#I FINALLY DOODLED SOMETHING WTF

[rayix]

Did you give someone a smile today? ☀️💜

[isa-ghost]

My friend

I am gonna do it

WHAT ARE YOUR Q!PHIL HEADCANONS MY FRIEND

YESSSSSS

Here's Set 1 and Set 2

Now M O R E

He won't do it without prompting because he'll feel like an ass giving nobody else room to talk, but if someone got him on the topic of like. Exploration or flight or something, he could talk for hours. He's extremely knowledgeable and passionate about stuff like that, most times because he has centuries of experience

I don't want to diagnose cc!Phil or whatever bc I know he doesn't like when people do that, but to me his rp character is free reign. And as a psych major with ADHD who's focusing on the study of neurodivergent disorders: this man is hella ADHD coded. He's told too many personal stories that are relatable to me for me to be silent about it. I'm 🤝🏻 this crow man

In his case this isn't a nd trait but instead a crow one, but he experiences echolalia sometimes. Funny things or certain noises he hears just scratch an itch in his bird brain real good, he can't help but repeat it for a while

The way to Phil's heart is good food, fun to be around, and kicking ass. If you can tick those 3 things off for yourself, you're Phil Approved

He'll say he doesn't fall for peer pressure, and often times he's right. But on rare occasions someone like Fit or Etoiles can convince him to do smth he maybe wouldn't at first. It's easier to win him over when he's drunk

cc!Phil has talked abt how he gets a weird confidence boost when he's drunk as shit. That's real for q!Phil too. He could be staggering slurring speech drunk and still snipe something like 50 blocks away. It makes Fit and Etoiles want to kiss him about it

He has intentionally made almost his entire wardrobe varying shades of green, which he pairs with black, red & gold. He thinks it's funny to have a branded wardrobe like an anime character

Idr how canon dsmp is to q!Phil but he still has the friendship emerald charm hanging from his hat. Perhaps it's from the Antarctic Empire days instead. Idk, I just like the character design of Dangly Thing On Hat Brim too much to exclude it from his design in my head (I should rlly attempt to doodle my Phil beyond the random notebook ones I've done. Maybe I'll post those if asked idk)

Don't underestimate this man's ability to get dramatic. Tallulah ain't the only one in the family that can go hard

I wouldn't say he has a bad temper. He's very well-practiced at self-control. However, there are certain things that set him off so severely, he throws self-control out the window. Those things aren't worthy of him trying to be "the bigger person." They deserve their ass handed to them right here right now (see: The Codes pre-current lore).

In a similar vein, when the situation isn't one of those special Fuck This incidences, he still doesn't have a temper, but when he finally snaps, he SNAPS. Like on a The Polycule be like "mark me down as scared and horny" level of snap. When you get on the Angel of Death's last fucking nerve he let's you KNOW.

I'm self-projecting here: this fucking idiot man has a detrimental habit of insisting on handling stuff like anxiety alone. He hates when people see him without his composure. It's not even like an embarrassing thing, it's just very uncomfortable to him. So when a panic attack hits or he finally concedes and let's himself cry, it's alone. And sometimes that makes it worse. But even that doesn't make him change his mind. "Keep it together for the kids," right? :')

Having a stroke about thunderstorms is a reflex. Even on Quesadilla Island, the second he hears thunder he reaches for a trident like a dork.

He near-obsessively preens his wings because he doesn't want the Federation, or anyone else for that matter, getting ahold of his feathers when they shed. He doesn't know wtf they could do with those and he doesn't wanna find out.

And yet somehow Missa and Lullah both have a couple feathers that he's shed and he has no idea. Lullah wants to make a necklace out of them.

[shiraishi-star]

spoilers for ava 11

Ig im putting my thoughts in the most incoherent way possible

I got to watch it with my brother :D except i later found out that he knew NOTHING about ava (he only watched avm) so we went on ava binge watching. He’s favorite is…Chosen I think????? idk but that was fun

Moving on to the actual ep, the animation was soooo good. I know sooo surprising but seriously when i saw ava 1 reanimated my jaw dropped. It was just so cool seeing the video that kickstarted the entire series in the new 3D animation. And the little watercolor scenes xkjsianeidnsoendks

Mitsi was also awesome to see. I really don’t want to add on to the negativity but i was a little disappointed by her death (also by the lack of role for the shepred. Justice for Shepherd and Silly Steve). Not surprised (like what that one post said, ava and avm is NOT passing the bechdel test 💀), but still. But i’m really glad to see she wasn’t just there to kick off victims revenge and actually left a huge impact on victim and rocket corp as a whole. She was also the CEO which was awesome omg i’m so happy about that. I might draw some doodles of her in a suit and stuff bc wow. If she’s going to die I hope she get ayano tateyama-ed and continues to haunt the narrative ❤️

Also

PURPLE?????? I remember seeing the two lies one truth thing in the newsletter and when i read the purples origin part i was like “yeah right. They’re just trying to hype us up”. How wrong i was 💀and ofc Navy cannot be on screen without being a complete asshole. The entire website is being blown up by godlike figures and your ditching your family. wtf

Talking about godlike figures (awesome transition), Chosen!

