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Favorite Pacey/Joey Moments Per Episode: 6x24 …Must Come to an End (Part 1)
#paceyjoey moments#the old footage always gets me sobbing#I FEEL MORE ALIVE#HELLO!!!!#soulmate things#my heart#this always makes me feel nostalgic and want to start the show over again and watch seasons 1-3#haha#pacey x joey#joey x pacey#joey potter#pacey witter#love#katie holmes#joshua jackson#im not crying you are#sobbing actually#gif#gifs#gifset#6x24#dawsons creek
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1910 collective days of human life, all for this?
Hi I love Anya. I'd like to draw Swansea too because he's my 2nd fav but that'll come another time. Image description: a drawing of Anya from the game Mouthwashing. She is sitting on the floor surrounded by empty bottles of mouthwash floating in a non-literal pool of blue liquid.
#mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#quynh draws#fan art#Hi I'm alive. Nice to see yall again. I keep saying I'll post publicly more but I really haven't been feeling it. socmedia tiring#also I KNOW SHE WEARS SOCKS AND SANDALS I just felt like drawing sneakers
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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)
if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
#cw: suicidal ideation#cw: suicide#cw: self harm#cw: mental health#cw: depression#i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it#i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague#it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves#so. please dont#for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic#with the state of the world as it is#having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful#but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full#and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead#i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us#there is no fix-all#and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile#i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it#thank you for reading#and please stay alive#stillindigo art#stillindigo comics
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Ok, but listen. Harry goes back in time and decides to get rid of Tom Riddle AU, but the sorting hat goes like ??? when it reads Harry's mind. Idk it just irks me how the sorting hat is so understanding in most time travel fics, at best it puts Harry in a house he didn't want to be. But just imagine if it actually tells on Harry, full great hall drama with the hat going like "HE'S HERE TO MURDER SOMEONE"
And ofc Tom is instantly obsessed with the murder boy.
Extra:
(ofc the poor hat is not broken, it's on the verge of a nervous breakdown)
#tomarry#tomarrymort#tmrhp#tom riddle#harry potter au#time travel au#fanart#my art#the hat is too old for this#dumbledore will have a stroke#dippet just wants to retire already#please notice the dumb malfoy boy with a crush#it's in his genes to be pottersexu4l#tom will flag him alive out of jealousy when he notices#feel free to write about this au#just please send it to me because I would love to read more of it too
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i keep seeing people say the doctor shouldn’t have feelings for rogue because he’s married to river…? river song… who has also married multiple people… one of the most polyamorous characters in the show…?
#i think the only issue river would have is that she wasn’t there to witness it#ngl#plus when has the doctor ever been strictly monogamous???#even when he was infatuated with rose he still had feelings for other people too#madame de pompadour anyone ??? hello?? 😭#and river’s been gone for multiple regens now… is the doctor meant to never have a relationship ever again or what#gonna be real i think if rogue was a woman i’d be seeing less Ummm He Has A Wife The Doctor Wouldn’t Cheat Like This takes#i really don’t think the doctor & river were ever strictly only with each other bro like they’ve always had a more open relationship anyway#🤷🏻♂️🤷🏻♂️🤷🏻♂️#doctor who#15th doctor#rogue doctor who#river song#timerogue#dndoctor#yowzah#twiver#ehhh yeah.#y’know ????#also as people have mentioned she’s dead#i didn’t make that part of my post bc timey wimey whatever people still want her to return somehow#so if she *was* alive and the doctor wasn’t literally a widow�� she’d have no problem with rogue 😭😭#keepin this post ambiguous for u river return truthers
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Guess. Commission!!
