#Holy shit why is my URL so long

[leahnardo-da-veggie]

URL Song Tag!

Thanks for the tag @theink-stainedfolk! Ik it's a pretty old tag but holy shit I wanna ramble about music rnn

Rules: go to your playlist and find a song for each letter of your URL, then tag some friends to do the same!

L - Loveit? by LOLUET (cannibalism song!!!)

E - Envy Baby by Kanaria (such a vibe)

A - Alkatraz by Demondice (the MV is hilarious)

H - Hanipaganda by Akatsuki Records (energetic af!!)

N - Nightmare Parade by FAKE TYPE (makes me jump up and down like a rabid rabbit)

A - Always With Me by Yumi Kimura (indescribable feels)

R - Rollin' Girl by wowaka (warning: will make you cry)

D - DESTROY!! by Ferry (very Katherine-core)

O - Oh my god- (G)I-DLE (so sleek and regal)

D - Don't Lose Ur Head by SIX (the musical rocks)

A - Anti-joker by Maiki-P (reminds me of Chris)

V - The Vampire by DECO*27 (Hehehe vampires)

E - Exorcism by Creep-P (makes me feel like getting an exorcism)

G - good 4 u by Olivia Rodrigo (I love just dance on this)

G - Gone Fishing by Ghost & Pals (it funny)

I - I feel like a god by DeathByRomy (does indeed make me feel like a god)

E - Echo by Crusher-P (it's a vocaloid classic imo)

Open tag today, because idk who would enjoy doing this <3

[mythalism]

im so sorry to be a mythal lover like my icon and url suggest but i genuinely think her relationship with solas in this game was one of its best writing moments and specifically their confrontation is the highlight of this game for me and i have to talk about it.

it is so fucked up and tragic and raw. it shows us a side of him we have never seen before. she is so brutal but also somehow kind. she is probably the most complex and nuanced character in the entire dragon age universe. what she did to him was inexcusable and she takes full accountability for it but she also does not apologize. its SO INTERESTING!!! ITS SO INTERESTING!!!!

WHEN HAVE WE EVER SEEN HIM LOOK LIKE THIS>??? HIS FACE??? HIS BODY LANGUAGE????? HE LOOKS TERRIFIED AND WRETCHED. WE HAVE NEVER SEEN HIM LOOK LIKE THIS EVER.

HE WHISPERS HER NAME, AVERTS HIS GAZE. HE CANT EVEN LOOK HER IN THE EYE. HIS NAME IS PRIDE??? HE IS THE DREAD WOLF AND HE IS THE MANIFESTATION OF PRIDE AND LOOK AT HOW HE LITERALLY CRUMBLES IN HER PRESENCE???? HOLY SHIT. THIS IS SO UNLIKE HIM

i love that she does not apologize. it would have been out of character. she isnt sorry and she never was, but she at least takes accountability for what she did to him and the effect it had. she does not offer meaningless platitudes of sorrow. why would she??? she just plainly states the truth.

I RELEASE YOU FROM MY SERVICE. I RELEASE YOU FROM MY SERVICE. HE STILL CANT LOOK HER IN THE EYE. HE IS SOOOO SUBMISSIVE HERE WHAT THE FUCK. honestly i need to make a comparison between their body language here and his body language with lavellan in trespasser but that'll have to be for another time. but i am so obsessed with this line being what she says of all the things she could have said. again no apologies. just catharsis. and she talks to him like a loyal dog, someone under her command, a subordinate, not a lover. did she always see him that way? where did those lines blur? this would have been a good moment for an "ar sala mala revas" but this line is so brilliant on its own i cant complain.

AND THEN YOU HAVE THIS NEXT. THE WAY THEY ARE THE INVERSE. mythal stands over him and looks down upon him, while lavellan literally GETS ON HER KNEES TO SEE HIS FACE. TO LOOK HIM IN THE EYE. BRO THIS IS SO SICKENING. once again it mimics the way they kneel in trespasser, the way they kneel when he removes her vallaslin. and even though he's not kneeling he is bent over in agony and she is quite literally meeting him where he is at ohhhh myg od

and then when it is finally his time to address her directly he looks her right in the eye, his face is calm and not wretched like before when he looked upon mythal, im literally so sick over this look like how long has it been since they stood face to face like this, 8 years????? i havent even gotten into the way his face is bloodied and bruised like this is so vulnerable im literally dying i dont even remember what my point was with writing this i just needed to scream about it. i think mythal's presence here gives so much context to solavellan's dynamic. seeing how he is with mythal versus with lavellan back to back, how mythal speaks down to him while lavellan literally looks up to him. also something something about how lavellan offers him forgiveness while mythal offers him freedom. maybe i can make these thoughts more coherent in like a week from now but right now im running on 3 hours of sleep and pure dopamine. this scene is so fucking crazy i love it.

[velvetvexations]

I'm censoring this URL because the OP is eighteen. Do not seek the post out and do not harass anyone. Teens are often wrong about things. It's fine. It's radfem bullshit but it's fine.

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Let me be clear: The idea that t4t was invented by trans women for use betwixt themselves, and that "TME" people "gentrified it," is (a) holy fucking shit racist as fuck and (b)

takes a deep breath

WRONG INCORRECT UNTRUE EASILY VERIFIABLY FALSE

The OP is eighteen. That means that we did not do anything. They were not born when It came about on Craigslist and was being used by all trans people from the very start. I don't think they know what Craigslist is and probably more than half the people reblogging it don't either.

TME people fucking gentrified it? Are you fucking kidding me? Are these people tossing that post back and forth just fully playing pretend in fucking Tarabithia, what world do they live in where this combination of syllables makes sense and doesn't cause them to wither up in shame for even having the thought, much less vocalizing it?

Ohhhh but what really gets me is the assertion this was done because being with "TME" people meant there was a high chance you could be "socially (or even physically) murdered."

No.

