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EVERYTHING THAT WASN'T INCLUDED IN LOVE SEA THE SERIES 🌊
Episode 4 (Chapters: 12 - 14)
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Breaking a promise
Rak felt like shit here. He had called Mook to extend his stay but his secretary had refused sternly; so after Mut spent two nights pleading for him to stay, Rak tried to find an excuse to keep his promise. He considered telling his secretary that the manuscript wasn't finished, that he needed more time, even considered telling her all the boats had sunk and it was impossible for him to go back to the mainland. But in the end, he had no choice but to admit defeat. He felt terrible for breaking his promise to Mut, meanwhile the younger boy appeared almost unfazed. His face was "just the usual, totally normal one, with the usual smile and the same look. Not a hint of regret."
"If he didn't care, then why would I?"
So Rak picked up his phone and transfered Mut the money for "his services". Now more than ever, Tongrak was convinced that all that had happened between them was just sex. Mut sold his service and Rak had bought it. Nothing he hadn't already done before with other people...
...yet, Rak had "never felt this hollow"
How much would it cost for you to go to Bangkok with me?
That hollow feeling in Rak's chest kept expanding. Memories of the time spent together with Mut flashed through his mind until a sudden warmth urged him to move. Tongrak was confident in his decision, in asking Mut to go with him. However, he still insisted that what he was feeling was not love. That it was just personal pleasure. And if he could afford it, what was the problem?
"The guy sold his service anyway. Right?"
WHAT!!!??
She didn't like this man at all. That's what Mook kept telling herself when she saw the man her boss had brought back with him. He made her feel "as tiny as an ant". Mook had screamed so loud upon hearing what Rak had done, that the airport staff almost came over to ask what was wrong.
"Brought back, as in purchasing?! Are people buying and selling men now?!"
I don't trust you
Mook wanted to back down the moment she met eyes with Mut. She wasn't familiar with men at all, the only men she was close with were her family members and Rak. Mut intimidated her, with his big body and his dark and scary face, so much so it made her want to cry. But no one could be trusted this days, what if this man assaulted Rak? What if he stabbed her boss with a knife in his sleep?
"She had to protect Rak!"
Mut, on the other hand, found her amusing. She was so small, he could "probably blow her away with a puff". But he was never one to bully someone weaker, so he turned to Rak.
"What should i do? If I show respect, she won't back down. But if you tell me to handle her, this little lady won't stand a chance."
Little Trivia: Rak's house
Contrary to the show, Rak's house is on the 27th floor of a very luxurious condo complex in the heart of Bangkok. It has 3 bedrooms, with the main one featuring a large wall window that offered a wonderful view of the bustling streets below. As for the other two bedrooms, one is a guest bedroom and the other one a study crammed with books. As for the kitchen, it is entirely made of Italian marble and has, basically, never been used.
Bro, are you crazy?!
This phone call actually happens after Rak and Mook have already set off to work. Mook had been waiting outside the door to Rak's house as soon as the sun was up, too terrified to enter on her own and find the two men fucking in the living room, so she waited for Mut to let her in. After the secretary and her boss had left, Mut gets a call from Palm. The younger boy kept shouting and calling him crazy, but Mut knew very well what he was doing. Many people would describe him as very mature for his age, but Mut knew he still tended to act childish at times. Just like he had done now. Following a man to the mainland with no plan whatsoever, simply because he was unwilling to let him go. Mahasamut knew that their paths would most likely never cross again, this was the only opportunity he had to keep Tongrak close. And he would not let it go.
Little Trivia pt.2: Mahasamut's age
Mut's age is never explicitly confirmed in the novel, however thanks to Khom we can figure it out. In "Love Sand", the story of Khom and Connor meeting and falling in love takes place when Khom is 19 years old. Many characters of Love Sea appear as side characters, including Palm and Mut. Palm is described as a boy around 17 years old, while Mut is "a few years older than him and around Khom's age". Fast forward to Love Sea (that chronologically takes place a while after the events of Love Sand), Mut describes Khom as his "younger close friend and brother". Also, in the prologue of Love Sea, Tongrak tells us that Khom is a decade younger than him. Since Rak is about to turn 31 and the two boys are around the same age, with Mut being apparently slightly older, Mahasamut should be around 21-22 years old, making the age gap between Mutrak around 9 or 10 years!
