#I GET MY MOM DIDNT WANT TRAFFIC BUT

[evaiskindaweird]

Still thinking about how my mom made me leave the trilogy tour early so traffic wouldn't be hard so I missed Evil and Womb 😭😭😭

[oetscop]

[cosmicqueen10]

Lord forgive me for the cringe fest that is the real me. (Keep reading to get the whole story cause it's a still a lot for me to take in, thnx).

But thank you big sis for recording this which I was unaware of at the time because I was fully glued to Aleks who has bewitched my heart since November because of Lighter from Zenless Zone Zero and then rewatching Solo Leveling S1 but dubbed just to hear his all out performance as Sung Jinwoo.

Him being my first ever celebrity to meet and talk to at my first ever convention literally sent me on Cloud 9. Sorry the audio is kinda hard to hear at some parts. Some of that interaction I don't remember every little detail and some things I forgot or didnt get to say. Like telling him how I wished I could be more stronger and capable like Jinwoo and how he said I can and its all about perspective, I don't remember some of that exactly. I was in such a daze.

This is what I drew for him and Yuri to sign. Took me five days, lots of sleeping shifts between the couch and my bed working on it. Seriously hope to get this laminated ASAP since I did use some colored pencils in this piece and don't want this to smear or worse.

Big sis gave me $200 which means I also could get a print. Plus Lighter is single and not dead. He doodled on it as thanks for me drawing for him and being so modest about me praising him for being an amazing artist himself, I have seen some speedpaint videos of his.

Aleks himself is very cute in person, sweet, modest, and I got to shake his hand after the end of this video cause my sis had to stop recording to take our photos. And let me tell you ... best damn handshake of my life. Warm and calloused to a T. ☺️

I know he doesn't like smiling in photos but tbh my eyes always get too beady like my mom's when I smile in photos.

Out of all the photos I took those two days at Megacon, only like 2 of them I looked decent. Like with Yuri I looked fine. That's a story post for another time.

Got overwhelmed and went to the bathroom a lot those three days cause I was a nervous wreck, slept not so well, and now I'm fully sore and may just hit the hay after posting this.

Overall, Aleks went from being my #2 favorite voice actor to now tied with Yuri as #1. Even though I told him he's #2. I did tell Yuri that as well and asked if he could tell Aleks they're both tied. Honestly those two be busy bees. I'm a face in a sea of tens of thousands weebs. But I needed this, wanted it, despite the not so good moments that happened before and after this ...

Oh the day after I wanted to say hi to him again and update him on the whole #1 thing but his line was more packed and even at closing time the line still be packed. I legit parked myself nearby like a shameful giant ... God if he saw me like that, I doubt it cause again packed line but still 😑. Forcing me and big sis to wait until closing time but after that it lead to us struggling to get an Uber to drive us back to our hotel cause night traffic be hell in Orlando especially before Super Bowl Sunday; I don't get the appeal of it tbh. All cause of my selfish wanting. 🙃 Again, cringe case.

Yeah. This selfish Demon in human flesh is a mess still after all that. But at least meeting him, Yuri and others made me feel alive, free, over the moon and back. And I wish it never ended. I miss it so much. Maybe in another life, I get to have more moments like that with others outside my family. Like friends. And someone very special to me. If only. This moment is my safe haven. Paradise. Heaven.

Aleks Le, if you ever find this post, then thank you. I'll always love and support you and your endeavors. In voice acting and for being your driven, intense, goofy, crazy, beautiful self. With all my ❤️.

[butchgrantcurly]

Random but its really late at night and i looked at the notes in the dndads ep old enough to drive post because its funny haha i giggled

But it reminded me of this youtube video i watched as a kid a few times and now that i think about it it feels insane but like two sisters (like3&6 young kids) want to go somewhere i forgor where and they take there parents keys and drive (video has REALLY bad and obvious green screen) and they drive off a cliff and the younger sister dies and her ghost is like trying to talk to her sister and its all home video 2008 quality like some parents made the video with there actual kids maybe $20 went into the filminh buget and its like 5 minutes long but that video changed me as a child (like 6 with unsupervised internet access) and i felt an emotion that was horrible but i couldn't describe so i kept coming back to try and identify it and theres also this movie called like the littlest angle or something about a kid who dies and gose to heaven and god is like talking him through the grieving process and stuff and that movie also gave me the same weird horrible feeling and turns out i just have a fear of liminal spaces and immortality, and the Christian heaven is practically a liminal space + immortality and i was just having the most intense panic attacks of my life that where so bad i practically shut down and couldn't move out of fear

And anyway thats why im an atheist

LMAO?????? also i have to credit my friend celia for that joke i didnt make it i just stole it 💔

BUT LIKE WAIT BC I WOULD HAVE DREAMS THAT WERE LIKE A SIMILAR CONCEPT AS THAT KIND OF it would be like my mom pulled over our car and got out and kind of disappeared?? i guess? and we were always halfway up the hill and the parking break just stopped working and we would roll down the hill so i had to climb into the front seat (i would get these dreams around like 5-8 years old) and drive the car up the hill to keep me and my little brother from rolling down into oncoming traffic 😭 it was really scary and needless to say i do NOT have my drivers permit yet because im so terrified to drive

[crispy0nion]

Spill the tea

with pleasure. btw this is gonna contain slight mentions of me being a depressed fuck a few years ago. also it's kinda long

ok so, about four years ago during my first year of hs, i met this guy in my class, he was a little shit but we instantly clicked. immediately became best friends, dude basically lived in my house lmao. we went on vacation together that summer, and we had a blast. literally one of the best summers of my life i had sm fun.

second year of hs starts, and suddenly he's not talking to me or any of our friends anymore. literally just ignores us and hangs out with some other guys from our class instead. weird asf, but he was being a real dick so me and my friends quickly dropped the thing and opted for mutual disinterest.

i have no idea how or why, but near the end of the year one of our friends managed to talk with him, and he completely switches up. now he's talking to everyone like nothing happened.

except for me.

he's not talking to me. actually he is actively ignoring my existence. "what an asshole" you'll say. "so did your friends say anything, maybe drop him for acting like that?" lmao. please.

this guy used to be a loser btw. scrawny little guy who would only talk about anime. then after this year of ignoring us, he had suddenly turned into this cool, unbothered guy who will destroy your self confidence in 0.5 seconds if he doesnt like your vibe, but he does so in a " i'm effortlessly funny" way. basically, he's infuriating if you're not his friend. which apparently i wasn't anymore??

