#Happy Valentines Day Quotes 2019 For Him

[fourthofjuly2018-blog]

valentine day messages love 2017… valentine day messages love 2017 Source by kkue1

[queenlilith43]

You have no idea what I'd do to read The Mortal Instruments again for the first time.

There was the feeling of cracking open those books and seeing why people loved them. And the funny reactions and the moments I have associated with them. I yeeted City of Bones across the room when the plot twist happened. (Y'all know what I'm talking about.) I bit my nails and wanted my little gay ship to get together from the two hints given in book one.

And then the next book, where all these new characters were introduced. Where I hated on the Inquisitor until close to the end. I felt like I was walking onto Valentine's ship with Jace. I totally thought Simon was dead for a few minutes there, and then watched him come back as a vampire. I watched Malec bond, and just wanted them to be happy. I stayed up to finish City of Ashes, worrying for all the characters.

The next book was a ride. From thinking Sebastian was supposed to be Clary's new love interest to Simon being throne in jail, there never was a dull moment. Magnus was his amazing self, as always, and had some very memorable quotes. I screamed when Alec kissed Magnus in the Accords Hall, and cried when Jace died. By the end, there as a happy ending, but I knew there had to be more.

So I jumped into the next book, and starting hating in Camille. I had some thoughts on Jordan, just wanting happiness for Simon. Good for Malec going off on a vacation, but sad their relationship started going down the drain. Clace just needed happiness, but y'know, there was the problem of Jace being bonded to Sebastian by the end of the book. I was stuck on that stupid cliffhanger for four days and felt like I was gonna die.

The angst of the next book. I didn't want to see Magnus and Alec break up, but it happened. I cried. Emotions were shed with my tears. Although we had Simon being his idiot self, and Team Good and Team Evil. At the big battle, I was so sure Magnus was dead. But he lived, only to break up with Alec.

And then the final book. I breezed through it, hoping that Magnus would live. Even if I was angry at him, I just wanted him to live. I did cry when Raphael died, because that salty vampire didn't deserve his fate. I was happy for Clace, and enjoyed all the Sizzy we were fed, despite Alec constantly cockblocking them. At least he and Magnus got back together. The epilogue made me cry over the book all over again, because there was a happy ending. And yet, the story couldn't be over.

TMI is nostalgia for me. Despite having only read these books in December 2019, they mean so much to me. These characters are amazing. I hope they get happiness, in the very end, in TWP. They deserve the world.

[gemjupiter]

Gemini: A Love Letter

This was inspired by this dreamwidth post about Hoshi of Seventeen, in which they briefly mentioned that it’s frustrating to see him be reduced to a chaotic gemini stereotype because of his birth chart and as a fellow gemini stellium haver myself let’s talk about gemini (i hope op will forgive me for blatantly ripping quotes from their manifesto but they illustrate my point perfectly) 

Gemini is seen in general by people who are not balls deep in astrology as chaotic, two faced, annoying, and like the epitome of the “mean girl” i remember being 13 sending my friends astrology instagram posts and jumping on the gemini hate bandwagon for all these reasons which aren’t actually super true of gemini placements. So what do i think is true about gemini placements? This can be boiled down into two categories: information and connection. 

Information 

This may seem slightly out of left field but i wanna talk about the “two faced” stereotype in this section because i think it’s a fantastic example of gemini’s tendency to pick up on a lot of information being misconstrued.

My little sister is a gemini sun and it has always been fascinating to me to watch her reinvent herself at the drop of a hat. In the span of a week I watched her decide she wanted to be an egirl, learn everything she could about the ‘subculture’, start dressing and acting the way she’d seen, decide she wanted to be a vsco girl instead and repeat the process. It is truly something to behold the speed at which gemini can learn a bunch about a topic, drop it and move onto the next one, and the way gemini suns especially combine this with how they present themselves to the world. 

Gemini’s are just constantly acting on and implementing new information into their lives. I think about how in Hit The Road Jun from Seventeen talked about the parts of the other members that he admires and tries to imitate and it’s just such a classic gemini move. 

So why aren’t gemini’s typically pegged as an intelligent sign by the general public the way that say virgo is? Because above all else what gemini really values is connection and communication 

Connection 

This is really the crux of my hot take, love is stored in the gemini. All gemini wants is to know and be known, the mortifying ordeal of being known and I think we as a society should start letting them reap the rewards of being loved! 

Of course in practise most people love gemini’s, the number of undebatable icons in the famous gemini’s club (marilyn monroe, morgan freeman, bob dylan, naomi campbell, hyuna, ailee, dawn, yves, prince) wendy williams was talking about gemini’s when she said “she’s got a point, she’s an icon, she’s a legend, and she is the moment”. But what I really wanna talk about is all the love gemini’s have to give. 

“You know how huge this world is? Amongst everyone, the land, the vast endless space of the universe...the fact that we were able to cross paths, this connection...is it destiny? I think that the time we have right now (together) is precious." (Hoshi, Fansign, February 2019)

Every gemini I’ve ever known has stressed the importance of friendship to me and how disheartening it is for them when they don’t feel like their friends understand them or really see them for who they are. Having a gemini stellium myself I often try to get closer to people by finding out what they’re into and then also getting into that thing and it’s on some level frustrating to not have that desire to know what things make you happy reciprocated. It’s a kind of imagined courtesy all majorly gemini afflicted people have, and as the sign of communication we should probably be better about letting people know what we expect in relationships. 

[To the other members] "We should be considerate of each other when we speak, and when someone speaks to you, you should understand that they're trying to be considerate of you too" (Hoshi, One Fine Day Season 1)

“When the topic of the choreography for 'Thanks' came up, Hoshi talked about and showed everyone how while making it, he incorporated sign language into the choreography, wanting to show the meaning of thanks through both the song and the movements” (source)

“I think I might as well have confidence and live positively. I am the type to try and put effort to think in a more positive way. [But when it comes to other people] ... I don't go around saying ‘whatever it is, have strength’ annoyingly. When things get hard and tough, we share it and get tired together and then, also together, we would gather our energy back” (Hoshi, Elle Magazine, March 2020)

“I gained interest in choreographies with story-telling in them while thinking about what choreography can set us apart from other idols together with the choreographer-hyung, and paid attention to that part. Since I wanted to make a performance where we can play around freely, I naturally got ideas from musical elements.” (Hoshi, Dazed Magazine, 2017)

“I sometimes stay quiet because with Korean, I don’t know how to express my thoughts in a more clever way” (Jun, Hit the Road) 

I find that gemini placements tend to both be kind of careless with their words and extremely thoughtful about them. A lack of brain to mouth filter but with primarily good intentions I guess. As the sign of communication it makes sense that gemini’s really value communication and how they express themselves but if I may get on my gemini mercury soap box for a moment the way I speak to people and the words I use is very very important to me especially as I’ve come into adulthood I take great care in communicating in a way that is kind and friend shaped which is why I say that receiving a stream of consciousness from someone with a gemini placement is an act of love comparable to making a homemade valentines card. To be able to trust someone with your thoughts as they come to you and know that you will be understood and heard is the level of connection and intimacy that gemini craves 

Thank you for coming to my long ass ted talk on why I love gemini’s and think they’re good actually, I wish I could say i extend this same level of enthusiasm and word vomit to academics but alas…

[aftgficrec]

Staff Recs - Fluff

Hello fandom friends, we so hope you all are well. We’ve chosen some fluffy feel good fics for this round of staff recs, so grab your favorite cuppa, curl up, and enjoy. - AFTG Fic Rec Fam

Take My Hand by SpangleBangle [Rated: T, 3820 Words, Complete, 2018]

When Neil and Andrew get roped into competing in a dance reality TV show for publicity after coming out, Andrew is against the idea. But maybe it's time to show the world the truth of their relationship. Words have never been his strong suit, but this might be enough.

under the kitchen lights (you still look like dynamite) by ephemeralsky [Rated T, 26365 Words, Complete, AFTG Big Bang 2019, Locked]

(Andrew's recent Google search history: ambient sounds to help you sleep, what qualifies you for a service dog, why do cats like to sit in boxes, daily horoscope scorpio, does quoting shakespeare mean you're being flirted with, buzzfeed quizzes food, how to be neighborly)

((or: in which Andrew and Neil are neighbors who do various neighborly things))

tw: ableist language, tw: mild violence, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced rape/non-con, tw: implied/referenced self-harm, tw: panic attack, tw: dissociation, tw: implied suicide ideation

NB: Hmmm. Lots of trigger warnings for a feel-good rec. Andrew and Neil have some bad days, but the fic is overall very warm and has a happy ending.

what if we kissed... and we met on tinder by djhedy [Series, Rated T/M, Updated March 2020]

So he guesses this is a thing now. Neil. Neil and him. Neil who messages every day.

tw: ace-blindness on the part of well-intentioned friends

Wanted: Random Guy by fuzzballsheltiepants [Rated T, 5989 Words, Complete, Valentine’s Exchange 2020, Locked]

Neil's just trying to get through life as a math major, surviving primarily because of his favorite coffee shop and his speculation about all the regulars there. When an ad appears on the coffee shop bulletin board looking for someone to take fake couple's photos with, he decides to give the guy a call. After all, it could be entertaining...right?

i just had a growth spurt (took so long, my tippy toes hurt) by Talls [Rated G, 8448 Words, Complete, AFTG Exchange 2019]

In which twins scheme against the wishes of their older cousin to be left alone for the last few days of school before summer vacation.

Featuring a lovely school nurse, the weird kid, Matt Boyd's weak stomach, two important libraries and a blushing teacher's pet.

bloom by uwereamazing [Rated G, 4919 Words, Complete, 2019]

bee always told andrew that life was comprised of seasons.

(or andrew learning to love his life in four parts)

[thedollarcrate]

50 Best Albums (That I Own on Vinyl) of the Decade

It’s hard to comprehend how much transpires over the course of a decade or wrap your head around how long (or short) of time that really is.

But what better way to try than to make a list!

Now, I know “Best of” lists like this one are inherently subjective – and probably say more about their maker’s preferences than actually reflecting the best music released in a particular time period. And, I’ll be the first to admit that the list below is incredibly limited, and that I need to widen my exposure to more artists and genres.

But hey, this is all in fun.

So feel free to debate, pick apart or share your own favorite albums from the past decade. But before you dive in, just a few quick points for context:

-I only ranked albums I actually own on vinyl released between 2010 and 2019, which limited my choices to about 170 records.

-I only ranked new music released this past decade, so no reissues or older material released for the first time (sorry Prince’s Piano & A Microphone and Originals).

-I first started buying vinyl around ’09-’10 and started off purchasing mostly new releases before my habits shifted and I started looking for older records. This shows in the list below – nearly a quarter of the albums below were released in 2010 and almost 70% from the first half of the decade.

And we’re off…

50. Centipede Hz, Animal Collective (2012)

Let’s be honest, it was impossible for Animal Collective to top a universally acclaimed and era-defining album – and it was unfair to expect them to. But maybe the continuous onslaught of bizarre and eclectic music found on Centipede Hz was just what we needed after all.

49. Singles, Future Islands (2014)

So much more than Sam Herring’s pelvis busting dance moves and “Seasons (Waiting On You),” every track on Singlesbursts with life and heart pumping  energy. To quote Letterman: I’ll take all of that you got.

48. Paul’s Tomb: A Triumph, Frog Eyes (2010)

I don’t think I’ll ever understand Carey Mercer’s lyrics, but I’m certain I’ll never tire of getting lost in his hidden words and knotty melodies.

47. Leaving Atlanta, Gentleman Jesse (2012)

Thirty seven minutes of Pure Power Pop Perfection (note the capital “Ps”).

46. Burst Apart, The Antlers (2011)

If there’s another album with a song titled “Putting the Dog to Sleep” that is as haunting and beautiful as this one, I don’t want to know about it.

45. Carrion Crawler/The Dream, Thee Oh Sees (2011)

With John Dwyer churning out record after record in the ‘10s, it should come as no surprise that at least one landed on this list (and they’re all great). Garage rock. Surf rock. Post-punk rock. Psych rock. Noise rock. Rock rock. I don’t care what you call it, Thee Oh Sees put the pedal to the metal on Carrion Crawler/The Dream, taking you for a wild ride that never lets up.

44. 1989, Taylor Swift (2014)

Irresistibly catchy, everyone needs to satisfy their pop sweet tooth every now and then. 1989 is so sugary, it might just give you a cavity or two.

43. City Music, Kevin Morby (2017)

The city. The countryside. A beach. Aboard a train. At the pearly gates. It doesn’t matter where you listen to City Music because Kevin Morby’s jams will immediately transport you to your own laid back, happy place.

42. Remind Me Tomorrow, Sharon Van Etten (2019)

You’ll regret it if you keep waiting to listen this powerhouse – and powerful – synth-soaked record.

41. You Want It Darker, Leonard Cohen (2016)

It doesn’t get much darker, bleaker or sparse than this, but I wouldn’t want it any other way from the masterful Leonard Cohen.

40. American Dream, LCD Soundsystem (2017)

Retirement never sounded so good.

39. Capacity, Big Thief (2017)

Quietly captivating, mesmerizing and elegant, Big Thief knock you out without you even realizing it.

38. St. Vincent, St. Vincent (2014)

Annie Clark’s shapeshifting album won’t only shred your face off, it somehow makes you feel smarter, too.