(i totally have to redraw this scene bc this is fire pun intended)

The way i screamed when i saw that tco killed Mitsi omg that permanently changed my brain chemistry. And honestly this explains soooo much like why victim was beating him up, not TSC. I saw that a lot of people felt conflicted about TCO or trying to come up with ways to defend him and honestly, i don’t really get why? no offense of course, i understand how seeing your favorite as a murderer might change some things but for me, it didn’t really change my perspective on tco much. Like we knew he blew up websites and was kinda implied to have hurt a lot of people, now we just got to see it firsthand. I always thought of him as kinda morally gray anyways like. Even if you’re good now, if you literally spend the first years of your life free as a cyberterrorist your moral compass probably isn’t really that strong. Anyways i’m liking the more nuanced TCO who might not completely regret his actions, he might actually be becoming one of my faves now

(also their little high five bc that was cute. TDL is kinda back wooooo. Also TCO kinda hesitating?)

Me when the cycle starts cycling. Oughhhh i love the whole victim and abuser thing that’s going on here. Noogai turning TCO and victim into victims, then TCO becoming the oppressor and ruining victims life again after he finally moved on. And then victim with his kinda sorta victim complex and never moving on from his past. And now victim becomes the oppressor by torturing TCO like. It’s all coming full circle. I love how this series has consequences for everyone’s actions. Even the smallest details or events can snowball into something major. Honestly i dont even know if that was comprehensible but whatever. The Cycle™️ honorable mention of victim being stuck in the cycle of being creating, tortured, and dying for a year

On that note, victim was there for a year? That means that TCO and victim was on the same computer for a year and never noticed ig. victim was brought whenever noogai felt on it and only got to exist for a few minutes at a time (im guessing???) and TCO was stuck as an ad blocker so. I saw some people said that TCO might have been created after victim left but I like the thought that they lived on the computer at the same time. Also i saw someone say that this might be how TCO knew about the outernet wifi portal and i like that theory.

On a completely unrelated note, i was NOT expecting victim to be hallucinating cursors and might have PTSD(?????) (honestly idk i don’t know enough about ptsd to make the claim). And him moving on thanks to Mitsi was so sweet ❤️ actually the whole farm village was so nice man if it only stayed that way. Also honorable mentions of my new favorite background character (other than corn dog guy)

THE TINY ONE🔥🔥🔥 TUMBLR PLEASE STOP CROPPING MY SCREENSHOTS

IM TOTALLY DRAWING THIS LITTLE GUY AND TCO POSING THEY SHOULD BE BESTIES

AND

THIS. OMG THIS LITERALLY CHANGED MY PERSPECTIVE ON TCO JSNDOANSOWNSISNSK THE ANGEL OF DEATH ARE YOU KIDDING ME. MORE RELIGIOUS SYMBOLISM I LOVE RELIGIOUS SYMBOLISM AHHHHHHHHHHH

anyways i think those are my thoughts. I probably have more but this is what i remember. in conclusion: I am soooo normal about this ep. Yep i will totally not be talking about this for the next month straight

[oh-shtars]

Hello flick’s cool alternative blog! Can I christen it with a prompt? Give any random thing you’re excited to explore in your AU

Heeeyy!!!!! ✨✨

You know, I was planning to accompany this ask with doodles but I’m going to have a busy week and most likely won’t get the time. But then I didn’t want to keep you waiting for a while so. DAMMIT-

For now, I’ll answer this with words. But keep an eye out for the RFTS!Drawing Dump I’d be posting here on @oh-shtars. (Friendly reminder to follow this RFTS!Blog if you haven’t already.)

But yeah, some random things I’m excited to explore in the Reach for the Stars!AU! :)

1. Valentino

Okay, I know what you’re thinking. “wtf Flicker-?” Hear me out first.

I did attempt to make Valentino (or ‘Tino’ for short) a lot more endearing than his canon version. And honestly, I grew to like the little guy.

He’s just a 1 month old kid who views Asha as his parent after his actual mother rejected him. (Some animal moms tend to do that.) Once he was bottle-fed and grew stronger, he’s ready to face the world head-first.

No really, he would headbutt anything that bothers him or Asha, regardless of who they are. She even adorably dubbed him her “loyal protector.” Don’t worry, the headbutts don’t hurt as much and the worst they can be is annoying. Tino is impulsive and brave but cares a whole lot about Asha.