so anyways, the point is he's got everyone bouncing on his dick. classmates swarm him like flies to a lamp. he's the coolest guy around, he's so funny. that includes my friends btw. so i spend the third year of highschool feeling like no one actually wanted me around, cause they had him. but i was clinically depressed and i knew that i couldn't handle any more drama, so i said nothing and tried acting like nothing happened, ngl it was pretty pathetic looking back 💀

the thing kinda peaks when we decide to go on a trip together during the summer. that was so shitty bro i wanted to walk in traffic i genuinely felt like they would be having i better time without me there.

but anyways, i survive that somehow. that was early in the summer, i use the rest of it to work of my mental health and by the time my fourth year starts i was doing much better. my friends also stopped being assholes lmao, i suspect they heard me when during the vacation i cried to my mom on the phone for two hours and they felt bad but uhm. regardless. dude was still pretending i didnt exist.

good for him ig. i decide i've been pathetic enough and just start ignoring him the same way he ignored me. the mutual ignoring goes great, i'm doing much better. near the end of the year me and my friends (The Guy wasn't there) get drunk as shit and i decide to bring up this issue. i get some feedback from my friends: one of them tried asking him what happened between us and he answered "go fuck yourself". cool. another person thinks he has a crush on me and is shit at managing it. fair guess but it's an asshole move. someone else says maybe i accidentally hurt him. also a good guess, but i didn't do anything, and if i did, i didn't do it on purpose and he should've said something. overall, we're all confused.

school year ends, we organize another trip. i'm stressed as fuck. then on the first evening, he asks if someone can put his powerbank in their bag cause he doesnt have one, and i offer mine since i was the only one with extra space.

and i guess i broke his brain, because now he's talking to me like the previous two years never happened. which is. wild.

but i decide to be nice and cool about it and go along with it. we're civil to eachother. dare i say he acts weirdly friendly sometimes, which was actually genuinely shocking for me. he literally split his food with me of his own volition. TWO TIMES. wtf???? i also dont get marginalized this time!! i had the best time of my life actually!! my bed almost caught fire but that's a completely different story.

so uhm. i spend the remaining month and a half of summer wondering if he's still gonna be like this when school starts? cause if i know one thing, it's that he might change his mind for no reason.

the answer is no btw. it's like the trip never happened. today was our fifth day and the only time we talked this entire week was when i asked him something about class and he answered LOOKING AT THE PERSON NEXT TO ME. AS IF THAT GUY HAD ASKED THE QUESTION AND NOT ME??

he and the rest of my friends (except for one who wasn't available) are hanging out rn btw. they went to the cinema. "why are you saying they and not us" cuz i didn't get a fucking invite lmao. we're back at the start babeyyyy im going to walk into the sea.

anyways that's the drama. i left out a LOT of details to avoid making a kilometric post but uhm. opinions? do y'all think he got dropped on his head as a child? cause i know i was but i'm not this much of a crazy asshole.

[carelessflower]

PART 6

(Im defo need to rewrite this and post in ao3 with a lot more detail and im writing this with no beta at 4 am with no sleep)

Magnus stood outside holding the duffel bag. He was frozen. Couldn't move. He wanted to run away from the problem.

He texted Raphael to meet him outside the Lightwood Manor.

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"Have you seen Magnus?" Alec asked, its almost half 8, and dinner is getting ready. He looked at his phone and still no reply.

"He looked down earlier." Clary told him, which was not comforting. He took out his phone and ramg him again.

"Hiya its Magnus, Im probably avoiding you, so dont leave a voice message. Unless its Alec, then go right ahead."

"Magnus where are you? Im worried, just call me when you get this." Alec sat on the steps, waiting by the door.

A few minutes past by and the door opened, Magnus standing there, his jacket zipped up.

"Magnus!" Alec pulled him in for a hug.

"Sorry traffic was terriable." Magnus whispered, as he hugged Alec back.

"Im gonna go upstairs and get changed, and it looks like someone needs you." He said, as Tavvy was pulling at Alec's leg.

"Can you play with me. Max is to small and everyone here is no fun." Tavvy pouted, as Magnus walkes upstairs, Johnathan watched, as he followed him up, as Tavvy led Alec to the lounge.

Magnus opened his bedroom door, and unzipped his jacket, he still had a headache, but the neausa and dizziness has passed.

He looked at the faint bruises on his neck. Tracing his finger along the bruise. He went to the closet and grabbed a purple turtleneck and put it on, a knock on the door made him jump.

"Sorry didnt mean to scare you."

Magnus just shot Johnathan a glare, as he straighned his turtleneck and looked at the closet mirror.

No visible brusing.

"What now Johnathan?" He said, as he folded his shirt.

"Where's the duffel bag?"

"My appartment. God whats with the questions."

"Im sorry. I shouldnt have followed you, but you should have told me you were seeing your dad again."

"And what were you going to do? Arrest him? You made things worse you know that!" He wasnt angry at Johnathan, he was angry at himself. He was angry at the cops who were making the case against his dad.

"I know and im sorry, but I was looking out for you. If you dont want to tell me what you and your dad did. Thats fine, but please tell Alec the truth, he should know."

"I told him some parts..He just doesnt need to know yet." Magnus walked past Johnathan and headed downstairs.

Magnus headed to the lounge to see Alec reading Tavvy a book.

"Tavvy come on we are heading home." Mark called out, as Tavvy groaned

"Go and grab your coat Tavvy." Alec tickled him, which made Tavvu laugh and run out of the lounge.

"Are you alright?" Alec said, as Magnus sat beside him.

"Ive been worse." He lied.

"How about tomorrow we go to a nice restaurant just the two of us." Alec said,

"That would be nice." Magnus smiled, resting his head against Alec's.

"Dinner is ready." Maryse called, as the doorbell went.

"Ill get it." Shouted Isabelle.

Max crawled into the lounge, as Alec picked him up.

"Mom fed him so I can put him to bed." Jace announced.

"Do you want to go to uncle Jace." Alec cooed, as Max giggled.

"Take him to bed, put his dino toy in his cot." Alec said handing him over to Jace.

Isabelle came in, followed by an older male.

"Hodge its been a while." Alec smiled, hugging the older man. He hasnt seen Hodge since he was seventeen.

"You gotten taller Alexander. And you must be Magnus Bane." He smiled at Magnus, who smiled back.

"Im going to be staying here fot a bit..so i need to speak to Maryse." Hodge said walking to the kitchen to see Jocelynn ans Maryse talking

Sebastian and Simon were talking about D&D, and Clary and Jace came downstairs, talking about her new job at a small animation studio.

Johnathan pulled Magnus aside.

"Hodge was one of the bosses that was working on your dad's case." Johnathan whispered.

"I thought you werent supposed to tell?"

"Im being a friend here. Take that info, because I find it odd that he turns up after your father." Johnathan whispered, as he went to the kitchen.

