#HONESTLY I'M STILL SCREAMING

[nightwingshero]

"We love you and we will take you."

I had the absolute pleasure and honor to commission @delicateweapon to do the church scene with my respective FC5 babes. You got the vibes perfectly, and that contrast between Wren and Whitney is so spot on too! Its so good to see Rowan and Randy, and Rowan taking Jacob's spot is just...I can't stop staring at this piece. And Whitney as the Mother...I'd follow her anywhere. This was one of the big pieces that I have waited years to get and I'm so glad that I entrusted this to you. You've brought this to life in the most beautiful way and I'm trying not to cry because I'm so happy to finally see this happen. Nika, you're so talented and I'm so thankful to you for doing this for me. I honestly can't thank you enough, words are failing me, and as a writer, it means a lot. If anyone is looking to commission her, absolutely do it if you get the opportunity. You will not be disappointed. Super talented and an absolute sweetheart.

[brother-emperors]

I love how much Lucullus can't stand Pompey, and also this

Pompey the Great: A Political Biography, Robin Seager

with something from this thrown in for extra flavor

Crassus and Pompey, on the other hand, ridiculed Lucullus for giving himself up to pleasure and extravagance, as if a luxurious life were not even more unsuitable to men of his years than political and military activities.

Plutarch, Lucullus

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[arrgh-whatever]

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p-permission granted

[yesokayiknow]

human au. some of these guys spend too much time on here and it shows

[north-noire]

father-daughter duo but with their usual expressions swapped.

[sysig]

Two big softies(?) (Patreon)

[seaofreverie]

A (very random) observation

[moe-broey]

Amateur Hour but I gotta outsource this. Aromantics. Heed my call. What is "romantic" love to a non-believer?

Bonus Round if you're not entirely ace -- does experiencing any amount of sexual attraction influence your answer? Also acknowledging that both aro/ace identities exist on a spectrum. Believe me. I am deeply familiar... with so many kinds of spectrums........... 🧍

Also if this breaches containment It's Not That Serious........... just a personal question. For a friend. Me 🙂‍↕️

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

if dorian didn't show up, do you think louis would have shot minnie?

I do. I know some people think either he wouldn't have or he would've missed so that's why the writers had him shoot Dorian instead, but mmmmmm no, I don't personally think so. I like to think that if he had taken the shot, his shaky hands would've caused him to shoot her fatally.

Mostly because I'm already so normal about the fact that of the Ericson crew, Marlon and Louis are the only ones with a body count. Well, that we know of, but shown to us in the game, at least. Plus, we know it's Louis' first kill.

Like yeah, Clementine and AJ become part of the crew and they have bigger body counts, and if we're counting indirect kills caused by actions, then Tenn has a count... and I guess everyone has blood on their hands for blowing up the boat... but I'm talking about killed directly with a weapon like....... I lied, I'm not normal about that at all, Louis and Marlon are the ones who have killed someone in Louis' route. I'm also not normal about the fact that Louis kills Dorian and then even as he's clearly in shock, he tries to go with Clementine to get AJ, and then later on when they talk about it, he says it feels like bile but not quite and he's glad he has it in him to do it.... listen, listen, listen... I'm obsessed with that.

Anyway, so if Louis shot Minerva, I think he would've accidentally killed her and can you imagine? He's already enough of a mess after killing the woman who pinned him down and tried to cut his finger off [or succeeded] but he knew Minerva, they were friends before the twins were taken. Even Violet couldn't kill her even though that would've been the smarter thing to do, and we know thanks to meta knowledge that killing her would've saved lives, but Violet couldn't, and I don't think Louis would intentionally either.

Speaking of Violet, if Louis killed Minerva, I hate to think about what that would've done to Vi. I think she might've actually left at that point, like what was planned before it got changed to her being burned. I don't think she would've attacked Louis over it, though, like yeah she attacked Clementine in the cell but Louis? I don't know, but I don't think so just because it's Louis and he'd be a mess about it anyway.

Though if he did kill her, it would be a neat parallel to draw... y'know, because Louis forgave AJ for killing Marlon even though he was pissed and heartbroken, and Violet was annoyed with him the entire time... but could she ever forgive Louis for killing Minerva? Y'know? We already have a similar parallel with AJ shooting Tenn, but still.

If Clementine killed Minerva in that moment, though, then I could see Violet attacking her since in her eyes, Clem proved her right.

So yeah, I get why they added the Dorian kill to his route. It adds another compelling element to Louis as a character, but we also need Minerva alive for episode 4; Louis can't kill her, he can't miss, and he's not going to stay with her because we need Violet to stay on the boat and him to be on shore for all routes.

[trashlie]

Continued dumb things that rattle around in my noggin at like, all times.

This is nothing new, of course; we have talked to DEATH how significant that moment of surprise is in the context of quimchee revealing that Nol likes a nice smile. But the additional context I enjoy is that we know by this stage the friendships Nol meant to be pretend were so real. We already can glean that Nol was very drawn to Shinae in a genuine way - both as a person he wanted to help but also as a friend he earnestly wanted to be friends with.