37. Before Today, Ariel Pink's Haunted Graffiti (2010)

So, so weird and so, so good.

36. Expo 86, Wolf Parade (2010)

Like #50, Wolf Parade might always live in the shadow and expectations of a towering classic, yet somehow Spencer Krug and Dan Boeckner still continually craft eccentric and bombastic rock albums. Expo 86 is no exception, and it is an underrated classic in its own right.

35. Golden Hour, Kacey Musgraves (2018)

Like a sunset or sunrise, Golden Hour radiates beauty and warmth with each of its glowing tracks.

34. Yuck, Yuck (2011)

Despite their name and its hideous album cover, there’s nothing gross about Yuck’s infectious indie rock.

33. Play It Strange, The Fresh & Onlys (2010)

I once saw The Fresh & Onlys play at a tiny club in D.C. It might’ve been the loudest show I’ve ever been to – my ears rang for days. This record is just as rollicking, hazy and good as that show was loud.

32. Natalie Prass, Natalie Prass (2015)

There’s a reason “Welcome to 1979” is stamped in tiny letters on this vinyl’s inner ring – it’s silky smooth, filled with impeccable soft ballads and finely tuned jams – and just a tinge of funk.

31. I Am Easy To Find, The National (2019)

Few bands matched the consistent output of quality albums in the ‘10s as The National. They had one heck of a run, and I Am Easy To Find was a fascinating way to end it – a 21st rock album that felt more complex and expansive than anything they’d done before.

30. Melodrama, Lorde (2018)

Everything a pop record should be and then some – bold, breathtaking and exuberant.

29. Just Enough Hip To Be Woman, Broncho (2014)

If you can’t tell from its playful title, this pop rock album wants nothing more than to have fun – and it succeeds on every level.

28. Avi Buffalo, Avi Buffalo (2010)

Sometimes all you want is a light, sunny and meandering album to wash over you and get lost in, and this one will do the trick every time.

27. Hippies, Harlem (2010)

Imagine a band practicing inside a garage inside a garage inside another garage and you’ve got Harlem. This is garage rock to the max – and at its rambunctious best.

26. Puberty 2, Mitski (2016)

It’s hard to describe Puberty 2. Sure, it might sound like simple dreamy indie rock, but it ebbs and flows in unexpected ways that leaves you guessing where it’s heading next.

25. mbv, My Bloody Valentine (2013)

Picking up right where they left off – even if it was more than a decade later – My Bloody Valentine reminded everyone why they are the masters of reverb soaked shoegaze.

24. A Moon Shaped Pool, Radiohead (2016)

Even after all these years and albums, Radiohead still found a way to reinvent themselves and push the boundaries of rock music – and our expectations of them. With gorgeous arrangements and slow-burning, tension filled tracks, AMSP proves that even Radiohead can still take risks – and proves rock bands can make quiet, intimate songs sound epic. Oh yeah, and it has “True Love Waits.”

23. Art Angels, Grimes (2015)

Grimes gave us the future of pop music before most could even envision it. This laid the groundwork for all the challenging and intricate – and danceable – pop music that would follow. And it still sounds ahead of its time.

22. Meet Me At The Muster Station, PS I Love You (2010)

The first sounds out of Paul Saulnier’s mouth on Meet Me At The Munster Station aren’t words at all but two short, ecstatic yelps. And this same boundless energy and passion bleeds through on every fuzzy, raucous second of every track. Did I mention there’s a song called “Butterflies & Boners”?

21. More Than Any Other Day, Ought (2014)

You really ought to listen to Ought if you aren’t already. Tim Darcy and co. sound a bit uneasy, paranoid and self-aware, but they make the most minute challenges sound so exhilarating and life-altering – even the struggle deciding between two percent and whole milk at the grocery store.

20. Lemonade, Beyoncé (2017)

All hail Queen Bey.

19. Twin-Hand Movement, Lower Dens (2010)

This album sounds like 2 am on a dark, rainy Saturday night – in the best way imaginable.

18. Tomboy, Panda Bear (2011)

You can always count on Panda Bear to make hypnotic, loopy electronic music sound so breezy and effortless.

17. Modern Vampires Of The City, Vampire Weekend (2013)

I don’t know why, but I want to dislike Vampire Weekend so much. But that’s impossible when their music is so damn good and every note sounds so neat and perfect.

16. Past Life Martyred Saints, EMA (2011)

Just do yourself and listen to this album please.

15. The Archandroid, Janelle Monáe (2010)

Blending too many genres to count, this is what I imagine music sounds like in space.

14. Carrie & Lowell, Sufjan Stevens (2015)

I’ll let you know how I feel about this one after I stop crying.

13. The Suburbs, Arcade Fire (2010)

It’s everything you either love or hate about Arcade Fire. Grand, sincere and sweeping rock that swings for the fences with every guitar chord, drumbeat and horn blast. I love it.

12. Silence Yourself, Savages (2013)

Savages grab you by the throat and never let go – this is one intense album.

11. Helplessness Blues, Fleet Foxes (2011)

This might be the epitome of ‘10s indie rock – and for good reason. Introspective, sensitive and searching for some greater meaning, Robin Pecknold holds nothing back and lays it all out on Helplessness Blues.

10. Kaputt, Destroyer (2011)

Dan Bejar is an enigma and seemingly reluctant rock star. I saw him perform an acoustic set where he spent a majority of the time playing with his back towards the audience (although in fairness, it was at a free outdoor show on a college campus with people mostly chatting obnoxiously over him), and yet it’s as if his creativity requires him to constantly release new albums and show them off. Kaputt is as equally strange and mysterious – and just as creative – as its maker.

9. Black Star, David Bowie (2016)

Take away the heartbreaking circumstances surrounding this album’s release and it would still be in the top tier of David Bowie’s extensive catalogue. Experimenting until the very end, Bowie morphed into something entirely new one last time. Part jazz, part rock and part I’m not sure what you would call it, the results were once again out of this world. He couldn’t give it all away, but we’re sure thankful for what he could.

8. Bon Iver, Bon Iver (2011)

Shedding the cabin in the woods vibe, Justin Vernon took a giant leap forward with Bon Iver and made ‘80s soft rock popular.

7. Celebration Rock, Japandroids (2012)

Perhaps the most aptly named album on this list, no other album exudes the joy of making music and rocking out with your buddy than this one. It’s hard to believe all that noise and energy comes from just two people.

6. Burn Your Fire For No Witness, Angel Olsen (2014)

Angel Olsen’s hypnotic and seductive vocals, lyrics and guitar suck you in immediately, mesmerizing you from the first gentle strums to the peaks and valleys of “Lights Out” and “Stars” all the way to the closer’s pulsing drumbeats and majestic piano.

5. Black Messiah, D'Angelo And The Vanguard (2015)

Oozing with cool, sexy and confident R&B funk, D’Angelo returned after 14 years with an instant soul masterpiece.

4. The Monitor, Titus Andronicus (2010)

It says a lot when a band can a.) make an hour plus punk rock record b.) loosely base it on the Civil War c.) quote Abraham Lincoln d.) close it out with a 14 minute track inspired by a famous naval battle and e.) still make you want to listen to it over and over and over again.

3. Lost In The Dream, The War On Drugs (2014)

The rare album that can feel vast and ambitious and yet deeply private and personal all at once. You really will get lost in these soaring songs.

2. Halcyon Digest, Deerhunter (2010)

At times perfectly melodic and structured and at others feeling on the brink of falling apart, Halcyon Digest is a paradox – sounding peaceful, bright and idyllic while also peering over the edge into something darker. This is a remarkable record from a remarkable band. If not for the abrupt end to the darkly beautiful closer “He Would Have Laughed,” Halcyon Digest sounds like it could go on forever.

1. Let England Shake, PJ Harvey (2011)

A stunning, thought-provoking, and moving – not to mention endlessly listenable – transcendent piece of art about life and the Great War. PJ Harvey doesn’t hold back on the brutality and absurdity of armed conflict, and the album’s devastating closing track – “The Colour of the Earth” – will linger in your mind long after the record stops spinning. As powerful today as it was eight years ago, this album will remain timely and important for years – and decades – to come.

[superbataddicted]

Writer's Month 2019

Day 19 Prompt: Mythology

Fandom: Superbat, Clark Kent/Bruce Wayne, Superman/Batman

Writer: batzmaru65

There was once a cowherd by the name of Clark. Everyday he would milk the cows before letting them out to graze the grass. Then he would clean their stalls, change the hay and see to the dozen chores that came with running a farm all by himself. It was hard work but he did not mind. It was the loneliness that got to him at times, especially when the night hours were long and there were nothing but a fireplace to keep him company.

One day, a newborn calf, only three days old, went missing. A mistake on Clark’s part. He had missed a small gap in the fence which was thus left unmend. After shooing the rest of the herd back to their padlocks, Clark set out to search for it, worry creasing his brows. For a young calf was very vulnerable at that age and he feared for its safety.

First, he checked the vicinity nearest the farm but the calf could not be found. Next, he ventured further, hesitating at the edge of the woods which he had been warned since young to never enter. It was rumoured that a monstrosity lived within and it ate anyone who dared to trespass.

But it was his fault and the life of the calf depended on him finding it. Sucking in a deep breath, Clark broke off a branch. Brandishing it like a club, he then carefully made his way across the shadowy grounds where most of the sunlight had been blocked out by the hardwood trees.

At last, Clark heard the bleating of a calf and his eyes brightened with hope. Following the sound, Clark came upon a ring of densely-packed shrubs. The bleating was coming from within and so Clark squeezed his way through and was pleasantly surprised. Nestled in the midst of the shrubs was a small hot spring, its water crystal clear and oh so inviting. The calf was frolicking at the edge, having the time of its life.

“Silly little thing,” Clark scolded as he approached the calf and looped a noose round its neck, “But thanks to you, I’ve found something nice.”

Clark eyed the spring once again and finally caved in. The weather had been hot and he had worked up a sweat while looking for the calf.

After tying the animal to the nearest branch, Clark quickly stripped and dived in, luxuriating in the feel of wetness against his skin. All thoughts and fear of a man-eating monster were forgotten until a voice, sharp and accusing, cut through the air.

“How dare you partake in my bath, impudent mortal!”

Clark whipped around in a panic, expecting to find a hideous monster ready to chew him down. Instead he was greeted by the most handsome man he had ever seen, Steel-blue eyes glared ferociously while kissable full lips pulled downwards in a display of the owner’s unhappiness. To further express his displeasure, the immortal had his hands on his hips, and Clark could not take his eyes off his bare arms and how his toga-like garment enhanced his well-honed physique.

"Did you hear me, mortal!” he growled, “Get out of my bath NOW!”

“Why should I? There’s no sign anywhere that says this is yours.”

The immortal stamped his foot, getting angrier. This was his private sanctuary which he had kept hidden by spreading horrifying rumours. But it seemed like this mortal had obviously not heard them or was too stupid to understand what a man-eating monster was.

“If you’re not out at the count of three, I’m going to summon the most terrifying beast to eat you up! One...”

Clark narrowed his eyes in suspicion. If this immortal could truly summon a monster, why had he not done so in the first? Why waste time yelling threats at him?

“Two...”

“Alright, alright! I’m getting out, Please spare my life and don’t summon the beast!”

Clark swam closer while the immortal smirked in satisfaction. While pretending to clamber out of the water, Clark suddenly grabbed the immortal’s arm and pulled hard. With a startled yelp, the immortal lost his balance and fell in with a loud splash. As he sputtered and gasped for breath, Clark wrapped an arm round his waist and pulled him into his embrace.

“Get your dirty hands off me!” the immortal yelled, struggling to break free. To his dismay, he found Clark to be overwhelming strong.

“Go ahead and summon your beast now,” Clark grinned, enjoying how even more attractive the immortal looked with his hair wet and his white garment almost translucent and clinging to his body.

The immortal flushed and bit his lips.

“You can’t do it, right?”

The immortal averted his eyes, embarrassed. Actually, he could not. He was a low-ranking immortal, newly-anointed. He still had a long way to go before he could even light a candle by magic, let alone try and summon anything from the demon realm.

“Tell you what. I’ll help you keep all this a secret,” Clark gestured at the immortal and then the hot spring, "If you promise me one thing.”

“I can’t grant wishes,” the immortal warned, “It’s beyond my ability.”

“I don’t need that. I’m already quite happy with what I have.”

The immortal gaped at Clark. This was something new. The humans he had seen when he looked down from the heavens, were always so greedy and insatiable.

“Just meet me once in a while so that I can have someone to talk to.”

A poignant sadness darkened Clark’s eyes, casting a shadow across his face. The immortal immediately felt sorry for him. He could not imagine not having someone to talk to. He always had his brothers and his mentor, even though they could be quite irritating at times. Hence, this private sanctuary where he could get away to when he needed a breather.

Well, If hat was all that was needed to keep this a secret, even though he had been warned not to have any interactions with humans. And Clark did not seemed to be such a bad person, just... The immortal shifted uncomfortably, suddenly acutely aware of Clark’s nakedness.

“Fine! I’ll do that,” the immortal spoke hastily, “Can you please let me go now.”

Clark did just that and then stuck out a hand.

“Hi, I’m Clark Kent, nice to meet you.”

