#I HATE I HATE UNCERTAINTY
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esto-es-un-error · 4 months ago
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Simmering and simmering in anxiety bc tomorrow is job interview and I thought it was today and I called in for nothing today and I have to call in again tomorrow ahaha
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bread-wizards · 22 days ago
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I think that Orym actually does doubt Imogen, but this isn't a thing that is unique to Imogen. Orym doubts all of them to an extent, because paranoia is something he struggles with (and this is continuously reinforced by the story).
It's not a 'good' thing that he should never get over, nor is it an immoral character flaw that proves he actually hates Imogen. However it's also not something I think he can get over as long as the threat of having to possibly fight his friends exists.
"I have all the faith in the world in you guys, all of you. And I have also spent time thinking how to neutralize each of you."
#cr discourse#critical role#cr3#orym#text post#people talk about orym being hypervigilant and then deny his behaviour created out of that hypervigilance#but also see people being weird about orym due to this. you can dislike him all you want but some people are doing too much#“he hates imogen! she has given him no reason to doubt her! she is good” guys its literally just paranoia#he doesn't need a reason to doubt her nor any of them. he just does due to their uncertainty about everything#this group is impulsive. shown by their 'we are an improv group' response to the question 'whats your plan to stop the end of the world'#this is all in line with oryms usual level of slightly paranoid behaviour which is exasperated and justified by the story#he followed fearne away from camp when she wanted to do something on her own but then she was jumped and nearly killed#that paranoia was proven correct#again the next night when he slept with a sword on his back after fearnes dad threatened to come back and attack her friends#and he was attacked in his sleep (by laudna but at the time he didnt know that)#then imogen told the whole group that she and laudna considered giving into the darkness together#something that both ladies then expressed they wanted orym to take them out if they went too far#this is just a result of all of this#so i think this is a non-issue. if you like it great. if you dont then whatever#just this time it rubbed people the wrong way because of irl hang ups of people valuing their own personal privacy#the same way any kind of mind stuff 'modify memory' or psychic reading of minds without permission rubs me personally the wrong way
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itspileofgoodthings · 2 months ago
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one big thing I’ve learned by 29 is that the Plan, the God’s Plan of it all I mean, is bigger than me and not just bigger than me but also bigger than my understanding of narrative threads and their limitations. And it’s bigger even than just a simple paradox, turning-on-their-head thing way of being bigger. It’s just so vast. And there is so much room for surprise and possibility and hope in that reality.
#again. idk if that makes sense#but I am someone obsessed with the patterns and what the patterns are telling me#and it’s like. sometimes nothing! but also sometimes something!#there is no way to predict what will happen or what will be presented to me or what will unfold#both personally and in a more big picture way#based on what I feel or what I know or what I have already experienced#there are hundreds and millions of different possible combinations#I am making this sound more profound than the revelation is (and also more vague)#but I love to be like ‘oh being this way means THIS thing and this kind of thing always happens to this kind of person’#and actually. it just doesn’t?????? a million different things could happen and do happen every day that are unlikely and unpredictable#even when you think you’ve accounted for that by looking for the unexpected you still can’t tell#and I love that. used to hate that the future was shrouded in mystery#and I still sometimes do. but I am growing to love it#uncertainty and just the sheer not knowing feels better#and God IS surprising. life is surprising!#THAT I feel like I know#every day of my life I wake up and I pry open the blinds and I look out and say.#what is going to happen today#like I do kind of do that a little#or maybe it’s more. what has the night brought.#and you know what the world is so wide. not in terms of me being able to go anywhere travel-wise#or do anything dream-wise. but in terms of what can and DOES unfold every single day/week/month/year.#there are surprises in store! folded tucked away around the next corner#like I just.#I’m getting carried away but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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wheniseeyoucry · 1 month ago
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I keep replaying our moments, trying to find where it all went wrong. Was I blind to the truth? Or was I just hoping for so long that love would be enough to keep us together?
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strikeslip · 1 month ago
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I've been comforting people by telling them how fascism burns itself out, pointing at the history of Germany and Argentina and saying "Ten years. Try to make it ten years." I have not been telling them that Putin's been in power for 26 years, nor have I been pointing out that Francoist Spain lasted 39 years, nor have I talked about the general reinforcement of dictatorships and kleptocracy around the world. The city I live in has been doing crony capitalism for far longer than the alt-right's been around. We, the human race, do not have a fix for these sorts of organizational problems.
There's a bad century coming, with agriculture not ready for climate change, with whole parts of the world ready to go mostly-uninhabitable and with plenty of anger ready and waiting for all the migration that'll be triggered by that. We don't know how people will react to Europe going cold after the AMOC collapse, we don't know how people will react when coastlines around the world go under (China and India's coasts are of particular concern here since they have the most people), and we don't know what it'll look like when the Middle East starts to hit black flag temperatures on the regular and it becomes impossible to step outside for any extended time. There's nowhere to run, and all the governments coming to power on the promises that they can make it better are going to be flailing around desperately as it turns out you can't persuade or bribe an ocean current.