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(Short but part 7 date night)

uh oh 😦

[wrdn-tabris]

a little life update :-)

(pls help i need advice)

so

i have this friend. two friends actually. i went to visit them recently (june)

friend 1, lets call her cat had asked friend two, lets call her bee, to move down with her. bee agreed. issues immediately started. bee was off her meds and didnt want to get back on them, and started picking fights with cat, treating her badly and etc bc thats what bee used to do when she still lived with her mom. pick fights when her mood dropped and get into screaming matches (tho its not like her mom didnt also pick fights with her)

cats telling me abt this at this time and i feel bad bc i feel like i wasnt being a good friend mostly bc i didnt have the energy to hear abt how terrible it was going for her. i was going thru a lot when it started which isnt her fault or my fault, but i feel bad for not being more supportive. so cat stopped telling me abt it, bc i didnt know what to do or how to fix things. i thought stuff resolved itself but i went and visited and it hasnt. really.

so i arrive. bee doesnt come with cat to pick me up, which, ok disappointing but i understood she was tired. she didnt come to eat with us either. which also sad

next day cat asks for some rent money to get herself lunch, bc she forgot to make smth to eat before leaving and cat couldnt and wouldnt give their rent money so she could get lunch. so she asked us to bring her lunch from mcdonalds if she ordered somthing bc she had points on the app, and we had to decide tht if we are driving tht far out to where she works we might as well do something over there. cat asks if we should invite her partner with us and i agreed bc i wanted to meet him. we go to pick up her lunch, she asks me to buy her something rather than ordering smth off the app, which, feels :/ to assume ill just buy it for her. i would have if she asked but she just sent me her order. mybe an asshole move of my to say 'uhhh sure if ur able to order it off the app???'

get the food, fight thru traffic to get to her, have to fight thru parking traffic to get out of where she works. we end up visiting this old military fort and hang out for a few hours and when we come back we think bee is asleep. its like. 7:30? 8:00?

so i try to inflate the blow up bed i got for them to use for when they have other guests sleep over and me and cats bf wake her up while im trying to figure out how to work it so she comes out and snaps at us. i apologize for being loud, promise to be quieter but im inflating the air mattress so i might be loud for a few minutes. the ENTIRE time im inflating it shes standing there arms crossed glaring at us and clearing her throat the entire time. and maybe its just me but??? i find that to be a little fucking rude tbqh. me and the bf are guests and its making me feel unwelcome and regretting the money i spent to come visit her. anyways cat comes out from the bathroom bc bee is still there clearing her throat with her arms crossed even after i finished fixing up the air mattress, and its quiet as hell bc me and bf are both uncomfy. cat gets mad and upset bc were guests in their home and she shouldnt be treating her like tht. shes upset we woke her up but surprise surprise shes even MORE upset i met cats partner before hers bc she wanted it to all be 'together' even tho i agreed to meet bf bc i did! want to meet him! and that we went to the fort without her.

anyways.

i apologize to her abt that bc i wanted to meet him but shes like 'no cat knew i wanted to do this thing' which fair.

the rest of the week goes ok. i get to meet her partner and theyre so nice and funny and i was super excited to meet them. we hit off great. we get lunch with one of cats friends, bee remarks abt 'oh i used to get so upset abt ppl being happier than me, enjoyed making ppl unhappy and would go out of my way to do so, bc i didnt like that they were happy and i wasnt' i buy bee a present for her birthday and u kno week ends i go home, and turns out bees partner comes out to her abt some things and bee freaks out, gets super upset and reacts really poorly. starts crying and going off abt being betrayed and etc.

turns out partner breaks up with her the next day bc they were uncomfortable with the reaction and then she starts crying and going off again abt feeling betrayed and upset and wanting to kill herself and tht they told her they loved her and would never leave and etc etc etc amongst other 'its not faiiiir' reactions. i still hold the opinion she was upset bc they broke up with her first.

cat calls her out for her behavior and that shes saying some very inappropriate things and tht ex isnt an awful person. bee ends up demanding all the gifts she gave ex back and wanted to know what ex would be doing with special gifts they got her before they both broke up.

i honestly end up quite. disgusted? with her behavior bc any time she broke up with someone while she lived separately from cat, shed ghost us and wed only get her side of the story. cat all but ends up moving in with her partner bc bee refuses to clean up after herself and keeps making a mess of things and its just a bad living situation.

cat tells bee tht shes not thinking of renewing their lease at the end of the year bc she cant handle living like this and bee lashes out. ends up making a mess of their kitchen and breaking some of cats things.

she also uses special non stick stuff of cats and uses metal on it (which ur not supposed to do) and keeps using cats own dishes and dishes she got from her grandma and doesnt clean them or anything.

my thing is. i dont know what to do. i kinda wanna stop our friendship bc im upset at how shes treating our other mutual friend. but i dont know if i should talk to her bc ive asked cat if i should try and talk to her to get her to see tht shes not being a good friend and cats told me not to, mostly bc she refuses to see shes wrong. im leaning towards wanting to follow her advice bc she has been living with bee but also it feels so scummy not to say anything esp when i know shes going to be going thru a difficult time in the next few months. however if i talk to her, i dont want to cause her to lash out at bee or have any of her things that are still at their apartment broken bc bees already proven to lash out and break other peoples things when shes upset at them, and i dont want to make it any worse for her.

bee would tend to ghost us when she was stll living with her mother, so much so tht we wouldnt hear from her for weeks or months, esp when she was feeling bad. i would try to reach out to her just to make sure she was fucking alive lmao. im worried if i were to reach out and ask abt all this and end with our friendship splitting off, shed do something drastic like hurt herself. i want to reach out and try to salvage what i feel is a dissolving friendship but i also dont want to be friends with this type of person unless shes worked on herself. i still love and care for her but like i know who i would stick by if i had to which... feels bad to say and sucks but th fact is i am closer with cat, mostly bc when bee would ghost us me and cat would still talk and we have more in common.

i want to talk and ask her why she would do and say these things and treat ppl she loves like this but ive been told not to but it would feel wrong not to at least. reach out. i dont know what to do.

AITA?