The immortal hesitated before he reached out a hand to grasp Clark’s.

“Bruce Wayne of the Weaver Clan.”

Clark’s smile was so happy that Bruce could not help but return one of his own.

And so began a friendship that would blossom into something more before it all ended in tragedy. For any relationship between mortal and immortal was frowned upon and the two lovers would eventually be sundered. They would be imprisoned each at one end of the Milky Way, becoming the stars, Altair and Vega, able to see one another but never meet,. But once a year, on the seventh night of the seventh moon, the bats would take pity on them and fly up to the heavens. They would form a bridge, allowing the two lovers to be together for just one night only.

(Inspired by one of the greatest Chinese folktale, The Cowherd and the Weaver Girl. And because of this story, the Chinese celebrate their own version of Valentine's Day on the seventh night of the seventh moon.)

[harrystylesandblackgirls]

[PART 2] Hailey Baldwin and Shawn Mendes Timeline - The End

So AFTER  the Met Gala it went to shit (at least for Shawn).

If you’re here after Part 1, you seen the comment Justin Bieber left on Hailey’s picture, this shows that he and Hailey were on good terms again and they started back talking....

(video) *that quote is from an article, I don’t use the word cringe*

May 23, 2018

Hailey tweeted this:

A fan replied:

This GQ Interview was done while he was still with Hailey and before she got back with Justin, so he didn’t get his heartbreak just yet.

Shawn saying he would date Hailey (we all know Hailey was the one that didn’t want to be in a relationship)

(video)

Another press interview

The way he strongly said he’s single was like he’s completely done with whatever he had with Hailey or just being friend zoned in general when he wanted more ... He looked nervous too, and the way he sat up after he said he’s single lol I think he was tired of  being asked about it in interviews

People believe Hailey’s tweet is about Justin and Shawn’s tweet is about himself and Hailey.

June 5, 2018

June 7, 2018 

Shawn performs “Perfectly Wrong” for the first time on James Corden and he was so into it, so emotional, almost look like he wanted to cry? We don’t know who that song is about specifically but some of the lyrics is so relatable  to his situation with Hailey at the time. So sad.

July 2, 2018 Shawn posted this on his Snapchat story. Gee! Can you guess who she is??

July 7, 2018 Hailey and Justin gets engaged in the Bahamas

July 8, 2018 News broke that they are engaged and Shawn found out this day like everyone else through the internet and he texted her congratulations.

July 9, 2018

(the post)

( of course he was hurt/sad but he’s not going to tell the whole world his true feelings over a girl who’s engaged and moved on).

July 13, 2018

Shawn got followed by paparazzi and the guy asked about Hailey and Justin. Shawn looked sad & annoyed and walked away to get away from paparazzi. He was going to cross the street but didn’t want to get asked questions about Hailey so it seems. He must’ve been so hurt.

An article and video was posted on Dailymail the next day about it.

Paparazzi: “What do you think about tha..Hailey and ahh Bieber thing? (meaning engagement)

Shawn: ignores him and immediately right then said to his bodyguard: “Let’s go back” (back inside, he was about to cross the street but I guess getting asked about Hailey made him uncomfortable)

Paparazzi: “What you think about the Bieber ahhh?” (engagement) (Shawn started biting his nails and kept walking off).

Video:

July 15, 2018

On Shawn’s Snapchat story when he was in his feelings over Hailey getting engaged to Justin he turned it up loud on the part  that says “he wasn’t good enough for her” fans were saying it’s obvious it’s about Hailey. (video)

A fan commented: “Did anyone else notice that he frantically turns up the song right when it says “he wasn’t good enough for her” @haileybaldwin”

August 8, 2018 in Variety Magazine Shawn’s says Hailey is, “One of the most beautiful souls I’ve ever met.”

September 12, 2018 Shawn still liking her pictures, still seems like (obviously) he isn’t 100% over her.

September 13, 2018

Hailey and Justin officially got married at a court house.

October 20, 2018

This is a visual played during a festival while Shawn performed “In My Blood” and the actors are portraying Shawn and Hailey. (I don’t know when this visual was created but it was shown during his performance..he was clearly not over Hailey)

November 7, 2018 Someone’s still in their feelings. And all you see in the media is Justin and Hailey traveling here and there.

November 8, 2018 Shawn liked this picture but it seemed to be the last one he liked in a long time. Progress. Moving on, or so we thought.

November 26, 2018 Shawn’s Rolling Stone interview comes out. But the interview took place back in August 2018

He acknowledges they were more than friends, but he’s still reluctant to call it a relationship: “I don’t even wanna put a title on it. I think it was more of a zone of limbo.”

Limbo = Doing things couples do (dates, holding hands, snuggle, have sex..) but still not officially in a relationship it’s like a “friends with benefits” type of thing.

Some on social media painted Mendes as a chump who got played by Baldwin, but he swears he’s not holding a grudge. “I get it, you know,” he tells me. “I texted Hailey, ‘Congratulations,’ and I really am happy for them. She’s still one of the fucking coolest people ever — she’s not just a beautiful person visually, but she’s one of the most beautiful hearts I’ve ever met.” It seems like he might be about to say something more about how it all went down, but he stops himself. “I think I’m an idiot to not, you know. . . . But you can’t control your heart.”

Mendes admits that the attention on his personal life has caused him a lot of stress. “I’d like to say I don’t care about it, but that’s not true,”

I think I’m an idiot to not, you know... = This can be seen in 2 ways. 

1, to not see that she’s still in love with someone else, and that she wasn’t into Shawn as much as Shawn was into her (that’s why she friend zoned Shawn.)

2. to not confess his love for her.

can’t control your heart = Hailey was still in love with Justin so she followed her heart.

November 27, 2018

January 14, 2019

January 27, 2019

On his instagram live he talked about falling in love and getting hurt from it , here’s the quote:

Also on live he recommended this song “still in love” he also recommended it a month before this live (December 2018) so he told us about it again. He said he always listens to it and that it gives him goosebumps every time he listens to it. It’s a great performance but also maybe he relates? it talks about wishing they could get over someone and that he’s still in love with her even though she’s with someone else.

Also here’s a video of his live if you wan’t to watch it

Shawn tries to open up to us but without saying it out loud, that’s why he writes subtle tweets and post lyrics instead of actually saying it, you gotta read between the lines, that’s how I know he loved Hailey he would call her “super special”  “sooooo sweet”, writing tweets about “love love love love” on her birthday after he sent her flowers… (her sister posted about it that’s how everyone knew) there’s soo much stuff on these 2 lol, AND when he said he would date her…yeah this is why it’s obvious “If I can’t have you” is written about her and how he can’t move on..

January 31, 2019

Days after he talks about heartbreak on his instagram live  he posted a lovey dovey poem on his instagram story  called “Your laughter” by Pablo Neruda (but he deleted it.)

February 7, 2019

Shawn liked these pictures of Hailey and Justin from their Vogue Magazine photoshoot.

February 19, 2019

So basically Hailey confirmed what I already knew, SHE WAS STILL IN LOVEEEE WITH JUSTIN WHILE WITH SHAWN! That’s why she didn’t want a relationship with Shawn. She said in an interview:

“It’s definitely scary to be this young and be married,” Hailey told Kendall on Zaza World Radio’s Valentine’s Day Special on Apple Music, according to E! News. “It’s a scary thing, but it’s also the person (Justin Bieber) that I’ve literally been in love with for so many years. So, that’s the best part about it. Like I feel like he’s my best friend. And we just get to do life together forever, now.”

She also called her and Justin’s past relationship what SHAWN CALLED HER AND HIS RELATIONSHIP, but Hailey put her explanation in details:

‘Hailey goes on to talk about her relationship with Justin before getting married.’

“We weren’t really together. It was this weird limbo. We were friends and then it was like more, and then we weren’t (and then we didn’t speak for a very long time).”

February 22, 2019

Hailey liked Shawn’s picture and then unliked it after fans were saying why is she liking her exes picture when she’s married now and she hasn’t like any of his pictures since.

March 6, 2019

Shawn liked a picture of Hailey (that Justin posted)

 Of course it made news every where

And Shawn hasn’t liked a picture of Hailey since.

May 2, 2019

Shawn’s song “If I can’t have you” comes out and after listening to the lyrics it’s 100% about Hailey 😢. You can tell he really liked her. Like he was in LOVE 100%.

Look at this lyric:

“Is it wrong for me to not want half

I want all of you

All the strings attached”

Mutual lyric:

 “But half of you’s not enough for me”

The song Mutual is also about Hailey.

👉LOOK AT THE GIRL IN THE VIDEO!!

The girl in the video has on Hailey’s style. The big hoop earrings she usually wears (even more specifically at Met Gala), the rings on her fingers are her go-to style (also like Met gala)) she even has the same body type and style of clothing she wears (like tomboy style). I mean 😳

He knows we’ll know it’s about Hailey

May 10, 2019

People think she was shading Shawn/ her exes. She posted a picture of her and Justin in the next story.

[shannie-writes]

Shan’s Favorite Things

A collection of content to make Shannon happy

last updated 8/26/2019

Fanfiction & Headcanons

Karin

- Getting Jiggy with Seth (Seth/MC) [NSFW] || - It’s a Surprise (Seth/MC)

Kashi

- comfort after nightmares (HCs) || - dating Oliver (HCs) || - For The Better (Edgar/MC) || - gifts (Seth/MC/Zero) (HCs) || - Here For You (Seth/MC) || - mutual masturbation w/ Edgar (HCs) [NSFW] || - My Night (Seth/MC) [NSFW] || - Ray and kittens (HCs) || - Sugary Sweet (Loki/MC) [NSFW] || - Surrounded (Zero/MC) || - Take a Break (Ray/MC/Sirius) [NSFW]

pseu

- Declination (Lancelot/MC/Sirius) [NSFW] || - pseu slings [1]

Tasha

- Dessert (Sirius/Celeste) [NSFW] || - Moonlit Kisses (Seth/MC) [NSFW] || - Sweets (Edgar/MC/Zero) || - The Little Things (Sirius/Celeste) || - Trust Me (Seth/MC) || - short and sweets [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6]

Tawny

- Baby Steps (Zero/MC) || - Dessert (Edgar/MC) [NSFW] || - literally anything Eleanor || - One Small Step (Zero/blind!MC) || - Secrets in the Fog (Siren/Pirate AU) || - Sweet Bean (Edgar/MC) || - Take a Break (Kyle/MC) || - Temptress (Seth/MC) || University AU (HCs) || - Velvet Ties (Lancelot/MC) [NSFW] || - Weightless (Dazai/MC)

saizoswifey

- Edgar (HCs) [NSFW]

Sen

- dicks and masturbation (HCs) [NSFW] || - Patience is a Virtue (Ray/MC) [NSFW] || Wintertime w/ Seth (HCs) || - Valentine for Chief || - Worship (Zero/MC) [NSFW]

Fanart

All

- dungeon boss Seth || - “Edgar, you ignorant slut” || - official TCB birthday illustrations || - Sirius’ Vacation in Stein series

Edgar

- chocolate bar || - comfy Creek Jr. || - Edgar/Willow tomeyooo commission || - “I’d rather...” || - pretty portrait || - pull the glove || - sad portrait || - winter chibi || - yuumira’s Edgar card

Jonah

- Jonah’s stupid jacket scene

Loki

- I wanna be his lollipop

Ray

- Sleeping Beauty Ray

Seth

- bedtime Seth || - disco king || - eat the cake || - embrace || - he licc || - “Howl” Seth || - moonlit melancholy || - pull him by the tie || - rierru’s mer!Seth || - Seth dance w/ Akira || - Seth sweater || - soft and free || - tulip boi || - yuumira’s mer!Seth || - yuumira’s Seth card

Sero

- back snuggles || - festival || - neck kiss || - school days

Zero

- backlit Zero || - cinna is tha winna || - soft Zero hug || - yuumira’s Zero card

Other

- all suitor bedrooms || - do it for Seth || - handwriting || - IkeRev playlists || - Seth-icure || - Splash of Love quotes (Edgar) || - Zero’s casual outfit

[famder-news]

Video Review Wednesday

Hi guys! Welcome back to another video review!! Today we’re gonna be reviewing one of my favourite Sanders Sides episodes! Forgive me if this is slightly short it’s late and i’m sleepy!

Mod: Brit (@romanticsanders) Date: 31st July 2019 Topic: Videos and Reviews Warnings: Spoilers for Alone on Valentines day, Pre-AA Anxiety

Video Review Wednesday: Alone on VALENTINE’S DAY | Sanders Sides

Video Length: 8:34

Characters In Order Of Appearance: Thomas, Virgil/Anxiety, Patton/Morality, Logan/Logic, Roman/Princey

Watch it HERE

So this is an early one and one of my personal favourites and it is 90% because of the Prinxiety content in it. 

This one is essentially a long discussion between the boys about how Thomas is going to obtain a Valentine for this year and how getting a Valentine is often really difficult. 

I really love the more laidback episodes where it’s just a little discussion without any big feathers or bows! It just seems a lot more organic and chill for me, something very easy to watch. With that being said though, I still love each and every episode made AND I just appreciate all the effort that’s gone into the newer episodes!