DISCLAIMER🚨: I have not read Love Sand, all the infos I have written come from people I know that have read it. Therefore, I apologize if something is incorrect🙇🏽♀️
Can you read the report and understand it?
Fortunately for Mook, Mahasamut had decided to go to the hospital alone and not drag her along. Said report was currently being examined by Tongrak and poor Mook couldn't help but wonder why her boss was smiling like that. How could a report make him so happy? She didn't understand anything of what was written, she didn't know a thing about STDs. How could she, she had never even had sex with anyone. Her confusion faded when Mahasamut explained he was clean, only to be quickly replaced by embarrassment at his next words.
"Maybe next time we can skip the rubber. I promise I'll pull out"
Yet, nothing could prepare her for Rak's answer
"Who said you have to?"
Mut kept teasing Mook for a while after that, while Rak observed them in the distance
"They get along very well. This is nice. The room isn't quiet anymore."
What if I say I won't agree to it?
Mut read the contents of the contract: Tongrak would provide him sixty thousand bahts monthly as compensation and cover all of his living expenses, including housing, food and even education, if he wished to pursue it. However, Mut had obligations as well: not disturbing Rak during working hours, not doing anything Tongrak disliked and, most of all, their relationship would end immediately at the writer's discretion. There was no love, nor commitment included. Mahasamut had to supress a growl in his throat. He disliked what Rak was doing, disliked how he was treating their relationship as if there was nothing but sex between them, nothing but money. But he knew this was the only opportunity he had to get close to Tongrak and he couldn't let it slip away, even if he wouldn't have much time. So, all he could do was clench his fists and hide his thoughts with a perfectly fine smile.
So, you're saying you can love me, Khun Tongrak?
Being very fair-skinned, when all his blood rushed to his face, Rak easily turned a bright red that let everyone know he was blushing. And Mut's words had him blushing hard. Tongrak had experienced every kind of flirtation imaginable from both men and women, but just a few words from Mut were enough to leave him speechless. Had the younger boy not read the contract? Had he not realized there was no emotional attachment between them, only money? How could he be so brazen in asking for love? But, most of all, why the hell did Rak's heart skip a beat?!
Vivi was very impressed by the island boy. She knew there must have been something special between them if Rak had brought him home; just as she knew how much her friend deeply craved for someone's love, even if he refused to admit it.
"You can just call me Vi, no prefix needed. And if Rak ever dumps you, just come to Big Sis. I like you."
"That might be difficult," Mut declined, "I won't let myself get dumped so easily"
And Mahasamut had never been more serious. He wouldn't let Tongrak drift away from him.
"I didn't say you could come in" "But you didn't say I couldn't come in either"
Here Mut actually enters Rak's room and sits on his bed, while the older man is busy playing on his phone. Unable to ignore Mut's gaze any longer, Rak put his phone down and looked up at him.
"That's better. Didn't anyone tell you that when you talk, you should make eye contact with the person you're talking to?"
Finally they talk about the contract, about their conversation downstairs and about how Rak doesn't believe in love, and this all but puts a sad smile on Mut's face. So, the younger boy reaches out to hold Rak's hand and intertwine their fingers.
"I know you don't believe in love, but I never said that I don't [...], you can't stop me from loving you."
Tongrak was at a loss for words. Confusion was written all over his face. He had never dealt with a situation like this before. He had never met anyone who said they'd love him.
👨🏻❤️💋👨🏻
THIS. THIS IS THE MOMENT I HAD BEEN WAITING FOR.
In the novel, this does NOT happen. Or, better said, it is not a kiss on the lips. It's a kiss on Rak's temple. Now, why am i putting so much emphasis on this, you might be asking. I think this is another masterpiece of improv by our ship captain Khun Thitipong. In the novel, there is A LOT of emphasis on the fact that Mut desperately wanted to kiss Rak's lips but, since he had just made a very important speech about pursuing Rak and making him change his mind about love, Mahasamut decided that he couldn't give in to his desire. He wanted the words he had just said to embed themselves in Rak's heart. To make Rak think about him, about them, as more than just what happens in bed, and that is something that would take time. So kissing his lips had to wait. Now, after making this such a big thing, I don't think Mame would just suddenly change her mind for the show. Therefore, if 1+1 is 2 and the shit-eating grin on Fort's face and Peat's eyes are anything to go by, I assume Thitiwhipped decided to take matters into his own hands. Also, it seems Peat hinted at this himself in the reaction video for episode 4: after watching the kiss scene, Peat himself asks Fort if the kiss was scripted or just his improvisation.
