#He raped a mother while the other guy raped the 11 year old girl

[coochiequeens]

Fuck Newsweek! I'm usually against the death penalty but that crime was so heinous he and the other guy should have fried.

By Genevieve Gluck February 3, 2025

A sadistic killer serving life for the brutal murder of a mother and her two daughters has received a sympathetic profile in Newsweek that has sparked outrage. In the interview, Steven Hayes, who is now calling himself Linda Mai Lee, blamed his “gender identity” woes for the killings, and promoted “gender affirming care” for inmates.

Hayes is currently serving six life sentences and a maximum sentence of 999 years, plus 99 months and 999 days, at Oregon State Penitentiary for the Connecticut home invasion and slaughter of Jennifer Hawke-Petit and her two young daughters. The 2007 killings, which shook the country due to the brutality, has come to be known as the Cheshire murders.

In his interview with Newsweek, Hayes told reporter Joshua Rhett Miller that he was “happy to be alive” since he began claiming to be a transgender woman and started taking female hormones in 2018. Hayes said that he has been provided with makeup, jewelry, and women’s underwear, including bras. The fetish items, Newsweek states, “eliminated [his] thoughts of suicide,” and Hayes is now seeking to undergo a breast augmentation and hair replacement procedure.

“My whole life I hid who I truly was and tried to deny it to myself,” Hayes said. “I had so much hate for who I was pretending to be, I stayed high and always wanted to die.”

Referring to the violent killer with feminine pronouns, Newsweek reported that “her former anger” which led to the slaughter of the Petit family “had been fueled by the question of her gender identity,” and that Hayes was now participating in Equality-8, a club for “LGBTQ” inmates.

When speaking with Miller, Hayes claimed to have been diagnosed with gender dysphoria at the age of 16, but curiously was not told of the diagnosis at the time – leading to a storm of “intolerance” brewing inside of him, and resulting in the killing spree for which he was convicted.

“I hurt, so I hurt others,” Hayes said. Newsweek, while portraying the convicted rapist and murderer sympathetically, added: “According to research by the Williams Institute at UCLA School of Law, transgender people are over four times more likely than others to be victims of violent crime.”

In the early hours of July 23, 2007, Hayes, along with accomplice Joshua Komiserjevsky whom he met at a halfway house, broke into the Petit family’s home in Cheshire, Connecticut. The two men would then enact a horrific seven-hour crime spree that would result in the sadistic killings of mother Jennifer Hawke-Petit and her two daughters, Michaela, 11, and Hayley, 17.

Upon entering their home, Komiserjevsky proceeded to beat Dr. William Petit with a baseball bat before restraining him in the basement. Hayes and Komisarjevsky bound Jennifer, Michaela, and Hayley by their wrists and ankles to their bedposts and placed pillowcases over their heads.

The two men then ransacked the Petit home in a frenzied search for cash. Hayes was spotted on a gas station surveillance camera purchasing $10 worth of gasoline. Dissatisfied with the spoils of their burglary, Hayes abducted Jennifer and drove her to the bank in the morning, forcing her to withdraw $15,000 from her line of credit.

Hawke-Petit was able to inform the bank teller that she and her family were being held hostage by the men, and that they were threatening to kill them. The bank manager called the police while she was still with the teller. The Cheshire police then dispatched a crew of officers, who sent up a vehicle perimeter around the Petit’s house, while concealing their presence.

After Hayes returned from the bank with Jennifer, both he and Komiserjevsky escalated their brutality. Komiserjevsky raped 11 year-old Michaela, who he had spotted at the supermarket the day before. Prosecutors would later argue in court that the entire spree had been motivated by Komiserjevsky’s interest in sexually abusing the young girl. Komisarjevsky photographed the assault and rape on his cell phone.

Hayes raped Jennifer’s corpse after strangling her to death with a pair of stockings, and the two men doused her lifeless body in gasoline. They also poured gasoline on the two girls, who were still alive and bound in their rooms, before setting the house ablaze. Hayley managed to break free of her restraints and ran out of her bedroom, but collapsed and died of smoke inhalation in the hallway. Young Michaela’s body was found in her bed, her hands tied to the frame.

William Petit was the sole survivor of the slaughter. He had successfully freed himself, exited the house through the basement, and crawled to a neighbor’s house.

Both confessed to their crimes when questioned by police, and both would write letters boasting about the murders. Hayes was convicted in October 2010, and sentenced to death that December. Komisarjevsky was found guilty the following year and received the death sentence, as well, but the two killers would later have their sentences revised to life terms in prison.

Ultimately, the revised sentence would come even after claims made by Hayes in October 2011 that he had murdered 17 other women, including hitchhikers, run-aways, and sex trafficking victims. During Komisarjevsky’s trial Hayes had been conducting written correspondences in which he had made the claims, which local press described as a “twisted pornographic fantasy,” in a three-page handwritten letter on notebook paper.

“Yes, I’ve killed before,” Hayes bragged. “I have 17 kills throughout the Northeast United States. Perfect victims and well-executed, controlled endeavors.”

The letter stated that Hayes was willing to provide details about “every victim, all 17, and where they can be found and the whole life story behind it.” He also claimed to have taken pleasure in forcing the victims to write goodbye letters to their loved ones in such a manner as to make their disappearances seem voluntary.

“With most, a second and third note would be written, by the girls themselves, and I would mail these weeks and months later. The notes would be detailed and disarming. This was key because while the girl would be gone within hours, the notes gave the appearance of what I wanted, a runaway or a girl who left her boyfriend, or a hooker drug addict who went to greener pastures,” Hayes said. “Easy pesy.”

In the letter, Hayes also criticized his partner in crime for not being “worthy” of him. “I’ve searched my whole life for someone who could embrace and had the capacity for evil as I possess,” Hayes said. “I thought I finally found it in Josh… But events show Josh, while (he) had the proper evil intent, lacked in the most serious aspects, commitment and control.”

“So yes,” Hayes wrote, “the Petit home invasion was a dry run in the partnership between Josh and myself. I do now realize that had we gotten away, I would have killed Josh. He was not even close to being worthy of my partnership.”

Hayes would later recant the claims, saying he fabricated them in an attempt to be killed more swiftly. Bizarrely, while already on death row, Hayes said he wrote about killing 17 other women because he wanted police to grant his request for soda, a pepperoni pizza, and oysters with hot sauce. Hayes has a lethal allergy to oysters and therefore the letter confessing to over a dozen murders, he said, was an elaborate rouse to commit suicide.

The death sentences doled out to Hayes and Komisarjevsky were vacated in August 2015, when the Connecticut Supreme Court ruled that the death penalty was unconstitutional and retroactively commuted all death sentences to life imprisonment.

While incarcerated at SCI Greene, a state prison in Pennsylvania, Hayes told Newsweek that he first became aware of transgenderism via an inmate named William Scott, who Hayes refers to as “Kim.” According to Hayes, Scott slipped information for a transgender support group into his cell in 2018.

Hayes told the outlet that the Cheshire murders would never have happened if he had “accepted” himself earlier.

“Every moment of that night haunts me because that is not who I am as a person… What happened goes against everything I believe and will haunt me forever. What makes it worse is knowing that I would never have been in that situation if I had accepted who I am sooner. I could have prevented years of pain I caused everyone if I had only accepted myself.”

In 2019, Hayes told listeners of a podcast hosted by Joe Tomaso that he had begun identifying as woman while in SCI Greene, and that he had been cited for contraband because he had a hand-fashioned bow in his hair and altered his prison gear to be more “feminine.” It was while he was at SCI Greene that Hayes changed his name, noting that he adopted the surname “Lee” in honor of a man he had been in a sexual relationship with at the facility.

“I did finally openly admit my personal truth that I am transgender and lived a life of severe gender dysphoria,” Hayes said. The inmate is currently proceeding in an ongoing lawsuit demanding $150,000 from the Pennsylvania Department of Corrections for having previously confiscated his “gender affirming” items. In 2023, he was transferred to Oregon State Penitentiary, which he described as being “amazing by comparison” to Pennsylvania.

However, Hayes’ repeat claims of “gender dysphoria” are somewhat contradicted by expert testimony that was given by forensic psychiatrist Dr. Eric Goldsmith for the defense team during Hayes’ trial. According to Goldsmith, Hayes was motivated by a sexual fetish, not by “gender dysphoria.”

Since the age of 16, Hayes had been in and out of prison for charges ranging from writing bad checks to petty larceny. From a young age, Hayes learned how to manipulate those around him. While being held at the Cheshire Correctional Institution at the age of 17, Hayes penned a letter to prison officials seeking to have his sentence reduced.

“I feel that in the three months I have been here at Cheshire I have learned that I cannot go around breaking the law and expect to get away with it. I know what I did was inexcusable, but I will promise anything that it will never happen again,” Hayes wrote. “You have probably heard promises before, so all I can ask is that you accept my promise as the truth.”

During Komisarjevky’s trial in 2011, his legal counsel said Hayes checked out 24 fictional books in prison the year before the home invasion. Komisarjevsky’s attorneys said the majority of the books, according to the Connecticut state Department of Corrections, “pertain to very violent murders to include strangulation, rape, arson, serial killing, satanic torture and the burning of victims. Most victims are women.”

Currently, the Wikipedia entry on the Cheshire murders lists Hayes under the name “Linda” and refers to him with feminine pronouns. The site’s “talk” page for the article, which provides guidelines for editors, advises that the article “should adhere to the gender identity guideline because it contains material about one or more trans women.”

“Precedence should be given to self-designation as reported in the most up-to-date reliable sources, anywhere in article space, even when it doesn’t match what’s most common in reliable sources,” read the Wikipedia recommendations. Any person whose gender might be questioned should be referred to by the pronouns, possessive adjectives, and gendered nouns that reflect that person’s latest expressed gender self-identification.”

The issue of referring to Hayes as though he were actually a woman named Linda is a contentious one, with disapproval being expressed by Wikipedia users and editors. “This is a rapist and a murderer, and he only started identifying as a woman decades after his crime, yet you call him ‘she’ when talking about the rape and murder. This is ridiculous and an insult to the victims,” one critic remarked.

“Groomers supporting rapists and murderers. I stopped financially supporting Wikipedia years ago. I don’t regret it,” replied another individual.

The details of the "Cheshire Murders" on July 23, 2007 shocked the country. The court heard how Hayes and his accomplice Joshua Komisarjevsky broke into the home and Jennifer was forced to go to a bank to withdraw $15,000 from her account. Afterwards, Hayes raped her and strangled her to death. Komisarjevsky raped 11 year-old Michaela. The pair took pictures of their attacks, with one photo showing Michaela bound, partly naked and with a pillow case over her face. Michaela and 17-year-old Hayley were tied to their beds as Hayes and his accomplice doused the house in gasoline and set it ablaze — leaving the children to die of smoke inhalation. The only survivor was William Petit Jr., who was tied up and beaten with a baseball bat.

The prosecutor described the attack as "evil" and "shockingly brutal" and they were initially sentenced to death. The sentences were later reduced to life without parole.

Hayes — now Linda Mai Lee after finalizing a name change this month — said her former anger had been fueled by the question of her gender identity. Now, 61, she said she finally felt comfortable living as a woman in the Oregon State Penitentiary. Komisarjevsky is now 44. Newsweek was unable to reach him for comment.

Dr. William A. Petit Jr. 50, and his wife, Jennifer Hawke-Petit, 48, with their daughters Hayley, 17, and Michaela, 11

[xxxg0ryygurlll13xxx]

ok so i just watched season 3 ep 4 of Moral Orel and i have thoughts

if u don’t know that episode is what got the show canceled it’s on HBO Max to stream as season 3 ep 4 even tho it was originally un-aired. and holy shit its heavy.

so the context of moral orel (great show) is a satirical representation of WASPy midwestern america it pokes fun at some serious issues like religious guilt, alcoholism, drug abuse and much more all through the innocent eyes of an 11-13 year old boy named Orel. it touches on heavy things included shame and child sexual assault. there’s an ep in season one where after orel learns he should never release sperm unless for procreation he sneaks into women’s homes and impregnates them via um a piping bag…..yea it’s gross and weird and u should probably skip that ep.

my point in mentioning that is that in this episode that was turned down by adult swim despite them telling the creators that they should go darker with episode themes there are many many many mentions of CSA, abuse, genital mutilation among other things.

this didn’t air because it was too dark, but having sexual assault be the butt of the joke instead of showing real experiences people have and real effects these things have on people’s lives was fine????

the plot of the episode follows 3 women the main women of the whole show, Nurse Bendy, Ms. Censordoll and Ms Sculptham they all live in an apartment complex “for spinsters” a very run of the mill kinda funny bit for the show.

each one of these women have suffered some form of obvious sexual trauma. Nurse Bendy has been essentially used her whole life from the principal of her school having an afffair w her to the obvious hints of CSA. her apartment is brightly colored, plastic children’s furniture, toys and stuffies everywhere. it looks like a little girls room. she also talks in a way that a child would saying words like “adulty” and “starvished” and using improper grammar.

Ms Sculptham has extreme OCD and was raped by a serial rapist in the area and ended up needing an abortion shortly after. her apartment is covered in newspaper clippings covering the rapes (furthering the show’s representation of sexism in headlines also in a previous episode she can be seen in her classroom cutting up a newspaper covering the story). she left her door unlocked on purpose that night to lure him in, she’s also seen staring at his reflection in her mirror while making certain uh noises showing that somehow deep inside her she had a sort of fantasy of this happening, until it did.

Ms Censordoll who part of her character is that she has an odd obsession with eggs is seen entering her apartment. shortly after the egg man (supplier?? the guy she gets eggs from) calls. she specifies that this time she wants fertilized eggs “teeming with life” the man is grossed out but agrees to give her them if she shows him her chest. she agrees. not long after that her mother calls. she fights with her about how when she was an infant she had her uterus taken out by her mother. for no reason other than to be “free from conception”. she yells saying that she’s so holy because of this her mother says she’s acting “holier than thou” to which Ms Censordoll says “i am not holier than thou but i am holier than you” and hangs up. before this call she is seen laying on her bed holding an egg where her uterus would be on her abdomen.

now this episode was not aired due to its “dark and disturbing” content and themes and would ultimately be what ended the show entirely. the description for the episode on HBO is “the final nail in the shows coffin” and nothing else. as i mentioned before this show touches on many disturbing things including sexual assault but it was only ok it seemed when it was the butt of the joke. as dark and disturbing as it is. it’s real these things effect people in ways like this. from Nurse Bendys childlike talking and decorating to Ms Sculptham needing to lock and unlock her door to Ms Censordoll having an obsession with eggs. this is how this effects people real people. it’s a dark and depressing episode that will 100% make you cry but i do think it’s worth a watch.

the whole show is great it has funny plots and more serious plot’s especially dealing with Orels abusive alcoholic father. it shines a light on how extreme religious beliefs can affect a person especially a child and how indoctrination and lack of questioning affect a child. the show is crazy but if you grew up religious esp christian and are no longer or if you just like provocative south park-esque humor i recommend it. but god this episode was crazy.