#Commissioned to draw more Brat related stuff I feel alive rn#sapphs stuff#furry#furry art#anthro#anthro art#furry artist#furry commission#furry anthro#furry artwork#suggestive furry#suggestive
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The bad sanses and (some of) their first times seeing the surface! ^^
(I kind I’d headcanon that not only has Killer (as sans) been to the surface quite a few times, but he’s also been traveling with Nightmare for quite a while haha. Nightmare… well, he always was able to see the sky so yeah haha)
#darkzyx#undertale au#undertale fandom#utmv#killer sans#utmv doodle#dust sans#horror sans#corrupted nightmare sans#nighmare sans#utmv bad sanses#bad sanses#nightmare gang#anyways I love them so much#think Killer was apathetic when he saw the sky for the first time in forever#and Nightmare took notice of it and asked him why#something about it being hard to get excited over something you had that was constantly ripped away from you#and Nightmare would listen to him and just tell him that there isn’t anyone in the multiverse#that would dare to take something from him or his subordinates#not on his watch#think Killer would start to feel a bit more alive/less apathetic after that#just a little
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itakugi sillies fr the soul
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#nobara kugisaki#itakugi#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk leaks#jjk manga spoilers#jjk spoilers#jjk 267#eye horror/#cant see the haters <3#not pictured here megumi holding the camera like ......................#also i dont know how i feel abt eyepatch yuuji but fr the sake of itakugi wearing each other's eyepatches he can have one :'>#entertained the idea of them having Matching ones but i scrapped tht pretty quickly dhsdfgfdf i like them distinct#i think yuuji might b able to pull off the larger snaparound kind bc the scars on the other side of his face maybe balance it out#but i like nobara having a smaller more traditional eyepatch personally#1 bc i think she would not want to mess up her hair but also bc i LOVE th look of her scars i want as many of them visible as possible#the eye socket itself tho is ....kinda gnarly GGHJFHFS#speaking of which ik nobara's eye kind of. exploded. but what exactly happened w yuuji's did it just ???? burn away????#idrk if yuuji shld also have a more defined eye socket tbh but fr the sake of my own enjoyment n sanity#i am pulling the fanartist I Do What I Want card#i make the rules and i want his scars to look Like This smile#anyway i love them so much i missed them so much they r so SIBLING CODED#u dont understand officer i need them being dumb n chaotic. to cope#hands and knees itkg save megumi itfskg make it out alive plspslpslplspslpslspsl
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are you sure?
#my art#cotl#cult of the lamb#with death comes peace au#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#cotl narilamb#i think a lot about codependecy when i think of wdcp#and i wandered what whould the ending be if lamb agreed to sacrifice themself#and narinder would not just sacrifice them and that's it#he won't lose his trusted most devoted follower oh no#so he kept them#their soul essence spirit whatever#always with him#always within him#a part of him now#his literal other half#binded to him forever#a sickly perfect ending for a painfully in love even more painfully devoted lamb to be one with their god#and a sickly perfect ending for a god forgotten for a thousand years to have the source of purest devotion and faith within himself#for a man who haven't had a single soul to talk to for a thousand years#who haven't had anyone look at him with adoration and understanding for even longer#to never ever let go of the person who made death feel alive again#im so normal#ada ramblings
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Codename “The Saboteur”
#lee art#digital art#fanart#roblox pressure#pressure#sebastian solace#hi I’m alive I promise#the brainworms are real#he’s taken over my brain#and idk how to feel about it#expect more art soon#hopefully
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Sometimes girlhood is matching hello kitty oodies with your mortal enemy
#I have such a back log of jjk drawings i need to upload here#im somehow more active on twt even tho everytime i post i feel like i'm being flayed alive#idk just girly things#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen#ryomen sukuna#sukuna#yuji itadori#itadori yuuji#hello kitty#bnha kept trying to sneak its way into my tags#babe this??? isnt about you????#my art
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Making and Remaking Memories
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#little apple#cangse sanren#wei changze#Once again: CSSR's design is hugely inspired by Qourmet's design!#Ah...to be able to recreate a faint memory of childhood. To be able to hold it once more.#To feel just as safe and loved as you were when you were a child and both your parents were alive.#The love his parents had is one where there is trust and respite...#Lan Zhan really is written to be his romantic ideal. He's like...*the* guy who trusts and indulges his lover.#WWX doesn't really know himself very well and has a rather poor insight.#but this is the point where it is genuinely undeniable that he loves LWJ.#I think the brilliance of this romantic plot is that there *isn't* a single point of realization. It's multitudes of moments.#I say 'this is the point' because it's when WWX really and truly puts LWJ in his future.#That's huge for a guy who's been 99% living in the moment.