Thank you for coming to my ted talk 🫳🏽🎤
#I HAVE RECOVERED#worst experience of my fucking life#but we're cool we're fine we're coping#love sea the series#love sea#fortpeat#mutrak#fort thitipong#peat wasuthorn#khaimook#vivie#vimook#chanyaaya
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I am no longer in pain.
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#fem presenting crowley you're everything to me#as you might know I've been recovering from an injury these past few weeks which is why I couldn't draw as much as usual#been doing a bit better so I wanted to give drawing a try again#while my arm isn't back to normal yet it feels a LOT better than 2 weeks ago#which is a good sign#still gonan take things easy of course#good omens#good omens fanart#crowley#fem crowley#why was one of teh suggestions for that tag fem crocodile#I'll have to look that up#david tennant#crowley fanart#aziracrow#aziracrow fanart#my art#fanart#my good omens art#good omens 2
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alright, this one's a little more silly
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I think that I've only drawn Ford like. 3 times in my entire life. so here's some Fordsy (and some Fiddsy. and a Bill I guess)
[image description: a page of drawings of ford, mcgucket, and bill cipher from gravity falls. near the top are two portraits of ford, one in the gravity falls style and the other in a more realistic style. next to that is a simple doodle of ford and mcgucket smiling and embracing with the caption "old man yaoi!" beneath them. in the bottom left is a simple drawing of a younger ford, and next to that is a drawing of bill with a speech bubble saying "i'm here too! also i'm hatless for spacing reasons". next to that is bill's hat, as well as mcgucket in an orange and brown 70s-style outfit and a braided beard, and he is sitting on the ground, lost in thought. end id]
#i like when people draw recovering fiddlefords. he deserves the world#i think im gettin the hang of fords face#the stans have a very strange head shape to adapt into how i draw but i think i did it well enough#bill is only here bc i couldnt think of anything else to put there and im very tired#doc is tired after finishing a drawing. in other news grass is green#doc talks#my art#gravity falls#ford pines#stanford pines#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddauthor#fordford#why do these two have like 5 dif ship names.#fiddauthor is the best one imo but fordford is pretty funny#ford squared is also one i think. pretty incredible stuff#bill cipher
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I could get the clink for life, or the electric chair. But I don’t want to die a virgin.
#they put crack in this movie I don’t know what to tell u guys#ur just gonna have to bare with me until I recover#lisa frankenstein#Lisa Frankenstein fanart#lisa swallows#lisa x creature#my art#not my ocs
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Doing this bc I’m scared to and won’t on my own
if this gets 5k notes by October 20th, I will tell my dad about my eating disorder and get help to recover + therapist
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if either one of those is broken, I’m reducing the time limit, basically making it less likely to hit the goal on time
FOR CRYING OUT LOUD PLEASE STOP SPAMMING
tagging is okay
Might delete later(sorry!) because I’m scarrredddd, I don’t wanna tell my dad >:l
#Basically I’ve been trying for the past two weeks to recover on my own without having to tell anyone about it and bro I just cant#Jsbsjdhd#It will only be a temporary recovery though heads up#Because I’m not going to get away with this eating disorder for much longer#I’m going to get found out so this is just temporary until I’m an adult#Once I’m an adult I won’t have to worry about getting caught 😌#Ahhh I’ve had this disorder for like a year now I’m sick of it 😭#Okay maybe not temporary#Actually I wouldn’t mind recovering for good actually this sucks#Notes game#note game
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"...why would I become a monster?"
