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alren-ki · 1 year

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People were talking about him today in the Shroud Server, so, I figured I had to draw Nick's funny little sidekick as I pictured him so its Charlie Time!

#awled ren draws #death shroud #Charlie Death Shroud #He felt like he was like 17 to me #also he's got a crooked nose from getting into fights all the time #On one hand I would love his full canon backstory on the other I don't wanna give up the one I'm thinking of #also- patchiest facial hair in the universe but refuses to shave because it makes him look older

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martyryo · 7 months

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I can't be trusted with colors.

#artists on tumblr #digital art #illustration #fight club #fight club 1999 #tyler durden #the narrator fight club #marla singer #went crazy with this #been thinking about him in the last period #honestly looking in the mirror and imagining him telling me “you're literally me” makes me go through weeks like a blast #not in a loser way but in a girl way iykwim #I'm literally tyler durden if he was 17 and went to school and was a girl #once again work doodles turned into a full piece #this whole thing felt liberating to do #I've spent all week doing short animations working with 40+ layers while this was done only on 3 #also included the narrator and marla cause i love them #martyryo

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lunarharp · 1 month

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uhh another modern au agott follow-up. They've gotten progressively sillier

#witch hat tag #orufrey #hopefully you remember where she's at. the original one about her turmoils with art was so sincere....#but this is sincere too. being a 12 year old autistic lesbian is one of the most stupid things to experience. Like what is happening.#Yeah OK maybe i'm a wee lesbo. but i'm focusing on my CAREER rn so idc about that. SO i'm very upset that other ppl are not FOCUSING!!!!#A-AND FYI MY TEACHER HE CARRIES AROUND A GIRLY LIL PURSE!!! SO THERE!!!! Why are they walking away #agott helps me have to decide how to draw expressions i have never drawn before.#i actually realised looking at the concept art book stuff more carefully that coco is canonically 14? Ok....#it's a little too cruel if theyre dealing with periods on top of saving witch society from its foibles..but ok.. i do feel that riche is 12 #also coco's hair is going to turn dark green when she's an adult or something. it's 'blonder' now due to being a kid🤔#abba is bc after a big long modern au orufrey comic where they got together i just strongly felt that they slowdanced to abba that day #feeling the mirth and hope of life and 'young and sweet only 17' why didnt we get together sooner but its ok like this & i love you dearly.#teen qif secretly listening to abba heartache songs after olly's caretaker drives him away..in that faded neopets hoodie.#it became 'their music' their silly little music.. right up there with the faerie bubbles theme.. (<- frustrating neopets minigame.)

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thedreadvampy · 3 months

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sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

#red said #recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis #like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing.#but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes #and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not #for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count)#actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening #i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine #as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think.#i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital #as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin #ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes #some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs.#but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am #bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me #like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD #there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife #but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down.#and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't #tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us #like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well #i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point #anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also #been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell.#my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them #i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it #most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables #honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk #is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there.#idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry

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jeonsupershy · 4 months

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*wonu's voice* my grandiose dream😭💎🩷🩵

#felt surreal #don't know if it makes sense but!!!#they sound so good live like even better than cds?!?!?#the energy was insane i love them sm #got in as a wonwoorideul and came out a couprang because....#his stage presence is no joke #today was insane everything ive done this year feels crazy #and it's all thanks to them #ALSO getting into svt watching highlight #and watching them perform it live...goosebumps #17 yr old kashi would not believe today #boo seungkwan!!! he's soo adorable and hyper active i love him #and hoshi!!! he's literally the conductor of the concert #wonwoo...i felt like i was dreaming #they're all soo much more taller than i thought(as a 5ft girlie)#im biased but hhu unit has my heart #ill stop babbling #these boys have given me so much #thank you for the love that makes me feel less lonely🥺#shutup kashi #my boys #🌟

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faggotwalkwithme · 3 months

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dude i just waited like 10 minutes to meet this famous indonesian director guy. go in. he basically tells me i need to stop having anxiety to become a filmmaker? then dismissed me what the fuck 😭😭😭

#ever think of the circumstances #oh maybe i’m 17 and this is my first job and it’s only my 3rd day and ur like one of the heads of this company and i had no idea i was gonn #be meeting u #YOU FONT KNOW WHAT IM LIKE WHEN IM ON MY OWN FILM SETS LOL #i’m sure my actors can attest that i’m not really shy then #NOT TO MENTION I HAVE THE FUCKING!!!! UNMEDICATED DISORDERS #PLEASE #it just felt very rude to me like he doesn’t know me #he’s just like let’s give this teenager with anxiety useless advice #like stfu #shut up mars

