#House without a way of getting out of there because Scott doesn't want him to lose control which good intentions still kidnapping

[ooooo-mcyt]

It's such a shame the Secret Soulmates thing is so often portrayed as Grian being selfish or vindictive for no reason because I think the actual events leading up to Grian's decision to seek out BigB are way more interesting than just "Grian's a selfish cheater". So like, because it's not covered much, I'm just going to detail the entire narrative from Grian's pov leading up to his decision to go to BigB.

For the first part of the first episode, Grian actually really seems to be romanticizing the idea of soulmates. Multiple times, he describes his search for his soulmate as "looking for love" and he hits everyone he meets with almost excited anticipation.

The moment Grian and BigB first look at each other is surprisingly romantic? I mean, it feels like what you'd expect from someone meeting their soulmate, from someone who just knows.

BigB and Scott finish testing if they're soulmates, and BigB is mid sentence when he turns around and look at Grian, and BigB just stops mid sentence and goes "Oh", which Grian echos (also when bigb looks at grian, grian holds his shield up for a good few seconds which just gives me the image of him hiding behind it and peering over the top which is uncharacteristically shy for grian but also really cute). "Are you ready?", BigB asks, and he waits for Grian to give him the go ahead before hitting him.

And..nothing. They aren't soulmates. BigB sounds disappointed. Grian sounds almost distraught, "I was so sure- I've never had such a broken heart in my life."

Shortly after Grian's soulmate takes significant damage. Everyone present rushes to give him food, though Grian would later credit BigB specifically with the very warm sentiment of having "saved" him.

And Grian's first meeting with Scar is..different.

Grian already doesn't seem to want to be Scar's soulmate, doesn't want to be teamed again, for one reason or another. And Scar..doesn't make it easier. Grian tries to talk to him, as the realization sets in, tries to say it, that they're soulmates. Grian does say it. But Scar isn't listening. Scar actively talks over Grian to brush Grian off, walking away while Grian is trying to grapple with the fact that they're soulmates.

Scar doesn't notice. Grian said it, mind you, in plain English- "Scar I think we're soulmates"- and Scar heard him, Scar responded to him, Scar just wasn't listening. Scar doesn't look for his soulmate, and he doesn't figure it out either for the rest of the episode. Grian tries to tell him twice more, and twice more Scar isn't listening. The first time, Grian calls after Scar twice as he's running off, "Scar I need to tell you something", but Scar doesn't turn around. The final time, Grian literally forces Scar to look at him and drops dripstone on their heads. Scar somehow still doesn't see him. Grian demands Scar look at him, actually look, this time, and finally, with great effort, he manages to get the point across.

One of Scar's first questions is "do we have to live together?", and Grian responds that it would be nice to, a sentiment Scar doesn't immediately echo. Grian pulls Scar along, back to the base Grian got working on by himself earlier.

At the start of the next episode, they have a disagreement. Scar brings home some pandas without consulting Grian, and Grian reacts very negatively, making a no pandas in the house rule and prompting Scar to help him with work instead. Grian specifically delegates the job of getting oak wood to Scar while Grian continues working on..everything else..himself. And after a bit of procrastinating from Scar, he does go to do his "chores" as Scar describes them.

Except that Scar doesn't actually.

Well, I mean, he does do the "chore" Grian gave him, but while he's out, he takes a break to think of a way to punish Grian, coming up with the idea of using powdered snow to hurt Grian as a punishment for Grian not letting the animals in the house and making Scar do a "chore". Grian doesn't technically know Scar did this on purpose, but with tick damage being a very distinctive type of damage that you usually would have to do on purpose to take as much as Scar did, I wouldn't be surprised if Grian figured it out.

It's at this point, that Grian decides to go to BigB. And it doesn't feel like he's just doing it for shallow reasons or to be mean, it fully checks out.

Because Grian's not happy with Scar at this point!

Partially because Scar himself doesn't seem interested in Grian at all, wouldn't listen to Grian to the point of talking over and brushing him off when Grian tried to tell him, and didn't want to live together after finding out. For Grian, who genuinely did seem to have a rather romantic view of soulmates at the start of the first episode, it probably kinda sucked to have his soulmate look past him like that. I can't fault Scar for not being particularly interested, but just because Scar didn't do anything technically wrong doesn't mean Grian's not allowed to be unhappy.

And then there's the other problem. The one I see surprisingly few fans talk about in regards to Scar and Grian. "Why does everyone else get a real partner except me?", Grian asked shortly before deciding to go to BigB. It's a sentiment we get from Grian multiple times. He says being Scar's partner is like babysitting, like having a toddler, Scar doesn't feel like a partner, he feels like a source of emotional labor who has no interest in lessening the burden for Grian. And. Yeah. Grian has good reason to feel like Scar makes him do all the labor in their relationship. I mean, Grian needed to get very pushy to even get Scar to agree to help build their shared base, Grian had to do the job of managing Scar on what specific task to do, Grian gave Scar a very small job comparative to the work Grian was doing around the house, and Scar still complained and found a way to punish Grian (the powdered snow) for "making" him do "chores" and not wanting animals in the house.

Which isn't to say Scar is bad or malicious or something, I love Scar, hell, I love Desert Duo, I think they work very well together in a lot of cases, but I think there is very much a labor imbalance- both in actual work and in emotional labor- here and it's understandably upsetting for Grian.

And in comparison, BigB looks..wonderful, to Grian?

BigB wanted him, for starters. They both felt it, the previous day. Scar kept looking through Grian, but BigB's eyes met Grian's and they both felt something. BigB seems considerate too. Grian feels like he has to pull teeth to get Scar to help him with the house (and then gets punished for it), meanwhile BigB is the one who "saved" Grian the previous day, jumping to give him food, not to mention the considerate gesture of BigB checking in to make sure Grian is ready before hitting him for the soulmate check. And, well, Grian clearly likes BigB.

Grian wasn't just going to someone else to be mean to Scar, and he didn't go for BigB just because he wanted someone, Grian was- validly!- unhappy with Scar (who didn't seem to want to be together much either) and actively liked BigB and thought he'd be a good partner.

Also, Grian very notably announces that he's defying destiny and asserts that he has a choice in who to be with, which adds a thematic layer of personal agency to the whole thing too. You get the impression Grian was mostly with Scar because he felt like he had to be, because the universe tied them together. But here Grian considers, for the first time, the thought that maybe it's okay to be with someone he wants, and who makes him happy, instead of resigning himself to be with the one he's 'supposed' to be with just because he's 'supposed' to.

(this idea of agency in who you love is relevant to double life as a whole, as i've made many posts about, but also is relevant to desert duo specifically. as much as i think they really cared about each other in third life, grian was also with scar because he was supposed to be for most of the season. being with scar had always, up to that point, been something grian was obligated to do, something grian didn't feel he had much choice in. so grian finally asserting here to the audience that he has a choice feels very relevant thematically.)

[ysrjune]

Wait okay okay so put this one above my Scott request

Giving Stephen a really super nasty blowjob and he cries yeah

KNEE DEEP IN THE PASSENGER SEAT ℘

Lately, you've been getting off of work late at night, and Stephen was picking you up. You told him he didn't have to, but he always insisted because he loves you so much and doesn't want you to fall asleep on the drive back if you're behind the wheel. No, it was fine that he had to wake up in the middle of the night to pick you up. More than fine. He knew you needed the rest after such a long shift.

So here he is, inside the car at the empty parking lot, waiting for you to come out. He was still very tired, and he came 20 minutes early just so he could rest in the car for a while. He set the seat backward so he could lay down. 20 minutes went by in a flash. You knock on the passenger window, and his finger travels to the unlock button without even glancing to see who it is. It's not a smart idea, but he recognizes those knocks.

“Steve, I told you I could just drive myself.” You sigh, getting into the car and watching how his chest peacefully rises. “No.. you're tired. Im fine.” He groans and stretches. “I just got here a little early, and I left my phone at the house. So.. there wasn't anything else to do.” He removes his glasses to rub his eyes. “Just, um, give me a few minutes to wake up.” He puts his glasses back on and stares at the car ceiling.

“I know what'll wake you up.” You say mischievously with a small smile. “What?” He asks calmly but shudders and gasps as soon as he feels your finger unbuttoning his pj pants. “Babe!” His gaze quickly fixated on your eyes with a nervous look in his. “R-right now? We're outside!” His tongue darts out to moisturize his lips. “We're the only ones here, just relax.” Stephen groans in complaint but makes no move to stop you. “Come on. That alone woke me up. Let's just go, yeah?” He's really nervous about being caught. Stephen attempts to sit up from the seat to readjust it to normal, but you press his chest down for him to lay again.

“Honey, please? Please dont do this right now. This is.. embarrassing.” Stephens cheek flush pink, and his eyes dart around the parking lot. Yes, there was no one around, but what if the other two people you were working with come out any second?!

