#I DONT KNOE OKAY?????
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Oh my fuck.
Gyaruo Ivan
#time diary(?)#audrey/kellie's time diary#I DONT KNOE OKAY?????#I DONT KNOW#JUST APPEARED IN MY HEAD BECAUSE OF LIKE ...... I DUNNO..... FLOR BEING GYARU JUST CUZ SHES LIKE#Ivan if he was a clown. and im just#i dunno#gyaruo ivan and gyaru flor..... ...#alnst ivan#alien stage ivan#ivan alien stage#ivan alnst#I DONT KNOW AGAIN...#I JUST THOUGHT AND BAM ITS THERE#anyways. these are gonna be THE LAST post of ivan. you will never hear from me again about that guy#lets go white joy
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Ookay abt the animal packers drama (TW FOR ABLEISM/ABLEIST LANGUAGE, ANTI THERIAN, PHYSICAL THERIAN, AND HOLOTHERE LANGUAGE. TW FOR MENTIONS OF ZOOPHILIA/DISCOURSE AROUND ZOOPHILIA. THE TOPICS WILL BE SEEN IN THE SCREENSHOTS IM SHOWING.)
Here's some screenshots of comments on a yt community post from a popular creator telling people to dni if you support the person who makes the animal packers (image id in alt text)
I'm speechless right now. Genuinely. It's all making my mind spin. For now I'm just going to say a few things, might add more in rbs later.
1: Minors can have packers (imo). They're for dysphoria, there's really nothing wrong with them. Maybe it's sort of iffy, which is understandable and I completely respect beings who think that minors shouldnt be allowed to have packers, but honestly I think teenagers are allowed to have packers if it helps them so much.
2: This isn't zoophilia. In any sense. This being was making and selling these purely as species affirming gear. It wasn't advertised as anything related to zoophilia/beastiality. They (from my knowledge) weren't even hyper-realistic.
3: The last person targeting physical therians and therians who experience delusions is using logic. I just can't fathom. Being a physical therian and/or having delusions as a therian doesn't make you a bad being.
4: I obviously respect you if you personally think this (animal packers) is a bit of a strange thing to do, I obviously respect you if you personally don't want to have an animal packer. That's fine, and that's just your opinions and feelings. The only thing I would criticize someone for is if they are calling something that makes another being feeling better about their body disgusting, vile, zoophilic when it isn't, "too far", the reason why therians get so much hate along with physical therians/ therians that expirience delusions/holotheres, or pornographic.
That's all we have to say for now, we'd appreciate it if you add your thoughts/insight in rbs/comments (not forcing of course, you're free to do what you wish with this post).
#tw animal packers discourse#tw discourse#tw ableism#tw ableist language#tw anti therian#wow#yeah#im#yeah i just dont knoe at this point#uhhuh#okay#therian#otherkin#otherkin community#therian community#alterhuman#alterhuman community#nonhuman community
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So sad that vampires in YA books have to be so morally "perfect", let them have a little of blood, as a treat
#i know i knoe its ya#but lets not pretend teenagers dont do some unhinged shit#let them be nasty sometimes#let them get a silly little sip of blood idk#and why are they so normative?#it doesn't make sense at all#vampires break the rules by their mere existence#why would they conform to society expectations#but okay#my ramblings
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Beta! North sky
A bit of background:
back in my "I wanna make a video game but I don't know how to!" Phase at 13, I used to make edgy ass ocs for this game, I wanted to make a dark souls like game with my ocs. Technically this is how north sky himself was born, he was going to a samurai-like character who could turn in and out of a crow and like kema umi kinda like how he currently does...except for one thing....