[gutsypop]

hospital tripping

it starts with us in my school hallways weree giving out something. im w 3 other people. n when we reach the rubbish bin someone said to the other person that he dated his brother. the guy spits out his water. also gru was there somewhere

now im watcing a drama video about this person. TURNS OUT THAT IT WAS NOODLES EX. (i dont think noodle actually has an ex) and like its a minecraft drama video czu of course it is. smhmyhead. and they do an interview with noodle and her username is censored. BUT YEAH. I KNOW A NOODLE WHEN I SEE ONE. and im like uhhhhhh i wanna ask noodle about it. but i dont wnana cuz it seemed recent n they didnt tell me so like. i end up in the hospital.

next section

im in a corn maze n it plays out like pacman in 3rd person back and im like i wanna go everywhere. so eventually i end up on a highway in a car learning how to drive and im connected to another car w my friends parents by a dog leash. so im learning ho wto turn. then they go into the middle field so i go in too and start to relax and i lay down on my back. then the leash breaks. my friends parents say thi is why we have solutions to things. and they fix the leash. but i done caused traffic on the entire highway and everyone was yelling and mad. people start to walk out of their vehicles and complain. someones like "is this why all of [SCHOOL] is leaving" or smth like that and im trying to pick up all my things off the ground. my mom picks me up telling me its time to go. im sobbing and i drop my brushes and she keeps on trying to tell me its time to go. but i told her that we paid for all of these. i have a lot of brushes. and i eventually get all of them. im back in the hospital. the same room as before. i left my notebook in there. i look out the window. its all white and bright. someone visits me. i dont remember or know who. but we were friends.

now im at school. and its all people who also went to the trip. its nighttime there and the lights are all on. it looks nice. i walk thru the 2nd floor hallway. theres some people whispering abt me. i go into the library and sit at a magenta tbale. i cry for a little bit and leave after. i see an old school friend while leaving. we just stare at each other. my friend takes me upstairs and on the top of the stairs are 5 coloring pages with 5 colors. red, green, yellow, blue. she says that not all colors are accurate to the piciture because the fmaily doesnt want to do it. ok but HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS???? PHILOSOPHICAL MUCH??? i go downstairs again and i see that old friend again and we just stare at each other again.

[hollis-exe]

took a nap. had a dream that the local mcdonalds near to my work was demolished and inside of it were dozens of plush toys that my mom made me get rid of when i was 10. when i tried to pick one up i was transported to an infinitely expansive mall (ie: i stood upon the street, and when i looked down in either direction it stretched into the horizon, unbroken) where i was given the responsibility of tending to someone i recognized, but couldn't recall the name of. this stressed me out because they kept wandering near traffic and i didnt know what to call them, so i had to keep physically pulling them away from narrowly getting hit by cars.

we wandered around for a while sampling mall foods. there was an ice cream shop that sold an item called "KING OF ORANGE" which was a 16 ounce cup made from graham cracker with a 2 inch white-chocolate dip around the rim. inside was just layers of orange and lemon curd. it cost 103$ exactly, and i wanted it so so bad. parallel to this, i was being haunted by the dream-memory of a series of books about dragons, and each book in the series took place in a different dragon culture, following the protagonist's journey through the land to find his real home (he was adopted as a young dragon by a bunch of .... herbivores? and was looking to find other dragons like him). the titles were like "MY NAME IS Z, IN THE COURT OF X AND Y" and it was a political thriller, i think. anyway the publisher made a limited range of plushes based on the main characters and while i was trying to tend to that mysterious person i was trying to find these plushes on ebay, and that was really high stakes for some reason.

[pupuseriazag]

Tw: venting (mentions of death trauma, family problems, etc)

I think I am going through another episode like years ago, I have tried my best to keep myself stable and silence the dangerous and panic inducing thoughts but I dont know how much more I will be able to endure.

For those that dont know, I have major anxiety and phobia to death. In 2021 I had to be taken to a psychologist because I broke down in my moms arms, not being able to stop the constant storm of my brain making me panic about how one day Im not going to be here,that I could die any moment and I dont have a guarantee of whats going to happen after that... Its hell, its horrible I love living so much and I know I should already have processed the thoughts... But I cant man. I cant and its horrible to live like this.

I was medicated with anxiety pills (my mom was afraid I could get addicted to antidepression pills until months later another doctor actually prescribed them to me) and ever since I "became better" I've been feeling guilty to ask her to buy me more because I dont want to worry her more.

Before turning 18 I NEVER visioned myself getting to live 24. I cried the early morning I turned 18 because I just didnt knew what to do. I still dont know what to do.

Im at 24 and Im getting let down more and more by life. Situation at home is still shitty and I just... Dont see a way for us to leave here.

Its been 5 fucking years since we began searching for a home to move away from my dad (to clarify: my dad is not physically nor verbally abusive. But he is a cheater, a selfish person and emotionally manipulative jobless liar.) and we cant... We just cant. Everywhere expects you to be paying 400$ a month for a one room apartment or 90k for a home thats falling apart, we cannot afford to move to another departament because of my university and her job. Traffic from other cities like San Marcos, San Martin and even Mejicanos is just too fucking much. Its already too much where we live.

Even if I had a job, we couldnt be able to move somewhere better, we have been stuck here for 5 years, two fucking years taken from covid and 3 to try to stabilize ourselves after that (plus his medical bills after he got kidney stones riiiight after leaving his job, very fucking convenient)

We cant even move to my grandma's or my mom's sister's house. They live on the other side of the country and they have always been very vocal about being against my mom and siding with my dad. And even tho we have the support of some of my dad's sisters... We just cant move to their home.

Everyday I wake up here is like being stuck in a time loop. Every day is the fucking same and I just find a way to distract myself before being yanked back to reality, same with my mom. And you know the worst? I also have to be my moms therapist.

Im tired man, all of this is driving me crazy and the hopelessness I feel when I realize my position is just... Overwhelmingly sad. I hate this life, I hate the life I was given and I hate being brought to a broken family, I hate that my life could have been better if ONLY my dad was not a piece of shit cheating on my mom and putting HIS family side before us, I hate that things could have been so... So much different if only he was a good person. Im not strong enough to continue pretending its not affecting my mental health, no wonder the intrusive thoughts increased these months... These past days.

I feel miserable, I feel worthless, I feel like everything is not worth it. I have insomnia until like 4 am and I panic when I cant find anything I can listen to so I can get some sleep. I havent been able to draw because I dont feel its worth it... I have only been able to distract myself playing and going to uni.

And even putting my family problems aside, I still cant find joy or hope. National news and seeing how this country its being turned into the gringos/politicians playhouse, how even if my life was "better" Im still in danger for being a queer afab person. How people still have blind faith in a fascist regime and money runs lower and lower for the working class meanwhile they proudly announce the inauguration of gentrified beaches and zones of San Salvador, displacing markets and historial establishments to put a fucking starbucks and other multinationals to be more gringo friendly while zones like Apopa and Soyapango are heavily militarized and the police can just say you are linked to the gangs to abuse you.

On top of that coming to terms that I may not end up working in anything art related and having to accept thar if I ever get a job Ill have to rot in an office, seeing how even tho I want to stay away from the norm I feel forced to join it... And that also means having to ""accept my prewritten gender role"".

Everyday that passes feels as if life will force me to live as a straight cis woman or otherwise I will just have to accept being alone the rest of my life.