He kept worrying until your soft hand pulled his length out of the hole of the pj's. Stephen watches, biting down on his lip. He was quiet now. No more complaints. “Stevie, you're hard.” You say softly. “Mm-well.. yeah..” He looks away. Slowly, you start to stroke him, and his head falls back against the headrest. “Shit. You're a pervert.” He mumbles. “Couldn't just wait until we got home or anything. We would have been there by now.”

“Im sorry, babe. I just couldn't stop thinking about you today.” Stephen exhales through his nose and swallows a chunk of saliva. “Oh God. You know you can't talk to me that way.” He says in a breathless whisper. “No, really.” You move your hand faster. “I was thinking of all the things I wanted to do to you when I saw you. I was so wet in the office today that I couldn't help myself.” He knew what you meant by that, and it made him even hornier. “Can you do that thing you do..” He moans.

Stephen's pants were now pulled down to his thighs. No boxers. He doesn't like to wear them when he wears the pj pants. It's easy access in case he needs to go to the bathroom. The car was filled with his and your moans. The glass was fogged up. He has his hand tangled in your hair. “I dont wanna!” He whines. He's been dragging this blowjob on for at least 10 minutes. He doesn't want to cum yet. He feels like he should last way longer than that since you were thinking of this all day.

But the way you choked on him as you made eye contact and spit dribbling at your chin was making it hard for him to continue holding back. Your tongue wrapping around the sensitive tip. He also liked feeling a little bit of your teeth. It was unusual, but right now, it was amazing. “Nggh..” He whimpers. “I wanna cum on your face. Can I, please?”

You continue sucking—choking, until he moans out that he was about to cum. You release his cock, and he whines at the loss of your warm, gummy throat until you start to stroke him again. Within seconds, he comes undone on your face with a shudder and soft moan. He sits up on an elbow and pants softly while staring down at your face. “Jesus.” He whispers and collects a finger pad full of his cum and jams it into your mouth. Then he inserts another finger, making you bob your head on them. “.. We couldve been home. Comfortable in the bed.”

You roll your eyes and release his fingers. “If we were at home, I would go right to sleep instead.” Stephen sighs and digs for a napkin in the storage compartment. As soon as he found one, he wiped your face with a small smile. “Maybe I can help you stay up a little longer when we get home.” Stephen always likes to return the favor as soon as possible. He never allows you to help him get off without letting him do the same after.

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[kitchenisking]

Things To Do On The Dates You Aren't Having by lielabell - (Rating: Mature, Words: 5,557)

"So are we dating now or what?" Stiles asks the third time he finds himself doing the obligatory postcoital cuddling with a certain sour wolf.

the engagement by bibliosexual - (Rating: G, Words: 1,595)

“Stiles,” Derek growls the next morning, “why did Wanda just call me to congratulate me on my engagement to you?”

“Uh, because we are engaged?” Stiles tries. “We’re having a spring wedding with two flavors of cake, or did you forget? By the way, you still need to buy me a ring.”

Hypothetically Speaking by KaliopeShipsIt - (Rating: Not Rated, Words: 2,916)

“Soooooo, Daddy-O. Hypothetically speaking. Do you think you could potentially see yourself loving a magical werewolf grandbaby rather unexpectedly begotten via the carnal jubilation that is one man shoving his dick up another guy’s ass?”

Textual Promise by Areiton - ( Rating: Explicit, Words: 1,828)

Derek stares at the text for a long time before he goes for a run. Because this? From Stiles? This isn't something they do. 

He still says 'ok'.

My Sea to Your Shore by Aquila_Star - (Rating: Explicit, Words: 66,178)

The setting was idyllic, but when he looked down at the poor animal caught in the trap, struggling for its life and its freedom, he saw only how its desperation mirrored his own, the trap he was caught in just as unforgiving. Unlike the rabbit, Derek's trap was not the result of random bad luck. It was a trap of his own making.

As he headed back to the house, he couldn't help but wonder if there was someone who could wrangle him from his trap, and whether he would survive to see his freedom.

kids say (and do) the darndest things by EvanesDust  - (Rating: Explicit, Words: 7,787)

Have kids, they said. It’ll be fun, they said. ...or the one where Stiles and Derek's kids had no shame.

Nothing's Ever Worth it if it Doesn't Scare You by In_Over_My_Head  - (Rating: Mature, Words: 3,707)

Running had become his default reaction to Scott. Whenever he had a stupid plan or didn’t listen, mostly whenever his moronic actions put the pack in jeopardy…again. Stiles ran now, ran because he knew that if they did what Scott wanted someone would get hurt. They’d just gotten Kira back and now Scott wanted to put her in danger by fighting something without all the information. 

He knew Argent would try and help, to change Scott’s course of action, but it wouldn’t work. Maybe, since Cora was back, Peter might show up too. Sometimes he could get through to Scott. The problem with that was Peter always had an ulterior motive, and Stiles only figured it out half the time. Peter was dangerous, but Scott didn’t seem to get that either. God he missed Derek, missed knowing there was someone that would listen, that would get what he meant and actually try to help.

I know what you did Last Hot Girl Summer by Arver7 - (Rating: Explicit, Words: 6,908)

Stiles thinks he wants a Hot Girl Summer after a break-up. What he gets is definitely a hot girl summer and so much more.

"good boy" by quackquackcey - (Rating: Explicit, Words: 10,807)

Stiles doesn’t think his senior year can get any worse with his best friend turning rabid every full moon, until he finds himself stuck with a massive black wolf overnight that doesn’t even like jerky.

But on the bright side, the hot guy with the half-dying sister he met at the gas station seems to be in town for a bit, so there’s still a chance that his senior year, his supposed best year of high school, isn’t a complete lost cause…right?

That is, if he can manage to juggle the sassy wolf that he takes care of at night and the hot guy that asked him out on a date for some reason.~ 🐺

Finders Keepers by inhystereks - (Rating: G, Words: 3,340)

“Sorry, I know I’m kind of staring, but she didn’t tell me you were so good-looking,” Stiles babbled, wanting to hit himself even as the words left his mouth.

“She,” the guy said, something in his expression shifting. “Laura.”

“No,” Stiles replied with a frown. “Lydia. Who’s Laura?”

“My sister,” the guy said, brows furrowed once more. “Who’s Lydia?”

“My best friend,” Stiles said.

[ivys-garden]

Wild Life Spoilers: Session 2 Alliance Report:

Teams:

The Spanners - (Mumbo, Grian, Skizz) - formerly the Sub One Club, immediately forget their idea of using crawl mode and lament that they can't be sub one anymore. Mumbo then decides they are “The Floaters” due to them becoming obsessed with the levitation ability. Luckily this doesn't stick because I could not handle an alliance that changes name every session. Mumbo and Skizz built their “base” as a series of bridges, leading to Mumbo calling them “The Spanners” since “they span things”.

Speaking of levitation, they died from that. And starvation. This was not Mumbo or Skizzes session, with Mumbo losing two life's and Skizz losing 3, halfing his amount of lives in one session. If Skizz loses one next week he will be yellow. Seems Grian's curse of outlining his alliance has started early.

The Bam-Boozelers - (Scar, Lizzie, Jimmy)

I normally have a lot of faith in all life series teams. I think anyone can make it to the end. I think this so long as it is not abundantly clear that they're doomed. I never say someone is Doomed from the star-

This team is doomed from the start. Immediately they decide that the Wild Card is that he can't heal from hunger, now this is a good first thought and is shared by other teams, though those other teams immediately realised that if that were the Wild Card everyone would die of hunger and started looking for other options.

These 3? They stuck with that idea and started making boats to travel. When they realised that their hunger reduced passively, they panicked until Grian saved them by telling everyone in chat that they could eat anything. Now, armed with this knowledge they just have to find a good and easy to use food source.

They chose stone shovels. An item that cannot be stacked and required way more effort and resources to make than was worth it. And they stuck by this even as others told them about better foods. They only stopped using shovels because of the randomisation.

How is Jimmy the most confident member on his team?

In other news, they're theme park is going well and Lizzie's Parrot is cute. Jimmy also apparently has “Big Mascot Energy”.

Renwood - (Martyn, Ren)

These dogs are just vibing. They each lose a life each, no big deal. A far cry from previous seasons, Ren is just chilling, Not going after anyone unless they go after them first and trying to get Martyn to do the same. And he actually does, not attacking anyone this session at all. He even gives up going after Jimmy for stealing their cows (an action which was by every account deserved.)

The Tuff Guys (Tango, Etho, Bdubs) (not technically together (?))

Ah yes, Team B.E.S.T without Skizz …. Considering Skizz was the only person keeping Team B.E.S.T from imploding, this can only go well!

Yeah this team is not staying together. Technically they're already breaking up, with Bdubs saying they should only look out for themselves and insisting they live in different houses. Bdubs even cements this mentality by fully encouraging Scar to help kill Tango for no reason.

As for the “Tuff” part, Etho has decided that they need to be tougher and take what they want from people. You know, not to be nice or polite.