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skunkg1rll · 2 months

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listening to colours by halsey and crying bc im still a 13yr old little girl inside

#EVERYTHING IS BLUEEEE HIS PILLS HIS HANDS HIS JEANS NOW IM COVERED IN COLORS #EVERYTHING IS GREY HIS HAIR HIS SMOKE HIS DREAMS AND NOW HES SO DEVOID OF COLOR HE DONT KNOW WHAT IT MEANS #AND HES BLUEEEEEEEEEEE #halsey's been dear to my heart for so many years im sad :')))))#ok i dont know years #i was 17... 🧍🏻‍♀️ but i felt like 13... 13 and 17 yr old me were the same

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raytm · 4 months

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I’ve been missing him a lot lately.

#you have your best friend for 17 years and then every single day when they’re gone will feel horrible.#he was with me through every hard thing in my life and without him it’s just felt like I’m treading water or #waiting to wake up from a bad dream #as someone who doesn’t connect well with people rocky was my everything and losing him has left such a hole in my life #even like six or seven months later I still get sad and cry when I see photos of him #snap chat memories are cursed but god #he was such a good boy #ooc.

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opalsoap · 6 months

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I LOVE YOU ANDROID 17 !!! (louder than everyone else)

Im so mushy for him,, sometimes I feel so apathetic and disconnected from everything, but Lapis brings me back and I love him sm for it <3

When he tells me everything will be okay, then I actually feel better because I put all my trust into his judgment,, besides, he tells me "If you're ever falling, you know I'll be there to catch you." And not once did he ever break that promise

GAHH ILHSM I'm so glad my friend introduced me to him,, when I met him in that bakery, I thought we'd never get along,, but here we are, married for life :3

It's nice having a lover who balances you out,, opposites attract is such a real saying HEHSJS

Anyway, take the edit I've made for my dearest :> Lapis made fun of me for making it saying I was sooo obsessed with him (he's not wrong) but oh well !! he loves picking on me for that anyway

I apologize for it being offbeat,, I don't edit, I just really wanted to make the audio :D All in all, I'm grateful you are in my life, my perfect, beloved, Lapis <3

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1864th · 5 months

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kim dokja hating kim namwoon is funny until it isn't because when you know....

#kdj hating knw so much was rly funnt to me atfirst bc it always felt like an is it that serious moment #esp when we see more of knw and he turns out to just be some kid #like. kdj ur fucked up for hating on a 17 yr old. then #him saying he related to knw. his frustrations on knw being forgiven and accepted by yjh time and time again #then. the train platform. OD who is 16. sp forgiving him accepting him.#like...oh.#orv spoilers

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hellhoundlair · 1 year

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i think a big problem with cw shows is how stilted and unnatural (lol) shit feels. was watching a few s14 episodes and this is like a prime example of exactly what im talking about

sam walks into jacks room and jack is sitting alone upright against his headboard looking at the wall. even if ur stuck in ur thoughts like jack is in this scene, why be in such an unnatural pose on a bed. thats not comfortable. jack also was sparring in these clothes in the last scene he was in, supposedly really stuggling and extering himself yet his clothes have no sweat on them and look newly washed and ironed. hes wearing shoes on the bed. pure virginal white shoes that look like theyve never been worn before, let alone worn during exercise like they supposedly are. there is no element of this that feels lived in. it doesnt feel real. this happens a LOT in mid to late seasons of supernatural and i think a lot of cw shows from the same era also struggle with this.

#if u say the things im pointing out arent actually weird its just that jacks weird - i dont agree #bc theres little things like this thru the whole show that make things feel so unnatural and weird. like everything is weirdly perfect #and its not just jack #and if its perfectly in character for jack to be sitting like this with his shoes on while sitting up in bed then maybe it SHOULDNT be.#maybe it should be acknowledged that this looks weird like sam should be like can you take ur damn shoes off the bed maybe #look at me begging for them to have written sam shaming his autistic son for his weird boy behavior. I MEAN IT THO #also sidenote same episode had a guy mention he got attacked by a monster in pheonix while maggie is like tending to his giant open wound #so ur telling me this man drove all the way from pheonix to lebanon (~17 hour drive) to recieve medical attention for this GIANT wound?#like there was no one closer? how did he not bleed out.#idk it just felt weird. it felt thoughtless. i miss early seasons where every line had a significance you could look into

