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Dinner & Diatribes (Gabriel Rossetti smut)
Dante Gabriel Rossetti x fem!reader Words: 3.3K (I got carried away) Genre: Smut (18+) with some angst (half of it is literal filth) Warnings: fingering, handjob, oral fem!recieving, edging, unprotected sex (don't do that kids) Summary: The infamous painter Dante Gabriel Rossetti realises he's falling in love with Lord Whitewood's wife, when he's invited to paint her portrait. Lucky for him you're on the same page and things take a heated turn when your husband unexpectedly leaves London and you find yourself unable to stay away from the devilishly handsome painter. (I made Gabriel a lot less of a jerk and the title is one of Hozier's songs that I recently discovered and thought was perfect for this fic.) - A/N: Sorry this is going to be a bit long because I have many things to say. First and foremost, sorry for the super random tags, but I'm trying to reach the Aidan girlies out there and I'm sure nobody goes on the Desperate Romantics tags. Moving on I want to say that this is the first time in 3,5 years that I've been able to write anything and it was so liberating, because I feel like I lost a great way of expressing myself all this time. Nevertheless, please be kind to me, english is not my first laguage, this took a great amount of self pressure to actually be finished over a course of about 2 weeks and it might just be nothing but cringe (don't come at me pls). Now on to the fun part. So, apparently I'm currently hyperfixating HARD on Aidan Turner after watching Rivals and my long hair kink is just making things worse. When I tell you I could literally do anything for him. Writing the smutty part of this fic at some point had me feeling like I was in some sort of high. I mean just look.at.these.eyes dear Lord. Ok enough with the yapping omg, it's getting too tmi.
You didn't even realise how you ended up at his front door in the middle of the night. Or at least that's what you kept telling yourself, in hopes of avoiding or simply delaying feeling the shame of being an awful wife to your husband, Lord Whitewood.
You knew you'd find him there, at the old greenhouse he called home, under the gentle warm light of the candles, working on either some new sketch, or your portrait. And after catching a glimpse of him actually immersed in the latter, you felt your heart flutter. He turned away from his painting abruptly when he heard the door open and for a moment he believed he hallucinated you standing in front of him, because of the endless hours he'd been working on your portrait. But the way you stood there, your chest heaving, your frame slightly trembling from how nervous you were and your eyes glinting that all too familiar spark, he knew you were really there in the flesh. And it felt just like the first time he'd ever seen you, that day at your husband's house.
Lord Dorian Whitewood, a great fan of the arts, had shown interest in the works of Dante Gabriel Rossetti and after paying him a couple of visits to his studio to buy a few paintings, he invited him to his house to request a portrait of his beloved wife. Little did he know, that this would be the very start of a great forbidden love.
Rossetti was known to have a weakness for women. He would never hesitate having his way with any of his models at any time he'd please and could swear he'd never settle for just one woman. Until the moment he saw you sitting in that room waiting for him to start your portrait. He felt something he'd never felt before, but couldn't really explain it. This surely wasn't because of how majestically the light from the window ever so gently illuminated your face or your thick hair that fell freely on your shoulders. No, there was definitely something utterly unique about your aura.
"Lady Whitewood" he paused as he rose from his seat "What brings you here at this hour?" his eyes betrayed hopes that this wasn't really what he thought it was. Of course he couldn't be more pleased with the idea of finally getting to have you, evern for a single night, but he knew this could all possibly lead to a big scandal that would harm his already bad reputation. He never thought his flirting, which always came so naturally, so involuntarily, would actually have such effect on you so as to come running to him in the middle of the night alone.
Did he really worry so much about a potential scandal, though, or was it all just a cover for the fear that he might have actually fallen in love and you'll forever remain out of his reach?
"Dorian is out of town. He left for Oxford this morning, his brother has fallen ill. I might have to travel soon too, but for the time being, he insisted I stay here in London." He stood silent, looking at you straight in the eyes, waiting for your next words.