Luckily we can see how this works in practice, as Gem encourages him to go be tough to the Final Girls, let's see how Etho is an not being nice:

● he greets Scott and Cleo

● makes small talk

● politely asks for copper

● tries to stop Pearl stealing from them since he doesn't know she's on they're team

● takes more of the stuff he was told he could have

● gives them obsidian in return anyway

● and still feels bad about it.

Yeah not only was this the least tough Etho had ever been, the Girls almost certainly didn't notice and probably won't even care when they do. Great job Etho.

The Fast And The Furious (Gem, Joel)

This session, Gem announced her plan to make friends so people don't judge them based on 5 seasons worth of going insane every time they go red. This lasts for 3 minutes before other people arrive, Scar misunderstands instructions, Etho lets the cops out and the Final Girls partake in their favourite pastime of miscommunication and insisting their own teammates are doing something they aren't.

Other attempts to make friends do go better, with Gem arguably being on good terms with everyone except two people. So that's good.

Gem also builds a cute little Bard that I give a session before it's burnt down or has a Creeper hole in it. Joel spends all session building a car. Everyone on the server thinks it's hideous, mainly because it is hideous.

The Final Girls - (Scott, Pearl, Cleo, Impulse, Bigb)

Somehow the most stable team here, even if it is mostly out of spite. Yeah this team will stay together, the core four have never betrayed anyone unless an outside faction is involved. They're safe. Even if they continue the tradition of forgetting all the bad stuff they did and only reimbursing bad stuff their teammates did (what do you mean Pearl doesn't trust people based on what happened in previous seasons? That was you, Cleo!)

Oh Bigb also joined this session. Though I imagine this will be a Heart Foundation situation where he bases alone despite being on the team.

Scott and Cleo spend a lot of time this session fixing the mistakes Pearl and Impulse make by acting how they always do. A house and wall are built and Pearl and Impulse prepare revenge plans on Grian and Martyn. Pearl encourages Impulse not to tell the others, seemingly forgetting that Cleo and Bigb are addicted to revenge and would have no problem with this.

Alliances and Friendships:

Lizzie and Gem

these two agree to team up if their teammates die. Since their teammates are idiots.

Remember, Lizzie is the one who made the stone shovel plan.

Spanners Vs Bammers

The Bam-Boozelers still hate the Spanners, dropping their reputation all the way to zero. Mumbo and Skizz either don't realise this or don't care. Grian was gone almost all session mining so can't really say what his thoughts on the situation are.

The Family - (Joel, Etho, Gem)

Etho is indoctrinated into yet another family, though he seems more willing to be present for this one. When Tuff Guys breaks up like 5 minutes into session 3, we all know where he's going.

Also Scar might also be part of the family though every else seems to just ignore this.

Spanners Vs Tango

The Spanners are really angry at Tango for accidentally killing Skizz. They seem satisfied with manifesting his death through belief, but it seems they haven't let him off the hook yet. We all know Bdubs won't help him

Joel might also be mad at Tango since he ate the wheels of his ugly car.

Mumbo & Jimmy still hate Renwood

Mumbo still doesn't trust Martyn after the enchanter fiasco and Jimmy attempts to get revenge for the cow theft. Ren and Martyn have chosen to ignore this, Mumbo seems to have forgotten he was angry, and Jimmy is satisfied that he got revenge.

Ren buys his friends

Ren bought Gem and Tangos friendship through iron. Will this hold up? No.

Gem has beef with team oblivious

Gem hates Pearl and Impulse this season. They are at the top of her inevitable murder list.

● The Final Girls came round for a visit

● Impulse was accused of stealing

● He said he wouldt stela since he knows what it's like to be stolen from

● Gem took this as him amusing her of stealing

● Scott cut him off before he could explain himself by saying he was purposely antagonising them

● Gem cut both of them off by ranting about how much she doesn't trust them

Stellar miscommunication guys, great job as always. Please never change, the series would be way less funny if you did.

Pearl also made it worse by trying to Poison Gem 30 minutes later. Woopsie.

Neither Pearl nor Impulse notice that Gem hates them and the others refuse to tell them.

[wonderinqrache]

So I was reading some reincarnated villainess stories and got an idea for a fic. It's like Empires s1 but set in an academy. The life series members are also there. And the Hermits.

I'm calling this the reincarnated villain au.

The life series winners (Grian, Scott, Pearl, Martyn, Scar) are part of the student council with Grian as the Student Council President.

Grian is only the Student Council President on account of being the one to think of a way to elect council members without it being a popularity contest (the life series)(idk how it works yet, plz give ideas). He has as much power as the Headmaster.

Grian hates his job and leaves everything for the other members to do. The only thing he actually does is sign whatever papers they tell him to because they need his authority as President to do anything. But he doesn't bother reading what he's signing. This leads to chaos and problems that Watcher 1 and 2, the Headmaster and Vice, have to fix.

Cleo is not an official member of the student council, but hangs out with Scott and Pearl in the student council room so much that she's become an honorary member. Everyone is a lot more scared of her than the actual student council members.

Joel and Lizzie are betrothed. Despite this, Joel ends up getting a harem. Somehow. And Jimmy is part of this. Somehow.

Xornoth isn't a demon, they're just Scott's overprotective twin but kind of like Loki (marvel). Sausage is his best friend and Joey is his betrothed.

Xornoth wants Jimmy and Tango dead. Why? Because Jimmy and Scott were betrothed since they were children, but Jimmy falls in love with Tango and accidentally humiliates Scott by calling off the engagement in front of all the students and their parents at a House Blossom Ball.

But now that Scott is no longer betrothed, other people are trying to win his hand in marriage.

Meanwhile, Jimmy is trying to make amends (while Xornoth chases him around with a Very Big Sword) because he never meant any harm but his stunt has caused Very Big Problems (Bigger than the sword Xornoth is chasing him with).

This entire thing is an excuse for Scott rarepairs.

[doodlelesbians]

My self indulgent Flower Husbands headcanon is that Scott's weird epilogue is actually the parts of them that love each other ripped out by the watchers and put in storage. The tragedy of Flower Husbands to me is never that the love wasn't there but that it wasn't made for a death game.

Flower Husbands works pretty well, Jimmy likes being doted on. He likes when someone is afraid for him, helps him build his house, is a little possessive over him. He even likes the bullying, he preens under the attention. Scott likes that Jimmy needs help because he likes feeling in control, of being able to do things for others. He likes that he can needle and show the uglier crueler parts of himself but still be loved because Jimmy doesn't mind. He's a romantic, he likes the idea of a happy domestic ending. Their relationship just doesn't work in the confines of a death game. Jimmy plays rough, he puts himself in unnecessary danger, he wants to get involved in the main skirmishes, he tries to negotiate as equals without the technical skill or resources to back it up. Scott is afraid. He's so aware of the danger and so focused on his own ideas of what the best path forward is. He stifles Jimmy, trying to force him to be comfortable in their little corner. Jimmy chafes even further against this attempt at controlling him, born from Scott's need to have some power over something in a situation they're all pawns in. And they end up hurting each other so much, both by living and by dying, and then they're dead. I think their love is tucked away in that little sliver, a version of the world built exactly in a way Scott can control and Jimmy can do what he wants without the sword of damocles hanging over him. And then in the real world, in the future games, they just have this pit inside them where their love used to be and no matter what they can't feel it anymore. They're aware it once existed. They know it once meant a lot but all they can actually still feel is the hurt.

Jimmy moves on. He finds other things to care about. His emotions burn hot and fast like his lifespan and he's adept at moving on from alliances season after season.

Scott keeps trying to find it. He offers flowers and says I love you and chases Jimmy down because he refuses to obey the game's rules. He never liked the lack of control and choice, didn't kill as the boogeyman, left his soulmate behind. And now, he refuses to let go and accept that the love is gone.

[blushingsastiel]

One more step. Theo can take one more step. Sure, the pain in his arm is making his head buzz, but what's a few more steps? Just a few more towards his truck. He can even see it from where he is.

It's not that far away.

So why does he feel like it's getting further and further away from him?

(Oh, you know, just the delirium.)

His arm hurts, his head hurts, his face hurts. Theo's whole body feels sore and untouchable. If he could, he wouldn't even let his clothes touch his skin right now, but he doesn't think he can shift right now (not in this headspace since he prefers to be more level headed).

"Theo?"

The chimera snaps his head up from where he was staring at the ground, head feeling so heavy that he didn't lift it.

What in the actual hell was Scott doing here?

Scott was standing in front of Theo's truck in clothes that looked like maybe his pajamas. Like maybe he had just woken up and came straight here. The chimera didn't see his bike anywhere, so the alpha must have walked all the way here (more like ran...).

"Woah, Theo, you're bleeding," Scott says, stepping forward and grabbing both of Theo's forearms.

"Mm-hmm," was all Theo could get past his lips in the state he was in.

The warmth of Scott's fingers on his skin and just knowing his alpha was there soothed Theo. To the point that his legs turned to mush and he slumped forward onto Scott.

"Woah, woah, woah," the alpha panicks, quickly wrapping his arms more securely around the chimera.