On a personal note, this video is very special to me because it’s the video that really launched me into the fandom! I’d watched the first Sanders Sides video that Thomas made (back before the Sanders Sides branding) and I enjoyed it but I also didn’t really stick around - I was sort of watching Thomas casually at that point. However, after watching this video I just thought the jokes really hit and the acting was super good! And the concept really interested me and that’s sort of what really led to me being here today so wow!!

Another thing, this video is one of the first Sanders Sides episode in which ‘Anxiety’ isn’t played as a total villain. He actually provides Thomas with some good and healthy advice for being ‘alone’ on Valentine’s Day and that softens my lil heart because it was the beginning of a change I think!

Now, of course all of my boys were fantastic in this episode but I HAVE to talk about the amount of Roman and Virgil content there was in this video, as the resident Prinxiety slut around these parts. 

Roman calling Virgil ‘Hot Topic’? Virgil flirtily replying with “Aw, you think I’m hot.”? UGH. This was the beginning of my obsession. I just love it because it just screamed romantic tension to me. I’m really into the whole enemies to friends to lovers trope and this just solidified the ship for me.

One last thing, an extra bonus was that I love Valerie!! She’s one of my favourite frequent friend guests of Thomas’ cause I think she’s just so pretty and talented and she has an amazing energy so watching all the sides interacting with her just made my little heart happy. I particularly enjoyed the Roman speaking Spanish scene and the scene where Patton gives Valerie a little drawing <3

End Card

Oh boy...Oh my god...this end card...

The end card is essentially Virgil saying that he could’ve made Valerie swoon better than any of the other sides and Patton wants him to prove it. Virgil then explains that first, you have to take your partner by the hand, and then it’s revealed that he’s actually been holding Roman’s hand the entire Goddamn time.

UGH. This end card is just...*chef kiss* I love it. Thank you for the top notch Prinxiety content, Thomas, 10/10

Stray Thoughts

I’m sure you can all guess that this episode is what stemmed my love for Prinxiety and Roman in particular! I just think this episode is really cute and sweet and funny, it made me laugh so, so hard when I first watched it! 

Quotes of the episode

“Thomas, in this instance, pragmatism and optimism aren’t necessarily contradictory!” “I know big words too! S-saxophone...” - Logan, Patton

“I wasn’t trying to...help.” - Virgil

“Okay, first, you take her by the hand...” “Oh, my- “AHHHHHH!” - Virgil, Roman

“First, we’ll need someone to practice on!” “But who? “...Each other?” - Patton, Logan, Patton

“Ayo! Zippip doo flarp!” “Meepso, globay!” “Ah, wapso zapso flanno-” - Logan, Valerie, Logan (Speaking Simlish)

“You didn’t woo her with any gusto! You know what people like?” “Bagels!” “N-no, what?! Maybe...” - Roman, Patton, Roman

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The Personal Quotes #love quotes #quotes #inspiration #inspirational #love #quot… The Personal Quotes #love quotes #quotes #inspiration #inspirational #love #quote #tumblrquotes #typography #so true Source by lobod3

[letsperaltiago]

you’ve stole my heart and made it your own |Jake x Amy|

Dearest, @amystiago <3

I am indeed your secret valentine 2019 and it with immense pleasure that I present to my gift: a Jake x Amy oneshot (and mood board lol) specially written for this occasion and you! “You’re a hot little piece” like 4-drink Amy would say and I’d also like to add that you’re “Cool cool cool cool cool cool”. I hope you have the loveliest Valentine’s day and like the famous Charles Boyle said: “I hope you like it, but if you don’t I will kILL MYSELF.” 

also I looked up SO MANY super cheesy baby and like father/daughter-songs in order to find a title, so it got ver very emotional but yanno anything for you, my love! 

Lots of love and hugs and happiness from me!

xx your not so secret anymore valentine

((btw Sorry for the ugly ass baby photoshop but i couldn’t help myself aha. anyways))

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FEBRUARY 14TH, 2021

If you were to ask Amy Santiago just a year ago what the best sound in the world was, she would’ve more than likely replied that it was either the rumble of her developing label maker or just pure, calm silence on a Sunday morning. In no world could she ever deny that she indeed still enjoyed these very specific sounds, yet these days there was something she loved even more. Something else.

As if on cue, a loud high-pitched wail cut through the bedroom’s until then silence. Automatically and actually on cue - it took no longer than one night of being a parent to learn it by heart - Amy turned over and away from where she’d been snuggled into her husband’s warm chest.

“Don’t get up,” a tired mumble from her husband caught her in the act, making her freeze on the spot and throw a glance over her shoulder. Just as she probably did, Jake looked tired; his head was still smushed into his pillow and allowed his messy morning-curls to dance across its white cotton cover. Though they weren’t yet open - his brain more than often awake before the rest of him - she could easily tell that her husband’s eyes were tired. Not just an ‘I hate getting up before 12 on a Sunday’-kind of tired, but more an ‘I hate getting up before 12 on a Sunday since I woke up twice during the night to check on my crying daughter’-kind of tired. There nothing, not even the exhaustion she felt, that could hold back a small smile.

“I have to. Marcy needs me.” In the midst of pushing herself off and away from the comfort of the mattress, Amy felt her husband’s familiar arms grab her waist before tumbling to a rest in his arms.

“I need you too,” his tired grumble against her ear still caused a shiver to this day. A peck, trying to convince her to stay, followed behind. In vain though it was very tempting to give in. 

“Jake-“

A heavy sigh caused his chest to push against her back, implicitly letting her know that he knew she was right. “I know… But stay in bed, okay? I’ll get her.”

Not that she wanted to object to this but before she even had the chance, it was Jake’s turn to push himself away from his spouse and roll out of bed. Amy secretly loved that their 3-month old daughter was pretty much the only thing that could get him out of bed this fast. It seemed like such a drastic contrast to the nervous Jake that one year ago had freaked out wondering if he could live up to the big role that was a father’s. Not that Amy blamed him for these specific feelings, since they rooted in something so complex and difficult as Jake’s own dad being mostly absent and a scum for most of his son’s childhood. Even considering this - history, feelings, uncertainty - she never actually doubter her husband; not for a second. From the way his eyes had both lit and teared upon in response to her announcement of the pregnancy, Amy had always been sure of one thing and this still applied today: Jake Peralta loved his daughter more than anything else in the world, and handled it with as much humbleness, patience and love as possible after only 3 months of experience. It was safe to say that Amy was beyond proud.

“Hey, Marcipan,” the sound of her husband’s cooing voice as he rounded the corner of their bed snapped Amy out of her thoughts and back into reality. In front of her, by the bassinet placed against the wall parallel to her side of the bed, Jake appeared wearing only his boxers and a ‘Die Hard’ t-shirt which was at least a size or two to big for him. He swiftly reached out to switch on a tiny night light, which sat on the wall above the little one’s bed.

“Stop calling her that,” Amy chuckled tiredly as he leaned down over the bassinet to carefully pick up the little human, before cradling her in his arms and turning back around to face his wife. Gosh, Amy would never get tired of the sight of it. Maybe also why she happened to have at least a 1000 new photos on her phone proving just this point alone. Thank goodness Terry had advised her to upgrade her amount cloud storage. “She’s gonna grow up thinking she’s an almond-confection.”

Jake had to chuckle even and shoot a though his daughter was still letting it be known that she wanted some kind of attention by whimpering in his arms, “Are you denying the fact that my daughter is sweet enough to eat?”

Rolling her eyes and shaking her head was not uncommon in the Peralta-Santiago household and so this comment would not slip by as unnoticed either. “That’s not what I meant. And your daughter? Says the guy who said, and I quote, “Before sunrise she’s your daughter” just a few days ago.”

“Hey! I thought it would be really cool to quote Mufasa, okay? He was a great dad.”

Another roll of the eyes seemed appropriate. “Worth it?”

Amy might’ve been sarcastic, but Jake totally beamed with joy at the thought of the dark 4 AM-wake last week, where he’d delivered the iconic line when his daughter had woken them up with a fuzzy sounds and small whimpers.

FLASHBACK — PREVIOUS WEEK

Amy had immediately reacted at the sound like set to autopilot. Hoping that it was just a one of daughter’s short ‘fuzzy moments’, where she’d fuzz around for a few moments before eventually falling back to sleep without further complaints, Amy decided to stay put where she was currently resting with her upper body on top of her husband’s rising and falling chest. One of his arms was protectively wrapped slouched around across her back whilst the other was stretched out to the side across the empty part of the mattress.

Silence did not ensue the fuzz though, but instead a loud wail-turned-cry. Amy loved her daughter to pieces, but exhausted could not describe what the mother felt after having woken up just an hour ago to feed.

“Jake…” The name barely came out as an actual word and more in the resemblance of an animalistic sound. Emphasising that she wished to stay where she was, Amy scooted herself in deeper into his chest.

“Hmmm…” His mumble let her know that he was definitely in deeper sleep than her.

“Marcy s’wake.” It might’ve seemed like just an obvious statement from her part, which it to some extent was, but also more importantly a hint.

“Hmm ’know.”

After another few seconds of not moving, neither of them, Amy figured she had to vocalise her intentions. “Check on her… Please…”

“Before sunrise she’s your daughter.” Jake didn’t have to open his eyes to know that this had caught his wife’s attention - fully awake or not - and definitely wasn’t pleased with the timing of his Disney-reference. The always quirky and bantering aspect of their relationship definitely hadn’t dissolved because of Marcy, but there was now a sense of time and place that needed to be considered: a pitch dark February morning at 4 AM was not an exception and Jake knew.

“Jake…” Though she wasn’t in on the joke, Amy’s mumble definitely sounded like the one of a displeased lioness, which was kinda hot to Jake but then again: time and place.

“Yeah.” Well-knowing that it was only fair that he got up for this one, very aware of all the hard mommy-hours Amy put in these days even though taking care of Marcy was very equally balanced between the two of them, Jake lazily leaned down to peck his wife’s forehead before gently slipping out from beneath her. “Show me going.”

“Thank you. I love you.”

END OF FLASHBACK

“Though I do not stand by what the quote stands for, I do not regret saying it.”

Marcy’s cries grew louder - completely drowning out everything else - letting her parents know that enough was enough. Actually so much that her cries turned in to straight up howling. Jake’s attention was immediately redirected back to his daughter, concern showing on his face as he kissed her forehead and made his way over to Amy.

“Don’t cry, baby. Daddy’s right here. You hungry?”

Having already propped herself up onto her elbow, Amy pushed away the duvet to welcome her crying daughter into her arms before carefully placing her on the mattress by her chest. “Hey now, Marce. We’re gonna settle that hungry tummy. Just give mommy a second.” Duty called and Amy skilfully pulled up her NYPD-shirt to reveal the nethermost breast before cradling the soft back of her daughter’s head in order to lead her. Behind her, she could feel the mattress dipping under the weight of her husband as he got back under their shared duvet meanwhile a fuzzy Marcy’s head was uncontrollably and unsuccessfully rummaging the area around her mother’s nipple only growing more and more angry; the crying growing more desperate.

“Marcy,” the mother softly cooed as she tried to guide her daughter to where she needed to be. “It’s right there, baby. No need to get angry.”

Jake could only scoot in close to his wife’s back, watching the scene unfold in front of him with dreamy eyes. This - the same exact thing - had happened countless time by now since a 3-month old ate a billion times a day. Yet Jake’s chest never ceased to burst every time he watched his amazing wife take her time with their little one. It seemed banal but it was truly one of his favourite things ever. Nothing or no one else could compare these days.

As a contrast as strong as night and day, the family bedroom was suddenly drenched in complete silence; cries replaced by the gentle slurps and sound of Marcy sucking. A sigh of relief and calmness coming from the very bottom of Amy’s chest seemed heavily appropriate.

“She finally found it,” chuckled Jake, placing an arm around his wife’s chest to hold her while he stroked his daughter’s feet with hands that made the tiny vessel of life seem even smaller. Some would maybe call it banal but to Jake there was nothing more amazing that this. This right here. His best friend and wife quietly breastfeeding their daughter. He still remembered the first time he experienced and felt that slight clench of bliss in his chest oh so clearly.

FLASHBACK - NOVEMBER 10TH, 2020

Overwhelmed was probably the most suiting word as Jake planted a long, tender kiss to his wife’s sweaty forehead to accompany his hand which was holding her firmly while a loud wailing engulfed the room. The wail belonged to his probably not more than 1 minute old daughter: Marcia Santiago-Peralta. The little bean he’d been talking to through Amy’s womb was now a whole, tiny, living human. She was here.

“I’m so proud of you,” his voice was strained with tears just like his eyes as he spoke those words into his wife’s forehead, meaning every syllable more than anything else he’d ever previously said. He always knew that his wife was a total badass - even before they’d started dating - but tonight was the most solid proof. No one needed to tell him that he’d never be able to do what she’d just done. “You’re amazing. I love you so much, Ames.”

Though not letting go of her hand, Jake pulled back to look down at his obviously exhausted by also glowing, always stunning teary-eyed wife and now mom. Her chest was still heaving in attempt to catch up with the breathing she’d completely lost to the last 10 hours of screaming, groaning, crying and pushing - sometimes all of those simultaneously. Not going to lie, Jake had to admit that he’d been rather emotionally unstable during those 10 hours. On the other hand he did managed to keep it inside and be over the top attentive, calm and collected on the outside for Amy’s sake.