[mytastessuck]

Bo Burnham: what. (Full Show)

Welcome to my first live show review and the last (sort-of) album review I'll do for this era of the blog.

I've been a fan of Bo Burnham since I saw the "Words Words Words" music video on Comedy Central when I was in my teens. Then I saw the live show for that and I was hooked, making a channel for him on Pandora (remember that) and looking up everything he did for music. I even got the Egghead poetry book for Christmas. I'm proud to say that, while his older stuff really doesn't hold up, he's more than noticed and has evolved to stay with the times, which I'm certain he's proud that he still meets my high standards for performers. And speaking of performers...for this review, I will be going by the tracklisting on the album instead of events as they happen in the show because the jokes are...pretty decent actually but I don't feel like stopping to rank each and every one, especially when they're so quick and simple. I want to go into his songs instead of his actual moments of stand-up because, like Kaiser Neko (or maybe it was Lanipator?) once sort of criticized, I think he's a better performer than a comedian. He knows how to sign, compose and play to a crowd better than carry an entire show with just jokes. So that's what I'll be focusing on. Thanks for reading the ramble and enjoy this review of the free show.

Intro

Like I said, better performer than comedian. Watch him do a bunch of pre-planned gags to a great track and make it all work with little moments of prop humor. Best bits include "Prolonged Eye Contact" and the moment where he spits up the invisible water.

Track Score: 10/10

2. A World On Fire

I don't care if it's quicker than his jokes. This is a solid gag.

Track Score: 8/10

3. Sad

As a person with empathy issues, I know exactly how debilitating it is to possess when the world sucks so much. So good on Bo for making a song that makes fun of it. Good on him.

Track Score: 9/10

4. I Fuck Sluts

Didn't need the purpose of the poem explained at the end but I get that's part of the joke. Excellent show of how misogyny can develop in others though.

Track Score: 9/10

5. What Did I Do Last Night?

Better quick joke. Love it lots and it's always what I think of when I hear the title phrase.

Track Score: 10/10

6. Let Brain, Right Brain

Cool song with a cool concept. It's interesting to see a guy therapize himself on stage and he gives life to both parts of his brain in interesting ways. This is why he acts now on occasion.

Track Score: 9/10

7. #deep

#justsmartassthings. Funny song. I forgot how well he could sing while still messing around.

Track Score: 9/10

8. Beating Off In A Minor

Really need to see this one on video to appreciate it. Even those without a penis can barely handle the second-hand cringe...

Track Score: 10/10

9. Poems

They're alright, though you're better off just getting the book. I personally recommend Perfect.

Track Score: 7/10

10. From God's Perspective

Alright, the crown jewel of the show. Still holds up today, even the rape line surprisingly. Although getting so judgemental over people abstaining from pork might offend Haram or Kashrut followers...either way, still worth a listen.

Track Score: 9/10

11. Andy The Frog

Bit of a meh shaggy dog story. Not even bad, just not on the caliber of the other parts of the show.

Track Score: 6/10

12. Out Of The Abyss

See, on the CD, this is Bo interacting with a fourteen year old attending the concert with his mother by using the joke we see in the video of a pedophile trying to lure in a child with a candy bar. He also tells a girl who loves him that she doesn't and explains what a parasocial relationship. So listen to that when you have the chance instead of the show which is just the pedophile joke by its lonely self.

Track Score (live show): 7/10

13. Repeat Stuff

This was a single and it deserved to be because Bo went off with this one. Pop, idol music, teen bop? They've apparently had it too good for too long because Bo tears them apart and still has time to get the audience to participate in a mini-rally while he does so. Probably his best work...and still relevant!

Track score: 10/10

14. We Think We Know You

Damn...greatest way to end the show. You know, for a while, TV Tropes had a entry called Becoming The Mask on Bo's page that accused Bo of becoming lost in his stage persona for a while. Their sources? Some fans...yeah, remember to stay woke on stupid wikis, guys. It's still there...so this song will always be relevant.

Track Score: 11/10

Show Score: 8.9/10

Gonna take a break for the rest of the week then, and I might be lowballing here, but I think I'll have the rest of the songs taken care of in a few weeks. See you then!

[jt-artsandfics]

So I don't knwo if anyone will actually ever read this. Maybe if I post it one day but who knows. But hi.

I'm Julian. T in a 21 year old transgender aboriginal guy. from the small town of G.H.M Austraila. And this is my life story.

I was originally born Tareena with a different middle and last name. July is my birth month. And I was born in 2000. I was a very sick baby my mother was in labour for 36 hours with me. I am her first born.

I got really sick becuase I had fluid in my lungs, I was lucky that I survived, But I did. I don't remember much of my younger childhood other then my parents fighting. My father was my mother's drug dealer back in high school. And she was daughter of the local police chief.

I remember my first ever day at school. I was bawling my eyes out and I had the most horrendous shade of red lipstick smeared on my lips.

That was the year I met my best friend for life/my brother from another mother. His name is Ben. He was the only one I really liked at school most of the other kids didn't get along with me. But I had him.

He has been there for me thought everything. When I had just turned 7 my aunt and uncle got married. It was a beautiful wedding. But if only I knew what it entitled. That was the same year my parents broke up and more.

That was the year alot of stuff started. The sexual abuse and molesting from my uncle. I still remember it all very vividly to the point I can walk though one go the buildings today and point out exact spots where he would hide with use to touch us.

I was lucky, my cousin walked in on us when my uncle was going to go further then he normally did. If it was for him at that time I most likely would have been raped.

I didn't really understand but I knew something wasn't right. He use for make us watch porn with him and it still makes my skin crawl.

I like to think things work thought karma and luck. One day I stayed home from school becuase i wasn't well had. Avery bad fever. And mum had to work. (She worked 6 jobs to support three kids after her and my father divorced.) She had left the Tv on for me and I was skipping thought channels. A really pretty actress who I don't knwo the name of came onto a talk show, and I watched it. She takes about what had happened to her when she was 10 playing as a child star of a show.

She shared what had happened with her producer. How he black mailed her and sexually assaulted, abused and raped her over the years she was their. She talked about she wish she had the courage back them to tell someone. And that if she could be the courage for someone else suffering then it means what she went thought would mean something.

It hit me hard and I believe she gave me the courage to do what I did. It scared the shit out of me. But one day I was told by my mum I had to go and stay at my uncle's for the night and I was terrified. I tried talking my way out of it by asking to go to friends places but in the end I couldn't.

My mum asked me why I really didn't want to go and if something had happened. I told her not to be mad at me and told her what my uncle had been doign to us. I told her about how he's make us strip down and lay on a bed so he could look over us like we were fucking meat. And I let it all out to her.

She was horrified. Had to calm me down and ask me if what i was saying was true. I told her it was and front there alot of shit happened that day. My mother nearly killed 'Darren' she had to be locked with us at the police department while they talked with my sister and I.

But we were too young and didn't know how to explain everything. If their is one thing I can tell you is teach your children the real name a of their genitals otherwise police won't do anything.

It was a big battle trying to get him charged my mother wanted him locked away. But sadly nothing every came of it.

We got older and I ended up spending more time with my great grandparents. My great grandfather was my world we shared a birthday of a sort with his a few days before mine. I'd see him when ever we could.

School got harder after my nana passed away. And I took up Catholicism. (Not the best choice on my part) I was 12. I did my communion and such. But after that mygrandfather moved closer and I used to spend every school after noon with him watching old john Wayne and black and white movies.

He would tell me stories of his child hood and it some something I loved.

Once I got to high school my mental health and physical health deteriorated quite quickly. I had a really creepy boyfiend who was year 11 when I was year 8. After i broke up with him he started stalking me until my younger brother and mum got involved.

After that I cut ties with alot of my friends. I only had a small group. I picked up smoking with the stoners behind the science block and hall. They were chill and let me be me. But weed only helped so much. At first I thought I wa broken. All the other 'girls' were talking about how they were having sex, had boyfriends and such and I felt so out of place. At friend I thought it wa becuase of what 'Darren' did to me.

But then I met the coolest girl at school and my first girl crush. She had dark black hair cut almost buzzed she work rings and necklaces and didn't give a shit about the school code.

She was the one who taught me girl can like girls same as guys can like guys. I hung out with her all the time. And then one day she just stopped to school I felt like I didn't belong.

I got really depressed in my next few years. Alot more smoke. I lost 3 animals I had since childhood in 3 months. It messed me up bad and then we moved again.

I was still at the same school. And that we sheen I started my friendship up wirh a girl called 'Sam'. She was my best friend for long time. Becuase at that time Ben had gotten a girlfriend. One I didn't get along with at them time but it wa becuase I thought she was a popular kid and that she was going to take my best friends away from me.

I was very unstable. I just selfharmed but not in ways that people could tell. I used to smash rocks into my head and burn my hands and feet with lighters. It made me feel more alive at the time.

It got worse once I came home with my now cat. He was 3 weeks old and I was feeding him milk off my pinkie. My step dad at the time lost his hair and fucked my mental health up even worse. I told my mum to get rid of the Cat and that when she ended up finding other newer injuries on my. I.. I had tried to rip my arms open with the sharp end of a potato peeler. Not my best moments but I can look back on it husband laughs nd how stupid I was.

Alot of stuff went down from when I as 13 to 14 wobbly step dad. But mum loved him and he never raised a hand to hurt up just he would tell alot, drink and do lots of drugs.

When I was 14 I had my first kiss with a girl. My first girlfriend and it was the best thing ever. Until she broke up with me over text.

[badgalmorgan]

Tw: r*pe, s*x**l assault

On the 24 of September 2021 I was raped by someone I knew at a house party. I reported my rape on the 26 of September and it was one of the biggest mistakes of my life. Not only was I exposed to my rapist again but it showed me how little support victims actually have, especially in this climate.

At around 11:15 we got to a house party in the old house I used to live at. I had had a dispute with my rapist the year before but I had come to make peace and let bygones be bygones (not to apologise). I had been out with my friend and we only drank what we had purchased which was wine and a little vodka. I was still sober when we got to the house and I didn’t think anything would go wrong since I had lived there before. My rapist insisted me and friend come to his room to talk about the incident and then when we were inside his room my friend went to use his in suite bathroom. I sat down on his bed and placed my drink next to me. I was done drinking for the night. My friend came out of the bathroom and asked if I was ok and I said yes, he then insisted she leave. After she left he locked the door behind her and I remember closing my eyes and laying back down.

When I opened my eyes he was on top of me, penetrating me and it hurt. I remember saying “no no” and trying to close my legs and get up and he pushed me back down. I finally managed to get up from under him and stumbled to his bathroom where he followed me with his pants and underwear hanging low, at this point I was throwing up and then he forced me to give him oral sex. He only stopped once my friend and two other guys began banging on his door. I was disoriented once the door was open and there are parts I can’t remember. My friend said my hair was messed up and she tried to fix it. She asked me if I wanted to leave and I was still shocked and so I said no. I went to sit outside with a couple of her friends and I was silent the whole time ( my friend was narrating this since I can’t remember what happened after I left his room). I asked for water and when my friend went to look for water she didn’t find any, I then asked if we could go home. When I got to the door I began to throw up I then tried to run and I slipped and fell in my own vomit. I attempted to get up again but I couldn’t and someone tried to help me up. I tried to run again. Finally my friend and someone she knew helped us get home. At home I can’t remember what happened since everything was a blur but I remember waking up at 1:00am before finally waking up at 4:00 am and crying because I realised what he did to me.

The next day I got a morning after pill, and I tried to get the PEP but they said they didn’t store it. I then booked an appointment with my doctor and at his office I tried to get a rape kit done but he abruptly told me they don’t do that and indicated that I should leave. He also asked if the rape was ‘confirmed.’ At this point I hadn’t showered because I knew that’s what you’re not supposed to do. After the appointment with the doctor I felt so demotivated and shitty about myself, I decided to go home and finally take a bath. The next day I told my friend what had happened and we decided to go to the town hospital to get the PEP. At the hospital the nurse insisted I get a rape kit done for “my peace of mind” and what if I regretted not doing it? She kept emphasising it was the the right thing to do and so I felt that I should. I didn’t want to because I could anticipate the fall out. At the police station in order for me to get a rape kit done I had make a statement and there the police officer insisted I press charges. Again she also said this was the ‘right thing’ to do and what about preventing him from doing this to other girls? I felt I should open a case even though I didn’t want to. At this point I felt as if everything was out of my hands. I opened case and was finally able to do a rape kit and just get my PEP pills.

The rape kit was such a horrible and painful ordeal. It was so dehumanising and the victim support the police sent with me did not do anything but text on his phone the entire time and discuss his own personal problems. After all that, the victim support not only watched them mishandle my clothes that were my evidence but he gave me a thumbs up and said “you’re gonna be alright girl”. After all this I finally got the PEP pills that I had wanted and set home. At home I was phoned by a woman claiming to be the investigating officer. She said she was going to meet me and my friend outside our flat to get my friend’s statement. Instead of doing the statement outside our flat she began to drive to house of the attack and said we had to be there to show her where it happened even though I already gave her the address. She then demanded we come inside to the house and wait for my rapist to return so she could tell him I was pressing charges. I later found out this was not proper procedure and instead my rights were violated. At the house she made the call to my rapist and when him and friends arrived, in front of everyone she announced I was pressing charges of rape against him. Him and friends began to harass us and she allowed him to get in my face ( I later asked why she did this and she replied “But you were protected mos?”). The investigating officer took 2 grainy photos after the entire ordeal and only then we could leave. The police officer woman who brought us to house instead stayed behind and offered them to come to her office if they wanted the next morning. In the car she refused to speak to my therapist as I began having an anxiety attack. She then turned to my friend and said she hopes we’re telling the truth because I have ruined his “career”. She drove us home and then I left the car because I couldn’t stand to be in her presence any longer. Alone in the car with my friend she insisted that my friend tell the truth of what really happened that night. Later that night I phoned a rape crisis Center and was told that the police were not meant to take me to my attacker’s house and that it had been a violation of my rights.

The following day while I was at the doctor’s office getting a prescription for anti-anxiety and depression and sleep meds, the same police officer called me and said because my J88 form came back negative nothing happened and I was not raped. She insisted that because the form was negative I was not raped even though I reported a day later and had already showered. She then demanded to know if I would drop the case despite being opened a day before. I replied that I wanted more time and she said no, I had to be at her office by 12 that afternoon to drop the case. I later went to her office where I found my attacker and his numerous friends outside her office. Inside her office she berated my friend, demanding to see what my friend was texting on her phone and when she asked me as to why I wanted to drop the case I told her because I don’t feel supported. She then patronisingly asked what support would I like? She then asked if I was on any psychiatric medication. At this point I didn’t want to deal with all of this anymore so I just asked to drop the case. On our drive back to my flat, she told me to stay away from those boys cause they are bad news and to call her if I ever felt unsafe(??).

