#I ALSO LITERALLY JUST SAID THIS SHIT 3 MINUTES AGO
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i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is
#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And#make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not#saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was#going to say#like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so#bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the#winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000#other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless đ like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but#i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its#been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody#responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple#muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it#but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like#im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good#solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start#all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the#punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4#im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but#even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think#avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is#like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they#hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be#the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors đŻ like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO#difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15#minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case#it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel#stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and#tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i#tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction#like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint
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hi. for people who saw gatsby: an american myth. do you remember mckee asking nick for lunch. and then gatsby in like the next scene inviting nick for lunch. because i remember.
#not pjo#chitter chatter#when gatsby was like 'we should do lunch' i was like. hello. fucking. hello. are we. hello.#gatsby really said we just met literally 5 minutes ago. come meet my father figure. normal normal thing to do jay.#to be clear gatsby also asks him to go to lunch in the book. but like. there's a time skip. and also#in the show after mckee asks they immediately start making out on the couch. none of this ... nonsense#so the vibes are a LITTLE different in my brain.#i saw a few people say they didnt think gatsby and nick flirted enough and like while i do think that think part of it is we're#in nick's pov but not his HEAD#he DOES start singing about gatsby's smile for no reason until jordon is like. alright buddy. lets talk about daisy.#like nick was just Doing That. pull it together carraway.#but i got the vibe (JUST my take) that gatsby was like. kinda into nick. zero reason to be leaning into his space like that sir.#however when he actually MET daisy again he became kinda singularly focused on her again#i mean he built his whole lifeup to this moment#he says it at the end. he murdered pieces of himself to bring himself here. for DAISY.#him snapping back to daisy mode makes sense to me but he still reaches out for nick as a comfort in the sense that hes like#nick do NOT leave please stay with us. daisy does the same. and ofc part is that theyre really. fucking awkward. but like.#LET ME HAVE MY OWN NONSENSE INTERPRETATIONS. HES TRAPPED BY WHITENESS AND CLASS AND HETEROSEXUALITY.#hes already so much of an outsider trying to fit in. (i also think he loves daisy or an ideal at least. and she's EASIER to love. safer.)#nick inherently has more freedom even as a gay man in the sense that hes richer and white and an ivy league dude i mean you understand righ#right????????#even if its in the book i do wanna point out the parallels between those moments. im choosing to see it as deeply intentional <3#this show had a lot of repetition and parallels (see daisy and myrtle in a lot of songs and scenes)#(one i LOVE is tom giving myrtle a necklace and daisy later giving TOM her necklace in case he sees anyone he knows. idk love that shit)#im...gonna queue this#im embarrassed to talk about this show so much. so. into the queue it goes!!!#all the worlds a stage#so like. anyway. thats where i think nick's mind immediately went when gastsby asked him for lunch. personal headcanon <3#gatsby after one convo: we're doing lunch // me and nick immediately: oh ok! guess that's a date then!
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I love my niece and nephew but my sister literally keeps dumping them with me & expecting me to babysit without paying me despite the fact she has a job, & I'm tired of being treated as free labor for her
#when i asker her if there was anybody else to babysit she said her friend but was like 'but then if i took them there#then I'd have to pay them' (meaning she offhandedly admitted she doesn't believe she should pay me for babysitting all day)#i agreed to ONE day of babysitting & now ive been babysitting since monday from 9 am to 5 pm#& she didnt even tell me about the other days i literally woke up to my nephew crying & my sister gone so she just left him here#without saying anything#tbd#and she STILL never paid me for watching her son all summer 2 years ago despite telling everyone she was going to#she had a job & good money then too she just. decided not to pay me#i also hate 1. waking up early 2. waking up early in the summer 3. babysitting without getting paid 4. doing shit last minute#so this is p much my nightmare to keep waking up early in the summer to babysit all day without being told about plans & without pay
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TW/CW: uhhh grief n death I guess lol
Don't you just LOVE when someone says you should be over someone's death by now. Thanks asshole I'm magically over itđ
#Literally heard this less than a year after his death AND my own mother just said a minute ago lmao#âit's been almost four yearsâ congratulations you can kinda do math#Not even good math bud it's been 3 actually so#Y'all can. Idk ignore this I just need to vent I guess.#Also maybe never say this shit to someone
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seeing that someone I follow was also at anime Midwest makes me wonder if we passed at some point at the con? how many people I follow on Tumblr have I passed in person but didn't know? If you were win cosplay I may have even taken a picture with you? Small world huh?
small world! :V i was not in the cosplay contest as a cosplayer, but my brother was and you can spot him from a mile away (HE WAS IN THE CONTEST AND WON BEST PROP AND I WILL CONTINUE TO SHOVE IT IN EVERYONES FACE HEEHEE)
(... if you saw a scrungy looking lilith clawthorne guiding him around like a blind puppy because he can't see for Shit with this thing on, dat me :3)
#liz blogs#anime midwest#amw#cosplay#armor#WE BUILT THIS TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM VERY EXCITED ABOUT IT ITS VERY COOL#i painted a lot and made some of the accents hhjsdjfhsdf i am good at weaving and braiding barbed wire And Paint#we were on stage together so Anybody who stuck around for the winners portion definitely saw me#i look so unimpressive and awkward by comparison lmfao and it was so loud i couldn't hear shit so i'm just bumbling around like a fool#he said he wanted me with him on stage both as a guide and bc i helped so much#this was mostly unpainted 1am the night before the con and he said if it weren't for me it wouldn't have gotten done#i paint Fast#he did not. sleep. he was up All night finishing it then he slept 40 minutes in the car and Conventioned all day#he made my cosplay too though but he made it before anime central a few months ago#dudes dedicated. he deserves it#he literally added all that fur. friday night. in the hotel room. after wearing it all day. no sleep. dudes cracked hes insane hes batshit#the blade glows orange through the cracks but the battery died after his performance </3#i did not need to spend this entire post yelling about my brothers cool costume but i did actually because it IS very cool#giant glaive! a gun on his back you can't see here! the knife in his pocket! three fucking props he is NUTS#... i forgot i also mostly painted the other two props <3 that was me also#i can't foamsmith for shit but by god can i paint#.................................................. anyway! yeah maybe we saw each other đđ
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toxic!rafe will blow your phone up the second you post something on instagram that heâs âiffyâ about.
you posted a photo dump which consisted of some random photos of the beach, some of your friends, one of you and rafe of course, but the one that had rafe seeing red was the last slide, which was you in a bikini. he texted you several times at first, and while you were literally typing your response, he called you. your fingers were typing so fast to respond to him that you accidentally declined the call, and he did not like that. you immediately went to call him back, but another text from rafe rolled in, saying âfuck you donât talk to me weâre doneâ you sighed loudly, knowing damn well he was talking out of his ass right now, so you sat back and waited for the inevitable next string of texts to roll in. which they did, only seconds later.
rafe <3: do you get off on making me mad or something
rafe <3: like iâm racking my brain trying to understand why you do the things you do and thatâs all i can come up with
rafe <3: and i see at least 4 guys have already liked your post like thatâs crazy to me?? thought i told you to block all the guys that followed you?? of course you didnât
rafe <3: also who even took that pic of you??? bc i know damn well it wasnât me so who the fuck you posing for with your fucking ass and tits out? WHAT THE FUCK
rafe <3: DO NOT PUT YOUR SHIT ON DO NOT DISTURB answer me rn.
rafe <3: nah itâs cool actually iâm gonna go hit up my other gfs so you have a good night.
you rolled your eyes at that last text, deciding to fully turn your phone off. you knew he would likely try to text or call you again very soon but you didnât want to deal with it right now. this wasnât your first rodeo, you knew nothing you could say to him right now would calm him down, so letting him freak out on his own was the best method to his madness.
three hours had passed since you turned your phone off. you had caught up on some reading and turned on your current favorite show, but found yourself interrupted by a knock at your front door. you expected it to be rafe, but instead it was a large bouquet of your favorite flowers and a gift bag. you glanced around to see if rafe was lurking around, but saw nothing. when he freaked out over text and was able to reread his actions, he usually waited a bit longer to show his face as opposed to a verbal argument.
you brought the flowers inside and set them on the counter before grabbing the card attached to the side of the bouquet.
sorry we argued. you are so beautiful and i love you so much. got you a little gift and sent you some money for food and i set your appointment with your nail girl for tomorrow at 10. love you forever baby -rafe
you couldnât help but smile just a little. the flowers were beautiful and the note was pretty sweet, so you chose to ignore the part where he said âwe argued.â you didnât get a word in, but you let it slide. especially after you opened the gift bag to see the new dior bag you had been wanting.
you hurried to turn on your phone, immediately seeing a $500 apple payment from rafe as well as a new text from a few minutes ago.
rafe <3: hope you like the flowers and bag baby. love you! :)
you: i love them. thanks rafe, love you too
rafe <3: good to hear. lmk what you end up getting for dinner and iâll pick you up tomorrow to take you to your nail apt. canât wait to see you baby
you would order yourself dinner that was obviously way less than $500, but you would send rafe a picture and thank him again. youâd facetime him before bed and conversation flowed like nothing had even happened just hours before. heâd ask you what color nails you were getting, tell you funny stories about the old men at the country club and excitedly plan what you two were going to do the next day. the cycle seemed like it would never end, but you often forgot about the bad when he was talking so sweetly to you and all you could think about was how excited you were to see him tomorrow.
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How I entered the void so easily after 1 year of trying
So after 1 year and half of trying to enter I finally did it and I am so mad because it REALLY IS SOOOOO EASY and tbh if in this post you are looking for any sort of validation or info you smart ass already know then please REMEMBER THIS : entering the void is extremely easy. You just have to do it in a way that resonates with you.
Personally for me since I had adhd I couldnât just stay still and affirm for 1 or even a few for 10 mins. Not just because I was lazy but because just repeating âI am in the voidâ for so long gets me tired and makes me think of the void more and you actually donât want to think too deeep about it. I couldnât wake 3 hours prior and then affirm or even have the patience to do the psych k, yes I was extremely lazy back then and unpresistent but one thing that helped me even backed then was THE ALPHA STATE MEDITATION !
You just have to find what works for you, find a method technique whatever you want to do that doesnât seem like a chore. So In a post back then I found on @gorgeouslypink acc talking about doing the alpha sate meditation and I tried it back then and I felt really relaxed and it was a good feeling but like I said back then I was realllly lazy so after a few mins I stopped. Then many months later passed and I was still looking for anything and everything on the void. Then just like two days ago I came across another post which was pretty simple and the technique I used was called the DISTRACTED TECHNIQUE.
All there was to do was the usual you get into a comfortable position and then she said to use the alpha state meditation and used the one gorgeouslypink recommended. So I used it and then what she tell you to do is to just think of anything else just get distracted basically and this WAS SO GOOD 4 ME because back then I had adhd so it made it harder to concentrate on just affirming and so yeah I just thought of random things and then at some point where I was completely distracted I felt my body like lift up đ if that makes sense I just canât clearly describe it. It felt really like a shift and I was like âpanickingâ in a way but I wasnât actually panicking I just kinda became aware what was going and then I got scared a little but I just relaxed shortly after. Also my fan that was making like a loud noises was coming in an out and then I only hear it in one ear and then I didnât hear anything and I just stayed there wondering if I reached the void and i actually was!!! I didnât feel my body it felt like I had no body at all and it was pitch black just like how I imagined the void to be. For a few minutes I just stayed there feeling the most surreal peace I have ever felt. I needed that peace fr đ.
So then I affirmed for my desires all I said was âI have all my desired results from my subliminal playlist.â Then just to be extra sure I just said âI have everything I want.â
At that point I got really excited and then I wiggled my toes to get out because I was too dam happy I needed to see all my shit the moment I wake up and then I slowly started getting out and when I tell you I cried for like a good dam minute when I woke up and saw how DIFFERENT. My room looked. I literally screamed onto my pillow. I was so dam scare and yet excited to see how I looked.
WHAT I MANIFESTED :
Desired body and face
Having silky straight tailbone length hair cuz mines was originally curly
And everything in my sub playlist
My desired boyfriend and guys I made him be like Gojo Satoru ( because we are all delusional over him đ€Ș) and let me tell you he is so tall, handsome, sexy and a literal god. He is so silly too đ©·
Moving countries I now live in ny
Never actually meeting my ex and all the people in my old school forget me and have actually never even met me. Like if u asked them about me they have never heard or known me before
Extremely rich rich like hella bands
Got rid of my anxiety and mental health issue
Plus +++
NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS.
Even if the circumstances seem to be eating you alive donât mind that too much. Even if all seems hopeless donât give up because you already know nothing can decide or be unless you give it power to be. So stop being goofy and take responsibility and DONT STRESS!! You donât see God stressing do you. All he has to do is blink and whatever he wants to happen, happens. Plus a lot of confidence came from non dualism that I owe a huge thanks to @trynafindbarbiee she really said it like it is !!