I'm not gonna straight up and say it but...let's just say crow lore was gonna be insane and apparently north sky was going to be WAY OLDER in crow years and have a teenage body...😬😬
#IK IK IT SOUNDS CREEPY BUT PLEASE DONT CANCEL ME#I WAS ONLY 13 I DIDNT KNOE EHAT I WAS DOING#IM SORRY OKAY#original character#ocs#drawing#oc artwork#my oc art#artists on tumblr#oc art#oc drawing#north sky#Beta! north sky
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i dont know if ill survive getting to the end of mo paths are bound.. im almost halfway and i have no clue where ill go when there isnt a next chapther
#im holding on by a tread and that tread is currently this fic#..... i uh. didnt have any antidepressants for a few days due to pharmacy stock issues#and it hit and i dont know how i couldve dealt with it in any other way then completly just. reading#ive been reading this fic for several days#and if nothing else ive been wlking and feeding the dog#not... yeah okay i think ill need to reread it several times#but like processing the lack of emotions emotionally#dealing with the apathy and all that#no paths are bound#xie lian is sometimes what you need to keep going in life you knoe#also it IS visible that the autour loves mu qing especially right now and im. here for it in an emotionally consitpated way#yeah its the xianle trio flashback part weee. chapther 66#the butterfly man dreams are. a touch i think its kinda hilarious but yes! youll meet him soon#and like. its so fucked up they really need to tlk this out#and i know they dont but damn i want them to#im back in I just want you to have some very serious conversations where all of you actually understand eachother and#and#.... ah
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IM GOING TO CRYYYYYH i thought i lost all the progress i madeon that damn drawing 😭😭 thank you automiatic backups from clip studio tjank you thank you oh my god oh my foddddd oh my god
#IM GONNA CEY. MY FILE GOT CORRUPTED EVEN THOUGH I SAVED IT BEFORE I WENT TO EAT A LATE DINNER IM GONNA CRYYYYYHYY#ughhhh im. idk#whoever made that automatic backup deserves wverything and anything they could ever wnat oh my gof#i lost the lineart i had for huntee which is a bit of bummer but oh my god. oh my gof#okay im just gonna. watch youtube for a little bit i dont. i dont knoe#chet chatters
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"over lvl3, huh?"
sans I killed undyne she gives so much exp
#immediate lvl 8 by killing ONLY her#“i wasnt watching” sans thats your brothers best friend#fish lady is my favourite ut character btw i love her battle n how her death is written okay. plus im curious. i dont knoe#wwwwww
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i am okay tho i just have momeys sometimrs . please do not ever worry abt me guys
#i rly rly rly appreciate any asks u guys send me truly i usually hold onto then bc i dont know how to respond and rheyre good to see#sometimes#but im not in any danger i rly am. safe. i have a lot of things keeping me from doing That so. i am safe. dw.#i just get sad a lot. and its my fault i need 2 judt stop it and suck it uo and Work on it all but its so. insurmountable. and it judt#doesnt get easier yk. it never does. whatsver.#but. anyways i am safe i am okif it got to the point i was like. fearful for my life thatd either be The delusion (which is actually good#for me i cant explain it but its good for me) or i coulf talk to my family abt it and theyd help#i just cant talk to them abt This. stuff. the like. the being broken stuff and just not being right#i cant talk to any of them abt that. but if i said hey im genuinely faarful i miggjt do something they would um. help. so its okay#idk. i hope the posts dont seem like i make them for pity i rly dont this blog is just my stream of consciousness#ik i just shouldnt post them and i should judtkeeo a diary but i dont um. how to explain thid#even if nobody sees it it feels better to make a tumblr post bc then it feels like. a performance i guess. its not its real but its like#if i put it somewhere other ppl can see it then that means i exist. thats not quite right but i dont know how to articulate like#i dont nexessarily want ppl to see them i find it embarassing i guess. but it feels dishonest to not post them#since i post everything else. bc i like being open online it makes me think im real. does that make sense#and there are timestamps so i know when things happen. thsts modtly how i remember things#is looking at my blog and checking dates and timestamps. and for older stuff i have to check my dms with ykw. which. is not good for.me at#all. but ihave no other way to remember dayes#i dont know. im rly sry i hate podting vents but i dont like deleting posts eithrr so j dont know oike. idk.#just idk know they arent like. They are serious they are how i feel and i usually make them ehen im in distress#but its not dangerous distress i judt get hopeless. yk? i dont wanr anybody to worry abt me ever im not supposed to be a burden#i dont knoe. i havent articulated anything well. basicallt i dont do rhem for attention i dont do them for like. guilttripping or pity#i dont rly do them for any reason other than irs pure word vomit. i suppose. and tumblr is my wordvomit website. i judt get on here and yap#and it makes me feel so much worse but i get better eventually so its fine.
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#im ngl i thinl i am gonna avoid that beach at all costs now i need to avoid him at all costs#for my fucking sanity#this iz weird bc i fucking Hate changing shit in my routine of any kind !#like ok beach isnt actual routine But . it is my go-to once or twice a month at Minimum but i go when i am rlly sad and overwhelmed#but . adter saturyday i luterally have to avoid him at all fucking costs i cannot stand tje sight of him lmao#everything abt yhat was Too Much and i just . dont knoe how to Fix that yet#like jesus fuck okay !#but moons in cancer its moon day#makes sense i go to the beacb today actually sorry#also gotta get some . food n stuff bc i am Starving and the . ed thing is winning#im stsrting to think i may have developed afrid or wtv the acronym is#im stoned and my brain is like . yes it would make sense#anyway thats cool i actuslly Hate my eating habits theyre notnstsble#n its not rvrn . as if i hate food . i just . cant eat half the time for wyv rrasons#going toctown on juice n mini eggs tho so theres thst !
