#I DONT WANAN FUCKING DO IT

[thxnks4themrms]

Bro I have to make up the mile today

[bedforddanes75]

how the fuck do u guys tell when ur moots with someone when they use a sideblog Like. i tell by just sending asks but like. do u just Know. am i missing something. or do u ask too

[jwowwsboobs]

dress shopping is hard when u have no tits .

[pinkadork]

This shit fuckin hurts my G.

Like i feel like i was sleep moving through life the past two years and i had to have a several episodes one leading into the demise of a relationship i had with the best person in the universe hell maybe even past that. He might not feel like he's worth moving the heavens and the earth for but i stg he is.

I hate not knowing if we were in love (it feels like it but if we were, then why does everything feel the way it does now)or if we were just dumb kids seeking validation we didnt get else where. I truly feel nothing but guilt about this situation atp. I get to feel other things when i get a lil mania going but fucking, i could get bands, cool shit, and be at the best place mentally I've ever been, I'll still miss him. He doesn't just have a spot in my heart, the nigga fucking just has it. And it kills me because i jsut feel how much he doesnt want it. Or think i do, im trying not to act like i know everything. Whay i do know is that logically that is my ex, but my heart and brain is being dumb and telling me thats still my boyfriend.

[lexa-griffins]

I never got the impression bottom Lexa wasn't popular. The split seems pretty much 50-50 to me of people who refuse to read anything other than fic that has their preferred top/bottom dynamic. I personally think the staunch bottom Lexa/top Lexa (and top clarke/bottom Clarke) hardliners are proof both of them are actually versatile cause you can make a case for both 😋

Its not super unpopular as in its extremily rare but there's a disparity. Most fics that are not tagged with the dynamic will most of the time have a more toppy Lexa.

Im gonna be real with you, one of the reasons I am very firm on bottom Lexa is because I got tired of reading fics where Clarke cums 3 to 4 times and Lexa feels like an after thought if she is shown to cum at all (and ive read bottom lexa fics where Clarke wont shut up about herself even then). Its not the main reason at all - i really do think the show supports Lexa being more vulnerable during sex and wanting to receive while Clarke is much more of a giver and someone who wants to make Lexa feel good - but it is a big one.

I mean im sure you can make a case for them being versatile as you can with pretty much every character when the top/bottom discourse happens and its most likely true because people dont tend to have just one oreference in bed but that isnt gonna make me like top lexa or bottom clarke nor wanna read about it 😅

[catboybrain]

man if i had infinite patience to animate i would definitely try my hand at keys for some chainsaw man scenes

[somedayslater]

i didnt read the last chapters since i discovered it was the end (but i was spoiled by tumblr lol)... i didnt want to believe it... i want to still look forward to new chapters of No Home :(

For the last few years eunyung and haejoon have been my companions. I healed a little while following the story of eunyung, feeling like its ok to be angry and wanting revenge on your family and the society that continues to want to keep you in a "house" where you are mistreated. How the world isnt made for children at all, the absolute unfairness of it all. That you can choose to keep going, and if you do so its ok to keep your distance with what hurts you.

I healed too with haejoon, who came to terms with the fact that he will always be overcome with sadness and grief from time to time, and when that happens he can only let himself feel and wait for it to pass, and try to look forward to the next day.

Honestly this manwha was the best ever. I couldnt read this manhwa as a form of escapism because it was too real. It pulled strings in my heart i didnt know i had, made me question a lot of things about myself, about others, about my relationship with others. It made me have painful discussion with a few people. Following this manhwa, most of the time, was really unpleasant lol. I hated then loved eunyoung, I liked and then disliked haejoon (yeah sorry haejoon, i think you can be really cruel and stupid and i wanted to strangle you a few times in the last arcs (i would NOT be friend with that guy lol) -thats why this character is so amazing). But i felt so much while reading it i wouldnt trade it for anything. It was funny, it was dumb, it was deep, it was enraging and healing, but most of all it was sincere. The most sincere depiction of what being a person in a deeply flawed society is, and how there's happiness even while surviving.

It was so frustrating to see the manhwa go in a direction i didnt want it to go ! I wanted it to become my cozy refuge, where every problems are magically solved, where haejoon and eunyung ends up understanding and loving each other in a cliché way, where theres a new home with my *fave charas* and its a series of feel-good interactions. Instead the problems kept pilling up, most of them didnt have a satisfactory conclusion, eunyung and haejoon kept hurting each other and distancing themselves. Haejoon just cut contact with his father without knowing what were his nefarious motives or without this guy facing any consequences, we dont know if eunyung's parents will keep bothering eunyung unchecked, we dont know if they're going to be happy and rich, or if, realistically, as orphans without generational wealth and deep traumas, they're going to end up in a shitty life situation.