YOU GOT THIS ML đ©·đ©·đ©·đ©·
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But you're my stepmom! (Part 8)
Word count: 2000
Warnings: smut, oral, strap-on, blowjob, mommy kink
Taglist:@stayevildarling@i-just-cannot@hazey-g@buttercandy16@320viada@evilangels-stuff@rmaximoff@morganismspam23@aboutcustardcreams@sasheemo@rigglemethat@walkethisway@mommywandas@r-3-becca@harknessshi @ihaveawifebutwerenotmarriedyet @polaris-likethestar @ahintofchaos
âFuck, fuck, fuck,â you say, rooting around for your clothes. You find your underwear (cringing at how wet it still is when you put it back on) and your pants (which make your sweaty legs feel even more gross), but no sign of your shirt or bra. Agathaâs already pulled her robe back on and is fixing her messy hair in the mirror. âHave you seen myâfuck!â
âWhat?â Agatha stops, turning to face you.Â
Your face has gone white. âYou took off my shirt and bra downstairs. Theyâre by the front door.âÂ
âShit,â she swears. âUm, okay. Iâll go down and distract him. You go find a shirt from your room and then say you came for dinner since you left early yesterday. When he comes upstairs to change, you find your stuff.âÂ
You nod and before she leaves, she crosses over to you and pulls you into a kiss that leaves you breathless.Â
âWeâre not done here,â she vows and then runs downstairs. You quickly go into your closet and find the first tattered T-shirt you can. Youâre able to find a new pair of underwear and a skirt as well. You ball up the pants and underwear you just had on and shove them in-between the dresser and the bed and hurry down the stairs right as you hear the door to the house open.Â
âHey, dad!â You say when he comes in, trying to slow your racing heart at almost getting caught. His wife was two fingers deep in your pussy not ten minutes ago.Â
âHey, sweet pea! What are you doing over here?âÂ
You glance at Agatha who is gradually backing over towards the front door. âI felt bad about yesterday, you know, having to leave early to help Wanda. So I thought Iâd come over and we could all have dinner?âÂ
He smiles at you. âThat would be lovely. Let me go take a shower and then we can figure out what we want.â He slides past you to go up the stairwell and the moment you hear his footsteps upstairs you breathe a long sigh of relief.Â
âI think these are yours?â Agatha says teasingly, holding up the clothes she had taken off you. âNice new outfit.â
âThat was so close,â you laugh, actually not believing that you got away with it. The adrenaline coursing through you makes you want to keep being daring. âGet on the couch.âÂ
Agatha raises an eyebrow at your demanding tone. âWhat?â She asks carefully.Â
âI said that I wanted to taste you.â You can hear the shower turn on from down here so you know you have about fifteen minutes.Â
âHoney, your father is right upstairs.â
âAnd?â You saunter over to take her hand and lead her to the couch. She puts up no fight when you push her down and sink to your knees before her. âThat just means you have to be quiet.âÂ
The corner of her mouth quirks up. âItâs so cute how you think youâre the one in control.â Agatha shuts up quickly though, when you suck a kiss into her upper thigh. Her robe has ridden up and you can almost see between her thighs. âNaughty girl,â she tuts. The mark also means that she canât have sex with your father anytime soon.Â
You weave your hands between the backs of her thighs and the couch and haul her forward to get better access. She moans at the abrupt movement and bunches up her robe at her hips.Â
You part her legs and fuck, she is a mess. Wetness glistens on her thighs and her pussy is swollen and red, literally dripping. You can smell her. You just stare for a minute, transfixed. You had no idea you had this effect on her but now that you do, you will never be the same.Â
âAre you going to actually do something or are you just going to stare?â Agatha bites out through gritted teeth and your breath hitches.Â
âDo you get this wet for my dad?â You have no clue where that came from but all you can think about is her answer.Â
Agatha actually whimpers. âNo,â she rasps. Armed with that knowledge, you go back down between her legs and glide your tongue up the length of her pussy. You watch her through your eyelashes as she bites down on a finger to stifle her moans. âFuck, baby.âÂ
She tangles a hand in your hair and pulls it gently. You make a noise that vibrates against her and her hips jump. She throws one of her legs over your shoulder to bring you closer into her and you can feel her calf flex against your back. You lick and suck and she lets out a guttural groan as you find her clit. Her fingers tighten in your hair when you scrape your teeth against it.Â
âYouâre doing so good for mommy, baby, youâre gonna make me cum,â she says hoarsely. You keep doing exactly what youâre doing, furiously devouring her cunt, and a minute later, her legs tense and she cums all over your face. You let her ride her aftershocks out on your tongue, smirking at her struggling to stay composed. Â
She curses and then pulls you up by your hair, giving you a bruising kiss and then licking her wetness off your chin.Â
âSatisfied?â She says, a wicked grin on her face.Â
âNot even close.âÂ
âGood,â she says, giving you one less peck before moving her legs around you so she can stand up. âI need to go put some real clothes on before your father finishes his shower. Donât get into any trouble.â Â
When she goes upstairs, you quickly run your shirt and bra out to your car and stash them in your bookbag so you donât forget them or leave them lying around in another precarious place.Â
Agatha comes back down wearing a hoodie and olive green sweatpants. The same sweatpants from the picture she sent you this morning. She sees you looking and she smirks. She reaches down and fists the fabric so it tightens and reveals a large bulge.Â
Your mouth falls open, your cheeks flush, and your brain short-circuits. Sheâs wearing a strap-on right now. She went upstairs, found her strap-on, and put it on.Â
It is impossible to think of anything else than her stretching out your cunt with it.Â
Youâre trying to form words but sound just wonât come out and sheâs immensely enjoying it.Â
âSee something you like, sweetheart?âÂ
âYes,â you finally manage to choke out. And then, with impeccable timing as always, your dad comes down the stairs. Agatha lets go of her sweatpants and gives him a smile.Â
âFiguring out what we want for dinner?â
âMaybe pizza? Agatha and I can go pick it up,â you offer. Agatha hums in agreement, looking curiously at you.Â
âThat works for me. Let me go get my computer and I can order it.â He leaves the room to go to the home office.Â
âWhat are you doing?â Agatha asks, eyebrow raised. You shrug mysteriously and follow your dad over to the table when he comes back with his laptop. You all get a large pepperoni pizza to split and a liter of Dr. Pepper.Â
âItâll be ready in 20 minutes,â your dad reads off the screen.Â
âWe should probably go now, just in case thereâs traffic or itâs done early,â you say. Now Agatha knows somethingâs up. The Pizza Hut is only ten minutes from here and thereâs never traffic by their house.Â
But your dad doesnât think itâs strange. Instead, he turns so heâs facing the two of you. âItâs so nice to see my girls getting along.âÂ
You bite back a wicked smile. If only he knew.Â
The second you and Agatha get into her car, she looks pointedly at you. âAlright, whatâs going on?âÂ
âWhat do you mean?â You ask, playing dumb. âI just want pizza.â You donât say anything else so she has no choice but to start driving.Â
You sit in comfortable silence for most of the ride until you tell her to pull over.Â
âWhat?â She asks incredulously.Â
âPull over there,â you repeat, pointing to the parking lot of the K-mart thatâs always empty. Sure enough, thereâs two cars. She scoffs, but does as you say, pulling into a spot far away from anything.Â
Before she can ask whatâs going on again, you unbuckle your seatbelt and climb over the middle console and straddle her. She chuckles, hands finding her familiar spot on your thighs.
âYou made me come pick up pizza with you all because you want my cock in your cunt? Youâre insatiable, honey.âÂ
âYou love it,â you retort, pressing your lips against hers. Like earlier, you donât have a lot of time and she knows that too. She slides a hand up your skirt, pushing your underwear to the side to make sure youâre ready for her.Â
âI donât know why you even bothered to put underwear back on,â she says casually, like sheâs having a conversation about the weather. âYouâve already completely soaked through this pair.â You blush despite yourself, still a little embarrassed by how needy you get for this woman.Â
âShut up and fuck me,â you tell her and she seems amused. She makes quick work of pulling her fake cock out from the waistband of her sweatpants, holding it with one hand while the other guides your hips onto it. You let out a long moan as you sink down on her. âFuckkk.â
âYou like that?â She pants in your ear, already doing the best she can to thrust up into you.Â
âYour cock feels so good inside me, mommy,â you whine, putting your hands around her shoulders to get enough leverage to bounce up and down.Â
âYou look so pretty like this. My beautiful girl.â She peppers kisses on your chest, which flushes from her praise. Youâre getting closer to the edge and she reaches down to rub at your clit. âFuck, wish I could feel how youâre squeezing my dick.âÂ
Your rhythm stutters at the image of that and then youâre riding with a renewed energy, determined to put on a show since she canât actually feel. âI love your cock so much. Iâm gonna cum all over it for you.âÂ
Her hand that isnât circling your clit wraps around your throat and you whimper. You didnât ever think choking would be so hot. She leans in so her hot breath is against your ear and whispers, âCum for mommy.âÂ
You have to bite down on her shoulder to stop yourself from screaming. She hisses at the feeling but never stops fucking you through your orgasm.Â
You rest your head against hers for a moment, just enjoying the feeling of her inside you.Â
She pats your hip. âCome on, we have to go pick up the pizza. Canât have your father getting suspicious.âÂ
âOh, but didnât you hear? Heâs so glad weâre finally getting along,â you remark, carefully sitting up and whining at the emptiness once her strap falls out. You move back to your seat and she smirks.Â
âWhy donât you clean up your mess quickly?âÂ
You stare at her, a little confused by what she means, but you see her eyes flick from your mouth down to her purple plastic dick. You give her a knowing grin and lean over to suck her strap into your mouth. She groans, putting a hand in your hair, enjoying the way you bob your head up and down along her length.Â
âThere you go, good girl,â she says, very pleased. You moan at her words and the taste of yourself. When you finally come up for air, she pulls you in for another kiss. It seems that she also canât get enough.Â
When youâve collected yourself and put your seatbelt back on, she pulls out of the parking lot and back onto the road to the Pizza Hut, one hand on the wheel and the other resting on the console. You reach over and lace your fingers with hers, your insides warming with how she smiles at you.Â
#agatha harkness smut#agatha harkness x fem!reader#agatha harkness x reader#agatha x reader#agatha x you#agatha harkness x you#kathryn hahn x reader#agatha smut#agatha all along
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âââââ â AT THE FAIRGROUND w/ SOLDIER BOY.
NOTES .ᣠidea came from the loveliest @sl33pylilbunny :3 this is SO cute i love it so much ohmygosh. used a jellycat cause i love em n want one really bad.
"i'll win y'every single thing in this damn place if it'll get you to stop whinin' 'bout it," ben grumbles as he stares down the plush toy stuck within its glass enclosure. it's taunting him, taunting you. those beady black eyes.. it knows exactly what it's doing. and ben'll be damned if he loses to a fucking teddy bear with a pumpkin for a body. he'd beat countless of threats beforeâa teddy bear was nothing. and besides, you'd been giving the thing the softest, most adoring googly eyes from the moment you'd seen it. which was approximately.. almost an hour ago.
the staring was fine, sure, but the moment you started begging him to win it for you, for a good ten minutes? yeah, he has to get it over and done with, he realised. after the fifth, "ben, please, it's half teddy bear half pumpkin," he'd been practically sprinting across the fairground to make it to the infamous claw machine holding your future plush toy hostage. that toy would be yours, he'd make sure of it. it has to be.
he also wanted to prove the stories wrong, the ones saying that the claw machine was 'unbeatable' or that it took only luck to win it. he's soldier boy, for fuck's sake. "which one you want again, sweetheart?" he sighed, scratching the back of his neck momentarily. ben knew exactly what you wanted but he wanted to see the twinkle in your eyes when you mentioned it.
your brows raise skeptically for a minute when he asks, but a soft smile settles on your lips. "that one right there," you hum, "teddy bear, pumpkin body, it's literally perfect, oh my god," ben just watches you for a minute, a scoff escaping him. though the corners of his lips flit up at the sight of you and he sighs, "yeah, yeah, i got it. just watch 'n' learn." he gestured for you to step back a little bit, so he could work his magic.
honestly? anyone else looking on would've been so confused to see a guy like ben winning a stuffed toy. or at a fairground in the first place. he'd been totally reluctant, actuallyâit's not exactly his kind of fun but it is yours. he was wrapped around your finger wholeheartedly, he'd do every damn thing you asked him to. even if he wouldn't admit it, even if it was a little embarrassing for him. so dragging him to the fairground wasn't difficult at all when it came down to it.
and he had to admit, it was pretty cool here. it's halloween themed, with all the trimmingsâhaunted house, kids in cute costumes, the music. it almost makes him nostalgic, in a way. going on the rides was a lot of fun too, seeing the way you screamed and shriek when the two of you went on the drop tower was so much fucking fun.
"stop being a pussyâ! holy fucking shit, this is it, it's overâ"
what he didn't want to admit was the way he was also screaming and shrieking everytime the gondola got dropped. despite how he denied it, those photos you'd gotten on the way out completely corroborate your statement and destroyed his. those'd be perfect for your wallet, you knew. and y'know what'd be even better for like, your life, just, in general? that teddy bear.
"people say these things are rigged," ben starts, rubbing his hands together as if that's summoning the power he needs to beat the machine.
you stare at the back of his head for a moment, a skeptical sound escaping you. an interesting take from ben, sure, but everyone knows he has a lot of those. "is that not because they literally are rigged?" your words are amused, and you full on laugh when he pins you with that unamused look of his own. "just saying," your shoulders shrug, a smile playing on your lips at the sight of him.
"gotta have faith, baby," he tells you, deciding not to actually address what you'd said in favour of channeling any and all energy towards winning you the toy. "with all this strength o'mine it's gonna work," ben murmurs, holding onto the joystick like it owes him money. you won't be surprised if it does end up owing him money considering the odds of a claw machine like this one.
if he didn't manage to win the teddy bear, you wouldn't mind all that much. sure, you wanted it, but at the same time, the dedication that ben had to do it for you would've been enough. but also, you knew you wouldn't be leaving that damn machine without a pumpkin teddy bear in your hands. "you see, it's all in the technique."
"technique, huh?" you muse, moving a little closer to stand beside him and watch for a moment, hands moving into the pockets of your jacket. well, his jacket. you'd taken it since it was warm and smelt exactly like his cologne. "yeah, technique," ben nods, completely serious, not an ounce of sarcasm in his tone compared to yours. "told y'to watch 'n' learn, so watch 'n' learn," he cleared his throat, before his brow furrowed in concentration.
your watching and learning soon became watch and learn how to get narrowly close to being banned from a fairground. you're pretty sure the amount of profanities that came out of ben over the past.. probably ten minutes is enough to get the two of you thrown out considering how many children are nearby. might get a record for the most mothers covering their childrens' ears at this rate.
"ben, it's okay, i can just buy one off the websiâ"
"you're getting this fucking bear tonight, darlin'," everytime you'd tried to convince him it was okay, that you guys could go get burgers and fries and call it a day, he told you that the two of you wouldn't be moving from there. "almost got it.. almost.." his tongue darted out to wet his bottom lip, as he inserted another coin into the machine. this time the joystick actually owed him money. and the thirty other times, but that didn't matter now.
you zone out a little bit now, assuming this'd be like the aformentioned thirty other times, where he'd spewed out obscenities, then proceeded to shove another coin into the machine like nothing had happened prior. ben had assured you this was his 'method' and everything was happening according to plan. he'd never exactly been great at planning, but there you were.
"i told you!" that snaps you out of your thoughts, and much to your surprise, when you look up, there's a teddy bear with a pumpkin for a body in ben's hands. he's beaming like an idiot, so proud of himself even if he'd been acting previously like he wasn't even breaking a sweat. he wipes his forehead, some sweat having accumulated from how hard he was working. a little concerning, considering it was a pretty cold day, but.. the dedication.
"oh my god, ben!" you're practically squealing, looking between him and the teddy bear back and forth rapidly before you find yourself wrapping your arms around the two of them. subtly tucking the toy by his armpit, he eases his arms around you in return. a smug smile settles on his lips, his head cocking to the side momentarily to get a full look of you so happy and clinging to his figure.
"just doin' what i gotta do, y'know," ben shrugs, his free hand cradling the back of your head gently. the two of you were completely blocking the claw machine from anyone else, some kid standing there awkwardly since he wanted to use it, but he decided you two were having a bit of a moment so he thought maybe the haunted house was a better choice. "you uh.. really like that thing, huh?"
"like you a lot more, actually," you mumble, grasping at his face and drawing him closer so you can peck your lips to his own. his eyes widen for a minute, and before he gets the chance to melt in more, you pull back. he pouts, glancing around a minute. it made sense, yeah, this is a fairground, but still. can't leave a guy hanging like that. he sighs, "had me workin' real hard there. think the least a guy can get is some good food, right?"
you hummed for a moment in mock thought. as if you were gonna say no and make him win another plush toy. he quite literally would've lost his mind if you'd asked him to. luckily, you nodded, "okay, yeah. burgers?" you offer too, head tilting.
"and fries, can't forget 'em," he murmured, nodding his head in return. before he walked with you to the food stands, he reached for the teddy bear and pushed it into your hands gently. a soft smile played on his lips, "yeah, now we're ready. c'mon, m'fuckin' starvin'."