But, correct me if I'm wrong, this is the first time he sees her smile like that - at a time when she's clearly uncomfortable and miserable on the spot in front of so many people, without her comfort jacket, at an event he knows she's being forced to attend. And it's because of him.

Nol's whole thing is helping people, putting good back into the universe, trying to improve situations for other people. He's surely made Dieter and Soushi smile and laugh.

But here it feels SO loaded and significant. Shinae with her tall, dense walls. Shinae who has been so difficult to reach. Shinae whose friendship he genuinely wants, genuinely enjoys, despite how she tried to stay safe in her shell, in this uncomfortable moment laughing and smiling in such a bright radiant way.

He's a sucker for a good smile.

And he brought her that comfort.

I don't think it's necessarily an attraction thing as much as it's one of those very important bricks laid in their foundation. Nol doesn't in that moment consciously realize he likes Shinae. I think something just strikes him in that moment. That smile, that radiant joy, makes him feel something he can't identify.

THINK ABOUT IT. He's just come back from meeting Alyssa who immediately took off after Meg even though they haven't met in so long. Standing here watching Shinae endure an awkward, uncomfortable dance in front of strangers, everyone recognizes Kousuke - but not Nol. He's a stranger to his family's world, even to his girlfriend. He's just another guy in the crowd.

But there's Shinae, who sees him. The same Shinae who has taken notice of his scuffed knuckles. The same Shinae who, after the dance, immediately goes to him and asks about him.

It's no wonder he says this.

I think seeing Shinae at the formal, clearly against her will, is the moment Nol remembers what happens to people he cares about. He got invested, he sought her friendship, and even though he doesn't know why she's there, he's certain it's her proximity to him. Even before Sangchul, before the pool, Nol remembered the danger.

It's after this he gives Kousuke his word that he'll avoid Shinae, and I think that's why. He already had the intention of distancing himself. It was supposed to be fake and he knew it wasn't and that he doesn't deserve her friendship he put her in danger by showing interest. She had drawn boundaries, she didn't even really want his friendship it'd be fine.

But then he made her laugh. But then she spotted him when no one else did. Then she burst into that bright, radiant laughter because of him and he probably knew: it was too late. He screwed up and yet....

Nothing is okay everything is messed up but he puts on that mask anyway. For friendship. Because he needs to. For her comfort. So he can convince himself he can actually pull away. So he can convince himself it doesn't mean anything else.

So he can convince himself someone cares about him, that maybe something is real even if real means danger.

(But he can't and we know it and we watch it over and over. It's too late and he just can't stay away.)

[samcscreams]

Tara Knows AU: previous

“She know. Oh fuck. She knows.” Sam says as she jumps out of bed and makes it about two steps before collapsing on the floor. This might be the most hungover she’s ever felt.

Crawling towards the water and meds Tara had left for her, she tries to remember the night before.

“Come on Sam” she mutters to herself as she swallows the pills and chugs the water. Using her night stand she pushes herself up to try and walk again. She fails and falls back onto her bed.

“Moving can wait. First think” she says to herself

Sam ponders the night before. Rubbing her temples she remembers the party she went to and the six pack she brought. She remembers smoking on the back porch and someone yelling shots causing her to stumble back in side. She remembers thinking one won’t hurt. Oh fuck but it wasn’t just one. She blacked out. Normally Sam could put a few things together the next day. A blurry version of how she got home and got to bed. But nothing would appear in her head this time.

That’s when it hit her. She was gonna puke. Now Sam’s always been strong. She NEVER wanted to be the waisted girl at a party with her head in a toilet. She became a master of holding it down even the next day. She already had to deal with her mother drunk out of her mind. She didn’t want to be like that. Was she like that? Had she turned into her mother already? Was turning into her father not far behind? Sam’s head was spinning she had to move now or she’d be scrubbing her sheets all day.

With all the might she had she forced herself out of bed and down the hall to the bathroom slamming the door behind her and lunging towards the toilet.

Tara with her bedroom door open sees her sister fly by making her jump a bit.

“Sam?”

Sam, already hacking her guts up doesn’t hear her sister call after her

Tara, again was straddling the thought, help or don’t help. There’s so much she wanted to ask, to say. But the fear of pushing her sister away gripped her throat. Sam would come to her when shes ready, She thought to herself.

Through watery eyes and shaky hands Sam pulled her self off the toilet and stumbled over to the sink. She turned the faucet on and splashed her face. Life couldn’t possibly get any worse than this she thought to herself. It could and it would. Sam grabs the towel that’s next to her to dry her face. With a big sigh she finally looks up to see the mess she had become only to be startled by the dark brooding eyes of her father.

It had only been 6 months since she was diagnosed with schizophrenia and a year since she started to see him. Her meds helped but they were far from perfect. Certain drugs, and alcohol helped the sounds and sights quite. But with every success there’s always a failure. At 17 she was offered LSD for the first time. She thought oh what the hell what’s the worse that could happen. He is. He is the worst that could happen. All of here fear and worries perfectly personified into the one person she hated the most. Billy Fucking Loomis. Her father.