He didn’t like Star at first, even when the latter tried to ensure him he’s no threat. Tino disliked him for scaring Asha at their first meeting and over the story, gets a little jealous and bratty that he’s getting a lot closer to her. Like a lot… Idk, I find it funny that their first interaction is something like:

But eventually, Tino grows to like him and comes to become protective and endearing to BOTH of them now. Just imagine this scene, but instead of Canon!Star, Tino was more than ready to charge at Magnifico while RFTS!Asha and Star lunged to stop him:

So yeah. I, Flicker, had gotten to love RFTS!Valentino more than I expected. Not only would he be a little comedic animal sidekick, but he’s going to play a neat role in the final battle and have Asha’s back the entire time, while not letting his size stop him.

Tino’s going to be fun to write :))

………

2. Magnifico’s Character

Remember when I said RFTS!Magnifico is just brimming with unresolved trauma/issues? Well, then he projects all that towards people that don’t deserve it. He’s sour and furious on how the universe turned its back on him as a little kid when he watched his village get destroyed.

And under being raised by his adoptive father, who just never seems to listen to him, Magnifico thirsts for revenge and thinks he deserves to get the world that he and Amaya were denied from. So he would step on other people to get his way.

Another thing about him, is that the moment Magnifico discovered Wishing Stars exist, he genuinely thought they ignored his pleas for help and downright hates it. He unleashes that frustration onto Star and his whole kind.

Frustrations like how people only really care about you for your potential and the things you can offer. Mag had a belief that King Oliver had only took him in just so that he would have an heir for the throne, but didn’t actually loved or cared for him like a son. (Which wasn’t true.) So Magnifico projected that onto Star for the past decade he was caged, stating that:

“You know people only value you for what you could offer…. In your case, it’s your ability to grant wishes. For mine, it’s being a sorcerer AND an heir... But without all that..Well, you can really only imagine…”

So guess where Star’s insecurities came from:

RFTS!Magnifico is going to be an interesting villain, that’s for sure.

……..

3. Asha’s Wish

Asha, before and through the story, has a little habit she does every night before going to sleep. She whispers to the sky her wishes and desires and some of her concerns.

It’s a little thing her father used to do with her before he passed away, and she holds onto it as a memory of him. Tomás used to say that if she does this every night, then she wakes up the next day feeling refreshed and start the morning new. Maybe, just maybe, the stars above would be listening and would try to help.

Present Asha now believes that all those stories were just fairytales but she still hung onto them dearly since it’s one of the remaining things left of her dad. She also has this one wish:

“For everything to go back to the way it was. When dad is still here and that I never drifted away from my 7 friends. To wake up and see that the incident was just a mere dream.”

Welp….I sure hope that one wish doesn’t come back to bite her in the arse anytime soon-

…….

4. The 7 Teens

Somehow, I found a way I could make each of them have a part to play. Each friend that Asha had gotten estranged from ever since the “incident with her dad,” share a bit about themselves and rekindle their relationship with Asha. These short plots would be scattered at certain times throughout the story as Asha and Star encounter them on their journey.

And at the same time, each teen presents a positive trait of theirs that shows a very cautious Star, how not all humans are terrible people. Each show an example of an admirable trait:

Safi - Selflessness and integrity. Helping others even if it inconveniences him (Allergies)

Simon - Protectiveness. He means well but it doesn’t always show up right.

Bazeema - Consideration and kindness for others. (Doing small things to make them comfortable)

Dahlia - Determination + Loyalty

Dario - Patience + Forgiveness (Especially since he’s hard of hearing)

Gabo - Justice and hatred towards prejudice (it’s why he’s grumpy)

Hal - Helpfulness and the happiness received from doing so

Asha - Empathy and Love for others

Basically, these group of friends revive Star’s wonder and slowly help him become more trusting and open. In Star’s eyes, it’s amazing how they do all these incredible things for others even without the need for magic!

Idk, I think all this would be a very sweet thing to brainstorm. Haven’t finished developing this idea yet but I’m loving it so far 💖

[mistwithwings]

eddwastaken / eddwasfound art dump WITH commentary context im autistic and they have been my on and off hyperfixation of 3 years :D :D

for my ask blog but i changed the name after posting this so the link doesnt work anymore... ooppps.. Tumblr

joke drawing and not their pony designs

based on the "I depend on you" art 𝘑𝘢𝘮𝘚𝘛𝘈𝘙 on X: "I depend on you https://t.co/UdSX4nVmZA" / X

au where dream isnt evil so Edd, Gog, and him can live a good life..... cuz theyre... broken up (IT MAKES ME REALLY SAD BUT IM THE ONE WHO BROKE THEM UPPP) I had this au for awhile but this is just the first time drawing it.. i usuallly just use it for picrews. I like dream's prison hair a lot.

edd poop poop poop

school doodles which somehow turned into a sonic the hedgehog au?

they're in a cave mining i dont remember why dream's mask was off lol. so not really canon to the main au (he doesnt see it till dream's in prison)

the next pic is it going in his butt....idk if i want to show that here

i made edd a cola bear furry instead lol

gorey lyrics idk ? it was my first time like actually tweening.