"I haven't been able to get the thought of you out of my mind, Gabriel." you admitted hesitant to move, while your gaze fell to the floor. Gabriel took a few steps forward instead, until he was right before you, lifting your chin up with one hand, locking eyes with you yet again. Just as he'd done that day at your husband's house while he was trying to figure out which pose would be better for his painting.
"You look absolutely stunning, do you know that?" he said walking back to his canvas after finishing with his adjustements on you. "I'd be lying if I said I'm completely oblivious to this fact." you replied teasingly, without looking at him, maintaining your pose. You were a confident woman after all, never afraid to show it when you had to.
"Does your husband know that?" his voice sounded lower than before making you feel things forbidden for a married woman. Gabriel's question took you so much by surprise that you turned to face him, only to realise he was doing the exact same thing. His eyes fixed on you, his gaze hungry, full of lust. Gabriel was a confident man too, never stopping himself from getting what he desired, never afraid to show it blatantly and straight away.
"Are you trying to tell me something Mr. Rossetti?"
"I'm just making sure that a beautiful woman like you is appreciated in the way she deserves, Lady Whitewood." You turned away, resuming your pose, trying to ignore how his smirk was igniting the heat deep within your core.
You liked your husband Dorian, he was a kind man who treated you well, took care of you. At this very moment, however, you were beginning to question whether you actually, genuinely loved him. He was a dear friend to you and your family, 10 years older than you. The marriage was of course arranged but you'd known Dorian for a long time, you trusted him. Was it ever something more than that, though? You never had such thoughts because, to your bitter realisation, you'd never actually fallen in love with someone. Up until now, that this devilishly handsome painter, who also seemed to be much closer to your age, stood opposite you almost every day, for far too many hours than your sanity would have preferred.
"Would you consider sitting for me for other paintings as well?" his voice interrupted your thoughts after a while of silence. You laughed bitterly."You clearly know this is no occupation for a lady. My husband would never allow it."
"Do you want to, though?" he insisted, not once breaking away from his canvas.
"Mr. Rossetti, are you asking me to go against the morals of our society for what I, a mere woman, want?" you kept looking straight ahead, trying hard not to glance at him.
"Would that be so bad?"
You scoffed at the audacity of his question before answering "Perhaps it really wouldn't, if we were living under any other circumstances."
"And what would the ideal circumstances be?" he continued, acting completely oblivious. "Are we playing some sort of game here, Mr. Rossetti?" you broke your pose again to bring him within your field of vision. "You and I both know what I'm talking about."
"Please call me Gabriel and no, I don't quite understand why someone can't have a bit of fun from time to time" he had left his work and strode his way to where you were sitting. His eyes bore into yours, a subtle smirk danced on his lips.
"Because as I've mentioned, I'm a woman that also happens to be married. And I respect and love my husband." the words sounded so foreign to you as you spoke. You were using every ounce of willpower to stop yourself from rising from your seat and falling in the arms of Gabriel, who was now slowly walking to your side, then your back, trying to carefully pick his next sentence.
An ever so light flinch was inevitable when he placed both his hands on your shoulders. You'd be heavily lying if you didn't admit you wanted them on every other inch of your body as well. He could feel his effect on you. If only you could feel yours on him. He wanted nothing more than to turn you around and crash his lips to yours hard. Instead, he contained himself, and whispered his reply close to your ear: "I don't really believe we'd still be having this conversation if that last part was true."
A knock on the door, brought you both back to reality and Gabriel moved away from you just as the maid came in with some tea. For a split second you believed it was Dorian, having somehow heard everything, coming in to catch you red handed. "If you do change your mind, however, you know where to find me." he gave you a quick wink, referring to his initial request earning him a stern look from you as the maid had yet to leave the room.
"Tell me you never truly wanted me to come. Tell me I shouldn't be here, I should be home, I should stay loyal to my husband." you pleaded, his pained expression was already telling you he didn't want you to leave.
