#God the kid looks so sad

[jamtartandsunshine]

Someone commented on God the kid looks so sad asking if I was going to continue it and the answer is yes absolutely I'm just fighting through some writers block but I do have half of the next chapter written and I thought I'd share a snippet just in an attempt to nudge open the floodgates in my tired little brain ________________________________________________ Roy only has to much self-restraint. Turns out when you let a kid sob into your chest, you fucking care about them or some shit. Or that’s what he tells himself as he bangs on Jamie’s door on their one day off. “Roy?” Jamie says confused as he opens the door. “Yeah, its fucking me” Roy says pushing past Jamie with bags in his hands. “What are you doing here?” “I’m making you lunch.” “You what?” Jamie asks trailing behind Roy as he walks into Jamie’s kitchen and starts unpacking his shopping bags. “I’m making you lunch” Roy repeats. “You’ve lost weight” “Just a little” Jamie says blushing slightly. “Enough that I noticed” Roy points out pulling out a bag of potatoes and a bag of brown rice.

[mochasucculent]

I'm rewatching Arcane, and after my third time seeing season 1 I had a hot new reading on Viktor's scenes in episodes 6, 7, and 8.

Like a lot of other people, I felt it was weird and unsavory that Viktor - very close to death with a disease that affects his lungs - suddenly starts experimenting on his disabled leg. Those two things have nothing in common, save for the fact that the cause of both might have been the toxic fumes of the undercity, which could have resulted in Viktor being born disabled if his parents were also subject to those conditions.

So why does Viktor try to "fix" his leg when his main goal is to utilize the Hexcore to prolong and improve living conditions before he's gone?

Viktor in acts 2 and 3 is motivated to save himself long enough to make a difference in the world. Even though Hextech is revolutionary for Piltover, it hasn't reached who Viktor wanted to help this whole time, the disenfranchised in the undercity. In his mind, he hasn't done enough to change the world for the better, and he will be gone before he has the chance to do so.

After realizing the Hexcore responded to organic matter when it absorbed Viktor's blood, he experiments with plants, only to find that they wither and die soon after the Hexcore makes them grow.

This causes him to visit Singed once again for anything that could help him figure out how to use the Hexcore for magic that could save lives, one last shot at accomplishing his dreams.

Viktor parted ways with with him as a child upon seeing that Singed was willing to hurt Rio, his salamander test subject, in order to prolong her life. Viktor didn't understand that cost before, but he does now, being in the same position as Singed and Rio simultaneously, both the scientist trying to make a breakthrough and the subject he needs to save in order to do so.

Like Rio, Viktor is not his own end goal to his scientific pursuits. Singed is trying to save his daughter, Viktor is trying to help his people. He's his own means to an end, and is now willing to pay the cost of getting there.

Singed gives Viktor a variant of Shimmer to experiment with, the idea being that it will stabilize an organism while the Hexcore's magic affects it, hopefully allowing it to survive through the aggressive and sudden healing process.

Viktor injects the Shimmer into his leg, as well as carving runes into both his brace and thigh to channel the magic towards there before he offers the Hexcore his blood. It does Something to his leg which we don't see till the following episode.

The new reading I have of this scene is that the reason Viktor chose his leg specifically is not because he was trying to "fix" it, but because:

-He's not willing to put others' lives at risk and knows he's not long for this world, so the only test subject he's willing to use is himself

-He knows the organic matter he tests the Hexcore on might die

-Viktor's leg is a part of his body he's willing to lose if things go wrong and it rejects the transmutation (he also knows that he could just fully die then and there too and is willing to take that risk)

Obviously, the scenes involving Viktor's experimentation center his physical disabilities (shots of his back brace, the focus on his leg) and equate them with the disease that is literally killing him. The narrative lens shows us that Viktor "curing" himself begins with his disability, which sucks.

So while the boat scene undoubtedly is written to be "triumphant" because Viktor's leg is no longer disabled (shown by him dropping his crutch, the swelling music, the parallel to the scene where a child Viktor can't keep up with his toy boat), a different reading is that it's another experiment to him.

Viktor is stress testing the organic matter he infused with magic, and the scene is triumphant because he's realized his leg isn't deteriorating or weakening - it holds up. The mutation of the magic in his leg survived. It's a sign that maybe he can use the Hexcore on the rest of his body, keep himself alive long enough to do what he's always wanted to do: leave a legacy that changes the world for the better.

To me that's a much more in-character perspective for Viktor in these scenes than what is being said narratively through directing, framing, music, etc. Previously, Viktor had never expressed distaste for his disability as an adult, only commenting on it as a part of why he was isolated socially from Piltover. To me, him testing the Hexcore on his leg is merely an indifference to its current state, rather than a preference to have it changed. I don't even necessarily think it'd be a bad thing if Viktor did outright say "I would like to not be disabled", because I'm sure many other disabled people feel that way from time to time, but season 1 really does a poor job of pushing that framing of "curing" disability onto a character that did not express those perspectives himself at this point.

It gives off a big ol' "aw, poor Viktor, not only is he dying because of the political landscape that leaves disenfranchised people to suffer preventable diseases, but he's got a disabled leg too!" One of those things is much more problematic than the other lol.

Season 2 definitely hurtles Viktor very quickly into the Machine Herald perspective in which he thinks humans must evolve past ANY limitations of their original bodies, but to me season 1 Viktor just doesn't feel that way about himself. His primary concern has always been rooted in how to improve the lives of his people permanently, and it's only when he's actively dying that his secondary goal is to live long enough to see that happen.

It's something he drops completely after his experimentation results in Sky's death. He's immediately spiteful of the Hexcore and tries to destroy it - and himself.

