#HER LITTLE EYELASHES IM GONNA CRY

[starfishsonny]

**cue chinese new year by sales**

[konigsblog]

simon riley as a dad.

a/n; in this, simon is a single dad. please leave requests in my inbox, they're always open !! will make a part two if requested !!!

second photo isn't mine, message me the creators name and i'll update it ☀️

simon was definitely nervous to become a father. the thoughts of becoming like his own plagued his mind, stress forming as the due date came closer.

his beautiful baby girl was born. wipsy blonde hair, eyes lile her mothes, a birthmark on her chest, above her heart. he couldn't help himself, sobbing whilst he held his newborn, his little girl immediately calming down as soon as she was placed on his hands, eyes widening and staring at him with adoration and love, raising her small hand to his cheek.

the only person that new about simon's daughter was price, a man he could trust. it wasn't that he couldn't trust johnny or kyle, it would be easier to tell price as simon himself viewed price as a father. showing him the polaroid photos of his girl, smiling underneath the mask while talking about her.

it's her first day if school, and simon is unsure if he can let her go. he watches as the other adults send their kids off, hugging them goodbye whilst they skipped into school. his eyes glistening, becoming glossy as he held her tight, rocking her from side to side, forcing his tears back before kissing her forehead.

- “dad, i met a boy in my class!!” she yells out, excited to have made a new friend. the word ‘boy’ lingers in his mind. boy, oh god.

helping her with her homework after school seems boring and uninteresting, but to simon, everything about his daughter is exciting and interesting, it's his favourite part of the day; waking up and greeting her, watching as she scoffs down her breakfast, laughing and giggling with him.

i think by the times johnny and kyle figure out simon has a daughter, she's probably be around four. they literally yelled, unsurprisingly and exactly how he thought they'd react. rolling his eyes, yet a smirk hidden under his skull mask. - “the fuck do you mean you have a daughter??”

she definitely looks up to him. talks about him constantly with her guy friend. mentions that she wanted to do what he does for work, causing simon to spit his tea our and nearly have a panic attack at the thought. curling up to her, letting her rest her head on his chest as she took an afternoon nap after school, playing with her dirty blonde hair.

soap meeting her for the first time was definitely something.. he literally was jumping up and down the entire time, launching himself at the poor little girl infront of him, sobbing and whining because she didn't know who this freak was.

calmed down after simon explained that he was his colleague. price scolding him, simon glaring, kyle trying his absolute hardest not to start crying from laughter. - “oh my god, you're simons daughter!?!” johnny screams.

played games with kyle. beat him every single time - got accused of cheating.

price is calm, probably met her before the rest, letting her sit next to him while she talks about the her friend. raising his eyebrow to simon teasingly as she mentions the same boy, laughing at his expression, angered and terrified of a four year old - probably threatens to beat him up before reminded that was a kid.

as the future comes, she gets a boyfriend, and unexpectedly, and unsurprisingly, it's that same boy. literally is gritting his teeth and lecturing her. - “careful, kid. i know you think you love him, but he could be a shit person, 'alright? i'm not gonna let some boy hurt and ruin my daughter.” - “dad, im literally five.”

johnny becomes close with her (after attacking her) letting her out make-up on him. eyeshadow on his cheeks, lip stick on his eyes, false eyelashes on his lips. and kyle has a botched manicure, some nails placed on his palm.

- i can't be bothered adding anything more since it's nighttime, and i'm pretty tired 😵‍💫 tell me your thoughts and opinions ! :)

- will make a part two if wanted and requested.

[jj-maybanks-daughter]

shark

john bs little sister, y/n routledge got attacked by a shark while surfing with the pogues

warnings- blood, sharks, drowning 

a/n- please don’t read if your afraid of sharks. however, what you read  is not my responsibility  

y/n walked from her room to the living room where all the pogues are. “can someone go out to surf with me? i don’t like being alone and i really want to go out”

“sure.” john b said 

“i’ll go!” pope added, smiling

“im in” jj yelled 

kiara and sarah looked at eachother and shrugged.

they all got ready to surf. y/n had a pink bikini on and brought her white board

“ew look at the water it’s all grey” sarah said disgusted pointing to the water. 

“your fineeee” john b joked. “let’s go”

they swam out into the water. the waves were pretty calm. y/n had drifted off while she was laying on her board.

they layed there for a while, hopeful some nice waves will come in.

the salt air had y/ns y/h/c hair all wavy and perfect. everything was perfect. until something was under y/n. she didn’t notice, she was falling asleep laying on her stomach. both feet and right hand in the water.

out of nowhere, there was a splash. the shark had gotten y/ns left leg, tearing it to shreds as it had held her underwater. blood curdling screams were coming from her mouth underwater, begging that someone would hear her. 

“y/n?” sarah asked, noticing there was a splash and she wasn’t on her board.

the shark brought her above water and she screamed. he leg was being ripped off by a thousand stake knife’s, and she couldn’t get away. i was like she was in a car wash, but instead of soapy clean sponges, it was razor sharp knife’s. 

“oh shit” john b paddled over to her fast and got her in his arms. the water was red and thick. the pogues watched with shock in their eyes. “call 911!” john b screamed as he sucker punched the shark. it finally swam away, not after taking another bite.

kie and sarah rode a wave in to shore in a panic and grabbed their phones. 

“911, what’s your emergency” the operator  spoke through the phone

“hi um we have a 15 year old female that just got t attacked by a shark” sarah cried with a shaky voice into the phone

“is she conscious and where was the bite”

“i don’t know, she’s still out in the water but the shark is gone now. uh- i think it’s her leg”

“ok. i’m just going to send a medivac to your location. stay on the line.”

“ok” sarah was crying.

“y/n, talk to me, your ok” john b said as she layed on the board slipping in and out of consciousness. “come on, kid give me something here” he slapped her face gently a few times to keep her awake

jj and pope had rushed over to help, but there was nothing they could really do. once they had gotten to where they could stand jj tied the leash of his surfboard around her leg as tight as he could to stop the bleeding. it was gruesome and horrific but they were gonna do what they had to to save y/n

“jj?” she asked in a hushed, raspy voice as they swam her back to shore.

“i’m here, i’m here” jj said brushing her wet hair out of her face, trying to put on a brave face for her

“i can’t feel anything” she said closing her eyes slowly. he watched her eyelashes flutter in pain, shock and fear coating her glassy eye.

“i know, i know, keep your eyes open, your gonna be alright” 

the boys and y/n got to shore after fighting with the fast crashing waves and rip current 

“y/n, they have a medivac coming for you ok?” john b said as he tightened the makeshift tourniquet to where if it was her neck, she wouldn’t be able to breath

“that hurts, john b, stop your hurting me” she was crying and trying to catch her breath

“i know, i know, im sorry. we need to stop the bleeding and this is the only way i can do it. if i didn’t have to i wouldn’t”

her eyes were heavy and she was pale pink. her lips were chapped and had blood all over her. her pink bathing suit and white board were stained with a dark red

“jj?” she pleaded as she opened her eyes in pain

“yes?” he asked.

“i’m scared” 

“me too, we all are. your…” he paused, not knowing if the next statement was true “your gonna be ok” it was convincing him and the pogues as much as it was her.

“i’m cold” she said, lifting her head to see what john b was doing. she also was looking for a towel or be wrapped around in.

john b nudged her back down to the towel her head was resting on “don’t look, it’s ok” he didn’t want her to see her own leg that was bleeding profusely and had muscle and bone popping out at every spot.

“i’m cold…” she drifted off. she was trying to stay awake, but she was just too tired. 

“oh shit” pope tried to wake her up by squeezing her face, but it was no use. he checked to see if she was breathing. she wasn’t conscious a few times, but not like this. she was still. her eyes were shut. not shut in a fluttering way, but a frozen way. her flushed chapped lips parted and still. she didn’t flinch at any contact. she was out.

pope tapped her face a few times, looking for signs that she was just sleeping. she was frozen. she was still bleeding, which in this case, was a good sign. he put his ear to her chest to listen. she was breathing.

john b walked away, crying “come on y/n/n, your ok, they’re almost here” he said as he paced back and forth while pope was examining her conditions.

“she’s still breathing, just make sure it stays that way” pope directed jj to put his finger under her nose to monitor her breathing. he put his bloodied finger under her nose. and his ear on her chest.

sarah walked away to john b, holding him in a bear hug as they both cry, looking towards an almost lifeless y/n. their usual bubbly, energetic, and crazy y/n was just attacked by a shark which left her bleeding with a leg bearly on the bone.  they could everything that made up the leg. there was no way they could keep reattach it, even though the hoped.

“damn it! we should’ve just stayed at home” jj screamed, pulling at the roots of his hair. he walked away to wash his bestfriends sisters blood from his calloused hands 

kiara sat there in shock. mouth wide open, eyes in a bliss. she was somewhere else. trapped in the memory of what just happened to her friend. they knew they couldn’t do anything about it. they had give. every effort to stop the bleeding, that being all they could really do.

out of no where, a scream of pain came from y/n. “help me, somebody help me” she begged, looking into popes chocolate brown eyes with a plead. “i need help please” she sobbed. she caught a glimpse of her leg. the one she had used for surfing, running, swimming. everything she loved to do. it’s been with her forever. she was shocked and in an unbearable pain. 

“calm down, calm down, your ok, the medivac will be here any minute ok? you need to relax” he said, rubbing the top of her wet with seawater head in an effort to calm her down. 

“where’s john b? i need john b. i- i need him” she stuttered, looking around for him as she grabbed the top of her thigh, whining in pain. 

john b came running back, leaving sarah. “your ok, hunny im right here i walked away cause you were unconscious, ok, im right here” john b caressed her cheek with his thumb, wiping away her tears and blood

“i don’t think im gonna be ok…” she reached up to grab john bs face and smiled “can you make sure jj knows i love him… please” she sighed and looked back down. she loved jj. she had since forever. she didn’t want herself to die, and what she really thought about for the past seven years of her life to be unknown.