After contacting my school’s sexual harassment Center I was told that from the word go, no proper procedure and protocol was followed in my rape case. I was re-victimised by being made to talk to my rapist and accuse I’m in front of people. The relevant people were not notified despite telling them I was a student at this University. The investigating officer began calling me to threaten my friend to stay away from this case. I was pressured by the police to drop my case. My clothes were mishandled at the hospital and victim support didn’t utter two words to me except a thumbs up and a you’ll be alright girl. To make matters worse my mother only focuses on the fact that I can’t drop out of school and can only focus finishing the school year despite being extremely traumatised. When I tried to vocalise this to her, her response was that I shouldn’t dare be rude to her. She then lied about my father seeing a video of me being drunk in order for me to tell him what happened, knowing he’s ignorant and victim blames.

All in all, this entire experience has been so traumatic for me. I literally feel suicidal and alone. The systems meant to support me have not done so and instead threatened and demonised me. My mother has decided to take toxic positivity mindset and insisted that if I focus on my schoolwork everything will make sense. I don’t know who’s this gonna reach, I just wanted to get my story out and say what happened to me and why I would not report my sexual assault.

When I do inevitably end up killing myself, I don’t want the same support system to cry and try make it seem as if I didn’t ask for help because I did and I was failed at every turn.

[moogiwarah]

🐓

Hi! I want to have comprehensive list of the BL manga/manhwa etc. that I’ve read because I want to spread the love for this genre 💜.  This post is a list of works that I’ve read which is not in this page yet + my comments on each work. I hope some people will find something that they like here ^__^

🐣 All BL recs from me 

manhwa  🐓

💜 Never Understand

Yuri, one of the school's most handsome guys,and Jaerim, one of the school's ugliest, collide!...or don't they? Can't understand what's going on between these two! It's Out of Control! 

shounen-ai, completed, 87 chapters

THE STORY IS SOOOO GOOD. The art also improved by a lot upon reaching the later chapters. Jae-rim is dubbed as “ugly” (he’s a whole cutie tho) and I’m glad to see a non conventional character design for an MC! I highly recommend reading this!!  👌💯

Incorrigible 

A sequel to “Never Understand” which is focused on Cho Ayeon’s story after being free from Soyeon’s control.

yaoi, completed, 8 chapters

This has few chapters so maybe that explains the fast pacing. Nonetheless, it was a nice read, I have a really soft spot for Jae-rim so seeing his r-18 experiences with Yuri really got me ahkdjashdkajshd ;W;

💜 Dirty Vibrations

Best friends Yeong and Nohae thought it was a joke when they downloaded the infamous “cursed” app. It’s said to command the user to perform…sexual acts and punishes those who disobey or delete it. It started with making them kiss. When they disobeyed its order…the punishment was anything but a joke. 

yaoi, ongoing

This one is from Fujoking (author of Youjin)! In all honesty, I love this for its sex scenes. They are so well made, the art, the dialogue, the expressions, and just *chef’s kiss* 👌. When it comes to expressing sexual scenes in BL, my top authors would have to be Fujoking for manhwa and Zaria for manga.

💜 Paid

Executive director Heejae is nicknamed "Chaebol Prince" by the public. But his life is turned upside down when documents linking him to an embezzlement scheme are unexpectedly found by an accounting collegian Taekyung! So he pretends to have a crush on him, but.. Taekyung wants more than just flirting! 

yaoi, ongoing

This is another one from Fujoking! This has a heavier plot as compared to Dirty Vibrations, so you get amazing smut AND an engaging story! 

💜 On or Off

Yiyoung is building a startup with his college friends. They get a chance to present their proposal to SJ Corporation, one of the leading companies in the country. But in the meeting room he sees Kang Daehyung, the extremely handsome company big shot that's so very much his type, and Yiyoung's heart starts to race...! Can pretty-faced Yiyoung win both in love and his career? 

yaoi, ongoing

Okay this! It’s really funny and the pacing is nice and the characters are nice and the art is nice and the perfect mix of romance comedy and slice of life i just HUHDADKAJDHJK it’s rly a feel good read and both MCs are SO ATTRACTIVE.

Penthouse XXX

Siyeon, a contract killer, has declared a boycott on men after being screwed over by his ex. That is, until he moves into a penthouse owned by Taekyung, a rich heir with killer looks.

yaoi, completed, 49 chapters

It has meme worthy illustrations xD. The graphics are nice but I found Taekyung (one of the MCs) to be a little toxic. Also, some parts of the story were not wrapped up/discussed enough imo. But overall, it was a pleasant read.

Home Sweet Home

The last thing Jungyeon expected was for his mom to ask if she could remarry. The new man was kind, considerate, a perfect match for his mother but there’s a catch: he has a younger son. Sunwoo is an introvert. He’s shy and has trouble opening up to others, until he meets Jungyeon and finds himself opening up for the first time. As their parents get closer to marrying, they become close, too close, and that’s when Sunwoo learns Jungyeon is already seeing another man.

yaoi, completed, 57 chapters

I honestly don’t know why this has quite a low rating on mangago because I found it to be a good read! It’s like sitting through a romance-drama movie. I liked the ending and the relationship between the main couple.

K’s Secret

Employee Kim Doyoon has been working for 5 years. He has one secret that he can't tell anyone else - the fact that he's a half-vampire born between a human and a vampire.

yaoi, ongoing

The art is so good in the recent chapters ugh. Also the sex scenes are well made. The plot is a little unclear though, and I feel like the relationship of the two MCs are kinda forced and unnatural hahaskdhakjdh. Still reading it tho since it’s ongoing.

💜 I have a Boyfriend

Kang Hyeon Ho, who belongs in the university soccer team goes into a breadth class and encounters the person he went to middle school together with and was his first love, Han Gyeol. 

yaoi, completed, 44 chapters

THIS IS BASICALLY COLLEGE AU ROM COM ADDITIONAL TAG: FIRST LOVE AND IT’S AMAZING. Just a really well rounded story with the right amount of drama to bring out its slice of life  😭💘 Also, this is tagged as yaoi but the sex scenes were few and not that explicit.

💜 Voice of Love

After experiencing a traumatic incident involving a previous lover, Jiho is too afraid to tell his classmate Soohan that he likes him. Thankfully, Soohan can hear otherpeople's thoughts and asks him out first. But, as we all know, love isn't always that easy. Will Jiho and Soohan really get their happily ever after?

shounen-ai, completed, 37 chapters

Just a really cute story about mind reading and high school boys being in love. Ah, youth. This will make you feel good like ,,, awww young love :( <3

Base to Base

The elite Sung Moon High is fields one the country's top 5 high school baseball teams. Kim Soohyun was the ace pitcher of his middle school now started his first year at Moon high baseball team...since his beloved sunbae Choi Woojin(captain/catcher) is there....Kim Soohyun is an cutie puppy with stalker tendency exclusive for his beloved sunbae. 

shounen-ai, completed, 28 chapters

Sports manga/anime always had a little (or lots) of gay, well this one made it officially gay! A cute rom-com bUT I feel like the ending was rushed. I would have loved it if there was more, but nonetheless, a good read! :)

manga  🐓

💜 I Seriously Can’t Believe You  

"I don't think you've realized your true nature yet." That's what Kon tells Iida, the hottest guy at school, wondering how anyone could be so proper. As popular as he is, Iida doesn't seem interested in any of the girls who come after him. Kon and his buddies try to look into the matter by flipping a coin and having Kon approach him with his confession of love, just to see if he's really interested in guys. "I've... never looked at guys like that..." says Iida, falling for Kon's ruse. Kon takes him home, hoping to straighten out the misunderstanding, when Iida suddenly grabs him by the shoulder, and... A story about a mysterious hottie at school and a prince of a certain kind. 

yaoi, completed, 5 chapters

THIS IS FUNNY AND CUTE AND HOT AND SHORT BUT REALLY GOOD JUST READ IT YOU WONT REGRET IT!

💜 Yoru to Asa no Uta 

(Chapter 0) ; (Sequel)

Asaichi can't play any instruments, his voice is average, and he's only in the band for the girls and the sex. Plus, he's homophobic. For some reason, the new bassist is infatuated with him despite the treatment Asaichi gives him.

yaoi, completed, 1 + 8 + 8  = 16 chapters

It’s by Harada (author of ‘Yatamomo’ and ‘Color Recipe’) so expect dark themes. Trigger warning for rape. I suggest you skip the rape if you can’t handle it because this manga is so good. Its art and story (much like Harada’s other works) will really suck you in. This left a deep impression on me because the characters felt so alive. I respect Harada so much for that ability.

💜 Eigyou Nika!

Sakisaka, stationed in the second Sales Division, has an unrequited love for Toujou, his directing senpai. He had no intention of confessing his feelings. However, Toujou has been awfully touchy-feely lately… Is there a glimmer of hope? Please don’t let it be a misunderstanding! Which path will these vexing feelings flow down to?

yaoi, completed, 10 chapters

I had fun reading this because it’s so fluffy!! aaaAAAA I love friends to lovers and cuddling and the sweetness that comes from a relationship that is a more than friendship but less than lovers. A lighthearted read <3

💜 Mou Ichido, Nando Demo

On his way home from picking up a rings for himself and his lover, Fuji Takahiro is hit by a car. His resulting amnesia degrades his live-in lover Kotou Tarou to a mere flatmate, and a series of misunderstandings threatens to tear the couple apart. Tossed around by desperation and confusion, can Tarou and Takahiro rebuild their once blissful relationship? 

yaoi, completed, 11 chapters

This is like watching a really good mature drama. The characters feel real and the situations presented in the manga were also something one can easily imagine themselves being put into. A short and good read.

💜Ookami-kun wa Kowakunai

The world is filled with animals that can evolve into beastmen. There is a young and earnest wolf who was always mistaken for a showy person because of his flashy looks. The easily mistaken wolf has fallen for an attractive looking rabbit named Usami, who is cautious of carnivores.

yaoi, completed, 6 chapters

I mEAN,,, LOOK AT THEM!!! This is wholesome and very fluffy huhuhuhu no more words needed. A short and cute read! <3

💜Ookami He No Yomeiri

Kaede is a rabbit person chosen to be the 'bride' of a distinguished wolf family. Although he does not wish to marry a wolf, his family pleads for him to go so that they can have enough supplies to last for the next two years. However, how will his new husband act towards a little bunny rabbit stuck in the wolf's den?

yaoi, completed, 8 chapters

The art is good and the story is cute :((( They’re so cute aaaa I’m a sucker for grumpy looking x ray of sunshine it’s just uGH the contrast never gets old.

💜 Encirclement Love

Ryou had a sleepover and saw his friends - Issei and Tadahiro - kissing while they thought he was asleep. He asks them about it and feels betrayed as a childhood friend when they pretend nothing happened. Determined to catch them red-handed, Ryou ends up inside a closet with Issei's little brother - Yuusei -, who has a unexpected reaction to the situation.

yaoi, completed, 6 chapters

It’s basically four high school boys being horny. All four of them are friends and I find their dynamics really funny. Also, they’re all hOT 🥵 I had lots of fun reading this!

Mother’s Spirit

University employee Ryouichirou is ordered by the Chairman to take in an exchange student. That exchange student, Qaltaqa, is a native from a developing country who can't understand Japanese!! Though he is a warrior of his tribe and a man of great beauty, seeing him afraid of the phone and the TV, and even the toilet, Ryouichirou gets fed up… But while being called "Ryouichirou" in such a clumsy manner, he has a change of heart!?

yaoi, completed, 13 chapters

This is funny and interesting! A short read to boost your mood and get your yaoi fix ;D

Dakaretai Otoko Ichii Ni Odosarete Imasu 

Saijou Takato's 5 year reign as the "Most Huggable No. 1" has been snatched. Stealing his thunder is the newbie actor with a 3-year debut, Azumaya! Towards the stuffy hostile Takato, Azumaya's sincere sparkling smile starts to become effective. Even as Takato sets his alert level on MAX, Azumaya catches Takato in his shameful drunken state and uses it to blackmail him! In exchange for Azumaya's silence, Azumaya states, "Please let me hold you"'?! "Embrace me, who was the Most Huggable No.1? What the heck is he saying!" 

yaoi, ongoing

I remember dropping this because MC was obviously raped, but upon watching the first episode of the anime adaptation, they made the sex consensual (thank God) and the story is not so bad after all. I suggest skipping the first chapter altogether and just start off at episode 1 in the anime, then you can pick it up in the manga to see the explicit scenes xD

That’s it for now! Will continue updating in this tumblr acc. as I continue on reading more BL ehe. Hmu on my twt if u wanna talk about BL and/or anime and manga in general hehe. Love lots~ 💜🐓

[gayahithwen]

My MIL voted for Trump

And I’m struggling with that, a lot. So tonight, I wrote a whole letter to her that I’m seriously considering sending. Because I feel betrayed, and I know my wife feels that too, even more than I do (I mean, it’s her Mom, so that makes perfect sense). And I just. I seriously don’t think I can bite my teeth and smile in the interest of not rocking the boat anymore, you know?

Here it is. If anyone has any specific feedback on the way I’m phrasing things, or if anyone wants to help me fact-check and compile sources for my statements here, I’d appreciate it, because this was kind of written by my gut, and I’m sure I’ve messed up some. If I do wind up sending it, I want it to be clear, accurate, and to the point.

Dear Mother-in-Law,

By voting for Trump, you have shown that you trust the word of a narcissistic asshole more than you trust your daughter's judgement.

I've heard you proudly tell other people about how smart she is, I've heard you brag about how caring and kind and compassionate she is, but when she begged you not to vote for a man who is quite literally running concentration camps, you blew her off with a "we can't really know what the truth is".

I promise you, me and my wife do not base these opinions on vague hear-say. There are eye witness accounts in the hundreds (if not thousands) of the conditions in these camps. The appalling conditions they're making children live in. The sexual abuse. The FORCED STERILIZATIONS. When we call them "concentration camps" it's because that is what they are.

You've lived as a missionary for a while now. Your religion is important to you. Trying to be a good Christian is important to you. So please, enlighten me. What Christian virtues do you see in Donald Trump? What policies of his are aligned with caring for the poor, or loving your neighbors?

You've dedicated a large part of your life to children. Your own and others. You've seen how hard it can be for a victim of abuse to get any kind of justice. You've seen the hurt in a victim of abuse up close, and you KNOW how hard trying to get any kind of justice can be. And yet, you see the multiple rape allegations against Donald Trump (including one by a 13 year old girl) and you decide this is a man worthy of trust?

He and the Republican party are full of obvious hypocrites - back when Obama was president, the Republican party refused to even considerate his Supreme Court nominees because there was an election in 11 months. This year, they pushed through Amy Coney Barrett a week before the election. How do you excuse that kind of hypocrisy?