And i couldnt thank wanan enough for this. They didnt take the easy way, the feel-good way, the way that would have given them a probably bigger fandom so a bigger source of money. I'm amazed by how they managed to hold this whole story so perfectly. Not a single misstep. Everything they draw was where it should have been, every action from the characters were understandable (and frustrating lol), the fucking subtlety of the developing relationships, no deus ex machina and no miserabilism. I didnt always agree with wanan's ethic or what i perceived of it (i think stealing or being violent is ok depending on the context, i dont think working hard to earn money is a virtue) but i respect how they choose to present it. I didnt talk about the other characters because honestly they didnt move me as much (except marie), but i love them so much too. I felt sad that eunyung and haejoon didnt become best friend 5ever (or even lovers hehe) but honestly, understandable lol. If i was one of them i WOULDNT become close with the other at all, so its kinda amazing they could still find this level of mutual understanding.

In short, wanan is an amazing story teller.

And an amazing image-composist (have no idea how to say this in english). The artstyle doesnt look like much, but this gave wanan a wide graphic range to convey emotions that wouldnt have been possible with a more sophisticated style i think -how will i forget the red swirlings mixing with eunyung skin ? The expressions, the choice of colors, the choice in showing something in particular without giving a clear explanation on why (often haejoon's surprised or contemplative face, which made me re-read chapters a few times to try to understand what was happening in his big head). It didnt feel like wanan thought their readers were stupid, nor did they play the fake-deep style. It was perfectly balanced.

And so even if i didnt read it, i have no doubt the end will be the same. Im so sad they decided to end this manhwa, but i know prolonging it would have been greedy and that ultimately, the manhwa would have suffer for it. Some authors do that : they have a popular series going on, and for whatever reason they keep writing new chapters without a clear goal and so the story becomes diluted, messy, useless. I love when they do this, because i can say goodbye to a story progressively as my interest in it wans, without feeling sadness or loss. But it makes me not think of the story at all in the future, since everything that was good about it became buried in new shitty chapters. Because wanan didnt do that, i know that i would think of no home for a long while, maybe forever,

,like i really lost companions when no home ended actually. Because it really, really hurts, knowing i wont be seeing new faces of the no home characters anymore. I know it sounds probably stupid ; i feel genuine grief here lol. I want to know what will happen to them, if they are alright, if they found a place in the world... if there is something to look forward after all, and i really dread not having answers every monday anymore. and the fandom is so small i cant comfort myself by re-entering the no home world every week or whatever... does anyone else feel this way ToT ? maybe i should participate myself but well,, i wouldnt know where to begin...

And saying that ! I'm almost never on this blog, i dont really have socmed accounts, i dont participate in fandoms at all. But I spent a looot of time reading and watching people who does -without being connected or interacting with posts or fanfics at all. AND i really want to thank you all for giving me so much material to chew, posts that made me think, fics that made me smile, drawings that inspired me, witnessing interactions that made me laugh. I was and i probably will continue to be a ghost on socmed, but i really want you to know that you had an impact on me and i was looking forward to your new posts (and will continue to!).

the "every no home chapter is a test of my willingness to Not blow my own brains out" and explosion eunhae monday of @skiptoyuri

the regular nohome posters which makes me happy to check tumblr regularly @shimamitsulover @lesbianpegbar @luckyswamps @tomoyoo @cloudbends @t0a2ter @solcarow @dragon-of-timeless-blue

the awesome artists who keep producing bangers nohome art @gohaejoon @maxsolosur @jjd5426 @bnnuycafe @ct-bunny @lentl-soup @fartaycat @jjd5426 @prokkoli @moxymaxing @ginangtan

the nohome posters that i enjoyed running into @pleuvoire @homolobotomized @podoro-vines @fmet @welpuu @revertrate @obstinaterixatrix @kulluto

the artists that made me interested in checking no home @cienfll @craysmo @ant-eaters @idledee @fruiitlins @froqpi-art @201918b @tinfishmeal @ohrsoh @30mingirlfriend

thanks @ditherslam for the awesome fanfics, obviously i read them all and they're some of my favourites. youre an amazing writer and i cant wait for the next chap of "your atoms"!!

thanks @homeless202 for being an insatiable nohome poster for a while (and @grannykombucha !)

im forgetting a lot of others but i really wanted to thank you all for your time, energy, work. i never interacted with your posts or with you but i really want to convey how cool it is that you all contribute to make no home a more well-known manhwa and the fandom alive

thank youuuu (hope the @ are ok tell me if its bothersome ill delete it)

and really, really, thank you wanan ! waaaa i want to cry

[soruset]

HEY MOOTIES!!!

