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Help even tumblr thinks I'm autistic
Like, j don't even know at this point due to how mentally fucked up I am, I have to still get diagnosed
#Help spirits thinks I'm an autist#am i autistic?#yes?#No?#Who knows.#Only God does#Please dear lord help me
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Various HH characters x autistic!reader
Prize 1/5 for @coldsushisworld ! I hope you enjoy!
This post includes: charlie, vaggie, alastor, Lucifer, adam, and lute
CHARLIE
Honestly I can see Charlie herself being somewhere on the spectrum! So she can relate to you in some way when you're having some struggles. Shes so so accommodating when it comes to your needs, quite literally bending over backwards to make sure the hotel is a safe space for you. Theres likely a sensory room somewhere in the hotel, where you (or really anyone!) Can go to unwind and just vibe. Protective of you, as she is with everyone else she cares about. You.. may have to get her to cool it if things get a little too heated. Warm and smells like apple pie, and I dont know about you guys but that's possibly one of the most pleasing and calming combos
VAGGIE
Very quick to shut things down if someone tries to get on your case for your needs for whatever reason, same goes for anyone who does it without intending to be harmful/doing it unknowingly. Shes your guard dog, and shes going to make sure you're safe mentally and physically. Likely stands trying to choose between different fidgets to pack for an outing trying to determine which one might come more in handy. Packs both. Actually she definitely has a pack somewhere for you that has a bunch of items to carry on you to help you out (water, headphones, ect ect). Despite that she does think you're capable and will step back if her worries cause her to overstep and make you feel bad. Vaggie does tend to have trouble gauging how much effort and feeling into things
ALASTOR
In the nicest way possible, he does not care. Obviously he doesn't care in the "I dont care that you're ND and I'm not going to avoid doing things that trigger you", it's a "I dont care because it is what it is", and besides hes got manners! Sometimes the static ambience around him can be comforting, like white noise.. sometimes he hums or softly plays music if you need something to focus on during an overwhelming moment. However if it makes things worse it's getting cut the second you say something. You're the only person allowed into his radio tower, if you need an escape
LUCIFER
As stated above I headcanon that Charlie is somewhere in the spectrum so he already has an idea of what to do to make things easier and more welcoming for you! Thankfully his home isnt too chaotic and he doesnt usually switch up his routine so if routines mean a lot for you Lucifer is your man! Puts his crafting skills to good use and makes you personalized fidget toys! He loves talking to you but if you need him to be quiet for a while he'll be understanding and work quietly on his ducks. Similarly to his daughter he doesnt let anyone try to make you feel bad for trying to tend to your needs. Though hes less of a pushover/holds his temper a little easier than charlie, but hes still quick to shut anything down
ADAM
In the beginning he can be a little.... how does one say this nicely? Not the best.. hes not at all educated so you're probably going to have to sit him down and find a way to get him to listen. Hes a little misguided when it comes to helping you moving forward but there is a new added effort in there. Takes you away from environments that are too overwhelming for you, or tells everyone to shut the hell up.. which might make things worse thanks to his shouting. He's got the spirit but his methods are not the best. His wings are soft and as long as you dont pluck anything out, he let's you run your fingers through his feathers. Would get sucked into those sensory and/or asmr videos with you
LUTE
I can see her being on the spectrum too tbh but I dont think shes aware, so anytime you try to bring up the possibility of her being ND she kind of just dismisses it. "Everyone does that," mindset. While she doesnt totally understand all of your habits and needs, she still does her best to make sure you're satisfied. She can be callous with others, often causing conflict to those who choose not to listen to an exterminator.. though to heavens citizens what status to exterminators have..? Shrugs. Shes a little.. tense? Harsh? No harsh sounds mean. Shes not used to being tender for someone else, so this is all a learning process for her.. its going to take a while before she grows accustomed to you autism or not.. but shes trying, because she does love you even if shes not used to these feelings!
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Hey! Can I request a Carol Danvers x sibling!reader who has autism and Carol is protective of them?
Hey there, anon! Not sure this is exactly what you were looking for... it's more Carol being big-sisterly than protective exactly, but I'm pleased with how it ended up. Hope you enjoy! âilldowhatiwantthanks
Find Your People
Carol Danvers x autistic!sibling!reader Warnings: general discussion of homophobia, explicit language (let me know if I've missed anything!) Word count: 1.8k
Summary: You've always struggled with making friends, but you're feeling particularly left out these days. But your old sister, Carol, is back home on break from the Air Force Academy, and she's here to help you feel better.
You stared at the picture on your phone, holding your thumb over it to keep it in place. There was no doubt about what it wasâall your friends, together, without you. You tried to rationalize it. Maybe they were doing something they knew you wouldnât like. Maybe they didnât want to make you uncomfortable. But deep down you knew the truth: it was probably you who made them uncomfortable.
You felt like you should cry, but you never really knew how to. Itâs not that you didnât feel things, exactly, itâs that when you felt something, you just thought about it a lot. You turned it over and over inside of you, like if you just looked hard enough at it, if you just examined it enough, you could figure out why whatever was going on inside you was so different from everyone else.
You heard a knock on your open door and your head shot up. It was your older sister, Carol. She was home for the holidays after her first semester in the Air Force Academy, and she seemed⌠different. Not in her spirit, not in who she wasâthat was the same as always. But her body was stronger, leaner, and you could tell that sheâd finally found a place where she fit. Where she felt like who she was and what she wanted were good things. Where other people wanted the same things. And, even though you were happy for her, you missed her. And you knew in your heart, sheâd never be back. Not in the same way. Not always.
So itâd just be you, alone in this house, in this place. With your mom who acted like it was still the â50s. With your dad who was disappointed in how youâd turned out, even though he tried to hide it. Going to Mass on Sunday where you didnât fit. Going to school during the week where you didnât fit. And then sitting in your room, âplayingâ around with your robotics, as your parents called it, instead of making friends.
âGo away, Carol,â you snapped, pulling your knees to your chest and turning away.
âOuch,â she shot back good-naturedly, coming in and sitting on the edge of your bed. âAnd this is how you treat a returning war hero?â
âYouâre not a war hero, youâre just in pilot training,â you mumbled. âAlso, fuck the military. And fuck capitalism.â
âOkay, wellâŚâ Carol chuckled and grabbed the side of your head, pulling you in for an awkward hug. âIâm giving Uncle Sam ten years so I can get out of here without drowning in loans, but then Iâll fuck capitalism with you.â
You moved further away from her. All Carol wanted was to get away from here. Away from you.
âYou going to the football game tonight?â she asked, running a hand through her hair.
You traced the patterns on your quilt, thinking about the pictures your friends were posting from the stadium. âYou know Iâm not,â you whispered.
She shrugged. âYou could. You know, if you wanted to.â
âNo. I canât.â Your voice was getting louder now, and you felt your face growing red. âItâs too loud, and there are too many people. And nobody wants me there anyway.â
âYou donât know that.â
Now you really felt like you could cry. âActually, I do.â
You and Carol sat in silence for a few minutes, you picking at the fabric of your quilt and Carol watching you. After a while, Carol hooked her pinky with yours and you sniffed, looking away.