It's terrifyingly easy for Scott to keep up Theo's weight, no sign of straining just yet in his posture.

Because they're so close to Theo's truck, it doesn't take long for Scott to gently manhandle Theo into the passenger seat.

"Pocket..." Theo rasps.

It kinda hurts to even talk (he was screaming so much in that basement), but Scott seems to get the message that the truck keys are in his pocket. The alpha reaches into his jean pocket and carefully extracts the object.

Once they're in his palm, Scott grabs the seat belt and crosses it over Theo's body before clicking it into place. His hand lingers on the seat belt for a moment too much.

Theo's eyes are almost closed, so he can only see a sliver of his surroundings. He doesn't really see Scott's face, only his hands. But Scott's hands are hovering over his, as if he's unsure if he can touch him or check over him.

Or maybe take his pain.

In the time that Theo has been somewhat part of the McCall pack (a few members deem Theo as part of it, like the puppy pack, while others see him as more of an ally. Theo isn't sure which group Scott resides, but it doesn't stop the chimera from referring to Scott as his alpha — only in his mind, though, never out loud), he rarely lets anyone touch him. Liam tends to touch him the most, but it's because they've grown rather close in the past few years.

They're each other's anchors at the end of the day, and with Theo living at the Dunbar-Geyer's house (even when Liam is at college), it feels more and more that they're like family.

Besides Liam, it's so very rare for anyone to touch him.

A huge reason is because Theo isn't used to someone wanting to touch him without hurting him. But another reason is Theo doesn't believe anyone from the McCall pack owes him anything. They don't owe him a touch to take away his pain. They don't owe him a friendly touch, signaling that they care about him. Not after what he did.

Even though Scott must know that Theo is iffy about touch, he grabs his wrist. He feels the pain leak out of him slowly. His mind looses some of the buzzing.

Theo can't help but sigh in relief.

After Scott took some more pain away, he lets go and hurriedly closes the passenger door before sliding into the driver's side after going around.

"I'm going to take you to my house, okay? I know you live with Liam, but I want to make sure you're okay first," the alpha announced as he started driving Theo's truck.

(This is quite the feat for someone else to drive Theo's car. He honestly hates driving, but it's his truck. It's where he used to live and sleep in and try to feel some sort of comfort in. His truck is something irrevocably his own. Letting Scott drive doesn't raise any alarm bells. If anything, Theo sinks into his seat knowing he can trust the alpha to get them somewhere safe.)

All Theo does is hum before closing his eyes.

Gentle hands guided Theo to the living room couch and pushed him down to sit on the comfortable cushions. A lot of Theo felt tired and ready to lay down, but in the back of his mind, he also felt safe. It's similar to how he feels at Liam's house. Knowing there was someone in close vicinity that would protect him and care for him. Not because they had to, but because they actually wanted to.

Scott's house makes him feel the same way.

Theo opened his eyes to see Scott kneeled down in front of him. His eyes look worried, they're darting around his face and the rest of his body; his gaze hardens when he spots the blood-soaked spots of his shirt and jeans.

But, it takes a few minutes for Scott to see the marks around his neck. The chimera had his head so lowered that his neck wasn't really visible, but when Scott delicately lifts his chin with his fingers, he gasps.

Scott doesn't dare try to touch his neck, but his eyes roam all around.

"How did you get away?"

He has to swallow before he answers his alpha. Theo's voice is shaky as he speaks, "They didn't tie the rope correctly. The more I struggled, the looser it got."

The chimera feels weak beneath his alpha's gaze. It's not frequently where Theo gets hurt this badly by hunters, so his pride is in definite need of soothing. Theo tries to be an ally of the McCall pack where Scott can believe that Theo can handle anything. That he is someone to rely on. It's something Theo tries to project because if he can't have Scott the way he wants, he at least wants to be seen as useful.

It's quiet as Theo watches Scott lower his head and breathe in deeply. Anger and guilt swirl around the room with so much pressure that Theo wants to whine, try to get Scott's attention away from whatever thoughts are clouding his brain and causing such strong feelings (Theo doesn't put two and two together to understand that Scott is angry because someone hurt him).

"How did you find me?"

It's something that's been on his mind this whole time. When he first saw Scott, he couldn't believe it. That Scott was right in front of his eyes when he needed him most.

"Instinct, I think. I just felt that I had to be there," Scott answers cryptically. "I'm glad I was. If I wasn't there—"

The alpha doesn't finish his sentence before he cuts himself off. His jaw is clenched tightly, so tightly Theo can see it.

It makes the chimera want to smooth it all way with his fingertips.

Scott physically shakes himself before he relaxes, letting his soft gaze focus once more on Theo. He takes a few more breaths before speaking. "Can I wipe your face? Before you take a shower?"

The chimera bites his lip and stays quiet for a moment. Having Scott's absolute and complete attention on him while he's cleaning his face makes him nervous. It makes him flustered. Scott isn't even touching him, and Theo feels as if he's sweating (maybe that's not just from Scott... and maybe it has to do with how exhausted Theo is but alright...).

His pulse may be fluttering; he can't quite tell because he's just too bone tired to try to keep it under control. Loosing control is something he hates to do, but he'll let it go just for now. Just until he's slightly better when it doesn't feel as if he could sink to the ground.

He's been quiet for too long.

"Sure," Theo manages to croak out. His neck hurts, hurts, hurts.

"Okay," Scott breathes out before quickly getting a washcloth. It's a pretty fuzzy cloth when Scott presses it against his cheek. The material is also damp with warm water, and Theo cannot help but close his eyes again.

Theo feels as if he can trust Scott enough to close his eyes even when sometimes he doesn't sleep for a few days besides a couple hours of sleep because of how paranoid he is.

But with Scott, the chimera knows, absolutely knows, he can relax in his presence.

The alpha moves from his cheek to his chin and then to the other side of his face (at this point, Theo is leaning forward, almost falling against Scott's chest).

The motions are almost soothing even though there's tiny cuts across his face from when Theo was running through the woods. He didn't want to risk using his eyes to alert any hunters his locations. The yellow glow would give him away instantly in the dark forest. Low tree branches smacked him in the face as he ran.

He remembers it stinging a lot, but Theo didn't have the luxury to stop. All he could do, the only choice he had, was to keep running despite the pain.

"All done," Scott murmurs, voice low. "Let's get you to my bed. I need to make some calls to Argent and Stilinski, but you need to shower and then sleep."

Before he knows it, Theo spouts out a question, "You'll sleep with me in your bed, right?"

It's too late to take it back... but Theo, deep down in the cracks of his heart and chest, wouldn't want to. This is something he's been craving for, longing for: Scott.

"Um, I mean — I was going to sleep on the floor," Scott stutters his way through his reply.

Theo shakes his head. "Don't. Please. I'll feel... better with you close."

"Okay, yeah, I can do that," the alpha breathed.

All Theo does is nod once before slowly heading towards the stairs to go take that relaxing shower he knows will do loads to help him feel better.

Before he can get far, Scott calls out to him, voice a little rough, "You'll be safe here, Theo. I'll keep you safe."

"I know," Theo instantly replies.

Because Theo does know Scott can and will be able to keep him safe. In all honesty, Theo has been the one constant person that has kept himself safe, mostly out of harms way (not all the time, but you get the point). He's had to do everything in his power to make sure he makes it day after day.

But, Theo has been trying to learn that he can't do it all alone. There will be people, like Scott, who want to help and who can help him make it through the day.

With Scott, it's not solely the physical attributes of him being a True Alpha that make Theo feel secure, but also his presence.

Pretty much, everything about Scott.

It feels nice to have him close, within arms reach.

[sototallynormaliswear]

The Magnus Archives has irreparably altered the way I interact with media so here's Teen Wolf Fear Alignments:

(minor spoilers for TMA and Teen Wolf)

Derek: do I really even need to say The Hunt? let's be so real right now, if you think its something else I'd love to have an indepth discussion about your reasonings and also why you are wrong (/hj).

Scott: The Slaughter is all about fear of senseless violence, which uh. Is kinda Scott's deal. A lot of the episodes of TMA that are about the Slaughter are very animal focused, slaughter houses, random pits of meat, a pig that eats people alive. Fitting for a vet in training

Stiles: that's the Spiral, babey look at him. he's that guy that walked out of the fear dimension completely fine because he got distracted thinking about walking his dog. but the spiral is about losing your sense of reality, your sense of self, literally just. being lost. seems like his deal

Allison: see I want to say The Hunt again but like. that doesn't feel accurate to me?? that scene in season 3 where her mother is screaming at her for being unable to thread a needle while Scott bleeds out on the floor is like a cornerstone of how I see her. she hates feeling out of control, out of the loop, unable to help. she specifically hates how she runs to others when dealing with monsters so I'm going with The Dark, which she would also hate because it sounds so childish

Lydia: Lydia needs to have so very much control over how people see her. I'm saying The Eye, but the spiral would still work. The Eye is about being watched, being known, even and especially without permission. a lot of Lydia's story is about people knowing things about her that she doesn't and keeping it from her, as well as her knowing things that she couldnt possibly know. Number one candidate for accidently becoming The Archivist right here

Jackson: The Stranger fr fr. the whole reason he's a lizard is that he's been having an identity crisis for YEARS. he covers it up by being a dick but he basically defines himself by his lacrosse skills and popular kid status, which is why he hates Scott so much. That scene where he's hallucinating his birth parents and they turn around and they have no face? Veryyyy Stranger

Erica: The Flesh. like man Im sorry if you think it's something else but girl literally chose to have a screw be driven through her skull and be hunted for the rest of her life just to get away from her seizures. and she was right to do it.