“you can tell him once your ok. your gonna be ok” john b said crying “your gonna be ok”

sarah and kiara were sobbing at the deck of the chateau, sitting in the chairs on the deck. sarah’s head was in her hands that were being held up by her elbows. kiara’s head was against the wood boarding of the chaout looking up to the sky in a plead.

the medivac swooped in to get y/n. she was conscious but had lost a lot of blood and her leg was bearly hanging on. the loaded her up and she said goodbye to the pogues with tears in her eyes. “it was nice being with you guys. i love you” 

once she was being lifted away, they all sat there in silence, all of them covered in her blood and were shocked and crying.

“come on, we have to meet her at the hospital” jj said getting off the beach to get the twinkie. he was covered in sand and blood, but john b didn’t mind 

“let’s go” john b squeezed sarah in a hug as they walked to the car, knowing there was a good chance she was dead by now.

jjs bloody hands drove them to the hospital which was 45 minutes away. 45 minutes of silence. 45 minutes of fear. 45 minutes of grieving someone who they didn’t know was even gone

he pulled into a parking spot and they all hopped out. 

they got to the front office. none of them wanted to ask where she was, not wanting to know if she was gone. they didn’t want to have to hear it here. no where really. but in a waiting room of a hospital is not ideal.

pope finally walked up to the desk and leaned on it. “umm… im here to see y/n routlegde…” he asked numbly as the rest stood behind him

the receptionist typed up her name as they watched her as they bit their nails. “it looks like they took her to the hospital in kitty hawk. they have better care for her situation there.”

“can we get the adress” jj asked sternly from behind pope 

“yup.” she passed them a pamphlet and smiled warmly. “good luck”

they walked back outside. their hands were dry of blood and had tear streaks down their eyes. 

after an hour of silence, sarah spoke up. “if they gave an adress she’s probably ok now, right?” she sniffled after her sentence, bringing the back of her hand to her nose

“i hope” john b said as he hopped into the back seat, rubbing sarah shoulders.

jj started driving and took a wrong turn. “FUCK” he scream slamming his hands down on the wheel. he started crying even though he tried not to. 

“jj…” kiara started

“don’t. quit being emotional and shit, she’s fine” he took a breath and sniffed his nose.

he pulled back out to go the right way. he was anxious to get there and was traumatized on what happened.

“where are you going?” kiara asked softly.

“chateau. she needs her stuff and we’re here now anyway”

sarah and kiara washed up and grabbed stuff that she might need at the hospital as the boys sat in the car.

“dude… what the fuck just happened… this morning was normal and now we’re here.” pope said and he threw his head into his hands and shook his head back and forth.

jj clenched his jaw and swallowed the lump in his throat. he honked on the horn for the girls to hurry. 

the trotted back to the twinkie with suitcases and pillows. they hopped in and put her stuff in the trunk. they didn’t even get the chance to buckle in before jj stepped on the gas.

the arrived at the hospital and walked in to the check in desk.

“we’re here to to see y/n routledge” kiara said as she leaned on the counter. 

the lady frowned at the screen.

“is she ok!?!” john b yelled as he cried.

“she’s in surgery. it’s gonna be a while before she’s out. you can get an account and we will send you a notification when you can see her.” the lady informed 

john b scanned the code and filled out the paper. “we can’t see her till tomorrow. this is bullshit” he said as he stormed out of the hospital.

“it’s ok, at least we know she’s alright” sarah drew circles on john bs back as they hugged.

“i just can’t believe it…” he said 

“i know, none of us can” she cried 

“well what do we do now” pope asked 

“my moms probably freaking out” kiara said while she leaned against the door of the twinkie. arms folded 

“same” pope said

“let’s just go back to the chateau and we’ll figure it out from there, yeah?” sarah said hopefully.

“i’m not driving” jj huffed as he plopped down in the back of the car

“i got it” john b said finally letting go of sarah 

they got back to see news people out on the beach in front of the chateau 

“no, they can’t be here” jj yelled. he walked outside with kiara and grabbed their boards and towels they had left on the beach earlier.

“do you know what happened?” the news lady asked. jj and kid ignored her and packed up to go inside.

“you know, this is really shitty of you guys. a 15 year old girl probably  died and your doing a news report for money. that’s embarrassing” he said sternly, not bothered enough to look up from what he was doing.

“it’s our job, kid” one of the camera men said, pointing the camera to him

“profiting off of death? that’s gross.” kiara said as jj grabbed y/n favorite board that was bitten and looked at the marks on it.

“you have quite the nerve to come on our property for this. get out” jj spoke, pointing away from the scene.

“this isn’t your property, it’s the beach.” the same guy spoke.

“your disgusting. all of you. disgusting. i hope your family’s happy with all the money your just brought in from a tragedy. i’m appalled. don’t think my lawyer won’t be hearing about this.”  kiara said as they walked away, flipping the people off.

“i hate people. she’s probably dead and they don’t even care. all they care about is themselves” jj cried to kiara as she hugged him

“she’s gonna be ok” kiara said as she cried also.

they got back inside and the pogues started clapping from the living room.

“what?” kiara asked 

“dude that’s all over the news what you just did. thanks for sticking up for my sister” john b hugged jj and kiara 

“the last thing she wants is for everyone to know. they didn’t even ask” jj cried again.

“it’s alright, buddy. they didn’t say her name or anything” john b patted jjs back.

“oh shit. my moms freaking out. i gotta go, see you guys tomorrow” kiara grabbed her stuff and left

“i gotta go call rose. she’s probably freaking out too” sarah said 

“can you stay tho?” john b pleaded

“yes i will. she’s going to be ok” sarah warmly smiled at him

“i should probably go, my moms scared im sure.” pope said sitting up from the couch. 

“pope?” john b asked

“yeah?” 

john b hugged him and cried “thank you… you saved her thank you” 

“hey,  what’s a pogue gotta do? we stick out for each other. you don’t need to thank me” he smiled

the boys were in a group hug

“see ya” jj waved to pope

sarah came back with her phone and flopped on the couch. 

they sat in silence until john b spoke up

“that was the worst day of my life. worse than when my dad went missing.” john bs head was full of flash backs, him fighting the shark, jj tying the leash, her saying she was gonna die, it was all flooding back to him in waves. he knew it was going t be engraved in his mind d for ever.

“you can say that again. i hope she’s ok” jj looked down at his still bloodied hands. “i’m gonna go shower. get this shitty day over with” 

john b was still in his trance. “tell jj i love him. tell jj i love him.” he got up and stormed to the kitchen, cracking open a beer. he chugged it down and caught his breath.

sarah sat and watched. she didn’t want to say anything. her boyfriend just had to watch his sister die on the beach and he couldn’t do anything.

she got up and sat with him. 

after jj got out of the shower, john b hopped in. he was silently crying, realizing there was no way in letting her know he loved her. he didn’t even say it when she saw him last.

he cleaned up and relaxed a little. they went to bed

meanwhile at the hospital 

“i don’t think we can save the leg. all the tissue and muscle is ripped to shreds. even if we could, all the nerve are destroyed.” one of the doctors spoke as he examined the leg.

“alright” they removed the destroyed leg up to her thigh. it was super risky, considering she had already lost a ton of blood and taking off the leg wouldn’t help. being under anesthesia that long isn’t good for her, and she would be droopy and drowsy for a while, just from the anesthesia. the blood loss is going to be a whole other challenge.

“poor girl” one of the female doctors sighed as they stitched up her thigh. “that’s crazy”

“yup. she’s going to need a lot of recovery time. i mean that’s nothing like we usually see. good work guys.” 

y/n was still on anesthesia. she kept having a dream of the shark getting john b and jj. she couldn’t not dream it. she had to wait until the surgery was over to not have to dream about it. it’s like she was drowning and as soon as she got close enough to the top of the water to breath, she was pulled down again. just like what happened earlier in the day.

they slowly let her off the meds to wake her up. she had no clue what was going on.

“who- who are you” she looked at the nurse with wide eyes and went to move to get up, realizing her leg wasn’t there. 

she screamed in terror, looking at her stitched up thigh that led to nothing. for some reason she could remember what happened. like some sort of sick dream.

“WHERES MY LEG” she yelled sitting up “WHERES JOHN B” she started crying and the nurse walked over to her

“your ok, hunny. you were attacked by a shark. do you remember any of it?” 

“oh…yea” she started sobbing again. “i- i need my brother please. i- i need to go home”

“im sorry, hunny, you can’t go home. not until we can get you blood and monitor you. i’m sorry. i’ll call your brother to come, ok?” 

y/n suddenly felt super tired. she layed her head back into the awful hospital pillows. how much she didn’t want to go to sleep was overweighed by how physically tired her body was. she crashed hard.

she felt people hooking her up to more machines and checking her heartbeat, but she didn’t care. she was too tired to care. everything was numb. she couldn’t feel the millions of shots being injected into her body to help with pain. 

when she woke up, there was john b, sitting in the hospital chair fiddling with his fingers, the pogues next to him. she fluttered her eyes back shut, not feeling enough energy to talk to them or talk about what happened. all she wanted was to sleep.

jj noticed her opening her eyes and rushed to her side, holding her hand. they hadn’t seen the nub that was left of her leg, and didn’t want to. it would just make the situation real.

“i’m here, y/n/n” jjs voice gave her the motivation to just open her eyes and smile at him. “you don’t have to say anything, just get some rest. we’re all here”

she smiled and shut her eyes again, feeling more at ease. they hoped she would be ready to talk in a few hours. 

she woke up a few hours later with excruciating pain shooting all the way down her left leg. even the part she didn’t have anymore.

she let out a yelp and squeezed her eyes shut in pain. “what’s wrong, y/n/n, talk to me” john b spoke 

(flashback in her head) “talk to me” 

“it hurts” she cried looking at him with glossed over eyes 

“i know, im sorry”

(flashback in her head) “i know, im sorry” 

“stop, stop get out” she cried to him, feeling sorry but she was traumatized. she didnt want to remember anything from the day before, and the only words john b had said to her were the ones when it happened.

“what?” he asked, looking at her with a raised eyebrow

“get out” she sobbed. she was in pain. something about the pogues, her older brothers friends, seeing you in the state she were in yesterday made her cringe and made her want to cry. all she could think was how embarrassing it must’ve been.

“are you sure?” john b asked

“no” she sniffled. she was undeceive. “just… just stop saying that shit, please” she begged

he didn’t know what she was talking about but he didn’t want to stress her out more.