Her voice was quiet now, kind. âYouâll find your people, Y/N. Theyâre out there.â
âI justâŚâ You sighed and tugged on your earlobe, a nervous tick. âI wish I could be like everyone else. Itâs so easy for them to make friends and I⌠I donât understand what Iâm doing wrong. Somethingâs wrong with me, Carol.â
âHey,â she said, tilting her head so you had to look her in the eyes. âNothing is wrong with you. Youâre the coolest person I know.â
You seemed unconvinced, so Carol laid it on harder.
âLook, they donât know what theyâre missing out on, okay? I used to think something was wrong with me, too. But I just had to find people who were like me.â
âReally?â
âReally. Why donât we go out tonight, huh? Just me and you? I want to hang out with you.â
You rolled your eyes. âYouâre just saying that because youâre my sister.â
âIâm not,â she insisted, dragging you off your bed. âWho else could I talk to about plane mechanics?â
Your face lit up. âYou got to see the engines?!â
âI learned all about the engines. Come on, we can go to the diner. I bet no oneâs there because theyâre all at the game.â
Breakfast for dinner at Patâs was a tradition for you and Carol. Sheâd started taking you after she got her driverâs license, to get you out of the house when your parents were fighting. You were old enough now that your parents fighting was old news, but the tradition had stayed alive.
Youâd been so many times that the nighttime waitress knew your order. Banana pancakes for you, with extra whipped cream, and the Thursday special for Carolâan English muffin topped with scrambled eggs and cheese with grits and sausage on the side. They always made it for her, even if it wasnât Thursday.
You cut your pancakes into careful triangles, feeling better already. There wasnât much that pancakes couldnât make better. You watched Carol salt and pepper her grits and felt a surge of love for her. She really did like you. She didnât have to hang out with you, but she did anyway. Carol was your person. And if sheâd found people in the Air Force, well, maybe youâd find people somewhere out there, too.
âYou found people in the Academy?â you asked her, mumbling through a mouthful of pancake.
âWhat?â
Oh, right, you thought. Context. âAt the Air Force. Did you find your people?â
âOh, umâŚâ She thought about it for a bit too long. She wasnât trying to find the answer, you realized. She already had it. She was trying to decide whether or not to share it with you.
âCarol.â She startled and blushed a bit as you stared at her. âI can tell youâre hiding something. Iâm not stupid.â
âI donât think youâreââ
âWhat happened? Did you get a boyfriend or something, and youâre afraid Mom and Dad will find out? I wonât tell, I promise.â
She bit her lip and exhaled deeply, just watching you. She glanced around the diner, then leaned toward you, her voice low and shaky. âI got⌠I got a girlfriend.â
âOh,â you said, the words bouncing around in your skull until they finally sunk in and made sense. âOh.â
Carol looked worried, almost scared. She was never scared. You didnât know what to say, how to make her feel not scared. You werenât good with feelings, even your own. You decided just to treat the revelation of Carol having a girlfriend the way youâd treat the news of her having a boyfriend.
âWhatâs her name?â you asked.
Carol visibly relaxed and, for just a brief moment, you saw the shine of tears in her eyes, but she knew you better than anyone. Knew that neither you nor her were very comfortable with crying. She beamed at you.
âMaria.â
âMaria what?â
âMaria Rambeau.â
You nodded approvingly, taking another bite of pancake. âThatâs a badass name. Is she in the pilot program, too?â
Carol nodded, growing more and more comfortable, even diving back into her bowl of grits. âSheâs so strong. Way stronger than me. And smart. And beautiful.â
At these last words, she blushed and looked around, as if afraid of being overhead. And for good reason. Bethany, Massachusetts, was not the place for a girl to like girls. All these small-town people with small-town minds, going to Mass every Sunday just like their parents had and their parents before them. Your father had hit you just once in your life, and it was after youâd said you didnât believe in God, that the idea of a higher power didnât make any sense.
Youâd kept your religious beliefs, or lack thereof, to yourself since, except with Carol who said you were probably right.
âCan I meet her sometime?â you asked.
âI hope so,â she said, and you could tell by the tenor of her voice that she really meant it. âI think you would like her, and she would like you.â
You wrinkled your nose. âWhy?â
Carol shrugged, chewing thoughtfully. âI donât know exactly. Sheâs just⌠sheâs a no-bullshit kind of person, you know? Like you. What you see is what you get. You donât have to guess where youâre at with her. Itâs nice. Refreshing.â
After you finished your meal and a long conversation about the particulars of fighter jet engines, Carol left some cash on the counter, and you followed her out to her old pickup truck, clambering into the passenger seat. She paused and looked at you, the key resting in the ignition.
âY/N?â she asked, her voice hesitant again.
âYeah?â
âCould you not tell Mom and Dad? About Maria?â
You met her eyes, fully, for the first time that evening. âI would never.â
She nodded, and you waited for her to start the car, but she still just stared into the distance.
âDo you think Iâm going to hell?â Her voice was so quiet you almost couldnât hear it.
âNo,â you said bluntly. âI donât believe in hell.â
At this, she started laughing, out of relief or amusement you didnât know.
âEven if I did,â you continued as she started the car and peeled out of the parking lot. âLoving someone seems like a stupid thing for God to send someone to hell for.â
âIt does, doesnât it?â
âAnd wouldnât everyone else who was like you be down there, too? I donât know, if I were Satan, I wouldnât punish people for being like me. Wouldnât I just be like, âYes! These are my kind of people!â I think if there was a hell, itâd just be a big party with people who donât like going to Mass.â
She ruffled the hair at the top of your head and you squirmed away, a bit too late. âYouâre pretty smart, you know that?â she said, smiling softly at you.
âYeah.â
âYouâre gonna find your people, Y/N. I promise. And, until then, youâve got me.â
âOnly until then?â
Carol chuckled and shoved your shoulder. âYou dork. After that, too.â And you knew that even when she was far away, even when she was hurtling through the air or holding hands with Maria, or laughing with her friends at the Air Force Academy, there was a part of Carol that was yours and always would be yours. Because she was your sister. She was your person. And you were hers.
#carol danvers#carol danvers x reader#carol danvers x sibling!reader#carol danvers x sister!reader#carol danvers fanfic#captain marvel#captain marvel fanfic#marvel#mcu#carol danvers x autistic!reader#carol danvers x autistic!sibling!reader
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In light of the big rebirth of Gravity Falls and surprisingly Bill/Ford.
I'd like (demand) a wholesome AU where Bill got therapy without being institutionalised after trying to start drama on earth, and instead finds Sixer entertaining enough to settle down for a bit, 'he's mortal' Bill thinks. 'He'll hang around for a few decades and be gone after Ford gets boring' Bill thinks (lies)
Ford still decides to hide his diary after a bit because of reasons I'm too lazy to come up with aside from snooping overnment agents, BUT when Stan comes over and sees the state his beautiful smart amazing older brother lives in is somehow worse than him who's currently wanted in multiple states he decides to help him out financially, Ford obviously doesn't want to just scam the town he lives at so he adds actually educational facts all around the piecs, like how an anatomically correct centaur works, thus the mystery shack still being a thing but probabky with a different name.
"THE ENIGMA CABIN" idk I gotta name this something other than "old men yaoi without the toxic radiation au"
Ford takes all the extra cash earned by the shack and tells Stan (this time NOT after having just reunited and with better wording) to live out his sailing dream and keep his research distant.
Stan does leave (peacefully might I add) but the fake ID's and other shady items still get left behind for the 'is he even our grunkle' thing to still happen.
Years go by and eventually the new pine twins get dumped at the cabin where grunkle Pines is waiting.