No, OP. If you were any kind of trans person in pretty much any time and place before the 2010s, and a relationship with a non-trans person went poorly, there was a very high chance you would be dead. There's no "or even" about it. That is what fucking happened. Your ex didn't go crying to your mutual friends telling them about how you hogged the blankets. Your non-trans ex would proceed to ACTUALLY FOR REAL MURDER you, assuming they even waited for the relationship to go sour and didn't just kill you the second you walked through the door like they were always planning to do.

That's how it was when I was growing up, denied transitioning but longing so achingly to be a girl in spite of the horror and misery that seemed to plague us. So I have a problem with the obsession with sOcIaL mUrDeR that keeps getting tossed around these days, because of how degrading it is not only to how bad things still are with death after death after death, but how it disrespects what we came out of. But to directly act like soooocial murrrrrder was the big scary thing trans women feared back then? That's heinous. That's sickening. The social consequences all trans people were deathly afraid of back then was being outed as trans and then being fucking stabbed within twenty-four hours.

Even in spite of the election and what's coming next, how good we have it would be nigh-incomprehensible to the first trans men and women and non-binary people to be brave enough to advertise themselves as t4t to strangers. Like, I need everyone to understand that. They could not have wrapped their fucking heads around it. It'd be like explaining a circuit board to a Mesopotamian. One could show them a video of the Blue's Clues episode about queer people and it'd just register to them as migraine inducing static.

We're in such a better place than we were. And this is what people do with it.

Make up bullshit reasons to be angry at their siblings and imply they also didn't get murdered for being trans on a regular basis, or that even just trans women cared about an irritating buzzword, even as cishetpatriarchal fascism is empowered and determined to drag us back to the the horrific dark age that scholars refer to as Literally All of Human History Up Until Now.

Amazing.

Why do I even try. Like, with anything. Why do I get out of bed in the morning. I could have stayed in bed all day listening to rain sounds.

Anyway, that's my thoughts on that.

[lo-sulci]

What are heaven will be mine & coquette dragoon?

oh my goodness, thank you for asking!! the short answer: they are incredibly good visual novels that I highly recommend, especially if you're a fan of mecha, sci-fi, great world building, yuri, and generally just amazing art created by transfems

long answer:

heaven will be mine (aside from being where I got my url) is the second VN made by worst girls games, best known for their first outing, we know the devil (also an absolutely amazing game). hwbm tends to ask a bit more from the reader than its predecessor- while wktd almost exclusively featured three characters and dealt with rather plainly stated themes of alienation, loneliness, and religious trauma, hwbm presents a setting cloaked in metaphor where human will literally shapes the universe and psychic mech pilots read spacetime like a narrative.

the cast is bigger, with the three routes allowing insight into each of the three main girls in addition to members of the factions they belong to, all in service of a beautiful story about queer people connecting with each other and finding/making their place in a world that would want to deny them their happiness (and a lot of other things, but I'm simplifying some here). begging to be replayed over and over, i've had different characters and details stick out every time ive played through the game, while also gaining a deeper understanding of and appreciation for hwbm's characters and setting. I've loved hwbm and wktd for years and expect I will for years and years to come, which, incidentally, is why I got a pair of tattoos based on these games LMAO. in other words: they're fucking fantastic and hit like few other things out there, imo

coquette dragoon is one of those other things, because holy shit does it excel at hitting incredibly specific and relatable emotional beats that are liable to absolutely tear you apart. created by ivy burgeroise, who (by her own fantastic description) makes art for sad perverts, coquette takes place during a seemingly endless war between the lilac fleet and the duchy of lucia, two spacefaring societies inhabited by animal people who have very differing opinions on magic.

focusing (so far) on xiomara rosales of the lilac and lady honey rose of the duchy, coquette explores painfully human stories from both sides of the war. (to that point, I'd be remiss if I didn't advise you to look out for the content warnings- coquette gets into some very heavy stuff and speaks about it very frankly and honestly, which is to its credit imo but i also understand that that is not something that everyone is in a space to deal with.) more than anything else, I feel, coquette is a work that puts words to feelings that you'd never before been able to describe, and, through the vulnerability of its author in making something so emotionally honest, makes me want to be more openly and happily myself. all of this in a story that examines war, exploitation, and the societal structures that prop them up, among many, many, many other things. I could keep talking in circles gushing about it, because I am so so obsessed with what's been released so far and so indescribably excited to see how it progresses in the future, but to keep myself from going on for too too long i'll cap this off with a tweet about coquette that i frequently think of and is one of the best recommendations I can offer:

OH and also coquette has wibbleburger, which, as we all know, is your favorite

[panzershrike-pretz]

Hey Pretz!! 2, 14, and 25 for the HBO War fandom positivity ask game please 💙

Zim zam, Lou!

2. Who are some of your fav creators/mutuals?

You put me in a situation right here 😭 I hate having to choose because I just love everyone and don't like leaving people out xD BUT, if i do really have to choose i'd go with @next-autopsy and @malarkgirlypop because of their fics! I don't keep up with a lot of reading so I only really know their works, and i absolutely FUCKING LOVE THEM!!!! And @sweetxvanixlla because oh my god. Those moodboards. I get the feelings. Also, @samwinchesterslostshoe because drawings. OH MY GOD THAT IS INSANE. Love my boy Antonio Julian Spiegeon.

I actually just want to tag everyone because I just love them and their stuff, tbh, but decided to go with a top 4 for now. If you are my mutual and is seeing this, I ALSO LOVE YOU AND EVERYTHING YOU DO WANT TO HUG YOU AND KISS YOU ON THE FOREHEAD DON'T FEEL LEFT OUT.

14. Your fave underrated character?

Lou why are you so mean to me. W h y. I'm just here like- dying. Cannot choose. Will be letting you down 9n this one xD it's been too long since I last saw BoB and I can't remember right now who's more underrated, so I don't feel in a good enough position to choose from :'].

