly to the team. 

with your new job came new team photo’s for the year as well as your organizations employee id photo. your uniform consisted of black leggings or athletic shorts if Tokyo was particularly hot that day and a Schweiden sweater/t-shirt on game day. on non-game days where you had to be in your office, the general uniform was business casual unless it was Friday’s where you could wear your game day uniform. 

the team photo day was around the corner and the Adler’s even had a few professional makeup artist for anyone who wanted to have their makeup done for the photos. Hoshiumi and to your surprise, Kageyama, landed in the makeup chairs right next to you as they both wanted to be concealed so their under eye bags weren’t as prominent. 

“you ready for the pics?” Hoshiumi asked with an excited smile. you nodded just as excitedly, “working in volleyball again feels so weird but I can’t wait for the season to start!” you exclaimed as Hoshiumi gave you a high-five in agreement. 

unbeknownst to you but known to the entire team, Hoshiumi had fell entirely head over heels for you. his heart eyes weren’t a secret to anyone besides you and if everyone was being honest, they really wanted Hoshiumi to get a move on with asking you out so he could stop coming to practice with a lovesick puppy look on his face. 

after all of you were called to the gym to take the photos, they had all the players and coaching staff take their photos first before any managers and front office staff had their turns. while you waited for your turn, you were talking with the other manager so was an ex player of the team and had recently retired due to permanent injury to his arm. 

“so how do you know Hoshiumi?” he asked as he saw the wave Hoshiumi was giving you. you smiled and waved back, “he was a friend of mine through high school and we just kept in contact since. Kourai and I are basically best friends if I’m being honest,” you explained. 

he gave you a look before giving out a belly laugh, “just best friends? you have to got to be kidding. there’s more to your relationship with Hoshiumi than just best friends,” he admitted. you were a bit taken back by his answer as you asked him to explain, “come on, it’s not obvious? the decoy is in love with you. he follows you everywhere and has heart eyes for you and I can sense the feeling either is mutual or it’s starting to be on your end.” 

you sat in silence, debating whether or not what he was saying was true. you had never taken into account romantic feelings Hoshiumi could have for you and vice versa. you knew deep down, you did harbor feelings for Hoshiumi but up until this point, you had never put it to the forefront of your brain. 

“managers! it’s your turns now!” the photographer said. you nodded, going up to the small set up they had. 

they had you do a bunch of different poses. one photo of just you smiling, another of you holding a volleyball, and a few with the other manager on the team. they had informed you that this year, they would be displaying team player photos along with head manager photos in the front of building, right outside of the gym to show appreciation to the entire team. 

after the photo’s were finished, your head was still playing the conversation you had earlier. the idea of dating Hoshiumi did not sound so bad in the long run and you knew that it now wouldn’t come off as a surprise if you did in fact show feelings to him. 

“Kou, what are you doing tonight?” you asked as he helped you with your bag after practice. he shook his head, saying nothing, “wanna come over? I wanna pig out on food before the season officially starts,” you giggled seeing his excited face as he grabbed your wrist and practically dragged you over to his car, exclaiming you both could get food and snacks. 

the night came down to you watching a few movies from both of your childhood and basically talking/snacking the night away. it eventually got to the point where you moved closer to Hoshiumi, trying to find warmth as your AC was on full blast and you both were too lazy to get the blankets you had underneath your couch to actually get warm. 

“hey Kou,” you said, trying to get his attention. he looked down to you, a warm smile on his face, “would you ever...be interested in dating? I heard a few members of the team saying that you liked me and for a while, I didn’t want to believe that but I figured there was no harm in asking because I totally feel the same,” you finally confessed.

Hoshiumi sat there, mouth wide in surprise as your heart basically fell your ass. your thoughts were immediately plagued with the idea that you had ruined your entire relationship with him but that was quickly put to rest as grabbed your closer and held your face as softly as ever before placing a kiss on both your cheeks before reaching your lips. 

“honestly, I was about to ask you out tonight too. I’ve been having these feelings for a while now and I’m glad you finally confessed. I’ve truthfully liked you since the night I saw you with Atsumu but I didn’t want to make it seem as though I was being pushy.” 

you laughed, pushing yourself away from him a bit as he dipped you down once again and kissed you again. you ran your fingers through his hair as he kissed your neck a bit and parts of your upper chest. 

“you’re the best. I literally thought the best day of my life was the day I got the job for the Adler’s but this beats it by far!” he exclaimed, hugging you now. you laughed, shaking your head at his excitement, “I could say the same,” you giggled as you kissed him again. 

+ 

a few weeks finally passed as the season was in full swing now. you were working a few days a week and going out on the days you had off with Kourai. the only dreadful part in all of this was that the Adler’s were playing Msby soon and you knew that you would in fact be seeing Atsumu during, before, and after the game. 

Hoshiumi could see the slight nervousness and panic on your face the day of the game against the Black Jackals. you weren’t as excited as you were usually were and you were responding to the team in snippets and very short sentences. the team could sense your shift in attitude but didn’t bother to question it. 

“hey, you okay?” Hoshiumi asked, pulling you to the side a few minutes before warm ups. you gave him a questioning look, “I can see you’re nervous and I’m pretty sure it’s probably because of Atsumu being here,” he assumed as you reluctantly agreed. 

he sighed, bringing you in for a hug, “you don’t have to work today. I can make up an excuse that you got sick and say you’re in your office watching the game,” he said. you shook your head, “no, it would be immature of me to miss a game because of that fucking idiot. I’ll be okay, I promise,” you whispered, giving him a kiss of reassurance before letting him go. 

a few feet behind, Atsumu had saw the entire interaction happen. his heart was admittedly broken, seeing the way you were kissing and hugging Hoshiumi. he hadn’t known that you were working with Scheweiden nor did he know that you were even dating Hoshiumi. 

when the team had walked into the gym, he had saw your photo in the hallway entering the gym. your smile was one he missed and he felt himself get angry all over again. it had been months since the breakup but you had yet to unblock him from any social media so all of this news at once broke him. 

the game was a lot more intense than they assumed it would have been. Hoshiumi and Atsumu playing to 100% and even getting into small scuffles. you had saw the interactions and knew it was probably because of you but were arguing when it came down to plays so it didn’t look as immature on the court. 

ultimately, Schweiden won the game, beating the Jackal’s by a landslide in their last set. you were smiling at Hoshiumi as the game ended, bringing him a water and giving him a kiss before handing off the waters to Ushijima and Kageyama next. you had ran out of the gym for a few seconds to refill waters for a few players when you ran into the last person you expect. 

“if you can excuse me Miya, I need to refill these,” you said, not even looking at him in the eye. he moved out of the way, seeing thew way you refilled the bottles as quickly as possible. once you were done, you were about to head back into the gym when he stopped you, “how are you?” he asked shyly. 

you sighed, “fine Miya,” you said curtly. Atsumu growled in annoyance, “are you together with-,” “with me!” you heard Hoshiumi’s voice scream through the hall. you smiled at the sight of him as he pushed you behind him and sizing up the much taller Atsumu. 

“this had nothing to do with you, Hoshiumi.”

“oh but it does! she’s my girlfriend, our manager, and a member of the team so whatever you need to say to her, you can say to me!” you laughed at Hoshiumi’s confidence as Atsumu looked at him, rage filling his eyes, “what? what’re you gonna do? hit me? you’d get suspended and look like a complete idiot to the entire V-league!” 

“do we have an issue?” Ushijima asked, looking at Atsumu and Hoshiumi as Sakusa followed him, “no issue at all,” Atsumu gritted as Hoshiumi wore a proud grin on his face.

“that’s great to hear. come on ( your name ). Hoshiumi you better be in the gym in the next minute.” 

“lets go Atsumu, you don’t win anything out of creating a scene,” Sakusa said as he grabbed his friend and tried dragging him out of the hallway. Hoshiumi waved at Atsumu as cockily as possible, “remember Atsumu! not only did we win the game but I also won your girl!” he screamed. 

Atsumu went to jump but was pulled back by Sakusa and Bokuto as you walked out of the gym again to grab Hoshiumi. he grabbed you by the wrist and kissed you in front everyone that was in the hallway. Atsumu could hear Bokuto telling him to calm down but he wanted nothing more than to run over to Hoshiumi and kick his ass before reclaiming you as his again. 

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Baby Love - Part 10

A/N - Finally an update!! 💕

chrisevans I'm so excited to announce that Y/N and I are expecting!! We are both over the moon.... i cannot even put into words how happy i am right now.

Mama and baby are both doing great and Dodger is thrilled that he's about to become a big brother.

#BabygirlEvansComingSoon

It was a few weeks after the premiere, middle of May, my 5th month in my pregnancy that Chris finally put out the announcement and surprisingly it went well....better than i could ever have imagined. The messages from Chris's fans were amazing! Of course there was still some haters but nothing that was too awful or couldn't be ignored. It was nice that it was out now and i didn't have to worry about someone finding out and leaking it to the press.

Chris was scheduled to start filming 'Defending Jacob' a series for Apple TV mid June through to July. The good thing being it was filming in Massachusetts, 20 minutes from home so he wouldn't have to stay away.

Chris was finally upstairs getting ready so he could head to set, he had been whining this morning about wanting to stay home with his girls.

I was currently laying on the sofa in a sports bra and shorts, with my now 6 month belly showing while i watched some crappy daytime show.... i had removed Chris's t-shirt when i started getting hot flushes.

"Okay im ready to.....go. Jesus christ why are you half naked right now?" I looked round to see Chris looking me up and down like i was the tastiest thing he'd ever seen. I rolled my eyes looking back at the TV "hot flushes, i sweat through my shirt...i feel like I'm burning alive"

"Such a drama queen" he chuckled

"Excuse you?..... you wanna try going through this??" I snapped, i knew as soon as it was out of my mouth it was uncalled for and instantly felt bad "I'm sorry i didn't mean to snap.... is the damn AC even working?" i said almost feeling like i was gonna cry. Chris came walking over crouching in front of me with a cold cloth and draped it across my forehead.

"That should help a little and i got you some ice..." he passed me a cup of ice chips and i cried.

"Hey! Whats wrong?"

"You're just the best boyfriend ever"

"Awww" he chuckled pressing a kiss to my forehead.

"Don't.... I'm all sweaty and gross"

"I like you all sweaty" he wriggled his eyebrows making me laugh "and you're not gross..... you're beautiful. I nearly had a heart attack seeing you laying here looking like this.... now i really don't wanna leave"

"You have to, stop making excuses"

"I dont want to leave you alone like this..."

"I wont be, Scott's coming over we're gonna go for lunch later"

"Oh.... "

"You're okay with that right?"

"Yeah of course" he smiled before leaning in to give me a kiss.

"Hey! its just me!" Scott yelled from the front door on cue.

"In here!" I yelled reaching my hands out to Chris to help me up into a sitting position.

"Yikes! what is going on with you you're a mess" Scott said looking concerned.

"Thanks! Thats just what i needed to hear Scotty" i scooped out an ice chip and popped it in my mouth.