Basically just gravity falls except instead of a scamming funny grunkle we have an educational but socially distant (autistic) grunkle who's desperate trying to keep Mabel and Bill away from eachother because he's already endeared to her and Gravity Falls will NOT survive a Bill and Mabel team up.
Pacifica probably plays a slightly bigger role over the spirit thing, which probably intimidates Bill and causes problems, probably a dramtic argument or two.
Dipper gets therapy because I think it would be funny if him and Bill had the same therapist.
The end (pretend I did something funny here)
#billford#bill cipher#gravity falls#gravity falls au#stanford pines#stan pines#dipper pines#mabel pines#PLEASE#pretty pleeeeease#ENIGMA CABIN AU#ENIGMA CABIN#I still dont know how to tag
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you can't handle the uber instinct of my uber autism, observe
i love your writing so much i've been binging them until i've caught up with everything đ it's sooooo good i wanna save it and read it whenever i feel bored
if possible could i request hcs with danny, wesker, leon and ada with a gn!reader who often unknowingly rambles about their interests despite any circumstances?
truly we are all autistic about dbd (<- also autistic about dbd)
anddd thank you so so much!! i'm so glad you enjoy my writing that much! <33
Leon S. Kennedy:
Leon honestly admires your ability to enjoy any situation by talking about the things you like. It lifts his spirits, too, to see you so carefree and enjoying the moment. Even if the killer is a few feet away and you two are hiding in a locker.
Youâre great at helping kill time while doing generators like this, always having something to say and something to chat about. It can be boring doing generators, especially if the killer is busy with someone else, so having someone to talk to is nice.
He may not really know what youâre talking about â he doesnât know much about a lot of things, he never really had the time to be reading about different things before being taken due to his job â but he enjoys learning new things from someone as passionate as you. You make it fun.
When you realize you've been rambling to him and apologizes, he tells you that you don't need to. He appreciates the company and the conversation you provide, even if you don't realize it.
Ada Wong:
Ada may seem like sheâs not paying attention, and sometimes she may be devoting a little extra focus to looking out for the killer, but she always is paying attention to you. Sheâs just a little aloof and has trouble getting along with others, but she loves you and listens to you even if it may not look like it.
She enjoys the âbackground noiseâ you provide while you two work on generators. By focusing on your words more than the work, you help her a lot by relieving the pressure of getting it right. And sheâs grateful for that.
You quell her nerves by whispering to her when the two of you hide. The adrenaline tells her that she should tell you to keep quiet so youâre not found â but her love for you compels her to do the opposite. You being so carefree helps her calm down in stressful moments.
She never wants you to feel like you shouldnât talk about things you enjoy. She tells you that you never need to apologize for rambling, that she enjoys it, and she asks you to keep going if youâd like to. Sheâs soothed by the sound of your voice.
Danny Johnson / The Ghostface:
Danny absolutely loves you being such a chatterbox. Information is his bread and butter, and knowing more about you and what you like is one of his most favorite things. So he happily lets you talk whenever you like, even if heâs attempting to sneak around with Night Shroud. He just reminds you to whisper and let him do his work.
Heâs surprised when you even try to strike up a conversation about your interests while on the hook. Doesnât that hurt? But he shrugs and decides to let you continue. Who is he to stop you after all â and thereâs no rules that say you canât talk while on hook. He just hopes you donât accidentally give him away.
Truth be told, he probably already knows a lot about what you enjoy. That's his job, after all. He still lets you talk, though, of course â he would never deny you that. And he just loves listening to you, and surprising you by knowing precisely what you're going on about.
He thinks it's adorable when you realize how much you've been talking and get embarrassed. He always encourages you to go on and keep talking, he's riveted, he would love to hear more, please.
Albert Wesker / The Mastermind:
Wesker always loves learning, and believe it or not, he probably doesnât know much about what youâre rambling about. He doesnât have the time to waste on silly mortal things, you know, so chances are he wouldnât already know anything about it. And if heâs nothing else, Wesker is a seeker of knowledge.
He finds it amusing youâll always seek him out during trials to talk to him. And he always pays attention to you when you do, even while heâs trying to hunt down the other survivors. He finds it especially amusing when you run to catch up to him after he rushes to slam someone into a wall.
He tells you to hold on for a second when he carries someone off to a hook. When he returns to you, he tells you that you may continue. He needs to be focused to hook someone and doesnât want you thinking heâs not paying attention to you.
Every time you apologize for rambling, he insists that you continue. He wonât have you feeling ashamed for enjoying yourself. You deserve to know that your rambling isnât an issue and that he always has time for you, much more than seven minutes.
#inbox#leon s kennedy#ada wong#danny johnson#albert wesker#gender neutral reader#dbd imagines#dbd x reader#dbd x you#leon s kennedy x reader#ada wong x reader#danny johnson x reader#ghostface x reader#albert wesker x reader#the mastermind x reader
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Any Mallard McQuack HCâs you have?
By far not all of them (I'm too scatterbrained for my own good) but was able to compile some of them together with some basics.
These go for all mainline versions (original, 2010/16 comics (a.k.a. Prime dimension), DT17, 2023 comics) unless specified. (Some of these can be carried over to other versions of them to a extent.)
None of them are straight. Launchpad's Bi (canon), Drake's also Bi (91 def wasn't straight, but his attraction to women didn't feel like comphet (at least from a character standpoint. Writing on the other handâŚ)) and Gos is a Lesbian but the only one of the main ones who has that figured out is DT17. The other versions of her are 9-10 and haven't thought much about it.
Side note: Drake is Trans (but you problobly already knew that if you've been keeping up with my work. lol) 91 & 2010 Drake were shocked at S.H.U.S.H. helping him with his transition. (Should be noted that Trans healthcare is a very personal issue for one of the organization's biggest donors for some unknown reason.)
They're also all Autistic. Launchpad and Drake are canon (at the very least in DT17) but I don't think anything's really been mentioned behind the scenes for Gos (though the whole "spirit" thing gives me Autism vibes). 91 Drake's problobly the only member of the family who hasn't been formally diagnosed.
They all share one braincell. Sometimes none of them are holding it, but only one of them (usually Gos) can hold it at a time.
It's rare but whenever Drake is mad at Launchpad to the point of making him sleep on the couch, upon going to bed he almost immediately gets upset and lonely and begs Launchpad to come back. His record is about 30 minutes.
Gos does learn magic. I don't think she'd go back to that magic school, or that she'd get magic powers of her own, but she does study it with Morgana (a.k.a. "Aunt Morg"). DT17 Gos also practices with Lena and Violet.
Non-DT17 versions of Gos also gets more interested in science as she gets older. In a way it makes her feel closer to her grandpa as she fears her memories of him will eventually fade.
Launchpad also teaches Gos and Drake the basics of being a pilot. Thinks it's important that they know incase something happens to him. Also how to crash as safely as possible.
Also on that note it is impossible to get severely injured, let alone die from Launchpad's crashes. It's kindof his superpower.
They're a SEGA family. If given the option they'd go for the SEGA versions of a game. (Of course, this was easiest for the '91 versions. RIP) 91 Gos has gotten in fist fights over this.
And of course, Drakepad is endgame.
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Idk maybe it's because I'm autistic and don't get how things are supposed to work (I also haven't been able to work for over a decade due to disability so take this all with a heap of salt) but it feels like she needs someone to blame for problems.