25. What colors do your mutuals remind you of?

Ok. Starting up with you, @luckynumber4, definetely dark or navy blue. I think it's because of your blog aesthetic but really, the url also fits and I love it.

@next-autopsy is emerald green. It's the color she uses on her fic and I cannot see Nex without thinking of that color anymore.

@xxluckystrike i think you remind me of gold. Like, golden flower fields; your personality definetely makes me think of that.

@malarkgirlypop is seafoam OR pink (that really strong one almost radioactive.) The seafom is because it simply fits her so fucking well??? Goes amazingly with her hair too. And the pink is because of her personality. She's just so radiant and catches your attentionwithouteven trying. Love it.

@land-sh is definetely wine. Yes its because of the blog. Fight me.

@sweetxvanixlla is this color: 🩵. Its an emoji she always uses and I cannot see this color anymore and not think of her; just amazing.

@georgieluz is lavander. That's it. He makes me think of it and I love that.

@footprintsinthesxnd is moss green. Idk but just gives ne the vibes; I think its simply so pretty and a not very appreciated color (yeah this is a call out. Everyone should appreciate Jess a lot. Love her.)

@coco-bean-1218 is light pink. Mostly because of her old pfp, but also because she seems soft and is so very kind! Light pink fits her a lot.

@whollyjoly is orange, mostly because that flower crown in her pfp always catches my eye (i fucking love that holy shit).

@mads-weasley is also orange. Based in vibes alone. Love u.

@iceman-kazansky is ice blue or white, they remind me of winter (i guess its because of the Gene pfp?? Idk) and I simoky love the feels.

@bucky32557038ww2 is salmon. Its a calm and good lookung color; it brings ne good feelings and I think it definetely fits you!

@holdingforgeneralhugs you. You are a hard one?? But like... your name makes me think of violet. That or any shade of purple, really.

@thewayisset is white. Its simple, i know, and its also heavily inspired on the pfp, but I just feel like white suits you.

@samwinchesterslostshoe is gray-ish red, because of the pfp on the discord group. I think its a pretty color that suits you :].

I am sure i forgot about some people but i really tried here xD I got the most my brain would let me and I think that's fair KEKEKEKEK

[rambheemficrecs]

Title: The Thousandth Time URL: https://archiveofourown.org/works/52387552 Author: hag_lad Rating: E Warnings: None Summary: Ram and Bheem have sex for the literal thousandth time. Post-canon, fluffy smut. Bottom!Bheem, because why not?!

My comments: holy. shit. instant fave. the first line one-shot killed me. ram and bheem have been together for a long while and know each other so, so well, and still they’re insane-feral-horny for each other. ram’s so in love with bheem that even when he’s sleeping next to him he can’t stop thinking about him and dreams about him. and bheem is so in love with ram - i can’t even describe it. the sex is amazingly hot, the romance is so goddamn romantic, holy shit. hag is very very good at writing loving lustful rambheem and she’s done it again. she says in a reply to a comment that there’s nothing hotter than two people who have been together for ages and are still feral for each other and she’s right and she should say it.

[If you read the fic, please comment! Comments don’t have to be essays; a keysmash or string of emojis is better than silence!]

[Please remember to REBLOG this post!]

[abyssalpriest]

Ramblings about figuring out one of Lev's masks around me growing up just under read more bc it's long bc I put pics

leviathan being like "no I was around you before 2021, Ive possessed you before now, I was around a long time" and me like "yeah I mean youve been suggesting that you existed around me but? You were HERE here? Did I just get you and my ex mixed up sometimes thinking you were him??"

MOTHERFUCKER OH MY GOD. The fucking "plague doctor healer" spirit who was a demon who hid his face who I thought was a system member (when I misunderstood all this as system stuff) based off an OC, but it never fit right and I could never figure out who the fuck that was when I figured out I'm not a system, I just have identity issues that coincide with spiritual things... The plague doctor called Johnathan spelled like that also known as ABYSS you fucking bastard. Affectionately. Oough. Of course I figure it out when my url is abyssalpriest too. That was Lev. My god

And it suddenly makes this picture of Abyss make sense too because. This might be about to get a little complicated but lemme see if I can say it simply.

He has short hair, that's a veil I felt I should put and like... This picture............. Would freak me out because it Accidentally came out looking like this character

Who at the time was fucking based off one of Lev's brothers... But one of the dickhead nasty spirits I was around at the time Pretended to be this character in order to scare the shit out of me with him so I avoided the fuck out of that first pic of Abyss (because I was rightfully scared shitless of looking at that second character), I think it mightve even been my past pic of Abyss at least uploaded, as in the pic looking like this character may have been part of why I never touched drawing him again.... But like. That fucking second character eventually then came to represent Ahi as described and created by Lev in the story he's in because Lev has a huge influence on and input in that story, and eventually came to look like this and I'm like.

God fucking damn it. To be clear: yeah it's obvious that Abyss was him because Lev expresses himself like that. Not even mentioning in that first pic he's got the veil, the black hat w feathers, the fucking RAIN... I tell everyone Lev talks a lot through fiction and this is nowhere near the first fictional mask he's put on by far but I'm like.... I was wondering who the fuck Abyss was. Abyss was there for a while and then vanished and rarely came back, but would come back and was... Not vivid but definitely real. Which. Is how Lev comes around where he's not vivid at all most of the time, hes so fucking subtle, but he is so distinctly a self? What the fuck man. This is a mystery almost a decade old. Last date I saw on a piece of art of Abyss was 2015. Hi. Holy shit

[menthol-drops]

Welcome (Insert Name Here), this is a blog!

I figured I’d make one of these just to be safe, since I’ve gotten a few new followers recently (uh… somehow? I’ve been here a while my blog just kinda sits here and I reblog stuff to it lmao)

Who the fuck are you?

Zephyr’s the name and my pronouns are He/They/It but idgaf if you call me any variation of my url as it’s been my username for over 6 years, so I’m attached to it lol.