“I love you so much too, babe,” she let go of his hand in order to reach up and cup then stroke his cheek with her trembling thumb. Her body was still in an incoherent state of both exhaustion and adrenaline rushing through her, but none of that seemed to matter anymore. Nothing else. “She’s here.”

Brighter, even brighter than when she agreed to marry him, Jake smiled and gave off a weak nod. This woman was indeed his sun and his moon, his everything, and now together they’d created a little star. The feeling seemed beyond words.

“Here she comes.” The voice immediately caused both parents’ heads to snap out of their moment and in the direction of the smiling nurse who walked towards them with their crying daughter. Looking back it seemed rather morbid, but right in that moment there was no sound more beautiful than those cries. Next thing he knew Marcia was resting stomach down on her mother’s chest. Amy’s hands immediately and instinctively wrapped theirselves around her - one supporting her bottom as the other carefully held and stroked her head - before leaving down to kiss the soft top.

“Hi, baby,” she addressed the little human calmly through the loud crying in an attempt to soothe both Marcy and herself. “No need to cry. Mommy is here and she loves you so so much.”

Jake carefully leaned down, resting a hand on his daughter’s back before carefully pecking the spot Amy had previously kissed. “Welcome, Marcy,” he sniffed, trying to compose himself before continuing to speak, ”I’m your daddy.”

Another few beats of cries, tears and loving words mingled in the room before the same nurse who’d brought them Marcy politely interrupted them. “I think it’s time for you to feed her, Amy. She’s probably hungry and it’ll also calm her down.”

Amy listened carefully, looking up at the nurse from her sitting position in her bed with attentive doe-eyes as the process was briefly explained to her. Jake’s hand was on her shoulder know, gently rubbing it as he felt his wife tense when the nurse told her to go ahead and push up her shirt. He leaned down to whisper in her ear, “Hey,” he pecked the shell reassuringly. “You’ll do fine, Ames. The worst is behind us. I’m right here.”

After randomly choosing a side and pushing up the shirt, too focused to actually vocally answer and instead just nodding, Amy carefully - as if she was handling fine china - placed their daughter horizontally against her chest and followed the nurses instruction. Marcy was still crying hysterically, squirming discontentedly when Amy cupped the back of her head, holding it still and guiding it towards the bare nipple which she was told to stabilise with her free hand. All at once it seemed overwhelming and clumsy to Amy, especially when the baby kept crying and missing the goal. But Jake could only sit in his chair, which he’d pulled as close to the bed as possible, and stare with admiration.

The need to cry definitely didn’t grow smaller. “Shh shh, Marcy. It’s okay, baby. I’m trying to help you,” Amy cooed.

Suddenly a contrasting silence engulfed the room. Wide smiles grew on both of the new parents’ faces. “Jake! She’s sucking! She got it!” Amy chuckled with relief, once again teary eyed as she snapped her head in the direction of her already looking husband.

Slowly as to not interrupt Jake reached across the edge of the bed to stroke his daughter’s head. She’d only been around for a couple of minutes but somehow Jake couldn’t get enough of her. He just wanted to touch and hold her forvever. “She’s brilliant...” Then he turned his gaze towards his wife who couldn’t stop looking down at what was happening right there in her arms.

She must’ve noticed because suddenly she tore her eyes away from her daughter to instead look at her husband. A fond silence and stare was shared between the two, lasting for who knows how long, before Jake decided to finish his sentence. “Brilliant just like her mom.”

END OF FLASHBACK

“Yeah,” Amy’s voice clearly smiled. After making sure her daughter was indeed properly installed and comfortable, the mother allowed her arm and head to lie back down onto the pillow, yet still keeping her hand on the back of the baby’s head. Her fingers, including both her engagement and wedding ring, softly stroked the soft skin and feathery, tiny hairs. A beat of a moment later Amy could feel her husband settling down behind her properly, keeping her close, and gently placing his head on top of hers. Together in silence they took in the miracle in front of them. Nothing better than this little miracle of life had ever been given to them. The quiet suckling went on, working as a calming sound machine for the tired parents whose eyelids were heavy as yet they couldn’t get themselves to close them just yet. Amy felt a press of lips against the side of her neck.

“Happy Valentine’s day. I love you so much,” followed behind, soaking into the skin of his wife’s neck in the form of a muffled promise. “Not just today, but also all the days before and all the days forever after.”

Shivers of pure love and happiness went through Amy’s entire body.

“I love you too. So very much…”

Without bothering their daughter, Amy emphasised her response by twisting her back to the side to look at Jake. Meeting her halfway, their lips met in a soft, chaste kiss that contain all the love in the world. Not only for each other, but for their daughter and family as well. When pulling back, Jake took a moment to take in his wife’s tired but nonetheless always beautiful features. His eyes reflected the light from the still switched on night light, only emphasising the stars of adoration that already shined within them.

“We’ve obviously had other priorities lately, so I haven’t had the time to plan anything this year… But if you’re up for it I’d be more than willing to work something out?” Jake spoke, carefully keeping his voice at a reasonable level. While he did love his daughter more than anything, he also loved ‘mommy and daddy-time’, which was basically only an option when their little one was either asleep or eating. Or both. It was all about seizing the little moment before it was too late.

A beat of a paused let him know that she was thinking, only to be interrupted by her daughter’s mouth slipping off her mother’s nipple. Small whimpers of frustration immediately began to grow. Luckily the mother’s hand was quick to lead her daughter back on track, silencing her once again. Amy smiled to herself in content then twisted her neck to somewhat face her husband again.

“Jake… It’s okay. I’m completely content with this. I don’t need anything else today or any day ever. This is the perfect Valentine’s day. Thank you.”

[cheymarieandherthoughts-blog]

Love & Myself

Valentine’s day is fast approaching and red hearts and chocolate and stuffed animals are everywhere.

Some people love the holiday, others detest it. Some people say it’s just a way for companies to make money, others like having an excuse to spend some extra time showing the person they care about a little extra attention. Well for me, I think it’s a nice holiday for those who have someone special, and if you don’t have someone, then take the time to spend on yourself. Relax, take a bubble bath, and treat yourself to something you usually wouldn’t. Typically I don’t have someone special in my life for this holiday so this year, just as in years previous, I’ll spend time with my best friend. We like having “galantine’s”, just a girl’s night on Valentine’s. Funnily enough we are actually going to go see a thriller movie (it’s a sequel to a movie we both liked). 

In talking about the big love holiday, I want to talk a little about relationships and dating. I don’t know about all of y’all…but the dating world today is the WORST. It’s so confusing and difficult to deal with. I’m such an old fashioned person, I like to be asked out, to be picked up and taken out on a date. Is that too much to ask of guys these days? I’ve even tried being the one to ask the guy out and plan the whole date and meet him there. Not only did I not like that, but it didn’t last between us for very long. I ended up being the one having to make all the plans and put in all the effort.

I’ve also tried dating apps. And let me tell you those are even worse. People these days are way too comfortable hiding behind a screen instead of talking to people face to face and so their confidence behind the screen is enormous, but then you meet them in person and they are either super awkward or overly into themselves. Now I do know some people who have had luck with online dating and ended up meeting their spouse on a dating app. But me? No such luck. And I also know a lot of people who have had the same experiences as me. I just wish that social media and the online world didn’t complicate things. If you meet someone you find attractive and want to get to know them better, then ask them out! Don’t play stupid games or wait around for the other person to make the first move. The whole “knight in shining armor” idea of a guy swooping in to sweep you off your feet and defend your honor is definitely outdated. These days you’re lucky if you can get a guy to respond to your text or seem interested in you at all because he’s just “so busy”. I’m sure there are some girls out there who are living the dream and have a pretty reliable relationship and a guy who will give them the time of day. I’ve just had literally the worst luck when it comes to my love life. 

Also in regards to dating, I am a Christian, as most people who know me or who’ve been reading some of my posts. And I made a choice over ten years ago when I was in high school to wear a purity ring and save myself for marriage. Of course this isn’t the “normal” way to be as people would say. I’ve gotten made fun of, bullied, laughed at and shamed for making this decision. I would say 95% of the time it doesn’t bother me, but there have been a few times when a guy I liked or was talking to found out that I am waiting until marriage and would just stop talking to me. Those couple of times hurt me because I thought that those guys were different. I have given too many guys chance after chance to prove me wrong, but every time I’ve been let down and proven right. 

People these days are too into the “I love them so why wouldn’t I show them that I love them?” Well that’s your choice and mine is to wait to share that part of me with the person I’m going to be with the rest of my life. And it’d be nice if people respected that rather than saw it as a fault of mine. I do not judge anyone who decides to have sex before marriage, just as it’s my choice to wait, it’s your choice to do what you want. I’m not someone who goes around wagging her finger at those who aren’t doing “the Christian thing” as some people would say. Because who I am to judge? We all sin, so I could point fingers, but guess what? I have three fingers pointing back at me when I point a finger at you. So what good am I actually doing if I do that? I have my beliefs and everyone else has theirs. I’m still going to love and support the people I care about no matter their choices, as every Christian should do. We are on this Earth to spread the word of God and to love others as we do that. But as I’ve seen many times again and again, just simply telling people they are sinners and should repent because they are committing those horrible sins is not going to get them to go to church. It’s not going to get them to read the Bible or listen to you share your faith. Listening to them tell their story and being their friend and loving them, showing them that you are there for them and earning their trust, that’s what could get them to believe. **(of course this isn’t always going to work, some people just don’t want to believe so don’t quote me on that)** Okay, now I’ll get off my soap box.

In 2019 I’ve made the decision to just focus on myself and my goals. I know that sounds super cliche, but the last couple of years I was so worried about not finding someone and being so alone that I became obsessed with it and ended up hurting myself and letting others hurt me as well. So I’m in a season of working on me, I’m letting God show me what He wants me to do. I’m spending more time with people who are important to me, I’m doing more of what makes me happy. I’m not looking for people to date, definitely not using dating apps. I’m just taking each week as it comes and planning trips with my family and friends. Although I complained earlier in this post about my love life, I  know that the past few years I honestly wasn’t in a place to be in a relationship. At that time I didn’t know that because I was too focused on trying to find someone. But God’s shown me a lot in the last few months and I know now that I just need to trust Him and His plan for me. And right now He wants me to focus on growing closer with Him and to stop worrying about my future. He’s got in all under control. 

So this Valentine’s Day, if you don’t have someone special, I challenge y’all to focus on the good things in your life. And if you have friends who are also not in relationships, y’all hang out and enjoy each others company. I promise that will keep your minds off the whole being single thing. :) 

*Do what makes you happy*

~Chey Marie

[dailyaudiobible]

02/01/2019 DAB Transcript

Exodus 13:17-15:18, Matthew 21:23-46, Psalms 26:1-12, Proverbs 6:16-19

Today is the 1st day of the 2nd month of the year, also known as February. Welcome to the Daily Audio Bible. Welcome to a brand-new month. And, I guess, you know, you get this far and we’re starting to really settle in. If you make it another couple week’s till Valentine's Day then the chances are that you’ll make it the whole way. So, well done. Well done on the first full month of the year. It’s, you know, we've sailed outside of shore and we’re out into the deep now as we journey through the year together and head toward the end of the year and the next year. So, happy February. We’re still in the same week so, we’ll obviously be reading from the Common English Bible, which is what we've been reading from this week and we’ll still be picking up the story where we left off with the children of Israel newly set free and trying to figure out what comes next. And quite a bit of opposition still out in front of them. Exodus chapter 13 verse 17 to 15 verse 18.

Commentary:

Okay. So, paying attention that proverb would be important since it outlines seven things that God hates. So, it would be good to know the things that God hates and to look and see if we’re doing any of the things that God hates because I mean, if we’re gonna do things God hates that's probably a nonstarter and probably not on the narrow path that leads to life. So, reviewing these things that God hates would be helpful to go back to today.

