#Have I had this video practically on repeat today? Yes. Yes I have
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damelucyjo · 2 years ago
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Mazz Murray - The Winner Takes It All
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So I guess it’s time for me to advertise to the entire neighborhood how insufferably neurodivergent I am by blaring a very specific playlist on a portable speaker while I ride my bike around the neighborhood, wearing very specific clothes — holding my hands, face, and posture in a very specific way — and pray to Satan (not really… I’m agnostic just like someone else, unironically) they understand what I’m trying to tell them with the music, and make the connection between the name I’m alluding to and exactly what that name means, and put two and two together that the name will happen to them if they take any pamphlets from my father seriously and decide to convert to the path of “everlasting life on a paradise earth” ahahAhAHAHAHA I AM MAD SCIENTIST! (sunuvabitch)
#I mean I have to get my exercise in anyway; might as well make the most of it before I move out right?#Yes I am going to great lengths to make a pun out of the name of someone I respect with my whole being. [sobs] It’S fOr a goOd cAusE#I’ve had this idea forever but I’ve just put the playlist together today after a few months of having this little speaker I got from Ollie’#I already knew what songs I wanted; I compiled them today#Will this even work? Am I wasting my time? Will the references even be obvious#My goal is not to make the reference right away; my goal is to put enough songs that people know that relate to [you can fucking guess]#so that when they hear it; they’ll maybe think about it and want to listen to it again — two of which will likely lead to a music video#if they go on YouTube for music (fingers crossed) — and they’ll get smacked in the face with exactly who I’m trying to reference#I omitted the third song which uses an audio sample of said person’s voice because I don’t know how recognizable it is#The song; obviously I’m not talking about the voice#I wonder if I should include songs from an artist with the same name and hope for people to make that cross reference#hm… that’s a thought#Otherwise I’m picking songs that are instant earworms that have lots of repeating phrases which make it easy to look up#if it gets stuck in their head and they want to look it up#and I just like all of these songs too#I’m a little witchy too so if putting your intentions out there is a thing; I’m putting my intentions out there#my vibes if you will#I prioritize secular practicality over metaphysics though#Others are songs that “sound” a certain way#Others have lyrics that fit perfectly#Some are ripped straight from the OSTs of various movies or are albums released by the people who made the OSTs 👀
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nomairuins · 22 days ago
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itis very funny i post so much abt myself but i dont actually post that much abt what goes on day to day . mainly bc there isnt much but like. u guys arent even aware of mine and lamps current music phase .. crazy
#well i thnnk ive mentioned it. were very jnto kpop atm weve been watching a lot of videos ive added like 30 new songs to my playlsit snd#theyre all kpop. its fun#we arent rly into any of the like . fandom part of it FNFNJF neither of us rly do fandom at all im reformed and lamp never rly has. but yes.#there r like 8 kpop songs on my on repeat atm which ik doesnt seem like a ton but its bc i tend to just listen to the same 3 songs on repeat#for days on end#currently villain by pixy is going platinum. and nobody knows by kiss of life is huge. and maria by hwasa and hip by mamamoo were big...#SOO yes. and theres many others...#we just watch those big comp videos and then grab whatever we like.and today we watched a lot of the dance practice videos bc theyre fun 2#watch#but ya. itis fun. its also fun bc like. obv since were watching like. fancomps we get to like peoplewatch kpoppies which is fun. except when#it isnt but then we just dont look at the comments#umm and today we played more stardeww we finally finished the first year in our save. i mentioned potato bix earlier its the deeply#controversial new farm layout#we only had 30 strawberry seeds from last year skullllll. so its very potato heavy hence the name#its like. i think. 2 6x13s + 2 21x3s. but the 21x3s have sprinklers#and then other assorted crops in the middle and then lamps got like a few up by their house but theyre all sprinkled#it does look like ass. and the profits Will not even be that good. BUT ! our fortunes will turn come blueberry day <- famous joke with me#and lamp. more common variation our fortunes will turn come cranberry day#i will say spring in sdv is like back to school like winter is for kicking it and playing around and then its spring and its like fuckk. we#have to do everything there is#but were almost done with all the bundles we have to get fuckass red cabbage so itll be fall b4 its done#weve got 2/3 apples just from the batcave so thats nice#and aside from that we need like 3 more gold parsnips and then a few animal goods. like i think we need 2 of 3. of large milk large goat#milk and duck egg. and we just got cows and a duck#nd thennnn well be getting the goat soon..#und then well prolly fully update the barn and coop#weve got most of our tools to gold except like. an ax and i think lamps pan needs another upgrade. weve even got the trashcans gold now#nd then eere gonna hold off on iridium bc 1 we dont have much 2 were sabing for sprinklers for when we get the greenhouse and 2 expensive.#itll have to wait for BLUEBERRY DAYYYY which willt ake a while#and then probably well just work on fully upgrading the house and all this.
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querenciasturniolo · 1 year ago
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word count: 1.6k
warnings: swearing, awkward flirting, embarrassment
summary: request
a/n: this was requested by @rainsoakedphoenix, and i had SO much fun writing it (even though it took ages) ! sorry for the mix up, i hope this works 😭💓 i wrote this while watching the new season of heartstopper, which is AMAZING by the way
(this is like 89% dialogue, which i’m sorry if it wasn’t your vision, but i tried my best 🤞🏻)
everything written is completely fictional. the people i write for are written with characteristics and mannerisms that i made for them, this is in no way depicting what would actually happen in real life.
“Good morning campers, and welcome to the Cut the Camera podcast. I’m Nick Sturniolo.”
“I’m Matt Sturniolo.”
“And I’m Chris.”
Your eyes flickered between the three of them, reaching your hands up to adjust your headphones. Nick finally turned his head to you.
“We have a special guest for this episode, introduce yourself.” He said.
You looked at one of the cameras and smiled, lifting your hand to wave.
“Hey, I’m Y/n.” You said, wincing slightly. “Jesus, that was awkward, someone else talk now.” Matt pulled a face, you looking over at him and mocking him playfully.
“Like some of you know, Y/n is one of our good friends from home. She hasn’t been in much of our content because she doesn’t know what the fuck she’s doing, but that’s fine, we love her anyway.” Nick said. You scoffed and leaned back in the diner seat, pulling the mic with you.
“It’s not that I don’t know what I’m doing, I’m just an awkward piece of shit.” You said, shrugging your shoulders. “S’not my fault your fans love watching me suffer.”
“Well that turned dark. Anyway, Y/n, why don’t you introduce the topic.” Chris said. You sighed and crossed your arms over your chest.
“Today we’re talking about how the four of us met, and how I’ve continued to endure their torture for so long.” You paused, Matt’s jaw slack as he looked over at you. You grinned and shook your head. “No, I’m kidding. They’re pretty great, I’m glad they’ve tortured me for this long.”
Chris scoffed. “You love us and you know it.”
“I’m pretty sure that’s exactly what I said, but if you want to get all mushy already, then yes, I love you guys.” You said.
Nick awed next to you, Matt leaning over and bumping your shoulder with his.
“You’ve always been the lovey-dovey one. Y/n has called me at like six o’clock on a random Tuesday before just to tell me she was thinking about me.” Nick said. You covered your face with your hands and groaned.
“God, why must you expose me? Let them think I’m dark and gloomy.” You grumbled.
Matt scoffed then, the audio coming through your headphones clear enough for you to peek an eye through your fingers. “None of them think you’re dark and gloomy, they’ve seen you in videos before, dude. Accept the fact that you’re a softy.” He teased, your jaw practically hitting the floor.
The conversation went on like this for about twenty minutes, the four of you talking and bickering back and forth. The conversation ran off the tracks quite a few times, and Matt tried reeling it back in as best as possible.
“So, back to the topic at hand—”
“Nick, what did you say?” Chris asked, completely cutting Matt off.
“I was just saying that was bullshit.” Nick said.
“Guys, what are we even—”
“How is what I just said bullshit?” Chris asked, the both of them in their own little world.
Matt sighed and looked at you, shrugging his shoulders. You turned to face him fully, resting your arm on the back of the booth. “So anyway, what’s an average day in the life of Matt Sturniolo?” You asked. Matt frowned and adjusted himself to face you completely.
“What?” He asked, pulling the mic towards him.
“What’s an average day in your life?” You repeated, raising your eyebrows.
Matt’s frown relaxed as he thought, shrugged, and finally spoke. “I’d say; wake up, shower, eat, go to meetings, come home, go to bed, repeat.” He held his hands out to count on his fingers, your eyebrows raising as you listened, no emotion on your face.
“Wow, riveting.”
Matt scoffed and shook his head, opening his hands and gesturing them towards you. “Please, tell me about your extraordinary day to day schedule, I’d love to hear it.”
“Of course you would. I happen to have a day packed full of important tasks.” You said, lifting your chin sarcastically.
“Oh, really? Name one.” He said, leaning back and crossing his arms over his chest.
“Well, I work.” You started, Matt nodding and pursing his lips.
“Oh, you work, do you? And what do you do after that?” He asked, your eyebrows lifting and your jaw going slack.
“Well, if you must know, after work I go home and eat and then shower and go to bed.” You said matter of factly, Matt staring at you completely unamused.
“That has got to be the most boring play-by-play I’ve ever heard.”
You rolled your eyes. “Oh, and yours was better, Matt?”
“I think so. What do you do for work?” He asked, the corner of his lips turned up in a half smile.
You sighed and shrugged your shoulders. “Retail. It’s not the most glorious job, but it gets the bills paid.”
“Yikes, customer service.” He winced, to which you shrugged your shoulders again.
“Like I said, not the most glorious job. I deal with a lot of dickheads, but the regulars are nice.” You said, grabbing your cup and taking a sip of it. You jutted your chin at him. “It’s your turn to ask a question, I don’t think they’re gonna stop any time soon.”
Matt hummed and thought for a moment. “Um, what’s your favorite color?”
“That’s really the best you could come up with, Matt?” You said, a laugh leaving your lips as he looked at you in mock offense.
“At least it’s not as mundane as ‘what do you do everyday’, Y/n. Cut me some slack, I’m trying here.” He retorted, your hands going up before you answered.
“It’s blue.”
“Lame.” He said, your eyebrows furrowing.
“Matt, that’s literally your favorite color, too.” You said, Matt scoffing.
“You don’t know me.” He mumbled, a laugh bubbling out of you as you adjusted in your seat, scooting the slightest bit towards him.
“I’ve known you my entire life, you dork. That argument is invalid.” You said.
Matt pursed his lips and shrugged his shoulders. “Yeah, yeah. Whatever you say.”
You rolled your eyes and shook your head, really studying him for the first time in awhile. You reached forward and lightly pinched a lock in your fingers and twirled it. “Your hair is getting long.” You said. There was something in Matt’s eyes that you couldn’t quite place, but the apples of his cheeks were tinged pink.
“Yeah, I need to cut it soon.” He said, his voice quiet.
You nodded your head, letting go of the lock of hair and resting your hand back on the booth centimeters away from his. “If that’s what you want.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” He asked, his eyebrows furrowed as he lightly jabbed the tips of your fingers with his.
You paused, realizing how passive it had sounded. You immediately shook your head. “No, oh my God, nothing! It was just an observation.” You said, resting your hand on his.
“So you wouldn’t care if I shaved my head?” He asked, mischief glinting in his eyes. Somehow, your fingers ended up entwined, but both of your palms were resting on the back of the booth. It was comfortable, but new, and you didn’t know exactly how to navigate this. You shrugged your shoulders and pulled your headphones off of your head and rested them around your neck.
“I wouldn’t care, no. Just because I think your hair looks cute long, doesn’t mean I’m going to freak out if you change it.” You said honestly. Matt blinked, processing your words before he replied.
“You think my hair looks cute long?” He asked. You nodded your head, ignoring the burning in your face.
“That is what I just said, yes.” You said, trying to sound like it was no big deal
“Wow, admitting you think I’m cute on recording? That’s crazy.” You could tell he was teasing, and by the color of his cheeks, you could tell he didn’t mind.
You cocked an eyebrow, tilting your head to the side as your smile grew. “Are we just going to ignore the fact that you’ve been practically holding my hand for this entire conversation?”
“I haven’t?” He said, immediately pulling his hand from yours and resting it in his lap, his eyes darting downward. You smiled and shook your head, teasingly gesturing around the room.
“Matt, it’s literally on camera, from multiple angles.” You said, Matt’s eyes meeting yours. He studied your face and eventually smiled and rolled his eyes, the awkward tension he was radiating before slowly dissipating.
“Yeah, okay, whatever.” He mumbled, adjusting his headphones before meeting your eyes again. You opened your mouth to speak, but were quickly interrupted.
“Oh my God, this is honestly disgusting.”
You whipped your head around to Nick, your eyes wide as he met you with an incredulous stare.
“You guys have been flirting like, the entire time. I’m surprised I haven’t thrown up yet.” He finished, your face on fire as your eyes flickered to Chris’ amused smile.
“Honestly, Nick and I stopped arguing like, five minutes ago. We just wanted to see how long it would take the two of you to notice.” You looked back at Matt, who was awkwardly laughing into his hands and shaking his head. “Clearly, way too fucking long. Can we get back to the topic of our joint childhoods now?” Chris finished.
You cleared your throat and nodded, adjusting yourself in the booth so you were facing forward and your shoulder was to Matt.
“Where were we again?” You asked, Nick jumping into the conversation effortlessly.
The rest of the podcast went smoothly, the four of you in almost perfect harmony for the rest of the time, the little embarrassing interruption nearly forgotten.
It was nearly forgotten until Matt’s hand rested over yours under the table and entwined with yours. You felt your face heat up and the corners of your mouth twitch, but you didn’t say anything or make anything obvious.
Matt was your best friend, and as affectionate as the two of you were, hand holding was never on the list until now—and honestly, you didn’t mind.
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clockwayswrites · 2 years ago
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Like Betta Fish Do - Part 12
Masterpost of ao3 link and all parts.
wc 2295 (Chapter 9 when on ao3)
“Hey, it’s Danny, right?” asked the person standing next to Danny’s seat. They shifted, tucking a long strand of pitch black hair behind their ear.
“Yes?”
“We thought—”
“She thought,” said the woman who practically barreled into the first speaker’s back. She hooked her chin over the other’s shoulder with a grin as she adjusted her hijab. “Cloe thought, but we all agree.”
“Which is why I said we, I’m Cloe, this is Fara, that guy over there is José.” She motioned to a young man with a head full of curly brown hair and an easy smile waiting by the door. “We need a fourth for the group project, want to join us?”
“Me?” Danny repeated in surprise. No one in Casper High ever wanted him on a team, not unless it was Tucker and Sam.
“Totally. Your comment today on the possible advancements of propulsion technology was just the sort of thing that we’d love to do our topic on. It didn’t look like you had a group?”
“No, I don’t, not yet. That would be nice,” Danny said with a crooked smile. He’d been worried about having to find a group to work with so the offer was a huge weight off. Honestly the presentation was way too much of their grade in his opinion (but maybe that’s just because he had been dreading it).
“That’s great!” Cloe smiled back at him. “Do you have time to meet now? Just, like, to a coffee shop or the library. We can hash out the basics and what everyone should research before we meet up again the next time.”
“Sure. I could almost always use a coffee,” Danny said as he shoved his aging laptop in his backpack.
“Yeah, we can kinda tell with the…” Fara pointed at her own face, finger circling around her eyes.
Danny barked out a surprised laugh when Cloe let out an affronted “Fara!”
“Hey, I’ve been cultivating these dark circles since high school. They’re like fine wine,” Danny said. Snarky he knew how to handle.
“Oh, José will like you,” Fara said with a laugh. She linked arms with Danny and practically dragged him towards the door. “José! I found you another coffee addict.”
“Thank you,” he praised, “because Cloe only drinks the most basic bitch drinks and Fara likes tea.”
“I make an exception for pumpkin spiced lattes and hot chocolate,” Fara said with coy smile.
“See? See what I have to put up with. Please, my dude— is it my dude?” Danny nodded in response. “My dude, please tell me you drink real coffee.”
“With as many espresso shots as they’re legally allowed to add,” Danny said.
“A man after my own heart— a heart that runs on coffee,” José said with a laugh as they all spilled out the front of the engineering building.
Maybe this presentation wouldn’t be so bad after all.
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Okay, so maybe Danny was just really not used to being around people any more.
Really, really not used to it.
He’d only spent an hour or so with the other’s at the coffeeshop, but between that, class, picking up a treat for Jason, and just having to go back and forth throughout the city Danny felt his nerves crawling under his skin. Every noise from every apartment around was so loud. Even his fridge seemed to be screaming at him with its incessant whine.
And there was no where to get away from it.
If he went out, Danny would just be surrounded by the sounds and smells and lights of the city. People would jostle into him or sit too close on the bus and— Danny shuddered at the idea of being touched by strangers right then.
He rubbed his fingers against his palms as he shifted and tried to lay more comfortably on his small sofa. He had his t.v. on, streaming mindless video game play throughs, but he wasn’t really paying attention to it. It was just to try and block out some of the noise.
There were things about the city that he loved, sure. The access to food was great. There was an amazing variety in walking distance of his place or campus. He’d also found a few great stores— a game store and a second hand clothing shop were top of his list. It was great how there was always a distraction.
But there was always a distraction.
Nothing ever really stopped in the city. That constant hum, after a few weeks of it, was really getting to Danny. He hadn’t thought he was rural or anything, but Amity’s hundred thousand or so people never prepared him for living here.
He closed his eyes and made himself take a slow breath.
Jason was going to show him some places around the city today.
He had to get a handle on himself before then.
He’d been trying for an hour now— or so his phone alerted him to when he checked it for the hundredth time. He laid it back on his chest and closed his eyes. When it started ringing a moment later he nearly jumped out of his skin.
‘Jason Calling’, it read. He fumbled to swipe the screen. “Hi.”
“Hey. My meeting wrapped early so I was going to head your way now if that’s good?”
Danny swallowed, trying to force back the buzzing under his skin. “Oh, um, yeah, sure.”
The line was silent for a pause. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing.”
Jason snorted. “That’s a lie.”
Danny flung an arm over his eyes and forced himself to take another breath. “I guess, just… It’s stupid.”
“Fish.”
The endearment was more gentle than Danny felt he deserved. He was being stupid about this. Who struggled to be around people? And he wanted to see Jason too. It was just… everyone— everything else.
He could hear the sounds of the city on Jason’s end and tried to focus on his voice instead. “Come on fish, talk to me.”
“It’s just— being in the city all the time… it’s just getting to me a little, I guess. I’m not used it it. That’s all. I’ll be fine.”
Jason gave a considering hum. “Okay. Change of plans. Do you have a leather jacket?”
“What? No?”
“Okay. Are you up for one stop first? We’ll make it quick.”
“One stop before what?” Danny asked as he pulled himself up by the back of the couch.
“Before my new plan for the day.” Jason sounded smug.
“I don’t— we don’t have to—”
“Trust me, okay?”
It was such an earnest request that it brought Danny to pause. He swallowed once more before he found his voice. “Of course I will.”
“Good. Then I’ll see you in twenty. Go put on jeans, a long sleeve shirt, and some sturdy shoes.”
The abrupt end to the call had Danny blinking down at his phone before he pulled himself up to do as he was told.
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Jason studied Danny as the other came out of his apartment building. He hadn’t liked how Danny sounded on the phone and he didn’t much like how Danny looked now. It was like the other had tucked all his loud, jagged, wonderful edges away. It was like he was hiding from the world.
Well, Jason would just have to fix that.
“Just one quick stop,” Jason said, handing Danny a helmet.
“I’m fine, you don’t have to ba—”
“Fish,” Jason said firmly. He waited until Danny was actually looking at him (not frowning at the ground) to continue. “It’s okay if you’re not okay. You don’t have to apologize to me or about it or about you. You can be not fine.”
Fuck he was sounding like his well meaning family now. Still, it got a wobbly smile from Danny, so maybe it was worth parroting back the words. The words didn’t always help, he knew that. They certainly didn’t fix stuff that he still struggled with some days, but they couldn’t hurt. It couldn’t hurt to be reminded that someone cared.
“Okay. One quick stop,” Danny agreed.
“Right,” Jason said. He turned and straddled his motorcycle. “You ever ridden before?”
“Yeah, actually I have. A friend has one.”
“Huh.” Jason was actually a little surprised by that. “Okay then hang on tight. We won’t be doing anything crazy in the city, but we might have to stop quickly. Some drivers are jackasses about motorcycles.”
The bike dipped under him as Danny settled on behind him. There was an obvious moment of hesitation before Danny let himself slide forward. As Danny settled along his back, Jason had a thought of how well Danny fit. He briefly squeezed the arms wrapped around his waist in notice before he started his bike up and they took off through the city.
The one quick stop was to get Danny a riding jacket and gloves; Jason wanted to be sure that Danny would be warm and, more importantly, protected on the drive. As it was, Jason drove more cautiously than normal, very aware that Danny’s safety was in his hands.
It wasn’t long to the store, and he tried to make sure the shopping didn’t take too long. He could practically see Danny’s edges fraying. He did make Danny try on several jackets, even if he tried to make sure they didn’t linger, so that Danny could find the right one.
“Are you sure this is it?” Danny asked, tugging on the hem of the black leather jacket. It had a bit of a retro cut, but there was enough modern padding that if Danny fell off the road rash wouldn’t be that bad. Besides, Danny looked good in it; it cinched nicely at his waist and fit his shoulder snugly.
“Yep,” Jason said. He reached out and smacked Danny’s hand away when he tried to take a peak at the price tag again. “Stop that. I already told you I’m buying.”