"Hot flushes" Chris told Scott and he pulled a face.

"I'll be okay in a minute, it'll pass. Though im pretty tempted to go jump in the damn pool right about now"

"Stay outta the pool sweetheart, maybe a lukewarm bath or shower would help?"

"I'll be fine Chris, you need to go or you're gonna be late"

"I don't wanna leave you alone...."

"Err hello? Im here, she's not alone" Scott said coming to sit next to me on the sofa.

"Can you put your shirt back on.....i don't feel comfortable...." Chris started to say while looking me over again.

"Stop! I am not putting that thing back on when i feel like I'm in the pits of hell Evans!" I said pointing at the soaking wet t-shirt on the table " besides Scott's seen me in my bathing suit plenty of times.... I'm wearing more now than i was then! also incase you forgot.... I'm not his type"

"I feel insulted!" Scott gasped before smiling at his brother.

"Just go to work! I will call you if i need anything, we'll be fine".

Chris sighed but nodded, he leant in and gave me a kiss and finally left for set.

"Geez he always like that?"

"No, he's got a little more protective as the pregnancy has gone on but that was new"

"He's probably just worried about you. This is the first time he's had to really leave you since you've been pregnant"

"He'll be back tonight! He needs to chill out. I know i sound like a bitch and i really don't mean to but i literally feel like Satan himself is roasting my body!"

"You want some more ice chips?"

"Yes please".

After another 30/40 minutes i finally felt myself cooling down.

"Oh thank god! I think it passed"

"For now"

"Thanks!" I laughed "I've had a few hot flushes here and there but nothing like that... that was brutal!"

"Well I'm glad it passed, why don't you go take a shower and we'll go get some lunch, it will do you good to get some fresh air, we can even take Dodger"

"Sounds good to me".

Scott and i grabbed lunch at a small family run cafe that was kinda tucked away, not a lot of people actually knew about it which was the reason we chose this place when we'd have lunch....it also had a small outside seating area where we could sit with Dodger.

Once we were done with lunch we took Dodger for a walk in the park where he found a new friend, they ran around together for a good half an hour.

"Wow he's gonna be beat" Scott laughed as we sat on a bench watching the two dogs running around.

"Good! He has too much energy!"

I chuckled "i'll be wanting to sleep and he brings me his toys wanting to play its exhausting" i said exaggerating, truth was i loved that Dodger always wanted my attention.

"Well he's gonna have to learn to share you when my niece arrives"

"Do you think he'll be okay with the baby?"

"Im sure he will, Dodge is a good boy"

"The best, i just worry. I worry about everything lately though" i laugh rubbing my hand over my belly "you ready to head back?"

"Sure"

I whistle and call for Dodger and he comes running straight over allowing me to attach he's leash.

"Lets go home bubba" i scratched behind his ear before handing the leash to Scott.

We got back to the house and let Dodger out of the car, he ran straight towards the front door and started growling and scratching at the door.

"Hey stop!" Scott said quickly and Dodger turned to look at him before starting again this time barking loudly.

"Whats his problem?"

"I don't know....."

"Maybe Chris is home?"

"His car isn't here....." i opened the door and Dodger ran inside sniffing everywhere.

"Hey Chris you home?" Scott called out but i already knew he wasn't, this didn't feel right.....

"Scott, somethings wrong....."

"What do you mean?" He asked turning to me looking concerned.

"I don't know its just a feeling i have"

Dodger suddenly ran past us and up the stairs, we followed him up to find him sitting outside mine and Chris's bedroom scratching at the door.

"Chris....." Scott called again thinking Dodger just wanted to get to him but no answer, the house was silent.

Scott stepped forward and opened the door and we both gasped at the what we saw. The whole room was trashed.

"Scott..... what if someones still in the house?" I turned to him with wide eyes as panic set it.

"Stay in here with Dodger, I'm gonna check the house..."

"No! Just call the cops, stay in here with us!"

"I'll be fine! They're probably long gone, Dodger would be going crazy if they were still here...but i just wanna make sure".

"Please be careful! I'll call the cops"

"Okay lock the door behind me".

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[cyancherub]

CASSIE I HAVE TO SCREAM!!!!!

HES SO HOT??? HES SO SEXY CHASING AFTER US AND DODGING THE OBSTACLES. I know I’m supposed to be like worried for her but I’m like wow kogami hot. BUT ALSO THE ENTIRE CHASE IS. AMAZING LIKE YOU CAN FEEL THE ADRENALINE AND LIKE I CAN SEE IT ALL PLAY OUT IN MY HEAD. And THE SUSPENSE of when he ends up in the apartment. I cant. I was so nervous ajshdkdjd even though I KNOW he’s supposed to catch us.

“Why don’t u come out and play?” I’m already a mess.

I LOVE HOW MUCH FIRE WE HAVE LIKE. ALL OF THE READER’S QUIPS AND HOW THEY TALK BACK!!!! OBSESSED WITH IT. It’s so witty and clever and like!!! AH! “What kind of sweet nothings did the dominator whisper in your ear?” LIKE I LAUGHED OUT LOUD.

WHEN THE READER IS TOUCHING HIM WHILE HE CUTS THEIR THROAT A LITTLE…..IM GONE. It’s over for me. AND THEN HE LICKS IT?????? I want him so bad oh god oh god.

THE KNIFEPLAY. AGANST THE READER’S CLIT. I’m literally going to spontaneously combust. I would eat fucking jeans with a fork for a crumb of his dick.

“You like knives? They get your pussy wet?” UH YEAH. Jesus Christ I’m obsessed with him.

“Like a dog waiting for a treat, he asks, Are you gonna give it to me?” IM GOING TO DIE.

“What’s real to you?” OBSESSED WITJ THIS LINE IM SO OBSESSED WITH ITTTTT

THE TENSION THE BUILD UP THE ENTIRE CONVO BEFORE HE ACTUALLY FUCKS US MY GOD!!!! YOUR WRITING IS INSANE!!!!!! “FILTH BREEDS FILTH” ARE U KIDDING???????

Literally the change from the reader’s attitude with him at the beginning to when he pulls out the gun. Insane. You wrote that SO well holy shit.

“Rehabilitation’s that easy? All you have to do is fuck the deviant out? That’s real cute.” SCREAMING AND CRYING I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

WHEN HE USES THE GUN. I have no words. Like I don’t know what to say. Idk how many way to tell I thank this is the best thing I’ve ever read kajshdkdjdkd.

I LOVE THE CHANGE IN DYNAMIC AT THE END HOLY SHIT!!!! THE WAY HES SO INTO THE READER DEGRADING HIM IM SO!!!! HES SO!!!! AH I LOVE THAT

“Every version is yours.” I genuinely will never recover. That’s so fucking SWEET

Cassie this was INSANE like I could probably say so much more but GOD. You write action so well?? Like I was on the edge of my seat the WHOLE TIME!!! This was literally like watching a psycho pass episode (u know if it had PORN aksjdjdkdj) ur so talented it’s crazy im obsessed with u I loved this. SORRY THIS IS SO LONG GOD OKAY BYE<3333

OZ IM GONNA KISS U ALL OVER YOUR FACE FOR THIS ASK ALDLKASLKDLK please. it means the world to me U DONT EVEN KNOW im gonna cry ! ! ! !

LOSING MY MIND BECAUSE,,, I ALSO THINK ITS SO HOT WHEN HES JUST CHASING PPL LIKE YES GO KING OH SHOOT WAIT IM SUPPOSED TO BE CONCERNED... WHOOPS... LLASKLD i had to control myself. he is bananas fine. anything he does is like.. *panties dropping* good god have mercy on me.

BUT IM GLAD AAAA THAT U ENJOYED READING THE CHASE AND THAT U FELT THE ADRENALINE AND SUSPENSE AS INTENDED !!! ITS SO EXCITING TO ME IM GONNA SCREAMMKLSK.

IM HAPPY U LIKED THE READERS LIL PERSONALITY ;v; I HAD A LOT OF FUN WITH HER ... SHE WAS VERY SASSY. A MENACE IF U WILL !!!! especially to him ... LOVE THAT FOR HER !!! LMAOOO the dominator line gave me a chuckle as i wrote it why lie LKADLK.

EEEEE the knifeplay THE KNFIEPLAY !!!!! im glad u liked those parts OMG i was pounding my fists on the floor writing it !!!! WHY IS HE ,,, JUST. HIM AND THE WEAPONS KLASLKD please it is simply too much. i cannot take it !!!

WAHHH please. u are so nice KLASDKL pulling quotes im going to be so emo this is ;____; <3333 BUT AHH!!!! YES THE GUN COMING OUT ... that definitely was a huge turning point the poor reader was losing her mind KLALLK. as would i. SHEESH !! ! !

SO HAPPY U LIKED THE ENDING ;____; im so in love w this man its SICK omg the grip he has on us !!!

BUT IM CRYING THANK U SO MUCH FOR THE KIND WORDS THEY ARE EVERYTHING TO ME REALLY !!!! im subsisting off of this ask. tattooing it onto the wrinkles of my brain ... kissing u so much !!!! IM SNIFFLING THANK U !!!!

[we-always-hit-our-ass]

First Date HCs With David Webster

warnings: meh some cursing but nothing major, it’s also very long I’m sorry- but the rest is just fluff, so eeee I hope you all like them! <333

words: 1.6k (ajsajhk i got carried away on these headcanons, i couldn’t help myself)

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First Date Headcanons with David Webster

So you see, of course our favorite Harvard boy will take you to the fucking aquarium (Cliche and obvious? Yes. But like where else, I mean seriously??)

When you first got together the first thing he promised you was an aquarium date, and well looky here, he fulfilled that promise.

Ok, so y’all pull up to the building and you can see waves of literal euphoria coming out of him. He’s just so adorable and he has a little bit of pep in his step when walking towards the entrance. 

And then every time he walks, his poofy brown hair bounces up and down and the way the suns hits it is *chefs kiss*-

Even before you get to the entrance, your boyfriend is gushing about marine animals. They were short descriptions of a multitude of animals but they were so detailed and captivating, you couldn’t help but listen.

However, his voice was a bit distracting at times and you could find yourself zoning out while he talked. 

A look of awe is plastered on your hand and your hold on his hand tightens ever so slightly.

It’s safe to say that you learned more about ocean animals in those brief moments than you ever could from your years in school.

Y’all bust in the aquarium like the iconic couple you two are (I’m so proud of you) and boy oh boy is David cute as hell.

Here he is-- a grown ass man who went to Harvard and literally served in WW2-- looking like a child discovering a shiny rock. You love it-

David is indecisive as hell and he had no idea where to go. He turns over to look at you with those beautiful eyes of his and you can’t help but smile.

You two pull up those maps of the building and you two plan out the rest of your date. Your fingers trail over the paper, trying to figure out where to go first.

You two make up this intricate schedule and you knowingly look at each other when your eyes find where the shark exhibit was.

But at the beginning of your date Web held your hand as you two viewed various wildlife vibin in the water behind the glass.