You said last year there were three leads but this year you're doing the work of three on your own. Did they quit or get fired? Maybe someone else was the assigned "problem child" last year? But the fact that you didn't get any useful feedback at the times problems supposedly happened and they continued using your work...it just reads like a power trip on her end tbh
One of them left to become a veterinarian and do photography on the side. The other one of them left because there was a pretty big death in the family and also oldest kid was going through his senior year. Both have said that they might come back, but so far neither of them have committed.
The two of them were nearly perfect leads. Like they did all the paperwork properly and had all the details right and they didn't rush and they rarely did anything wrong.
Except when they did. And since I learned from one of them, I learned on all of her mistakes.
So I've had to be retrained.
Again and again and again.
There would typically only be one lead per job, so its not like I'm doing the work of three people the way I was doing the work of like... 7 people at the flower shop. I am still doing the work of one person, but I am doing it every day instead of only two to three times a week.
So the mistakes I learned are more obvious now and I am put in positions where previously I was not, like having to call as soon as there's a problem- because previously I was not often having these problems. I get dinged for not following procedure for this.
She tried training me on groups last year, but every time there was a chance to learn on the job something interrupted it. The first time it was because the person we had doing individuals was going painfully slowly and she had me set up my unit to clear out the bottleneck. The second time it was because our individuals photographer went into labor.
So I've been trained wrong on a bunch of things and had to be retrained. Attempts to train me properly have been interrupted, but she thinks that I received proper training and that I should be good to go.
So I do it. And I do it wrong. Over and over again.
And then I get the critique and there is disagreement between my boss and her boss about how I'm supposed to have done it.
And then I try again. And there's disagreement between my boss and me about how I was supposed to do it.
So my spirit is fuckin' crushed lately and I just want to get to the end of the season but of course there's YET ANOTHER critique at the end of the year where she says I'm bad at receiving critique when I've had to be retrained several times in several different areas, and she claims that NOTHING HAS CHANGED FROM MY INITIAL TRAINING even though documentably it HAS, which makes me feel like a fucking crazy person for suggesting that its hard to keep up with the changes sometimes.
And she says she's tired of arguing with me about how things are supposed to be done when I'm supposed to KNOW how things are done by now because this is my THIRD year in the business and why am I so argumentative?
At the last groups job, I asked her to help be out a little bit and check my work to make sure I was doing it right. I wasn't even done with the first group and she jumps in and tells me my numbers are wrong, changes it all and that's how we found that the guides were different. But when I talk to her about what made me mad there, she has a different story- she says that I did 2 or 3 classes wrong before she jumped in. Which is not what happened to my recollection.
I've asked her to take a more passive role and she got mad at me because she swears that she did take a passive role and now I'm being inconsistent- because I asked her for help and now I'm asking her not to get her hands in it. So now I'm confused again because I remember that day completely differently, and when I asked the rest of the crew they said that she was being pushy. Once she left and I was on my own, I did fine- but being unable to even get through a whole class without her jumping in to save the day kind of crushed me.
So I think she's misremembering a LOT. And making it my problem for bringing up inconsistencies, confusions, and changes. Either that or I have worse memory problems than I thought I did.
And now I'm being told that I go too fast. Because there were days last season where we were done an entire hour earlier than we were supposed to be. And I asked her- did people complain? Were my photos bad because I was fast?
No, no one complained. We had less retakes this year than we did any year.
If no one complained, then the problem is that I'm not taking time with the students to get the perfect photo. The problem is that you don't think I could possibly be that good and that fast at the same time. But if a kid only needs thirty seconds to get the pose, why should I take more time than is needed?
My photos have improved significantly from my first year. Oh my god, they've improved so much. But I'm struggling to learn a new, complicated thing for which I've gotten mixed messages and not gotten a lot of consistent guidance on.
And because I get confused when something is different from what was described, I am told that I can't take criticism.
Well yeah, no- if that's the criticism you've got for me, no I can't take criticism.
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the best supernatural episodes
according to an autistic person with a special interest and the ability to make a list.
if youre really serious about supernatural spoilers then maybe stay away :)
None of the season one episodes made in on the list but I will give an honorable mention to S1 E2 Wendigo.
S2 E11 Playthings - A classic, creepy girls in a creepy hotel. Special call out to Sam getting SLOPPY
S2 E16 Roadkill - There's a ghost haunting the highway. the Boys help the spirit move on. This is an early example of monster empathy
S2 E18 Hollywood Babylon - Dean loves hollywood. I love dean. this episode makes me kick my feet like a little girl and i will not defend myself.
S2 EP 20 What Was Shall Never Be - all I have in my notes for this one is "Dean Djinn Dream" which was enough for me to remember the episode and get misty eyes. This is SEASON 2 my son will never know peace.
S3 E5 Bedtime Stories -I had to check the wiki on this one, I think i liked it cause it referenced classic fairytales
S3 Ep11 Mystery Spot - "HEAT OF THE MOMENT" RISE AND SHINE SAMMY!
S3 E13 Ghostfacers! - Im a Facer through and through
S3 E16 No Rest for the Wicked - S3 finale and the Boys are facing consequences! Classic Dean, Sam and Bobby episode.
S4 E1 Lazerus Rising - First Cas Episode. That handprint makes me feel things.
S4 E6 Yellow Fever - What if Dean had anxiety (The Eye of the Tiger blooper is also at the end of the episode which gives it bonus points.
S4 E17 Wishful Thinking - Make a wish? was it for your teddy bear to be diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder? Well thats what youre getting!
S4 E17 It's a Terrible Life - Sam ~ the sales rep. Dean ~ middle management.
S4 E18 The Monster at the End of the Book - There are books about Sam and Dean?! Written by this guy who loves self insert character? Surely the entire show isn't about to take a tone shift?
S5 E3 Free to be You and Me - Sam and Dean are fighting again, but this time Dean has a new heavenly boy toy to play with instead. (Cas has no rizz yet it's actually a little painful to watch)
S5 E5 Fallen Idol - Okay the Wax People episode is on here for one reason and one reason only. Paris Hilton.
S5 E7 The Curious Case of Dean Winchester - Old man Dean and old man Bobby. This is also the episode for HH Husk kinnies.
S5 E8 Changing Channels - Dr Sexy MD is that you?!
S5 E9 The Real Ghostbuster - *in a grizzly voice* "I'm Dean Winchester, this is my brother Sam. Have you experienced anything strange?" "Dude that was so good! Now we can go solve the puzzle" "Man you're breaking the immersion!"
S5 E10 Abandon All Hope - This is here for Crowley's first appearance and not because the end will make you cry.
S5 E12 Swap Meat - "uh... its Audi Nos". Freaky Friday starring Sam Winchester! An angsty teen and April Kepner from Grey/Sloan Memorial Hospital.
S5 E16 Dark Side of the Moon - The Boys lives flash before their eyes. Dean is pissed forever about Sams.
S5 E19 Hammer of the Gods - this is for all my pagans out there!
S6 E4 A Weekend at Bobby's - What do you think this episodes about idjit.
S6 E15 The French Mistake -  âFor whatever reason, our life is a TV show.â âWhy?â âI don't know.â âNo, seriously. Why? Why would anybody want to watch our lives?âÂ
S7 E4 Defending your Life - consequences? for fucking people over? how about you stand trial.
S7 E20 The Girl with the Dungeons and Dragons Tattoo - The self insert character made for us :) Luv u 4ever Charlie XD
S8 E4 Bitten - found footage will always scare. this one reminds me that this show started as a psuedo horror.