"I could never lie to you, my dear." his lips now inches away from yours, god knew how he had been holding himself all this time. It was different with you. It always had been. He never felt the animalistic urge he felt when he was with a prostitute. No, he felt the need to treat you like fine porcelain, he could never break you. And so he contained himself, only for you to take him by surprise when you crashed your lips to his. His hands instinctively cupped your face as yours found purchase on his shoulders. Before you had time to indulge in one another, however, you pushed him away-one final attempt to avoid infidelity.
"This is madness!" you panted "We have to stop!" tears were welling up in your eyes. You wanted him so much it was painful. Yet, you still tried to convince yourself it was less painful than living the rest of your life knowing you had cheated on Dorian.
"But do you want to stop?" he raised his voice slightly, with a firm grip on the side of your upper arms, making you look at his hungry eyes. "These ideal circumstances that we were talking about are right here, right now. No one knows about this besides us. So if you still truly wish to stop, you're free to leave." he couldn't push you, but could at least try to persuade you. He needed you as much as you needed him.
"You're right I do want to stop, I got carried away, I shouldn't have come in the first place." you lied and felt him slowly release you letting you turn away to leave and put an end to this brief encounter. No sooner had you taken two steps than he caught your arm, spun you around and met you in a heated kiss that you neither could nor wanted to escape.
One hand on his chest the other tangled in his black locks, you let out a quiet moan as you felt him squeeze your waist and swipe his tongue over your lower lip. You granted him access and the groan he involuntarily let out hit you straight in your aching core. Breaking away from your lips, his mouth travelled to your jaw, then your neck, all while his skilled fingers had started working on the buttons of your outer gown. Kissing you was no longer enough, he had to feel you under his touch and was pleased to see you were on the same page as he sensed your hands on his waistcoat.
A pause was much needed for the unbuttoned items to be discarded. Gabriel then watched you take off your petite coat skirt, leaving yourself in nothing but your corset and short undergarment. He was quick to stop you from going any further.
"Let me, sweetheart." his fingertips momentarily brushed over the exposed skin of your breasts before moving to undo your corset, giving you goosebumps. Although very eager, his hands worked steadily, slow even, as if he was trying to imprint every little detail of the moment in his mind. Yours on the contrary, seemed to be moving on their own, finding their way along Gabriel's dishevelled dress shirt and opening it all the way down.
Once your corset was undone, he peeled the straps off your shoulders and took a step back to admire his 'work'.
"Breathtaking" he whispered with a smirk upon finally eyeing your exposed chest under the faint light of the candles and you felt the need to cover yourself. "Don't hide from me, darling." he came closer once more, opening your arms and placing them on his still half-clad torso instead, for you to free him of his shirt.
As soon as it was off, he attacked your lips yet again. The kiss being more heated than the previous, with the addition of the newfound feeling of each other's skin. Gabriel's strong hands on your waist turned you around and pressed you against him, before moving to undo the final piece of clothing separating him from your body, letting it pool around your feet. "Can you feel what you do to me, what you've been doing to me all this time?" he murmured breathlessly on the spot where your neck met your shoulder.
"Gabriel...please..." your voice was barely above a whisper, his erection undeniably pocking your ass through his pants. Hearing his name fall from your lips in such lust coated way, had him loosing his self control, unable to stop his hands from leaving your waist and roaming your bare skin as he kept kissing the side of your neck.
One hand finally found its way to one of your breasts, greedily kneading it earning himself sighs of pleasure. The other hand, travelled south, his fingers brushing your wet folds, to land on your clit."All this for me, darling?" he was panting, already lost in your body and the way you reacted under his touch. "Only for you" you moaned, eyes shut, trying to take in all the pleasure. You couldn't help but reach one hand behind your back and palm him, to which he reacted with a low grunt and a bite on your shoulder.
"Careful darling, you wouldn't want me to paint your skin with my teeth, would you?" he elicited another moan from you before his hands stopped their ministrations to grab your waist and turn you to face him once again. "Now get ready to jump." he flashed you his signature smirk that was enough to have you coming undone right then and there, as you felt him grip the back of your thighs.