You were in heaven when you saw how the water played so beautifully on the your boyfriend’s face. 

David was oblivious to how you stared at him in awe and you were oblivious to whenever he did the same to you.

You named a crab after Johnny and a particularly cute clownfish was named after Babe. You two had a heated discussion on who Winters was. 

(Y’all never settled on anything. Web thought he’d be a red snapper. You personally think he’d either be a blue marlin or a swordfish.)

He called you his angelfish and you hit him on the arm for being so cheesy. After that he said that you were a flame angelfish instead and you could only playfully roll your eyes at him.

Get prepared for literally a shit ton of fish trivia this boy will never shut up and he just wants to gush about it to you, it’s very wholesome and sweet actually.

He knows a lot because he either has a whole 100000 page book about the sea printed on his brain or something or because he has the literal ocean in his eyes.

Look I can’t tell at this point-

The two of you were going to every single exhibit this aquarium had to offer and there was no stopping you.

Sadly that intricate schedule is unceremoniously yeeted out the window because when you head over to the next place you're stopping at you two see something else you like and head there instead.

“(Y/N)! I thought we were seeing the penguins next-”

“But Web, the seals! Look at the seal exhibit!”

You’re gripping his arm and looking at him with your stunning face, how could he say no to you? 

So he lets an exaggerated sigh and nods his head as he tries to contain his grin.

You two went over to the seal exhibit instead kasjhd- Y’all still got to see the penguins, it’s all ight.

While gawking at the beautiful fish species you saw, Web seemed to know a heaping mount about a lotta of em. The facts he didn’t tell you earlier he says now and you’re just like “look at my smart Harvard boy go-”

The amount of times you wanted to just make a scrapbook that is dedicated to this day alone is nearly impossible to keep track of. The both of you wanted to cherish this aquarium date for all eternity.

Cause literally there’s this one moment where you’re looking over at tropical fish and Web was reading the description. Oh what would happen next-

As you’re admiring the way the small fishes swam gracefully Web legit goes on a rant on how they got some information on the Tiger Barb wrong.

This adorable idiot I- I can’t even at this point.

But Web holds you in his arms as he buries his face in your hair while looking at fish send tweet. 

He also wraps his arms around your waist and he rests his head on top of yours. He makes comments about some of the fish and you just sink into his embrace.

Also one thing you did keep from your schedule after not following it was visiting the petting pool after you two ate lunch.

When I say that you two nyoomed over to the petting pool area I mean y’all nyoomed-- Like full Speirs mode on-- because Jesus Christ this is an aquarium and David will obviously take you to the petting pool.

You two arrived there and my Lord you swore that David was holding back a squeal. The two of you immediately rolled up your sleeves and went over to dip your hands to touch the animals in the pool.

The look you gave Web when you touched a cownose ray-- it was precious. 

You also couldn’t hold your excitement as a few more smaller rays glided under the pads of your fingertips.

Then there were the horseshoe crabs and yknow those tiny fish that like swarm your hand and tickle you, yeah those too.

Y’all also chill it out and get to wash the jellyfish. The way the room was dark gave it a whole nother vibe, my loves. 

Like in  that jellyfish room, you two will most definitely just hold each other while gazing at the glass.

Bro, in the dim room, he’ll just pull you close and place a chaste kiss on your forehead and lips.

The bioluminescence of the jellyfish illuminates Webster’s face, making his features appear more sharp. Simping time commence, you two are a fine af couple.

Now time for the real kicker- It’s shark time

After dragging your ass to almost all of the other exhibits in the aquarium, Webster saved the shark exhibits near the end of the date.

Ohoho, was this boy eUPHORIC-

David is gripping your hand tightly and he’s constantly sending you smiles as you two walk closer to the entrance of the shark exhibit.

This is where Webster ascends out of his body, this is the second time he has (first time was when he met you and started dating). 

You share his happiness and the utter vibes comin off from your boyfriend makes you so soft and full of glee.

Yknow his constant face when his eyes are focused on something and his mouth is just slightly parted? Well that is his face most of the time during your time there.

M o r e   f a c t s.

Webster did write a wholeass book about them, what did you expect?

The utter passion and fascination in his voice really stands out whenever he talks about these beautiful babies- 

Like sure, David sounds happy when he talks about other sea animals, but with sharks? Whole nother level. 

It’s one of his biggest quirks and my goodness do you just stand there taking in all his facts as he goes on a tangent about different types of shark species.

The light in his eyes as they trail over as they trail over a sand shark swimming by. He’ll also just stare at a leopard shark while smiling because he loves them.

After leaving the shark exhibit after spending 1 hour in there with your boyfriend, you two decide to go home- But first, y’all buying some things from the giftshop. 

Webster will spoil you and will buy you anything you want in the aquarium gift shop.

Wallets beware, you’d also do the same for him.

There was this jellyfish theme hat you saw and you made David try it on- He looked so fucking stupid but like a cute kinda stupid.

You regret not buying it when you had the chance-

However- You two got shark plushies together. You got a tiger shark plushy and he gots a hammerhead. 

You two absolutely love them and you could’ve sworn you could’ve just burst from happiness when he showed you the tiger shark plush he got for you.

You two also bought those chonky seal plushies because I mean... I mEAN- Just look at em, they’re stunning of course you and Web had to get em.

With a day well spent with your boyfriend you just wanted nothing more but to lay with David on your bed as you run your fingers through your hair.

So you two leave the aquarium building smiling and laughing. Webster leans in a gives you another soft kiss on your lips and you let out a giggle. 

The two of you are noticeably happier, and you two head back to the car. The date ends with your hand in his and your four new plushies in tow.

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a/n: it’s been so long since I posted a fic or writing of any kind. unfortunately, i’ll have to put a hold on my pt 2 for the roe fic i made and im procrastinating by writing hcs kasjadjk. i decided to make these for some of the lovely people in my discord server. i hope y’all enjoyed these hcs with web!

i love you all very much, stay safe and i send yall another round of my good vibes 😩💕💕

[dominarava]

so i hope some of ya'll remember that wealthy reader fic i was doing for kofi tips cause i did another part after a lot of requests for it to come back :')

im also gonna be posting all the parts together on my AO3 for easier reading

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A high pitch ring snapped her from her rest. Her hand swung over to the nightstand, feeling for the phone and pulling the corded receiver up to her ear.

"H-ello?" She asked in a quiet creaky voice, looking at the digital clock reading 3:37AM.

The voice on the other line seemed strained, "Hey- Its me-"

"Who-?"

"Its Frank- what're you doin'?"

"I was asleep." A pause in the flow of her words clued him into her spiral of worry, "Wait- are you okay? Is something wrong?" She asked sitting up and rubbing her face, taking notice of the heavy rain pouring outside.

"Yeah- I'm fine- just got into some shit earlier and I can't call the old man for a ride-"

"What about Julie?" She asked lazily.

The line went quiet for a long moment before he answered, "I don't want her to know."

A groan escaped her as she swung her legs over the side of the bed, "Where are you?" She sighed.

"The police station."

"I thought you said nothing is wrong!?" She said as she haphazardly pulled on her pants, working around the coiled cord as she kept the phone up to her ear.

An audible sigh could be heard on the other end, "And nothin' is wrong- are you comin'? Or do I gotta walk home in this shit?" He asked as he leaned against the tall window overlooking the torrent outside.

With the muted clicking of her keys tightly bound in her fist, she took a slow breath to settle her nerves, "I'm already on my way- just try and stay dry until I get there."

"You're the best Babe~" At the sound of the line going dead she tried not to let the familiarity of his pet name get to her, but the thud of her heart as she tiptoed out of her parent's place couldn't be shoved away.

Still trying to get over the excited ache in her chest, her car sped on down the road through the rain rushing against her windshield. She was surprised to see him standing out in the rain, waiting for her at the edge of the curb when she pulled up.

Sliding into the passenger seat with light squish of his clothes he gave a sigh, "Thanks."

"No problem-" She answered quietly, "What happened?" The turn of her wheel to head down the street at more reasonable speed this time.

A slow draw of breath told her he didn't want to go into it, "Got in a fight- pussies called the fuckin' cops. Thas it."

The slight slur in his words painted more of a picture than his words, "Have you been drinking?"

Leaning the weight of his head onto the headrest, he gave a slow turn of his gaze to her with an unamused looked as if to say, Duh.

"Right." She huffed letting her gaze flicker from him then back to the road in front of her.

The shifting pass of streetlights filled the car before they disappeared into the distance as they left he city's center. Down a lonely road sat his guardian's home, light still on with the knowing fury his charge wasn't home. A tight anxiety twisted in Frank's gut as the thought of going back in his current state would spell terrible end to an already shitty night.

"Keep driving." He directed in a low tone.

"Why?" The car slowed a little as they coasted by his place, seeing the pacing figure of Clive making a shadow dance across the curtains.

"Cause I said so- take me to your place."

The forward press of his command made a harsh tension run down her spine, "I can't do that."

"And I can't go back there- take me to Joe's then if you're not gonna let me come over."

Taking off back the way she came, she rolled it over in her head if she wanted to give up the opportunity presented. It would be easy to get him in, maybe not so to get him back out in the morning without raising every parental alarm possible. A slow draw filled her lungs as she turned for her place, letting a smirk crawl across his lips at the silent realization.

Hushed steps of his squeaking sneakers crept through the halls of her home, having her lead him up to her bedroom tucked away in the back corner of the house. Being met with the obvious size of her family's wealth almost made him dizzy as she closed the door behind them, briefly considering snatching something on his way out.

"My bathroom is behind that door if you wanna warm up a little." She said quietly, "I'll get you a dry shirt, okay?"

Nodding to her instruction, he shed his wet clothes in there, leaving the door cracked for her to leave the dry garments. Grabbing the largest shirt she could find in her closet, she brought it back over to the bathroom, opening the door to the steamy space. She knew she shouldn't look, but the overwhelming urge to strike a glance at his blurred frame through the hazed glass to her shower was too great. Sweat collected in her palms as she quickly admired the censored look at him she got as she gathered his soaked clothing.

"Don't you have a camera or somethin'?" He chuckled, not turning to acknowledge her directly.

"Sorry!" She snapped before quickly retreating back to her room to hang up the collected clothes to dry without suspicion from the rest of her family.

Laying into the cushion of her bed, the wave of fatigue from having her sleep interrupted crushed her as her eyes closed with the weight of sleep. When the wrap of his arm over her waist and up her chest to pull her against his woke her, she could already feel the urgency of something else rubbing against her rear. Half asleep, she let her hips move with the slight gyration of his into the plush of her ass as an amused huff from him echoed through the darkness of her mind.

"You finally gonna let me fuck you?" He murmured against her ear in a hot breath.

She met him with a quiet groan, "I'm not even alive right now.."

His wandering hand slipped under the cover of her tee to grip at the soft of her breast, earning a gentle sound from her at his warmth. There was no sign of him really laying off as she continued to move and gasp under the swirling fingerprint teasing her nipple and his heavy kisses littering her neck.