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Leather & Lace 3
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Y/N padded out of his bedroom with his shirt hanging down on her form. Standing in his kitchen, he placed the glass down with a clink, watching her as she came closer. Glasses on her nose, makeup freshly off, hair tossed on top of her head, and something in her hand. âThere she is.â He smiled, leaning against the corner of his countertops. âTook a minute didnât you? Cinnamon rolls are almost doneâ. The stock he kept in his fridge for her favorite treat was put to use tonight.Â
âAmazing.â She beamed, coming up to him. âSit on the stool, please. I brought a makeup wipe so I can get your eyeliner off, cause I know youâre gonna whine that youâre tired later and then youâll whine when you get a stye.â Y/N had been through this before a million times.Â
âAlways thinking ahead, arenât you Butterfly?â He laughed, tapping her nose with his fingertip and not bothering to argue. It was true. He would definitely do that, and it wouldnât be the first or last time he did. âAlright. Be gentle with me please, mâdelicateâ.Â
Closing his eyes, he felt her warm fingers angle his face where she wanted before the cool wipe made contact with his skin.Â
âSo delicate with your bruised and split knuckles, hm? What did the poor punching bag do to you this week? Does he owe you money?â One of his favorite things about Y/N since day one had been her banter. They could go back and forth and she was quick to respond. It was playful, always, but she did tend to get more out of him when she approached it this way. She was asking why heâd been upset this week and been hitting the bag so aggressively and without gloves.Â
Considering they had just made it official 2 hours ago, she was the best girlfriend ever. She wouldnât push if he didnât want to say it and he knew the girl would just nod and move on if he said he didnât want to talk about it, but he found himself wanting to spill every single thought that crossed his mind to her. Y/N just didnât have a clue.Â
âMm. My father called me.â He said softly into the cinnamon scented air. The sweetness made the bitter notes of his words a bit easier to tolerate. âJust same old shit, yâknow? Nothing I do is gonna be good enough. Even though Iâm successful in my own right, heâs always got to add those digs in.â The tumultuous relationship between Harry and his father had always been a sore spot. They werenât enemies and he didnât hate him, no, but their relationship had been rocky since Harry had gone to uni and not followed in his footsteps. He tried to be supportive in his own way but it was obvious that he disapproved.
Even though he was a grown man and he had plenty of other people proud of him, it always stung. âSucks sometimes, that I want his approval. Itâs the tiniest bit in me, a speck, but I can always feel it when I talk to him. Itâs been a few years since the whole blowout and itâs gotten better but I just have to get over it, I guess. I donât think he ever will.â Even though his sister had done what he wanted Harry to do, it wasnât the same in his eyes.Â
âI can only imagine.â There was a delicate pause as she got underneath his waterline. âBut itâs okay to be upset about it, you know?â She always tried to tread lightly while also being truthful. It was a sensitive subject and the girl knew it. âHeâs your dad. Itâs going to bother you because weâre literally wired to want our parents' acceptance. Itâs human nature.â Gentle swiping over his eyes got the pencil liner off, but she was thorough with it. Besides, she had a feeling heâd prefer his eyes closed for this sort of talk. âIâm sorry that itâs like that for you, H. I know my words wonât replace his but Iâm extremely proud of you and all youâve done. Hopefully heâll come around and see all that the rest of us do but⊠if he doesnât? Thatâs a him problem.âÂ
Harry didnât know how she managed to always say the right things. The knot in his throat shrunk from the comfort she gave him, her tender handling of both his physical being and his heart. This was the reason he wanted more with her. Almost anyone could get him to nut off, but not a single other person made his heart feel like this. Just as sheâd said earlier, he felt completely safe with her in a way he didnât even know he needed. Before her, he hadnât realized how uncomfortable he was around people, but she showed him a brand new point of view.Â
In the past, heâd opened himself up slightly to one girl. One girl who had used him and fucked his best mate, who he caught in the act. It had walled up the rest of his emotions in iron, not wanting even a crack to get into him because why would he? Heâd never thought she or he would do that to him, never had any suspicion until about a month before when he saw glances across the room- but it turned out it wasnât just his birthday outing theyâd been planning.Â
Then this girl had come along with her warmth and rusted the iron, getting it worn and cracked until there was a Y/N shaped hole for her to fill. She was understanding of his somewhat snarky nature, never took it personally and had stuck by him even when heâd tried to push her away.Â
There had only been one time when he had been somewhat successful and it made his stomach twist and chest ache when he thought about it. It was far earlier on In their friendship, a few weeks in actually. Sheâd caught him on a bad day, coming up to him outside with her chatterbox open and running asking if he wanted to go to the cafe with him and that she had a surprise- and heâd snapped at her. Heâd been rougher with his words than he meant to, honest, but he wanted to be alone and said as much in a not as nice manner. Heâd watched her shoulders drop and the sparkle quite literally leave her eye as she looked towards the ground with a nod as even then when he least deserved it, she tried to be understanding.
 Something in him cracked when he heard the slight quiver in her voice when she apologized for being annoying and heâd looked up to see tears in those eyes and⊠fuck. His stomach dropped to his feet, watching her bottom lip quiver as she reached into her bag and grabbed the candy bar sheâd grabbed from the vending machine after her class had ended, handing it to him before she scurried off. It was clear she hadnât been tearing up for attention from how quickly she had left him, and with a candy bar in hand he felt completely nauseous over how heâd treated her.Â
He couldnât shake the feeling even as he gathered his things and called out for her, throat thick as his bad day got worse only by his own accord. Her lack of presence was felt, coldness settling in his bones when he realized what heâd truly done. It was then that he vowed to never treat her like that again. Y/N had been the sweetest thing in the world to him, got him his fucking favorite candy and was excited to study with him and heâd gone and fucked it all up. Made her fucking cry. Sheâd been long gone by the time he stumbled back into the pathway but he was already trying to make it right.
In the end he had showed up at her door with a teddy bear in hand along with her favorite candy and some take away, feeling like a kicked puppy as she opened her door and he had seen her swollen eyes and lips. It had been the most heartbreaking thing he ever saw and he apologize profusely when she let him in even when he didnât deserve it, hugging her on his own accord for the first time and running fingers through her hair as she insisted she forgave him. âEveryone has those days and Iâm sensitive, I know.â Is what she said.Â
Some days even still he thought about that as he watched people take advantage of her and it made him even more motivated to take care of her.Â
In these sort of moments it felt hard not to think about loving her. Even in his rough and tumble sort of persona, she treated him tenderly. Held his arm, brushed his hair back, fixed his tangled necklaces, Y/N had treated him with a delicacy that he didnât know he needed.Â
As soon as the makeup wipe was pulled away, he opened his eyes and cupped her cheek to pull her in for a kiss. It had already been hard to keep his lips to himself, but this situation⊠it was his new obsession. âYou know youâre perfect, right?â He asked against his current addiction, pressing another kiss to them. âJust⊠I dunno how you always know how to say the right shit. It scares me sometimes, yâknow? Sometimes it feels too good to be true, that you⊠that youâre some sorta dream, but youâre not. And now youâve told me youâre mine, and Mâreally fucking nervous about fucking it up but Iâm going to do everything I can to be the best for you. Alright?âÂ
The emotion had slipped off his tongue without his permission but for one of the first times in his life he didnât regret it. Her lips curled against his in that breathtaking smile he adored, tossing the wipe to the side as she wrapped an arm around his neck. âHarry⊠I donât expect perfection. I know relationships⊠they take time to build. You arenât some sort of build-a-boyfriend to me. I like you because youâre you. I like the grumpy, sarcastic, scowly bits of you. I always have. Youâll fuck up, Iâll fuck up, itâll be a whole thing and then guess what?â Pulling back, she took in his face with her soft gaze. âWeâll fix it up again and itâll be stronger. As long as you donât cheat on me? Iâm yours. And we both know you really arenât capable of that.â
Harry would rather saw his hand off than cheat. Heâd seen what it had done to him, so putting anyone else through that would be disgusting on top of hating the concept to begin with. Heâd cut off people he knew for cheating on their partners and wouldnât hesitate to do it again. âMâglad you know.â He sighed. In a weird way, this talk was making him aroused. Hearing how she liked him, that she knew theyâd work, it just⊠it did something to him. âYou look perfect in my clothes.â That too. Yeah, that had something to do with the thickening happening in his pants.
âI like wearing them. I always have. Iâve had a bit of a crush on you for a while, you know.â She teased, leaning into his body and letting her tits press up against him as she kissed his jaw lightly. âIt always made me feel like yours when you let me wear them.âÂ
âYouâve been mine.â The dark grumble of his voice was a telltale sign that the words had pleased him. âRegardless of title, youâve been mine for a while.â It was true and the both of them knew it. Harryâs eyes had been blind to anything but her for a long time and it had been painfully obvious when he hadnât been able to get it up for other people not too long after meeting her. Or had to think about her in order to nut off.Â
âI know.â The confirmation was warm as she felt his hand travel down to rest above her ass. âAnd I was hoping youâd been mine for a bit but Iâm pretty sure I was. You like to talk when youâre getting head, huh?â The smile was teasing and maybe he should be flushed at that but it was just another layer of arousal for him to remember her on her knees with his cock tucked between puffy lips and drool down her pretty chin.Â
âNo, actually. Jusâ with you.â He said truthfully. âI was⊠more of a hit it and quit it with the other people if mâhonest. Know I babbled a bit but it felt really fucking good.â They could both feel he was hard now and the awkwardness of the last encounter on his end was gone. âNever expected you to be filthy, though. Thought youâd be a bit more shy but⊠I like that you were gagging for it just as much as I was.â Over the fabric of his shirt he gripped her ass, a nice handful as he squeezed and watched her eyes flutter shut at the feeling. âI canât wait to get my hands on you properly. Iâve been dying to taste you,âto feel you. But I need tâknow what you like.âÂ
âA bit of leather and lace.â Was the answer. Long lashed eyes peered up at him as she tipped her head back to look at him. âSweet and spice. Nice and mean. Be sweet to me and call me a slut again. Spank me and kiss it better. Thatâs what⊠itâs what Iâve always imagined with you.â Her words were slightly more hesitant now but she didnât back down. âYou can be a little rough with me as long as you baby me later. Iâve never beenâŠâ she paused for a moment as she bit her lip. âIâve never been fucked right. People treat me like Iâm some delicate little toy which, I can be and I like sometimes but⊠Iâve always known youâd be able to give me the deep one I want. The type to make me lose my breath. Right?â Her fingers curled around his wrist that still rested on her cheek and trailed it down to have his hand rest against her throat. âYou can throw me around a bit and make me take it. I can still be a doll for you, but maybe one you use a little bit.âÂ
Jesus fucking Christ.Â
Harryâs mouth was torn between being dryer than the desert and watering down his chin at her descriptors of what she wanted. His hands held her ass and her throat and she was handing herself over on a silver platter as his cock twitched in between them, eager to get to work on her. âFuck meâŠâ he whispered hoarsely, thumbing over the side of her neck before giving a tiny squeeze. Just a bit, watching her face as he did so. She melted almost immediately and it was then he got the confirmation that she'd been hand crafted for him. Eyes glazed over and a weak, precious whine escaping her mouth and vibrating against the hand covering her throat, he couldnât hold himself back from kissing her hard. Gathering her as close as possible with his hand keeping its grip for half the kiss before releasing it and using it as a guide to keep her close. âYouâre going to ruin me, and Mâgonna love every fucking second of it.âÂ
â-
It had happened quite quickly. The buzz of the oven interrupted them, the only reason Harry even slightly entertained it was so he didnât burn the place down. He had been quick to toss them on the counter and lost the oven not before picking her up and bringing her into his bedroom.Â
âIf I died right now, Iâd be okay.â He whispered as he looked at her bare cunt. The panties had been discarded and his lips kissed her inner thighs, nosing over the sensitive skin and watching her react to him. âYouâre so gorgeous. Smell so fucking good, Butterfly. Gonna have tâtear me away from this pussy.â It was not a joke.Â
Kissing over the mound, he spread her open and gave a long lick over the expanse of her slight and yeah- yeah. He was addicted. Licking deeper into her, he felt himself melt into a frenzied version of himself as he let his tongue explore her. Fingers buried in his hair as she gripped him, stomach jumping as she panted at the feeling of his mouth on her.Â
Harry had enjoyed giving head before, was no stranger to eating pussy, but this was different. There had never been this all encompassing need to make her cum over and over again on his tongue, that greed that settled in his gut as he heard her moan his name and spread her legs further for him. Welcoming him and his touch.Â
He didnât hold back. Y/N had told him what she wanted and he knew her well enough now to understand.Â
âSweet.â He mumbled against her. âSo fuckinâ sweet. Course you are, Butterfly. Fuckinâ perfect, every inch.â Kissing her clit he felt her jump, chuckling as he did it again before licking over the sensitive pearl. âMâgonna make you cum on my tongue, and then Mâgonna give you the fuck you needed. Iâll be so nice to you, baby. So sweet, get you nice and fucked out the way you need. Promise.âÂ
Harry was going to fulfill that promise. Wrapping his lips around her clit, he gave soft, pulsing suckles as he slipped a finger inside of her and felt her hips buck off the bed.Â
It was only a introduction, a sneak peek of what heâd feel around his cock but he had to remind himself not to blow too early as he felt her clenched around his digit. Tight and hot and silky against his hand, he groaned against her cunt and nuzzled deeper into it as he settled in.Â
âH-Harry⊠oh my god.â She sighed out, slowly grinding against his face. âOh my god, you⊠youâre so good at this. Iâve neverâŠ.â Never came from this, which was something that pissed him off when he put the pieces together but he knew heâd wear the title of the first one to be successful proudly. Ideally, no one else would ever have it again. He had no plans on giving this obsession up.Â
He hummed against her, meeting her eyes as she looked down at him with her messy hair and her bitten lips, mouth opened in the cutest little âoâ shape and her brows furrowed. Her clit was throbbing against his tongue and he couldnât get enough, sucking a bit harder as he added a second finger inside of her.Â
âOh fuck, oh- just like that. Your fingers are big.â She whimpered, making him chuckle against her. Of course they were compared to her own. He had imagined that exact thing in this bed, imagining her in her own room with her fingers stuffed inside her drippy cunt and his name peeling off hers lips as she made herself orgasm.Â
Making himself pull back, he fucked his fingers into her and enjoyed every bit of the noise it made. Heâd made her wet like this, heâd gotten her to be a sopping mess and he enjoyed every single second of feeling it on his fingertips. âI know, baby. But my cock is much bigger and I need to get you prepped for it. Youâre plenty wetâŠâ he purred, leaning over her and keeping her eyes as he pursed his lips and spit right over her clit. âJust need to make you cum and youâll be nice nâready for me.âÂ
There wasnât a hint of hesitation as he went back in, spreading his spit with his tongue before returning to his motions. He could feel it in her actions, how she clenched around his fingers, pulling her clit into his mouth over and over again as she got more and more wet around his fingers with difficulty not bucking into him.Â
âI want it, I need it. Iâve been thinking a-about it for so long. I need you to fuck me, H.â Her voice was different than heâd ever heard it. More whiny, a tinge of desperation to the sweet sound he was obsessed with, and every bit of hot as he knew it would be.Â
âI will, baby. Promise. Jusâ let go for me. I can feel youâre close.â He coaxed, curling his fingers just so and watching as her head fell back against the duvet as his lips continued the pull of her clit.Â
It was hotter than he couldâve imagined. When she came a few minutes later, he watched her hand grip his hair and the other her own breast as she let out the prettiest noises and whines of his name as she trembled, hips bucking again into his mouth as she tumbled over the edge.
