#Hindi Old Love Songs

[depressedraisin]

losing them in 2 days I'M SICK

[ramayantika]

9th grade me thought I wasn't pretty because of my height, slight acne and thicker thighs

LOL This samridhi is screaming okay. Nobody needs validation by anyone or something.

You are an amazing person, filled with so many wonderful things, love indulging in the things you love and are talented in so many things. There are things you know, people who love you and admire you so much

AND YOU ALL ARE FUCKING BEAUTIFUL OKAY DON'T LET ANYONE TAKE THAT FROM YOU

[sajra-savera]

Why is it always, 'Hey, are you okay?' but never,

"तुम्हारे प्यार की कसम, तुम्हारा गम है मेरा गम

न यु भुझे भुझे रहो, जो दिल की बात है कहो

जो मुझसे भी छुपाओगे, तो फिर किसे बताओगे

मैं कोई गैर तो नहीं, दिलाओ किस तरह यकीन

के तुम से मैं जुड़ा नहीं, मुझसे तुम जुदा नहीं "

[neilperrysme]

dekhkar tumko yakeen hota hai

koi itna bhi haseen hota hai

dekh paate kahan ham tumko

dil kahin hosh kahin hota hai

jab saamne tum aa jate ho

kya janiye kya ho jaata hai

jab saamne tum

nida fazli | aadesh srivastav | asha bhosle | jagjit singh

[thedorkside-of-ashutosh]

Being Queer and Finding Love

As an amab (male) queer who is attracted to women more than men, I somehow relate to this (the above meme). It's frustrating and deeply depressing.

Ashutosh | 31st October 2024

It gets fucking lonely. I can't be queer and also flirt with a woman I'm attracted to, because then she just might think I'm that "gay friend" she can go shopping with (as much as I love shopping, myself), and whom she can set other men up with. It literally robs me of my own queer experience!

Love is an impractical dream if I want to just be myself, viz, if I'm not overtly masculine (but simply queer, non-binary)— and I don't like being masculine all the time! It's exhausting! As proud as I am of my queer identity and even to wear it around, I am also afraid to reveal it (in this case, to women I feel romantically for). Love has always been so far out of my reach—or, perhaps always only a touch out of view—that it justifies my loneliness, which in turn, justifies my constant desperation for love when I seek it out. My identity as "queer" is often co-opted, and I am reduced to a sidekick, my attempts at flirting (or, in better words, at courting love) dismissed as merely platonic actions.

Pardon the apparent "paranoia," for it actually isn't. It is an anxiety. And it is born from an apparent pressure— an unnatural pressure to 'act' overtly masculine, to mask my true self from the love I want to court. Love then feels like deception, and there is nothing I hate more than deception, the sheer insincerity subsumed in it. I don't feel free to love sincerely, honestly. And that pressure is external to me.

As a result, I often have to choose between being queer and finding love. Love can be found anywhere, not just on dating apps. But lately, in the real world, access to love is socially regimented in time, space, and methodologies, constructs which I recognise but do not intuitively understand. Outside of the realm of dating apps, and the meaningless hookups and superficial dates (romantic meet-ups) that reek of reluctance/avoidance that follow, finding love organically is an awkward game of chess. When I fail to make my move, I tell myself and others that I am shy—maybe I am—but really, I am terrified. And the game of love is so scary, that being queer feels easier, even if it isn't complete, even if I am incomplete. At least I exist, even if it's in the friend-zone. At least people are being "nice" to me. At least it "feels" like I have friends. At least this, at least that.

And when did love become a game of absolutes where there are winners and losers, success and failure, fuckables and unfuckables, sigmas and simps, alphas, betas, romeos, creeps, chads and charlies?

I was born to love. But love feels like an unfulfilled promise, and so do I.

Fin.

Post scriptum:

It physically hurt as I wrote this, because even I only realised this just now. Now I have to come to terms with it. This is my reality.