You did as you were ordered to, tangling your legs around his waist and slipping your arms around his neck, letting him carry you to the bed and spill you on the sheets. He barely had time to remove his pants, before you pushed yourself up to kiss him hungrily and pull him back down on the bed with you. One hand on the curls you could never get enough of, the other reaching for his cock, gently beginning to squeeze and pump him.
Soon, Gabriel was a moaning and grunting mess around your hand. You had moved to straddle him, while he was propped on his elbows, head thrown back in pure bliss, giving you access to leave kisses on his neck. It wasn't long before he felt he was getting close and that's when he sat up to stop you. "Not yet, I want to give you more." he was out of breath but had no intention of giving himself time to catch it, so he met you in a desperate kiss as he laid you down on the sheets.
"I was thoroughly enjoying it, though." you grinned cheekily once he broke the kiss. "Patience, my dear, for the best is yet to come." he placed one final kiss on your lips before starting a trail down your jaw, neck and collarbones, stopping right on the valley of your breasts to glide his tongue on one of your nipples. Your arms found their place on his toned back as he began sucking, your moans getting mixed with his low grunts. He briefly switched to your other mound, growing too impatient to continue his trail south. Going past your navel, he paused upon reaching your pubic bone and while maintaining eye contact, giving you his dirtiest looks, his hands found your knees and spread your legs further apart.
You tensed and let out a gasp when you felt his mouth on your clit. "Relax darling, I just want to make you feel good." the look he gave you was intoxicating, pupils dilated, lips parted, you wanted him to have you in any way he pleased and so you proceeded to push his head down to where you truly needed him the most. Your fingers found their all too familiar place between his black curls as he ate you out like a starved man. His strong hands holding your hips as his mouth alternated between kissing, licking and sucking, earning himself the filthiest of sounds escaping your lips.
But just as you were starting to feel that all too familiar tightening deep in your core, Gabriel's mouth was no longer on you. Instead, he moved to hover over you, his lips glistening with your arousal under the warm candlelight, hair a mess from your pulling. A sight that definitely seemed like it was coming straight out of a fantasy.
"I need you, Gabriel." you didn't care if you sounded ridiculously desperate, you were for this man. You wouldn't have come running to him in the middle of the night once your husband was out of town if you weren't.
"Tell me how you need me, sweetheart." he knew full well what you were both aching for at that very moment, but still wanted to hear your words.
"Hard and slow, then you can do as you please." you'd barely finished your sentence before he entered you in one swift movement, dragging out a long moan from you to match his own groan. And he did as you asked, setting a slow pace with long hard strokes. You were bitting your lips trying to stifle your moans.
"Let me hear you, let me hear how I'm the only one making you feel like this." this pace was already too hard for him to maintain, he craved more and reached for your clit to get exactly that and the next moan of his name was no longer silent.
He started picking up the pace, his strokes remaining deep. You were both close after previously taking your time to indulge in each other's bodies.
You'd be lying if you said you could recall a time when Dorian had gotten you this close to the edge of heaven.
Gabriel's strokes were now getting sloppier as he buried his face in the junction of your neck and shoulder, his thumb never leaving your sensitive bundle of nerves.
"Let go for me, darling, I know you're close. He was breathless, barely able to contain his release with the way your walls were gripping him. "I want to feel you too, Gabriel." it was all it took for him to loose control and come undone within you. His heavenly sounds pushing you over the edge shortly after. His name was the only thing leaving your lips as your nails run down the tensed muscles of his back.
You rode out your highs and stayed tangled in each other for a few moments, trying to regain a sense of reality. Both dreading to look into each other's eyes after what you'd done. You wanted this night to last forever, the sun to never rise. Hoping that this way you'd never have to face the cold reality in which you were an infidel wife and your newfound lover had to live the rest of his life in the embrace of other women to try and forget the one who had managed to show him how love truly felt.