He held her steady with a happy noise, pulling off her clit with one last soft suckle and a kiss but kept his fingers inside of her as he moved back up her body to kiss her mouth. She welcomed it, both hands grabbing his face and not minding the mess she made on his chin and nose from his healthy exploration of her. Mumbled of praised were echoed between their kisses, slow pumps of his fingers working her through the orgasm as she rocked her hips into his hand.Â
âHarry, I need it.â Her eyes met his. âIâm clean, I just- I need it, I need you inside me now.â Her neediness wasnât something heâd been privy to before and it was more than satisfying, but he had to admit that what made him feel even better was knowing she wanted to go bare. Heâd
Gotten tested just a few weeks ago at his appointment which was a bit of serendipity, he supposed, because now he was going to get what he had been stroking off to the most.Â
âYeah? Yâsure?â He whispered, watching her nod as he slowly pulled his fingers from her cunt and quickly cupped over it, soothing her. âYouâre a dream. Yâknow that, baby?â A laugh of disbelief echoed from his chest as he slowly pulled his hand back and slipped his pants off. His shirt had been tossed in the midst of things and he wanted hers off too, even if the idea of fucking her in his tee shirt was appealing. Later.Â
She was receptive to it, letting him tug it off and exposing her to him again.Â
He had to take a moment to simply enjoy her.Â
Harry had always appreciated how beautiful she was but he also had to take a second to be thankful that she let him see her at her most vulnerable. That he got to see her in the most delicate state, one he was going to be the only one to see. Spread thighs and bare tits and soft tummy, all his. His, his, his.Â
âMâso happy youâre mine.â He whispered, running a hand over her stomach as his other fisted his cock. âYou are the most beautiful thing Iâve ever seen. Not jusâ your body but your whole being. And I hope you know how much it means tâme that youâre letting me be yours too.â It hit him then, watching her peer up at him. He was being entrusted with a damn near golden heart and there were no plans on doing anything but cherishing it.Â
âHâŠâ she whispered, motioning him to come to her. He did, as he always will, buttoning their lips together as he nudged his tip through her wet slit and felt her sigh, wrapping her legs around his hips. âYou are perfect. I adore you and- and Iâm happy youâre letting me be yours too. You make me feel so good in all the ways possible and I just want to be as close as I can get.âÂ
There was no room left for debate.Â
He began to push into her, watching her face as he filled her. It was slow at first, letting himself pace themselves considering he knew very early on that this would have to be a multiple round night because there was no way heâd be satisfied with just one. Y/N had been the object of his affections for a long while now and finally getting to be with her in the way heâd craved had lit him up.Â
âThere we areâŠâ he whispered as he was fully inside of her. âYou feel so good on me, Butterfly.â A kiss pressed to her lips, slow rocking into her for the beginning of this. The man fully intended to give her what she wanted but the first few moments would be tender and soft, show a true appreciation of her. The soft yellow light of his lamp next to his bed lit up the side of her face, shadows across the other side. Her hand held his bicep and the other on the back of his neck as she let out a shuddering breath, eyes fluttering shut as he pressed kisses all over her face.
It was a high, feeling her heat on him. She was everywhere, capturing every bit of him yet again. Tugging him deeper into a trap he had no plans on escaping from. The slow rocking of their hips garnered a hitch in her breath, still sensitive from her orgasm moments ago but taking in every moment she could. Every second felt special and precious.Â
âYou donât even knowâŠ.â He breathed. âDonât even know how much I think about this. Made me feel like a perv for a bit, seeing you in my shirt last week⊠then you crawled into my lap and you ruined me.â It was hard to keep it from spilling out. âI couldnât run anymore from how you m-make me feel. And then yâput your mouth on me, near begged to, made me feel fucking crazy. Iâve been waiting all week to get my hands on you again⊠but this is the best day.â The fact that she was officially his and she was holding on to him, letting out a sweet sigh as he began to pull out the slightest bit and pushed back in.Â
âI thought about it too.â She admitted, though it felt hard to talk. âI wanted this and-and I wanted you and mâso happy right now.â Her eyes watered a bit and fuck, fuck, fuck. He cooed, shaking his head as he kissed her again. His sweet girl, crying because she had wanted him just as much as he had wanted her.Â
âMâyours, Butterfly. All yours, and⊠Mânot gonna let you go. Promise. You can have me as many times, as many days, as you want.â The man doubted that sheâd ever truly understand how much this meant to him, how much she meant to him. That sheâd look past his shitty attitude and stuck by him long enough to see the real parts, the softer ones. Hell, she made him want a relationship when he had never thought heâd want one again.
Harry was unequivocally hers, body and heart.
It stayed slow for a while, deep kisses and soft moans, but he could feel her start to get restless. He was very aware of part of his appeal to her- the rough and tumble. So when he felt her start to squirm, he took her throat again and held her back down, keeping his slow pumps as he watched her eyes hood and a soft mewl fall from her lips as she clenched around his cock. âImpatient girl. Youâre tryinâ to rush me, hm?â He whispered, squeezing the sides of her throat momentarily. âI told you Iâd fuck you right. But I wanted to appreciate you, make you feel how much I adore you. Is that not enough for my girl?âÂ
Y/N shook her head, panting as her legs tightened around his waist. âMâsorry. Iâm not trying to rush you, promise. I just feel so good nâI want more.âÂ
âOf course she does. Pretty little doll wants some more.â He crooned, clicking his tongue. âBeing stuffed to the brim and stretching that tiny cunt isnât enough for you. You told me about this, warned me. Told me you liked a bit of both.â Pulling out a bit more, he slid back in with a bit of force that caught her breath. âSo youâre tired of being my sweet girl⊠you want to be a whore?â
There was something about the delicacy in the way he said it, the way it was silky and smooth and so unlike how the word would usually be delivered that had her moaning out loud. He was so, so nice to her and she loved it but it was clear she needed some more. Thankfully she had come to the right place.Â
âOkay, okay. You want tâbe a cute little slut. I see how it is, my darling.â He grinned, containing the slightly rougher pace. âJusâ let me look at this gorgeous face a bit longer, and then Iâll flip you on your hands and knees so you can bury your face into the bed while I make you cum.âÂ
Harry had a hard time controlling himself knowing that she wanted to be roughed up. His angelic Y/N, wanted to be pounded out into the mattress. The original thought was that heâd have to work her up to that and see if she liked it, maybe a spank or two, but here she was. Gushing on her cock from the mere mention of being fucked harder.Â
âDo you want me to spank that pretty ass?â He questioned, listening to the squelch of her cunt with each pass inside of her. His personal heaven. âMake it hot? How much do you want, Butterfly?âÂ
âI want anything.â She promised. âPlease spank me and- and choke. I want to feel it tomorrow.â It was apparent now that she really did crave it, bucking into his thrusts and getting wetter the harder he got. He was going to have such a good time learning her body. How it ticked, what got her off, what made her squirm. It was a whole new facet to their relationship that he was giddy to explore.Â
âIâll give you anything you want, my gorgeous girl.â He promised. âMake the prettiest fuck doll out of you.âÂ
Harry kept his promise.Â
Y/N squealed as he pulled out, flipping her over and hissed at his hands spreading each side of her ass open. âLook at you⊠you piece of art.â He sighed. âMâgonna mark this canvas up. Never imagined bruising you before but⊠what my girl wants, she gets.â
The first spank was a quick one, making her yelp as he stuffed himself back into her needy hole. It was exposing her, letting him have access to her cunt and ass and it was obviously exhilarating from how she clenched before pushing back into him for more. âYou liked it.â The man smirked, squeezing the soft flesh in his hands. âWeâre going to get on perfectly in the bedroom, arenât we Butterfly?âÂ
From there, Harry let loose. Keeping a hand on her hip and the other holding her ass, giving swats to the skin as he fucked into her deep and thorough. He watched in awe as her ass rippled every time it met his thighs, the sound of skin slapping and her whimpers filling his bedroom. Her cunt was hot and so fucking wet he was surprised he hadnât slipped out yet, creamy and soft but keeping him in tight.Â
Heâs heard Y/N babble before, but all she could come up with was whimpers and whines of his name, more, and again when he smacked the round of her ass. It was unexpected, but he was eating up every single movement, every noise she squeaked out. It felt incredible to know he was the one doing it. He had been the one to make her lose that soft shell and got deep into the underbelly, literally and metaphorically, burying deep inside of her with each tuck. âThatâs my girl, taking it so well. I adore you, yâknow that?â He cooed. âLove this hot cunt. Think Mâgonna stay inside of it for a while, what do you think?â There was no answer but a punched out breath from his cock. âMmm⊠I think so too. You did say you wanted tâbe my whore.â The tone was slightly condescending but it was evident quickly that she reacted well to that.Â
For all the time heâd been thinking about this, reality was much sweeter. With her taste on his tongue and her arousal smeared all over his cock and forming a creamy ring around the base of his cock with each squelching fuck into her needy and willing hole, he couldnât have imagined something better. Something so unfiltered and raw, going bare inside his candy sweet girl who had overtaken his life.Â
What really set her off, though, was his fingers tucking under her and finger her slippery and swollen clit, rubbing over it firmly, she moaned loud and clear, panting into the air as she clumsily grabbed his wrist as if to keep it there. Like heâd pull it away. âI see it baby, I feel it. You jusâ needed that clit played with. Youâre gonna cum for me.â He breathed in an amazed chuckle. âGonna cum all over my cock so I can fill you to the brim and keep you full and warm.âÂ
Y/N didnât need much more than that. His cock in her tummy and his fingers at her clit, ass burning slightly from his swats. He felt it the moment it began, the fluttering around his prick and her hitch of breath as she got his name falling from her mouth and the slight tense of her body before she fell apart on him.
The prettiest sight heâd ever seen in his life. It was then that he swore heâd do his best to see it as many times as he possibly could, which would be a blessing or a curse depending on what the girl underneath him thought of overstimulation.Â
Which was why even as he growled out, spilling into the perfect cunt that milked him, he kept thrusting. Slow and sloppy now, feeling his load dripping from her and onto the bed, he continued with his fingers on her clit as she squirmed. His cock fucked the cum right into her, massaging it into her walls as he kissed her skin. ââNother one. Gimme another one, my baby. Show me how much yâlove being my sweet little whore.â
The sensitivity was probably to blame with how fast the second one came, shaking slightly as she let out the weakest whine of his name before pushing his hand away. Even though he couldâve done it over and over, he hummed and listened to her cue, turning them onto their sides and kept himself snug inside of her. Heâd clean her up in a bit, bring her to the shower, make sure she was fed her cinnamon rolls, but for a little bit he wanted to bask in the bliss of having a dream come true.Â
âSâokay, Butterfly. Iâve got you.â He nudged his nose against her neck, placing another chaste kiss there as she folded their fingers together. âNow you can fly home to me.âÂ
â-
It was far too late for cinnamon rolls if a normal person had any say, but thankfully they didnât. Y/N sat on the counter with her hair placed back into that messy updo and his shirt on her torso while he had been convinced to wear his boxers while in the kitchen, dipping the microwave reheated cinnamon rolls in the icing.Â
âIâve got to teach you how to make them from scratch.â His girl sighed, kicking her feet as they dangled off the counter.Â
âWhat, is my store bought hot food enough for you?â He pouted in faux offense, but luckily she didnât fall for it.Â
âYou know thatâs not the case. I love that you buy me some to have when Iâm here.â A sugary kiss was given to his bottom lip, but she pulled away too fast to deepen it. A shame if you asked him. âItâs just, yâknow, it would be fun to do together. Thereâs plenty of time to⊠hang out while the dough rises, and stuff like that.âÂ
Harryâs brows shot up at the insinuation, the unexpected laugh barking through the kitchen as he lowers his half ripped cinnamon roll to the plate. âIâve created a little monster, havenât I?â The shit eating from on his face showed no sign of regret, though. âOne fuck and Iâve corrupted you. Sweet little thing turned into a needy pup in heat.â He paused before pointing a finger smeared with cinnamon sugar on it in her face. âOr have I just uncovered something that was in front of my face this whole time? Innocent act?âÂ
Y/N answered by leaning forward to take his finger into her mouth, sucking on it slowly and flicking her tongue over the tip before pulling back on it.Â
There was no doubt now heâd found his perfect match, even if it was his complete opposite. Maybe they werenât as different as he thought.
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â§Ë° the little moments - t.w. â§Ë°
pairing: female! driver x toto wolff
summary: after a few weeks of seeing the team principal, you canât help but post a few snapshots. after all, if no one can tell who he is, it wonât hurt. right?
a/n: i caved. perhaps i will posting some social media au content. i think it really just helps give some visuals since the reader is active on social media! the face claims are from various pinterest photos!
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goldengirl: maybe iâll just stay here. forever.
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goldengirlforever: RUE, WHEN WAS THISâïž
f1fanboy282: and i was just planning our wedding today. smh.
alex_albon: đ€Ż
lilymhe: youâre telling me this is how we find out???
alex_albon: donât worry, iâll get the deets in the paddock for you ASAP
goldengirlforever: alex u rlly slay for that đ
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danielricciardo: oh! đ
dannyricfanpage: oh shit
f1luvrgirl: wait so ur tellinâ me that isnât daniel?
danielricciardo: nope! not me!
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goldengirl: yâall are really goinâ feral rn in these comments.
lilymhe: because youâve never mentioned this mystery man before! đđ€đ»
goldengirl: isnât this that the sole purpose of a soft launch? đđ€đ»
f1hoetillidie: the girlies are fightinnnn đż
lilymhe: i promise we arenât!!! i love her sm!!! sheâs my pookie bear đ«¶đ»
alex_albon: @lilymhe i thought i was your pookie bear đą
lilymhe: @alex_albon ofc you are bby đœ
mercedesgirl172: why does that second pic kind of look like toto wolffâŠ.
totoslut: no because youâre right. i know my man & that rlly does look like him.
lewishamiltonfan9282: WAITâ
f1fan1989: they do follow each otherâŠ
hastalavistababy: and he liked the postâŠ
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goldengirl: and i will follow you into the dark
vettel08: wait a damn minute đ€š
smootheoperator: HELLOâïž mercedes liked the postâïž
f1fanatic: there are rumors sheâs signing with mercedes for 2025 and replacing lewis
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totoswife6272: ISNâT THIS MAN HAPPILY MARRIED? HOW MANY CHAPTERS DID WE MISS?
smoothoperator: fr i need susie to comment on all of this nonsense cause wtf
f1fangirly01: ummm.. he has kids too..
totoswife6272: now we def need susie to make a statement cause wtf
hastalavistababy: bruh someone needs to get this shit to the fia. surely thatâs not ok.
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lilymhe: you guys are adorable!!! i wish ppl would just mind their business and be happy for you.
goldengirl: they donât even know who this man is and theyâre threatening to end my career lmfao
lilymhe: gotta love your fans! :â)
goldengirlforever: you guys are so cute!!! and to the rest of you⊠JAIL! đč
justaninchident: toto literally just posted his wife & kids a few minutes ago. these ppl are reachinggggg
goldengirlforever: right!!! theyâre just jealous or something!
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danielricciardo: as long as youâre happy đ«
birdsofafeather: oh daniel :(
landonorris: donât worry danny baby, you still have me <3
landostan4life: LANDO PLSâ
alex_albon: when do i get to meet said mystery man? đ€š
goldengirl: one day, i promise
lilymhe: as long as i get to meet him before alex!!
goldengirl: hehehehe okie :)
williamsracing: we would also like to meet this mystery man!! @goldengirl you should bring him to the paddock one day! đđ»
alexandrasaintmleux: my heart!!! đ„č
#alkaline: social media au#alkaline: female driver! x toto wolff#toto wolff#toto wolff x reader#f1#formula 1#formula one#f1 x reader#formula one x reader#formula 1 x reader#toto wolff x you#f1 fanfiction#formula one fanfiction
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PUPPY LOVE â po5
pairing: patricio o'ward x stella! reader summary: in which the dog got your attention first but the boy keeps you forever. warnings: tooth rotting fluff, sexual innuendos, inaccurate timeline of events, reader doesn't know much about indycar, arrow mclaren when i catch you arrow mclaren, pato and his fascination with calling reader hermosa, references to the art that is bax lurmans romeo + juliet film, love blooms in abu dhabi and blossoms further in miami. style: social media file faceclaim: isabllemathersx on instagram, however you can picture her as whoever you please authors note: trying a new formatting approach for fics with this one. this is fic number 2/3 of my 3 fanfic options i posted earlier. sorry if this is a little ooc for pato, i also original had thi based this instead of meeting at indycar but instead they meet at the 2023 abu dhabi grand prix instead ! add yourself to my taglist !