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babe u okay? uve been listening to Slide by the Goo Goo Dolls for the past hour?
#i am throwing in other goo goo dolls songs sporadically#but my brain is stuck on this song#i dont knoe if im okay?
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reader knoes sevika is always busy and leaves her post-it notes PLZZ ur writing is so fire iloveu
A Little Love .☘︎ ݁˖
thank you !! i love this because i love post-it notes. also, i have a bunch of fics in the roster rn, so expect to see your ask soon, hopefully
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Sevika wasn't usually home, often out on a mission or cleaning up for Silco, so you started to compromise a bit.
Sometimes, you make her lunch, and she protests every time you do so, saying her co-workers giggle at her for the cute lunchbox and organized meal. But in reality, she loves it, smiling to herself while she eats lunch after a long day.
And you had the bright idea to put a note for her to read with it.
"Don't push yourself too hard today, Love you ♡"
Her brows furrowed as she took the note off the lid of the lunch and shoved it in her pocket, making sure nobody else saw.
After she completed a successful mission, she would pull it out, smiling while she read it. (Its a little dirty but its okay)
This was only the beginning.
When she got up earlier than you to get to work, she was met with a post-it on the fridge.
"Dont skip breakfast today."
She huffed to herself, shaking her head and pulling the fridge open to grab an apple.
She grabs the small paper and puts it in her pocket before returning to your room to plant a small kiss on your head.
It was a particularly rough day on the job, and all she had to remind herself of you was the two papers in her pocket.
And trust she is rereading it as often as she can, she might as well be studying your handwriting.
When she got home, you were already asleep. But this was expected since it was well past midnight.
She stepped into the bathroom to freshen up, tugging her dirty clothes off to hop in the shower.
Her eyes trailed up the mirror, meeting with a soft pink note.
"Hello gorgeous ;)"
At that, she let out a throaty laugh at your mischief, grabbing it to throw on top of her pile of clothes.
You awoke while she was climbing into bed, delivering a warm kiss to her lips, "You saw the note?"
Sevika nodded, smirking at you, pulling you into her chest gently.
This time, it was her turn. Before she left, she wrote you something on a torn piece of paper. (Its the thought that counts)
"I'll be home early today. Wait for me"
This was a gateway to your everyday sticky note conversations
You left notes on her mechanical arm.
Notes on her weapons.
Notes in her cold spot in bed before she got home.
She left notes on your forehead before she left.
Notes in your bag.
Notes on the toilet when you wake up to take a piss.
Her pockets are full of little post-its, once she dropped one, and Silco picked it up, delivering it back to her with a grin.
From then on, she kept them in her nightstand drawer. She's embarrassed..
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#suicide tw#okay so i have a dear friend that i care about so much#we hung out today! but the last time we hung out before that was in January#in January she was in a really bad kental state. and the day after we hung out she tried to kill herself#and she is still alive and with us today#she got help and shes in a much better olace noe#so we hung out today. right. and it was good#it was great! it was fun. she seems to be doing a lot better#but my anxious brain is drawing some connections that it shouldnt#because last time we hung out she tried to kill herself right#now my brain thinks that since we hung out shes gonna try to kill herself#i guess my anxiety doesnt understand the difference between correlation and causation#but because of this im panicking. shaking. hyperventilating.#and i dont know how to properly deal with anxiety. ive had it all my life and i still dont really know any skills#how do you shake the fear? especially when its happened once? logically i knoe its not going to happen#but illogically. i dont know#im gonna go eat some crepes now. anf try to breathe i guess#i just needed to vent please dont worry about me
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:( tummy hurts
#and now im hella anxious about it making it worse#like i was really nauseous the week before last and i threw up three days but then was fine so idk#like i wiuld get really nauseous throw up and then be absolutely fine after#and now im like really stressed about it becaus emy dad just died of esophageal cancer#and my mom keeps talking about how its slow growing and you assume it must be something for yesrs#until suddenly you cant swallow or keep food down and then yoy dound out you have it#like i understand i likely dont have it but my brain says its a possibility and im focused on it for obvious reasons#idk maybe it would be helpful to do like a scan of something to ease my worries you knoe? but also thats expensive#and i doubt anybody would even listen to me#like they originally diagnosed my dad eith a heatial hernia like an esophagus hernia which was very wrong my mom kept badgering him#then the found it the second time so yeah#idk im very stressed about it and honestly just want to get a scan or something to know for sure and be done with it#because i doubt treating the more likely cause (acid reflux) and that working will make me feel much better#cause like if i take an acod reducer for a few weeks and i get better ehat if its like not really that#and it like prolongs the stuff you know? idk im just very anxious lol#ill be okay just eorking through things
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hi hi hello,EAD stundent here (basically a history nerd)
In Dontis' P4, he mentions a person special for him, from 13:18 to 17:00 someting? I dont knoe. So Ive got a quote from that vid and a little bit of an argument i wanted to point out.