He and his party are supporting a lot of anti-gay legislation right now. Legislation that might put me and my wife in danger. We are literally afraid for our lives here. Yet you're supporting him, supporting these very policies?

I've tried in the past to explain to you that Donald Trump does not make other countries respect the USA. You think it's “good that people are afraid of him”, but I promise you yet again that they're not afraid of him as one would be afraid of a police officer - they're only afraid of him as you would be afraid of a naked guy high off his ass on mushrooms and holding a bomb. Other countries don't respect him. They laugh at him behind his back and kow-tow to his face so he'll do what they say. He's an easily manipulated narcissist with no morals. Yet you choose to vote for him, again.

He was impeached for trying to use his position to make another country interfere in this election. Did you even look into that at all? Do you not care that he’s fraudulently pushing business to the Trump hotels and golf courses? Are these the actions of a trust-worthy man to you?

Your actions have broken my trust in you. I used to believe you were loving, caring, and highly intelligent. I used to believe you actually valued my wife as a person. But your refusal to listen to anything she or I have to say on this subject tells me that you don't value us, our opinions, our happiness, or even our very lives.

With that in mind, this is to tell you that you, personally, have hurt me twice - both by hurting my trust in you, but more importantly you've hurt me by hurting my wife, because she's been trying desperately to get through to you because as your child, she believes at her core you wouldn't knowingly hurt her, yet... here we are. So unless you either: 1) can give me a really, REALLY great explanation for choosing to believe a known con-man over one of the most compassionate and trustworthy people I've known in all my life (your daughter), or 2) you're willing to a) apologize for screwing up, b) actually start examining the choices that led you to this breach of trust, AND c) promise to actually listen to our concerns when we bring them up to you...

Well, until one of those conditions is met, I'm done with you. I'm not making my wife choose between us, and I hope you will also be mature enough not to do that. But I personally can't have a relationship with a woman who has so little respect for me and my wife.

[toemuncher666]

Bellatrix's Magical School Of Witchcraft

Season 1:

A young girl named Sarah Sanderson Salem always practiced her magic day and night to get into BMSOW. After getting an invitation on her 13th birthday to try out...she provided her most bedazzling spell...which went horribly wrong and blew up...but she still ended up getting in because of her passion for magic. After getting lost in the hall of talking paintings, she finally finds her way to the House Ceremony...where after demonstrating her magic...she was relegated to House Elixir of the Potion Witches. After being disappointed that her hard work didn't get her to be an Omni witch, she makes friends with a few other students (Hermione La Potter [a Wiccan], Melanie De La Looney [a celestial witch], and Sweeney Burton Barber [an elemental witch]). Days go by and Sarah and her friends meet up in the outdoor magic laboratory every night to keep up in class...specifically Sarah's inability to ride a broom in PE. During the month of Samhain...all the witches at school celebrate by dressing up as monsters (even tho a lot of students are monsters). But...a cult of the dark arts led by a man named Satanó El Diable raises an ancient witch from the grave...Luciferia De Vil. Angered at her continuous unrest...she awakens and corrupts her sisters Medusa and Lilith. Back at the school, the Samhain festival is all of a sudden interrupted by corpses of dead witches rising from the graves...and trying to eat the living. A new witch teacher named Serpentina repels the dead. Days go by and certain kids go missing...Bellatrix (the principal of the school who acts as Sarah's mentor) suspects that Serpentina is behind it. After her, Sarah, and Sarah's friends discover that Serpentina was abducting them...she reveals herself to be Medusa De Vil...and Bellatrix seems confused at Medusa's sudden evil nature, almost as if she knew her before but wouldn't tell Sarah. Medusa reveals that she knew Bellatrix and mocks Bellatrix for not having her "teacher's pet" at her side. Bellatrix promptly gets angered and starts spellcasting against Medusa...who gets defeated and Bellatrix "sleepifies" her.

Season 2:

After Luciferia learns of Medusa's defeat...she forcefully sends Lilith who shows hesitation. At BMSOW, a new teacher arrives named Raven...and Bellatrix recognizes her but refuses to tell Sarah the details. Sarah then gets hyped up by her friends and wants to become the best witch of all time. Her and Bellatrix start training sessions where Sarah tries to become an Omni witch...her first lesson...sword fighting and the dark arts. Bellatrix then notices that Sarah befriended Raven and was bringing Raven to help in her practice sessions with Bellatrix...who seemingly gets very jealous. After being told by Luciferia to kill Sarah...Lilith (aka Raven) decides that she can't do it due to Sarah's appearance to Lilith as a young girl...she even shared the same passion of becoming the best witch. Lilith reveals herself to everyone and reveals Luciferia's plan to become the true high queen of Salem...like she was supposed to before she died. Bellatrix steps up and reveals that she knew about Lilith the whole time...cause they were ex lovers. Lilith reveals to Bellatrix that she never left her on purpose...she was just cursed by Luciferia to remain comatose til Luciferia raises her again. Bellatrix spills out her emotions of how she thought Lilith left her for hundreds of years cause she didn't love her. Luciferia learns of her sister's betrayal and resurrects Beelzegoth, the ancient demon who cursed Luciferia out of her throne. Lilith and Bellatrix team up to help Sarah...and together they successfully teach Sarah the magic of the dark arts. Beelzegoth terrorizes Salem by eating the souls of witches and destroying villages. Bellatrix is then told of the return of Beelzegoth and gets Lilith, Sarah, and Sarah's friends to protect BMSOW from Beelzegoth all while Bellatrix destroys him. Lilith then takes everyone to Luciferia's castle where they seemingly destroy her.

Season 3:

Days went by after the assault on Luciferia's castle...Bellatrix and Lilith then teach Sarah, Sweeney, Melanie, and Hermione about the celestial arts of witchcraft. They also teach about harmonization which is when two witches have such a strong connection that their magic fuses and their souls tie to each other...they share each other's thoughts and their magic becomes 10x more powerful. Melanie and Hermione eventually fall in love (imma show hints throughout the series) and they go on a date...where they kiss...and their connection becomes so strong that they harmonized with each other. Luciferia is then shown to not be dead

and she's being possessed by Beelzegoth...the group gets wind of it and travel to Luciferia's castle. As they get to the main chamber which is locked...Sweeney opens a cursed book which shows them Luciferia's life. She was a normal witch who was supposed to become the queen of Salem...but she was executed for practicing the dark arts before it became legal...furied at her unlawful execution, her soul rises from the dead and creates an army of undead witches only to be stopped by her sisters Medusa and Lilith with the wand of Gazalan...a wand that Lilith had sent to Bellatrix as a "parting gift" before Lilith was cursed. Now Luciferia was resurrected by a man named Satanó El Diable. As Bellatrix and Lilith begin to fight Luciferia...they harmonize...for the first time in 900 years by requiting unrequited love with a passionate kiss and hug. They lift Luciferia's curse and set her soul free to do good things...and then everyone begins their search for Satanó...which leads into season four

Season 4:

As Sarah practices magic...Bellatrix and Lilith come clean about who Sarah is. Bellatrix reveals that Sarah is her daughter. Upset that Bellatrix and Lilith never told her...and left her to her abusive adoptive parents...Sarah storms off and talks to her friends. Hermione reveals that she never knew her parents, Melanie reveals that her mother died during childbirth and she came to school to make her mother’s soul proud, Sweeney reveals that his parents died in the war of the dark arts...and he vowed to use magic to show the world that no matter its appearance, it can always be used for good. Sarah then goes to apologize to Bellatrix for her outburst, but overhears Satanó’s name being mentioned. Sarah and her friends then make a plan to learn about Satanó to see if they can make him a good guy...they soon learn that Satanó is Lilith’s brother. Sarah and her friends come back from their adventure to confront Lilith...who reveals that her brother coerced her into cursing her sister out of the throne. This action would lead to the legalization of dark arts...and would lead to Lilith becoming the high queen...and not being outed for dating Bellatrix. Lilith tried to stop everything by trying to disband the Council of the Cursed Sigil...which led to Lilith being captured and forced into their plan to take over the world of witchcraft. We then see the Council resurrecting Beelzegoth...the creature that Lilith was forced to make to kill her sister...the creature harnesses all evil aspects of witchcraft...and the longer it remains on earth, the more powerful the council’s magic will get. Lilith then gets Bellatrix and Sarah’s group to head on a mission. The group go to The Rose’s Of Life...a meadow where Lilith repents for all the harm she’s done, she repents for the pointless wars she’s caused, and she repents for not being able to take action. Lilith revokes her role of high queen and gives it to Bellatrix...the woman Lilith knows holds the true power. Lilith then apologizes to everyone about her actions she had as the high queen...Lilith then reveals that she was never comatose...she served as the high queen for 900 years...she caused the dark arts civil war 11 years prior...and she apologizes immensely. Her sorrow was too much to handle and caused the Rose’s Of Life to collect Lilith’s sorrow and corrupt...the roses turned into abominations and started to attack the group. As the group learns that there’s almost no way to stop the roses...they fear for their life. As the main rose picks up Bellatrix and Sarah...Bellatrix apologizes to her for all the pain and sorrow she put Sarah through...Bellatrix apologizes for throwing Sarah away like that because of her depression from Lilith’s disappearance. Sarah accepts the apology...and her and a Bellatrix then harmonize as mother and daughter and revert the roses to their natural forms. As the group gets back to their school...Sarah then learns that harmonization is the main form of Celestial magic...and she just became one step closer to becoming an Omni witch. We then cut to The Council opening a portal...and resurrecting high king Azarath...Lilith’s father that she killed to become high queen.

Season 5:

Sarah practices Wicca with Bellatrix and Lilith...but throughout her practices...she keeps getting light-headed. Eventually Sarah passes out, but she finds herself in a dream world where Luciferia is locked up and sobbing...begging her to release her. Sarah wakes up and tells the others about her vision. Bellatrix then conducts a seance where Sarah travels to the dream world and helps Luciferia out of her chains...and they both wake up in the real world. Lucy (aka Luciferia) realizes where she is and she recognizes the people around her...but she’s not hostile. Lucy then explains to everyone that her resurrection was not her, it was not her own will and she was trapped in “The Otherworld”...the land of the forgotten dead where magic in the mortal world gets its power. Lucy explains that the Council of the Cursed Sigil forced her there where they stole her power and mind without her consent and forced harmonization (allegory for rape). Bellatrix then decides to gather The Council Of Diana...an old coven of witches who fought for good magic and equality during the civil wars. Bellatrix, Lilith, Lucy, Sarah, Sweeney, Hermione, and Melanie all learn to harmonize to invoke the power of Diana to recreate the Council. Upon realizing no one blames her for anything, Lucy starts a path of redemption. She takes everyone with her to The Tree Of Secrets where she must defeat her biggest enemy...herself. As Lucy gets defeated by her doppelgänger...Lilith apologizes to Lucy for all the awful things she’s done to her...Lilith tells Lucy that she’s sorry for destroying her life, killing her, and blocking her from ever being happy with herself...Lilith tells Lucy not to beat herself up, cause Lilith is the one who should be fighting herself for redemption. This causes Lilith and Lucy to harmonize Sister & Sister...where they beat Lucy’s doppelgänger. As they revel in victory, the group travels back to Salem...where they find High King Azarath eating the souls of innocent witches. The group try to stop him but are thwarted by Satanó...who reveals that he’s not the mastermind...or even willingly doing any of this. Satanó reveals that this is all caused by Satanó wanting to make his older sister Lilith happy...he wanted Lilith to be the high queen so he made a pact with the High Kings Of The Otherworld...but was tricked into an infinite contract where he would serve as their slave forever. Sarah and the others are then forced to ward off soldiers of the Otherworld as a coven of witches enter Salem...The Housecarls of the High Kings who tell them everything is ready. Lucy is then forcefully dragged away...as Lilith begins to break down in tears...but Sarah tells her that everything might seem like it’s her fault...but Lilith is not responsible for everything...and she encourages Lilith to deal with her past by fixing the current problems in her life. Which causes Lilith to gain confidence...and absolutely destroy the housecarls and destroy Azarath’s physical form...releasing Satanó from his unwilling mind control. As Sarah and her group travel back to the school...Bellatrix tells Sarah...that she unlocked the true meaning of being a Wiccan witch...standing up for others in their time of need...which means Sarah’s one step closer to becoming the best witch ever.

Season 6:

After practicing to become an elemental witch, Sarah is reminded of Medusa from the beginning of her adventure. After prodding Bellatrix and Lilith about it, they reawaken Medusa who is seemingly hostile...but Lilith convinces her to drop the act cause everyone knows that the curse isn’t real anymore. Medusa is then getting used to life at the witch school after revealing her true form...a goofball little sister. Lilith then ties up all of her loose ends...the curse wasn’t real and it was just her secretly serving as high queen for 900 years without her consent, she reveals Lucy was taken advantage of and she did nothing to stop it, she comes clean about being forced to kill Lucy, and she reveals that she in fact created Beelzegoth and helped Satanó reform the council of the cursed Sigil. Lilith sets off with the others (including Satanó) to practice her path of redemption by traveling to the Other World to confront the High Kings and form the true Council Of Diana. On their way, Lilith stops at the Hall Of Magika (the original source of magic) and returns The Wand Of Gazalan...which was the wand they used to imprison Lucy in the dream realm instead of saving her soul. The Wand senses her betrayal and calls out an intruder warning where Satanó redeems himself by helping all of them out of the hall and sacrificing his magical abilities in the process. As Lilith and the others travel to Diana’s Palace, Lilith opens up about her role in the wars. She was to keep them aflame to make sure no one notices the invasion from the High Kings...and she heavily apologizes for her role in causing the deaths of millions of people. After Sarah comforts Lilith, Sarah takes charge in the journey to Diana’s palace. The group eventually gets there and they meet Diana, Diana then learns to harmonize with her new Council to generate the strongest power. As the council tries to figure out what to do...Sarah takes initiative and says that they should strike one of the Five High Kings...Azarath. After destroying Azarath’s soul...he tells them that their world’s already taken over by Necra...The Goddess Of The Other World who orchestrated everything prior. After learning that Necra kept Lilith from telling the truth...and that she runs the council of the cursed Sigil...and that she started everything with Satanó...the group decides to go back by Sarah’s choice. Knowing that their killing of Azarath started a huge war between The Mortal Realm and The Other World...Sarah tells everyone that she must lead the war to save the realm that she knows and loves...but she also must save The Other World from Necra’s corruption. This passion of saving two worlds...and her impressive leadership through the ordeal led her to recognize what makes an elemental witch...bravery...leading Sarah one step closer to becoming the best witch of all time.