WELCOME TO YOU'VE GOT MAIL . . . find a match today !
would you like to send a message? YES / NO
you: what's your dogs name, right now >:( pato: his name is norbi why are you on a dating app? surely finding love isn't all that difficult for you? you: originally i did it to entertain my girls' group chat, but after every loser i've tried to meet "naturally" ultimately fumbling the bad so disrespectfully, why not take this dating app stuff a bit more seriously đ€·đ»ââïž pato: what are you even doing in abu dhabi anyway? you: how do you know im in abu dhabi? pato: this app is location-based, you wouldn't have been able to match with me if you weren't in the same location as me, plus you just confirmed it with that question. . . . seen 3 minutes ago
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seen by racerbia, francisca.cgomes and 12,3009 others [ caption one: why did i say yes to coming to abu dhabi, shit is fucking hot ] [ caption two: abu dhabi gp, i'm here to make you my bitch ] [ caption three: your favourite duo back to cause trouble @/racerbia ] view more story replies . . . landonorris baby stella in the building ! ‷ ynstella baby? lando norris i'm older than you ‷ landonorris by like three whole months >:( ‷ ynstella L + ratio + wrong + get a job + unfunny + you fell off + never liked you anyway + cope ‷ ynstella im gonna curse the race, are we prepared for max verstappen 3x wdc ! ‷ landonorris i'm literally going to to dob on you, you're being so mean rn >:( ‷ ynstella you dirty little dibber dobber cindy !
alexandrasaintmleux prettiest girl <3 ‷ ynstella says you i'm gonna smooch your face on that podium cmere mwah mwah mwah kissy kissy ‷ alexandrasaintmleux stop got me blushing, charles it looking at me weird ‷ ynstella he doesn't have to know baby girl x
francisca.cgomes you're so hot, if dating app hottie doesn't pull you i might ! ‷ ynstella i'm blushing, flirting with the enemy, whatever will my dad think ‷ francisca.cgomes babe it's a modern day romeo + juliet, but the baz lurhman edition. ‷ ynstella who is who in this situation? oscarpiastri lando said stop being mean to him on social media ‷ ynstella lando give oscar his phone back
racerbia we r so cute, i luv us !
pooknation groupchat . . .
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liked by mclaren, oscarpiastri, francisca.cgomes, alexandrasaintmleux and 88,340 others ynstella abu dhabi, i came i saw and max verstappen concurred !
view more . . mclaren our own resident mclaren girl will always post about redbull and not mclaren ‷ ynstella i'd post oscar but lando is somehow always in the background of the pictures i take, i'm not having lando on my account đ
đ»ââïž â€· landonorris can i go one day without you publicly hating me ‷ ynstella when you get a race win next season pooh bear x username pooh bear? is lando the man she's trying to soft launch? not actually enemies but enemies to lovers?? ‷ ynstella good lord no. lando norris wishes he could have a chance with me ‷ landonorris disgusting don't put words in my mouth. you wish you're the one wishing you could have a chance with me ‷ oscarpiastri nurse, they're back at it again francisca.cgomes i need more of this soft launch shit. it's like a drug to me post more. im foaming at the mouth. ‷ ynstella can i hard launch our relationship instead ‷ pierregasly nah bc i am literally right here man ‷ ynstella get out of my comments with my gf pear
username are we ignoring that y/n is soft launching a man, rue, when was this? ‷ username recently it seems ‷ username shocked. i wonder what her dad thinks ?? ‷ ynstella not that its any of your business, but my dad's actually quite charmed with him x
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liked by arrowmclaren, elbaoward, racerbia and 63,001 others patriciooward what a weekend, cya next year !
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username there's one too many soft launch pictures in this race weekend dump ‷ username ladies we've lost another one ‷ username all men are the same. breaking my heart elbaoward since when did "have a good time in abu dhabi" mean somehow get someone to soft launch? ‷ patriciooward the just a silly lil guy rizz worked unfortunately ‷ elbaoward i doubt that, so much.
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[ caption one: where to next đ« ] [ caption two: mother hood looks good on me ] [ caption three: boyfriend reveal ]
francisca.cgomes i can't believe i'm in love with a MILF ! ‷ ynstella i want you so bad đ© ‷ francisca.cgomes lets kiss rn before our boyfriends see
alexandrasaintmleux i think norbi is cute enough to convince charles that we need to get a dog ‷ ynstella ugh i hate when you mention that man >:( how come WE can't get a dog together ‷ alexandrasaintmleux my love because you are a capulet and i am a montague </3 ‷ ynstella as long as lando is the character that dies first i'd happily performe shakespeare with y'all
landonorris this is insane, my brain can't keep up with the events that are unfolding right in front of me ‷ ynstella pook i think that's both a you issue and a skill issue, double homicide. ‷ landonorris oh so you hate me again ‷ ynstella i never stopped, if you have 0 haters i've died <3
patriciooward te mo hermosa ‷ ynstella shut up, don't tell me you love me over text, that's so foul ‷ patriciooward i've been telling you i love you for two months now </3 ‷ ynstella oh shit, i forgot to buy you an anniversary gift </3 ‷ patriciooward oh hermosa, what am i going to do with you ‷ ynstella well when you word it like that . . . i could think of a few things
patriciooward and ynstella just posted to their stories . . .
seen by arrowmclaren, racerbia, francisca.cgomes and 22,010 others [ caption one: feliz aniversario (happy anniversary) ] [ caption two: happy 2 months ! feliz aniversario ] [ caption three: came for the dog. stayed for the owner <3 ]
mclaren happy anniversary ! ‷ ynstella thanks admin, love u so big x
ynstella i adore you, ‷ patriciooward te adoro mas, hermosa ‷ ynstella happiest with you in my life i fear ‷ patriciooward good, i don't plan on going anywhere
authors note: abu dhabi 2023, you are so special to me <3 please enjoy this little pato o'ward fanfic. praying, manifesting the tags let me post this and doesn't shadowban me sobbing crying throwing up
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Sharing a bed with Channie
Lee Know ; Changbin; Hyunjin; Han; Felix; Seungmin; IN;
My Masterlist
Summary: Chan is your rock, your guide your everything. He was also the the only person you could go to when you couldn't sleep. Warning: CURSING- I literally have no shame; GN reader, reader can't sleep. I Know I said it would be like one bed trope series but I feel like it isn't fully it? Like they lay in one bed for 5 minutes before point is shifted? Playful banter between friednds, Chan and reader are best friends and roommates. fluff, friends to lovers. Not proofread. Mention of burying yourself alive? A/N- I know I announced that I would write this eons ago but it took me more time thatn I thought it would. I had a clear vision but while writing this I changed everything like at least 5 times. I really hope you'll like it. Thank you for all the love and support you have given me. It means the world to me. Please share your thoughts with me and reblog. Also if you have any type of request please I'll be more than glad to write it. Word count- 2.5k
You were going to do this! You were not going to back down. You were not a coward! What could happen? The worst thing he could say was no. Big thing! You knew how to take no as an answer... No you didn't.. You would most probably die of shame if he said no. He wouldn't right? No, he is much too kind to deny you of such simple thing. But what if you made him feel uncomfortable? You would rather chew off your own foot than make him do something that makes him uncomfortable or make him uncomfortable yourself. He would tell you if he didn't want it right? You were friends. Quite close ones too. God you were friends! Of course he would find it weird that you wanted to sleep in the same bed. You had nothing explisit in mind tho. You just wanted to sleep next to him. You had trouble sleeping these days and it was starting to affect your everyday life, You were more groggy, more irritable, your head was in the clouds and you couldn't fully concentrate on anything. You tried everything to fix your sleeping schedule but nothing really worked. To say that you were despterate would be an understatement.
For the past 2 weeks the only time you slept peacefully and didn't wake up feeling like shit was when you and Chan fell asleep watching tv. It was the best sleep you had in a while, you woke up feeling like a new person. You were hopeful that you wouldn't experience trouble sleeping like that ever again but sadly nothing had really changed.
You couldn't help but sigh when you saw that it was almost 3 am. You had to get up early too and you had to be on top too. You were going to do it!
You got up from the bed, but before leaving the room you turned back and headed to the mirror. After making sure you were decent at least fifteen times you finally left the room. If it was any other of your friends you wouldn't even thing twice before heading to them, but this was Channie, your channie, the guy you had been hopelessly in love with since forever, but also a guy who only saw you as a friend.
You've read countless times that whenever a person came to their crush with the excuse that they couldn't sleep and/ or had a nightmare(in your case both) their crush always welcomed them with open arms. And they always ended up together after sharing a bed. If there was a fanfiction god you prayed things would go well or you would bury yourself alive and at least that would solve your sleep issues.
You were surprised to see that the lights in his room were on. Was he still working? You had to scold him later, he promised that he wouldn't work until late and would actually try and sleep.
You softly knocked on the door, but there was no answer. After a few seconds you knocked again, but also no answer. Maybe he fell asleep you thought. Feeling bad waking him up you felt bad you turned back to return to your room.
To say that you almost had a heart attack when you saw a dark figure looming behind you would be a severe understantment. You even fell back on your butt. Chan's gasp of your name made you realize it was him, he even tried to catch you but couldn't hold onto you on time.
"Oh my god are you okay?" Chan crouched down next to you, he held your face and carefully examined you while you tried to catch your breathe.
"I think I saw god for a second." You gasped out after a few seconds of gasping dramatically. Chan rolled his eyes at you before asking "What were you doing in front of my room?"
You stumbled for a second trying to find a perfect answer. While staring into his eyes all your courage from earlier had disappeared, you felt embarrassed about what you wanted to ask him. Also the fact that he was only in his pyjama pants didn't help at all. Like you also needed to be distracted by his Greek God body! "I wanted to get water and saw that the lights in your room were on." You couldn't be more obvious you were lying but you still hoped he wouldn't pry. Chan looked at you sternly before sighing. "You couldn't sleep?" You wanted to deny but the way Chan was looking at you, you couldn't lie. You could only nod, feeling disappointed in yourself. Chan looked at you for a second before grabbing your hand and leading you into his bedroom.
"What are you doing?" You couldn't help but ask, when he literally just casually picked you up and put you in the middle of the bed like a pretty decoration on top of a cake. He only told you to stay put and then left the room. You were baffled. You stayed put and only waited for him who quickly returned couple of minutes later with your pillow and the plushie he won for you when you were at the arcade. He instructed to you to get comfortable under the covers and then left again. He took a bit longer this time, but in a minute or two he was back with the cup of tea. Literally how could you not love him? He was so sweet and gentle with you. He really was the most beautiful person to walk this earth both body and soul. You were so touched by this that you forgot all your bashfullness? You leaned in and kissed his cheek. And the bashful smile he gave you?! The butterflies in your stomach were having a french revoluiton.
After you drank your tea, Chan took the glass from you and put it on his nightstang. "Are you comfortable like this? I can go back in my room." You couldn't help but ask. You felt shy laying on his bed next to him. Chan rolled his eyes and got under the cover. You two were so close you could feel his body heat without even touching him.
"I was the one who bought you here so stop overthinking and go to sleep!" Chan grumbled before wrapping his hand around your waist and bringing you closer to his body. You were chest to chest now and your heart was beating so strongly you were worried he would feel it. You looked up at him with wide eyes. "Christopher Bang Chan! What is this behaviour? What did you do to my shy best friend?" Chan smiled, "when was I ever shy?" Now it was your turn to smile mischeviously, "you're right you always were a little shit." Chan pinched your side making you yelp, you couldn't help but laugh at his distaste. "You're a menace." His voice was low, making you shiver. "Learned it from the best." You quipped quickly.
"Brat."
"You love me."
Chan waited for a second before leaning in and kissing the tip of your nose before muttering, "You're right, I do."
You started at him with wide eyes, unable to say anything. Your cheeks felt really hot. "What's with the heart fluttering shit you do? Be carefull Christopher or I might fall for you. What are you going to say about that?" Not going to lie you were dying inside wanting to know what would Chan say. Chan opened one eye to look at you and then closed it. You thought that he would ignore you, he cradled you closer to his body. Your face was against the crook of his neck. You felt like you could melt. You felt so warm and secure,the smell of his shower gel and the musky scent of his body really soothed you, you could even feel his carotid pulse. It was comforting his pulse was almost as fast as yours. Maybe you were deluding yourself but what if he felt the same?
The sound of Chans voice bought you down to reality." I would say it's about time, I've been flirting with you for ages!" What the actual fuck? You immediately jumped up and looked at Chan with the most shocked face ever. He's being doing what now?
"You've been flirting with me?" You needed him to say it again. You needed the clarification!
Chan opened his eyes and leaned up, you tried to read his expression but you got nothing. "Yes? Since forever? I'm surprised you hadn't realized."
"You like me?" You couldn't believe your ears.
"Yes? Why are you so shocked?" He sounded genuinely confused.
"Because I thought you only saw me as a friend and well you do have a flirty personality." -You tried to explain, Chris sighed and fully leaned up. He looked at you for a second before putting his hand on your neck and pulling you towards him. You thought he was going to kiss you and your heart basically did a backflip on top of running 500 kilometers per hour, but instead of kissing you on lips he softly kissed your forehead. When you opened your eyes whitch you hadn't even realized you had closed, you saw that he was looking and you with the softest gaze ever. You couldn't put it to words but it was type of expression that even if you didn't like him you would fall for him head over heels without a doubt.
"First of all you're literally the hottest person ever with even better personality. I would be a fool to not fall in love with you. So trust me my flirting was genuine. Now the second, you always flirted back, you weren't being genuine?" His question bought you aback and you started stammering for an answer but you stopped when you heard him chucke. "Okay okay I'm just teasing. I know you were being sincere. And I'm also aware you have a crush on me. It's cute actually. " His eyes twinkled with mischief as he teased you. You didn't know if you wanted to hit him or kiss him sensless.
"I hate you so much sometimes." You couldn't help but groan. You were feeling beyond embarrassed, both because you knew that he liked you back and because he had known you liked him. What an asshole why did it take him this long to say anything? Chan leaned in and placed another peck on your cheek, making you sigh quietly. "Your raging crush on me says otherwise."
"Oh shut up!" You did smack him on the arm this time. Chan's cuckle filled the room and you couldn't help but also laugh. You felt like a lovesick teenager but you didn't really mind it. Chan's one hand was still on your neck rubbing the thumb mindlessly along your skin, his warm hand not failing to send shiver aftee shiver down your spine, while his other hand was on your waist keeping you close to him. He acted like the thought for a second before muttering "Good idea." And leaning towards you, your lips so close they slightly grazed each other with each breath.
"Can I kiss you?" God were you dreaming? You even pinched yourself and you were awake! Fanfiction God really did exist apparently. You would have to thank them later.
You nodded eagerly, making Chan's smile deepen. And he closed the distance. Chan, your lovely Channie, your best friend and closest companion, the guy you could trust with your life and your longtime crush was kissing you. And it felt beyond majestic. It was everything you had imagined and so much more! His lips were so soft, so warm and felt so nice against yours. Your whole body was like set ablaze and despite feeling so so many times today you felt like melting, like your bones were liquifying. Only he could make you feel that way. So confused and so hopelessly in love. You couldn't help but smile into the kiss, Chris mirrored it and soon you were full on chuckling between giving each other short pecks. You love how lighthearted and fun everything was with Chris but also very deep and meaningful and how he always made you feel so secure. Really, how could you not love him?
Much to your dismay after kissing each other for so long that your lips were already starting to buzz Chan decieed to lean back. You chased after his lips, you didn't care that your lips were buzzing, you felt like you could kiss him until your lips fell off. You felt like you had been deprived of him all your life and you felt greedy now once you got the taste of him.