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#rivals fanfiction#desperate romantics fanfiction#declan o'hara smut#declan o'hara x reader#touching grass is not an option i need a lobotomy#gabriel rossetti fanfiction#poldark fanfiction#ross poldark facfiction#ross poldark x reader#kili x reader#kili smut#ross poldark smut
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the safi/max/vinh dynamic is by far one of the most interesting and messy triangles in the game!! like yes, safi smiled at you -- it was her smiling, but it was vinh’s face and his smile, not hers, and you think that expression is profound and you are fond of it. because of safi. but there is no denying the inherent vinh element and how she just kissed that man hours earlier. these three need to be studied under a microscope asap
#my posts.#life is strange double exposure#langfield#safield#making a chart for these three and drawing lines to decipher their relationships#i look like a crazed detective who desperately needs to sleep and touch grass#just. PHEW!!! safi when she changes into vinh around max is soooo interesting always#love them they’re all so fucked in the head fr <33
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need to be getting ready to go to the bar with my friends but instead i am thinking about solas
and felassan and solas
and felassan and lavellan and solas
solassolasolskskasks
#I desperately need to touch grass#while drinking copious amounts of whisky sours. ofc.#my entire life is revolving around fictional characters send help
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midori says:
#fanart#sketch#your turn to die#yttd#sou hiyori#sou hiyori yttd#yttd midori#midori yttd#soushin#i'm tired of this shit#anti/proship discourse is so annoying#soushin IS NOT A PROSHIP#you know there's something wrong with so called “anti” when you being harassed and receiving death threats over ship#and you or your friends/partner are harassed/cancelled because of this “witch hunting”#you are not a “good” person if you spread hate towards people who did nothing bad to you#yttd fandom in desperate need of touching a grass#funny or not how this sketch i did while ago (two years ago lol)#and finished it only now when someones harass people over a ship. AGAIN.#like it pased 3 years and some ppl still think that shipping fictional characters as bad as murder
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Every time I make a post with the word autism in it I’m sure to come in for some hate. I know how to block but damn some people are sure shitty.
#ramblies#one was literally calling me a creep for calling my betrothed what I do#I can pretty much guarantee that person is at least a decade younger than me and desperately needs to touch grass#being like ‘food sensitivity alone doesn’t make you autistic you stupid little meow meow’#Jesus Christ get help#anyway I edited the post to revise wording and blocked
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I can't believe I live in a reality where a white woman who was falsely accused of rape can sell BLM merch, keep the money, and be praised by tik tok, but a queer musician that everyone thinks is "cringe" gets canceled and accused "profiting from a child's death" by talking about Nex Benedict in a tik tok he earned $0 from, where all he said was "this is why I make the music that I do".
#tx2#melanie martinez#nex benedict#double standards#This once again proves that false rape allegations don't actually ruin lives#In many cases a false rape allegation is a get out of jail free card#Also people who engage in cringe culture are really funny#Cause when you criticize them they'll tell you to touch grass but then they'll prove that they're the ones that need to touch grass#People are honestly just DESPERATE to find a reason to cancel TX2 just cause they think he's cringe#I'm not mad about that#What I AM mad about is the fact that people are pretending to care about trans people like me in order to do it#This is one of the many fucking reasons I really really hate cis people#And there's trans people that are fucking falling for it it's annoying as fuck#Anyway cringe culture is fucking dead#lgbtqia
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logged into twitter saw four hate posts towards tommy and just lou in a row logged out from twitter
#what is wrong with twitter#i mean besides the obvious#also this fandom desperately need to go outside and tuch some grass#911 abc#tommy kinard#lou ferrigno jr
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Travelling to Ace Attorney past to fuck the real Bobby Fulbright and then travelling to Dual Destinies time to fuck Phantom Fulbright to compare their dick game
#shitpost#ace attorney#dual destinies spoilers#bobby fulbright#i desperately need to sleep and also touch grass
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Hiiii just wanted to say hope you’re doing well!