Season 7:

As Sarah and the others prepare for the war, Diana gives Sarah The Wand Of Zodia. Sarah is unable to use the wand but doesn’t really think anything of it, the group then come together and watch as soldiers of The Other World pour out of the portals. Diana summons an army of witches to fend off the soldiers as the council of Diana proceed into The Other World. In The Other World at The Control Hub, The Council Of Diana confront Necra...who Lilith recognizes as her Mother. Diana then confirms that all high queens are forced into a contract to become the host for Necra...the source of all power and magic. As the council approaches Necra, they’re confronted by an army led by their doppelgängers. As the council gets beaten by their evil twins...they remember to harmonize and control their powers to defeat their biggest enemies...themselves. As the group confronts Necra again...Sarah’s new wand begins to glow...Sarah begins to think awful thoughts as Necra addresses the group. Necra doesn’t even recognize them as witches...merely peasants bugging her for no reason...as Necra only has one thing on her mind...to gain what she lost when she was separated from The Mortal Realm...the realm she created. As the group tries to figure out a way to get her to listen, Necra sicks her little pet Beelzegoth on them. Instead of fighting, Sarah is fed up and approaches Beelzegoth...asking him why he follows her and if that’s what he truly wants. Upon realization, Beelzegoth reforms into his mortal body and lessens Necra’s powers...ultimately angering her. Necra sicks her council and High Kings on the group but they all harmonize together and reform everyone to their mortal bodies. After this...Sarah confronts Necra who doesn’t listen...this angers Sarah to where she destroys the buildings around her with her mind. Sarah’s frustration and anger with Necra forced Sarah to enter Necra’s subconscious where she meets the two prisoners...High Queen Veronica and Necra’s true self...after talking with both of them and forcing them to separate...Necra realizes the damage she’s done to the places she once loved. Necra then apologizes to her ex lover...Diana...where she reveals that after her mortal death she felt so ashamed of her form to where she tried her hardest to obtain what she loved...life...but by doing so, inadvertently took it away. After patching everything up and reforming all the witches under Necra’s mind control...Diana reveals that the wand revealed Sarah’s hidden psychic abilities...the ability to empathize even with those least desired...officially making Sarah an Omni witch. Sarah then attends her graduation with her friends...and says goodbye to everyone...and that was the tale of how Sarah Sanderson Salem became the best witch...and that’s the end of Bellatrix’s Magical School Of Witchcraft.

[magicalgirlbraincollecter]

OC MASTER POST

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: SOME HEAVIER TOPICS IN BACK STORIES (ex: r*pe, su*c*dal thoughts, etc)⚠️

Onyx, 55: Onyx is my character Ophelia’s oldest daughter, and happens to be the great granddaughter of Dracula, throughout her life she trains to take over as queen of vampires, after her mother’s 516th birthday. She’s an accomplished author, ex model, and has several college degrees that she worked hard for. She has four kids canonically, all except one in their twenties and thirties . She’s 4’5” as she has primordial dwarfism. Onyx was born in San Luis Potosí mexico and was put up for adoption shortly after.

Ophelia, 526: Ophelia is the ex vampire queen, and grand daughter of Dracula, born 526 years ago in Transylvania, Romania, she grew up in an extremely lavish home with a lifestyle to match, yet that all changes when she was a young teen, her mother and father were both killed by the village they hid out in, for her mother was a vampire and her father a werewolf, not only were they monsters to humans, they broke vampiric code, and bore an abomination in Ophelia as well as her 7 other sisters.

Ed, 72: Ed is onyx’s much older ex husband. They met when she was in catholic highschool and he was a groundskeeper, he later goes on to abuse her and their children (I hate this guy, no cap) he is a werewolf and was born on a native reservation.

Kratos, 55: Onyx’s ‘twin’ brother. Kratos is Ophelias oldest biological child. Kratos knew onyx before Ophelia adopted her, as they went to the same highschool and dates briefly before the adoption, they’re very close and the best of friends.

Deano, 31: The oldest of onyx’s children, Deano is a 31 year old autistic crippled trans man, as a young child he was very close to his mother until she divorced Ed, when she left Ed took it upon himself to take it out on Deano from the ages of 13-18 when he moved back in with his mother, during these times //⚠️// he was raped heavily by his father, and even had to allow his father to use him in order to protect his sisters. When in the womb his father beat his mother repeatedly leaving him with a damaged spinal cord, leaving him almost completely paralyzed from the waist down, he does regain most strength and movement in his legs//⚠️//

Mak, 26: Mak is the eldest daughter of Onyx, she’s a big sweetheart and mama bear, growing up she was very sheltered and struggled with her gay identity, eventually coming out at 13 when she moved in with her mother, she meets rainbow whos 15 at the time and they hit it off, dating, and eventually getting married while Mak is 16, shortly later they had 5 babies together as in this canon werewolves carry litters and all of onyx’s children are half werewolf. She is also autistic

Rainbow, 28: Mak’s wife, //⚠️// at the age of 11 her mother forced her into being a toy/ slave for her brothers, at the age of 12 she became pregnant with her first child, who was also her eldest brother cleatus’ baby. In the following 2 years she had two more kids, another boy, and a girl, due to them being inbred, all 3 have Downs syndrome. Around age 17 she started experimenting with drugs her mother had lying around and she developed an extreme addiction to heroin, which eventually led to the loss of her arm.//⚠️//

Nina, 24: Nina is Onyx’s second oldest daughter, at 13 she met her wife Grace, they started dating when she was 14 and a few months before her 15th birthday she got pregnant with her first child, she’s had a relatively good life with a few ups and downs with her mental health, the only major set back she has is that //⚠️// when she was in the womb her mother was stabbed by her father, when this happened he had cut off her arm, leaving her with only one arm.//⚠️//

Grace, 25: Grace is Nina’s wife, she’s a trans woman who grew up in an extremely religious home //⚠️// Grace knew she had been trans most of her life, and whenever she’d bring it up, she’d be beat by her father with a belt or bible as her mother stood back and watched. She was also raped and molested by her father to ‘show’ her what it’s like to be a woman, around age 14 her father attempted to castrate her and remove her genitals so she could be a real woman. As an adult she chooses not to have bottom surgery so she could have her own biological children.//⚠️//

Melani, 18: Onyx’s youngest daughter. She’s completely paralyzed from the waist down //⚠️// due to her father hitting her mother with a car on purpose, she was thought to be incapable of speech or being able to read, write, or do basic math because of brain damage, luckily she defies the odds and goes on to major in English in college with the help of her mother//⚠️//

[automatismoateo]

A God that rapes human beings, and even delights in the act, is not a God that is worthy of any worship. via /r/atheism

Submitted July 20, 2020 at 05:39PM by MelodicEarth2 (Via reddit https://ift.tt/2ZKHnGr) A God that rapes human beings, and even delights in the act, is not a God that is worthy of any worship.

"I [God] will gather all the nations to Jerusalem to fight against it; the city will be captured, the houses ransacked, and the women raped." (Zechariah 14:2)

"Does disaster come to a city unless the LORD has done it?" (Amos 3:6)

Raping women by conquering lands is a very corrupt human behavior throughout history, a very scary and disgusting human behavior indeed. Read about the Red Army, how those whom the armies conquered had raped all the women ages 8 to 80, forcing themselves into their bodies. Try reading the diaries of the women who were raped. And you do realize little girls were raped as a result of God's decree as well right? The soldiers partaking in the Red Army invasions were told not to do such things, but they still engaged in those evil acts. Imagine when God sets your heart to conquer a land, how much more atrocious and uninhibited your actions would be to those women, those little girls? In their eyes they were nothing but meat supplied by God. And Jesus caused it all. The mothers tried to kill themselves along with their daughters to escape this fate of being mass raped.

Why is the Bible immoral? Well, we see the evil of human beings, how they rape children and women whom they conquer in war. The victims of these rapes, lets say they go to the Bible for comfort, surely, the great God, the righteous judge of all the earth must have an answer to these sort of things? Surely God would never condone, never act in such a way that these vile men during the Red Scare did, right? And she opens the Bible and what does she read?

She reads that God does the exact same thing, and delights in it-- the rape of women.

The LORD does whatever pleases him, in the heavens and on the earth" (Psalm 135:6).

God did not regret this action, rather, it was a judgement, and the Bible tells us:

“Yes, Lord God the Almighty, true and just are your judgments!” (Revelation 16:7)

We are to celebrate his judgements.

A God that does this to human beings doesn't deserve any persons' worship. The question is not whether God exists or not, the question is, would a moral man worship an immoral God? The answer is yes. They will, just as moral men blindly followed Hitler, while he baked Jews in the ovens -- all the while God burns those who disagree with him in Hell.

Women have felt the pain of rape because of Jesus Christ. Christians shouldn't go telling people that Jesus loves them without telling them that Jesus also used human beings to cause pain and suffering to others. Like playthings. A Christian is telling people that a rapist is loving, or even worse, hiding the fact that this god is a rapist, and imploring others to believe in him.

Jesus in the New Testament admits that he is the God of the Old Testament, "Before Abraham was, I Am", which of course is God's name, the Tetragrammaton, YHWH. So he just admitted that he is the God which made mount Sinai smoke and shake. Also, John tells us in the New Testament that the vision of God which Isaiah saw in the Old Testament was in fact Jesus Christ, indicating again the God of the New Testament, Jesus Christ, was the one that had these girls raped. It's his own confession. In addition, the Biblical concept of God is a Trinity. This means that when God rained down rocks and fire upon Sodom and Gomorrah, Jesus was not absent, nor was he opposed to the act. Rather he was there, with Father and Holy Spirit all in unison making the act happen. This is the same with every other case of God's atrocities in the Old Testament, whether it is rape or murder.

Here is the answer to why God treats human beings in the way that he does:

"When a potter makes jars out of clay, doesn’t he have a right to use the same lump of clay to make one jar for honorable use and another to throw garbage into? (Romans 9:21)

God looks at many human beings as trash. That's why he can mercilessly drown us, burn us, toy with us, rape us. God looks at humanity in this way, he created them so that's why he tortures them like a child torturing a pet. That's why in the Bible God specifically ordered the kidnap and rape of women. God is worse than the most wicked of men. But Christians share this same mentality, they look at human beings as trash -- wicked, sinners, they even look at themselves in that manner. We can talk all day about the follies and so called sins of human beings, but all this from a God that is worse than any devil or man. It is an immoral burden to place upon people. In the passage you read in Zechariah, God is the one bringing the evil and the good, again, playing with human lives as he sees fit. So what if there is rape and murder as a result of your toying with man?

We can throw away our own reasoning and say man can't decide morality for themselves. But I'll tell you this, it isn't to be decided by this God. We look at God as the one that decides what morality is and isn't, yet his actions are contrary to what is stated of him in the Bible, "Will not the judge of all the earth do that which is just?" A 6 year old knows that these acts are evil. The human spirit knows what evil is.

"Thus says the LORD, ‘Behold, I will raise up evil against you out of your own house. And I will take your wives before your eyes and give them to your neighbor, and he shall lie with your wives in broad day light." (2 Sam. 12:11)

God is angry with David for killing a husband and raping the wife. Did God stop the killing and rape? Nope. God sat by and watched, doing nothing. God decides to punish David and one of the punishments is to take David’s wives and allow them to be raped. Um…what…the…heck?!?! The women get raped. That’s David’s punishment. This is God. He’s supposed to be all-knowing. How is it not possible that part of that all-knowing does not involve coming up with a punishment that doesn’t punish the innocent? This leads us to 3 options, and only 3 options. Either God is truly stupid and thus immoral, or there is no God, or God is immoral while not being stupid-- which amplifies his immorality to an even greater degree.

What is the nature of the sexual act contemplated in Deut. 21:10-14?:

"When you go forth to war against your enemies, and the Lord your God has delivered them into your hands, and you have taken them captive, And you see among the captives a beautiful woman, and desire her, and take her for a wife -Then you shall bring her home to your house, and she shall shave her head and do her nails, And she shall remove the garment of her captivity from her, and remain in your house and weep for her father and mother a for month, and after that you may approach her and have intercourse with her, and she shall be your wife. And if you do not want her, you shall send her out on her own; you shall not sell her at all for money, you shall not treat her as a slave, because you "violated" her."

We shall focus on the expression "violated her," 'initah in Hebrew, from the root 'anah. It is in the translation of this word that an attitudinal difference between the Targumim becomes apparent. In 2 Samuel 13;11-14, the story of Amnon and Tamar, the root 'anah is used twice: "do not violate me," and then "he overpowered her, he violated her, and he lay with her." If we understand "and he lay with her" to mean "and he had intercourse with her," we may understand from the juxtaposition of the two concepts that 'anah can be considered sexual violence. That is, in this instance the use of 'anah together with "had intercourse" seems to imply actual rape.

This seems to be the case as well in Gen.34:2, the story of Dinah and Shechem. There the text says: "He [Shechem] took her, and he lay with [had intercourse] with her and he violated her [vaye'anehah]." 'Anah alone would not mean necessarily rape, but simply sexual violence of some sort. Rape is again implied here by the use of 'anah and "had intercourse" together.

The idea of rape may also be expressed with other terminology. In Deuteronomy 22:25, 28 we find the verb "had intercourse" used with the verbs "took hold of," "grabbed", to imply the idea of forced intercourse i.e. rape. The verb 'anah is used alone in Lamentations 5:11, Ezekiel 22:10, and Judges 19:25, and from the context in these instances seems to imply rape.

We must recognize, however, that though it is important to determine what is meant by 'anah in Deuteronomy 21:14, rape is only one way of exerting sexual violence. Clearly sexual violence is conveyed in all the quoted instances where 'anah is used. Thus although there is no specific mention of rape in Deuteronomy 21:14, the word 'initah implies that the woman's consent (if any) to intercourse was due to her circumstances.

The expression 'initah is particularly poignant, a point that seems to have been recognized in both the Onqelos and Neophyti Targums. Onqelos actually uses the root 'anah in his translation, while Neophyti 1 has "you have exercised your power/authority [reshut] over her." Targum Pseudo-Jonathan, on the other hand, considers 'anah to be only actual intercourse, translating with the verb shamash, and thus failing to transmit the Bible's sensitivity to the captive's powerlessness.

Numbers 31: 17-18

17 "Now therefore, kill every male among the little ones, and kill every woman who has known a man intimately. 18 "But keep alive for yourselves all the young girls who have not known a man intimately.

So what do you think God/Moses, or whomever had in mind; sweet-talk and flirt with the young girls? These sex deprived 50 year old, 30 year old, 25 year old guys hitting on these children and teenagers?

The texts says Israelite warriors are commanded to kill everyone except young virgin women, whom they are permitted to keep for themselves.

Men. Capturing women. Capturing young women. Capturing virgin young women.

It's incredibly obvious what it's saying.