Chan smiled and gave you a short peck. Then he brought you closed to his body and hugged you. "I really like you, heck I might even love you, this might sound cheesy and I know your menace butt is going to tease me after this but be mine?"
What a dork. You hugged him closer and kissed his neck. "I think I also love you too. And I will tease you about it most definitely, but yes, I will be yours." Chan smiled with his pretty dimples fully on display, he kissed your forehead and then helped you get comfortable on his bed. You felt so calm and peaceful despite your heart still running like crazy, you could feel the sleep approaching. Oh yeah you had insomnia, how funny.
A/N- I really hope you liked it, I will fix mistakes later my eyes are burning at this point. Feedback and reblogs are greatly appreciated. Thank you for readingâ€ïž
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á© Too sweet skater girl | le ssera, yunjin!
pairing huh yunjin & fem reader. lesbians đđ
genre fluff (in my personal opinion đ€â)
doei speaks! hot skater girl yunjin what more do i need to say? ++ dividers came from xxbimbobunnyxx <3
it was around 11:20 p.m. and you were currently at your local skate park practicing some moves you'd seen done on tiktok.
the atmosphere was something special around this time. the moon had illuminated you and the rest of the park, with the help of some nearby streetlights, and no one else was in sight.
your headphones were blasting in your ears, and all you could hear was your favorite song.
too sweet by hozier. (even if its not we're PRETENDING it is đ€)
everything felt more comfortable in times like these. nobody was around to bother you, and it felt as though your responsibilities and pressures had drifted away from you, even if the feeling lasted simply for an hour.
you'd take that over nothing.
you were too focused on nailing this one trick that you just couldn't seem to get, sitting on the ledge of the vert-ramp, when you felt someone tap your shoulder.
"OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUâ" you exclaimed as the person clearly startled you. you jumped and shifted to the left to see who tapped your shoulder when your jaw practically dropped.
the HOTTEST, and i mean HOTTEST, girl you've ever seen was crouched right next to you.
her hair was like a washed out orange color, it kinda reminded you of fall and how you'd sometimes spot brown-ish leaves on the ground. she had on a black cap and an over-sized white shirt and some baggy jeans (no nctđâđŸ).
what interested you the most was the skateboard she had resting beside her. pantone 7453c, also known as fearless blue, and had the phrase "IM FEARLESS" plastered on it in graffiti style.
the girl tilted her head and had a rather confused look on her face. "i was watching you from over there," she pointed to the other side of the street, "and i couldn't help but notice something. were you attempting the madonna a few minutes ago?"
you opened your mouth to respond and-
"goddamn, you're so fine."
...
"you know you said that out-loud, right?" ... "i did?"
... "SHIT I DID!"
the girl only laughed at your response. now if you were her in this situation, you would've left right around now.
you didn't want to even imagine how cringe you probably sounded to her, but when you focused on her expression, she looked almost flattered by it.
"you're not too bad yourself. y'know, you're lucky i'm into girls. maybe you've got a shot." she winked at you, and your hands flew to your face in an attempt to hide the flustered reaction her words caused you, which was followed by her bursting out in laughter only harder this time.
the atmosphere in the skate-park had now changed in only a few minutes of talking to her, and to be 100% honest, you weren't exactly mad at it.
instead of being annoyed by the sounds of her loud-ass laughter, you were infatuated by it. she had this charm factor about her.
"s-shut up talking like that! i don't even know your name, do you flirt with every girl you see?" you exclaimed. she could tell you were trying your best to cover up how embarrassed you were so she went with it.
"nah, i just flirt with the cute ones," she grinned, "the name's yunjin."
yunjin..yunjin. you swore you've heard that name before.
smiling back at her, you extended your arm and dapped her up. "i'm (yn). y'know, is it just me or does your name sounds familiar?"
.
.
"i mean no shit it's familiar, it's literally my name."
"SHUT THE HELL UP YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN!"
you rolled your eyes at the girl. she winked again before pulling out her phone. as you stared the case you could see it read, "HUH YUNJIN."
huh yunjin. huh. that name really sounds SO familiar.
the feeling of, "do i know her," overtook your mind and you began spacing out. so much so that you didn't even realize she had put her phone back in her pocket and was now standing beside you.
yunjin called your name but got no response.
she called your name again.
yunjin then proceeded to kick you in the leg which seemed to do the trick.
"ow, what the hell!" you hissed, clutching your leg in pain. she only shrugged. "stop thinking so hard then and ride me. I MEANâride WITH me."
"nuh-uh, don't try to clean it up now! you basically just asked me to have se-"
"SHUT UP AND GRAB YOUR SKATEBOARD (YN) I'M GONNA TEACH YOU THIS TRICK!"
and so that was the night you learned how to do the madonna.
you were headed to the skate park to meet your favorite girl, yunjin. after your first meeting, the two of you exchanged numbers and met up often.
it had become somewhat of a routine of yours. you'd wake up, do whatever boring shit you needed to do for the day, go home, and wait until around 11 before leaving to hang out with her.
something about yunjin was a breath of fresh air to you. i mean, you two had gotten so close that you began sharing some of your thoughts with her, even the non-skateboarding related ones.
no matter how late it was, she was there to listen, and something about that in itself made you feel...
loved?
maybe cared for was a better way to put it but whatever the feeling was, you wanted to feel that way forever.
and you hoped you made her feel the same way.
as you made it to the park your eyes instinctively scanned over the area for her but... she wasn't anywhere to be seen.
usually when she was running late she'd text you as a heads-up so this concerned you. i mean what if something happened to her? it is pretty late, what if she had been kidnapped or something?
but then again, knowing her, she'd probably piss off her kidnapper.
.... WHICH COULD RESULT IN HER MURDER??
you whipped your phone out of your pocket and called yunjin, hoping she'd pick up and just say she didn't feel like coming, as long as she was safe it didn't matter.
"hey (yn), you-"
"yunjin are you okay?"
there was a pause.
"oh i'm fine. i totally forgot to text you didn't i? i'm just grabbing something but i'm on my way now."
you smiled. not just because she was still coming but just knowing everything she okay made you feel at ease. but this feeling of gratitude didn't last long before she added, "it's cute that you worried about me."
even through the phone you could hear her smirking. of course you had to fall for such a cocky, beautiful, talented, kind human being. yunjin had every quality that you wanted in a partner but you weren't 100% sure she reciprocated your feelings.
i mean sure, she flirted with you, but then again one time you two went to target and she almost got the cashiers phone number sooo..
"whatever loser, i just didn't need my friend getting kidnapped. it'd totally kill my vibe." you lied. she let out a hum before saying she was close, so you two hung up.
it was only four minutes later when she showed up, target bags in one hand, skateboard in the other. she joined you on the bench, setting one of the bags next to her feet and the other on her lap.
"you didn't go back to see that cashier, did you?" you questioned, half joking but half serious. yunjin laughed. "(yn) jealous era?"
you only shrugged and let out a quiet maybe. she shook her head, "don't worry, i'd never dream of it when i've got you."
AHEM??
her statement shocked you to say the least. internally, you were freaking out. yunjin could tell.
before you could reply back, she stopped you. she opened the bag, and pulled out two spray paint cans.
"what're you planning to do with those?" you pointed to the cans. "yunjin's in her artist era now?"
she giggled at your teasing. every interaction you two had was just fun, this type of relationship felt so carefree...if that made sense? the both of you just kinda let go with one another.
she pointed towards your skateboard, "i thought we should make yours look actually cool? plain is totally boring."
"well you say that like yours is better? like what? are we gonna match or something?" you joked.
yunjin scratched the back of her head, slightly moving the position of her cap in the process. "well...i kinda wanted to.."
the look on her face after saying this was different than anything you've seen from her. it was more nervous, unsure of herself, non-confident.
she felt tense as your eyes scanned over her face. it was as if you were studying her expressions, could you really tell a change just from that?
yunjin cleared her throat in an attempt to take off some pressure, "unless you don't want to. that's cool."
she avoided eye contact until you put your hand on-top of hers.
"it's cool."
you two sat there quietly, digesting the conversation, before moving. the silence was nice. you two rarely had moments like that before but you noticed they were happening more often.
you two could be just talking and suddenly it'd get quiet. you'd look at yunjin, she'd look at you, and it was like your eyes spoke.
if looks could talk, you two would've been together by now.
"this looks like shit."
"(yn)!! don't say that, we haven't even finished!"
but it was true, your skateboard looked so bad. if anyone else had done this to it, you would've freaked out. but it was yunjin.
she insisted on continuing although it was basically ass, so you two continued. after about twenty minutes she finished (you tapped out around the ten minute mark and opted to lie in the grass instead).
"all it has to do is dry now." she stated, walking to lie next to you.
the sky looked so pretty at that moment. the stars covered everywhere your eyes could see, and the moon, the moon shone as brightly as ever.
but something else was prettier in your opinion. you turned your head and met the eyes of yunjin, who was staring at you with the softest expression. to her, you were perfect like this.
"yunjin, you're staring."
she sighed, letting out the softest, "i know."
you two were doing the thing again. staring that led to nothing else, unfortunately. yunjin might've realized that too, because she turned her head back to the night sky.
it fell silent. a comfortable silence.
but this isn't what you wanted. something came over you, and it was urging you to just confess. you really like yunjin. that's a fact.
if you had a wikipedia page, there'd be a section all about your love for yunjin.
okay that might be an overstatement but you get the point.
you inhaled quietly before turning back to face her, it's now or never. well not literally but this is the perfect time.
she felt your eyes shift and turned to look at you.
"yunjin," you grabbed on the bottom of your shirt out of anxiousness, "i don't know...i don't know if you know this already but, i like you. and i'm not saying this lightly, i'm certain of it. everything about you is perfect to me and i've never felt this way about anyone else. you're so-"
you were cut off by her lips gently pressing against yours.
the kiss was short but sweet. you wouldn't have traded it for the world. and after she pulled away, it left you wanting more.
"i know that was sudden but uh, you just looked so fucking good. and i thought since you like me, and i like you too, it'd be cool."
you nodded your head slowly. "don't worry, it was cool. i really liked it."
she nodded too. "y'know, you're the prettiest girl i've ever seen. i'm overall glad i met you."
with that being said, you and yunjin laid together in the grass, under the moonlight, knowing by tomorrow you'd be more than friends.
and that was a nice thought.
"hey yunjin, can i ask you something?" you whispered. by this point, she was laying on top of your chest, fighting off sleep.
"mhmm..." she muttered.
"what was in the other bag?"
yunjin rubbed her eyes and yawned. "oh. y'know how you were going on and on about my name being familiar?"
you hummed and she continued saying, "turns out there's an idol with a similar name to me, huh yeo-jin, whoever the hell that is i dunno. so i bought some photo-cards of her."
oh. you laughed.
who the hell is that?
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thanks for reading! i'm not sure if i did skater girl yunjin justice in this, i might write more abt her like this cause she's hot.
reblog / like it if you enjoyed <3!
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PAIRING harry styles x reader
SUMMARY harryâs having trouble finding enough time to spend with y/n, even after she drops everything and joins him on tour. when they talk, they only seem to argue. when they donât, they only seem to fuck.
WARNINGS sheâs an angsty oneâ lots of miscommunication, poorly executed arguments, and general couple fighting content. BUT!! there is lots of really cute fluff at the end :> also, beware of smutty content such as soft!dom harry (my favorite), oral (f!receiving, implied m!receiving), unprotected p in v, a brief hesitation to get naked on y/nâs part, an even more brief mention of bondage play, harry leaves like one love bite, and tooth-rotting holding each other while having sex content. lmk if i missed anything!
WORD COUNT 5.5k
AUTHORâS NOTE fun fact this was supposed to be done months ago and then literally everything that could have gotten in my way did just that. but sheâs here now!! writing this was a challenge but i feel so good about it now that itâs complete and i canât wait for you all to read it. please lmk you enjoyed by leaving feedback and/or reblogging!! special thanks to @cherryjuiceblues for beta reading for me <3 ily <3
LOVER SELECTION one-shots here.
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âharry, it doesnât matter ifââ
âit does to me!â
âhey, there are two people in this relationship, you know.â
âyeah, anâ one of âem feels like right shit on whatâs meant to be the greatest tour of his life! doesnât that mean anythinâ to you?â
âof course it does, i justââ
âreally? âcause yâcouldâve fooled me, love.â
âharry, i swear, if you interrupt me one more time, iâm booking the next flight home.âÂ
⊠tour had been going really well for harry! he was playing back to back sold out shows in some of the biggest cities in the world, with adoring fans lining up by the thousands, itching to hear him sing live. heâd already had some really sweet interactions on stage, and no crazy mishaps had occurred (he was especially proud of himself for having ensured everyoneâs safety so far). just in the last week alone, heâd been nominated for three different awards for his newest album and performances. anyone could see that he was living a dreamâ the dream, really. the kind that only comes true once in a blue moon.Â
and yet⊠tour had been going really poorly for harry. now, he doesnât like to complain about much; he knows just how fortunate he is, and actively tries to see the bigger picture when frustrated. but it was really hard to zoom out of his particular situation when he was so zeroed in on a particular aspect that had been bugging him for weeksâ y/n.Â
donât get him wrong! y/n herself wasnât what was bothering him. it was more so her presence, and his⊠lack thereof.Â
if thereâs one thing harry prides himself on more than anything, itâs being an attentive loverâ even in the most innocent and platonic of ways. he tries his absolute hardest to be a supportive brother, a considerate son, a (hopefully) decent role model to those who look up to him, and especially a present, loving boyfriend. and for the most part, heâs just as successful in those aspects as he is in his career. in fact, y/n regularly speaks of how harry treats her like she hangs the stars in the sky just for him, how he makes her feel like the most special girl in the world.Â
but this tour was taking its toll, and harry was taking it out on y/n. heâs never been great at communicating everything in the most positive of waysâ thatâs where he turns to songwritingâ and heâd let his emotions get the better of him after letting them build up for the past couple of weeks. he wasnât proud of himself, but he needed an outlet.Â
harry didnât mean to start the fight. but when y/n asked him where heâd been after a last minute management meeting following that nightâs show kept him an extra half hour later than he said heâd be, it was like all the frustration just erupted. inadequacy is one of his least favorite feelings (next to loneliness), and being a barely-there or only-sometimes-there boyfriend couldnât be more of a trigger for that particular emotion.Â
now here they were, vexation filling the tour bus around them like a fog they could barely see through, inhaling it with every breath and releasing it back into the atmosphere surrounding them. harry huffed out a sigh, arms crossed and brow furrowed as he angrily looked out the window of the tour bus to distract himself for a moment, having to mentally step away from the argument at hand, even if just for a few seconds. watching as the dark streets outside shined with the headlights of other vehicles, he found himself wishing he were in one of them. it would be nice to be in a car alone, nothing but his thoughts and some music to keep him company.Â
but he had real company. she was standing not six feet away from him, emulating his defensive position with her arms drawn across her own chest, jaw clenching and relaxing every other moment. when he finally turned to look at her again, he exhaled loudly.Â
âwe were crazy to think that this could work,â he mumbled, barely audible to y/n, but she was able to make it out.Â
even when they fought, the girl seemed to be in sync with him, inhaling deeply, subconsciously countering his previous expulsion of breath. the yin to his yang.