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Haha, I'm just kidding! I am actually doing a lot better nowadays– thank you so much for sending this message to check in 🥹 I really hope that you're doing well too! 💕
I admit February was really hard for a variety of reasons, but I have my partner to thank for pulling me through because he very heavily advocated for me to just to step back for a bit, get offline, and to give myself a small daily period of rest/distraction by chipping away at our backlog of shows we've been meaning to watch 😂
As a result I've spent the last month effectively sobbing over My Hero Academia lolll 🫣 On top of that, I've been trying to fit in some of my other hobbies like journaling and tarot into my daily routines again~
Mixing in some new fictional blorbos and spreading out my attention to other activities that have been known to ~spark joy~ for me in the past has really helped to alleviate the difficulties that popped up from the last couple of months! 🥰 and as an added bonus, it shuts up my brain for a few blissful hours everyday lmao 💗
#also been savoring walks with my dogs more now that the days are getting warmer and longer 💕#i was in desperate need of some grounding and wow along came touching grass! can attest that it really works 👍#also i was tagged by a couple people to share my current top 5 songs#just know that according to spotify my current top 11 songs are all opening and ending themes to MHA lollll#ask#anon
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Finally someone with good takes about hermes 😭 he makes me want to eat drywall
GOD SAME. GOD SAME. GOD SAME. IT'S A WAR ZONE OUT THERE I AM GRIPPING YOUR ARMS. i am chewing table legs about him i am kissing his face i am having a long firm talk with him over tea i am fistfighting him i am feeding him apples. i am showing him that one post where op listed every single bird in the entire world. i am showing him pictures of potoos
he is a soaking wet Long Autism Creature and he is so painfully relatable in SO many ways jesus fucking christ where do i even begin. for one thing every time someone's like 'he was just pre-judging people and shoving away their attempts to connect with him, it's his fault he was depressed and had no support system to deal with it!!!' i'm just like man i'm so glad for you that you've never been traumatized by questioning an evangelical community you're in. i really am. shut the fuck up
(which is something i have just. so many feelings about. it honestly means a lot to me to see that dynamic represented with such devastating accuracy by something that isn't an obvious fantasy expy of christianity. this is a pattern of abuse that happens under the right circumstances because people are people, it's not unique to a certain set of social trappings or even a specific overall belief system, and it makes me feel seen in a way that most narratives about this kind of thing just don't.)
ANYWAY THANK YOU AND I AM SO GLAD YOU ENJOY MY META ABOUT HIM BECAUSE BOY DO I HAVE MORE. People Who Understand That 'Hermes is a School Shooter' is an Absolutely God Fucking Awful Take of the World Unite
#final fantasy xiv#ffxiv#ffxiv hermes#rabid-catboy#asks#ffxivtag#FF tag#religious trauma cw#abuse cw#abuse apologia cw#ableism cw#THERE'S SO MUCH ABOUT HIM THERE'S SO MUCH THERE IS SO. THERE'S A LOT. GOD#EATING MY OWN HANDS ABOUT IT SQUIRTLE#warning: worm grass#shooting mention cw#the salt files#being surrounded by a community of Very Nice People Who Mean Well and are Always Here to Listen if You Need It :)#whose '''help''' will consist of morally abhorrent advice about the ideology you're questioning and that's a major reason you're depressed#(both because it's tearing you up inside for moral reasons; and because the ideology itself in practice was wrecking your mental health)#and listening to you for five minutes before telling you you'll feel better soon it's not that bad; we all have those days just pray it off#and if anything; if it *is* bad; then the best and most morally correct way to fix it is to lean even harder into said ideology#being taunted by the promise of the care and comfort and support you desperately need being dangled over your head#and knowing there is poison and broken glass in it waiting for you to take a bite#is just. jesus. it is cathartic to see it represented and it is a punch in the gut.
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the hydroponics garden is actually a part of the station so that everyone can go touch grass as necessary
#who are queue? what do queue want?#babylon 5#Hera’s hot takes#home away from home for diplomats hustlers entrepreneurs and wanderers#aka: the four demographics constantly in desperate need of touching grass#Mr. Morden would be fine if he just went and touched some grass#that's all he really needs#i’m sure of it#/j
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sometimes i feel like i need to touch grass because why am i fan-casting myself and others as fictional characters
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I love to talk but I rly do feel like we have to be talking for a minimum of 8 hours straight before I feel like I can even begin to rly broach things on my mind or that have been bothering me a lot that I actually want to talk abt without being vague or deflecting or omitting or lying and if the conversation takes a break at any point it resets back to 0 and its still nice regardless but.