I can still feel a weird "surge" in my chest... Some kind of "welling up" in my chest cavity... Reminds me of SRK's film, "My Name is Khan."

Here are some songs that compliment this blog post...

Lyrics that hit home:

Kishore Kumar

Yeh dariya, yeh mauji, yeh sahil,

Yeh chhalki huyi mastiyaan

Hain aati nazar, kuchh kami si magar...

Jaane kya yeh nila aasmaan...

Kya khabar, kya patah... ja raha hun main kahan...?

Akela hun main is jahaan mein,

Akeli meri daastaan,

Nah manzil koi, nah saathi koi...

Jaane kya ye nila aasmaan...

Kya khabar, kya pata... ja raha hun main kahaan...?

This stanza is from a song Kishore Kumar composed himself. It is from his shelved film, "Neela Aasman," with Madhubala... it was shelved after her tragic death. Kishore Kumar wrote many of his songs himself; some of his songs were actually poems which he wrote as a young student. Jhumroo is one example.

Every time I listen to Kishore Kumar, I somehow feel like I have known him personally. I relate with him very deeply emotionally.

Beyond his known flaws, and the obviously charismatic jolly-good-fellow personality that is reflected in his popular songs and films, some of his poetry and music reflect a part of his personality which seems, however, forgotten. Apparently, he was a very deeply emotional man, and some of his very rare songs reflect his loneliness and almost hopeless yearning for true love, while songs like Jhumroo, which reflected hope, resilience, and perseverance, compensated for such depressing finalities.

Imagine Dragons—

I'm a reckless mistake,

I'm a cold night's intake,

I'm a one night too long,

I'm a come on too strong.

All my life I've been living in the fast lane,

Can't slow down, I'm a rollin' freight train.

One more time,

Gotta start all over,

Can't slow down,

I'm a lone red rover.

I'm a hold my cards close,

I'mma wreck what I love most,

I'm a first class let down,

I'm a shut up sit down.

I am a head case,

I am the color of boom

That's never arriving,

And you are the pay raise,

Always a touch out of view...

And I am the color of boom...

Oh! How did it come to this? Oh!

Love is a polaroid,

Better in picture,

But never can fill the void...

I'm gonna get ready

For the rain to pour heavy,

Oh, let it fall,

Let it fall upon my head.

Need I explain?

*****

[choppedphilosopherharmony]

পঁচিশ বছর আগেকার

মুখ যেন জাপানী অক্ষর

বাজুবন্ধ মৃদু বেজে ওঠে

গান গান গান শুধু গান

ছোট এক ঘরে শুয়ে আজ

মনে পড়ে প্রেমিক ছিলাম

- ভাস্কর চক্রবর্তী

[natkhat-sa-shyam]

नशा होता है कैसा, बहकते हैं क़दम कैसे

नज़र कुछ भी नहीं आता, ये मस्ती कैसी होती है

एक दिन गुज़रे जो हम, मयकदे के मोड़ से

एक मयकश जा रहा था, मय से रिश्ता जोड़ के

हमने पूछा किसलिये तू, उम्र भर पीता रहा

कुछ न बोला, अपनी धुन में बस यही गाता रहा,

मोहब्बत है क्या चीज़, हमको बताओ

ये किसने शुरू की, हमें भी सुनाओ

Office ate waqt playlist was on shuffle mode and suddenly this song pops up. And this lyrics just touched my heart💗💗

Abhi tak ye ganna 5 bar sun chuka hoon but can't get over from this lyrics🌻✨️

[thedimlaltain]

We find solace in knowing we are not causing pain to our loved ones...

But we are not alone, we need not be alone...

There is beauty in sharing our pain...

And perhaps peace, in being able to sit through it with someone...

[desidarkacademichoe]

So here's another playlist that I made almost a week or two ago!