i figured out how to add cities to my world clock!!! if you wanna you can tell me the general region you live in if not city and i'll add you so i know if you're sleepin or not so i know not to disturb/expect you :3

i only have @the-real-gmail rn since i talk to him on disc and i gotta figure out if hes awake or not so i know if he wont/will respond since im paranoid as fuck / BECAUSE I NEED TO KNOW WHAY TIME IT OS SO I CAN TELL HIM TO GO SLEEP BC HIS SLEEP SCHEDULE MESSED UP!!!

if u dont wanan do this its totes fine btw !!! just thought i could do this hfhsvdbbsb

[rat-off-string]

so much work and its all the tedious stuff anf i dont wanan fucking do it

[shoezuki]

This next chapter of my doctor fic is jusm its Not Doing It. Like i wanan write i wanna write so bad but theres a Block yknow. Like thos ch is sposed to be short n i dont technically have much left of it but i cant write it. Idk what the fuck is up like.

Its where sampo finally takes gepard back to belobog because he realizes gepard is going to die id he doesnt. N so he makes a sort of sled out of things he's found in the abdandoned houses nearby n literally drags gepard all back while he's injured himself n like. The cumulation of sampo learning to not be selfish and realizing just how much he cares for gepard to the point of causing himself irreparable damage. And its GOOD i love it and im excited for the second part of the fic after this n cant wait to write that

But i jus. Am so stuck w it. Idk what it is but i feel like im missing something or its jus not good

[onismdaydream]

write to ur hearts content homie! as long as the cheating is tagged i dont see why it'd be a problem . unless joe and schmoe just dont wanan read the dang tags!!1 me personally i think all those ideas are fun, but i also like the extra angst betrayal of not being aware about the cheating as a faithful partner/being the person who is being used to cheat and not having that disclosed to you. feeling used and distressed after the fact, all of your trust having been compromised by this person <3 sigh. but i also do like being evil sometimes! but the only reason i feel like a cheating fic where reader cheats might not resonate with an audience is that like... not many people can put themselves in those destructive shoes and feel good about it me on the other hand im a demon i fuck and suck to my hearts content( in minecraft of course)

most of the way i write x readers are like... completely different than how i am actually so i never have a problem creating/reading a "horrible" reader!! idk why im so hesitant to write it with everything else i've written that i think would be more morally questionable than a cheating fic lol

but this is still hypothetical because my brain is refusing to give me any kind of direction to start with so i'm just kinda stuck with the thoughts swirling around in my head

[n0tfromar0undhere]

Hey Vyncent! How do you feel about William’s driving?

conflficted. he drievws leie shit, and never leets me do it so he must reallay like drieving ans i dont wanan take tahat away from him but also its sfucking dangeruos.

[PT: Conflicted. He drives like shit, and never lets me do it, so he must really like driving and I don’t want to take that away from him, but also, it’s fucking dangerous. End PT.]

[lightyearssurrogatedaddy]

magine crying and you wanna tell one of your friends why uou're crying because you want a bit of comfort. But you're afraid of coming in at a bad time like that one time and feeling so guilty about it because they're going through something worse and you cant you CANT talk to anyone because youre afraid everyone else wonfmt get it or wont pay you any attention but you wanan talk to SOMEONE about how youre feeling but you CANT cus even if you were allowed to and didnt have any fear youd still say absolutely nothing.

Oooohhhh i dont wanna b a bother to anyone theyre all going through shit absolute garbage and i know they say it doesnt take energy to care about me i STIL dont wanna bothr them because what if i catch them at a rrally really really bad time or what if i text someome and they dont have an answer and ignore me and the next time they text theyre gunna skip over what i told them and theyre gunna talk.about something else else.

I want a hug hug i want aomeone to tell me its okay but thats way too much to ask from them i dont wanna be a bother i dont wanna be a worry but i kust talked to my therapist today after a month of not being able to chat and we had to do it over phone while my mom was nearby cus we live in the small ass bus and i cant ask her to go outside cus its 11 degrees and i feel like i didnt say enough and now i just really really want a someone but no i dont wanna bother them its late and theres scjool tomorrow and school sucks and i dont want them feeling like they need to cater to my stupid ass.

Im sorry im so so sorry theyre gunna read this sometime and say soemthing really nice but im not gunna read the message for five hours and maybe ill try avoiding it alltogether cus i dont know i dont know why cant you be mean like i expect you to why cant you yell and curse at me like i expect you to why are you so NICE to me.???? Nono i know why but why man. Why in a rhetorical sense. Why in the how do you have the fucking energy for me.