In the book of Matthew though, we have interesting conversation, but also confrontation happening between Jesus and the Pharisees. So, between Jesus, who is God made flesh, and the religion that had formed around God. And, so, we have to at least acknowledge what we're seeing here. Jesus greatest confrontations and conflict were with what had become of the religion that grew out of the Mosaic law. So, there's this law in place and there are the keepers of the traditions, right, the Pharisees, the Sadducees, the Sanhedrin collectively. And then there's Jesus, almost a self-styled rabbi who hasn't come up through the system. And yet He is more compelling and signs and wonders are following Him. And, so, they're coming to Jesus and saying essentially, “who gave you the right to do this.” And, so, quoting from Scripture, “what kind of authority do you have for doing these things? Who gave you this authority?” Of course, Jesus knows what's going on here. Like, they're essentially telling Him, “you didn't come up through the system. Like, you know, right, you’re an outsider. What do you think you're doing?” But they can't argue with the fact that the hearts of the people are turning toward Jesus and this is bringing up a lot of jealousy but also a lot of paranoia because there is a very, very tenuous power share going on between the Romans and the leaders of the Jewish religion and if they can't control Jesus and the hearts of the people are beginning to turn toward Jesus and He's gaining momentum then Jesus could be a problem. So, from the perspective of where we sit 2000 years in the future and being able to look back at the story, it's sad and comical in a way that these people would be trying to defend their power, defend their power share, defend their control over the people and the hearts of the people against God. Oh, but my friends, we do it too. In all kinds of big and small ways we do it too. We’ll look at anyone who doesn't believe the way that we do even though they may be believers in Jesus and love the Lord. Maybe they this see some things nuanced in ways that we don't. And, so, we go after them defending the traditions, defending what we think the truth is. This is what the Pharisees were doing and basically what they had done over the millennia is build an infrastructure, a religious infrastructure, that would not allow God to do a new thing at all. Of course, that didn't stop God from doing a new thing. In fact, He came in person to make all things new and do a new thing and in the process blew up a bunch of stuff. Let's not think that He wouldn't do that again. Let's not think that He's ever stopped doing that. We will never run a circle around God with our theology that He can't escape or that he even really cares about. So, Jesus told a couple of stories and its…this is really a beautiful moment where we see how Jesus uses stories because He uses the stories to confront situations where everybody knows what's being talked about and yet He's simply telling a story. He’s not directly confronting a person but rather critiquing a situation that involves a lot of people. So, He says a man had two sons and he went to his first son and said, “son I need you to go work in the vineyard today.” And the first son said, “I don’t want to do that.” But then later he thought it through and obeyed his father. And then he went to the to the second son and said, “son I need you to go work in the vineyard today.” And the son said, “yes”, but he didn't go. And Jesus question is, “who did the will of father?”. And the answer, of course, is the one who obeyed the father. Even though he said, “no, I don't want to do that”, he changed his mind and he went and obeyed, whereas the other kid said that he would go and he didn't. So, in this scenario the son that said, “no, I don't want to, I don't want to obey you” but then and later changed his mind, these are the people that Jesus is ministering to and He brings even tax collectors and prostitutes into  His conversation as an example, people who might have heard the call of God, who might have been raised up to understand an awareness of God. And God comes and compels them to move forward but they’re like, “no”. They’re like living in rebellion, they’re living in sin but later change their mind and go and obey. Then ultimately they went and obeyed the father, whereas the person who gave lip service to what the father invited them to do and then didn't do it, well that kinda represents for Jesus what the Pharisees, what the religious system has become, had become. And then He tells a famous story about the tenant farmers, right? So, a landowner leases the farm to tenant farmers who raise a harvest and then the landowner sends for his share and then there's all kinds of this drama, people getting killed and all this kind of stuff until the farmer sends his son thinking, like, this is the heir, like, this is the owner of this property, they’ll respect him but they don't, they kill him. And Jesus is asking the question, “what will the landowner do?” And, of course, they’re like, he’ll destroy those wicked farmers. But the thing is, those wicked farmers in that story were religious leaders, were the Pharisees. Like, they’re the keepers of the law, they’re the keepers of the traditions of God that God handed down through Moses, all the weight going back to Abraham. And then God comes and says, “okay, now it’s time to open this up, it’s time to…give me my share.” And they’re more interested in trying to take over the field. So, to try to take over the religious system and own and control it and be the de facto judge about who is right and who is wrong, who needs to be judged, and who needs to receive mercy, and the keepers of all the recipes for how to worship the Lord. So, in this story God sends His son and they kill the son, which is a bit of prophetic utterance about the future for Jesus ministry. But to properly think this through we have to wonder how much more success Jesus would have if He came today. No really, if somebody came claiming to be the son of God with signs and wonders…I mean…it would be kind of the same scenario. And, so, what becomes compelling is when we read the stories that Jesus used as illustrations during this confrontation and try to find out who we would be in those stories. And we can very easily go, like, “I wouldn't even be in that story. That’s not like…if I'm in that story…I'm one of the disciples of Jesus” until we actually begin looking at our actions and our biases and the way that we treat one another, the way that we judge each other, which is something we’ve been talking about out pretty poignantly as we've wandered this far into the Scriptures. So, the work for today is really to do that, to revisit these particular parables and understanding their context trying to locate where we would be because we’re probably more like the Pharisees than we would like to admit. And, so, as we go through the Gospels we’re gonna keep observing the Pharisees and we’re gonna keep observing the way that Jesus interacts with them and, you know, we’re gonna continually be invited to decide or to observe what we’re most closely like and what might need to change, what might need to be repented of.

Prayer:

Jesus, this is where we are, this is what has come up in the Scriptures today. And, so, this is where we are and we open ourselves to Your counsel and we invite Your Holy Spirit to speak, to show us all these little subtle things that actually create our character in the way that we look at the world. And the truth is in each of us there’s far more judgmentalism then we’re ever really aware of or admit to and often this comes from our fear of just getting it wrong about You. So, we get together and we really really try to nail down every aspect of what it might be like to walk with You and be in a relationship with You and be doing it right. And yet it just won't…it won't distilled down into that kind of a formula. And, so, we keep those efforts to get it right and become more and more like the Pharisees just trying to define every eventuality when relationships…just…they don't work that way and You've invited us into a relationship, an adventure, an intertwining, that we get to be on this earth as You intended us to be because we die to ourselves and allow You to live through us. So, come Holy Spirit into all of the Pharisees and that might be found in our lives. We reject that and renounce that. We want to follow the path that You are leading. And, so, as we see the stories unfolding in the Gospels we’re continually given an opportunity to examine ourselves. So, come Holy Spirit into that examination. We pray in Jesus name. Amen.

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Community Prayer and Praise:

Hello, this is a word for my dear sister Margo the missionary. I want to thank you Margo for answering the call the Lord’s put on your life and I am so greatly encouraged by your courage and especially your honesty and the transparency of your heart. It sounds like this is a mountaintop experience. So, I’d really ask the Lord to give me his words to speak to you. So, I pray that you are blessed by this. My dearest daughter Margo, fear not, neither be discouraged for this pain will pass. I promise to uphold the words to you which I’ve spoken into your heart. This road you have chosen is not easy and I ask it only of my greatest saints because it requires great faith and courage. And these gifts I have and will continue to pour into your heart. Everything you grieve for today you will receive double even an abundance of joy in the days to come. The longings the of your heart will not be replaced, they will be upheld. I go before you, I travel with you, I will allow you to see the great harvest of souls for my kingdom for the work which I have called you to do, therefore be comforted. Your pain will be to their deliverance. Your sorrow will become our joy. Receive My love and My praise. You are My beloved daughter in whom I am well pleased. And I want you to know Margo that I will be praying for you and your husband and lifting you up to the Lord in just praising Him and thanking Him. Love your sister in Christ, Treasured Possession. Bye.

Hi Daily Audio Bible family, this is Shelley. I’ve been listening for a few years and I’m checking out Chronological this year. I’m calling it for the first time because I felt the Spirit prompting me to take that step now, so it wouldn’t be harder to do if I wanted to do it in the future. I’ve been really ministered to by the time spent in Job and realize that this touches on some of my fears. I know God is faithful and that He’s with me but I’m also afraid of going through painful things. I think part of my personality is being prepared for worst-case scenarios but that can easily give way to fear and in trying to stand against that I tend to block off part of my heart. It’s easy to distract myself with what people around me need or with serving others or with work or household responsibilities. So, my prayer is that I will take God’s hand and walk with Him through whatever things He wants to do in me or situations that I may face. By the way, the word He gave me for this year is courageous. So, that seems to fit. I really have come to value this community even though we don’t see each other. Thanks Brian, China, for all the others there, for your ministry. And thanks for the way all of you support each other in prayer. Blessings to you today.

Hello, my name is Stephanie and I’m calling from Virginia and I was just calling because I’ve noticed that quite a few people have called in to talk about their own mental health concerns or the mental health concerns of others and I just wanted to share a testimony of someone who has struggled with mental illness for about 15 years. I’m 35 now and I’ve gone through some pretty dark periods. Depression that was so bad that I needed to be hospitalized. I’ve actually been hospitalized four times and I share that just to say that I know what it’s like to be just really, really sick in terms of my mental and emotional health. And God has been really faithful to me. He’s taught me a lot through His word about freedom and His love. And I just want to tell you if you’re struggling and you can hear my voice right now, just remember that your body is subject to this world, this fallen world that we live in, and your mind is as well, but your Spirit man is strong, and you can overcome. You know, currently I take medication and that helps me every day to go overcome. And whatever it takes for you to overcome, counseling and fellowship with other believers and medication and therapy, whatever it takes, you know, don’t be ashamed. Just like if you had kidney failure or migraines or…

Hi Daily Audio Bible family this is Laura in San Diego. I am calling...I just heard some people calling in at the end of the day, the 26th. My heart is sad. My heart is happy when I hear your calls but on a daily basis in my own life my heart is sad that I don’t have a community or even a few close friends of people such as I hear on the Daily Audio Bible that are just about Jesus and real about their life and, you know, supportive of each other. And I’ve been on a long journey in my life. I moved from Ohio to California several years ago but ever since I’ve been here it’s a different environment and people are just not as willing to be genuine or maybe I just don’t know the right people. So…so yeah, I guess my heart is sad but I would like your prayers, that I would be able to find a few close friends that love Jesus and love me and my family and that we can do this walk together. Appreciate it. Thank you.

Hi, my name is Sophie and I’m a first-time caller. I’ve been listening for a full year and before that and maybe a couple of months. My very best friend, Karen in Pennsylvania, told me about this app and when I first started listening I...I was so moved and so touched at the sound of Brian’s voice. I’m legally blind, and so voices mean a lot. And whenever I would feel alone or whenever I just couldn’t handle it I would turn to this app and listen to Brian and the Scriptures and I still tell people that, but Brian was the voice of love. I wept __ years and I didn’t know love…I did know I had to pray, but I kept trying, I kept turning to Him and eventually I found Him or He found me, He got through to me. I now…I feel like this is my family. I love you guys. I just wanted to thank you guys and I just wanted to make my place known.

Hi, this is Chaz from New York. This message is for the girl with the lumpy dog, I believe that’s what she refers to herself as. I was listening to you, I think it’s maybe the first time I’ve heard you and I just wanted to say that I love you very much and I empathize with your…with your…ordeal? I don’t know if I mean ordeal, but I empathize with the process that you are undergoing having brought my parents through cancer treatment and I just want to say a word of prayer for you, just a word of comfort and encouragement. Father, I just bring before You my precious sister. I thank You for creating her. I thank You for her life. I thank You for how for You have created her Lord God. And Lord I thank You that You know every cell in her body, You know every organ system. Lord God, You know her heart, You know her mind. Father, I place her at the foot of Your cross Lord and I pray that Your healing would take over her life. Lord God I pray that she would be a miracle Lord God amidst the physicians that are in charge of her care. Lord God that You would normalize every cell cycle Lord God of every cell in her body Lord God. Bring her body to homeostasis Lord God. Bring healing.

[thisweekingundamwing]

This Week in Gundam Wing 10-16 February 2019

Here’s this week’s roundup!

Remember to give your content creators some love! And join in on the events at the bottom!

~Mod Hel

Fanfiction/Snippets/AU Ideas:

@anaranesindanarie​

Happy Not Valentine’s Day https://archiveofourown.org/works/17776349

Trowa Barton/Duo Maxwell

Valentine’s Day, Gundam Boys use Heero as a pain measurement scale, Teasing, SO MUCH TEASING, Just do it already - Freeform, tiny bit of smut at the end, fluff?, gw valentine event 2019

Duo doesn’t see the point in Valentine’s Day.

@burningwreckage​

Lucifer https://archiveofourown.org/works/17777351

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy

Duo Maxwell, Heero Yuy, Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner

Cats, Sappy Ending, Valentine's Day, Post-Canon, GW Valentine’s Event 2019

For Valentine's Day. Duo wants a pet, but Heero is hesitant.

@doctormegalomania

Eldritch Holiday (Creature of the Night) https://archiveofourown.org/works/17802668/chapters/42002303

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy, Trowa Barton/Quatre Raberba Winner

Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell, Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner, Chang Wufei, Lady Une, Sally Po

Horror, Body Horror, Occult, Comedy, Eventual Romance, Post-Break Up

There’s something wrong with Happiness. Duo doesn’t know what, and he’s determined to find out. The rest of the Gundam Pilots tag along to make sure he doesn’t get himself killed.

@duointherain​

Beneath (Ch. 2) http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182706019769/beneath-2

disclaimer: I don’t own ‘Gundam Wing’. I also don’t own ‘Beneath’ which is a Syfy B movie I just watched and this story really doesn’t go with that one much. Monster in the water… it’s a common B movie trope.  Corvis is mine though. He gets a copyright date of 2018

Note 1:  So it’s a get together. There are elements of 1/R, ¾, and ½, there might even be a 2/R kiss in there, but in the end it’s ½, cuz that’s where my heart is.

Over a bullhorn, ancient ass technology, someone asked, “State your name and intentions!”

Beneath: An L2 Girl http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182780760504/beneath-an-l2-girl

Notes: This was just a sudden thought. As will all my work… canon? What canon? Though I hope my characterizations are good.  And I think I need a bowl of ice cream. I’m nervous to write a female pov. Also! I got up to 51 subscribers on my favorite original work today. So… Let’s see if I can do this thing! And now that I’ve done it… I hope it’s okay :)

Warnings: Graphic violence and death

Notes: beginnings of 1x2, this is set at least half a year after Beneath

She crouched behind a file cabinet, heart racing, her phone pressed to her cheek, a hand over it to hide the light. “Come on, come on! Answer the phone.”