“Jason—”
“Just accept it. Give me the jacket and go pick out some gloves,” he said.
Danny rolled his eyes, but shrugged off the jacket and handed it over. Jason took the moment to explain the mater to the sales person, who was cooperative about not saying the total out loud. The knowing smirk was a bit weird though. It even had Danny glancing at Jason suspiciously, but they got out of the store with what was needed and Danny none the wiser to what a good motorcycle jacket could cost.
Jason took the time to sync up both helmets so that they could talk on the ride if they wanted to, but he left the matter to Danny. It turned out to be mostly silent once they left the city, especially since Jason wasn’t explaining where they were going. The longer they were on the open roads, the more that Jason could feel Danny relaxing against his back until. Finally he settled in and rested his head against Jason’s shoulder blade.
“Thank you.”
“Ain’t seen nothing yet,” Jason rumbled back.
Danny just answered with a soft hum before he fell silent again.
Jason took them on the highway, down some side streets just for the view, and through a smaller city to the more secluded parking lot that he knew about. He could feel Danny freeze up behind him, and chuckled as he pulled off his own helmet. Danny did the same as he stumbled off the bike.
“Come on,” Jason said. He practically had to guide Danny down the path and to the top of the first bluff where the concrete ended.
Danny let out a breath exhale. “Oh, wow.”
His mouth hung slightly open as he stared out at the crashing waves and the beach that stretched out before them. A cloudy fall day wasn’t exactly the best time to visit the coast (not that they were the only ones doing so), but Danny still stared at it like it was the best thing he’d seen in a long time.
He stared at it like it gave him life.
Jason found he wanted— suddenly and fiercely— to find a million more moments that would bring that same spark to Danny’s eyes. He didn’t want Danny to stop living just because he had died.
Jason didn’t want to stop living just because he had died.
Not anymore.
He reached down to undo the knots on his boots with Danny scrambling to do the same. Laces tied together, Jason slung the boots across his shoulders and made his way onto the beach. He reached out to help balance Danny as he stumbled a little on the soft white sand.
When they had gotten to the edge of the water, Jason hung back slightly in the damp, but not wet, sand while Danny, with all of his normal abandon, rolled up his pants legs and barreled into the waves with a whoop. He ran in and out of the surf like one of those sand piper birds as the wind whipped his dark hair around his face like a storm of shadows.
Laughing as he was chased by a larger swell of water, Danny stumbled back to Jason’s side. He took a deep breath, filling his lungs with salt air, and then just slumped heavily against Jason like he was boneless. Jason took the weight easily.
Jason grinned down at Danny, who’s eyes were still locked on the water. “Worth the trip?”
“Yeah. Yeah, worth the trip. Completely. Thank you Jason.”
“’Course. Gotta get the fish to water now and then.”
“Shut up, dead boy.” Danny rolled his eyes, but his grin didn’t drop for a second.
Jason chuckled, but found he didn’t  need to say anything back. He was content to just watch Danny watch the ocean.
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AN: Finally an update for you all~ ngl, there are some rough spots I'm not entirely happy with, I feel you can really tell what I wrote when I was feeling really, really poorly. But that's what a re-write is for, I guess!
The classmates won't show up too much, but I needed an outside perspective and to show Danny is settling in- even if he's struggling with some things.
Apologies for any typos, I currently want to melon ball my eye out from this migraine so you know, words are hard. Anywho, stay delightful, darlings!
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Constant Repeat | Part 13
Summary: Having worked at Focus Creeps for a year, Ella knows that as a production assistant and part of the crew, there’s one important rule: don’t interact with the talent unless it’s needed. But once she meets Arctic Monkeys, and the recording of the music videos for their upcoming fourth studio album starts, the band seem to become her exception. Not only because they treat her more like a friend than just someone else they’re working with but when Alex continuously makes her blush with his flirting, so enthralled by her that he forgets he’s got a girlfriend, Ella finds herself growing closer to him. As videos are filmed, wrapped and edited, the friendship lines become blurry. Situations unfold, secrets are told and others are kept under lock and key, but how long can Alex and Ella endure being stuck in each other’s minds on constant repeat.
Word Count: 24.9k
Story Warnings: Throughout this series there will be suggestive talk, jealousy, cheating, alcohol and drug use, angst, smut.
A/N: Well hello... It's the one we've been waiting for and I'm actually fucking jumping in my spot as I write this. Cannot wait for you to read this, and yes the pictures in the moodboard are what you're thinking. Safe to say it’s gonna get a bit steamy, enjoy ;) xx
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Ella woke up slightly terrified yet excited that Saturday morning.
She hadn't gone on a first date since the one she went with her ex at the start of the previous year and after everything that had happened with him, the prospect of going on a date, even if it wasn't more than a last minute plan, was wracking her nerves.
The feeling had made her almost miss breakfast, her appetite almost gone until she started feeling faint and she realized that if she wanted to actually not have a miserable day then she'd have to eat.
She had gone downstairs to the hotel's restaurant in a zombie-like state, ordering herself some scrambled eggs and pancakes so the homely feeling of the food made her feel better. And it did.
When she got upstairs, she took a shower and lounged in bed, still in her robe and letting her hair air dry, until it was at least half past twelve. The date wasn't until four but she figured she'd slowly get ready so she'd not freak out about the date and bail out of it at the last minute.
Ella had been absentmindedly straightening her hair and curling the ends of it when her phone rang, and it was none other than Mrs. Healy.
"Good afternoon Miss Hayes, are you ready for today?" Flo greeted her with a chipper tone in her voice, Ella could practically see the beaming smile on the artist's face just from her voice.
Biting on her bottom lip, she let the phone rest on her lap as she continued with the next section of hair and admitted, "I'm actually nervous..."
Flo cooed at her, "Good but also don't be. He's an absolute dream."
The tiny piece of information only made Ella more curious about the person's identity, who she now knew was a male but that being the only hint she'd gotten had her somewhat obnoxiously asking, "Are you finally gonna tell me who it is?"
But all she got was another vague answer, "All you have to know is that he's fit and I know you'll get on with him perfectly well."
At least the reassurance that they would get on well was easing Ella's nerves a little. Not as much as she wished though, but that was because she knew herself and when she first met anyone, she got shy and was a bit awkward, so she was praying that she'd be able to get a bit of courage not to make a fool out of herself.
Thankfully Florence had stayed on the phone with Ella as she finished doing her hair and she'd actually video called her when was doing her makeup, making her laugh throughout it all and somehow making her forget about how tense she had been for a bit.
Matty had just come back from a meeting when Ella was showing Flo the dress she had gotten in Manchester for the date and, to Flo's dismay, he had almost slipped and told Ella who it was that she was seeing in merely an hour from then.
"Matthew!" Flo had exclaimed loudly before the name fell from his lips and he had quickly thrown his hand over his mouth with wide eyes.
His honest, "I'm so sorry." sounded muffled behind his hand and it only got an eye roll from his wife.
Ella was gutted that her only chance to find out had gone that way, telling Flo, "Why are you so fast?" with a sorrowful voice which had the British woman laughing.
Flo took her husband's close mishap as a sign to let the girl go, "You're gonna have to get faster Miss, it's quarter past three and it's a twenty five minute walk over there."
"Shit, right." Ella cursed under her breath, realizing she needed to get dressed already and leave as soon as she could so she wasn't late.
"You're gonna look stunning, hun." Flo reassured her since she seemed to start growing panicky, "I'm gonna leave you now so you can change but you have the best time Ellie, alright?"
Ella pursed her lips at the camera and clutched her chest, "Thanks Flo, love you."
Flo grinned sweetly at her American friend and reciprocated, "Love you too. And let me know how it goes, alright?"
"Will do, but I don't promise anything too interesting." Ella made sure to make that point clear, she didn't have much expectations for the date just so she wouldn't end up feeling defeated for it not meeting whatever she could imagine it to be if she allowed herself to.
But Florence was in heavy doubt of it not being interesting considering she knew who Ella was meeting with. So she offered Ella a gallic shrug, "Yeah, well... We shall see about that."
The artist looked as if she was holding back laughter so Ella narrowed her eyes at her and sternly inquired, "What?"
Which wasn't answered because Flo played dumb and simply said, "Okay byeee! Love you!" loudly before hanging up the phone.
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Ella walked the best she could in her high heeled chelsea boots which were not a great pick when mixed with how nervous she was and how far she'd had to walk. She had debated getting a taxi when she was walking through the hotel lobby but decided against it when she realized that if she did, she'd get there quicker and she wanted to stall as much as she could.
She wasn't even late yet, ten minutes left for the clocks to strike four in the afternoon and she was merely five minutes away. The whole walk, she had been practicing in her head whatever she could say to the guy she was meeting with, just to prevent embarrassing herself. If anything went wrong though, she had brought her camera with her and a few rolls were stuffed in her pocket so that she could at least take the opportunity to take pictures.
She had gone from any topics she could come up with about herself, deciding against being the one to mention her tragic love life and definitely not touch the subject of her lack of driving skills when it came to manual transmission—she had enough with the Monkeys teasing about it even after two years—, and picking a few questions that could be interesting to ask the guy.
But all the inquiries and words she had been rehearsing died in her throat when she rounded the corner on the end of the restaurant's street and she saw the tall guy smoking a cigarette, leaning on a lamppost right by the entrance of the establishment.
Ella thought of making a run back to the hotel, hesitating which way to go and how it would work with her long dress but his eyes fell on her before she could make up her mind and when he smiled sweetly at her, cigarette perched between his lips, she knew it was too late.
On Ella's face a shy smile broke and she gave him a little wave before approaching him, faking confidence as she got closer until he was only a few feet away so she said, "Oh hi, I wasn't expecting you."
Her face was burning and she knew he could see it because he smirked down at her, and cheekily asked, "Were you hoping for someone else?"
Looking up at him through her eyelashes, Ella smiled harder at his playfulness and in a rush of braveness she chose to play along, "Do you really want to know the answer?"
He took a drag of his cigarette and let the smoke out steadily as he shook his head, "I'm just hoping you remember my name."
And how could Ella forget, "Of course I remember you, George."
George hummed, taking one last drag as he took in her appearance and he grinned mischievously when seeing the dark satin and lace of her dress contrasting on her skin, her leather jacket making her look even more stunning and coincidentally matching the one he was wearing.
"Glad you haven't, Ella." The drummer replied with a wink, dropping the bud on the ground and stepping on it before taking something out of the pocket of his dark jeans, "Flo sent this for you."
An involuntary "Oh." fell from Ella's lips, entirely intrigued by what could be that friend had wanted to tell her that couldn't be said on the phone because George handed her a folded piece of paper that only said Ellie x on the front.
Ella carefully opened it, trying her best to avoid George seeing it—which was a bit of an issue since he was so tall he could've easily read if he looked down—and she instantly blushed harder when she read Get the nice kind of messy ;) x
A flashback of the moment at Glastonbury when she had been gawking at George and she had let slip how fit she found him came to the forefront of her mind and she couldn't help herself getting a little flustered at the mere thought of it.
In an attempt to try and play it cool, Ella folded the note and shoved it in one of the pocket's of her leather jacket, clearing her throat, adjusting the strap of her camera on her shoulder and tucking a strand of hair behind her ear like it was all fine.
But George could see her cheeks bright pink, the rush of color even going to the tips of her ears which she had just let show with her last action. "What did she say?" He had kept his promise that he wouldn't open the note when Florence gave it to him earlier that day, even though he had been really tempted too, especially when he realized Matty knew what it said for he was giggling when his wife handed it to him.
Ella didn't give him an answer though, only a little cough that acted as a coverup of her avoiding his gaze and a subtle shrug, "Just a little joke."
"Can you share?" He tried further, his hand coming to nudge her softly in the arm.
Not even that helped her answer change. She shook her head and said a shy, "Not really."
"I see how it is." George had narrowed his eyes at her and added, "S'alright, I'll remember that." which was a promise that had Ella biting her tongue.
"Shall we go inside?" The drummer said then, watching her struggling to come up with a response to his previous statement.
The new question was much easier to reply to, a soft "Yes." falling from her lips, breathlessly.
And he took her breath even more when he let her walk ahead, only to rest his hand on her lower back delicately and casually comment, "You look beautiful by the way. Really like that we're matching with the leather jackets."
The opportunity to not acknowledge the compliment was perfect because she felt like she was going to explode under George's attention. She giggled and nodded, "What a great coincidence huh?"
His answer being, "Hot coincidence." accompanied by a wink didn't make it easy for her though and she found that being on a date with George Daniel meant blushing every five minutes even if the chat was about mundane topics.
They had talked about their hometowns, to which George had found the opportunity to say how much he liked cowgirls and comment on how good she looked at Glastonbury with her boots. They had exchanged stories about their jobs, Ella asking all that came to her mind about producing music which she found fascinating that he was the one to produce all of his band's songs. They had told each other how they had ended up doing what they were doing currently, Ella cooing constantly when George told her how the guys became friends and how the band had come together, George being fascinated about her knowledge on films and everything to do with photography and cinematography.
Then he had asked her about her hand tattoo, smirking when he rubbed his thumb over it and asking if she had any more which ended up in them sharing the amount of ink they had on their bodies which George beat her to by an incredible amount. They both had ended up taking their jackets off and showing each other each piece they had on their skin.
Eventually, the chat had come back to the band and Ella had asked him whereabouts they had toured so far, her jaw dropping the more his list continued and she genuinely had a hard time wrapping her head around them being relatively new to the mainstream scene when they were already going to all those places.
She'd been so amazed at every place he'd mentioned that she'd ended up telling him it was her first time in England.
"Really? First time here?" He asked intrigued before taking a sip of his wine.
She nodded because she had a bit of food in her mouth and she waited until she swallowed to correct him, "Anywhere outside the States really."
George was quite surprised about that, "No way. Are you liking it here then?"
"Yeah, it's quite nice." Ella admitted with a soft smile, "Love how different it is from what I've grown up seeing."
He hummed, "Have you been anywhere else other than London and Glasto?"
And she nodded, her smile growing as she said, "Went to Sheffield and Manchester yesterday and the day before."
"Ohhh, big up Manc." He smirked, liking hearing that she'd visited the city he held dearest to his heart, but then he traced back to what Ella had said and with an eyebrow raised added, "Sheffield though... Did the lads take you?"
"Alex did, yeah." She mindlessly answered as she gathered some more food with her fork and took it in her mouth.
"Right, Turner." The drummer nodded, and before he could let the subject go he had to mention, "Thought you two were going out actually. Surprised me when Flo called me and asked if I wanted to go on a date with you."
"Oh no, we're not. But god, that's embarrassing." Ella winced at the information, both pieces of them.
George smirked playfully, "Dating Turner?"
Ella laughed in response to that, shaking her head before clearing up, "Flo asking you if you wanted to go out with me. You know you could've said no."
He frowned at her, like she had just said the most outrageous thing and he wholeheartedly asked, "But why would I?"
"Oh George, stop it." Ella warned him, pursing her lips and narrowing her eyes at him.
"What's wrong sweetheart?" George reached his hand out to touch hers, the one with her 'Pure Desire' tattoo again, and she almost shivered under it.
Ella let her fork down beside her plate and fanned herself with her hand as she said, "You're making me blush."
But that was nothing that would keep him quiet, because he honestly admitted, "Yeah and I quite enjoy doing it."
The rest of the date had been spent between good food, good wine, laughter, a picture she had taken of George, and chatter that had been really nice. Getting to know George had been like a breath of fresh air, that's why when they had left the restaurant, the drummer had offered to walk her back to her hotel and Ella hadn't even doubted to accept.
He had taken a few detours, taking her around to places that she hadn't seen from where he had hilarious and very wholesome stories of his childhood and teenage years when he would come around to London with the lads and other friends just mess about.
And Ella had been grateful for the anecdotes because she was making sure to capture each place in its unique beauty and she knew behind each shot she'd have the memory of what George had shared with her.
George watched her closely every time she took a picture, taking in all that she did every time she wanted to take a picture. She was so adorable to him, the way she lit up when she'd pressed the shutter and looked at him excitedly when she rolled the film.
The two had walked through a gorgeous park, one that was bustling with people. Some were running, others having picnics, some walking their dogs, some biking past everyone and some just leisurely taking a stroll like they were.
They had been approached by the cutest dog who had strayed away from beside their owner who was sitting on a bench and excitedly walked up to them.
Ella cooed as she crouched down, petting the husky's head and put on a funny baby voice to greet the dog. George had chuckled, crouching down right beside her and showered the dog with attention as well.
From the bench, they heard the owner apologize to which they replied that it was alright and complimenting him on how gorgeous his dog was.
They asked about it, which ended up being her and called Daisy, which had Ella and George cooing again.
She had asked the owner if she could take a picture of Daisy and he had nodded right away, telling her to please do so. Ella had the biggest smile on her face as she looked through the viewfinder and tried focusing the shot, George had helped her by waving his hand right on top of the camera so it looked like Daisy was staring into the lenses perfectly.
Before they could continue walking after managing to get a few pictures of Daisy, Ella asked the owner for an email address so she could send the pictures to him and she was so glad the man had one.
After saving it on her phone's notes app, Ella and George waved the man and Daisy goodbye. The dog wagging her tail around as she stayed sat beside her owner on the bench this time.
Ella blew the husky a kiss and said loudly, "Bye Daisy darling!"
That just made George's chest swell and in a lack of any more self control, he wrapped his arm around Ella's waist and pulled her into him, her chest hitting his chest and making them both stop.
"Oh hi." Ella giggled at the sudden action, her hands had subconsciously ended up on his chest after that.
But any other words died in her throat when he dipped his head and trapped her lips with his.
Ella hummed into the kiss, which was a dizzying combination between sweet and determined. His left arm stayed wrapped around her waist, pulling her flush into his chest but the other one came up so his hand cupped her jaw and kept her at the perfect angle for him to kiss her.
Her arms slowly moved up until they were wrapped around his shoulders and she let her fingers tangle in his hair. It was soft and slightly long which she really liked. His tongue brushed against her bottom lip, his fingers clutching her tighter and she let her mouth open so they could taste each other.
She had completely forgotten where they were until a cyclist rushed past them and rang their bell multiple times, startling them out of the kiss. Yes we are in the middle of the road but that was fucking rude, she thought. She had really enjoyed that kiss, and it showed in the way she looked up at George with rosy cheeks and something written on her face.
"I liked that." George cheekily stated, getting ahold of her hand and resuming their walk.
Ella hummed, trying not to giggle because of the feeling that was bubbling inside her. "Yeah, I liked that too."
She felt like a teenager. Blushing to herself while she walked hand in hand with the person she had a crush on, and it was so ridiculous but so relieving at the same time to feel that kind of pathetic elation instead of despair and heartache.
Their chatter resumed, only it was getting more and more flirty and she liked where it was going until they managed to get to the hotel she was staying at and she sighed sadly when they were a few feet away from the big glass doors.
"This is me." Ella mumbled, squeezing his hand in hers but he didn't let go.
He hummed as if hesitant of believing what she'd just said and instead he suggested, "Don't you wanna take another walk around the block?"
"George, my feet hurt." They had been hurting for a while but she hadn't said anything just to not ruin things.
The drummer came to a quick solution, "I'll carry you."
Which made her chuckle, "Sure you would." She genuinely didn't want the date to end so in a bit of a rushed decision, she bargained, "Don't you... Do you wanna come upstairs?"
He got a kick of excitement inside him but he wanted to play it cool, so he joked, "What, are you gonna take my picture?"
Ella held back a snort of laughter, and shrugged as if it was fine by her that he only wanted that. "If that's what you want." There was a little voice in her head that told her not to but there was another one that purely encouraged her to have fun.
"Yeah, that works." George casually said, like he wasn't praying that he got lucky to even get another kiss out of her.
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"Where'd you want me?" George turned to look at her as she dropped her camera on one of the bedside tables and shed her jacket off to perch on the back of a loveseat close to the door.
Ella took one of the new rolls out of her pocket and changed it for the one she'd almost fully used earlier that day. "Wherever you're comfortable." She indicated the drummer, focused on perfectly lining the roll before she could turn to him.
"Bed's quite comfy." She heard George say from behind her and when she looked up to see him, she found him lying on his side, head perched on his hand and a smirk on his face. "Paint me like one of your french girls." He teased, resting his other hand dramatically on his forehead.
The American girl giggled at his antics, "You're such an idiot." She shook her head as she came up to the bed, and tried looking at the scene through her lenses but she wasn't quite convinced by the shot.
George watched her struggle, stepping backwards and forwards, to the sides before sighing. He reminded her, "I'm not used to being the one to pose for the camera. You're gonna have to guide me."
"Okay." She thought about it as she bit on her thumb and once a vision came to her, she started instructing him, "Lean into your forearms, sideways so you fit in the bed." But she found what was bothering her and it was that his legs were half hanging off the bed.
"Why are you so tall, oh my god." Ella went over to the drummer and prompted him to go further into the bed, perched one of his sock-clad feet up on the bed and the other leg stayed stretched on the bed. "There, now look at me."
George looked at her with a blank face first to which she complained about him not smiling but when he smiled he started giggling and if there had been something she had learned about George quite early into her date was that his laugh was incredibly contagious so she found herself shaking with laughter as she tried to take his pictures and she had to call him out for it.
"Don't laugh! You're making me laugh!" Ella scorned him, struggling to sound serious between her giggles.
"Sorry, sorry." He apologized halfheartedly, swallowing his laughter until he went back to a stoic face and he gave her the perfect soft smolder.
Ella hummed in satisfaction of that frame and then she moved onto instructing him to do the next pose, "Throw your head back a bit and close your eyes." He silently listened and did as she said which earned him a sweet, "Just like that." from her.