Im sorry. Im done crying. Oh god man its fine i got my favorite stuffed animal and everything

I want a hug can you give me a hug please. I feel so selfish and cruel. Im so scared youre gunna turn on me one day because nobody can be that genuine. Aint nobody in the fucking world who can be this sweet and silly. Im so waiting im so worried i dont ever want that to happen but i feel like it really might even though i know it wont. Why have you never let uour anger out on me even when i deserved it. Im sorry i didnt want to text about this im just hoping this post will stay buried, cus maybe it comforts me knowing it exists and could be discovered by you, but theres the happy chance you never ever see this and i get to not talk about it ever again. My wonderful schrodingers cat is such a comfort to me because then i dont have to worry about an outcome that im positive will happen. I love my maybes.

[nessaiscute]

theres something speically iroinc bout being trans right now, like i have to act like im not bout to be carried off to some camp to be killed have my life family and meds taken away, and everyone around me just wants me to act like everything is normal. like the worlds not going to shit and i still have to cook and clean and play games and be exicted for things and act like a silly game with a gay character means a damn thing and that in the next twenty mintues my dad could break down my door grab me by my necck and throw me in a cattle car. i have to ignore all the people on the internet who are hoping celebrating this but hey magic wizard game amirightlads??

its becoming harder and harder to do literal anything without my gf i think my mental state would be much much worse, trans people have to be braver then any marine right now but unlike marines we dont get any notice or anything like that. and our families just dont care its all bout laudnry cook food make sure everything is nice and tidy please help me with my thing but i dont wanan hear shit bout your crap. people are choosing to just ignore the real issue either they dont care or standing up makes them uneasy and they dont like being a target. and before any terfs get in my notifs telling me to detransition or some shit it has nothing to do with my hrt its YOU acting like its the end of the fucking world that trans women exist a concept thats been a thing since the start of time its you passing laws preventing me from just existing telling me its all bout kids meanwhile child labor is back and school shootins happen every day but yall stopped caring bout that after the tennesse one cause the shooter was trans. its bout the fear of just living right now i dont want to die i want to exist i want to be happy im more happy then ive ever been but all yall can see is some made up bullsht in your head cause ‘lamo men creepy’ its bullshit its stupid and im just so so tried of it

[lemonpixycat]

hey! big surprise! I'm not doing well again today! i'm thinking a lot about how fucking sick and tired I am of having to 'live in the moment' just to cope with how dark and bleak the future is and how there is NOTHING to look forward to in the future because the only guarantees of the future are things like my dad dieing and that overshadows ANYTHING possibly good that could ever happen to me. im so fucking tired of this being the only way i can cope with existence. do u know how absolutely shit it is to have to live like this.i really dont wanan do this anymore lmfao and there's nothing anyone can do to help me so going into a hospital would be completley pointless.

they gonna give me money so that i can surivive if my disability income get s taken away after they review my case? they gonna cure my dad of his illness? they gonna give me money so that i can afford to live in the future when ym dad does evenutally pass away and i have no one paying for the house bills anymore? they gonna give me a magic pill that can cure my tiredness and fatigue and executive function issues? no they aren't there's literally nothing anyone can do for me.

i get told i need to have a 'plan' for if my disablity gets taken away or for when my dad dies but there IS NO POSSIBILITY FOR A PLAN. i dont HAVE a plan because there ISNT a feasible one!!! it all requires MONEY and no ones just gonna give me money and i can't work to GET more money. SO LIKE????? what am i supposed to DO??? I"m tired of living like this lol i want to be able to look forward to the future and not have to liv ein the moment every second just to get by each day and i want to not have to worry about the future and i want there to be some kind of feasible plan for when the worst DOES happen that isn't just "I guess u'll just have to kill yourself, since you can't survive on your own and the government isn't just gonna GIVE you money."

[tylorisgay]

i really wanan write my fungus/josh fanfic just cuz its a funny crack ship to me n like yeah i sorta am into this pathetic guy but he pisses me off a bit so i dont wanan Really Be With him But also

josh being a finicky kind of character just cuz of his career choices ( commitment issues in general is so fun to me)

from studying criminal justice to being like yo scarings for me n then jumping company to company before settling in mi

n the way that fungus n josh even meet is cuz of fungus choice to stop being randalls scare assistant i havent figured out what would of been his breaking point but working with a guy for 5 years where he doesnt appreciate the work u do its like ok putting on the big boy pants now im DONE

fungus gets paired up with josh n then it just goes on from there

i definitely see josh thinking fungus is very nothing burger but An efficient worker i feel like hed help josh improve cuz listen fungus always has smthg to say about numbers n stuff n since josh is literally not randall i think hed take the criticism n be like ok so then what

fungus being taken aback like wait.. u wanna listen to me ..?!?!?

i could see em working together for a year maybe 2 but thats pushing it

i want it to fit w MIs timeline without messing up tooo much n in general timeline is fucked so he even fucking cares cuz fungus unfortunately does go back to randall just cuz no one else wnats to deal with him LOL like sorry fungus...