“can you eat something, please?” pope asked, offering her a sandwich they got from the cafeteria.

she turned her head “i’m not hungry”

“you need to restore blood that you lost, you need to eat to have enough energy. please” pope begged, finding her eyes again. 

she held it up to her mouth to take a bite but couldn’t. she couldn’t eat. she didn’t know why, she just couldn’t.

“y/n, please eat. you need to” john b begged

“do you want something else?” sarah asked patting her right thigh.

y/n flinched at the touch. “n-no im not hungry” 

“we can do it the easy way or the hard way, y/n. you need to eat.” john b gets mad when he’s scared

“i- no” she started crying again. 

“it’s ok y/n” jj shot john b a glare as he hugged y/n. just by the hug in the hospital bed, he could tell that the leg was missing. it broke his heart, but he needed to stay strong”

“do you want to get better or not?” john b snapped at her 

she looked at him with wide eyes and her bottom lip quivered.

“john b!” sarah yelled at him, going to join the hug with y/n and jj”

“i- im sorry i- i don’t know what got into me but you need to eat. you can eat it yourself or get the tube. i don’t want to force you to do something but it’s the only way you’ll feel better. please y/n”

“fine… but i don’t want that” she pointed to the sand which in disgust.

“i’ll be back” john b grabbed the keys to the twinkie to go get her her favorite soup from panera. 

“how are you feeling, can i get you anything?” pope offered while he sat in the squishy blue chair in the hospital room.

“it hurts. my leg hurts even though it’s not there, it hurts” she explained looking down numbly

“i read about that once. it’s called phantom pain” pope informed

“shut up” jj said slowly as he turned his head to look over to pope. he still had his hand on hers, head still resting on her right thigh. 

“sorry” 

“it’s ok… where did john b go?” tears started to well in her eyes

“im not sure.” sarah said looking to the parking lot from the hospital window.

“where’s kie?” she sniffled 

“her mom went on a big rant, she wasn’t aloud to come” jj explained

“about what”

“n-nothing” he shook his head. he didn’t want to talk to you about how her mom was scared and didn’t want it to be kie.

around 15 minutes later, john b came back with a soup, just how she liked it. 

he face grew a smile and she sat up, letting go of jjs hand. “thank you john b!” she clapped her hands as her brother moved the bedside table to over her lap. 

she ate her soup in happiness until a doctor came in.

“hello, i’m doctor smith” the blonde lady explained. “i’m just here to check on your stitches and give you your pain meds, is that ok?” she asked y/n

for some reason, y/n had it all planned out in her head that the pogues would never see the stub that was left of her leg. she looked at the group in an indecisive way.

“uh- we can leave if you want?” pope said in a questioning voice

“it’s…it’s ok… you can stay” the doctor pulled down the rack abt the opposite side of the bed and gently pulled the sheets off her leg.

sarah gasped but quickly shoved her hand over her face. john b turned around to take a breath. pope watched with a puzzeled look on his face. jj looked numb and y/n was just sitting there, watching the reactions.

she looked to the side as tears welled back up in her eyes. her emotions were high. the moment was cut off by the doctor

“it looks like it’s healing well, it will take a few months for it to recover but it’s on the right track” she smiled to y/n and put the covers back over it.

the got the shot ready. she injected it into her arm without a warning, causing y/n to jump at the feeling.

“i’m sorry… it looks like it didn’t go in all the way, i have to redo it, im so sorry, i should’ve given a warning” 

y/n was just hit by a bunch of shark teeth, she wasn’t expecting herself to flinch over a measly shot. 

“its ok” the doctor counted off and put a new one in her arm. even though everyone was in the room, she felt like she was by herself. 

they stayed in the hospital for 3 more weeks, y/n was sick of it. the constant check ups, the shots, the not being able to turn on the tv without jj and kiara outbreak, the smell of cleaning supplies, the not being able to really do what she wanted, all of it. all she wanted was to go home.

“we can order you a prosthetic leg. your insurance will cover it, and it will help you get around” the doctor told her 

she shrugged her shoulders and said ok. they fitted her for it.

“it won’t be here for around another month” 

they got home, y/n waddling in on her one leg. she looked around before flopping on the couch. she looked out to the scene of the accident and her face frowned. she wasn’t expecting to feel this emotional about just the spot.

jj noticed and went to hold her. they snuggled up together on the couch, him giving her a kiss on the top of her head.

“what was that for” she smiled, looking up to him.

“i love you, y/n, i love you. i heard you that day, i know what you said to john b and i love you too” 

her smile grew and she layed her head back into his chest, trying to hide the pink flush in her cheeks. he lifted her head back up and kissed her. 

“what do you guys want for di-“ john b stopped himself when he saw you two kissing. he turned around slowly and walked back outside.

they smiled as their foreheads touched, giving them both butterflies.

“i’m sorry you had to see all of that on the beach i-“ 

“you don’t have to be sorry… it’s not your fault that damn fish with teeth got you.”

she smiled at his antics, placing her forehead on his chest.

“it was scary. i was scared. probably more than you” he admitted 

“i doubt it” she booped his nose and fell asleep on his chest.

the next few months consisted of pt and lots of encouragement. as soon as she could go back out into the waves, she was ready. all she needed to think when she was scared was the wise words of her boyfriend, jj maybank  “the chances of getting bit once is 1 in a million. twice is just impossible” 

she slowly climbed her way back to being herself. the relief of taking off your shoes after a long day was replaced by taking off her leg. they all still loved her, even if she was a peg leg.

jj started calling her a peg leg once she was ready for jokes. she thought it was hilarious and laughed everytime. 

she was going to be ok 😊

[gamblersdoll]

Reader overstimulating genya after she got jealous pls (could u add teasing and degradation) Ty❤️

teasing, degrading, blowjobs, overstim, dacryphilia (crying during sex or oral.)

you frequently got irritated when kanroji pressed herself against genya, knowing how she is— she doesnt always know social cues and when to be touchy and not.

it pissed you off beyond belief, watching her hug genya and her breasts be pushed up to his face and only seeing him squirm irritated you more. how the fuck was he going to call himself loyal if he couldnt even set a simple boundary as such?

it infuriates you.

“b—bugga! hold on, it wasnt like that— oh, god.” he bucks his hips, a choked groan bubbling from his lips and he pressed a hand on your head. the sounds of your sucking and slurping rings in his ears, tensing his thighs.

and his protests and words fell on deaf ears, you bobbing your head up and down all the while you twist your hand around his shaft. all you could think about was him finally admitting defeat, that he was yours and how he apologized for kanroji. you suck your cheeks in, hearing a disgruntled moan from him.

“please— oh fuck, oh god, fuck.” he whimpered in your touch, tears starting to bubble in his eyes and he bites his lip. “ im sorry, fuckin— bugga!”

“you ever gonna let that happen again, genya?” you pull your head up, looking at him through your eyelashes. “you gonna let her whore you out infront of me again?”

“she wasnt—“

your grip around his cock gets a little tighter, spitting out the pool of frothy and bubbly spit onto his red cock head, shlick sounds emit. “are you arguing with me, bitch boy?” you growl softly, his head shaking and his thighs quivering. “because i can most certainly not let you come again and you can get yourself off since you want to slut yourself out.”

“wont happen again— i swear!” he shouts, feeling his balls trying to drain themselves, but being restrained. “please, mama— wont happen again, i swear to you..”

“say you love me, you nasty fuckin’ whore of a boy.”

“i love you, i love you, i love you!”

you wrap your lips around his head, suckling on the slit of his tip and pressing your tongue around it, adding to the feeling of you jerking his cock inside of your mouth. his moans become feral, his hand pushing you down all the way— essentially gagging your head and he sobs as he ejaculated inside of your mouth.

his lips pant, chest heaving and he fixes your hair. “sorry..”

“i want that boundary set by the end of the day. disrespect that that too, and ill make sure you succeed no nut november.”

[prettypinkprincessa]

Rafe meeting puppy!reader

The whole island is aware of your signature look. The little pout and the big doe eyes. It gets you whatever you want, whenever you want.

You walk around in your cute little outfit and little purse hanging over your shoulder as if you own the place. Rafe watches from a distance. He isn’t finna let some little spoiled brat wrap him around her finger. That was until he officially met you.

“Rafe cmon’ man. Just talk to her.” Topper begged.

“Im not talking to some stuck up bitch.” Rafe scoffed while taking a sip out of his drink. Looking away from Topper.

“Whatever man.” Topper said, walking away towards Sarah.

Rafe was curious about you. No matter how much he put on the act that he hated you he was actually intrigued. He wanted to know your trick. How all these people were suddenly so fucking obsessed with some new bitch.

He finished his drink and headed towards the beach away from all the loud music. Thats when he saw you. You were sitting on the sand. Dress covered in sand and hands on your face covering your eyes. You were crying. He was going to walk back until you called to him.

“Wait!” You yelled.

“Fuck. No.” He turned around quickly and started to speed walk away. You caught up quickly. Grabbing his hand and yanking it towards you.

“What the fuck-”

“Please stay with me.” You cut him off. And he noticed the way you looked. Cheeks flushed and eyes puffy. He groaned loudly throwing his head up and looked back down at you.

“What is it?” He scowled.

“I lost my ring…it was really important to me.”

“…oh” he said, mostly to himself. “I mean…I’m sorry? The fuck am I supposed to say I don’t know you-”

“Please just—just help me find it.” You said while looking up at him. Giving him those eyes. You pouted your lips slightly. And batted your eyelashes. At that very moment he understood. He understood what the fuck everyone was talking about.

The moon glistened in your pretty eyes and the lights from the party shined against your face. You looked ethereal.

what the fuck.

He stared at you for a while. Taking in the sight before he caught himself.

“Ahem. Whatever kid.” He grabbed your hand and pulled you to some beach chairs. “Where were you when you lost it?” He spoke softly. Waiting for your response.

“I lost it here! In the sand.” You sobbed. The realization hitting you once again.

“Hey, hey, hey. Look at me. Calm down. We’re gonna find your little ring. Then you’re gonna leave me the fuck alone, alright?”

You nod quietly and you both began to look. He couldn’t help but continue to glance at you. The way your eyebrows scrunched up in worry was too cute. He actually felt sympathy for you. Which is rare.

He knew deep down that this wasn’t gonna be the last time you bothered him. And he was okay with that.