Isaac: Canonically struggles with claustrophobia. The Buried. In a more metaphorical sense, The Buried is feeling trapped in a state of being, and the other name that it gets in the series, the Too-Close-I-Cannot-Breathe, reminds me of him. also one of the avatars we see in TMA

Boyd: The Lonely. man would have DIED for friends (he did die for friends ha ha who said that). We dont know anything about his family besides the fact that he blames himself for his sister being missing and presumed dead.

Peter: The Desolation. YEAHHHHHH, not really a surprise there, the man that was trapped in a burning building that killed almost all his family was afraid of fire. give me a prize. but as a step back, the Desolation is about losing everything you love and never recovering and uh. :)))) that's Peter :')))))

tell me who I should pick next!

[ooooo-mcyt]

Desert duo/flower husband dynamic is a train track to me

Grian and Scott see that each rail needs the other to make a working track

Scar and Jimmy see that each rail needs a bit of space between them

Both of these things are right; a train can't run with half a track, and neither can it run if the rails are too close together

It's interesting that between the two relationships, I see a foil rather than a parallel, though

With desert duo, Grian is putting in most of the work to make it work, and their relationship reflects that. Grian's usually in charge and whatever he decides to do is final to him, whether or not Scar goes along with it; Grian has control over the resources because he gathered them, he has control over the information because he's been paying attention, he has control over the plans because he didn't have Scar's help to set everything up, and he doesn't need it to follow through; Scar's resources and information are what he gathered himself, and Grian tends to give him things if he's under the impression that Scar is going to help him; because it's Scar, though, he usually doesn't do what Grian's asked without SOME personal interpretation

With Flower husbands, Jimmy is in charge; Scott always defers to his teammates because it takes two rails to make a track, and it's not going to work out if they're going different directions. He and Jimmy share a lot, because (like Grian) Scott wants to provide for his partner, but unlike with desert duo, if Jimmy asks for something, Scott will give it to him (not because he trusts him with it, but because Scott doesn't think he's any more capable)

So even though Scott and Grian have similar views on their relationship, Grian has more power to make decisions and the reverse is true for Jimmy and Scar

(I haven't watched Third Life in a bit so this has more to do with later seasons, in which Grian wasn't oath-bound to do what Scar says and can/will just do his own thing if he gives up on asking Scar to cooperate)

The general 'power dynamics' (for lack of a better description) in both Flower Husbands and Desert Duo are a super interesting topic, though I also think they're significantly more complicated than just "Jimmy was in charge of Flower Husbands and Grian is in charge of Desert Duo".

Who was "in charge" between Scott and Jimmy was situational.

I think Scott took charge in mundane ways at the beginning a lot. Scott, while he's very flexible and values teamwork, is also a very proactive person, if a decision needs to be made, he'll make it. And while Jimmy is strong willed, he's also often ostensibly pulled into a 'follower' role because he is very willing to hype up his partner's plans when it's not something he's already made up his mind about to the contrary. So early on, when they're just building cute little houses and picking flowers, you get a lot of Scott making mundane decisions and Jimmy going along with them because he had little reason not to, which is also where I think you get the take that Scott was significantly "controlling" over Jimmy. (which isn't to say jimmy never made decisions early on because he did absolutely have his own projects and make suggestions for the team, but there was definitely a lot of scott making a plan- or just doing what he wanted outright if it was a 'minor' enough matter that he didn't need jimmy's help and didn't feel the need to run it by him- and Jimmy rolling with it.

It's big things where you get a switch, because while Scott is proactive to a point and Jimmy as amenable to a point in small matters, Jimmy is still fundamentally ambitious and strong willed and Scott is still fundamentally loyal, which means in major matters, Jimmy pretty much always got his way. Jimmy promises Joel, BigB, and Martyn cows behind Scott's back, they argue about it because Scott feels undermined and blindsided, but Jimmy wins the fight quickly and they give away the cows. Jimmy puts himself in danger in ways Scott explicitly warned him not to do, they argue about it because Scott is deeply upset by his husband risking everything without caring how he feels, but Jimmy does what he wants regardless and Scott drops the issue quickly. Jimmy antagonizes Dogwarts, they argue about it because Scott doesn't want to throw away their stability to go to way, but Jimmy is determined and Scott follows him to war where they both die.

So you get an interesting dynamic where, on the surface it's actually assumed that Scott is "in charge" between him and Jimmy, because Scott is very proactive on a day to day basis and Jimmy doesn't have any issue hyping his partner up and jumping on Scott's idea. But beneath the surface, Scott deeply believes in compromise, and will literally follow Jimmy into the grave before he risks causing a rift in their relationship by refusing to back his partner. Which functionally gives Jimmy a immense power over Scott in most seriously important matters just on account of Jimmy being more willing to fight (or just do whatever he wants) in regards to important things, whether Jimmy intends it or not.

On the other hand, you have Scar and Grian. And these two, I think, are..really complicated.

Grian can be overbearing. Absolutely. And he often does manage their resources and plans. Grian is a worrier, someone who he takes it upon himself to be a caretaker, and who feels an immense need to be on top of things. Because of this Grian is the more likely to take control of situations, which often does result in Grian telling Scar what to do, managing their resources and schedules and jobs and plans. Grian is "the boss" in a lot of ways, he has this stubborn mindset that he knows best and Scar often feels like he's being talked down to, caged, or forced to listen to Grian, because Grian is pushy and overbearing.

However.

I also think it's worth remembering- and I struggle with how to phrase this- labor often is categorically not empowering. And I think we often focus a so much on who is more overtly 'bossy' when looking at potential power dynamics that we miss the way labor (both literal and emotional) plays into the equation entirely. Yes, on the face of things, Grian is often the one "calling the shots", but Grian often feels a distinct lack of control in his relationship with Scar. Grian has all but stated that he often feels like he is forced to parent his partner when he's with Scar. A lot of people attribute this to Grian simply unfairly not trusting Scar and viewing him as a child, but I think what Grian is actually expressing here is that he feels like there is a labor gap in their relationship. Sure, Grian is "in charge" of their resources a lot of times, but that's because Grian is usually the one who has to gather them without much (if any) help. Sure, Grian often "tells Scar what to do" when it comes to mundane tasks, but that's because Grian doesn't feel like Scar will help him unless he makes a big deal out of it. Sure, Grian is often the one who makes the plans and decisions for their group, but that's because Grian believes things won't get done unless he makes them happen.

And the thing is that in a lot of cases he's right! Sure, there are absolutely cases where Grian is overly controlling or distrustful because of his own personality and issues, but frequently, Scar won't help with "chores", frequently Scar won't even listen to Grian's input unless Grian is screaming, and frequently Scar will "misinterpret" Grian's instructions and do what he wants to anyways. Don't get me wrong, I don't think Scar is doing this maliciously. I don't think Scar is trying to hurt Grian or be a "bad partner", I just think they prioritize very different things, and that's not inherently Scar's fault. I'm not criticizing Scar per say, or at least, I'm not saying he's necessarily a bad person or partner. But that doesn't change the fact that often Grian is left feeling like he has a child, not a partner (as he's said explicitly, actually), and it is a genuinely harmful imbalance in labor (both literal and emotional) that leaves Grian feeling tired and resentful a lot of times. (i also think this is part of why grian is extra 'controlling' and 'overbearing' when it comes to scar. i think he has a habit of convincing himself scar is stupider and weaker than scar really is so grian feels important and capable for doing so much. it's a way to to cope with the labor imbalance and make himself feel like it's his own decision instead of just stewing in the sense of unfairness that occasionally slips through in how he talks).

I just find Desert Duo fascinating because there are layers to the power dynamics between them. Grian is "in charge" in a lot of ways and he can be genuinely stubborn, hyper-critical, and inflexible in ways that aren't fair on Scar. But on the other hand, there's this underlying labor imbalance favoring Scar that a lot of Grian's more "bossy" tendencies stem from, and I really don't think labor (in this context) is power, and in fact, it's often a big source of powerlessness and exhaustion for Grian in both Third Life and especially Double Life when they were teamed. So I struggle to actually say Grian has real power over Scar per say, even if they both play into the "Oh Grian's the boss" thing.

Sorry for rambling I'm just fascinated by these relationships.