"You can't help yourself- can you?" She whispered against the rub of his excitement just urged the moment further.

"I've got you all to myself now, why the fuck would I stop?" He let a groan punctuate his words as he let a hard push of his hips make her shiver.

"Because-" She turned around in his hold to face him, "I don't want my first time with you while I'm a zombie. I wanna enjoy it too, ya know?"

He nodded a little as he listened to her go on, still keeping his weighted gaze on her lips as she spoke, "Just- chill until morning, okay?"

"Mm.. fine. I'm not leavin' until I hit it though, just sayin'."

"Jesus Christ- don't say stuff like that." She huffed with a light shove to his chest as an amused snort left him.

[plounce]

JUST READ YR DR WHO WDMK AU CONCEPT AGAIN AND IM SO EMO THANKS

THANK YOU IT IS CLASSIC ROB MOLLYGLOCK FARE………. also im still just so like. hrmmmmgh. about the fact that the third time caleb sees molly is the last time molly sees him. because Molly Dies Saving Him And Nott. and molly having to hide how used to caleb he is, and having to pretend he’s not as comfortably besotted & happy to see him as he actually is because no spoilers!

i am also so like… into caleb seeing molly again after he died for the first time on molly’s end, and on the one hand there’s excitable gung-ho jester SO excited about the carnival and the mystery and the running around the market planet that they’re doing… but also her shabby chaperone/chauffeur who just can’t stop Staring at him? and molly loves attention/being paid attention to, but it’s so much more than the gawking/ogling he’s gotten in the past, because… well. WE know why. but caleb is much better at hiding that he Knows molly than molly ever was vice versa

(more under the cut because god if i am anything but a big stupid rambling dumbass)

and then caleb pulls some heroics (although of course jester saves the day) and molly is like oh this guy is Cool! (because before that caleb was barely talking (because he was coming to terms with like. Molly Is Here And Oh God I’m Gonna Be In Love With Him/Am Falling In Love With Him n all)

and then the carnival falls apart and molly realizes that jester WASN’T stretching the truth about how caleb here has a time and space traveling machine, and caleb hesitantly (because he’s afraid of maybe doing something he’s not actually Supposed to do) volunteering to try to fix the vortex manipulator gustav gave molly before he was arrested, and molly hops at the chance to get outta here! especially because he has found out that the planet has some people who Knew him before he was molly.

caleb slowly but faithfully works on the vortex manipulator when they have downtime, trying to stop himself from working too slow but also working too fast - adds in some features he can remember molly mentioning/using that aren’t present in the original device he has in his hands - and they adventure through the cosmos.

at some point molly finds his coat in one of the closets (see the first post) and caleb was certain that he’d closed off that room to prevent paradoxes, but molly comes swanning into the console room with the tattered burnt thing, eyes alight with delight and asking hey can i have this? it’s outrageous! and caleb can do nothing but stop and stare and have gears turn in his head, until molly goes so… that’s a no? and caleb sputters for a moment and then finds himself saying ja, ja, it is all yours. it is very… you.

after that, it’s a common sight to find molly stitching and repairing the thing, filling in the holes and rips with exotic fabrics and threads he finds around the universe, making it all his (and such, exactly as it looked in caleb’s memory, but cleaner and more whole). caleb doesn’t say anything except prompted-by-jester compliments on what a great job molly is doing with it, and he wonders.

one of the “episodes” in the jester&molly companionship involves molly being Kidnapped! by the tomb takers. or some kind of thing involving lucien coming back to bite him. and caleb almost tries to just escape (because he’s trying to outrun the hurt he’s going to have when molly leaves him for the “first” time and for “later” when he leaves him by dying) and jester is like NO you fucking NUMBNUTS im gonna CRASH THIS SPACESHIP IF U DO THAT! HE’S DEPENDING ON US and caleb is like oh god of course. christ alive what was i thinking i’m the worst. and he does the right thing, because of course, he wouldn’t be caleb if he didn’t eventually do the right thing, no matter how tempted he is by selfish running

molly doesn’t leave right after that but it’s sort of the beginning of the end of the jester&molly era. there’s some more filler and then one more big adventure where molly gets to be the one who saves the day and there’s like… a moment where one of them is knocked out and the other like. strokes their cheek. U Know. or smth like that that indicates the beginning of the blossoming of Real Concrete Feelings.

i think it might be molly who does that to caleb because i think caleb has been having little moments like that throughout the season? because he already had time to see molly being great - to see molly in love with him (i think it’s kind of easier to fall in love with someone when they’re already in love with you (not in a Bad way - you get what i mean)) - while this is molly first seeing caleb and discovering all the things he likes about him. because molly always falls for caleb faster than caleb falls for molly.

oh ok here’s a sample idea - caleb falls in some fashion, molly runs to him, checks he’s still breathing - but The Plot Timer is still ticking so he consciously stops himself from fretting and mutters to himself “time for that later” and kisses caleb on the forehead So sweetly (u know.) and then runs back to the plot

after that, caleb realizes there’s nothing else he can do for the vortex manipulator, and molly is in the console room sewing or embroidering or darning socks or whatever, and caleb clears his throat and says “mr. mollymauk” and molly visibly perks up, and caleb thinks to himself, so fondly, he has never been able to hide it. and then he puts his fondness away and says “i believe i have repaired gustav’s device.”

and molly brightens, and then his face falls for a moment, and then he makes himself smile again and goes over to caleb, who shows him how to make it work, all while molly leans against him and watches.

one of the filler eps yasha appears! caleb and nott met her at some point before molly - caleb didn’t know she and molly were close until molly’s first meeting. i think she has like… uncontrollable space travelling herself. made of stardust or something. weird scifi stuff (handwave). i like the idea of her slowly starting to shimmer like on her hand or something and knowing that soon she’ll sort of dissolve into glitter like she’s being beamed up in star trek.

anyway we get to see a private conversation between them where molly talks about all these Funny Feelings he’s having and how he’s kind of scared of them and how he doesn’t think caleb would be comfortable travelling with him if he knew about them. he’s never felt like this before, and it’s… it’s weird. he doesn’t want his happiness to hinge so much on someone else. despite everything, he has a very strong instinct to flee responsibility and commitment, and that instinct is at war with his affection for his traveling companions.

so yasha offers to travel with him for awhile when caleb finishes fixing gustav’s device, as long as she can - she thinks caleb and jester get into a lot of very serious fun, and does molly even want to get into that many world-shattering ethical dilemmas a month? molly laughs, says yeah, you got me, i’m kind of thinking about splitting off on my own to… sort all this out in myself. and it wasn’t fun to have a target painted on jester and caleb’s backs because of shit lucien did. that’s not their problem.

he thinks that maybe one thing he’ll try to do - as he stumbles across it, of course, he’s not gonna devote his whole life - is stamping out lucien’s bloodstained and corrupted legacy (this is in part because he spent this season being around caleb and learning that like… you should help fix the past, doesn’t have to be atonement, but you should do what you can where you can with what you have to right wrongs). he’s kind of scared of being alone but he’s met so many people on his travels, helped them and made them smile - and he knows

there is always the tardis, somewhere in the universe, with a dear friend inside.

so anyway, yasha sends molly the coordinates of where she is, and caleb gets the tardis to that place, and the four of them hang out for a day or two, one last hurrah. and then … well, time to go! molly likes goodbyes to be easy, doesn’t like drawing them out. “and i’m sure i’ll you see you again someday,” he says, and caleb gives him a crooked smile and replies, in a rare moment of loose lips, “that is very, very likely.”

and molly brightens because he understands by now caleb’s way of talking around his own knowledge, and this goodbye feels easier because it’s not forever. they have a long way ahead of them! how exciting, to know there’s a future, to know the future has friends in it.

as jester says goodbye to yasha, molly tugs caleb away and thanks him for everything, and caleb thanks him for everything - and there’s that look in caleb’s eyes again, like he’s drinking him in like a man headed into a desert, and molly doesn’t quite understand why caleb has always looked at him that but he know it excites him, emboldens him - emboldens him so much that he darts in and kisses caleb, right on the corner of his mouth, closed and chaste but still a kiss.

then he turns to skip away, saying “i look forward to meeting up with you, mr caleb,” trying to make this not a big deal so caleb doesn’t feel pressured or uncomfortable (kind of cursing himself for being an impulsive bastard when he shouldn’t have been), when caleb catches his wrist or arm or whatever, and he says “you too, mr mollymauk,” and he leans in and kisses molly on the cheek. and molly’s giddy and caleb’s a little embarrassed and they’re both just standing there, smiling a little stupidly and just… excited about this Thing between them.

and then jester’s hollering KISS! KISS! KISS! DO A REAL KISS!!!!!! WITH TONGUE!!!!!!!!!!!! and molly’s hollering back YOU HAVE TO PAY FOR A SHOW and caleb’s laughing softly, and oh, he’ll miss this, but there’s so much he knows he hasn’t seen yet, and right now he feels like he can cope with the grief always hanging over him.

[moonraccoon-exe]

I was reading through people's tags this morning and i wanted to personally come thank you for all that you wrote on your ardyn piece... *inhale* IM DYING THAT MADE ME SO HAPPY YOU CANNOT BELIEVE HOW IM UGLY CRYING RN YOU ARE TOO KIND!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH

oH MY gOD it’S YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PEOPLE

CHECK THIS ARTIST OUT

JESUS CHRIST, THEIR ART IS INSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY, OHMYGOD I CAN’T- AHSKDFAGJDLKDJALKGJAD I CHOKED ON OXYGEN AS SOON AS I SAW THIS MAKE IT INTO MY INBOX BECAUSE ¿¿¿??? HOLY MOOGLES ABOVE IN THE CRYSTAL REALM, THIS- MAGNIFICENT ARTIST TALKING TO ME???? LKAJSDKFADLG JADKLGJALKGAJDA LKGADJGADLGJAD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

JEEEEEEEEEEESUSSSSSSSSSSSS CHRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIST

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*EXPLODES INTO A HUNDRED SNOWFLAKES*

THIS IS ONE OF THE CUTEST MOST HEARTFELT ASKS I’VE RECEIVED IN A WHILE IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL AND SO PRETTY I DON’T KNOW HOW TO REACT TO IT BECAUSE BESIDES BEING PRECIOUS AND SO TOUCHING IT’S FROM AN ARTIST THAT LEFT ME WOWEE OMG GASPS BECAUSE OF THEIR STUNNING MESMERIZING INSANELY BEAUTIFUL ART OMG HOW DID THIS HAPPEN I’M FREAKING OUT ASDKJFDKLGJDLAKGJADLKGJDA

OMG PLS DON’T BE CREEPED OUT I JUST HAVE TROUBLES MANAGING MY EMOTIONS AND *DEEP BREATH* I’M SO EXCITED TO BE TALKING WITH YOU BECAUSE WOWEE WHAT AN ARTIST YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!