"All she wanted from me, was company. Her sons and Husband bled for the Turkish empire and on her mission to find life again, she heard of creatures who could control emotions; itas(?) memories." (13:08-14:??)
The part that I couldnt't really understand after watching that video was: When or in what century did Dontis meet this person?(1) My reason for asking this, is that the expression "Turkish Empire" you use is not actually correct. Well,its not entirely wrong either, but hear me out:
Back then, the name "Turk" was used as the name of the nationality( you can check the first ever usage of it on the website tdkbelletengov, or ttk (also gov))(or simply search Orkhon inscriptions) .And the countries founded by the Turks were not called "Turkish Empire(s)".
("Turkey"/"turkish" isnt an empire, it's a republic, and the empires owned by the Turks are empires such as the Seljuks or the Ottomans).
It isn't well understood because Dontis did not give any info about the date or his age at that time. But, personally, it may be that the person lost her husband and sons in the war, between the period of Ottomans rising and declining, in the 1600s and later. (probably after mehmed the III.)
Okay, besidesthisnerdy ass paragraph there are two other questions:
2) Was there a specific reason behind creating the identity of the person who would have such an impact on Dontis? Or did it just come to your mind?
3)Also, how do you think Dontis might have met this person? I mean why was he in (probably?) in the anatolian region?
Thbaks for bearing with me and my questions habe a good day !!
I remember researching into what certain regions of the world would've called it at the time of their meeting, also depending on the side they were fighting for, and I think I found that some did call it the Turkish Empire at the time. I can't find the source anymore, but if that wasn't the case, then my bad haha
For his character development. He's lived a long life and he's met some interesting people
No idea
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ok ok i have a question. would you consider evgenii onegin/vladimir lenski a rarepair. like on one hand they have like 30 fics on ao3. on the other hand thats like half the ships for the book in general, and while its not cannon i would argue its one of the main ships of its story
#rarepair#i have in fact argues this duribg recess when we were studying it in like grade 10 or smthing#can you see im trying to figuire out what i consider a rarepair myself because im intrested in cringetiber#but the consideration of what is a rarepair really to me personally#because like. okay. i dont knoe if i consider jetko a rarepair#i guess it counts but there is so much fic of it my dudes#i am a well fed jetko shipper so it doesnt feel like . rare enoigh to be a rarepair#and like i was thinking of obscure things i genuenly ship#that arent like. just the cannon relationship in a wlw novel#btw#rose hatwaway and vasilisa dragomir is my vampire academy otp#and that one does kinda count i thik#anyway#lily evans and narcissa blck was actually kinda a rarepair once upon a time but the marauders fandom got its hands everywhere and everythin#and also im not feeeling the hp but like if eel like bsically every hp ship isnt actually a rarepair#there is almost nothing you cn think of and genuenly be really invested in that doesnt have hundreds of fics#be it only partly of the actual ship
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꒷꒦ info under the cut !
woooohooooo we made itt 😄!! i knoe im starting to slack.., but due to being moved around a lot and getting sick, i so obviously had to take a little break.. but i think im back 😼.. so uh,, event right..... about that..
this is really to celebrate my birthday anf getting 400 followers.., thank you to everyone whos ever requested something from me and i apologise ssooo much to the people whos requests i didmt have motivation for.. 😓 anyway.. prompts and dates beloww..!
so! this event will be from august 11th to august 21st (my birthday!!!!!) but will be extended to the 28th (my sisters birthday lmfao.?) for late entry 💯
use #angelessebirthdayevent and make sure to tag me so i can rb 🪰🪰;!!!;;
prompts :
11/08 — your favourite character edited with your least favourite colour
12/08 — a media you dont see edited often
13/08 — your least favourite character from your favourite media
14/08 — an edit without colouring (ie psd, filters, overlays.)
15/08 — free day
16/08 — one of your hyperfixations
17/08 — a character from your first ever anime
18/08 — a character associated with green / nature
19/08 — free day 2
20/08 — a character with YOUR birthday 🤑
21/08 — a character with MY birthday,💯💯
if you miss a day thats like.. literally okay. idgaf. you do you brah. 🫂 take care of yourselves if you participate btw.
taaaags thankd you guys : @axewell @edit-corner @dh-mpir @rrozeta @bloused-lace @battampria @pinkmiku @lavendergalactic @llocket and anyonr else..
#🪼 ) event#angelessebirthdayevent#editblr#editblr events#wat#fucked up tge queue this was supposed to be posted 8 days later LNFAOO 😭😭
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