Her words made George give her a look though, one that had Ella lightly blushing which she hid behind her camera. "What?" She asked into the air, and warned him, "Don't look at me like that."
George chuckled to himself, wondering if she was that naive or if she was playing dumb but she took another picture of him and, purposely, he complained, "My leg's cramping." to then throw himself back on the bed, ending up completely splayed over the duvet and breaking the pose.
"George!" Ella scolded him, a bit of amusement sneaking through her words.
He groaned in response and without moving, told her to "Just take a picture like this."
Ella clicked her tongue and shook her head, "I can't even see your face."
"Come here so you can see it." He resolved easily for her, making her roll her eyes but in the end having to do just as he said because he really wasn't moving.
She tried getting a picture from above while standing beside the bed and she just couldn't. "That's an awkward angle, look at me." She tried to get him to turn to his side again but he closed his eyes and shook his head. "Need you on your side." She said explicitly this time but he didn't let up either.
Instead he suggested, "Why don't you just get up here?" He patted the bed, right next to his hip and she blushed just thinking about it. At her silence, he opened his eyes and turned his head to the side to encourage her with a "C'mon."
He offered his hand so she could use it as leverage to kneel on the bed on each side of his hips and hover above him. She struggled as she did so because she was growing nervous and therefore clumsy. "Fucking hell, George." She cursed under her breath, seeing him from above was an angle that she didn't know if she could handle.
"What?" George bit his bottom lip to not let a smirk break on his face.
Yet, not even that kept her from knowing that he knew just what he was doing but she wouldn't say anything, because she was enjoying this a lot more than she intended to. So she stuck to just replying, "Nothing." as she took yet another picture of him.
Remembering his tattoos, Ella bit her bottom lip for a few seconds before hesitatingly asking, "Why don't you take your jacket off?"
George let his hands rest right above her knees and squeezed her legs as he teased, "Is that code for something?"
She hoped her blush wasn't obvious so she could play off her nonchalant, "For 'I want to see your tattoos', yes."
It went right over his head though, because he kept smirking as he sarcastically replied, "Right, right."
She moved so he could take the piece of clothing off without her hovering over him but when he was done and laying on the bed again, he patted his right side so she could move her left leg there and have her hover over him properly again.
"How's that look?" He asked cheekily as his hands went to touch her legs again, the skin up to her mid thighs showing because her dress slit allowed it to open and rise up in the position she was in.
"Amazing." She breathlessly compliment, making him raise an eyebrow at her.
The shutter went off again and, as she rolled the film, he tested the waters, "Do you want to see them all?"
"Sure." The word came out so soft it could've gone with the wind, his hands leaving her thighs for a second to come grab the bottom of his shirt.
"Top's coming off next then, is that alright?" He asked for confirmation first and she nodded eagerly, her pupils dilating in anticipation.
He shed himself off his shirt in the constricted space he had, Ella was so spaced out that she hadn't moved but it wasn't a problem for George. If anything, his smirk grew at her inability to act and it got bigger when he threw it somewhere across the room and Ella was shamelessly gawking at his naked top half.
After a minute of Ella's eyes wandering everywhere, George brought her back to reality by letting his hands come over her thighs again. She trembled at the same time as the drummer said, "Ella?"
"Yeah?" She asked, slowly coming back to reality. Her brain had been completely taken over by the view of the taut muscles of his arms littered by colorful ink, a pair of symmetric 'broken' tattoos on both sides of his collarbones and his torso beautifully chiseled with a defined six pack.
"When are you taking the picture?" He reminded her trying not to smirk too hard not to put her off.
"Shit, sorry." She said under her breath and, quickly focusing, finally took a picture of him like that.
There was a heavy silence that hung over them, the trail of his fingers making her skin grow hot and her throat going dry at the growing need for anything at all. So Ella found herself surprised when he broke the silence to ask her, "Can I take your picture?"
"Mine?" She repeated like she'd heard wrong.
But George nodded entirely sure, and let her know, "You look really pretty from here."
In a feeble attempt not to have him do that, Ella reminded him, "You don't know how to."
"Matty had a film camera a few years ago, I know how to." George surprised her even further when he explained and just to try a bit harder, he pouted at her and said, almost begging, "Please?"
"Okay." She let herself accept, her mind too distraught by the view beneath her to even fight.
Once she handed him the camera, he lifted it up to his eyes and let out a chipper, "Smile." as an instruction, which she followed only just a bit shyly.
She was about to get the device back from him when he pulled it away from her grasp and pleaded, "Another one please?"
She sighed at the drummer's exaggerated pout, so it turned into a giggle and that was when the shutter went off. Her cheeks burned again when he complimented as he rolled the film, "Stunning."
Letting the camera rest beside them, George tried his luck and let his hands rub on the skin of her thighs a bit further up. She didn't refuse it, he could clearly see the growing hunger in her eyes as she looked down at him so he continued, letting his gaze trail down her body to drink in all of her but when he reached down to her legs was when he caught a slight glimpse of red ink on her left thigh that made him ask, "Do you have more tattoos?"
He didn't remember her mentioning any other tattoos than the ones she'd shown him at the restaurant. So when she nodded, he couldn't help but ask, "Where?"
"One, right here." Ella grabbed his right hand so he could touch over the fabric of her dress where the one on her rib was. Her eyes were looking right into his and his lips drew open further when she continued, "And this one here." lifting the fabric up to show her 'Divine Feminine' tattoo on her leg.
George let his right hand fall until it reached the one on her thigh, Ella still clutching the satin in her first so he could fully see it. He rubbed on the red ink on her skin as he stared at it, eliciting goosebumps to break on Ella's entire body.
He looked up and asked with a low voice about the only one he hadn't seen yet but she'd let him touch over her dress, "What's the other one?"
"A word." She vaguely said, as if he was encouraging him to continue asking about it.
"Which word?" His fingers were trailing further up, making her knees go completely weak. They had been hurting from hovering over him for so long but his touch had been the thing to finally have her sit on his lap.
And that was when she had felt him growing hard in his jeans.
His fingers had already been making her every thought go straight down to her core so Ella was driven by lust when she fully lifted the satin up and shed the dress off her body, leaving her only in her underwear and in full show for George.
It was involuntary, his hip jerking forward and pressing on Ella's center, his mouth agape at the sight and he grew even more breathless when Ella rolled her hips against his hardening cock.
"Fuck." He cursed under his breath, taking one quick look at the strange word on her rib before perching himself up on his left forearm to wrap his right hand around her neck and pull her in for a hungry kiss.
She leaned further into him, one arm wrapping around his shoulders and digging into his hair to pull on it as their lips moved with each other. Her fingers tugging on his hair made him groan into her mouth and, as payback, he tightened his fingers around her neck, eliciting a loud moan from her.
George pushed himself up with his left hand until he was sitting on the bed, his right arm wrapped around Ella's waist to keep her flush against him. Their tongues tasted each other and their breaths grew heavy when they started rolling their hips, meeting in the middle and creating a delicious friction that soon enough forced them to break the kiss only to gasp in pleasure into each other's mouths.
His fingers came to graze the ink on her left rib, her desperate side having her sink her hips down to roll against him and turned his, "What does it mean?" into a gorgeous moan. Their lips brushed as he asked and Ella responded to his sound with a mewl of her own and when that reached his ears, George forgot ever asking anything for he couldn't wait any longer to feel her lips on his again.
The kiss grew needy then. His hand went from her ribs down to knead the flesh of her ass, fingers harshly digging into her skin and encouraging her to move against him. Her clit was getting so stimulated from only being covered by the thin material of her lace thong against his jeans which meant she couldn't kiss him any longer.
A string of moans fell from her as she quickened her pace, getting louder as she went but her actions were interrupted when George clutched her tightly by her middle and swiftly turned them around so it was Ella resting on her back on the bed with him hovering right over her.
Her breath hitched in her throat at the sudden change of positions, her hand flying to cup his face and bring his lips back on hers and wrapping her legs around his waist to pull his hips into her core in a desperate attempt to have the friction back.
The feeling of his hard on coming down to rub harshly against her every time he bucked his hips forward was making her head spin. He started off by teasing her with the friction and leaving her hanging for a few seconds before going back in but when she started gasping into his mouth, he kept himself close to her and relentlessly rolled his hips on hers, hard cock pressing deliciously against her throbbing clit.
The pace grew faster, making it impossible for her to continue moving her lips with his so he took it as a sign to continue on with what he wanted to do first. Unfortunately, that meant his hips stopped moving and left her throbbing and clenching around nothing but he made it up to her with his lips all over her.
Wet kisses trailed down her neck, his lips taking their time to give every bit of her skin attention on the way down. Kissing, sucking, licking. His fingers ran down her sides until they clutch tightly on her hips, fingers pressing hard on the skin there and making her cry out in pleasure even louder.
Her breath was heavy by the time he stopped sucking bruises all over her chest and abdomen, her fingers tangled in his hair and tugged on it so he could come back up but instead his tongue ran flat from just above her belly button agonizingly slowly up until his nose bumped against the hem of her bra.
George looked up at her through his lashes, teeth coming to bite on the fabric and tugging them the slightest bit down so she knew what he wanted to do and Ella desperately nodded.
Without much of a proper attempt to take the piece of clothing off, he just tugged down the lace cups on it and let her tits spill out freely for him. He groaned from the pits of his chest, hips bucking forwards into the mattress harshly in search of some relief for himself.
But not letting any more seconds go by, George dove to suck one of her nipples into his mouth. Groaning around it, the vibrations of the noise causing white heat to run straight down to Ella's throbbing wet cunt.
He switched the sucking for flicking it with his tongue, blowing cold air and smirking as her nipple hardened at his actions, ending with a soft bite and tug that had Ella loudly saying his name in call for mercy.
She needed something, anything. She felt herself clenching around nothing and it was almost torturous. But her cries fell on deaf ears for he moved onto her other nipple and repeated his process. Ella was only ruining her underwear further, so wet she felt uncomfortably sticky with her thong still on.
"George, baby, please–" She pleaded in anguish when he started sucking bruises on her tits, biting them until she whimpered loudly under him.
"What do you need Ellie?" He asked sweetly, a stark contrast to his vicious attack on her chest.
"Anything. Just–" She tried to say, her words catching up in her throat as her desperation for release clouded her logic and made her sound stupid.
So she relied on grabbing one of his hands from her hips and guided it down to where she needed him most. The simple graze of one of his fingertips on her swollen clit eliciting a pathetic mewl out of her.
"Oh sweetheart," George tutted, "Made quite a mess, haven't you?" His pointer finger ran up and down her clothed core slowly and so faintly Ella didn't know if she was imagining it.
Applying a bit more pressure assured him to hear every one of Ella's needy sounds and feeling like she had waited enough, he left a light feather kiss over her center.
"Need help cleaning up this mess, yeah?" His words were sweet, like he was finally taking pity on her. The thought of him doing absolutely anything at that moment sounded so fucking good her hum in agreement sounded more like a whine, barely able to make eye contact with him in her hazy mind.
His long tongue ran flat over her underwear, wetting even more than it already was and he moaned at the taste of her soaking through it. His fingers tugged the fabric down her legs and threw it somewhere behind him in record time, and he found himself almost drooling at the sight of Ella completely exposed for him.
If Ella'd had any hint of inhibition left in her, she would've tried to close her legs under his attentive gaze but he was entranced and she'd had it with waiting any longer so she propped her legs wide open and squirmed in her place.
"George, please."
Her pleading was so sweet, so desperate, he couldn't deny her. So he dipped his head in between her legs and started lapping at her like a starved man. At the first proper taste he had moaned loudly, tongue running up and down her slit to gather as much of her as he could and enjoying every drop of her on his tongue.
"Are you not gonna continue taking my picture?" George interrupted his task to tauntingly ask, going back to using his tongue on her, this time flicking it up and down quickly on her clit and making her shiver.
Her words caught in her throat when he didn't relent his actions, "Right– F-fuck! Right now?"
Only allowing himself to stop for the amount of seconds it took him to say, "Yes baby, be a good girl and take my picture."
That 'good girl' had made Ella roll her eyes in utter pleasure. Her head turned quickly to see where he'd left the camera and brought it to her eyes to take a picture as fast as she could. Her thoughts were already becoming clouded by the growing heat in her lower belly.
His disheveled dirty blonde hair in between her legs, his arms underneath her legs and hands clutching her thighs in place was what she captured in that frame. The shutter went off letting George know she'd done as he'd said and he congratulated her by praising her with a proud, "Such a good girl." and a few kisses to her clit which made her jolt.
He went back down, trying to clean up the mess of slick and saliva that was dripping down her inner thighs and onto the duvet and a desperate Ella had started rocking her hips against his face, trying to steer him back to where she wanted him to be and, to her satisfaction, he followed the silent instruction by going back to her center and this time pointing his tongue and dipping it inside her.
Her legs instinctively closed around his head, eliciting a breathy laugh from him that hit her core as he continued tongue fucking her. His hands came to spread open her legs again, holding her limbs down on the bed strongly, not allowing her to move any longer.
The feeling of his wet tongue dipping in and out of her had her growing louder, begging and pleading with him not to stop, but he did.
In that moment, Ella swore she could cry as she'd felt herself nearing closer to the edge but just before she could pathetically let her frustrated tears roll down, his lips wrapped around her throbbing clit and he sucked on it applying the perfect amount of pleasure. Enough pressure for her to let out a string of moans of his name and then a bunch of "Yes! Fuck yes!", hands flying down to tangle her fingers in his hair and keep him in his place.
"I'm gonna cum!" She yelled out loud, eyes shut tightly since the pleasure impeded her from keeping them open, and when George started humming as he sucked her clit, she was done for.
Her legs trembled under his hold, toes curling and her fingers surely tugging his hair tighter than she was before. She blacked out as her orgasm hit her hard, the oxygen in her lungs leaving her entirely as her back arched off the bed and she came back when his incessant sucking became too much for her oversensitive self and she pulled him back off her.
He giggled, completely entranced by her fucked out state. Watching her cum had been an experience but god didn't she look beautiful with her chest heaving, bruises looming on her skin, a flush to her face and chest, a thin coat of sweat making her body and face shine.
But before he could give her any more attention, his gaze fell back to her cunt and it was glistening with arousal. She tasted so good to him, so he wasted no more time to lick her clean. Her legs trembled at the resumed contact of his tongue on her sensitive core, whimpers stubbornly leaving her as he went.
Her fingers had left his hair alone but her left hand cradled his head as he lapped up at everything she gave him and after a whole minute of him meticulously licking clean every inch of skin that had been wet with her arousal, he started a trail of kisses from her mound until he reached her belly button.
Flashing a smile up at her, George rested his chin on her lower stomach and she couldn't hold herself back from brushing his messy hair back almost adoringly, post orgasm haze making her extra appreciative of him and his skilled tongue work.
His fingers rubbed circles on the top of her thighs, "Feel good?" He asked before leaving more soft kisses on her lower stomach.
"Very." She answered with a smile, fingers brushing through his hair.
He hummed at the feeling of her touch, "Good to know, pretty."
Turning to see where she'd left it, Ella reached out to grab her discarded camera, melting into the duvet under George's gentle touch and his lips pressing on her skin leisurely. She went to lean on her forearms so that she could get a better look at him, and he looked up at her with a dizzying smirk that she managed to capture.
His lips tickled the skin of her lower stomach when he pointed out, "Didn't even have to tell you this time."
Putting the device back down on the bed, Ella shrugged, "You look good."
"Do I, now?" He teased, dropping his hands from her thighs and pressing them on the mattress so he could slowly push himself up and crawl his way up to hover over Ella again.
"You always do." Her words came laced with lust, his eyes darkening as he got closer and she just couldn't wait any longer to have him in more ways. "Come here." She instructed by wrapping a hand around his neck, fingers pressing on the sides of it until he groaned loudly in pleasure and when he let the sound leave his lips, she smirked and warned, "My turn."
Pulling him in by his neck meant that their tongues met instantly when they started the kiss, and when Ella tasted herself on his tongue, she moaned so loudly George groaned just as loud in response.
The kiss was all teeth clashing, spit dribbling down to their chins, noses bumping, deep exhales sounding loudly and trying to overpower the sounds of their swollen lips moving together.
It had been George the one to grow louder when Ella's hand dropped from his neck, down his naked torso to the button of his jeans, which she undid with quick fingers and pulled the zip down before she could palm him over the fabric of his boxers.
"F-fuck..." He let out when her nimble fingers squeezed him and stroked him up and down, he was so hard that her touch was making him shiver.
Ella could feel him so swollen under her hand, her mind already spinning about how big he was but she wanted to have him unravel under her so badly, she pushed any worries about his size to the back of her head.
His hips moved slowly, as if he was helping with her movements, clearly wanting to reach his high but she wanted to taste him and she wanted it now. So she left his cock alone to instruct him to, "Lay down, baby."
They switched positions, so George was laying on his back and Ella was kneeling between his legs. He panted as he watched Ella shamelessly gawk at him, her mouth going dry at the clear outline of his cock.
"Fucking hell, George." She cursed as she tugged on the top of his jeans so he could lift his hips up for her to take them off him.
He did as instructed and Ella just was too impatient to wait any more, she wanted to feel him heavy on her tongue already. His boxers came off quickly after his jeans, his hard cock springing up to touch right by his navel.
Ella gulped. He was thick, angry red tip already leaking from how aroused he was. Intimidating but so inviting. She dipped her head down to start kissing his hips, kisses that went from sweet to wet and messy the more he squirmed under her.
"Ella..." George pleaded, hand coming down to cradle her head. Not to push it towards where he wanted her but to have her look up at him and see just how fucking desperate he was for her.
Ella felt that look go down straight to her core, mewling at the feeling. "I know baby, I know." She said in a coo.
Her fingers wrapped around him, the pressure of them making George huff with his lips pressed together. He felt so heavy in her hand, veins popping for her to see how pained he was.
"You're so big." She trailed off, a bit of wander in her voice. She had no idea how he'd fit in her mouth, he was by far the biggest dick she had ever come across but she liked a challenge.
Her tongue licked a bold strip from base to tip, eyes rolling to the back of her head when she tasted the salty arousal that had already been leaking from him. He had cursed under his breath at the feeling, but the breathy words turned into a loud moan when she wrapped her lips around him and sank her mouth down onto him.
Barely able to fit half of him in her mouth until he hit the back of her throat, Ella pulled back to catch a breath, her hand taking over for a few seconds as she inhaled deeply and went back in. She gagged around him when she managed to get him deeper, George moaned loudly as she did so, trying his hardest not to buck his hips upwards.
His hand went back to hold her head but this time, his fingers tangled in her hair, only to pull her up so she could breathe. But she didn't want to have it easy, she wanted to see how much of him she could take and hear every one of his moans.
So she went against his hold, sinking her mouth further down and gagging around him again. Her hand stayed at the base of his cock, stroking the rest she couldn't get to, as she continued bobbing her head up and down on him.
George was a mess of groans and moans, gasping for air whenever she gagged and moaned around him, her throat tightening around him was driving him insane.
He lifted his head up slightly to look down at her, pulling her hair so she would come off him and meet his eyes. And George was met with a panting Ella, pink wet swollen lips, saliva dripping down her chin and neck, tears falling out of the corner of her eyes, hair disheveled but pupils dilated and a satisfied smirk at it all.
Her hand kept stroking him up and down, fingers applying the perfect amount of pressure and he moaned at the combination of her touch and his view of her, "Fuck, you're so perfect."
The praise only encouraged her more, for she leaned back down and licked a strip up his cock again, this time looking up at him through her lashes. An innocent look in her eyes as she lapped at the tip of his cock.
He exhaled in awe, "Look at you– Shit!" He cursed loudly when she sank slowly back down until again he reached her throat, his hips bucking upwards involuntarily and making her gag loudly.
She gasped out for air for a mere second before she did it again, until she managed to control her gagging a bit better and encouraged George to fuck her mouth with a simple squeeze to his hip.
"Oh fuck– Such a pretty filthy girl." He praised as he obeyed the silent instructions and rocked his hips forwards slowly and ever so slightly. "You like it when I fuck your throat?" His question was thrown out into the air in between groans.
She answered with a hum that vibrated around him and that was when he started feeling like he was losing control. His hips grew erratic and Ella noticed so she hummed and moaned around him even more, causing him to get closer to his high.
"Ellie m'gonna cum!" He warned her loudly, the wet squelching sounds of him going in and out of her mouth and their moans bounced off the walls.
And when her hand dropped from around the base of his cock to play with his balls, he was sent over the edge. He pushed his hips forwards and stilled as he came, dick twitching in her mouth and his cum coated the walls of her throat with a warmth she appreciated with another low moan.
His hips fell back on the bed but she didn't relent just yet, sucking him off for a little longer to take everything she could. But he pulled her off him by her hair when he couldn't take it anymore, cursing and calling out her name like he was scorning her.
"Fucking hell." He mumbled, still dizzy from his orgasm but completely entranced by the way she came off him with a whimper and a satisfied smirk.
She wiped the drool off her chin with the back of her hand and slowly crawled up until she was laying on her side right beside him, staring right into his eyes with hunger still flashing in hers.
"Feel good?" She asked just what he'd asked her but in a mocking manner.
It got her a chuckle in response before one of his big hands came to cup her jaw and crashed their lips together.
Kissing George had Ella dazed. His lips were soft but firm when moving along with hers, they were wet and swollen, warm exhales leaving his parted lips for her to swallow, tongue peeking through them to meet hers. He'd moaned so loud when he tasted himself on her tongue, fingers digging into her cheek and making her mewl in response.