S8 E8 hunteri heroci - Cas tries his hand at being a hunter
S8 E12 As Time Goes By - FINALLY THEY ARE CARVING TRAPS INTO BULLETS
S8 E17 Goodbye Stranger - verbatim here are my notes for this episode "Cas chooses Dean, but the way he handles Meg... Fuck Naomi"
S8 E18 Clip Show - If you only want to watch just one episode of Supernatural this should be it. It's not actually a clip show, theres a broment, bonding time with favorite characters and crazy plots that only supernatural could get away with.
S9 E5 Dog Dean Afternoon - Dean is finally a dog person
S9 E11 First Born - Another bro fight leads to shipping <3 SamxCas + DeanxCrowley <3
S9 E15 #thinman - the slender episode feat. GHOSTFACERS. You come away from this episode thinking "supernatural is so fucking gay why wont the boys kiss"
S9 E21 King of the Damned - my favorite crowley era change my mind. Also the way the Boys interrogate an angel is so funny
S10 E5 Fan Fiction - I would unironically fuck w a supernatural musical and if helluva/hazbin taught me anything the rest of you would too
S10 E6 Ask Jeeves - The Clue episode. (Pay attention to the improvised weapons Dean chooses. It brings me joy)
S10 E9 The Things we Left Behind - Cas is suffering a midlife crisis and his besties are there to help him repair his relationship with his daughter. Funnily enough, Crowley is also getting some family bonding in.
Okay, I'm all caught up on my list. Should I have stayed up late transcribing this with an 8am class tommarow?
Probably not but it did bring me great joy. Tell me your favorite episode! I'll continue to add to my list as I continue my rewatch :)
#supernatural#destiel#castiel#dean winchester#sam winchester#crowley#list#tumblr recommendations#episodes#im bad at tags#sam and dean#favorite
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I just gotta thank you. Not only are you an inspiring writer as a fellow autistic attempting to be a journalist, but youâre discussions on your journey with religion and how you donât really hate the Mormon church really helped me with understanding why my boyfriend still seems so attached to his religion. For context Iâm atheist because my autism never let me think a floating god in the sky watches my decisions to let me into heaven makes sense I guess, so it put me at odds with my very religious family my whole life. Cue trauma, I kinda hate religion on principle now. He very much does not. Went to church camp, homeschooled his whole life, the works. I love him dearly and know this doesnât make him a bad person, but religion still bothers me and it has for a long time that he at all still seems committed to it. Your explanations on how you still view yours greatly helped me understand how he could still feel connected when frankly he doesnât practice anymore. I know this is a lot to just say thanks, but you really are an amazing writer and a kindred spirit I think? Anyway you are very cool and thank you!
I get hating religion on principle. It's very easy to hate on principle. Hating something personally is hard when the persons involved put up with you as a teenagers. Everyone that met be before age 20 deserves a medal. Hard to hate someone that didn't hate you at your most hateable. I have no advice for the boyfriend, but with how much you're trying to get him, I hope he's making the same effort to you. I knew a few people that were majoring in journalism, and it looked hard. One of them took me on a journey to get a local crime story from a shop that just got robbed a few days ago - talking to that many absolute strangers took a very specific set of social skills. The town I grew up in wasn't small, but growing up Mormon is always kind of like growing up in a small town. It's uh. The whole field is big town thinking. I respect what it takes is what I'm trying to say. I think you're cool too. Good luck with college!
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As someone with autism, Satan with an autistic MC would be so wholesome and perfect...
Satan who makes sure a MC always has a jacket and a spare pair of plastic gloves handy to help them with their sensory issues.
Satan who takes over some of autistic MCâs chores, cleaning the dirty dishes and dealing with leftovers so that MC doesnât freak out when they have to touch it.
Satan who never leaves MCâs side at large gatherings lest they get overstimulated and run off again. The last time that happened it took everyone so long to find them. Luckily, MC was alright. They were tucked away in a small room in the castle to hide.
Satan who is perfectly alright with sitting silently in your room while the two of you work on your own things. Maayyybeee he wouldnât mind it if you wanted to scoot closer to him.
DOESNâT LET DIFFERENT FOODS TOUCH ON YOUR PLATE!! WILL START A RIOT IF HE FINDS THAT ANYONE HAS LET FOODS TOUCH ON YOUR PLATE!!
âŚahem
Satan who doesnât find MCâs tendency to disappear without a trace frustrating. He knows they like to go âexploringâ alone, wandering off for a short while before returning to his side per usual. Maybe when you grow close enough youâll take him on a little journey.
Satan who admires you and your love for certain things. No matter how trivial they may seem, he knows that those are the things that make up the world for you. Heâll gladly listen to you talk about your interests for hours.
Satan who takes your relationship as slow as you may need. Sexual intimacy doesnât equal love to him. Heâs okay with you touching him and not the other way around if thatâs what you feel comfortable with.
Satan who seems to be the only one who understands MCâs reluctance to physical touch. He avoids touching MC whenever possible. He shows his affection for MC in other ways.
Taking them to a quiet cat cafĂŠ.
Taking them to a new pop up event for their favorite anime.
Hell, he even downloaded Mononoke Land so that when they went on walks together he could catch spirits alongside them. (Heâs their only added friend on the game so he makes sure to send them gifts daily.)
When MC shyly hugs him for the first time he thinks he might combust on the spotâ itâs such a special occasion for him!
You think youâre a burden and nuisance because youâre so different, yet to Satan, thatâs what makes you so perfect. Itâs what makes him love you so much.
(p.s,,, if it wouldnât bother you I could be đanon or bitchass autistic anon! I donât know if you label your anons or not. :) )
((also donât feel pressured to respond or look at this ask! I just thought you might like it.))
This is so, so lovely and I really enjoyed reading all of your thoughts. And nobody has asked to be a tagged Anon before! Of course you can be đ Anon!
I feel like I don't have very much to say in response, because you've already put everything into words so wonderfully. I'm not autistic myself, but I know that there's some overlap with ADHD (my own diagnosis) when it comes to certain habits or behaviours, and I do some of the things that you've described so I feel like I can relate to a certain extent.
I do think that all of the OM boys would be supportive of an autistic partner (or any of the personal struggles that their partner might have, be they mental or physical) but I do also believe that Satan would be one of the best at intuitively knowing exactly what his partner wants and needs without having to ask for anything to be explained or spelled out for him.
Whether you HC Satan as autistic or not, he does have a lot of his own habits and behaviours that are somewhat similar, and he's good at figuring things out on his own even from very small or subtle hints.
If he sees you carefully separating the different foods on your plate (something many of his brothers would be too loud or rowdy during mealtimes to notice right away) he would make sure to keep your food clearly separated the next time it was his turn to make dinner, and would make sure to separate your food every time in the future as well.
If he notices the way you gently (or not-so-gently) pull away from physical contact, he will always be sure to refrain from touching you without your explicit permission; something that his other brothers (like Mammon, Asmo, or Beel, for example) might take longer to figure out, since they're just so used to hugging you or putting an arm around you without even thinking about it. Satan isn't the biggest fan of all the touchy-feely stuff either (we often see him yelling at his brothers not to touch him in the games) so he knows how you feel, and he doesn't want to intrude on your personal space.