[ladiestbug]

After the bathroom Lawrence and Scott seek each other out, they're the only people in the world who knew Adam the way they did and it'd be a disservice to his memory for them not to. Maybe Scott cleans up, or Lawrence learns to handle the mess, maybe Lawrence can't stand it still, but doesn't mention Scott's mess anyways. However it happens, they get used to each other, Scott handles fluorescent lights and the near constant onslaught of hospital staff popping in just to have lunch with Larry. Larry stomachs the smell that comes along with Scott's shows, he never has to be invited, he's always just there, camera in hand, smile on his face. The photos he takes aren't particularly good, but Scott appreciates the gesture, the few seconds Adam is there when he catches a glimpse of the lense. Lawrence begins to stink of developer, it's heavy and consumes everyone who comes into contact with it, sometimes Scott curls up against him, the smell envelopes him, fries his nose hairs off and feels like home.

Lawrence continues to work late, and Scott meets him in the parking lot after his shift, always. Scott drives them home, no matter how much Larry swears he wants to work this much he's always too tired after work, in the shower later he'll sit on the side of the tub and let Scott take care of him. He'll use him as a crutch back to their room because his stump just cannot take anymore time in his prosthetic and he'll fall asleep before his pajamas are even on. He'll wake up dressed in them anyways, roll onto or off of Scott and apologize for the trouble he caused the night before, Scott won't let him, he'll kiss Lawrence and when the doctor tells him how gross it is he'll lick the leftover drool off his face before returning for a second kiss. Lawrence would never let Scott apologize for needing him, so why would Scott start letting Lawrence?

Scott is not a cook, when Larry is working he orders pizzas and picks up fast food, as soon as Larry realizes this he is determined to teach Scott. No matter how often Scott complains, everyday Lawrence has off is spent on their feet in the kitchen. Larry isn't the greatest cook either, and their food doesn't always taste good but they have fun, they dance around the kitchen together and try to cook things they surely aren't ready to cook. Scott taste tests every ingredient, reminding Lawrence that he's just doing poison control when he starts making that face. Scott doesn't cook alone, sure he'll burn the house down without Lawrence's supervision, but the more they practice the more often they have leftovers for him to eat. The days Lawrence doesn't work late often end with the duo on their couch, their kitchen a mess (that won't be there when Scott wakes up – Lawrence will wake up early to do dishes), and their bellies full of something quite honestly mediocre, but they'll both eat seconds and it'll be gone when Larry's home tomorrow, Scott will be convinced it's the best thing they've ever cooked just like he is with everything they've ever cooked.

[wheredidhiseyebrowsgo]

Hellooo! Can you please help me find some fics where Derek Bullies Stiles but has a happy ending? I need zhe angstt

For sure.

Mark me by SterekLirryOmega

(1/1 I 3,537 I Teen)

"Mate?" Stiles sounded a bit breathless and when Derek looked up he saw the whiskey coloured eyes big with shock

"It's that ok? You'll be my mate?" And damn he sounded pleading but he didn't care he needed Stiles to say yes to this, to be his forever

Or

The one were Derek is a bully, stiles is oblivious and Jackson still an asshole.

Oh everyone is in High School.

A Serendipitous Occurance by DominikaDecember

(11/11 I 29,529 I Mature)

Derek is living at home with his two annoying siblings, his mother who is killing herself at work and he's stuck in a crappy job with friends who are just as lost as him. Nothing really changes. Especially not when Derek realizes that he has a crush on his little brother's best friend

You Don't Always Get What You Want by deadly_nightshade, Nerdy_fangirl_57

(7/? I 63,150 I Mature)

Stiles doesn't understand what he could have done to deserve this. Not only has the entire student body been out to get him since he first stepped foot into Beacon Hills High, but now he has to endure the constant bullying without his best friend Scott by his side. All in all school is survivable, even with all the harassment. That is until he finds out that Derek Hale, basketball superstar and Stiles' most persistent bully, is apparently his soulmate. Fan-fucking-tastic.

Derek can't believe this. It has to be a joke, it has to, because there is no way in hell that a freak like Stilinski could ever be his soulmate. He despises him more than anyone in the universe. So what if Derek thinks he has a cute nose, no one needs to know. Besides it doesn't matter anyway, he still hates Stilinski with every fiber of his being, his cute nose doesn't change a thing.

He's My Best Friend; Also My Tormentor by TheRoaringWolf

(31/? I 88,526 I Explicit)

Stiles and Derek were best friends. Growing up next door neighbours to each other they did everything together. They watched their first R rated movie together, drank their first stolen beer together, they were always at each others side. Then out of blue Derek turned on Stiles. He shut him out of his life and began to torment him; shoved him against the lockers in the hall, spread humiliating lies about him to the school, Derek made it his mission to make Stiles' life a living Hell.

Why? Stiles would ask himself that question everyday for the last three years. He had done nothing to cause this. He had loved Derek when all of a sudden he was pushed out of his life.

One night, years later, Stiles is sitting by his bedroom window watching Derek's silent house, remembering the days of their friendship, when one mistake will cause everything in Stiles' life to be turned upside down and can only watch helplessly as everything falls apart.

Blue Monday by ExpectNothingGainEverything

(18/? I 511,316 I Explicit)

Stiles would have never guessed that the star player of the lacrosse team and presumably the hottest guy in school who everyone wanted a piece of and one of his most hated bullies would turn out to be his soulmate.

Derek would never have dreamed that fate would be so cruel to pair him up with a freak like Stilinski.

[goatcheesecak3]

Adam's diary

Adolescent Adam stanheight x adolescent Scott tibbs (platonic)

Fic type: diary entry, angst

Warnings: domestic abuse, underage drinking

Summary: a diary entry written by adolescent Adam Stanheight, detailing the weekend he spent with his best friend, Scott Tibbs

A/n: absolutely no one asked for this but it came to me like a prophetic vision, and I live for rustynail angst

Scott just left. He stays here sometimes when his mom's boyfriend gets mad, and I stay with him when my dad drinks. Scott says I'm lucky to have a real dad, but I disagree. At least Scott only gets hit by some chump who's banging his mom,  I think it's way worse when the beating comes from someone who's meant to love you. But that's whatever, because someday me and Scott are gonna be famous!! He's gonna be in a band, and I'm gonna do all their artwork and be their personal photographer. We'll be rich and we'll never speak to our families again.

Well, maybe I'll speak to mom. She's nice to me for the most part, she even hid enough money from dad to buy me this awesome camera for Christmas last year. I'm not allowed to use it when dad's around though, he can't know mom spent that much money on me. He doesn't have a clue where that money really went, he still thinks mom got robbed by one of the baseheads in our neighbourhood LOL!

I'd like to get rich enough to buy mom a house and take her away from dad, but even if I could afford it someday I don't think she'd go. She's scared of him, but she says she loves him and that she won't leave. It sucks because part of me wants to protect her, but the other part of me is really pissed that she doesn't protect me. I've gotten into fights with that asshole plenty of times, just to make sure he doesn't hurt her, but she's happy to sit back and watch him kick my ass.

Anyways, back to me and Scott. Scott stole some spray paint from his older brother, so this weekend we went and painted a mural on the old bridge downtown. You're not really allowed to get onto the bridge since it isn't used anymore, but me and Scott aren't scared of a little climbing LOL!!

I painted this cool design of a pole with skulls stuck to it, Scott says he wants to use it as an album cover for his band someday, which I think is pretty cool. After that we went to the corner store and brought some 40s to drink. The guy at the store is so old he thinks we're 21! Scott says one day we should try and walk out without paying, but I don't want to push our luck, plus, the guy seems nice, even if he isn't really all there.

There's a big football game on next weekend, so I'll probably stay at Scott's House, because dad will probably be drinking. We're gonna go back to the mural and add some finishing touches, and I'll bring my camera to get some cool shots of us in front of our masterpiece.

Life is better since I've found ways to avoid my dad. Anyways, that's all for now. I'm going to bed.

[eepwtf]

Stiles who gets paranoid and thinks the world is falling apart when werecat! user and Scott (or any wolf) suddenly gets along and actually work together without arguing over anything. Is the sky falling? Is everybody alive? Does he have to do wellness checks? Something bad is on the horizon, has to be.

User who tries to dip out when things get scary because "This is way above my pay grade. I was only promised chicken tenders and fries and now I actually might die before i get to eat any of it!"

[TW: Death, Blood, Grief]

User who sacrifices theirself to protect the pack and Stiles is devastated as he holds them in his arms, frantically trying to stop the bleeding. He can hear them choke on their own fluids as he tries to reassure them, his voice shaky as he yells for Scott to do something - for someone to do anything. Stiles who can feel the dread build in his stomach when User grabs his hand weakly when he cups their face. He pleas, mumbling how he can fix this, how everything's gonna be alright, denial evident in his voice as their eyes droop and become still.

[Im... So sorry.]

Stiles who can barely function after the incident. He can't even bring himself to eat or even look at their favorite foods.

Stiles who's afraid to go to sleep, knowing if he close his eyes for too long his mind will torment him with nightmares of that day.