Small Thing based off of clip http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182754323059/optimysticals-lyrangalia-tflatte

Oh man.. this is going to be a story.. .and it’s Duo in a prom tux and Relena in that pink confection of a dress that are going to do it!

Then I can see them sitting on the roof as he teaches her how to smoke and they talk about Heero’s ass…

Beneath (Ch. 1) http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182702825024/beneath-1

disclaimer: I don’t own ‘Gundam Wing’. I also don’t own ‘Beneath’ which is a Syfy B movie I just watched and this story really doesn’t go with that one much. Monster in the water… it’s a common B movie trope.  Corvis is mine though. He gets a copyright date of 2018

Note 1:  So it’s a get together. There are elements of 1/R, ¾, and ½, there might even be a 2/R kiss in there, but in the end it’s ½, cuz that’s where my heart is.

Note: If  you want to see my original stuff, it’s at www.themoonspermission.com

“This isn’t a ship,” Duo said, staring down at the rowboat. “It’s more like one of Q’s tea service bullshit things.”

@gundayum​

Courage https://archiveofourown.org/works/17776919/chapters/41945657

Duo Maxwell/Hilde Schbeiker, Relena Peacecraft/Heero Yuy

Duo Maxwell, Hilde Schbeiker, Heero Yuy

To Catty her father is a legendary hero, at least the version of him in her head. When war breaks out in her own backyard she defies her parents wishes and joins the rebellion, forcing Duo and Hilde back into combat to try and get her back.

harotype

Hearts In Space, Mk-II https://archiveofourown.org/works/17788157

Quatre Raberba Winner/Heero Yuy

GW Valentine’s Event 2019, Snark, Tea, Canon Compliant, discussion of consensual violence, references to things that happened elsewhere, Angst and Fluff and Smut, Empathy, Newtypes (Gundam Wing), Newtypes, Newtypes (in general)

On the first February 14 after the formation of the ESUN, and having very little awareness of Valentine's Day on a personal level, Quatre R. Winner receives a few things even he had no idea he was getting— all courtesy of one visitor.

@helmistress​

Curious Quat https://archiveofourown.org/works/17804942

Quatre Raberba Winner/Heero Yuy

GW Valentine's Event 2019, Cocktail Friday, Valentine's Day, V-day dates, Fluff, Snark, really bad jokes

Quatre takes his new boyfriend on a date for Valentine's Day.

@lemontrash​

If It’s Raining https://archiveofourown.org/works/17788334

Trowa Barton/Duo Maxwell

GW Valentine’s Event 2019, Sex, Kissing in the Rain, Friends to Lovers, Sex Is Fun, Accidental Relationship, Emotional Warmth, Fluff and Smut, Feel-good

It was not that they had intended to sleep together, it was just boredom and, in part, the weather. Interminable rain. Days of it, ruining the holiday. It makes the trailer a claustrophobic little tin but going out is too much of an effort.

Sprawled out full length on the couch, the resources of their four magazines and the deck of 51 cards exhausted, Duo says, as a by the by, “Hey. Do you wanna fuck?”

@lifeaftermeteor​

Saturday Snippet https://lifeaftermeteor.tumblr.com/post/182857318662/winner-family-compound-l4-v05001-30-december-210

Winner Family Compound

L4-V05001

30 December 210

@miss-m-muses​

Why Duo Does Not Like Valentine’s Day https://archiveofourown.org/works/17814422

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy

Duo Maxwell, Hilde Schbeiker, Heero Yuy

Valentine's Day Fluff, Cliche, Drabble, GW Valentine's Event 2019

“...it’s just a pointless commercial holiday designed with the intention to sell chocolates, greeting cards and flowers,” Duo complained as he picked at the remains of the crusty cheese on his plate.

@offspringchick29​

An Imperfect but Perfect Valentines Day https://archiveofourown.org/works/17790569

Duo Maxwell & Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell & Original Character(s)

Valentine's Day, Valentine's Day Fluff, Single Parents, Heero tries to be a good dad, Father - Daughter bonding, Valentine's Day plans fall apart

It’s Valentine’s Day and like most people, Heero has plans for the evening. But, what happens when your plans get thrown out the window because your child gets sick at school and you need to play the part of dad while your “date” made plans elsewhere because she felt you were taking your dad duties too seriously for her? You take it in stride and spend it with who actually is the most important girl in your life.

Fanart:

@cedesdraws​

http://cedesdraws.tumblr.com/post/182693915575/that-moment-when-you-suddenly-find-yourself

Duo Maxwell

http://cedesdraws.tumblr.com/post/182744044895/did-anyone-ask-for-modern-versions-of-the-gundam

Trowa, WuFei, Duo, Quatre, & Heero

@chemicalcrush​

https://chemicalcrush.tumblr.com/post/182821076715/now-i-am-become-death-the-destroyer-of-worlds

Deathscythe, Model

@christianmswanson​

http://christianmswanson.tumblr.com/post/182418492074/heavyarms-build-pt-1-saying-bye-bye-to-the-red

Heavyarms parts, Model (WIP)

http://christianmswanson.tumblr.com/post/182703653579/heavyarms-build-pt-2-i-havent-touched-this-thing

Heavyarms build, Model (WIP)

@duointherain​

http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182862729059

Duo Maxwell

GW Valentine’s Event 2019

http://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/182755273884

Beneath - Duo & Relena

@gundayum​

https://gundayum.tumblr.com/post/182773919146/youre-gonna-regret-giving-her-that-pop-tart

Duo Maxwell & A Kiddo

https://gundayum.tumblr.com/post/182793650851/uh-happy-valentines-day-i-guess?is_related_post=1#notes

Duo & Hilde

https://gundayum.tumblr.com/post/182841289551/so-im-writing-my-fic-with-the-intention-of-having#notes

Duo & Hilde

@heytherechief​

http://heytherechief.tumblr.com/post/182713562646/operation-meteor

Quatre, Duo, Heero, WuFei, & Trowa

@noartificialfruitjuice​

http://noartificialfruitjuice.tumblr.com/post/182855375886/zechs-is-not-a-consistent-man-by-anymeans-but-he

Zechs/Noin

GW Valentine’s Event 2019

@seitou​

http://seitou.tumblr.com/post/182749381130/heero-fidgeted-with-the-box-behind-hind-his-back

Heero/Trowa

GW Valentine’s Event 2019

@vegalume​

http://vegalume.tumblr.com/post/182835162485/clear-picture

Duo/Heero

Cosplay:

@lifeaftermeteor​

https://lifeaftermeteor.tumblr.com/post/182852730504/yeah-motherfucking-gundam-wing-skit-at-katsucon-to

KatsuCon, some random lovelies LAM saw.

Photosets/Screenshots:

@ransomedbard​

https://ransomedbard.tumblr.com/post/182775984828/incorrectgundamwingquotes-zechs-look-noin-you

@incorrectgundamwingquotes​

Zechs & Noin

https://ransomedbard.tumblr.com/post/182751527088/incorrectgundamwingquotes-hilde-manga-lied-to

@incorrectgundamwingquotes​

Hilde & Duo

Head Canons:

@lifeaftermeteor​

https://lifeaftermeteor.tumblr.com/post/182835578194

Quatre Raberba Winner

@offspringchick29​

https://www.pillowfort.io/posts/497749

Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell, Serena Yuy (OC)

Chats/Discussions:

@lemontrash​

https://lemontrash.tumblr.com/post/182707931319/ms-gundam-a-different-side-of-the-story

MS Gundam: A Different Side of the Story

World building things.

Quotes/Dialogues:

@incorrectgundamwingquotes​

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182702396231/sally-lets-talk-about-wufeis-birthday-i-think

Sally, Quatre, Duo, Heero, & Trowa

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182715086566/duo-leaving-for-a-mission-i-got-a-mission-wish

Duo, WuFei, & Heero

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182720770959/quatre-nudges-trowa-awake-at-3-am-pretty-messed

Quatre

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182730050777/wufei-duo-can-i-speak-to-you-for-a-minute-duo

WuFei & Duo

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182787161965/quatre-i-mean-its-one-banana-duo-what-could

Quatre & Duo

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182799667168/trowa-looking-at-his-wedding-photos-i-remember

Trowa & Heero

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182809255131/duo-when-he-first-stayed-at-the-maxwell-church

Duo & Father Maxwell

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182820926110/trowa-im-mysterious-but-not-on-purpose-trowa

Trowa

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182698431287/wufei-so-is-this-thing-between-barton-and-winner

WuFei & Heero

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182838526620/zechs-walks-in-on-heero-and-relena-making-out

Zechs

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/182851855808/trowa-i-might-have-depression-and-not-function

Trowa & Catherine

No Idea What To Put This Under:

@idkmybffflamingo

http://idkmybffflamingo.tumblr.com/post/182864441940/gundam-wing-episodes-re-titled-in-the-style-of

Gundam Wing episodes re-titled in the style of It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia – Episodes 41-49, plus Endless Waltz

There are 5 parts in all, this is the first one. (Hint: don’t try to actually go to their tumblr, tumblr hides it. Just use the ‘dash view’ thing if you can. You get the option to view it there.)

@lemontrash​

https://lemontrash.tumblr.com/post/182846384084/radio-meteor-episode-six-party-night

Episode 6 of Radio Meteor

Calendar Events:

@acworldbuildingzine​

FANDOM ZINE: RHYTHM GENERATION is accepting contributor applications through February 22!!

The collection will include a wide array of world building meta, articles, art, and graphics focused on science, politics, socio-economic matters, as well as art, aesthetics, and edits from the fandom’s resident experts and enthusiasts which highlight the creative dynamism that underpins the A.C. universe.

@gwcocktailfriday​

Cocktail Fridays!

Post responses on Friday, during Happy Hour between 3 & 5 pm in your own timezone.

Here’s the prompt for Friday February 22nd! https://gwcocktailfriday.tumblr.com/post/182846644749/cocktail-friday-post-responses-on-friday-february

For those going to Pillowfort, find us here.

@our-summer-of-zechs

Summer of Zechs 2019 Ideas https://our-summer-of-zechs.tumblr.com/post/181628092091/we-appear-to-still-be-up-and-running-folks

Come let us know how long this summer’s event should last!

What Month is it? https://our-summer-of-zechs.tumblr.com/post/182355135746/what-month-is-it

Come vote on a month for the event to be hosted in!

Here’s the Pillowfort discussion.

[burmecianblackmage]

Goodbye 2017 - Hello 2018

[[EDIT: tumblr did mess it up. Urgh. So this is now two hours late... sorry guys -.-]]

If tumblr doesn’t mess things up (and it hasn’t during the advent calendar, so I’m willing to give it the benefit of the doubt and assume it won’t), then this post should hit the dash exactly when the clock strikes midnight over here in Switzerland, and the new year begins. And that means it’s the perfect time to say...

Happy 2018 guys!

I hope you all will have a wonderful new year, one that will make you forget all the bad things that happened in 2017, and leave you a happy and content little human by the time 2019 rolls around in 365 days.

May your year be full of moments that make you smile, moments of love and friendship, moments of success and accomplishment, and above all, full of health and happiness. I am very happy to have met all of you, and to have interacted with you, whether it be by playing, by talking, or even just by reading some of each other’s works. You lot have been a big part in what kept me going this year, and I want you to know I’m really thankful for that. I hope we can enjoy much of the next year together as well, and that no matter where the year will lead you, you will be happy. I love you all.

As a little extra, I’ll put a little review of my and Sceada’s year under the cut - at least I hope it will remain somewhat little. But you know me... Anyhow. I’m placing it under the cut so as not to spam you, and also because I will address some stuff regarding my health and Sceada’s sexuality as well, and I know not everyone is comfortable with that. I’ll mark them with a small header so you can skip them, but I just wanted to warn you beforehand~

With that out of the way, here we go! And for those who don’t wanna read it: Happy 2018!!

The Mun’s Year in Review

Well, you all know that this year hasn’t been an easy one, and I daresay it was a rough one for everyone. Still, I do feel like I should talk a little bit about the hardships I’ve had to face, and the struggles that’ll accompany me for much of the year to come, if not the entire one. So... here goes.

Health

As many of you know, I had a tumor in December 2016, namely an Ependymom that was lodged in my spinal marrow, at about the tenth to twelfth thoracic vertebrae. It had caused me stiffness and loss of sensitivity in my legs, and once we found it, there had been little choice but to remove it asap.

Ever since then, I’ve been needing a wheelchair. And I started 2017 at rehab in the Swiss Paraplegic Center in Nottwil. Mind you, it’s probably the best facility in the world for such a situation, and I learned a ton of stuff, including how to walk again with the help of crutches - still, spending half a year stuck at rehab ain’t exactly fun.

Especially when you also have to relearn stuff like bladder management, using the toilet and what not. Do you want to take a wild guess at how helpless you feel when you can’t even go to the toilet on your own, when you can’t help but soiling yourself because you have yet to regain control over your lower body functions? If you don’t know, you don’t ever want to find out. Gods was I relieved when it all turned out to be functioning properly after all...

And it’s not like it’s been the only health thing that affected me. I needed another eye surgery, for the Keratoconus developing in my right eye after we already had to do the left one last year, and I’ve been struggling to get used to it since then. First with my old glasses, now with the new ones I still cannot wear for more than like two hours at a time... - Oh, did I mention that insurance didn’t cover the 1700.- surgery by the way? Goodbye my savings I had been clinging onto...