He loves that you always listen to him whenever he has something to say, especially when he starts gushing at length about the current book he's reading or about the cat he saw on his way from from RAD that day. Nobody else really bothers to pay him any attention when he starts rambling like that - Levi is really the only one who can relate, but Levi also has trouble keeping himself from interrupting and going into his own long spiels. And Satan loves listening to you when you tell him all about your own hyperfixations in turn. It doesn't matter what you're rambling about, Satan is hanging on to every word.
Satan is a very meticulous person who would take his time to deeply and carefully consider all of the best ways he could support you and make you feel comfortable, without making you feel patronised or condescend to. He'd never want to make you feel like a child he was taking care of, because you are both perfectly equal in his eyes. He knows what it feels like to be seen as less than, thanks to many years of hinself only ever being seen as his rage. He never wants you to feel like just a diagnosis or just a disability. Like his Wrath, your autism is a part of you, but it is not all of you. It is not your entire identity or all that you are.
He loves you so, so much âĄ
#obey me#obey me nightbringer#omswd#obey me satan#satan#satan obey me#đ Anon#obey me headcanons#obey me hc#satan x reader#x reader#reader insert#obey me x reader
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Very random headcanons for the dokis living together (take this as poly dokis or friendship, idc)
Tw for small references to depression, disordered eating, self harm and implied abuse.
â˘They have a chore board to keep track of everything and remember who's doing what. It was Monika's idea and it works pretty well.
â˘One of the things they learn to memorize rather quickly is each other's eating habits. Sayori comfort eats, Natsuki often stops eating when stressed due to old habits from when she still lived with her dad, Yuri is picky due to sensory issues with texture (autistic Yuri!) and Monika literally forgets to eat if she's working too hard on something. They have each other's needs memorized, keep each other's preferences in mind when buying snacks and coax each other into better habits.
â˘Speaking of food, Natsuki is the chef, Monika is the second best cook and Sayori and Yuri are... not good. They're trying to learn though!
â˘There's a significant amount of pride merch around the house.
â˘Each of them has their own room!
â˘Sayori's walls are pastel blue and she painted little clouds on it. She also has plushies pretty much everywhere, and tries to sleep with all of them in the bed. Her bedside table is full of origami, always has some water so that she doesn't need to get up if she gets thirsty at night (she has spilled said water on her origami creations and ruined them more than once) and there's 3 drawers for different purposes: the "Fun drawer" has things she needs for her hobbies and little trinkets, the "Emergency drawer" has bandages and painkillers (since she hurts herself all the time by being clumsy) and the "Feelings drawer" has poems, notes with silly jokes or positive affirmations and pretty much anything that could either lift her spirits or help her feel enough to cry and let things out.
â˘Natsuki's walls are pastel pink and filled with posters of characters and artists she likes. She has a lot of fandom merch, as well as a full gaming pc set up (yes, even cat ears headphones). She also owns a heart shaped mirror, a hello kitty night light and her door has these "Don't disturb", "My room, my rules" signs but with more agressive wording and in pastel colors because she thinks mixing agressiveness with a softer look is funny.
â˘Yuri probably has the most "atmospheric" room by far. I'm talking scented candles, poterry decorations and such. Her walls are black, which makes her the only one who didn't go with her favorite color (her favorite is purple). Her reasoning is that it makes her feel grounded and sleep better. She has transparent boxes for her knive collection, an altar with crystals and one of her walls is full of polaroids, including photos of the club as well as photos of nature, architeture she found pretty and much more (pushing the "Yuri is into photography" agenda). And of course, books everywhere.
â˘Monika had the most trouble with her room because she never had the time to think much of it? Like, she had an idea of how she would organize it but decoration was tricky. After a while, she decided to paint the walls an earthy shade of green and get a bed curtain. She also has plants (plant mom Monika, anyone?), her piano and a record player. The only thing on her walls for a while were post its with little reminders, but then she managed to get her hands in some cool images and paintings. Her desk has a mug full of different pens and she has a mat that is white and fluffy.
â˘Don't be fooled, having cool rooms doesn't stop them from falling asleep in each other's rooms or together in the couch pretty often.
â˘They have movie nights weekly and take turns picking movies.
â˘Yuri genuinely tries to stop self harming, and the others help endlessly. There's a silent rule of not leaving Yuri alone for too long in days when she seems too tense, and instead offer to take her to a calming walk or anything else that might help her gather her thoughts.
â˘In fact, there's a lot of unspoken rules in the house.
â˘Another big one is not letting Monika overwork, and reminding her to take breaks when she's studying or preparing projects for the club.
â˘There's also "Don't question Sayori's sudden mood swings or innability to get out of bed, just help". They often bring her water and snacks on bed and remind her that they're there if she needs to vent. She rarely ever does that, but it's still nice to see how much they care.
â˘And of course, "Don't mention Natsuki's dad and what she went through with him unless it's 100% necessary or she brings it up herself". Of course all of them notice how Natsuki often flinches at loud voices, or how she still feels the need to hide her manga collection and other stuff sometimes, but they don't point it out. Instead, they just silently remind her that she's safe by lowering their voices when they startle her, giving her space when she wants, not going through her stuff, etc.
â˘They often find themselves copying each other or getting into each other's interests. Some months of living together and suddenly Monika is watching kids cartoons because of Sayori, Natsuki is getting into horror, Sayori sometimes finds herself copying Yuri's stims (she feels super bad because she doesn't want Yuri to think she's mocking her but Yuri actually finds it kind of endearing).
â˘Sharing clothes. Natsuki specifically is a certified clothes thief.
â˘Holidays are always cool, especially christmas and halloween. Decorations, fitting music, food and movies, all that stuff.
â˘Halloween specifically was a bit difficult the first time around because Yuri and Monika wanted to stay home and watch horror movies while Sayori and Natsuki wanted to trick or treat (Sayori because fun and candy and Natsuki because she worked hard on the costume). Yuri was anxious about talking to random people and Monika was tempted but thought they were too old for trick or treating, but they do end up going and having a lot of fun (the four of them still watched the horror movies when they got home though).
â˘They're all planning on starting therapy.
â˘"How do they get their money?" What are you, a cop?/j. I donât know either, I need to think of job headcanons or something.
#ddlc#doki doki literature club#ddlc sayori#sayori ddlc#ddlc natsuki#natsuki ddlc#ddlc yuri#yuri ddlc#ddlc monika#monika ddlc#headcanons#ddlc headcanons
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Hi, sorry to ask but have you written any fanfics where Jerry is autistic? I've read your autistic!morty fic and thought that was excellent. I'm trying to find Jerry-centric fanfics where he isn't mischaracterized/demonized. (Way too many people write Jerry as transphobic which -_-ll no he isn't)
Hi, no need to apologise! I haven't written any autistic Jerry fics and I'm not sure if I know of any (if anyone else does, please leave recs on this post!). I do 100% view him as autistic though. Thank you!
Yeah honestly Jerry being portrayed as transphobic is something that bothers me as a trans guy? I headcanon him as supportive but clueless/cringe at times (he a little confused but he got the spirit).
I do have a trans Morty WIP with a scene between Morty and Jerry, although Morty is still very early on in figuring out that he might be a guy, and Jerry kind of knows something is up but assumes Morty is a lesbian rather than a trans guy and so kind of fumbles but ultimately is trying to be supportive/nice. Morty does worry about Jerry not loving him anymore if he's trans, although this is Morty's POV rather than being objective/a thing that actually happens.