The mere idea of the God of heaven ordering the death of women and innocent children so outraged Thomas Paine that he said such a scenario was sufficient evidence in and of itself to cause him to reject the divine origin of the Bible (1795, p. 90). In fact, he condemned the Bible for its moral atrocities, and even went so far as to blame the Bible for virtually every moral injustice ever committed. He wrote:

Whence arose the horrid assassinations of whole nations of men, women, and infants, with which the Bible is filled; and the bloody persecutions, and tortures unto death and religious wars, that since that time have laid Europe in blood and ashes; whence arose they, but from this impious thing called revealed religion, and this monstrous belief that God has spoken to man? (p. 185).

As you read the Bible,

You suddenly notice the children of Israel are precisely all the time being ordered to covet. Being enjoined to covet, being told they must envy and hope to annex the lands, the animals and the women of neighboring tribes. They kept going by greed. By the thought that soon, all these peoples properties shall be ours. And that we'll be licensed to take it by force, and kill them and have the land but not their people. This is perhaps why there are no prohibitions against, say, slavery, rape, genocide, or child abuse in the 10 Commandments.

It's not a matter of leaving these out or applying situational ethics to a time that was not ours. It's not that. Such things have always been known of and usually deplored. It's more I fear that such terrible things as rape, enslavement, genocide and child abuse, were just about to be mandatory during this time. They're just about to be forced on people as things they must do if a conquest was to continue,

[notharperrose]

#Complete SA Shutdown

This week I am filled with so much heartache and hatred.

Heartache for all the girls we've lost to rape and murder. My heart bleeds for Uyinene, Leighandre, Jesse, Lynette, Amy-Lee.

My heart bleeds for the 30+ women who were raped and murdered during the month of August 2019 alone while their perpetrators walk free.

I am filled with so many emotions for the one year old who was raped by a 57 year old man. 57 years old and you rape a one year old? You decide to rape another person? I am filled with disgust, horror, hatred, anger.

Today I am filled with so much hatred and disgust for the justice system in South Africa. Hatred for Uyinene's murderer who smiled during the court proceedings; who claimed Uyinene put up a fight and struggled to die while he bludgeoned her to death with a scale; who had four other bodies buried in his backyard, his wife included. Hatred for Leighandre's murderer boyfriend who shot her along with her mother. Hatred for Jesse and her grandfather's murderer who simply walked into a space she thought safe (her own home), raped her and murdered both her and her grandfather. Hatred for Lynette's murderer who decided that simply killing her wasn't enough- he had to chop her up and dump her body.

I am filled with hatred because in the midst of all this femicide, men still turn it around to #NotAllMen. Yes, all men because I have to live in fear everyday not knowing what man I can trust and what man I cannot. I don't know who might have good intentions and who might have bad intentions. If you claim to be part of #NotAllMen, why are you making this entire protest against femicide as well as general murders about your ego? About your pride? Why is it that you reassuring yourself that you're a "good guy" is more important than the many lives we've lost during August - a month meant to celebrate women?

The only good news is that while Amy-Lee was kidnapped- snatched right out of her mother's hands- she returned home safely and unharmed. What kills me is that she was kidnapped in the first place.

Today I am even more upset at the fact that an 11 year old boy was raped in his place of worship and his rapist got out on R1000 bail because he has "no previous offences, stays far from the victim and doesn't seem like he will do it again." A life ruined and another saved due to the lack of justice in South Africa.

I am incredibly sad that a special needs student was raped by his class educator and got no media coverage at all.

If we care about femicide, we need to care about homicide in all its shapes and forms.

Today I am sad for all these women I never knew because I have to live in fear of #AmINext?

[weakeninghope]

Behind green eyes

Pairing: Ash Lynx/Eiji Okumura

Rating: Teen

AO3 link here

Summary:    “Ash, you deserve this. Me. Feeling loved. I feel protected when I’m with you, I feel like my soul is bound to yours, what do you think I’d do without you? I know that behind those green eyes of yours you hide a lot of pain, but there’s also the person I’m in love with, this gentle, loving caring person who’s dumb and hates pumpkins and mocks me for hating moths and…” Eiji kept rambling about how much he loved Ash and…

Notes:  Tada! I'm here again! I've written a longer piece this time! It feels rushed but I've had this idea in my head for a while and wanted to write about the girl, so here you have this piece of garbage. I feel like shit for having killed the girl even though this happens in canon but *sobs* KELLY ILYI'm gifting this work to my precious friend SabyPhantomhive because she has helped me with the beta, with the ideas and because i love her.Also I gave myself the rights to invent stuff and bend the canon please forgive me but I wanted to try it out!I hope everyone enjoys this, though! please, comments and kudos are really appreciated.See you in another fic <3 Also this contains heavey manga spoilers!

fic under the cut!

Ash knew he had a problem, he didn't want to let go. He should have accepted that Griffin left, that he had to leave, but he refused to. Griff was the only support he had ever had. His mother left after he was born, and his dad was not much of a dad. He preferred calling him “old man” because Jim had always neglected both Griffin and Aslan. That’s why when Griff turned 18 the two siblings started living together.

 Then everything fell apart. Griffin left. Ash killed for the first time. Was raped for the first time.

 Nobody believed him to be innocent until the truth about the Bluebeard of Cape Cod was found, but at that point, it didn’t matter to Ash anyway. He didn’t have anything to hold onto anymore, so he left for the streets. He was just a runaway kid, but he was better off on his own that in that cruel town full of garbage.

 Or so he thought until he turned 11 and Dino Golzine stripped him off the little remaining innocence he had. He began selling him as a sexual toy for old, perverted geezers as the likes of Dino himself. Ash felt terrified again, even more so than the first time. His abusers only wanted to take everything away from him; they even laughed when he started crying, sobbing, or inhaled sharply because of the pain he felt whenever they roughly pulled his blond hair.

 It was a never-ending nightmare that couldn’t possibly get worse.

 But it did when Dino brought him to his mansion and intended to turn him into his kind of “son”, if son meant sexually abused 14 years old who was forced to sleep with one eye open, gripping his pillow tight as if the sandman was going to enter his room.

 Dino wanted to make Ash his heir, or so he was mouthing about most of the time. Ash was pissed, hurt, but mostly pissed but because he had learnt that the only true emotion he could feel was rage. He was just angry, in those little occasions when he still had a little humanity left inside of him and could feel something, even if it was something feral as rage. It was still something.

 At least there was more than being beat up and forced to do things against his will in Ash’s life. It was truly saddening, that the only thing he could cling to was his street gang. Dino introduced him to one of the best street gangs in Manhattan, and contrary to what Ash thought, the guys were pretty loyal and hated the geezer’s guts, too. Downtown was in the palm of Ash’s hand and he would lie if he said he didn’t like -If that was the word- spending time with his mates. He couldn’t spend a lot of time with them because Marvin, the fat-ass, would show up and force him to return to the mansion.

 He would also rape him if he felt like it.

 In his world, every adult was perverted, sick in the head or overly disgusting. The only thing he had was remembering Griff and the people of his gang.

 Until there was a day when she came to his life.

 That day wasn’t anything special, he was just combing the area with his people because one of his friends had gotten his ass into trouble with some other gang and they had to look out for him.

  Fatal mistake. You must never let your guard down in Ash’s world. You don’t know how you could end up, and that was for both Bones and Ash.

 Bones had lost his teeth in a fight with the rival gang that had cornered him, and Ash had lost his cool temper when before he could even punch the guy who hurt Bones, someone knocked everyone out.

 It was a girl. Behind her there were another bunch of girls dressed quite similarly, but no one looked like her. The mysterious girl was wearing broken jeans, a large flannel plaid shirt and had light brown, short hair and ocean blue eyes.

 She looked,.. Incredible. The look on her face was so full of anger yet so full of life… Ash couldn’t believe himself.

 “This is our turf now.” the girl’s voice broke the silence and had everyone staring at her, agape. Excluding Ash, who was thoroughly examining her. “So you better leave. Don’t you think I’ll save your little friend’s ass every time he gets caught in trouble.” She chided, looking straight at Ash.

 Oh, so she was talking to him?

 “Excuse me, I’m sorry we interrupted your tea party.” Ash countered “Bones has his orientation up in his ass and lost himself. Besides, the ones invading your so called “turf” where the gang you just beat up, so congrats on that, I guess?” Ash mocked. He was going to have fun with this.

 “Hey” the girl said, stepping closer to Ash in that graffiti-filled alley “you better shut up or you will have your mouth up on your ass.”  The girl snapped. Oh, he liked her attitude.

 “Oh-“

 He couldn’t end his sentence. Marvin tracked him, -in the end, even though Ash tried to run away, Marvin always tracked him- and broke into their conversation. Ash knew that this would mean trouble because Marvin felt deep hatred and disgust towards girls, and seeing Ash practically one inch apart from one wasn’t going to be of his liking.

 Fuck. He had to get rid of the fat-ass, if he wanted to know more about that girl.

 Ash was already starting to give up the chase because Marvin was pulling at his t-shirt and he didn’t want his friends to suffer because of him again. They were the only good thing he had, he didn’t want them to die or something just because they were close to a street punk.

 And a murderer.

 “Kelly, what are you doing?!” A girl shouted.

 And everything happened within a second. Kelly shot Marvin on his right arm and grabbed Ash’s hand; everyone ran away and left Marvin there, cursing and screaming.

 That was something, Ash thought as he was running alongside Kelly. That was the first time someone stood up to him since Blanca started teaching him how to shoot and already defended him from Marvin; but Blanca was busy that week and had to leave New York for personal matters, so Ash was alone again.

  Kelly’s hand felt calloused. He was sure that she had fired a gun in more occasions than not, because she also looked older than him.

 Neither of them spoke for a while, they were still running until they crashed in a nearby park, which Ash assumed was a place Kelly knew. After all, she had been purposefully driving them both towards that direction.

 The park wasn’t that much of a park. It didn’t even look like one. There was grass, two or three trees and a lot of mud here and there. It was also quite small and it was located in a zone that wasn’t really transited. It was probably Kelly’s hideout.

 “Why did you bring me here?” Ash asked a few minutes after that, as if to break the silence. Besides, he really wanted to know why did she save him if she appeared to hate his guts (as most people did).

 “I don’t want more people to end up like me.” Kelly muttered under his breath. She was sitting in the grass, knees close to her chest, looking at the ground. The brunette was still panting, they had a really long run, even though nobody was chasing them. Kelly probably had to run like that in plenty of occasions, Ash suspected.

 “So now you’re a heroine and you’ve come to save me?” Ash mocked. He knew he shouldn’t have said that because Kelly had really saved him, but he was scared. Scared of attachment. Scared of having something more to hold onto.

 Because once you have something to treasure, you have something you don’t want to let go of, and Ash had had enough of this.

 “Shut up. I can tell you’re trying to be tough.” Kelly said lifting her head and inhaling a sharp breath, “That man, Marvin, wanted to abuse you, right?” She asked. And before Ash could muster up a witty response or the truth, she continued. “He won’t abuse me because he’s gay, I know him. But his brother had abused me a few times. He abducted me when I was 9, and one day, I killed him breaking a chair in his head and hit him until he was dead. After that, I stole his gun. Then I started living in the streets until I found the girls from my gang. Merry, the older one, taught me how to shoot. You know why Marvin looked at me that way? It wasn’t just because I am a girl. It was because he knew me, but he’s never tried to kill me since he wasn’t on good terms with his brother anyway. He probably hates my guts because he’s seen me with you.” Kelly rambled on. She really opened up to the blond.

 Her raw honesty and the pain in her voice ignited something in Ash.

 “I was raped when I was 7, and I killed my abuser when I was 8. Then I ran away from my town and old geezer Dino found me. Marvin is part of his people and he doesn’t let me breathe. Fuck, I am recently learning how to shoot thanks to a man hired by the geezer who is not that bad as for having been hired by that demon- and I’ve thought of killing him. Guess a murderer stays a murderer.” Ash bitterly chuckled the end of the sentence.

 “You’re talking to one of your kind, then.” Kelly chuckled, too. That was a beautiful sound.

 Ash was scared. They had barely met each other and he was already starting to believe he could like her. He felt something in her that he had never seen in anyone else. They had a similar past (sadly), but Kelly had a whole different attitude. She wasn’t a coward, she wasn’t scared, she wasn’t trying to put all her sadness inside her and play it off with an indifferent mask.

 “I see. That was a nice shot. I’ve barely started learning, but I bet I can shoot better than you.” Ash said, smugly.

 “I really doubt that.” Kelly cracked a smile while looking at Ash “Merry’s a really cool shooter and I’m a fast learner, you’d be surprised if I were to show you my full potential.”

 “Why don’t you show me, then?”

 “Why whould I?

“Because you told me I’d be surprised, and I want to be surprised.”

 “Nah, I don’t want to offend you by being better than you”

 “Then you don’t have to worry about anything because I assure you that you won’t be better than me.”

 And then Ash stood up and waved Kelly goodbye, since he had to reunite with his peers. As he was leaving the park, Kelly shouted to meet there the day after that at the same time, which Ash assumed by the position of the sun that it was around eight PM. Ash turned to look at Kelly’s dazzling smile, nodded and proceeded to return to his hideout.

 The day after that they met again, and Kelly was wearing the same clothes. Maybe she didn’t have a spare, or she just liked wearing that like Ash liked wearing his grey hoodie, who knows. Kelly was waiting for him with a smirk, twisting her gun in her hands with practiced expertise. Ash then confirmed that she was older and had experience with the usage of guns.

 Maybe he’d had to ask Merry to help him while Blanca was away.

 Or maybe not he thought as Kelly’s demanding “Get your ass down here!” brought him to reality. He had managed to escape from Marvin and the geezer and he was there, with someone who claimed to be a better shooter than him.

 “I’ve brought my gun.” Ash said “I don’t let anyone hold it.”

 “And would you let me hold it?” Kelly asked.

 “I don’t even know your name.” Ash countered. Their dynamic was entertaining and fun, he wasn’t used to that.

 “Excuse me? I’m the one who doesn’t know your name.” Kelly asked, pretending to be hurt.

 “Really? I thought everyone knew me because people use to hate my guts.” Ash let go.

 “Why do you think people know me, dude. They hate my guts too. I’m Kelly. Kelly Momsen, even though you know that already.”

 “Ash Lynx. And now could we get started?”

 Kelly grimaced but didn’t say a word, just piled up some junk for them to shoot at. Ash lost track of the time they spent there shooting stuff and laughing. He was genuinely having fun and he probably blushed a little bit when he looked at Kelly from the corner of his eyes and saw that focused expression of hers he knew he wouldn’t be able to take of his head anytime soon.

   Since that day, they spent three days seeing each other, because then Blanca would come back and Ash would have to follow his training again, but he always had some time to see his gang members so he could maybe pile up some time to see Kelly. Their activities together weren’t always shooting or talking about their past; he learned a bunch of new things about Kelly. The brunette was 15 years old, roughly a year older, even though she looked older than what she was. She was scared of thunderstorms because when she lived alone on the streets she felt like she would die any minute if a thunder struck her; she had an unbelievable weakness for cats (Kelly Momsen, the tough gang leader who could beat you into a pulp without even batting an eye, loved cute kittens. It was a fact). Kelly, too, learned things about Ash.