[hotsingledragon]

i have another request. PLEASE

miles fucking his silly little pregnant wife who’s just so needy for him and his touch, poor baby is too swollen to even be able to touch herself so he takes care of her n fucks her nice and slow, overstimulates her until she’s squirming and crying underneath him and doesn’t know what she wants because of how bad she has baby brain :(( miles just loves taking care of his little angel

hhhnnnmnnm

UM..!!! hello you’re crazy for this- because eeeeeeep! miles would totally take care of you during this special time in your lives, in any possible way he can! andYES sweet kitty husband occupies 95% of my brain actually-

miles quaritch x pregnant!fem!reader

warnings: explicit sexual content, smut, pregnancy, obvs there is sex while pregnant, oral, p in v, sweet baby daddy husband quaritch <3

Q would lay you down on the pillows and take you apart slowly, would kiss across your skin and especially your large bump <3 he’s so gentle because he doesn’t wanna hurt you or the baby!

im theorizing that miles would love eating you out; esp while you’re pregnant. i don’t care what y’all say! he would rest your thighs on his shoulders, leaving wet kisses on the underside of your tummy as he trails towards your clit. then his lips are wrapping around it, paying close attention to nerve in languid swirls and suckles. miles loves bullying his head between your thighs, drawing his tongue in wet shapes over your pussy. and when you burst with a moan, your head jolts to look at him, but your bump conceals everything except his hulking shoulders holding you open

he always makes sure you come at least twice 👍 but if you’re not too sleepy or you’re still aroused then he keeps going, loudly sucking you into his mouth until you’re bucking into his face and coming on his mouth again.

sometimes penetration feels like too much; and that’s okay! Q is happy to relax between your legs and fuck you with his tongue, or his fingers. miles draws it out every single time, slowly working you open with a single fingertip, until he’s eventually curling three of his digits inside your stretched little hole.

but there are also times when you need more more more because all you want is for miles to spend his time fucking you open on his dick, your arousal reaching new heights as your hormones are all jumbled up!

i feel like he’s definitely one to tease while you’re pregnant, always blaming the baby for his touch that’s only flirting across your skin, because he needs to go easy on your sensitive body or something like that. when it’s actually the total opposite- he’s purposely reducing you to a whimpering mess for his own hedonistic pleasure. he wants to see that frustration in your tightly pinched features, wants to hear the edge in your voice as you beg for him.

so when you grab his wrist and look up at him with wet eyelashes, whining about how you need more of him-he’s happy to oblige.

miles is the kind to tease you with the tip until you’re loosening up and taking him easily with how slick you’ve become. he thrives on your frustration, the high pitched whimpers and wiggling hips. you look like an angel, you must be an angel, he thinks. you’re so beautiful, and he’s never felt a passion like this until he met you

and now you’re full with his baby? god, he’s so sick with love! he admires every bit of you and how you’ve changed over the months; you’re softer, and warmer, and so much needier. it makes him fuck you that much harder.

you can’t help it, you’re begging for his cum, begging him to give you another baby.

“aww don’t cry, darlin’, i’ll give you another soon enough, y’gotta be patient for me, alright?” and he’s grinning ear to ear, eyes glowing.

“i’ll give you all the babies you want, honey, we’ll have a little litter of ‘em, hm? you want that?” his thrust are picking up to a pace that has you clawing at his biceps and your voice scratching with need.

“gonna keep you knocked up with my babies, keep my little wife full of my cum all the time,” you’re nodding your head fervently and pleading incoherently. it makes him chuckle and he sends a hand to rub over your clit.

“my sweet little wife, love you so much. so pretty while you’re cryin’ on my dick. i’ll give you those babies one day. jus’ need our little girl to come home first. just a few more weeks,” he grins and kisses you. “but when you’re all better, i’ll give you another baby-and another, and another.” his voice begins to strain breathlessly as he quickly approaches his orgasm

his words have you keening and squeezing around his erection. your moans are downright pornographic, and he knows you’re just seconds away from coming. “fuckin- christ!” miles grinds behind his teeth, “tell me where you want it, right now” he orders you lowly, his brow furrowed in concentration in his effort to keep from coming.

“mm!- inside! miles, please! please come inside of me,” you sob, clenching around him , pleading as you gaze right into his eyes. it sends miles burying into your heat and curling over your body, his forehead knocking into yours. you’re wrapping your arms around him, keeping him close and put your lips to his ear

“please give me another baby, miles,” you cry. your touch pets over his velvety skin before cradling his neck and guiding your lips against his.

it’s like you’re in a bubble that miles has curated just for the two of you. he’s covering your body with his own, echoing your sweet noises with his drawn out groans against your lips. he’s shoving his tongue into your mouth, stuffing you with his cock-it consumes every bit of your mind and body and you’re coming with a loud whine, squeezing around him like a vice and he’s immediately following you over that edge, hips flush with yours as he fills you with his seed

he finishes with a deep rumble from his chest, holding himself up by his forearms to keep from totally crushing you. and miles stays like that, buried inside of you as his dick softens and you both catch your breath

you’ll lay together, his head on your chest and your fingertips tickling his skin. when you tap his back with a small sound, miles will look at you, totally relaxed and a grin starting to stretch his thin lips. he’ll kiss you, long and slow and murmur how much he loves you to distract from his cock pulling out, but the drag of it still leaves you feeling empty.

then miles is climbing out of bed, groaning dramatically before he bounds towards the bathroom. “lemme draw you a bath, hon’,” he says. you’re only half awake, eyes closed and humming noncommittally. you listen to him shuffling, adjusting the knobs on the tub, and the scent of your soap wafts into the bedroom.

the combination is relaxing and has your breaths slowing. eventually you feel miles graze your skin, trailing lightly as to not startle you. then he’s hugging you, taking a long breath through his nose as he nuzzles into your neck. “hmm, y’ready?”

you’re nodding your head, and he’s lifting you like you barely weigh anything. he’s so careful and conscious of how he holds you and safely lowers you into the warmth of the water. then he’s climbing in behind you, and some of the water spills over with his big he is.

it makes you giggle, and he’s immediately wrapping his arms around you. “what’s funny, huh? i’m just a man tryna take care of his very pregnant wife,” but you hear the smile in his voice. you allow yourself to lean into him, head tilting against his chest as he gently rubs your swollen belly.

notes: UMMMM okay wow i took way too long to write this, can you tell i’m in love with him? thank you so much for the request! thank you for trusting me with such a prompt as this- hope enjoy my loves! let me know what i should write next <3

[stans-kissing]

I'm just gonna keep sending stanbel asks until my break ends

MABEL WAS SUPER HEARTBROKEN AFTER HER LATEST ATTEMPT AT SUMMER ROMANCE FAILED SO SHE'S MOPING IN HER STAN CAKES AND STAN WALKS UP AND SHE'S LIKE 'I was supposed to have a date tonight what do I do nowwwww' and Stan's like 'Oh sweetie I'm sorry boys are the worst. We could stay in and watch movies if you want?' and Mabel interprets this as Date so she's like 'yes but you're wearing your suit and you're gonna come to my bedroom door with flowers and... ' and Stan's like 'well if it makes you happy okay'

i love this. i love his. thilvoe this.ilvoe this. okay. first time writing stanbel. lmk if i got it wronf. id ont nknow if this is what uouwere foingw iththis this. but this mainly about the aftermath to their date ok.

stan would be like aahaahah silly mabel she doesnt mean anything by this shes just being a young girl and im the weirdo for gteting all flustered when she clings to my arm as we walk downstairs and shes just being an innocent kid when she bats her eyelashes all doll-like and im just the weirdo here. i need tp repress my old man urges im foing this for her because shes upset and i love her aand iw ant to make her feel better. he has the most conflicting annoying emotions throughout the whole thing right and ofc bc hes stan he hates himself for it bc he almost slips and forgets hes on a 'date' with ihs niece yadda ydda you get the idea

mabel however is like yes yes yes my plan is owrking mwhahaha i am determined to romance that old man bc shes mabel and she had been like. purposefully throwing herseld all over him right so wheneber their date is over and mabel has to go to bed shes like grunkle staaan youre supposed to walk me to my door!! so hes like sigh ok and carries her upstairs bridal stylw and sets her down infront of her door and he's like alright pumpkin, bed time goofnight loveyou and she tugs on his sleeve with a little pout and looks up at him with her big anime eyes and is like.. grunkle stan.. youre supposed to give me a kiss goodbye.. thats what they do in all the movies.. all shy and and pokin her bottom lip out and stans like Guh. ma m m abel i . Not even thinking that he could just kiss her on the cheek bc hes been going through it all night but yknow. if shes asking. he cant say no to his little girl can he?? he swallows nervously and decides fuck it and leans down to press a little kiss to her pouty lips and he has to bite back a groan because holy fuck he's always wanted to do that and her lips felt so so soft against his even if it was just for a moment and he can feel her sticky glittery lipgloss on his lips and then her little hands are on either side of his face and she pulls him down to press another kiss to his lips and he just caves and pulls her in, wrapping hands around her and tugging her closer, licking her bottomlip open, tasting the flavored lipgloss and feeling over his braces and she whines into his mouth and his hands get tangeled in her hair and he moves to nip at her neck, losing himself and pressing her impossibly closer and she lets out a high pitched moan

And then they hear shuffling from the room next to them and stan can hear dipper's soft footstepspadding towards the door and hes liek Fuck oh mygod and pulls away from mabel and she's jst starin up at him wide-eyed n panting, looking absolutely fucked and oh god if that sight doesn't give him an instant boner and then dipper opens the door all blinkey and sleepy and he's like are u guys ok did i hear someone crying and stn just stutters out some shit like uhmgmm no mabels just going to bed okbye and he skitters away cuz hes a pusssy

anyways yeah thakn you i kinda ran with this sowwwyyyy

PELASE DONT STO SENDING ME ASKS I CANOT PROMISE ILL ANSSER LL OF THEM BC IM SO LAZY BTUPELAASASEE DONT STOP I LVOEV LOVELVOE ALL THE 6 TRILLION YOU SEND ME PLS NEVER DIE

[chrattslut]

Comforting!Matt x Insecure!fem!reader

Summary: You’re crying about some of your insecurities while harming yourself and matt walks in and sees you sobbing lowly sitting in front of a floor length mirror with a razor blade in hand..