I know Im being too negative right now, Im letting out how I've been feeling because lately its just been... Too much. Last night I even had a small disagreement with my mom because Im just not in the mood for being her therapist during this we're dealing. I know my dad is an asshole and I know hes using the few money he has to pamper his other woman instead of helping with the bills, I already know he tries to lie to us and acts as the victim. Its tiring to go through the same conversation about him everyday.

So yeah, back to my life... I just wish for some peace you know? I wish for a house where I can actually see the sky from my window and not worrying about at least my family problems. Srry for the sudden emotional explosion

[mytremendouslydangerousstudent]

Stories I Heard Today 11/18/23

My mom's 80 year old aunt told me a story about her mother (my great grandmother) that I had never heard before. We were in the car on the way to a family dinner. She told me my great grandmother had a sister. When they were about 8 they were walking and sat down on a log to rest but didnt realize it had been on fire and was still smoldering underneath. Her sister was consumed by flames and died.

My friend told me they did online dating once, in 2001. The internet was brand new. The guy was in the military. She had been considering joining. He invited her to a bar. She got there and he was with 5 of his miltary buddies. She tried to fit in and at some point went to the restroom down a long hallway. When she came out she ws cornered by 3 of the military friends, physically trapped. She broke free from them, went straight to her date, grabbed the pitcher of beer before him and chugged it. She slammed it down and said to her date Never contact me again. Then got in her car and drove in the wrong direction of traffic. The story ended with saying shortly thereafter 9/11 happened and she lost all interest in joining the military.

Ive been so lost and trying to pursue all avenues of productivity and life that I can to combat it. I'm using a dating app now and am inundated with mediocrity. The only suitor I have considered is a hot mailman who claimed to love cinema and honesty. He reached out to me but did not ask any questions or acknowledge my attempts to insert myself into my replies. He told me he recently lost his drivers license due to a DUI and was waiting to get his hardship license to go back to work. I asked him if he was on the app to pass time while he was off of work since he didnt seem interested in me. His response was: "Mel Gibson got a dui, that didn’t stop him from creating beautiful art."

I will never stop laughing at this. The thing that's broken in me is something so absurd and stupid totally charmed me cause im fascinated by people and wanted to know how this person could be. I fundamentally want to and enjoy wasting my time.

At the farm, a lady told me about how she wanted to see the plants but she was afraid of lizards so wouldn't step foot in the plot. I reasoned with her, saying I hadn't seen any lizards, and anyways that they don't do anything, they're tiny. She laughed and said no, in church someone had tapped her on shoulder from behind and she thought it was a lizard. She said she jumped up and screamed "Lizard!" until her whole congregation was scrambling around in fear and the person who hd tapped her just watched. I had never heard of anyone being afraid of a lizard and couldn't stop teasing her about it. She was sure of her fear and unphased, seeming to find me foolish for not fearing lizards, but pleasantly so.

Similarly, a volunteer marveled that I never wear gloves while working in the dirt. She asked me if I was afraid of disease and I said no I consider dirt to be medicine. She said dirt has made her sick before. I said ok i don't like gloves or umbrellas. She comes all the time and I can't stand her. Later on she said she and her partner were looking at property to buy outside of town. She flashed a zillow ad at me and i zoomed in on the location. I looked at her and said "This is on my street!" and she said "I know!" with a smile. Definitely never told her where I live.

Thanks for reading.

[thoughts-and-more-sadness]

welp im a mom now

I wish i had documented my pregnancy because oh boy. Would I have so much shit to talk. I'm the loneliest fuck in the world. Before and after baby. Everyone kept telling me my friends would leave me after baby and its like bitch what friends. My baby daddy went to his exs house to fix her car 8 months ago. I was like 3 months pregnant. They didnt do anything its just the fact hes a hypocrite and didnt tell me and basically lied by not telling me for 8 months. Thennnnn. He updated his tinder account to his current job. The job he got after we started dating. Thennnn. He got this girls number, a customer, was texting her non stop. Ignored me when i asked who the number was. So i got hella suspicious because he always has a answer. But he ignored me no matter how many times i asked turns out her name is bitchney. She claims nothing happened, and she is gay. When i saw her sending him kiss emojis at 2am. And asking if he was single. He never fucking told me he was talking to a chick. Let alone go to her house when our baby was 3 weeks old. Fucking asshole. I knew he was picking up a lizard from a customer on clinton keith. I wanted him to text me he was safe and when he arrived and everything and he didnt i got so worried he got hurt. When he got home he said 3 girls were there and i was clearly upset because i could never be alone in a apartment with 3 guys so why can he do this. He joked to my face that he fucked all 3 girls. I asked him if he loves this girl. He couldnt answer me. Then when i asked him to get rid of the geckos he got from her. He wouldnt. When i asked him to get rid of the fish he got from her. He wouldnt. Guess what fish got flushed. He dont give a crap that i have to stare at them while breastfeeding his daughter. Thennnnn. What started all this digging and suspicions. Was he went to his sister and seriously asked her. How shed react if he cheated on me and got another girl pregnant. She reacted pissed and said shed cut him out of her life. He was baffled and quiet the whole way home. She was pissed because he was serious. He tried to pretend it was a joke. But it wasnt. He says nothing happened at bitchneys house and he only stood in the doorway but according to my math he wouldve been there an hour. But then he says he stayed late at work and there was traffic. When i confronted him about cheating it was a 6 hour convo and it took him 2 hours of thinking to finally answer me about bitchney. It was like he was trying to think of a lie. He even said that she came on to him, then later said there was nothing happening. He said that he never went to her house and there was no hanging out, when i demanded to see her texts i learned that he went to her house that night she turned 3 weeks. I keep catching him in these lies and he comes up with excuses or says i was a cheater first. BUT I WAS FUCKING PREGNANT. WE WERE STARTING A FAMILY. WHAT THE FUCK. He doesnt fucking love me and it sucks. He shows that to me constantly. I once told him to stop calling me stupid and abusing me verbally and physically because i carried his child. And he tells me to my face that anyone couldve done that for him and its not a big deal. Im so done. I told his entire family about the abuse verbally and physically. About the cheating. They want to kick him out if he doesnt improve and have me stay but i dont want to be here anymore. But now i have Ava i cant just run away.

[fluffycatsposts]

This was a dream I had, and there is more to it. I would like to write part 2, but just let me know what you think.

Tw: guns, virus, lost loved ones, monsters, violence.

There has been an illness around. An illness that people have been warning us about. They tell you to watch who you are talking to, don't trust your family or friends. Youd never know who it might be.

It started on a normal day, just like all the others. We were getting lunch together, when a alarm went off out our phone, warning of an outbreak.

People went crazy, shooting each other without second thought, barricading their homes, raiding stores. No one even knew what the outbreak was. We were told to not go outside, to stay away from other peopl, don't let people in, and especially don't go outside at night.