redraw of something from 2022.... it REALLY isnt canon to the au now lol

i still like this one more Mistwithwings #DoingGang (@Mistwith_wings) / X u can only upload one video wtf..... anyways,,,, this video makes me stim a lpot its so IHGAOFEH its so pleasing

one of my personal favorites ITS so CUTE Mistwithwings #DoingGang (@Mistwith_wings) / X another video

(edd's butt) drawings from a 30 min rant on tiktok

GUH dont look at it i was trying something

this meant something to me but idk what anymore

them breakingg upp.... over dream,,,,, dot dot dot... the eyes are gogs eyes

atcually a giiff but yk Mistwithwings's Gallery - Pixilart

finally drawing dreams hair how i see it cuz im addicted to big poofs of hair Mistwithwings #DoingGang (@Mistwith_wings) / X Mistwithwings #DoingGang (@Mistwith_wings) / X STUPID GIF GUH

anyways im only alllowed 30 drawings a post sadly thanks for coming along........... go loook at this thread for more https://x.com/Mistwith_wings/status/1859203532278112636

[dogs-with-lightsabers]

i bring more blue-haired yosuke with some notes!

this is basically just a character sheet but i’ve been struggling to write this bitch for like 5 years and i think i’ve finally got something in my head that feels right

short version of this post:

he dyed his hair the orange-brown to piss off his mother, his eyes are gold because his persona evolved a third time (unheard of i believe), and he more or less grew into the snarky manga joker that i enjoy significantly more than the anime version (followed by: a small doodle of amatsu and a sketch of how tall this man is wtf)

@verysexyseagull hewwo hi if you have any ideas about him that u wanna yell about with me, you know where to poke me

[yoke9494]

♥️ Mitsuya pt.3 will be out tomorrow, till then...♥️

💊*AU:crack*💊

The bad pick-up lines that actually worked. 😘 (Kazushi Yamagishi)

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Ah Valentine's day. The day of love, the day everyone and everything seemed to be covered in pink and red.

Swooned girls spend all night making chocolate for their crushes. Boys working up the courage to tell that special someone what they mean to them..

But for the Mizo crew, it was just another day-- Well, for everyone except one.. okay maybe two.

Takemichi had spent hours trying to pick out a gift for Hina. He settled on a soft purple bear, chocolate hearts, and her favorite flowers.

But who was the second?

Yamagishi walked next to him with a twisted face. He was full of nerves, full of self doubt.

"You sure Y/n will like all this stuff? Should I get more?"

Takemichi looked at his friend. His arms were full of candy, salty snacks, and a few Manga books.

He nodded. "You and I both know everything you have is Y/n's favorite or something she's been dying to read. Stop freaking out."

Yamagishi whined. "What if she says no? Or what if she stops being my friend?! What if I never see her again?!"

Takemichi deadpanned. "She's Makoto's adopted sister... He's like your bestest friend that you constantly hang with? She's not going anywhere."

That didn't help at all... If he fucks this up he might lose a friend too!

"There they are!--- Hey guys!"

The only ones who looked up and waved was Akkun and Takuya. You and your brother were focusing really hard on something on the ground..

What were the two of you doing?

When they got closer they noticed a few sloppy doodles in the dirt. A few pairs of boobs and some dicks.. Blood or not, you and Makoto were definitely related.

Finally they were close enough to see what the two of you were doing.

Takemichi gave Akkun a 'wtf?' look.

Akkun shrugged. "You know how they are when they get bored. One started doodling and the other followed."

(Takuya) "They ended up drawing some kind of boob city. Akkun's the mayor of Buttsville!"

Takemichi snorted while Yamagishi stood in back of you. Trying to work up the courage to get your attention.

(Makoto.) "We need a whore jail for all the prostitutes."

You hit him with your stick. " They prefer the term Sex Workers. Show some respect for all the hard working hoes out there."

He playfully mocked you as he looked up. He saw everything in Yamagishi's arms and raised a brow. "Dude. Is that all for me? I knew you were fruity. I'm not interested though."

You let out a "huh?" before you finally looked over your shoulder. "Hey Yamagishi! What's all that for?"

God you were a bit slow.. But he fell for you either way. You were so pretty, had the best humor, and laugh! When he thought about his future he always prayed it was you that would be his hot ass wife..

"Uh.. wait."

Everything fell to the floor and he reached into his pocket. You grabbed a bag of gummy candy before you stood up. Whoever this was for wouldn't mind right? Wait-- was that the manga you wanted to read?!

Yamagishi cleared his throat as he held up a crumbled piece of paper.

"Y/n..uh.-- Have you ever had an Oreo Mc flurry? I'd slap that on your ass and eat it."

Your eyes widened.

Yamagishi shook his head. "No! no I mean-- Damn baby, you got a license to operate that dump truck?... I'm talking about your butt, because it's big and I like watching you walk."