Warnings: angst, mentions of self harm, insecurities, mentions of starving yourself

(y/n's pov)

I got up from my bed with tears streaming down my face after seeing so many pretty girls on TikTok with flat tummies and I tried to distract myself on instagram but the same thing popped up.

I walk towards my floor length mirror in the sturniolo household, I've been currently living with them for some time now staying in the spare bedroom that I decorated in my own way now claiming it as mine.

I stand in front of the mirror lowly sobbing as I lift my shirt and turn to side, picking at the fat on my belly. I face the mirror again and pick at the skin on my waist. I sit on the floor with my phone in hand taking the phone case off the back and taking the little blade out hiding it up to my wrist sobbing softly while cutting the multiple layers of skin seeing the blood come out of the cut.

I start sobbing even more looking in the mirror at my belly rolls as im sat on the floor. This causes me to start cutting even more.

(matt pov)

I was ordering food waiting for it to arrive already knowing y/n's order so I didn't even bother to ask her. After paying for the order I sit on the couch with nick and chris watching tv.

After a couple minutes my phone buzzes next to me telling me that the dasher has dropped off the food. I get up and go grab the food coming back with the bags. Nick and Chris notice the food is here so they pause the tv and get up from the couch and walk over to the table and start digging in.

"I'm gonna go get y/n from her room" I say before leaving to go get her.

(y/n's pov)

I heard footsteps coming to my room so I quickly put the blade under my phone, cover my bleeding wrist with my hand and quickly wipe my tears.

Even though I tried to hide the fact that I was crying you could clearly tell by the tip of my nose being red, the wet eyelashes, and red eyes.

I hear soft knocks on my door and let out a soft "come in" which causes my door to slowly open revealing Matt.

Matt walks in and closes my door behind him but not fully leaving it a little cracked open. He walks to where I'm sitting and was about to speak but he notices something off..

He's never walked in my room and seen me sat on the floor with my shirt rolled up.

"Are you okay?" he asks me. I sit there just looking up at him not wanting to bother him with all my issues so I just nod.

He kneels next to me and studies my face knowing I'm not okay with the way my shirt is rolled up, and how clearly it looks that I've been crying. "Are you sure y/n? you know you can talk to me about anything." he says in a soft caring tone. I look at the ground as my eyes well up with tears again, I look back up at him and a tear streams down my cheek. He doesn't say anything and pulls me into a hug. That small gesture makes me start sobbing again.

He pulls away after a few seconds of me just sobbing into his chest and when I pull away he looks at me with concern in his eyes. He noticed my hand over my wrist and his brows furrow but then his gaze softens as he realizes what I was doing. "Y/n..." he lays his hand softly over mine on my wrist and I sit there with my head down feeling like a disappointment. "Y/n... how- how long have you been doing this?" he asks with concern laced in his voice but his tone is also soft.

I shake my head knowing that the last time I did this was a week ago for the same reason. He slowly processes everything and realizes why I was crying. He slowly removes my hand seeing the scars from weeks ago and the once I was just doing on myself.

"Y/n you're beautiful just the way you are don't let anyone or anything tell you otherwise." He says softly looking in my eyes with a soft look. "I just need you to promise me you won't do this again" he speaks again with a soft tone. He holds up his pinky for me to make a pinky promise. I hesitate but eventually interlock pinkies with him. He smiles softly and gets up. "We ordered some food, come eat before it gets cold." he says waiting for me to get up but I don't and I just sit there contemplating if I should really be eating with the way my body look right now.

As if he read my mind Matt speaks again "You need to eat y/n, your body is perfect and starving yourself won't solve this" his tone is still soft and comforting. I get up and he smiles at me before taking my hand leading me to the table where I see my favorite food.

I take a seat and Matt sits next to me eating his own food but he notices me hesitate to take a bite so he takes his hand and rests it on my knee that's closest to him stroking his thumb back and forth in a comforting manner.

I spent the rest of the night with Matt and instead of sleeping in my own room, I slept in Matt's room because he insisted on comforting me the whole night, with one of his hoodies and with his arm wrapped around me as I lay my head on his chest. Before going into Matt's room to sleep with him on his bed I downloaded the 'I am sober' app to help myself out a little bit without Matt knowing.

a/n: hiii guys im sorry if this was too long I just didn't know how to shorten most of the things I wrote down but I hope you enjoyed it and leave me some recommendations of what you want to see in the notes below. Thank you so much for reading and I love you all. Hope you have an amazing day, afternoon, evening or night,

[lovebvni]

Shifting tips plz?

hey hon!! i’m going to be honest, i’ve been avoiding answering this because i feel like this is a three part thing. before shifting, during shifting, and after an attempt. so im gonna try to answer it like that.

!! long blog ahead !!

pre-shift

• before a shift, it’s good to meditate. get your mind, soul and intention on one thing, making an attempt.

• set an intention/affirm! for a few minutes, just say “i am going to shift.” “i have shifted.” “i will shift this attempt.” “i always succeed when i shift” or things like that. get it deep into your mind, into your bones! let the universe hear it!!

• do something to tire you out PHYSICALLY! this is some advice i haven’t seen before, but has helped me. if your physical body is tired, it’s easier for it to fall asleep so it can recover. but, after exercising, your mind and subconscious wasn’t doing much, so it still has energy to spare!

• hype yourself up! another thing i don’t see much, making yourself excited to shift. if you’re pumped with adrenaline, and then you’re about to do that action to get where you’re going (example, you got ready for a party and you’re getting ready to go in your car) you’re going to be like going CRAZY mentally and this will help u so much!!

• reflect! yeah, this is similar to affirming, in the way you’re reminding yourself of what you did and what you can do. remind yourself of that he attempts you made in the past, the symptoms you got, the times you temporarily shifted (or minishifted if u call it that) remind yourself of your power, your abilities!!

• read your script to where you’re shifting! if you have a script, of course, i know some people mentally script or don’t script much, but look over it if you have one. change little things, remind yourself what you look, the colour of your eyelashes compared to your eyebrows. random things like that.

• visualize it. “thoughts become things. if you see it in your mind, you will hold it in your hand” — bob proctor. this isn’t limiting yourself to visualizing, hell, you can SAY you’re doing it. like i sometimes tell myself “i’m going to shower” or “i’m going to make a blog today” then i do it. i saw it in my mind, i spoke it, now i hold it in my hand. and there’s proof! witnesses, bro! sometimes, all you gotta do is think it and believe those thoughts are real.

during a shift

keep focus! or as my pastor once said, keep watch! watch your thoughts, watch your mind. if it starts drifting away from the method and you start thinking you want a sandwich ( *cough cough* me and @shiftingwithhale *cough cough* ) then refocus and redirect your thoughts. “i accept this thought, i will now move back to shifting.” then focus on shifting again. your mind WILL wonder, and that’s not a bad thing! you are human as much as you are god! you will make mistakes! but that doesn’t mean you keep making those mistakes. yall, i accidently stole once and i CRIED MY FUCKING EYES OUTTT!! before returning it. i was so upset i accidentally stole, and i went back in that store CRYING when I gave it back.( i was like 4 btw. i was so scared, it was cold n i wanted to ask my mom for smth but i forgot when i was holding her hand 💀)

listen to a sub/theta waves/a guided method! just something! it helps the brain focus and calms the crazy side. this is obvs if u have the ability to. for example, i know someone who can’t have their phone after a certain time + their parents make sure to take it before and check on them. they aren’t into shifting, it just makes it extremely difficult to talk to them after a certain time 🙄🙄 if u can’t do this, dw!! listen to a sub before going to bed/while doing hw :)

when intrusive/negative thoughts come — “why am i doing this?” “this is stupid.” “i what if i mess this all up bc i gotta sneeze” WHO TF CARES!! LITERALLY MOVE. TELL THEM TO SHUT UP. TELL THEM U WRE BETTER! OR EVEN TAKE A BREAK BRO! the break can literally b a few minutes js to regroup. sit up so you won’t fall asleep, open your eyes, count your fingers and toes (LMAO?? this is specific to someone) and tell yourself “i can do this because i’ve done it. plus other people have done it, all over the world! if one can achieve, so can another.” i feel like it’s so powerful just to remind yourself that if other people can do it you can. if you wanted some new shoes but js got fired from your job n you don’t know what to do, then just wait for a moment. talk to ppl you know. get it done somehow, because eventually you’ll get those shoes, if not better ones!

just do it bro 💀💀 like actually. if you fall asleep after counting to 17 WHO CARES! an awake method can b an asleep method. your brain shutting off does not equal your subconscious shutting down. dude, it CANT DO THAT!! it’s always working, and it works better when your body is resting. keep that in mind.

after an attempt

CELEBRATE i don’t give a shit if you fully shifted or not. you did something. you committed to it. sure, i know it’s hard to keep high spirits, but celebrate the little things. isn’t thanksgiving coming up? be thankful that u found out abt shifting. be thankful you can do an asleep method n shift that way. don’t b mad u didn’t wake up in ur dr, be happy you woke up in a parallel reality and you’re even closer!

write down what worked and what didn’t! if something in your method frustrates or confuses you, change it or remove it. if you visualize in the middle of the method, and you don’t like it, drop it 🤷 do what helps YOU PERSONALLY! use this as a form of journaling. and also, take a deep breath and write out your frustrations w shifting. then write what you love about it. always balance the negative w positive <3

do a reality check! make sure you’re not in a dream. weather you shifted where u want to or not, it’s always good to get in the habit of doing reality checks. it may surprise u and allow u to lucid dream and then shift!!

be in the present! if you didn’t shift, fuck that! you’re here right now and that’s what you can control! sure, you didn’t shift in the PAST but you can in the PRESENT and the FUTURE! so focus on that. it helps with your hope and motivation <3

that’s all i have for u lovely! if i think of anything else, i will update this blog, bc i do rlly believe and hope it will help people <3 this is another blog that made me think, so thank you for that! :)

i love u honey!! i wish u the best on your shifting journey !!

[hurrl]

IM GONNA SPRINT IN HERE AND REQUWST SMTH AGAIN BUT IDK WHAT

CAN I GET A FESTER AND KALANI THING JUST FOR FUNSIES THEMED LIKE IDK FUCKINNNNN CONFESSIONS OR SMTH?