Her skin grew hot the more they kissed. He didn't even let her get a proper breath whenever he pulled back for a brief second, because he was back on her mouth—lips smacking and tongues licking at each other.
Ella's hands had gone on a path from his face to his head, the back of his neck, his shoulders, and eventually to his back, fingers digging into it when he started nipping at her bottom lip, at the same time as his right hand dropped from her jaw down to pinch her nipples, eliciting gasps out of her.
"George..." She let out in a gasp when he had her nipple pinched and twisted between his thumb and index finger.
He was smirking right over her parted lips, amused at the way she shivered every time he went from one nipple to the other. Her nails clawed at his back when she felt the electric shocks that his touch gave her travel all the way down to her center, feeling herself growing wetter and that familiar knot in her lower stomach forming.
His lips slotted between hers again, distracting her from his missing touch from her tits and it going down to tease her cunt.
With his thumb, George started rubbing circles on her clit, making her pull back from the kiss with a loud gasp that turned into a cry of pleasure. She could feel herself throbbing already, and it got worse when he picked up his pace.
He wasn't going too fast but not slow either, the speed in which his thumb rubbed at her had her writhing her hips in response, subconsciously trying her best to get closer and closer to her high.
And Ella had felt herself start clenching around nothing when he slid a finger inside her. "George! Fuck!" His fingers were thick and long, curling inside her and making her see stars already, half lidded eyes catching him smirking at her and heavy breathing at her reaction.
"You like that?" He asked her teasingly, pecking her lips as her face scrunched up in pressure.
She hummed in response to him but he found that not good enough, so he added another finger, stretching her out easily and making her back arch as she moaned loudly. "Yes! Yes!" She encouraged, and when he curled his fingers again, knuckle deep inside her, she felt herself be completely overcome by pleasure and unable to grasp at her inhibitions, "Oh my– Fuck! Your fingers feel so good."
His fingers were slipping in and out of her easily, her hips erratically moving as he thrusted them inside her, "That's it, cum on them baby."
The praise had Ella completely fucked over, "George, I'm so– Fuckkkk!" She couldn't help but scream out when he pushed a third finger inside her, feeling completely stuffed with him.
It felt so good how much he was opening her up, and he was loving the way whenever he pulled his fingers back her walls pushing him off and having to slowly sink his fingers deep inside her again. "I know, I can feel you clenching hard around them." She was squeezing his fingers so tight, his throat went dry just thinking about her milking his cock, "Can't wait to fill you up and feel how tight you're around my cock baby."
She agreed, so drunk in pleasure she just wanted to feel even more of him, "I need you. George, I need–"
But he tutted, "You're cumming on my fingers first." She was about to cry out like a brat, about to beg for him to stuff her up but his words beat hers, "Come on baby, give it to me like the good girl you are."
His voice was low in her ear, so sultry and inviting she felt it deep in her core and she just couldn't say no. So she let go. Her toes curl as his fingers kept pumping in and out of her, hitting that spot perfectly for her to see stars as she came, white heat enveloping her and taking ahold of her body, "Fuck, fuck! Oh– George!"
"That's it, baby. So fucking stunning." He encouraged, watching his fingers continue to disappear inside her tightening cunt, her legs shaking and her hips moving clumsily to meet his hand.
She gushed all over him, slick drenching his hand and dripping down her cunt onto the duvet. He couldn't let it go to waste, so he pulled his fingers out and sucked them clean, moaning around them when he tasted her again. Soft and sweet. He wanted more.
Ella felt his fingers gathering her mess and she managed to peel her eyes open to watch him as he sucked it all off his fingers again.
Shamelessly, she just watched as he dipped down time and time again until he deemed his work of cleaning her up was done, the last one being offered out to her and Ella obeyed, wrapping her lips around his fingers and sinking her mouth on them to suck them clean. Her eyes stayed on his as she did so, moaning loudly around them while she batted her lashes at him.
The view made George's dick twitch. So he reached out behind her for the forgotten camera and when she was trying to catch her breath, eyes closed in bliss, he took a picture of her.
Her eyes snapped open at the sound of the shutter going off and she looked at him all startled like she needed an explanation. "You're so beautiful like this." He quickly justified, lifting the device back up to his eyes and adjusted the focus to take another one as he added, "All fucked out. Fucking gorgeous."
"Stop." She whined when the shutter went off again, hand coming up to grab at her lenses and force him to put it down, "I must look a mess."
His head shook, tongue swiping at his bottom lip with his eyes taking her in again, "You don't. You look hot." Skin glowing due to the thin layer of sweat their activities had caused, lips swollen and a hot pink color that matched the flush of her cheeks and chest, the gorgeous pattern of every bruise he'd sucked on her skin which were darkening more and more, hair disheveled and splayed over the pillows.
"I'm confiscating this." That was the brief ultimatum she gave him, grabbing the camera and turning the action on him instead.
She took just one picture of him and he allowed it, only to complain by saying, "You have enough of me." and taking the camera back.
She rolled her eyes, faking being annoyed and kissed him quickly before pushing herself up and off the bed, telling him, "Gonna go to the bathroom." making a beeline for her suitcase and getting herself a new pair of underwear first, adjusting the cups of her bra so they held her breasts again.
It wasn't longer than five minutes that she took, coming back to him wearing his boxers again and laying over the bedsheets—he'd discarded the duvet and left it a big crumpled knot on the floor by the foot of the bed—, a hand behind his head whilst the other was scrolling on his phone.
His position looked inviting, so she crawled on the bed and sat on his lap with a mischievous smile on her face. She reached out to get the camera he had placed on the bedside table at the same time as he dropped his phone there and his hands went up to hold her at her hips.
"Put your hands behind your head again." She instructed him softly, almost a mutter that sounded so shy, the corner of his lips tugged into a smirk.
She took a picture of him like that and another when he ran a hand through his hair but she stopped when his hands came back to grab at her skin, going from her waist until they softly came down to rest at her hips.
With a soft squeeze on her sides, he tilted his head to ask, "Am I allowed to smoke?" to which Ella nodded and got off him to open the balcony door and get him a cigarette and a lighter.
Getting back on top of him, she placed the cigarette between his lips but before she could give him the lighter, she grabbed the camera again just so she could capture the moment he lit it alive.
George looked so fucking hot lighting it up: cheeks hollowing ever so slightly, brows furrowing, long fingers that made the lighter look minuscule in his hand, lips pursed around the stick. She snapped away and captured the moment he blew out the smoke upwards, taking another drag and then blowing it in her direction.
The familiar scent of the tobacco and just how arousing she found it all, impulsed her to start moving her hips slowly on him. The sudden movement made his breath hitch in his throat, causing him to erupt in coughs when the smoke went up the wrong hole.
That's when she guided his hand to her mouth so he could place the cigarette in between her lips for her to take a drag. His mouth opened agape as she did so, the rolling of her hips only growing more intent and he started twitching and getting hard in his boxers.
He could feel her heat, the way she was wetting her underwear and starting to wet his own, the pulsing of her swollen clit. He could see how her nipples grew hard through the lace of her bra, and the way goosebumps rose in her skin as she went. Soft gasps that turned into hush whimpers that he wanted so badly to turn into those loud moans of hers that he was quite enjoying getting drunk on.
"Have you brought a condom?" She asked breathlessly, camera being once again forgotten somewhere on the bed for her to be able to rest her hands on his chest as leverage.
A flip switched inside George, the simple hint of him finally being able to sink himself deep in her making his blood rush down to his cock. "Yeah." He nodded eagerly and it was a relief when she quickly got off him so he could rush to get it, not without running out to the balcony so he could put out the cigarette on the ashtray outside and closing the balcony door behind him the second he stepped foot back into the room.
He had thought it was foolish of him to pocket a couple condoms before he left his flat earlier that day, fully scorning himself for being so ridiculous as to assume Ella would want to shag after their date but oh was he glad he had right then.
Condom in hand, George went back to the bed but not without shedding himself off his boxers first. Ella bit her bottom lip as she got her bra off to throw it on the floor behind her, seeing him wrap his hand around his length and pump it slowly as he watched her almost naked figure. Her hands went down to her hips so she could quickly tug down her underwear, eagerly taking it off and throwing it on the same spot on the floor she had dropped her bra.
Crawling up to the edge of the bed, she hummed as she watched him stroke himself up and down, her mouth watering for another taste of him. And when she got right in front of him, she dipped her head down until her mouth was right before his hardening cock and sticking her tongue out, she licked his head slowly.
He grew heavy on her tongue as she went, twitching in her mouth when she wrapped her lips around him again, his head thrown back at the feeling of her wet mouth enclosed around him and sucking him off patiently.
But he had to use an incredible amount of self restraint to pull her off him, a hand delicately coming around her neck to have her let go off his dick with a pop and pull her up to face him.
"I'm fucking you now."
George wasn't asking, he was simply informing her and that made her squirm under his gaze. Thighs pressing together and eyes drinking in the way lust made his behavior change. But Ella wanted a bit of control, even if it just was for him to ruin her.
"Can I ride you?" She asked innocently, puppy eyes that she prayed would get her a yes.
She took the way he pulled her in for a messy kiss as one.
In no time he was laying on his back with his head resting on the pillows, teeth ripping the condom wrapper open while Ella had her hand wrapped around him waiting for him to put the latex on. The anticipation grew and hung in the air like a heavy cloud as George rolled it down his length, sighing at the feeling of it around him.
She caught a glimpse of her camera through the corner of her eye and thought there wouldn't be a thing that was better than capturing his pure ecstasy in a picture so she grabbed it before she straddled him again.
Ella lifted the camera up to her eyes with one hand while the other got ahold of his cock to line him up, rubbing his head on her clit and making herself gasp at the feeling. She clenched around nothing as she did so, and she could feel herself drenched.
Even after he had stretched her out with his fingers, it was slightly challenging for her to take him when she started sinking into him. Her jaw dropped in a loud gasp when every inch of him started stretching her out, eyes watering at the feeling and trying to get her to shut them tightly but she did her best to not let her eyes close entirely so she could capture the way he groaned loudly with his head thrown back as she let her cunt swallow him.
Breath hitching in her throat, Ella sank down completely until she could feel him so deep it had a pathetic cry of pleasure slipping past her lips.
She drew her hips up and back down on him slowly, testing the waters on his size and what angle would be best for her to feel the best, and they both moaned loudly at the feeling. He was so big, he was filling her up in a way she'd never felt before so her walls were clenching hard around him which had his head spinning.
"Ella–" He breathed out, hands flying to her hips and clutching them tightly just to show how bad he was holding himself back from just thrusting up into her, or better yet just flipping them around and fucking her into the mattress.
"Fuck–, I know. I know." She said in a high pitch tone. One of her hands fell to rest flat on his chest and use as support, "I– oh, fuck..." She cursed as she rolled her hips forwards and then backwards this time, making her completely still at the insane sensory overdrive she was getting from it.
George knew she needed a second or two but she stayed frozen for longer than he could hold so he pleaded, "I need you to move baby, you're so tight."
"Just–" She tried to say, rolling her hips again and mewling loudly. George moaned back in response, his hands sliding down to her thighs as her head hung in pleasure.
Ella established a slow place, George's fingers digging into the flesh of her upper thighs grounded her into the moment and allowed her to take another picture. A picture that captured her legs on each sides of his toned chest, his fingers turning the skin under them white, his adam's apple bobbing as he gulped back a moan, the box tattoo on his thumb right next to the red ink of her 'Divine Feminine' tattoo on her thigh.
But after she pressed the shutter on that one, barely being able to clumsily roll the film, Ella just tossed the camera to the side mindlessly and used her new free hand to rest on his chest as well and the second hand of support helped her start moving her hips faster.
It was fucking delicious the way he kept hitting her g-spot from that angle, and when he started bucking his hips upwards, meeting her in the middle, she couldn't hold back the noises she let out. "George, fuck!" She cried out, clit feeling a bit of pressure every time she rolled down and he hit her pelvis.
His hands ran up from her thighs to mercilessly grab her ass, fingers harshly digging into her skin and stinging just in the best way. "Just like that baby. You feel so fucking good." He praised her with a groan, helping her sink down harder into him.
"You're so– Oh fuck–" She was cock drunk, her thoughts stupid and leaving her without even being able to finish a sentence.
"Tight little cunt, can barely fit inside you." George could feel himself meeting the hilt inside her every time, her cries growing in volume the faster the pace got. "You love it huh, being filled to the brim?"
"Yes, fuck! Yes, I love it, love your cock." She was dripping all over him, the noise of the wetness and their skin slapping every time they met bounced off the walls and, combined with their moans, made for a pornographic symphony.
"I know you can go faster. Can you do that for me baby?" He genuinely could feel himself not lasting any longer with how tight she was squeezing him.
"I can, I can." She promised almost desperately, wanting to be good for him. So she picked up her pace, her hands moving ever so slightly so she could straighten up a bit and when she did so she cursed out loud at the new angle, "Ah fuck!"
Her hips grew erratic, her knees helping now when she bounced up and down his cock ever so slightly, enough for her to incessantly gasp in a high pitch every time he hit that spot.
"Such a good girl for me." His hands stopped groping her ass to spank her, making her jolt forward with a loud gasp that turned into a mewl and a whine that tried to pass as a 'yes'. His dick twitched inside her at that reaction so he did it again and again, feeling her walls flutter around him with every hit, "You're squeezing me so tight baby, you gonna cum all over my cock?"
"Yeah, yes..." She gasped, and if she hadn't been so adamant on chasing her high, she would've noticed George quickly getting the camera and snapping a picture of her riding him. Hair a mess covering up her face but her mouth wide open in a moan, tits bouncing as she rode him, hands on his chest as support.
He'd just about managed to put the camera back down when he felt her squeezing him the tightest and that was when she came. "George! George! Ge–" She cried out, his name breaking down into a loud moan that tipped him over the edge along with her cunt milking him into the condom as she sloppily continued to ride him.
"Fuck! Ella!" He moaned loudly back, his hands going to her ass again to help her continue as he came, his dick twitching the more he spurt out into the condom, sweet relief making him see stars.
Unable to uphold herself any longer, she collapsed over him, chests heaving in sync as they came down from their highs. It was hard catching their breaths when their skin burned from the heat and stuck together from the sweat. And George knew she was rather uncomfortable from the way she groaned into him, her fingers lazily trying to brush the hair out of her face but huffing as it stuck to her sweaty forehead.
He brushed her hair back for her, fingers delicately grazing her face and earning a soft smile and a sigh from her. But then his hold went down to her hips so he could lift her up and off himself, to set her beside him, she whined at the loss of him.
Ella didn't even try to open her eyes, completely spent from their activities and snuggling into the pillows to find some comfort in the post orgasm haze.
George shed himself off the condom and tied it so he could throw it away, groaning as he pushed himself up and off the bed to make way to the bathroom.
He took about five minutes there and when he came back into the room, he smiled, finding a sleepy Ella struggling to keep her eyes open and smirking at him. He giggled as he walked up to bed and after taking her camera and placing it on one of the bedside tables, he carried her bridal style to take her to the bathroom.
Yes she was still on cloud nine but she had a bit of sense in her then so, after thanking him with a kiss, Ella told George she was alright from there and he could wait for her in bed.
She had realized what she'd said as she was washing her hands after peeing and she was cringing just thinking about him being gone once she went back into the room, but she found that he hadn't left and instead he had gone under the bedsheets and was waiting for her to cuddle up to him so they could get some rest.
Ella giggled when she got under the sheets and he hooked his arm around her waist to push her flush into him, her back pressed to his chest and he nuzzled into her neck from behind. Their legs tangled together and their breaths synced and slowed down as the minutes went by until they succumbed to their slumber.
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They got startled awake around ten in the morning when someone knocked on her door horrendously loud.
For a few seconds they stared at the door as if they were waiting for that person to knock it down and come into the room but then they announced who they were with a "Hello! Housekeeping!" and Ella sighed in relief.
Ella had to spring up from bed, calling out "Coming!" so that the staff member wouldn't come into the room, and after hastily grabbing her robe from the hanger and putting it on, she opened the door just enough to poke her head out and apologized.
"Sorry, can't come in yet." She said with an embarrassed flush on her cheeks.
But the lady outside her door waved her off and offered, "I can come back in around an hour or so."
The American nodded with a smile, "Sure, that'd be great. Thank you!" To that, the woman nodded and started walking up to the next door, so Ella closed the door and locked it again, her soul coming back to her body.
George laughed at her mortified expression which she scowled at him for but then she confidently shed herself off her robe and walked back to get in bed and she was met with a smirking George just taking in every inch of her body.
"Come here gorgeous." He invited her back into his arms and she didn't have to be told twice for her to go back being the little spoon for him. She'd had such good sleep being completely enveloped in him, heavy limbs acting like a weighted blanket and it was utter bliss.
But after seeing her naked again, skin littered with love bites he had left all over her, hair messy and tits perky and bouncing as she walked, George felt the need to show her a bit more of the appreciation he had shown her the day before.
His hand brushed her hair to the side so he could have access to the skin on the back of her neck. Goosebumps breaking on the skin there when he started pressing open mouthed kisses on it, fingers ghostly running down her back and stopping right on her lower back that had her back arching into him. Her ass grazed his dick every time, making it twitch and start to harden.
In search of friction, he pushed his hips forward and she reciprocated by pressing her ass against him. She couldn't help the passing thought of this being how it could've gone the morning after the wedding with Alex, if they wouldn't have freaked out and just let it happen. But all thoughts of the singer went out the window when George pressed himself against her again and had her mewling out loud at the feeling, "Hmm, George."
"Yes, baby?" His lips brushed against her skin, a shiver running down her spine and making her shudder, "You're so fucking beautiful, please let me make you feel good."
"Yeah..." Ella nodded quickly, it was a no-brainer. Her breath caught in her throat when she pushed his hips forwards again at the same time as she did and the tip of his cock grazed her entrance.
"Yes?" He moaned in her ear, hand coming around her front to play with her tits, "Can I make you cum again, sweetheart?"
She nodded eagerly, swallowing a moan as he pinched her nipple and when he cupped her whole tit with one hand, kneading it harshly, her "Please." came out in the form of a whine.
"Good girl. M'gonna make you feel so good baby, I promise." His hand continued playing with her tits as they kept grinding on each other, and when his cock was hard enough it had come up to rest heavily on his lower stomach, he let his fingers trail down until they hovered over her mound and he breathlessly asked, "D'you trust me?"
"Yeah, George..." She was basically pleading him to continue, hand coming to clutch his and guide his fingers down to her soaked cunt and when he felt just how wet she was, he groaned and pulled away.
"Wait." George instructed her, leaving her alone on the bed to get a condom. Ella heard the wrapper rip and him moaning as he put the condom on, stroking himself up and down a few times before he tugged the sheets off her and turned her from her side to her front so she was facedown and he could hover over her from behind.
His knees were on either side of her hips, forearms pressed on the mattress next to her shoulders and he kissed and sucked all over her back as he praised her for how gorgeous she was over and over. He kept bruising her up until Ella pushed her ass up and begged him to do something, the ache in her cunt too unbearable.
So George let go of the patch of skin he was bruising and did as she asked for, spreading her legs open as he knelt in between them and rubbed his tip up and down her slit.
"Don't tease, please." She cried into the mattress, her cunt fluttering around nothing and it was painful knowing just how good he felt inside her but he wasn't allowing her to feel it yet.
But then he just let himself slowly slip inside her and his jaw fell at her tightness in that angle, "Oh Ellie... Fuck–" He felt like he could barely fit in, but she was dripping with slick so it made it a bit easier for him to bottom out.
"George–" Ella choked out, head turning to the side to catch a glimpse of him. Her hands clawed at the sheets beside her head for dear life.
"I know. You're so tight." He cried out in pleasure, barely able to move an inch out of her because she was so snug it felt like she was pushing him out.
"Move baby, please." She begged again and he started going then, a slow pace at first that grew in speed rather quickly and had her cursing out loud, "Fuckkkkk!"
He gasped into her ear with every thrust, and it was soon that the sound of their skin slapping drowned the room along with their moans. "Gonna miss this tight little cunt so much." He said into her neck, sucking a bruise on the back of it before asking, "Gonna miss me too?"
"Ye– Yes! Oh!" She gasped when he hooked his left arm under her leg, pulling it upwards slowly and allowing her to stretch a bit more so she felt him deeper, "Gonna miss you so much!"
He chuckled smugly, "I know you will."
"Oh fuck!" She cursed as he hit her g-spot perfectly from that angle, his hips hitting her ass and reminding her of how sore the skin there was from the spanking he gave her the night before. "Yes, yes! Don't stop, please!"
"If you could only see yourself right now!" He cursed under his breath when he looked down to see himself disappear into her, over and over. If he kept looking at how he kept sliding in and out of her so easily, he would burst right then so he looked back up to her face and praised her once more, "Taking me so well baby."
"Harder, please." She asked for and stilling for just a second to get a better standing on his knees, George did as she asked, making her instantly get even louder when he hit that spot with more intensity, "Oh my– Fuck! Right there, yes!"
"Just like that, yeah?" His smirk grew on his face, feeling how it kept getting easier to slide inside her which meant she was fucking drenched and dripping all over him, her walls fluttering around him already making him see stars.
"Yes! Yes!" She chanted like a broken record, the coil in her lower stomach tightening by the second and threatening to snap at any moment, "I'm so close!"
His left arm lifted her leg even higher and then left it there to be able to bring his fingers down to rub at her clit and send her over the edge, "C'mon baby, cum for me sweetheart!" He encouraged her as he rubbed fast circles on her throbbing clit, which earned him choked out moans that turned into a throat ripping moan of, "F-fuckkkk! George!"