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ef-1 · 2 years

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legs & lessons in perseverance | march '23

#so.#i fell into the fireplace lol #- thats the concise summary. but ive just been unwell health wise recently. i think ms is just harrowing to deal with #because you can go for so long symptom free and then one day you wake up and everything is wrong #your body feels wrong.#i remember being constantly angry at my body as though its a separate entity. especially when i was like 17/18.#because everytime i had a bad ms relapse i would literally breakdown in angry tears like- at my body. i was good to you. im meditating #im eating healthy. im exercising. ive been good to you.#but then suddenly you cant see or youre shaking uncontrollably or your limbs are numb #or my new favourite one: a couple of weeks ago i woke up at 4 am in a cold sweat. the inside of my thigh was burning #i dont mean like. exercise burning. i mean like struck a hot iron rod burning. it was obv nerve pain but that didnt stave off the panic #so i messaged my neurologist and hes like 'yeah its fine. wanna inject yourself?'#anyway. so recently i was helping my friend get his place houseparty ready and we were cleaning out the fire place #and my legs just gave out 😍#and i got so angry and humiliated i kind of just wanted to go to bed and not wake up tbh #which is what i usually do but like. i was angry. angry. scorpio angry as lidya would say. so i had a nap in his bed #and when i woke up i felt slightly better and for once i thought 'im not going to let my body ruin this day for me'#and i just dragged him to the markets with me. and i still had the tremors but we bought more greens than either of us needed #and we laughed and walked and he carried me to the car at the end of the trip and it was one of the best days ive had in a long while tbh #and it feels impossible but sometimes all u need is to brush the ash from ur knees and hide the scruffs with stockings &maybe youll be ok #💚#tw chronic illness #/ multiple sclerosis

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caspersscareschool · 4 months

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I'm going to make a dumb pointless post ok i hate in the movie that they decided suddenly that donnie haaaaates hugs and physical contact no matter what and presented this like it's always been a fact of his character when in fact in the show he sought out being squished to an abnormal degree including typically unfavorable scenerios like being on a crowded subway or crushed under a large dog or compressed in a giant bird pouch which leo Specifically knew he would enjoy enough to forgive her for calling him a slur . and would kill anyone for a hug

#in a lot of ways it seemed like his character reverted to a lot of autistic stereotypes in ways that he thoughtfully subverted in the show #like leaning super heavily into being 'emotionally unavailable'when the whole point of that in the show #is that he is an extremely emotionally driven impulsive person in a way that's obvious to everyone but him because he struggles to identify #emotions and prefers to pretend they don't exist #i guess you could easily dismiss this as him becoming more self conscious & jaded at 16 but it just #stripped him of a lot of endearing & interesting traits to me and felt oox #ooc #not that any of this matters or i care #tmnt #ok sorry i meant 17

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chrisbangs · 1 year

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if you told me all those years ago that the people who made the song that got me through the worst time of my life would go on to do some of the craziest things in their career and you said they're gonna go perform at all these places and do all these things 😭 idk what baby me would've done but current me is literally so overwhelmed with emotions ... 😞🫶‼️💗 like that's just too crazy to me to really put into words but watching the skz journey feels so heart warming and exciting and im so incredibly fucking proud of them... 🥺🤍 my skz you are so amazing 😭🫶💗🌙🫂

#idk what i'm trying to say #but 17 year old me found you when my life was in ruin #and then 🤍🫂 you picked me up and put me on my feet... 😞💗‼️ and i... i am lucky to have you in my life ...#i wouldn't be the same without you...#no i mean.. i wouldn't even be here without you #😞 i know that for sure ... like without a doubt #that part of my life was ... bad 👍#sitting on that train after being assaulted the first time and feeling like it was over like i was going to kill myself and then #all i heard was chans voice saying 'blessings wait for you'#and 😞 it felt like the first hug id had in ages... like someone had held me and told me it would be ok 😞💗#idk ... kinda presumptive to say i owe them my life but... 🫂 i wouldn't be here without them #that much is for damn sure ...#so to see them come this far ... do so much #🥺 the pride in my heart is beyond overwhelming #being here since they were nugu losers 😭💗🫶 GOD I LOVE UUUU MY SKZ!!!!!#i don't know how much more i can say it........ i so incredibly love you 😞🤍💗#god i'm so proud #i hope chan knows 😭🫶💗🥺 with every fucking fibre in my being that i'm always ALWAYS cheering him on 😞 that he deserved this so infinitely #god i fucking love him 😭‼️ my darling boy.........#:( my skz fr...#li.txt