And what if I threw in a little bit of a "no communication" trope in there for funsies.

I didn't proofread btw

Kalani liked Fester.

A secret to no one, except for Fester. There was a part of her that thought, surely, he knew how she felt! There was no way he could be so oblivious, she felt like she had constant heart eyes when around him! Nothing happens! She could flirt, bat her eyelashes, and do all the ‘accidental’ touches she wanted, pull out all her tricks, but her efforts would remain in vain. Maybe it was her, maybe Fester just didn’t see Kalani in that way.

When did her feelings for Fester even start? Kalani sat at her vanity, combing through her hair as she pondered the question. There was no real set incident, the feelings came about gradually. When they first met, she thought he was funny! She was new to the city, and meeting Fester had been a blessing, he was a little gruff- something that would make Kalani more attracted to him in the future- but he didn’t take himself too seriously. He wasn’t afraid to be sarcastic or silly! Every time they’d cross paths she’d make sure to look at whatever saying or phrase he had on his shirt. She had spent the past two years of her life being miserable, it felt good to have someone around who could make her laugh. 

She chased that feeling, that joy she felt from being around him. It wasn’t long before she was inviting him on outings. Lunches, movies, parks, the two had even gone to an arcade once or twice! Learning that he was a fellow ballet dancer was a surprise! Extremely talented too, his technique was impeccable for someone who no longer danced professionally- must’ve been a natural gift. 

Then being around him brought back that familiar warm fuzzy feeling. It was frightening, she tried to fight it. Not because she didn’t want it to be Fester, but because she was aware of what those feelings did to her. She was incapable of loving someone normally, it was never just a crush for her. It was all-consuming, wanting to know every aspect of every detail in their life. She could be obsessive, desperate, and violent.  

But she couldn't bring herself to cut it off. That warm fuzzy feeling turned into a full-blown flame as she tried to go about things in a “normal” way. Huge mistake. Everything about him became another thing to love, another thing to obsess over. She started to have daydreams about bringing him to the summer home, she wanted to be the only thing he could focus on, the only person in his life. To be the only one who could hurt him while being the only one able to bring him any sort of relief. Had she seen Fester cry before? How much pressure could she put him under before he broke-

Stop it stop it stop it!!

Kalani’s hand stung with the amount of force she used to slam her hairbrush down, her face felt hot. God, she hated herself. What was wrong with her? She didn’t want to want those things but she couldn’t help it!

With a racing heart, she picked up her phone and opened up her messages with Fester. They had made plans to go out soon, it was why she was getting ready now. She sighed as she typed:

“Hey!! I know this is last minute but our plans totally slipped my mind, I double booked myself and won't make it, so sorry!!”

Sent.

Moving forward, if she wanted to keep him safe, she had to keep her distance.

***

Fester chewed the inside of his lip, eyes scanning over his phone screen as he read Kalani’s message. He didn’t bother to type anything back, she’ll see that he had seen it. He shoved his phone into his back pocket before haphazardly tossing the bouquet he had bought into the sink.

He knew Kalani liked flowers, and from the amount of movies they had seen together, knew that she really liked those classic romantic gestures, which is why…

Whatever, it didn’t matter.

His confession wasn’t meant to be.

[theodoraflowerday]

heartstopper s3e5 live episode reaction

LETS FUCKING GO THIS WINTER/OLIVER SPRING/VICTORIA SPRING/NICKTORI STANS

genuinely the episode I'm most excited about

me, currently surrounded by three pillows and two throw pillows: oh wow tori's got a lot of pillows

BIG SISTER TORI

"I hope I get a soul" "I hope I get good mental health" the way I love the spring siblings cannot be described accurately in mere words.

I HOPE I GET A MUM WHO CAN REGULATE HER EMOTIONS OH MY GOD

"I hope I get grandparents who don't comment on my weight" wouldn't that be so fucking awesome charlie (not that my grandparents have ever been like that but other family members have)

I HOPE DAD REMEMBERS TO PROPERLY SEASON THE TURKEY - HE WON'T - YEAH HE WON'T

I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUUUUUUUUUUUCH

move over jane I will in fact be taking over care duties for these two

honestly jane needs therapy the most out of everybody in that household. and we're talking about the same household where charlie and tori spring live in.

HENRYYYYYYYYY

BRO HE'S SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I was imagining he'd be smaller tho :(

"by little guy who needs hugs I did mean henry but actually that applies to me as well so" I WAS *ABOUT* TO SAY AKDJFISJFOSJFSOIF

OLIVEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRR

OLIVER SPRING I MISSED YOU SO MUCH I MISS YOU EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY

I know why they couldn't have oliver but GOD I MISSED YOU

HE'S GOT LOADS OF TRACTORS THATS MY BABY BOY

oh my god it's been eight months? that's so cute

"any lovely boys in your life?" "no"

STRAIGHT BOYS ARE THE WORST LAJFLSJFLSJF

good thing michael isn't straight eh eh eh eh eh

"he might not end up being straight" olly is the springs' token straight but he's a good one. like tao.

Jane I SWEAR TO GOD

oh my god

is that David? NOOOOO I THOUGHT WE WERE FREE OF HIM

oh my god I'm gonna rip his balls off I'm gonna drag him down the street with his dick tied to the car I'm gonna rip every single one of his eyelashes

FUCK YOU DAVID

LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOO

TEAM LET NICK NELSON SAY FUCK 2K24 JUST HAD ITS BIGGEST WIN YET

nick really needs to tell david to shut the fuck up more often honestly

"stop flirting in the group chat" same isaac

DARCYYYYYYYYYYYYY

DARCY'S GRANDMA SAYING YOU LOOK SO HANDSOME I'M GONNA CRY

oh..... oh is sahar flirting???

TEAM ZAHEANEY

god this is stressing me out so much

TORI

TORI NOOOOOOOOOO

fuckkkkkkk her FACE my BABY GIRL

oh he's so soaked baby :(

parallel gifset thoooooooo

OH THEYRE KISSING okay I see it

ODKFKDJFDKFKDLGKDLGKF

AUNTIE DIANE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

oh he's peaking I see u nick

RIDICULOUSLY ADORABLE

god

I love both of them so much? it's insane?

obsessed with auntie diane also adoring charlie like that's a nelson sisters thing

god sarah should be here I miss her :(

nick and charlie and the twins :( I love them :(

henry as everyone's emotional support pug

fuck you david you know what you did

JAKFJSKFJDKFJDJF I know david's terrified of tori I know he is

AGAIN: henry as everyone's emotional support pug!!!! get tori a dog please for the love of god!!!!!

"I worry about you all the time, you know" of course you do bbg, best sister ever award goes to victoria spring

nicktori teaming up on charlie to support him! charlie spring stans #1

"there's always new years eve" god I hope NYE is good

"I think about it. like all the time--NOT all the time, a respectful amount of time that one thinks about one's girlfriend in that way" JAKFJSKFJDKFJDJF TAO I LOVE YOU

off the top of my head I can't imagine a single show or movie that's handled being a transgender teenager and starting your sex life. let alone in a way that feels so beautiful and respectful. heartstopper is truly just breaking barriers left and right.

tori, charlie and oliver playing mario kart together....... you will rip this scene from my cold dead hands. COLD DEAD HANDS im telling you

HOW'S MY TINY BOYYYYY

oh my god

the way nick said "lucky me" sounded so.........

I know those two are going to salt that car

IMOGEN HUGGING CHARLIEEEEEEEEEE

omg

oh poor tara baby

ZAHEANEYYYYYYY

oh. oh yeah imogen honey no

yeah I see why sahar would be so annoyed like omg

DARCY AND FELIX ARE DISCUSSING PRONOUNS IM GONNA SOB

not rush playing in the background lmfao this party is so homosexual

oh OH OH OHHHHH okay

okay so that WAS the point I thought I was being odd when thinking that song was weirdly sensual

naomi is the sweetest tiniest loveliest babygirl I'm so glad we have her

god they're SO BEAUTIFUL we lucked out so much with kit and joe

oh tori

"the only person I care about is you" oh tori baby girl love of my life

"that won't be true forever" IT WON'T BE!!!!! I CAN ALMOST FEEL MICHAEL

oh my god

"we haven't spoken properly since halloween and now you're here to kiss me at midnight" god I wish I was sahar she's so brave and cool and fuckin awesome

GASp

WHAF

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

IMOGEN IS WHY SAHAR REALIZED SHE WAS BI

WHAT ZJFLSJFLDJFSLFJDLFJDLFISLFIDLFI

G A S p

OH MY GIC

MICJAEL

MICHAEL

OYMGJ

THRUR ENOT MEETING LIKE TJAT

BRO THATS A MEET CUTE

SPROOOOLLLLDDEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNN

TJR LITTLE SNOWFLAKE

IM NOT

BRO I'M NOT DOING OKAY

TAOELLE

Y'ALL AREN'T HAVING SEX RIGHT AT NEW YEARS DJDKSUFKDJFLDJFLDKF

IMOGEN AND SAHAR???????????

oh my go d

BRO

BRO I'M DYING

NICK AND CHARLIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

fuck

yeah I was so right this is probably gonna be my favorite episode of the season

[crystlizabeth]

Need You Now..

paring: Joel Miller x Blackfem!reader

summary: you just had to see him you couldn’t get him off your mind..

warnings: Language, and mention of alcohol substances (unestablished relationship)

Fluff, emotions are everywhere. not the best written but i think its cute!

Its just some crush. Thats what you wanted to think but you sat alone on your couch drinking away the thought of him thats what you wanted to do. But everything just came back they way he looked at you, how his hazel eyes watched you through his long eyelashes. How his hand rested comfortably on the small of you back as he would greet you from behind.

Joel miller had this effect on you.

“This is so fucking stupid..” the way your words slurred together made you groan, standing up from your couch slightly stumbling. You wanted to see him so bad.. You needed him you just wanted his arm to wrap around you his warmth making you lose thought of any insecurities that lied in your head. Feeling the emotion slowly take over hot tears ran down your face.

You wonder if he had those thought about you, just wanting to have you in his presence being able to talk for hours in the warmth of each others arms. Soft kisses being shared as you just laid together.