George felt her squeeze him so tightly as she came, making it so much harder for him to continue thrusting in and out of her which ended up with him stilling his hips as he came a few seconds after her with a loud, "Ah shit! Ella!"
His thrusts became sloppy and messy as she spasmed around him, whimpering as the aftershocks of her orgasm had her legs trembling under him and her white knuckle grip on the sheets faltered.
Letting his weight fall over Ella slightly, George sighed in complete bliss and he kissed the back of her head and her cheek multiple times to say, "Did so good for me sweetheart." He dropped a kiss on her lips for the first time that morning and praised her once more, "Pretty girl."
The way he spoke to her made Ella's stomach flutter, and he felt it when she clenched around him, "You like that huh?" He teasingly asked, to which she only mewled in response.
He pulled out, hearing her whine this time when she felt upsettingly empty again but her rubbed circles on her hips soothingly and asked, "Shall we go take a shower? Do you want me to help you up?"
Ella had barely managed to reply with a quiet, "Mhm..." when a loud ringing snapped them out of their bubble.
She didn't recognize the ringing so she figured it was George's. The drummer didn't do a thing to go and get it though, as he came to lay down beside her and shed himself off the condom they'd used.
He got up to discard it in the bathroom and just as he crossed the threshold of the room, he heard his phone start ringing again. He didn't listen to it, taking his time in the bathroom until he heard Ella call out for him.
A grunt left his lips when he came back to the room and picked up the phone and read his sister's name on the screen so he answered with a meek, "Y'alright?" to let her know he wasn't in the mood for constant ringing.
Ella heard pure silence surrounding them for a good half minute before George sighed a, "Fucks sake." The American opened her eyes to see him and moved onto her side to watch him as he spoke. "Right now? Really?" He asked, entirely unamused. "Yeah, really busy actually." He said sternly, looking at a naked Ella in front of him with wide eyes. That made Ella purse her lips not to laugh but what broke the giggles out of her was when he sighed loudly and muttered, "I hate you." to whoever it was. It was barely another half minute that he ended the call with an impatient, "Yeah, yeah. Sure. See ya'."
"What's wrong?" Ella asked curiously, her fingers playing with the ends of her hair.
George rolled his eyes at the situation, "My sister needs me for something. She says it's urgent but I doubt it." He shrugged then, ignoring the importance of whatever it was she needed him for, he had only been half listening really. "I can stay though, it wouldn't be the first time I ignore her."
That had Ella snorting in laughter, "Go, you idiot."
"But–" He tried to argue as he came to hover over her, head dipping to steal a kiss out of her which Ella broke after a few seconds by pushing his shoulders slightly so she could reassure him it was fine.
"It's okay. I had the best time with you, and that's all I wanted." Her hands came to the back of his head, fingers digging into the hair at the nape of his neck and scratched his scalp softly.
George clicked his tongue and he pouted to joke, "Knew you only wanted me for my body."
Ella cackled at his antics and told him to "Shut up." only to do it herself by pulling him into her so they could share one last kiss. It was sweet but it wasn't soft, their lips moving together with intent as if to prove they'd need to do it again because it was just too good.
But she had to stop it before it could turn into something more. She pulled on his hair so their lips separated with a smack and with the sweetest smile and looking at him with those gorgeous hazel green eyes of hers, she said, "Thank you George."
"I had the best time Ellie." He replied wholeheartedly then, agreeing with her previous point.
"Me too." She nodded softly to reiterate her point, hands coming back down to cup his jaw, thumbs rubbing circles on his skin.
One last short kiss was all they got in that bed before they both stood up and got dressed. Well, George did, in the same getup as the day before, while Ella put her robe back on and tied it around herself slowly as he finished getting his shoes on.
"I'll see you soon, yeah?" He said when they got to the door, a glimmer of hope in his eyes. "When are you leaving again?"
"Friday."
He nodded, it was very soon but there was still time. "We have a week then." He winked right as he opened the door, stealing one last peck from her and leaving her with a stupid smile on her face that only got bigger when she closed the door behind her and she looked at the mess they had left the bed looking like.
And it got even bigger when she finally reached for her phone, which she had put on silent, for the first time since before the date and she found her most recent notification being a message from Florence which made her cackle.
When she opened that message conversation, she giggled loudly for she had messages from the day before and Flo hadn't taken the time that passed between the texts she sent lightly.
(13/07/2013 18:38) How did the date go? Hope he behaved for you x
(13/07/2013 18:52) No, I actually hope he didn't ;) xx
(13/07/2013 20:51) Okay, it's almost nine now... You better be ignoring me for the right reasons Miss Hayes x
(13/07/2013 23:46) I'm about to go to bed but I've driven Matty crazy tonight because I'm so intrigued about this. Answer woman! I'm going mad!!!!
(14/07/2013 08:22) Good fucking morning you lucky bitch! Still no response? You better tell me all about this later!!!! xx
(14/07/2013 09:35) Should I start getting worried?! If you don't answer in an hour, I'm texting him just to ask if he didn't fuck this whole thing massively x
That text had been sent almost an hour before, and Ella knew Flo was faithful to her promises so she typed an answer the quickest her fingers allowed her to.
(14/07/2013 10:18) Hello... Why does this text feel like a walk of shame? Hahah x I'm sorry for just now replying, I had my hands a bit full...
Ella laughed loudly when a minute later, when she had been choosing what to wear after taking a shower, Flo replied.
(14/07/2013 10:19) Eleanor Hayes!!!!!!!! Tell me every dirty little detail right now!!!!!
(14/07/2013 10:19) I'm gonna take a shower right now but I'll call you as soon as I'm out x
(14/07/2013 10:20) You're just now showering?! Did you go again this morning?!
(14/07/2013 10:21) Why do you want to spoil this story for yourself?
(14/07/2013 10:21) I'm actually so fucking jealous right now, it's an issue x
(14/07/2013 10:22) HAHAHA Give me five minutes and I'll call you as soon as I have dried my hair. Get your popcorn ready x
(14/07/2013 10:23) Will do you, lucky bitch! CAN'T WAIT!!!! xxxx
Ella took the quickest shower she could, just because she was actually dying to talk about it all with someone and who better than Flo.
So the second her hair had gone from wet to just damp under the hot blow of air of the hair dryer, she ran back to the room and ringed her up.
The call had been hilarious and had elongated to almost an hour because Flo asked for every little dirty detail and Ella had used the call as an opportunity to process what had happened so the artist had gotten things Ella wouldn't normally tell anyone.
But the end of it had been entirely mortifying because Ella had found out that Matty had been listening too when she was talking about what had taken place that morning. And just when Flo had been trying to tell her it was fine because Matty was George's best mate and he was her friend now too, Ella's phone started ringing with another incoming call from someone she'd tried not to think about yet.
"Erm, sorry Flo, Alex is ringing me." She apologized like she had too, her insides being coated by nervousness.
"Oh it's alright hun," Flo waved her off, and with a mischievous tone assured her, "We'll continue this later."
Ella's hands had started to sweat and she let a little nervous giggle before reminding Florence, "Next time warn me when your husband is there so I can keep a bit of dignity to myself."
Flo cackled at that but Matty was the one to reply with confidence, "No dignity lost here Ella, you're a fucking legend."
That answer made Ella snort in short laughter, "Thanks Matty, I doubt it." As soon as she let those words out, she felt Alex's call go to voicemail and here phone stopped vibrating in her hand, so she cursed, "Fuck, call went through. I'll go now." She sourly let them know, and Ella smiled softly when they assured her it was alright so with a sigh, she added, "Love you guys, bye!"
"Bye Ella!" She heard coming from the other side of the line and with that, she ended the call.
Her fingers hovered over her screen with doubt, debating whether or not to make the call back but Alex rang her up again, answering that for her.
"Hi Al, sorry, I was on the phone." She apologized first and foremost as soon as she picked up.
"S'alright." Alex reassured her, and he was about to ask how the previous day had gone because he had texted her a few times and he still hadn't gotten a response, when Ella interrupted him.
Her nerves made her sound breathless when the words came pouring out of her lips, "How are you? Did something happen?"
"No, I, erm..." He frowned a bit at her behavior but didn't really know if he should pry on anything yet, so he stuck to bringing up the topic of one of his texts, "Doesn't Ben and the crew arrive later today?"
"Oh, yes." One of her clammy hands came up to her forehead and she closed her eyes just to think of when that would be but her mind was a knot of thoughts. "I think I have Ben's itinerary here." She remembered in a lucky spark of logic so she took her laptop out of her suitcase and opened it quickly to find the ticket reservations somewhere on her desktop.
She hummed to herself as she looked for it and snapped her fingers when she found it, "Yes, they're landing around three."
"Are you going to get them?" Alex asked shyly, not really knowing what was the plan for the Focus Creeps crew when they got to London.
"No, they're actually staying here too so I'll meet them downstairs when they arrive."
Ella noticed how recoiled he was being when he softly inquired, "Do you think Ben would mind me intruding?"
"Absolutely not." She reassured him, though she had no idea why he'd want to come over to meet Ben when they had the shoot planned for the following day. But she got an idea as to how to make the day productive if he was to come over, "We could have a little meeting considering we're shooting two days in a row starting tomorrow. You know, run over the last few things and make sure everything's alright and meets your expectations."
The clicking of his tongue and his little scoff made her giggle, "Darling, it's you and Ben directing, I will definitely love it."
"You better boss." She said as she closed her laptop, putting it back in her suitcase.
"Shush." He said with a giggle managing its way out through his words. That wasn't why he had called her though, so he pushed with what he actually had been meaning to ask, "Have you got any plans for earlier today?"
In all honesty, Alex had spent the previous day wondering and wondering if everything was okay then. He hoped it was, and thinking back to the previous two days when they'd been in Sheffield and Manchester, it seemed like it. But he couldn't help but wonder, what if it isn't? So he had anxiously waited for the day to pass until it was late for him to text her and not interrupt her plans—eight in the evening had been decent enough for him—but he'd gotten no response and he'd tossed and turned all night overthinking.
He'd only managed to get some sleep around three in the morning and that was why he had woken up rather late and only been able to wait just another half hour after his eyes peeled open and he saw there was still no response, before calling her up.
His heart had sank with the worst feeling, his brain just telling him she was completely ignoring him but he was stubborn, so he decided to call again and thankfully she had picked up. He hadn't been more relieved to hear her voice before.
"Right now?" She asked, biting on her thumb and blushing when she looked up and was met with the mess her bed had been left as after George went away.
"Yeah."
She hesitated, not really remembering what it was that she was doing, a long "Ermmmmm," coming from her until her eyes fell on her camera which was propped up on her bedside table and it clicked, "Oh, just going to pick up my pictures I sent to develop. Might take the ones I took in Manchester and Sheffield to develop as well before I leave."
Alex tried his luck, carefully asking, "Mind if I intrude in those plans too?"
To his relief, she chuckled and replied with a relaxed, "'Course I don't." One that really contrasted the way her insides were churning at the fact of having to face him after what had happened merely an hour before. She turned her back to the bed, trying to will her memories of the day before and the morning out of the forefront of her mind.
Clearing her throat, she suggested, "Wanna get some breakfast first? Haven't eaten anything yet and I might faint if I go walking around London on an empty stomach."
"Absolutely." He smiled at the thought of going out for breakfast with her but in the back of his mind he wondered why she had yet to eat. Shrugging it off, he turned back to his room to get his sunglasses and a jacket so he could leave, "I'll be there in fifteen."
She hummed, slightly panicking about getting ready that quickly but not sounding it at all as she forced a smile that she knew he couldn't see, "Amazing. See you soon then, sweets."
"See ya' darling."
When Ella shed herself of the towel and saw her reflection in the mirror, she blushed instantly at the trace George had left on her. Love bites everywhere on her chest, neck, inner thighs and when she turned around she caught a few lingering around her back, along with the faint print of his hands on her ass. She started getting hot at the memory of it all, and she had to force herself to focus on the task of getting ready before Alex could arrive.
She'd ended up choosing a black turtleneck with long sleeves and some black jeans just to make sure nothing would peek through and cause any type of conversation that would end wrongly.
Not that she owed Alex anything, but she would rather avoid any arguments like the one at the pub if it had been sparked by him finding out she was messing about instead of spending time with them.
When Alex had arrived and knocked on the door of her hotel room, she'd been making sure if she'd gotten all the rolls she'd used with her. She was debating whether or not to take the roll she had in her camera as well as she tucked it back inside its case and placed a new roll inside her Minolta, when Alex knocked again and she just panicked, shoving her latest used roll inside her bag along with the rest.
"Coming!" She yelled as she grabbed her phone, wallet, cigarettes and lighter, the room keys and her leather jacket.
He had barely heard her but before he could knock again, the same housekeeping lady who had knocked the door earlier walked right by him and warned him, "She was busy."
Alex frowned quite confused, she had a brow raised at him and almost like a smirk on her face, but he didn't have much time to ask what the lady meant when Ella came out of her room, opening the door just enough for her to walk out and she froze when she saw the housekeeping lady right behind him.
"Hi sweets." Ella greeted him tensely, her eyes going warily from the lady to Alex as if she was a prey about to be pounced on.
Alex was still confused, his smile crooked as he greeted her back with a soft, "Hi darling." and not even sure if he should hug her when they had prying eyes over them.
But before they even tried to, the lady cleared her throat and asked, "May I come in now?"
"Oh yes, I– erm," Ella stuttered under Alex's intent gaze. He noticed the way her cheeks warmed and turned pink as she lowered her voice to apologize, "Sorry about the duvet, it's on the floor."
Ella didn't miss the way the lady looked from her to Alex and chuckled like she knew a secret, and nodded, "That's alright."
"Thanks!" Ella let out breathlessly, before grabbing Alex by the hand and pulled him to where the lifts were.
Before she went into Ella's hotel room though, the lady turned to look at the hold Ella had on Alex and shook her head. She'd seen George walking out of Ella's room earlier, and if the duvet was on the floor then she could imagine what had went on, but hearing Alex call her darling made the lady start making assumptions that made Ella look bad. She just laughed about it, turning the key in the lock so she could walk into the room and do her job.
Ella couldn't stay still while waiting for the lift and Alex was just dead silent, entirely confused about what had just happened. In his head, he was just hoping he was being too creative and driven entirely by jealousy when going on about his theories, silently praying it was anything but what he was thinking.
Entirely distracted by her own nerves and the lift doors opening in front of them, Ella didn't see the way Alex eyes her up and down for signs of anything that could prove what he was thinking of but he found nothing that could confirm his suspicions.
It wasn't like it was much he could see anyway, he frowned at how her clothes covered her almost entirely. Not even her neck on show with the turtleneck she had on.
He sighed when the doors opened again when they got down at the lobby and decided to just ignore it all so he could enjoy being in her presence like he had wished for all day yesterday. So he just intertwined their fingers as they walked through the lobby, giving the receptionist a quick smile and wave goodbye before leaving the hotel.
They missed the way the receptionist frowned, having seen that the guy Ella had brought in the day before had just walked out an hour before in the same clothes. The receptionist had laughed to herself and shook her head at what she imagined Ella had done, "Americans."
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Barely a few minutes had passed as they walked the busy London streets when Alex just couldn't bite his tongue any longer. The complete silence from her part the day before, her hesitation to answer when he asked about it, and what she'd said to the housekeeper. All of it was making his curiosity grow inside him until it became uncomfortable to keep it in any longer.
"How was yesterday? You had fun?" He started off easy, thinking that would be the best way to get anything out of her.
But all Alex got was a hurried and stuttery, "Oh, I'm– Yes, I did."
"What did you do?" The singer tried again, looking at her to try and see if she gave anything away with the look on her face.
But all he saw was her avoidant stare and her blushing cheeks, "Just, you know– Had lunch." She paused for a little bit until she eventually added the rest, "With a friend." almost with regret to have said it after a second of it slipping past her lips.
"Oh right." He nodded with a soft smile, confused as to why it was being so hard for her to say that. In another attempt to understand, or scratch that itch in his brain more like, he asked, "Where'd you go?"
She hummed as she thought about it, giving herself a bit more time to act put together, "This restaurant in Covent Garden. Think it was called Cora Pearl."
A surprised "Oh." came from him in response and just to give a chance to prove his theories wrong, he suggested, "Romantic, wasn't it?"
Ella stiffened and Alex noticed because he was still holding her hand. He frowned at her reaction and she giggled nervously, "What?"
"That place. It's a bit romantic innit?" From what he remembered, the last time he went to that restaurant, it had been a very cozy and romantic setting so it made him suspicious.
"No, not really. It was alright," She toned it down with a click of her tongue, only to shrug lazily as she added, "Food was good."
"Right, right." Alex let her have it that time, and switched topics to tell her, "I texted you yesterday."
Her hands had started getting sweaty and she hoped he wasn't noticing—he had—but she played it cool. "Did you?" She asked back, she'd barely glanced at her notifications that morning, the first one being from Flo and therefore the only one to grasp her eye so she'd fully put off checking the rest as she catched the artist up on what had happened.
"Yeah, but s'alright. Just wanted to know when Ben was coming." His fingers squeezed her hand softly as if to calm her clear nerves out and she sighed slightly before dropping his hand and reaching for her cigarettes and her lighter because she needed a smoke desperately.
"We have a bit of time until then, don't we?" Ella mumbled as she placed the cigarette between her lips and lit it up, taking a long drag and offering it to him. Alex took it from her and nodded, she watched as he took a drag and said, "Let's just go somewhere to eat, I'm starving."
Their shared cigarette had been stomped over on the asphalt when they stumbled into a cute little cafe five minutes later. It was small and cozy, the smell of coffee inviting and the look of the different flavored croissants and pastries made their mouths water.
Before Alex could continue asking about the previous day, like she knew he was dying to, Ella started asking him about the album release and tour. She'd kept him distracted by asking about the album rollout and which songs they had decided as singles along with 'R U Mine?', 'Do I Wanna Know?' and 'Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High?'.
When he'd shown her the schedule they had so far for the tour, up until the end of the year, her heart sank at the sight of how after she left, she'd only have a couple chances to see him and it'd only be because they'd be having a gig in LA.
They'd left the cafe almost an hour later and made their way to the photolab. It was almost a half an hour walk but it had been spent smoking, talking and taking pictures.
Once they got to the photolab, Ella was greeted with two envelopes thick with pictures she'd printed out, a USB with all of her scans and the sleeves with her negatives inside.
"Oh thank you so much!" Ella said with a big grin on her face, she couldn't wait to see them all. "I have a few more I want to develop, if that's alright."
"Of course." The man behind the counter said, "Do you want them scanned as well? So I can keep the USB and put the new ones in there."
Ella nodded, "That'd be perfect, yeah." She let her bag slide down her shoulder to hang on the crook of her elbow and rummaged around to see the used rolls she'd brought. "Erm..." She let out as she tried remembering which one was the George one, not knowing if she really wanted to leave it or just develop it when they got back home.
"How many are there?" The man asked intrigued by the way she was frowning.
"Only four I think." She really was trying to remember which one was from the day before but she couldn't for the life of her remember, so she just sighed and took them out of her bag and left it on the counter, "Just these."
"We could have these ready for you Wednesday afternoon, maybe?"
Ella waved him off as if not to worry him about rushing, "I'll be here Thursday morning, no need to rush."
The man flashed her a smile, "Thanks doll." He went on to click a few things on his computer to get her order ready, printing a spreadsheet with what she wanted for her order and turned back to her, "Are you paying in advance again?"
"Yeah, much easier that way." She instinctively dove into her jacket pockets for her small card holder but she only fished out the note Flo had sent her with George the day before. Ella blushed, leaving it on the counter mindlessly under the gaze of the man in charge of the photolab, and went to look through her bag again.
Whilst she went around looking for her credit card, Alex's attention was completely caught by the folded piece of paper. His eyes magnetized to the Ellie x written on top of it, he had to fight the urge to grab it and read it.
Alex's trance was broken when she snatched the note off the counter, shoving it inside her bag quickly and then turning to the man to offer her credit card up to him.
The transaction was fast, and with a promise to send her an email once they had her pictures ready, Alex and Ella left the place. Her bag was heavy with the weight of the photos she'd printed but it lit up this feeling inside her that she loved. There was nothing like picking up your prints and scans and just admiring every frame up close.
Ella knew what she had in there though, Alice's pictures were definitely in there somewhere and she wouldn't take her chances pulling the pictures out in front of Alex. But the singer wanted to see the pictures, taking her to a park that was a bit over five minutes away from the photolab and sitting down with her to encourage her to show the prints.
She took one of the envelopes out, opening it slowly and peeking through to see if anything she didn't want Alex seeing was there but she was thankfully greeted with the first batch of film she'd take when she'd arrived.
"Awh, these are from Glastonbury!" She exclaimed and pouted, taking a handful out of the envelope for them to see.
The first one was of Bre and Matt dancing around in the backstage area, right next to the drinks tent that was up for the artists to grab. There was one of Flo and Matty with Adam, George and Ross around them, all of them cheering after the 1975's set had finished. One of all the girls together, drinks in hand and big smiles on their faces during the Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds set. A few of everyone lounging around the tour bus, sunglasses on to not show their tired hungover eyes.
"Look at Jamie's face." Ella pointed out before a loud cackle managed its way out of her lips. It was a picture of Miles in his Union Jack tracksuit, jumping in the air and Jamie just so happened to be behind him with a terrified look on his face.
Alex's giggles joined hers when he caught a glimpse of the picture, "What was Miles doing?"
She barely managed through a new wave of giggles, "Dunno but this one's hilarious."