BEING HONEST, TUMBLR ONLY LETS ME WRITE 30 TAGS, SO I DID STAY SHORT ON EVERYTHING I HAD TO SAY, BUT I MEAN, EVEN IF I HAD INFINITE TAG SPACE, I STILL WOULDN’T HAVE MADE JUSTICE TO YOUR ARTWORK NO MATTER WHAT OR HOW MUCH I SAID BECAUSE HOLY SHIT HAVE YOU LOOKED AT YOUR ART????

HOW DO YOU DETAIL LIKE TAHT!?!?!? ALL THOSE TEXTURES, THE ATTENTIVE COLORING, THE EXQUISITE LINEART, THE HAIR!!! THE HAIR IS ABSOLUTELY INSANE, IDK HOW YOU DO IT, YOU COULD SHOW ME THE PROCESS AND IT WOULD STILL BE BEYOND ME BECAUSE HOLY SHIT, HOW DO YOU DO ALL THAT?!?!?!

LITERALLY EVERY INCH OF YOUR WORK, EVERY LINE AND DOT AND EVERY PIXEL IS INCREDIBLE, IT’S ABSOLUTELY INSANE, WHAT YOU DO MUST HAVE TAKEN YOU YEARS OF PASSION AND HARD WORK AND PRACTICE AND WHAT STUNNING, BREATHTAKING RESULTS, HONESTLY, LIKE WOW MAN FUCK HOW YOU DO THAT.

LIKE, THE DETAILING IS SO MAGNIFICENT AND EXQUISITE, THE LIGHT/SHADE JOB IS UUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH EYEGASM AND HONESTLY I COULD GO ON BUT I LACK ARTIST LANGUAGE AND I WOULD GO ON ABOUT EVERYTHING BECAUSE LITERALLY EVERYTHING IS SO INCREDIBLE AND I’M SORRY FOR RANTING I JUST NEEDED MORE SPACE IN THE TAGS AND YOU GAVE ME A PLACE, SORRY THANKS I’M DONE.

*hyperventilates*

Okay, let me add a keep reading line omg ahahah, I’m sorry this got so long, I’ll be short this time, promise ;w;

So first of all, BESIDES ALL THE THINGS I STILL HAD TO SAY ABOUT YOUR INCREDIBLE ART, you’re welcome!

Second and more important, thank YOU so MUCH!!!! ( ´ ▽ ` ) ZOMG IT MADE ME SO HAPPY TO READ THIS ASK!!!! 

Thank you for taking the time to read the tags. I know it’ll probably sound senseless but sometimes writing in the tags gets exhausting (because I try to do that in everything I reblog), especially when it’s something as incredible as your artwork, everything just hoping that it will make the artist happy. So thank you for taking the time to read them; all my time & energy put there could have easily gone to the void, but you gave them sense. Thank you

Thank you as well for taking the time to drop by to say thanks!! That speaks so nicely about you, you’re so kind. Not all artists drop by to say thanks, and it’s my honor to receive those that do, you among them. Thank you immensely for the time put into writing this, you could have just shrugged it off, but decided to let me know you saw it and that you’re grateful for it. Thank you so much :’3

I’m so, so, SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO very absolutely hyped to know that my comments made you happy!!! YOUR WROTE THAT WITH SUCH SINCERE HYPE OMG I’M A MESS OF EXCITEMENT MYSELF ALSDJLKAGDJAKLJ

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I’M SO HAPPY THAT MY TAGS MADE YOU HAPPY, YOU HAVE NO IDEA!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR REACTING IN SUCH A WAY, IT FEELS SO NICE ASKLDJSKALGJADLKGDAJ 

Thanks a LOT to you as well for sharing your work with us!! I know it takes a lot of everything to get art done, and you deciding to show us is a gift. So thank you for sharing your creativity and INSANE art skills with the world! :D

DEAR ARTIST, THANK YOU AGAIN

KEEP UP THE INCREDIBLE, AMAZING WORK AT CREATING!!!!!!!! (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ

[love-max1982-us]

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Christmas

Christmas” is an Old English word, constructed from the combination of two words, namely “Christ” and “Mass”. The first recorded Old English version of the phrase, “Crīstesmæsse,” dates back to 1038, but by the Middle Ages the term had already morphed into “Cristemasse;” a slightly more modern version of the phrase

Christmas Christ mas ch rist mas chri st mas

Writing the word christmas

Christmas as a child was amazing id always be the first one up at 4am and open up all the presents downstairs id wake my brother up get him out of bed and drag him downstairs the presents from nan and Grandad were always great so many thins nan would buy us by bike being a very memorable one in gold and red a beautiful crimson red it was the best. But it took me years to actually ride it.

Reading the word Christmas

At school Santa would come and i saw him getting dressed one year and though why would he be getting dressed but a few years before that when i sat on his knee at dads work doos i really thought he was Santa for sure i loved it.

Putting up the Christmas decorations i loved it we had some lovely old ones which mum has since thrown away but they would hang on the wall and the tree and i loved doing all that thinking of it now why did i like it so much to get presents because they presents made me feel better about myself? Why the surprise of getting and or giving presents the foods everyone was happy and people gave me lots of things so why was i the most excited person i new i woke all up i like stuff is that why i buy so much now ? Because i like to gift myself all the time to feel that excitement come up within me yes the excitement i live off the excitement i see still now when i buy something i want to all the time, well its time to start being more realistic with what i buy do i need it do i have room for it and so on i jetty need bare essentials really hey.

The decorations in stroud when they’d all go up it was exciting to drive or walk in town they were the best town lights ever i thought at the time a big bell was one every year

All the food and family would come round when very young it would be auntie Pauline and uncle bill or alan and Marion but when uncle bill left auntie Pauline b=Christmas with them finished and it was great ants and uncles the old ones would come for Christmas with my nan and grandad they would stay there and then come over for lunch glades was the best but dont forget your please and thank you lol one year when i was 15 she tried on my Lycra pink legging it was so funny she was funny made everyone laugh.

Saying Christmas out loud

Now I don’t give a fuck about Christmas because you have to do so much as in cooking presents etc and so on and i dont like spending money well I haven’t like spending money but now its a new me and having money flow lol it all seems so much of an effect its like im done with it i dont even put up decorations anymore and only sometimes a tree

Its Christmas time world vision i think it was the song where that money people who were famous sang to save people in Africa and all Christmas songs it seems always made the time like slade in the 70s and so on Christmas songs

We wish you a merry Christmas we wish you a merry Christmas and a happy new year.

When I got older and was working in the hotel i have to work Christmas Day when the family were at home eating dinner with aunts i missed being at home.

There so much around this period it hard to right it all down but basically as a child i loved it and now i cant be bothered ive alway told the girls that Santa isnt real not sure if that’s was for best but they didn’t seem to mind.

Sf

Does this definition support me no it all a big hype why to spend money I don’t mind having the dinner and all and passing presents but thats enough hey thousands of dollars dont have to be spent. And i have a polarity with this word of having excitement come up for Christmas and now thought of do i have to comes up lol

Christmas chris t mus

Christmas

End of December hols where we eat and give gift

Everyday should be like Christmas a day of celebration

How will I live this word? I will live this word as we should celebrate everyday day as a family to love each other be with each other and so on not just one day of the years all days are a celebration with self forgiveness self honesty self awareness

[enaasteria]

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Consolidating asks as to not spam dashboards. Under the cut!

Anonymous said to enaasteria: March 29th 2018, 3:56:00 pm · 2 days ago wanted to drop by and let you know that i've been listening to 'Fool of Me' by Meshell Ndegeocello for more than a week and it reminds me so much of the heartbreaking moment in chapter 11 when Sehun made the decision to leave Ahri behind. imnotcryingyouare. i hope they become like the song 'Cheek to Cheek' (Louis Armstrong & Ella Fitzgerald version) *hinthintwaggleseyebrowswinkwink* hope you have a lovely day <3!

AHHHH REPLIES *-* <3!!! I accept the love you’ve bestowed upon me. I shall violently love you back *SHOOTSHEARTSATYOU* dont worry, I remember the what I wrote in the recs message! I was saying that I’ve been listening to this song ‘Fool of Me’ by Meshell Ndegeocello, which reminded me so much of the end of chapter 11 when Sehun decided to leave Ahri. The heartbreak is so real T_T imnotcryingyouare. I hope they end up being like ‘Cheek to Cheek’ (Ella Fitzgerald & Louis Armstrong version)! - ma

OMG SO APPARENTLY I DIDNT DELETE IT. This is how tumblr inept I am. I thought I did. It showed that I did when I was on the computer but apparently I didn’t on mobile. WEIRD. Listening to it now! 

Both of these songs sound so similar. I feel like I’ve heard them before omg. good recs. I really like them.

Fool of Me by Meshell Ndegeocell

Was I blind to the truth just there to fill the space... What kind of fool am I that you so easily set me aside OMG MY HEART IS BREAKING. Why do the lyrics fit so well. Right off with the first few lyrics. I’m crying. YES I AM CRYING. This was almost the same words she thought in the chapter. Was she there only to temporarily fill the void in Sehun’s heart when she felt it was for Jiyul instead. OH NOOOO.

I can't touch you no more Can't touch you any more any more And this relates to Chapter 12 a lot how she wouldn’t really look at him or touch him and this is so sad. THIS WHOLE SONG IS SO SAD but it’s so fitting to that part when he chose Jiyul over her and IT”S GOING INTO MY APT PLAYLIST.

Cheek to Cheek by Louis Armstrong & Ella Fitzgerald

THIS WHOLE SONG. Can I just say how cute it is??? This just makes me feel like I missed an opportune moment for Sehun and Ahri to dance together at the wedding??? I kind of made it so that it was Soi and Ahri dancing puahahahha. Technically, I should’ve made Sehun and Ahri dance because he tends to dance when he’s nervous about something.

Sooooo BOOOOO I MISSED THE MOMENT. BUT STILL. It’s ok hahahahah But really. This song. The beat. THE CHEEK TO CHEEK. More like forehead to forehead between the two leads. Thank you so much for the recs!!! I loved them so much and can’t wait to add them to my playlist!!