And on the other hand, maybe we'll get fusion working and free energy will revolutionize greenhouse farms. Maybe everyone will have temperature controlled buildings, we'll build water purification plants, and geoengineer swaths of the world to adjust temperature via solar reflection. Maybe the various demographic crashes will rewild massive swaths of land and biotech will bring us new crops and extinct animals and vaccines for cancer and the common cold. Maybe we'll have all those things and the migration and the anger all at once. People are afraid; people are right to be afraid.
If I keep my head down and get lucky, I still expect to lose my social security (and any chance of a comfortable retirement), to lose more than a few of my friends (to distance or otherwise), to need to make it through hurricanes and floods and droughts, to lose access to a great deal of the information I've enjoyed for so much of my life, and to live in fear for many years. I expect riots and repression. In the worst cases, I'm worried about military drafts and rationing and related corruption. I dream of a house with a basement of supplies and a guest room to rent out, to shield myself from these things, but I fear being trapped by investment in a single place. And like so many other people, I'm alone or mostly alone. There's a community or two I'd like to join, but even when I attend their events, I stand on the outskirts and can't see a way in. I'm stubborn; I'll keep trying and likely make some progress eventually, but all the big feelings are outside my range of experience and people can tell. I will always be something of an alien, something of an outsider. Something of an acceptable loss.
People are afraid; people are right to be afraid. And I'm right there with them. I only wish I could see a solution.
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rickybaby · 9 months ago
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“I don’t think it’s fully sunk in …”
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ghostzzy · 2 months ago
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me: fuck what a day
the clock: 1:07pm
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phagodyke · 6 months ago
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still can't get my head around the fact this private prescriber earns more in 15 mins than I do in an entire day of work. and I'm expected to be the one paying into her salary
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i-still-mask-because · 4 months ago
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I'm claiming "Good Luck, Babe!" for us covid cautious lovers.
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kairithemang0 · 5 months ago
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”I want friends” <- eventually hates every friend he ever has
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kangals · 1 year ago
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potential puppy in the forecast for mid-late Feb - nowhere close to a sure thing, but the best chance that I’ve found so far 🤞🤞🤞
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kinnbig · 11 months ago
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🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️
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egg-emperor · 5 months ago
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I really wish I felt the will to live or do anything at all right now. even in the small free time I have I'm too exhausted from non stop pain and fatigue and have no energy to do anything I love so I just sleep. and because of this program I have even more tasks to do everyday sapping my little energy and the stress of how complicated some of it is
and I still have appointments with the other people I'm getting support from unrelated to the program. phone calls luckily. but I swear I scheduled the next to be yesterday yet they decided it should be on the 9th anniversary of my dad's death instead. this is the last day I want to be called over stressful shit. as if I couldn't be any more miserable and upset right now
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markantonys · 9 months ago
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me starting picnic at hanging rock: oooh, madeleine madden wearing pretty clothes and looking beautiful in a period drama? sign me up!
me finishing picnic at hanging rock:
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m00ngbin · 3 months ago
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I always get so sad about the thought that any character from anything I've read/watched/listened to/etc is going to get older. Like what do you mean they're eventually going to get old and die?? What do you mean they're not technically exempt from the experience of living???
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unproduciblesmackdown · 21 days ago
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in yet another W for lovelessness, the concept exists
#for you & for me & for them....#always Zany how yknow people would supposedly look at others Without Love (as an experience in whatever way) as Smhly Pitiable#but generally people are bothered by it in a way where those not experiencing Love properly are contemptible Others#so unsurprisingly the same response as in Any othering. like supposedly ah the pitiably Impoverished; pitiably Disabled....#but that's only for the completely abstract ''true'' victim & even like Guys You Make Up To Get Mad At who are poor are Bad People obv#like completely hypothetically like ah these pathetic souls so worse off than us. we must bravely sympathetize from afar or save them#and then really it's like well if you don't have Family there's romance that must make up for it. no Romance? family must make up for it#then comes Friendship as a fallback if you don't have either. & that if even that fails your Good Personness ought to appeal to strangers#since semi/public existence at work; school; existing in public outside that is totally a Securely Neutral Interpersonal Meritocracy#ah seems if the community (who? what?) doesn't rally around Recognition of your worth then uh. someone doesn't Have worth#or just any situation where there's a Difference to argue against & just make something up like uhh if ppl had babies they wouldnt do this#if people had success in the realm of Family Friendship Dating Marriage they wouldn't do this. surely#like can't imagine you yourself would have worth & not be required to kys in some hypothetical without ''''love'''' in w/e Proper ways?#yet it's the imagined or Actual But Not Listened To / victim blamed / scapegoated isolated parties who totally hate themselves#Or Sure Ought To; you say....#they sure Must have to hate themselves if you think your value is Evinced in what you have but they don't have/want/espouse#just pick any Difference to Argue Against but without engaging in info / reasons in earnest i.e. time to just make up some shit; like#uh i think the reason some people....are comfortable with heights is that they are definitely experiencing it as a Thrill that they ought#to be getting their daily recommended value of through the Exciting Uncertainty of A Friendly Chat but aren't :( get well soon
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