âwhat are you talking about?â
harry groaned at her words. how didnât she get this? ây/n, iâm never around! i wake up when youâre still asleep, prepare for the day, go to the venue, help set up the stage, sound check, rehearse a bit, and then âm off tâgo get ready for a show that lasts two hours. almost each night! i come back exhausted and aching to sleep! where dâyou see yourself fitting in there?â
when y/n realized it was her turn to speak again, she said, âfirst off, do you think you could please calm down a little? i canât talk to you when youâre like this.â
his eyes narrowed. âlike what?â
âwhen youâre acting like a child, harry! i mean, for godâs sake, iâm not nine! i can handle hanging out on my own for a few days at a time and just getting to cuddle with you at night until you have a day off. itâs not like i donât have things to do throughout the day, too.â
while harry tended to say things he didnât exactly believe in the heat of the moment, y/n meant every word she uttered. she really was content relaxing in the tour bus or a hotel room taking care of work on her laptop, catching up on new episodes of her favorite shows, or even going out to explore whatever new city they were in by herself. harry had breaks between show days once or twice a week, and the thought of having those days to themselves was enough to sate her desire to spend time with him. it annoyed her that he didnât understand that, as sheâd never been the clingy type and was always very self-sufficient.Â
âoh, iâm acting like a child, am i? right, i didnât realize that wanting tâbe present in my relationship with my girlfriend was childish, but hey, you learn something new every day, i sâpose.âÂ
oh, y/n was really starting to seethe now. letting her arms fall to her sides with a frustrated puff, she began again.Â
âgod, harry, youâre not childish for wanting to spend time together! iâm saying you need to realize that iâm perfectly capable of waiting for your days off to really spend time with you. youâre acting like we canât function without each other!â
âthe whole idea of you cominâ on tour with me was to have this time together, y/n,â harry fired back. âif weâre barely going to get to see each other anyways, then whatâs the bloody point?â
âŠ
harry might have spoken too soon. at least, thatâs what he thought as he laid overtop y/n on the tour bus couch, because now the point might very well be getting to just feel her lips on his every now and again.Â
it was late; harry had just come back from a show. usually, heâs too tired to do anything but crash onto a cloud-like mattress after all the jumping around he does on that stage, but this time all he wanted was his girl. itâd started innocently enough, with harry pulling y/n into his lap on the worn, red leather of the couch. his hands roamed along her hips and down to her waist beneath her soft hoodie (which wasnât even technically herâs, but is it really theft if harry just leaves his clothes lying around for her to nab?), exploring the soft expanse of her skin, not straying any lower. her own hands were hidden in his curls, lightly scratching at his scalp in what she hoped were soothing motions.Â
harry knew he was done for once he initiated the kiss. tentative at first, he pressed light pecks along the corner of her mouth, quick and feathery, like he didnât really care if he got to kiss her so much as he got to hold her, or simply be with her. but soon, the eagerness set in, like he wasnât sure when the next time heâd get to have her was, and suddenly he was capturing her mouth with his own, barely giving her a chance to breathe as he tasted her. while harry never really believed in a higher power, he could have sworn he found religion in her lips.Â
things only escalated from there. it wasnât long before harry was wrapping his muscular arms around y/n, so tight that he accidentally squeezed too hard, earning a squeak from the girl. he muttered a hushed but sincere ââm sorry, darling,â to compensate. one hand supported her head, the other splayed across her back as he laid her against the cushions so that he could keep loving on her on the way down. he relished her little whimpers that she tried so hard to suppress, grinning against her jawbone, her neck, any skin he came across on his journey south to more pressing territory.Â
harry didnât bother removing y/nâs hoodie, opting instead to push it up past her naval in favor of gaining access to the waistband of her fluffy sleep shorts. he felt her hands tighten their grip ever so slightly on his shoulders as he hooked his fingers under it, relaxing again when he rubbed the pad of his thumb delicately along her hipbone, reminding her it was only him.Â
it was a thing with y/n. she loved harry, of course she did, and she trusted him more than anyone. and maybe it was the way she was brought up, or perhaps a few poor experiences with sexual partners in the past, but there was always a fleeting moment of anxiety before shedding the clothing barrier before sex. like dipping a toe into a cold lake and hesitating a little, then ultimately deciding that jumping in wouldnât be so bad.Â
harry never pried. the first few times theyâd slept together, he noticed her nerves, and asked her if she was sure she wanted to continue. y/n had said yes each time, and after a while, he stopped asking. but still, whenever he noticed that brief nervous shift, harry gave her a chance to change her mind.Â
this time, he bided his time by sponging tender kisses right above where his fingers were still half hidden under her shorts. he wanted her to feel safe, and taken care of, and he hoped his gentle touches and even breathing could remedy her anxiety. as he waited, harryâs mind driftedâŠ. he was getting lost in the feel of her soft skin, its dips and curves and blemishes. he thought about her waist, how his hands fit so perfectly against its sides; her tummy, and how the muscles there jolted when he tickled them; and her hips⊠god, if y/nâs body was a church, her hips could be the altar. harry was ready to say a prayer right then, thanking every higher power for blessing him with this gorgeous girlâ
âharry?â his loveâs melodic voice interrupted his thoughts, and harryâs eyes snapped up to meet hers, his nose continuing to skim just above her navel. âum⊠you can keep going. please.âÂ
the corner of harryâs mouth quirked upward, and y/n could have sworn she caught a glimpse of mischief in the jade of his irises, but it was gone in an instant, as he wasted no time in stripping her of her bottoms.
âŠ
âgod, h-harry,â panted y/n, her grip on his curls constricting with every lick to her core, ââs so good, ohââ
âwould feel even better if yâstopped trying târun away from me, wouldnât it? donât wanna have to tie you down.â
y/n couldnât help it! it wasnât her fault if harryâs tongue was just too good and her bodyâs natural reaction was to attempt to escape his grip for a little relief. if anything, he should be happyâ theyâd been at this for so long y/n lost count of the minutes, and after two toe-curling orgasms, one would think harryâs jaw could use a break.Â
but that thought flew out the window when y/n remembered who she was metaphorically in bed with.Â
ââm sorryâŠ,â she whimpered, gripping the side of the couch cushion as her eyes squeezed shut.
âdonâ have to be sorry, darling,â harry mumbled against her folds, chin glistening with her arousal as he placed a soft kiss to y/nâs clit, making her jolt in his hold. he breathed a short laugh, adjusting his arms so that one held her upper thigh next to his head, while the other pinned her hips to the red leather, restricting her ability to move. âjusâ wanna make you feel as good as possible, is all. will yâlet me?â
harry turned his head, nipping at the inside of the girlâs thigh, and she gasped at the brief assault on the softest skin of her body, now adorning the mark of his front teeth that she loved so much. she shuddered a breath as best she could, and harry could tell by the way her knuckles were turning white in their grip on the couch that she was trying her best to be good. feeling a twinge of guilt, he figured maybe he should offer her a second to breathe. y/n opened her eyes when she felt harryâs lips retreat from her aching cunt and the weight of his head rest against the love bite.Â
âhey.â
y/n cast her gaze down upon the boy (who looked far too innocent, considering what they were doing) with his cheek laid on her inner thigh, stray hairs tickling her just a tad. playfulness swam in his eyes, but there was an underlying current of concern.Â
âdoinâ okay?â
she nodded, gulping. harry noticed.Â
âbecause we can take a break if you want to. just say the word, okay?â
âi will, i-i promise. but⊠can you please keep going?â
that was all he needed to get right back into it, only with even more fervor than before. when y/n reached her third and final peak of the night, her whole body shook, and harry had the pleasure of getting to watch as he helped her ride out her high. he almost came in his pants, rutting his hips into the sofa, moaning against her core, begging her give it tâme, love, thatâs it.
harry pulled back when she started pushing at his head, whining for relief as he gave one final lap at her core. he grinned at her fucked-out figure as he wiped his face on his forearm, then took her hand that had been grasping at the cushion in one of his, bringing the back of it to his lips for a gentle kiss.Â
âfeel all right, baby?â
âmhm,â she hummed between heaving breaths, glancing at what she assumed could only be a quite painful stiffy between his legs as he sat up, âdo you?â
harry followed her line of vision, offering her a chuckle and an iâm fine, using his free hand to smooth his thumb along her brow. before he could even register it, her palm slipped from the grip of his other hand and traveled down to rub against the bulge in his pants, earning a sharp hiss from her boyfriend and a deep groan soon after.Â
âwhy donât you let me repay the favor?â
âŠ
harry was pretty sure y/n was asleep. if she wasnât, she was definitely on the vergeâ her breaths were deep and even as she laid in his hold, her head on his chest, ear pressed overtop his steadily beating heart. and who could blame her? the eveningâs activities had worn her out, which meant harry had done his job properly. he was more than happy to be wide awake, running his fingertips up and down her arm, inhaling the sweet scent of her fruity body wash while she dreamt if it meant she was rested and content and happy.Â
moments like these made harry think they could get away with it. the long hours spent apart, the hectic schedules, the fighting. sure, it was tough, and yes, they both had a temper that rivaled one anotherâs for the âleast amount of patience awardâ on any given day. but every missing ounce of patience was compensated by double its weight in love. they loved one another enough to make it work.Â
they could make this work.Â
right?
âŠ
âjesus, harry, how do you think that makes me feel? youâd honestly rather i not be here? are you actually that insecure?â
âcâmon, y/n, you know thaâs not what i meant.â
y/n felt like they were going around in circles, having the same fight over and over again. only this time, the couple found themselves in a beautiful hotel room, with a beautiful view overlooking a beautiful city. and instead of getting to enjoy it, y/n was glaring at harry though the vanity mirror, his back facing her as he tamed his wild curls for tonightâs show⊠which he had to leave for in just a few short minutes.Â
the balled up fist on y/nâs hip flew up to her face, fingers flexing to pinch at the bridge of her nose as her eyes squeezed shut for a moment.Â
âi canât believe this. i dropped everything to be here with youâ to support you on the most incredible tour of your careerâ and instead of being happy iâm here as opposed to the alternative of thousands of miles away in a different time zone for months, youâre sitting here bitching about being too tired?âÂ
harry sighed deeply, only infuriating y/n more. âyouâre missing the point. âs not that i donât want you here, or just that âm too tired. âs knowing youâre sitting around by yourself, waiting on me while âm working, when you could be out with friends and family, or sleeping in the comfort of your own bedââ
âthat youâre not in!â the girl loudly interjectedâ how didnât he get this? âi put all those things aside for us, har. itâs not like iâm leaving my life behind for years. christâs sake, the tour is over in two months! but somehow, being away from my home and routine is easier than being in the same room as you right now.â
harry contemplated his next words carefully, turning them over in his head a few times and editing any obvious mistakes, leaving the pair of them to marinate in suffocating silence for a good ten or so seconds before he finally spoke.Â
ây/n⊠i canât be a good boyfriend and a serious artist simultaneously, okay? not while âm on tour. i canât keep losing sleep over how well iâm balancingââ
âokay, you know what, harry? you know what? maybe you should just leave me, then. wouldnât that be easier? youâd be able to sleep better at night, right?â
they both knew she didnât mean it, though harry couldnât lie and say it didnât hurt to hear. but she was pissed, and harry knew better than to try to reason with her when she was like this.Â
when she realized he wasnât going to respond, instead electing to stare brokenly into the mirror, she continued. âyou know damn well how hard i work for this relationship. iâve flown across the oceans that have separated us, driven for hours just to get to see you for, like, oneâ hell, iâve skipped some of my most important classes so we could go to shitty dive bars in the middle of the day together! yeah, remember that? i love you, okay? people who love each other are supposed to be grateful for any time they have together at all, no matter if itâs every day or once a year.â
y/n took a breath, finally cooling down after her heated rant. she took a moment to take in the sight of her boyfriend, dressed so vibrantly, feeling anything but.Â
âthey warned us about times like this,â the defeated tone of y/nâs whisper was enough to finally get harry to say something.Â
âwhat was that, love?â
the girl swallowed the little saliva in her mouth before speaking up a mere decibel. âremember what my parents said? âthe road gets hard, and you get lost when youâre led by blind faith,ââ she imitated her fatherâs deep voice, and if not for the circumstances, harry mightâve laughed.Â
they werenât lost, were they?
âŠ
if there was such a thing as heaven on earth, y/n is pretty sure sheâs been there. in fact, she goes there whenever harry so much as touches her.Â
when he kisses her shin as they lay watching a movie together on the couch, pulling her leg up off his lap and craning his neck downward to meet it in the middle. when he runs his fingers down the bridge of her nose, making an exaggerated boop! noise once he reaches the tip, gently pressing against it like a doorbell. and especially when he has her like this.Â
harryâs arms felt secure wrapped around y/nâs torso, her hips moving back and forth atop his own. the feeling of his cock twitching and shifting inside her while her nipples rub deliciously along his chest made her dizzy, like she had just gotten off a loopy rollercoaster. harryâs back arched just slightly off the plush mattress of their hotel suiteâs bed when y/n gave a little bounce, arms constricting around her and forcing a pleased sigh to fall from her lips.Â
the girl hid her face in the crook of his neck, and harry could feel each and every hot breath against his skin. lost in pleasure, he let his large hands migrate from her hips down to her bum, where he gave a small pinch to the flesh, eliciting a yelp and a small jolt from y/n.Â
âsorry, baby,â he laughed, âcouldnât help mâself.â harry gently flattened his palm against the now tender skin, rubbing there softly in an attempt to soothe the little ache he left. when he felt satisfied, he shifted to rubbing between her shoulder blades instead, his other arm still wrapped around her lower back as she returned to her previous rhythm above him.Â
y/n could tell harry was enjoying himself. his groans alone were evidence enough, not to mention the little utterances of âshit, darling,â and ïżœïżœso good tâme,â he frequently let slip. but perhaps he just needed a bit more to reach his high, because without warning his hands were on her thighs, gripping tightly as he began to thrust upwards into her at a much quicker pace than she had originally setâ it had her seeing stars in a matter of mere seconds.Â
âoh, godâ harry,â y/n gasped out, gripping the edge of the plush pillow by harryâs ear. she could feel him hitting that special spot inside her with every snap of his hips, and she couldnât stop her eyes from rolling back into her head, muscles tightening all throughout her body.Â
âalmost there, angel⊠justâŠ,â harryâs thrusts began to slow, becoming more deliberate, and now he was moving her hips to grind against his each time they met, sending y/n over the edge.Â
y/nâs moans were long and drawn out as she came, body spasms making her hold on more tightly to harry for stability. she didnât even hear him finish, too busy reveling in the euphoric feeling of cumming in his arms, surrounded by warmth and love and feeling the safest she had in a long while.Â
it was moments like these where y/n couldnât fathom how sheâs ever been upset with harry. he was perfect, lying here under her unsteady body, breathing deeply not only to catch his breath, but to take in the smell of her. she wanted this for eternity. and if this was heaven, then surely hell was when they fought with each other.Â
âŠ
y/n thought she was dreaming at first, not used to being roused from her slumber by anything other than her well-timed alarm and the occasional bark of a dog on a nearby street. she expected that after blinking the sleep from her eyes a few times, the vague image of her favorite boy would dissipate, and sheâd fall back into the comfort of her warm pillow. but when she squeezed them shut once, then twice, and her boyfriendâs face was still a foot away from herâs, brushing his fingertips up her nose and along her brow, she set aside her exhaustion in exchange for confusion.
now, harry knew better than to wake y/n up. in most circumstances, sheâd tell him off, or gently kick at him to get him to leave her alone. he found it rather endearing, and itâs one of the reasons heâs so protective of her in her sleepâ always holding her close to keep her safe, shielding her eyes from any light intruding on the space she lay, making sure both their phones were set to âdo not disturb.â but he had to make an exception, just this once.Â
âdarling,â she barely registered his whisper, âwake up fâme, please?â
a whine fell from y/nâs lips, her eyes scrunching shut as she turned her body away from him, which harry knew was code for let me sleep, for fuckâs sake! a smile graced his lips at the action, jotting down a mental note to make this up to her later.Â
compensating for the newfound distance between them, harry scooted closer to her. he kneeled on the floor next to the bed, close to the pillows she rested upon. he laid one arm against the mattress, perching his chin on the back of his wrist. using his free hand, he continued to brush his fingertips lightly against his loveâs cheek, her jawâ all along her face, really. god, her loves her face so much. Â
âplease, baby?â
harry had just come back from one of his best performances yetâ the crowdâs energy was unmatched, the chemistry between him and his band members was palpable, and heâd managed to not get hit with any flying objects all night! but what really did it for him was the fan project he was surprised with at the end of the show. thousands of people in the room wore light-up bracelets that shone pink and blue during one of his favorite songs, âlove of my life.â if harryâs heart had been any more full in that moment, it mightâve exploded right there in his chest.Â
he had been on cloud nine for a moment. but soon, realization washed over him in a way that squeezed at his lungs, stealing his breath for a second. the love of his life was somewhere miles away, probably sitting in their hotel room watching a comfort film, oblivious to anything he was feeling on that stage. he just wanted to go home to her and gush about what had happened, and how he wished sheâd been there, and how it made so much sense that it would happen during âlove of my lifeâ because it was the perfect representation of the amount of love he had for his, and how if sheâd have been there, he would have looked directly at her and smiled the whole time.Â
it made him realize how bloody stupid he was.
in retrospect, the conversation heâd needlessly just woken y/n up for could have waited until morning. but then harry wouldnât have been able to sleep if he didnât tell her he was sorry right away.Â
a groan sounded through the room, followed by the ruffling of bedsheets as the girl turned back over to glare annoyedly at harry. he let out a soft laugh at her behavior.Â
ââm sorry, baby. know you jusâ wanna sleep right now, but âs it okay if we talk for a moâ?â
ânow?â y/n asked in a gravelly voice.