They continued flipping through the handful of pictures, tucking them back inside the envelope once they had seen them all and taking another handful out to see.
It was when they were flipping through the pictures Ella had gotten at the London Eye that her phone pinged with a new message and had interrupted their appreciation for Ella's photography.
With quick fingers, she unlocked her phone and read what Ben had just sent her, telling Alex what it was with a simple, "They've landed."
"Ben?" Alex asked pointlessly, there was no one else coming other than the Focus Creeps crew.
She nodded, putting her phone back inside the pocket of her jacket and then placing the pictures they had been looking at back in the envelope, "He just texted me that they're at baggage claim. They're probably getting to the hotel in an hour, shall we head back?"
"Sure." Alex nodded, watching as she placed the envelope inside her bag.
He stood up from the bench and offered her a hand. She took it with a smile and, hand in hand, they walked back to the hotel.
It probably took them around thirty minutes to get back and since they calculated they still had enough time until the crew arrived, Ella thought it would be good to book a conference room for a small meeting.
She walked up to the reception desk and sweetly asked, "Hi, sorry could I get a conference room?" She'd seen they had them back when she had booked her room but, if she wasn't mistaken, there were only three in total.
The girl behind the desk smiled back, "Of course, can I have your name please?"
"Eleanor Hayes."
"For when would you like to book it?"
She fiddled with her fingers, looking up at the big clock perched in the lobby's wall. It was almost half past three and she reckoned her co-workers wouldn't arrive until four so she ended up settling for five. "Is there any available around five?"
"Yes, I have one available then." The girl clicked away on the desktop and wrote something down in a spreadsheet to her left.
Ella gave her a grateful grin, "Oh amazing."
The typing away filled in the few seconds of silence and then the receptionist looked back up at her to say, "Alright Miss Hayes, you can just come around by then and I'll walk you over to the room."
"Thank you so much, see you then." Ella left her with a double tap of the desk.
She heard a faint "You're welcome." behind her as she turned back to the lobby's lounge area, where Alex was occupying half of a two seater settee.
Once she settled beside him, Ella let her bag fall in between the both of them and looking down at the envelopes peeking through the top of it, she asked him, "D'you wanna keep looking at the pictures?"
Alex nodded, wanting to see how the pictures he had taken of Ella had turned out, so she pulled out the envelopes and was about to open one of them to inspect it when ruckus coming from the hotel doors made them look up and they were surprised by the crew carrying multiple suitcases into the place.
"Oh my god! Hi!" Ella sprung up from her seat, shoving the envelopes quickly inside the bag and leaving it forgotten there as she walked over to help the crew.
She'd gotten two of the cases that looked to be carrying their filming gear whilst Alex came around to help Tyler, their camera man, with a bag he was struggling with along with a suitcase he clumsily was managing to roll around.
When they properly came inside the hotel and into the lobby, the crew left the cases alone to greet their missing co-worker. "Ella! We missed you!" Ben said before hugging her tightly and swaying her side to side.
Ella cooed and chuckled, because she felt the same. Ben had gone from being her boss to her mentor and he had been so incredibly supportive when she had gotten promoted to a director, their relationship had turned into one that felt like they were siblings.
They had started working as a duo since Ella had officially been promoted and that was why they shared a PA now, but that meant their creative brains were in sync and they spent more time together, therefore their trust in each other grew so much they had become almost inseparable and it hit Ella how much she missed having him around when he walked through the door. "Awh missed you too Ben! How was the flight?"
Ben let go and huffed in exhaustion, "Too long."
"I know." She said sympathetically, looking around the rest of the crew with a pout before going over to each one of them to greet them.
"Alex, hi man!" Ben said to the singer enthusiastically.
"Ben, nice seeing you again." Alex said with a genuine smile and pulled him in for a brief strong embrace, waving at everyone behind him briefly.
"How are you? Glastonbury was brilliant!" The director hadn't missed the chance to compliment him because he had thoroughly enjoyed their set a lot, it had been stunning.
Alex waved him off like it wasn't needed but he still appreciated the comment, "Thanks mate. I'm alright, how are you?"
"Tired but we're here." Ben sighed, the heaviness of the long flight now weighing down on him. But when Ben looked up at Alex, he found the singer to have his eyes stuck on Ella who was hugging her PA last with a soft smile. Just to tease, Ben cleared his throat and said, "Hope Ella's been behaving."
Ella had heard that as she turned back to him and Alex, rolling her eyes to call him out, "Oh shut up Benjamin."
But Alex didn't find it hard to admit, "She has been, she's a gooden."
"She is." Ben agreed, a slight smirk on his face which earned him another roll of Ella's eyes. He chuckled before turning his attention back on his crew and suggested, "Right, let's check in everyone, yeah?"
"You sound like a teacher on a school trip Ben." Ella pointed out with a raised eyebrow, almost like she was scolding him for it.
Tyler made it worse for the director when he added fuel to the fire by pointing out, "He was worse at the airport."
To which Ella winced and shook her head, "Oh god." She sighed as if the information pained her but let them move onto the reception desk and check into their rooms. They all got their respective room keys and once everyone had them in hand, Ella stood in front of them all and informed them, "I got us a conference room at five so we can go over everything and have it all ready for tomorrow, just so we don't have to cut your well needed rest short and run around in case something goes wrong."
Ben smiled at her with narrowed eyes, "Always thinking ahead. That sounds great."
Ella looked smug at Ben's reaction, flipping her hair exaggeratedly to make a point of how she always was right. Ben shoved her playfully out of her smugness and it made her giggle. But she turned serious again when Lydia yawned loudly behind her hand, "I'll let y'all settle then? I'll text the chat when I'm back down here so we can go."
The crew nodded, completely satisfied with the idea of at least a short rest before the meeting took place and Ben was the one to eventually accept, "Sure, yeah." His gaze fell on Alex though, and he asked, "You leaving Alex?" just to know if he had to say bye before going up to their rooms.
But Alex shook his head no, brows slightly furrowed, "No, no. I'm gonna intrude on your meeting. Ella said it was alright."
The choice of words made Ben chuckle but he nodded in agreement, "More than alright, that way we can double check everything."
"Brilliant." Alex said, slightly relieved at yet another confirmation that it was alright that he stayed for the meeting.
Ben was a bit nosy, and eventually let his curiosity win when after a few beats of silence, he inquired, "Are you leaving and then coming back?"
Before the singer could answer, Ella let out that, "No, he's coming upstairs with me." and that answer was enough for her co-workers to grow curious.
"Right." Ben replied with a smirk growing on his face, and he repeated another "Right." as if the first one hadn't been given in the best tone. It wasn't needed, because it was written on his face how he was enjoying hearing that for it gave him something to taunt Ella about.
So the director nodded slowly and offered them a gallic shrug, "See you at five then." to then grab their stuff and start to walk up to the elevators.
"See ya'!" Alex said a bit loudly as they walked away, a giddiness bubbling up inside him when knowing this meant he could go upstairs with Ella sooner then.
Ella added to the short farewell with an enthusiastic, "Bye guys!"
Alex watched as the crew disappeared into the lifts and Ella went back to the lounge area. He turned to see her grabbing her bag and once she had it perched on her shoulder, she walked back to him.
With a "Let's go." and a pat on his back, she encouraged him to follow her upstairs. She'd slowly opened her door, peeking through the barely cracked open door to see if the room was no longer a mess of tangled sheets and thrown duvets and she was glad to see it all in place like that morning hadn't happened. Seeing the bed, even if it was tidy, made her cheeks heat up though.
She pursed her lips watching as Alex toed off his shoes by the door and went straight to lay down on the bed. Her mind played tricks on her that weren't doing more than quicken her heart beats and tinting the tips of her ears as red as her cheeks.
"You can turn on the TV if you want." She invited, giving him the remote after she'd gotten a cigarette out of the pocket of her now forgotten jacket she'd perched on the back of the settee in her room.
Opening the door to the balcony, she pointed out, "M'gonna go for a smoke." and once he nodded with a smile, she escaped to the small area.
Five minutes of mindlessly going through channels with shit programmes on was enough for Alex to get up from the bed and walk outside with her. He got a cigarette out from his pocket and lit it up, silently smoking beside her.
The newfound silence between them was giving them time to think. They'd had silence before, comfortable ones where they settled and somehow it felt like they could silently communicate through looks and lingering touches. But this one was strange, it was a silence that just emphasized the distance between them and how their eyes didn't meet to talk wordlessly anymore.
Alex looked at her as he took his first drag and she turned to him to give him a fleeting smile, turning back to watch the people walking the English streets and the cars driving past. Ella felt his gaze burning on the side of her head but she forced herself to pay it no mind, what could she do? She hated having to walk on eggshells around him but after realizing they had never been acting properly like just friends, she was trying to navigate what that meant for them from then on.
It was weird feeling how she just couldn't talk and talk to him like she usually did, scared she could say something that could give him the wrong impression or that could set him off like before. Yes, he had apologized and promised it wouldn't happen again but she didn't want something going wrong because of something she could've prevented.
"Are you alright?" Alex ended up asking her, noticing just how tense she was.
Ella was taken aback by the question, "Yeah, why?"
Alex shrugged, the corners of his lips tugged down in a soft pout that he ended up switching for pressed lips as he mustered the courage to say, "You're quiet."
"Oh, sorry." The smoke left her lips as she spoke, turning to look at him while leaning into the wall on her back, "Just thinking about the video and how I'm leaving on Friday."
"Don't remind me." He pouted before taking another drag of his cigarette. Having merely five days left with her was an actual cruel joke. "Is Breana leaving on the same flight?"
Ella nodded, "Yeah, eleven in the morning so we're gonna have to be early at Heathrow." At least she would have Bre with her on the way back to assure her of not going crazy on such a long flight. "Matt's taking us, by the way, so you don't have to drive us."
"But I'm coming with." Alex chatted back, eyebrows raised at her and offended at the fact she was even giving him an out.
"It's gonna be really early." She warned, not really wanting to bother him about waking up so early just to go to the airport.
But Alex would never not go, "Don't care." He stubbed out the remaining of his cigarette out on the ashtray that was placed over the coffee table and walked over to her.
Wrapping his fingers around her wrist, he pulled her off the wall for her to walk into his arms, which she did without a peep of complaint, melting in his hold like she was used to.
Alex's fingers clutched her tightly, keeping her close to his chest and Ella let her head rest in the crook of his neck, drowning in his scent and closing her eyes to relish in the feeling.
"Don't want you to leave." He admitted with nerves bubbling up inside of him. He just wanted to let his words run loose and slip past his lips easily but god was he scared of her not reciprocating.
Ella hummed, the noise making her chest vibrate against his, "Don't want to either." She admitted right back and those words were enough to spark something inside him.
Would it be selfish of him to just ask her to leave it all behind for him? Would that be what his confession end up meaning to her?
The fear of rejection turned into a fear of asking too much from her, enough to drive her away, and just because of how much he was overthinking that sudden train of thought, he bit his tongue and stayed silent.
Silence which ended up in Ella sighing at the lack of response and choosing to add, "But I have to." in the end.
Those words came like heavy bricks over his heart, a confirmation of his worries being valid and right. He couldn't do that to her. He couldn't just ask her to go with him because of his feelings, not when she had so much waiting back home for her.
How badly he wanted to be selfish, to have this go his way, but it would be cruel to even lay that down in front of her and put her in the difficult position of having to even make that decision—if it even was a possibility for that to be a debate within her because he was still struggling to wrap his head around the chances of her feeling the same way about him.
Why is everything so complicated? He hated how he just couldn't let the words slip without thinking of the consequences, but there was just too much to lose and he had to weigh down if it was even worth it to risk it.
Flo's words came back to him. The moment he had finally let out how he felt for Ella for the first time came back to him and how good it had felt to get that off his chest. He clutched her a bit tighter when that flashed in the forefront of his mind and he smiled to himself when he felt Ella wrap her arms around his waist.
He thought then, it wasn't that he felt like it was a weakness to let it out, no, it was just how who he was wouldn't allow him to give Ella what she deserved. Because in the best of outcomes, she reciprocated, but what could he give her if she was in California and he was traveling all over the globe with no rest until the end of the year. And he was sure the next year would be the same, a plane from one country to another, day in a tour bus touring all across continents and no stability to give her the time she deserved.
Alex wanted to pull his hair out. He had done distance before and it had only been so long until he moved all the way to New York for his then girlfriend. Would Ella drop everything to join him? Would Ella let go of her dream job to follow him around the world? Would Alex be able to ask that from her?
Ella felt him drop a kiss on top of her head and his lips stayed there for a minute, his breathing slowed and got heavy and eventually she had to look up at him because it felt like something in the air had shifted.
"Are you okay?" She was the one to ask this time, and he saw the soft furrow of her brows and her lips slightly pursed when she pulled back to see his face.
He nodded, but he looked full of sorrow so Ella had to make sure, "Are you sure?"
"Yeah, why?"
She took a step back, going to stub out the burnt out cigarette she had been holding and when that was done she stood back in front of him. "You're quiet." She repeated his words to him with a hint of a smile, like she was trying to cheer him up.
He caught onto it, offering a tight lip smile as he shook his head. The knot in his throat started tightening and it was like she had noticed without him even giving a sign of getting upset, so she wrapped her arms around his shoulders and hugged him tightly.
"I'm gonna miss you so much, sweets." She promised him with a whisper in his ear, goosebumps breaking on his skin as his arms wrapped around her waist. "But we have this week left so let's not get ahead of ourselves okay?"
"You're right." Alex nodded again, Ella squeezed him a bit tighter and after a few seconds she broke the embrace, pulling back and smirking at him.
"I told you I always am."
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It had been almost five when Alex woke her up. She had fallen asleep with her head resting on his shoulder as they watched some British show on BBC, not long after they'd come back inside from the balcony. Ella apologized profusely when she'd gotten back into her senses, apologies which he didn't accept.
They had made their way down to the lobby after Ella got her laptop and a little journal, texting the crew's group chat with one hand to let them know she'd be waiting for them there.
Fortunately, the small group had made an appearance at the lobby not long after she'd sent the text and they had gone into the conference room they'd been assigned at merely a quarter past five.
Ella settled with Alex to her right and Ben to her left, across the table sat Lydia, the new PA, Tyler, the cameraman, Margaret, the sound recorder, and Cameron, the lighting specialist. It was a small crew but it would do, plus they were the ones to come all the way to London because they were the best they had, the heads of each of their departments back home.
Whilst she opened her laptop to pull up the list of things she needed done for this shoot, Ella felt a gaze burning on her and when she let her eyes up to see who it was, she found Lydia staring at her and then at Alex.
She didn't give it attention until she looked up again and she found Lydia still gawking at Alex shamelessly. Ella thought it might've been because she hadn't been properly introduced to the singer so she took the matter in her own hands.
Interrupting her clicking and typing on her laptop to do so, Ella startled Lydia out of her trance when she turned to Alex and said, "Alex, this is Lydia, our new PA."
Alex looked up at the new face and smiled softly, "Nice to meet you."
Lydia's face seemed to light up at the attention and Ella had to hold herself back from scowling. The new PA waved shyly at him and said, "Such a pleasure to meet you Alex. Big fan."
"Thank you." Alex said kindly, before dropping his gaze back to Ella's laptop screen.
"I'm sure you remember everyone else." Ella said before continuing, knowing everyone had met Alex already at the same time as Ella had so there was no need for new introductions.
And Alex confirmed that when he nodded, "I do. Great seeing you again."
Everyone reciprocated the kindness and once that was over, Ella smiled at everyone and asked, "Right, so let's dive right in then?" to which she got nods that gave her the green light to start going over every bullet point.
Firstly, she had noticed the gap in her checklist where it said Stylist/Hair and makeup and just to make sure that was covered before moving onto what was confirmed already, she turned to Alex to ask, "Is your stylist coming tomorrow?"
Alex hummed, "Yeah she is." They had let her know she was needed for the shoot since it had been arranged, but it probably slipped past someone's mind to confirm that.
"Is she also taking care of hair and makeup?" Ella asked for the full confirmation.
And to her relief, Alex replied positively, "She is."
"Oh perfect." It was relieving checking that off and having the list look complete, "Okay so we have Lamie Stewart, she did the casting with an agency here and we had the video sent over, she's brilliant you'll love her." The model had been so brilliant and professional, an absolute laugh when she'd gotten to do the video call with Ella and Ben and it had been very refreshing to have such an easy going person as their main talent.
Alex smiled and nodded softly, completely trusting Ella's judgment about the main girl for the video. And with that approval, Ella moved onto the main point, "Let's go over the video concept again." She drummed her fingers on the table before they opened up the journal she'd brought with her and flipped through the pages until it was opened on the video.
Her eyes went over the words written in the preface for the project swiftly and she cleared her throat to start reciting it back, "We're gonna have you drunk out of your mind walking out of the pub, texting 'Stephanie' for a booty call. And you're gonna be hallucinating she's getting, erm, fucked as you walk up to her house. But you end up in the wrong house just across her street."
Alex chuckled when she'd weirdly said the word fucked, amused by her shyness coming back in front of her co-workers. With a smirk, he nodded, "Yep. Just like we talked about back in May."
"Nothing you wanna add or take out of it?" She layed out the chance for him to do anything to it, just in case it would be needed to arrange something else before it was too late.
But he shook his head, nothing really coming to mind, "No, I trust your vision on it."
"Good." Ella smirked at him, entirely satisfied with his words, "Lydia could you please phone the pub for me to make sure they know we have the place booked out for tomorrow to shoot?"
"Yeah, sure." Lydia nodded gracefully as she pulled out her phone and looked through her own journal for the number of the place. But before she could actually dial the number, Ella asked for another task to be done, "And please give the agency a call as well so they can notify Lamie and the extras when and where the shoot will take place."
A nod of Lydia's head was enough for Ella to deem that done, so she turned to Alex, "The lads know when I want them there tomorrow right?"
Alex's honest, "I wouldn't trust them." made Ella sigh and nod in defeat.
"You're right." She replied, thinking maybe Jamie would be the only one to remember that, "I'll send them a text right now, then."
But Alex let his hand come over hers to ease her worry about it and took the task off her by offering, "I'll do it for you, don't worry."
A tight lip smile was what he got in exchange and a soft, "Thank you." since Lydia's phone had started ringing as she called the pub. "Tell them to be there at 5pm sharp." Ella whispered to Alex while she watched him start to type away on his phone.
"Ben, anything you wanna add?" She turned to the director, a bit shy after realizing she hadn't let him do a thing.
It wasn't like it bothered him though, because he smiled big at her and shook his head briefly, "No, you covered it all Ella. Good work."
She gave him a toothy smile and a quick "Thanks." before she fell silent when Lydia had started speaking on the phone, everyone looked at the new PA expectantly as they heard only one side of the call.
They watched as the call lasted a few minutes and she thanked them before ending the call, but before Lydia could debrief anything, she got a call from the agency.
About five minutes later, when the agency had let her go, she finally let them all know that, "Pub says we can head there around five and we have four hours to shoot and the agency is sending emails out and contacting everyone to confirm they're coming tomorrow and Tuesday if needed."
Ella frowned and hummed, thinking about how much four hours would give them, "Four hours, alright. We need to wrap everything at the pub first thing, the rest of the band will only be needed tomorrow then."
Whilst Ella continued thinking about which scenes to record first, Ben pointed out another checked item off the list that most definitely needed a double or triple check before the recording, "Make sure to double check the bikes, please."
"We're having bikes in there?" Alex's curiosity sparked, knowing Ella had come up with it back when they recorded the Suck It And See videos and having loved those clips.
"A little scene, yeah." Ella nodded, biting her bottom lip to hide the excited smile at the thought of her vision for it, so she timidly asked, "Is that alright?"
Any worry about it not being what Alex wanted was out the window when he gave her a big grin and a wink as he decided it was "Perfect."
A wink that only made her chuckle and quickly turn to look at Ben to inquire, "Okay so do we have all the gear we need?"
Ben's slow nods were accompanied by, "All we need and a bit more just in case." which completely settled her, knowing that the director had all that covered before they'd gotten there was another big breath of relief.
"Amazing." Ella muttered, glancing over the checklist again and finding it all talked about, "Well, perfect then, team. We shall have a good shoot tomorrow and the day after will be even better."
"Damn right." Ben agreed proudly, eliciting smiles from the rest of the crew. Ella let her laptop close and closed her journal, putting it over her closed electronic device and then looked at everyone else's tired expressions and pouted.
"Are y'all having lunch anytime soon?" She asked them, it was getting quite late and she was hungry so she could imagine the just arrived would be too.
"Yeah, definitely." Cameron answered, he was starving and tired after the flight but he would rather use the last of his energy to eat. "Any recommendations?"
Ella tilted her head to the side slightly as she tried to think but eventually settled for an easy and good answer for them, "The hotel restaurant is quite good actually."
Ben nodded, too exhausted to even think of making a decision of where to go to have a bite of food. "Think it'll be that today, we're too tired to go somewhere else." The last statement was one that everyone agreed on, Alex and Ella smiled sympathetically when they hummed and mumbled in agreement.
"Bless you, I'll come with you." Ella settled, having missed her familiar crew after a while away from home. But she didn't want Alex to feel left out so she offered, "Alex, wanna join?"
He hesitantly looked around the group as if to silently ask for permission to intrude but they were all neutral as they looked back at him so he used his words to ask, "If that's alright?"
Tyler clicked his tongue and smiled at him, "'Course man, the more the merrier." which got the same enthusiastic response from the rest of them so he gave in.
"Cheers mate." He thanked, and followed as they all rose from their seats.