You raised a brow and your brother couldn't hold it in any longer and began to laugh.

Yamagishi let out a little whine. "Oh man. This is the last one. The banger."

He fidgeted in his spot. "You might dress like a hooker but you're a hooker with a heart of gold!"

Oh your brother lost it, he was on the ground holding his stomach. Takemichi was covering his face. Akkun had his head down in shame. Takuya pretended he didn't know anyone, he was just minding his own business.

Your brother was turning blue from laughing too hard and you were giggling..

Poor Yamagishi looked like he was going to cry! He yelled to the sky. "UGH! Just forget it! You're way out of my league anyways!"

He sniffled and shifted his fogging glasses. "Sorry for wasting your time. I just fucked it up and embarrassed myself."

He began to walk away-- but he stopped when you threw something into his hair.. Did you just throw a gummy shark at his head. "Wha--"

You cut him off. "So are we going on a date for Valentine's Day or what? Don't tell me our first date is going to be spending it with these losers and my dumbass brother."

Makoto stopped laughing and stood up. "Hey!-- wait? Are you seriously going on a date with him. Don't fuck around with him Y/n. He's sensitive."

You held your hands out. "Dostit sound like I'm fucking around? Do you think I'm that heartless?---"

(Takuya) "She's not evil like you."

(Akkun) " A damn saint next to you-- and not as perverted."

(Takemichi) "Yep.."

"WAIT!"

You all turned to look at Yamagishi. His eyes were wide and his cheeks were turning pink..

"Did you really agree to go out with me?"

You nodded. "Sure did."

He couldn't believe it. He never would have thought-- He was going to fuck it up..

"Why? I'm a loser.."

You put your hands on your hips and tilted your head. "A loser? I don't think so.. I mean here you are saying all these romantic things to me. Then you go and boost my ego when you called my ass big. Yamagishi you and I both know I have no ass but you lying to me is so sweet!"

Romantic? Sweet?

The rest of the Mizo crew watched you with hung jaws. You were fucking craaazy!

You giggled at Yamagishi's still form. He just made these small cute squeaking noises.

You picked up all the junk food and Manga's and stuffed them into your bag.

Yamagishi felt his body jerk as you grabbed his hand. "Let's go to my house. We'll pig out on snacks and I'll catch you up on the bad ass story I've been dying to read."

For once the Deliquent Poindexter was silent. He just followed your lead with hearts in his eyes.

Akkun pushed Makoto. The fucker got bored and began to pick his nose.

"What?"

Takemichi pointed to yours and Yamagishi's disappearing figure. "You're really going to let Yamagishi go home with your sister? He's going to be alone with her, in her room?"

Makoto shrugged. "At least one of us is going to get our dick wet. It's just a shame that it's going to be my sister."

Oh shit!.. his eyes widened, he cupped his hands around his mouth and took a deep breath. "Y/N! MAKE SURE YOU PULL OUT! NO BABIES! USED THE XXXL CONDOMS I HAVE IN MY ROOM!"

You didn't even look back. You just flipped him off while Yamagishi looked like he was going to die.

Makoto clicked his tongue. "Fucker!"

Your brother looked at the rest of his friends. They were staring at him like he was a mad man. "What? They'll be alright. Yamagishi will probably pass out just from touching her boob or something.

They all relaxed their shoulders. Oh right, that sounded like something he'd do.. Yamagishi was such a virgin! Has been and still is even though they all graduated and were now in University.

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Yamagishi did in fact pass out on the rug in your room.

And all you did was kiss his cheek...

[ygodmyy20]

Not my fandom, but I'm curious about the Spirit idea: teru?

Yeaaa!!! texas hello!!

So unsure if you saw these little doodles I did of these lil guys:

But it is related to that!

So two of the mp100 characters I like are Shigeo and Teru. Shigeo has a canon spirit design that looks like this

tho a lil different in the manga.

I have been a lil obsessed with thinking about what other characters spirits will look like. I have adjusted Shigeo's from the canon into my own version of it, but Teru's is totally new! He is like a lil wispy yellow blob in his weaker state.

This can be set in the same post-cannon verse I have for Mob Psycho

Spirit idea: teru somehow does the out of body experience/technique accidentally and knocks his spirit out of his body. Find out later it is due to some stressful situation, maybe something with school or his parents, or a curse. But at the time he can’t remember why or how he got here. 

His body is fine just at home and he can’t figure out how to get back in. Each time he tries he can’t stay and gets kicked out (probably due to the curse)

He goes off and tries to find dimple or Shigeo to help, running into some not so great spirits on the way. More hilarity than actual danger. Dimple finds him and is like “kid wtf did you do?” Teru can't really talk so he is just a bunch of lil zaps and vibrations and Dimple is like "Okay ugh fine, let's find Shigeo."