 Except the thing about the pumpkins. Screw him if he was ever going to tell that to anyone. Griff had already laughed at his face when he told him what happened that night. (He then ruffled his hair and whispered a soft I’s okay, Aslan, you’re safe now accompanied by one of Griff’s sweetest smiles). Griff’s smiles were always the sweetest. Hell, he really missed his brother. He didn’t want to let go of his hand when they parted ways… but he had to, there wasn’t any other option.

 A strong, growing fondness for Kelly was starting to grow inside of Ash, until the last day they had agreed to meet, Ash found Kelly’s corpse on the park. The green, almost yellow-ish grass was now red, stained with the blood of the person he thought he liked.

 Ash didn’t have to turn around to see who had committed such atrocity, but he did nevertheless to glare at the bastard.

 Marvin.

 I killed your little girlfriend. He said.

 It was his fault. Ash knew Marvin liked to follow him around, and he let himself grow attached to Kelly. And because he was this selfish and spent time with her…

 -

 “I couldn’t save her.” Ash said, his eyes saddening. Remembering this story always made him feel like shit. Sure, Marvin was dead (not by his hands, he couldn’t avenge Kelly) but he was dead, and Eiji was in his life.

 He didn’t know if he had to feel relieved or scared now that Eiji was in his life. Because back then, with Kelly, he thought he liked her, like, really liked her, because Kelly was amazing, but with Eiji, Ash knew he was in love. Ash’s eyes were welling up with tears. Why did everyone close to him had to suffer? He had lost count of how many times he had to ask himself that question.

 Eiji gazed at Ash, concern written all over his deep brown eyes. He was going to apologize again for asking about the girl, huh? Japanese people are always apologizing.

 “Are you feeling bad for me again?” Ash asked “The world won’t let me mingle with normal people anymore.”

 He was about to correct himself because Kelly wasn’t normal at all, but then Eiji had to intervene.

 “If me being here is a burden to you…” Eiji muttered. Ash was done with making Eiji feel bad. He should’ve gone to Japan before, or maybe he shouldn’t have met him in the first place. Ash didn’t deserve Eiji, and Eiji didn’t deserve this suffering.

 Ash had fallen for Eiji when he noticed his warmth; the warmth in his eyes, in his touch, in his promised forevers… in Eiji himself. Eiji Okumura was the definition of warmth.

 “No, it’s not that- forget it, I don’t want to fight.” Ash sighed. He had already fought with Eiji and felt bad enough for having lashed out at him once, he didn’t want it to happen twice.

 “Ash.” Eiji said, determined.

 Were they really going to fight again? The night before Ash was going to settle scores with Arthur? Please, no.

 “Stop acting like you’re the only one who feels this.” This?

 Shit.

 “What?” He asked. Bewildered. Eiji was much more keen and sharp that what he looked like, so… what if he knew?

 “This. Between us. I love you too, you know. You don’t have to act like you’re pushing me away to protect me.”

 “I… Eiji…”

 “Ash, you deserve this. Me. Feeling loved. I feel protected when I’m with you, I feel like my soul is bound to yours, what do you think I’d do without you? I know that behind those green eyes of yours you hide a lot of pain, but there’s also the person I’m in love with, this gentle, loving caring person who’s dumb and hates pumpkins and mocks me for hating moths and…” Eiji kept rambling about how much he loved Ash and…

 Well, you’re screwed. Ash thought. And so am I.

 “Eiji, you know what happened to that girl who was close to me, and she belonged to my world; which means that I can’t be with anyone, no matter from which world they are. You don’t belong here.” Ash bitterly let go.

 That was wrong and would probably make Eiji angry. Again. He was going to screw up again.

 Eiji stood up and sat at the couch, besides Ash, and put a hand on Ash’s trembling shoulders. Then Ash grabbed Eiji’s Hand and clasped it tightly.

 “Eiji. Don’t let go” He whispered against Eiji’s shoulders. The I love you was left unspoken as Eiji pressed a chaste kiss on Ash’s blond, beautiful hair. They didn’t have to say it. Eiji said it because he knew Ash was repressing his feelings, but between them, they really didn’t need to say it.

  –

Ash knows he has a problem, but... he dies letting Eiji go, because this is how it should be. Because he shouldn’t have even tried going to Japan. All the soft kisses and touches and embraces they shared after that night shouldn’t have happened. He shouldn’t have let himself attached to Eiji, but…

 Their souls would always be connected.

 –

Eiji knows he has a problem, he thinks, staring at Ash’s computer, but how was he supposed to let Ash go if his soul would always be with him?

 He still remembers the day he knew Ash had died. He still remembers how much he had hated Lao and how much he still has.

 But… he knows he can’t keep hiding Ash’s pictures forever. Because…

 Ash is alive inside his soul, after all

[saints-row-2]

film watch day 31: Every Halloween Film

happy Halloween today i watched every Halloween film currently available to me. i couldnt get to rewatch Halloween 2018 but i already wrote about it a couple of weeks back so feel free to revisit that post. anyway, i watched ten Halloween movies today. It took around 17 hours. i started at 11:15am and im writing this now at 6 am.

so lets get to the post. for the most part i went in chronological order, except i chose to start with Rob Zombie’s remakes because i knew if i didnt id be finishing the day by watching them at the break of dawn and the idea of doing that was so fucking putrid to me that i decided to get them out of the way first.

Halloween (2007)

i hate this fucking movie. i mentioned in an ask the other day but im happy to repeat here, i dont hate the idea of expanding on Michael’s backstory. like the fact is we largely know his backstory, the issue is how this film chose to portray it. the original Halloween is frightening because its based around the idea that the seemingly safe, quiet suburbs are not as safe as they seem; you can be on a street youve known your entire life, only a few metres from your own home, and still at risk. the whole idea of showing Michael as a murderer when he was six is to tell us that anyone could be a threat, that our conventions that all killers are a particular kind of person is false.

Halloween 2007 says fuck that, we know what serial killers are, and theyre those poor kids who come from shitty neighbourhoods and have abusive parents and mothers who are sex workers. everything that Halloween brings to the table is fucking tedious, played out, and massively uninspired. it wants to bring us the truth about why Michael is like he is, but Rob Zombie’s only understanding of serial killers is in the cliche and exploitative. he has nothing honest about human nature to show us, only the exact same stories that have been fed to us by crime and horror movies past.

this film is incredibly loud and in fucking constant motion. even on steady shots of still scenes the camera constantly shakes, and in every other scene its always whirling around from tracking shot to panning over the scene to just idly zooming in and out of nothing. Zombie’s favourite shot is to have something large and out of focus in the foreground -- like some plants -- and to shoot the characters standing about six feet away muttering to themselves. every single fucking shot in this movie lingers too long, every scene drags a little longer than it needs to. this film moves with the pace that i would describe as “family guy gag”.

and this film is so loud. people are always talking or screaming, largely about nothing important or interesting. theres always music, but it never particularly adds anything; for reasons i fail to fucking understand the entirety of the original theme plays over mostly uninteresting tracking shots of a minor character walking around yelling filler lines about nothing.

the writing is horseshit. everyone in this film is vile, no one talks or behaves like real human beings. almost every exchange in this movie is the characters saying the exact same thing back and forth inanely, frequently punctuated by screaming FUCK as loudly as possible and talking about sex in a way that 40 year old men really really wished teenage girls talk about sex. Halloween (2007) is thoughtlessly gross and mean and nasty, disconnected from any kind of human sensitivity and empathy. it wants to be complicated and to be deep but its crushingly simplistic and stupid. the only thing that redeems it is that its not Halloween II (2009). speaking of which...

Halloween II (2009)

jesus christ this movie is so fucking boring. Halloween II is two hours long but feels like its about twenty hours long. i felt like i was watching this film for twenty days and twenty nights. i was trapped in an eternal purgatory with this movie.

i really cant fucking emphasise how boring this film is. endless scene after scene of nothing of consequence happening, uninteresting death scenes that add nothing, and Michael wandering around doing jack shit. Halloween II fucking made Michael Myers boring, and im saying this as someone who (as i repeat once every 8 seconds) has a tattoo of him. this film couldnt hold MY interest in two of my favourite characters of all time.

the big fun new addition from the first movie is the presence of Michael and Laurie’s mother as a kind of weird goth ghost guiding Michael to kill. i dont know why Michael had to be Jason Voorhees and be a mommy’s boy all of a sudden, but this addition brings absolutely nothing of interest to the film or to his character. its meant to be symbolic of fucking... something im sure, but it feels meaningless. somehow Michael and Laurie are both able to see and interact with this ghost and the ghost has an agenda to do... something? it feels about as intelligent and coherent as the bullshit cult of thorne shit from 6, but a lot less fun. at some point Michael Myers apparently has mind control powers?

not to repeat myself a hundred fucking times but this film is insanely unpleasant to watch. every scene someone is screaming, generally wailing “fuck you bitch” at anyone in their vicinity. this is two hours of people howling swear words at each other and not infrequently making rape jokes. Rob Zombie loves rape jokes! almost as much as he loves putting sexual assault in his movies over and over again for no reason.

there is nothing to enjoy in this film. theres nothing to gain. there is too much slow-mo and far too many strobe lights and absolutely nothing of any intelligence or grace. Halloween II is a thirteen year old boy in a korn T-shirt calling his mom a bitch while he draws zombies on  the back of his homework, which he will get an F for because the only thing he wrote was “reading is for faggots”.

Halloween (1978)

what the fuck can i say. this is one of the greatest horror movies ever made, if not the greatest. its one of my favourite movies. its forty years old and still just as chilling and frightening as it ever was. it has some shot composition and cinematography thats up with the best ive ever seen, all while being shot on a budget of $300,000. it does more with less than just about any film, launched the slasher genre, shot Jamie Lee Curtis to stardom and created a pop culture icon that stayed strong for decades. its a masterclass in tension and suspense, a lean-cut perfectly paced film with heaps of atmosphere and character.

i love this film with a frantic passion that makes me unable to talk about it in a particularly helpful way. i cant “review” Halloween. I love this film beyond reason and sense and you either get it or you dont.

Halloween II (1981)

Halloween II is largely one of the less remembered entries in the franchise; its a decent enough movie, neither matching up to the highs of the original or the lows of the later films. its a pretty enjoyable little film, created under the logic of ‘well the first one did well, lets do the same thing again’. Carpenter wrote the script but didn’t direct, and while the film has a solid story, the directing lacks his signature flair. its hard to pinpoint, because the film is generally fairly well-shot, but lacks a kind of eye for shot composition that Carpenter made look easy, doesnt have as much patience for suspense.

on its own merits, theres still some great shots and great scenes in the movie. and a lot of really cool kills; II got a lot more creative with what Michael was capable of, and i think the boiling water drowning kill is rightfully pretty infamous.

this was the last Halloween movie Carpenter wrote, and it was the film where the idea of Laurie and Michael being siblings was introduced. and believe me ill defend this fucking decision to the grave. adding the human connection between Michael and Laurie gives a whole other layer to their relationship thats so fascinating to me, and i love that other films try to expand on the themes of family. in general, deciding that this film would continue to focus on Laurie and not do what later slashers did with bouncing around between different casts was a great fucking move, ironically for a franchise that was intended to be an anthology.

quietly exploring the aftermath of the first film was a good idea for a follow-up, and i especially really enjoy Loomis’ role in this movie, and his discussion about who Myers is. the biggest disappointment for me personally is that Laurie lacks a lot of presence in this film. Curtis is great, as always, but the movie dawdles on some side characters who are too disconnected from her to get a sense of what shes going through.

all that being said, Halloween II is decent. the ending is really great, with some really powerful shots. Michael bleeding from the eyes of his mask after Laurie shoots him is one of the best fucking images in horror and him swinging blindly as Laurie and Loomis slowly orchestrate his death is a fucking amazing scene. i have an immense fondness for this movie, with all its flaws. it brings a lot of really cool concepts to the table, and i think it deserves some appreciation.

heres a question tho; where the fuck were Laurie’s parents. theres a suggestion theyre missing, but theres no explanation why and we never hear from them. did michael kill them too? hello? mr and mrs strode? your daughter just fucking killed a guy and all her friends are dead. where the fuck are you.

Halloween III: Season of the Witch

Halloween III is infamous as being the Halloween movie that isn’t about Michael Myers at all. when it first released it was wildly unpopular and remained so for quite a while, but has had a surge in popularity over the last few years. i think just about every horror critic i know now considers Halloween III one of the best in the franchise. and to be fair to it, its a great little movie. not a slasher at all but rather a conspiracy thriller, Halloween III is all about the mystery of what the Silver Shamrock mask-making company are really up to, and why people are disappearing. its a weird and creative little movie, with some really fucking great practical effects that turn it from just being a thriller to being an all-out horror film. it has a few too many ineffective jumpscares and some of the plot twists are kind of disappointing and feel a little too much like the easy option -- and then others are so wildly bizarre no one would see them coming because theyre fucking completely out there. but i kind of love that sort of nonsense in a horror movie. like lets just have a fucking good time in here for once in our fucking lives.

Halloween III is not a perfect or even a really great movie, but yknow, fuck it. the idea that only perfect films are worth watching is dumb. i appreciate the weird shit this film tried and i think it deserves a lot more respect than what it got; if it had been released under another title it probably would have gone down as a classic instead of being derided for years, you ask me.

now things start going rapidly downhill

Halloween 4: The Return of Michael Myers

Halloween 4 is when Jamie is introduced as the new final girl; Laurie’s seven year old daughter, after Laurie herself died off-screen in a fucking car crash. the decision to kill off Laurie came from Jamie Lee Curtis decided not to return to the character and instead of recasting her, they went with just having her… die. off-screen. in the franchise where the previous two movies were about her triumph and determination to stay alive. like its the casual thoughtlessness of this that, the idea no one would give a shit a character returned, that in my eyes epitomises how fucking little anyone cared about this franchise going forward.

man the idea of Laurie dying completely irrelevant to Michael… thats a lot. anyway continuing on his quest to erase anyone related to him, Michael starts targeting his niece Jamie for the three movies in the franchise. this is where the series started rapidly losing any grip on reality. while Michael always had some kind of superhuman elements to him (he took six bullets to the chest and survived in the first movie) these became increasingly wildly exaggerated. now hes crushing peoples skulls with his bare hands shit like what the fuck. first of all do that to me and secondly, it was this kind of slide into unreality that let the supernatural elements of the series creep in further until you end up with the shitshow that is Halloween 6. like it was the decrease in the impact of violence and human life that really fucked this franchise over.

this film is not great. its a definite decline in quality after 2 and was on the slippery slope downwards. it has some high points, primarily in Dr Loomis. Donald Pleasance is a better actor than most movies deserve and brings gravitas to a role that in the hands of a less capable actor would be laughable. his sincere plea to Michael at one point to just kill him instead of going after Jamie is honestly fucking tragic.

outside of that, the film isnt massively interesting. Michael himself isnt particularly threatening or engaging, and his mask looks like shit in this film. the characters in this film are largely very stupid, also, which doesnt help anything much.