Glancing over at your clock its about 12:45. You couldn’t care less you walk over to you front door grabbing the handle, just stopping for a second rethinking. Should i just go back and sleep this off..? Or should i just tell him.. your body gave you the answer opening the door and stepping out.

Jacksons street lights guided you to the porch you wanted to see. His, a light still on in his upstairs window. Walking up the stairs going to knock on the door you kuckles only hitting the door. You herd heavy footsteps from the inside come to open the door. The older man stood before you a worried look displayed on his features.

“Howdy.. everythin’ alright darlin..? Its late..” His voice was deep, but soft the way his accent thickened when darlin’ rolled off his tongue referring to you. Where you alright?

You didn’t say anything for a second you just kinda stood there observing him the look of worry on his face. He stood still wearing his work clothes a brown button up the sleeve rolled up half way, his dark blue wranglers being held up by a belt, him hin a pair a square pointed cowboy boots. “I just need you..”

His head tilted slightly “Sweetheart.. excuse me if I’m wrong but i think you’re drunk. You sure you’re at the right person’s house?”

God he’s oblivious. “I know where im at Joel i wanted to see you i just need you right now..” your hands messed with the sleeves of your jacket. Acting coy like a high school girl admitting her feelings to her crush. Adverting your eyes from his not wanting to face that feeling of rejection, just the thought made you tear up.

“Hey, Hey darlin’ dont cry just a little shocked. Here come in..” his voice was quiet as he grabbed you gently pulling you into his house closing the door to keep the cold out.

“Come m’er, theres no need to cry.. im here..” he pulled you in to a hug his arm wrapping around your body him carefully placing his arms under your hair wrap, some of your hair coming into your face as your head laid on his chest. Your arms wrapping around his bigger build the softest of his body causing you to melt into him. 

“Now are ya gonna tell me whats wrong?” He asked his chin resting upon your head.

“Im a little drunk in my fuckin feelings just wanting to be with you..” your voice softens at the last part.

A low chuckle coming from his throat “you’re all up in your feelings about me?”

You nodded against his chest “well i do half to admit I was on my way to your condo I couldn’t get ya off my mind..” he admitted.

You push away from him looking him dead in the eye “you bein’ for real right now?”

He laughed lightly at your sudden movement the look on your face making it better “Yeah i am..”

“Listen Beautiful its a quarter after 1 and bow that your here would ya like to stay, stay with me.” Joel spoke softly and his hands came up to your neck his thumbs rubbing your face lightly in comfort.

“Mmhm , that sounds amazing love..” you hummed, leaning into his touch. His hands brought you close giving you a small kiss on the forehead.

“Lets go then..” Joel said as his hands traveled from your neck down your arms to your hands taking them in his own. You trailed behind him up his stairs to his room.

“You look like you could use somethin’ more comfortable..” he said as he turned around a large t-shirt in his hands offering it to you.

You took it from him watching his movements as he took of the shirt he was wearing it sliding off his shoulders. Age may had gotten him but damn he still looked so fuckin good. He wasn’t as shaped in the stomach from what he would have from when he was younger, a small belly had formed his arms though. Christ. They where big full of muscle the way the flexed as he put on a shirts just the movement in general.

He looked back up at you, your mouth slightly open. “Would say tale a picture make it last longer but its a shame you can’t.” He spoke sending you a wink making you laughing slightly.

He was finished changing you on the other had had just been watching him the way he was just comfortable to change in front of you made you feel special you know? You finally pull your long sleeve over your head revealing to him the black bra you wore but also the tattoos that laid on you stomach and chest eras he knew you had some but wow they looked damn good on you. Also noticing the stretch marks on your body the way they where light and dark upon your brown skin including your arms the way the laid on your stomach and around your boobs made him melt. gorgeous pure beauty. You finally throw the green shirt over your head careful not to fuck up your wrap, discarding your pants you finally join Joel in his bed.

He lifted the blanket offering you a spot next to him that you happily accepted. You turned to your side looking at him catching him already looking at you “I reckon you want a kiss?” You stated sarcastically.

“If your offering.” He smirked.

So you did you gave him a kiss, a soft kiss nothing more.

[ivanajpeg]

ODESTA WEEK (DAY 7 LET'S GET SILLY)

Where Annie is feeling a bit silly and Finnick just let's her be

Note 1: English is not my first laguage, If you see any mistakes please let me know. Im always trying to improve

Note 2: This is the last day of the odesta week, I really had fun doing this even though my writing is not that good yet, I learned a lot during this week to improve it. I hope we have another odesta week with other promps to experiment with.

Hope you enjoy this last day of the odesta week <3

"Annie, are you sure this is a good idea?"

"Relax, everything is going to be fine"

Annie and Finnick were sitting on their bed. Annie was pretty bored today, so she proposed to him to let her do his makeup. Just for the laughs.

Finnick said yes just because he thought she would do something simple, until he saw everything she pulled out.

"You really need all that?"

"Yep, I need all this to make you look pretty"

Finnick sigh and let her start. Annie started narrating everything she was doing.

"Okay, so ill start preparing your skin"

"Preparing my skin?"

"Preparing your skin" Annie started applying different skincare products, she was having a lot of fun "now... well, this might hurt" Annie pulled out things to shave his eyebrows.

"Annie, we said makeup only, what is that?"

"I just want to shape your eyebrows, everything is going to be fine... I think so" Annie started shaving his brows carefully "Done, see? it wasn't that bad"

Annie applied the first layers of makeup. She applied a foundation way to white for hims, a concealer even whiter and a bronzer. Annie couldn't stop laughing meanwhile Finnick looked at himself in the mirror.

"Ann I look like a ghost, what is this?" he said laughing "is this really your skin tone?"

"Well you like being under the sun more than me, besides it looks like sunscreen doesn't work on you"

"And you used a concealer even whiter"

"That's how concealer work"

Annie continued doing his makeup, she used a blush she just bought, she didn't knew how pigmented it was.

"Hahahaha, you look like a clown" Annie was almos crying from laughter.

"Annie! It looks like someone just punched me! Is new right? because the one you use doesn't look like this"

"Yes, it's new, sorry" he kissed him on the cheek, he rolled his eyes playfully.

Annie applied the powder to him.

"Now I know why you take too long to do your makeup, I'm not gonna lie, I like watching you do your makeup, it's relaxing"

"It actually is, I like it a lot"

"I know, and you always look so pretty"

Annie blushed and gave him a peck.

"Which color you want for your eyeshadow?" She asked him, showing him all her eyeshadows.

"I want blue eyeshadows and glitter, like the sea" he said playing along "and add big lashes"

"Big eyelashes... I'll try, I've never been good at applying those"

Annie started painting sea waves on his eyelids with the eyeshadows and some eyeliners. She also used little stones.

Finnick looked at himself in the mirror and smiled, for him, Annie had so much talent doing this kind of stuff, he was sure he would let her practice with him more in the future.

Annie was very concentrated while applying the eyelashes, at the end she managed to do it and she smiled proud of herself.

She moved on to his lips, he chose the lipliner, the lipstick and lipgloss.

When Annie finished with his lips, he kissed her cheek.

"Finn!" Annie smiled while seeing the lipstick stain on her cheek.

"You always do it, it was time for my revenge" They both smiled and she finished the look.

They took a couple of silly pictures before removing his makeup. Annie was very happy for her masterpiece and Finnick was happy looking at Annie's beautiful smile.

He would do anything in his power to keep that smile on her face.

[februaryberries]

the rest of my reaction to the rest of the episodes because i can’t be bothered to split them up

JIMS HOT CHOCOLATE JIMS MUG

she’s so cute im gonna cry

she’s so cute and they’re so like hdjshfjdbf

SHES SO SWEET

DONT HESITATE TO ASK ANY OTHER QUESTIONS YOU HAVE ABOUT LOVE INSPECTOR CONSTABLE

i feel so bad for nina :(

OH MY GOD HE JOURNALS

aziraphale fuckin writing in a journal kicking his legs like a teenage girl

aziraphale sweetie you’re so brainwashed

OH MY GOD HE MADE IT YELLOW

oooooo i love the bentley driving into the intro art that’s so cool

he’s so obsessed w the rain moment

im so obsessed w ziras diary it’s so funny

now zira that was petty and bad

zira NOOOOOO

oh poor zira he’s so sad

he’s so cute in his little detective costume

THE SKINNY LOWDOWN HES SO SOLLY

gimme the FACTS

well yeah mason hmmmm

im so worried about this girl i feel like this is going to end badly

they’re gonna die

i knew something would go wrong

rip those guys

NO SHE DIED??????? FUCK

he’s insane crowley insane

HES SO TINY

im small arent i

GIANR ROWLEY?????

where are you

GRINDR LMAO

the awning moment

ooooof

VERY CLOSED LOL

it’s always too late :((((

PH MY GOD IS HE IN THE HITCHHIKER

who is she

YOU DONT SEEM HIS TYPE ????? IM SORRY!?????

WHAT HAT WHAT I HEARD YOU AND CROWLEY WERE AN ITEM IM FUCKING SCREAMING

furfur WHO

OH MY GOS OH MY GOD OH MY GOD ITS LIKE I HOPED BUT I COULDNT LET MYSELF BELIEVE THEYD ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING SJFJSJCJJSKSZKJDJ OKAY WAIT OKAY IM NOT POSTING THIS UNTIL I FINISH IT NOW IN CASE IM WRONG LOL

Im sorry is it literally raining hearts when zira and crowley are sitting on the roof in the intro are u kidding me

NO WAY NO WAY NO WAY NO WAY NOT US GETTING 1941 RIGHT AFTER THEY YOURE AN ITEM COMMENT ARE U FUCKING KIDDING ME RN IM GONNA THROW UP

the music

who tf is that guy in the church how is he awake alive whatever

is he flirting is that flirting

oh thank you crowley is there anything i can do for you in return *bats eyelashes* LMAO

ooooo

SISSY TYPE

EW THAT TONGUE WAS SO UNNECESSARY

oh no not magic he’s so silly

nice exactly what nazis deserve

ZOMBIES????

no this poor old man also how did he not see them LMAO

That’s what …… f r i e n d s are for LMAOOOO

CROWLEYS OLD MAN IMPRESSION IS SO FUNNY

he’s so supportive look ziras so happy

SOMEONE YOU REALLY TRUST OH MY GOD

ZIRAS SO EXCITED AW oh rip the magic shop guy

im so scared for aziraphale oh god i don’t know if i can watch

he’s so baby

THE BEES KNEES

JIGGERY POKERY

OH NO MIRACLES BLOCKED OH FUCK

oh no

evidence envelope LMAO

im so nervous but i know it’s going to work H

he’s so whimsy

OH HE DID A MAGIC TRICK W THE PHOTO DIDNT HE

BRILLIANT AZIRAPHALE IF U DID WHAT I THINK U DID

Lmao get fucked nazis

YES ZIRA I KNEW IT

oh my god im gonna throw up

they’re so sweet

SHADES OF GREY

im so

CROWLEYS PET????