I read chapter 17 till half past 4 in the morning. I had to sleep because i needed to wake up at 9 for a gym session the next morning. But I have sleep problems so I kept waking up throughout the night and reaching for my phone to reread 17 in my sleep-induced haze and dozing off. I had to fake illness and reschedule my gym session in the end xD. I hope my trainer doesn’t see this. HAHAH even when I was half asleep, I kept thinking that I still had so much to tell you about 17!! - ma

OMG MA. WHY DID U STAY UP SO LATEEEE. NUUUUU. Also since your music anon and the abbrev is MA, I literally scream MAAAAA LOOOOL. AND OMGOSHHHH. Please rest. Please sleeeeeep. Your poor thing. i’m so sorry that the story kept waking you up. But I can’t wait to hear your thoughts and really thank you so much. I really can’t appreciate your messages enough. They make me so HAPPPPPYYYY //runs off screaming while drinking my coffeeeeeeeee//

@sehunsmile​ said to enaasteria: March 30th 2018, 11:42:00 pm · 9 hours ago ENA, ENAAAA!!!! I JUST GOT HOME AND I'M FINALLY GONNA READ CHAPTER 17. I'M SO NOT READY BUT I AM! I KNOW I'M GONNA DIE, I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS CHAPTER AND GOD CHAPTER 16 ENDED SO GOOD I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT BUT I'M EXCITED SO I'M GONNA READ IT NOW! SORRY FOR ALL CAPS I'M JUST TOO EXCITED AHFNJABFKSBFLSKFJDKJDFK

YASSSSS. LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK OF IT AND I DONT MIND CAPS LOCK AT ALLLL. IT just shows me you’re really excited and I’m excited for you to read it. Many apologies for how long it took me to write it but I hope you enjoy it. AHHHH TY FOR LIKING CH 16. I remember being really stressed over it because it was so SLOOOOOOOWWWW but yas yas. Please enjoy 17. Thank you for your patience //hearts u//

@heythereitsmo​ said to enaasteria: March 31st 2018, 12:12:00 am · 8 hours ago Oh when Sehun tells Ahri the story of the Keepers, I remembered you wrote a piece about it and it was just — beautiful. I cried then and I cried now because it literally took my breath away. Every chapter is so stunning Ena, every word resonates so deeply in my soul. It wasn’t always easy but they’re happy together and in love and I hope on my own stars that someone will love me the way Sehun loves Ahri — even if there are flaws and hurdles. You wrote this fabulously, love. Fantastic job.

YAS!!! You caught the merge of Keepers into Apt. This and Yua x PCY are all other stories I’m working on and I wanted to weave them into apt for continuity. I like having all my stories intertwine in some manner. It’s fun but also makes my brain want to explode when I have to make it flow right LOL. YOU’RE REALLY GUNNA MAKE ME CRY. Thank you so much for reading. I really remember you as one of the readers staying with this fic for so long. i really think it’s been years for you and I’m so grateful for your patience but also all the support you gave me. I wish you all the love and happiness and thank you for loving my characters as much as I do.

Anonymous said to enaasteria: March 31st 2018, 12:26:00 am · 8 hours ago Okay but Sehun getting provoked by ahri’s ‘other men’ amuses me sooooo much THANK U SO MUCH FOR CH 17 I honestly needed some destressing with an overload of fluff (and that thick tension 😉😏) ☺️💕💓😚

I definitely had to throw in Ahri’s other men to lighten up the mood hahaha. JK JK. I just really love jealous sehun?? I think he’s super sweet and it’s not like he’s like the bad kind of jealousy. He’s just irked??? LOOOL. It’s cute when he’s just agitated. I really hope you love the fluff and slow burn for the kiss LOL

@shewantsmeshesgotme​ said to enaasteria: March 31st 2018, 1:35:00 am · 7 hours ago I. AM. IN. LOVE. NXKELBFKDLFNFNDNNSKDKFNFBI. I CANT EVEN FORM THOUGHTS IM SO BLOODY IN LOVE OH MY GOD ENA WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME!!?!? You....you are some sort of a genius wizard I can’t even...I’m just broken I love this fucking story so much and YOU I LOVE YOU THANK YOU CHRIST I NEED TO SIT AND STARE AT THE CEILING FOR AN HOUR. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

LORIIIIIIIIIIIIII. THANK YOUUUUU GAHHHH. THANK YOUU SO MUCHHHH. Thank you for your help. Thank you for reading. Thank you for the screams. IM NOT A GENIUS WIZARD. YOU ARE. BUT THANK YOUUUU. Really thank you so much for reading this fic and DONT STARE AT THE CEILING. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS. Now that I finished 17, I can get to reading all the fics that are sitting in my backlog and I really want to read all of yours. I really need to read The Boxer. It’s on my to do list foreverrrrrrr. hugss!!!

@yeolieminelli​ said to enaasteria: March 31st 2018, 2:25:00 am · 6 hours ago HUHUHU. Just finished Ch. 17 😭 It's beautiful. How the each traditional family story just made sense for Ahri and Sehun ❤❤❤ Thank you for writing such a beuatiful chapter for both of them. You are a great writer dear. 😁😁😁 On a side note- I was listening to an instrumental that fit so well for the last part of Sehun's surprise, it felt even more magical. I wish I could share it with you, if I discover how. 😂

YAYYYY!!! I”M SO GLAD U ENJOYED ITTT. RIGHT? I’ve had that ending in my head for 3 years now and it’s finally there. It’s finally written and can I place a pat on my back for it because I thought it was fitting for their story too. Thank you so much for your help on it and thank you for reading. What instrumental?? You can send me the title and I can look it up on YT to add to my Apt Song Rec list!!

ramblingpeaches said to enaasteria: @ramblingpeaches I CANT TAG U WHY March 31st 2018, 3:07:00 am · 5 hours ago that was such a beautiful chapter! so worth the wait- no actually way more than that! you honestly have such a way with words. your writing, your story has made me feel a bunch of emotions and you're just so so talented that i feel like i can't properly express how much i adore your writing and hope this somewhat conveys it haha. thank you for an amazing chapter, definitely made my morning! :) ♡

Thank you so much for this message! I’m so glad you thought it was worth the wait. I’m so sorry it took so long to write but I’m such a slow writer. AND I HAVE A WAY WITH WORDS. AHHHHH //SCREAMS// You’re so kind to me and this is really such a great message because it just makes all the screams worth it. AND NOOO. REALLY. You’ve done so much for me. If you read and send me a message of how you enjoyed the chapter, that really just makes my heart swell. Thank you so much for reading!!!

@yeollieollie said to enaasteria: March 31st 2018, 3:23:00 am · 5 hours ago Omg my heart that was the cutest thing ever why can’t that happen to meeee amazing!!!

Thank you so much for reading!! Wasn’t it??? It’s the most romantic thing I’ve ever written in my entire life and I kind of don’t know what to do with myself anymore LOL.

Anonymous said to enaasteria: March 31st 2018, 5:11:00 am · 3 hours ago hi chap 17 was full of fluff i literally died after reading it 💗 tq for writing such a wonderful story! :) also! how old are sehun and ahri in this story?

ANONNN. Did you know I screamed a lot while writing this chapter. I felt so bad for my followers on Twitter. They felt the main grunt of it all ahhahahaha. I almost died writing this. My heart hurt so bad from it all T_____T Thank you so much for reading and as for their ages. I heavily---HEAVILYYYY aged Sehun in this because I felt I needed his character a bit older than how he was. And since I started this fic 3 years ago, I really did age this poor boy LOL. He’s 29 and she’s 27 in the story. :)

[vakariansmonocle]

@scriptuurient have some gay shit u lil fckr <3

it’s a lil gay and probs a lil long & maybe a lil sad. but have - have a good read

i lied it’s really long and REALLY gay.

A year ago, around this time, my life was kind of in shambles and I wasn’t okay. I was hanging onto the wrong people — Person. A mistake. 

A year ago, my mother tried to kill my father. 

A year ago, that person tore apart my progress, my writing, my art and my mental health. They tore me apart, and i didn’t realize it. or maybe i did, but feeling loved is uh. Rare for me. 

A bad time really, all around. 

But almost a year ago, got a month to go, I met an amazing person. I met my friend Lucas. Now you may be asking, why’s this important? 

Other than he’s really important to me, it’s probably one of the most important moments of my life. 

A list of Reasons Why I love Lucas & Why he’s so Important to me: 

1. i think like him being in my life is not just extremely important because i love him?? but because like the friendship we’ve had has helped me really sort of feel loved by everyone who does love me. I know it probably sounds weird, and maybe it’s cruel. But i relied really heavily on someone praising me and having some love for me more than what my friends could offer. Because that was, and sometimes still is, the ideology drilled in my head. But being friends with him has slowly really helped me moved passed that. Like bein friends with him was literally like, here’s this light in your life. But here’s the other’s who have been there the whole time. and that’s EXTREMELY important to realize when you’re dealing with traumas and depression. 

I know i still struggle with a LOT but i am aware that i’m not completely alone because this one fckn person scrambled over all the stupid walls and p much metaphorically gave me a hug and told me i mattered to him. 

It was like. he hugged me and i Felt it. For once. 

Which sounds so cold to me every time i think about it. How little i’ve really felt the love of my friends and people who care about me. Legitimately it’s the worst. But it’s not that way now. It’s not that way now. and I refuse to go back to that. 

2. It’s this same feeling of feeling that importance to everyone, but on a smaller scale.  Because I tend to ramble a lot I tend to over express myself and it takes a lot for me to not fckn feel like shit afterwards. And this is something i’ll struggle with for awhile. But like, Lucas also rambles to me and talks to me and vents and it’s. Good. It feels so balanced and easy most of the time. Granted, we’ll still apologize to each other but it’s more instinct for me than actually really feeling it (most of the time.) 

It’s the small, ‘it’s okay! i don’t mind’ & ‘no it’s okay! i appreciate it.’  and continuing the ramblings that really helps. and god im crying about it right now christ. but it’s that important to me honestly. it means so much to hear that it’s okay. that’ i’m okay more importantly. It’s like shushing that part of my brain that goes into a full blown panic for rambling that makes him so ?? so good for me. 

3. For almost a Year we’ve talked nearly every day. I mean like literally we have talked every day. Even if it was a brief ‘hey i love you’ because of whatever reason. But we’ve literally talked so much. It’s so consistent and comfortable. And I’m honestly really excited to talk with him verbally?? Because god it’ll be so good for me. because like       a.) socializing verbally is not a good skill of mine       b.) i wanna talk to him like all the time        c.) i can get use to talking with him verbally and feel at ease which helps with see a. 

  But like honestly that’s been the best part, ya know? Feeling like this is just part of my day to day. That it’s something good and like, we don’t have to talk all the time?? and that’s so good lmao. It’s so good. Good on my soul and my fucking psyche. God i love it. 

Like I love talking to him??? I love talking about oc’s and ships and random shit!! i love talking about gender stuff and life stuff!! i love when he talks about rocks and minerals and space!! i love when he rambles to me about things he loves!! and i know this ties into 2. but its so important to point this part out on its own okay. I love!!! i LOVEEEEE when he talks to me about everything!!! i love feeling that he trusts me to vent to me and i love feeling that he wants me to know things about his life!! i love when we talk about what we’re going to do when we hang out because, pOINTS AT 1!!! It feels so good!!! it feels so good to feel included in his life and it feels so good to know and talk about how he wants MEEEE in his LIFEEEE!!!! that’s so amazing y’all it’s so good it feels so good helps when i get fucked up!

4. i’m a big gay?

Is that a good reason. 

this is all really gay. 

But i mean honestly it’s so good to feel okay to feel this gay?? Like all of these tie into each other, honestly. But I love feeling gay, and okay for it. I know what does this have to deal with my boy? Well you see... My love and care for him... It’s gay. Gay as heck. 

I wanna pick him up like a suitcase. 

I wanna carry him when he’s tired. 