#we're all just desperately chasing each other around for a semblance of connection in this cold bleak world#but unfortunately due to the relentless crushing pressures of capitalism we also have to work so no time for that#man. sorry just frustrated n miserable now. wish i was capable of feeling close to other ppl wish i could give other ppl that connection#but instead we're just ships in the night passing by or whatever#and i have to settle with not rly being known or wanted or important in other ppls lives and its forever. btw#bc even if ppl do think they know me or do want me around or i am important to them in some way.. the specific torture labyrinth i call#home is constructed in the most elegant and precise way that im incapable of believing them to be sincere anyway#so thats all on me! if I tried harder and made more of an effort to communicate with or trust ppl i wouldnt feel this way!#but i dont so better luck in the next life i guess! this is why i dont think abt this shit bc it makes me want to kms#whats even the point man#dont even worry abt me im fine just need to fucking vent bc i dont have time to allow myself to feel anything bc i have plans tmr#so i need to go to bed early. and ill just try my best to keep distracted forever so ill never need to face how pathetically desperate#i am for any kind of emotional intimacy whatsoever and also physical contact but im not normal enough to fulfil any of my own needs#yeah well. its my life that i have to live and im the one making it this way. digging my grave and lying in it innit#its fine tho bc they make repressed fictional characters that i can project onto instead of confronting any of my issues#so ill just be here in my labyrinth doing that. while everyone else gets to see sunlight and grass and whatever#im just so tired i dont want to do this i want to pretend i dont care and dont need it and maybe itll become true. its too much for me#let me know when they need me to pilot the jaeger and drift with someone and thru our mindmelding i can finally achieve intimacy and trust#well anyway. that was embarrassing. hope it works out for everyone else#hope my flatmate gets her ideal life w our other old flatmates and finds a convenient way of discarding me from that like they want#except im going to make it as difficult as possible for as long as i can for them to get rid of me bc im selfish and want what i want so.#my obligate parasite ass. or whatever. im going to throw up if i keep thinking so thats a good place to stop and go to sleep probably#.vent#dont interact im being stupid as fuck and dont care just leave me alone thanks
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quick paintings of the sky every day to test different brushes, week 1
#combining my desperate need to touch grass with my desperate need to branch out and use different brushes#was out for a walk on day 1 and wanted to literally consume the sky and was like#maybe i should make this a daily thing#skipped a day because the sky was really boring tbh#if anyone has brush recs for clip studio i'd love to try out more!
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im back home i had a rly nice day
#i went to my friend's friend's olace were i basically just layed on the grass and helped a bit with smoking the meat#but mostly i drank and layed down#and we went to a miniature toy exhibition it was so coool#i bought a bug in resin i think it's gonna be a start of a collection ahaha#and then we went back and had smoked ribs and smoked pulled pork burgers#they were definitely worth the 8h wait#now im home im sleeoy im full i have meat sweats and im ready for bed#but i desperately need to do laundry and shower
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Saying stuff like you know what has happened or hasn’t happened to Taylor personally is absurd. You have no idea if she’s been to a mental facility or not, you have no idea if she’s received mental health treatment against her will or not, and it’s not a wild assumption to make that these things have or could’ve happened to her because it’s very, very common for young female stars to receive treatment against their will or receive treatment period. For example, Britney Spears and Amanda Bynes and probably many more female celebrities. So she’s probably not “romanticizing” something that very possibly could’ve or did happen to her or her friends. I’m 99% certain people around her have threatened to put her away if she didn’t do what they said because that’s how the industry works so it’s not wrong of her to talk about these things. It is not up to people to decide what hasn’t and has happened to her
wow it's so crazy how high the point flew over your head
#answered#anonymous#so it's better to assume someones been locked away against their will and forced etc..... what#you desperately need to touch grass.... the conspiracy theories on peoples mental health is a no period
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