And let us not forget that due to my immune system having gotten weaker, I also have this amazing pleasure of falling sick faster! Stomach flu? Come right in and stay three weeks! Dizziness? Hello darkness my old friend! Regular cold? Knock me out for four days, feel free to! Urgh -.-

Add to that a heap of spasms in my left leg that have been present all along, but got considerably worse now that winter rolled around. We know by not it’s not due to the tumor resurfacing (because it can do that, they couldn’t remove it entirely after all without cutting my nerves!) but can you imagine how nervous you get while waiting for the answer? And it’s not like the spasms are any help walking either, rendering me less mobile again after I had improved so much beforehand...

But enough of that. I could sadly go on and on here (I haven’t even brushed my mental stuff yet, oh boy...), but I’ll spare you that. It’s gotten long enough as it is anyhow... Let’s move on to other topics.

Work and Finances

Look, it’s not as though I had a job really when they found the tumor - or actually, yes it is. I may have been in an internship of sorts organized by disability services, but I had a job lined up where I could have started in January - Alas, it never happened. And seeing how I can no longer work my original job in retail (no electronics store will hire someone in a wheelchair. You can’t do the cleaning jobs, can’t fill the shelves and are slow to get around. Plus, how the fuck are you gonna fetch a 55′’ TV from the storage when a customer wants to buy it?), I am now actually trying to find a new purpose for myself. Gladly, disability services will help me with that... though it won’t be easy, and I dunno if I’ll be ready to start a new apprenticeship in summer like they hope. Cause it’s unlikely any spots will still be available...

Still, they are hopeful, and in order to get me back in the swing, they placed me in the same internship/training thing again, starting with just two hours daily. By now I’m in the office the entire morning on weekdays, and it’s going good so far. I’ll be there at least three more months.

And then, who knows? Maybe they’ll send me into finances and banking, or perhaps communal administration? We’ll see.

What is upsetting is the financial situation though. Due to being at rehab, I had to file for social aid - and the money they give me is very, very little for swiss measures. While I was at rehab, it was about 240, now it’s roughly 760 I get - even though I do actually get almost 3500 per month for the internship form disability services. But all that goes to social services to “pay off the debt”... Urgh >.>

For reference, an average 42 hours per week job in retail would pay between 3900 and 4200 per month. So yeah... Granted, they cover my health insurrance (which is 55o-ish per month, mind you!), but it’s still rough... The price levels here in Switzerland are just so damn high...

Social Life

Which leads me to this... I barely ever go out anymore these days. I can’t afford doing much, and what little I do afford is a pain to do due to the wheelchair. I can no longer just spontaneously go somewhere, or attend an event, I always need someone to drive me or even join me - and that inevitably leads to you not doing much anymore, you know?

I barely have any real contact with my rl friends anymore, I at most attend a MTG event every 3 months (PreReleases, nothing more sadly...), my DnD group also fell apart (though that was unrelated)... - Honestly, if it weren’t for you guys here online, especially those who talk to me on Discord and such, I’d be completely socially isolated, and that sucks. It sucks big time...

Gladly my girlfriend sticks with me, believes in me and loves me. Even if I can’t see her as much anymore, as we both can’t really afford the flights to visit each other, which is rather lonely too... We only managed to afford a few weeks in August together, when she visited me here with my room still unfinished. If the paraplegic foundation didn’t have the kindness to pay for her flights and hotel in March while I was still at rehab, that’d have been the only time I’d seen her this entire year....

So yeah. Things aren’t easy right now. Which is why I hope... next year will see improvements. It just has to...

Sceada’s Year in Review

When the last year ended, Sceada was a heartbroken virgin longing for affection and deeply missing the woman he loved, Leonora. He knew who he was though, a talented mage and a scholar of old languages who found work here and there, traveling wherever he pleased and slowly but surely building friendships with more and more people.

If you look at him now, he is instead riddled by insecurities, questions pretty much everything about himself to the point he is neglecting work at times in order to investigate his origins and maybe find his father. And the answers he longs for. Oh, he’s also entered a relationship with Maria and become - and here I quote Locke who was very, very pissed about this a few days ago - an accomplished lover.

But let’s look at things a bit more step by step, shall we?

A brief overview

Following Leonorâ’s prolonged absence, Sceada begins looking for other sources of affection, becoming rather flirty and sometimes even bold with Fran and Selphie, while deepening his friendship with Maria during their trip and afterwards

Sceada and Maria get rather close following him finding her having a nightmare, and staying with her to offer comfort

Leila captures the mage and, after tying him to her bed and appealing to his curiosity, takes his virginity. Later a second encounter occurs, where he they both are drunk at a Festival, before parting ways again.

Upon having spent Valentine’s Day with his friend Maria, Sceada discovers he has developed feelings for her. However, when voicing them, he finds them to be unrequited, and he tries to distance himself from her for a while.

Leonora finally returns, and during the initial happiness the two share a passionate night before the Sage encourages Sceada to follow his heart and pursue Maria, suggesting he could be or become polyamorous.

Sceada spends more time together with Maria, becoming closer again, but is content with just being friends. This changes when the pair are attacked by Coeurls, and Sceada nearly sacrifices himself to protect her, causing Maria to realize her feelings. When he recovers, the two become a pair, and slowly, over time, grow closer and closer.

Conflicted by his feelings for both Maria and Leonora (and to an extent, Leila as well...), Sceada seeks out a Goddess of Love, looking for advice. His silent hopes for reassurance in loving both women are however aptly crushed when the deity questions his motives for loving them, leading him to realize how much suppressed doubt and insecurity he has carried with himself.

Upon trying to tell Leonora more about Maria, Sceada’s motives are once again questioned, leading to an unfortunate argument that exposes a lack of trust on his end that Sceada had not been aware of. Unwilling to let herself be hurt by this any longer, Leonora suggests they part ways - they have not seen each other nor communicated in any way since then.

Sceada tries to forget about it all, hoping he could overcome it all with Maria’s love. However, when she wishes to take their relationship to the next step, he feels guilty over not having told her, and in the subsequent conversation many an uncomfortable truth and emotion are laid bare. Still, the pair reconcile, staying together and eventually consummate on their relationship.

Knowing that he will not be able to ignore the burning questions in his heart and mind any longer, Sceada begins to prepare to leave on a journey, just as the Goddess had suggested. He arranges for the eventuality that he might not return with his old rival Seshat Khnum, but before he can leave, Maria implores him to stay with her until the new year.

Making the most of this opportunity, Sceada holds his advent calendar again, and at the end of the year, attends the Garden Festival organized by Selphie.

Of course, there have been plenty of other plays as well, and I wouldn’t miss any of them. For example, Sceada finally opening up to Freya, or adventuring together with Jack in order to grab a certain book from the library of Burmecia, and all the shenanigans with little Stabby McStabstab Vani the Helfling Rogue - There was so much I adore, and not enough room here to mention them all. Just know that I loved all of our interactions!

A little note about the Smut

Yes, you read that right. I already mentioned stuff further up, but I still wanna note it here too, and add what’s missing up there.

We’ve already seen that he slept with Leila twice and Leonora once before he then got together with Maria, and well... let’s just say that those two may have taken a long time to get started, but haven’t been exactly innocent since - Sindays ahoy, is all I’ll say ;) But there have also been others, which I am not yet exactly certain whether to consider them canon to his main story, or separate cases - there’s merit in both, mind you, and I’ll probably ask the ladies involved eventually too. But who were they?

There is an as of yet unfinished thread with Fran, where the two engage in intimacies in a spring in the woods, after Sceada followed her and her enticing scent. One could argue that this is mainly heat relief, but it is not as though Sceada is exactly unwilling or that he is uninterested in the beautiful Viera...

The few encounters he’s had with Selphie were things got frisky somehow all share a similar pattern: Be it a playful argument, a bet they had or simply because sharing a bed leads to some “friction”, there is always something triggering the situation getting a bit more intimate and well... no one can deny that Selphie is a person you can have much fun with...

I also want to mention Aria, though the way our plays so far have played out, I kinda headcanon it as the two of them having been willing to get more physical three times so far, and Sceada stopping it each time because he noticed Aria wasn’t certain about it, and quite nervous, even afraid at times. And if there’s one thing he wants more than to avoid hurting her, it’s for her to enjoy this decision and not regret it... Perhaps the moment will still come, should we resume playing and point them in that direction.

There are two more ladies I played with, where things are rather kinky. One of them is on Discord and a fellow Black Mage, who’s been tons of tun to write with - the other a blog dedicated to sinful threads. I’ll refrain from naming either for now, as these two are likely to remain their own verses.

Final notes

Finally, I’d like to mention that there is also one more I play with on Discord after she left tumblr, and that her muse Anima is a pleasure to write with in all three verses we came up with. Also, I just wanna thank everyone who played with me this year, and I look forward to continue doing so - as well as meet new people!

Sceada will soon leave on his journey, and that means there is plenty of room for new friendships to be forged, and acquaintances to be made - or rivalries and enmities! I’m open for anything!

With that said, if you’re still reading this, I apologize for rambling for so long. I wish you a very, very good new year and thank you for putting up with me! Have fun tonight, have fun the entire next year, and I hope to interact with you again in 2018!!

Thanks for everything,

Patrick~

[sunnytellings]

1/18/2019 Dear you, from me the naked bitch. (Very rambl-y day of when ideas occured aka I wasn't venting on only one person for one moment, thoughts came to me throughout the day in a back and forth fashion...)

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Fernando ideas: -"I value family more than you do all I'd rather see the girl unhappy with me than happy and single..." -Make sure they have the same definition of a relationship as you do. & Success? -Tinder bio: My happiness comes first I shouldn't have to say it though.... -You aren't sensitive to discussion -Did he block me on snap chat -Don't play word games with someone who can play better? -I'm the example of not putting career before popping out kids. Failed at both. -"Anti-abortion" I dropped it, he didn't drop his values on the jailed and no dad correlation -Him: I'm deciding if I'm never speaking to you again -If you're not going to respect me, it's not love

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Guys who's family sibling dynamic is two boys and parents: bikerdude, Lucifer, Fernando, Monet

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Old guy was talking on the phone in the middle of the night or early sunrise... Then I wake up to pee That lasts a while.. Took my notes then slept from 8-11 am The Ross jobs aren't on the website anymore Found palomino on sunnies friend list.. Emailed siren Got pills before Faviola appointment

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And the weak shall inherit the earth #athletes #nopain #nogain ..working out is hard...

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Again with the bs w/my mom I don't say shit. I walk into the kitchen. I've only worked out over three hours with no food. No big deal. She starts demanding, oh why do you get so mad bitch. STFU. You're the one who made the mistake. Gives no fucks. And starts 1) looking me up and down. 2) "it was a misunderstanding." Anything so I look hysterical right... but anyways. No. I communicated.. You said ok twice. Then since I don't back down and I say this wasn't a misunderstanding. The mistake was not mine. Why the fuck are you blaming me? Go buy a carpet for that asian dick you love having here.

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Lucas- He shamed me for liking him Then the world shamed me for not liking him enough He didn't like me liking him, during or after... "this is what you like"

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At appointment: I told Faviola I'm not going to validate her. When after all I've been through in school all she does is yell at me and over anything Angel the loser does. I'm 30 accomplished and he's 12 always getting suspended.

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Fernando: For a psychology major he sure...has a lot of things he hasn't let go.

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If there had been dating apps when I was young, I could have had a choice...

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Lucas: How complicated is it to think the bitch would want to lose it on Valentine's day. The day to celebrate having someone. I'm demanding? It's the least you could do for a virgin that you're all happy for. And honestly, you were probably a v too. And lied about losing it in Boston on winter break your frosh college year. Especially after that night you're not looking at me, I cried, and you said nothing then in the morning are like it's not a big deal, if you think about it. Nope! Might have not been! But you sure made it one! Trauma bonding me to your loser ass! I wanted to chill and hang out you know, like college kids. But you're all insecure at a rich school still hung up on some white bitch you didn't get your frosh year.

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Fernando: Like they were married. Cliche Latinos? Either she was hella dumb..and tried to backtrack asap? Or he hella started fucking up with his stank breath, gaining weight, etc

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At this point I think guys have way more baggage about sex than girls...girls are always talking about it or guys with friends, learning to dance, getting paid to strip, & granted both genders' parents are probably not talking about it either. But I think the guys first mistake is believing rap. And virgin guy buddies and by virgin I mean not ever talking to a girl either..or having respect for their mom/female family members, aaaaand classmates.

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Ig end quotes: She doesn't need you. She wants you. Don't confuse the two. Self esteem is the ability to see yourself as a flawed individual & still hold yourself in high regard A female best friend who acts more often like a boy is a blessing (Your smile speaks for itself) Jackie Mitchell You cannot give another human being the responsibility of your happiness When you can tell your story & it doesn't make you cry, you know you've healed..

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Last thought before passing out: That alfaro Togo's guy HIT me, then didn't let me go Greek (panhellenic). I talked to him, I talked to PETTY-never-grew, and it was funny to them. That theyhave had that power over me, that's what I would prefer to do, and I had no choice in the matter. What was it, like literally $50 minimum wage/weekend if that for the rest of my life..