Viktor now accepts that he will die before he's able to change the world the way he wanted, and hides the fact that he fucked with his body from everyone as he awaits his demise. "Fixing" his leg is not something he celebrates in and of itself, it's now only a reminder that the pursuit of his dream resulted in someone else's death.

The narrative does well in season 2 to frame Viktor's Glorious Evolution as a Bad Thing at least, and Jayce's speech at the end about Viktor never being broken is extremely valuable and important, but it's just weird to see him say this:

Cause to me now, that ain't what Viktor was trying to do at all! The writers may have retconned that to be the case, which is fine, whatever, but season 1 in isolation does not support that idea to me after this rewatch.

Overall, I think Arcane can have confusing directing sometimes that focuses on evoking feelings and themes rather than the richness of its characters, their dynamics, and the world they inhabit - to the detriment of all the above. In season 2, this resulted in a lot of scenes that felt emotionally unearned or muddy to me, like pretty much everything with Jinx, Vi, and Vander together rip.

It's for this same reason that I think it took me so long to really come to this reading of Viktor's season 1 scenes, because the directing bias REALLY wants to make you feel sorrow and hope alongside Viktor, even though it means he'll seem to randomly start equating his disabled leg to his illness. It just felt like a weird disparity to me until I watched these episodes again and was like "wait" lol.

Anyway peace and love on planet Earth I cannot stop thinking about Viktor Arcane

[spicyvampire]

Great's Dying Brain vs Reality: Tyme being very knowledgeable

4MINUTES (2024) EP. 3 // EP. 6

+ Bonus :

[mother-of-houseplants-2]

fiona gallagher // "i bet on losing dogs" by mistki

[auspicioustidings]

Ghost and Soap have one kid. They did not particularly want a kid, it was through a very bizarre series of events they wound up with one. But my God do they adore the fuck out of their little princess. You bet your ass Ghost is having tea parties with her when she's little. Soap dresses as the princely compliment to her princess every Halloween.

The issue is that Price and Gaz have 5 kids, all boys (they thought they had 4 boys a girl, but their eldest corrected them pretty early on), all rough and tumble. And yeah the MacTavish's know that they shouldn't be so reluctant to have the kids spend time together, but their little girl is shy and sweet and they don't want her getting trampled by this bunch of wildlings.

Anyway, I can just see a whole childhood full of antics because the parents are competitive and think their kid(s) is better than the other families' kid(s). And then when they start getting older a blind panic happening with the adults because uh oh is anyone else starting to get the sense that all of the Price kids might have a sort of thing for the MacTavish kid? Soap and Ghost cannot possibly have that, their little sweet baby angel will actually never be getting a romantic interest thank you very much she will stay at home with her dads forever. For Price and Gaz they just don't want to be in-laws because they occasionally have intimate relations with Ghost and Soap and they think it would make it weird :')

[shadystranger]

I know this is fucked up but dean panicking and being in such a disarray after jack's death when he thinks sam made a deal is peak to me

look at him he's searching the surroundings so worried sam did not do sth as grave cuz God help him he'll make a reverse demon deal so fast

[chrisbangs]

[corpish]

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[rakkuntoast]

i love ninho but god the rooms getting smaller and smaller the more the parents get paranoid its just,, depressing??

like holy shit badboyhalo you are so fucking smart but god just seeing this room being built on paranoia, just decked out with secure blocks and removing what little the eggs have of personalizing this small room with things that makes them feel comfort in a situation where they well know they are in danger just makes me feel so sad

like, they're kids. all of those rooms are for little kids. they're safe in there yes, but they're going back to what they didnt want to make the rooms look like, like a prison

[ra-vio]

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[fellhellion]

I am so fucking normal abt this tiktok (lying)

[jamtartandsunshine]

Chapters: 5/? Fandom: Ted Lasso (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Roy Kent & Jamie Tartt, AFC Richmond Players & Jamie Tartt, Ted Lasso & Jamie Tartt Characters: Jamie Tartt, Roy Kent, AFC Richmond Players (Ted Lasso), Ted Lasso, Coach Beard (Ted Lasso), Dani Rojas (Ted Lasso), Keeley Jones, Rebecca Welton, Sam Obisanya, Jan Maas, Isaac McAdoo, Richard Montlaur, Colin Hughes Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Cuddling & Snuggling, Hurt Jamie Tartt, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Physical Abuse, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, I'm Bad At Tagging, slight disordered eating Summary:

Its not that Jamie changes after the events at Wembley, in fact if anything he ups his bravado but everyone has seen behind the carefully curated front Jamie's put on all his life, and suddenly they're realising all the things they missed before. All the things Jamie's hidden behind jokes and smiles.

Used to be he'd make some crude joke and they'd roll their eyes, but now they know the truth that joke is hiding. Now they look at each other, seeing the same thought reflected around the locker room.

The kid looks so sad.

[greasydumbfuck]

watched the 2004 punisher movie yesterday with pixie and honestly i had fun 👍 some stuff was good some stuff was eh some completely irrelevant stuff made me mildly annoyed. but most of all it was funny and they had frank hang around with his tits out for multiple scenes so i mean how could i not have a great time tbh

[pup-pee]

hi this is a post saying i will not b online((or try)) until i get my g.e.d.

i love u all if i uh, yk never return

hugs hugs many sweet dreams & good mornings!

[spocksgotemotions]

today one of my boys at work (almost 3), dumped a full shovel full of sand into his mouth and then looked at me very stressed out that his mouth was full of sand

[joshuamj]

also i watch The Wild Robot the other day and oh my god 11/10, absolutely beautiful in every sense of the word, would cry again 👍