Weeks would pass, people would be killed, but ultimately, no one in my family had an idea on what the virus was. There was no information and we needed food.

My aunt decided she would be the one to go out, after all, she always took care of the family. She left in her grey jeep, feeling us to stay inside and don't worry about her.

We didnt hear from her for hours, we were worried as the sun started to set. Did she get caught? Did someone shoot her? We thought it was the end until she knocked on the door with bags in her hands. I went to to open the the door when my grandmother stopped me, bringing her finger to her mouth. listening, you could hear her outside breathing heavily.

"Y/n, come open the door" she panted. She coughed a few times after. She sounded sick.

"Y/n come on! I don't want to be out here! Open the door!" She said louder.

My grandmother slowly moved me away from the door, grabbing a rifle of the table as the voice from outside started to bang on the door.

"Let me in!" It yelled, in a deeper voice as the banging got louder, then there was a another sound. Farther away in the distance, that sounded like a call. I could hear the steps walk away from the door and it became silent.

My grandmother didn't let me move for a while until she checked that what was once her daughter was gone, and she grabbed the groceries from the front porch and brought them in.

That was months ago.

Now, I go out scavenging for food when it gets low. Always coming back before dark, sometimes I would get lucky, sometimes I wouldn't. I would rarely see other people, but often kept our distance, saving our ammo.

We were getting low on food again, so I set out in the morning, taking my grandma's red car, having searched a bunch of stores nearby, I would have to go out further today. Which I was okay with, sometimes it was nice to get out of the house.

As I drove, the roads were pretty clear, besides a few pile ups or a line of traffic that I had to drive around. The season was turning to fall, a small chill in the air as the leaves started to fall to the ground. As I parked at a store, I didn't see any signs that anyone had been here for a while so I went in with a flashlight.

Searching for food and essentials, I grabbed a shopping cart and pushed it around as I started to look for what I could get. Grabbing clothes for my grandmother to wear, and food that was canned and didn't get grabbed. I had a good feeling as I around the store until I hear something shuffling in the nearby. Immediately, I thought it was an animal, I've came across plenty while searching stores for food, until it spoke.

"Hello?" Someone asked. It sounded like a little girl. I paused and looked around, not seeing anyone, but I didn't want to respond. "Hello? Are you there? I'm trying to find my mom."

Fuck. I can't just leave a kid out here alone. "Hello?" I responded "where are you?" I asked as I pushed the cart past some aisles.

"Over here" she said from my left in the toy aisle. I looked at her when I saw her. She had dirty clothes and messy hair. A dirty face and was holding a little plushie that she must have gotten from the store.

I crouched down "what you doing in here?" I asked her.

"I followed my mom in here" she answered.

"Yea? What does she look like?" I questioned as I glanced around.

"I don't remember" she mumbled. Instant bells went off on my head. I looked at the girl, shining the light on her a bit more, her eyes were blown. She was infected. I stood up slowly.

"I will go look for her" I said calmly. "You stay here, yea?" I went to go push my cart when she started to get upset.

"I don't want to be alone. Stay with me!" She cried. I didn't miss a beat when I started to push the cart away, walking quickly as her screams and cries got deeper. I glanced behind me and there was a whole monster in now in the aisle that she was in. Now would be the time to run.

Pushing the cart as fast as it would go, I could hear her destroying aisle behind me.

"Don't leave me!" It yelled in a distorted voice as more aisles get pushed or knocked over.

Running out of the store, I fumbled with the keys in my pocket as I tried to pop the trunk.

"Now is not the time for this" I mumbled as I finally get it open. i started to shove things in, glancing at the doors of the store, still hearing things get destroyed inside and it begging me not to leave.

Finally getting everything inside the car, I slammed the trunk closed and start the car. The monster never broke out of the store, ateasy not what I saw as I drove away. I sigh in relief as I look ahead of me on the road to back home.

[ktb-513]

I packed up my car today like I always do for these long road trips. The packing is lighter, but makes my heart feel heavier. .

I cleaned out the back of my car instead of loading up your dog hammock. I vacuumed up your hair in the floorboard instead of packing a bag of your dog food. I wiped off the seats but I left your nose smudges on the window because I can’t bring myself to get rid of the marks you left behind.

This car ride is going to be too quiet. When I stop for gas, It’ll just be for gas. I’ll open one door instead of two and that makes me want to die.

These long trips were bearable because of my backseat companion. When I didnt want to drive anymore for myself, I kept going for you because I knew you couldn’t stand one more minute in the car.

It makes me think about when I made the trip in a panic during the pandemic, only stopping twice. We made record time, and still I stopped to let you run in a field on the side of the interstate.

All of the snacks I got for me, were to pass back a piece to you too.

The ride feels empty and lonely. I slam on the brakes in a traffic jam and I know my luggage is the only thing that will slide forward instead of you.

I pulled up to my parents driveway and I broke. I broke in half and couldn’t catch my breath because for the first time in 6 years, it was just me they were welcoming home. My dad doesn’t open the backseat to let you out, instead my mom opens the driver door to hold me in her arms and let me cry.

Your ashes are in my passenger seat instead of you and it kills me.

I feel like air has been stolen from my lungs. I feel like a piece of me died with you.

I feel like I’ll never feel whole again without you.

I feel like the rest of my life will be doing things without you for the first time.

I have to remember you longer than I knew you.

I used to say I was afraid of death, and I hoped I went to heaven despite my lack of faith.

I don’t say that anymore.

I don’t hope I’ve done enough good to get into heaven, I hope I’ve done enough good to go wherever you are.

At the end of my life, I hope I have you and Jake in my arms for eternity. I hope our family is reunited and made whole again.

[forestryfae]

holy fucking shit is it possible to get more self centered. holy shit.

stepmom called at like 22:30 the first time. didnt answer. clear sign to not fucking call again id say given most normal people are asleep by now. called again like ten minutes later and i thought well maybe its an emergency. surely shes not stupid enough to call twice in the evening around most peoples bedtime. <--- said by someone who was once called by her 7 times in half an hour and all they wanted was either a chat or they bought me a lamp at ikea idfr

nope. shes chatting away and shit asking where i am, whether i want to celebrate christmas with them, fully expecting me to let them help me when i move into an apartment.

first of all lmao wtf. im not asking them for fucking help moving my shit, if i did theyd go to sweden that exact day and be like "oh were in sweden right now but we can come by later :)" like they did when we asked them to maybe come help w the house. dad was tasked with contacting a lawyer for me once too, he promised hed do it he knew how horrible i had it and when we got to the meeting w my support team he told me he hadnt done it. 2 months i waited and he just hadnt bothered. btw i got really sick a few days later. fever, exhaustion, the whole thing.