Why are you here?

Why are any of us here? I started this blog as an english class project in 2013 (holy shit I’ve been here 10 years wh…) and after that i just sort of…. Stayed? I dunno i just live here now.

What do you blog?

Currently? Sandman, mostly, though this was a Supernatural blog for a LONG ass time, so that too, sometimes, and Hannibal. Also generally whatever i find funny or interesting. I don’t really like sideblogs bc my attention span is NOT good enough to remember to blog to ���the right blog” so here we are.

Do you write fic?

I do! Currently just one wip but i hope to have time for more over breaks, and once the new batch of episodes drops :)

On This Tempestuous Sea (Dreamling WIP, please read the tags)

Can i send you asks/messages?

YEA FOR THE LOVE OF GOD PLEASE I ALMOST NEVER GET ASKS AND I LOVE ANSWERING THEM

[emailrulesposting]

Vent? below

I might be comfy sharing more later on. For now I guess I'll share things in a slightly coded manner.

Last night I had three dreams where someone who isnt't real (please stick with me) infiltrated my dream (GOD that one ellicited a vine boom sound effect) and "infiltrated"(???) it. It feels like something I wrote coming back to haunt me but it is based on something In My Brain considers important. Gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross! Sorry had to get that had lol What am I even saying I totally see why people think my mind has been lost.

I planned to say it in a slightly humorous way this morning but procrastinated doing it on here. I'm not entirely sure what's going on wait what's the word count on this who am I again? Oh where'd that come from um? I'm not sure? I'll just... ignore... it? Yeah I will okay we're good I'm not sure how to figure out the word count I guess I could Google it on my PC. THE CHARACTER LIMIT IS WHAT NOW??? HOW MANY ZEROES? Holy shit we're probs about to be here for a little bit longer. It's actually crazy wait stream of thought is something so wild. Probably because of the way I think WHY ARE YOU HERE oh sorry about that! Interesting thats editable

Oh my God I could just post to text and make I'M THINKING CLOSER TO WORDS!!!!!!! THAT'S WHY IT'S EASIER TO WRITE!!! OMFG!!!! This is good information for the future. oh my god. The future. I'm not sure what that's going to be like... not based on what it's like here in the present.

Now I'm making email rules it's honestly so cathartic if you want to see the folder of emails let me know! Organication,,,,,,,,, if you want to see a screenshot lmk I'll have to take one! It's going to be sooo soo soooooooooooooooooo satisfying sorry I stopped holding my breath for a second there.

Wait why tf was I holding my breath? What was it helping? Why did it stop working? How did I know it did? What am i writing about again? Waiting Room by Phoebe Bridgers is playing I forgot how long I've been writing this post

Waiting room is still playing so it definitely hasn't been been long. A couple different songs have played. I guess it's really affecting me or it's just bc I'm high

Honestly I feel like I'm finger painting rn listening to caesar salad - demo by slimdan honestly feeling like that rn. Absurd indie song ass emotion.

Ive been in the wrong playlist for like 5 songs omfg I forget to keep changing it. It felt like the sun just tried to consume me a little bit also like it

Woahhhh the playlisy is already workign wow I'm influenced by music I need to listen to more high tempo music huh listening to HOT TO GO! by Chappel Roan en maybe I need to go back on my old Spotify to see whats there so I can remember what've felt to go. I know I used to spam.... I think going through that could be helpful.

Heey look at that in

I don't remember that thought. I remember deleting a song from the playlist. I remember configuring the email rules to fix the mistake

emaillistposting

Wait that's a perfect url. I'm worried corporations will make "xyz infulencers" for their companies as a marketing strat

[andyridgeley]

For the ask game!: Recommend stuff to me, please!

ohhhh yeah i got you!!! i just watched renfield tonight and loved it i'd recommend it if you're fine with gore!

also i've been rewatching psych and i'll always rec that one it's so good! everytime i rewatch it i pick up on something new!

anything that watcher channel comes out with on youtube is exquisite there's so much content on there now its *chefs kiss* i just watched the new mystery files ep today <3

and to live up to my url and current marathoning i'll list out my fav john cusack movies and this will be long so under the cut:

1408 - underrated stephen king horror flick they really put john cusack in a room and said act a one man show babey and he killed it where's his academy award love & mercy - why does no one talk about this movie best music biopic ever made alright better off dead - i dig on dark humor and quote this movie all the time whoops say anything - i love complicated love sometimes ok sue me high fidelity - i live and breathe for it oK grosse pointe blank - i think about this movie everyday (also war inc. was decent and is a bit of a sequel, not officially, and there's this really funny thing i think about with that movie but its a spoiler so alksdjf) con air - the nic cage accent, john malkovich puns, and john cusack specifically choosing to wear those sandals of it all serendipity - i love love and convoluted romcom plots centering on fate and destiny and dare i say serendipity being john malkovich - ohmygod. hot tub time machine - it's so *clenches fists* dumb i love it sebastian stan as an all american asshole 80s ski bro what eight men out - maybe i just LIKE BASEBALL OK is that a CRIME? hot pursuit - ok maybe hes just cute in this one identity - honestly it's a decent flick but last time i rewatched it i laughed so har dholy shit. like throughout the whole thing. theres a moment ray liotta picks up a key on the floor and john cusack is TWO INCHES AWAY FROM HIM and liotta is like look at this and cusack is like where'd you find that and liotta was like it was on the ground holy shit also when the Twist Is Revealed cusack says ............ wHat. the way he says its... . . . .ohmygod ... jesus wept. one crazy summer - ok maybe hes just cute in this one too also its such a great late night trippy 80s movie the sure thing - i love the john cusack pointing out constellations in the sky as a pickup line cinematic universe the raven - i just really dig him as edgar allan poe ok like the movies not amazing but thanku for casting him as poe I JUST!! the grifters - this movie fucked me up&lt;3 true colors - they should've let john cusack and james spader get it on