Quickly going upstairs to leave her stuff in her room, Ella came back downstairs and walked into the restaurant to find them all sitting down at a big table. It didn't take them long to make a decision on what to eat, entirely driven by hunger and the need to just get back to their rooms as soon as they could.
And just as quick as they ordered their food, they ate it. With conversation in between bites, but regardless of it, they had only taken forty minutes to ask for the bill and get out of there.
"That was lovely." Margaret said kindly, after Alex had offered to pay for their meal and they had reluctantly agreed he could.
Ben agreed with a soft groan, "It was, but I'm exhausted now."
"Did you manage to get any sleep on the way here?" Alex seriously asked, Ben's undereye bags looked heavy and dark.
Cameron beat the director to an answer when he snorted in laughter, "Only think Tyler did, we were all pretty restless."
Tyler chuckled, a smug look on his face since he was the one who looked least like a zombie, "Knocked out most of it."
"Lucky Tyler." Ella shook her head in an attempt to taunt him and it got her a middle finger which made her laugh.
Soon enough, the waitress came back with Alex's card and receipt and they were all good to go. They slowly walked out and into the lobby and just as they got to the lifts, Alex turned to Ella and then Ben and decided he would go.
"I'll leave you guys to rest." He said softly, watching as everyone but Ella and Tyler looked at him through half lidded eyes, "See you lot tomorrow." He took his time to briefly hug everyone goodbye.
"Goodnight Alex." Ben said as he patted his back, letting go of him a few seconds later.
Alex wrapped his arms tightly around Ella then, and she did the same, savoring the feeling by closing her eyes, "Bye Alex."
"Goodnight darling." He dropped a kiss on her cheek before wishing her "Sweet dreams."
His words had a toothy smile breaking on her face and she just couldn't not say it back, so she pulled back and wished him, "Sweet dreams, Al. See you tomorrow." with a soft nose scrunch and a little squeeze of his shoulders.
That was enough for him to melt inside so he left feeling all warm and fuzzy, a grin stayed on his face as he walked away and turned to wave at them one last time in the middle of the lobby before he disappeared from their view as he went.
But then Ella was met with a bunch of intent looks, a few smirks and raised eyebrows. It was like she'd been caught red handed and she didn't like it.
"What?" She asked, annoyed at the silence and the unwavering looks on their faces, pressing aggressively on the button to call down the elevator.
"Nothing." Ben replied innocently, but his smirk grew bigger in contrast so Ella sighed exasperatedly.
"You know what? I didn't miss you, I take it back."
Ben took that as an opportunity to taunt her further though, so he teased, "Yeah, bet you're having the best time here aren't you?"
The crew laughed at the words and Ella let her mouth open and close as her confusion grew, "What's that supposed to mean?"
"Nothing." Ben said again and it made her roll her eyes harder.
The elevator's door opened and she was the first to go in, calling them out and scolding them with a stern "Y'all should go to bed." that made Tyler and Margaret snort out in laughter. Ella paid them no mind and asked, "Which floor are you on?"
"Fourth."
She was selfishly glad their taunting would be cut short by the fact that they weren't floor neighbors and she faked a pout as she said, "Awh, okay. I'm on the third."
The lift didn't take long to take them up to the third floor and when the door opened, she walked out quickly and wished them, "Goodnight guys!" with a blown kiss to follow with "Love y'all!"
The crew said, "Goodnight Ella!" in unison right as the door started closing and with a sigh she made way back to her hotel room.
It had been a very long day but at least she was glad that the two following days would be filled by her doing what she loved and it would serve as a great distraction to the looming ache of her homecoming approaching faster than she wanted it to.
Five more days was all she had, and she wasn't sure if she was even prepared for what they would bring.
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A/N: Ella's UK trip is coming to an end :'( How are we feeling about it? What do you think is gonna happen? Some of you actually guessed who the date was with and I fucking love that! Hope you enjoyed that, it was really fun writing it to be honest and I'm really excited to see your reactions. Thanks so so much from the bottom of my heart for reading and commenting and voting/liking, sending asks and messages about this story, it makes me so happy beyond words to see y'all enjoying it *cries* Love you lot and see you soon with the next one! x
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bunnysnuff · 1 month ago
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Chapter 2.
Pairing: Charlie spring x F!twin!Reader (siblings), Charlie spring x nick Nelson, nick Nelson x F!reader.
Triggers warning: future love triangle, reader and Charlie are siblings. Feelings of loneliness and confusion. Wrote in the 3rd person Point of view. Reader is Female.
Masterlist.
Summary: Dear Charlie, we shared the same womb; I love you. I’m sorry.
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Chapter 2
The next few days passed in a blur of normalcy, yet everything felt different. As the sun began to set earlier and the air turned cooler, I found myself preoccupied with thoughts of Nick Nelson. I tried to shake the feeling, but he lingered in on mind like a song stuck on repeat. His laughter, the way his eyes sparkled when he spoke—everything about him seemed to ignite a fire you didn’t know was there.
On Friday afternoon, as you wrapped up in your homework in your room, you heard your brother’s footsteps thudding down the hall. The excitement in his voice was unmistakable as he called out, “Guess who’s coming over again today!”
Your heart raced. “Nick?” You tried to sound casual, but eagerness slipped through your fingers.
“Yep! He said he wanted to hang out with us this weekend!” Charlie replied, practically bouncing on the balls of his feet. “It’s going to be epic!”
You forced a smile, though the anticipation was laced with anxiety. “Sounds great. What are we doing?”
“Probably just some games again, maybe grab a pizza. You in?”
“Of course,” you replied, though your mind was already racing. You weren’t sure if you were ready to face the onslaught of feelings that Nick stirred within you. Yet, you couldn’t deny the thrill of having him around again.
As the sun dipped lower in the sky, casting warm golden hues throughout the house, the reader helped your brother prepare for Nick’s arrival. You tried to distract yourself by organizing snacks and drinks in the kitchen, but your thoughts kept drifting back to him. Would he look at you again with that playful glint? Would he make you laugh as he had before?
When the doorbell finally rang, your stomach fluttered with nerves. Charlie was at the door before you could even take a breath, swinging it open wide with a huge grin.
“Nick! Hey!” he exclaimed, pulling Nick in for a friendly hug.
“Hey! Hope I’m not too early,” Nick replied, stepping into the warmth of their home. He wore a casual t-shirt and jeans, his easy confidence making him seem even more attractive. You felt your cheeks warm as you stepped into the living room, determined to keep her composure.
“Not at all! We’re just about to order some pizza. What do you want?” Charlie asked, leading Nick into the living room.
“Pepperoni, always,” Nick said, flashing a smile at you. You felt your heart skip a beat as you met his gaze, and you couldn’t help but notice how he seemed to take a moment to really look at you before returning his attention to Charlie.
As they settled in, the familiar rhythm of playful banter resumed. They launched into a video game tournament, the air filled with laughter and friendly jabs. Yet, beneath the surface, the reader felt a strange tension. The way Nick and Charlie played off each other felt like a well-rehearsed act, one that you were desperately trying to join.
Halfway through a particularly intense match, Nick leaned closer to you, his eyes focused on the screen. “You’re pretty good at this,” he said, his voice low enough that only you could hear. “You should join the gaming club at school.”
You blinked, surprised by the compliment. “Thanks! I didn’t think it was your style, though.”
He chuckled, his shoulder brushing against yours, sending an unexpected thrill through you. “You’d be surprised. I like to try new things.”
Before you could respond, Charlie let out a whoop of victory, breaking the moment. “Yes! I’m on fire today!”
“Lucky shot!” Nick retorted, feigning annoyance. But his eyes were bright with amusement, and the moment between You and Nick faded into friendly competition once more.
As the evening wore on, You couldn’t shake the feeling that Nick was trying to include you, but every time he did, it felt like you were competing not just for his attention but also for her brother’s. Every shared joke and knowing glance between the two of them was a reminder of how easily you felt pushed aside.
Eventually, pizza arrived, and they gathered around the table, plates piled high with steaming slices. The chatter continued, laughter bubbling up like the fizz in their sodas. For a moment, everything felt perfect, like the three of them were the best of friends.
But then, while Charlie was busy cracking jokes, you caught Nick’s eye again. He smiled at you in a way that made your stomach flip, and you felt yourself leaning in, drawn by an inexplicable magnetism. Just as you opened your mouth to speak, Charlie interrupted.
“Hey, what about that time we—” he started, diving into another story from their childhood, leaving no room for you to voice whatever had been on your mind.
You felt a pang of frustration. Why was it so easy for Charlie to take over the conversation? It was like he didn’t even notice you struggle to keep up. It made you want to retreat, to hide your feelings deep down where they couldn’t reach you.
As the night wore on, the laughter and lightheartedness continued, but a subtle tension hung in the air. It was a truce, uneasy yet somehow comfortable, but it was clear that something was shifting beneath the surface. You could feel it, a tension that begged to be addressed but remained unspoken, lingering in the quiet moments when Nick’s gaze would drift back to you, filled with curiosity and warmth.
Later, when Nick finally left, you felt a strange mix of relief and disappointment. The door closed behind him, and you took a deep breath, glancing over at your twin brother, who looked ecstatic.
“Did you see that? Nick’s awesome!” Charlie exclaimed, his face lighting up with excitement. “I can’t believe how much fun we had!”
“Yeah, he seems cool,” you replied, trying to keep your tone neutral, though you could feel your heart racing.
“I think he really likes hanging out with us,” Charlie said, oblivious to the tension that had just flickered between you and Nick. “And I can tell he’s really into you too. You two were totally vibing!”
Your stomach dropped at his words. “What do you mean?”
Charlie shrugged, grinning. “Just the way he looks at you. It’s like he’s fascinated. Maybe it’s because we’re twins?”
You bit your lip, torn between the hope that maybe Nick felt something more and the reality that her brother seemed oblivious to the growing feelings between them. As you retreated to your room that night, the weight of the evening settled heavily on your chest.
Tossing and turning, sleep eluded you. The feelings swirling inside you were a confusing mix of admiration, envy, and excitement. Tomorrow would be another day, and you would have to figure out how to navigate this new dynamic that threatened to change everything you knew. With a heavy heart, you finally closed your eyes, hoping to find clarity in the morning light.
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Diary entry 2.
Dear Charlie,
I don’t even know where to begin. Nick came over again today, and honestly, I’m a tangled mess of emotions. It was fun hanging out with you both, but there’s something simmering beneath the surface that I can’t quite put my finger on.
I can tell how much you enjoy spending time with Nick, and it makes me happy to see you so excited. But I’m starting to feel like a shadow, watching you two connect while I’m just… here. It’s like you both have this amazing chemistry, and I’m trying to find a way in, but it’s like there’s this invisible wall.
Nick was so engaging with both of us, but every time he looked at me, I felt this spark. And then you would jump in with some story or joke, and it was like I was pushed aside again. I know it sounds dramatic, but it really stings. I don’t want to feel jealous of your friendship with him, but I can’t help it.
When you said Nick seemed to like me too, I almost wanted to scream. Part of me hopes that’s true, but it also feels like you’re oblivious to how I feel about him. Do you see how he looks at me sometimes? It’s confusing because I know you really like him, and I don’t want to come between you. But at the same time, I can’t ignore these feelings.
I just need to figure out how to navigate this new dynamic without losing what we have. I want you to be happy, but I also want to be honest with myself about my feelings. It’s exhausting, and I feel like I’m in some weird love triangle, except I’m not sure if anyone knows it exists.
I guess what I’m trying to say is, I hope we can talk about this soon. I need to know how to balance everything—my feelings, your friendship with Nick, and our relationship as siblings.
Love you,
[Your Name].
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stumblingontheblock · 2 years ago
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Geto x Afab!Reader x Gojo (NSFW)
18+ Only. MINORS DNI. NSFW work
Request: Can i request some threesome headcanons for geto x fem reader x gojo? How about reader being getos girlfriend and he decides to share her with gojo?
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Geto knew by the way you always hovered over the threesome videos on pornhub, of the possible needs that you might have. It was never really a discussion, but he just knew. And by the look on your face right now as you are practically trying to climb Gojo because he's teasing you yet again, he just knows.
Gojo had your little pouch, in his hands, which is held way above your reach. What Gojo doesn't know, is the fact that those very toys are used to make your toes curl every night.
"Give that back, Gojo. For fucks sake stop being so immature" you repeated.
"Darling just tell me what it is, and I'd give it back to you" Gojo practically sang.
Gojo started opening up the pouch. You had given up by now, choosing to bury your head in Suguru's arms instead. Shame and embarrassment had filled you. Now he was going to see the exact answer of his daily question, "You look like you didn't get enough sleep last night"
Gojo's eyes widened a little as he saw a Black vibrator inside the pouch. He took it out, slowly raising his eyes to look towards Geto. Silently trying to see if he's crossing any boundaries. To Gojo's surprise, Geto's eyes had a spark of excitement, instead of anger in them.
"Why don't we show Gojo, what's in the pouch?"
The question was followed by silence. None of the people in the room, were risking to have heard him worng, Geto himself included. Geto could feel your heartbeat increasing dramatically, as your fists bunched up his fabric on his chest.
Geto was the first one to recover from his own words. "Is that okay with you darling?" he whispered.
You simply managed to look up to him. Choosing to leave the very comfortable place where your face was previously hidden. Heat ran to your cheek rapidly. Adrenaline cursing through you increased as you saw the look Geto had on his face.
Gojo moved first, slowly placing a hand on your lower back. The touch was so light, if you weren't too hyper sensitive right now, you'd almost think of it as a strong wind.
"Shall we"
Geto didn't miss how instantly your head nodded a yes. You turned around to look at Gojo, only to find him in a trance, as he slid down his hand from your back to your ass.
"Use your voice darling" Geto warned
"Yes, let's show him" you managed to whisper.
Still a little unsure of the situation, you tried to slowly back away into Gojo's arms. All your doubts vanished as Geto pushed you into Gojo's arms while getting your top off.
You had never seen Geto eager. Normally he was the one to take his time, slowly teasing you and unbuttoning one by one. But today, it was as if something had clicked in his mind. His hands were wandering on your body, constantly pressing and kneading, all in the right spots.
Gojo on the other hand, had just made a mental note of all the right places to touch you. He loved the way your back was pressed against his. Once the top was off, Satoru started pressing soft kisses on you back. Soft but lingering. His hand shifted to your neck, turning it towards himself. The other hand turning the vibrator on. The buzzing sound filled the room, followed by Geto again hastily removing -tearing apart- the rest of your clothing.
Satoru slowly pulled away, making you seek his lips back on yours. He found the little action very amusing.
"Eager aren't we sweets?" Gojo laughed
Suguru was going to be a little honest. It made him a little jealous, his pretty little darling, kissing his bestfriend. That only made him more thirst deprived. His movements became faster as he grabbed the vibrator and placed it on your clit, after spreading your folds a little. He knew your body so well. He often wonders if he'd be able to draw it from the memory only. He prides himself by coming to the conclusion that he'd draw every single part of your your body accurately. The parts you like, the parts you don't, the parts he knows make you squirm and throw your head back.
Which is exactly what happened. Your head was instantly thrown back as the buzzing sound got louder and faster. Your hand coming up to get a hold of something. They landed in Gojo's hair, curling, bunching it up, while your senses made you squirm and pull at his hair slightly.
Satoru was just mesmerized. He has imagined this day a lot of times, sometimes when you wore that plunged neckline blouse, or sometimes when the slit in your dress was too high. But seeing you in his arms, your hands in his hair, it was a little too good to be true. He put both his hands under both your legs, slowly spreading them apart, before lifting you above the ground entirely. Placing your feet on Geto's shoulders, he had managed to fold you in half, literally.
His hand came down to give a little support from the below. Other one, taking his blindfold off, to let his beautiful eyes see these beautiful whimpers of yours.
The next thing you felt was Geto's lining up with your cunt. Geto knew how exactly to make all of him for inside you in one go, and the trick was to rub his swollen red tip along your folds. His warm tip on your wet folds made you feel like you were on fire. Geto dropped the vibrator in Gojo's hand, who again pressed it against you clit instantly.
The contrast between the cold vibrator and Suguru's tip, caused a shiver down your spine. Suguru wasn't so easily going to give you what you needed, he dipped his now free fingers into your cunt. Pulling them in and out, gradually increasing the speed. Your hand again found Geto's shirt, once again bunching it up to get a hold of yourself.
The next thing you know, is that you're pushed on Gojo's bed. You were already in a daze by all the fingering alone. But the look on your face was still hungry for more. Geto picked you up to line himself with your cunt, while Gojo went to grab condoms from his beside table. Once they were on, Suguru wasted no time in lining up your cunt and pushing himself inside of you.
Your eyes rolled back, your head tilted, back arched and your nails were scratching to grasp anything. Gojo promptly takes his place in between your legs. He places his slender fingers on your clit and starts. His mouth latches on your breasts and the other hand comes up to keep you in your place by squeezing your throat.
It was almost a prompt, to see your response to it. Nonetheless it was extremely positive. All of your weak points were being groped, licked, scratched, pushed, pulled, slapped, and what not. You were a drooling mess by now.
"Aww doll, are you spacing out so soon? " Gojo taunted.
"Come on darling, one more"
"I know you have it in you doll"
"Don't hold back darling, let it go"
"Looks so pretty doesn't she, fucked out like this Suguru? "
"We should do this more often shouldn't we darling? "
You were completely exhausted at this point. Your cum was dripping out of you as if it were an open tap. Your mouth stayed open, drooling and panting. You leaned forward to place one last kiss on Suguru's lips, failing in the middle, causing both of them to lift up gently.
Needless to say, after this night, you never went back to bed without sore legs.
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Word count: 1300 words
A/n: Send in more requests. I'll get them ASAP.
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lemonluvgirl · 1 year ago
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Chapter 2: Peeta
I dug my hand back into the side pocket of my backpack, digging around more carefully than before, but my hand came up empty again. 
Where had that sketch gone? I know I put it in the side pocket of my bag before the bell rang. 
I pulled the pack up to my face, opened it to take a better look, and found nothing. Thinking that maybe I had put it in another pocket I started to empty my bag item by item, carefully checking in nooks and crannies and other places where the paper might have gotten stuck. 
After a fruitless and frustrating but thorough search, I set my sights on the only other possible explanation. 
“Hey did you go through my shit again?” I yelled as I looked over at Rye, who was practically glued to the screen in front of him, and not paying attention to his surroundings at all.  As my older brother, one of two that I had but he was the only one still living at home with me and our dad, Rye was the usual suspect whenever my stuff went missing. 
He took his eyes off whatever video game he was playing and looked over at me with a confused expression for a second before pulling away one side of his headphones from his left ear. 
“What?” He asked and I rolled my eyes as I repeated my question. 
“Haven’t touched your stuff today dickwad. Why did you lose a tampon or something?” He asked with a stupid little smirk that made me wanna pummel his face. 
“Oh fuck you, asshole,” I answered with no real bite, getting our routine unpleasantness out of the way so that I could interrogate him on the whereabouts of my missing sketch.
“Just tell me if you took my paper,” I ordered, letting my backpack drop and readying myself to get into a living room floor wrestling match to get the truth out of him. 
Rye was always up to no good. Playing pranks and stealing stuff and doing shit he thought was hilarious and never admitting any culpability unless he was forced to. I can count the number of times Dad had to bail him out with the principal and with the local PD on two hands during his last year of high school. After graduating he mellowed out somewhat but he could still be a real dickhead whenever he felt like it. 
 Rye rolled his eyes, threw me the finger, and put his headphone back on, ignoring me completely. 
I let out a disgruntled growl and stalked over to where he was sitting in his gamer chair, frantically mashing buttons and cussing at whoever was shooting at him in the game. 
Before he could react to my presence behind him I wrapped my forearm around his neck and put him in a loose, choke hold. The pressure I was putting on him was not enough to restrict his air flow, but just enough to get his attention. He immediately started talking. 
“I didn’t touch your damn papers! Get over yourself shit stain, you’re going to make me lose the match!” He shouted as he tried to wiggle out of my hold while trying to keep his grip on his controller in order to keep playing. 
“You swear?” I asked, tightening my grip slightly. He gasped a little. 
“Yes! Fuck, get off Peeta!” He said, the volume of his voice rising in irritation. 
I let him go and backed off, but someone had already shot him and his screen faded to black before returning to the loading menu. 
“Thanks a lot!” He said, throwing aside his controller in disgust and turning around to face me. 
“Sorry,” I said with a shrug. 
“What the hell is so important about these papers anyway? Was it more of your artistic crap? More hills and trees and little drops of rain on leaves? No. You wouldn’t get worked up over that. I know. I bet it was fap material for your secret spank bank collection.” He joked, his smile morphing into a lecherous little grin.
I turned away from him so he wouldn’t see my face. I had already made too big a deal out of this. I didn’t want him to ask any more questions. They were beginning to hit too close to home. I began putting the scattered contents of my backpack back inside it so I could keep my hands busy. 
“I already told you. I don’t draw porn.” I said with a tired sigh. It was the truth. I drew still life mainly. Windows, buildings, and nature scenes. Sometimes faces, but that was it. I didn’t have the personal experience needed to draw more erotic subject matter and he knew that. 
“Waste of talent if you ask me. If I could draw like you I’d be drawing tits all day long.” Rye said wistfully. 
I turned around and gave him an exasperated look. 
“Yet, another reason why you need to get a life, Rye,” I said before zipping up my bag and making to leave. 
“Yeah, ok. But you need to get laid, little brother. 17 is too old to still be carrying around your V-card. So stop playing with your paints and pencils and go out tonight with the team. I know Cato’s throwing his start of the school year bash tonight.” 