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1F88XX3jVJsuqbW4JFRwrt?si=3fEMc4qTQYOSBmwc4w_4KA

I have always been an old school and a hopeless romantic so here's one for the old school romantics :) also, would love more suggestions :D

[chanquokka]

2, 6,21 and 24 for the ask game 😇

hihi! 2. three last songs you listened to: ik bagal, by piyush mishra, a song ive recently been obsessed with (could only find the eng trans from a vid thats also a cover here), koi by gen hoshino(!!) and cobalt by mob choir

6. three songs you wish you could erase from history (because they’re terrible): im v bad at remembering stuff i like in the first place afsh apologies for the cop out but im pretty sure ive either never disliked a song sm to wish its inexistence, and if i did, certainly dont remember it anymore

21. three songs of your childhood: a little difficult a little fun! ill say aashiyan from barfi, half bcs this album and all its songs r still my favorite years later (movie too!!) and half bcs i have way too nice memories of performing this song as a kid at an event at dad's work and getting complimented a lot (it was aided tho, im sure, by my front teeth missing). second would be ae mere zohra jabeen, a veeery old classic bollywood song, and v much beloved to me both when i was tiny and straining to catch my ma's radio during hw and now when i can add it to all my playlists. third!! raabta by shreya ghoshal, a song that annoys me a lot now simply bcs ive heard it >2000 times bcs it was such a (deserved) rage when it came out for a few yrs

24. three favourite old songs: tere naam! by alka yagnik (listened to a newish cover, fell in love, found its original version, fell sm in love!!) id again mention ae mere zohra jabeen by manna dey bcs i never get over how sweet and cute of an old song it is. third, kaheen dur jab din dhal jaye, movie anand bcs heyy its lyrics, i really love whats it abt!!

im not surprised its just wholly old bollywood bcs thats what majority of kids in india grow up on, either by their parents love for it, or being a kid in the era itself. plus! i could never rec old bollywood enough, its either so catchy that u cheer the love its talking abt, or so poetic that u..cheer the love its talking abt, half of the time managing to be both. not to mention the iconic voices with legions of songs to their names. thank u for asking, i had sm fun!!!

[luciferknight03]

Khushiyon ka tarannum hai, Ashkon ki zabani hai

Zindagi aur kuch bhi nahi, teri meri kahani hai

[matlabimahila]

Jidhar dekhti hu, udhar tum hi tum ho

Na jane magar kin, khayalo me gum ho

[bibliophilliqueee]

When Lata Mangeshkar sang,

"चले ही जाना है, नजर चुरा के यूं, फिर थामी थी साजन तुमने मेरी कलाई क्यों"

I felt that. A lot.

[intellectual6666]

इश्क़ से ही सारी ख़ुशियाँ, इश्क़ ही बर्बादी इश्क़ है पाबंदी, लेकिन इश्क़ ही आज़ादी इश्क़ की दुनिया में यारों ख़्वाबों की आबादी खो गया वो जिसको मंज़िल इश्क़ ने दिखला दी

[neilperrysme]

baarish ka mausam is here and the yearning is at its peak

1.sawan ke jhoole pade 2.love me again by v 3.rainy days by v 4.sawan me jhoole pade lata mangeshkar

[parad-ice-lostandfound]

Why is it always "I love you" and not

"Tu hi toh jannat meri (You are my heaven)

Tu hi mera junoon (My final tryst)

Tu hi to mannat meri (You are my prayer)

Tu hi rooh ka sukoon (My soul’s bliss)

Tu hi aakhiyon ki thandak (You are the calm that I seek)

Tu hi dil ki hai dastak (You are in every heart beat)

Aur kuch na janu mein (I know nothing else)

Bas itna hi janu (Now except)

Tujhme rab dikhta hai (I see my god in you)

Yaara main kya karun. (Oh beloved, I don’t know what to do)

Sajde sar jhukta hai (I can’t help but bow before you)

Yaara main kya karun (I don’t know what to do)"