and then shes like "it must be so nice to have your legal guardian and finally have someone who gets stuff done" yeah well dad was useless and mom was actively hindering me from talking to a lawyer and you and dad knew how bad it was but you didnt do shit to help so. thanks for that ig.

btw letting me stay for a week during christmas does not count. i really want to say im grateful but rn i dont feel grateful. im pissed. they knew how bad it was and did fucking nothing. i talked about how bad it was and they did nothing but try to talk down how bad it was, atleast dad. sure, stepmom defended me sometimes but having my dad say the shit he did and acting like it was no big deal living alone in a rotten cold house w two cats while i was severely depressed and utterly isolated and only helping if he felt like it. holy fucking shit. yeah dude atleast its getting taken care of i fuvking guess. being a parent doesnt stop when your kid turns 18 and if you marry a dude w kids you cant just. not talk to the kids if it doesnt suit you

and shes asking for all this info about where i am and so on and i just gotta lie. i dont wanna have to argue with a grown ass woman at nearly 11 pm and tell her i straight up dont want them to know cus theyve been utterly useless at all times except like. two times. dad fixed some electrics and i got to stay for christmas and thats it. ive been driven home after shopping sure but whose fucking fault is it i dont have a license? could unsupportive parents who offer to help but dont ever let me drive be part of the problem? could the lack of legal help and effort be a part of the problem?

and obvs im answering in single words and the occasional sentences cus im fucking annoyed and trying not to be rude but shes chatting away about shit she has no business knowing or getting involved in at almost 11 pm. so the call ends w her asking if im sad cus i "sound so sad" like no im not sad. tell her im not sad. she said something afterwards i dont remember but i did wind up saying that "well its kind of really late to call someone at 10:30 in the evening" and she starts. going on about how she just really missed me and missed talking to me and at this point internally im just fuming. she called that late at night just to chat? is she fucking stupid?

like its not bad enough the only times i ever get called is when theyre bored in the car and need entertainment so i have to sit there listening to my own voice echo out of their handsfree while the mic is garbling their voices so bad i can barely tell wtf theyre saying over the sound of traffic. and now shes calling in the middle of the night tol cus her emotional need is too important to let people sleep

[theuniverseawakens347]

FUCK ASS RETARD CON ARTIST VIVICCA A WHITSETT // ERYKA BADU UGLY INCEST TWINS

SHE MY “adoptive god mom” THIS LIFE TIME ANYWAYS THIS DUMMY RIGHT HERE AND CHRISTINA SIMOS ( sister IVF/ INVITRO) OWE CLIVE DAVIS W FUCKTARD LEE GARLINGTON AND JASON George ( Shayne Murphy and eryka badu child 🥚🏊🏾‍♂️)

ANYWAYS DONT CARE WHO BELONG TO WHO YAL GON FIGURE THAT OUR URSELVES IM NOT DOING EVERYTHING FOR YOU LAZY SHIT FUCKS.

But THIS BITCH AND BADU THE RING LEADERS TO THE DRUGGING PIMPING AND CPN / OTHER FRAUD GOING ON IN THE “free Mason “ COMMUNITY. AT BEYONCE .. JAYZ .. DIDDY STYLE .. as you go HIGHER INTO THE TIERS YOU GET MORE “perks” BUT YOU GOTTA DO SOME FUCK ASS LOW BALL SHIT ,

And ALL YOU WHO SIGN UP BECOME A SLAVE TO THE LEE GARLINGTON CLIVE DAVIS KRIS JENNER FAMILY SEED KLAN LIKE TRISTAN THOMPASON AND KHLOE CHILD OF OJ .. ROB LEFT KRIS BC NICOLE TRIAL WHO DIDNOR DIDNT DO IT,

HE DID IT. 🤷🏽‍♀️🖕🏽

KRIS STOOD BY HIM AND WAS PREGNANT AT THE TIME, ROB FOUND OUT AND DIVORCED HER ON THAT BACK END OR WAS TRYING TO BUT OJ FOUND OUT AND KRIS WANTED TO KEEP HIS $$$ AND RECORD COMPANY SO THEY SHOT ROB WHEN HE DIED BUT NEWS SAY CANCER ..

YOU ARE INCUBABYS YOU AINT COME OUT THE WOMB FORREAL, YOU CAME OUT A TEAT TUBE THE BABY THAT WAS IN THE ATOMACH GET RETURNED BACK TO THE HOMELANDS .. as I’m calling it ..

THE OUTSKIRTS OF THE “DOME” ..

And ways YA MOMS PUSH ONE OUT, and the doctor hands her a “genetically modified version” HAS ME OR MY ORGINAL BLOOD LINE IN IT SO THAT THEIR KLAN AT KEVIN SPACEY READING RN CAN ATTEST WILL KEEP A TRACC RECORD OF “slaves” GIRLS AND BOYS THEY PUT INTO THE INDIATRY TO BE TRAFFIC / PURPOSELY PREGNANT BY INCEST WILLINGLY OR WEIRDO SHIT,

Basically wanting RHEIR OWN “spiritually” CONNECTED BABIES TO USE TO CONTROL THE POPULATION MKULTRA FORM BY “voodoo” / “hoodoo” .. WITCH MAGIC LIKE SALEM WITCH TRIAL SHIT MIXED W PAGONISM..

Fuck the spelling,

SINCE YOURE A SLAVE YOU HAVE TO MY PROGRAM FOLLOW THE SIMULATION.. A FEW OF YOU GOT LICKY AND WERE LET FREE MEANING LEGIT CAME OUT THE COOCHIE NO SWITXHS BUT YOU WILLINGLY OR YOUR PARENTS HALLE X DDG SOLD YA BABY AND UR SOUL AT SOME POINTNTO GIVE UP FIRST BORN AS PAYMENT IE SNOOP / CORDELL / CORDE / CORRI / Julian = payment for record labels ..

ANYWAYS.. THE LKAN FROM THE FIRST PARAGRAPH STARTED THE SWITCH AROUND MEDOTH BC THEY WERE BROKE AND NEEDED TO OAY BACK CLICE FOR ACTUAL HEROIN METH AND WEED THEY STOLE .. IRONICALLY OFF MY DADDY THE ROCK ( POT) THAT OTHER SHIT IS THE WEIRD WHITE MAN VICTOR GARLINGTON WW2 MKULTRA MIND CONTROL UNDER A DEADLY WEAPON OF DRUGS TACTIC ..

Skipping pieces , cause FIGURE OUT YOUR OWN FUCKING SHIT IM SO TIRED OF YOU FUCKTARDS FUCKING W ME N ME HAVING TO FIGURE IT OUT MY FUCKING SELF. FAILED ME ON THAT DEPARTMENT OF “coming out” but I digress..