Stiles whose heart falls everytime he comes home, knowing User won't be there to greet him in their cat form.

And Stiles who thinks he might need to be admitted to eichen house when he sees User on his bed eating snacks a week later. He considers throwing himself out the nearest window when they greet him like nothing happened and even had the audacity to offer him a fry.

Stiles who's just so done with everything, but is still relieved that User is back. User who feels bad for forgetting to tell him they had nine lives, and made him go a week grieving their death.

Stiles who can't stop embracing them, because even if they did 'come back', their death was real and he doesn't want to lose them like that ever again.

Stiles who still finds it hard to sleep when they're not by his side. He checks their pulse and breaths every now and then when they're asleep, just to remind himself that they're alive. (Stiles who also comforts user from their own nightmares about dying). Stiles who's so much more protective, especially with user being weak after coming back. Stiles who over-caters to their every need partially to cope with his guilt over their death- user who's a bit overwhelmed and concerned by all the attention and stuff he gives them.

User who reminds him that what happened wasn't his fault, that he doesn't need smother them with gifts and food or "make the most of the time they still have together". That they miss the Stiles who scolded them and complained when they stole his food.

Stiles who tries to go back to normal, and does eventually, but enters a new crisis when he realizes how deeply he cares about user, how throughout everything, they were a constant in his life no matter how sticky things got. Stiles who finds himself admiring them fondly whenever they talked, ate, slept, or breathed. Stiles who feels completely doomed when he realizes he might like User more than he thought.

I feel like a lot of trauma and grief was quickly glossed over in teen wolf. Why did this take a dark turn 😭 I'm so sorry. I need to stop thinking about this man. my stiles I'm sorry you can never know peace.

- 🫐

[do0zy-artz]

Cleo looks out her window. She doesn't know why she does so, it's just another action she does without thinking. And the zombie wishes they hadn't done so, really. Out there, sitting on his ugly little bastion, is her soulmate. Martyn himself, in all his annoying glory. And he looks.....sad about something. For some reason.

And for some other reason, Cleo finds herself feeling the smallest bit of sympathy for him. Maybe it's because, if they focus really hard, Cleo can feel the smallest amount of pain that is not hers. His pain, the emtional kind. Not that the zombie will ever admit to that.

Cleo sighs, and stops what she's doing. Which had been making bread. She'd been making bread with some wheat that they'd stolen from the Ranch. Cleo sighs and opens her door, with hands that still have the slightest bit of dough on them, and walks out towards the bastion. They hope they don't regret this, and that Martyn is too sad to try and bite her head off today.

"Hey." Cleo says, once she has walked across the bridge between her and Scott’s houses. Because that's the side Martyn was on, and the cliff was closer to his house on that side. Startled, Martyn looks up, and Cleo thinks that small prick of pain in their shared heart gets worse.

"Hi." Martyn says, looking at them rather suspiciously. "Did you come to make fun of my house again?" His voice is thick with distaste, his mind no doubt full of their friends prior jabs at his house. Cleo just rolls their eyes.

"No. I came to sit." She says, and looks at the gap between the cliff and the bastions edge. Martyn stands, seeming to hold back a sigh.

"I guess you can sit with me." He says, walking closer to her. "Over here. You can get up here from this part of the cliff." Martyn motions to where he is now standing, and offers out a hand. Cleo takes it with a nod, and tries not to think of the feeling of his hand in hers. Once she is on the bastion, Martyn let's go of her, and sits back on his previous spot with a huff.

"Why're you here?" He asks, eyeing the zombie when she sits down next to him. Two pairs of legs hang dangerously off the bastions edge, like the fools they were. If one of them slips, that's two lives lost. So Marytn better not slip again.

Cleo just shrugs. "You looked sad. Felt sad too, if I focused enough." They state it simply, not being good with all the emotional stiff. It's not their forte, but Cleo will try. Just this once. For the two of them.

Martyn sighs, and places his hand on his cheek. "You're not gonna leave until I talk about it, are you?" He grumbles, gaze fixed on the water below. The water still with a warden in it. Right. Cleo had forgotten about that thing. She apologizes to Reggie in her head for forgetting about him, depsite the spectacle it had casued a few days prior. And the constant clicking sounds it made, which were horribly annoying once you tuned into them.

"Nope. And you know I'm willing to sit here for a while." The zombie responds, briefly hoping the warden can't hear the from all the way up here. Getting sonic blasted wouldn't be very fun.

Martyn says nothing for a few minutes, his eyes still fixed on the water. They look troubled too. Cleo says nothing, and idly kicks her legs off the edge of the bastion, waiting for him to speak first.

"I....want another soulmate." Martyn admits after a moment, doing so hesitantly. He sounds like he feels bad about it. "Not a chosen one, a.....real one ya know? Not that chosen soulmates aren't-"

Cleo cuts him off with a small laugh at his rambling. "I know what you mean. I get it." He turns to look at her, and there is lingering curiosity in those yellow eyes. Both their eyes are yellow, because of him. The zombie frowns, and tries not to think about that.

"I wish I bad someone else too. Bdubs, maybe." She admits, wistfully thinking of a time they cannot have back. Of a castle with a stupid bubble elevator and a mote around it.

Martyn hums in agreement, and they know he's thinking of the same time as she is. They also know what he's going to say before he even says it. "I wish I was bound to Ren." Martyn murmurs, looking back at the water for a second. There's a blush already spreading across his face, because he is still so gone for that man. Even after all this time.

Cleo has to hold back a laugh. "I knew you were gonna say that." She teases, going to nudge his side playfully. Marytn makes another huff, and blushes more.

"You're not that bad of a soulmate, though. But I still want Ren." He continues, looking back at her. Cleo finds she agrees with him, on the first part that is. Martyn isn't that bad of a soulmate, they just had some rough patches. Maybe....if those hadn't happened....they could've....

Nevermind all that. This was about Ren and Martyn, not her and whatever feeling they had for the blonde next to her.

"Yeah." Cleo agrees, holding back a smile. "Maybe if those cheating rumors are true, Ren will come to his senses."

"And what?" Martyn snorts, the pain in their shared heart feeling a little lighter. Like it was starting to mend. "Choose me over BigB?"

"Maybe~" Cleo hums, and the both of them burst into a small fit of giggles. This isn't like either of them, to be so open and emotional with each other. But it's nice, the zombie decides. And she wouldn't mind doing it again, as long as Marytn remains civil about it.

He leans on her after a minute, head resting on the zombies shoulder. Cleo says nothing, just lets him, and remembers their height difference. And the fact that she's stupidly tall. Cleo says nothing about the contact (because secretly, the touch feels really nice,) and listens as Martyn starts to complain about the warden below, and how it akways keeps him up at night. It might be Jimmy and Tango's baby, but the man next to her wants Ranchers Revenge dead. For the whole server and not his own convenience, of course.

Cleo listens, and stops fighting a smile. The rest of the day can be theirs. Even if it's not going to be her and Martyn in the end. It's going to be Martyn and Ren, when all this is said and done. It always is. But just for today, it can be Cleo and Marytn. Just for a little bit.

She'll give him back, because she couldn't keep him if she tried. If Cleo tried to keep Martyn, he'd just fight until they freed him. Maybe that was why she seemed to care so much, because he fought and fought like a warrior if he truly loved someone. A rather endearing trait.

Its why Ren loved him, that was for certain. Maybe not why Cleo cared for him, but it's why Ren did. And that was enough. That was enough for her to be comfortable letting him go back home.

[no-name-for-me]

I got this prompt idea from a show I watched and I wanted to fix it a bit and make it Sterek, so what if Laura and Scott where dating but no one knew. And Scott sends a letter to Laura telling her its over and that he's going to marry someone else, it could be Allison, signing the letter with just an S.S. The reason he is marrying Allison is because her family is rich. Due to the letter Laura is so heartbroken that she commits suicide. Stiles and Scott are stepbrothers because their parents married of course. Anyway when Peter and Derek, the only other Hales alive, find out about Laura's death they have different reactions. Derek isolates himself, but Peter looks for Revenge. Somehow he is able to discern that either Stiles or Scott are the boyfriend but because Stiles is the only one whos last name starts with an S he thinks its Stiles. Trying to make sure he is right, he asks Scott if he knew if Stiles dated someone, Scott having seen a picture of Peter in Laura's apartment before says that Stiles dated someone named Laura but didn't know more. Peter sets himself out to make Stiles fall in love with him to break his heart, and he achieves it, and they marry. Derek doesn't know about the marriage. Peter takes Stiles to a ranch in a town that is really isolated and starts to ignore and neglect him breaking Stiles heart. Derek goes to live in a small house in the ranch, and one day Stiles and Derek bump into each other, without knowing who the other person is. Derek sees Stiles sad and they start talking, Stiles not having anyone care for him for a while breaks down and tells Derek about his husband, without mentioning his name, and about everything that has been happening and not knowing what he did wrong. They keep talking to eachother, falling in love with eachother but not doing anything about it. Derek tries to find out who Stiles is married to so he can help him, but Stiles refuses because he thinks he is somehow at fault. After some time passes Derek finds out that Peter is Stiles husband and when he confronts Peter about his mistreatmentz, Peter tells him his "reasons". Derek unable to believe Stiles would do something like that leaves searching for the truth and after he finds it he brings Stiles dad, Scott's mom, Scott, and Allison to the ranch under the impression that they are only going to visit Stiles, but in reality he is going to reveal Scott's lies and the truth in Peter's mistreatment. Stiles dad and Scotts mom apolagize to Stiles for not trying harder to see him. Allison tells Scott that she is going to divorce him. Peter breaksdown apolagizing for how he treated Stiles and tells him that he had fallen in love with him, even tough he tried not to and to please forgive him and to give him another chance but Stiles denies him telling him that he had fallen out of love with Peter for a while but had been unable to ask for divorce due to how secluded he was and thinking he was at fault. Stiles confesses his feelings to Derek even though he doesnt think Derek feels the same way about him, but not wanting there to be anything left unsaid. Derek admits to Stiles that he in love with him as well. After a few years pass they get married and live happy for the rest of their years.