[withloveajaxx]

for the ask game!! cinnamon, mauve, blush, fuchsia, lavender, umber, razzmatazz, safron YES <3

IVE MISSED U TOO ☹️💗 & TELL YOU EVERYTHING?? OMG OKOK (it’s mainly me being sad tho bc life is unfair)

I’ve been doing alright, the two times I moved blogs tho,, it had to do w personal problems & some people had the audacity to send in asks that they rlly shouldn’t have bc it made me so damn uncomfortable and it was not helping w my current state so I left :,) THE SECOND TIME I LEFT WAS ALSO BC OF MY PROBLEMS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE and everything was going downhill and I needed a break + people were still making me uncomfortable w their asks (turned them off before I left again) I had accidentally deleted my only moots blog which I had to replace but using the same url (@yonayie pls my layla theme was so cool I miss it) I then deleted my other blog and moved here!! away from the trolls!! and weirdos who can’t comprehend the fact that I’m a minor!!

I spent my Christmas and new years on the verge of tears, it was not fun 😭 my house started flooding on Christmas and it scared the shit out of me!!! & on new years?? i cried bc 2022 was an ass and sm happened it was terrible & we didn’t set off fireworks like we used to so that sucked :,)

school has been a PAIN. I’m a complete loner so that makes everything harder 😭 & my math teacher? literally how did he get hired he cannot teach to save his life he’s so unfair too it’s CRAZY HNGJSJWIJE the only way I get a passing grade is if I self-study and do rlly well on the end of course test in april (which is getting dangerously close im not ready) I dislike my drama teacher 👨‍🏫 I’m okay with my environmental sci teacher + history teacher theyre chill 🤞the workload is manageable so I think I’ll be able to get all of my credits most def!!

oh oh my birthday is on the 27th!! yes this friday pls im not sure if I’ll be able to do anything for it but if not it’s okay <3 (it’d be the 3rd year not celebrating it which is why I’m so chill abt it that’s so sad 😭)

wow omg that’s sm word vomit pls!! why has my life been so depressing I cannot!! i just hope this year doesn’t treat me as badly!! PRAYS 🙏

okay now ur turn TELL ME EVERYTHINGGG <33 (everything that u can ofc 💓)

STOP WAIT,,, I INSPIRE YOU??? HELP WHY DOES THAT MAKE MY DAY WTF YONA PLEASE ILYSM 💗💗

also omg that's a lot that happened in your absence,,, FIRST OF ALL, i will willingly beat up life and people for you i swear,,, those weirdos better watch out for these hands >:((. secondly, i'm sorry that school, christmas, and new year were a pain in the butt :((. i hope everything gets better for you!! and ofc if you need anyone to talk to, i'll do my best to reply mwah 🫶

AND OMG okay what's been happening in my life,,, i'll put this under a cut so ppl don't need to scroll for too long HAHDJXJSJD

OKAY SO FIRST OF ALL... COLLEGE APPLICATIONS. good god those humbled me HAHDJKDKSD LYK I AM ACTUALLY STUPID 💀 the one i recently took was so fucking hard it was not even funny,,, like they put shit i've never learned, heard of, or saw and it was HORRIBLE. i was literally guessing everything math related please pray for my future </33 HAHDJDJKD.

ALSO!! I GOT INTO KPOP MORE AGAIN HEHEHEHE. i recently went to a concert of one of my favorite groups and holy shit. i cried. like so many times. HAHDJCKDF IT WAS CRAZY GETTING TO SEE THEM IRL AND I JUST AAAAAAAAJSKCIISJD 😭😭 i'm also seeing another group next week,,, MY ULTIMATE FAVORITE ONE. and i shit you not i am not mentally or emotionally prepared to see those men up close and on stage HSJFKDKDD

also yea school was a bitch 💀 tons of freeloaders and horrible teachers but yk what,,, i got my report today and i passed so it's okay HAHSJFKKDD. also i'm graduating soon and that's kinda scary n idk how to cope but yes 😭 i'm just hoping for the best and giving it my all HSHDJKKFF

BUT THAT'S BEEN ABOUT IT FOR ME,,, HOPING 2023 IS GOOD TO US <33

also nah i'm making sure your birthday will be somewhat special <33 gonna hold a tumblr party n give u a lil something I SWEAR 💗

[imthebadguyyy]

i was tagged by the lovely @querencva to do this tag game, thank you so much for the tag, i loved doing this! 💜

1. Why did you choose your url?

when i was choosing the name, i had an obsession with billie eilish (which i still do ksksk) and bad guy was my jam, and then i never really got to changing it lol, but it's become my name now so it all worked out!! i also never thought i'd actually get to posting so i just picked something random : ))

2. Any side blogs?

yes, but it's all pure bs so i'd rather not mention it 💀

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

I've been on tumblr for a little over a year actively, only started actually using it towards the end of 2020 and started posting in 2021, earlier i just had the app and didn't use it because i didn't know how lol

4. Do you have a queue tag?

no, i never even use my queue, and the one time i tried i messed it up so 💀

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

i've always loved reading and writing and exploring new stuff, and one day i randomly stumbled upon this app when i had my peaky blinders obsession, and i fell in lobve with the blogs and people here. then i started to write and reblog and stuff and i just eventually fell in love with how much fun it was, and when i developed an interest in F1, i met a bunch of people who also shared my interest !!

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

it's a picture of lewis on a bike, which was my favourite photo from that photoshoot!!

7. Why did you choose your header?

i edited all the photo's from the WSJ mag photoshoot together because it remains superior 😌

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

hmm, it'd have to be this one and this one, this and this but y'all have shown so much love to so many of them!!

9. How many mutuals do you have?

i have a few but i'm lazy as a guesstimate would be like 20?? there may be more i'm just not counting 😂

10. How many followers do you have?

currently, i have 710 followers (holy guacamole) and i love and every one of em <33

11. How many people do you follow?

i follow 76 people!