TJE BULLET HOLE STUCKERS THRE STICKERS

oh no are the demons gonna crash his night

HES GIVING AWAY BOOKS

NO WAY DAVID PUTTING ON THE FEZ I SEE YOU AS HE ALSO MENTIONED THE DR WHO BOOK ARE U KIDDING I FUCKIN SEE YOU

THE FEZ LMAOO

HER ARMOR LMAOOOO

this is so awkward lmao

OH FOFO FURFUR WHATEVER HIS MAME IS

Zira please stop speaking french

YOUVE BEEN TOGETHER LONG IM KILLING MTSELF IM THROWING UP

HES NOT MY BIT ON THE SIDE

other peoples love lives always seem more straightforward than our own AND HE WALKS AWAY HE DIDNT KNOW IM HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW WAHHHH

Im losing my mind oh god the season finale is after this episode im going to throw up

WHAT IS THIS

SMITTEN IM SORRY ???

this isn’t going to end well

okay but the way they do the texts from Lindsey is so cool

my only friend

OH NO HES SO SAD

CROWLEY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU

oh thank god

crowley OH ITS IN THE MATCHBOX

DO YOU WANT A HOT CHOCOLATE CROWLEY AWEWW IM GONNA DIE

Oh sweet girl

nobody would believe you anyway :( WAIT AND SEE LMAO

So beautiful

OH NO MAGGIE

A SEASMSTRESS

ZIRA U CANT FORCE PPL TO FEEL THINGS

he’s so worried :((( crowley

HES ASKING HIM TO DANCE ??????? IM SORRY ARE THEY GOING TO DANCE

jim :((( a

THE FUR COAT LMAO

TOSTE

oh rip the annoying guy LOL

i won’t leave you on your own maggie :(

BUT RESCUING ME MAKES HIM SO HAPPY????????? IM SORRY EXCUSE ME WHAT

YOU SAID BLAH BLAH BLAH

WHY IS CROWLEY GOING TO HEAVE THOUGH

LAST EPISODE IM GOING TO DIE

his little prance

MAGGIE NO

man that one demon can’t catch a break

HIS LITTLE HAPPY WALK LOL

crowleys emotional support angel

CROWLEY YOUR MEMORY

are gabriel and beelzebub going on dates these look like dates LMAO

SHE GAVE HIM THE FLY ????

WAIT ACTUALLY I DIDNT THINK I WAS RIGHT OH MY GOD

HES SUGGESTING ALPHA CENTURI FOR THEM AND ITS LIKE BUT THATS WHERE HE WAS GOING TO TAKE AZIRAPHALE

it’s a crime that gabriel and beelzebub are getting together before crowley and zira THEY DID IT FIRST

us time

he’s tidying up the shop :(((( and waiting for zira

im gonna throw up im gonna throw up oh no what is azira going to say what did matatrom say oh no

NO CROWLEY WAS ABOUT TO CONFESS IM GONNA THROW UP

oh no but he doesn’t want oh no

oh zira sweetie

NO IM GONNA THROW UP IM GONNA CRY

NO IM NO

im NO

THIS ISNT WHAT I MEANT WHEN I SAID MAKE THEM KISS WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WTH YOU THIS ISNT WGAT I MEANT THIS ISNT WHAT I MEANT IM GONNA THROW UP WHAT DO TOU MEAN IM GONNA FUCKINGDYE IM SOBBING ZIRA NOOOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOO ZIRA WHAT HAVE YOU DONE ZIRA NOOOOOOOOO

WHAT THE FUCK THIS ISNT WHAT I MEANT

how am i ever ever ever ever supposed to recover from this the way they both wanted the other to come with them but zira is too brainwashed by heaven still and it’s heart breaking and the way crowley kisses him because he thinks he’s never gonna have the chance now the NO NIGHTINGALE GALES we could have ben US zira being so heartbroken by the kiss I FORGIVE YOU don’t bother what if i eat my entire laptop right now

The way he tenderly touches his lips afterwards is Gut Wrenching and then he’s about to say he thinks he’s made a mistake and then you see him pack those feelings away in a box and shove them deep down and what if i died right now

[alien-hunny]

Void Experience

THIS IS A LONG POST ! I seen a post about how they wanted more details about how people just wake up after the void with all of their desires. So I wanted to share my first day waking up from the void!

When I woke up from the void I lowkey forgot i went to the void until I realized my room was fucking emptyyyyyy ☠️ then i was like “oh shit-“. I didn’t check for shit besides my car because i was sooooo fucking hype for my jeep !! I ran downstairs and when i went outside i fucking SCREAMEDDD when I seen that shit. Like it’s so pretty and red and it has all my anime stickers and EYELASHES! (yess my jeep is a bad bitch 🥴) and my lil hangy dice thingy 🥺😂 My neighbor was walking her big ass dog and she was just staring at me so i took my ass back in the house and went back to my room.

My mom came in there and was asking why i was yelling. (My family and everyone except for people at my school pretty much think i’ve always had my car and i was always planning on moving on the 5th of March.) I just told her that i was excited to move and she went back in her room lmao☠️ that was lowkey awkward..

My boyfriend was texting me asking when i was coming over and i called him and i fucking cried otp to this man telling him how happy i am to be moving with him and he was laughing telling me i don’t need to cry cuz ima make him cry (my fucking heart bro😫) I told him I’ll be over there after I take a shower. So i took my shower put my cute ass fit from fucking Pinterest on and seeing myself with my df and db wasn’t really nothing crazy because before the void i was already acting as if i already had it, but damn i feel bad asf.

i got in my car for the “first time” YALL!!!!!!! It was so surreal. I had never driven by myself before the void but it was like i’ve been driving my whole life and i was crying otw to my boyfriends house. I had to stop myself before I got there cuz he was not bout to clown my ass lmao🙅🏾‍♀️ After I got there he got in and we were just going to come back for his stuff cuz my car was full. I was so nervous to go to my new home so we went to Roberto’s first and I got some carne asade fries (my fucking favvv). We ate in the car and while we were eating I was just thinking about how im gonna be yelling and running around my house and shit lol.

We drive to the house and it’s a gated community, close asf to my school. So driving through the gate was sooo fucking crazy and the whole little community is so niceeeee , we living like the rich wypipo 🥺✋🏾! I pull up to my house and i’m just too excited. The key was in the door which was kinda weird to me but whatever the house is mines and i know nobody is gonna just go in a random house so we walk in and it just looks so nice. It is empty but the house is just so nice and i’m so in love with it.

I forgot to mention my boyfriends hair hehe it’s so cute and it’s long like how he wanted ( i manifested that it would be the way he wants it & i loveeeee it)

This was two days ago and we went to get his things, we spent yesterday unpacking and went shopping a bit just for things we would need today. He “made” me breakfast lol he went to Wendy’s. We have school today so we drove to school together for the first time and everybody was asking us questions all dayyyy (no one at school knows i’ve had the car lol) Asking me when i got my car and all that good stuff. I’m in class rn and afterschool we’re gonna go shopping for some house things ! I feel like buying appliances and shit for the house is boring to reg people but i’m so hype lol BOUT TO GET MY AIR FRYER 💅🏾!

if y’all want another post talking about what my house looks like and how we plan on decorating just let me knowwww ! I can also make a post about my relationship a little bit if y’all want some more insight 🖤

[caroldantops]

OKAY PERF

so like, imagine being besties with robin having your usual friday night sleepover but this time it’s taking a turn a getting a little crazy. like playing truth or dare and things are starting to edge into dirty territory and robin is fucking short circuiting bc shes had the biggest crush on you forever but doesn’t even know if you’re into girls but also bc she’s been loading up on soda and juice and her bladder is starting to fill up fast. and she’s SO close to calling a time out for a bathroom break but oh shit you took her half joking strip an item of clothing off seriously because suddenly there you are yanking off your shirt like something out of a porno and holy FUCK there are the tits that robins dreaming about all soft and perfect with hard little nipples and fuck you look at her devilishly and say “wanna touch em?”

needless to say her need to pee is forgotten and she’s groping you and then you’re kissing and clothes are coming off and she can feel her bladder pulsing but fuck if she’s pausing all of this like her lips are sucking on your nipples for fuck sake. and maybe she dribbles a little when you suck on her neck but it’s just a little and she doesn’t begin to panic until you’re sliding down onto your knees and commenting how cute her big wet patch is totally not aware it’s not just arousal but she’s not going to deny getting eaten out by you but then you’re licking and licking and sucking her clit and she’s in the danger zone and fuck she’s leaking once then twice and then a short hard stream in your mouth while crying out in humiliation and you’re pulling back a little excited thinking she just squirted and there go the floodgates and big nonstop burst of pee just covers your face like eyelashes dripping and shes pissing and can’t stop shes SO RED and you’re not moving and fuck robins gonna die she’s gonna die it’s in your mouth and — wait, are you…swallowing?

😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 oh my god. i...god. robin's like about to die and she's panicking and going "oh my god im so so so sorry oh my god i cant believe i just did that you probably hate me and i totally understand if you never want to talk to me again please let me get you like a towel and a change of clothes and you can shower here if you want or if you just want to go home i understand too and--oh!"

her gasping as you flatten your tongue against her dripping cunt, maybe taking the time to kiss her wet thighs too...telling her how cute she looked losing control......and once she stops panicking she notes "god, you look...hot all wet like this. is that gross?"

"you're the one who just pissed in my mouth so i dont know how much grosser you can go"

"shut up"