I wanna help him learn handy dandy skills. 

I wanna be there for him as long as i can, and as long as he wants me here.

i wanna carry him down the street in fuck boy outfits together so he can be like ‘MOVE, WE’RE GAY’ 

I wanna look at the stars, and then at him while he rambles about them, and be like ‘wow you’re gay for space’ so he can, in turn, be like ‘oh no you found me out....’ and i can smooch his fucking forehead and call him a big nerd

i wanna be able to wake up to him curled up on me because i am a fckn personal heater 

I want all of this because I love him, and i think he deserves so much and i want to help get him all of it. I want to help him reach these goals and dreams because I love him so much and he’s my best fucking friend. 

So it’s SUPER gay. 

5. Every time i think about how much i want to be there for him gives me another quarter in the game of life y’all. It puts fucking money in the slot to keep me going. It is a goddamn lifeline that has helped me grab onto a life i want to live. 

Like. 

If i didn’t have him? I wouldn’t fucking see shit the same. I wouldn’t feel loved by my friends. I wouldn’t have this progress in getting better. I wouldn’t be looking at places in denver for myself, and wanting to plan out a life i wanna live. I wouldn’t be trying with nearly the same amount of want or need to live. I’d be existing, and drifting. It wouldn’t be the same 

and you might be like, aeron that’s absurd. that’s a lil much.

But no. it’s really not it’s REALLY not. I cannot imagine myself without this friendship because it has helped me so much. Do you know what it’s like to look forward to talking to someone as soon as you wake up? Like literally, I don’t know if he sees me post something or what. but every day he sends me a message almost exactly when i get up. and it feels good having this.

if i didn’t have him there to help me out when others, by no fault of their own, couldn’t? i literally don’t think I’d be here as well as i am. Maybe i’m exaggerating because i don’t know. Maybe I’m letting my emotions have this too much but i don’t care!!! I don’t!! I don’t know what my life would be like without him, but i can tell you this right now: I would not be me  and I would not have felt the same. I would not be feeling things as well. & I really don’t want to know at all what it’d be like without him in my life.

people forget how important that little push is. It literally takes one person to kick start a bit of your brain. One person to pull out a twist in the cables. One person to help you to your feet and give you understanding of things. To help you know that this is what something’s like.

so. 

I love Lucas. I love him. I love him and i am proud of him. I am so proud of you honey. I am so excited to see you grow and learn. I’m so excited to see you live, live show edition: Lucas watches spooky shit at 2am and we eat starbursts by the handfuls. 

I’m so happy I know you. I’m so happy you let me in your life, luke. like god I’m. 

Im gay and i’m happy and i’m so excited to see you grow and just!! all of it!!! you’re so wonderful and i’m gonna be here for you, okay? Whole way. In this together & not leaving anytime soon. 

& i apologize if this was a lot or stepped too much?? lemme know okay? 

TL;DR: I love you and you’re friendship with me has been critical to my steps in recovery and I’m gay. 

[saunterfics]

picture this: dadsona jumping in craig's shower after a workout 👀👀👀

(I’m gonna answer the asks I’ve gotten these past two weeks in this post so it’ll be under the read more. I apologize I’m terrible at responding bc I always think I want to respond with more specific things to requests but maybe I shouldn’t keep hoarding asks…)

Craig would be so surprised lbr. But if you’re implying shower sex, then yes. Somehow instead of smexy I can only think of…angst…? Like 1) Craig might actually be annoyed bc he’s always so busy and he has a lot of work and stuff to get to after a shower so like, please, don’t? or 2) he does indulge in you and damn that was HOT but then he realizes he spent too much time there and starts to criticize himself for leaving River alone for too long, etc and blames himself for not being disciplined enough now that he allows himself to relax and actually be with you…? He’s someone who probably thinks too much bc he’s trying to set the bar so high and seriously. He needs to chill. 

Anon said: Will you write more Ddadds fanfics? Maybe something dirty, rough, fast with Robert? Or include some kinks, like chocking (with your hands) or rimming with any other character? 

Yes…maybe? I should? I just got really busy and haven’t been playing the game and then started losing the inspiration? I also usually browse tumblr on my phone, which doesn’t have blacklisting, so I’ve been avoiding it tbh because I am into Craig and also Robert, and tbh I like consuming content about Robert more, but I’d noticed quite the increase of Joseph/Robert stuff in there and I’m really not comfortable with that pairing so I’d rather not chance seeing it. Idk, the extent of my distaste for that kinda hit me all at once so…sigh. It just also feels very fetish-y too so that really nags at me. 

Anyways. Choking? Seriously? Hell yeah. Holy shit. I’m not into rimming myself, and I’m just indifferent to it so I don’t think I have the abilities to make it good. And something rough, fast, and dirty with Robert will most likely be when Dadsona is just “a tad” tipsy and he’s riling Robert on with dirty talk and esp calling him “daddy” and Robert just growls and holds you down but you’re just smirking up at him and continue to tempt him and he just. Can’t fucking handle you Jesus fucking Christ. (I also like someone’s hc I saw a while back about how Robert doesn’t actually enjoy sex all that much seeing as if you ever have sex with him he just chucks you out the window and all) so I like the thought that Robert slowly gets into sex more because he’s into you and it’s fun and Robert likes games and he quite likes the control play that you guys get into. 

Anon said: Concept – Robert getting hella excited to show dadsona his whole knife collection and the story behind each one ,,, what do you think

I think it’s cool…? But I personally would be more like “uh okay” tbh (I’m not a good partner to have let me tell you straight)…I’m not creative so I can’t think of what the cool stories would be behind his knives? Especially if there isn’t much to go off of on why he has them? I also don’t understand the notion of collecting things so…i’m sorry. 

Anon said: SO EXCITED FOR MORE KNIFE DAD, the first time dom robert stuff was super hot and endearing but i am so ready for FEELINGS, i can’t even tell you. (also don’t worry about the roseph requests, your writing should be for you first and foremost ❤︎)

I’M SORRY IF I’VE DISAPPOINTED YOU IN NOT PRODUCING MORE KNIFE DAD IN A WHILE. Anyways, thank you?? First time Dom!Robert will always be super cute in my heart. I had a lot of feels earlier this month but then it kinda got…knocked down several levels because of the Roseph stuff and how uncomfortable it made me? Like, it came as a shock with how much it affected me. I’m still kinda shocked, to be honest. So thank you for understanding that I want to avoid that. 

Anon said: I literally need an crave more Robert with a daddy kink

Lol same. Sorry, but I don’t really have inspiration for it right now? Unless you can give me a more specific scenario?

Brooo, im so glad u made that post abt roseph, some1 had to fckin say it 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

;n; It’s good to know that some people feel the same way. I really don’t like abusive relationships especially under the guise of hot hot BDSM (there’s a reason why I specifically say that I do not write hate!sex, which is a distinction from rough or angry sex). It’s also intriguing to me that most of the people I know who identify as male similarly want to indulge in Dadsona/one of the dads instead of pairing the dads together. I mean, I can’t say much because I try not to interact with the Roseph shippers, and I don’t really look into the other dads, but it’s another reason why it feels fetish-y to me bc why is Roseph hot…? I don’t really want the answer to that I’m just rambling bc someone is on my perspective. 

Anon said: i respect and understand your interpretation, but i personally feel like joseph/robert (roseph) are heavily implied to be exes? like, joseph kind of breaks robert’s heart because minor spoilers: there isn’t really a happy ending with joseph’s route - it always ends with him running away and using mary for an excuse. actually, something quite interesting happens if you date robert twice before going on joseph’s third date - a confrontation of sorts.

Thanks…? Sorry if I’m curt in my reply, but are you trying to voice your opinion in this discussion, or is this a justification on why you ship Roseph…? Because I’m taking it the latter way, and my response will be under that impression. The immediate response I had was, “So what?” because I did express that I don’t like certain implications that Robert was still involved with Joseph, etc. in addition to separate issues that I have with the fact that there’s no way Joseph/Robert can be in a healthy relationship whatsoever, unless I make Joseph a more mature man (than he canonically is, given that he leaves Dadsona in the end regardless, in his route). The fact that they’re implied to be exes means nothing other than add to the fact that Robert is emotionally wounded on many levels, and that he has so much to heal from. It only makes me sad, because this man already seems to be the type who is hard to open his heart, so then you’re telling me that he did open his heart to Joseph, only to have it broken terribly with the lame excuse of “I love you, but I don’t have the balls to leave my wife, whom I have a deteriorating romantic relationship with and that we are not attempting to repair” which implies “you’re still only second place to me, at most.” Not to mention the implications of what it would mean if Robert was previously involved with Joseph, and still is best buds with Mary? Was he still best buds with Mary when he cheated with her spouse? So you’re saying that it’s possible that Mary doesn’t know any of this, and Robert is hiding something this big from her? How much of a burden is that on his shoulders? (Although tbh, I’m more inclined to believe that Mary knows all this shit - she’s not a moron, she’s quite the intuitive woman - and she bonded with Robert over the fact that Joseph is a shit and really, I don’t think she and Joseph are in love anymore. They definitely still care, but the “in love” aspect of romance, that’s not there anymore. But the fact that there are also fan content that depicts that Mary knows and just kinda glosses over the issue by not reacting makes me uncomfortable, as well.) So basically, even if Joseph and Robert are exes, that doesn’t change anything imo. It only solidifies my belief that Joseph needs to man the fuck up and deal (and the fact that I think the game writers really failed in, in terms of representing the complexities of a relationship. They seemed to be on the right track, and then it turned to shit with the only excuse I’ve heard being “why would you want to be a homewrecker” and that’s not valid given that they gave Joseph a route). But anyways, about Joseph, that’s what it means to be an adult - relationships are complicated and there’s no black and white. You’ve got to work with that and keep moving. 

[renrumm]

all!! of!! them!! >:3c

E    V    I    L

Okay buckle up mf you brought this upon yourself…..

(world’s longest post incoming)

1: What is your name and does it mean anything?

it’s Lauren, and there’s not really a story behind it, but it’s origin is like the laurel leaves and all that

2: How long have you known your best friend?

one of my best friends i’ve know since i started primary school at like 4 years old, the others i’ve only known for a few years or less

3: What position do you normally sleep in?

used to sleep on my front but now i sleep in a really awkward, position on my back that wrecks my neck lol

4: Were you a part of any “clique” in high school?

not particularly, i just kinda floated between groups, i was pretty friendly with everyone (or so i like to think)

5: Who was your favourite teacher in high school and why?

oh man, there were a couple who i really liked, one was my last English teacher and the other was a Languages teacher- the English teacher was just a really nice lady and i actually learnt a lot that year despite barely attending. The Languages teacher was super fun and chill and she always tried to get everyone involved 

6: Do you wish to travel a lot?

Not really, i kinda dream about just staying where i am, as boring as that sounds…

7: Did you participate in any sports while in school?

i used to do netball and i was the bowler for the school’s rounders team 9used to have good aim hah)

8: Show a sample of your handwriting:

9: Have you ever given blood?