He finally manages to find Shigeo at their High School school during his body improvement club activity (aka like gym or weight training) and shigeo nearly drops his weight when he sees teru. Shigeo gets super nervous because he has no idea what’s going on and quickly leaves the club to get teru back home. They get back and teru still isn’t able to get back into his body.

This whole thing is an excuse for me to write cute lil spirits being cute hahah

[sphnyspinspin]

I hate my art process. But at the same time I love it. It’s been confusing time for me.

I love being detail oriented. Even if it does take me longer to finish a doodle that wasn’t supposed to take more than three days to finish.

I can bring up the fact that transformers and just robots in general are really complicated and detailed by default all I want — but the fact that short-hand art styles exist doesn’t really make that argument make any sense. Especially compared to people who have a short-hand art style and draw magnificent transformer art.

Hell. They’re supposed to be fun little drawings that you can do quickly while the idea that you thought up five seconds ago is still fresh. The doodling part of the art process is the foundation of which you’re supposed to build upon step by step so you can supposed for a final illustration.

“I just like to pace myself” I say.

“It’s always okay to take breaks” guh doy.

“Everyone’s art process is different” no shit.

I don’t have as many gripes about by art as I think I do. I just despise the fact that I know — I KNOW — I’m capable of doing the bare minimum.

But I have to do more than I have to for the sake of personal satisfaction. Let me say that again — PERSONAL satisfaction…

And that’s another thing. I am just so goddamn used to drawing for myself I can’t for the life of me imagine drawing just for the sake of an audience.

Except for that one guy. They’re chill. You know who you are.

But even I have trouble creating something for the chillest fellow artists that I genuinely want to show them what I’m capable of.

And I’ll admit… I’ve gotten a huge ego and an even more huge head about my art. Detailing, blueprints, colors, lineart, shape language, rendering, etc, etc — I’m proud of myself for understanding them to a point my art thrives from my ability to retain as such at my age. I really do dread the feeling I get thinking anything beyond “what if I make them insecure about their art because I’m s o m u c h b e t t e r t h a n t h e m” like wtf dude.

Oh my god I’m such a fucking people pleaser it’s seriously getting on my goddamn nerves. I don’t mind being polite from time to time, but I have no clue how to even label that kind of thinking. It reminds me so much of Galinda/Glinda from the Wicked movie and I don’t know how I feel about that.

Oh wait. Yes I do. It’s weird. It’s rude. To even acknowledge the fact that I myself have “better” quality art. And to subtly imply that their art is below mine is just sick. I understand intrusive thoughts exist, we call them intrusive for a reason.

I forgot what I was typing about.

I love my art.

I love my art process.

I hate… I don’t like that… I don’t like that I’m so nit picky about which ideas I choose to put on paper. Or screen in the context of being mainly a digital artist.

Even first drafts. Just simple little thumbnails. If I’m not all for an idea it’s just… going to stay in my brain until I die. Just for context I have a shit memory.

I want to fill a page with doodles. I want them to still be in my style with being too much.

I want to actually like them. Even if it’s “bad art”.

I want to simplify. But the idea of of underwhelming my artistic integrity makes me want to shut down entirely. It’s happened before that’s for fucking sure.

I think my brain makes my body do stuff without me knowing… wait, I think that’s autism.

Uuuuuuuuuuuuoooooooooooooooogggggggghhhhhhh……..

TLDR: I fucking suck at short-hand art. Not just artistic sense but in the sense of beginning the ACTION of drawing short-hand. But I feel like the second I get a good enough thumbnail down I’ll automatically focus too much on it to such a degree I’ll feel like an uncontrollably inconvenient narcissist.

Putting the over-exaggerated feelings of hormonal late-teen/early adult and posting it on social media is probably not the most convincing course of action when one wants to materialize automatic understanding and empathy. Yet here we are. I mean I probably don’t need automatic understanding but it’s a nice thought in my opinion.

You know what? I don’t fucking know anymore.

[ezura-knightshade]

(Petty?) Reasons why Gwen and Miles shouldn’t get together

Gwen tore out his collectible from its packaging. Idk man that was just super rude, like you don’t visit your friend/lie to him about why he can’t join the spidy gang and then you go around his room tearing stuff up?? What if he wanted to open it himself!!

On a similar note as above, she went through his sketchbook without permission. I don’t think their universes are so different that she doesn’t know that that shit isn’t ok.

Why tf didn’t she just tell Miles that the dude dying is a cannon event or something. Like bro wtf, you know that Miguel already hates him so like why make his life more difficult.

Because I find Miles’s repeated doodles of only Gwen in his sketchbook to be kinda creepy.

Also I don’t think I would ever recover from knowing that all my friends knew I was an anomaly and still not telling me anything. Maybe Miles is a bigger person than me so idk.

This is more of a complaint than a reason; why tf did she tell Miles about the secret society when she could just have lied saying that some villain opened up a bloody portal. Like hello first of all you’re slacking off on your job and now you’re making your friend feel left out?

