#HEARTSICK

[pigeonwbraces]

Heartsick girlie

[so-idialed-9]

"And this is a thing many people outside your grief cannot understand: that you have not simply lost one person, at one point in time. You have lost their presence in every aspect of your life. Your future has changed as well as your “now.”  As your grief unfolds, you will find more and more places their absence shouts. I don’t mean that as a downer. The truth is, as we live forward, we carry their absence with us. The absence exists because love exists. The only thing time will do is shift the balance, allowing more love to take over that absence, filling in the empty place with its own weight. ...My hope for you is that the love you feel equals the absence, that love takes up just as much space. May you feel your own love and the love of the one who has gone like the outgoing and incoming tides." -Megan Devine

[autumnsunshine10]

Arrhythmia

Wasted so much damn time

On shackling sentimentality

Breathing in pollutants, irritants

Paying attention to the oblivious

What never pays attention to me

A lottery ticket scratched off too late

Tangled up in fate, so tempting

Attempting not to revert to hate

For myself...I still am worthy of love

At least I use that as a consolation

When the darkness closes in

And I must begin to remend

To fend and fight for every breath

Shaky yet still inhaling/exhaling

Dreams have deserted yet

Something solid is prevailing

Death isn't on the doorstep

If I go down it's teeth and nails

Scrapes and scratches calling card

God it's hard learning to live

To find yourself again

After the heart fails

Prompts: learning to live; paying attention

[ciceroartwork]

@aceinacloset

Regarding the removal of the jacket, there is one button but she has wings so it can't be a pull-off type of deal bc that would hurt.. and the tie. But I think that's under the jacket. But I could unbutton the button and run around her and scram, but idk how she puts the coat on if she has wings. There has to be velcro or something, which probably isn't strong, so it probably won't hurt her but idk since she didn't have it on in the Honk shorts. If I approach her without silly intent I might be able to inspect her back to see how the coat is put on. BUT wait, there's the waist thingy with the heart. In the Honk shorts, she was not wearing it, but that could just be artist's choice. BUT it is also a dress, and that would be rather rude. But this is a mostly theoretical situation. Does she wear anything under it? Perhaps a dress shirt? Yes, from the CB ref I see she is wearing a dress shirt under there. And from the og ask. She is wearing shorts of some type in the OG ask, I believe, as I don't think she'd be so okay if she weren't. And also in the CB ref I cannot see any clothes past the knees, so maybe she's wearing booty shorts. Perhaps her wings are detachable? She mentioned in the wing-touch ask (i think) that the bases of them were sensitive. I see no way as to how the waist thing comes off, so it must be in the back

Inspect back, how does that work I don't wanna hurt her.

undo waist thing

undo button

Grasp and run around her

Run away because I realized she has no way of taking it off??????

Wait in the 2nd proposal she does not have any clear way as to take it off (no seams)???? She has taken it off twice so far (Honk shorts and OG ask)

Perhaps her side? Her wings must be detachable in some way, or electro-magnetic.

:/

Your mean? She's trapped? WHY IS SHE TRAPPED?! HOW DOES SHE TAKE IT OFF DUDE SHE'S TRAPPED

Ugh I love how woozy she looks in the CB ref?????? AUGH

What if I just get on my hands and knees and beg her at her feet will she let me wear it then

Oh wait I think the middle thing comes off in the front now that I look at it

It would probably fall off of her

So run off in one direction then circle back and grab it and run and attempt to hide with my loot

5. run away

5. Run away and turn back around and pick it up and run

6. Bribe someone for assistance

7. If 6 is not possible collapse with the loot and curl into a ball around it and refuse to let go because I'm stupid and this was stupid and I don't wanna admit defeat she's gonna have to peel it away from me

Or go to Broiler and try to bribe her with Arctic paraphernalia to take me away or 8-Bit because she seems like she'd enjoy the chaos

[haveyoureadthisbook-poll]

[writinginthenight]

Pulmonary vein

too sentimental to write,

in my chest

its like wanting to cry but not because you're sad.

but also you're a little sad

somthing akin to heartsickness, but its not painful.

its just the unidentifiable pressure

it wraps around every breth you take,

enriching who you are.

and you just feel something

so you sit and feel

and you revel in the refeshing softness

[violetblacksparkles]

I lay awake in bed thinking about how you're not laying awake in bed thinking about me

[angelmush]

missing savannah and kristina and all my friends who live far away :(

[lovebasement]

Inside my skull there is a little heart rotating around. That is all

[ciceroisaware]

POV

@aceinacloset

[autumnsunshine10]

Topsy-turve

Took too many turns

On the topsy-turve

Ducked when I should've swerved

Abounding curves tend

Not to curb curiosity

Voluptuous velocity

At fervid ferocity

Proves costly to maintain

Mourning ghostly remains

Veiled in head to toe black

No going back to vivid color

No vacancies at the lurid inn

Still they're lured in

Looking through the steamy glass

Cable TV isn't what it used to be

Not when there's a steady stream

Vying for viewing pleasure

And pirates on the open seas

Jolly Roger, I've lost my head

But none care as long as there's

A body to be bred

[ravennaramos]

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a desire fulfilled is a tree of life

Proverbs 13:12

[ciceroartwork]

@aceinacloset @machine-circus

Drew our Heartsicks! :D

[slapstick-funeral]

Can't post this anywhere else, so here ya go Tumblr

[its-a-sad-songgg]

crazy how someone can go from feeling like a safe place to a stranger in the blink of an eye.

[dolores-hazy]

A blank check of sorts for your “Song Writing” ask:

https://youtu.be/2bLDIfh22uM

Let me start by apologizing

For all the things I almost said

Choked down and drowned

In tears--so much you might have known

But I found not worth the words

The heart is an untamed beast after all

Craving careless of convention or convenience

I could've spilled my guts and for what?

You never needed my heartsick serenade

Piled on your already packed plate

Calendar crammed, other dates to keep

Hands full and never meant to be

Filled with (feeling around for) me

I got lost in feelings futile

Full of longing most fruitless

I failed myself

Now I flail miserably

For the beast awakened

Sleeps not easily nor tight

Sedation sounding

Most seductive

One last kiss

Goodnight