“No, fuck, not now” Sam said

“Oh yes now. Isn’t this amazing! She knows! God I can’t wait for you to tell her all about me” Billy said with a twinkle in his eye

“Tell her about you? In what demented world would I tell her about you?” Sam snaps back

“You really want to let her cultivate an opinion on her own Sam? Asking her little friends about me? How do you think that will go Sam? She’s your family don’t be so naïve. They’ll take her away from you.” His voice was low and sharp

Silence filled the air. Sam just stared at her father mouth slightly agape

“You know I’m right Sam. Come on. She’s your sisters Sam. SHES YOURS” His voice grew loud and angry snapping sam out of the trance like state she was in.

Sam shut her eye trying to make him go away “No no no she’s… she’s not mine. She couldn’t understand. I… i…”

“You can’t run away from this Sam.” He said

“Oh yes I can” she sneered

“You’re almost my age, it’s time to face the facts.” He said sternly.

“I…” Sams voice broke as she realized it’s true, her 18th birthday was but weeks away.

“Now that she knows you can do it together. How fucking cool would that be.” He continued

“Tara’s good. She would never been like you. She’s pure” Sam scoffed

Her sister could never be like him. She has no connection to him. Her blood isn’t tainted the way Sam's is.

“She might not be my blood Sam. But she’s is yours” he said while laughing

Sam couldn’t take it anymore and ran out of the bathroom hearing her fathers bellowing laugh follow in her ears. Only to not see Tara in the hallway and slamming right into her knocking them both down.

“Ow geez” Tara said rubbing her head

“Oh fuck Tara I’m sorry I didn’t see you” Sam said scrambling to her sister to help her up

“I’m fine. I’m more worried about you” Tara said as she stood up.

Sam’s immediate reaction is to push away and shut down. But the burning questions pertaining to the night before left her feeling extremely vulnerable

“Tara… I…” Sam at a total loss for words just looked at her sister. Those big brown eyes staring up at her begging for her big sister to let her in. Sam could feel the pin prick of tears behind her eyes and the fear gripping her guts.

“Saaaammm. Tell her. Tell her about me. Teach her Sam” Billy echoed through her head

“I… I can’t I’m sorry” Sam managed to finish as she took off to her bedroom leaving Tara abandoned on the hallway.

“Sammy please” Tara shouted. Surprising both herself and Sam.

Sam standing in front of her bed room door eyes locked on the door handle she had in her hand.

Tara feeling miles away yet only a few feet down the hall took a step towards her older sister. Tara didn’t know what she was going to do but she knew she couldn’t let her sister go. Not yet.

“I don’t know if you understood me this morning. But I know. And I don’t care Sammy. please I need you to talk to me” Tara barely finished before tears flooded her eyes.

“I know. I just. I don’t know how to talk.” Sam said as she fought every instinct to run to her sister and hold her while she cried.

“I don’t either. Maybe we can not know together.” Tara said with a shaky voice causing Sam to finally look up at her

“You don’t have to be alone anymore.” Tara exhaled wishing she could say what she truly wanted

“I don’t want to be alone anymore”

[meraki-yao]

How does he look so good after getting off an international flight??

GOOD FUCKING QUESTION, I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW

And he actually got off the plane with his hair fine! Idk what the fuck happened after customs or on his way out that made his hair stand up, but even then he be looking great

AND AS IF THAT WASN'T ENOUGH, LITERALLY LIKE A LITTLE OVER AN HOUR AFTER HE LEFT THE AIRPORT, HE CLEANED UP ALL NICE AND IS NOW ATTENDING AN EVENT?????

WHAT THE FUCK TAYLOR, WHAT THE FUCK YOU MAGICAL MAN

[horangslay]

well my day is ruined, Jeonghan is going to enlist like the next 6(ish) weeks so no more ot13 until 2030...

[wistfulwatcher]

i feel like your roman candle; misty/nat, 8k, explicit

written in response to a series of tumblr erotic prompts (since i ended up getting many more than i was expecting, i have combined the ones that fit!).

prompts used: caught masturbating, torn lace, against the wall, fingers (@igotreallyreallytiredofmyoldurl), “do that again”, hair, panting, love bites, taste, restrained, desperate, tease, on the edge, and in public (if you squint)

read here on ao3

[ashton-slashton]

Btw when I say like,,, folk horror was made for me, I mean shit like "I grew up in a conservative cult town with a population of 200 and was so fucked up over my coming of age, despite my parents telling me all that it entails, because I didn't know I was trans, and for a time I legitimately thought I was a werewolf (not in a fun wolf kid way but in a scary Ginger Snaps way) and would frequently go deep into the woods on our 250 acre farm in the pouring rain to scream and thrash around Possession (1981) Style until I had exhausted myself and then trudge home."

Like. I'm some semblance of normal now but I was a legitimately weird and fucked up kid who knew something was wrong with him and that has definitely Shaped Me in some way.

Anyway I love folk horror. Show me more people dancing naked in the woods please.

[moffnat]

okay. it's time i broke my silence. i'm obsessed with baldur's gate 3 and it has brought me back to tumblr in the Year Of Our Lord 2023. i haven't been active on tumblr since the dark days of GoT. im fucking insane