Because I want them to grow as characters ok. Half the reason I think they crush on each other is because they have finally found someone who they can relate to.

I kinda want Miles to go on the dark side 🥰

Probably will add on to this.

Because I think inter dimensional dating will absolutely break them, or at least break some forms of cannon.

[prettyflyshyguy]

F*ck it I had a little skim, S5 is a season that wasn't overly 'monstery' compared to the early seasons but I settled on some specific eps to perhaps glance at (only if you want to though!!! I totally get the disenchantment and wound up listing more here than I meant to) (the 'for fun's' are obvs subjective but there's certain scenes that might trigger doodle ideas)

Ep 1 sorta settles some fallout from the S4 finale. Might not be interesting but lays out some context.

Ep 2 not 'monstery' per se but might tickle a particular itch if you possess it

Ep 5+7 for fun?

Ep 8 for fun and an importantish reveal

Ep 9 is fun

Ep 10 is one of the bigger episodes for S5's overarching story

Ep 11 was one I quite liked personally

Ep 14 was one I also quite liked

Ep 15+17 might brush lightly against a particular itch

Eps 18 onwards head off the "f*ck destiny" journey, but for specifics 19 is a personal fave and latter half of 21 introduces one of my fave dudes

Again, wound up with a longer list than I thought, but I also totally understand the meh-ness after the Heaven plot! Hopefully there's something on this list that works for you

Anon we gotta cover a few things here

1) seriously have my swear card you can say Fuck

2) you are a local legend for providing me with this list and i am very gratefull!! You are my personal hero

3) you can't just say "this might spark a doodle idea" and leave me hanging like this like wtf

You can send me doodle ideas (cannot guarantee I'll do them but I love a good bit you know me)

I'll absolutely kick off s5 with e1 cause I always need the closure but I think it will be where the cherry picking starts, for my sanity. I'm not strong enough nor have the time to watch everything to completeness (NOT WHEN I WANT TO REWATCH OLDER EPS LMAO)

I trust you understand My Brand (tm) if you've been following my journey so I trust your recs!

[katyspersonal]

Ok so i went to get the red jelly in the lecture building earlier and that made me think of something. (I’m very sorry for the following 💀 but that’s the only thing my mind could think off right now xD)

Imagined people reaction when either Byrgenwerth or Healing church or Mensis bring them back from the pthumeru tombs 💀

«��Hey guys we found a new ritual material of pthumerians! »

« Oh what is- WTF IS THAT?! »

« Oh a stillborn infant apparently 💀 of some creature…»

« I see… »

« So should we put that in the report? 💀 »

« Damn we can’t write it like this… we need to find something else… »

Someone look at then from a distance. « Guys what are you doing? What is it? You guys are having some jelly? »

😐😐😐

« It does have… similar consistency… »

_ _ _ _ _ _

So now we’ll just refer to this material as red jelly !

-Sir, wtf?! 

Laurence: So, you still ended with cataloging that thing as Red Jelly?

Others:

Caryll: Don't look at me, I wanted to mark it as Fragrant Popsicle!

[audience laugher track]

Laurence: This is even worse! 🤦‍♂️

Caryll: This is why I never bother talking in the class anymore :/ *goes back to doodling*

Rom: Wait, but how do we name the other stillborn infants then?

Laurence: What the- What 'other' infants??

Rom: There, ones we carried from the dungeons, they are in the cage! *points at a square cage with some of those creepy petrified stillborns, and some stillborns with bloated heads and skulls showing on them, you see them in Byrgenwerth enough*

Micolash: Jawbreaker Jelly and Crispy Jelly! :D

[audience laugher track]

Laurence: If it is so hard, it isn't a jelly- Enough! Stop naming stillborn infants after foods no matter what! You don't want to say someone would eat them!

Dores: Speak for yourself 👍

[audience laugher track plays louder]

Yurie: 😰

Damian: Dores... You could not have possibly um, dealt with ALL of them? We have had a whole stock in that cage! *points towards an empty cage with the sheet that says 'Fragnant Popsicles Red Jellys Storage' on itself*

Dores: Of course n- WHOSE IDEA IT IS TO STORE ANYTHING IN THESE CAGES??

Micolash and Rom: *are stuffing another cage with weird rocks they brought from the woods, with books, with papers, with eye jars, Rom grabs Yurie on reflex and tries to drag her in too...*

[audience laugher track]

Patches: *"casually" walks in with innocent whistle* Oh, out of materials for your pursuit to raid some tombs so soon, eh? Worry not, Patches already got your needs covered! I just happen to have all of those.... uhhhh, those... uhhh... *is snapping his fingers*

Caryll: *whispers* Red Jellys

Patches: *whispers back* Seriously? THIS is what they called those creepy things?

Caryll: *whispers* I know, I wanted to call them-

Patches: Ak-khem- Well, you are lucky, because I've coincidentally got all the 'Red Jellys' you need, and for a cheap price!