#dungeon meshi#laios touden#falin touden#GUESS WHO IS BACK AND JUST FINISHED DUNGEON MESHI#y'all knew the first thing I did was run to draw the touden siblings I LOVE THEMMMMM#SOMETHING SO WRONG WITH THEM <3 THEY'RE PERFECT <3#fyi for anyone who wanted an update: I have been sick the past few months but recovering now!!#hope to share more art soon!!#more mini dunmeshis... more likely than you think
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Senshi doesn't often cook for other people 🧐
I was heavily inspired by @fruit00's Senshi drawing for the way I drew him! c:
#yall better appreciate me drawing so many male thirst traps 😤 I miss drawing beautiful women#gotta draw some falin to recover 😌#for the record I kinda rushed these bc I was getting sick of workin on them but ideally I would've added a lotta scars on senshi#I was like I shouuuuld do that but I do not want to to spend any more time on this lmao#everyone will just have to settle for flawless skin senshi#maybe it's maybelliiiiine oh wait that's for hair#my art#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#senshi dungeon meshi#senshi#marcille donato#marcille dungeon meshi#dunmeshi
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„It’s as if I had found my long-lost brother!“
#ace attorney#ace attorney fanart#aa#apollo justice#trucy wright#gramarye siblings#Oh how I care them…#Never have I ever recovered from the AA4 Outro#I love them so
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#rdj#marvel#doctor doom#fantastic four#mcu#marvel cinematic universe#the destiel meme#i had to#im sorry i fucking had to#robert downey jr#avengers#the avengers#i have so many thoughts#never forget your roots#especially when you're a recovering marvel stan
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Can you please draw the character that is taking up most of your brain space rn? I’m curious!
I was originally going to go straight to bed after making this other post, but then this ask popped up and I just HAD to stay up and draw Kinger XDD
When I first got into The Amazing Digital Circus, Kinger was one of my favorite characters along side Caine and then later Gummigoo. But after episode 3? Man.. I assumed he had some tragic backstory.. but I didn't expect it to bring me to tears. He's such a wonderful character.. He took my top favorite spot instantly and I don't think any other characters can beat him.
I had also been thinking about making a Digital Circus AU but never really got around to it.. until episode 3.. Kinger single handedly motivated me to scoop up my AU and make a comic about it. Kinger is all I've been thinking about through my other projects and I'm going to craft my AU to make him as happy as possible 🥹🥹💞💞💞
#my response#the amazing digital circus#the amazing digital circus spoilers#tadc kinger#Side note: when Jax said that kinger glows when he holds his breath#I remembered seeing that thing with Pomni and Kingers eyes in the dark and I thought#“ohh haha I know what's gonna happen they're gonna be in the dark and Kinger will go ”HAHEA I CAN FIX IT! :)))“ and he holds his breath-#-and they escape#I was so wrong about what that glowing comment was foreshadowing and I have not emotionally recovered🥲💔
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I've never been more normal in my life.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#jin zixuan#jiang yanli#Both LWJ and JZX are failing so miserably at the deception check in this scene.#The maneuvers are wild. I am putting them into a petri dish.#LWJ yelling at the guy he's madly infatuated with. Who is earnestly asking what's wrong and trying to bridge the gap between you.#Absolute fumble. No wonder WWX is fully convinced this guy hated him. LWJ was dropping all the wrong signs.#No really. If you have a fraught relationship with someone and they yell at you -#-You can't really walk back from that. All you can do is go 'Oh I make this person *miserable* huh?' and leave them be.#And JIN ZIXUAN. My GUY. What were you doing here? Was it nerves?#Like go you for knowing so many snake facts (that is real by the way I didn't make that up).#And true. Some people really do go wild for knowledge dumps. I am assigning JYL as one of those people. To help him recover the fumble.#JZX being a little bit (a lot bit) lame is probably the best thing for his character. I like him just a bit more for this.
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Family bonding time so that Stanford can recover from the trauma he had to endure
(also some Fiddauthor in the corner because after reading BoB I am more into it than before and that's not a stretch)
#gravity falls#the book of bill#stanley pines#stanford pines#gravity falls fanart#fiddauthor#nothing like some quality time with your family to recover from what you had to endure#i also have a couple other ideas in my mind brewing#but we'll get there
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expanding on the thought of kudou getting the call sign 'hero' and afo getting irked by it for some reason
#to afo: devastating! the insignificant lout read you like a sunday strip at the back of a newspaper. How can you ever recover!#this is basically what i imagined when we got this scene from That chapter#i also have So Many Thoughts about the development of yoichi and kudou's relationship in the two months they knew each other#and also how kudou fared after yoichi died#horikoshi you shouldnt have given me so much wiggle room on this part of bnha;s lore who Knows what i might do!#it's the sweet spot of the right amount of canon material and the lack of it to let my imagination run wild#also afo is such an interesting character as soon as this scene hit#i have so many thoughts about him and his relationship with yoichi too#bnha#bnha spoilers#i guess??? for anime-only fans#mha#kudou mha#yoichi shigaraki#kudoichi#oh afo is here too i forgot lmao#afo#my art#fanart
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