“Yeah, so?” I huffed, annoyed and embarrassed that he brought up the topic of my virginity. It’s none of his business. But ever since mom left and Wheat went off to college Rye goes through these random bouts of trying to act like an involved big brother. It would be alright if he actually could give some decent advice. But his wisdom only extends as far as running with the popular crowd, winning matches, and sleeping with girls.
“So, you’re on the wrestling team now. Girls dig that. If you play your cards right you could score big.” He says and it's so predictably cliche that I don’t even have the energy to roll my eyes at him. 
“It’s a freaking Monday night, Rye. Who parties on a Monday?” I argued, hoping he’ll drop the subject. 
“Mellark brothers do, and as the last Mellark to grace the halls of Panem High you have to uphold the time-honored tradition of going out with your team and drinking everyone else under the table at the back-to-school bash.” Says Rye with an excited gleam in his eye. 
“What? No.” I protested, but Rye was already up and he had that look on his face. The one that said-I’m going to do something nice for Peeta. Which wouldn’t be so bad except it's always the same thing with Rye. He tries to get me to do stuff I don’t have any interest in, but because it's something he likes, so in his mind that should mean I will automatically like it too. He has a terrible track record with this. I think I’ve only liked 10% of the things he’s gotten me to try. 
“Oh, you’re going to the party bro, even if I have to drive you myself,” Rye stated gripping me by the shoulder and practically frog-marching me out of the living room. 
All my protests from there on out go unheard. 
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We pull up to a big, overdone house in Victor’s Circle 20 minutes later. There are cars lined up all along the driveway, and all the lights are on inside despite it being past 10:30 pm. Rye parks on the curb and cuts the engine before glancing over at me. 
“Look, I know this isn’t your usual scene Peeta, but hear me out.” He pauses and when I remain silent, he continues. “High school is your last chance to be a kid.  When it's all over it's all about getting a job, dealing with your asshole bosses or professors, and becoming a responsible adult. Death and taxes shit.” 
“Wheat says he likes college.” I point out. 
“Wheat studies his ass off every night trying to maintain his 4.0 gpa to keep his scholarship. He doesn’t have time for keggers or anything fun. And you know after the divorce Dad doesn’t have the money to help pay his tuition anymore. He’s gotta make it on his own. That’s why he’s got such a stick up his ass most of the time.” 
“You’re only saying that because he keeps telling you to take classes at the community college whenever he comes home for break.” 
Rye scoffs, and then he twists in his seat to face me. 
“Peeta, use that fucking big brain of yours for a second. With Wheat away, you still in high school and the bakery barely making it, who’s going to help Dad if I cut back on my hours at the bakery to go to college?” 
I thought about it. Dad only paid Rye minimum wage. I had assumed that it was because Rye had a careless attitude and only put in minimum effort but hearing Rye tell it, it was because Dad couldn’t afford to hire anyone else. Not just that but he couldn’t afford to send Rye to college without the help of a scholarship like Wheaton had gotten. 
How unfair.
“I would. I’ll help out at the bakery. Dad doesn’t even have to pay me.” I told Rye. 
My older brother smiled at me. 
“I appreciate the sentiment but you’re still in school. And it’s not your responsibility to keep this family afloat. Yet. That’s what me, Wheat, and Dad are for.” 
“Rye, you should be able to get your degree if you want to,” I told him adamantly. 
“You know me and school don’t mix well. And that’s not the point. The point is, everyone, is doing their part to keep this family afloat. You gotta do yours. Wheat’s the brain. I’m the troublemaker. And you’re the perfect son. You’re as smart as Wheat, and as good as me at sports. You’re gonna get an athletic or academic scholarship, no doubt about it. But you’re wound up so tight Peeta, if you don’t let loose a little you’re gonna burn out. So please, do everyone a favor and just be a kid. Real life is coming soon enough. This is your last chance to cut loose before you have to buckle down for SATs, college applications, and all that bullshit.” 
I’m so caught off guard that for a minute I don’t even know what to say. 
“Is this your way of trying to live vicariously through me?” I question him curiously. 
“Get your head outta your ass, Peeta.” He snaps back quickly. 
“No, seriously. It sounds like you want to relive these experiences through me. Like you want me to follow in your footsteps or something,” 
“Peeta, you blind little turd. It’s not about you repeating my high school experience, or making the same mistakes I did. It’s about you making your own. Carving your own path. And hey, maybe your path doesn’t include beer and babes as far as the eye can see. But you won’t know until you fucking try. All I want is for you to get out there and live a little. Find out who you wanna be these last two years of school and just be that guy. You might surprise yourself and have a little fun.” 
A part of me wanted to shake my head and demand he drive me home, but another part of me, the bigger part couldn't help but hear the sincerity in his voice. My brother may not have been the most caring, or the most considerate person in the world but at least he could be honest when he felt like it. 
“Yeah, yeah. Ok. Fine, I’ll go to the party.” I said, unbuckling my seatbelt.
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I don't make my own content. I have not violated these sections - "Video Spam" Misleading metadata or thumbnails. (I block channels that do.) Scams. (I block channels that do.) Incentivization Spam. (I block channels that do.)
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aena-blue · 2 years ago
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Manifestation - Patience & Persistence
Hello everyone! This is another short post to cover a simple topic under the umbrella term manifestation to hopefully shed some light on the topic.
Today is not so much an explanatory post, simply a reminder, for you, as well as for myself. Today I want to talk about patience & persistence.
Let me get this out of the way first: Do you have to be chill and patient in order to manifest your desired outcome? HELL NO. But does it feel better to be chill about it, and does it help you to remain in the state of the wish fulfilled? Well, yes. Does patience come more naturally the more you practice manifestation and the more you occupy the state of the person who has their desire? Also, very much yes.
I wouldn’t tell anyone to try and force a feeling, any feeling, and that includes patience. If you are feeling impatient, remember this, it is natural. Of course we want what we want, and we want it now. But as long as you remember something else that is even more important, then you are all good, and that thing is: Regardless of how you are feeling, your manifestation is a done deal, it already exists and you will see/hold your desire in the 3D, it is inevitable. Until it does, as I’ve said many times before, return to your imagination and keep giving yourself that experience of your desire being fulfilled, over and over again.
Through your imagination, and repeated affirmations, you can re-create your reality exactly how you want. I know how frustrating and annoying the 3D world can be but as I wrote in last week’s post “Conventional Action”, you always have the power to assign the meaning to anything and everything that goes on in your life. And I would encourage you to get as ‘delusional’ as you want. Your specific person (SP) didn’t text you back? They are hella in love with you and thinks about you ALL THE TIME. That’s all you need to know really. Go back to what it is that you want, find that feeling within yourself, practice going there, seeing it, writing about it, or talking/thinking about it (affirmations) to yourself, time and time again. 
You aren’t delusional, you created the reality you have seen up until now, so now you can re-create it however you want. But you need to remain persistent and faithful to your new state (the person who has their desire fulfilled), and IT WILL COME. It has to. It’s the law. 
One last little tip from me is to write a progress journal every day, write down any and all progress you see, any crumb of evidence that you are the god and creator of your reality, and any signs you have seen where your new assumptions are mirrored back to you. Could be from a conversation you had with someone, or some video you randomly stumbled across or a song that played in the car. Doesn’t matter how big or little, track the signs you see. This will serve as a helpful reminder and reinforce your belief in your manifesting abilities. You can also use your daily journaling process to include some scripting.
For example, if you are manifesting an SP but did not hear from them that day, shamelessly throw in a couple of sentences about how they were thinking of you non-stop that day and that they are missing you like crazy. Remember, this is your reality, you create it, you shape it, through your assumptions and your beliefs. That’s all you need to know.
You don’t have to be patient, but I hope this post has helped you to remember to keep bringing yourself back to your God self, the creator, the operant power of your reality. And, most importantly, doesn’t matter how many times you feel impatient, frustrated, annoyed, cry etc. Just let it out then go back to your imagination. Nothing can prevent you from having what you want but you.
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fellinifox · 1 year ago
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Chapter 9: On My Way
The Dark Art of Loving
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Major Character Death, Underage
Category: M/M
Fandom: Hogwarts Legacy (Video Game)
Relationships: Ominis Gaunt/Sebastian Sallow, Ominis Gaunt/Original Male Character(s), Ominis Gaunt & Anne Sallow
Additional Tags: Substance Abuse, Heavy Angst, Manipulation, Addiction, Depression, Suicidal Thoughts, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Sexual Abuse, Unforgivable Curses (Harry Potter), Department of Mysteries (Harry Potter), Psychological Drama, Trauma, Mystery, Missing Persons, Hurt No Comfort, maybe just a bit
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When the world stopped spinning around him, when he checked the ground beneath his feet, and when the late-March wind rushed into his face, causing his eyes to water while still retaining their sharpness despite the sun's rays already cutting through it; when the mirror-smooth sea quivered with small ripples and the branches grew heavier, eagerly absorbing moisture — then, he felt as if tomorrow had finally arrived. Even if it meant making another uneasy deal with his conscience, more like with the devil itself this time.
A small golden hourglass, framed with three golden orbs. Hours, days, weeks now were thoroughly counted turns. Months. It has been five months since the accident. Ominis sighed before stepping onto Floo Flames spot which would return him back to Hogwarts. He read that the main rule was not to be seen by your past self because it’ll majorly disrupt the flow of time. Though he couldn’t exactly see himself, he’d decided to avoid an encounter anyway. There were no other major restrictions to the use yet and it was somehow alarming.
Once he stepped on the school grounds, he waved his wand, whispering an incantation to change his clothes into his Slytherin uniform. He frowned, concentrating on the surroundings; gazed up at the clock, trying to collect the position of the clock hands. The Transfiguration Courtyard was full of students, it was the middle of the day, the lunch break. Where might he be at this time? He noticed Imelda returning back from her flying practice. 
“Imelda? What day is it today?”
“Have you gone mental, Gaunt? It’s Tuesday,” she threw her usual annoyed glare.
“Thank you. What’s our next period?”
“Herbology. What is wrong with you?”
“I’ve just overslept,” he cast an innocent smile and that seemed to convince Imelda so she grunted and walked away.
Where was he at this time? That was a tricky one. He had to learn to be observant, but not to such trifles. If only he knew that he also had to memorize his schedule minute by minute… He decided to take a detour out of precaution and wasn’t mistaken. He made his way to the tower through the Viaduct Entrance, took a right turn … and there he was. Ominis sensed his presence. Something he’d not forgotten for the past months but the hope to sense him ever again was withering day by day. The same spot as always. He would come there, sit by his side, listen to his another banter… And then repeat these carefree days, over and over again. He could’ve prevented it. He should not fail now. The lump stuck up the throat, making it hard to utter a word.
“Sebastian?” His mouth missed the sensation of forming that sound, the familiarity of uttering that name. His voice hoarse, as if he had just woken up from a long slumber or remained silent for days.
“Yes?”
He casually lifted his gaze from the book.
I missed you. So, so much. I missed you, Sebastian. I’ve almost become a sea foam when I thought I lost you forever. Just don’t ever disappear, I beg you.
Is it even possible to be prepared for this?
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hanseihere · 2 years ago
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https://gofund.me/134dbc93 : this contains the first time writing & since the only way to help self is to help others, if compelled to give & support individuals living with “trauma,” give to Mr. Baker who created a way to prove that care for others is stronger than anything “they” can throw at you.
PLEASE DESCRIBE EACH PICTURE: 
(1) remember to label voice memos. VM allow a way to take a break from writing & confront “audio” triggers. Try to label for easy relocation. I used VM until memory was filled up & then had to use the iCloud, the idea when I was posting & the word LIVE floated above clouds as I stared at a blue sky, green grass with poofs of white & said, “an iCloud is like a real cloud,” & repeated this over & over until I could trust that yes, indeed, whatever I put in the iCloud would remain. NOTE : still not backing up so result of online stalking can be very severe since it has affected me for years, but may not have been so severe without other “tech” triggers.
(2) regarding podcasting. OK.
(3) removing triggers regarding film is next. This requires recognition of r-- culture in media & that will be symbolized by polka dots. Thanking the individual for this since the association is “Stepford Wives.”
(4) entering housing & community as the word that definitely “pulled me in” so why is that so appealing? Also, could not read this letter after the first sentence since boom, everything turned dark, but the last line is what made me aware those who can change their narrative have a deeper, darker ability that if left uncheck will absolutely redo abuses. “They” learn, too.
(5) this company provided a terrible experience, but was “saved” with the better treatment of one of my clients--a homeless guy--so that simple act can remove trauma & enable someone to try again. Still need administrative & press contacts because the question was, “do you want to ensure the hospital who sees people in need of eyewear to know that you take their insurance provided because without sight, it’s very hard to be independent?” The answer was Y, but the follow through hasn’t happened. This can be expanded.
(6) Writing is tactile & YouTube is audio/visual so film could end trauma because the repetition is the prolonged exposure therapy & now, can start comparing & contrasting. Also, let’s discover new filming options. 
(7) the non-response was fierce! The fact property manager was not present in the building was probably the reason & would explain this, so the question asked was, “how many properties do you manage?” Told in the meeting 3, but in email 3, so a low standard for lying is definitely part of trauma. 
(8) must feel safe to share this IG & bits of a poem that I need to write down in a notebook, touching pen[is] to paper [trail]
(9) hashtaggging since every place to write in is a place to practice writing in & sharing the words to end trauma because at some point, it will end, right? Also, more stolen packages & the words, “some of the cameras are dummies,” so I want to know which ones. Upon closer inspection, no missing packages have been recovered, there are employees that sign for them & the board blamed homeless, a lot! Also, recording with video again & dampening those triggers again. Wondering will it ever end?
(10) while in trauma, you make a lot of collages to satisfy the visual input & also hide a bit here & there knowing how the brain will fill it in. I am writing, but not paragraphs. @relentlessredo is on Samsung phone. Dampening face & happy to report today may be the first time, I can see it! Not see what they see which is race play & why after multiple assaults, was unable to stop their “madness.” Wrote out chapters & Dave Michalowski (you again?) I better start writing “Lessons, Sessions & Confessions.” 111 is GrubHub & that’s tech. That’s these fantasies that reveal a certain idea of treatment involving women & men & never fully got it. Everyone needs one friend who can explain...
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alecvolturiswifeforever · 10 months ago
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soooooo…
@kiiwiigii came up with the idea of hunting said ghosts… and of course i had to write it 🤭
“Do we have to do this?” Demetri groaned as he trailed behind you and Felix. The newest secretary had just informed you that the delivery you had been waiting for had arrived - the final item you had been waiting for, and you could not be more ecstatic. You huffed in annoyance, grabbing the package from where it was placed on the desk before turning to him.
“Well… considering Alec has put you two in charge of babysitting me today, I don’t think you really have a choice.”
Both of their eyebrows raised, Demetri’s eyes trailing across you to scrutinise you as Felix spoke. “When- How do you know about that?”
“I swear, just because I’m human does not mean i’m practically deaf. You all talk much too loudly sometimes for anything to remain secretive.” You scoffed before squealing as you were lifted into his muscular arms. “Don’t get smart with us now, little human. Are you going to show us what’s in that box or not?”
He obeyed your wishes to be put down and you practically destroyed the box as you opened it. You giggled as you held up the contents, happily squealing again.
"What is that?" Demetri scrunched his face in mild confusion and crossed his arms in.You held it up in front of his face.
"It's a spirit box!" He looked at you questioningly, head tilted like a confused puppy and you sighed "You know? To talk to ghosts?"
You began walking back the way you came, intent on gathering the video camera you had also acquired without Alec’s prior knowledge. Of course they followed you, hesitantly stepping into your shared room.
"Okay so, what we are going to do is set up this camera-" You held up a video camera to the two vampires who looked at eachother in alarm“-and then we’re going to use the rest of this stuff to talk to the ghosts!”
They both looked between themselves and you, before both of them began their questioning.
“… where did you get that?”
”Does Alec know you have that?”
“How did you even sneak that past everyone?”
Your sheepish look answered their questioning and Demetri continued “Following that… ghosts? You are still convinced there are spirits roaming the castle?” They both laughed at you, making you pout.
"Keep it up and I won't hesitate to scream."
They stopped immediately, eyeing each other wearily before sitting on the sofa next to you. Neither was prepared for Alec’s wrath if even a hair was missing from your head. You however, happily leaned forward to press record on the video camera before leaning back and turning the spirit box on. Your eyes flitted up to the two men in front of you.
"Okay so, this thing will make a bunch of staticy noises and we're gonna ask it questions and the ghosts should be able to talk through it. Understand?"
Moving your gaze between them, they nodded and you turned back to face the camera fully.
"Okay um- I don't know what to ask... I guess-Is anyone here?" The machine continued to make noises, nothing coherent coming through. You repeated the question, only to receive the same outcome.
“Huh- I guess they don’t wanna torment me anymore…” You mumbled before side eyeing Demetri, who sat expressionless next to you “You try!”
You heard him scoff, muttering about your childishness and you sucked in a deep breath.
Quickly he covered your mouth.
"Okay, okay! I'll ask! Don't scream!" He repeated your previous question, and the machine began to make a garbled noise before it spat out a word somewhat resembling 'evil’.
You gasped, clutching the box tightly yourself.
"It was Demetri that ate you, wasn't it?!"
A noise resembling a hum sounded from the box and you slapped his arm. He held his hands up in surrender.
"I'm being haunted and it's all your fault!" The box piped up again, confirming your suggestion with a 'yes’. You squealed again as you glared at him, his smirking face flitting between you and the camera.
“In my defence, they probably tasted delicious…”
okay wait this isn’t a fic but i wrote this little blurb because i was thinking about this and it made me laugh.
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“No! I’m telling you the door opened by itself! Think about all the people you have all chomped down on- oh my god! They’re out to get revenge and they’re targeting me!” You screeched, jumping as a bang sounded from down the corridor. Alec let out an unusually loud laugh. You however, was still very much freaking out.
“What was that? What the fuck was that?” You tried to peer down the dark hallway, your human eyes only doing so much to aid in your search as well as beginning to play tricks on you, causing you to whine. “Alec-“
The genuine fear in the noise stopped his laughter and he opened his arms for you to step into, though he couldn’t help but snort at your next words.
“I’m telling you this place is haunted..!”
“Sweetface, I can promise you it’s not. The castle is old, there are bound to be a few noises.”
“But the door-“
“My love, did you have a window open?”
“uh… I think so…?” Your face flushed a bright red. He sighed in defeat before chuckling, bringing you closer and kissing the crown of your head gently.
“What am I going to do with you?”
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187days · 2 years ago
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Day One Hundred Twenty-Five
It’s a new week, AND IT’S TRACK SEASON! 
Is the track still covered in snow? Yes. But it’s warmish (meaning in the 40s) and sunny, so our sprinters did warm-up drills and 60m repeats in the dirt alongside out parking lots, which was delightfully muddy.
As for my teaching day, that was a mix of very fun and very serious. 
In World, was doing a lesson about how martial arts have been influenced by Buddhism, Confucianism, and Taoism. It’s preparation for tomorrow’s visit from Mr. W, who has a black belt and is going to do a demo with me. First, I gave students a basic overview of the Buddhist, Confucian, and Taoist ideas evident in the way martial artists practice kata, the way they’re taught to use their training, and so on. Then I showed a twenty-minute documentary about Okinawan karate, specifically. Lastly, students read about the style that Mr. W and I practice, and, since knowing the style’s history is required of all students, I had them quiz me on the article’s contents. That was pretty fun. Then I got serious in going over the rules for tomorrow: understand that we’re doing things which are dangerous, no trying to mimic what we do, no film/video, no touching anything without permission.
APGOV was also very serious today because I was teaching some history prior to the civil rights movement. Obviously, it’s the history that explains why it was necessary, and explains where the ideas spouted by modern white supremacists came from. I explained some things, and had students look up others, and together we talked through anti-Black and anti-Asian racism, anti-Semitism, nativism, anti-immigration policies... Tom White’s going to come tomorrow and explain how it all intersects with the eugenics movement. It’s a lot to take in, and it’s dark, and.it’s startling for most students because it’s stuff they’ve never learned about before. But learning about it means learning about the fight back- and how much of a fight it truly was- will be so much more impactful. So that’s my goal.
Tomorrow’s going to be fun and serious, too!
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firespirited · 2 years ago
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Brain: you’ve done nothing today, that’s pathetic
except it’s understandable because your right shoulder is on fire
hey and you had that vicious bout of diarrhoea
but you’ve done nothing today
hold up, i walked farther than I have in maybe 9 months to a year
ah. yes that is a very big thing HOWEVER there is a strong feeling of unfinished business that I need to put at the forefront of your mind, for some reason.
I did a walk, some sorting, got sick, did my typing practice, watched some videos and learned some stuff
u n f i n i s h e d   b u s i n e s s
nope emails done, ebay parcels up to date, all internet locations checked
u n f i n i s h e d   b u s i n e s s  - You have to do A Thing, maybe a tangible thing will help? Do something. This mood will repeat despite appeals to reason and will interrupt your distractions, have a nice day.
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I prefer the Mariah Carey vs Smashmouth 24/7 battle for dominance to whatever dissatisfied nonsense of a brain signal this is. It’s been weeks of droning in the background.
It’s probably either migraine aura related (ranging from the usual intrusive misery phrases on repeat to 2021s violently graphic intrusive thoughts) or some kind of adhd boredom-agony signal running through the broken short term memory filter and not finding anything. It is very very annoying. Dog hugs don’t help (very nice though) I am going to binge every catchy earworm song I can think of and see if that works.
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