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

i don't know??

13. How often do you use tumblr a day?

way too often, i have no social life 🤧

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

nope, it takes time and energy i just don't have

15. How do you feel about the ‘you need to reblog’ posts?

i think people should have the choice to reblog what they want, but this is a difficult one. if it's about needing help or for a humanitarian crisis i feel the need to reblog it, but once again it depends on personal preferences, but reblogging is just a click of a button and if it makes someone happy or helps them, might as well!

16. Do you like tag games?

i love em!!

17. Do you like ask games?

YES i do but for some reason, i can never get people to participate in ask games lmao

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

oh lots of em, and as they should be!!

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

nope, but i love em all

20. Tags!

tagging @grandestrategia @theonly1outof-a-billion @e44hamilton @lucent-knight @itsallyscorner @heureux4430 @soadoya @quillsink and whoever wants to, as always, only if you want to !! 💜

[ebiemidnightlibrarian]

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to get to know better.

Tagged By: @chronic-ghost my beloved, you are AMAZING!

Name: Eloah :3

Star Sign: Aries (no, I'm not the rl incarnation of 'anger' from Inside Out lol)

Height: last time I checked I was 5'6", so yeah, Father Paul would easily pin me to a wall.

Time: 22:01 pm

Birthday: March 24th

Favorite Bands/Favorite Solo Artists: Humm what a hard task, it changes sometimes, but I'll keep my all-time favourites; David Bowie, Bauhaus, The Smiths, Joy Divison, She Wants Revenge, Queen, Billie Holiday, Nina Simone, Edith Piáf, Al Bowly, Vera Lynn, Chico Buarque, Elis Regina, Cauby Peixoto, IAMX, Florence + The Machine, Aurora, Queens of the Stone Age, Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds, The Weekend, The Lumineers, Cage The Elephant and Coldplay. (yeah, my music taste it's quite unusual, but like the olds would say; Call wine, wine.)

Last Movie: Doctor Strange in the Multiverse of Madness — Sam Raimi gave me a full meal of fun, horror, drama and dark humour.

Last Show: AHS: Hotel — revisiting one of my favourites gothic atmosphere and Lady Gaga was *chef's kiss* as the Countess. The soundtrack for that season is also fucking incredible.

When did I create this blog: Ahn, I'm sure of the year, but not of the exact date. It was around January 2017.

What I post: Mostly, moodboards and aesthetics, dark academia and gothic academia; LOTS of fandom stuff and since May of the last year I'm posting fanfiction for a couple of people. Writing keep me sane… well, mostly sane, lol.

Last thing I googled: the word "hermenêutica".

It's a feminine noun (in portuguese we have genre to words). It means science, technique whose object is the interpretation of religious or philosophical texts, especially the Holy Scriptures.

Lmao, this was a bit didactic, sorry.

Other Blogs: None, just this lil one =D

Do I Get Asks?: I DO!! Please, I get so excited when I receive one, it's like Christmas morning!

Why I chose my url: it used to be a quote from the 1976 film 'The Man Who Fell to Earth' — everything begins in eternity —, one of my favourites for a very long time. But I started to think the url was too long, so I decided to change to 'ebiemidnightlibrarian' — ebie because it's the first letter of each word from the quotation above;(and also my nickname here bc my real name sounds odd in english, lol); midnight bc Midnight Mass fucking changed my life as a huge cathartic experience, and librarian bc it's my profession lmao.

Following: 459

Followers: 220 

Average hours of sleep: 3-7 hours, usually, but on my day off maybe 12 straight hours. None of them are healthy, but I'm working to fix this.

Instruments: Ohh, if I had the money to pay for the classes, I would TOTALLY play the piano. (However, I love cello too.)

What am I wearing: a terribly old nightdress that used to be pink, sandals, my granny's old jumper and a pair of workout pants from high school, it's really cosy.

Dream job(s): own a small bookshop with a small café and whole lots of first editions, where my manager it's a cute English grandpa (very specific, but I always wondered how it would be to live in England); a research colleague of a really hot literature professor (stealing this one from taylor, bc with some luck this one will become true within the next five years, lol); a guide from an old history museum.

Favourite Food: TEA, LOTS AND LOTS OF TEA! If I can make tea of it, it's great to me. Summer rolls humm I LOOOVE summer rolls; lasagna from almost any type, and specifically my grandmother's wedding cake (she was a full hand baker, once you ate her cakes every other becomes instantly shit.)

Nationality: Brazilian (things are pretty shitty around here, but, hey, it's election year, there's still hope!)

Favorite Song(s): Holy moly, okay, these are all-time favourites from whom I never get sick of:

slow burn — david bowie

tempo perdido — legião urbana (en.: lost time - urban legion, i highly recommend)

blueberry hill — louis armstrong

marian — sisters of mercy

cool cat — queen

stardust — iamx

villains of the circumstance — queens of the stone age

Currently playing on repeat:

janitor of lunacy (demo) — nico

mary on a cross — ghost

heaven is here — florence + the machine

blood in the wine — aurora

young american — the vaccines

animal impulses — iamx

big bad wolf — in this moment

Last book I read: I have just finished reading A Roda de Deus (The Wheel of God) and O Criador da Morte (The Creator of Death). They're the two parts of O Evangelho do Exorcista (The Gospel of the Exorcist), both written by Leonel Caldela.

Those books are an expansion of a Call of Cthulhu RPG tabletop, inspired by various historical events that took place in Europe over the millennials. The first part follows a novice and a priest in 1989 divided Germany who are hunting the minions of the Messenger God of Cthulhu, Nyerlathotep. The second part follows the only surviving character from the original role-play table, he's living the WWII and ALSO another war, one for our souls! Following him gave me a lot of nostalgia, and have great easter eggs for anyone who followed the main campaign. The two parts range from Charlemagne's empire to a dystopian future full of horrors. A terrifying adventure filled with mysteries, exorcisms and extremely immersive historical fiction. (I better stop now or this is going to get GIANT.)