ânow, mâ love.â
with a soft sigh, she relented, sitting up and rubbing the sleep from her eyes with her knuckles. harry caught the motion, bringing his hands up to pull hers away from her face. he didnât like when y/n did that, as she always managed to do it too roughly. instead, he held her smaller hands in his own, getting up to sit on the edge of the bed, facing her.Â
âwhat is it?â y/n asked through a yawn. harry looked at her for a momentâ really looked at herâ before responding.
âiâm sorry.â
it took her a moment to register his words. âfor waking me up?â
harry laughed that dreamy laugh she loved so much, and it almost made up for the fact that she was up at twelve thirty in the morning. âno, yâlittle minx. not for that. well, yes, for that, but thatâs not what i meant.â
âwhat are you sorry for, then?âÂ
harry looked at her with an expression y/n couldnât place. it look him a few beats to speak. âi⊠iâm sorry i was such a prick before. i love that youâre here, anâ that i get tâsee you when iâm off. know you put aside a lot for this, anâ i ruined it with mâown problems. didnât mean to.â
y/nâs features softened at the boyâs sincerity, and if it werenât for the warmth his hands encapsulating hers provided, sheâd have reached out and held his face, peppering kisses over every dip and curve.Â
âi know you didnâtâŠ. iâm sorry, too.â
âfor what?â
âi shouldâve listened better. you were trying to tell me how you felt and i just disregarded it. that wasnât very nice of me, either.â
the right corner of harryâs lips tugged upwards, morphing his mouth into that little half-grin y/n adored so much. âthink we can get past it, darling?â
the girl scooted forward the tiniest bit, harryâs magnetic pull too hard to resist. though they were the only two in the room, she whispered, âiâll forgive you if you forgive me.â harry liked how she made something so simple sound like a secret deal between them.
harryâs half-smile quickly quirked up, completing itself, and y/n swooned over his dimples and adorable bunny teeth. a short and quiet breath of a laugh fell past his lips, and for a moment, he just looked at her. but his gaze caught a glimpse of uncertainty in her eyes, and his grin faltered a bit.Â
y/n was always good at hiding her true emotions when she wanted to. not when it really mattered, donât get her wrongâ she wasnât one to take anyoneâs shit. but at dinner with her parents or meetings at work, she was able to pretend she wasnât exhausted or annoyed. it never worked with harry, though. he could read and understand her like his own lyrics, and tonight was no exception. he saw through the mask of humor at her uncertainty, and a pang of guilt bloomed in his chest.Â
he let out a sigh as he beckoned her forward by gently tugging her hands, still in his, toward him. âcâmere, baby,â he said softly, pulling his love into his lap. y/n curled into him, knees tucked upward into her chest as his strong arms found purchase around her frame, holding her tenderly but securely. one of harryâs large hands held the back of her head against him, her ear right over his heart, listening to it beat for her.Â
âlove you like crazy. youâve no idea.â he peppered light kisses to the top of her head, so softly she mightâve missed one or two. âthank you for cominâ anâ sâporting me. means the world, honestly.âÂ
âiâm happy to be anywhere with you, har,â she replied in a voice honey-thick with sleep. âeven if itâs just for a few minutes. always so happy to have you.â
harry closed his eyes, laying back into the pillows, bringing y/n down with him so that she was laying overtop his sturdy body, inhaling his every exhale.Â
âyou have me,â he said, though he was almost certain she didnât hear him, likely already pulled into the void of sleep, drawn in by the comfort of harryâs arms, his smell, him.Â
âyouâll always have me.â
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okay i know this is kind of a specific request but can you do something with professor Spence and uni reader where they get into a spat and argue bc she did something stupid and he gets mad and sheâs like ânoooo pls donât be mad i hate when youâre mad at me Iâm sorryđ„șâ bc she literally cannot function knowing she let him down (me with everybody) but heâs like super stubborn and goes all closed up and quiet so that he doesnât like blow up on her until she finally says like âpls talk to meâ and heâs all pissed and like âhell na bitch u crazy!đŁïžâŒïžâ but then later heâs like âitâs ok i love u but neva do that shit again hoâ then they make up and itâs good again đ ok i explained that so poorly (and comedically if i may) but i hope u get it and pls make it SO DRAMATIC bc I live for drama! like she steals test answers or something or does something that could like get her kicked out of school OR him lose his job đ€ sigh ⊠idk Iâm leaving now. Also i LOOPOOOCE ORRKGOOVI love your fics. Luv em
hey girl (gender neutral) this made me laugh bc genuinely sometimes i write spencer so ooc that is what he sounds like. and i'm not sorry! anyway this is potentially a vyvanse fueled nightmare but i wrote it and i'm posting it MY BLOG MY RULES BITCHESSSS!!!! but genuinely read the content warning LMAO this one got a lil kick to it
warnings/tags: ANGST, HURT/COMFORT, fem!reader, spencer and r get into a for real argument like they're mean to each other, spencer is a lil toxic but its resolved, emotionally neglects reader just for a teeensy second but then he's really nice and sweet again, discussion of his past addic+ion, gets fluffy because i'm not EVIL, gets suggestive at the end bc i am secretly evil.......
a/n: i don't know whats happening. this confuses me just as much as it confuses you. its 3 am in the morning. im gonna post nice happy things soon. Gootbye
âI cannot believe you right now. I donât evenâI donât even know what to say.âÂ
âSpencer, you donât have to say anything. It has nothing to do with you, and Iâm not looking for your approval.âÂ
He looks up from where heâd been rubbing his temples, like youâre a headache, eyebrows raised and lips parted in indignant disbelief.Â
âOh! Youâre not looking for my approval? Well thank god for that, because if you were one of my students I would recommend expulsion to the board.âÂ
âAre you fucking kidding me? I just said I donât care about your opinion on this, much less your hypothetical opinion from some alternate universe where you have any authority over my education whatsoever.âÂ
âYou distributed an answer key to half of your class! Objectively this is the kind of thing that gets people expelled. I donât understand how someone so smart could do something so fucking stupid.âÂ
The words bite more than you were prepared forâbut what hurts even more is how much he seems to mean them. In arguments past youâd both said things you didnât mean, and then would immediately melt into Iâm so sorryâs and the fight would resolve itself. Spencerâs clenched jaw and inability to make eye contact with you do not lend themselves to tender apologies. They cannot be attributed to miscommunication.Â
You take a step closer to where heâs bracing himself against the countertop, arms crossed defensively in front of your chest.Â
âSpencer, Iâm sorry. I didnât think it was such a big deal. People cheat in college all the time.âÂ
Still no reply. His head shakes so minutely you wonder if youâre imagining it. Panic wells in your chest.Â
âPlease talk to me. I really hate when you ice me out. Iâm sorry, okay? Just... please say something.âÂ
Finally, his eyes slide to you. They lack the fiery anger of moments ago but thereâs not much softness there either. His normally warm gaze now feels too abrasive, too cold and sharp on your bare skin. You're exposed, much too soft for that grating look, and it feels like he can see everything thatâs wrong with you.Â
âBelieve me when I tell you this. I am doing us both a favor by not speaking to you right now.âÂ
And then heâs leaving the kitchenânothing but a breeze against your cheek and the sound of a door slamming to prove he was ever there.Â
The apartment is silent. You stand in the middle of the kitchen, unsure of what to do next. Spencer very, very rarely gets angry at you to the point of neglect, and you know heâs doing his best with what was modelled for him as a child and his tendency to feel things so deeply itâs nearly disabling; but that doesnât make it hurt much less. It doesnât make you feel less abandoned or alone. Â
Youâre sad, and youâre still pissed, and maybe youâre in just a bit of shock as you robotically move back to your nest of blankets on the couch and resume your schoolwork. What else is there to do? Unless Spencer is rightâunless you really are about to get expelled after getting the answer key for an upcoming test from a friend, who then gave it to another friend, and so on. But is that really your fault? Â
Itâs a struggle to stay focused as your mind keeps drifting back to Spencer in the other room, those cruel words and that cold steely look in his eye that isnât supposed to ever be aimed at you. Itâs not a secret that side of him exists, but it doesnât belong in this apartment. Itâs not something he needs to use against you. Heâs supposed to be on your side. But instead, heâd said you should be expelled and essentially called you stupid. And now youâre doing homework for a class at a school you may not even be a student of come Monday.Â
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The sound of the office door opening forty-five minutes later spikes your blood pressure and simultaneously makes your heart flutter, because no matter how mad at him you might be, Spencer is still Spencer. Â
He comes to stand behind the couch quietly, but you donât acknowledge him. Maybe your typing gets a bit more aggressive, but aside from that you flat out reject his presence.Â
âCan we talk?âÂ
You let him sweat for a minute as you finish your paragraph.Â
âI donât know, Spencer. Can we? Or are you not done with your temper tantrum?âÂ
âThat is... well deserved,â he sighs, rounding the couch and tapping the bottom of your foot, signaling that he wants you to move your legs. You despise how automatically you comply, pulling your knees to your chest to avoid touching him as he sits next to you. Thereâs a long moment of silence, in which you resume typing. Spencer scoffs, leaning in slightly to peer at your screen. âAre you doing homework right now? Iâm a complete asshole to you and you just... do your homework?"
âWhat the fuck else was I supposed to do?â you almost-yell, slamming your laptop shut and blinking away potential tears. âThe only person I wanted to talk to called me stupid and fucking left!âÂ
The tears realize their potential once you admit the blunt truth.Â
Spencer carefully moves your laptop and pulls you into his armsâand you just let him. Thereâs not much fight left in you. There wasnât a lot to begin with.Â
âI am so sorry, angel. Youâre right, I shouldnât have done that. I shouldnât have yelled, I shouldnât have said what I said, I shouldnât have walked away. I overreacted.âÂ
âYeah, you really did,â you cry, allowing him to run his hand over your hair. âWhy did you do that? Why were you so fucking mean?âÂ
His voice shakes slightly as he responds, betraying his own anxieties, and a new, unwelcome sense of trepidation slithers through your veins.Â
âI was wondering that, too. Even as I was saying it, I knewâI knew it wasnât what I wanted to be saying. And then I was in the other room and I wanted to be out here, and I couldnât figure out why I wasnât. But I think I was just scared. WhichâI know, doesnât really make sense, but... I think about when Ethan dropped out of the academy, and ended up doing heroin in New Orleans for three years, and I think about when I almost left the BAU because I was so convinced Iâd never get clean that I didnât even want to anymore, andâand the idea of you losing your education and your direction like that terrified me, probably unreasonably, and I took it out on you. And Iâm sorry.âÂ
âBut Iâm not like you or Ethan. You donât have to worry about that. Even if I... even I do get in some sort of disciplinary trouble. Thatâs a road you donât have to worry about me going down, ever.âÂ
He fixes some unseen wrinkle on your shirt. Â
âYeah, but, remember... I used to not be like me or Ethan either. Do you think twelve-year-old Spencer would have ever even considered that of the infinite realities and universes which exist, he was living in one where someday heâd be shooting up in the bathroom at work?âÂ
âMm-mm,â you hum, shaking your head and burying your face in Spencerâs shoulder. The sound is more of a plea for him to be less descriptive than an answer to his rhetorical question. Itâs still much easier for him to talk about that part of his life than it is for you to have to actually imagine it. You didnât know him then, but youâve seen pictures, and you know Spencer now, and itâs... itâs just too much. Too sad.Â
âOkay,â he agrees soothingly, still playing with your hair. âI digress. My point is that literally anything is possible, and while itâs not necessarily likely, I more than anyone know that anxiety even over the most improbable of things is never completely unfounded.â Â
You sniffle in response, too emotionally and physically exhausted to contribute much to the conversation by this point. Thankfully, Spencer can talk for two. An idiosyncrasy which you love and comes in handy every once in a while. He can play his own devilâs advocate; in this case, you.Â
âBut that doesnât mean I get to take it out on you. Ever. I truly, truly, sincerely apologize for that. I never want to hurt you.âÂ
You let the apology sink into your skin like a salve, soothing every abrasion those earlier words had left in their violent wake.Â
After a few minutes, you find the energy to ask a question that might best remain unanswered.Â
âAre you still mad at me?âÂ
Heâs quiet for a beat, seemingly contemplative as his fingers trace abstract patterns in a language all his own on your arm.Â
âIâm not thrilled. But you were right earlier. Itâs not my place to be mad at you for something like that.âÂ
âMm... itâs a little bit your place. Youâre an actual professor.âÂ
He chuckles.Â
âAt an entirely different university.âÂ
âThank god,â you laugh. âYou and me at the same school would be such an HR clusterfuck.â
While itâs almost a serious matter, the smile in his voice is evident.Â
âYeah... I, uh... try not to think about it.âÂ
âOkay, but seriously. In your professional opinion. Am I fucked? Like, do I need to prepare an appeal and character witnesses or whatever?âÂ
Spencer sighs.Â
âIt was incredibly reckless and irresponsible. You should be ready for disciplinary pushback from the schoolboard if you get caught. That being said... because over sixty of you got a hold of the answer key, I doubt anyone is getting expelled, and even if they did, it would likely only be the TA and the student he gave the key to. Itâs my tentative, professional opinion that youâll probably be fine.âÂ
You relax slightly, allowing a tension you didnât realize was there to shed like an old skin.Â
âIâm not gonna cheat again,â you promise on an exhale. Itâs simply too much risk for too little reward.
Spencerâs response is quiet, and comes much faster than youâd expected.Â
âOh, I know you arenât. Because if you do, youâre going to have to worry about disciplinary action from me. And Iâm not nearly as nice as the dean of your school, darling girl.âÂ
But something about the way he says itâa thinly veiled threat/promise contrasted by a sweet kiss to your foreheadâdoesnât exactly make academic honesty look all that exciting.
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