Halloween 5: The Revenge of Michael Myers

if theres a Halloween movie people talk about the least, its this one. II has the sibling twist, III is the black sheep, 4 is the return, even 6 gets talked about for its troubled production history. no one has anything to say about Halloween 5. and thats mostly because there is fucking nothing to say about Halloween 5. it is a relentlessly fucking dull movie that pads out its 100 minute run time with endless unnecessary scenes of shit that does… nothing. this film is dull in a way that i find incredibly detestable. i cant even watch it through a haze of impassioned anger like i can with the also incredible dull Halloween II (2009). its just fucking boring. every single scene drags like its trying to walk on two broken legs. the plot is so bare bones its nonsensical. it constantly adds new characters and new elements but all that does is makes it more incoherent and confusing. watching this movie i literally found my fucking eyes glazing over in my skull. if this film was edited correctly it would be twenty minutes long. i cannot fucking emphasise enough how much of relentless slog it is. Halloween 4 was dull but even that had the lifeline of ‘some cool ideas’. Halloween 5 is nothing. Halloween 5 is puddle dirt water.

Halloween 6: The Curse of Michael Myers

if Halloween 5 is puddle dirt water Halloween 6 is just a fresh hot glass of piss. there are two versions of Halloween 6, the director’s cut and the theatrical release, and both are wretched. this film went full ham with introducing the supernatural elements, telling us that Michael was his whole life psychically controlled by a pagan cult called the Cult of Thorne in order to make Halloween scary again or summon the devil or who fucking cares. this movie is fucking insufferably dull, totally absurd, and wildly unsympathetic. i loathe Halloween 6 and every terrible, stupid plot decision it makes. Paul Rudd defeats Michael Myers by drawing druid symbols on the ground and Michael just gives up and lies down. theres a baby that does nothing and serves no purpose. Halloween is apparently banned in Haddonfield, which makes this more closely related to Footloose than Halloween i think. this film takes itself incredibly seriously while spouting nothing but total fucking bullshit drivel and i dont believe that anyone involved in this movie, from the cast to the cameraman to the guy who served the lunch had any faith in this movie outside of the vague hope it might make money and i wish this movie had been burned at the stake. also i hate Paul Rudd.

Halloween H20: 20 Years Later

oh thank fucking god finally some good fucking food. Halloween H20 took the decision to retcon all the sequels (except II) twenty years before Halloween 2018, proving that everyone knew 5 and 6 were fucking mistakes.

this film loses a lot of the Halloween feeling in favour of making a more generic late 1990s/early 2000s style horror. theres nothing particularly interesting about the way this movie is directed or shot, the music is largely very generic, it has a generally uninteresting glossy quality to it that studio movies always do. its very obvious this movie was inspired by Scream and it looks a lot more like Scream than it does Halloween. all of this makes me kind of sad, but other films in the franchise have proved that other directors generally are not capable of imitating Carpenter’s style so maybe its better they dont really try.

what H20 does so well, and the reason i love it so much, is that it explores the relationship between Michael and Laurie, which is something im endlessly fascinated with. this was the first movie to have Laurie shake off her fear and rise up against Michael, and while it doesnt do it with quite as much depth and intelligence as Halloween 2018, it still has a fucking good crack at Laurie’s character, and its still powerful watching her turn on the man who terrorised her for years. Michael is great in this movie too; while he has a terrible mask, watching him back on his shit as a furious force of nature who wants nothing more than to destroy anyone who gets in his way.

honestly i kind of enjoy having a Halloween in a different style; theres something fun about seeing characters recontextualised and done with justice and empathy. most of the Halloween sequels before this one (and after, looking at Resurrection) are shallow, unconcerned with any kind of emotional depth or personality. and while a lot of the stock filler characters in H20 who are lined up for the chopping block arent that interesting and dont particularly standout, watching Jamie Lee Curtis’ performance and seeing her interplay with Michael is enough. and most of the side characters arent particularly annoying, which is more than i can say for half this franchise.

this film also has what is one of my absolute favourite endings in a movie ever; the final confrontation between Michael and Laurie has a particular interaction between them that i absolutely adore and that alone is enough to make this movie one of my favourites.

H20 isnt perfect; it weirdly feels like a blueprint that Halloween 2018 would later refine into a better movie, but the idea its going to be completely disregarded for Halloween 2018 in the future makes me a little sad. in the face of so many fucking mediocre and awful Halloween sequels it did the right thing in trying to focus on what actually mattered; the connection between Michael and Laurie, although i dont feel like it succeeded in making Michael as scary as 2018 would much later. that said, the shot where Michael and Laurie just stare at each other through the glass of a window? that gives me chills every time. and hearing the Halloween theme kick in as Laurie marches off into the school with an axe looking for Michael is so fucking triumphant.

i love H20 even if Michael’s mask looks like his hair was dunked in a bucket of water and then gently blow-dried. i have no idea why it looks so fucking stupid in this movie. why is it so hard to get Michael’s mask right. you wouldnt think it was that fucking hard. anyway, i really fucking love Laurie Strode a lot, which didnt help to make Resurrection any easier to swallow.

Halloween: Resurrection

so whats the obvious thing to do after you have a movie where the power and emotion all comes from the emotional catharsis of seeing a woman get her vengeance on her tormentor? you, uh, make a sequel in which she is immediately defeated and pointlessly killed after its revealed her victory at the end of the previous film was entirely false, and then you never return to focus on her and instead introduce a horde of entirely uninteresting stock characters. yeah, makes sense.

Resurrection is fucking incredibly stupid, in the kind of fucking hysterical way only really bad horror movies can capture. theres absolutely nothing of Halloween in this other than the presence of Michael, who just as easily could have been replaced with anyone or anything. the story has a group of people on a reality show staying in the Myers house to… stay there? its not entirely clear what the challenge is meant to be, other than to just be inside the house, which i imagine gets to be pretty dull viewing pretty quickly. theres no suggestion theyre like, hunting for ghosts or something along those lines, theyre just… looking at stuff.

Michael slopes around this movie like he doesnt fucking understand where he is or whats going on, an entirely out of place relic of better times past while the cast cavorts around him doing nothing of interest and having no plots or characterisation to speak of. the film has exactly two or three funny moments, including the legendary ‘Michael Myers getting electrocuted in the dick by Busta Rhymes’, but youre way, way better off just looking that up on youtube instead of watching this movie. there is an hour of pointless plot development about characters no one cares about until Michael starts fucking killing people. this movie shouldnt exist and we should all go back to pretending it doesnt.

and thats it. thats all the halloween films. i can die now.

[asknightqueendany]

Why the f can’t you just accept that Sansa is an important character? D&d’s version is canon too & besides Sansa isn’t a REAL person. They can mold her any which way they want. And she is such an important character. Even in the books, the books are slower but I have no doubt she’s going to become more powerful. She’s already becoming manipulative and learning to play the game in the books. Grrm just didn’t want to rape a main character that’s eleven years old (jeyne isn’t a main)

Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning.

I love how suddenly the show is “canon” when it’s convenient for people but when it’s not, it’s “well that only happened in the show!”

“GRRM just didn’t want to rape a main character that’s eleven years old“

No, he just raped a main character who was 13 years old to the point where she wanted to kill herself because she was in so much physical pain and emotionally miserable and then romanticized it later, disguising a case of clear Stockholm Syndrome as “love”. (Daenerys, obviously).

I love George’s writing. I think he does a great job with giving life to his characters, especially the women - he writes them way better than D&D at least.

But he doesn’t like to face the fact that he does write rape and disguises it as love. The show embraces that so the audience doesn’t have to ask the question “Well, was she REALLY raped or was it consensual?” Yes, I’ve had people actually question whether Dany was raped in the books by Drogo simply because she said “yes”. Dany was 13. It was fucking rape.

And Cersei and Jaime in the Sept next to Joffrey’s body. In the end, Cersei may give in, but she tells Jaime “No” in the beginning, going so far as to hit him repeatedly while he’s pulling down his pants and climbing on top of her. George might say Cersei is “as hungry for him as he is for her” but he even acknowledges that the scene in the books is from Jaime’s POV, not Cersei’s, and that it’s meant to be “disturbing”. 

There was no tenderness in the kiss he returned to her, only hunger. Her mouth opened for his tongue. "No," she said weakly when his lips moved down her neck, "not here. The septons…"

"The Others can take the septons." He kissed her again, kissed her silent, kissed her until she moaned. Then he knocked the candles aside and lifted her up onto the Mother's altar, pushing up her skirts and the silken shift beneath. She pounded on his chest with feeble fists, murmuring about the risk, the danger, about their father, about the septons, about the wrath of gods. He never heard her. He undid his breeches and climbed up and pushed her bare white legs apart. One hand slid up her thigh and underneath her smallclothes. When he tore them away, he saw that her moon's blood was on her, but it made no difference.

"Hurry," she was whispering now, "quickly, quickly, now, do it now, do me now. Jaime Jaime Jaime." Her hands helped guide him. "Yes," Cersei said as he thrust, "my brother, sweet brother, yes, like that, yes, I have you, you're home now, you're home now, you're home." She kissed his ear and stroked his short bristly hair. Jaime lost himself in her flesh. He could feel Cersei's heart beating in time with his own, and the wetness of blood and seed where they were joined.

This might be “passion” to George, but Cersei’s consent is really dubious here and he doesn’t like to admit that. It may not have been his intention when he was writing, but it’s most definitely how the finished product comes across.

The show just removes that question for the audience so we’re not left debating whether a victim is actually a victim.

So far as Sansa and Jeyne...they weren’t 11 years old. Jeyne was roughly 14-15 and show-Sansa was 16.

And I ask you anon, if we’re getting into moral high ground and who’s better or worse here, seriously, what’s the difference between a writer choosing to have a 14 - 15 year old girl raped who the audience does know (book audience) simply for the advancement of a MALE character’s plot and redemption arc, and a writer choosing to have a 16 year old girl raped who is a “main” character but who has much more agency than her book counterpart, has more will to escape and is stronger than her book counterpart, and whom this isn’t just for a male character’s story arc, but it’s her own and we get to see it and experience it with her through HER eyes as opposed to someone else’s?

What’s the difference?

In the books, there’s a possibility Sansa will marry again. Maybe Harry the Heir. While she does attempt to charm him, his first meeting with her he’s rude and reminds her of Joffrey. Another character nicknames him “Harry the Arse” and of a woman he fathered a child on, he says childbirth left her “fat as a cow.” What a great guy.

If they were to get married in the books, I can image George writing a scene between the two just as he’s written other scenes between other characters in the books - one of dubious consent.

The show doesn’t do that.

Going back to your point “They can mold her any way they want” well...yes, they own the television rights to the series so sure, I guess...?

But we’re headed into the Long Night on the show as well as in the books. You say Sansa has “gotten good” at playing the political games, but tell me, what use will that have next season? Hmm?

Other than sweet-talking the Northern Lords about Jon bending the knee to Dany and likely arranging the marriage between them so the Northern Lords will quit complaining, Sansa won’t have much to do next season. She’s not the Three-Eyed-Raven, she’s not a Faceless Man, she’s not a great swordsman, she’s not a dragonrider, she’s not a sorceress.

She’s going to be in the position of many in the supporting cast who can’t fight - Missandei, Varys, Davos. All those characters are essentially going to be sitting around next season, kinda like they were this season. Davos was Jon’s plucky comedic side-kick, Missandei was there for Dany’s girl-talk, Varys just kinda offering input when no one else had anything to say....And the show created drama between Arya and Sansa basically to give the two more screen time and find a way to kill Baelish off this season. It was in no way to advance the plot at all.

Yes, in the books, Sansa’s role will get more important and grow, as it has in the show, but she’ll never be a “Key” player in the War for the Dawn aside from being Lady of Winterfell. That’s her role.

[gensamuels]

[ CIERRA RAMIREZ // FEMALE // SHE / HER ] – Oh my god, is that [ GENEVIEVE SAMUELS ], Ryleigh Mitchell’s [ COSTAR’S COUSIN ]?! The tabloids can’t seem to stop buzzing about the [ 23 ] year old [ DATA ANALYST’S ASSISTANT ]. According to the press, they’re [ VIVACIOUS ] and [ FORGIVING ], yet also [ INDULGENT ] and [ MISGUIDED ], but with all this gossip who really knows? All eyes have been on them since Ryleigh went missing, so are they really innocent?  I guess only time can tell. 

tw: mentions of statutory rape and abuse

her birth name is actually genevieve lee torres. torres is her dad’s last name, her mom is a rivera. her mom was only 17 when she was born and her dad was 22

her family life sucked when she was little bc her dad was an alcoholic and her parents fought a lot. they got married when she was a toddler, mostly because her moms family wanted them to keep up appearances

gen went to boarding school starting when she was only 6, which might have been for the best bc her home life was awful

gen is definitely not the master manipulator her cousin is, and is actually really bad at making friends so she never really had friends at school

her parents got divorced when she was 9 and her mom got remarried when she was 11. gen’s dad didn’t really try to be in her life much at all until her mom got remarried and he saw gen’s stepdad actually try to spend time with her. 

this really only led to lengthy custody battles, where gen was treated more like an object than a person and each of her individual parents coached her on all the reasons she shouldn’t want to be with the other parent, and what she should tell the judge when they got called in for hearings.

when gen was 13, her mother pulled her from boarding school in an attempt to present a stronger “family” dynamic to the family court. gen actually really liked living with her mom, step dad and step brother and she felt a lot happier there than she did at boarding school.

gen’s step brother was 17 and even though they didn’t grow up together, they became really close and really started to view each other as siblings, and he was very protective of gen

gen really took an interest in her brother and his friends, often following them around the house, a habit her brother humored most of the time. after a while, her brother’s best friend seemingly took a similar interest in her, often stepping away from his friends and finding her where she was in the house to talk to her alone.

i’m not gonna get into the details of this yikes relationship but you and i both know this guy was a creep and this is a big yikes

this started a long string of bad relationships, here they are: she dated a guy for three years during high school who physically abused her, after that she was in college and she had a couple inappropriate hookups including but not limited to: a professor at her college, her boss at a job she worked, and other girls’ boyfriends. 

also when gen was 15 her step dad officially adopted her and she took on his last name (samuels) in an attempt to further separate herself from her bio dad

anyway back to college. she weirdly became friends with bryce mathews during college and when his older brother jackson was in town she slept with him and got pregnant and she never told him but she did tell bryce and will

will is basically her best and one of her only friends and she’s super in love with him which is sad bc hes highkey oblivious

her daughter, gabriela rivera, is two.

i think that’s all?????