Top 3 fictional universes I'd like to live in: Uhh, I never really thought about that. I would probably try my luck into the Lord of the Rings universe, Crimson Peak's or in Maleficent's, I have a weakness for dark fantasy/gothic worlds lol. Although I ADORE the aesthetic of Wes Anderson's 'The French Dispatch' and 'The Grand Budapest Hotel'. Ugh hard choices.

tagging: @i-was-ok-then-i-saw-hamish @mutt-thingy @rothko-mirror @sallyragdoll @everythingbutresolved @jakegwyllinghall @pegplunkett @littleredwritingcat @hamishlinklaters @plainlo-inthemorning @turbulent-protagonist @fatherpaulsimp @choosekindly @johntylersgirl @girlwiththenegantattoo @raraenocteses @sleepswithvillains @aherdofbees @p-e-r-s-e-p-h-o-n-e @babelincolns @upstartgeek @supplanther @to-taste-your-beating-heart @the-redheaded-league @agirlinherhead @meownsignor @ashton-slashton @apbajs @mysoftboybensolo @mybisexualheartbeatsforzemo @norabrice1701 @jyngerpeach @johnspruitt @lovepollution

(definitely not 30 ppl here, but think if you saw this consider yourself tagged :)

(fun fact, I almost accidentally tagged neil gaiman on this, lol)

[zerodaryls]

@desertthorn @chiosblog y'all both tagged me lol,, thanks!!! <3

alas i cannot Toto my way through this one because they don't got no Z songs 😔 inconsiderate of them tbh

Z - Zanzibar by Billy Joel (i know this song but i literally had to resort to google to find a Z song because nothing was coming up in my brain lol)

E - Entertaining Angels by Newsboys (i grew up with this song and it's still one of my favorites tbh even tho i'm not a christian anymore like it's so fucking good and isn't preachy or anything. you know back in the 90s and early 00s when christians actually made decent music and it wasn't just fuckin worship music 24/7 lmao. also phil joel with his long blonde hair?? forever giving me gender envy.)

R - Rooms On Fire by Stevie Nicks (aka THE MOST UNDERRATED STEVIE NICKS SONG literally WHY doesn't the entire world know this song. flash warning for the video tho. holy fuck she's so gorgeous but like i can't be attracted to her because i want her to adopt me. she's MOMMY but in a totally boring, nonsexual way lmao.)

O - One Dance by Dan Bern (i mean, it's the main track from the movie my url is based on, so. i HAD to. plus it's just. vibes.)

D - The Downeaster Alexa by Billy Joel (literally one of the best songs ever written fight me fight me fight me,, does any other song make you literally feel like you're on the ocean trying to catch enough fish to provide for your family?? i swear every time i hear it i'm transported to this song character's world and i literally wanna cry from the angst. it's so fucking good. also these are some of billy's best vocals. they blow me away every time. YA YA YAAAAA YO)

A - Are We Dancing? by John Davidson and Leslie Ann Warren (why?? idk i was going through my music collection and this stood out because i remember loving it as a kid, i always found it so soothing. sometimes i'll put it on for comfort even tho it's just a cheesy romance song from a 1960s disney movie that i barely even remember ever watching lmao)

R - Rich Girl by Daryl Hall & John Oates (aka the song i would put on as a kid when i wanted an excuse to curse and be able to say IT'S IN THE SONG MOM I'M JUST SINGING THE SONG!!!! "it's a BITCH, girl")

Y - Y Bardd O Montreal gan Breichiau Hir (this is a cover and normally i'm loyal to original versions of art lol but i really like the screamy bits in this one. my Welsh isn't good enough to understand everything they're saying but holy hell i sure do be head bangin' anyways lmao)

L - Left & Right in the Dark by Julian Casablancas (honestly thanks for tagging me in this because it made me remember how much i FUCKING LOVE THIS ENTIRE ALBUM,, i only know like 2 songs by The Strokes, but i love a handful of his solo stuff,, honorable mention: 11th Dimension - 'we're so quick to point out our own flaws in others,, complicated mammals on the wings of robots' is SUCH a lyric. also side note he gives me so much gender envy holy shit)

S - Static Box gan Sywel Nyw feat. Gwilym (another Welsh song because hoLY FUCK THIS SONG IS SO CATCHY it makes me go all autism flappy hands)

.....sorry, that got away from me. it's been like an hour and i've just been sat here going through my own music collection and rambling lmaoooo rip.

anyway thanks for the tag, y'all!

tagging anyone else who wants to do this,, say i tagged you so i can see y'alls music tastes.

Rules: pick a song for each letter of your URL and tag that many people.

i- I was all over her by salvia palth

n- no surprises by radiohead

a- a night to remember by beabadoobee and laufey

s- sunsetz by cigarettes after sex

t- there is a light that never goes out by the smiths

a- all I think about now by pixies

t- the blonde by TV girl

e- everything by the black skirts

o- one beer by MF DOOM

f- first love/late spring by mitski

c- cigarettes out the window by TV girl

r- rises the moon by liana flores

i- infrunami by steve lacey

s- see you again by tyler the creator and kali uchis

i- i can't handle change by roar

s- show me how by men I trust

(do I know 16 people??)

@rohza-is-a-bit-gay @rainnism @titan-god-helios @frogofalltime @etherealspacejelly @tiredlyvelociraptoring @chaotic-beannn @us-costco-official @chaoticrsstuff @werewolfenthusiast @person4924 @indecisivebitch3000 @ionlylook @transgirlsgetswords @asherwentinsanelol + anyone else whod like to join

[ashdumpsterpile]

tag game!!

thank you for tagging me @janetsnakehole02!! <3

1 - Why did you choose your url?

Honestly I don't remember?? I think I was just fucking around with new urls and settled on this one.

2 - Any side blogs?