[webalothebruja]

Ranking The Final Destination Films

With the newest installment of Final Destination released today, Final Destination Bloodlines, I wanted to go over and rank all of the Final Destination films. This is my favorite horror franchise and though it tends to get pushed to the side when talking about horror movies, I think the first three films deserve more praise in the genre.

Part of the reason why I think it doesn't get as much talk in the horror genre is due to its identityless killer. Slashers are the horror’s identifier and without them, I believe it's harder to push for those films without them. Films like The Conjuring (2013) get away with this because they have a consistent set of main characters: Ed and Lorraine Warren. Whereas Final Destination, we have William Bludworth played by Tony Todd as a recurring character, yet he is never our main character. In fact, he feels like an easter egg at times. Is he god? Is he death? We’re not sure. Promotional materials for Final Destination Bloodlines hint that we may find out this character's origins finally-which I am ecstatic about.

My ranking of the Final Destination films is going to be based off of their impact on me, their characters, and their deaths.

Starting with my favorite Final Destination film, Final Destination 3 (2006). This cast of characters is by far my favorite. I love the way they played with different stereotypes in this film and it feels very right for its time. It sort of gives me the same vibes as The Faculty (1998) in the way that all of these stereotypical high school characters have to work together to defeat the one thing that is killing them.

Mary Elizabeth Winstead has many great performances, but this one by far blows me away compared to any of the other final girls in this series. She is one I can relate to the most. And I’m not kidding. This movie freaked me out so bad, I didn't go on a rollercoaster til I was 10 and I felt the same way she did getting on that ride at Six Flags. I grew up watching Winstead in films like Sky High (2005) and Scott Pilgrim vs. The World (2010) so when I saw this movie for the first time, I think seeing her face sort of shocked me as a child. Ryan Merriman was a face I was also familiar with. Watching him in films like Luck of the Irish (2001) and Smart House (1999).

I was familiar with them and seeing them in these kinds of scenarios scared my poor kid brain.

I can't lie, the goth couple in this movie awoke the bisexuality in me as well. I wasn't sure if I wanted to be them or be with them as a kid.

Like I mentioned before, this movie had such a deep impact on me that it made me deathly afraid of rollercoasters growing up. Even now, I still have a little voice in my head that has to remind me that it is only a movie. Besides the nail gun scene in this film, most of the deaths are hit and miss for viewers. I think one that gets brought up a lot is the tanning bed scene. As someone who has been to many tanning salons, I have never been to a salon where there are tanning beds right next to each other, but many people I've talked to about this film see this as a completely real scenario.

The death that stuck with me the most is Erin’s death. She gets shot to death with a nail gun. Something about the look of this scene felt realer than others. Come to find out, this was done with no CGI. A lifesize mold of the actress was made and shot at with a nail gun which feels wrong, but made for a great effect! Ah, the magic of filmmaking. If you love this film as much as I do, this is a great behind the scenes video about it:

Runner up for me is Final Destination 2 (2003). Some might argue that the highway scene alone, should make me want to give it the #1 spot, but for me, some of the deaths stop it from being ranked that high. I will admit, the highway scene did make me afraid to drive, but it didn't make me want to not drive forever. Final Destination 3 made me never want to get on a roller coaster ever again.

Some of the lackluster deaths I am speaking of are the elevator death and the glass falling death. Both being scenarios that could definitely happen, but would you actually die from that? I mean the poor kid who gets smashed with the glass almost died from a fake fish falling in his mouth, that shockingly was cutting off his oxygen. It's just silly to me.

A death that does haunt me is the airbag suspension death. The side profile that is shown after Kat gets a pole shanked into her, takes my breath away. Plus the sound of the impact itself makes my gut sink.

Character wise, the two main characters Kimberly and Thomas carry the story for me more than enough for me to hope they make it in the end. None of the characters stand out more than Clear, though. I love the fact that they brought her back and the blonde hair suits her so much better than the brown. Something I will note about Kimberly is that out of all of the final girls in the series she didn't freak out as much as some of the other characters. Considering her premonition is one of the more chaotic ones, it's kind of crazy how much everyone was trying to downplay the accident.

In third place we have Final Destination (2000). I think this was a great set up for the franchise, but compared to the other ones on this list, it didn't phase me as much as some of the other installments.

1. I didnt go on a plane til I was 20 so when I initially saw this, I figured this could never happen to me because the likelihood of me getting on a plane was slim to none.

2. I watched the Final Destination films out of order when I first watched them. I watched 2, 4, 3, 1, and then 5 when it was released.

So I had already been traumatized by some of the most gruesome sequences already. Watching the 1st one feels like a PG 13 film when you watch them in this order.

As for the characters, I do feel like the characters were written pretty basic. Other than Alex and Clear’s storyline, everyone else was written on the basis that they were a supporting character with the same motive. No one wants to believe Alex. I always forget Seann William Scott is in this movie so he comes up on screen and I'm always like oh Stiffler is here.

In regards to the deaths, the one that comes to mind always is Tod’s death in the bathtub. Most of it has to do with the sound effects. The wrapping of the line on his throat is pretty gruesome and watching his eyes go bloodshot makes the effect even more vigorous.

Now Final Destination 5 (2011). I always argue that this movie starts great and then they just sort of run out of ideas once they get to the end. Death by escalator pisses me off the most. This movie had a great foundation. I don’t think anything could have been worse than Final Destination 4. But this is this movie’s biggest problem.

If you watch the films in order, this movie feels one thousand times better than The Final Destination, but compared to the other installments it is still not one of the best in my opinion.

Though, I don't think their main premonition sequence is the strongest, it's not terrible by any means. I think they play with the idea of who could make it to the end which I appreciate. I honestly don't know how the main character Sam could've even remembered the death sequence because I feel like this premonition was very long compared to the others in the franchise.

Their characters are fine. None of them personality wise stand out to me. We have the Tom Cruz lookalike actor which I thought was sort of distracting. The actress who plays Olivia (the eye surgery girl), gives me Madison Beer vibes which I haven't seen anyone say anything about. David Koechner is also in this film which I think is funny.

This movie could honestly pass off as a drama rather than a thriller. Final Destination 5 is not as fast paced. The deaths don't feel like the main focus. They just happen to be part of the movie.

The death that stood out to me in this one was the gymnastics scene and I will say that's probably one of the only moments in this movie where my heart was racing. I think it was a great idea that they started off the film with that because fans who enjoyed the franchise were familiar with this style, but by the end of the film I cant help but feel like these are recycled deaths that weren't used in the other films.

I can appreciate their tie-in to the first film. I think that was the best way to end this franchise overall. Unfortunately this film’s rewatchability for me isn't very high. I’ll watch it if i’m showing it to someone or having a marathon of the films but otherwise I have no reason to watch this one on its own.

The Final Destination (2009) aka Final Destination 4 is my least favorite. If you read my Movie’s I Watched in April blog, you may already know this. My biggest problem with this film is the look and feel of it. It feels like a fan film. From the direction to the acting. Tony Todd doesn't appear in this one-thank god. From the 3D aspects to the deaths themselves, I don't know which is worse. This movie comes off as very annoying to watch because they shot this movie in 3D. The entirety of the premonition, though a fun idea, has as bad effects as Disaster Movie (2008).

For a movie that's supposed to play on our worst nightmares, I don't know whose idea it was to drown a girl in her car? Or gets a guy's guts ripped out by a water drain.

The car drowning scene specifically makes me laugh considering in the film A Cinderella Story (2004), the sisters go through the car wash just fine and come out with silly hairdos. So it's like were you really going to die in the car wash? The filmmakers had Janet acting like the car brush was made of knives.

I have high hopes for Final Destination Bloodlines but there is a part of me fearing that we may get another Final Destination 4. In an era of remakes-which I hate- I’m going to walk into this film with an open heart. Hopefully it won't tear my expectations to pieces. There's not a lot to expect in this sort of franchise.

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