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sad: falling out of a hyperfixation
tragic: watching your beloved friends and mutuals fall out of the hyperfixation while you're still in it
#oughhhhhhh#this is about the dca fandom but also about every other strong fixation ive had over the years lol#i know it's normal and inevitable esp for less popular works or minor characters with little canon content#and there's nothing wrong with smaller communities of course those rock#but there’s just something special about getting into something at the same time as a lot of other people all at once#and existing in this chaotic fandom space that's just bursting with creativity and passion#i've been in fandom spaces for as long as some of you have been alive and i've only come across that sort of unbridled joy like#a handful of times at best#it's just a heartbreaking feeling to see real lightning in a jar fandoms like that wither away as people drift away#(understandably so!)#anyway don't mind me i'm just having thoughts#musing about fandoms past as well#that i too eventually moved on from but remember fondly even if im not active in anymore#also my music just aint hitting right so im just sitting in silence which makes me more Contemplative(tm)
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Five billion octopath 2 scribbles i feel sick
#i know what you are wouldve made more sense w temenos i just really wNted to draw castti <\3 west continent crew my beloved#this isnt chronological at all. besides the first ones thats the first octopath i ever drew#like seconds after i finished castti and hikaris first chapter.#infected my brain so quickly i feel like a new person#i could write an essay on my octopath thoughts and rambling omfg.play octopath#art tag#octopath traveler 2#oh my god theyre all here ok#castti florenz#hikari ku#agnea bristarni#partitio yellowil#throné anguis#osvald v. vanstein#temenos mistral#ochette#dolcinaea luciel#veronica octopath#she didnt get a last name.SAD#i have more of these by the way.so many#ORIS HERE I GORGOT#ori octopath#i love ori. if i had to sacrifice myself but remembered how nice paritio was last minute i would also change my mind#oh ym god elenas here too#elena vanstien#shout out to you know how getting added to cotc im so happy.im scared if i say his name thisll show up in his tag and he isnt even here#he looks beautiful. and alive. awesome#the cotc artstyle is soooo pretty i saw castti and felt emotional#anyway. ot2. this is where ive been the past few months.#oh castti can inquire people. i know what you are does make sense for her heh
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i'm no medical expert but my one and only health tip i can offer with any confidence is to allow yourself to listen to bohemian rhapsody every once in a while in a setting where you can put your your whole entire life up to this moment into singing along with the part where freddie mercury says "i don't wanna die, but sometimes i wish i'd never been born at all" and feel a layer of dead scar tissue peel away from your existence before it can calcify
#🐉#just did my bohemian rhapsody karaoke and i feel lighter and more alive than any detox or meditation session could ever make me
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my brain latched onto ratio in the span a day or two and i am. struggling with that. have a hsr magma dump about it.
these are in reverse chronological order so that it looks like i get more normal as the post goes on (it doesnt)
#i like these a lot im happy w how they turned out art has been fun lately n im trying to hold onto that feeling n keep it alive#bro my brain wont let me finish the fkn. piece i have that i wanted to get done n post n ive been meaningto revisit my pinned post n redo i#but im stuck in my b#fuck mobile tagging sucks ass fuck this omg#but im stuck in my head w my interests rn n theyre beating my ass im losing so bad damn interests got hands#i jsut remembered i was gonna give these some other bg colors than the usual gray we use for the magma canvases..... orz#honkai star rail#dr ratio#aventurine#problem w me is i neevr remember how i tag things n characters#so i have to check#n apperantly i do tag hsr w hsr in the beginning#hsr dr ratio#hsr aventurine#ratiorine#hsr blade#hsr firefly#hsr luka#welcome to my brain n my ...i forgor yhe word hold up. my .i my my idk process i feel like im losingit#my art#magma#i like the pjs one a lot a lot a lot. .... makes me unwell i need them cozy n happy help me#fuck theu got more shipnames#aventio#hsr golden ratio#theyve been gnawing away at my brain im doing. great
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