Yup! My current ACTIVE accounts are @ashoffmain (follow at your own risk), @animationcrustacean, @officialkingfrederic, @themarvelarchives (also follow at your own risk, I'm salty af on there + my opinions are bad) and @cheesecakeandlovesquares.

3 - How long have you been on Tumblr?

Oooh, I think since around 2014? This blog is a year or so old (had to deactivate my og blog for Reasons), but I've been on tumblr since the superwholock years at least.

4 - Do you have a queue tag?

Yeah, my queue tag is #a more profound queue, but i'm looking at changing it since I'm not really a spn blog anymore

5 - Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I started my original blog so I could follow some httyd blogs

6 - Why did you choose your icon/pfp

laksdjf I was fucking around with pfps and my bestie @pandemoniumsregent sent me the icon lmao

7 - Why did you choose your header?

Found it in my camera roll and said why not

8 - What’s your post with the most notes?

Ah fuck it's this dumbshit post I made about the royal family debacle in 30 seconds. I hate seeing notes explode on it bc people decided to take it seriously and I don't really give a fuck about the whole thing lmao

9 - How many mutuals do you have?

I don't keep track (too many sideblogs!) but I have at least 15-20 on this blog

10 - How many followers do you have?

334

11 - How many people do you follow?

243 but that number fluctuates (mostly down tbh)

12 - Have you ever made a shitpost?

Have you seen my blog.

13 - How often do you use Tumblr each day?

Holy shit if I'm not on tumblr I'm either asleep or dead

14 - Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

Pfffft yeah, I have a fight with a new blog like every single day bc my opinions are too bigbrained for this platform. (I did have a baby argument with @janetsnakehole02 which kicked off our enemies to lovers arc uwu 💖)

15 - How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

I hate those. If you put "everyone reblog this or you're an x problematic person" or "actually demographic x is allowed to reblog this" or "if you ignore this you're a racist/homophobe/etc" then I absolutely will scroll past or I'll reblog a prev version of it without the dumbass comment

16 - Do you like tag games?

Sure!! Feel free to tag me in anything!!

17 - Do you like ask games?

alsdkfj yes. <3

18 - Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

Bro Idk tumblr fam/clout isn't even real. There's a couple of spn mutuals I have that probably are, but it's hard to tell bc you can post anything about destiel rn and it'll blow up

19 - Do you have a crush on a mutual?

Yes, every single mutual I have ever made eye contact with is my crush but ESPECIALLY the love of my life @trashghetti-v 🥺🥺

Tagging @notasiren21, @lastoneout, @inklingofadream, @damcrows, @ro0mbaxie, @misplacedgamer, @bakugou-klancey-lance, @bkdks-third-wheel, @rrandomtthings, @grocerystoredean, @jtownraindancer, @pandemoniumsregent, @stephanisoejono, @trashghetti-v, @the-ice-goddess and anyone else who's interested!!

[footballandfiasco]

thank you so much for tagging me @eintracht !! made my day <3 i am going to answer it on my side blog though, since i interact with more users on here - i hope that's alright & not too confusing. 🥰

1. Why did you choose your URL?

for my main: i am a huge ass nerd in case you did not notice that already & i get way too emotional about several fandoms. i am the biggest potterhead since primary school & i truly believe that i am a gryffindor (no one can ever change my mind), so i thought i'd be funny to call myself the heir of gryffindor (refering to the heir of slytherin which is the nickname voldemort gave himself). that's why my main is theheirofgryffindor'sblog.

for this sideblog: this is about football. and it is very messy. basically a fiasco. so here we are :)) (also i really wanted it so be some kind of alliteration...)

2. Any side blogs?

this is it :)

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

i'm sure you can look that up somewhere but i'd guess it must be around 6 years, maybe longer. this side blog i have for half a year now.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

nope

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I got Tumblr because a friend told me to get it. But this side blog I started because I discovered football tumblr during the euros, which I really was not aware of existing, and was like yess!! finally i can talk about football without annoying the hell out of somebody (because literally none of my friends like football & my family knows nothing about it - except for maybe die eintracht due to loyalty to out hometown).

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

it's leon jumping on his fellow teammates. it's great <3 no greater reason behind it.

7. Why did you choose your header?

i think it suits the ✨aesthetic✨ of the blog. also it refers to the emotional mess you are experiencing as a football fan. in the end we'll be alright. and also in life, i think, as bad as it gets sometimes , we'll be alright eventually. so I thought that might be a nice reminder for all of you, but also for me personally <3

8. What's your post with the most notes?

it's probably one of my "underrated germany nt moments" videos :)

9. How many mutuals do you have?

i still don't quite get the exact definition of a mutual, but i consider everyone interacting with me in any kind of form one, sooo there is no exact number. but i love y'all!!

10. How many followers do have?

70, but I really don't care. Tumblr for me isn't about followers at all, to be honest. I love that I can just be on here. Not like on Instagram where I feel like everything is a bit more judgy.

11. How many people do you follow?

probably a lot. i don't even know.

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

I consider all of my posts shitposts lmao.

13. How often do you use Tumblr?

On a daily basis. I am too afraid to check my actual screen time.

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

no. but I did get a bit of a salty anon message once. but that's okay, people need their outlets, i suppose.

15. How do you feel about the "you have to reblog this" posts?

well, I don't really have to...so i kindly do not give a shit :)

16. Do you like tag games?

yes! gimme more! 🥰

17. Do you like ask games?

it depends on the game, i think. but in general, yes! though sometimes i feel like i am not really in the position to ask for asks, if you know what i mean ?

18. Which of your moots do you think are tumblr famous?

I can only tell you who is famous to me & that is the holy trinity of leon stans @dieclownschaft @goretzkastits & @leoncgoretzka i love them & they are the first ones i followed on football tumblr <3

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

all of them.

I tag @belenav @fcsane @weirdothinking @katropolis & honestly, everyone who wants to do it :)) (obviously only if you want to do it)