ANYWAYS THESE MOFOS RETURNED THE MONEY BUT FOUND FUN IN BEING SICK SINISTER BASTARDS WHILE THE QUEEN ME WAS ASLEEP AND TOOK ADVANTAGE OF MY FAMILY IN ALL PHYSICAL PLAINS ..

AND THEN PINNING THEIR FUCKED UP INCEST AND DRUG DEATH CRIMES ON MY FAMILY NAME TO EXONERATE THEIR OWN .. YOU YOUNGING STILL FALLING TRAPPED TO THE MKULTRA MIND CONTROL ENSLAVEMENT CAMP ..

NO LONGER IS IT INCUBABY “pick your child” IT LITERAL KIDDIE PORN AT JERRY FROM SUBWAY style,

THEN AS YOU GET OLDER YOU BITXHES LAUREN LONDON SOLD A LIFESTYLE OF LAVISH DREAMS TO SET UP NIGGAS TO “die” FOR A “become THE first millionaire in your family” BULLSHIT.

Knives out type beat, and MAFIA .. games sets ..THEN YAL NIGGAS SELLING NUDES AND WHATEVER ELSE OFF THE ORIGINAL BLOOD / CREATION OF ME N MY HUSBAND.. WHICH IS WHY WE ALL TO A DEGREE LOOK ALIKE..

“HAPPY HUNTINGZ” FIND YA CLONE vs THE REAL ONE..

FOUND ME N MY HUSBAND,

BUT FUCKTARDS DONT WANA MAKE RIGHT AND TELL ME WHATS UP, SO HERE WE ARE WAITING FOR THAT TO HAPPEN SO THE TIME LINE CAN BE RESTORED BACK TO FUCKING PEACE .. BUT THE LONGER I SIT AND GET ANGERY LEE KNOWS MY DADS ARE GOING TO KILL .. but she afraid cause she and her KLAN DAVID SPADE ALREADY ADMITTED THE FUCK AHIT OF MY COOCHIE PICS + BASEL SHADFAN THE KILLING SUSU “ money heist” POT ..

= FEDERAL FOR THISE WHO WILLING JOINED AND DID IT / vs JAIL TIME/ PURGATORY FOR THOSE WHO DISNT KNOW AND ADMIT FULLY THE PARTY THEY PLAYED in the never ending fucktard incest killing spree of VICTOR CHARLES MANSON ARLINGTON HOWARD NUGENT REGIME.

Like be soooo fucking frfr, CLEAN UP YOUR FUCKING PART. THIS SHIT IS IRRITATING. VIVICCA COME OUT AND OWN YOUR FUCKING PART MISS YOU LIVE IN A SHOE BOX FILTHY ASS APARTMENT , yo cats love me more, HEAD ASS BITXH. IDC ABOUT A FILTHY CAR IM IN IT RN CAUSE YOU DID THIS SAME WEIRDO SHIT TO MY MOTHER DARNYCE WALLACE RELLY LISA BONET .. ORIGINAL BLOOD YOU THEN DRUGGED AND SENT TO AQUAMAN WHEN I AWAKEN IN 2021 CAUSE SHE AWAKENED TO THE TRUTH TOO,

WHY YALL NIGGA KILLED MICHAEL AND WHITENEY AND PRINCE AND XXX AND NIP FIT BUT ITS SOOOO MUCH MORE THERE.. etc ANYONE WHO TALKS ABOUT THE MATRIX CAUSE THE QUEEN GOTTA WAKE UP, me.. AT BEYONCE ALREADY CAME OUT W CASSIE ABOUT THE TRUTH

Mans Clive’s end IS restoring my shit BUT THE REST OF YOU SMALL CIVILIANS UNDER LEE GARLINGTON AND MICHAEL HEIMOS AND ANDRE HEIMOS AND HOWARD NUGENT AND ANTHONY BARTON SHIT, an BEN AND TINA TICKNER

ANTI/ MASON / ILLUMINATI / KILL ADONDI CASHAY MONEY HEIST .. FUCKTARD AJA MILES FEDERAL AND DEPORTED .. IDR WHAT YOU CALL IT MAKE FUCKING RIGHT NO MORE MATEIX THERE WILL BE RESTORATION TO THE ORIGINAL SHITS .. like Futurama

AND IM TALKING MONSTER INC THEME BUT PLANET OD THE APES GET DOWN WAR IF YAL KEEP FUCKING TRYING ME IN THE STUPID ASS CAR.

Over IT over you OVER THE GAMES DONT CARE WHAT OTHER 🖕🏽 LEE GARLINGTON TYPE OF “movies” AT HUNGER GAMES YOU THREW IN THIS BITCH.

Like be so fucking frfr , the games are beyond childish and stupid and bitch grew up mentally and physically THIS time, YOU FUCKING NEED TO TOO,

“Miss none of this is real it fantasy”

THEN STOP CALLING ME FUCKING CRAZY WHEN I CAN READ YOUR FUCKING THOUGHTS AND REGRETS THEU MESSAGES.

AT CHRISTOPHER WHITE RAPING A DEAD BODY AND DAQUAN FILMING IT SAME W JANAE AND SHANNON T DOUGH IN THE HEAD AT CORREY C TOO .. AND SOLO? FINAO ..

ALL TELEPATHIC AND HOW A RIGHTFUL SCARY COUNTER PART THATS COMING FOR FUCKING W ME AT STICCY AT IAN 72nd N VERMONT CREW / AT WEST BLD JHENE AIKO / NEIGHBORHOOD.. DEATH ROW..ETC ORIGINAL BLOOD ON THE GROUND AND FROM THE SKIES,

GREEK / AFRICAN/ MYTHOLOGY AND ALIENS STAR TREK, ZENON w raven symone/ PLANET OF THE APES 2 .. acolytes..

LEE YOU AND YOUR FAMILY MATRIX TIME IS UP, NIGGAS IS WAITING ON YOU TO HAVE THE FUCKING CONVERSATION W ME AND FREE ALL MY FUCKING LOOKALIKES AND THEN SOME FROM FUCKING SLAVERY,

AT OBAMA TREVOR NOAH NOAH DECORSI DIGUSTED CAUSE YOU TOLD EVERYONE SOMETHING DIFFERENT AND WEIRD CAUSE YOU WANTED ME TO SEEM FUCKING CRAZY AND MENTALLY PHYSICALLY DIRTY AND YOU THE “GOOD” ONE TO KEEP SHIT GOING.

IN YOUR HEAD I AM YOU AND YOU ARE ME,

IN REALITY BITCH YOU JUST ANOTHER FUCKING CHARLES MANSON SCARED BITCH.

You’re 72 I’m 30.. like really my dude? TALK AND ATOP CALLING ME CRAZY BEFORE I LET “THE EAGERLY CRAZY HAVE YOU” 🙂🖕🏽🤷🏽‍♀️