No, i want to but i haven’t had the chance yet (plus i was having so many blood tests done that i was irrationally afraid i would pass something on if i gave blood before i got solid results)

10: Do you like the way that you grew up?

i think so

11: Do you like your siblings? Why or why not?

oh yeah- i mean, we fight, but all siblings do

12: How did you meet your best friend and why did you become friends?

i met her when we started school, i don’t remember specifics (i was like 4) but we bonded over her pet tortoise

13: Name one movie that made you cry.

i actually cried at The Breakfast Club, weirdly, Brian’s bit really got to me

14: Do you prefer to read poetry, write poetry, or neither?

i’m not a massive fan of poetry, probably because i’m dreadful at writing it. reading it is nice, though

15: Things about someone that you find attractive?

i always seem to fall for people with the same sort of personality traits- really nerdy, kinda shy but also assertive, and funny

I guess musical talent is another thing that i like, but not everyone i’m attracted to plays an instrument

16: What song are you currently listening to?

at the minute i’ve been listening to The Kids Aren’t Alright by Fall Out Boy on repeat for DAYS

17: Have you ever broken a bone? If so, how?

Nope (thankfully)

18: A random memory from you childhood:

i was in a show as the witch from hansel and gretel (i was 8)

cut to opening night, i get pushed into the fake oven with the intention of crawling out of the open back whilst screaming- as if im being cooked- except i forgot i was wearing a tall witches hat with the wig attatched

the hat catches on the oven, falls off, taking my hair with it, so i have to reach back out of the oven, still screaming like a dying old lady, and drag my hat + hair back in with me

19: Where did you grow up?

in Portsmouth, England- it’s a port city on the south coast

20: What was the last thing you watched on tv?

I haven’t watched regular tv in forever, but i was watching Brooklyn Nine Nine with my mum on Netflix last night

21: Do you think you’d make a good parent?

I think i would actually (at least i hope so)

I wouldn’t mind being a mum

22: Would you like to meet any of your Tumblr friends in person?

tbh i don’t really have any tumblr friends, i’m very shit at replying to messages and the last people i spoke to was in the days before messaging so i have no idea what we last said to each other hah

I totally would though, hmu

22: What was the last dream you remember having?

i was on a weird train, i had a kitten in my hands but it kept escaping my grip and i was terrified that it would get hurt- the dream ended when for some reason i had to switch trains and the kitten got left on the platform!!! most stressful and sad dream ever rip

23: When is your birthday?

17th Feb!

24: How many pillows do you sleep with?

2 at the most, sometimes none- i’m no griffin mcelroy

25: Do you wear glasses? If so, how long have you been wearing glasses?

yep! had them since i was 9, i’m incredibly short sighted and it’s terrible!

26: What colour is your hair?

naturally blonde, but i bleached it even lighter for a Mercy cosplay a couple of weeks ago

27: Name 5 facts about your appearance:

- i’m blonde (ha)

- i have really fair skin

- i have dimples

- i have a birthmark on my thigh

-i have a mole on my neck that’s pretty noticable

28: What is your favourite soda?

lemonade or fanta

29: What is a strange talent that you have?

i can put my feet behind my head (like bring them up and over my head, not like touch them to it backwards) I don’t really have any weird talents haha

30: How’s the weather right now?

not really doing much

31: Why did one of your friendships end?

most of my friendships end with us just drifting, thanks to my shitty attendance at college and the last year of secondary school

32: Who do you miss right now?

I miss all my friends who have gone to/are going to uni in the next couple of weeks :(

33: Why did your last relationship end?

i ended it because i got sick and had to keep cancelling plans all the time and they deserved better than that- i don’t regret it at all, they’re really happy now

34: Are you still figuring out who you are?

yeah, i’ve worked through a lot in the last few years and i’m still doing a bit of soul-searching atm

35: Have you ever been admitted to a hospital? Why?

yes, this time last year actually, i had to go in for emergency surgery thanks to some shit i’d had going on for a long time that went undiagnosed and ended up giving me sepsis, so that was fun

36: What is your favourite restaurant?

i don’t really have one, i’ll go anywhere

37: What is word that you always seem to spell wrong?

i always spell wield wrong? I always feel like the i and e should be the other way around for no reason

38: Would ever adopt kids?

totally!

39: What is your favourite kind of pizza?

margherita (i’m a plain bitch)

40: What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?

the list of things i desperately need to get done this week

41: When was the last time you got really really happy and why?

as a last farewell before Uni starts, my friends and I had our usual dnd session, then went for a meal, then went to the pub to do the quiz. It was a really nice night and i had a lot of fun

42: What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?

oh god i literally haven’t eaten anything weird

43: How do you start a conversation?

i don’t!!! i die!!

44: What’s a band you’ve been obsessed with lately?

Fall Out Boy is always a classic, but Barns Courtney is fantastic too

45: Do you come from a family “of money?”

oh definitely not haha

46: Do you have a bucket list?

not really, my bucket list doubles as a “tv shows to watch/books to read/video games to play” list (sad)

47: What is your favourite series of books?

i used to love the Skulduggery Pleasant series (though i haven’t read the latest one!) but i have real soft spots for the Septimus Heap series and the Percy Jackson books

48: When was the last time you laughed so hard your stomach hurt?

the last DnD session was hilarious, always is

49: Where do you go when you’re sad?

my room, i just wrap myself up into a little depressed cocoon and hibernate

50: 5 random facts about yourself:

- i have FAR too many DnD characters made that i’ll probably never get the chance to play as :(

- i don’t own a single matching pair of socks

- i’d love to record a podcast one day

- i’m starting as a vocal coach at a theatre company i used to be in! I’m very excited

- i have a spotify playlist for every mood, video game, tv show, and podcast and i’ll never stop making them!!

JESUS CHRIST THAT TOOK A LONG TIME SORRY FOR THE LONG BORING POST

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Reflection

I am currently sitting in the restroom and I’m hoping no one else needs to use it bc im going to be in here for a while. before i start, i keep getting diarrhea whenever i eat oily or unhealthy foods and it makes me really sad bc it’s limiting a lot of what I can eat or grab. It’s probably just a sign that I need to start meal prepping better but it still makes me pretty upsetti, mom’s spaghetti. :( I keep having to suffer for eating this gr9 food! Anyway,

I am for sure going to tell Eunice on Saturday for dinner. And I really hope she comes through bc it’s definitely something that I need to address. And if she doesn’t come then...I’ll try to tell her in person on Sunday but I know that that is going to be so much harder to do but I hope that I can find it within myself to just do it. And if she doesn’t come then either, then I don’t think I should wait. I think I should just fb message her and tell her that I know and my standpoint and how much I care for her. I really do.

Whenever I see a notification on Facebook, I hope that it’s Andrew. I’m sure that he has no idea how I’ve been wrestling with my thoughts about him and it’s definitely still a process. I for sure want to get to a place where I care so much for him, Sofia, and David that I don’t care if it costs our friendship. I just want them to be saved by Christ so that they will know His love and make it to Heaven. I just need to figure out how to best communicate that to them. And I’m sure it’s by just really loving upon them and leading a life that’s more Christlike and encouraging them to question my fierce loyalty and face in the Lord. Actually, while typing this, he did message our group chat with Sofia and I was really glad. He mentioned the Olympics and we got to talking. And I know it’s only been a day so I shouldn’t be freaking out that we aren’t talking daily but... idk. After the discussion on Saturday, my thoughts are all jumbled up but I’m working on organizing them. I do genuinely want the best for them. 

My day today... I had trouble sleeping last night and it didn’t help that I was up late talking to my sister on the phone for like three hours. And I had spent the majority of my day filing my taxes. I know it’s not a ton of money but I’m planning on using that to open up a savings account and/or a credit card so that I can start building my credit! Of course, filing my taxes will also be way harder from now on too :( I chose to sleep for about an hour and a half to two hours and I regretted it bc I was late to work again and I’m starting to care less but I also do feel bad. But I swear, I never hear my alarms go off! I’m usually so good at waking up to them but now....I just sleep through them! I think I need to change my alarm tones of the time or something so that I can actually get up out of bed when they go off. I’ve definitely been a lot more prone to procrastinating lately and I don’t want to do that. It’s so much better when I just get my work done ASAP and don’t have to worry about it later. Especially since I’m starting to beef up my extracurriculars—what with VBS, joining MAST, and trying to come out to more ASO meetings. I have a lot of ahead of me and if something goes wrong in my life again, I can’t afford to be behind in my work. Which is why I should prep now, get feedback, and do better on my projects. I do feel like I’m struggling right now and I never take the time to read the feedback and learn from it, although I should. I was actually really upset with Jilly today during graphic design bc she kept going back on her word and I’m pretty sure the rest of the room could tell how upset we were after. We did our best to contain it but that stand off tone was definitely there. I was ready to fight her and I kept thinking in my mind that I’m supposed to love and not hate but man, I was so tempted to just sock her in the face. How are we supposed to know what to do if she keeps going back on her word? That’s so unfair for her to grade us so harshly when she’s given us unclear instructions to begin with! It’s maddening! I got home, dropped off some rice at Mulan’s, and headed to the dry cleaners on Wabash. It did look like there were some cheaper stores a bit farther away but I already wanted to check this one out so I went anyway and if it was way too pricey, I would just learn to not go there in the future. But it was actually great! The owner was an older Asian man, I think Korean and I felt a lot better about it. He mentioned the inner seams being torn but either he gave me a discount or just didn’t include it since it said “3 items. 1 seams $0.00″ Whatever the reason, I was nervous it would be upwards $50 - 130 and I was really nervous bc I didn’t want to spent that much money. But it was actually only $20 and I felt so much better. I’ll definitely be returning there soon!

Also, I texted Eliza and it looks like she’s okay with going forward with Cottage Grove. Since her parents would need to pay for both Emily and Eliza, I am a little bit worried but we are getting very close to securing the apartment and I’m pretty excited. I just hope we’re the only applicants so we get it by default, haha. Please let us get this apartment, God! And actually, Loren told me this amazing story about something that happened to my mom. Our mortgage was 5k this month and bc my dad doesn’t have a job yet and we had to pay 2k for Robbin’s funeral, my mom was worried that we wouldn’t be able to make it. When suddenly, she receives a letter in the mail about a lawsuit against Costco from a couple years ago and she received $7k!!! The exact number we needed! God is so good and gracious! Thank you so much, Lord!

And I finally got to talk with Dana today and we didn’t get to go super deep since we were short on time but it was still nice to talk and hear about how she perceived everything and I did try to encourage her to learn to trust the people in Movement bc I think they are a really good community and we are getting better at going deeper and becoming more understanding which I am excited about. But we aren’t there yet. I shared a few stories that I’ve learned about the people in the ministry and I hope it was encouraging to her. I also shared about my own experiences and honestly, halfway through the story, I would forget the point or why I started talking and felt bad that I was making the situation about me instead of how I can best help Dana. I think the best thing I can do is to just pray for her and really be there for her as a sister in Christ.