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shalvis · 5 months

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Xenoblade 1 is the best game like ever fucking made and it has two of the most dogshit sequels ever fucking made

#meows #remembering just how insulted I felt in 2017 when I preordered the sequel and really really tried to like it #I hadn’t experienced Game I Don’t Like before 2 and it took me like 40 hours to realize I hated it #and that shit at the end is such an INSULT. such an insult #you’re telling me that [redacted] was actually only half of himself the whole time and that 1 and 2 are taking place at the same time???#and that oh actually [expunged] is one of three computers when the first game made no mention of any of that #y’all really went back to say your complete first game actually is only HaLf of the story? that someone like [expunged] is only a third of #the force that ended our planet #y’all went back and hollowed out your existing characters to make room for worse versions of the same characters #AND you play as a dork nerd child who ends the game with three gfs bc this is story #and the gfs do nothing but sacrifice themselves for you like three times and look pretty #but they don’t look pretty to like. normal well adjusted people #they look pretty to the I like questionable art of 17 year olds crowd #and the GALL. the GALL. of changing [expunged]s design in the switch port to try to stitch his afterthought purpose into the old game #while also making him just whiter and whiter until by 3 he’s like fucking light grey #and having him have a canon genderbend that’s just anime waif #who is also fucking white #and giving Klaus’ counterpart a name that has nothing to do with Gnosticism #even though so much other stuff in the first game comes from Gnosticism.#who the FUCK is Galea!!!! her name is fucking Sophia #killing biting maiming #and the gacha system? with bad odds for no reason in a game you’ve already paid for #it’s so fucking messy #it lacks a unified art direction #it’s soulless and even a game like 3 where only HALF of it is 2 flavored can’t beat the original because of the portion of 2 in it #and like what. is it like the two universes reunited after [redacted] died🙃#why did any of this need to exist! why did any of this have to be retconned #x is fine I don’t hate x and I don’t count it as a sequel to Xenoblade 1 bc there’s no #half assed tie back to 1 in x #2 and 3 would have been better as like. tales of games

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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time a flat circle why the hell am i usin the same loafers i bought for one cosplay of my fave antagonist for another fave antagonist

#snap chats #can i even call it cosplay. why are police sirens going off in the bg oh my god shut UP #anyway yeah ill elaborate. Super Snap Stalkers will remember my p4 era and will remember the time i did in fact do an adachi cosplay #i deleted the og post like an hour later. plus that blog's gone. but im sure some freak can find it if they dig hard enough #ew i think i was 17/18 in that pic (not at all that long ago) ok anyway.#i use the same loafers for my aoki outfit. and yeah i do Regularly wear my rgg outfits i TOLD YOU its functional cosplay i QUIT #just funny that like.... damn everything always goes back to square one LOL #these busted ass old ass loafers still rockin with me years later #if im feeling cheeky i think i will post all my rgg outfits actually. for halloween #hang on gotta be depressed and cringe for a moment #cause ive always liked cosplay but whenever i did it it never felt. Good Looking #like i always just felt like my face never worked for the charas i wanted to portray and so thats why i say with a heavy heart #that aoki's round-ass square-ass head is perfect LOL it makes me wanna throw up looking in the mirror #i got the same weird lips. ok not that squished Similar but Its Awful that he makes me feel comfortable with my face now #at least my eyebags arent double deckered... i at least look like i get sleep.. some days.#breaking !!!! objectively one of the most vile bitches in this franchise makes you feel comfortable with your body and existence #NAW to continue from last post if i had a webcam i prob coulda done a cosplay y7 stream LOL thatd be funny #anyway since this tag ramble is just pure cringe let me round it off with a final bit of cringe #the Forbidden Mention of my trans masato hc cause one reason why i have a Teehee over the thought is how raspy his voice is #and i only really now realized how right i was tonight because my prof called on me to speak and when i tried speaking DAWG.#the forbidden acknowledgement of Myself GROSS #BUT DAWG MY THROAT WAS FUCKIN CRUSTY it felt like sandpaper EW?? WATER FOR YOU?? christ. i hope that was just a one-time thing #ok im leaving now BYE

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