I'll leave the scene below the cut in case anyone's interested. Warnings for mention of periods (and them being referred to in a gendered way), fear of transphobia from parents, accidental misgendering (and misgendering/deadnaming of Morty in the text since this is only the very start of Morty's gender questioning).
âMorti? Rick said youâre sick. Are you OK?â Jerry opens the door. Morti quickly shoves her phone under her pillow. Thankfully, her dad is as oblivious as ever as he walks over and rests a hand against her forehead.
âYou donât feel warm. Is it, uh, you know,â Jerry points down towards his own abdomen, âwoman troubles?â he asks in an exaggerated stage whisper. Morti wants to die all over again. She presses her face into her pillow.
âHey, sweetheart, i-itâs OK.â Morti feels Jerry rest a tentative hand on her shoulder. âDo you need anything?â
Morti takes a few deep breaths to calm herself and then sits up.
âN-no, Dad, Iâm OK.â
âOK, honey.â Jerry wraps his arms around her and Morti canât help but wonder if he would still hug her like this if he knew what sheâd spent the past couple of hours reading about. She hugs him back tightly, suddenly unable to stop thinking that she might have to make the most of the affection while it lasts.
When Jerry pulls back, his face clouds with concern and Morti realises sheâs once again been crying. Sheâs getting really sick of that.
âMorti, honey, whatâs wrong?â
Morti feels the question writhing around in her gut until it chokes its way out of her mouth. âDad⌠youâd love me no matter what, right?â
âOf course, sweetie. No matter what, youâll always be my daughter.â
The words are meant to be a comfort, but all Morti can think about is the possibility that sheâs not his daughter.
âMorti? Are you gay? Itâs OK if youâre gay, you know.â As always, Jerry is well-intentioned but clueless. Truthfully, Mortiâs not really put much thought into her own sexual orientation, and itâs not her main concern right now. She shakes her head, and Jerry looks doubtful but leaves it.Â
After a few minutes, Morti works up the courage to speak again. âDad? Could-could you⌠tell me a story? Like when I was little?â she cringes as she says the words, knowing sheâs far too old to be asking for something like that. To her relief, Jerry smiles.
âSure thing, sweetie.âÂ
He launches into an improvised story, very similar to the ones she remembers him coming up with when she was younger. She has a memory of Summer complaining Jerryâs stories were boring, always demanding more action. However, once Summer had aged out of wanting a bedtime story and left Morti as the sole listener, Jerry had settled comfortably back into his original stories, which Morti found calming and reassuring.Â
Her dadâs voice relaxes her and she rests her head against the pillow, feeling her eyelids begin to droop. Jerryâs hand rests on her hair and strokes it gently, just as he used to all those years ago. Itâs enough to block out the negative thoughts for the time being, and Morti is so exhausted from the recent events that she soon drifts peacefully into sleep.
#rick and morty#rnm#morty smith#jerry smith#autistic jerry#autistic jerry smith#trans morty#trans morty smith#transphobia#i hope this is at least semi-coherent#the brain fog is bad rn đ
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time for another one of my deeply personal autistic ramblings, feel free to skip since this one it's a bit heavy and depressing and it's mostly to get this out of my chest. a literal scream to the void. and really personal. and depressing.
so. everyone that follows me already knows I'm a late diagnosed autistic person, right? funny thing it's that because nothing ever goes right because my therapist had several tragedies happening in her personal life at the time, she never sent me the report with the details of my diagnosis xd that was two years ago but now that she's okay, she offered to do several sessions with me + adding several other mental health assessments to what we did in the past (for free, ofc. we've done half of our scheduled sessions)
it's not a surprise that the results are fundamentally that I'm pretty fucked up and need therapy. but it's still hard to have test results that confirm it, and hear a professional tell me that I need to heal a lot of trauma, and confirm that I have rejection sensitive dysphoria, and concerningly high levels of social anxiety, and depression.
and I know I need help, but I also know that I'm absolutely tired. so so so fucking exhausted of trying. and add to that I've never, ever in my life, had that internal drive and motivation to keep going and achieving things, I don't understand (not now and not in the past, probably never in the future either) why people always talks like living is so important and the greatest thing ever, I honestly am here against my will and I just keep going to avoid hurting the people around me.
but I don't have any goals or ambitions, and sometimes I think about it and feel shame. most of the time I barely feel like a human being. I have no idea wtf I'm doing here, and it's like I'm constantly pretending to be human, while actually being, idk, several traumas and a braincell in a trench coat xd
and starting another attempt at therapy would require not only money (that I don't want to use for that, and psychological/psychiatric help is so expensive! and the meds too -_-) but also to delve into so many painful things that I don't want to remove anymore.
I hate that I'm the one that has to gather all the broken pieces to mend myself. I hate how lonely I feel. I hate how much of a failure I feel I am. I hate that there's no actual way to feel better without fighting so many things first.
all I want is to stop feeling this broken and exhausted ;=; and maybe a hug and a pat in the head.
today was the first day of a music festival that my sister invited me to and I wasn't even able to enjoy it. concerts used to make me feel so alive and happy, but I'm feeling more and more like an empty husk these days. it's like I'm barely able to enjoy nice things anymore. and I know that's the depression and burnout.
the only thing that gives me some happiness is writing my silly little fics. my withered soul suddenly blooms when I write my hallucinations xd I keep adding wips to the pile to give my mind a sense of future, I guess. something that's an excuse to be excited about.
ahhh, i'm just rambling at this point. let's close this horrible rant with a song.
it's actually my favorite song ever, probably that says a lot about me ahaha
#parameciam's autirants#yes i treat this blog as a diary and i'm not sorry#tonight I'm sad and hating everything#wall of text#Spotify
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Laurie Strode and Annie Brackett Evidence
Seeing as how I'm hyperfocusing on Halloween right now and no-one else online ships this (especially 1978 Laurnie) except for me and a handful of other people (shout out to this amazing edit on tiktok) I thought I'd give my pitch for it here.
First of all since I know a lot of you don't care about "canon evidence" and like ships more for the vibes I'll go over their dynamic for anyone who's uninitiated or hasn't seen Halloween in a while.
Laurie Strode in 1978 is a shy, sweet, probably autistic but that's a post for another day, 17-year-old girl. She likes babysitting, reading, knitting, and hanging out with her friends. She spends most of her time babysitting because she can never find a date (and apparently teenage girls in the 70s had no other hobbies XD).
Annie Brackett is one of Laurie's two best friends. She lives a few houses down from Laurie and they seem to spend a lot of time together. Annie is snarky, sarcastic, and witty. In the novelization she's said to always be in a rush for no discernable reason and she was apparently the first among her peers to lose her virginity.
Annie and Laurie have a lot of teasing banter throughout the film.
For my more concrete evidence, I have a few points I can make:
In the novelization, after making one of her jokes, Annie calls Laurie "cute" and ruffles her hair
Also in the novelization, when asking Laurie why she never goes out, Annie says "do you prefer girls? I'll try anything once"
When Annie calls her on the phone, Laurie laughs at one of her jokes while twirling her hair (although this is a stim Laurie has throughout the movie)
At one point, Annie feeds a piece of popcorn to Laurie in a vaguely homoerotic way
Now for some counterevidence:
Annie tends to poke fun at Laurie for never going out in most of their conversations. While these jabs do occasionally feel a bit mean-spirited, she does try to set Laurie up with Ben Tramer in what seems to be a genuine attempt to help her, but her refusing to back down from the arrangement is also a bit dickish.