Yurie, Dores and Damian: *gather around him, cracking their fists* PAAATCHEEES... -_-

Patches: Uh.

[Patches runs away and other three are chasing him. audience laugher track.]

Caryll: *holds up his drawing* I've finished! I drew the whole class as Red Jellys!

Laurence: Caryll, what- First, what the heck? Second, they all look exactly the same-

Caryll and Laurence:

Laurence: Ugh, I can't take it anymore! 🤦‍♂️ I don't want to see OR hear ANYTHING about the stillborns for the rest of the day!!!

[Gehrman and Maria enter. audience applauding track.]

Gehrman: Good news, we are fully packed with the things that will serve for more research for you!

Laurence: Finally, something that makes sense! So, what did you bring?

Maria: *pulls a large back through the doorframe, full of very familiar contents....*

Gehrman: Red Jellies!

Laurence:

Laurence: 🔥🔥🔥

[solacedaydream]

Maybe I'll stay/return here... also switching gears

I still don't know wtf I'm doing, where I'm going, etc. I don't want to remain on Twitter/X though I never even got established there (or other places, really) to begin with. I just wanted to give a heads-up to those who may still follow/find me by chance. Unfortunately I've mostly fallen out of OW due to the various game and lore changes with 2 and just time, I guess, but I still check out fics here and there. May throw in a doodle if I can manage one. I recently got back into Arcane and been rabid for the two softest girls so I've been working on some stuff and trying to figure out my style for them. I really hope to use this as motivation to finally push me to start posting again. Because damn the brainrot is real, it's gotta be good for something. If I can get a Bluesky invitation I'll join and post there but that's probably gonna take forever. Thank you even if you just drop by and read this for whatever reason. <3

[topicaltropic]

Video time again! Yay!

I love listening to my playlists, but even more than that, I love listening to my friend's playlists. MGMT when you die is quite frequently featured in there, & more in particular my beautiful friend used it in her wonderful series about her character so it's always been pretty fresh on my mind (I highly recommend checking it out https://www.tumblr.com/mumpsetc/722528720375742464/is-there-some-kind-of-electric-remains?source=share)

A song with a central theme about self destruction by villainizing yourself and lashing out towards those whod want to reach out towards you? WOW! SOUND FAMILIAR? I wonder if some other characters conflict aligns with that theme. Maybe I'd even make a pmv out of it. So I did

Wrote out a outline of the story beats like last time but skipped thumbnailing bcz its a pmv

Here's where I'd say I wasted the most of my time. First I wanted to get outside of the comfort zone of the brush I always used because I felt I had been relying on it too hard (and the horror if I was nothing without it), so I was like "for this video I HAVE to use a different brush it'll give it a different vibe etc it'll be great" but actually I hated it.

(I genuinely cannot stand this version so I can only deign to share the frame of them being stuffed into the calzones. It may look relatively okay but the signs of wrongness are there.)

Then I was like "no you know what I'll do it in mspaint. everyone loves mspaint Hollyleaf The Wolf Pmv was done in mspaint and thats so good" So I did that and 1. I don't like that mspaint has layers now but maybe I'm just a pussy 2. I sucked

(The way I drew her here bothers me so much. Absolutely lacking in distinctness and personality. Utterly Souless. I got scared looking at this and thinking how it reflects back on to me as a person. Also just too busy from the lack of a tight color palette and time consuming if i decided to actually color every single little thing. Incoherent all together.)

so I've wasted a week not being able to decide wtf or where I wanted to even start this project

But its ok because next I hop onto krita. this time I make the canvas not too wide but not as small, play with a pen and stick with it, and call me goldilocks the way it was juuust right.

The only reason I could complete this is because my friends are the fucking goats. I couldnt have finished this without their encouragement but also it would not nearly be half as nice to look at without all their feedback

Now finally: Some roughs that I paticularly liked and Some frames that didnt make it in because it's little awkward and too janky

I think in the final version for img 1 doesnt have as much despair or awareness? it fits the description of not feeling the effects of too much ice cream yet comparetively to the draft where she seems incredibly pained, both versions work i guess. img2 I think the doodler being inside her was probably a incredibly physically and emotionally painful process and also i dont believe some schewpid collar could contain eldritch chaos. img3 originally i was suggested to have picture terry blink but it looked really creepy to me. img4 this angle feels weird and the timing would be too fast.

I tried multiple. multiple times but the editing and timing still seems wrong so please forgive the roughness of it all

If you liked this thank you so so much it means everything to me 🫶

if you didn't that makes two of us 🤝

if you read this far lets do an art trade! or request me something and ill doodle it <3

Scary Dndads Pmv - MGMT When You Die

[sysig]

Nothin’ new, it’s always new

[pocasu]

cantarel and moira, idiot gays

@captaincatpie aren't you proud of our dumbs