Overall, because of what little screentime they get in the 1978 movie, it's hard to tell how seriously Laurie's friend group's teasing is. In the novelization the jokes and jabs are a bit more evenly spread throughout the group, whereas the movie tends to have a lot of jokes at Laurie's expense. I feel like "Oh great I have three options: watch the kid sleep, listen to Lynda screw around or talk to you" (a line from Annie) gives the impression that Annie doesn't like Laurie's company, which isn't great for the ship, or their friendship in general, but we do have to keep in mind she is in a particularly bad mood during this scene because her boyfriend Paul has just told her he's grounded and can't see her tonight. It's quite possible she's usually nicer to Laurie, particularly given their other scenes together.
The not-quite-picture-perfect friendship isn't a deal-breaker for the ship, though. In fact, the fact Laurie puts up with Annie's shortcomings might be a sign of a crush (although that's obviously not healthy, girl you can do better) and Annie is shown to genuinely care about Laurie.
Sashanne from Amphibia comes to mind when thinking of similar ships with toxic friend dynamics. I could see Annie going on a similar redemption arc (though obviously her behavior is not nearly as cruel or manipulative as Sasha's) and learning to appreciate Laurie more.
That isn't necessary though, as I could also see their interactions in the movie being perfectly harmless if given enough context (How long have they been friends? How often is Annie actually a GOOD friend to Laurie? Does Laurie tease Annie like this too? (we do see a little bit of this in the movie))
Now I bet you're wondering: But Mx Coolandunique, what about when Laurie tells Annie she wants to go out with Ben Tramer? Or Annie's boyfriend Paul? They're clearly interested in boys! To that I say: bisexual until proven straight, and honey, there ain't no proving these girls straight.
Annie and El Jerko are more casual than anything and Laurie might have mentioned Tramer to cover her much stronger, more embarrassing, and less socially acceptable crush (who she could NEVER ask to the dance in a million years unlessyouwanttowriteafanficaboutthatguyspleaseineedlaurniefanficitdoesn'thavetobethedancejustsomemore78laurnieimeanilike07laurniebutplease)
Overall, Laurie and Annie have an intriguing friendship dynamic with some homoerotic undertones, and would make a very interesting friends-to-lovers dynamic with lots of interesting bumps along the way. This is my pitch please someone write or draw these two they're such a rarepair it's a crime.
#there ship name shall be#Laurnie#please use this now#unless you can think of a better one in which case please tell me#this isn't Ben Tramer hate btw ik he's a non-character but I've built a separate headcanon around him#when they combine I call the three of them Halloamory#Halloween#Halloween 1978#laurie strode#laurie strode x annie brackett#annie brackett
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....hm....what about affogato x reader post banishment? Like rn he is out of the Kingdom and out in the world...imagine if he happens to bump into y/n while he was out! Also to make this unique if ya want:
Say this y/n is....easily flustered, and easily melts to physical affection like cuddles...
(Bonus if ya also make them autistic to make em more relatable but if ya don't wanna do this bit, I understand. Just....ngl I'd be putty in this man's hands lol! Be his personal putty and/or teddy bear...sorry if I'm going on too long just Simp HARD for him!)
I love this I love this. Although I don't know how to word name for it properly uh well
Affogato cookie x reader
I think their dynamic what would bring them together would be two travelers sharing their journey, since it's technically bump into each other
â Actually it's a luck for him to bump into reader, because, damn, as soon as he starts with his usual type of speaking oh well
â Reader is out. Complete mess, very confused, flustered mess. Let's be real not many cookies act like Affogato
â And of course Affogato would find it amusing, he used to be admired, but never it was been so obvious to him
â Strangely enough he likes this type of dynamic. Who wouldn't? If it's goes so easily to him, why don't let his guard down a little...
â Yeah guess who let his guard down enough to actually fall very hard for reader?
Oh yeah my favorite dynamic fell first x fell harder. don't mind if I do
â Although it's quite clear since he started to get a bit handsy. He not going a good job hiding his crush on you
â And it's visible because he is standoffish, with mysterious aura, literally something mystical what you meet at your path, making you wondering if it's really a cookie and not some kind of spirit
â He just like an idol, something intangible and magical
â And then he occasionally started to brush your hair from your face, giving you his hand if when you pass a difficult section of the road to help you
â It would definitely gave you ghostly feeling of his hand touching yours for hours, even if it lasts a couple of seconds
â Yeah the just an aftermath of it would keep you up at night, his gloved hand touching your skin, the soft pressure of his delicate fingers... Making your heart flutter a bit
â He is so perfect, it's not even funny. While you are becoming a complete mess around him
â He would react actually quite calmly, on your flusterness, with a faint giggle, while he covered his face with his long sleeve
â And oh boy don't get me started on a first kiss
â The way he would carefully take your chin, lifting your completely red face to his. Despite the long adventure, his lips felt like luxurious silk against yours, even a little movement of his lips make you forget about the world around. Feeling just his lips and his soft fingertips still resting on your chin.
â Yeah...after this kiss he would definitely look at you like content fox, squinting his eyes a little, while his fingertips faintly touching his lips
â Affogato closed his eyes "How amusing, you not only look like a delicate flower, but even taste like the finest nectar. Now I envy the sun, I would love to be able to touch your lips every second you are in my light"
â As I already stated, he smells nice, feels nice and talk nice so imagine to cuddle with him
â His fingers slowly slide on your back, while your face completely nuzzle into his furr and silky cape, you touch it with your hand, running fingers through it.
â Actually I think he literally walking, talking, breathing antistress. He doesn't mind if his long sleeve been used as something you would use to calm down while you move the fabric between your fingers.
â Besides he is extremely good with helping if you happen to have a meltdow, not only because he so nice to the touch, what would make you ground a bit, but also he knows enough breathing and other practices which would help your mind to come in peace
â And I need to add one more thing. His fingers perfect to run through skin of your head, and overall he knows a thing or two about massages
â Besides since you are already literally melting in his arms, why not make it even more melting experience by adding his hands moving around your body
â Oh yeah speaking of bumping, then you bumped at him it was the phew occasions then his perfect aura disappear making him yelp in surprise
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Uhhhhh I think I overdid this request
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I hope you like it
#cookie run#crk x you#affogato cookie#affogato cookie x reader#crk x reader#cookie run kingdom#crk affogato#affogato cookie x you#affogato cookie crk
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I'm not Christian anymore but I still think my grandpa was a damn good Christian.
I don't know where he stood with LGBTQ+ issues. Probably safe to say he wasn't supportive.
But he was supportive of his community.
Whenever someone needed help, Christian or not, he was there.
When someone couldn't pay their water bill, he'd go pay it for them even if they weren't a member of his church.
He wasn't always easy to get along with. He definitely left his kids with some issues. He 100% was autistic and ADHD (I'm allowed to say that, I got it from him!) and didn't know it, causing a lot of conflict.
But he did right by his community.
If ever there was someone who truly represented the good parts of Christianity, it was him. He would give a stranger the shirt off his back. He instilled a spirit of giving in me.
He wasn't perfect, but I know he helped countless people. Either through his acts, with financial help, or by just being there for them.
He ran his church as ethically as a church can be run. He always consulted with members before making in major choices about where contributions went and he took only what was a reasonable paycheck for himself out of it.
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